#anyway im still insane about that musical occasionally <3 this post is for no one probably kjgkldfjglkfdjgkfj

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nlmg palm is actually so musical!quasimodo-coded

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About me(⁠*⁠＾⁠3⁠＾⁠)⁠/⁠～⁠♡

Main:

Call me chi, I'm an age that is younger than 18 (ya ik k wrote smut and stuff back then and ik that's like a trigger for writers😔 but idgaf because nobody stopped me)

She/her, int-j maybe, FEMALE!?! metalhead, Introverted & perverted (but it's real and not just an elita reference)

Idk what else to say so here's a list of artist/bands I like alphabetized:

G-idle, 3l3d3p,

Adema, Agust D, Arctic Monkeys, Ariana Grande, Ayesha Erotica

Black Sabbath, Blur, Bôa

Cabaret, Chappell Roan, Chevelle, Coal Chamber

Dazey and the scouts, Dehumanizing itatrain worship, Deijuvhs, Dixon Dallas💀💀, Djo, Dr giggletouch..Drowning Pool, Död mark

Elita, Enjoy (VV) Freddie dredd, Falling in reverse

Generation, Gorillaz, Ghost, Gonna get got

Hellhammer, Ho99o9

IC3PEAK, ICP, Itzy

Jhope, Jazmin Bean, Joey Valence & Brae ❗🗣️

Kali uchis, Kendrick Lamar, Kilo kish, Kittie, Korn

Lana del rey, lil boodang ig, Limp bizkit

Machine Girl, Maggie lindermann, Marina, Mayhem, Melanie Martinez, MF doom, milk. , Mindless Self Indulgence, Mudvayne

Newjeans, Penalty Kill, Petridish, PIXY, Powerman 5k, Primer 55 🗣️🗣️, Psyclo

Roe kapara, Romeos, Salem creeps🗣️🗣️ Skindred, Slaves on dope, Slipknot, Snot, So Violento🗣️🗣️, Static X, Steve Lacy, System of a down, Sub urban😭, Slater

Tame impala, Tanukichan, The Adicts, The Delphines, The Garden, The mainliners, The nymphs, The weekend, Thundercat, Triumph of death, Turkey, Tuv, Twice, Tyler the creator, The drums

Vundabar, Waitress, Wallows, Willow, Yung gravy, Zheani

Facts stuff I like and otherz:

Watched/read (anime): Junji ito, death note, aot, jjk, csm (ogfan😜), saiki k, high rise invasion, killing stalking (read a good amount), shoujo tsubaki (idk if that's how you spell), I honestly forgot everything ive ever watched what😭, spirited away, uhh idk

I was gonna do watched non anime stuff but I can't think of enough so here's a list of main fandoms I'm in

Ahs/ahss, fear street, mtv downtown, gorillaz, fnaf, batim, little nightmares, a clockwork orange (yes there is a fandom😭) erm tmc, twf, twd, hhllc, life of luxury, I ominously can't think of anymore, Skullgirls, Reality Shifting..lords of chaos?(Idk if thats a fandom)

Ok I play bass, I'm an artist (all 3 ways), I make clothes occasionally, I heavily dislike deftones, I like to play Roblox user is Stuv1xx, I'm currently hiding several accounts from my sister including this one, i edit user is stuvixx, ik all the gorillaz lore, fnaf lore, I used to be a gacha kid still get the urge to be one, I love canadians, I love men, I love Canadian men, I love Canadian men who play guitar and drums, I love ahs5, i collect vinylz, and CDs, and magazines, I have a turtle and a cat, i could be the most insane person you'll meet (non emo way) i got a thing for druggies in movies btw 🙏

Accounts:

Stuvixx, for edits

stuvixxdraws, for art

ndutr1p, secret account for edits im too scared to post regular account

v4rints, for vinyl mockups

Stuv1xx, for Roblox

For discord ask

For Spotify ask

For SoundCloud ask (my music is shit btw)

Discogs ask??

GUYS I HAVE AN ALTER EGO NAMES RAD CHAD HELP😭

Anyways someone talk to me bc I'm bored PLS

stay sigma y'all's

rock n roll

[whirlibird]

Your posting of fate makes me wanna try watching it again but I have NO IDEA where it's supposed to start smwnwnj

<3 <3 <3 To Think I Am Being Rewarded For My Behaviour Of Spamming Anime Posts....

but yea GOTTA LOVE FATE it gets wild!!! it is pretty hard to get started and i cant say im the best to give recommendations since i havent even seen everything dfhjgsdgf but i will give it my best shot!

fate stay night is where fate started, and the easiest place to start *that* would be the fate/stay night unlimited blade works anime by ufotable

it should be on crunchyroll, thats where i watched it. it lacks a few things but gets most of the themes right, which is what’s important. the animation is also baller and its a fun watch! very good intro to the series.

https://www.crunchyroll.com/fatestay-night ‘tis here if you wanna hop in

alternatively, you can also start with fate/zero, which is a prequel to fate stay night.

theres quite a good anime adaptation - i wouldn’t personally recommend it to start with, bc its a bit too dark and lacks optimism for my tastes, which isnt really reflective of fate as a whole? at least imo. it is good, though - or at least, enjoyable?

listen, it has lancelot du lac jump on top of a fighter jet and chase king gilgamesh around on it while screaming and firing a minigun! while rock music plays!

tangent, but fate has the best lancelot take of any adaptation ive seen so far because it actually remembers that a major part of his character is his Emotional Delicacy and his tendency to regularly go batshit when faced with difficult problems. fate really said “what if we manifested the second most mary sue knight in all of arthuriana, but like, only from the times when he went insane and ran off naked into the woods”

and also gave him a gun!

i love lancelot

anyway. it also provides some background for fate/stay night and adds some depth and reinforcement to the Juicy Themes(TM) behind fate, which is the main appeal of the franchise. that and the extremely off-the-walls bullshit they come up with sometimes.

i started with the unlimited blade works anime, lost my mind over archer, and then sort of passively consumed fate by just...seeing posts that turned up on my dash about it, or from friends talking to me abt some of the wilder shit that happens.

fate meta is incredibly enjoyable to read bc theyre just hog wild and occasionally give me emotional whiplash from how fucking weird fate is, but also how emotionally compelling some of the Themes(TM) are

then i got into fate grand order bc i read a post analyzing the character motivations of salieri, you know, the musician, who in fate is actually the manifestation of the rumors that he killed mozart, and has a Lot of issues about this

he first shows up in an alternate timeline of russia where everyone had to become furries in order to survive permawinter

because aliens

fate grand order is a gacha mobile game and i cannot even begin to describe what its deal is. it starts slow but gets very, very good later on.

but yeah fgo sucked me back into fate, permanently this time, and im STILL working my way thru fate content

there is so much fate content, oh my god

on the plus side you wont run out and most of it is self-contained so you can just stop at your favourite

the one downside of the anime adaptations is that they dont go in as deep on the characters and their dynamics with each other as the visual novel does, so some of the finer details that really make the themes Pop dont get across, which is a shame. but also it doesnt really matter when youre first getting into fate? you can just start at UBW, and if you like it, mosey along into the other stuff when you so feel like it

(sidenote - there isnt a decent anime adaptation of the fate route - it’s the first of three routes that make up fate/stay night, before unlimited blade works and heaven’s feel. each of the three routes do build up on each other, and the fate route is chronologically first, but. well. an anime adaptation of fate route does exist, but its kind of a mess, and also combines stuff from other routes, which isnt great)

this went on a lot longer than i expected but i hope it helps!

tl;dr start with the fate stay night unlimited blade works anime, and then go from there :D

[legends-lightning]

I posted 320 times in 2021

31 posts created (10%)

289 posts reblogged (90%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 9.3 posts.

I added 24 tags in 2021

#special netflix - 3 posts

#the prom movie - 3 posts

#emma nolan - 3 posts

#the prom musical - 3 posts

#transmasc - 2 posts

#everything sucks - 2 posts

#carrie - 2 posts

#special - 2 posts

#ianowt - 2 posts

#i am not okay with this - 2 posts

Longest Tag: 85 characters

#my probably neurodivergent brain couldn't handle scrolling past this without rambling

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Because I'm obsessed with Schmigadoon here's my gay ass HC's!

I can't spell his name but the mayor: Canonically gay but also definitely nonbinary. Stuck to masculinity by canon but they rock a dress next to their now bf!

Emma Tate: Oriented aroace lesbian. Canon didn't happen and she's in a QPR with Florence.

Florence Menlove: Bisexual. Not necessarily enby but uses she/they.

Carson: Queer-coded but I'm not labeling a child. No actually I am. He's trans. Because I love him. My boy.

Danny: Pan! He would fuck Josh too admit it.

Melissa: Bi. That's it.

11 notes • Posted 2021-08-23 00:55:00 GMT

#4

A teacher in the cafeteria talking about COVID restrictions: No one's ever asked me if I'm vaccinated!! >:(

Me, disabled:

Hopefully I don't need to explain what's fucked about this but I've been asked 'what's wrong with me' since I was like...8? And that's not good for a child? A child doesn't understand medical jargon? Now I get so nervous around little kids because nobody told their kids that my medical history--which later became quite traumatic in some ways--isn't their business, but sure! Complain about people wanting to know if they can feel safe around you!

13 notes • Posted 2021-05-28 21:31:20 GMT

#3

@munchiezxx posted about the idea of Movie!Emma having an internet following like an aesthetic Tumblr or a YouTube channel for her music and I’m having like a thousand thoughts about it so here are some headcanons under the cut cause I went off.

-Has probably had Tumblr for eons 

-Loves the cottagecore aesthetic and started out reblogging pretty pictures

-Her 15 followers at the time encouraged her to make her own stuff

-She had no other friends, so why not. Editing the photos is fun enough anyway

-Gained a decent following

-Eventually she starts dabbling in taking her own photos, and not just for her blog.

 -When she starts dating Alyssa she takes a thousand photos of them together

-Alyssa agrees that the ones that don’t have her face in them can go on Emma’s blog if she wants

-Then she makes a separate blog for her photos outside of cottagecore, which her followers love

-She kinda dips from the internet for a bit during canon and randomly comes back with a link to her video and includes something like “hey guys. sorry i haven’t been active in a bit but ive been working on something and itd mean the world to me if you support it. dont be too harsh cause i haven’t actually sang anything since i stopped doing choir at church” in the text of the post

-And then her followers are literally so shook about this girl actually having a face and an incredible voice and they spam her askbox telling her to post more

-This gets so insane she eventually makes another post like “please stop yelling at me im working on it i have a life too”

-her next video she dedicates to Alyssa directly and its just a simple cover of Photograph by Ed Sheeran, at the end of which she reveals she’s going to NYC for a photography program and they won’t have to do long distance

-her aesthetic blog peters out in college but she’s still giving her followers content between her original work and the occasional cover or original song

-its a very subtle kind of internet fame after the Unruly Heart buzz dies down and honestly she prefers that, she has a small but dedicated group who tune into everything she does and that’s all she needs.

23 notes • Posted 2021-01-10 01:05:06 GMT

#2

So this might be really niche but I randomly remembered the existence of Scribblenauts and how much younger me wanted to be like Maxwell/downright thought I looked like him.

Anyway, I'm transhet now so he is too, I don't make the rules.

Flag design from @transhetlove!

30 notes • Posted 2021-04-07 20:03:08 GMT

#1

@yourfaveisgoingtosuperhell 

I was inspired by this post and made my own shitty thing.

Trent Oliver from The Prom (Broadway) is going to superhell for B L I C . Oh, and also gay crimes.

45 notes • Posted 2021-02-28 03:47:32 GMT

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man i dont even know if i should share this because it’s super weird/ poorly written/ doesn’t make any sense but i feel like i keep too much too myself so here is a block of text i wrote and didn’t edit and if you read it, i love you.

Well, id like to kick off my music blogging career with a piece about a song that has continued to inspire me since the moment I heard it about 5 years ago. Something about the song awakens this dragon in me… or rather, something about the song awakens a knight that is about to go and slay a dragon, and that feeling crashes into every fiber of my being resulting in me feeling fucking powerful. Idk what the secret is. I wish I had found this sound when  I did a song analysis project for my freshman writing seminar back in college. (I chose Sublime’s Santeria for that project… and it was a shit show. Believe it or not, trying to write 10 pages about a song that doesn’t inspire every fiber of your being is insanely difficult. Lesson – if you have to write a lot, write about something you fucking love and admire.)

 The song is Don’t Waste Time Doing Things You Hate by And So I Watch You From Afar of their self titled 2009 release. I think it’s their debut album. Anyway, the band makes instrumental rock music. Stuff that superheroes and supervillains alike would use as a theme song. I discovered them from Worldhaspostrock on youtube, so check them out.

 Of course, now that im sitting down to write about the song I cannot think of any words to say about it. Lovely how that happens. Especially after bragging about how easy it is to write about something you love. HA>

If you’ve ever done something you hate, you sure know how that feels. Part of you feels trapped -momma didn’t raise no quitter – and another part of you is too busy daydreaming about what you’d rather be doing to formulate a plot to get you there. Feeling stuck doing something you hate is exactly how I felt when I discovered this song. I chose my major at college based on what a guy who I’d met over the internet was studying, he called me pretty and would send me ‘good morning’/ ‘sweet dreams’ texts, so we were obviously super serious. And I was going to study the same thing as him and we would conquer the world together, duh. Lo and behold, I hated my major. And because I hated my major, I didn’t really fit in with any of the people I met through my major. There was one chick who I liked because she hated it too, but we were very different people. I did sports in college instead of joining a music group (being in an acapella group was a last minute goal of mine) because A. everyone in my family was super sporty B. no one in my family thought very highly of music and C. I was fucking terrified of it. Every bit of it sends anxiety chills down my spine and up my toes. Singing in front of people in a room? Singing with people? Having people rely on you to do your thing correctly in order to achieve a desired result? Fuck that’s anxiety inducing. And let me make this clear, I don’t have stage fright. But I do have Perfectionist Block (a totally real issue, created by me, ill discuss it further in another post) which makes me extremely hard on myself.

 So anyway, to paint the picture – 20 year old me is in the library for the 50th hour that week (no kidding, I went to Cornell, and seriously spent 6-10 hours a day in the library studying during regular term. Finals/ testing weeks, it’d double) looking for upbeat instrumental music that could make me feel like a bad ass and I find this band. The first song I found by them was The Voiceless, off the same album. That song fucking slaps. I must’ve listened to it 30 times before saying “hey, why don’t I check out their other stuff?” and thus gave this album a listen. I was so stressed that week, so tired, felt so lost and alone. I hated every fucking minute of my life but I was pushing through it because I wanted to make my mom proud. Every morning I would angrily get ready for class, pissed off that elitism and this desperate urge to prove oneself through menial shit such as ‘ivy league’ degrees would push someone to find the line of their breaking point and balance on it. All for what? If I died tomorrow, who could speak of who I am? At cornell, I was a cornell student. That was it. By being there, I wasn’t anything of myself anymore. I wasn’t strong, I wasn’t funny, I wasn’t good with animals, I wasn’t a hard-worker, I wasn’t smart – though, those last traits were implied – I simply became a product of an institution. One that I loved, don’t get me wrong. I had been looking for reassurance/ acceptance/ approval my entire life, and that letter that I got from a world renowned school was it – so I thought. But then I got there and my imposter syndrome went wild. I wasn’t truly smart, or good at learning. In fact, high school had been so easy for me that I was able to scrape by with great grades without ever working on schoolwork outside of school (I’d do my work during lunch, when I would eat in the chorus room/ my English teacher’s room since I had no friends.) at school, I thought I’d made friends, but they ditched me when I needed them most. In retrospect, I should’ve been more forgiving – no one’s perfect -  but ill blame my poor socialization through high school here. I saw kids who worked their asses off day and night. A 16 year old math prodigy lived in my hall. And I had nothing to show for my intelligence outside of the fact I was able to take enough HS classes in middle school that I’d manage to have 4 hours of school my senior year (typically, that time would be so that kids could take extra APs. But I said fuck that.)

 Truth is,  I was so insecure and unsure of myself that being thrown into the lava pit that is college – any college, not just an ivy league – was emotionally and mentally overwhelming. I found myself getting drunk to the point of almost dying most nights. Every time with strangers. I’d often go to the bridges, where so many had leapt to their deaths before, and ponder if that’s where I belonged. Crashing amongst the rocks and water in the gorges. Man, I was fucking depressed. And a ball of anxiety. I had no real identity, you’d ask me what I liked or what I wanted from my life and I’d have no real answer. My answer would vary based on what youtube videos I had been watching that week. I was so scared of being judged.

 Point is, I found nothing that I felt a connection to. Not my major. Not my peers. Occasionally my surroundings, but typically only in the morbid, I’d like to throw myself off this sort of way. Life is so much more complex than those things, and truth is, ill never really be able to explain away all of the different shit in my life that was bringing me down. Making me feel worthless. Dumb. Like I didn’t belong. And the first thing that I felt like understood this, was this song. Even writing that out I feel like it confirms my worst fears, that I am worthless/ delusional/ crazy/ not even a real person. How does one go through 20 years of life and can only feel connected to a pile of noises that a stranger has made and recorded? Wavelengths generated by someone else’s finger tips never felt so good. They resonated through my brain and spoke to my soul. It was like I was being sucked into a black hole and obliterated to nothing. And that was what I needed, because I was able to look at who I was and take a chance to rebuild. To change.

 With no one to talk to, no one who understood me, and no real goals or aspirations in my life/ being too crippled by fear to even take a chance to achieve my goals/ aspirations in life, I darted in the complete opposite direction. Left that ‘dream school’ for a state school 2000 miles away. I still waste plenty of time doing things I hate, but every day I try to do my best to find the things I love. It’s been a long hard road, and I am so unsure of myself. I realize I’ll never have the validation I seek, at least not externally. Still, going to cornell is my greatest achievement and those close to me hold a grudge that I left without fulfilling my diploma. And looking back, I could’ve done it. Taken some time off, sought a therapist outside of the free service offered, opened up to some of the people I had met. Hindsight is 2020. And im here now.

 This song means the world to me. The suspense of the guitar plucking in the intro is an emotion I was swallowed in. the anger and noise of the guitars from 1:11-1:30 was how I felt every morning when I looked at the day ahead. The desperation of the guitars at 2min how I looked at the people around me, who appeared to have their shit all together. Their heads above the water. Looking at me drowning below the surface. But I had a smile on my face, so I must have been fine. Then the clarity that comes at 3mins. The music starts to feel like it’s getting itself together. 3:35-4:15, when big changes happen. And the la la lalalalalas. That’s how I was, just “la de da-ing” my way through life, not really thinking about what I was going to take from this world and my short time getting to experience it. The song gets progressively happier, and calmer, as I hope my own life will be, though I’m still in my 3min phase when it feels like it’s starting to get itself together.

 Ill always hold onto the hard times I went through at school. And ill wish everyday for a time machine, so I could go back in time and tell 18 year old me to just chill and ‘discover yourself, man’ before going to a place that has so much potential. Because the truth is, I was too insecure to be successful at such an institution. I still think I’m too insecure. But at least now I know, and I’m not living under this idea that because I got into a good school I am a good person and good things will come to me.