#anyway im really glad araki is sleeping better now bc watching him do that. he really needs it

[mihotose]

okok itd be tedious making all these separate posts even tho i badly want to

love that he started with his book description + his pose

i think its really funny that they said he “narrated his life” in the jlod video since he did that for like five minutes max

havent watched kishou hongi so no idea what hes on about however the very mention of monoyoshi had me tearing up the first time

monoyoshi forcing his smile !!! ill talk about this later i love how these two contrast each other

him visiting everybody in the honmaru before he leaves got me :’‘‘‘‘‘)

everyone loves him so so so much!!!!! integral part of the honmaru

i didnt realise he was like speaking to specific people until he got to like urashima the first time and thats only bc he said kamekichi

so the second time i paid more attention and the things he said :’‘‘‘) some of my favourites:

imanotsurugi wanting to play with him so he told him to wait until he got back

so the shinsengumi have returned from their own journeys hm? i wonder if theyll expand on that or not lol

(as a matter of fact, so has imanotsurugi

really curious as to whether theyll do anything with those

saying he’ll have a drinking contest with hachisuka when he gets back lmao

saying he’ll take care of his hair to izuminokami (tho im realising hachisuka and izuminokami might be the other way round? i think hachisuka would be more likely for the drinking contest tho bc he can actually hold his liquor)

urashima trying to give him kamekichi!!!

matsui having a nosebleed smh

literally every time he talked about mihotose-gumi the stream cut out what a fucking curse

“sengo muramasa-san” tho. very interesting. distance, hm?

i wonder why they cut out aruji’s lines this time, since i havent watched any shows past 2018 is that the case now?

THE DANCE. i totally saw yuu’s choreo in this :’)

in my notes i keep saying i cry at mihotose-gumi but dont say what he said about them smh

muramasa gave nobuyasu poisonous flowers?????

i wonder if that was intentional or if that was like Fate trying to get him to kill a tokugawa (and if so how wonderful that he managed to Defy Fate)

the fact that he himself doesn’t know when hes lying and when hes telling the truth (so many layers to him he doesnt know when hes acting or not :/

ah the concept of nikkari being Stained my beloved.

TE NO HIRA

god Hands as a theme in tkrb in gneral tbh

(nikkari only singing his own parts of te no hira so yknow. if ishikirimaru ever gets a tanki they can. um. duet it across time and space.)

it is somewhat ironic that he says he used to be bigger since araki is too tall for him lol

my final note for my first watch just says NO underlined and i dont know what that was about in particular but i wholeheartedly agree

ok switching:

hes literally so beautiful. my god. cant see shit in the full stage view.

nobuyasu smiling “nikkari to” (nikkari’s influence)

“im not good at talking about my personal life” damn really.

this time on switching i could see his leadup to shinken hissatsu

belt first (his belt in hissatsu has confused me for a while now tbh) then the cape then unzipped his jacket and undid his hair

HIS HAIR!! i love it so much and god even tho he doesnt let it out in the game it totally adds to how like Pitiful he is here

god this whole fight sequence. just. absolute mental breakdown. he slowly unravels (like his hair) and gets more and more Disheveled and losing control of himself so much hes Laughing (remember in battle he normally stays pretty cool and says his stupid lines)

literally the fact that he would be willing to Do this just to get stronger so he can Save all his friends from going through all this pain

in the switching he undid his shirt buttons to be more like the hissatsu sprite which was more distracting than anything sfkjksjg

same vein: THREE QUARTER SLEEVES

after hissatsu he realises that everything hes killed, he just gets Stained more and more, even if his shortening did take some of it away

ishikirimaru realised that true strength isnt about defeating enemies, but nikkari also understands that ishikirimaru was able to defeat the kebiishi, which nikkari knows he himself couldnt

i wonder if this is related to his shortening ie he Used to be much stronger and now he feels weak in comparison and is trying to get himself back to that level

“ive never smiled from the bottom of my heart” bc its a mask isnt it!! just a facade !!

the more friends he has to protect the less he smiles !! very waki-ppoi but also how horrifically sad that he feels this way and yet keeps himself so emotionally reserved from the rest of them

THE GHOST WOMAN

I LOVE THAT ARAKI PLAYED HER

mental breakdown 2 !!!!

ok so basically nikkari’s been aware of her this whole time right but felt so guiltridden and regretfully that he couldnt bear to face her

and the fact that he immediately assumed she wanted her revenge on him shows how hes just been living in fear his whole life

THE WAY SHE TOOK CONTROL OF HIS BODY(?) AND REVEALED HIS RIGHT EYE

something that he hides all the time!!! literally exposing him metaphorically and physically

i didnt see how araki moved as the ghost woman the first time but the second time my god hes incredible isnt he

in addition the ghost woman’s robes on his right vs nikkari’s outfit on his left, obviously thats to show the ghost woman in his Right Eye, but idk i get some like. the masculine vs the feminine sides of him?

i love that this whole section with the ghost woman you can see both his eyes for Once !!!

ok. ok. her saying he could change history right there and make it so he doesnt kill her and he almost fucking Kills himself??? hello???

i seriously dont remember how he ended up on his knees after this or the specifics i was just crying my eyes out both times

“i want to smile. is it alright for me to smile?” (im guessing he means Genuinely, not forcing one. so shackled to his history he cant enjoy himself in the moment)

“you may”

“after everything ive done?” SO HEARTBREAKING

the ghost woman Ascends or is no longer malevolent or something now that nikkari’s acknowledged her (just thinking now if this was his ghost repelling power)

then the letters!!!! ive said i wasnt satisfied with them but i really enjoy how tanki has recontextualised them so im happier with them now :-)

if this all happened on his First day (jesus.) then that explains his ghost killing line in his first letter

KIWAME OUTFIT SCREAMS

HES SO BEAUTIFUL

I LOVE HIS CAPE AND HE ACTUALLY USES IT MORE NOW

the final song: doesnt he seem so much happier now hes dealt with things? isnt that wonderful :’‘‘)

its like hes looked around and things are in colour now

ok back to monoyoshi buried in the tags of some post from a while ago i wrote a bunch of words about how nikkari and monoyoshi are like complete opposite waki yet both centred around Smiles

monoyoshi having to Force his smile (something nikkari has always done) greatly alarmed him bc monoyoshi is just a lovely kid and realises he doesnt want any of his friends to go through the same thing (... the same thing he always does)

muramasa does the same thing in mihotose, tries to protect monoyoshi from being tainted, the same thing hes always been

so while monoyoshi is the one to say he’ll protect everyones smiles the same is also true for nikkari, though he doesnt say it (emotionally reserved)

same with nikkari even wishing everyone hadnt even been given life so they wouldnt have to suffer (like he does)

literally you can tell that he feels like his life is just. constant punishment to atone for his sins. keeping the name nikkari, wearing the ghost woman’s robes as a cape to remind himself (of course only one shoulder to remind himself he Could ahve been divine)

so then his kiwame outfit he wears it on both shoulders!! hes more accepting of himself, it seems in his hissatsu sprites the ghost woman is on his side now :’‘‘)

anyway the fact that araki decided to do this for two years, completely solo is so much more insane to me now ive seen it

like yes kiyomitsu and higehiza are ‘tanki’ and ‘souki’ but they all had dancers. nikkari’s is Completely solo.

ok i think im done ill wait for the delay now :-)