#anyway im feeling better yippeee!!

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[kimkhimhant]

for the character ask game: neil josten

no idea who this guy is but i know he exists bc of you and im seriously considering starting aftg just to find out more

YIPPEEE thank you for the ask !!!! i hope to succeed in converting you <3

How I feel about this character

literally THE feral character of all time. take the son of a serial killer, send him on the run, and give him 0 normal socialization and 100 trauma, and the end result is neil abram josten. his teammates mourn another character's death and neil is like wow. they have so much humanity. and then he spends the next three books caring & loving so deeply that it changes everyone around him for the better. one thing i love so much about him is that even though he grows so much over the course of the series, the core of him remains the same. he is vicious and cunning and still manages to have so much capacity for gentleness. he is not preoccupied with how people *should* be so he sees them for who they really are and meets them there – which is one of the main things that makes andrew fall for him. he delights me to no end. 70% of the time i want to cry when i think about him.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

andrew!!!!! obviously. otp of all time. also, depending on the context, jean. they are almost never endgame for me, but that almost makes the ship better. they love each other, and they always will, but that doesn't mean they have to be together, ya know?

My non-romantic OTP for this character

jean again. matt. kevin.

My unpopular opinion about this character

he's often watered down into a much more cheery and talkative person than he is, and it frustrates me a little. almost all of his dailogue especially in the first book is snappy, angry and vicious. he does Not join the team ready to make friends – his goal is simply to spend the last few months of his life playing the sport he loves. when he's depicted as super chatty and easy to get along with i go a little ??? because 75% of the time when he opens his mouth it is to antagonize whoever he is speaking to. he's a lovable person but he's not *nice*

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

canon ended in a good spot for the narrative, but it means we are missing out on all of the trauma-fallout. i want to see the *after* where neil is forced to face the trauma of everything that has happened to him – because that kind of trauma *will* catch up to him in a very big and devastating way. we see some panic attacks and dissociation in canon, including the dissociative switch between his neil and nathaniel identities (you can pry DID neil from my cold dead hands), but for the amount of trauma he has experienced, there's bound to be a lot fallout in the aftermath, and i want to see how he & his new family deal with it and pick up the pieces. (thank you fanfic writers for giving us so many versions of this)

anyway!!! thank you so much for the ask! i hope you're even more tempted to read the series now <3

[phayz]

pleeease keep talking about toys...i think this is interesting and smth i've never thought too hard about but it makes sense and i like to hear your opinions on modern toys

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holy shit okay !! i would love to ramble on so, i shall!

okay im no expert on toy sales history, this is all just observation from my life experiences and i'll try to keep each part i want to go over relatively short!

that being said lets start with a small one that i've personally noticed as a canadian: Kinder egg toys! i remember when they used to come with like 4-8+ pieces, and you needed the included step by step manual to assemble them. they would often come with sticker sheets to decorate them with, and they would often be articulated or be set on wheels or have some sort of fun or movement or general functionality to them:

dont those look awesome? wrapped in 2 kinds of chocolate, and for only like 2$! i remember they would come in all shapes and sizes, all sorts of animals and vehicles and sometimes freaky little abominations, as you can see above, and sometimes even puzzles! they were such a special treat as a kid.

but kinder eggs now? come with a maximum of like 3 pieces that just snap together (usually the front and back of the toy, and then the platform they stand on). and thats all they mostly are now, stiff toys that stand on platforms wahhooooo yippeee

idk just look at the quality difference from the old ones above compared to some of the new ones:

like..... these are..... nothing! literally nothing. just a figure snapped to a pole/platform and thats it! not very interesting for more than 3 minutes max.

now i know what you're thinking: "not ALL of the old kinder toys had to have been bangers" and you'd be right, some were lame as hell, but even the lame ones from before look more intricate than the ones we have now, like can you see what i mean, just detail-wise?

it just feels so cheap and shitty, i could go on and on but more is explained later. point is, it sucks.

anyway that's a very small example and we can move onto bigger and better ones, and maybe even one that everyone else might have noticed by now; McDonald's toys! remember when they were actually toys?

and not just stiff figurines?

(the minions franchise was like CRACK for companies who love making profit off of nothing but stiff rounded plastic. probably the cheapest form of "toy" i can think of)

and yeah, again, its not like there werent figurines back in the day too, there's ALWAYS been lame as hell mcdonalds toys, but looking among many modern mcdonalds toys, you dont see anything as cool as the old ones. literally every major modern movie/franchise right now is nothing but figurines. the most recent actually interactive mcd's toy ive seen is when they collabed with hasbro games

again, companies just seem to be pumping out quantities over quality.

but why?

well, for starters toys are becoming cheaper (both in price and quality) because prices have sky rocketed and stores are forced to only stock cheaper things, therefore the cheap things sell the most, and then more of them get made, and statistics get fucked, etc etc the cycle repeats.

but toy companies know one thing, and that's that things that are "cuter" always sell more. "cuter" being used with vitriol because their idea of 'cute' is 'more glitter and sparkles and rainbow colours and obnoxiousness' oh, and dont forget the huge soulless bug eyes on all of them!

i know that people love these things, but theyre so..... uncanny. their stare is piercing, their stance is so stiff, i always felt bad actually playing with the only one of these i had growing up, and not just because it freaked me out, it just genuinely didnt feel good to play with.

and i knoowwwww people are obsessed with these things, but come on, you have to admit theyre SO unoriginal! theyre just cookie cutter shapes!

these things are horrifying and, at best, belong on a shelf.

these "beany boos" are so woobified and almost feel like a flanderized version of a stuffed animal, and they've completely taken over "beanie babies", which were wonderful soft little things that actually had movement and weren't stiff to cuddle! I also feel like they're almost trying to copy what webkinz was, in a way, as some of those were stiff too (but still loveable and not burdened with an uncanny, vacant stare)

anyway this is getting insanely long and im sorry but i feel like im going insane every time i see new toys nowadays. the like.... "cuteification" of everything is driving me insane, and the fact that they are simply just lower quality than what we used to get, because of prices rising and causing easy-to-make things to become more and more popular.

examples to further prove these points:

extreme woobifying or "cuteification" by almost completely removing all horse anatomy in favour of thin limbs, heavy makeup eyes that are now on the front of her face, and modern influencer eyebrows. on a horse.

and the extreme-simplifying of toys can be seen quite well on those mini polly pocket sets!! see this one here?

almost allllll of those little plastic things could be rotated or rearranged or moved or fucked with in some manner, it was awesome. i loved these miniature houses they always came with so much shit. wanna guess what the newer ones look like?

you guessed it, like shit!!

man even beyblades used to come with like, all sorts of different pieces both metal and plastic alike, and you had to assemble them yourself and you could interchange pieces to obtain a different weight which would affect your attacks against other beyblades, etc etc:

and looking at them now? they seem to be mostly made of- yep, you guessed it, hard cheap plastic.

anyway holy shit i literally reached the 30 image limit on a single post tumblr really said thats ENOUGH !! i cant believe i just spent that long talking about the worlds most pointless thing but at any rate i hope you enjoyed it and i hope you see my vision. because like i said im not insanely knowledgeable on any of this in particular, but its hard not to notice the decline in quality of all of todays modern toys.

[rdiowx]

im more awake now so things i send might just be a little longer than before.. anyway somnophilia warning for this one!!!

waking up before frank does and seeing he has morning wood so you decide whats a better way to wake up other than giving him a blowjob??

pulling his boxers down just enough so that his cock springs out before going to plant kisses all over his pretty dick, licking up a vein before going to suck on the tip

his breathing would become heavily maybe a few moans or whimpers would slip out as he slowly stirs from his slumber whilst you take his dick right down your throat maybe even teasing his balls a little

he’d be so confused for a minute wondering what the fucks going on asking questions like “what are you doing baby” probably stuttering a little too and yawning like crazy

once hes awake enough he’ll just lay back and enjoy the pleasure, rubbing the back of your head as you continue to deep throat him and gag all over his pretty dick, when his orgasm begins to build up he’d start slowly fucking your throat until you pop off and give him a harsh no before continuing to take his cock right down your throat teasing all the sensitive spots whilst having his hips pinned down

he’d be whining and whimpering so much at this point bucking his hips up in attempt to feel a little more pleasure

he’ll be moaning your name telling you he’s about to cum down your throat, once hes at the perfect moment just seconds before hes about to blow you immediately take his cock out your mouth like the meanie you are

he’d be pleading for you to keep sucking him off just a little longer so he can get off, he’ll probably start crying too in an attempt to make you feel bad for edging him like that

you would laugh at his rubbish attempts to guilt trip you just telling him to stop being such a desperate and needy boy

afterwards you would walk away and just leave him to get himself on cause youre just sooooo mean like that

YIPPEEE SOMNOPHILIA

Frank looks at you like you just stabbed him when you get up to make coffee and leave him on the edge like that. He is literally in disbelief like ‘did they really just do that?’ Now he has to get himself off before going downstairs poor baby

And If you thought he wasnt gonna return the favor you were mistaken he is purposefully going to wake up before you and edge you so you have to get yourself off like he did before

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so, does your superior ever try to change the way the body looks? like shaving, getting piercings, or dyeing his hair?? also, can i get a funfact about him <3 (your version of him btw im always gonna be referring to that one)

THAAANK YOU FOR ASKING WAAHHH UR ALWAYS SO NICEYS TO ME !!!

AND YAYA YIPPEEE !! My version of otto had long hair with the fringe slicked back while he was a supervillain and after he took over the body he kept his hair slicked back too :3 and i imagine he let his hair grow longer at first cuz he didn't really care + out of habit ^_^ BUT!!

After he turns his life around and tries to be a good hero, he really fears that he will inevitably end up doing bad things and hurting people again like he used to </3 so when he has his hair longer he sometimes starts seeing his old self in the mirror </3 and like he sees this new life as spiderman as his second chance!! to do good and be better!! So even tho he knows he's grown since then and isn't a bad guy anymore, seeing stuff that reminds him of his time as a villain seep into this second chance is NOT helping ^_^ he cuts it short and keeps it that way after that </3 ALSO he dyes his hair darker sometimes but there's nothing deeper to that other than style and covering up white hair from stress ^_^ and it never stays that long cuz I imagine his hair grows faster and all the natural colours just come back anyway :3

FOR FUNN FACT in my version his mechanical spider legs were originally cuz he felt weird without the weight of his ock arms behind him so he built them just to feel more comfortable when he went out as spidey :D and only afterwards did he start utilising them for combat :3 he does still appreciate not having obstructions constantly stuck on his back tho !! he was so relieved that he could lie down comfortably that he nearly cried the first time he did </3 Best of both worlds ^_^

[gayspock]

thoughts, feelings and prayers

right so before anything. cxheck it out. help.

stop. i think shes laughing. i think shes fucking losing her baby mind. she LOVES watching her dad die. shes OBSESSED. like, LOOK. this is the first time shes looked this ... and forgive the pun, over the moon. shes like YIPPEEE. HURRAY. WAHOOO. its her fucking COCOMELON.

but yes ok. right

firstly of all. bad start lol.

wheream i

i guess its just a bad start. i have a feeling that a lot of this stuff was like.... out of the writing room issues. i cant remember all the BTS context, but its sort of Obvious that actors didn't want or to retun or couldnt return (and presmably this show wasnt meant to last 4 seasons?). and the thing is, i just think its an incredibly difficult thing to pull off a nearly whole cast reset that has to come so was insanely abruptly... like how do you do that and do that well? like nina especially its like- OFFSCREEN? SERIOUSLY? ESPECIALLY AFTER THE END OF THE LAST SEASON. jesus.

although also TEEHEEE OK SORRY BAD SHIT ASIDE TEEHEEE TOM. ON TOP. TOM TOP BILLING. YESSSS. YESSSSS. YIPPEEE! WAHOOO! I LOVE TOM. IM SO GLAD WE GET TOM. TOM AND ANNIE. MY FAVOURITES FROM THIS SHOW.

LIKE CAN WE LEAVE TOM ALONE? CAN WE .LIKE. I KNOW IT SUCKS MITCHELL IS GONE. AND NINA. MY DEAR NINA. THEY ARE GONE. and oh yeah lol george died. BUT TOMMMMM. MY DEAREST TOM. CAN WE ALL BE NICE TO TOM AND GIVE HIM A LITTLE CHEER AND A YIPPEE AND A WOOPITY DOO!!!!

GUYS DONT YOU LIKE LITTLE DOGGUYS WHO ARE JUST A BIT STUPID BUT VERY RESPECTFUL. TOM COME HERE, BOY. THATS A GOOD BOY. AWWWW. PUPPY

where was i god where was i

right well ok the thing is i coudl sort of deal with the rest of that stuff MAYBE. i'd be more willing to give it a chance, even if it sort of feels like a deaht sentence. especially cuz as mentioned, i love tom, i love annie, and i KIND OF LOVE THE LOOK OF THE NEW GUY? iLIKE HELP.

but also tonally right like yeah ok so the problem is. i feel like as the seasons have gone on, this show has kindofjudt been slowly getting away from its better parts in the first season. i feel like its at is strongest when... they lirerally dont do some big overarching plot. like i dont mean no plot. plots good and fine. but i sort of feel like the "plot" is carrying the characters forward where i feel like when it was more lowkey, and more character driven it was jsut. better.

like i also hate prophecy shit. i think the last season was GOOD because it was completely self-fulfilling and fucking horsehsit. stacy (and im sorry i call her that, its just cuz thats all i refer her to. stacy from eastenders) made that shit UP just because LOL. also thats my other aside. i LIKE how with mitchell, like... i mean it wasnt just him trying to avoid the prophecy, right? like agreed? cuz that whole thing was like straight up. intention towards true immortality. my hypocritical little tangfastic. awwww.

also gos where was i

god thisshow is corny. sometimes i cant stand this specific brand of corniness. like i dont mean like. i LOVE corny. i dont like... soap opera type corny, right? i dontknow. i had a point somewhere. i mean i still dont like how it plays out sometimes- im just thinking of specific interactions and how certain dynamics play out- but its also like.... GOOD at more well balanced characters with flaws. inmy opinion. they all sorta suck. which i think takes the korny edge off. yall wanna single say fuck that fuck that fuck th sorry. i dont mean that. where was i. god ivebeen insanely suicidal as of late. thats the aside. fcukc me man

WHERE AM I

anyway god ok so i did notpay rnough attention to like any of the shit outside of annie, tom and george this episode. im serious. oh and the dying wertewolf and the other vampire. and whoever is supposedly here to kill eve. my lovely dead dad lover eve.

oh i do want to meet him properly though

Hal.

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5guys

comments on em under the cut <3

quincy:

-Jagged scars bc he did it himself with. a big knife.

-no sixpack. just bc.

-many pubes. other bodyhair is a bit less bc he isnt on T (<- excuse bc i couldnt make it look good /hj)

eiden:

-pretty neat scars. got them done fairly early in his life.

-left his abs bc he really tries to keep em. dont particularly like it but :/ i feel like its part of him idk

-was on T a few years before getting isekai'd, aster helped him find a replacement.

dante:

-NEAT surgery scars. got them done, after his parents died, by top-level surgeons (+ didnt have big boobs to begin with)

-nips+snakebites+eyebrows pierced. hes a royal man he deserves it.

-left his pack bc i think he uses it as a coping mechanism....

-has been on proxy-T since a few months before his parents died.

rei:

-tiny boobs tiny scars. did them himself aswell.

-navel pierced bc hes a slut so ofc.

-no abs. this man does nothing to keep himself in shape.

-not on T but has found some remedy that has permanently lowerd his voice

-main reason for transition was so he could be in hiding better, he really doesnt care for much else.

balde:

-no nips.

-main control panel is in his abdomen bc its easily defendable. distinct connection of panels at the lines where they open bc i didnt want him to have abs and this works <3 + i couldnt figure out a reason behind topsurgery scars other than that <3

-no pubes bc hes a ken doll down there (i forgor)