#anyway im chewing drywall over here

[twosomeofcuteness]

Actually, I have one big thought. When Buffy shows up in the office to ask Giles for help with Angel.... For help with the vampire who tortured Giles and murdered Jenny just last season??? The background of the shot makes me absolutely insane. Why? Because this:

Who decided this room, with that window, was the best place for Buffy and Giles to have a conversation about Angel? Buffys head in front of that window is Giles' view. And yes, while they don't know that's the same window (albeit a much smaller version) Jenny died in front of, it still makes me insane. Like:

(That's a very bad picture of the event but I don't feel like scrolling through my entire gallery rn) And this comes less than ten minutes after the scene of Giles threatening Angel with a damn crossbow reminding us all of that time Jenny shot HIM with the crossbow. (see Celia's post about the crossbow scenes for more information)

[blueskittlesart]

I saw your rant about having to redownload BOTW last night and was like, "huh, wonder whats that about..." And then you casually drop the "open your eyes" art and DSHFOUDHNSFNASEÖFJÖ!"§"!Q§)? Im chewing drywall over here, its sooooooooooo goooooooooood!!!!11 So, yeah, art: good, you: amazing, just made my morning! (I keep tabbing back and noticing new details and urghhhhhhh!!! It's so pretty and soft and I want to eat it!)

yeah that fucking horrible little shrine bed was frankenstiened out of like eight different individual references because after the two hours that it took to redownload botw onto my tiny ass default sd card i discovered that there is in fact a reason that the specific reference image i needed doesn't exist online and it's because it's IMPOSSIBLE TO GET IN GAME. and because of the way botw's map works no one has ripped it and reuploaded it online with camera clipping enabled so instead i had to manually adjust for perspective AND color because there's ALSO no way to get the COLOR in that stupid ass room to look the same as it does in that opening cutscene. anyway im glad you like the piece lmfao

[robinyourcreator]

2, 9, 30, 32, 33 fic asks!

aaaa thank you rowan beloved friend and mutual <3333333

this got kinda long bc you landed on my trap card: giving me a space to ramble. under the cut we go!

-2- Which of your fics is your pride and joy?

oh god so. I haven't updated it in two years because I got really burnt out by going on an updating spree while I was out of my mind fever dreaming with covid, and it's for an extremely tiny fandom for a manhwa which is really just an excuse for angsty lesbian omegaverse matriarchy in pretty traditional korean clothing. it's. i cannot recommend it without listing a bunch of trigger tags but the characters really fucking got me. im a sucker for a good plucky protagonist. anyways i set about to fix the love triangle with polyamory, as i am wont to do. now that i have given my here be dragons spiel, here it is: like a shadow loves the light

I was in no way prepared for the outpouring of love that fic has received, but that's what happens when you write something for a fandom that (at the time) had only one (1) page on ao3. it's terribly self-indulgent and I have a fantastic time every time I work on it, and I think it shows.

shit. wait. was i contractually obligated to say the fic i wrote at 18 that i met my spouse because of? no. fuck. dont read that i wrote that as a TEENAGER--

-9- How did you get into writing fanfiction?

there was a brief stint in middle school where i would toy with writing fanfiction for things like hp or the various magical girl anime i was obsessed with, and, despite knowing the existence of ffn, believed i was doing something terribly new and cool. none of those things were ever actually written, much less posted. i just doodled for them.

ANYWAYS, the real answer here is i, at 16, got sixteen year old lesbian socked SO HARD in the gut by Star Wars: The Old Republic's Light Side Jaesa Willsaam storyline that I went looking for fanfiction for her and found explicit femslash (big no no for innocent mormon teenager!) for her written by my now-internet-auntie/mum/mentor wrote and realized i was gay. I started engaging with the swtor and kotor fandoms and making my own shit for my ocs for funsies. this got me two significant others and one spouse as well as most of my mutuals here on tumblr.hell.

-30- Have you noticed your style change over time?

god, i hope so. teenage me's things have therapy speak. but those things also got me a spouse soooooooooo. I like to think I've gotten a little better over ten years. One hopes. matured a little.

-32- A character you enjoy making suffer.

any character i am remotely attached to? which means, currently, my bg3 polycule girlies. sorry girlies.

-33- A character you want to protect.

IGNORE ALL PREVIOUS ANSWERS I WOULD KILL AND DIE FOR SHADOWHEART i was chewing through drywall for MONTHS before i got the game bc i knew i was going to get got SO BAD and i was right and 0% disappointed and my girl deserves all the peace and happiness in the world--

-sweeps current Bad End WIP under the rug- nevermind that,

[gayorphandepression]

so i started watching lab rats,

[twosomeofcuteness]

Felt bad for teasing Celia about how they weren't going to be normal about amends and decided to watch it in solidarity. anyway here are da notes

I'm sorry the acting is non-existent here. What even is this

Fun fact that verse (the Lord is my shepherd I shall not want) was my mom's favourite :) and I hate that it was in the same scene as Angel :/

Buffy you're better off without that sad puppy dog

Twitchy???? Uh yeah the subject of Angel happens to be very traumatic for giles but let's not ignore the fact that you don't wanna talk to him about it because you feel guilty about everything that went down last year

"it must be the whole Angel killed his girlfriend and tortured him thing" I'm going to chew drywall

I HOPE HE HAS THE HOLIDAY BLUES FOR THE REST OF ETERNITY

You said the q word buffy that's your fault

Cordy </3

Willow shut up you did a bad thing let Oz get all his thoughts out (sweetie I love you but you fucked up!)

Okay cuties

Yes more faith gimme gimme

Well maybe you should kiss??? Might help you get over angel??

Buffy you can't invite your watcher (who I definitely didn't sleep with) to Christmas because he wouldn't want to come (it'd be awkward cause he and I fucked and you don't know that yet) -Joyce Summers

I'll take the dead tree, probably costs a whole lot less than any of those boring green ones

I hope you slept like shit Angel

Hi Faithhhh

Faith shut it say you'll go to Christmas dinner

Giles. Rolled up sleeves. Hot.

Ew Angels here fml

PUNCH HIM GILES

YOURE RIGHT YOU HAVE NO RIGHT GO BURN IN HELL

YESSSS THE CROSSBOW (But is it the same crossbow jenny shot him with because I'm sure he probably burned that one after everything that happened but I want it to be the same one and I want it to shoot angel)

I hope your dreams suck eat shit and die

You're right, angel, you should

Jennyyyyy

Oh gods the not touching almost touching but she can't actually touch him and it's not even actually her omigod I'm not okay

And when he turns and doesn't see her I'M CHEWING FUCKING DRYWALL HERE

Why couldn't we get jenny back instead of Angel

Thank goodness angel left

Oh ffs were in the past again

Wow it must be so hard for angel to have to live knowing he orphaned a little boy... probably way harder than it was for the little boy who got orphaned

JENNY STAY FOREVER PLEASEEE

Calendiles grandchildren :'(((

You might be over it Jenny but I'm not </3

My fucking heart

"I don't want to make you feel bad" well step aside then jenny cause I sure do. I'm ready to commit defenestration here

You know what would solve all of your problems right now? And save you having to ask your watcher for help with the vamp who tortured him and murdered the only woman he ever truly loved? Staking Angel.

IM SORRY A HALF CIRCLE WINDOW BEING VISIBLE WHEN BUFFY AND GILES ARE TALKING ABOUT ANGEL

I still don't know how we're supposed to feel bad for him

I'LL HURT HIM FOR YOU JENNY I'M OFFERING MY SERVICES

Jenny should be running her finger through giles' hair like that

Idc that it's a dream fuck off with that especially when jennys in this episode and she and Rupert can't have awesome sex, you know, on account of the fact that Jennys fucking dead!

Willow, sex won't solve problems. Not when said problems were cause by you cheating and you only just reconciled

Let him burn idc

LET HIM BURN

Oh buffy </3333

Let it Snow (after Angel burns)

Anyway all I want for Christmas is my jenny back and also for angel to burn

Ffs snow ruined angels death

I absolutely hate how the episode ends with them looking all couple-y like fuck off give me calendiles. Oh wait, you can't. In fact, you spent the ENTIRE EPISODE REMINDING ME THAT JENNY'S DEAD BECAUSE ANGEL FUCKING KILLED HER FUCK RIGHT OFF WITH THAT ENDING