#anyway i might do a critrole fic next

[nellasbookplanet]

Progress is happening!

[fanboy-sloth]

So, I'm doing some writing for my January prompt and I might have accidentally created an entire AU 🙃

anyway if you're a fan of critrole whump, or complicated m9 relationships, then keep an eye out for my next fic haha

[arodrwho]

critrole 2.68 lb

o dang no laura

o texting in again!

once again sam’s ad does not disappoint

o Heck Yeah it’s recap time

“you are dark” “well..yeah” “god now i’m really scared” i love. their interactions

“who do you feel like has it?” “.....they’re all so shifty” nott u dork,,

“i mean caleb has killed his only family members” liAM’S FAC E

also nott jesus christ

“caduceus wouldn’t do that he’s a nice guy” [taliesin cackles] fucking incredible

“what do you mean caleb killed his whole family” “ah, you know, it’s a figure of speech, it’s like--it’s--” “what does the figure of speech mean. like, how would you use it in a sentence?” yasha i love you

“it’s a figure of.....” “frustration?” “yeah it’s the equivalent of...of ‘aw, SNAP’” nott that is the shittiest lie i’ve ever heard. i kind of love it & i love even more that it’s kinda working

“listen caleb has some secrets in his past that maybe i shouldn’t have mentioned. i can’t think straight right now i can’t think straight i’m jonesing hard” NOTT. STOP. u almost played that off but oh my gOD u fuck’d the hell up

“so he did kill his whole family?” “i....i not grandparents or anything, there could be extended family--” a) i doubt it, & b) noTT WHAT THE HELL

“i was trying to do the thing” :(( am sorry it didn’t work but also yasha i love u. +2 autism yasha

“i’m learning how to people” +12 autism yasha!!!!!!!!!

god. every time i hope nott & caleb might start to repair the distance between them sth like this happens & it makes me So Sad

“do u ever wonder what is on the other side” “of the bridge?” “o that too” caleb i fucking love you

“little too concerned with what’s going on in this life before i start worrying about what’s...beyond” “i don’t know that i worry about it i’m curious though”

“i assume my version of whatever it is, it’s not great” oh boy

“oh... i wouldn’t think that way. if everyone was judged by those standards, i think it doesn’t look great for a lot of us. i mean. i guess what i’m saying is i’ll be joining you i guess” “oh well maybe you can call down several stories to me and say hello” “u want a berry?” “u want a drink”

“are you keeping it from nott or are you keeping it for nott?” “i don’t know really. these are good” cale b

“and it’s been nice to see her with him. i a little bit don’t know what to do with myself as much. it’s very awkward we. developed a unique relationship and i feel awkward. you know she used to. we slept on the side of the road a lot and would sleep next to each other in the cold and i feel strangely foolish about it it didn’t feel foolish before but it does now. these have a little bit of an aftertaste” ok 1, arosads fuckin CONFIRMED. my fic would’ve been so TIMELY if i’d finished & posted it this week. ah well. this weekend prolly. this weekend......... & 2, i love. caleb’s offhand comments scattered throughout this. that’s very autistic of him. i love him so much

“u feel awkward because of a close relationship with a friend?” “a little bit she has found herself or found what she is looking for. not entirely but uh. i i i don’t know what we’re talking about. we just had a. routine. i like routines somewhat” AUTISM. and also more arosads confirmed.

“feeling replaced? are you jealous?” “a bit probably a little bit” “that actually makes me feel kind of reassured. it’s like the most basic human emotion so. you’re not a total lost cause” “euh” “that was a joke. god fuck i need to work on my jokes” “no i know” “i need to work on my delivery. my delivery is just--” “you are very deadpan yeah” AUTISM

“she’s still ur friend u know that right” “yeah” “no matter what she goes off and does. you’ll always be partners. at least that memory of being partners at a certain time of your life” /sadface liam “yeah. yeah. anyway. well i guess i’m just going to think about the good days ?” “mmhmm. think about the good days”

“thousand yard stare into the void, past the bridge” :(((((((((((((

“i just kinda stay up for an extra five minutes and stare at the group for a bit” :(((((((((((((((((((((((

“i am yeah. i discovered that a smile and a laugh is a good way of infuriating your siblings when they’re trying to get to you” god i love caduceus

also taliesin u are killing me

w/the continually refusing to say precisely how many sibs

it is making me WORRIED that the reason u are not saying might perhaps be bc u don’t. know if u should count the dead ones

which. fair

and he also probably doesn’t know how many dead ones there are

which. SAD

anyway SKELLETOR. u called it a corpse immediately after & now all i can think is that conversation 

cad is having trouble thinking this through. i’mma mark this down for an autism

“caleb would know” “i was thinking about magic what did you say?” o caleb....

“without saying anything i just slowly send one of the globules to go dancing around nott’s head” caleb. i love the u

“kill your ho--hopes and dreams of. no i would never do that nott” good save yasha i love. u

notttttt

what the fuck is this. sam what the fuck

oh good rolls!

hhhh’oh boy 13 for traps. that’s frightening

i thought it was blessing of the trickster? is it just bless? okay

ohhhhhh no

“laura’s calling” lmfao

“i love you bye” lmao nice

“i think caleb is just quietly sweating bc he’s feeling caduceus’s huge weight make the bridge behind him go [sound effects]” incredible

[jester voice] “tell my storyyyy” amazin

HI I’M SCARED

I’M MORE SCARED

B E A U

caleb is handflapping!!!!!!!!!!!!! ffUCk yeah

liam is doing an stim now w/whatever he’s holding & i choose to believe caleb is stimming w/soMEthing in this moment

god i’m so weak for caleb stims

“my eyes are watering cos i’m crying from fear” fjord. i love you

aw hell another wis save

FOK.

fjord, caleb, & nott

je ee eeez caleb ok cool

thank god they both rolled low

“it’s gonna be terrible, it was a natural 20″ lmAO good job nott. i love u congratualtions fuck yeah

“looks like water almost it’s textured weird & it’s moving weird. it looks like tar or oil but it’s not textured like tar or oil it looks like skin” jESUS

MAT T WHAT THE FUCK

i love this but WHAT THE FUCK

nott what the fuck. nott. nott you are going to fucking die

nOTT THAT’S SOMEHOW WORSE

that’s so many fucking natural 20s y’all i’m very afraid for ur luck later

ah, there are the low rolls. in the initiative

fjord please...,,

beau, buddy,,,

NOTT

DDDDDDDD:

he’s gonna not do the thing???? oh. oh okay i guESS

JESTER BUDDY,,,,

i’m having so many emotions

I’M HAVING SO MANY EMOTIONS

nott is always making self-sacrificial moves for others & someone hasnow done it for her (beau & caleb have got close, but on this particular level--only jester i think has managed it & i am. feeling things. how very dare y’all)

goddang that’s a lot of nat 20s

“talieSIN ur a warlock” goddamn incredible

oof yasha, buddy,,,,

aw tal

i love u

oof. nott

oh thank god they made it

SIDENOTE but i have very specific priorities.......... & those priorities are aro & autistic content. ship content? i’m immune.

beau/jester moments? immune. fjord/jester moments? immune. nott/jester moments? immune.

completely & totally immune.

i care only abt caleb’s arosads & caleb’n’nott content & everybody being super duper autistic

& i find this. amusing

i’m sorry travis but that’s a terrible jester voice

OH the dead body they took

very neat

sidenote.

“the laughing hand. timeless & seeking the torment of all. the undying chosen” jeeeeeez creepy i like it

“mind uh, sending your, your, your parrot--” “it’s a cat” gotta love cad not knowing anything abt nature, & caleb insisting always that frumpkin is a cat even when is not catshaped

crystal barrier u say? is caleb gonna have feelings abt that or nah

WH AT DID I MISS

i stopped paying attention for fiV E SECONDS

ok i got a recap i’m good i’m good

did u just say BITE ATTACK

what the FUCK

aCID????

fJORD WHY UR WIS IS SO LOW

ur not to know this though

& thank u for wanting to help yasha

even if it was. perhaps illadvised it was kind & good

oh jeez the mirror’s gone ?

dagger???? dagger?????????? magic dagger ??

yasha KILLED HER DOUBLE,,,,,

ohohohohoho good job fjord

oh DANG caleb?? u say caleb?????

ohhhh

that’s SO MANY nat 20s

oh jeez why can’t anyone else get in

oof caddy dude

“u run over and there is no crystal wall on that side” [high pitched] “hWAT”

beau my dude,

BUG DAMAGE

nice nice nice nice nice

“i found a thing over here by the way” i love u cad

was pulling that knife right out the best idea?

mmmm

oh i guess it was

“hey look at this” god i love caduceus

i feel like half of what i say in these liveblogs is that i love characters

& u know what. i’m valid

fjord oh my god i love you

....u see.

lmao beau’s fists up, fjord ain’t think that through

no frumpkin vision????????

interesting....................

wait what. hollow??

what is hollow what’d i miss

oooooo music

music music

EYYYYYYYY

thank u laura/jester

oh jeez un angel

oh dang the dagger

ohhhh dear. angel. eyes bleeding

what. did they unlock

i’m worried.............

OH it’s over already oh dang

oh dang oh dang oh dang

hot DIGGety dang

well! that sure all did happen

this was a Lot and i am Delighted

thank u @critrole cast for this episode

[sockablock]

Hey, Jay, sorry to bother you, but I'm feeling kinda crappy about my writing tonight, and I just wanna know how you do it so well? Something New is a gorgeous story with so much depth and world building.

Aaaaaaaaaaa welllll first I just want to say that I’m really really sorry you’re feeling that way!! I know how it can be buddy, and it reallllyyy sucks ass 😓. That being said, I’m very honored you came to me for advice! I’m by no means an expert, but I’ll certainly do my best!!

I think in terms of “writing well,” it all comes down to stubborn bloody-mindedness, a ton of dedication, and a frankly terrifying amount of practice. Just in the last year, since joining the critrole fandom, I’ve written over 410,000 words (and that’s just the stuff published to my AO3, don’t even get me started on the 1k and 2.5k fic giveaways). I know that many people don’t have the luxury to just take an hour or so a day to sit down and write, and I’m very lucky that I’m in a position where I can! It’s also, however, this ridiculously long amount of time that’s allowed me to get where I am; I’ve addressed this before, but a lot of my older stories, and my first fics (In the Moments included) are no longer representative of what I can do (and I’m even a little embarrassed by them!). I’m very very honored that you think I write well, but I never could have written a story like Something New a year ago, and even six months ago I hadn’t really developed a sense of where the plot was going yet. It happened all very organically, only because I stubbornly kept to the goal of telling a good story, and didn’t stop no matter how frustrated or stuck I ever felt.

That being said, I’ve certainly learned a few things in my time as a (fic) writer, and maybe they might also help!

Breaks are your friend!! Holy SHIT they are your greatest friend. I’ve taken a number of hiatuses during Something New, just so I could step back and reevaluate where I was going. Stuff like Ch. 35 and Ch. 24-28 would never have been possible without them, and as hard as it is to stop writing, sometimes you just have to, for your own sake

Another good thing to do is have multiple projects at once! Sometimes that can lead to an army of WIPS (*cough* Dreamers *cough*), but I find it really helpful to have a few things to bounce around with when I’m stuck on one

For fics, go back and watch the source material. Take notes of how the characters talk, how they interact. Listen to the cadence of their voices, and try to imagine how they would say, or if they would say the dialogue you write for them

Read. Go and just read, anything, anything at all, Terry Pratchett is my #1 choice in “how does a fancy published author spin words,” and then take that knowledge and make it your own, babey

Sometimes I make playlists. Sometimes I literally lie in bed and scream until the next scene comes to me

I also write down literally every single idea I’ve ever had, and keep a copy of literally everything i’ve ever deleted in a word doc titled “discard pile.” You never know when you can re-purpose that ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Go back and reread comments. Any of them. All of them! Validation can help a bunch, especially when you’re feeling down...

...but DONT let AO3 stats be the only metric by which you judge your work!! My very very first fic, which ended up being grossly inaccurate anyways, didn’t have nearly as many hits or comments or kudos as my current project, even though I was beyond proud of it at the time. But I kept going!! Kept writing!! And now I’m at where I am today. Statistics should never impact your own confidence in your ability!! They might be a good launchpad for you to see where you stand compared to others, but that mentality can be very toxic and very self-damaging. From what I’ve learned, fic visibility can be pretty dang arbitrary anyways, and all that really matters, really and truly, is that you tell a story that you love about something that you love. And maybe it’ll get views, and maybe it won’t, but it will be worth it because of your own enjoyment, and because--and this is very important--you will get practice out of it. You will learn from it. You’ll grow! And when you’ve finished, or when you’ve moved on, that’s the knowledge you carry over to your next story, or to whatever comes next. And that will mean so much more to you--as a writer, as a person--than any statistic could.

My last piece of advice, along with literally just continuing to write (no matter how shitty you might feel about a piece) and taking plenty of brain breaks, is to also go back and look at your old work. You never know what good ideas you might’ve had back in the day, and it can help a lot to see how far you’ve come. Don’t focus on the “I could have done this better”s or the “this isn’t good”s; instead concentrate on how much you’ve grown and just think about how much more you can do if you just stick to it!! I’m still excited to see where No Grave goes, and I think you’re a wonderful writer and person, and I can’t wait to see what you do next!!! Good luck, my friend, and just know that in terms of getting into funks, you’re not alone 💜💜💜💜💜