#anyway i gotta think about where. im selling these stickers too

[socksandbuttons]

i just

i just waNT STICKERS

[scourgefrontiers]

talking to myself, kinda venting

it got.  very long

monday needs to leave me alone but also i gotta learn to relax and stop worrying so much

like !!! im out of high school !!!  i dont have anywhere to be anymore besides the occasional psychiatrist/dentist !!!  and thats like, WEEKS apart

i have zero obligations rn b/c im not taking commissions and i dont consider dpg to be a huge obligation b/c 1) im doing it for free, 2) i know ppl will understand if they have to wait a few extra weeks for an update, and 3) i have three buffer pages rn which means i have three weeks before i ACTUALLY need to work on a page

my ask blogs arent obligations either b/c i did say they would be on hiatus until i finished chapter 1!

the thing is im still !!! stressed !!!  first of all with dpg i dont want to disappoint people <:’0 i know ppl are excited for each update and i dont wanna let them down ESPECIALLY since i KNOW i can dish out at least two pages a week (even tho ive only been doing one lately, AT BEST, like before i was on medication for help, which is.  bad)

and for the ask blogs its the same deal just to a lesser degree, EXCEPT with my onceler blogs b/c theyre fuckin !! seasonal !!!  theyre all halloween themed and its GETTING RLY CLOSE TO THAT TIME and i havent updated them in so long, especially wolf and ghost ;c; they both have two posts while hallow has like five im sorry yall

i know i shouldnt stress over the ask blogs b/c theyre supposed to be for fun and not a priority but i feel like if i dont put some degree of priority on them then i’ll never fuckin update them and theyll end up like my hetalia blogs (which might not actually happen b/c i did move away from the hetalia scene after all ??  im still into danny phantom and the onceler so im not rly worried about..that)

and then i have those stickers that i just. havent touched past the dannies and vlads.  i have like Over 60 sketched out but im not even close to finishing the sketches

AND CIRCLING BACK AROUND TO COMMISSIONS i want to open them again !!  but im not feeling as well as id like to so i dont wanna open em and take way too long to do them or have them come out all sloppy and bad, i just dont have the energy rn and i feel bad about it b/c i have to make money and redbubble isnt like..doing much for me...b/c im only selling two stickers and a print of my oc OTL

on top of all this i have personal projects that i wanna work on for fun too, like animation memes and just general oc doodles, but with that comes a different set of stresses: im stressed b/c im working on them instead of a higher priority thing and im stressed b/c i know i could improve on them which leads to me tryin to improve in art and u know how that goes. stress. i already feel like my lineart quality is declining ;0 feelsbadman

i wont even talk about the adoptables

im literally overwhelming myself with projects unnecessarily but i cant !! stop !!!  thats just how it is !!!  im so tired and sad all the time and this is mostly the reason i think

anyway thats where im at rn