#anyway i got him in trouble bc he brought his drink outside like . u know better dont be a dickhead.

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like YEAH it fuxking hurts he cant stand to b around me n the only times je even ries toctalk to me is when hes fucked off his ass and needling/ mocking me.

how is that not going tovhurt me.

[turbulcnce]

[ xavier serrano. twenty-six. cismale. he/him. | muse 4a. ] do re mi by blackbear just came on the radio and it made me think of jaime chavez. they’ve been in sundance for nine years and they’re currently a tattoo artist. if you’re looking for them, try by inkspired, locals say they’re there a lot. 

hello , hello. i’m j and this is my demon, jaime. he really is a hot mess so i apologize in advance abt him ! i have two three ( 3 ) kids so this is 1 / 3 ! if you’d like to plot pls hit me up , like this , or come to me for my discord ! 

𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓼.

basics : jaime alexandre chavez , twenty-six. 

hometown : barcelona , spain.

languages : spanish , english.

orientation : pansexual / panromantic

𝓫𝓪𝓬𝓴𝓰𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭.

jaime hails from barcelona , spain and was born to a loving but troubled single mother; maria chavez. she got pregnant way too young but couldn’t bare to give her son up despite her original plans to. for a while, she struggled raising baby jaime until she met alejandro fernandez. alejandro, a successful musician, met maria at a bar and they immediately fell in love. soon after they began dating, jaime’s younger sister was born. 

eventually, the two are wed and little jaime was Not buying mr family alejandro. he refused to call him dad and barley welcomed him into the family. jaime was almost 4/5 when he came into his life and is very protective over his mom, so he didn’t like the idea of some guy Buying her affection. 

moving on, jaime only kept from not killing his step-dad because his sister very much kept him calm and grounded and away from anything sharp. he was always bickering with him and keeping a close eye on what he was doing outside of the house. jaime always suspected cheating but never found any evidence.

as a child in spain, jaime was .... Wild. very much his moms spirit. young and wild and crazy and always getting himself in trouble. no matter how hard people tried to tame him, it was like that was the One way he could express himself and get attention.

when jaime was seventeen, a shock came when a fling of his shared that she was pregnant. she wasn’t interested in jaime’s help but she wanted him to know. jaime was completely eager and willing to be in his babys life, remembering his mother raising him alone until ale showed up. however, speaking of ale, his step-dad decided that this was the last straw of breaking rules and getting into trouble so ale shipped jaime off to live with some family of his in the states.

so here’s jaime, completely displaced in nowhere , nevada with family he’s never met. good news, ale’s sister is the complete oppose of him and jaime loves her. bad news, thirty-minutes from vegas meant jaime was back to getting in trouble again though his aunt didn’t really seem to care like ale did. 

also, forgot to mention that he’s got a whole son in spain whos currently 9 ! him + his sons mom text all the time and he gets constant updates and skypes with him. he’s honestly more of a fun long distance uncle, but he’s happy to be in his sons life. HOWEVER, no one in sundance really knows that he has a son except , of course , his sister + his best friend. 

ANYWAY. moving on. everything since he got to sundance is pretty much history. his number one public enemy is easily the sheriff who’s always trying to blame something on him which is absolutely hilarious when u remember he’s actively hooking up with the sheriffs son. he’s beside himself about it. honestly. 

at some point, almost like a coping thing, jaime took up art + started to apprentice and is now one of the head tattooers at inkspired. he wants to eventually open his own shop up so if u play a tattoo artist pls hmu is u think them + jam could ever have their own shop together bc we love some good Friendly competition. it could also be in vegas bc, u know. 

𝓹𝓮𝓻𝓼𝓸𝓷𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓽𝔂.

jaime is ...... an acquired taste. he’s not for everyone but if he is for you, you probably dig him a lot. he can be VERY personable, super charming. very funny when he tries. definitely a Big Dumb and he can’t seem to help that but we love him for it. 

he can be super abrasive and blunt depending on the mood that you catch him in. he’s got a quick temper and gets heated Very quickly but can also be brought down pretty fast. he’s a sucker for a good joke. or a good hug but he doesn’t tell people that openly.

he’s really not a bad guy he just .... can’t really help it. he’s always been a bit of a mess. 

he’s very bad at relationships. he doesn’t really know why, it just never works out. well, that part he knows. it’s because he’s either a) unfaithful or b) uninterested. he can’t explain why he is the way he is but he does Way better with noncommittal shit though do i really want him to devote his dead lil heart to someone  ??�� absolutely 

𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓷𝓮𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼.

main connections : younger sister , best friend since hs.

platonic connections : friends , coworkers , people who get tats a lot , drinking/party friends , neighbor , roommate , etc. 

eye emoji connection : fwbs (previous/current) , an ex , will they / won’t they , etc.  

[2nerdsandablog-blog]

Asahi x Reader - Coffee Shop AU

i love coffee shop au's, here we go:

- he works there with you for sure !! but ya'll work conflicting schedules. like even tho asahi is a mess he's actually really good at managing the rush flow so he's always scheduled then which means ya'll only rlly see each other on shift change which doesn't allow for much talking

- so ya'll only end up working together bc hinata (also ur rlly good friend), who usually fluctuates between fast and slow shifts, ends up calling out rlly last minute and asks asahi to cover for him

- at first ya'll don't rlly talk, like the first few hours are slow as fuck and it's abysmal but during a point where only one customer is off in the corner working on stuff and already got food he starts fixing up a coffee and u look at him like "what the actual fuck" as he's doing it but he's in the zone and isn't bothered

- he finishes making the drink and he's done so much to it you kinda can't keep track of what he's added and he leans on the counter and starts drinking it- finally making eye contact with u and ur look of confusion and he's shook. like his cup is halfway to his mouth and he freezes bc u look at him like he's grown a second head

- he offers to let you try it and ur like blown away. he confesses to experimenting with drinks and stuff when it gets slow but he doesn't do too many bc he doesn't wanna get in trouble lmao. ya'll r allowed one drink a shift and that's what he does with his. he tells u he's saving up to get a nice espresso machine so he can start doing it at home but he knows he won't even have half the spices and syrups (as well as milk and brew options) as ya'll have at work so he rlly enjoys playing around here. he tells u anecdotes abt his best and worst attempts, some of which have u almost crying bc of laughing so hard

- u have him make smthn new for u and he makes this amazing hot chocolate that blows u away and conversation is even easier after that. so much so that time flies and ya'll end up closing faster than either of u want

- after that, you barely see him. once every week or so he's coming in as ur leaving and u wave, ask if he has any cool new drinks and then ur off

- but when u r at work u talk hinata's ear off abt him, to the point that hinata (sunshine in human form) is starting to get a little exhausted of it but he'd never tell u so. he encourages u to talk to asahi more but ur too nervous to do so

- so one day u were coming to work and asahi was just finishing up and when he sees u he tells u abt how he finally saved up enough to get that espresso machine and he's having a bunch of friends over to test his stuff and he promises to make u hot chocolate bc he knows ur not a coffee fan, needless to say he invites u along to that party and he gives u all the details before he leaves (and his #) and wishes u a good shift

- so anyway, the day is upon ya'll and u go to his lil party thing and there's a bunch of people you've never seen before but hinata is there and so is suga (he's the manager at the cafe and while ya'll aren't close, ur p decent workmates) but when asahi sees u he's super excited to show u the machine and he gives u a lil tour of the apartment

- he brews u another rlly good drink and, as usual, asks for any feedback or criticisms u might have. asking for more clarification and what u would've liked instead. ya'll talk more and while he spends a good amount of time w u, he eventually has to go entertain other people and u wander around

- all in all, it's a great evening and u actually make a few new friends (kenma who shows u where he hides when people r too loud so he can play his DS and yams who notices ur new and helps introduce u to people while also making silly comments or telling anecdotes abt them) when asahi is busy entertaining. and so u get kind of adopted into the group and it's good times

- after that, things r kinda uneventful for a hot minute. u still talk hinatas ear off at work, asahi texts u with cute photos of his latte art (he found out about it a week ago when u brought it up randomly and he's obsessed with scouring pinterest for ideas) or asking if u think certain flavor combinations would be too weird - since hinata also works busy shifts he has to listen to asahi talk his ear off abt u in return

- everyone hangs out outside of work and stuff but with conflicting schedules it's hard to rlly do stuff with everyone and both u and asahi r too nervous to invite each other places w/o someone from the friend group along

- hence begins hinatas plan to get u and asahi together with a smidge of help from our boy yams

- he convinces asahi to hold another party and tells asahi this is his big chance to do something and ask u out but he's nervous. eventually, he decides on something that'll show how much he likes u

- so the day of the party comes around and it's not as packed as the other one and u go looking for asahi but yams kinda blocks ur way into the kitchen, which is the last place ur looking for him. he starts talking abt all kinds of stuff and u entertain him bc u don't wanna be mean ofc. u don't know but hinata is in the kitchen w asahi, telling him ur at the party and he has to start doing his thing pronto

- so after a few minutes hinata runs out and yanks yams away, yelling that asahi is in the kitchen and u should say hi and u go, completely confused

- asahi is by the counter with a mug in his hand and he looks absolutely terrified but u smile at him and he kinda relaxes. u ask what's his newest coffee attempt and he hands it to u, telling u he's made it especially for u. and while ur drinking it he goes into how much he likes u and wants to spend more time with u and what not

- the drink he made was like rlly thought out. he took all the critiques u gave him over time and created the perfect drink that's not too sweet or bitter and just tastes like heaven for u

- ur kinda shocked into silence bc while ya'll have been good friends and what not you rlly had no idea so u just stare at him. he gets rlly worried and starts rambling on so much that u rush to stop him and let him you know you feel the same

- he gives a full body sigh of relief, so thankful things aren't going to be weird that he doesn't even realize you said you really like him too but when it processes in his brain, asahi is over the moon. he grabs you in a full body hug and lifts you off the ground, blushing like mad

- after that ya'll r officially together and it's amazing. whenever u come in and he's leaving work he'll make u ur signature drink, which he refuses to make for anyone else, and gives u a kiss before leaving. his favorite days r when u come in 30 min after he leaves and he hangs by to catch u before u come in. u always get there a bit earlier than ur meant to clock in so u both can sit and chat at a table before he goes. he also def comes by during rlly slow points to bring u snacks or just keep u company

koda

[tvshowsyespls]

It’s not just their interaction that matters, it’s seeing their actions whilst fully aware of their pasts to identify growth/change and how others can see their love even when they are not physically together: it’s in how Josie says ‘my father is a fool, one look at you and he should’ve known how this would end’, it’s in how Bellamy seems to ‘care about her more’ than everyone else he cares about (according to J, who is apparently great at reading people est. ep7). It’s how Russell says to Josie ‘have you become so callous to the feelings of others that you don’t remember what it’s like to lose someone you love?’ when canonically she has only expressed loss with Gabriel. She talks about how G has been trying to kill her for 70 years and says ‘relationships, yknow?’ As if B was gonna be like ‘lol tru’, then she takes a walk down memory lane, saying ‘besties’ before claiming how BC is ‘weird’. You’re right Josie, louder!

It’s weird because in s1, the script says Bellamy was thrown by the intimacy then said that for a moment Clarke wanted to run away with him as she held his face in her hands? platonically?What even?? I know, so glad we got this 131 year old slow burn instead. It’s weird because they flirted and C invited B to get a drink with her but B turned her down, choosing to be the responsible boy that will have his fun when the grounders come... It’s weird because there was a Lexa-Clarke-Bellamy love triangle according to Alycia (Do I even need to go on?)

It’s weird because Clarke jumped on Niylah after putting her hand on top of hers that were on her shoulders, it’s her mating ritual for when she wants to get laid. Observe: she pulled the same shit on Bellamy in the list scene only for him to tell her ‘get some sleep’ (LOL awks - who told her to platonically smush her face on top of their hands that rested on her shoulder for 10+ seconds - maybe B was thrown by the intimacy again bc he was like ‘gtg’ lol) and she ended up in Niylah’s bed the next morning.

It’s weird because Clarke was willing to sacrifice her mother in s3 (Abby was literally hanging when B came in right on time) but gave into Roan’s blackmail with B and Kane in s4 - WELL of course because Kane is her stepdad!!! but...she was willing to let her mum die and that’s exactly what she reminds Roan and the viewers before it becomes canon that Bellamy is THAT pal ™ that is more important than your mother + 50 skykru lives that were dropped from the list just like that even though the whole season Clarke had been all for her people first. Remember when he was about to open the bunker and Clarke fully thought she was saving the human race by locking skykru in but let B open it anyway, crying as she couldn’t even shoot him in the leg or something? Talk about WEAK! Bellamy somehow convinced her to let everyone in?👀 Clexa coalition parallels anyone? No? Ok.

Remember how she looked as she volunteers to go with B to get Raven even tho 5 secs ago, she was ok leaving her and every other friend and human out to die? (Sidenote: ‘I never meant to hurt you’ like CLARKE PLS, you were about let around 600 people die and ur talking about Bellamy? Check urself, he’s pissed too - until he isn’t because Clarke says ‘nothing is okay, no matter what I choose, somebody always dies’ which makes B make light of it (bc he always understands) with ‘not shooting me was the right choice’ leading to it being canon that BC staring at each other causes them to run over someone and crash their very necessary life-saving vehicle... Who tf wrote this???) Throwback to TondC (‘I did it to save Bellamy’ followed ‘what if I sent him in there to die’ which followed ‘you should go, I was being weak’ - the LENgths she was willing to go to progressed with her worry for him that it was truly tragic for the grounder villagers (but tbf Lexa did convince her so Heda is right, they totally couldn’t have created a fire diversion as Clarke suggested) and that worry turned into literal platonic love as, for a moment, it was tragic for everyone outside the bunker too that second times C had to make a similar choice. The narrative really made Clarke say and do those things in that order huh? Wow) Remember how she was ready to let O die and keep B in the bunker, have him hate her to parallel kabby that season? HOW is B still alive? He was all like ‘I’m not gonna be in the bunker’ and Clarke’s like ‘you WILL’ before he even finishes his sentence lol. He did say ‘people die when you’re in charge’ and yet... it’s almost like idk, Clarke never wants to lose him ever.

Platonically of course because their attraction to each other has disappeared since s1... because you see that person and you’re like ‘lol nvm, ur not as hot as I remember 6 years ago when we were giving each other the looks™’ right? So you just watch them make out with their SO twice in canon to drive that point home. Especially when it’s your bff that you talked to everyday for 2199 days according to Flame!Madi who strutted right up to Bellamy, demanded he forgive C (lexa, is that you fighting in Clarke’s corner? 😭) before telling him something she ‘SHOULDN’t’ tell him?? Sorry Clarke, was this a private thing that Madi was privy to that she felt she shouldn’t expose or did you tell her not to mention it?? Madi said ‘she called YOU’ lol, like when is Madi gonna expose Clarke’s radio calls to Raven pls, I need the platonic princess mechanic relationship instantly restored like that! The radio call elixir: makes you soft for you bff and invite her to decide the fate of the human race as you always do (we genuinely love a platonic team!) despite the fact she left you to die 2 days ago for endangering her kid in the name of stopping the war, which she herself decided to later do after Lexa, her romantic soulmate, tells her not to make the same mistake she did because it would be her biggest regret. Lexa tells C don’t abandon your platonic pal™, love is not weakness and life should be about more than just surviving. Did Lexa say Bellarke rights, Clarke be happy and let yourself love him? No, Lexa wants BC to live like her and Clarke did in her bed? No, no, Lexa said ‘live like Clexa, but don’t have sex’? Yup that’s what happened. And C has the audacity to say ‘save him’ after giving her child permission to walk into a war zone and endanger her life like.. I prayed Lexa protects Madi yes pls.

Either way, let your bff know you love him! Say ‘bro, you kept me sane and I love you for that’- it’s easy gsjsjah why you making it so hard, girl?? Hug and move on, let’s go! There was a perfect opportunity around that fire where you instead wasted time saying ‘all of me for all of us’ to just B? (All of u is for all two of you huh? Jk jk lol this is the most platonic thing in s5, I digress) before giving him ur bread lmao y so dramatic, we love extra af jokester pals (I do really like the platonic bad jokes fr tho 😂👌🏾)

(All is fun and games until the joy of reuniting with Madi is gone the second she sees becho. Like SMILE, Clarke, your soulmate pal ™ found his romantic soulmate like you found yours, remember?)

EVERY DAY for 2199 days huh?: It’s canon that Clarke Griffin after getting radiation roasted, decided to pick up her radio from the floor with her blistered hand that first day to try to call Bellamy, wanting to find out asap if he were alive... He didn’t respond and C had two choices they were alive or they were dead? Either way she said fuck it, Imma hope he’s alive and imma call Bellamy every day like the pal™ that I am, not even thinking like this: ‘imma talk to lexa bc she’s the love of my life and it’s literally just been 2-3 months since she got put in the flame and the flame is on Earth with me so I’m at peace.’ Like why wasn’t that canon instead?? Instead we got ‘I still have hope’ @ B 2199 days later.

The platonicness of Madi looking at Bellamy only and going ‘Clarke knew you would come’ and grabbing him by the hand like she’s his BFF? (that’s Clarke’s BFF Madi, get your own!) sorry but Madi has never met him in her life but she’s like ‘Clarke’s in trouble’ and suddenly B has been kidnapped by a kid. The rest of spacekru left alone in the forest to figure out their own shit bc B said ‘gtg save my bestie brb’ - NOT EVEN, he straight up left them stranded LMAO. (S6 in a nutshell tbh) Then Clarke in s6 has the audacity to look caught ™ when B casually brings radio calls up as friends would, he says it’s a lil pathetic and Clarke becomes the literal sun and B becomes the moon, shining all the laughs right back at her. Meanwhile, Clarke’s large ass pupils are drinking in all this HAPPINESS - not to reach but was that an example of life being more than just surviving? We actually have time for jokes and banter now? Fck Yeah ✨✨

What’s funny is the fact that Jordan knew about the head and the heart convo from s4 because B must’ve told Monty/Harper somewhere between being on the ring and before going into cryo. Since s5 was canon of what happened between returning to earth and going into cryo, logic leads me to believe Bellamy talked to marper about the head and the heart on the ring. It’s funny how Bellamy still got emotional when she’s brought up 6 years after ‘her death’ (Clexa parallels anyone?) and funny how determined he is to honour Clarke’s last words (be the head so their friends survive) only to say ‘I don’t need you anymore’ under psychosis, is that a trauma I see? 👀 soz, did I miss the season Bellamy said he needed Clarke? Only Clarke says the word need (‘I need you’, ‘we need each other, Bellamy’) unless that’s what he meant when he said ‘you got it backwards’ (@ Jaha saying you keep her centered)or when he whispered ‘I’ve got you for that’ or when he shouted ‘I CAN’T lose Clarke... we can’t lose her’. Either way, I love platonic soulmates that need each other.

(Randomly just remembered when B had that nice pal talk with Wells about how Clarke never sees him when Finn’s around, lolll what?? Weirdo. BC parallels with Wells and Clarke? Yes pls)

Tell your bff you love them challenge ft. Clarke who said ‘u look fine today, sad boy so I’mma look you over from the tips of ur toes to the top of ur head platonically then tell you you’re special and that your sis will come around’ and B who canonically says ‘Clarke, if I don’t see you again-‘ only for Clarke to be like ‘you WILL’ before B even finished his sentence - it’s rude to interrupt your friends when they’re talking Clarke! He was only gonna say ‘may we meet again’ anyway bc for some reason y’all bffs don’t canonically say ‘I love you [bro]’ and maybe B knows it’s because you hate I love yous and don’t say it unless you think it’s goodbye forever.

It’s in how Clarke puts Bellamy at the same level as Madi and cannot face Bellamy in her mind space, despite him being alive, because she thinks that he thinks she’s a monster - she cannot see her platonic pal’s love, I love that trope. It’s in how Clarke says ‘I’m not leaving you’ because her biggest regret was leaving B in the pits (but also the time she left him after MW) and it’s in how Bellamy says ‘I won’t let you die’ after letting her die twice now, I call that growth. So J mocks their weird relationship and B is like ‘lols I know’. He has a girlfriend who lied to him about her past during the 6 uninterrupted years they spent on the ring and he starts an argument with her seemingly out of nowhere (after watching Clarke dance with the doctor) and lying that at the last party he was at, he couldn’t protect his sister when we damn well know that the last party he was at was Jasper’s, does echo not know about Jasper? Did no one (Bellamy) tell her? He didn’t have to say ‘the last party I was at’ he could’ve easily said ‘at the party on Ark’. The way he even said this sounded like he was telling Echo for the first time what happened to his sister... they didn’t talk about the reason he ended up on the ground whilst on the ring huh? When Echo says something reasonable, he snaps that this is about feelings and that he never knows how she feels about anything... sounds like he’s projecting but I’m not going to tell you how to interpret it. Then when Echo opens up about her past, B says ‘you told me you didn’t remember your parents’. I love watching becho development because it’s clear how becho are not as compatible as we would’ve thought. (My headcanon up until s6 for them was that they connected over their similar childhoods and responsibility to their people and share the burden of the sins they’ve committed to live and grow together whilst finding peace in each other)

(This is just a snippet of how I see BC and I have no reason to be biased towards it. In fact, during s2-3 I actively made myself ship Clexa more than I shipped BC because I wanted that win for lgbt rep - yes, my mind is that extra that even without social media influence on my binge viewing experience, I felt that Clexa deserved E V E R Y T H I N G so believe me when I say I didn’t want this blarke life 🙃)

Everyone is agreed that they have an awesome non-sexual soulmate love? Yes? I admit, they COULD be platonic, depending on your definition of sexuality. Platonic is defined as ‘love or friendship that is affectionate/intimate but not sexual’.

If Clarke died next ep, bellarke will be remembered as platonic by those that believe sexual acts are what make a relationship romantic and remembered as romantic by those that infer sexual chemistry/feelings/thoughts in certain bellarke scenes.

Imo, it’s not logical to believe sexuality is only physical: it goes against basic common sense in that people would only be considered straight/gay/bi etc. at the point of their first sexual encounter and dating relationships would be platonic until the first sexual act within it.

Personally, I think romantic relationships arise with intention: the shared understanding of what you are offering each other (sexual acts included) and how you prioritise your person over all other humans.

It’s not crude to appreciate the intricacy of physical attraction or understand the implications of it driving the need to be as intimate as possible with someone. And the problem with bellarke is that there IS sexual chemistry and attraction. It’s established in season 1 and it’s made headlines - not that you should care- but both types of people (that would now consider bellarke platonic and those that wouldn’t) probably picked up on it because this aspect of their relationship was planned and written into the story. Longing and pining to just BE with someone is the pinnacle of romance and not only is it canon that bellarke look at each other with humongous pupils, it is also canon (through writing, direction and music) that bellarke prioritise each other, are extremely vulnerable to each other, always want to be ‘together’ do things ‘together’ no matter what. So I’m failing to understand why people don’t want to look at all the evidence and draw the clear conclusion: Bellarke tick every box for a romantic relationship except sexual acts and I think it’s a disservice to not recognise the reality of them as the epic love story that they are. Let’s not even mention the possibility that the reason they haven’t ticked that box is because they have given themselves over to their people in selfless duty or continued trauma from lost lovers.

I’m gonna conclude by saying I ship Clexa and Bellarke but with what’s going on in the story rn, bellarke are it for me. I’d say endgame but it could all change if there’s narrative to suggest otherwise. What I see happening by the end of the series is lexa being back (in what capacity idk) and either Clexa or Bellarke being party to the ‘I will love you forever but I will learn to love someone else so that we can chersish the relationship we have for what it is, not what it has been or what it could be, and be happy together forever’ while the other is canon endgame. Or maybe be by the series finale we’ll get endgame polygamy? - Now that’s edgy af! But those are best case scenarios lol.

Realistically, atleast one of BC are gonna die, Lexa will be brought back as Alycia but not into the real world (unless we get plot that finally exposes the mental space realm??? That sounds fucking dope tbh - they’ve been teasing alternate realities this whole damn show and what is more sci-fi than that? It would also incorporate the flame and Jason loves the flame and Clexa love the flame so??? Anyone wanna hire me as a writer?) and there’s endless possibilities really so I’m conflicted between hoping that Book 2 is less about tragedy/survival and more about happiness/life and knowing that hope for the 100 is offbrand and too much of a reach, with the evidence that we have but the writers could easily get us all there, man. I’m excited!

[0225pm]

good morning! it's currently 9:18AM and i'm so damn beat i want to ko already but i'm pooping rn hence i've decided to post something!!!! soOoOoo because i'm an overly attached gf who needs attention like 24/7 i actually went down all the way to han's place because i missed him hahahahahaha like, initially i was contemplating about it because....... 1, i was afraid that he might have fallen asleep 2, he might not be able to leave the house at such timing 3, he might get mad at me for troubling myself before traveling to his place, dayah wanted to meet up after her shift ended for supper and since i haven't really had anything for dinner i thought it was a good idea to fill my tummy first. so i met her at our usual haunt (the mcds near our place) and asked her for some advice about whether i should go over to his place or not. she was rather against it since it was already really late (about 12ish by the time we reached mcds) and even if we're to uber or grab down it will be really really late and she was kinda worried about my wellbeing since his area is rather quiet with little to zero human traffic at such a late timing unlike our area - we have quite a fair bit of shops that are open 24/7. she also said i must be so obsessed with han to the point that i'm willing to travel all the way there so late which tbh is true la hahaha honestly i don't mind traveling anywhere he is, except maybe if i have to buy a plane ticket or smth la bc your girl is broke (；▽；) but anyway i ended up saying fuck it and just decided to go je because i'm gonna make "go je" one of my life mottos now (half kidding about this bc i'm still a coward and i'm forever thinking about the "what ifs"). and booked an uber around 1:45AM almost 2 i guess!! it was considerably cheap!!!! like $9 for the ride after discount. and wah u know how hard it was to try and surprise han HAHAHAHA i was trying to lie my way through to not make him suspicious of me by asking him to play ml together (another tactic to keep him busy so he won't fall asleep!) and then he got a lil mad bc i kept asking him to wait and wait so he played like i think 3 rounds of brawl while waiting for me to come online hahahaha but hoho little did he know!!! during the last round i told him to lemme know when his game was ending and when he finally texted me, i immediately called him and then asked him if he can come out. i'm not sure if he was taken aback bc he said no at first so i asked if his parents were asleep already and he said no LMAO i was soOo shocked but i didn't rly feel disappointed bc i know that was one of the possibility of him not being able leave the house and i actually brought along some things to keep me busy while i wait (my drawing stuff and a book i'm currently reading). then he asked me come out where? if go out he won't able to so i told him to just come down then cus i'm here and he was like "ok u wait there" AND TADA!!!!! my surprise visit was a success???!?!!!?! he asked me what i was doing there while grabbing me into a tight embrace hehehehe he looked genuinely happy and i'm happy too!!!!! he even brushed his teeth (i could smell the mint) before he left the house so that his "breath won't stink" quoted bc that's what he said hahaha lmao so cute rly!!! oh how i've missed him :') 3-4 days felt so longgGgGgg uGhhH and then we walked towards 7-11 cus i told him my breath prolly stinks since i just had macs so i wanted to get some candies to mask the grossness of the spicy nuggets i had hahahaha but he wasn't even bothered and leaned in for a kiss haisSSssssSss i spent a fortune (ok not rly) at 7-11 man like from just wanting to get candies, i ended up getting all sorts of things - a drink, ice cream, an onigiri. the amount u pay for convenience sake :') and then we decide to sit around mccafe and played a round of ml which we lost bc he didn't realised that his data was all out *rolls eyes* HAHAHAHA and then bc we were trying to conserve both our phones battery lives, we decided to stop playing and that was when i could really look at his face sighHh idk how he can look so good all the time wtf meanwhile i look like a kentang (this is true i have gained the weight i lost hahahha but good la this shows that i'm happy right) and then he went on and said "now dunno what to do right cus cannot play ml alr" and i was like nahHhh it's fine and then he looked at me and went all "is it you bored?" and i shook my head hahahah yallllllll idk about him but i don't think there will ever be a time that i will feel bored just looking at his face and basking his in presence sia like i can't get enough hahaha and then he took my phone and went through my camera roll of junk (i have 12k over photos) so i asked him for the password to his phone and he just went like this ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (damn taik rly) so i kept asking again and again and he just ¯\_(ツ)_/¯!!!! and finally said "theres some past stuff i haven't deleted yet not bc i want to keep them for memories but bc i'm lazy and idw u to see them there since it's not deleted" and i was like???? why?????? didn't u delete them???? then????? then he wanted to unlock his phone for me to let me see but i was like nah u kno what i'm not gonna get my feelings hurt bc maybe there are intimate photos inside too so i rather not look at them and he was like "no there's no intimate photos la" but it was like it's ok!!! :) and then i snatched my phone back from him since i felt like it was kinda unfair that he could see all the photos i have with no secrecy. but then he took his phone and went on a "deletion mode" clearing unwanted photos in his phone while showing me photos he had of me in his gallery!!!! i looked so!!! cute wtf HAHAHAHA like there was a few photos where i actually think i look quite cute and which i've never seen before bc he didn't send it to me wah damn selfish keep for himself HAHAHA JKJK but ya most of them were during my blonde/silver hair days tho sighhhh i rly miss having light colored hair tbvvvvh :( and then he gave me the password to his phone!!!!! wowowoow i never knew that such a day would come (no i'm not being loyar buruk ok hahahaahah) and gave me the freedom to look through his phone (but i never did actually hahaahha bc i was busy scrolling thru my 12k worth of photos instead wth i missed my chance!!!!) even when he went outside for a smoke and left his phone with me i didn't even look through his gallery wth so dumb i could have sent the photos to myself!! but ok ya then i wanted to pee so i asked him to accompany me (bc the toilet is the one at the food court and even though it's relatively clean, the atmosphere was still quiet since it was only around 4+AM in the morning). then we walked back to his place and sat at the void deck - he told me stories about his encik at the station and showed me a few diss track videos between some youtubers and this one really cool short stories videos of which i've forgotten the name of, i will have to ask him later!! and then around 630-7AM i decided to leave the place and instead of taking grab or uber back home i insisted on taking the train and bus bc i wanted to listen to an updated playlist of music that i had synced earlier on BUT LOL WTF apparently ZERO music got synced into the phone and my journey was kinda half shitty bc i thought that i can finally listen to some new tracks but i ended up just listening to the 200+ old music in my phone. not that they're bad music but it has been about 3 months since i last updated my playlist so i've been listening to the same old tracks for quite some time already. but anyway!!!! i still had a great time bc at least i managed to see han today ^^ i guess it's something to get me through the rest of the day and till tomorrow's shift. ok this took like rly long to write and i'm actually done pooping. time check: 10:09AM!! i'm gonna shower and remove my makeup before hitting the hay!