#anyway haaands!

[books-books-smolderinglooks]

Worship.. ♥️🧡

[zamjd]

Of Optical Illusions and Cloud Formations

DWASDJHWAJSHD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA💕💕💖

Love, me love the fanfic so much :))) by @perpetual-stardust

Apologies the qual is horrible, I should have used a bigger sized canvas ;-;-;-;;-;-

Anyways yippe! I'm done, please go read the fic- the writing is really good and it's so-sososososso AA

smaller shots undercut w/ image text typed + Explanation

These are some personal headcannons for Y/N :DD I like to think they have the equivalent nerd love for clouds as much as I do ^^

(Texts: Daycare Assistant Y/N (Except they really like Clouds)

I call it the Alto Collarus *Full name is actually: Undulatus Alto Collarus, It got shortened bcs it sounds better

If a child gets curios on what the clouds are, Y/N will not hesitate to squat down and explain each in a way that children finds entertaining

(Both are kept in the security desk))

One of the first interactions in the story :) Jazz haaands~!!

(Text: Y/N: Which is why we'd only be six feet away from the opening as opposed to standing in the debris of construction

Moon: Hmm, I think you are forgetting one part that has yet to be mentioned...

You said we, last time I checked, you do not have a wire of which you can use

Plan failed)

This was a funny interaction, I wanted to play with the expressions here and my own interpretation for both isabella ad Dominic- Though I should have took my time on their colors ^^; hehe

(Text: Isabella: Mr. Sun! Do you love the color of the sky?

Sun: Hmm! I don't know! I think it'd depond on... which one.

He knows (Does he know I have a Tumblr??, Do they have Tumblr accounts??? DO THEY KNOW SANS?????))

DWASKHD AUGHH MMMM AAAAAAAAAA💖💖💕💕💐💐💐💕💖💖💕✨

THIS FUCKING- STARDUST- AAAAAAAAAAAA- WHY ARE YOU SO GOOD AT WRITING IM GONNA BITE YOU(/j) CRYING DURING THIS PART I- THIS WAS SO GOOD- PULLING ALL MY HEART STRINGS AND I WAS SUPRESSING MY SCREAMS WHY ARE YOU RAAAAAH!!!💕💕 (IDK IF YOU CAN SEE IT BUT THERE'S THE SOOT TRAIL UNDER Y/NS EYE AAAAAAAAA UDHAUSHDJH RAAGHH!!!! HE SO CARE AAAAAA)

[iicarused]

Hey Queen 🤭 thanks for the absolute fuckin' heart attack this morning of tagging me alongside some of my favorite hazbin writers-

Anyways have my Striker brain rot;

- mans got that western charm, calling his s/o poppet, dame, doll, darling.

- enjoys the intimacy of a night in at a campsite or a lodge as opposed to 'going out on the town'

- Striker only drinks the good shit. Top shelf whiskey like Dalmore or Glenmorangie.

- he likes sarsaparilla, as well as apple cider (but won't drink it up public usually, considers it a 'weak' drink)

- I've got the headcanon that because he's an imp mutt (mixed with a shark demon) he got the sharks eyesight which is absolutely shit, but the imp side gave him snake like vision? Sees heat and cold better then anything.

- it does mean however that Striker knows when you're cold as shit and like the gentleman he is, plops his jacket on your shoulders without a word.

- love languages of acts of service and physical touch(?!?)

- his tail would wrap subconsciously around your waist in crowded areas so he has the assurance you haven't been lost in the sea of imps.

- hey hey you know the cowboy hat rule. That.

- basically if you wear a guys akubra (my aussie is showing) or cowboy hat, the saying is 'if you wear the cowboy hat you have to ride the cowboy'

- its the law trust me,don't look it up. No but really its like a known thing in that community I find it so funny

- anyways I'm stealing his hat, have a good day bestie <3

- Kotte

save a horse, am i right

all of these are so true, it’s exactly how i see him eso as a striker muse😭 i love him

i feel like he wouldn’t ask you to be his s/o upfront, especially if he genuinely cares about you and doesn’t want you wrapped up in the lifestyle he lives. ON THE OTHER HAAAND, if you both work in a similar field — he may let that slide

placing his hat on the top of your head whenever at a downtown bar. his tail hooking around your waist and pulling you against his chest, offering a hand towards the poor imp that tried flirting you up by the pool table.

“‘m striker — couldn’t help but notice you sweet talkin’ with my sugar from ‘cross the room — i didn’t appreciate that all that much.”

smooth talker, it’s just embedded into him!! the most poetic man you will ever meet, more so than a specific radio demon you’re acquaintance’s with. beautiful cursive writing because he doesn’t want a certain voxtek to know who the assassin is speaking to, so he writes to you instead.

all of his letters start with “my dear.” “my sweetheart.” “my pumpkin.” a tad territorial and needing to emphasize that whenever he can!!

brings you all types of flowers, gifts, or does anything for you.

i love striker so much

[imjustemmi]

ooh nooo my haaand sliped noo :( Anyway here cool evil superman form My adventures with superman

[leffee]

Welcome back to Moose asking the most random questions she can think of :)

Anyways... which spot on each of the pets is their favorite place to be kissed? (Hand, neck, lips... stomach maybe, etc.)

Oh I love this question, it is lovely. Let us go with Vinnie first, because of course

Vin-Vin -His neck :D. I headcanon that his neck is incredibly sensitive but since he likes being stimulated it's a good thing for him. Kisses there as well as any other sort of affection with mouth or not is wonderful for him and he will melt. But like, he really likes being kissed literally everywhere.

Zoe - Haaands. I'm still going with her being used to normal romantic stuff so kisses anywhere on the face don't quite affect her as much anymore. But hands? Oh boy, it's so gentlemanly and elegant and she loves it in any way, but she has a certain likeness for when the other one gets on one knee, takes one of her hands and kisses it.

Sunil - anywhere on the face besides lips. Like, he still likes being kissed there, but it's not quite his favourite because it can be quite stressful for him, as in he might overthink if he kisses back in a good way. But that's not a thing for the rest of the face where it's comforting instead, so anything like cheeks, nose, forehead etc etc goes.

Russell - lips, a classic but it makes him feell right because it's like the spot - not just anyone would kiss him there, so when he is being kissed there he knows it's special. Also, he's a little shy about being kissed almost anyhere else, lips is just kind of a safe spot for him.

Penny - lips too, she thinks it's super romantic and nice and just... she loves it, what's not to like about it? It's not like she's like Zoe who is used to being kissed on the lips. In fact, it's so special that despite liking it so much she'd actully rather have those kisses not to often so when they do happen she can appreciate them more.

Minka - her arms :D, she likes it when someone kisses her arm from the shoulder to the hand and back. She's not sure why, maybe it's because she uses her arms a lot since she's a painter so it's nice to have the appreciated like that? Oh well, whatever's the reason she does love it

Pepper - her face, like Sunil but for her this also includes lips. She has a special fondness for her nose being kissed too. Of course she's rather flustered and embarassed about it so you might not get it out of her so easily, but you will see it from her reactions if you look closely enough.

[the-jam-to-the-unicorn]

I found it on TikTok but I can't put the link here 🥲 but I'll try anyway. Here 🤞

https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSYBLQeFU/

I could open it, thank you!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

And can we talk about how cool Olena flipped out the sunglasses and put them on?! 😄

Aaahhh, I would laugh to know what they talked about. 😄

AND THE HAAAND

AND SOME DOUBLE HAND HOLDING

😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

Olena was really cuddle-needy this time. 😁

[dreamingpartone]

isn’t it just like the sea to come between you and me...

[reidsbookclub]

Grecyyy hi! How was your day?

Im making collages and

handshandshandshANDS HANDS

Anyway that's it, hope you're having a good friday!

JEANIE HIII!

OMG HAAANDS. 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

They are so BDDJBD he 😵‍💫😵‍💫ok I need to stop.

tagging Rosie because she’d love to see this pic @samuel-de-champagne-problems

[cute-sweet-corgo]

Oh nooo my haaand

It slippeeeed

Anyway there was a thing going around about what if there was calendar with smexy pictures but scp

[dontasktheradiodemon]

🎶 "Gueeess who got their haaands on a new musicaaal~!"

❌ Pretend you can hear him singing that. So a while ago you guys tried to talk Alastor into watching some mortal realm show called Hamilton. There's FINALLY a copy of it in Hell. A production company planning to put on the show got hold a recording and someone on the crew passed us a copy. I'm not naming names, but Charlie's got theater connections.

❌ Anyway, since so many of you wanted Alastor to see the show, I thought it'd be fun to type up his reactions as he watches. If you've got any particular songs you wanted his reaction to, send us a message and I'll poke him when those come up.

🎶 "If the show doesn't live up to the high praise you people have lavished it in, you're all obligated to watch 1776 in penance."

[ichayalovesyou]

Broken Bow parts 1 & 2 (Live Reaction):

Ah, so we’re kicking off with smarting up Archer’s prejudice against Vulcans that I know from all my Vulcantology research he grows out of. Neat.

Oh shit Klingon on earth?? Look at those glorious locks! Who are these weird squishy bendy dudes?? Oh that shiz EXPLODED. I’ve got my yeehaw phaser rifle and I kills a Klingon- fuck is THAT how the war started?! Whether or not that’s stupid remains to be seen.

Wowwwww this theme song... is... a lot. Star Trek, bruh, since when??? No. Just... no. Oh hey it’s Archer & Trip a lil’ light fantastic! Ngl Trip’s actually cute. Oh wow they really don’t know Klingons. Oh hey Phlox is here! I get where Archer is coming from about the plug pulling thing, even if Klingon culture is very “HONOR!!” and stuff. Even then, wouldn’t it be detrimental even to a warrior race for them to die when they can be healed?

Vulcans just love acting like everyone else is stupid don’t they? Wow everyone is racist at like, everybody (aliens wise) this definetly has established itself as pre-Federation. Ope! More new characters! Baby ensign dude (Travis!) and British ship’s engineer(?) oh hey it’s Hoshi Sato!! Oh look they’re acknowledging that aliens speak more than one language on their workds finally!! Behold T’Pol! She doesn’t sound like I thought she would? (Idk what that means lol but yeh)

Ohhhh man Trip, Vulcans don’t do haaands my dude, didn’t you get debriefed? But also would it have killed her to explain? Communicate damnit! Give us a speech elderly white boy! Yeehaw warp engines!! Cool speech call back or really it’s Kirk (& Picard and prob Pike soon) Doing the callback to Cochrane!

Oooh shady time travel aliens are back!! Phlox is here! I always got good/fun vibes from him, like, a lil’ creepy but in an entertaining way! Travis is adorable and I love him already, space station boyyyyy. THREE, THREE WHAT?? Travis’s generation are called Boomers?? LOL it makes sense that we’d have a baby boom after planetary colonization became possible but that’s practically a derogatory term now 😂

Time for a dinner chock full of microaggressions! Yup I was right, wowwwwwww everyone is being secret awful (T’Pol not so secret awful) but yeah I can see where all that VHS racism stuff comes from. Lol, oooooo Hoshi & T’Pol having a lil’ cat fight, Archer is such a dad lol. Poor Sato is so fucking stressed it’s okay gf! The ship is just not working and you’re learning Klingon and there’s an invisible alien aboard its FINE!! OH SHIT THAT KLINGON GOT KIDNAPPED!!!!!

Oh so the engineer’s name is Reed okay, oh this is the one with the Suliban. Wow T’Pol is kind of a bitch! She is just belittlement after belittlement, she’s like Spock but WORSE. Like, I’m definitely starting to understand Archer’s resentment toward them is coming from, not that it’s right, but it is understandable. Especially Vulcans have been having this sort of attitude toward humans (and other species) this whole time. Both races clearly have a LOT to learn.

Oh so this Suliban dude is a GMO, I actually freaking love Phlox. Good job Trip tryna bridge the gap between T’Pol and Archer but ooof still too salty. Oh wow! We’re going to Rigel for the first time okay?! Neat! Oof our Klingon boy out here getting interrogated oh shit! It wouldn’t be an earth 2000s scifi without a skanky bar and funky alien strippers. Uh oh Trip is about to make a mistake, oh thank god T’Pol stopped him *big exhale* everything is so new to us! It’s so interesting!

Ew creepy lady why u kiss him??? Oh it’s the “alien woman has to do (explicit/romantic action) to do (thing)” trope 🙄. Oh so there’s time travel shit going on??? Okay!!! What?! Okay! Man the GMO Suliban can do some seriously freaky shit! Okay I love Travis & Reed they’re cool, Reed is suave and Trav is adorable! OOp ARCHER GOT SHOT THE LEG! Close call close call!! Oh ffs T’Pol don’t take command, everything you’ve shown us so far is that you think humans are shit, hey maybe she’ll surprise me.

Ugh this is about to be- aaaaand it’s unnecessarily sexualizong T’Pol 🙄🙄🙄🤮🤮🤮. Trip can you please not call T’Pol out and be racist in the same sentence, I’d rather you just do the former please. OH YAY! T’Pol did surprise me! Good job T’Pol (and Trip... kinda... I guess). “One good turn deserves another” good line, but “doesn’t sound very Vulcan” is proof Archer really doesn’t understand Vulcans! Or at least not what they aspire to. Ohhhh Kay NOW we’re working together! Good! Good!!

I wonder who creepy time lord dude is. Sato THANK YOU why, WHY don’t starships have seat belts?!?! Makes no goddamn sense. Oh I was wrong earlier! Reed’s a pilot and Tucker’s the engineer, okay! I wonder what happened between this episode and Discovery (being the next closest in the timeline) that makes us enemies with the Klingons? Travis out here teaching Tucker how to drive I’m sure this will end well. I’m low key starting to get Bones-Spock energy from T’Pol & Archer. FURST PISTOLS WITH A STUN SETTINH HELL YEAH!

Alright alright, T’Pol is growing on me, awww Archer is soft! “U okay?” I can vibe with that! Hell yeah! I kinda wish I knew Klingon so I knew what this dude wa saying (but I’ve already got my hands full with Vulkansu). Archer why in the fuck are you wandering around?! Do you want to get caught/not found!??! Stay put dummy! Aaaand there’s the BBEG, oh, and he’s Suliban! Oh good thing that laser pistol is set to stun (oh and he dodged). Oooh scary transporter lmao.

Uh oh, was it al for nothing are these dudes gonna kill him anyway? Oh, no! Good so they just cussed Archer out lmfao. Thus the saga begins! Abandon yo grudges and pride Archer my dude, vouch for T’Pol hell yeah! Alright! I hope these two become friends hell yeah hell yeah! Time to boldly go say hi and introduce yourself to all these new aliens! Heck yeah!!

God I’m sure there were plenty of annoying ass Trekkies who were like “iT’s nOt rEaL sTaR tReK” like, how?? Because the costumes look different and they’re exploring a new time period and themes?? 🙄🙄🙄 gimme a BREAK with that shit, honestly. So far it’s been pretty interesting! Every Star Trek is Star Trek!

[cherrychenry]

all i want ships that aren't endgame version

I found a guy, told me they'll be endgame

He held the script held their future in haaand

And he's perfect on paper but he's lying to my face

Does he think that I'm the kinda girl who will believe it anyways?

And there's one more boy, he's from my past

He did something but it didn't last

'Cause the second I figure it out he pushes them away

And I won't fight for love if you won't make them endgame

And I say that I'm through but this song's still for theeem

All I want is ship that lasts

Is all I want too much to ask

Is it something wrong with me

All I want is a good writer

Are my expectations far too high

Try my best but what can I say

All I have are fanfics at the end of the day

But shouldn't that be enough for me

Ooh ooh ooh ooh, ooh ooh

And I miss the days

When I was young and naive

I thought the perfect couple will at least once kiss

Now happy ever after it don't come so easily

All I want is ship that lasts

Is all I want too much to ask

Is it something wrong with me, oh

All I want is a good writer

Are my expectations far too high

Try my best but what can I say

All I have are fanfics at the end of the day

And all I want is for that to be okay

thanks for listening 🤠

[toshio]

here's some tea: the theme song by leona lewis for final fantasy xiii was so good.

[etoilebleu]

ellanor phillips, marvel oc, a bullet point briefing to better understand the character and how to interact. full profile link is HERE

a girl who’s family moved to new york in 1930 with the american dream in mind. father a landscape artist who sought to design grand topiary and floral beds for the big city’s hotels and lavish gardens of the wealthy.

I HC that ella moved to brooklyn and most likely grew up alongside the circle of friends in that area with STEVE ROGERS and JAMES ‘BUCKY’ BUCHANAN BARNES. to what extent and how intertwined into their past for either party is completely up to the mun of these characters if interacting with them!

ellanor did not take part in the war, she continued being a waitress at a popular diner called THE SPOON AND FORK while paying her way through art school.

unfortunately the diner was the exact coordinates to where the bomb would land when fired by HYDRA. they did not want to experiment on their own people and wanted to keep america on their toes, even if the war was already over. there were four patrons, ella and a cook inside.

the bomb was not an explosive bomb, it exploded a smoke and force blast that was blue in color.  because of its nature and unsure of its chemical warfare, all victims inside the diner had to be frozen until they could possibly figure out how to ‘decontaminate’ them and keep americans safe from a potential biohazard. the diner was also burnt to the ground.

they did not figure it out until after the first attack on new york city in 2011. upon unfreezing, only three people had survived, one of them being ella. the other two could not cope and were humanely...put down (SDSAJDSAKJD)

agent coulson was apart of this case and was impressed by ella’s coping and understanding so he kept her close to work alongside him with shield. plus, he secretly needed to keep an eye on her in case she was not safe upon unfreezing.

during events in 2014 (CA:TWS) shield had figured out the bomb back in 1947 was one of the weapons HYDRA had made when they had the tesseract, powering it with an essence of its core ( the space stone ) and ran as a test.

by this point it was known HYDRA had infiltrated shield and it was a grave mistake to have her there since they would be wanting one of their possible test subjects back to run further testing on. did they know this would happen? did they know this was where she would be? x files theme???

possible drama with that during (CA:TWS) assuming she doesn’t get captured (yay). ella continues her work (in summary, human relations) but protecting the avengers and super people alike.

her work connected her with a lot of people and she was able to assist in protecting and hiding the targeted avengers.

during the events of end game, she did what she could to help. she survived the snap, continued helping misplaced people find their way for the 5 years.

during the events of infinity war, just being around all stones had awakened something within her. ( not activated at the time ) and after the battle and everything seemed to be normal--her powers awoken. she could open portals to different dimensions.

(also pls note I read some marvel comics but not a lot and have some comic knowledge but I’ve had this verse since 2019 SDJSADS so if you’re like..multiverse madness who..LEAVE ME ALONEEEE u can rip this story from my COLD DEAD HAAANDS )

anyway you’re free to like this if you want to interact with her as well, notes are fine!

[potter-pavlikovsky-popchyk]

awww thank you fren you da best! i will probs try my hand at these since they’ll be fun and cute style not like perfect.. um, comic style kinda is what i mean. i wanna do some sketches for that mv idea i got from 1994 - cavetown too actually that triggered me to think of these tbh. anyways im sorry i type so dang fast and have so many spelling errors my dyslexia got haaands these days XDD also auto correct hates me   (i havent had time to look yet but if i find it or any other good ones to project onto i shall share)

You guys I went through old pics to try n folind something and I saw some baby pics look

Yes that is in fact me as a baby with a beer. I asked my mom like wtf and she was like oh it was probably empty we just probs thought it would be funny. I caaaant with my parents. Smfh had to share cause now I’m like imagine baby Boris 🤧🥺😭🤌🏻💕. Sorry I’ve been dealing with a lot of healing stuff so I just be comfort projecting onto fandom and happy/silly hc ideas to help cope.

Also not my parents dressing me in rainbows and not knowing I’d be queer lol love that.

[hua-fei-hua]

Extra Notes: Rhythm of the Heart Ch. 3

chapter is available on ao3 or ff.net

i chose crush by tessa violet for this chapter’s title bc y’know. all that stuff going on last chapter where i infodumped abt kiri’s actual motive being “ugh i like him but the idea of being vulnerable and real scares me” and so now he’s going out w/his crush and it’s just like. idk man hanging out w/your crush be like that

and also all the bits where it’s like “holding haaands” like touch touch touch touch touch wheee

this is the first chapter of the fic to actually mention the soulmates thing

i actually have this habit of forgetting abt it bc i treat it so casually tbh

idk if this is a good thing or not tbh but i mean like spoiler alert they are soulmates anyway but how they find out is part of the fun

when i needed to have a long, private chat w/cody the almost-fake-boyfriend and the band room was closed (meaning, no practice rooms), i’d take him on a long walk where we’d kinda talk about the thing along the way, but mostly at the place we were going

i’d honestly always wanted to have a long, dramatic talk on a swingset bc i think it would have been FUN and DRAMATIC and probably also a little POETIC but i never got the chance ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i probably definitely mentioned this in an earlier extra notes post, but it always surprises me with how much i end up projecting onto the characters for this fic hahaha

stuff like “pfft, no, [i know your name] i was just testing you” and wanting to hold smth bc Anxiety(tm) and stopping in the middle of the walk are examples

i also told people “the more you push the crosswalk button the longer it takes” a lot bc that’s how i got myself to stop spamming it so much, and surprisingly people believe it so i’m making this an urban legend now

the shiketsu stuff (i.e. the lockdown, bakugou previously having attended there, etc) will all be addressed and/or covered in the fic itself so gonna skim over that for now

however, if you’re also reading moment, you might have previously noticed references to bakugou being gone from ua for a time but still being present at band memories where it’s specifically mentioned that shiketsu was there as well. that’s just consistency across stories but yeah~!

“[camie] was just a prop” haha lol so fun fact when cody told me that he didn’t want any part of the fake dating to benefit him (before proceeding to repeatedly ask why it had to be specifically him), i told him, “[cody]. you’re a prop.” and i always felt kinda bad about that

the bit where kirishima just stops but bakugou keeps on going actually means a lot to me because despite the fact that cody often agreed to play along with my shenanigans, sometimes he’d sound a lot more like he was just humoring me and he actually hated the idea of doing it

so i had a similar moment with him where we were out on a walk, and it was raining and i had the umbrella and i just stopped, but he kept going even though he’d been the one to insist on having the umbrella. and i was like, “you don’t have to do this if you’re not gonna take it seriously, dude.” 

and i’d dropped down the umbrella bc i don’t care abt the rain and so we were just there, alone on the sidewalk, far apart and yet staring at each other, with the rain coming down on both of us, and it was silent and really fucking dramatic but yeah, that’s why the stopping bit means a lot to me

it’s also there bc even though this fic is told primarily from kirishima’s perspective, i figured readers would probably be able to pick up on some subtleties of baku’s character regardless

i think what i’m trying to say here is that “it makes bakugou realize he’s being kind of an asshole”

while this isn’t my first time writing krbk as a pairing, it is my first time writing them where they’re the focus and have very little in terms of established relationships, so it often surprised me with how prickly bakugou was being

something else that would probably be good to realize now is that at this point in time, bakugou doesn’t actually like kirishima back. he means it when he says, “like as in ‘as a person’, right?”

this could also be interpreted as him kind of maybe starting to figure out that kiri has a crush on him and giving him an opportunity to confess

but yeah since this isn’t exactly a meet-cute, they have a really rocky dynamic starting out, but it’ll develop into something good later on as they get more comfortable w/each other

bakugou's "I have so many fucking questions" from last chapter means that he mostly just wants to know why now and what this all is gonna entail. 

the second you actually ask him what his questions are, they actually kind of fly out of his head bc he's also kinda just saying that in order to best express his disbelief. by the time after school rolls around and he's actually processed the event, he doesn't actually care anymore about kiri's motives and just wants to help, which is basically what happened here in this chapter

bakugou having a side preference when talking and walking is actually something i do. 

i’m not sure when it happened (might’ve been when i was a freshman and walking around w/a friend during pe, and she’d sometimes have a side preference bc her hearing ability varied in one ear from day to day; might’ve been when i got into band and i had to always be watching the center from my peripherals), but it’s basically just foreshadowing here

maybe you figured it out from that alone, but i’m not gonna say bc while the characters do notice it and think it’s a little weird, none of them say anything about it and just get used to it

“well, i’m not gonna grab your face and make out with you in front of everyone we know, if that’s what you’re getting at” :)

this is probably one of my favorite lines tbh

:) :) :)

anyway, so yeah all the bits from kiri abt ~*holding hands*~ n stuff is partly in reference to canon and oh my god the hand holding part of the bakugou rescue arc, but it’s also partly bc that was smth i mentioned to cody when we were first figuring out what fake dating for a night would look like

he was like “wait if i’m your fake boyfriend, like, i’m gonna have to get in character for this huh. what am i supposed to do, like?” and i was like “dude idk! hang out with me, maybe hold my hand??” and his face was extremely D: and so i was like “what, embarrassed? lmao” and he was like “yes. what if i wanted to save this hand for a girl i actually liked?”

lmao

there’s more to that story but it’s not mine to tell

also omigod finally we get to the fake secret dating thing

like i guess i was a little hesitant to tag the fic under “fake/pretend relationship” and “secret dating” bc i’m pretty sure for most people, the point of fake dating is to look EXTREMELY TAKEN to the rest of the world, and if there’s secret dating involved, then it’s at the point where the fake couple has confessed their true feelings after a point where the fake dating becomes an open secret, and then they start secretly dating for real while maintaining the facade of it all still being fake for whatever reason, but that is like, the opposite of what happens in this fic

the pretending-to-be-secretly-dating thing was smth i came up with w/my bff when i was still figuring out the details of the whole shebang before Committing(tm) and asking cody, and for me it was a necessary measure bc cody and i were going to spend ONE (1) night pretending to be dating at a concert that was taking place at one of our sister schools

basically, it meant that like 2/3 - 3/4 of the people performing in the concert knew who we were, and they all had friends who went to our school that they were in regular contact with, and so if it became “public knowledge” at the sister school that cody n i were “dating”, this would become a huge nuisance when the news inevitably came back to our school like two or three days later and fuck man now we have to pretend to date here too?? 

the solution? to pretend to be secretly dating to (well, reason zero, keep cody more comfortable bc he doesn’t like public displays of affection) one, give us an excuse to not look like a couple in the honeymoon stages; and two, if and when i had to use our “relationship” to complete my mission(s), we could add on, “but it’s not been made public yet, so don’t fucking tell anyone” to stifle the girl network and keep people from asking us about it next time the bands met up

our band was in the middle of the two-year prep period for the rose parade at the time, and since we were doing the rose parade in collaboration w/our two sister schools, we would be meeting up w/the people we saw at the concert within a month, so it wasn’t an unfounded idea

of course, i had plans of action that covered the possibility of cody n i “dating” getting out, but he backed out of the whole thing at the last second anyway so it doesn’t matter

ANYWAY, the secret part of the equation is something i really liked, and i wanted to keep it for this fic, but bc krbk was doing this as a more long-term thing than one (1) night, i needed to change things up a little bit, but the motives are essentially the same

people paying particular attention to bkg bc he’s ass. dm? that was actually from cody, whose main objection at first was, “i’m head drum major, everyone knows me and is paying attention to me at all times!!”

girls being absolutely ruthless about the spread of information? yeah, that’s called the girl network, and (you would not believe the amount of stuff i’d heard abt cody via the girl network) that is something mina absolutely would have a grip made of iron over

the bit about girls hyping up kirishima to mina if krbk breaks up pretty soon after she’s officially declared to be over him would be a problem bc in the girls’ minds it’s like, “oh my god he’s actually free now dude wait you haven’t actually missed out now’s your shot you can like him still dude” bc it’s all fresh y’know, and easy to slip back into that mentality of liking someone

i feel the need to again clarify that mina absolutely does not have any romantic intent towards kiri in this fic, and her letting everyone think that is honestly kind of a sacrifice on her part bc like. ew people knowing who you have a crush on and double ew if it’s someone you hang out with all the time. 

tbh it felt kinda weird having tdmm mentioned so casually as an established relationship but i mean, get this: i love them they were the first pairing i wrote for this au, so it makes sense in-universe to have it just be this given no one thinks twice about

“i don’t want to have to learn your taste in music that well” even though i most definitely mentioned this in the first a/n, i think now’s a good time to remind y’all that the soulmate gig is that whatever music you’re listening to atm your soulmate can hear as well

basically, the implied action going on here is that a form of casual affection (or form of showing off the soulmate bond) would be to do smth like humming along to whatever your soulmate’s listening to at the moment, and so krbk would have to learn each other’s preferred music really really well in order to be able to pull out something the other liked with essentially zero notice. 

also, bakugou’s basically saying, “your taste in music is probably shit and i don’t want to have to subject myself to it if i don’t have to”

“ ‘Nah,’ said Eijirou, as casually as he could after a pause as long as the one he’d just taken. ‘I’m not that good at lying, so I don’t think it’s worth the trouble.’ ”

*inhales* 

*starts screaming into the void*

okay so like aside from the fact that he’s telling the truth about being a bad liar IN THE MIDDLE of telling an ELABORATE FUCKING LIE, the long pause bit is sort of inspired by smth from (guess what) my elaborate drama w/cody

blah blah blah context isn’t important but basically i was vaguing abt smth that pertained to him, and he looked me dead in the eye and was like “it’s [the exact thing i was vaguing about], isn’t it” and i hesitated for so damn long (bc fuck i wasn’t supposed to tell him the thing) that if i said no, i’d look like a goddamn liar, so i broke and told the truth

but yeah, when in the middle of an elaborate lie, i took a long pause when confronted with a question that meant either breaking and telling the truth or digging myself into a deeper hole by blatantly lying some more, and i told the truth in a way that blew up in my face later

of course, for eijirou, this truth isn’t going to blow up in his face an hour after it’s told. 

:)

i actually kind of wanted to have a bit where kirishima’s just like “wait what four-year-old crush??” when bkg says he won’t let him take the decision back bc i mean, when you put it like that, holy fuck that’s an intense crush, and then bakugou would internally file that away under “smth’s not right here” bc how do you just not notice that a crush has been going on for four years. i decided against it bc

1. “we’re [all] in this together now” c’mon

2. bc i sometimes regret letting cody take back his decision at the last second, i wanted to solidify that difference between my experiences and what i was writing about by having both boys say, “hey. we’re committing to this, and we’re not going to back out no matter what happens” and meaning it.

i’d seen “bakubabe” thrown around in krbk stuff before, and while i totally agree that kirishima is the pet name type, there was always just smth abt using “babe” on a s/o that rubbed me the wrong way, so the bit where it was just like “aight that felt weird to say” was mostly just me trying to get used to typing it bc he probably will be using it again later

i’d like to think that bakugou picked up “hon” as a pet name (if you could call it that) from his mother, whom i think would probably call him n her husband “hon” a lot

if not that, then compared to my usual 95% confidence interval on writing bakugou in-character, i’m like 23% sure that baku calling anyone “hon” on impulse is in-character, but it’s also fun to imagine so i’ll let it slide

there was a moment in talking out the details w/cody that i told him, “okay, one last thing. [band pres] has to know everything” and he had this extremely unreadable expression on his face, but more in the sense that it looked kinda “oh shit” and i couldn’t tell what he was thinking than it just being ridiculous. 

the difference here is that there’s more context around cody’s expression that changes depending on how much you have, whereas with bakugou it’s just like a “what the fuck?” w/o any deeper meaning

“if i don’t have someone to talk to about all this, i will probably go insane”

i went months without telling the majority if not all of my squad about the elaborate web of lies and dramatics that i was involved in when it came to cody, and my mental health really did suffer for it because 

first of all, i don’t like telling lies, even little white lies or simply withholding the truth, but in order to keep the delicate social situation from positively exploding and hitting everyone with the shrapnel, i had to keep problems to myself, which leads into

secondly, i, like, need to talk about my problems, or at least write about them in a place where people will read and respond to them in some way. (i do have fic up for other fandoms where i closely map my experiences onto the characters and let people say what they will abt their actions, although it’s difficult to consider rhythm one of those bc the goal is to tell a story that merely draws from the experiences) it’s like, i know what to do when i hurt. i write, and i talk, and i use my words, so that i can understand how it feels and tune out its sharpness.

and i wrote about everything in excruciating detail in my diary, but because it was the basic equivalent of talking to a wall (yeah, you get it out, but you don’t always know what to do about it next), it really sucked, to put it lightly.

i told them abt it eventually and things got better tho like i’m fine now

so yeah. even though kirishima won’t be getting into as much of a sinkhole that i found myself in, i still wanted to put this line in there for myself, to at least provide him the external support he’d need in something as i guess emotionally complex as this

i did NOT suffer to wish it upon my fictional characters whom i want to give a neat little happily ever after ugh

“if [sero, kaminari, and i all] have to keep [the fake bit] a secret from [mina] [...] it’s all just gonna fall apart” oh hey look at that foreshadowing

“who the fuck would i tell” / “i was thinking smth along the lines of your friends” 

so unfortunately, bc of the nature of the bakusquad, bkg doesn’t really have a whole lot of friends in this au, especially no one he’d think worth talking to abt the fake dating thing. however, it wouldn’t weigh on him in the same way it does kirishima for reasons that’ll be discussed more in like... at minimum, mentioned in chapter 6, but not properly covered until chapter 19.

reasons that’ll be explored later in the fic, and he just has less to worry about in general. to him it’s just fake dating; there’s nothing emotional at stake for him until later on when surprise, “fuck, feelings” stuff happens

anyway, he does eventually come to trust jirou and become friends with her bc they have the shared solidarity of being the drum majors

okay so fun fact that ties in with moment, but i’ve been pretty careful to not describe kirishima as a redhead until they reach this point in time (december) bc he doesn’t start dying his hair until pretty soon before asking bakugou to be his fake boyfriend

what this means is that basically, in the few later chapters that’ll jump back to november (as well as any chapters of moment that take place before december), i might call his hair black

this is less of a plot point than it is a residual effect of my original plans for kiri’s fake dating motives of “he wants to be braver and come out of his shell and be more social and stuff, so he decides to go big or go home and ask bakugou, someone who kind of scares him and whom he’d never talked to before, to be his fake boyfriend”

i changed them bc i wanted to divorce the story more from my experiences and motives going into my own fake dating shebang, and also bc i feel like paralleling his canon desire to become braver by pushing himself to do good recklessly (in order to become a better hero) with wanting to become braver by picking out this dude to pretend to date (with my own authorial agenda of getting them together) would just be a bit of a disservice to his canon character tbh

in a way, i feel like keeping the hair color change as a reflection of his resolve to stick this through and face the questions the situation poses head-on is still a bit of a disservice to his character, so i might not even explicitly state his hair color in chapters happening before december. like i said, it’s not important at all; it’s just a random detail

“kaminari was at least a little addicted to the sandwiches at the deli” this is a reference to moment! just a minor easter egg tho

i have a deleted scene in my notes where instead of kirishima going “i don’t have money” to bakugou telling him to bet, he says “no i have sweet beefy arms, not sweet beefy legs” (to which bakugou says, “your fault for skipping leg day”), which would have led into the “make me” bit, but i decided against it bc it just didn’t sound right tbh

i kept the “make me” bit tho bc wow that’s just a good trope y’know

this was the first time in writing perfect harmony that the discord server kaminari, mina, sero, and kirishima share is brought up, though i swear i’d at least referenced it before

anyway, calling it “my idiot, my idiot, my idiot, and me” is actually a bit of a nod to the podcast my brother, my brother, and me

it feels very weird typing mbmbam out all in full and properly italicized like that lol

they would absolutely call it mi-mi-mi-me out loud

#kaminari-eats-bees is just their name for the general chat, and i have no idea where i got that idea bc it fell into my head one night as i was trying to fall asleep

anyway, their discord names are just their hero names, though within the server, their server nicknames are their first choices for a hero name, which is why mina’s “alien queen” instead of “pinky”

what this means is that some of them have different names between DMs and the server messages, although i don’t think that’s going to come up

as for why they’d do that, the answer is probably some concept of professionalism in other servers they might be in. like, my discord name used to be roast ze trash, but when faced with the idea of joining a zine discord under that name, i changed it to 愈花 bc i wanted to look a bit more professional lol

side note i chickened out on applying to that zine or joining the discord, but i was satisfied w/just having roast ze trash as a server nickname w/friends and never changed it back

anyway, the way discord messages are styled in the fic is different than the way i typically style chats in fics (particularly on ao3 where i’m actually allowed to have paragraphs justified to the right) bc of the simple nature of discord having a different layout than typical text messengers

it actually took a little bit of playing around before i settled on doing it the way i did bc while i had written a short group chatfic before, this was my first time writing out a discord chat log, and for the sake of accessibility (to people who might download my fics for whatever reason) i absolutely refuse to use ao3 skins. this has no relation whatsoever to the terror i feel looking at the code for ao3 skins and thinking about potentially editing them.

anyway, fun fact that isn’t shown in any published edition of the fic, but on my google doc, the characters’ usernames are all colored the way they would in an actual discord server lol

this has no relation to the fact that if i do not have different colored names in a discord chat, i WILL lose track of who’s talking, especially when scrolling through backlogs to track down a quote or whatever

i did my best to give the four of them at least slightly different typing styles (all while aggressively avoiding my own personal texting pet peeves (bias of me i know)), but i don’t think it showed too much here hahaha

i also don’t know how often mimimime logs will pop up in the fic, so maybe it won’t matter in the end

“bakugou facepalmed so hard, eijirou was pretty sure it would have knocked any more thinly-skulled person out cold” idk how clear this sentence was (bc it took some work to construct it in a way that made sense to me), but basically that’s kirishima’s very obtuse way of saying bakugou is a thick-skulled hardhead

bakugou offering kirishima a ride home is another bit that means more to me than might first meet the eye bc even though i couldn’t drive, i lived far from school (bc the district lines were wack), and i had chill parents, and so i’d often offer friends rides home if things were getting late, assuming i hadn’t biked to school that day ofc

i also have a soft spot for this moment bc of the way it hits kirishima that bakugou’s being, like, genuinely sweet here, in his own way. like, for most of the chapter, they’re bickering, or they’re being snippy and aggressive with each other, and then, right when kirishima learns to expect bakugou to get mad at him, he doesn’t. 

and idk man! at some point i just got used to people being annoyed when i ask for or offer things that when people respond in a way that signals their genuineness, i’m just taken aback a little, and i gave that response to kiri here

an alternate reaction to bakugou saying “i can drive” was kiri going, “what?! then why did we walk here?!?” to which bakugou says, “i don’t know!!” and then kiri laughs bc holy shit this is real, and this is what it’s like to date bakugou fucking katsuki, huh? 

i’m not entirely sure why i changed it, but it probably has something to do with wanting to show a glimpse of bakugou actually being well-intentioned by agreeing to this bc while bakugou katsuki isn’t necessarily a good kid, he means well most of the time, dammit.

overall, this chapter ended up being a lot longer than i anticipated, taking up more than half of the fic so far, and i was originally going to have them talk about more things, such as:

 more on boundaries in a “do not cross this line” way (vs. the “this is about as far as we’ll have to go” way that was covered) and

behavior in a “in this hypothetical situation involving people who each have different ideas of what we are, how do we act around each other” kind of way

but i have the opportunity to cover those sorts of things in a later chapter anyway

wow okay long notes post. there’s always a lot to talk about with this fic bc of its relationship to my complex, uh, past and dealings with similar experiences. hopefully, as the fic moves more into territory less related to my own personal experiences (thus becoming more fictional), the notes will focus less on explaining the authorial context and more on character relationship meta. it will eventually move back into events inspired by my dumb life, but like i said, it’s not a retelling, so we’ll have to see how those notes go then.

anyway jesus christ if you read all that, you’re hella invested in either this fic, my life, or both, and i’m pretty impressed. send your thoughts and/or further questions to my inbox (or comments section on ao3, if you’d prefer a longer character allotment lol)!! 

next chapter should be out next monday~