#anywah point is. <- hypocrit. bad at talking to people and frustrated when people are bad at talking to me | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

whilomm · 4 months ago

Text

desiring honesty and straightforwardness from others and really wishing people would just Tell Me Things but also being completely unable to just be straightforward and honest with people bc ive been taught that im Not Allowed To just come out and say things and i have to always dance around the subject and hint at things like. you would think realizig the hypocrisy there would make it easier to get out of these thought patterns but no my brain is still yelling at other people "WHY ARENT YOU JUST BEING HONEST AND DIRECT WITH ME" while im sitting here for an hour trying to figure out how to phrase st in an Acceptable Way and the most efficient way to hint at people.

#buzzy #'WHY WONT YOU JUST TELL ME IF IM BOTHERING YOU AND YOU DONT LIKE ME!!!'#(<- guy who is pathologically incapable of telling people 'youre bothering me and i dont like you')#bc unfortunately i am like this with Everyone #i feel like its a fucking mantra i have to tell myself #'maybe they arent being honest with you because they have the same issues you do and you need to cut them some slack'#'NO THEY HAVE TO BE HONEST WITH ME!!!' (<- once again guy who is NOT honest with them)#this isnt even always about negative things!!!#like 'i cant tell if this person is asking me to do something with them or just being polite and in a 'lets get coffee sometime!' way'#while i am also simply Dropping Hints instead of fucking asking them. HEY DO YOU WANNA GO DO SOMETHING #but i cant tell if theyre hinting back 'no' or if they arent catching the hints.#anywah point is. <- hypocrit. bad at talking to people and frustrated when people are bad at talking to me #'oh the autistic way of communicating is the best way' NO IT ISNT I AM SO FUCKING BAD AT THIS. ON BOTH SIDES.#i cant tell when people like me or hate me or are just being polite but i am also incapable of telling people when i like them or hate them #or im just being polite

0 notes