#anyhow i have a day off so i'm getting to those starters )

[ragesin]

         ❝ nishishi ! don't be shy, i made it just for you ! ❞ what is cradled in an outstretched hand but an offered handmade box ?  a day late  ( the human custom slipped the mind. don't fault him, he can't honestly be expected to recall each and every little thing they decide to make a holiday over )  but surely it's the thought that counts. it's a simple thing decorated in a eye catching white ribbon, the slight crookedness of the bow hinting the speed with which rough fingers deftly tugged it into place. customary affection inlaid atop velvet lining in three spaced rows, a freshly baked array of well designed chocolates begging to be eaten. some even carry the meticulous detail work shaping them into the visage of tiny piglets, a surprise flavour bursting with every bite. is it sweet ?  spicy ?  bitter ?  sour ?  an incorrigible mess of sweeping horrors not yet known to the defenseless tongue ?  just know that each were made with "love".

[kenmolly]

Hello! :D I would like to make an order!

Main dish: (Custom dish! Cyberpunk AU)

Beverage: (Cappuccino) (HP Lovecraft)

Personality: I really love reading books! I'm also very introverted but once I get to know to someone, I can be very nice and friendly :D When it comes to a love interest, I can be very shy (like a Tsundere type but not those BAKA **punches them** thing lmao), just mostly gentle :")

HAHAHAHAHDFBWIUF NOT THOSE- i hope you enjoy your meal by the way! i really hope I did this correctly- I'm not too familiar with the requested main dish (|lI.‸.)

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H0W Y0U M3T ?!!?1

⠀⠀⠀ "are you sure this would work? i've tried, but.."

"that's just because you're a starter. you were too overwhelmed and nervous, am I right? it's okay, you still did your best" you smiled gently at your subordinate, giving her a light pat on the shoulder.

"th-thanks, y/n.. I'm so sorry. I'll do better next time, promise!" she had a pause, "oh a-and, be sure to be careful out there too..!"

you smiled. your group had been planning out different routes to reach this 'boss' you call for months. this 'boss' had been ruining numerous lives, and even killing them; it's time for them to stop. it's hard to sleep knowing there are people out there suffering while you have the ability to stop it.

"alright, off I go! make sure everyone is in position and remind our leader to send out some bots" you waved her goodbye, quickly jogging off. there's no time to waste, you have to stop this as soon as possible.

30 minutes passed and you've finally reached the place; the boss' hideout. as expected, there are lots and lots of people guarding outside. 'alright.. i have to do it.' you rushed out to take those guards down, getting a few injuries while doing so.

then there's this one guy who shot your leg while your attention was on someone else. you yelled in pain, running off to somewhere a little safer to have a short rest. what are you supposed to do now? it might be hard to run around with this injury. you start to panic, trying to think of ways to continue this mission.

"hey.. you alright? you must be y/n; I'm lovecraft, someone who's apart of the backup. let me help you here, we'll go in together."

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H0W 1S Y0UR R3LAS1ONSHIP ?!!?1

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from that day on, lovecraft requested to start working with you so he could look after you at all times

he would always read books with you, and even share some books he read if he finds them interesting!

lovecraft adores you the most when you get all shy

you're so cute, he's lucky that you're unable to hear how fast his heart is beating

if you love spray painting, he wouldn't hesitate you do it with you!

unless he's super tired

but anyhow, he'd always end up following you to the place to do spray painting

I mean, how could he say no to you? he just can't get himself to do so

lovecraft's very sweet, he'd always look after you quietly no matter where you are or what you're doing

he would always be behind you (or beside if you request for it,) and make sure you don't get hurt or protect you from any trouble

he loves how kind and caring you are to your subordinates!

you were never like some other subleaders, always being mean and rude to their subordinates just because they have the authority

you're different, you'd always care about other's feelings and always helping them out

he swears he falls more in love with you every time he sees you taking care of others <3

I hc lovecraft makes the best noodles! so he'd definitely make them for you whenever you crave for them

[ make another order/make an order. ]

[when-theres-nothing-blog]

Violence.

It's probably a bad idea to post shit like this in here, but what the hell.

Okay, for starters, let's just make it clear:

I condone, yes. Most of the things/cases. Some i don't.

Anyhow, i don't encourage anyone to act.

And i'm not going to act.

I just write here about things i can't write anywhere else or talk about anywhere or anyone. Nothing more. So hold your horses.

What it's like to be drawn to violence?

When your head is full of torture and killing, anger and rage?

That's probably impossible to explain to anyone who hasn't got it in them.

When i was younger i hated people. Humanity. Well i still do.

But back then i didn't manage to control my self at all times, mostly i did, but every now and then something did just set me off and people got hurt. In these moments i had no conrol of myself, i just snapped and lash out. There was couple of times that i almost killed someone.

Top of those little accidents, i don't remember was i 13 or 14 years old, when i started to fantazice shooting someone.

No, even better, everyone.

I probably woul'd have, but i did't have access to guns. Maybe it's a good thing.

Anyhow, so i totally can relate to things like that and i understand.

Now when im older, much older (yuck), i can control myself. Okay, not 100% but pretty much anyway.

Only one time in my adulthood i have been thinking about really going to kill someone.

This was not because i just explode and act out, but because i wanted to.

It was that same urge than back then when i wanted to just gun down everybody. And it just grow.

I did fantazise it alot, all the time actually, i planned everything, i soak myself in it for months.

That bitch died in my head so many times.

I was so fucking angry.

Angry and so, so excited at the same time. I'm going to just fucking do it. Finally.

But in the end, i make a decision that i won't do it. But god how much i wanted to. I still do but i won't.

That was one of the hardest decision i have ever made.

I like my freedom too much so i won't take the risk of getting caught.

And that's it, the one and only reason why i don't make all my fantasy into reality. I want to be free.

Also i think that if i do it once, i just cant stop there.

No one knows me, the real me. No one ever has. Probably never will.

Some poor bastards has seen a little bits and pieces about me that i usually keep tightly hidden.

Is there even a real me, i don't know, i'm a fucking chameleon.

Now days i mostly keep to myself, because people just irritate me too much.