#anw i'm working on writing a fic rn

[wastingawayinmyroom]

teehee vent post 😃

very short actually

according to my mom my genetics say that i can't be bi and if i was bi she would notice

also she does not think the attraction i feel is real

she also said "you can't be bisexual i have done research and also you just want attention"

yea cuz u don't give it

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Write a book. I beg of you. PLEASE I mean it with my whole soul!! I've been binge reading your whole masterlist for the whole week now and if I'm not doing that I'm thinking about doing that and I can't get this out my head. I don't know how to explain it but reading your work feels like when youre with your mom in ur bed and she's caressing your hair and the lights are dim and she's reading you a bed time story and her voice is so soft and you're warm and almost drifting to sleep and basking in the absolute comfort and it's just a perfect haven except she's reading you geto and satoru angst (that just makes it better in my opinion) BUT fr your work feels so soft idk it touches me so deep I wanna kiss it's forehead and hug it so bad

ANWS, conclusion is write a book. I'll buy a hundred copies and never be normal again

Thank you for reading my rambling and thank you so much for writing such delicious works 🫶

anon i’m literally down on one knee YOU CAN’T SEND ME STUFF LIKE THIS WITHOUT A WARNING I??????????????? I ALMOST FELL TO THE FUCKING FLOOR????????? I GOT THE WIND KNOCKED OUT OF ME???????????????

i’m sorry in advance i wish i could tell you how warm this ask made me feel but sadly you broke my brain and i don’t think i have it in me to be coherent rn 😭😭😭😭😭😭

FIRST OF ALL???????????? i genuinely can’t tell you how much it means to hear that you binged my ENTIRE masterlist i could kiss you?? i sometimes worry that my fics are a bit too long and that it scares people away from reading them so knowing that you read them all? or even just a couple of them???? 🥺🥺🥺 anon i would move the sky and pick the stars for you. i would cut a slice off the moon if you told me you wanted a taste. etc etc.

AND ANON ;;;;;;;;;;; oh my fucking gooooddddddd I TEARED UP A BIT READING THIS what a heartfelt thing to say??? that reading my fics feels like a bedtime story from your mom ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️ that comment is gonna stay with me forever and ever i sincerely hope you know that COMFORTING AND WARM IS ALL I WANT MY FICS TO BE…….. so it means sm T_T sniffle sniffle.

yeah in conclusion anon i think i’ve fallen for you i’m reaching through the screen to give you the BIGGEST hug ever i’m spinning you around and everything 🫂🫂🫂🫂 THANK YOU SO MUCH for reading my fics and enjoying them and taking the time to send something so heartfelt my way 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i hope you have the warmest coziest loveliest day because you made my whole week <333

[ja3yun]

if this seems tone deaf w everything going on rn w that weirdo then im so so sorry but omfg i just finished "I'm a virgin, not a murderer" and im so crushed and sad and wtf wtf wtffff

i'll admit i've been putting off the finale bc i spoiled myself by going into the comments first and seeing ppl mourning bc they died 😭 but i just couldn't get this fic outta my head and i finally gathered myself and finish it and jfc i feel like i just got stabbed right through the heart

this is a testament to your writing, i went through so many emotions while simultaneously admiring the way u've added so much depth to their characters and relationship, like the feeling of always being on edge intertwined so naturally w the tender moments are so so so skillfully written. u've put ur heart and mind into this and i can see that in every worddd

I SO BADLY WANTED THEM TO BE HAPPYYYY 😭😭😭 idk if this has been asked before but was there any other endings in mind? like ik there's probably no way this won't end w/o the mc getting locked up and don't get me wrong despite them dying i still love the tragedy of the og ending, it ties their whole journey together in such a bittersweet way.

also god HEESEUNGGGGG 😭 he has no business having so much man written by a woman energy, jfc this heeseung is the only man i'd fall in love w irl like that's my babyyy 💔 anw he has been the most satisfying character growth i've read in a fic in a While, how he's so easily led by her in the beginning to then taking the initiative to... y'know 🥲

and i love love how much spine the mc has, the walls she's put up and the rough life she's been dealt with makes her so vulnerable and raw when heeseung just shows her pure kindness, the way she's so excited to explore an abandoned amusement park.... ik that feeling 🥲

i've kinda been ignoring it so far but jfc the smuutttt, toe curling, clawing up the walls, shaking, crying, trembling, i've been brought to heaven. no seriously the way u captured pure lust to raw passionate love making— im taking notes and studying, it's so perfectly paced and described like ur genuinely one of the best writers on here and i can't say that enough

anw im so sorry this got kinda too long but i can't help to write paragraphs to my fav writers of how much i've enjoyed their work, i cannot explain how grateful i am to have read such great fics for free like fr u are a saint, and i'll end this off w saying thank u and i'll genuinely love anything u wrote 🫶

listen i will ALWAYS take iavnam appreciation 🩷 that fic really let me explore character development and focus on the relationship and icl i'm so proud of it :(( thank you for reading it and taking the time to leave a message like this !!

there was three endings i had in mind (not including this one) which i don't think i've told anyone?? these are the rough ideas i had

they would escape on the boat and live happily ever after. a bit basic but a cute ending.

heeseung sacrifices himself, gets locked up, and yn gets on the boat and leaves him behind even though she desperately doesn't want to. i had an epilogue in mind that just detailed their letters to one another.

yn pushes heeseung off the cliff and flee. NOW DONT LOOK AT ME W THIS ONE OKAY i thought it would be a fun twist. she never really liked him, just needed him as a scapegoat if they ever did get caught.

i think the ending i chose was the best one icl but maybe the fleeing together one would have been cute too

[kthecutest]

Random talk

So I've kinda noticed a bit that my K birthday fic has been flopping real bad- (˃̣̣̥ ︿ ˂̣̣̥)

not that I'm trynna chase for views and stuff but just putting my other smut oneshots and drabbles in comparison to that over 5k worded essay- Idk- is it cuz i just included like one small smut scene? Maybe in a way y'all might have gotten tired of all the fluff and tornado-storyline ?

Is it perhaps cuz the plotline was too bad or the story overall was just not good? Or did i ended up making it too long so that people won't wanna take time to read it all no more (╥ᆺ╥；)?

Either way- Ik i overthink a lot but- I'll admit I expected at least 30notes but oh welp-

I mean personally i just kinda want feedback too, if yk it's not to your liking or if it isn't too great, I can just stick to writing pure smut next year on K's birthday (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

Tbh I don't really expect or look forward to retweets or comments, even if it's just likes it helps me out a lot-

Anw- to lighten up the mood ( 灬´ ˘ `灬 ) just some updates on my works rn- I'm pausing on working on the old requests piled in my inbox cuz rn I'm working on a kinktober series (smut only) for legal line! Sooo ig you can look forward to it!

Luv y'all sayonaraaa!

[aijee]

hi aijee!! i just binged all your meanie work even though i should be studying for finals oops and i love all your work sm can i spend 5 minutes inside your brain <3 you write about the complexity of the human psyche so well and some of the lines in idotsc brought me so much comfort as a newborn adult stumbling their way through life :') especially how joshua and wonwoo navigated doing something quite different from what their younger selves had envisioned and finding joy in it nonetheless!! i wanted to be a writer when i was younger but i didn't end up doing anything close to that (mostly bc i realized i'm an alright academic writer but a lousy creative writer lol); the way you write is so beautifully fluid and immersive and what i imagine i would have aspired to be like as an author, so tysm for letting prepubescent me live vicariously through that i'm sorry if this makes no sense or sounds weird sjhdfkljsfk now i'm doing a stem degree (peak asian moment) and i used to wistfully fantasize a lot about what my life would be like if i had actually given writing a serious attempt, but idots helped me be at peace with myself; i love the degree i'm doing, and i think i'm ready to let go of the death grip i had on all those what-ifs and just enjoy the reality i'm living out rn :) anw i hope life is treating you well and that you're happy and healthy <3 thank you for the chicken soup for the soul and the reprieve from studying xx

Reading fic instead of studying?? Classique. I strongly relate haha.

I see myself in your message, truly. I've wanted to be a writer, and a part of me certainly still yearns to one day officially publish something. I'm also in a STEM field! Though, maybe paradoxically, my academic writing could certainly use improvement. I end up doing creative writing more because STEM work is so fucking exhausting, isn't it? It feels like creative writing is my last thread of sanity in a field where Asians are a dime a dozen.

The love for IDOTSC in my inbox is so heartwarming. It's a piece of writing I hold so close to my heart because of my own experiences with stumbling through life, academics, career, and relationships while parading as a, as you phrased nicely, "newborn adult." IDOTSC was a platform for me to work on being at peace with myself, too, and be content with simply living life as it happens. I don't think my deathbed self would be happier if I were to be unforgiving with the course of my life.

Thank you for your kindness and vulnerability. :) I'm grateful to know there are people like you in the world because you're also a reminder to enjoy the now.

[maaarshieee]

HWOQMDHQKQ I CRIED AT THE CHILDE FIC 😭 what if what if what if we wake up and all of that was only a dream 🥺 /j

NOT U RESEARCHING ABOUT LIYUE THO HAHAHASH now u have to play genshin fr FR?? farm primos rn AND GET CHILDE.

i was a writer, I LOVE MAKING POEMS AND I WROTE SERIES BEFORE BUT I DIDN'T FINISH A SINGLE ONE BECAUSE I KEPT ON HAVING NEW IDEAS TO THE POINT THAT I FORGET WHAT I WROTE ABOUT BEFORE. so i found out about one shot stories and they were perfect for me. but one day, i lost all the passion to write whejejsj :'D

but anw!! i really love your style ^^ you're really good at fluffs and angst <3 BTW DID U READ THE LAST ONE I SENT?? HAHAHSHS IT JUST POPPED INTO MY HEAD

i was bombarded with school works and my research papers that's why i read the childe fic late 😭 AND IDK WHETHER TO FEEL SAD BECAUSE OF THE STORY OR HAPPY BECAUSE U POSTED LIKE WHY

i hope you're doing great!!<3

-weekly anon (idk anymore, i claim to be weekly but never stick with it)

JFHFJDBAJCHD I'M A SUCKER FOR HAPPY ENDINGS BUT MY PLATONIC BOO SAID NO SO I HAD TO COMPLY 😭 at least I made them cry too 😈😈

OH SHIT YOU CAUGHT WIND OF THAT?? DKBFJH nah cuz I had to read ningguang lore and shit for that oneshot KDJFNFNF god I wish I can play genshin, all my gadgets r potato

HAHAHA I KNEW IT, THAT'S WHY U HAVE SO MUCH IDEAS JDHFHDHH I feel u losing passion but at least ur interest in reading is still there ❤

NOT YOU SENDING ANOTHER ANGST IDEA AFTER I WROTE THAT CHILDE FIC NOOOO!!! 😭😭 EVIL, CRUEL, I HATE YOU! /J I'm a FLUFF writer weekly anon, the childe fic was literally my first reader death fic 😤😤 I was even punishment !!

Hope ur doing great too!! Gl at school ❤

[penguinsledder]

happy ffwf!! since the new year is upon us, tell me what fic you had the most fun working on in 2021, which fic you're the most proud of from 2021, and any projects you're excited to work on or read in 2022! (- thinkingisadangerouspastime)

Ahh soulmateee so sorry for the late reply!!

Well I think I only really worked on one fic in 2021 LMAO and I'm sure you're all sick of hearing about it by now. Yup it's look into your eyes and the sky's the limit. Definitely the most fun (even if it was the only legit fic I posted) cuz the Hamilton and young adult flirty dorky kataang was a joy to write.

Most proud of ... probs the fic i mentioned and maybe the kataang 100 one I wrote for music? It's called Fine and I'm proud of it cuz I got to work in some of my knowledge as a musician into this fic. Tying in two of my hobbies was a great experience!

Ok so ngl I haven't been writing really in many months due to uh ... being too busy, and lack of motivation and inspiration and will, I guess. I was busy as hell in the middle of the year, and while I've gotten past that, there are now so many other changes in my life rn that I'm trying to adjust to, then of course there's the omicron surge (ugh). I'm trying to figure out my next steps. I'm also not as into the Avatar fandom as I was 1 or 2 years ago. Oh, and I guess I haven't really been in the mood too to channel romance and fluff and stuff. My mood affects my writing SO MUCH (i'd argue my writing is dependent on my emotions lol). There has been ... general turbulence due to recent-ish events. LOL.

no i didn't break up with someone if that's what anyone is thinking 🤣

anw that being said, i dunno what 2022 holds in store for my writing. I've been working on personal music projects these days so I guess that's where my creativity has been too. Uh, I guess we'll just see? I do have some WIPs in my laptop, but yeah uh dunno when/if I'll be working on them so I don't wanna make any promises 😅

[shibaraki]

omg i havent sent an ask in so long im sorry LMAO

first off: i am awaiting the osamu fic you shall bestow upon us and i will be foaming at the mouth while reading it istfg

secondly: work is kicking my ass rn we had a small frost and literally everyone is going bonkers i cant even

third: my coworker crush has asked me out for valentines day <3 she works in a different department (forensic entomology) but m vv excited i lub her very much she's my meow meow <3333

anw thats whats been goin on w me!! howve you been monty?? i hope work and life has been treating you well you deserve it <3

sending all the love in the world your way this morning <33

- lemz

no problem lovely, it's good to hear from you! I'm glad you're looking forward to it!!! (I'm a little worried people wont like it but that isn't new lkslfjsd)

I'm sorry that work has been frantic! but aaaaah thats so exciting about your coworker!!!!!!! I truly hope you both enjoy yourselves and it all goes well. I'd love to hear what happens.

I've been so-so, had a big workload this month and I'm still kind of getting back to myself after being sick. But I've been writing a lot more which has been quite freeing!

[eijispumpkin]

good lord this is long i apologize, but hi hello, lovely human with a heart of gold, sweet creature who's full of love, i cannot thank u enough for being u! for sharing your amazing works and bringing comfort to so many people, everything u write is so magical and re-reading your stuff always makes me feel like i'm receiving a warm hug it's the best feeling out there, ik u're taking a break rn and i'm glad to see u taking time for urself, as cool as the internet is it can also be very shitty at times unf, pls take care of urself nd ur health qt ! plus ik we r going thru some rly scary times this year with the pandemic and all that too, ik it's rough, but i hope u're okay, and i wish u loots of happiness mwahh

if u're not accepting asks right now i'm rly sry! pls ignore this i hope u have an amazing day ♡ but if it's not too much trouble, how did u start posting online? bc god, the way my brain keeps convincing me it's stupid even tho ik it would bring me joy :c i see all the drafts and ideas i've had for years now but never got the courage to post or develop bc i always convinced myself that it's too late now, or like it only works if u've already done it for at least a couple years? and that i suck anw and "wanting to write what i'd like to see/read" doesnt really work when i haven't practiced much, sigh even if i gather enough courage smhow, idk wut i'd have to tackle first

you never have to apologize to me for saying long things, no worries my friend!! i am long-winded and rambly by nature, so i totally get it <3 and ahh thank you so much for your kind and lovely words, i appreciate it a lot!!!! i'm very glad to hear that you like my writing so much ♥

how i started posting... man, honestly? i first started posting fic on a tumblr account whose password i have long since forgotten, like eight or nine years ago at this point. it was an rp blog for a very obscure tolkien elf, and i was lucky enough as a young teen to find people who were really kind and encouraging about my writing, both in rp and as little side-ficlets and whatnot! that's how i first got into actual writing at all. tiny ficlets prompted by rp stuff were the first things i ever posted at all - in fact, my first fic posted on ff.net way back when was just one of those lil tumblr rp ficlets i crossposted!

as for your conundrum, i def hear you :( insecurity and anxiety brain can be a HUGE bitch, and i know it's easy to tell yourself that numbers like comments and kudos don't matter, but it still feels really bad when you really want validation and you don't get any. (though i will say, it is true that the numbers don't matter! it's totally a game of luck. some of my favorites of my own fics don't have nearly as many kudos or comments as the ones i personally didn't even like as much/didn't put as much work into. it's not that those fics aren't as good; it's just that popularity is kind of a roulette wheel. it's easy to internalize it as being your fault if something doesn't fly, but it honestly really isn't in your control at all.)

but heres the thing! everyone starts somewhere. when i first started posting fics, i can promise you i was nowhere near as good as i am today! i didn't pay attention to sentence variation, i hardly ever used any imagery, my character voices were underdeveloped, etc etc etc. that doesn't mean that no one liked to see my post, or that i shouldn't have posted! it just means that i was a beginner. and so are you! there's no shame in being new at something. it just means you have a lot to learn, and there's nothing wrong with that at all! in fact i would say there's a lot of joy in discovering your voice and how you like to write. the fear of peoples expectations can weigh you down, but you should write for yourself first, not for others, or else you'll just burn out, you know?

as for what you'd have to tackle first: i could give you a bunch of technical mumbo jumbo if you wanted, but really i think it is about writing what you'd like to see! not in the way that you seem to mean here though (and forgive me if i misinterpreted! i don't mean to put words in your mouth). i first started writing just by describing little daydreams i had about the characters. first and foremost, your creation process should be fun for you!! if you enjoy writing something, your readers will be able to tell, and it adds to the piece. but more important than that is the fact that you'll have had fun creating something. finding what makes writing fun for you is, in my opinion, the most important place to start!!

[aminiatureworld]

hi! i hooe you're doing well this week (but if not thats totally valid too, i hope it gets better for you) how are you? i'm doing okay, although my summer break is almost ever and i'm agonizing over it sovs

anws, genshin has been giving me a headache ever since i managed to pull for kazuha and bennett,, as much as i want to make them stronger and give them better artifacts, staying on my laptop for an hour or more rlly makes me dizzy D: so i tend to do as much before i need to lay down.

speaking of genshin, are you going to pull for kazuha or saving up for future characters like ayaka/yoimiya? aaand who's in your current team now? my team rn consists of xiao, beidou, klee, and barbara! although, i might change it soon

okay, that's all for now! hopefully i'm not spamming your ask box too much and have a great day/night ♡

- 🍪

Hellooo!

Sorry for the late reply anon. I got a meningitis vaccine yesterday and my arm was pretty sore. Otherwise I'm alright, getting ready for the 10 day hiatus and trying to write as many fics as possible until then. I'm sorry to hear summer break is almost over for you! It's always sort of sad when vacation ends, it feels very melancholy and wistful. Still, I hope that when you go back to school or work or whatever things go alright.

Congrats on pulling for Kazuha and Bennett! Bennett is one of my absolute favorite characters so if he's a new character for you then I'm sure you'll love him and if you've got a constellation for him then hey! A leveled up Bennett! I'm sorry to hear that your laptop is making you dizzy though! Be sure to stay healthy and take care, and if it gets really bad it might be worth seeing an oculist or a doctor. Also sometimes slow and steady does really win the race, so it's okay if it takes a while - I've been playing since the first Klee banner and my artifacts are still awful because I didn't do artifact dungeons for months since they confused me haha.

And I tried to pull for Kazuha but got Keqing unfortunately. I think I'll try and grind as many primogems as possible for him, since I just love his playstyle. If I don't get him then I'll just move forwar to Yoimiya I guess haha. As for my current team my main team is: Xiao (dps), Childe (sub dps), Zhongli (shield), and Bennett (healer/support) although sometimes I swap Xiao and Fischl since the poor yaksha really is a glass canon. I also recently raise Yanfei, since I want to raise a completely separate team for Abyss, and sometimes I swap her with Xiao as well. Your team sounds really fun to play! And it's always fun to play around with team comp., it's always fun to go a bit wild with new combinations.

You aren't spamming my ask box at all anon! I always enjoy hearing from you. Hope that you have a lovely week and that things continue to go okay for you!