#anw gotta sleep now night

[0yorixu]

soft gazes

happy 12/12

[cosmic-expressions]

⋮ ♯; ⤷ CAN'T HELP IT, I JUST MISSED YOU .ᐟ

ANON SAID: saw you opening ask and the caelus tag 👀 i just HAVE to. so.... imagine waiting for them at the express while they're in a longg mission, missing them so much you just gotta wear their jacket/clothes and sleeping on their bed because you miss their scent. then one late night they came back exhausted, beaten up and pent up from the long weeks of not meeting you. only to see you bundled up under their blanket and wearing their clothes, too big on you, with not much anything under .....you can take care of the rest ;P it doesn't have to be Caelus only! any character tbh. or how about both Caelus and Dan Heng 👀👀 anw tysm! i understand if you don't reply to this <33

caelus x fem!reader; smut; petnames (good girl, princess, baby, dear, etc); f!masturbation, unprotected piv; foul language(???) // dan heng x fem!reader; smut; petnames (sweetheart, sweetie, etc), praise (i guess??); fingering, handjob // caelus x fem!reader x dan heng; smut; petnames (mix of those listed above); oral (f!receiving), f!masturbation, lmk if other warnings apply a/n: mb it's so short but I every time I try to think about it more my brain just says adios amigo so. yeah. that's that on that. enjoy

CAELUS ―୨୧⋆˚

he’s tired. pent up. the mission was tough and stressful but thankfully it’s finally over. so now he can finally meet with you, his beloved good girl, the one he loves to hold, loves to touch, loves to have close–

“baby?”

his voice has you all excited, making you gasp softly and get up from his bed in seconds. you just throw yourself on him, nuzzling into his neck and placing soft kisses in the crook of his shoulder, all while smiling.

“welcome back,” you murmur, voice gentle and loving, just like your touch. you speak something more, but caelus doesn’t register a word; all he can focus on is your outfit. his t-shirt apparently serving as your nightgown with nothing underneath, successfully revealing your hardened nipples and…

“were you touching yourself just now?”

his tone is soft and somewhat teasing; he doesn’t mind you playing with yourself because he does that a lot as well, all to the thoughts of you. but knowing you were in the middle of it all while wearing his clothes and doing it on his bed…

“i missed you too much- couldn’t really help it, dear…” you murmur back with arms still over his shoulders and with your lips glued to his neck.

“missed you too, lovely- fuck!” caelus groans and throws his head back, almost cumming in his pants when you gently palm his painful bulge. you’ll be the death of him.

he doesn’t waste much time undressing, moving frantically just to get to touch you as quickly as he can. and when he finally does, oh aeons, his brain short circuits.

“oh- fuck! cae-caelus-!” you moan desperately when you finally feel your beloved boyfriend filling you up with his cock, throbbing and rock hard; no matter how hard you try, you and your fingers are not enough anymore to make you feel as good as with caelus.

“shit-! princess, i missed you so bad, you know? you and your- fuck- and your pussy, and your lips, and your-” he and his gleeful mumbling are quickly muffled by the sloppy kiss you two share. you’re moaning into each other’s mouth, kiss soon becomes a mess of tongue and saliva. “princess, i can’t- can’t last long, gonna-!”

his thrusts are all fast and needy, yet you still feel the love emanating from him. even if he’s humping and drilling his cock relentlessly into your wet and tight hole, he still can’t get enough of you. he’s on the edge, almost crying from joy because he’s finally with you.

caelus indeed doesn’t last long and neither do you, but that doesn’t stop both of you from staying up the whole night, messing up the sheets with sweat and cum. 

DAN HENG ♡꒱

poor archivist came back stressed and lonely, needing your company (and maybe something else) to recharge his will to live. so it’s no wonder he joins you on his bed, laying down beside you, ready to snuggle up and cuddle–

but then he notices.

“you’re back!” this quiet and tired yet still joyous little squeak gets dan heng out of his haze. he’s staring at you in awe and something else, something primal but also loving, all while you cuddle up to his chest, arms splattered over his shoulders.

“y-yeah-” is all dan heng can muster up to say, too enamored by the sight of his hoodie on you, paired with those pajama shorts that always drive him insane. his arms quickly snake up around you, holding you tight against him while a sense of possessiveness and sweet need washes over the poor man. “sweetheart- is this? my hoodie?”

“i just couldn’t help myself- i missed you too bad…” with a slightly nervous chuckle, you hide your face in his chest and explain, too bashful to look at him. “you were away for- too long and i got too… um- i just couldn’t stand existing without you around.”

your lovesick gaze and the shy smile you give him melt dan heng and his heart on the spot. his arms tighten a little around you, hands soon making their way to your waist, hips, and then under the hoodie.

“i missed you too, sweetheart- so much,” dan heng starts, breathing in deeply as he tries to swallow up the needy whimpers threatening to escape his lungs. but as much as he tries he fails, the urge to kiss your cheek and lower taking over him. “so much i- so much i couldn’t stop thinking about you all the time- aeons, you’re perfect-”

his big, warm hands trailing over your skin underneath the hoodie cause shivers down your spine. aeons, how you missed his touch.

your lips soon meet, melting against each other; the sweet kisses are what you missed, though it’s not the only thing…

“fuck! sweetie, stop moving like that-” dan heng groans when you instinctively start to move your hips against his, getting worked up after weeks away from each other. “i can’t- think when you do that-! sweetie, i-”

“i need you inside, dan heng!” is what you whine out as you get up a little, enough to take off your shorts and underwear. “i missed your touch and- and you so much, baby! please, put it in-”

you don’t have to tell him twice. with his hands fumbling with his belt, he manages to unbuckle it and take off his pants just enough to free his growing hard-on.

“aeons, you’re perfect.” dan heng murmurs again, voice breathless as he touches your wet entrance, one finger pushing in; how he loves the feeling of your tight, gummy walls!

no matter what you tried, or how many toys you used, all you managed to do is just edge yourself; there’s nothing that can make you cum like dan heng does. not even your fingers. with weeks of edging, crying in sexual frustration, it’s no wonder you unravel in seconds thanks to him and his touch.

humping yourself on his finger, you take in a shaky breath, one that’s a clear indicator of your orgasm approaching.

“that’s it, sweetheart, let go…” dan heng coaxes, breathing heavily as well just to moan and whimper when you reach for his leaking cock. “fuck-! aeons, you’re amazing…”

the touches become desperate yet loving, the need for pleasure from each other increasing with each thrust and palming motion. so whipped for you, dan heng continues to please you with everything he has, just for you to love him back, showing him your feelings through those intimate touches and actions. that’s how you spend the entire night, reconnecting with each other in the deepest way possible.

CAELUS + DAN HENG ₊˚✧ﾟ.

they are so clingy every time they’re with you in your bed, so it’s no wonder you’ve been yearning for their touch throughout those long weeks. and it’s no wonder you’re snuggled up in dan heng’s blanket with only caelus’s t-shirt, fingers deep in your puffy and needy pussy. so into your frustration, desperate to feel at least a bit of pleasure they always provide you, somehow you don’t notice those two men creeping up into your room with their keys.

“well, well, well, what do we have here?”

your body jolts in surprise, the familiar and husky voice working you up further. and when you see the other man’s calloused hand gently taking your fingers out of your hole, you just can’t help but wiggle your hips a little.

“needy little thing, eager to get wrecked again…” caelus hums into your ear while dan heng rubs your folds with his fingers at an agonizing pace. “we missed you, pretty. so much. can’t wait to empty myself in you-”

whining and clenching around nothing, you start to rock your hips slightly, pulling caelus in for a deep and desperate kiss, tongues dancing in frantic choreography.

“haah-! d-dan heng!”

caelus takes the opportunity and forces his tongue into your mouth, all while your edged and wet pussy is being eaten out by dan heng. as the dark-haired man sucks gently on your clit and pushes his rough finger inside your hole, you and your mind melt immediately; that is what you’ve been craving for. paired with their greedy hands groping and squeezing the soft flesh of yours, it’s simply heaven.

“missed you so bad, princess…” caelus breathes into your ear, as he lowers his head and kisses his way through your neck to your collarbone and lower… just to leave a small, purple bite mark right between your breasts. “we’ll take it slowly, but aeons- don’t think we’ll let you out of the bed so early…”

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mind over matter pt. 5

synopsis: witness how your marriage was bound to fall apart with you on the front seat and your husband gojo had missed the show—now, he gotta figure out the story on his own.

content: arrange marriage au, angst, husband!gojo, mean!gojo, mention of blood, mention of drugs, strong languages, some unsettling scenarios, emotional trauma, read at your own risk

a/n: I MISS Y'ALL MWAMWAMWA!! anw, here's a 4k wc for this update and for those who are wondering, "where tf is the special chapter for 'the end'?" and imma tell u...the file went corrupted for absolute no reason...and i have to rewrite the whole story bcoz of that...k bye im gonna kms (kidding) HUHUHUHUHUHU IM STILL CRYING ABOUT IT!

previous / masterlist / next

it was late at night and you're exhausted but happy after your first visit with kazuki. currently, you're in a nice deep sleep back in your room and satoru is still wide awake as he watches you sleep.

his body was situated on the chair and he decided to remove his blindfold just to observe your peaceful sleeping face with the blue moonlight shining upon you. you're beautiful even if you're pale.

a silent deep sigh escalated on his lips, he was still stuck in his deep thoughts about you and your son. satoru couldn't erase your happy face and the sensation of kazuki's small fingertips away from his mind, it all felt so…surreal.

a ringtone exploded on his phone. upon seeing the name, he sucked up a breath and decided to go outside your room for a moment just to call the name on his phone.

“i told you to stop communicating with me anymore.” there's a hint of venom in his voice the moment the other line was picked up.

satoru only hears a slight shuffling but he knew she was there because he can also hear some shaky breaths. “yukie…please know that you and i are now over.”

yukie, not many people know this female since her rank was only at grade 3 but to satoru—she’s the third party, or in simplest words, his mistress. yukie michiga is a beautiful woman with a nice body and a head-turning face. her life was average since she didn't have enough strength yet to rise her rank and get more missions to gain salary but it was enough to sustain her family of six.

she also grew up in a well-oriented family. she was the oldest among her three other younger siblings and she's a very responsible daughter, sister, and as a sorcerer. everyone in her little village adores her and even supports her when she flies to kyoto just to become a sorcerer.

to say the best, she's a woman of all. yukie was beautiful, kind, dependent, and very hardworking.

she and satoru met during his mission when yukie was seen killing some lower grade curses to protect some civilians in an abandoned park. satoru was amazed by her braveness and determination to save those souls despite not being paid enough. but what caught his attention the most was her alluring figure and that angelic face card.

after finishing his mission, he approached the girl who immediately recognized him because of his reputable name. they both introduced their names and even went on a date to get to know each other. and that moment they knew, they were attracted to each other. she even couldn't believe that she was seeing the strongest sorcerer in this current generation.

however, yukie had soon found out that satoru has a wife after their fifth date when she saw a wedding photo on his phone and your contact number literally named ‘wife’. she may be attracted to the guy but she values her dignity and she respects you as a woman even though she hadn't even meet you properly.

despite being heartbroken, she confronted satoru about it and demanded they should stop seeing each other despite her growing love towards him, because yukie would rather be alone than to be hidden behind someone's husband. but satoru did not allow her because he's too caught up in a moment and he finds his needs on the girl.

after some crying and begging, yukie finds herself being ruled by love and lets herself stoop so low just to be with satoru. she was convinced by his charm and now she's so drunk in love. yukie already destroyed herself by having an affair with a married man, so her fighting him to be complete hers will no longer do damage for what's already done.

“let's just forget everything that happened between us.” now what? after what yukie had sacrificed for this affair, he's now letting her go?

a scoffing was received and then followed by a shaky chuckle. “that easily? you're letting me go that easily after you literally just devoted yourself to me two weeks ago?” yukie was trying her best not to snap yet, it's too early for that.

satoru ran a hand on his face. “i'm sorry, but this is not right anymore.”

“oh so you've just realized it just now? after what? after you've finally decided to be a oh-so-good husband and think that you could've fixed everything? you're making me cry by laughing.” the woman did not even realize that she was gripping her phone so hard that her knuckles turned white.

“just say what you want.”

“you. i want you, satoru. i couldn't bear the fact that you're just leaving me so easily after what you had promised me last year.”

“but yukie, you know i'm still married and—”

“then divorce her just like you said before!” tears started to pool on her eyes as yukie was getting and sounded more desperate to save her relationship with the man.

“...i can't,” satoru whispered quietly.

“why?! because you're becoming a coward of the higher up—”

”because i don't want to anymore! i am aware that i'm such a bad person to my wife and i cannot change the past anymore. but i'm very willing to change for the present and the future, just for the sake of my family.” his words cause her to feel like everything stops, that specifically includes her heavy and enraged breathing.

what did he just say? fucking ridiculous.

“look yukie, i'm so sorry for cutting you off like this and thank you for everything that you have done to me. but please, let's just end it here.” satoru continued.

on the other line, yukie was sitting on her bed with tears completely spilling down on her eyes and her emotions were overflowing. their memories together keeps on flooding in her mind as the female tries to collect herself so she could find a quick answer to save this illicit affair.

“satoru, you're such a fucking dick for playing with many women's heart just so you can satisfy yourself. and then what happened to us that you once played with? what happened to those who got us wrapped around your finger? fucking nothing! you left us all hanging!” her voice started from low and went up to loud. satoru would've never understood a woman's rage because their rages are a good disguise of just being angry.

if only he knew what the current scenario is playing in her head, it can make the strongest shiver.

“yukie…i'm sorry but it's not like that—”

“it is! and here i thought i was special among all of the women you slept with. i thought i could be a better partner for you. i even lowered my dignity just to be with a married person!” for once, she finally felt pity for what she had become. if she could ever face her former self, she would hug her tight and say, ‘there is no turning back’.

and that is the reason why she said, “take responsibility for this.”

“w-what?”

“i said take responsibility for this! you made me crazy over you and i cannot let you go! so be responsible and leave your wife—”

“no!” satoru could not help but to yell back. he wanted nothing in this relationship anymore. he swore to himself that he is going to try his best to fix this marriage and that starts with him and his mistress, yukie.

meanwhile, yukie could feel the churching effect of rage deep down on her stomach when she realized that he is serious about cutting her off. he finally decided to stop being a pathetic dickhead and started to devote himself into your circle.

“fine! if you don't want to, then i’ll make you.”

the strongest eyes widened as he could smell danger at her literal threat. he also felt like a cold water bucket being showered on his body when he thought of any unpleasant possibilities that she could execute on you and his child.

“o-oh no you're not.” he gritted his teeth.

yukie laughed crazily, her eyes twitching in the process. “i will. you made me like this, satoru. so face the consequences and be accountable for the person you've made me.”

“yukie—”

“i am going to be your karma and you cannot run away or hide from me. don't you ever try to run away because i’ll make sure of it.” with a final hostile, the woman ended the call, making satoru almost lose his sanity.

“yukie?! h-hello…?! yukie? fuck!”

satoru was on the verge of throwing his phone across the hallway. he felt enraged, scared, devastated, and all. he knew what are the capabilities of yukie—like he literally witness his mistress beat the shit out of that other woman he once mingle with before her just because she's getting jealous.

what more could she do to his wife…and worse, his child?!

his body almost launched itself on the nearest wall due to his knees feeling weak. satoru was not scared of what yukie had planned for himself because he could literally take her even in his sleep, yukie was practically defenseless against him. but if his family was involved? it's gonna be the literal end of him.

he's the superman and his family is the kryptonite—his weakness.

“fuck. what did i get myself into…” satoru hopelessly buried his face into his shaky hands. he's afraid that he had done another unforgivable sin that you would probably not be going to spare him anymore.

but, you wouldn't have done that if you didn't know. so, guess who needs to keep their mouth shut? everyone.

the night had passed and satoru didn't even sleep a single wink. his conversation with yukie just kept on ringing into his head and deprived him from the attention. like right now, you have been calling him three times in a row but he's too busy to look at an empty space below. you reach for his arm to give him a gentle shake. satoru could feel someone nudging him and he knew it was you.

“sorry, what were you saying again?” he sighs deeply before forcing himself to give you a not-so forced smile.

a worried frown appears in your face. “you should go back to the jujutsu high. you really need to rest, i’ll be fine in here.”

“i can still manage this. don't worry.” satoru assured you, and you didn't buy it of course. “i'm not asking you if you can or not. i just said you should head back at least for now.” you said.

“but—”

“satoru, don't be stubborn.” your expression becomes more serious, making satoru fall quietly because he knew that he would eventually listen to you.

“it has been three days since and you hadn't even met your students properly. just go, satoru. you can always come back here during your free time. kazuki and i can wait for you.” you added.

“a-are you sure?”

you nodded and just gave him an assuring pat on his arm. “very. now go and do your thing.”

satoru was left with no choice but to obey, in which he did. he also thinks that this could also be an appropriate moment to confront the threat, by the threat means, his mistress.

“i’ll just leave after lunch. i need to make sure you are well fed.”

“alright.”

the rest of the morning was normally fine. you've watched something on your phone to keep yourself entertained while satoru was dozing off in his seat. his head keeps on uncomfortably dropping, so you decide to offer him a space in your bed in which he hesitantly agrees after you've persuaded him enough.

and now, he's currently sleeping quietly beside you while you are seated and continue watching your show. you would also occasionally steal a glance at him because he's really odd today, like something was bothering him. you know it's not because he's lack of sleep, but it was something else and that itches you to ask him.

then lunch came. satoru was still sleeping so you took this cue to get food yourself by ordering some healthy options available on the app, and sooner, the food came just right by your doorstep. you thanked the delivery man who really made an effort to travel up until here to your room. so, you also give him a nice tip, in which he smiles happily in return.

stealing another peak at your sleeping husband, you've decided to quietly remove yourself from the bed just to prepare the food on the table.

meanwhile, satoru stirred up in his sleep after sensing a weight suddenly vanished from the comfort of the bed. slowly opening his blue powerful eyes, he saw you standing not so far away from the bed and was busy unboxing the ordered food.

he looked at the wall clock across the room and it showed its way past lunch. that alone made him jerk up his body because he slept and you had to do the food by yourself.

“you ordered some food?” you replied to him with a hum and continued doing your work.

“you should've woken me up.” satoru frowns but you just shrugged it off.

“it's okay. you were resting and you need it obviously. besides, the delivery man was very kind to deliver it here if you're worried about me moving too much.”

satoru let this one slide and sat on the bed as he watched you hand him his food as he eats on the bed while you take a seat and eat on the small table. even in different settings, you two still don't share a table for a meal together. it's not like it matters that much, but it finally bothers him.

“what are your plans this afternoon?” satoru asked you after he took a spoonful of bite.

“visit kazuki, of course.” you simply answered.

a little bit of awkward silence engulfed the two of you. satoru was finding a way to crack up a long conversation with you, while you're still itching to ask him a question about what's bothering him. but to clarify things up, you actually don't care about what could be the reason behind it. you're just bothered because he looks bothered and it's bothering you!

“do you want me to send shoko so you can keep company?”

you immediately shook your head at his suggestion. “no, no. shoko is a busy person and has a lot more important things to do. and besides, kazuki could keep me company. i also need to walk his birth papers as suggested by the doctor.”

“about that, do you want me to—”

“it’s okay, satoru. i can manage doing it alone.” you don't mean to sound like you're stripping his rights from your son, but you really wanted to do this on your own. the two of you are still working on an unspoken term and you don't want your broken marriage to affect your baby's pre-life even by the simple act.

actually, you've noticed to yourself that you're becoming a little too soft on satoru. so, you would always remind yourself about the things he had done but also to remind yourself to be less harsh towards the man because at the end of the day, you are forced to be the leading mature in this circle.

you had to subside some of your emotion now that a baby has entered the scene and you would give everything just to have kazuki a bestest life he could live in. and that includes swallowing your pride and being with satoru a little longer than what should have been expected.

“i have a small favor, by the way.” satoru perk up at your words.

“go on.” he said and paid utmost attention to you. you've rarely made a request to him so he needs to make sure he got everything covered.

“nanami…if you ever saw him, tell him to come and visit me.”

nanami?

satoru tries not to frown when you suddenly look for him. it's not like he feels weird or anything since you two are good old friends, but rather why you can't just text him. anyway, he didn't ask you and just kept your little favor in his mind.

“sure, i will.”

and with that, the whole lunch for the day comes to an end and satoru goes back to the jujutsu high and tries to do his usual teaching activities.

satoru did what you said, he told nanami to visit you but he disobeyed when you said to do his daily task as a teacher and a sorcerer. to clarify some things, he did meet up with his students but that's it. he didn't teach nor oversee them on their training. he just told them that principal yaga will continue to handle them for the meantime then flew off the scene.

and guess where he's off to? yeah, his mistress.

a harsh knock surfaced on the wood as satoru continues to call out a specific name who won't even show a sign of response. he knows yukie was there due to him being able to detect her cursed energy but she didn't even acknowledge his presence.

“yukie please, let's talk this out and stay away from my family.” he hates to do this but he implies a pleading and desperation in his voice just for the sake of avoiding the rotten aftermath.

on the other side, yukie was seated on her sofa while still pretending that the consistent knocking or visitor didn't even exist. she'll only entertain the man and let him in if he would approach her as the satoru gojo who she willing to throw her life away just to be with him, not satoru gojo who would throw her life away just to be with you.

“yukie, please…open this door. let me talk to you.” biting her lower lip in despair, yukie swore that she really tried her best to stay strong and wouldn't just crumble over the sound of a pleading man, but guess she just was just making a fool out of herself.

“fuck it.” with a one swore, the woman finally found herself opening the door and revealed the white haired man she's been dying to see. yukie couldn't contain herself anymore, so as soon as her eyes landed on her most prized possession, she pulled him into a messy kiss as she pulled him inside.

but to her melancholia, she was dumb to think that he's going to reply to her with the same passion and love over the kiss. satoru pulled her away from him and didn't even kiss her back!

something inside yukie cracked as she looked at satoru with a broken heart. tears are pooling on her eyes but satoru wouldn't even bat an eye on her now pleading figure.

from his point of view, satoru wiped his lips in disgust as he could smell and taste alcohol in her breath. she's clearly drunk and wasted but still in the right place to talk.

“is our conversation on the phone not enough? when are you going to plant it on your head that i'm not planning to let you go?” yukie whispers as she buries her face into his chest, hoping that he would at least soften his heart and come back to her.

“you have to, yukie. it's time for us to correct the mistakes we both made.” satoru wrapped his arms around her waist, maybe this would calm her down and the conversation would at least become less aggressive.

“your mistake, satoru, not mine.” satoru went silent and yukie knew she was right. she thinks it's only his fault that led her this way, it could've also been avoided when yukie once confronted satoru about you but he's too imbecile to see the aftermath. now look where we are, there's no turning back now.

“is your wife now aware of this, huh?” satoru shook his head, there's no way he's gonna let you know about this. his space in your heart is now barely surviving, he doesn't want to take the risk yet.

“just tell me, what do you want me to do so you can let me go?”

yukie smiled lovesick-ly. “nothing. i told you, i am going to make you mine, and i'm gonna show you how i'm gonna do it.”

shit. this is bad. i’m really doomed.

satoru shoved away with terror and anger in his blue hue orbs. “yukie, don't make me break the rules. you stay out of my family's life.” he pointed a finger towards the female.

clearly, she doesn't give a fuck.

then suddenly, yukie pulled him towards the couch and kissed him aggressively and against his will. satoru knew he would be dead, dead by his guilt that he kissed those lips that he swore he wouldn't touch again.

“yukie, stop—! mmph!” satoru, being literally the strongest, tried his best but it's too late. his eyes could see black spots dancing around his vision, but before it totally went dark, he saw a devilish smile on yukie’s face and then everything suddenly vanished.

turns out, when yukie pulled him into a second kiss, she forcefully put a pill of drug into his mouth and made him swallow unwillingly. satoru may be immune to dark curses but he's no exemption to curse of love.

satoru was unable to move, and yukie, she was smiling ever so widely with hearts in her eyes as she started lovingly at the love of her life.

“fuck, you belong to no one else but mine.”

yukie was overly and beyond happy, that's the fact. she finally has him in his arms, she's so proud that she got the literally the strongest in her embrace—what could possibly be wrong?

yukie michiga, the one who participated in adultery, was about to drag satoru gojo, the one who initiated adultery, while she laughed to herself as she thought about things on her bucket list when she finally made him hers.

but then suddenly, the front door blasted as debris and dust floated around the air and served as a blanket to the destroyer.

“what the fuck?!” yukie hugged satoru's unconscious body possessively while coughing due to the wall dust she's inhaling. she couldn't pinpoint who would do such a thing at her precious house because of the fog.

but when it lifted up, it revealed someone, the one who is the victim of adultery, along with somebody, the one who hates adultery. both were wearing the deadliest expression you could ever see, it is raging with anger, especially someone.

“yeah, what the fuck?!” someone mocked her little curse a while ago making yukie freeze in horror. she knows that person well—very, very well. who wouldn't know her when she's the reason why she keeps on hiding in the depths of their shadow.

yukie's wavering eyes met the other pair of eyes. it was sharp, filled with dagger—those eyes were skinning her alive.

“what the fuck are you doing to my husband, yukie michiga?”

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[part 6 will be posted soon — ©luvvixu2024]

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a/n: can y'all still keep up with the plot? ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

[asliceofzosan]

YES FR PRODUCTION IS LIKE "we dont need to rig them to the top bc ppl are gonna vote for them" so instead they somehow find the most hilarious ways to pair them up together.

oh zoro we gotta fix a leaky ceiling in your dorm room but sanji's room has a free bed go stay there until we fix it (it never gets fixed. zoro and sanji are roommates for the remainder of the show.)

oh sanji you wanna join this team instead of zoro's team? too bad. we're switching shit up and making it that the ones with a higher rank choose their teams last and it just so conveniently happens to be one team left and two slots open (oh wow thats you and zoro huh? weird haha anw)

even funnier is if they dont make it to the debut group bc production DIDNT rig them to be up there (rookie mistake. never trust that the public will always vote for their faves.) and so that contract deal comes on for them and theyre like....... fuck do we have a choice? it's either go back to training in another company and wait or take this opportunity NOW

zoro and sanji end up on several reality shows where they have to compete against each other and it's PEAK entertainment for everyone.

zoro and sanji are so used to rooming together that when they are actually given separate rooms they end up gravitating towards each other. either sleeping in one room or the other. they even HAVE to do their night time routines together. (even if sanji's is a 12 step routine ending in a red light facial while zoro's consists of 1. wash face and 2. maybe brush teeth)

little thing that's been on the brain lately is zosan idol au BUT it starts off as them meeting in a competition reality show to become idols.

sanji was actually in a group that flopped and he joined this competition for one last chance to prove that he's worthy of being an idol. he's good at this. one failed group can't define his career forever.

zoro has been a trainee for ten years and has never been picked to debut by his company. so he left that company and joined as an independent trainee with the fire in his eyes and an 'i will win no matter' what attitude.

two nineteen year olds ready and willing to do whatever it takes to debut, butting heads all the time in front of AND behind the cameras, and the audience EATS IT RIGHT UP. production doesnt have to do jack shit to provoke drama between them because it just HAPPENS so naturally and instinctively for them. ironically enough, zoro and sanji are the least edited among the trainees. their raw emotions and tenacity at wanting to become idols is better than whatever storyline the directors could come up with.

zoro's known more as a rapper but he shocks everyone during the position evaluation part of the show where he chose VOCALS and lo and behold... he and sanji chose the same fucking song. sanji was like 'theres no WAY that stupid marimo will choose a ballad love song haha i am Free i wont see his dumb face—wHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN ZORO CHOSE THE LOVE SONG????'

[luvhrs]

shadow and bone — ep 3 thoughts:

(might have to stop here and continue tmrw after i finish this stupid stats hw 😤)

rapunzel!alina with all the light imagery in that dream

suddenly i'm watching bridgerton

i like this ginger lady miss safin can they be besties

whoaaa a tailor??? how many kinds of grisha are there :o

sAGGING TITSJDKFJDJ

kaz seems pretty adamant on the sun summoner not existing 👀 i wonder why

pretty nina~ yo now that i think abt it the extent of heartrenders' powers must be p wide tho couldn't they also just. stop someone's heart from beating in a snap

cool cinematography again!! (is that even what it's called) why is jesper eating the random biscuit(?) 😭😭😭

money money money. ain't it funny. in a rich man's world

god i'm sorry there's gonna be a lot of jester loving on here he is just. So Very Attractive and i am So Very Weak

andddd he took a detour to gamble 💀

kirigan appearing out of nowhere bcs ~shadow~ also this silhouette shot is very nice

oh my i wonder how she'll show her power. let's go exalted council

me to kirigan if i were in alina's place: [rihanna voice] what's wrong with me? why do i feel like this?

how did alina do that??? did kirigan cause that somehow??? bcs shadow needing light or vice versa or whatever but either way i'm excited to see her fight and awaken more of her power aaAAA

"you were perfect" silco haunts me. anw kirigan is very sus to me rn this feels like his plan wASN'T THAT TOO EASY

uhhhh ok sudden hostility from zoya 😐

KAZ HOLDING A GOAT IS THE BEST THING I'VE SEEN TODAY

ooh look man of progress poster (i'm just making arcane and DA references now lmao sorry)

"hope is dangerous. it clouds your judgment." sounding a lot like "emotions always screw everything up." kaz and hank ik y'all are just 2 big softies

oh no nina's still in trouble!!

convenient ominous giant train!!

GODDAMMIT JESPER

YO THIS IS SO INTERESTING I FEEL LIKE I'M ON A FIELD TRIP BUT WITH MY LIFE ON THE LINE

MAL WE MISS YOU LOVER BOY :(

OOOO ALINA A FIGHTER U GO GIRL

ok zoya has the hots for kirigan the "she's in good hands" thing /was/ in jealousy (also yeah nadya(?) me too ngl hahsjdjdd)

stag again??? what if these are her memories coming back to her 😳

bet kirigan's lurking (haha get it) in this library somewhere. oh wait that's the spiritual adviser. he's a bit creepy 😭

i absolutely love how many kinds of grisha there are!!!!! feels like pokemon. i gotta know them all

as a burnt out gifted child with nothing left of my gift now but a desire for academic validation, i like baghra bcs if she were my mentor she's the type i'd want to impress. and she's pretty

OMG SHE REMINDS ME OF FLEMETH!!! I AUTOMATICALLY LOVE HER MORE NOW

THIS TRAIN RIDE GIVES ME SO MUCH ANXIETY. THE COALLLL

oh i just noticed the grisha's uniform design depending on their power i'm BLIND

are these all the grisha existing rn or no? there are less than i expected

bro go easy on alina can i order an adjustment period 😭😭😭

JESPER ACTUALLY HUGGING THE GOAT IN RESIGNATION I'M CRIGNGJFNF

WTF JESPER COOL MOMENT??? HELLO????? MF MY SISTER IS SLEEPING BESIDE ME I CAN'T GO FERAL RNDJIEDIIJE

he's so fucking cool ohmygod you guys and if i repeat this scene all night

but also he shifted his weight fuck what's gonna happen???

THE SHOT OF THE GUN. OH MY FUCKING GOD. THAT'S SO FUCKING COOL WHAT. WHAT. IS HE ONE OF THOSE SHARPSHOOTERS???

THE SHARPSHOOTING IS COOL AF YES BUT HEAR ME OUT: HE WAS HOLDING. THE GOAT. THE ENTIRE TIME.

he is forming a lifelong bond with that goat i bet that being said i would like your hand in marriage sir

also jesper's actor giving us everything??? (also everyone else rly goddamn i hope the other charas get cool solo sequences like this too!!!) wHEW that GAZE at the beginning and then after everything seamlessly transitioning back into the funny clever persona 🤌🤌🤌

THESE BITCHES ACTUALLY MADE IT THRU. HOLY SHIT THAT DESERVES A STANDING OVATION

yo i rly love alina's letter to mal tho... idk there's smth so human abt it. it's abt the perpetual "i can go anywhere i want, just not home" feeling!!! it's abt the self-discovery and finding your place in this world!!! how it's a universal experience and yet every person goes thru it uniquely, not to mention blindly. smth hopeful in knowing that even the most powerful person in the world probably struggles with their identity

"you have always been my true north, mal." BITCH I'M 😭😭😭😭😭 that is the sweetest thing ever girlie dON'T U DARE CHOOSE KIRIGAN OVER MAL I SWEAR TO THE SAINTS

[sgnjunhyung]

all the texts 😘

text meme drunk — to receive drunk texts from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  fu ck u look so cute in taht dress ›  makes me thnik abo ut what it’ll b like to ›  haha HEY SORRY junhyung got drunk ›  thank god I took his phone from him before it was too late  ›  we were just JOKING when we gave him that dare but 💀💀 ›  sorry again and have a good night 🙃🙃

sad — to receive sad/down texts from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  I hate this movie ›  why would they make the dog die 😭😭😭 ›  nO I’m not crying LMAO ›  ok I might have teared or something ›  like just a tear or two ›  but it’s not like I’m bawling my eyes out or anything lol ›  anws wanna meet at the convenience store? ›  I gotta get more tissues mine ran out just now

mad — to receive mad/angry texts from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  😒😒😒 ›  no I’m not jeALOUS ›  why would I even get jealous LMAO ›  it’s not like we’re dating or anything ›  n besides ›  I’m cuter than him lol.

happy — to receive happy/excited texts from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  happy b’day again!!! 🎂 ›  I hope u like the bunny 😌😌 ›  pls give it a cute name!!! ›  u can name it after me if u want 🤪

tired — to receive sleepy texts from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  I don’t wanna sleep yet but ›  my eyes can barely stay open 😩😩 ›  so I think I’m gonna head to bed first 😔 ›  gnight!!!  ›  dream of me 🥰 ›  but don’t wet ur pants KIDDING 🤪🤪

busy — to receive slow/rushed texts from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  sorry I’ve been mia lately ›  I’ve been rushing for submissions this week 😩😩 ›  but I’ll be free this weekend!!! ›  do u wanna watch a movie with me then 😳

bored — to receive disinterested texts from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  I’ll be downstairs in 5 ›  I’m bored n hungry ›  n I guess I kinda wanna see u

drafts — to receive texts to your muse that wasn’t sent from my muse

[ drafted » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  maybe we shouldn’t hang out ›  everyone’s saying that I’m bad for u ›  n tbh I can’t even bring myself to deny it

whoops — to receive texts meant for someone else from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  hey I’ve been thinking about this for awhile now, do u wanna go on a date with me this weekend? 😄 ›  what do u think?? emoji or no emoji? ›  do u think she’ll say yes djfhsdkfjsad ›  oMG WAIT THAT’S FOR DANBI ›  I MEAN I’M NOT ASKING HER TO GO on a date with me ew no ›  I was asking her to vet that msg  ›  before I send it to u bYE 

scared —  to receive scared/worried texts from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  hey wyd ›  why haven’t u replied me all day ›  r u alright ›  omg is something wrong??? ›  reply “JUNHYUNG IS CUTE AF” if u’re there ›  ok for real tho r u OK???

love — to receive loving texts from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  thank u for today ›  I really had a lot of fun 😌😌 ›  it’s been so long since I went on a picnic ›  I hope u had fun too

reveal — to receive a revealing texts from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  actually... I lied 😓 ›  I’m really afraid of rollercoasters ›  but I’ll go on them ›  if u hold my hand

reveal me — to receive revealing texts from my muse about your muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  u’re really pretty ›  omg ›  why is my heart beating so fast

naughty — to receive dirty/suggestive texts from my muse

[ sent » hyunjoo 🐰 ] ›  omg I just saw what I sent u last night ›  I was out drinking with the boys  ›  I’m so sorry about that ›  I meant what I said tho  ›  except I don’t think u look cute in it ›  I think u look hot lol ›  fuck is my hangover getting to me or what

[niel-trbl]

Did You Just...? (Part 2)

Note: a little birdie aka this anon here, told me that they enjoyed that little penomeco thing i did and wanted a part two (btw thank you so much for the ask, i really really appreciate it 💖) so, here’s part two that you requested for! hope you enjoy this one!! also if you have any ideas for what should happen next - let me know in my ask!

Part One | Part Three

“we can explain!” both of you said at the same time

“i honestly never expected yall to get on with one another, considering how awkward yall were before. so tell me, how was it?” Jiho took a seat, waiting patiently to hear the details

“WHAT! no we didn’t even plan this-”

“wow no plan, a little spontaneous are we”

“Jiho please. i think this happened coz we drank a little more than usual,” you explained

“dammit yall are lightweights! yall were that drunk that yall made out,” you and Dongwook got red at the last two words

“this is just embarrassing. can you please not tell anyone?” both of you were practically begging Jiho at this point, knowing how he can be

it all settled when he agreed on the terms of both of you buying his meals over the week which was more than fine for you both

both of you quickly freshened up before it got too late to meet the rest

you can hear Jiho laughing in the background while you were trying to cover up the hickeys on Dongwook’s and your necks

(i bet yall know which laughter it is)

(i can practically hear him laughing right now)

(dammit now his laughter is stuck in my head)

anw so fast forward, yall met up with the rest to eat lunch to ring in the new year and also celebrate the release of Dongwook’s new album

“damn yall look really hungover. did yall drink more than usual last night?” Seunghyun asked

“you know them, they’re lightweights. one drink and they’re gone,” Jiho replied even before you could say anything

“sucks to be you” they teased you, in which you replied by sticking your tongue out

“so what did you guys do last night? got your new years kiss?”

even though it was asked generally, you and Dongwook choked on your food while Jiho was laughing his head off beside you

“OH IT WAS SOMETHING ALRIGHT!” Jiho managed to say in between of his laughs

you stepped on his foot before he could continue on

after that day, everything was normal

well minus the constant teasing from Jiho

apart from that, you and Dongwook tried to pretend that the incident never happened - so no bringing up about new years eve, no drinking at gatherings if the other is present and still hanging out with each other but sober

gotta say, yall did a pretty darn good job at it

it’s almost as if it really didnt happened

it has been some time since that day

Dongwook was in Danang with Seongyong to film a video with Dingo so you spent alot of your time alone like how you would as always

it was pretty late and you were working on some songs that were due to be released soon

when you stood up to grab a drink, you noticed your phone screen lit up

it was a video call notification from Dongwook

you quickly got comfy on the sofa then answered his call

“yah i called you so many times, why didn’t you pick up my calllllllllll,”

“a hello wouldve been nice but ok,”

“why didnt you pick up my callllllllllllll,”

wow Dongwook must’ve let loose while he was in Danang

so over the next half hour, you tried to entertain his antics, along with some appearances of Seongyong in the background during the video call

“you better get some sleep before your flight later,” you told him, knowing how bad his hangover is gna be when he wakes up later

“nooooooo i wna keep you company! youre all alone there,” he whined

“nah its fine, im gna meet Jiho in abit to check on some tracks,”

you suddenly see Dongwook puffed out his cheeks then pouted on screen and felt your heart moved a little binch me too

“you’re alwayssssssss with Jiho. do you not like me?”

“yeah i dont,” you stuck your tongue out at him

he went on whining for ages

it went on for a little too long to the point Seongyong had to tell you to do something to shut him up

“OKAY OKAY i was kidding! of course i like you!” you finally gave in

“kekekekeke i like you too!!! i like you so much... that’s why i couldn’t approach you. i was too shy because i like you!!! even now ha...... you’re so cute and such a nice person. i reallllllllllllllllly like you,” he slurred

Dongwook prolly said more but you couldn’t process it in

he prolly didn’t mean it right? he was drunk so he’s prolly spouting nonsense right?

most importantly, you don’t feel that way.... right?

you didn’t mention about it to anyone, well you had no intentions of telling anyone anyway

maybe you were just overthinking about it

it was later into the night, you were still at Jiho’s studio, working on the few tracks

your eyes were threatening to close anytime soon, from the multiple sleepless nights

“hey you should go home. youre gna pass out anytime soon,” Jiho told you

“no no it’s okay. im fine. i really wna finish the songs then ill get some sleep,” you attempted to say in between of your yawns

in that moment, the doorbell rang so he quickly went to attend to it

“look who is here!” he announced as he stepped into the studio again

you turned and you were suddenly wide awake - it was Dongwook

this time, you saw him in a different light, almost as if he was the only one there and that he was shining

like it’s just Dongwook but also, it’s Dongwook

you felt your heart moved again

“i came straight from the airport and this is how you greet me? rude,” he teased

you never realised you ended up staring at him for a little too long

“SORRY i was just... really tired. i think im gna head back to sleep,” you quickly gathered your stuff

“but Dongwook just got here,”

“i know but i dont think i can last any longer with no sleep. ill see you later,”

with that, you left the building and was rushing home

your heart was still beating quickly and you felt the blood rushed to your cheeks but it wasn’t because you rushed out

do you feel that way for Dongwook? crap, maybe you do

[heyyyharry]

The Boy Next Door - Part 6

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5

Masterlist

An angsty/fluffy series in which you and Harry were childhood best friends who lived next door from each other, until he became Harry of One Direction and you moved out of town. Years later, you two meet again when you and Harry come back home for New Year.

Warning: probably many grammar mistakes because no proofreading (i’m so sleepyyyyyyy).

(Harry's text / yours)

I miss you - H

You just left my house an hour ago!

Am I not allowed to miss my best friend? - H

And you didn't need to put your initial at the end, I knew it's you, silly. :)

Sorry! I forgot my wallet at your place.

Yeah, need me to bring it to you? Going out for lunch anw.

That'd be great! I'm at the studio, I'll send you the address.

Can't wait to meet ya!

Okay, gotta get back to work. I'll see you later, yeah?

Okayyyy, see you later petal! Have a great day! :)

... ... ...

You're in the back of a taxi, on your way to a studio to meet Harry. As you're looking out the window, it occurs to you that maybe you're not doing it right, trying not to fall harder for your best friend. You don't even make effort to avoid spending too much time with him, well, you should but you cannot, and you don't want to. You feel good when you're with him. You sleep better when he's there. He makes you feel safer. He feels like home. You can name a million reasons not to give up on him. I mean, you lost him once and it'll kill you if you let it happen again. However, it's not always the same person that comes back. Intentionally or not, you know he’s going to break your heart. 

“Hey, I'm here. Where are you?” you say to Harry on the phone as you enter the room.

“I'm at the back, dealing with something. Did they let you in? I told them to let you in.”

“Yeah, they did. If you're too busy I'll just give your wallet to someone.”

“No, no. It won't be long. Wait out there for me, alright? I want to see you.”

“Okay,” you say before hanging up with a big smile on your face. 

“I want to see you" You're replaying those words inside your head in the sound of his voice. You know this is wrong but at this point you genuinely believe he does have feelings for you. Maybe he left his wallet just to have an excuse to see you. Maybe...The thought of “maybe" makes the butterflies in your stomach go insane. Your palms sweat and you’re grinning way too hard. If your brother was here he would make fun of you for this, you just know it.

“Hello! Can I help you?”

You're stopped by a woman who looks a few years older than you. She's probably one of Harry's staff. 

“Are you lost miss?” the woman asks, eyeing you from head to toes like you’re here with bad intentions, which makes you feel awkward.

“Um, no.” You shake your head. “I'm here to see Harry...Styles”

“Really?”

"Yes?”

“I'm not sure Mr. Styles has an appointment with anyone at the moment...” says the lady as she pulls out her phone, probably to check the schedule. Yup, she's definitely working for your best friend.

“I'm his friend from high school actually. He might not have told you about me. We recently got back in touch. He told me to wait out here. That's why the security guy let me in.”

The woman still doesn't seem convinced.

“I can call Harry and he will confirm this.”

“No, it's fine. If you said so I believe you. You look harmless anyway.”

“Thank you?”

Your reply makes the woman laugh. “Nice to meet you! I'm Christie, Mr. Styles' assistant.”

“I'm Y/N! Nice to meet you!” you grin at Christie and shake her hand. It's bothering you a bit because Harry hasn't mentioned you to his assistant yet. If the staff who's closest to him doesn't know about you then you're sure nobody else knows. Why hasn't he talked about you?

"Do you know when he'll be done in there?”

“It might take a while,” says Christie as she rolls her eyes. “His girlfriend is here.”

You look at her, shocked and confused at the same time. “His...girlfriend?”

“Yeah, Caitlyn, the model. He might not have said anything but he's always visiting her. In fact, she spent the night at his house two nights ago.”

“Two nights ago?” You can feel your voice shake as those words roll out of your tongue. That would mean the night you called him when you arrived in L.A. He was with her when he was talking to you, and he lied.

Christine notices the change of expressions on your face and she starts to freak out. "Oh God, I shouldn't have told you that! Harry told me not to talk about his relationships with anyone!”

“Don't worry, I won't tell,” you promise without even looking at her. Of course you're going to keep this to yourself and let it eat you up gradually every time you think about it.You feel a lump in your throat and the butterflies in your stomach burst into flames. Now all you feel is stupid. You're not special. He can have any girl he wants and sadly you're just one of them. The things he said to you, leading you on, making you think he felt the same way, were probably the same things he said to her, and the others. You're just making a fool out of yourself, for sticking around, for showing up here.

“Can you give Harry his wallet for me?”

Christine looks at the wallet and then you, in confusion.

“Don't you want to stay and see him?"

“No. Tell him, and his girlfriend, I said hi.”

... ... ...

“You can't keep coming here, Caitlyn! You know that! We cannot be seen together!” Harry growls in frustration as he turns his head to the door, thinking about how he will explain to you when he walks outside with Caitlyn. The girl in front of him keeps closing the distance between the two of them by putting her hands on him and having him shrug them off a few times. Clearly their relationship is something more to Caitlyn now and Harry's regretting not ending it when he could have.

“I miss you!” the girl pouts and tries to steal a kiss but Harry refuses to comply. Normally he would be down with it, she's a pretty girl and she's willing to let him do things to her, but he's done with all that now. It suddenly feels wrong. You're not his and he's not yours, he's allowed to be with anyone, but he can't do it, not when you're outside waiting to see him, not when all he wants is to see you.

“C, don't!” he warns the girl, but she doesn't get it.

“What is wrong with you? You said you missed me the other night,” she says seducingly while holding onto his shoulders, giving them a squeeze. Her fingers trail down his arms, to his hips, around his waist, and end up at the front of his belt. Harry immediately grabs her wrists.

“C, you need to leave.”

“You didn't say that when you were inside of me.”

“Enough.”

Caitlyn freezes. None of this makes sense to her. She's not used to being rejected and Harry fighting her off really offends her. She looks at him in anger, with her eyebrows furrowed and her mouth slightly opened, she shakes her head. There's hurt in her eyes and he never feels so bad.

“What's wrong with you today?”

“I think we should stop seeing each other. And you should stop coming to see me like this,” says Harry with his eyes on the floor. He hates it when he has to break someone's heart. But at this point, it's either Caitlyn’s heart gets broken or yours, and he doesn't even hesitate. He feels awful that he took this too far when clearly Caitlyn has had a crush on him since the first time they hooked up. His life was a mess before you came back. Now he must admit that he's been an asshole and try to fix this mess. 

“So,” Caitlyn speaks up, pauses a bit and chuckles sarcastically. “You've found someone else and suddenly I’m not worthy of your time anymore?”

“It's not about anyone else. It's about me not being able to give you what you want. I wish I could, but you deserve better. We've got to stop before it gets worse.”

“You know what, Harry? Fuck. You!”

“I'm so sor-”

Words don't matter anymore when it's already too late. Caitlyn storms out of the door before Harry can finish his apology, leaving him behind, alone in the dark room. This time, he knows she won't come back.

... ... ...

You come home that day and check your phone to see 12 notifications from the same person.

Hey, why did you leave? Christie said you were in a hurry but I thought we were going to have lunch.

You left me on read! Is everything alright?

**1 missed call from Harry

**2 missed calls from Harry

Love, why aren't you answering your phone?

You left me on read again. Did I do something wrong?

Please talk to me.

**3 missed calls from Harry

Please answer or at least reply. I'm really worried.

**4 missed calls from Harry

I don't know what I said or did that upset you but please call me back or text me back. Whatever I did, I'm sorry. Please talk to me.

**5 missed calls from Harry

And suddenly your phone buzz with a new notification. Another text from him.

I'm coming over.

(part 7)

[cythoughtsnmemories]

11.07.22

Met bf at bugis to try a Vietnamese restaurant. Booo~ but glad that there's 2 shop selling d backpack I wanna get, so got to try on. I got 20% discount cos 7.7 sale. Can't wait for it to arrived. Can use it for my course and upcoming staycation!

Finally tried d curry chicken sandwich and I love it. Heng~ it's not spicy at all cos I weak 😂 tummy can't tahan in morning. I guess d cheese n egg helps reduce any spiciness in d curry chicken. Haven't got chance to meet Della in office, so today we decided to just eat at our canteen. $3.50 seafood soup...damn worth it!

So covid case has been above 9k+ and monkey pox in SG. why not I wfh while I still can. Okay also cos a little sian to go office too haha~ v little pple lah. Wfh also means I gotta meal prep. I have my cold soba w seaweed, egg and seafood tofu.

It's not easy to be bridesmaids seriously. Got to discuss, meet other bridesmaids budget n ensure bride enjoy d bachelorette celebration. Not been a bridesmaid before isn't a good answer or explanation u can't suggest d plan. Anw, we kind of go w my plan. Shall check again in early Aug to confirmed d activity.

I know it's too early to think of my bridesmaids but I really dk who to pick. Everyone seems busy n don't really take initiative to keep the project active. Wait till d day comes bah.

Wanted to cook lunch for bf n his mum but his mum wanted to go woodland blk 15 food industry to get some food, so I went over early. 4 hrs gone, and we settled lunch out. I tot nvm, those ingredients I bought can use to cook Sun lunch. End up his mum wanted to cook satay bee hoon with d gravy she bought ytd. As always, his mum over buy, and now got to eat it for dinner before I go home. Maybe I don't cook at his hse anymore. I had a hard time getting d right portion to cook too.

Planned to go picnic on Sat night w babe. Wanted to try sourdough pizza but contemplating if I should buy vegan food cos bf is trying to go no carbs. In d end he said cheat day HAHAHAHA weee~ bf always let me have happy belly 😝 it's d right choice! The pizza was really satisfying. Imma try d wkday deal someday to try all 4 flavours.

So grateful that bf is open to discuss abt future. Recently I shared an article on 2/3 of divorce was initiate by women due to unacceptable behaviour. I ask bf what's was his list of unacceptable behaviour and I gave mine. Lol I'm d ma fan one. Rmb d last gathering w his friends, bf was so afraid to carry d 7 mths old baby. I was quite affected seeing that. Thinking my husband is not gonna help take care of our baby. How am I suppose d handle when I need help during maternity. Tbh, I'm quite afraid to carry new born. So I shared this concern w him and he laughed. He said if it's his child, he sure dare to carry and he might even toss d baby after a mth. Wts?!! 😂 he is just afraid he injured other pple baby so he refused to carry or interact w kids. Phew~ but now I scared he anyhow toss d baby, omg!! It was a short n sweet dating session before we head back his hse to stayover.

I'm laying on my bed and felt like I can sleep anytime before 11am. Lucky I decided to wfh tmr. Went bouldering this morning w my friends. We hang there for abt 4hrs+, not d 1st time playing but usually went for eock climbing and testing out bouldering afterwards. This time it's fully on bouldering and I used up all my energy. Only had 2 small slice of cake n few cubes of apple in d morning. Now I could still feel numbness in my fingers. Not sure if I'll feel muscle ache tmr. Good luck to me.

[yourdaddychan]

yess i'm kewl now B-) also yes that makes sense. anw it's night here and i gotta sleep soon. this anon thing is fun tho :D now i really want that ask update... dumblr whyy :( okie goodnight/day idk ur timezone :]

goodnight baby!! sleep well~ 

im in pst by the way :D

[ answer : luna ]

[ab3lle]

2016 update! (part three) (last one)

August, 2016

I got an offer from ums. that time i was checking thru sms. 

“Tahniah, anda di tawarkan ke Universiti Malaysia Sabah, kos HC13.”

What the hell is hc13 and i was actually expecting something related w food. (yeap science again just for the sake of ibu) eg: food tech, nutritionist, blabla. but it was actually an e-commerce. and never once in my life i heard about e-commerce. i did a lot of research. i asked everyone what is e-commerce. i checked the job oppurtinity. i was reluctant at first. bcs i told my friend, i mmg want to further at sabah but i wont go if got a nonsense course. i was really clueless that time. but my dad really support me. he asked me that it was ok. just go w the flow. thats it. i finally accept the offer. went for the orientation. and was really close to jiji since then.

September, 2016

I fall in love w the beauty of labuan. people at labuan started to address me as bella/belle instead of nab. so whenever i heard someone call me ‘nab’ at labuan, i feel weird. basically, whenever i am at labuan, its alright to call me bella/belle. anw like ji and tia, they still stick to nab instead bella/belle. i also went hiking too for the very first time in my life. at bukit kubong. 148 above the sea. one of the highest places at labuan. (besides umskal building) i also starts to experience celebrating hari raya aidiladha at labuan. at first in the morning after solat sunat hari raya, we went to one of the lecturer’s house which basically she’s also once a umskal student, to have some celebration at her house. we gather w the seniors from second, third and fourth year w from both faculty, (fki and fkal). i started w taekwondo again but mehhhh. it was only lasts for a day. bcs i stopped for a while and i forgot almost everything. so sad. plus my stamina pun out. so i decided to quit. (does it sounds like i’m giving up?)

October, 2016

Ghost house to gain some money for umskal got talent event. went inside to experience it but i was really scared tho i kenal every one yg jadi hantu. theres one day i went wall climbing and i cant go any higher bcs i am too heavy (gotta admit that) and teman ji and tia played futsal at night. a productive day i can say. its also the month i started to feel like i fall for my crush when i randomly record him make a cendol. (sorry, ex-crush) like, out of nowhere. but think back, i think i fall for him earlier when i first met him at klia. used to like him. used. sewa kereta at friday for 2 hours just for the sake of nasi kerabu at kedai ganu w ji and tia lol. and oh, fki family day. i was reluctant to go at first which i didnt sign up my name at first. ended up, someone said to me, “kau tak pergi fki family day, kau siap belle bila aku jumpa kau” and i terus muncul tetiba at the bus stop, that morning. hehhh. also, umskal got talent was held on october. had some problems when kertas undi tak cukup, so kak tyka and i, run naik atas level 3 to print a new one. i freaking run. i think i lost about 2.1kg that night. that was on semi final. its actually good to have some activity to do at night besides sleep. like i usually do. during the final, which was held 2 weeks after, it was good. had some problems too. tired, but satisfied. it was my first event that i joined, and it was good. i started to drive back since i left it about a year+ not driving. yeah i dont have problem in driving except not being able to drive properly, bad in guessing the distance between the car that i drove and the car behind me, took hours to park the car, and the list goes on. at the end of october, went to kk city during the mid sem break. it was my first time reached there. i went w jiji, and her friend, hamir came all the way from johor bahru. the planning was upside down i can say lol. from the hotel, food, transportation, shopping, all messed up. sokay we learnt from experience hahaha.

November, 2016

Took class photo. yeah class photo. i was lazy at first but just bcs my friend, she put such efforts to coax me and join the class photo, so i came all the way from cafe to menara. had mandarin midterm at menara. i thought i’ve done my best, but the results came out makes me feels like mehhhhh. struggling w e-commerce 3k words assignment, which i thought should be handed on 10th November but end up the lecturer said it supposed to be handed on the 10th weeks of lecture. me being me, me and last minutes works are really like a best friend. best friend for ever till jannah. told myself should change to a better me but meh. lets hope i’ll change one day. bought a new sneakers when i lost one pair of my freaking new shoes. tipulah if i said i didnt sad. but mybe not my rezeki kot. big thing happened on november i think was, tamu gadang event. from protocol to urusetia. tired but i really like the experiences. during the graduate run, i was supposedly get ready by 4am, ended up i woke up late and i was there at 4.30am or is it 5am. i really have problem when it comes to wake up early in the morning. big, problem. and i just realize the pokestop at umskal suddenly went missing. i was really sad that time. no kidding. went to palm beach resort after find some things for sispa booth. main buai while enjoying the scenery there. really makes me fall in love w nature, beach, and labuan.

December, 2016

Karkomkal event. since i joined sispa, i will join karkomkal for 3 semesters. bcs sispa is actually badan beruniform and have to take till my third semester. means what? on the next sem, others are enjoying wake up late, and i’ll be rushing on saturday morning for sispa lecture lol. indian cultural night, we (me, ji, and tia) didnt take part in that event bcs we are lazy already. and accidentally wore red, some color w them. what a coincidence. had titas presentation too on december w the most 1 malaysia group ever. 1 chinese, 1 sarawakian, 2 malays, and 2 indians. its good to get the chance to mix w all the races especially when you are out from yr zone. also, our programming group project. took us about 1 night to do it, and about less than 2 days to find and fix error and we did it. and i really thought that ‘class’ wont be came out during final but then, paapppp! 35marks. trust me i didnt revise about ‘class’. anw, we received a compliment from our tutor! goodjob mates xoxo. tak sia sia i skip ugt family day just bcs i had to stick on the screen to find the error on my group project lol. basically last class for every subject. bcs final is approaching that time. and last but not least, my 2016 ended w sispa final exam.

My 2016 update finally comes to the end. the last 5 months in 2016 basically were my first semester of degree journey. remember when i said i badly want to further in IT related? i really grateful when i didnt give up for matrics, my result was just passed, and i didnt get what my parents wants but god put me nicely in what i deserve. hence, e-commerce. tho at first idk a thing about e-commerce, but day by day, i realize it flows in me since i was small. god plans is always great. i might merungut all the time but i know everything happens for reasons and great thing will finally come. you just have to wait and have faith in allah.

And i am really sorry bcs it took me a month to do this update. but believe me, i was actually very sad, when a friend of mine, suddenly was not my friend anymore, those great time i used to have are now tinggal memories, it saddens me. really. every pictures have its own story. and i realize how people change, day by day, month by month, year by year. even myself. and i am happy for everyone, especially my friends. prayers are all goes to them. take care my lovely friends. still friend or not, still contact or have lost contact, thanks for making my life memorable. thanks bcs you used to be there. i wish you to have a better life. and those who are still w you, or w us, treasure them. bcs we dont know till when they will stick to us. till then. :)

P/s: no pictures on this post update bcs even theres no picture in this, its too long already. no. actually bcs i have problem in transferring pictures from my phone to pc. anyio.

[niel-trbl]

Across the Universe

Ex-Boyfriend!Kang Daniel

Note: that time when i watched Junggigo’s Across the Universe mv too many times and ended up writing a scenario inspired by it of course i had to throw in my fav in there

you finally graduated from university

to celebrate the end of your university education, you decided to sign yourself up for a Tokyo tour package

it was a rather impromptu decision that you made

even though it was your second time heading to the said city, your gut feeling kept pushing you to sign up for the tour

since you trust your gut feeling 100%, you knew it’ll be a great solo trip

on the night of your flight, you arrived nice and early at the airport to meet the tour leader

after meeting her and some of the other members in the tour group, you went to check your luggage in then made your way to the departure hall

along the way, you bumped into someone, thus dropping your passport

just as you were about to reach down for your passport, your hands touched, sending chills down your spine

you hear a familiar voice calling for your name - the one you least expected to hear especially after so long

“Daniel, wha- what are you doing here?”

“I’m flying to Tokyo. It’s a tour thing. Are you also…?”

Daniel still looks so good even after those years

“Err yeah…”

“Oh. I see. Well-”

“I gotta go,” you quickly left him hanging then headed to the departure hall

you and Daniel were high school lovers, he was your first love

you shared such a strong bond with one another

everyone had always admired both of you and always said you were the couple to potentially end up getting married to one another in the future

however all of that came crashing down around your final year of high school where you caught him cheating on you with your supposed ‘good friend’

from then on, you didn’t keep in contact with him (and that ‘good friend’)

you tried to move on by putting your focus on other stuff

by that, it meant you crying your heart out for days and attempting to make yourself feel happier by watching happy movies and listening to happy songs but all they did was make you sadder because it reminded you of how sad you were and how happy the people in the movies and songs were

fast forward to when you started university, you decided that this will be a good time for you to start anew

and it was great, you were happier, made new friends, dated here and there but nothing serious

now, being face to face with him after so long, you had a sudden flashback of your old memories in high school

and having to be in the same tour group as him did not help at all

before stepping into the plane, you tried to talk yourself out of it, making yourself think that is not a big deal

you sat in your allocated seat on the plane by the window, busying yourself by reading through the catalogues when you felt a presence filled the seat beside yours

just when you were about to greet yourself, your smile dropped

“Daniel, are you following me?!”

“no…” “okay i might have requested for a specific seat”

“what?! just ugh… no more talking until the flight’s over okay?”

did you say that it was a good thing that you trusted your gut feeling? now would be a good time to retract your statement

throughout the flight, it was pretty silent, there wasn’t much disturbance which you really appreciated, especially with your splitting headache acting up

it didn’t help the fact that you left your medication in your luggage so you tried to sleep it off when you felt a nudge on your shoulder

when you turned, you see Daniel handing you some medication

“thanks” you muttered as you took the medication almost immediately

“I figured that you were having your usual headaches so…”

“I hear talking”

“c’mon ________, please give me a chance to say something”

“what? what else do you want to say to me?”

“I know I screwed it up big time last time. But you can’t just keep avoiding me,”

“… I guess you’re right”

“So can we just start over?”

you were unsure if you were ready to open up to him again

“I’m not going to force you but it’d be nice to have some company in this group”

Daniel did have a point, especially since most of the members are family groups, it’d be awkward to mix around with them

“Fine. But just give me some time”

from that moment onwards, both of you stayed by one another most of the time

thanks to Daniel, you didn’t feel lonely throughout the trip

on one of the days, your tour guide had brought your group to a lunch spot by the waters

since you had a lot of time to kill after, you walked around the street, watching the performances by the buskers

Daniel held your hand then started spinning you around and dancing, something both of you often did back in high school

it reminded you of the good old days, back to your younger selves

while you were laughing and dancing together, an elderly couple approached both of you, handing you a rose whilst conversing in english

“What a sweet couple! Reminds me of the good old times when I first met my wife” “How long have you been dating?”

just when you were about to tell them that you weren’t dating, Daniel interrupted

“It’s been awhile, ma’am. If anything, I think both of you are the sweeter couple! Still going out on dates at this age,” he wrapped his arm around my waist, like how he used to

“You are ever so kind. Dear, hold on to him. He’s definitely a keeper!” the lady said to you, before they made their way towards the park.

“Why did you say that?”

“The couple was too sweet! I couldn’t bring myself to tell that we weren’t. Just chill. C’mon, let’s go back to the restaurant,” he ruffled your hair

you were stuck with those thoughts for awhile

you thought about the past few days and how enjoyable it was having Daniel around, you were genuinely a lot happier than you thought

you sat by the window, watching the skyline of Tokyo as you texted your friend about the situation

“if it’s meant to be, why not go for it? maybe give him a second chance?” she advised you

speak of the devil you thought as you read the text you just received

Daniel: hey are u watching the skyline?

You: how did u know?

Daniel: just a guess ㅋㅋㅋ

Daniel: anw how does a little spontaneous night adventure sound right now?

what your friend and the lady said kept ringing in your head so you decided to give him another shot

You: sounds interesting, i’m down

Daniel: nice! meet me at the hotel entrance in 5 mins? see you!

you touched up your makeup a little, put on your jacket and sneakers then headed downstairs to meet Daniel as promised

the moment you stepped outside of the entrance, you see Daniel jogging towards you with a bouquet of your favourite flowers

your heart fluttered knowing that he still remembered your favourite even after all these years smooth move danik

"The florist down the street was selling your favourite so I figured to get some for you,” he scratched the back of his neck as he flashed his signature bunny smile after handing the bouquet to you

even after all these years, he’s still the sweetest person like how you remembered him to be

it was frustrating that he made it hard to hate him DAMN DANIEL

“Let’s go?” you nodded then he wrapped his arm around your shoulder and both of you headed off to your little adventure around the foreign city

both of you walked around the streets, stopping by some of the stores to window shop, trying on some clothes and accessories for the fun of it, just enjoying your last night in Tokyo

after walking around for awhile, both of you sat on the bench at the park, stargazing and looking at the skyline, only conversing in whispers as if you were in your own world - something both of you often did

Daniel propped his head up on an elbow and ever so often, pushed back your fringe every time it fell to the front of your face

you missed the feeling of his fingers running through your hair, it always puts you at ease

he suddenly fixed his gaze on you and got closer

in panic, you quickly stood up and announced that it was getting too late and that both of you should head back to the hotel

the walk back to the hotel was quiet, awkward yet comforting at the same time

“Thanks for tonight. My favourite flowers and chai latte - it was really nice. I really appreciate everything,” you thanked him as both of you stopped in front of your room

“No problem. Good night,”

he leaned in and you turned your face away from him, in which his lips landed on your cheek instead

you wished him good night then quickly head inside

you didn’t get much sleep that night

all you did was tossed and turned in bed, thinking about the what ifs

you were very well aware of Daniel's advances to you, it was so obvious throughout the trip to the point where even the members of the tour group was trying to give both of you your alone time

you remembered panicking when Daniel tried to give you a kiss, you weren’t sure if this was what you wanted

should you give him a second chance? will he cheat on you like he did back then?

you got up earlier than usual that morning, got ready and packed your luggage then headed to the outdoor lounge to catch a glimpse of the sunrise before grabbing breakfast

you felt a presence filled the empty spot beside you

“Good morning” Daniel greeted you with his signature eye smile, in which you greeted him quietly with a nod then quickly focusing back at the view in front of you

“Something bothering you?” he suddenly popped the question, surprising you “I know you too well, _______. What’s up?”

“Is it… me?” “…” “It is me right?”

“You know what, I’m going to grab breakfast”

“_______, tell me, is it me? Was it coz of what I did last night?” he immediately stood in front of you

“… No, it’s not you. It’s just me. I’m just, confused? Everyone has been saying how good we look together and that lady saying that you were a keeper. I don’t know if this would be a good idea,”

“What’s stopping you?”

“The thing that happened back then, when you… cheated on me. If we got back together, can I trust you again to not do that to me again?”

“_______, cheating on you was the stupidest thing I’ve ever done. If I could turn back time, I wouldn’t have done that to you. I lost the most special person to me. You mean the world to me. I really want to make it up to you. I love you. I still do,”

He cupped your cheek and pecked your lips. This time, you didn’t avoid it.

“You don’t have to give me your answer now. C’mon let’s grab breakfast,” Daniel held your hand and led you to the breakfast area

you were still stuck on not knowing what to tell him

the old lady in your tour group broke your train of thought while both of you were in line to grab food

“Trouble in the love world?”

“Sorry? Oh no, I was just… deep in thought,”

“Oh dear, I know that look. I too was once in your position - constantly unsure of the relationship I was holding on to,”

“So, what did you do?”

“I let it go. Your feelings will reflect your relationship and if you feel uncertain about it, that would not be good for you or your significant other. I know it’d be hard especially if you have some lingering feelings. But think of it this way - this helps you to understand what you want for yourself. I hope this helps you, my dear. Enjoy your breakfast,”

you tried to marinate the advice given as you ate your breakfast with Daniel

in front of you, you see the boy whom you were once in love with but are you able to see a future with him? is he what you were looking for?

fast forward to a few hours later where you finally touched down in your motherland

with your luggage in your hand, you made your way to the exit of the arrival hall with Daniel beside you

“Hey Daniel… I wanna thank you of the past week. I really appreciate it,”

“Anything for you,” Daniel leaned in to place a kiss on your forehead, in which you took a step back

“I don’t think this is going to work out. I’m still unsure of this relationship and I don’t want to lead you on with uncertainty. I’m sorry that it had to be this way,”

“It’s okay. If this is what you want, then I’ll respect it,” “Can we have this last hug?”

you nodded and he embraced you in his arms

“Now, if you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here for you, as a friend, of course. You better take care of yourself, okay?” he held onto your shoulders and looked into your eyes

as both of you part ways, you felt the weight on your shoulders being lifted

indeed a strange feeling but it was definitely something you wanted for a long time