#antarcticanammonite

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antarcticanammonite replied to your post: Happy new year!

any resolutions?

Naww, not really. Not organised enough for that. xD Not organised enough to ever keep any resolutions if I did make ‘em, so I don’t bother. I know whatever I say isn’t gonna happen.

I think my main goal is to get to and get through the semester in Japan without everything crashing and burning. >>

But honestly, if I could do anything, god I wanna do some more/proper song shit. Y’all haven’t really seen it over here, because that was all on the sideblog/the songs were about events or characters from over there so it wouldn’t make sense to anyone here, but. I want to do more of that. I want to be good at that. But I’m starting at level zero skillwise while my brain already wants to be making super cool things and it’s just horribly frustrating akshdjakshda.

(I mean, I did reblog the Transference song, which was rewritten lyrics, but I did two original songs too just this month. Only I can’t play any instruments or write music whatsoever, and I don’t have the skill to record separate parts into an acapella thing, so it’s.... kinda meh with just a single vocal track and some reverb slapped on top. orz)

......just gonna. Casually. Drop the links for those. Idk. They’re a thing. Don’t mind the lyrics for the Dark/DA one that’s, um. Meant to be super messed up. 

[lord-kitschener]

@antarcticanammonite hat gesagt:makes sense since the attacker turned out to be a shit-eating cuck --------------------------------

They're not the same guy, but congrats to your pol moron buddies for admitting that they collect poopcuck porn :^)

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in reply to this post: “antarcticanammonite: girls have it hard, eh? :^)”

are you kidding me? i said i’m not a girl, and you say this. are you trying to be funny, or are you just an idiot?

[ben-lyintous]

antarcticanammonite replied to your post “i am not a homophobe but blblblbllb lblblblblllbbl bllblblblbllbbb”

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put it in square brackets and you’ve got a phonetic transcription of straightsplaining

[butterflysnowflake]

if u were a fictional character u would be matori :^)

this and Jemma are the only two correct answers to that meme

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How much longer do you have in uni?

I’m extending my course out as long as possible, apparently. Whoops. It’s a three year degree, but I’m going to end up doing it in five. I did a foundation year before starting for realsies, and I’m tossing in an international year as well.

I’ve just finished what is the 2nd year of the actual degree, but next year I’m swanning off to San Diego and hopefully Osaka to do an extra year, and then I’ll be back to do the final “3rd” year.

So, still two years to go.  😂

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Ever thought about drawing your own manga?

I mean, I’ve thought about mini doujinshi-style stories, but I’ve never been particulary artistically inclined and haven’t drawn a damn thing in four years, thus I’m hella out of practice and have lost whatever little skill I ever managed to gain from the times I did attempt to draw, so.

I do not have the art capability to draw a manga. xD

It’s a nice idea though, I would like to make a doujinshi or something if I could.

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antarcticanammonite replied to your post: ace0fshades replied to your photoset: Listen, I...

she is a russian spy we know the truth dammit

Shit, Mark’s gone and blown her cover now >>

....although y’know, that does explain her propensity for using the phrase “I could tell you but then I’d have to kill you”

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GO TO SLEEP HOLY BALLS

I’ve stated my position and I ain’t wavering, sleep happens when the stream finishes. 

Anyway, I do perfectly fine on very little sleep the day immediately after. I will need to sleep tonight otherwise tomorrow will be a hella crash, but now I’ve had my lil bit of a nap and I’ve been out into town for a walk in the cold air (with stream on the phone the whole time of course) and I’m definitely awake enough and totally okay to last to the end of the stream.

Besides, I love torturing myself for this game, that’s half the fun.

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Imagine punching someone so hard they turned into a door. Then you find out that's where ALL doors come from, and you got initiated into a murder club that makes doors. The stronger you punch, the better the door. So there are super strong murderers who punch people into venetian doors and shit.

Lol, thank you for this top tier shitpost I guess?? xD

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1-4,7,10, 11,13,14,16, 19-21, 25,26,30,34, 39,52,54,55, 61,62,65,67 also 69 - (b) - How mature do you think i am on a scale of 1 to 10 giggity giggity!

That’s a lotta questions! :o I’mma put this one under a cut, lol.

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

Yeah, my mum especially. To the point where we’ve been discussing buying a plot of land for my hobbit house and splitting the payments and I’d be 100% fine with doing that and trusting there to be no issues with the money and also we’d probably build the house together. She’s on board with my hobbit house plans.

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

Uuuuuumm, I don’t think I’ve said it for a long time, I can’t remember. I imagine it probably would have been my mum, but more likely in writing that in person ‘cause I’ve been away at uni and haven’t seen any of the family in a few months now.

03: Do you regret anything?

Many stupid small things and instances where I’ve embarrassed myself by being socially awkward. Nothing major though.

04: Are you insecure?

Depends on what about. I am content about some things, like being able to achieve things independently and get by on my own and also I’m generally perfectly happy with how I look, except for in photos which pisses me off because I know I look better than I do in photos and it annoys me that they make look bad. Fuck photos.

But then I am hideously insecure when it comes to dealing with other people like ahahahaha I am so bad it’s embarrassing. I need to go back to self-isolating I can handle that so much better. Every time I try to interact with people I end up fucking up somehow and hating myself.

07: What did you last eat?

I still haven’t eaten today, so it would have been dinner last night. I tried some of Domino’s new meatball things at a society/social thing last night, they weren’t that great.

10: When was your last physical fight?

Uhhh. Do sword fights count? Cause I imagine it would have been when I was taking the sword fighting lessons. That was like three years ago now.

11: Do you like someone?

Presuming this means like like as in crush-type like, no.

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

Nn, hate is a bit strong. There’s a few people in the aforementioned society that I am wary of, because they’ve made comments that are kind of racist or transphobic or otherwise Not Cool, but I’m too fucking weak-ass to call them out on it.

14: Do you miss someone?

Not really. It’s kind of weird, like, I say I’m close to my family but at the same time long periods of separation seem totally normal and I don’t miss them much at all idk.

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

I... am still not entirely okay about last night’s society thing and the guy who was making transphobic comments. Like, if there’s one thing I really fucking hate, it’s people who spout opinions - usually opinions that are shitting on other people’s existences - when they clearly know fuck-all about what they’re talking about. Making judgements without knowing the full situation kind of thing. 

But I don’t feel like I know enough either to really stand my ground, so I say nothing because, as I mentioned before, I am fucking disgustingly weak. Like, evil flourishes if good people stand by and do nothing and all that jazz.

So, I feel gross about the comments, and I feel gross for not saying anything, and I just want to barricade myself off from the world because I can’t fucking handle anything, and then I feel gross about that too because ahahaha that is not how to respond to conflict.

(The amount of weakness + running away from my problems has gotten so bad I can’t even project onto Cloud anymore, even though he used to be my go-to identifier for that kind of shit. orz)

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

Mmm, I don’t know, that could end badly. I don’t think there’s anywhen I’d want to go to enough to risk it. I’d rather just go somewhere else geographically in the current time.

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

I have not snogged anyone at any point ever.

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

Too much plans, I wanna sleep. But I want to get the tables and graphs done for one lab report and do a decent chunk of the research for the case study thing I have to do for next week. Then I’m gonna hang out with a friend this evening. Tomorrow there are mentions of a group of friends going to the Chinese supermarket and getting together and cooking stuff?? (We’ve done that before but there has been very little in the way of organisation/confirmation of anything this time round so idk.) And there’s the social for the BDSM club people tomorrow evening as well.

This is too much people I’m gonna burn out by the end of the weekend aaaaaahh. DX

Also I needed to try a wash my hair at some point, because we do not talk about how horrifically bad that situation is. (I look at those posts that occassionally crop up with neurotypical people horrified that someone with a mental illness might not shower for two or three days because spoons and I die imaging the reaction if they knew how godawful I am with that shit.)

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

Nah. I’ve moved countries enough that I am very good at forgetting people and moving on, I’ve had a lot of practice. That’s probably not entirely a good thing, but.

26: What are you craving right now?

Breakfast.

30: What’s irritating you right now?

I think I already gave a far too detailed answer for that in question 16. >>

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

Oooooh. I did have quite an involved dream, but I can’t remember it all that well now. I think the vine guy was there briefly for some reason.

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

I have not yet had a first kiss.

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Nah, sometimes shit just happens because people are assholes. Most times there will be a way to rebuild and make something better out of whatever situation, but I wouldn’t say it ‘happens for a reason’ as if people were meant to suffer however they have.

54: Is cheating ever okay?

No. I mean, I don’t understand it anyway because being ace I’m just here like ‘wtf??? is it really that damn hard to keep it in your pants???’ lol. But if you are interested in having more than one partner, good communication and polyamorous type arrangements are a much better way to go if everyone’s on board with that. 

55: Are you mean?

Never intentionally, though I imagine my awkwardness sometimes can be interpreted as rudeness.

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

It would depend on the person saying it. I used to have a friend a very long time ago who called me and our other friend ‘babe’, that was cute. If I trusted the person and it was done in a joking but affectionate kind of manner within a friendship/queerplatonic relationship I’d be fine with it. If it was someone I didn’t know so well and, like, if they’re trying to be sexy with it like a ‘hey baby’ kind of thing, that would be weird and creepy ‘cause no thank you.

62: What makes you happy?

Long hikes in lots of nature when the weather is nice, people saying nice things about fic or that thing that happens where we all bounce ideas off each other and end up with fic of art and art of fic, uni work that is actually fun to do and I feel accomplished when I make something I’m proud of, randomly having a gigglefit over recalling stupid funny things (mostly dumb vines or Markiplier, lol), when my voice cooperates and I can sing well.

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

That is awkward as hell because I can guarantee I won’t feel the same way about them, soooo. If it was my best friend of the same sex that has more potential, since I would consider a queerplatonic kind of relationship with someone I was really close friends with and trusted a lot, but I’d be 100 times more comfortable with it if that person was female as well. (Or nonbinary, or trans, actually... now I think about, it’s only cis males that make me really nervous about being liked by. A generalisation, I know, but if any demographic is going to feel entitled to more than I’m comfortable with, it’d be them.)

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

Probably someone at the uni society thing yesterday, I guess.

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

No, certainly not as a universal thing. Like, it’s sweet to some people click so well it feels like they’re soulmates, but I don’t think that can be expected for everyone.

[asreoninfusion]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

xD I’m not sure if there was another part to this that got eaten, or it was in response to a specific post or something, but I am glad you sound excited!! 

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Mind Control

Yeeeeesss pls. It somewhat depends how it’s done, but tbh, we all know I’m a sucker for mind-controlled puppet!Cloud. That does seem to be something that I write little ficlets for on a semi-regular basis, and am likely to continue doing so. x3

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Headcanon: You arent actually real and are a figment of my imagination :^)

IT’S POSSIBLE. WHO’S TO SAYS WE AREN’T ALL FIGMENTS OF IMAGINATION?? WHAT IF WE ARE ALL OUR OWN PARALLEL UNIVERSE BASED UPON OUR EXPERIENCES OF REALITY AND THE ‘PEOPLE’ WE INTERACT WITH ARE SIMPLY LEFTOVER ENERGY SIGNATURES ECHOING IN FROM THOSE OTHER REALITIES AAAAAAAHHH

//EXISTENTIAL CRISIS

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antarcticanammonite replied to your post “[[MOR]Oh, sweet! I wanted to go see Ghostbusters cause I hear good...”

tell us whats like and be honest :^)

Lol, don’t ask me, I am the worst person ever at giving reviews or being critical of anything. ^^;;; But I had fun watching it, so that’s what counts! 

It was kind of silly and cheesy at times, but it’s the Ghostbusters franchise, that kinda comes with the territory. x3 Maybe the villain could have been done a little more subtly? (But I see why the whiny manbabies wanted to trash the movie - I bet that hit a little too close for them, hahaha.) The ladies were all A+.  Also, Holtzmaaaaannn, oh my gosh.

It was certainly entertaining and I enjoyed it!!

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14,16,17,23,57,61,64,132,134

That’s a lot of questions! :D Under the cut to spare peoples’ dashes.

Also, I started talking about quantum physics. Just to warn you.

14: Do I have a crush

Nope, I don’t really get crushes. At least, I’ve never had one on an actual real life person. I may have had two or three, like, romantic crushes I guess, on fictional characters. But that’s been two or three over the span of an entire decade. It’s not a common thing and never lasts (thank goodness, because it’s just awkward and embarrassing and why.)

16: Favourite place

Hmmm. Idk. I tend to like foresty, slightly mountainous places, with a nice river or something. There were some good waterfalls in the Brecon Beacons. The old house in Australia with a rainforest out the back was nice, as well as the other house with a more bush-like area and a big dam up the road (though I don’t think I ever actually got to go swimming in it). There’s a lot of nice places, but I don’t know what my favourite would be.

I haven’t actually been there yet, but there’s a cabin I’ve booked for going hiking this summer and it looks so nice; if that’s as good as the pictures suggest that might end up being favourite.

17: Favourite food

I really like Macsween haggis, oddly enough. Or there’s this Thai curry soup with sweet potato and chicken and coconut milk and coriander that’s really nice if I actually make it right. (I made a big batch yesterday and forgot one of the ingredients again. orz)

23: Hair colour 

Naturally a fairly boring brown. I keep trying to dye it red, but I’m usually too lazy to top it up as often as I’m supposed to (I tend to dye it every 6 months instead of every 6 weeks lol - or was that how often you’re meant to get a haircut, I don’t pay attention to these things (haircut every 6 weeks, ha!)) So anyway, usually my hair colour is some kind of faded red/gingery in-between. 

57: What do I think about most? 

Hn. It depends. During term time, definitely (inevitably) uni - what lectures I need to go to, what work I need to do and when I can squeeze it in, that takes up a lot of time.

Sometimes, if I’ve come up with an idea for a fic or something that I’m particularly excited about, I’ll think about that a lot, but only usually for a couple of days.

At the moment, there’s three different summits going on simultaneously with the various doctors and experts talking about their things. That is way too much information for a brain to handle. But I’ve been listening to several of those interviews and things a day (instead of revising *cough*) so that’s what I’m thinking about most currently.

61: What was the last lie I told? 

Only a tiny little lie.I was at the juice shop and wanted two things, but felt it was weird to be getting two things. So I got one, drank it there, then got the other as a take-out saying ‘oh, yeah, I’m just gonna grab one to take home for later too’. I don’t know why I bothered, no one is gong to judge me because I had a warm drink and then a juice immediately afterwards. 

132: Been rejected by a crush?

Nah. See first question re: never having had a crush on an actual person. Can’t get rejected by a crush if you don’t have one.

134: What do I want for my birthday?

Usually I’m really bad at coming up with things I’d like, but I would actually appreciate getting a PS4 this time round. Gonna need that for the remake. >3 Other than that, I’m always open for doujinshi, but I can’t really get the fam to buy me that sort of thing that would a) be weird and b) a lot of hassle for them to work out how to get it.

64: Do I believe in magic?

OH BOY HERE WE GO. 

Define magic??? Actually, I’ll let google do that; “the power of apparently influencing events by using mysterious or supernatural forces”.

In that case, yes. I suppose. Although, you’d only call it ‘mysterious or supernatural forces’ because the science and underpinning mechanism hasn’t been properly explored yet. Quantum physics is starting to touch on it - they limit it to subatomic particles, but it’s kind of what Quantum Field Theory is starting to get towards.

The graphic at 3:28 in the video linked above shows two planes: a physical plane and one that is made up entirely of fields, or energy. The vibrations on the field are what determine what particle we see on the physical plane. Essentially, particles are vibrations. And everything is made up of particles.

As far as quantum physics is concerned, this sort of thing only occurs on the subatomic level and doesn’t really affect anything larger.

But there is just so much evidence around that indicates it can influence on a wider scale. Small scale, there’s the traditional experiment where a photon behaves as a wave when not observed, but a particle when it is observed. (Ah. Wave-particle duality, that’s what it was called.) There was a whole book I read once, The Intention Experiment, that was about testing the larger scale implications (and they got statistically significant experimental results).The law of attraction, which has become a bit of a thing, I think you could easily explain using the same quantum field theory mechanism. Miracles too. 

(I really do not have the brain power to work out the details nor explain it now, but I think you could probably resolve a mechanism that can underpin every spiritual practice and religion and unite those together with what we perceive as being scientific. A Universal Theory, if you will. But quantum physics isn’t even my subject, why am I here.)

So, the quantum field is a realm of possibility. In the traditional dual slit experiment, the unobserved electron, mathematically, goes through both slits, neither, or one or the other - but all of the possibilities coexist. It is the presence of observation that causes the wave function to collapse, and only one of those possibilities occurs.

(This is a super weird, dorky and uncanny valley video, I’m sorry. But it’s good as a simplified explanation.)

And it’s not just the field of a single electron; the same applies to every particle, every atom they make up, every piece of matter. Infinite possibilities.

So then, the not so much scientifically explored but logical lead on from that is to say human consciousness/thought/observation also has an interaction with that quantum field.* A thought is energy. Energy interacts. Particles - and therefore all matter - are vibrations in the quantum field. They’re energy too. 

(*This is the largest leap in reasoning required, and until further research is done, it is a leap. I am aware of this. But it’s done by extrapolating from the subatomic experimental understanding, and can then be used to make sense of a whole host of otherwise unexplainable observed phenomena. So until something better comes up, I’m rolling with it.)

Anyway. Going back to the original question; I don’t think it’s unreasonable that the energy of a person, by their conscious, creative thoughts, could therefore have a tangible impact on a physical plane, in a way that could appear ‘miraculous’ or ‘magic’. Our energy influences their energy and which of those infinite possibilities they express.

Thing is… you could call it a quantum field, or you could call it some kind of energy plane, or you could call it a spiritual realm. I think it may well be entirely the same thing. Likewise, in the impacting of that field, it requires a certain level of mindful consciousness - which could be in the form of, say, prayer, or meditation, or mindfulness, or ritual and the setting of intention like you might do in a more traditionally portrayed idea of ‘magic’. But it all utilises the same underlying mechanism. That’s kind of the basis of my universal theory of everything.

It’s… it’s a work in progress.

(Also, I don’t even know, man, what the fuck is my brain.)