#angst angst angst angst angst angsssttttt

[softangstywriter]

• "Those bright eyes of his... They scare me"

I remember him so well. Too well. More than I want to, honestly. If I close my eyes, I can see him with such utterly small details that it gives me shivers, shivers out of sheer guilt. He was the softest thing ever, most precious, innocent cinnamon roll. He had the sweetest voice, calmest attitude, respectful posture, everything you see in these cliché perfect precious boys in generic movies. Usually the one who gets called a nerd and a "kick me" note on the back of a old hoodie.

And he was the weakest person I've ever met on my life. He had the loudest cry, the thinner arms, clumsiest manner, perfect to punch. He was a slow runner, a coward at his best. He never replied when we offended and laughed at him. He cried like a stupid baby when some of us burned or ripped his notebooks full of hero entries he studied so hard to finish. He never hit back when ''some of us'' almost made him deaf by making explosions way too close to his soft baby ears and making he throb in pain. He didn't care about the bullying, since a long time ago, and that drove me nuts. Who that jerk tought he was to act so goddamn cool?

It started pretty early, being honest. At the start it was just a ridiculous joke, as we were little kids who might just have started to discover who they are. Or who they aren't. We blasted. We flew. We had tails. We had crazy body parts, cool abilities, weird stuff going on. He had nothing. He just had his puffy cheeks, his weirdly symmetrical freckles, his scaredy cat green eyes and that messy dark olive hair.

So bad I'll never see these things again.

Time flew, of course, and when we realized, it was a sick, dizzy endless spiral of offenses, threats, awful bruises, adult negligence and even worse. We were both pathetically weak, we still are, but he made me feel powerful. He made me feel like I had control over his life. He was submissive because of all the pressure and harm I had put on his shoulders and didn't even realize. And yet, he still called me a friend. We had a really distorced vision of what friendship was, and we couldn't do nothing about it.

At least I couldn't. Not in time.

Despite all my obsession with heroes and being so fucking heroic, I was too blind to save him. I was such a coward... Such a villain.

Of course, there is always the high point. The apogee. In my case, the lowest blow I could ever think of blowing. And the worst part, I tought I was absolutely right, until it was too late to come back.

This day, he said he wanted to apply to U.A. we made such fun of him this day. We blew our limits shamelessly. It was so ridiculous! He didn't have a quirk, how would he go to U.A? What a joke! He was so naive. I took another of his notebooks, seeing the unbelief show in his eyes the millionth time. He tried to get it back, but I was at least ten inches taller than him, it was easy to mock that little poor soul. My hands burned the booklet and carelessly threw it from the window to the hard floor behind our hell-ish school. He stood there, hanging to look at the window, almost crying. Like the jerk he was. "Oh, come on!" I laughed so hard my stomach hurt, alongside with my 'friends' (whose I am now so disgusted of now that I don't even remember their names). "If you want to be a hero so hard, just jump off a fucking roof and see if you have a quirk in your next life!"

That was the low blow.

The look he gave me after that didn't disturb me at the time, I was too arrogant to care, but now it haunts my deepest nightmares. A look of shock, anger, lute. A look of despair, unfairness, reluctance, such a mixture of bad feelings, accumulated over so many years of oppression exploding inside him, staring directly at my soul in a way I've never seen him even trying to do, a wildness that haunted my eyes for all my years, dragging my counciousness down to an unknown path with him, forever. It's something hard to forget. Hard to overcome.

He had an accident involving a villain that day. Almost died. If it wasn't for All Might showing up at the last second, the slugde villain would've suffocated him. Ah, that was the best moment of that poor emerald's miserable life. He admired All Might so much, so much, he couldn't even believe he was being saved my his idol. By what they told me, he asked for him to sign his notebook, the same I had blown away from the window barely half an hour before. He even asked to All Might if he could be a hero even if he didn't had a quirk. He was shining.

But then, he got crushed. Appearently, All Might tought the same way as me... Or he was just being protective, knowing the struggles and dangers of being a hero, trying to keep his naive and sweet innocence safe. It didn't work. He was already suffering, and this triggered his already weak head beyond any limit. Amy humanity he had at this point was dead.

That same evening, Izuku Midoriya jumped off a roof, like I said him to. He purposely chose a building that no one looked at, just so he wouldn't get the attention for himself. It was painfully calculated, cruelly well-thought. A successful failure.

That same evening, the same criminal who attacked him almost took my life away the same way. If it wasn't All Might and some other heroes... I'd probably be in hell. In hell, like the monster I am. This day changed me forever, even when I still didn't know about Deku's fate yet. It made me rethink how I see my life. It made me appreciate it. Made me realize for once that the power I thought I had was non-existent, made me see how weak I really was. As my mom would say, I am a rat. A bastard.

Then they found his body, and my world was twisting once again. Not that I liked him. Not in the way people think I do. I just never realized how my jokes made his life a living hell. The look his mother assumed to no one specifically once she knew... It was tortuous to look at. Her painful sobs and screams, the shaking agony that exploded towards her body, the muffled, utterly sad voice as she desperately repeated the word "Izuku" a million times in a row, begging for the only thing that she loved to come back uselessly still gives me so many bad thoughts when I think about it. How could I be so cruel? How could I have ruined such a innocent woman's life like that? My own mother looking at me with a cold blooded gaze wasn't very relaxing either. She knew it was me, but she didn't even say anything about it. Just her poisonous red eyes staring at the dirtiest secrets of my soul were enough to torture me for years. She knew how to make me feel the worst kind of pain, she still knows. She plays a lot with it.

Once the controversy was over, I finally got to U.A. I owed this to both myself and Izuku. For once, I stopped offending him in my mind. Too late for apologies. I still visit his grave every year though.

I made new friends at that place. It was the best thing that ever happened to me. I've met people like Kirishima, Kaminari, Sero, Ashido, Jirou and many more. Even the people I'm not so close to, I still try and have a nice conversation sometimes (although I'm not the most delicate person on earth), like Iida, Uraraka, Tokoyami and Aoyama; hell, I even made somewhat of a friendship with the complicated emo™ Todoroki.

But, I still feel his eyes above me every single moment. His once green, livid eyes, now dead, full of white emptiness, staring at my deepest self with wild rage. He's attached to me like a shadow, unquiet and unsettling. He's my shadow, but he don't have my spiky blonde hair, nor my sharp features. No, his uncanny softness was still still there, haunting me unhumanly, not like the boy, the victim I once knew, but a ghost determimed to chase after me sleeplessly, gazing me, keeping all my darkest secrets until I join him wherever he might be, waiting for me, planning his sweet revenge, maybe.

Those bright eyes of him...

They scare me. A lot.

[annachum]

If Namor x Shuri were to actually become canon

I can totally see them having a slow burn former foes/rivals/political allies to lovers dynamic

Like :

. Being political allies had them work together in diplomacy and international relations related matters and such and find that they have even more in common than one may think

. Namor got his eyes opened to even more types of surface dwellers and realizes that....not all of them are like the Spanish colonisers that killed his dad 🤯🤯🤯🥺🥺🥺😭😭

. Namor eventually admitting that he feels guilty for inadvertently causing Ramonda's death ( THE ANGST )

. EVERYONE IN TALOCAN KNOWS THAT NAMOR IS SMITTEN WITH SHURI AT FIRST SIGBT

. That received mixed feelings from the Talokanis ( some are more hesitant, some others just joined the shipping boat )

. Shuri at first doesn't feel exactly the dame way yet gradually became torn between her growing attraction to Namor and tormented from even THINKING of forgiving Namor who inadvertently caused Ramonda's death ( THE ANGSSSTTTTT )

. The two eventually start to wear elements of each other's home domains' clothing at times in front of each other. They told their cohorts that it is ' to persuade Wakandans/Talocans even more ' YET ALL THE TALOKANIS KNEW HE AINT SLICK and some Wakandans picked that up too.

. Nakia understands how Shuri feels throughout the whole thing and tries her best to support and watch over her through the whole thing

. Riri ( who became an online friend of Shuri's after BP 2 ) was all like a hype woman like, ' GIRL THAT DUDE IS MF DRAGON AND HE LITERALLY GAVE YOU HIS MOM'S BRACELET '

Shuri : (in a facetime with Riri )Uh, Riri, we are just political allies, NOTHING MORE.

Riri :Yeah? Well, uh, how do you explain you SUDDENLY wearing more green jewelry that I see on your Instagram posts, hm? Care to explain?

Shuri : * face red * Uh.....

. Both suddenly found even more common ground in their shared hatred for Valentina Fontaine aka Madame Hydra

. Namor : Valentina is what us Talokanis call (in Mayan ) a piece of rotten fish

Shuri : * laughs loudly * Ku, I think she looks like a pig in some freaky Kardashian wig?

Namor : Are the Kardashians like.....the land people's version of nobility or something?

Shuri : * proceeds to show Namor some pics and clips of Keep up with the Kardashians *

Namor : * grimaces and laughs * Such vulgar behavior and dress style! And land people actually LIKE these stuff?!

Shuri : Yeah, well, SOME. Not me. I just heard stuff from some others and just laugh about it.

Namor and Shuri : * both roll over with laughter *

Aneka : * from a distance watching and excitedly filming the interaction *

Okoye : * watches with Aneka yet shakes her head with exasperation and being like ' I'm watching you, sea dragon man ' and trying to help Ankea contain her suppressed laughter *

. Thor ( whom I think that Namor will be friends with sometime after BP 2, or they are friends already before that )basically becomes a hype man for Namor and offers some advice on how to ' court a mortal lady '

' You should swim up to the shore, send her flowers, and just write love letters '

' Uh, wear more purple jewelry? My friends in Wakanda LOVR purple jewelry. '

' Maybe show her that you are actually good with kids!'

Namor : * groans * Thunder man, I appreciate your advices, yet Shuri is not like your lover Lady Foster. Plus, I have an army of nieces and nephews from both sides of my household tree that reside in different parts of the ocean and they ALL have a way to drive people nuts.

. And then when, after some time, Namor and Shuri FINALLY got together

Riri, Aneka and Thor just high five each other

Okoye just goes ' Hurt her again, and you're good as filleted ' to Namor

M'Baku basically just TRIES to challenge Namor in ' a series of challenges to prove that he is worthy of Princess Shuri ' yet Shuri was all like, ' Well, he passed them all before, has he not?' with a big smirk on her face.

🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯

[dylshoney]

I thought this was going one way and then you just decided to break my heart into little pieces. I never thought I’d say this but Shawn can go suck it.

My heart broke w hers, this was the best kind of pain to read.

Words Cut Like Knives (Shawn Mendes)

A/N: So this is another entry for @fourtristattoos spring festival since it angst week (I hope I’m not late), and yes, this is an angst one asdfghjkl I’m soorryy in advance. It’s cuz when I’m in that head space, I write to get it out so here we are. Hope you guys like it! x

P.S. I’ll be posting the next part of Duplicate next, hopefully in the next few days. I’m sorry for taking so long, I hope you guys understand <3

Summary: Shawn slips out the words you were never meant to hear, but you think it’s for the best that you did, even if it hurts.

Warnings: A bit of Fluff then Angst and Typos.

Word Count: 6.7k

Masterlist in Bio

Prompts will be in Bold.

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“Shawn? You here?” You frowned as you opened his door, the place oddly quiet and dark as if no one was inside, but it was unlocked and he had texted you three simple words, please come over. And being the person who cares about him so much, of course you were there in a heartbeat, mostly a blessing in his part, but a curse in yours.

There was no denying you were in love with him, you’ve come to accept that within yourself, but no one knows, and you’d like to keep it that way. It’s been your own little secret that you’re in love with Shawn Mendes, world renowned pop superstar, but to you, a dork of a best friend.

You hate yourself for pining after him, chasing a man who you know would never look at you the way you look at him, his girlfriend is living proof of that. But what can you do? If you were able to control your feelings, you would have, save yourself the heartbreak in the process.

He does care about you by a lot and he shows that in so many ways, but just not in a way that you’d want. His love and care for you has a limit, that of being just his best friend and nothing more.

Keep reading

[jimlingss]

Oh wow, you plan Jungle Park stories since long ago?

ehhh, I had the idea a long time ago. The actual details tho weren’t decided on until I actually sat down and storyboarded and decided to write it.

jeonocho said: Do I want to hug you? Scream at you? Idk yet, let me get back to you on that one please

:D

Anonymous said:sooooo… will Hoseok’s memory comes back? (No, don’t answer this! it will be big spoiler!) Everyone let’s wait the next chapters with anticipation! Thank you for your hard work!

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Anonymous said:Started from chapter 14 onward I am asking to myself: where is the fluff go??? This is angst! angsssttttt!!!

lol it’s gonna come back full swing, anon, and you know you won’t be prepared.

Anonymous said:“you deserve better” “why can’t you be better ?” GOD 😩😩👌👌 Y/N TAKING NO SHIT!!! I have no words to describe what I’m feeling besides wow, that was great. I felt that

DAMN STRAIGHT HE’S PUT HER THROUGH ENOUGH SHIT ALREADY. NOW SHE PUTS HER FOOT DOWN. 

Anonymous said:hold uP how are there only 6 chapters LEFT 😦 - chanting anon

yep. honestly im lowkey happy its ending soon cause I wanna move onto newer stories hahaha Jungle Park has been around since end of January (i think).

[dreamwritesimagines]

Sunday is finally hereeeeee. I got through writing an entire essay for the new FOH. I want the angsssttttt

Omg I need to finish an essay as well 😂 And awwww that’s so niceeee! ❤️ Oh angst is coming love, I think you’ll especially like the end of it! ❤️ kisses! ❤️

[jesperinej]

dear person I had a crush on

okay so funny thing, I have had approximately one real crush in my life, and its still ongoing (fml), so imma do have instead of had!

Dear person I have a crush on,

so, i fucked up, and I'm sorry, because even though you never said anything I'm pretty sure i hurt you. I miss you. a lot, and i don't know why we don't talk anymore, but it seems like that's what you wanted so I'm leaving it be. it just sucks though because we were really close, and beyond having a crush on you we were really good friends, and i miss our late night drives and spending weekends at your house. I'm glad you're happy with your new girlfriend though, you really deserve it. i think i will probably always miss you, which sucks, because you were also one of my best friends.

i really wish we still talked. I'm sorry.

-Ashlee

[silent-of-spirit]

Bajillion Question Meme

Tagged by @galadrieljones. Thank you!!

1. Coke or Pepsi: Ew. Neither.

2. Disney or DreamWorks: Both! 3. Coffee or Tea: Teeeeeaaaaa

4. Books or Movies: Books

5. Windows or Mac: Windows

6. DC or Marvel: Marvel! (Except for Jason Momoa as Aquaman. That may be enough to convert me to DC.)

7. Xbox or Playstation: Xbox

8. Dragon Age or Mass Effect: Dragon age (I am just not as into space and lasers and aliens as I am into forest and arrows and and elves.) (Galadriel said it best, so I am keeping her answer ;D)

9. Night Owl or Early Rise: Night Owl for sure

10. Cards or Chess: Chess

11. Chocolate or Vanilla: Both?

12. Vans or Converse: Neither

13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash or Adaar: LAVELLANNNNNN

14. Fluff or Angst: Both. Both both both. (BUT ANGSSSTTTTT. I LOVE THE PAIN)

15. Beach or Forest: Forest

16. Dogs or Cats: DOGS

17. Clear Skies or Rain: RAAAIIINNNN

18.Cooking or Eating Out: Cooking

19. Spicy Food or Mild Food: Spicy

20. Halloween/Samhain or Solstice/Yule/Chirstmas: Samhain

21. Would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: Too cold.

22. If you could have a superpower, what would it be: Oh lawd. Invisibility maybe?

23. Animation or Live Action: Both

24. Paragon or Renegade: Paragon

25. Baths or Showers: Depends on my mood

26. Team Cap or Team Iron Man: Ohhhhh gee. Probably Team Cap.

27. Fantasy or Sci-fi: Fantasy all the way 28. Do you have three or four favorite quotes? If so, what are they? WAY TOO MANY. I can’t choose.

29. YouTube or Netflix: Both

30. Harry Potter or Percy Jackson: Harry Potter

31. When Do You Feel Accomplished: When I get any amount of writing done. 32. Star Wars or Star Trek: STAR WARS STAR WARS STAR WARS

33. Paperback Books or Hardback Books: Both

34. Handwriting or Typing: Typing

35. Velvet or Satin: Both 36. Video Games or Movies: Video Games 37. Would you rather be the dragon or own the dragon: Ooooohhhhh... own the dragon.

38. Sunrise or Sunset: Sunset 39. What’s your favorite song: I can never choose. 40. Horror Movies, yes or no: YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

41. Long or Short Hair: I prefer long hair, but mine is currently short cuz it’s still growing from when I had to chop it all off. 42. Opera or Theatre: THIS IS AN UNFAIR QUESTION. Both.

43. Assuming the multiverse theory is true and that every story ever told has really happened somewhere, which one of the movie/book/tv show/game/etc worlds would you pick to travel to first:  Thedas, Azeroth, Middle Earth, Hogwarts, Tamriel. 44. If you had to eat only one thing for the rest of your life what would it be: Sushi 45. Older guys or young guys: I tend to lean VERY heavily towards older guys.

46. If you could erase any show from TV history, what would it be: No idea, lol. I don’t watch much TV.

47. Singing or Dancing: Singing. 48. Instagram or Twitter: Instagram 49. Lord of the Rings or The Hobbit: Both. Both both both both both. One does not simply choose between Tolkien stories. 50. If you could create either a sequel or bring back any tv show/movie, what would you choose: Eragon, but have it redone so it isn’t an absolute catastrophe that makes me cry and bring forth all the sequels. (I LOVED that book series like no one’s business. It was the series that inspired me to write. I had hoped the movie would give the story I loved life, but it was a disasterpiece.)

51. Who is your movie/tv show character that you are looking up to and why? Daenarys Targaryen, because she is strong and just, but can still stay soft and it does not diminish her in any way. 52. If you were ever convicted of a crime, what would it be? Probably sexual deviance. Actually no probably about it. Definitely that. 53. Anime- subbed or dubbed? Depends on the anime. I like Inuyasha and Black Butler and Fruits Basket dubbed, for instance, but there are others I prefer subbed.

54. City or countryside? Countryside. As long as there are trees.

I tag anyone who wants to do this!!! But also @ladylike-foxes, @tel-abelas-mofo, @5ftgarden, @makelovenotbloodmagic, @commanderlurker, @inner-muse, @obliviousoso