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2014 - realized I liked girls but began desperately trying to “pray the gay away”
2016 - stopped believing in Christianity as I began to better accept my sexuality
2020 - publicly came out as bisexual, and shortly after my gender crisis began
2021 - nonbinary ? we’ll run with it, I’m experimenting! I’m playing with it! I’ve been in college for a year so now I have the room to try some things out!
2023 - my first pride parade! and the gender crisis continues on…. I would really love more masculine features… a deeper voice is my dream… I see men with flat chests and I get so envious. maybe I’m trans?
2024 - FINALLY allowing myself to use multiple labels that feel right! nonbinary, transmasc, genderfluid, genderqueer, they all feel like ME! planning on starting HRT after I get married and get onto my fiancé’s health insurance. plan on getting married in a wedding dress because THAT’S WHAT I WANT! because gender is not a strict binary and I am allowed to play with it however I want! my gender is not for the pleasure or comfort of anyone else! I got to experience my SECOND pride finally feeling content with myself and my identity! I’m happy! I’m so happy :)
#the journey of finding yourself is a long process and honestly it never ends#I’ve been in the journey of self discovery for a decade now and I’m still learning something new about myself every day#but I finally feel like I know myself#I have a good community of understanding people#and you know what? tumblr really helped!#make fun of this hellsite all you want but the people on here are so helpful#getting reminders from a wide community of people that you don’t need to fit into strict labels#or you can use multiple labels!#or none at all!#just do whatever feels right to YOU#there is no wrong way to be queer!#I love you tumblr queers#even when I had my first blog in 2014 when I was 12 it felt nice to have a space that made me feel like I was gonna be okay#thank you tumblr queers#trans#lgbtq#ftm#trans man#transgender#transgender man#transmasc#trans pride#donnieisaprettyboy#ftm problems#genderfluid#genderqueer#nonbinary
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god the way this island sits on top of and reflects what's going on in your mind, and if you're already justifying what you're doing to yourself, it amplifies that, and as you justify and rationalize to cope, it makes that rationalization feel like objective truth, and then before you know it you've broken 206 bones twice to try and get back to a shadow of who you once were, except in doing so you're making it even harder to go back because you've warped yourself beyond recognition—
#misfits and magic spoilers#d20#misfits and magic#d20 spoilers#mismag#hi tumblr it's been a while but that was so fucking CHILLING and i don't know anyone who's caught up on mismag yet#so i have to put this out into the void because otherwise i will lose my mind because what the FUCK aabria#ALSO god the horror of how you've changed finally catching up to you when you're faced with people who know who you were in the past#but you smooth that away and bury it again and then the island HELPS YOU DO THAT#i just. i really really hope we check in on lemli again before the end of the season lol#my ramblings#not cr#dropout
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please don’t be sad little sprout, you are loved 🌱 🖤
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#🌱Thank you<33🌱#I guess my latest vent art post made some of you guys worried. I'm sorry ;;n;; )#but I'm alright. well.. kind of? Like I haven't done anything to myself kind of alright?#maybe I should explain bit about my situation but at the same time I don't feel comfortable to open up too much#but simply said it's about doing art as a job and mental health#Things haven't been going well but I am getting help for my mental health#This is all what I will say for now about my situation#I apologize again that I made you guys worried#but I do warn that I might post more vent art if I get enough energy to draw#this is just one way how I deal with my emotions#but if you don't like vent art I suggest to block the words vent and vent art#I remember tumblr has this option somewhere??#and uhh.. I don't really know how to end this post but thank you everyone who has been sending support<33#I might not know how to reply to them but I have read them all and I'm very thankful for all the support what you guys have given me🌱#Thank you🌱#ask#anon#me talking
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How does conversion work for a trans person? I'm scared of being naked for the mikveh immersion and also the part about circumcision, I really don't want anyone to see my body naked
I feel you on that, anon. So, it will heavily depend on which branch of judaism you plan on converting to, but there will be trans-friendly and trans-unfriendly spaces within each branch. I think the best course of action is to ask around with rabbis which take in students - definitely ask rabbis what their expectations would be as a trans student. Honestly, the only reason I didn't disclose my transness immediately to my rabbi was because I could tell he'd be trans-friendly even through email.
Now, I don't know your specific circumstances, nor will I ask, but there are options depending on what you're looking for. I'm a trans guy - I don't have the obligation to go through bris, and I'm not really able to. However, I do fulfill many of the mitzvot for men, and that compromise sort of offsets the fact that I don't have any way to really go through with bris.
For the mikvah, I've heard some places will put a sheet barrier in the water so that your body isn't fully seen. From what I know, you just need people to witness (even for a split second) that you are fully immersed and not your body. This might be dependent on the movement, however.
Otherwise, the process is very similar if not identical to cis counterparts. You can fulfill a ton of mitzvot as yourself, and in general, transness doesn't really prevent you from doing that. I would definitely talk with your rabbi for any accomodations you might want in this process - it's imperative that you're able to trust your rabbi to be receptive and willing to hear you out or compromise or anything else. If you have follow-up questions, I'd love to hear them; I can only speak to my experiences, but I know that it can sometimes be comforting to know you're not the only trans convert in the world. Transsexuals have become jewish since the dawn of time; you have no reason not to be jewish if that is something you want.
#ask#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#trans jews#queer jews#personal thoughts tag#i can't speak to the mikvah process as a trans person yet but once i do i will let you know what my options were and what i chose#i myself have become a lot less dysphoric but there was definitely a time where i was EXACTLY where you are now anon#so i get the feeling and i want you to know that there is nothing wrong with how you feel#being trans is a beautiful thing but it's also hard#with the last sentence: it's lighthearted but it's true#trans people have existed for thousands of years#trans people didn't just magically start converting when we were invented in 2014 in the bowels of tumblr#no; we were in medieval spain and bronze age egypt and talking with emperors and existing as people no matter what#to say that there's no precedent for trans people and no precedent for us comverting isn't really true#therefore there is *inevitably* going to be a space for you. judaism is vast this is true. which means there's a spot for you in it#it's true that not all spots in judaism are progressive. there are some places where being trans isn't seen as a thing#but that doesn't mean judaism is going to look that way across the board#i hope remembering that helps. it helps me
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I know Chloe is a fan unfavorite but I don't think she's all that bad. I definitely would have made changes to the way her character was written and how she was introduced, though. She deserved better than FOP season 10 (;ω;)
#vextriestoart#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#chloe carmichael#Chloe fop#fop#fairly odd parents#fop fanart#like ok so what if like she has really strict perfectionist parents who expect her to always be on her best behavior ->#so like she gets fairies to help her learn how to unwind and not always be so hard on herself to be mature and responsible all the time#or what if she was a sheltered kid who doesn’t know how to make friends or have fun because her parents were always moving around bc of work#idk that’s how I would’ve done it. I agree that her introductory episode doesn’t do a good job ->#of explaining why she would need fairies#it would’ve been nice to be shown why she’s miserable you know#but I’m rambling haha
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So I’m having one of my reoccurring dreams about my estranged family. It happens. But this time, in my old family home there’s this supernatural spinoff/reboot/sequel on the tv. I’m not even watching the tv in the dream mind you it’s just on.
The brothers are tracking this like doomsday cult as they do and SURPRISE castiel is back from super hell and he’s a mega powerful new kind of demon! And is the one the cult has been trying to use! And hes still in love with dean! Who’s too in shock to believe this is real or that’s really cas!
I don’t catch what happens next but later as I’m packing to go to the airport (another staple of these dreams) I’m listening to a video essay about how this continues the shows homophobic trend of treating gay love as monstrous and predatory. With tumblr discourse over how this was handled and if it was good or bad.
And can I just say, what a b plot
#supernatural#destiel#i’m not even in this fandom#I don’t really ship this#castiel#dean winchester#dreams#this was barely in the dream but it stood out to me so much#what a fucking background detail#later#as I was starting to wake up#I realized this probably wasn’t real#so I checked tumblr to see if it was trending#knowing if this was real it’d be all over my dash#it wasn’t so I concluded my brain cooked it up#then I woke up#I had checked tumblr in my dreams#to confirm if the dream show was real#and it somehow worked#imagine my suprise to wake up to Dean Winchester actually trending lol#up there with the time I was running from my estranged family while they were in pioneer clothes#and I was shouting for help and to watch out for people in old timey clothes#and a SEPERATE PACK of women in regency era dresses run up beside me#and I shout to the pack of people it’s okay#they’re dressed from a different historical era#you can tell by the empire waist lines#the regency women helped me run too#my brain is so fun sometimes
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new ship unlocked?
#idk what happened man#this is me coming out as a kingsley x reg x james truther#i love those guys#I CAN'T HELP IT#this is also me being really scared about the next band au chapter and refusing to write it so i write 5k of a random oneshot instead#i also typed all these tags out and tumblr logged me out and deleted them all so this is round two#it is currently 2pm i have class in like ten minutes and i didn't eat lunch because i was writing this lmao#but it's worth it because i love them#and yeah i say regulus comforts james#and he does#but also he's barely there#james and kingsley took over i saw them and started gnawing at the bars of my enclosure i needed to write them so bad#so i did#this is joining the rosestarkillerchaser fic for me putting james in a poly relationship and making him sad#i like him having many people comforting him what can i say#anyway#what's the name#it's like#jegingsley#i think#i don't know there are four fics INCLUDING this one on ao3 for them#i've read all of them and i needed hurt/comfort#it's all i read guys! you don't get it#i really need to go to class#so i'm gonna go do that now#regulus black#james potter#the marauders
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EEYAAAAGGGHHHH GO GO RAREPAIR MULTISHIPPING GADGET
#also p.s btw PLEASE do not be weird to me about this pleez shakes and wobbles like a sick baby deer#I got a really odd anon ask last time I posted my bulkbee doodles and it had me feeling real weird#im just a lil multishipper girly out in this big big world... of tumblr dot com...#if you dunno what multishipping is it just means you like to engage with different kinds of ships with the same characters and stuff !! ^^#hope this helps!! /gen#anywayz ermmmm this ship popped into my head and I was feelin really silly about it for a few days#btw fun fact!! did you guys know btw that blitzwing is apparently a sculptor of sorts?#it was apparently implied in the tfa comics because he like made a statue of megatron#a friend in another server told me abt that !!! twas quite a fun fact indeed tee bee eych#fruity artist guy activities#my art#transformers#maccadam#transformers animated#tfa#bulkhead#blitzwing#bumblebee#tfa bulkhead#tfa blitzwing#tfa bumblebee#bulkblitz#rarepair
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Fellow ace here! I'm not demi, but I fit under the umbrella as aegosexual (a term I only learned a year ago! Fun times!).
Since anons were being mean, I wanted to say hi!
Aw thank you for sharing also hi we're hanging out under the same umbrella isn't that neat! xx
#asks for bee#thoughts from the peanut gallery#sidebar:#I know it can be really confusing and overwhelming sometimes#where you feel like you have to find a specific word and/or flag to stand under#but all that matters is that you're comfortable with who you are and that can change multiple times throughout your life#sometimes finding the right label helps and sometimes it doesn't#hell I know folks who are pansexual because they like the colors of that flag better than the bi one which isn't a problem outside tumblr#the person who spits on you when you walk down the street doesn't care what your label is they only care that you're not like them#I used to volunteer at the queer crisis centre in the city I used to live in#if finding the 'perfect' label causes you too much stress#then you can toss the entire concept of finding the 'right' box aside#You can do whatever you want forever
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someone saved my fic "slipping mask" as a bookmark noting that they're all out of character and now i never want to publish anything ever again 🤠
#idk it feels extremely weird#like i spent sooo many hours writing that one#and you save it as a bookmark just bashing it?#like it's not even constructive either so it can help me get better for the future lmao#personal#ao3 bookmarks#sorry i didn't know you were the batman expert!!!!#and ofc they don't have any published fanfics of their own#like you do it better yourself then :)#:))))))))#IT REALLY RUBBED ME THE WRONG WAY#no but i'm certainly not considering deleting my whole profile and just posting on tumblr instead for the future#def not#totally not#im not dramatic#i know bookmarks are “the readers space” but if you're going to be rude then set it to private lol#it just hits so much harder because that is like one of my main struggles as well#what i'm always worried about when i write#and then having them point it out :(#ugh
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ok fellas this post is really different from my other stuff so i'm putting it under the cut for people who don't care and also because i'm slightly embarrassed
ok so. is it unusual for a girl to want to have a deep voice and a flat chest and a more square face and also feel slightly jealous of men and want to sound like them and look like them
and also is it unusual to want to be all that, but also simultaneously not be very bothered very much by how you look right now or by being referred to with she/her except for sometimes when you think about it too much. because i usually don't think about it except for sometimes where i suddenly just get really sad about being a girl or i'll always have this faint feeling that i am just unhappy about it
and also is it unusual to try to ignore it and go about your life being unbothered by it even though deep down it does kinda bother you but you can't really. like. say anything to anyone because your family won't react well and neither will your friends because they'll think it's weird and uncomfortable. i feel afraid to ever feel this way because i know the people in my life won't react well to it
so like. genuine question please lmk wtf is goin on because i'm unsure if it's normal and i've felt like this for a long time and it's confusing me and i don't even know what i'm going to do with the information once i know i'm just sort of lost LMAO

#vent#ig???????????#it's not even funny (it's a little funny) how the only reason i've like. thought about this was because i am becoming#more and more jealous of actors in the musicals i watch#greaseball when i get you. when i get you#like i know it IS possible play as male characters in musicals or something as a girl if i ever wanted to#but the thing is i want to look like them and sound like them and i want to be masculine#this is me questioning my gender on my fucking cats the musical tumblr blog everybody point and laugh#might delete later depending on how embarrassed i get ARGH#I FEEL SHEEPISH#had this in my drafts for a long time but i'm caving in and posting it because i had a bad night last night thinking abt it#and i need to know. also i'm lying in bed having to get up and i don't wanna so i'm making excuses#anyway again. i'm embarrassed feel free to ignore this is so stupid#ok. being brave about this#i don't like being negative on here. idk if it's negative but it might come off that way and i don't want to be awkward#also idk how sharing it here will help. but i don't really know what else to go to#if nobody got me i know tumblr got me can i get an amen#keep adding tags to this like it's going to change anything. post the damn thing idiot#why am i adding so many tags like i'm hyping myself up in the mirror JUST POST IT
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hit random on a picrew n dressed him up :3
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#art#my art#artists on tumblr#digital art#oc#pink space#!! yay yippee yay :D#greatly enjoyed this! i need to put him in more skirts Truly#can imagine he stole it from his cousin for an errand run loll#/i should also draw skirts more often because i. cannot hghfsh#struggled a bit! but not as badly as i did with The Shoes#need to draw those more often too <//3 turns out drawing heels all the time does Not help when trying to draw sneakers lmao#/anywho i really love this!! just a lot of stuff going on it really tickles my brain hfhs#//also yea i should do more clothing details... ohhh i love seams so much you have no idea lol.....#they're just really good!! seams and well-defined folds my darlings <33#well. folds torment me but still hgfsh <3#//also a bit weird drawing him in other shoes lol#i know he has other shoes but also. no he dunt hgfs#//but YE i'm off n about now lol#do to my things... ooh my.. things.... [<- no idea what they could be]#will be going to bed in like an hour so let's seeee hfhs :33#toodles toooooodles!!
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Currently trying to get my first book published and I'm wondering if it's a good idea to get an agent? I mean so far I've only sent my manuscript to one publisher, and I gotta wait a month for their reply so nothing is definitive yet but like. Has anyone had experience with this kinda thing? I would appreciate any and all advice. Cause almost every single publishing house only accepts agented submissions so I'm really questioning if I should do it. Is it worth it?
#personally i find it very annoying that u gotta jump through so many hoops just to get rejected in the end so i really dont know what to do#ofc i'd love to get published by a bigger publishing house or smth but it kinda seems impossible at the moment cause their reply time is...#long#the reply time is like half a year for most big houses which is insane#and like i don't even know if i can afford an agent?? how much are they?? and apparently you cant even just hire one either#like you have to apply and then if they like you maybe they'll help you??#the entire system is insane#like i just wanna write stories gay little pirates and cowboys and rock singers#why capitalism why#anyway rant over#if anyone has an answer to this I would appreciate it so so very much#writing#books#writers on tumblr#book tumblr
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You don't know idols irl
But Jungwon has been nothing but a fucking sweetheart to engenes, he's constantly updating us, constantly posting content for our enjoyment, constantly doing his job as an idol
But some ungrateful 'fans' are now hating on him, for a rumor based of off there i say bullshit proof, like photos that are so blurry that it could be anyone(lemme tell you if you took those 'proof' to court, a good judge will laugh in your face and kick you out, that's how shitty they are), and proof from crazy individuals detailing how they stalked him.
Like instead of coming together worried about his privacy being so disgustingly violated, there r ppl, screaming and shouting at Jungwon??
Same on winter's side, i have seen the clips from that aespa fan meeting, where these 'fans' were screaming and cursing at her. over a rumor that if you had common sense you could see are false.
I don't think these people are really fans, these individuals are just people jumping on an opportunity to hate, and be vicious. I saw the email template they were planning to send to hybe, and it's just filled with stupid delusions.
Jungwon has admitted that he isn't in a relationship (even if he was, he is 20, who gives a shit) and these people have deluded them selves that he is, because of proof thaf can soo easily be disproven.
Kpop idol's mental health is so important, from torturous trainee life, to torturous idol life, Multiple idols have passed, because of crazy insane stupid rumors, that ruined their mental health. Yet, to this day so many people don't feel shame when they toy with an idols mental health like this.
And if something awful does happen, which i fucking pray not, these people will be the loudest about mental health. Please remember that idols are HUMANS not things or property. Jungwon has been so mentally strong, but i don't know how he's actually doing bts, as a my and engene, this situation is hurting my eyes.
If u r one of the insane individuals still angry at this, plss plss leave, i promise Jungwon and enha wouldn't care about losing 'fans' like you. Jungwon has said, on camera, by himself, that he's not dating, and you still delude yourself to thinking he is because???
It just seems like you have nothing fun or special going on in your life, please go hang out with family and friends, if you don't have friends make some, get a job, get a more productive hobby, go to the gym and do some boxing, since you are so desperate to let out rage. You say you love enhypen, yet you are so quick to treating them like this, because you lack respect not only for yourself, but for him.
we are going into 2025, a stranger, which is what jungwon is to all of us at the end of the day, dating, should not, and I repeat should not get you THIS riled up, you're mad at a human for falling in love?
And if you believe idols shouldn't date still, i better not see you dating either, cause by your logic, you also belong to said idol, and you dating is also a betrayal, you should also lose your job and everything you've worked hard for. You see how dumb you sound?? if not i really pity you, cause there is something insanely wrong with you.
Therapy is expensive, but human connection is mostly free, if you had friends, a job and a life to look forward to, you wouldn't care so much about this.
Parasocial relationships at the end of the day are not real, jungwon isn't really your friend, your boyfriend or your husband, he's a guy doing his job, being a singer, dancing and making music. your role as a fan, is to support him, so no he doesnt owe you any more than what he's given you(making good songs, dancing, concerts, albums/ the lives, photos and content r extras for your entertainment, he doesn't have to do that either if he doesn't want to, but he does(a lot),so shut up and know your place). he is a person, a human, and like yunjin said, an idol doesn't mean a dol(l) to fuck with.
#I saw one of these ppl saying they don't like enhypen anymore cause of Jungwon#????#who r u again???#bye then#fandom cleanse#jungwon is always being so sweet to these ungrateful 'fans' and they have the balls to say such filth about him#I really hope these ppl find help cause they're all unwell2#okie dokie#one of them os on Tumblr#and their posts r so concerning#go through this because a dude u don't know if potentially dating is crazy#wow#I really hope these ppl find help cause they're all unwell#i hope this rant isn't too rude#but i hope its rude enough#these ppl r so boring#when i first saw this news i was like#omg that's the cutest pairing#but then i remembered some mfs don't like good things#jungwon is a stranger to you to me#would you go down the street a scream at a random dude for dating???#no you'd probably get your ass beat#pls stand up and be normal ughhh#long rant#hope i make sense#winter literally came back from recovery when this started#and earlier this yr she supposedly had surgery on her lungs and ppl r really being so wicked to her#as a my who saw what happened to Karina i hate these ppl so much#making some feel guilt for falling in love??#for experiencing normal human emotions???
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more side character designs now to the tune of the Kil sisters
#original#ocs#character design#art#artists on tumblr#Ciara Kil#Naomi Kil#you know what's fucked up? never heard the name ciara until a few months ago. it's pronounced with a hard c. like keera. that's fucked up#anyway her name isn't pronounced like that cause i said so. it's a soft c and you pronounce the i. see-are-ah#hard-c ciara doesn't fit her. soft-c ciara does. it's fantasy i do what i want. i makea the rules#anyway. needless to say im in love with them both#naomi especially im sorryyy she's so intricate. she's got so much little shit going on I heart her crazy style#shes very good at Doing Things Right but it is an active choice to do so. unlike Ciara who is just really naturally personable and likeable#and so even when she's a bit unkempt or pushy. she gets away with a lot because she's so damn easy to like#wheras naomi is A Choice. she Is Right not because she's likeable but because she puts effort into it#shes obsessed with her image (who else does that sound like? almost like they're products of the same environment or something)#shes Neat and Put Together and very formal. very traditional#and not just because of that but not helped by it she's very distant. just enough to be noticeable but not enough to alienate her#because since she's so curated elsewhere. everyone she's distant to assume that they're just not privy to whatever else is going on#they assume that SOMEONE is. and that someone just isnt them because they arent good enough. naomi has a way of putting herself in a place#where she is an unattainable goal. and that's all in her pursuit of Doing Things Right#i could talk about her for hours also. fucking love naomi#naomi and ciara and julian are all fun because they're all. So Different. but similar enough that if you look closely youre like...#yeah. yeah those three all came from the same place and you can TELL#even ciara who is generally more easygoing than the others. you can still Tell sometimes#case in point: she's stubborn as hell and not afraid to pick a fight to get what she wants#love her.
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Your latest Swanatello comic hit me like a truck…. That bit about forgetting and crying and being useless? The way Donnie feels he used to me smart but isn’t anymore? THAT’S ME. I went from being physically and mentally able to disabled overnight (literally, went to sleep one day, couldn’t wake up the next day, they still don’t know what caused it). Memory problems, comprehension and cognitive problems (I could not write my own name), unable to physically get out of bed…. I’ve gotten a lot better, but your comic just summed up those feelings of frustration and guilt PERFECTLY. It was like looking in a turtle shaped mirror. The whole thing is like looking in a turtle shaped mirror…. Swanatello is kind of a brilliant disability allegory actually… Donnie is trapped by circumstances he didn’t choose, his body and mind and abilities are affected…. <3
It makes me really happy to know that this story resonates with people and can speak to other peoples' experiences with memory loss/cognitive disability/etc. I will keep on doing my best with it and I appreciate y'all's support ; w ;
#makes me... happy#coz its so good to see yourself in media you know? even if its just. like. a silly tumblr au. idk#it just makes me happy to think i might be doing that for some people and helping in some small way#i really like writing swanatellos story and am absolutely touched by everyones interest thus far#donnies family loves him and are gonna continue to love him no matter what#whether hes 'useful' or not#and no matter what his future or recovery may or may not look like#coz i think thats important#asks#anon#systemsentry#swanatello asks
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