#and yknow what. both of those things informed my identity and shaped me as a person whether i like it or not

[adhbabey]

yknow what, I'm gonna make a fun post about my identity and I wanna talk about shit I'm tired of.

So basically, I am someone who's young looking, sounds young and dresses cutely, and likes cutesy things, and I'm fucking sick and tired of people acting like I, and other people like me, are catering to fucking pedophiles. No the fuck I am not and even if I was associating my shit with kink, I'm still not fucking pedo-bait.

Like, I've seen so many, many people act like any girl or feminine person who likes creepy cute things or just cute things for that matter, are inherently catering to shit that they didn't fucking consent to. Like artists such as Melanie Martinez, get fucking written down as for shit for pedophiles, and I'm fucking tired of people putting labels on people like us, just because our identities may be associated heavily with childhood or innocence or even fucking pink.

I'm a disabled person, and I definitely lived life not reaching developmental goals as soon as other people. I still can't drive a car, I still live with my family, I still haven't had sex, I definitely didn't start wearing more adult clothes until later, I was overprotected and sheltered to the point that I didn't start knowing what swears meant until I was older. I have all my life been associated with being younger or more innocent or more childish, and you're fucking telling me that I can't make that part of my identity or else I'm fucking catering to pedophiles? Fuck you.

Even if it was a kink thing, even if people were calling their boyfriend Daddy or their girlfriend Mommy, or wearing collars and cat ears, or dressing up like anime girls and doing fucking roleplay, even if they wanted to be tied up in fluffy pink handcuffs, who the fuck do you think you are to label them like that? To act like they're too fucking taboo and too fucking weird and cringe and shit, to even grace their goddamn presence to you.

I feel fucking stunted in life, I didn't feel like a fucking adult when I was 18. I feel like my fucking childhood was wasted on trauma and being disabled. I wanted to fucking kill myself at 12 years old. So what gives you motherfuckers the right to label other people as people who want to fucking violate themselves for predators?!

I feel more violated by these words that condescend me and patronize me and attack me, than I do just existing how I normally do. If I want to wear dresses and frilly socks and mary janes and meow, I will fucking do it and its not your right to judge me on that.

And before anyone comes here and says "well it triggers me because I have childhood trauma", well so do I, motherfucker. You can curate your online experience, but you can't harass people like me, who act way too young for their age, because they can't fucking help it, or maybe they just fucking want to be like this.

[lostandfem]

Hey I dont think jumping from a cult to another one will be helpful to you. You should check deeper into a more broad generalisation of life experiences instead of making your whole life about your gender again. Radical feminism isn't helpful because it doesn't take women accountable for the shit they do to other women too. Blaming males all day long won't work or do shit because we have to solve our own issues between females to live better lives. Sure men can be awful. But so are women. Radfems are also full of shit and attack peoples physical flaws at the second they have the occasion to. They don't really understand that women come in different shapes and ethnicities. Shit like "oh look at her body hair/facial hair" for exemple will come on the table all the time. Or while trying to make fun of transwomen they'll insult women that are less GC too because they don't give a shit anymore. So be careful with "communities"... Those women aren't full on accepting. That's my two cents. Good luck with everything, life's hard and so is finding respectable people... Or real lesbian women and sane bisexual women. But never give up. You'll find your way.

yknow, i appreciate youre trying to be helpful, but i trust myself here, and i dont really appreciate the patronizing attitude. im not some helpless, lost puppy

its interesting youre talking about making gender my whole life again tho. its not something id expect someone to acknowledge. most people dont want to acknowledge that thats what its like in the trans community. but this isnt making gender my whole life again. acknowledging misogyny and sexism isnt obsessing about an identity. these are judgement calls about peoples lived experiences as well as my own. and yeah, absolutely both men and women can be awful as individuals, but thats an entirely different issue from recognizing how women are treated as a sex because of their reproductive capabilities. that capability is a resource people want to take control of (if you support abortion rights then thats the cause youre addressing for an example of how thats a real issue that needs to be discussed). if you recognize that, you recognize that theres an imbalance between what sex holds power. were not “blaming males”, were recognizing who holds the power in the situations we are disadvantaged in. you have to find a source to a problem *somewhere*. women doing bad things to other women doesnt mean that power imbalance doesnt exist. and looking inward to address an outward disadvantage doesnt make any sense. if we examine ourselves enough, will the pay gap close, for example? is it womens fault theres a pay gap to begin with?

also idk where youre getting your information about what radfems think about other women, but do you think theyd even tolerate me here if they only wanted a certain type of body? my tits are gone and im hairy from testosterone. if they were anti-body diversity, why am i accepted anyway? why are they accepting any detrans woman? ive seen these women come in every shape and ethnicity, and praise women of every size and ethnicity (from thirsting to beautiful photography).

if you want to look into it, check out @ laetitiaky on instagram. shes a black woman who describes sex-based oppression from her own experiences, essentially (also makes p cool art). if you want to see examples of radfems of colour the blogs @oneblackbraid and @rad-by-nature are two off the top of my head (hopefully im not mistaken rip). im sure if you scroll enough youll find them talking about radical feminism in relation to racial issues.

anyway thanks for the advice, but i didnt ask to be helped. i hope you find your way, too

[fantroll-purgatory]

Itcha gal back from like August with Trinel’s kismesis’s moirail

Name: Tabula Auctor- Both are Latin for something to do with writing, but I can’t remember exactly what.

Tabula usually means tablet/table, and is most Famously known in the phrase Tabula Rasa, or Blank Slate, which has some interesting implications. 

Auctor is latin for Author or Originator, but in science it’s also the term used to describe the genetic donator for a clone. 

Since you gave her Two-writing based names, and these very interesting and multi-meaning ones particularly, I might gently try to pull in that themeing in her personality/interests/backstory, etc. 

For the Auctor name most directly, something interesting could be… Maybe Tabula’s ancestor was as interested in Descendants as Auctor is interested in Ancestors, and maybe… Tabula is a slightly more direct clone of her ancestor than ectobiology would Usually do. A Weird and major glitch in the system, maybe not a Direct copy but something very, very close to it.  

Age: 7.5

Strife Specibus: Staffkind- Taller than she is and with a box-thing on the end for looping around necks and stalig-whatevers.

I’m kind of tempted to say pickax instead, the double-sided kind. It’s a tool that… common enough in archaeological circles, as long as you’re careful with it, and it’s double-headed. You could also use it to hook around someone like one might with a scythe, given the head of the ax is big enough. 

Fetch Modus: Dig modus- Basically, a jumble of cards she had to sift through.

Ooo, you could make it more explicit and make it one of those dig kits. 

But instead of shells it’s her items and if she digs too hastily, she might break them.

Blood color: Cusp- Between gold and bronze.

I know you probably already know this, but I’ve got to acknowledge anyways that this is noncanon. But I’m gonna let you keep it anyways because I imagine that’s what you’re Goin’ For and I think her being in a weird blood place makes the direct cloning even more fun. 

Symbol and meaning: A tall rectangle with a line through- I tried to make it a light mix of bronze and gold signs.

I’ll take another look at the sign when we get to design, so we’ll see!

Trolltag: guardedTraveler

I kinda wanna recommend ancestralSapience, if her interest in ancestors is such an important part of her theme it makes sense to make a reference to it in her trolltag. Sapience is the ability to self-reflect and act with self-wisdom, or in response to learned information. 

Quirk: tHe quick browN fox…

You don’t explain why this, but it is good. I think since she’s somewhat fixated on the past, you could also have her have a quirk of going back to previous messages or repeating previous messages and saying things like “as per my last message […]” a lot.

Special Abilities (if any): Used to have psionics, but lost them when voidrot knocked out her psionic eye

We definitely still haven’t seen for sure Exactly how voidrot works or if it can only infect void players, so keep in mind that going forward this could be revealed to be very noncanon. I think it’s interesting if it was happening to her because she really technically is a glitch in the system and the universe is struggling to cope with her, though. 

Lusus: Cyedog; small fox-thing with one eye and wings.

We don’t really see Traditionally Winged creatures until we get up to like teal (there’s only really buggy wings until that point), and her theme isn’t really Flighty enough for me to say wings would be a necessary addition anyways. 

What if we go instead with like… a two-headed sheep? As a Dolly The Sheep jokey, it references the dual themes of the golds And the farmy themes common in brownbloods, too. 

Personality: Big block of text I pulled off my mastodon and slightly edited;

she’s a huge ancestor fangirl and probably the only troll who actively hunts in caves for old scrolls and shit. she’s 4'11, 7.5 sweeps, and has a heavy faygo drinking problem- in fact, it’s gotten bad enough that the soda barely affects her at all, like the radioactiveness in a banana. her moirail, vittah, is a vriskablood that does ribbon dancing and, when she gets to visit, tries to crack on tabby’s habits but yknow. also- tabs hates the theater. vittah’s kismesis won’t shut the fuck up about it- he’s a famous playwrite. She does genuinely care for vittah, and is one of the only trolls that acts normally around her. (May or may not submit Vittah sometime, tbh.)

So I love this ancestor thing enough that I brought it in more in like, her theme conception. I like the idea of her feeling Really, like Weirdly connected to her ancestor, as much as though she really could be a reincarnation of her, and she could have like… a bit of identity struggle. She really doesn’t know who she is because she feels this weird displacement and is trying to build some sense of self By reading about the ancestors. And since you gave her a writer name, maybe she could write a lot about history. And maybe even some Guilty Pleasure Self Insert Historical Fanfiction. 

You could probably give her a fixation on the classics, too. She likes old stuff, original stuff. She doesn’t like rehashes. It could be part of why she doesn’t like theater (on top of her finding Trinel annoying)- it’s all just remixes of the Clearly Superior Old Stuff.

Interests: Archaeology and the ancestors, mostly.

And faygo it would seem LOL. 

Title: Seer of space..?

I honestly think maybe Heir of Space, if only because that makes her inverse Mage of Time and implies an understanding Of time, which comes with her natural interest in and fixation on history. Her trying to passively shape and change space to match up with that form she’s built from a defunct past can cause a lot of problems until she comes to understand the current time and comes into herself!

Land: Land of Ocean and Frogs- (She lives in a desert so no water normally, and frogs is obvious.)

How about the Land of Idols and Frogs instead, a land where there’s like idealistic idolized versions of the frogs and she has to Realize that they’re not the ideal form and she can’t blindly chase the past in order to succeed at her quest and breed the correct frog.

Dream Planet: Prospit.

My Ipad is mean, so here’s the link to an image. Its kinda old though

Design: 

Just as before I really don’t think there’s much for me to say about or change in your character design! I think something you should keep in mind if you ever design the ancestor is that she should try to look like her ancestor or at least mimic her ancestor’s silhouette. The symbol could also use a little editing to fit both the brown and gold sign language… 

I wanted to keep the cut square design you wanted, but I also wanted to incorporate Taurga and Gemge, plus the Symmetry of the usual brown and gold signs. 

Thank you for sharing and I hope this helps!

-CD