#and yet people applaud him for being soooooo deep when he says family for the 48274837th time

[bxstiion-a-blog]

ooc. --  I am absolutely stunned & amazed that I have managed to get over 200 + followers over the duration of my stay here in the Tolkien fandom. I started this blog on NOVEMBER ( holy fuck: THREE MONTHS. AHHHHHHHHHH ) with an absolute love for Bard and I know that I have grown as a friend, a writer, a reader, and a fangirl. It’s so amazing. I’m sorry, I can’t believe that so many of you like my portrayal of Bard and that you all consider me such a prolific writer. I’m breathless that you guys still put up with my random reblogs or my angsty threads or my headcanons. Ahhhh, thank you guys. Thank you for helping me grow. Thank you for showing me that there is always a bright side to everything. And thank you for introducing me to the beautiful world of Tolkien. Thank you so, so much.

I know that I may have my ups and downs, but oh my god, you all are there for me & I cannot thank you all enough for thinking this bean was worthy to be followed~ I’ve met so many amazing people and I made so many amazing friends. I am the type of person that tends to flit between fandom to fandom, but I have a feeling deep inside that I am going to stay for quite a while.

I’ve been roleplaying for 2-3 years now, but only have had Bard for three months. And I feel like that there is so much to explore with this dork and only you guys could help me unlock his psyche. Ahhh, i’m getting so senti. please stop me from being such a bean. And oh my god, thank you for making me basically fall in love with Bard? Like honestly, I think I know him better than my own family.... AND thanks for supporting all of my ocs like really, i should calm down with them, but you guys keep on encouraging me to make more... AHH

Honestly, my mind is getting frazzled with writing this. And I’m going to cry because I am so happy for meeting all of you. I really appreciate you all and what you have done for me. I want to thank those who rped with me, those have yet to rp with me, and those beans just watching me from afar, thank you. I appreciate each and every one of you and I really hope that you all are happy and safe in the present and in the future. No matter what happens, I know that we’ll all be friends and that I will always love you guys unconditionally. That being said: Please don’t be afraid to approach me! I am literally the trashiest bean to live and I will probably gush over the dumbest things ever with you. I love you guys so, so much. If you ever feel like nobody in the world loves you, you’re wrong. As long as I live and as long as I am able to write, I will always love you. Believe in who you are and what you stand for. You are absolutely, undoubtedly worth it all. <3333

BIAS LIST

ooc. Ok this is kinda my first bias list, so I have no idea what to do LOL. Um... Let’s start with my squad.

@elentelume / @orenaro - QUEEB. Holy shit, what a ride it has been with me being around, right??? You’ve been with me since the baby stages where I was a bumbling bee that had no idea what to do on tumblr and I cannot thank you enough for being there for me. Thank you so much for believing in me and in Bard. You are so damn amazing and I cannot thank enough deities for allowing fate to lead me to you. I consider you one of my closest friends and I think you are really cute and adorable. No matter what will ever happen, I will be a hardcore Bardhros shipper b/c lets be real, they’re made for each other. I mean they’re engaged so basically living forever. I LOVE how our threads could turn into angst so quickly and I love your writing. They show a certain vibrancy and love towards your own muses that honestly takes my breath away. it is so much fun writing with you and I hope that we could continue to write and think of cute headcanons with Bard, Mae, and the Smols. You’re my boo. 

@agardxs - my fellow Filipina. DAMN, GURL. I cannot believe that I had the honour of meeting someone so passionate about Shakespeare like you ( I may not show it, but I ABSOLUTELY adore his works ) && it is really nice to see a Filipina here on tumblr b/c Pinoy Pride, right?? Anyways, in all seriousness, thank you. I felt that with each consecutive reply that I make with you, somehow, my writing gets exponentially better and I cannot thank you enough for it. Being who I was. I take pride in my writing and I always find great joy in improving on everything. ( Ok, my English Mark has gotten a lot better?? So... YAY!! ). You are such a great person, and I appreciate your enthusiasm with Mairon and I love how well you portray her in such a seductive, wonderfully creepy way that never fails to send shivers up my spine. From one poet to another, you are very good at poetry. Sobs, please keep being my friend ILU so much ok??

@chieftess-of-the-haladin - My Dear Ri. Ah, where would I be without that snarky cynicism of yours and that wonderful muse that you rp. I know that I do not say it a lot, but I think your writing is wonderful. The intelligence, the beauty, the strength that goes into Haleth is really amazing and her bitchiness makes me laugh. I know that there are times that you struggle and that there are times where things aren’t as great as they seem, but I have the firmest belief that you could get through them, guns blazing. I LOVE how you encourage me, especially with my OCs, and goad me onto making them b/c really, you are such bad impulse control for me. I want you to know that I love you a lot, my dear boo! [ smoochies ]

@weaverofmisery - All I could say is that you are amazing. I love Arra & Pie so damn much ( no matter how strange they are ). Thank you for being there for me and being one of the first people to ask if I was ok whenever I posted anything remotely negative. I seriously appreciate that and it consistently brings me up whenever I feel like I’m down on myself. You are perfection in my eyes and thank you so, so much for helping me love myself. ALSO, NGL, Arradir is hot, ok?? THERE. I HAVE REVEALED MY SECRET. <3

@lordofutumno - Cass, holy fuck. I love your Melkor so very much??? I have never met anyone who could play his character so dark and twisted as you could and I totally mean that in an absolutely positive way??? But kudos to you for being brave enough to play the villain as a villain, not just an individual who attempted to incite pity. I’m not going to lie, I adore reading your threads because your writing is soooooo amazing and OK, I get really happy seeing all the dark inside Melk ( the milk man >:3 ) because it is so consistent with his character? AND you are so damn good at photoshop, and you keep on making me things like wow!!! What has esti done to deserve such a beautiful bean like you??? I loves you lots and I hope we could continue to be friends in the future!

@silver-vessel - Alinaaaaa, look at this, you’re part of Esti’s squad. But, really, thank you. You have this aura around you that just never fails to make me smile or giggle because you make me so happy~ I love your Tilion a lot and he is such a sweetheart. AHHH And tbh, I still have to interact with all your muses because they seem so amazing. No worries, my child, I got your back. But in all seriousness, you inspire me. Your passion for ballet is so awe-inspiring and makes me want to pursue my passions as well, obstacles be damned. I understand that you are stressed for this role that you want to get and so on, but I have the greatest faith in your success. Passion will always translate to greatness in my eyes. [ hugs you ] You will do such amazing things in your future, please keep on believing. I love you, dear.

@elcnath - I am going to be honest here, I kinda freaked out when you first followed me because I thought you were this super amazing, super magical individual that seemed so distant like starlight and the only thought in my head was “why would you ever want to talk to me?? Like I am a literal potato in comparison to you.” But I found my doubts absolutely wrong. Ruth, you are such a welcoming sweetheart and so much fun to be around! You make my day so much brighter by just simply being on my dash or shooting me an IM. You are a prolific writer and you’ve managed to breath life into a character that many had originally thought was bad. Thank you for loving Tauriel so much and giving her the push that she needed to be so beautiful. Ok, i still think im a potato, but I love you a lot! [ hugs you ]

@angelofvega - I blame you for making me ship Michael and Bard so damn hard?? Like please, these two are such dorks that I can’t even. But moving from that, you write Michael so remarkably well. Even with a few sentences, you manage to give this voice and life to a character that I do not know well about and I must applaud you for that. You are a sweet, beautiful mun that somehow doesn’t get tired by all my messages and tolerates all of my screaming. UGH, you are such a perfect human being, I love you lots, boo~ Please keep being you!

@lacrimosa-magnolia - AYYYYY My fellow Luketeer. Alright, let’s get down to business to defeat the huns. I absolutely adore all of your muses. I love interacting with them so much and tbh, I’m pretty sure I have a crush on all of them ( Yes, even Aran ) because they are so well-developed and awesome that I honestly do read your threads secretly. Shhh, I didn’t say that, ok??? I think you are an adorable bean that deserves all the good things in life and [ cuddles + smooches ] Keep on going strong! Especially for school~ You can do it, I know you can!

@sorrowssinger - Andy ( I honestly searched for ur name like rn... ), you are so amazing. I cannot stress this enough. You are so kind and wonderful and sweet and you intimidated me at the beginning when I first started out rping. You were such a great writer and you had your muse’s characterization down pat and it honestly amazed me? All of your headcanons, your verses, EVERYTHING just stuns me because even with the multiple muses that you have with your blog, you manage to keep their voices separate from each other. But now that I have gotten to know you slightly better, you are such a cool kid, thanks for being there for me, boo! <3

@yavannafruitgiver - Gracie-poo... I know that we don’t have a lot of interactions, but you were one of the first people that I have ever met on this site and you have a special place in my heart. I know that things are probably really difficult right now and that you are struggling with certain things... But I know that you are capable of pushing through it. I know and have faith that you are strong and that despite the adversity that you are facing, that it will eventually be better in the end. Sweetheart, chin up. Everyone in this community is here for you <333

@ofgoldcnflowcrs - Omg. I have never met anyone as nice as you? Lottie, you are a literal sunbeam in this dark, dark world ( Like Glorfy ) and you consistently give me faith in humanity in the simple acts of just being so damn nice! I appreciate your enthusiasm and the fact that you get so hyped about threads and how you like to make me sad with headcanons. Your writing is so beautiful and I cannot stop smiling because you portray Glorfindel in such a cute light that I probably would start squealing if I was able to make noise at 12 AM... [ hugs you ] You are amazingly wonderful. I love you lots too.

@smaugiiisms - Casey, oh my god, you play such an amazing Smaug?? Like you capture his character so perfectly and I love how twisted he is and I adore how he could make Bard so easily shook. You are such a great writer and I love your passion for your muse. Tbh, I always laugh whenever we talk because lbr Bard & Smaug are ridiculous. BUT!!! Thank you for keeping true to his character and being so amazing. PS. You are such a queen and so pretty, like AHHHH.

@veneficusrex - Az makes my life, especially when he interacts with Bard. He is such an interesting character with such twisted perspectives that I can’t help, but be fascinated by him. ( Az, plz esti is friend. Not food. ) You are a great writer and I can clearly see your characters voice within your words, so kudos to you! But aside from that, You are such a nice person??? Like I cannot believe that you laugh at my dumb jokes about balls and breadsticks, honestly, you are seriously too good for me. I love you lots && I hope that we could continue to know each other better. I promise you that my jokes do not get better. <3

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