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The Selfishness of Our Hearts - A Year in The Life | Chapter 4 - Shame of Love

This a follow-up story to the Selfishness of Our Hearts - entirely available here

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Pairing : JongyuUuuuuUUUU Summary : What happened the past two years [Part II]. Genre : Angst, heartbreak, smut. Word Count : 10 000 words ~ (woooah, but after the six month hiatus kinda had to lol)

Jinki downed another glass of water. The waiter passing by had just filled it to the rim and now it was empty again. He knew the dryness of his mouth couldn't be soothed by any amount of liquid, but drinking was the simplest thing he could do while he nervously waited for the other to show. He didn't even dare to look at his cellphone to see if Jonghyun had tried to reach him. It probably wasn't the case, judging on how tense his boyfriend had seemed right before he had stepped out of their apartment. He couldn't blame him. He probably would've felt betrayed too if he were in his shoes. Nevertheless, Kibum was his brother and he couldn't let anyone come between them. Jinki bit his lip. Liar. He knew it was dishonest to be thinking that. He knew that that was what had kind of already happened. And that made it that much more important to him to pick up the broken pieces and try to piece them back together. The question now was : Was that even possible? He wished with all his heart that he hadn't messed up for good, but he mentally braced himself for that possibility. He had done the worst thing he could've ever done to his brother and put in his position, he wasn't sure he would've been able to get over that.

I'm so sorry, Kibum.

He didn't know if an apology would have any kind of impact, but he was prepared to apologize until the day he took his last breath. Over the last few months, those words had crossed his mind every hour of the day. At first, he had tried to ignore them, but the more they popped up, the more he realized it was selfish of him to try to keep them away. The least he could do was carry the burden of his fault. If he was going to be with Jonghyun, he needed to always keep in mind what that happiness had cost. It had cost him his integrity, part of his sanity and the unshakeable bond he had previously shared with his brother.

I'm so sorry, Kibum.

The waiter came back again to fill his glass. '' Sir, are you ready to order now? '' he politely asked.

Jinki could feel some impatience in his seemingly nice tone. '' Um... yeah... uh... '' He tried to come up with an order quickly. '' A black coffee, please, '' he finally said, right before giving himself a mental kick in the butt.

The waiter had already turned on his heels before he had a chance to retract his order. He had sworn off coffee for the last few weeks to keep his anxiety at a reasonable level. It was slowly starting to work after he had had to go through the withdrawal symptoms. He was just starting to not feel like a zombie again and now he was about to ruin it all. He could've gone for I'll just not drink it, but he knew his resolve wasn't that strong. The smell of coffee had never stopped being triggering, so much that he had had to ask Jonghyun to not make coffee in the apartment anymore and go buy it outside instead. He knew how much of an addict that had made him sound, but that was just part of who he was. He always had to have something overtaking his life. And consequently, he always had to go through the pain of having that something not be in his life anymore. Coffee had probably been the least painful thing he had had to rid himself of.

The steaming cup was suddenly set before him. As he had expected, the warm and bitter liquid lost no time to glide along his taste buds. His eyes widened in pleasure, his restlessness temporarily soothed by the familiarity of the taste. If anyone had been watching him closely, they would've probably thought that he was a drug addict getting his fix, but that would've been too simple an assumption. Nothing was getting fixed; he was just breaking himself apart more before someone else could do that for him. He was now accepting that he couldn't help wanting what he wanted no matter what the consequences might be. So when those words would get thrown at him, he'd just catch them, thus accepting his responsibility.

The little bell attached to the front door of the coffee shop suddenly rung, advising the employees that someone had just come in. Jinki's gaze moved upwards, making him forget about his drug for a moment. His body lost all its blood, making him die for a split second before every one of his senses heightened into survival mode. His eyes met those of his brother. The latter froze for a moment in his tracks before he picked up the pace again and stopped in front of his table.

'' Hi, '' Kibum dryly said before he sat down on the empty chair that had forever been waiting for him.

'' Hi, '' Jinki managed to reply despite feeling like his own throat was closing in on itself. Simultaneously, he also felt like the room had just gotten thirty times hotter. If he had had any common sense, he would've run out the door to save himself from what was about to come. But common sense had never been his forte. Suffering was.

'' You started without me, huh? '' Kibum noted as his eyes stopped on his cup.

Jinki tried to swallow the scarce amount of moistness left his mouth. '' The waiter was getting impatient... '' he explained as his inner voice let out a loud curse. He didn't want this meeting to start on the wrong foot.

Kibum frowned. '' How long have you been here? ''

'' Um... '' Jinki looked at his watch. '' For almost thirty minutes, '' he realized with surprise. He didn't dare say that it felt like he had been waiting for two hours.

'' Didn't we say 11? '' Kibum asked, confused.

'' Yes, yes. I just... I just came earlier, '' Jinki reassured. The truth of the matter was that he couldn't have stayed in their apartment any longer. The palpable moodiness of his boyfriend had almost brought him to the brink of despair. He had felt like his whole word had been about to collapse, so instead of watching it crash and burn, he had chosen to flee. That was also another one of his strengths. He would deal with Jonghyun later. If it's not too late... Jinki took a deep breath and forcefully brought himself back to the present moment.

'' Do you want to order anything? '' he casually asked the one he had missed more than words could say. He allowed himself to keep his eyes on him as he waited for an answer. He had just enough time to notice that the other's hair had grown, bringing his bangs right over his feline eyes, before he answered.

'' Yeah, I've been craving an almond croissant and a spicy latte for some while now, '' Kibum admitted with a normalcy that caught Jinki off guard.

The older one couldn't help but feel a spark of hope light up inside him.

'' Don't you eat that every day in London? '' Jinki asked with what might've been a laugh if this had been any other normal family bonding time.

Kibum snorted. '' Do you want me to get fat? ''

Jinki couldn't help it this time. A frank laugh left his lips as he was reminded of how shallow Kibum could sometimes be. Jinki had never seen that as something annoying though. He actually admired that in his brother. There had always been that lightness about him that he never had had within himself. He was always too serious about everything and he always felt things too deeply.

'' A little fat never hurt nobody, '' he joked as he felt his body relax.

'' Not if you work in the fashion industry, '' Kibum countered as what seemed like a smile crept up his lips.

'' You're not a model, '' Jinki instantly pointed out.

'' That doesn't mean I should let myself go,'' the younger one promptly retorted.

'' No one said anything about letting yourself go. I was just pointing out that putting on a few extra pounds wasn't the end of the world, '' Jinki reiterated with another laugh.

Kibum suddenly gave his brother a serious look. '' Well it would be for me. '' His words fell into the space like a ton of bricks.

Jinki felt a chill run down his spine. What just happened? '' That's fine, I get it, '' he awkwardly acknowledged after clearing his throat. His body became tense again. Fortunately, the waiter stopped at their table at that moment. '' What can I get for you? '' he asked as his body turned towards the newly arrived.

'' I'll take a cup of fruits and french toasts, please. Oh, and a cup of camomile tea too, '' he indicated.

Jinki's brows furrowed. Why the sudden change?

'' And can I get something else for you sir? '' the young man in uniform then asked him.

'' No, I'm fine, thank you. ''

They were then left alone again. Jinki would've been tempted to let an uncomfortable silence settle between them, but he was too curious to keep his mouth shut.

'' What happened to the almond croissant and the spicy latte? '' he asked.

'' I didn't feel like eating that anymore. People change you know? '' Kibum observed.

Jinki couldn't help but feel like that seemingly innocent statement had a double meaning. He nibbled on his bottom lip to try to calm his nerves, but that didn't do much for him. Instead, he settled for taking another sip of coffee. That comforted him for a second before he was left to deal with his unease and hurt. His head dropped forward slightly, his gaze burning through the wood of the table. He had just been given a taste of how good things had been between them and he wished he could've gotten more of it. He wanted to be able to talk to his brother about anything and everything, but now he had to think about his every word. I'm so sorry, Kibum. He wanted to let those words out, he wanted the other to hear them, but he knew that might make things worse. So what then? What could he do? Why had Kibum called him? All those questions were running through his mind as he tried not to crumble in front of his brother.

'' Jinki, '' Kibum firmly uttered.

The older one tried to push down the lump of guilt that had risen in his throat, before lifting his head up again. Jinki felt his heart skip a beat. Kibum's expression was dead serious.

'' You're thinking about apologizing, aren't you? '' the younger one inquired only to confirm what he already knew.

Jinki slowly nodded as his palms rapidly became covered in cold sweat. In that moment, he silently wished the other hadn't known him so well.

'' Well, go ahead, '' Kibum said as he crossed his arms over his chest.

Jinki's eyes widened for a second before they retrieved their normal size. That was to be expected, this was part of the process. The brunette cleared his throat again.

'' I... '' His heart was now racing, his mind being filled up by a heavy fog. '' I..., '' he tried again, but the rest of the sentence stayed stuck in his throat. It was a different thing to want to apologize and to actually be able to apologize. It should've been easy though. Kibum deserved to get a sincere apology more than anything.

He was once again saved by the waiter who came to their table with the younger one's order. After a brief thank you on the latter's part, the other man went away, leaving Jinki with no other escape. He could've said that he needed to use the restroom, but that would've just been utterly pathetic. He couldn't escape anymore.

'' Kibum, I'm... '' He stopped himself again. Something in Kibum's gaze struck him with fear. He already knew there was no use trying to get those words out now. He had lost his chance.

'' Why is it so hard for you to apologize? '' Kibum sharply asked.

'' I... '' Jinki bit his lip hard this time. He could feel his insides shake. He wouldn't last long if things kept up this way.

'' You're just as selfish as before, '' his brother let out accusingly.

Those words felt like a slap to Jinki's face. That was the last thing he wanted to hear. ''No... Kibum, that's not it... ''

'' That's exactly it. You can't apologize because that would ruin your little fantasy. You'd have to admit that you did something wrong, '' Kibum kept on in the same tone, his anger picking up with every word.

Jinki shook his head vigorously. '' I know I did something wrong. I know it too well, '' he immediately countered, giving way to the lump of guilt that had just wanted to get out of him.

'' Do you? '' Kibum threw at him with spite. '' So let me ask you a little question. Are you still with him? ''

The question was another slap to his face. That was the last thing he wanted to be asked. '' Yes... '' His head dropped once more; at this point he knew it was game over. He wouldn't get the chance to face Kibum ever again.

A brutal silence followed his answer, making him feel like the worst human being in the entire world. Maybe Kibum was right; maybe he had been lying to himself all that time. He was just now realizing his feelings of guilt didn't match his actions. He wasn't paying the full price for his crime.

'' I'm sorry, Kibum. '' At this point, the words just fell out of his mouth, the guilt he carried inside him now unbearable.

'' I'm sorry too, Jinki. I thought you might've done the right thing by now, '' the younger one pointed out.

That was the final slap. Jinki felt his eyes sting and then his whole vision became a blur. He still heard the chair in front of him being pulled back. He rubbed his eyes fast enough to catch his brother walking towards the exit. He then looked at the untouched cup of fruits and plate of french toasts. His heart squeezed as the other's previous words hit him again.

People change you know?

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Jonghyun paced back and forth for what felt like the millionth time. The inner turmoil that had been torturing him for the last few hours had finally spilled out into physical restlessness. He couldn't get rid of all those questions he knew he shouldn't be asking himself. They all kept rolling through his mind one after the other. And then the most important one would always end up popping up, making his chest tighten and his body stiffen. What if he leaves me?

This time that question had him stop in his tracks. He froze right there into place, somewhere right in between the lamp at the corner of the living room and the futon at its other end. He was suddenly completely engulfed in the scene unfolding in his mind. Jinki with a bag in one hand and his passport in the other.

This has happened before so why can't it now? He found himself thinking. In the end, Jinki had stayed, but Jonghyun always had that fear inside him of waking up and being alone. He knew that was selfish of him to even think, but he didn't want anyone to come in between him and Jinki, not even Kibum. A sigh unconsciously left Jonghyun's mouth. All that thinking had him feeling drained. He just wanted the wait to end. He wanted to see Jinki and be comforted in the fact that he still loved him. He wouldn't be able to bear seeing in his eyes that things had changed. The thought only had him leaning against the back of their couch. He knew he should be keeping himself occupied, but anything he had tried to do previously hadn't helped to keep the thoughts at bay. To make things worse, he was carrying the guilt of having not shown his boyfriend support. Instead, he had clearly shown how unhappy he had been that his boyfriend was going to see his brother. For that, he felt terribly sorry. He didn't want to make things more difficult for Jinki, but he hadn't been able to stop himself. He had gotten so used to having a cozy life with him that any type of turbulence that menaced their homeostasis felt like a huge hindrance. All that heartache they had gone through before being able to be together couldn't be for nothing. Their story had been too complex for it to have such a simple ending.

Jonghyun jumped from surprise as his phone suddenly rang. He looked around in panic, trying to find it before the caller was directed to voicemail. After a few seconds of turning his head from side to side, he finally located it. He threw his body forward to grab the device that had slipped into one of the cracks of the couch. He pulled it out just in time to see who was calling. He answered on the spot. '' Hey baby, how did it-'' The rest of his sentence stuck midway in his throat as he heard a strangled sob at the other end. His heart squeezed in his chest.

''Jinki, where are you ?'' All of his protective instincts had just kicked in, making him ready to unfold the wings he didn't have to get to his man.

The sobs went on almost quietly, but to Jonghyun they sounded as clear as day.

'' Jinki, please, say something, '' he voiced desperately.

'' I-I... '' A hiccup interrupted the other's words. '' I'm in... I'm at... the park...'' His voice was hoarse, almost grating to the younger one's ear.

Jonghyun's heart rate quickened. '' What park? '' he almost shouted in panic. Something in his gut was telling him that a catastrophe was about to happen.

'' I... '' The sound of sniffing followed. '' I think it's close to home... I tried to drive home, but I can't... '' Jonghyun knew in that instant that the other had been drinking. Contrary to him, he didn't drag his words, but the heaviness in his voice and his apparent confused state said it all. '' Jinki, I need you to tell me where you are, '' he said in his most authoritative voice. There was no time to be lost. Jonghyun needed to make sure he was okay. Plus, if Jinki got caught getting drunk in a park he could get arrested.

A couple of sniffs were heard again before the sound of a liquid being swished around in a bottle ensued. '' I shouldn't have called you. I don't want you to see me like this... ''

'' Like what? Drunk? '' Jonghyun instantly threw back in disbelief. '' Look, you've seen me drunk so many times so that's not going to cut it. '' The younger one could feel himself getting impatient, but he couldn't help it. He had waited too long already. ''Come on, Jinki, what park are you at?'' he pressed. A heavy sigh resonated through the device he was holding against his ear. '' Wait...''

Silence came right after. Jonghyun tapped one foot against the wooden floor to shake off some nervousness. It felt like too long of a time before he heard the breathing of his boyfriend again.

'' I'm close to the restaurant where we ate those good kimchi pancakes, '' the older one indicated in a more conscious tone.

A bulb lit up in Jonghyun's mind. He remembered exactly where that was. It wasn't that far, even from walking distance. '' I'll be there in a few. Don't move, '' he ordered before hanging up.

Every move that followed was sped up to the max, to the point that he was left no time to think. He rushed out of their apartment and went down the stairs with an agility he would've never suspected he had. The crisp air of the afternoon hit him in the face, but he barely felt it as he cut through it immediately, running towards his destination. Jinki. That was the only thought that made it through whilst all his efforts were directed to keeping his body moving as fast as possible. There was probably no reason to be so alarmed, but Jonghyun had never been known for his rationality. He always ran on emotion. That fuel got him to where he wanted to be ten minutes later. Before he could spot his boyfriend, he found himself having to bend forward, his body reminding him that he needed to catch his breath. His lungs still burned as he finally started walking, but that was the least of his concerns. He looked ahead and around, but couldn't see Jinki. In an instant, he had his phone to his ear. Fortunately, he didn't have to wait long for the ringing to stop.

'' Jinki, I'm here, where are you? '' he asked urgently.

'' I'm in front of the pond. ''

Jonghyun noted that his voice had taken that heavy tone again, but he lost no more time on that thought. He started walking again, straight ahead, hoping that the pond wasn't far away. They were in an immense park, which didn't help one bit to reassure him. He felt like they were worlds apart. He kept on, the phone still to his ear, the almost quiet breathing of his boyfriend the only soothing thing in that moment. He soon stopped dead in his tracks as he finally saw a stretch of water. Forgetting the pain he had previously felt inside his chest, he ran again against the uneven ground, holding his phone tightly in one hand. When he stopped, something else than his lungs reacted. A sharp pain shot through the middle of his chest as his gaze fell on the one he had been longing for all day. The heartbreak was so visible in the other's eyes, his own heart felt like it was shattering. He gave Jinki a long still look, taking in his slouched body on the bench and his now almost empty bottle of... Rum. Jonghyun let himself fall right beside Jinki. His first move was to remove the bottle from his left hand. The brunette showed no resistance. The second move was to take his now empty hand into his and squeeze tight. There were plenty of questions and words he could've put out into the world right now, but he knew better than to voice them. They stayed like that, in shared silence, for what felt like eternity. Jonghyun didn't even dare stealing glances. He knew how shameful Jinki was probably feeling right now and he didn't want to add to his burden. He wanted to be the quiet presence that would bring him out from the current abyss he was in. The third move was to trace circles with his thumb over his soft skin. That was to show his love, to show that he wasn't going anywhere.

A heavy sigh was the response he got to that gesture. Jinki slowly retracted his hand from his hold, before running it through his hair and over his face.

Jonghyun tried not to linger on the feeling of hurt that had sparked inside him. Instead, he allowed himself to look at him again. He noticed how tired he looked. '' Jinki, let's go home, '' he said. That was the only logical next move left to be made now.

But apparently, it wasn't for Jinki. '' I can't. '' His words came out steady, deadpanned.

Jonghyun frowned in confusion. '' What do you mean, you can't? '' He waited for the other to explain himself, but the explanation never came. Jinki didn't even give one look his way. '' You're not going to sleep here, '' he then added firmly.

'' No, but I guess I should sleep elsewhere tonight, '' the older one carefully uttered.

The crease between Jonghyun's brows dug deeper. '' What the fuck, Jinki? '' He couldn't help but express in an irritated voice. He didn't want to deal with whatever the other's words meant. He just wanted to get back to normal, whatever their normal was.

'' What happened? '' he insisted when Jinki chose silence again for an answer. '' You need to talk to me, because I'm about to lose it, '' he continued despite himself. He was pissed off. It wasn't like him to react so strongly, but if there was something he didn't like was to not be able to read someone else. Especially the one he was currently sharing a bed with. Kibum had been such an open book, but with Jinki it had always been hard to get to the bottom of his feelings. It was like he was still guarded and Jonghyun would be lying if he said that that didn't bother him one bit.

'' It would be wrong for me to be sleeping in the same bed as you, '' Jinki finally let out. His voice was soft and calm, a little too controlled for Jonghyun's liking. He felt like a decision had just been made for the both of them.

'' It hasn't been wrong all along so why would it be wrong now? '' the younger one countered categorically. He knew what answer was about to come, but he didn't care.

'' Jonghyun... '' Jinki sighed as he let his body sink a little lower on the bench. '' I saw Kibum today, '' he reminded as he tried his best to prevent tears from coming up again.

'' I know, Jinki, '' Jonghyun simply said. He knew that must've been a difficult encounter, but it was part of their story and they just had to live with it.

'' That's why I can't sleep in the same bed as you, '' Jinki reiterated as he straightened up. He turned his head slowly, mustering up all the courage he had left inside of him to be able to look the one he loved beyond words into the eyes. '' I couldn't even... '' He stopped himself as he felt his bottom lip trembling. He bit into it hard, trying to keep his control in check. '' I couldn't even tell him that I was sor-ry... '' His voice broke on the last word before a whole flood of emotions destroyed the inner barrier he had been trying to keep up. His head dropped as tears started rolling down his cheeks.

Jonghyun felt like he had just been punched in the gut. He was paralyzed for a few seconds by the sight of his boyfriend crying, before his protective instincts kicked in again. His arms were soon wrapped around the other's solid figure, squeezing him as tightly as he could against him. Oh, Jinki... He was on the verge of tears too, but he did his best not to let his emotions overwhelm him. He needed to be the strong one this time. Without even realizing it, he had begun to rock him back and forth in his arms like a baby. When he did realize, he just kept on, hoping that would soothe Jinki at least momentarily. The sobs slowly became more quiet until they stopped completely. Jonghyun tried to catch a better view of Jinki's face, but the latter was still hiding behind his hands.

'' Baby, come on, let's go home, '' Jonghyun tried again as he pulled back to give the other some space.

Jinki wiped the tears that had started to dry on his skin with the back of his hands. '' Okay, '' he said almost instantly.

Their eyes locked as they both turned their heads in the same direction. Jonghyun gave his boyfriend a small smile before getting up onto his feet. He extended a hand towards the other and pulled him up when he grabbed his hand. The smaller one then slid his arm under his, intertwining them tightly for closeness.

'' Where's the car? '' Jonghyun softly asked as he leaned his head against the taller one's shoulder.

'' It's parked not far from that restaurant, '' Jinki answered.

Jonghyun could feel that the other was still tense, but he wasn't about to make a case out of it now. The most important thing at the moment was to get Jinki back home. They slowly made their way back towards the streets. A few minutes later, they crossed the road and finally entered the car. Jonghyun let out a sigh of relief as his ass landed in the cushion of the driver's seat. There hadn't even been a need to voice that he was going to drive. As soon as they had reached the car, Jinki had pulled out his keys and given them to him. He lost no time to get the car moving. He just wanted them to be in their own little world. That's what's best for us, he thought as he stopped at a red light.

A sudden chuckle had him looking to his right.

'' You know what I did today? '' Jinki said, apparently amused by whatever thought was on his mind.

'' Um, yeah... you got drunk, '' Jonghyun pointed out whilst purposely omitting to mention the encounter the other had had earlier.

'' Well yeah, that's not good I guess, but I did something even worse, '' Jinki shared with the same amusement in his tone.

Jonghyun cocked an eyebrow as he tried to decipher his boyfriend's expression. He didn't know if he should be scared. Instead, he was just utterly confused. '' What are you talking about? ''

The light turned green, having him look back at the road.

'' I drank coffee, '' Jinki revealed before his shoulders started shaking with laughter.

Jonghyun's eyes widened. Yes, he was surprised about the coffee part, but he was mostly surprised by Jinki's sudden change in emotion. The man was laughing as if he had no worries at all.

'' Okay... '' He didn't know what to say to that.

'' I mean I wasn't going to, but the waiter was getting impatient so it kinda just happened, '' Jinki explained matter-of-factly.

Weird. Jonghyun was still taken aback. He had been holding a crying Jinki in his arms not even ten minutes ago and now the brunette was talking about drinking coffee again with an unsettling lightness.

'' Coffee ain't that bad, '' Jonghyun noted with a shrug. I prefer you drink coffee than get wasted in a park.

'' Yeah... I guess, but... I just wanted to get rid of that addiction, '' Jinki remarked. '' I just wanted to feel like I was more in control, you know? '' he went on pensively.

Jonghyun couldn't help but sigh. Stop being so hard on yourself. '' I get it, but sometimes we have to choose our battles. ''

'' Right... '' Jinki unconvincingly acknowledged.

Jonghyun looked his way again. There was no more lightness to his expression. '' We're almost there. It's bedtime for you as soon as we get home, '' he indicated.

Jinki snorted. '' I'm not three, Jjong. ''

'' There is no difference between a child and a 27 year old who has had too much to drink, '' Jonghyun retorted wittily.

'' Well I hope I get a bedtime story then, '' Jinki said in a pouty tone.

'' Whatever you want, baby, '' Jonghyun naturally conceded. He caught the small smile that formed on his boyfriend's lips in that moment and that only had him feeling like that happiest man in the world right now. I'll do anything for you.

The rest of the drive went on in a peaceful silence. When they finally got out of the car, the sky had become much darker and the air that much more colder. The warmth of their apartment was only more appreciated as they stepped into it. They took off their jackets and shoes. Then, Jonghyun turned around to face his boyfriend.

'' So bed it- Mmph... '' His words were cut off by the taller one's soft lips pressing against his. In an instant, arms were wrapped tightly around his waist and a warm tongue had found its way into his mouth. He gave into the kiss with not even a slight show of resistance, having his own taste of the rum the one had been drinking earlier. A soft sigh escaped between his lips as he slid a hand to the back of the other's neck to deepen the kiss. Jinki's sudden groan only had him want more. But they both had to pull back as their lungs started manifesting their need for air.

Their eyes locked as soft pants escaped their lips in sync. '' What was that about? '' Jonghyun inquired shortly after.

'' A goodnight kiss, but I shouldn't have done that ... '' Jinki indicated.

Jonghyun felt a pang in his chest. He knew what that meant. '' Don't sa-''

'' Because now I want more, '' the older one interrupted. His gaze narrowed as he looked his boyfriend up and down. '' Why do you always do this to me? '' The resentment in his tone was subtle, but it was there.

Jonghyun wasn't going to apologize for what he was making the other feel. '' Because you love me, '' he simply answered, his hazel eyes looking straight at him. He then leaned closer, bringing them only an inch apart. '' And I love you, '' he continued softly. His right hand came up to give the taller one's cheek a caress before it moved to the back of his neck again. He pulled him in for another kiss, a more gentle one this time, to remove any worry that was still lingering in his mind.

Jinki pulled away first. '' I said I couldn't be in the same bed as you tonight and now all I can think of is making love to you... I must be crazy... '' he quietly voiced.

Jonghyun felt his heart rate quicken. He didn't care for guilt right now; right now he just wanted Jinki.

'' Who cares if you're crazy, heck I'm probably the craziest one here. Like just...'' Jonghyun had to stop to gather his thoughts. '' Stop thinking so much, Jinki, '' he pleaded. He was getting exasperated and his already growing neediness was not helping.

A heavy sigh left the lips of the older one as he looked away. '' You're right, I'm sorry, '' he said, remorseful.

Jonghyun cupped the brunette's chin in his hand, turning his head back towards him. '' It's fine, baby. Let's just forget about all this tonight, okay? '' he softly uttered. He could see the lingering torment in the dark orbs of the eyes he was looking into. He wanted to get rid of it. He kissed Jinki again, more forcefully, moaning as soon as their tongues slid against each other's in a needy manner.

Jinki had been craving that closeness, those moments of intimacy they scarcely had had any time to share lately. Even though part of him was still battling with his conscience, Jonghyun was surely breaking through all his defenses. The smaller one suddenly tugged him flush against him, which made him let out a muffled groan of pain and pleasure. The kiss became sloppier as his focus was brutally shifted to the feeling of his boyfriend's groin pressed hard against his own erection. '' Jjong... '' he panted heavily when their lips parted.

'' You better not say that you can't do this or I'll kill you, '' Jonghyun sharply cut in.

That thought might've been on Jinki's mind, but it was constantly being pushed back by his current feelings. Their chests collided as he grabbed Jonghyun's ass firmly. He bit his lip to help himself from groaning again. '' I couldn't stop even if I wanted to, '' he said as his voice dipped sensually lower. A satisfied smile stretched his plump lips as he felt the other shiver against him.

'' Jinki... '' Jonghyun unabashedly whined as he looked into pupils dilated with arousal. He almost lost himself in the near pitch-dark hue of his irises, but the discomfort the tightness of his jeans was creating was reminding him of his need for more action. He pulled away slightly to let his hand slide between their bodies. '' Jinki, I need you... '' he voiced pleadingly before cupping his boyfriend firmly between the legs.

'' Ugh... '' The sound came out raw, a sensual music to Jonghyun's ear. Wanting to hear more of it, he went on caressing the other's visibly swollen member through the hard fabric of his jeans.

Jinki's legs parted more instinctively as his lids slowly fell over his eyes. His breathing had already become heavy, making the sounds that left him that much more enticing. '' Ugh... fuck... '' he cursed as he felt his legs shake from the overwhelming sensation the other's touch was provoking in and outside of him. His body was turning into mush, making it harder to stay up on his two feet. With the last shreds of resolve still inside of him, he grabbed the other's wrist and pulled his hand away.

'' You're really trying to kill me, aren't you? '' His chest heaved as he tried to catch his breath.

'' It doesn't take you much, huh? '' Jonghyun teased with a smug smile. '' Maybe it's cause you're getting old, '' he went on purposely.

That made Jinki react exactly the way he wanted. '' You're not going to be saying the same thing in a few minutes, '' he threw back, irritated. Without notice, he grabbed Jonghyun's wrist and dragged him almost too forcefully towards their bedroom.

As soon as they entered, Jinki slammed Jonghyun hard against a wall. The latter winced, but his momentary pain rapidly dulled when his lips crushed against soft, full lips again. It was an unceremonious dance of clashing teeth and battling tongues, but the crushing feelings of need and longing they both felt couldn't be helped in that moment. Jonghyun moaned loudly as Jinki moved away from his lips to sink his teeth into his neck. The hard bite went straight to his suffering cock, the fullness of it heightening all of the other senses in his body. He needed more. And he needed it now.

'' Jinki... '' Jonghyun called out as steadily as he could. It was a difficult deed since the other had started sucking the tender spot on the crook of his neck. Despite himself, his head dropped more to one side to give the other more skin to bruise. He wanted him to go on, but with every passing second, he had less and less patience left inside him. '' Jinki. '' This time his voice didn't fail him. He lightly pushed back his boyfriend before locking eyes with him. He didn't have to say one more word to get his point across. From what he could see in the other's eyes, he was done playing too.

Without breaking eye contact, Jinki tugged at the bottom of the smaller one's shirt, letting his fingers tickle his sides as he slowly pulled his shirt up. When the other's face disappeared behind the cotton fabric, Jinki's eyes relished the sight of his nicely toned torso. He unconsciously licked his lips, itching to let his hands roam all over the surface that was the perfect balance between soft and hard. The shirt dropped to the floor a second later. '' Take off the rest, '' Jinki ordered. He would've done the rest of the undressing himself, but something about watching Jonghyun strip for him turned him on even more.

The other obliged, loving the way Jinki's eyes lingered on his body. He let his pants slowly slide down first, keeping his stare on his lover to catch every change in his expression. Jonghyun noticed how the other tried to keep a straight face, but that only lasted until his briefs landed on top of the little pile of clothes he had formed at his right. He now stood in his naked glory, enjoying how just that was making his boyfriend suffer, but also fighting hard to keep his own composure. Jinki was devouring him with his eyes in an almost predator-like manner and he would be lying if he said that that stare only wasn't enough to send him over the edge. As a means of distraction, he walked over to their bed and sat at its end.

Jinki's gaze had followed his every move, watching how the smaller one's little ass lightly bounced with every step he took. He was almost too aroused to send orders to his body to move, but a few more seconds of staring had his basic instincts take over completely. He walked over to Jonghyun, towering over him as he stilled right between his legs. There were so many words he wanted to say to him to express how much he wanted and needed him, but he got lost in all that beauty facing him.

'' Goddammit, Jjong... '' he voiced half-frustrated, half-mesmerized.

Jonghyun felt his face heat up as embarrassment bloomed in him. He still couldn't help getting flustered when Jinki manifested such strong emotions towards him. It was never long effusions of words, but with only a few words or even just one look, Jonghyun could see how much he affected the other.

'' I love you, Jinki, '' he straight out said. In that moment, he just wanted to repeat those words over and over again, because no amount would ever be enough to fully express how he felt. But he wasn't given a chance to because he was suddenly pushed down against the mattress. He gasped as Jinki's weight pressed against his body. His overly neglected cock reacted instantly with a twitch.

A deep laugh rumbled in the other's chest. '' Should I take care of that? '' He left the other no time to answer as he slowly rolled his hips.

'' Aa-aah... shit... '' Jonghyun felt like hitting Jinki for that cruel move, but he had no strength left in him. He was now a weak prey. '' Baby, no more teasing please... '' he begged.

'' Hmmm... it doesn't take you much, huh? '' Jinki had been waiting to throw that back at him. He knew his boyfriend all too well. The latter had always been the most impatient of the two.

'' Fuck you. '' Jonghyun was getting irritated; the frown on his face made that very clear.

'' You wish. You're all mine tonight, baby, '' Jinki indicated possessively. He lowered his head, silently enjoying the almost quiet moan that had just left his boyfriend. A second later, he had his lips right where he wanted them to be. He gave Jonghyun's left nipple a few licks, loving how hard the dark nub already felt against his tongue.

'' Nng- '' Jonghyun chewed on his bottom lip again, not wanting to cry out just yet. Jinki knew how sensitive he was there so he never lost an opportunity to gave his nipples some attention. A few light bites followed the licking, before his teeth sunk in more sharply. Jonghyun couldn't help the cry that left him in that moment. '' Co-come on, Jinki... '' His protest was soon forgotten as tongue and teeth pursued their teasing on his right nipple. A violent shiver ran down his spine as Jinki hand travelled lower, caressing every parcel of skin along the way, until it reached just below his navel. His fingers ran along the area in a feather-like manner as his mouth still sucked a nipple. '' Jinki... '' Jonghyun's voice dragged shakily, unable to voice anything more.

Jinki laughed in amusement, his breath tickling the other's heated skin. '' I know, sweetie. '' He loved torturing his boyfriend, but he knew he didn't have much control left in him either. His dick was painfully throbbing inside its trap and he needed to release it asap. He moved away from Jonghyun and removed his clothes as fast as he could. There was no time for another sexy striptease. His naked body fell back in its dominating position, his eyes finding the other's gaze naturally. Not breaking eye contact, his hand moved down again, but this time he didn't beat around the bush. He closed his fingers around Jonghyun's cock in a tight grip.

The latter whimpered. His eyes fluttered as the hold became a controlled and firm caress. The tingling sensation in his stomach became stronger, an ominous sign of his demise. '' Stoo-op... ''

His heavy breathing and the desperation in his voice made his ordeal clear to his torturer. Jinki stopped moving his hand, but didn't let go just yet. He only did after sliding down Jonghyun's body. He was cruel, he knew it, but what was even more cruel was to leave that coat of pre-cum he was now facing unlicked. His tongue ran all over the pink crown of the other's dick, finishing off with a slow lick along its slit.

'' Aaa-aaah... '' Jonghyun cried out as his body shook even more. His fists grabbed tightly at the sheets under them as he simultaneously tried to grab on to any shred of resistance left inside him. He didn't want to give the other the satisfaction of being spent before he was even penetrated.

Fortunately, Jinki seemed to deem that his job down there was done for now. Their gazes crossed again and Jonghyun finally caught the impatience on the other's face. He was almost tempted to give him a dose of his own medicine, but he knew better than to try. Jinki had made it clear that he wanted him submissive, subservient. And in all honesty, he enjoyed playing that role more than he'd ever care to admit.

Jinki gave a tap on the sides of his thighs, the silent order indicating to him that he needed to bring his knees to his chest. He did just that and waited for the torture to go on. He had a love-hate relationship with the part that was about to follow. He loved how Jinki's fingers stretched his entrance, but he also hated having to wait more for the real deal. He knew it was necessary though; there was no way in hell Jinki's dick would fit in without preparation. The younger one inhaled sharply as a finger traced circles around his puckered hole. His breath then came out with a hissing sound when it suddenly entered him. Before he could even get used to the intrusion, Jinki retracted his hand.

'' Shit... the lube... '' he remembered. Through all their eagerness, neither of them had thought of that essential item. Jonghyun watched Jinki pull out the tube of lube from the drawer in their nightstand. Soon enough, the now lube-coated finger found its way back in, sliding in much more swiftly. Jonghyun writhed under him slightly, trying to make himself as comfortable as he could. His mind lost focus on what was happening inside him as Jinki claimed his lips again. The latter let out a moan of satisfaction as he kissed him softly. Jonghyun felt his body relax for a second, before two other fingers joined in. The tight ring of muscles around them clenched hard, preventing Jinki to go on with his impatient thrusts.

'' Come on, Jjong, relax... '' Jinki pressed as the hardness between his legs reached another height of painful.

Jonghyun closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths. '' You can't blame me... '' he said when he felt more composed. '' It's been quite some time... ''

'' Well you've been the most busy so I guess I could blame you. ' The words had already left him before he could think them through. The older one instantly realized how much of a jerk that had made him sound like.

Jonghyun's eyes widened. '' Are you mad at me? '' he inquired.

'' No, Jjong.... '' Jinki slowly pulled back his fingers before giving another forceful thrust inside him. He relished the gasp that provoked. He lowered himself on the other to hover just a few inches from his face. ' I just missed you... '' he softly admitted against him.

Jonghyun looked away, a pang of guilt hitting his stomach. '' I'm sorry... ''

Jinki pressed his lips quickly to the other's forehead. '' Don't be... I'm sorry I said that, it's not your fault, '' he reassured before straightening up again.

He went on to give a few more lazy thrusts before he removed his fingers completely from the tight space. He wasn't sure he had done the best job at preparing his boyfriend for him, but he couldn't wait anymore. He needed Jonghyun to be his now. A second later, his hand was working up and down his own shaft to slick it with a generous amount of lube. Then came the fun part. He let the tip of his dick run along the crack of his boyfriend's ass, unable to stop himself from teasing. But then any more thought of stalling went out the window when the other pushed his cheeks apart to invite him in. Jinki watched as his hole clenched and unclenched. The thought of having that tightness squeezing his dick was enough to make him groan. '' Fuck... Jjong, I want you so bad... ''.

'' I want you too, baby. Fuck me... '' Jonghyun said in the most lewd voice that had ever crossed his lips.

It was now Jinki's turn to oblige. Soon enough, he was pressing against his entrance, trying to break through the still tight ring of muscles that guarded his ass. They were both panting heavily by the time Jinki finally buried himself to the hilt. He paused there, not only to let Jonghyun get accustomed to his girth, but also to gather himself. Jonghyun had been squeezing his dick so tight as he pushed in that he had felt like he had been about to cum at any moment. He needed to show that he had more stamina than this. He needed to make his lover remember this night. Just when his breathing went back to normal again did he started moving inside him slowly, trying to drag out the pleasure of pulling out and pushing back in.

'' Uugh, Jinki... '' Jonghyun moaned as his eyes shut tight again. He fisted the sheets as the other pushed back in again, more roughly this time.

'' Jonghyun, look at me, '' Jinki ordered. When he got the other's attention, his hips snapped back and forth sharply, making the other's body shift slightly on the mattress. He kept on with that harsh, but incredibly satisfying rhythm until he was stilled by a loud cry underneath him. His eyes met Jonghyun's beautifully flushed face and slack jaw and it took him everything not to release right then and there.

'' Do that again... Right there... '' Jonghyun pleaded hoarsely.

Jinki blinked a few times, surprised. Jonghyun's voice always reached a higher pitch when he was aroused; never had he heard it dip so low. '' You mean... right here? '' he said as he punctuated his last words with a thrust towards the same spot he had hit previously.

He knew he had done good as a loud moan left Jonghyun's pink lips. He kept at it eagerly, fucking his boyfriend to oblivion. He, himself, was losing all composure with each passing thrust. He didn't even know what sounds were coming out of him anymore. Pleasure was pooling hot and low in his stomach, arousal wrenching itself tightly inside of him. That pool was going to overflow any second and he was now ready for it.

He had just enough presence of mind to give Jonghyun's dick some attention again, trying his best to work the same magic on him than inside of him. His caresses seemed to do the trick just fine. '' Aaa-ah... '' Jonghyun's hips jerked up as he came all over his hand. '' Jinki... '' He breathed as the last rope of cum spurted from him.

After witnessing such a sight, Jinki only needed one more thrust to finally tip over the edge. He stilled inside Jonghyun as he came hard, filling his hole with his warm and thick seed. He then dropped heavily on top of his boyfriend's body, his own sweaty skin sticking with his. Their chests heaved in unison as they tried to catch their breath.

'' You're heavy, '' Jonghyun whined as he playfully tried to push him away.

'' Tsk. '' Jinki moved back, but a hand instantly gripped his arm. '' No, not yet. '' Jonghyun pulled him back down before wrapping his arms around his neck. '' I like feeling like we are one, '' he went on as they locked eyes.

That oneness was currently a sweaty and sticky mess of limbs, but that's just what they had been craving. To be with each other fully, no barriers between them.

Jinki's lips stretched into a soft smile. '' I love you, Jonghyun. '' More than you could ever imagine.

Jonghyun's heart rate instantly quickened. Those words would never get old. '' I love you too, Jinki. ''

They sealed those words with a kiss before Jonghyun finally decided to let go of his hold on Jinki. The latter immediately rolled out of the bed. Jonghyun cocked an eyebrow as he watched him leave the room. He couldn't help the feeling of worry that grew inside him. Fortunately, he had nothing to worry about.

Jinki came back in the matter of seconds with two moist towels. As soon as Jonghyun also had his in hand, they both cleaned themselves up as best as they possibly could. Then Jinki retrieved his rightful place by his side, turning his body towards his. '' So what about that bedtime story, huh? '' Jinki reminded with a frank laugh.

Jonghyun rolled his eyes, but still decided to play along. '' Okay, here it goes. Once upon a time there was a man who loved another man. So one day, that man confessed his feelings to the one he loved... And do you know what happened after that? ''

'' No, tell me,'' Jinki feigned for the purpose of their little game.

'' The other man confessed that he had been feeling that way too all along. They shared a kiss and from that day forward, they lived happily ever after. The end. ''

Jinki's lips curled into a pout. '' That's it? ''

'' Of course. I've told you the best love story I know. And it's a true one, might I add, '' Jonghyun deliberately pointed out.

'' It is a lovely story. I'm glad things worked out perfectly for them, '' Jinki acknowledged.

Jonghyun caressed the other's cheek on a sudden impulse. '' Yes, their love was stronger than anything. ''

Jinki smiled briefly. '' Thanks for the story. '' His tone was sincere. He appreciated all the efforts Jonghyun was deploying to make him feel at peace.

'' My pleasure, '' Jonghyun said with a smile of his own. '' We should get some sleep now, '' he indicated.

'' Yes, let's sleep. ''

The lights were turned off a second later, plunging them into darkness. Jinki wrapped an arm around Jonghyun's body right before closing his eyes. Negative thoughts immediately tried to fill his mind, but he pushed them away the best he could. He had the one he loved against him and right now that's all he wanted to care about.

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Jonghyun's eyes slowly opened as a ray of sunlight landed on his face. He groaned from the suddenness of his return to the real world. He would've enjoyed a little more rest after having been so fatigued by his boyfriend, but at least now he could consciously cuddle with him some more. Jonghyun turned his body over, expecting to see Jinki's face, but there was no Jinki there. A pang of panic hit him in the stomach. He's probably making breakfast or something, he instantly reasoned to calm his nerves. Still, his state of acute alertness had him on his feet in a second and out of their bedroom by the next.

The apartment was alarmingly silent. '' Jinki '', he cried out as he walked into the kitchen. No answer. Jonghyun went through all the rooms nonetheless, even looking in the closets and cupboards for extra safety. Dammit, Jinki... Jonghyun went back to their bedroom and picked up his phone on the dresser. When he unlocked the screen, a little envelope appeared at the top. He clicked on it without further thought, feeling his heart thrum in his chest with anticipation.

'' Jonghyun... '' the text message started. '' One of my clients needed to see me for an emergency. I'll be back in a few days. Please don't worry. I love you. ''

'' Ugh '', Jonghyun groaned in anger as his knuckles turned white from squeezing his phone too hard. That was the worst lie the other could've come up with; the timing was just too convenient. Jonghyun was tempted to throw his phone against a wall, but instead, he forced himself to take a few deep breaths. He wasn't going to let Jinki get off so easily.

He looked at his phone again and started typing. '' Jinki, I'm not stupid. Come back right now. '' He sent it immediately and tensely waited for an answer. Each passing minute felt like an hour, so by the time ten minutes had gone by, Jonghyun felt like he had been waiting a whole day. Maybe I need to make myself more clear. He typed again.

'' If you're not home by tonight, I don't know if I'll be able to forgive you. '' He stared at his screen a few seconds before hitting the send button this time. He knew his ultimatum was harsh, but he would be damned if he ever let Jinki slip through his fingers again. He finally sent it, uneasiness coiling in his stomach as he thought about what could follow.

But what followed was even worse than what he'd expected. Nothing happened. Jonghyun went about his day as best as he could, struggling with battling emotions of worry and anger. He couldn't believe Jinki had run away again and had lied to him about why he had left.

Towards the end of the day, Jonghyun finally allowed himself a good cry on their bed. The sun had now disappeared and Jinki still hadn't come home.

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#okay that took longer than expected #so here it is guys #I know I was MIA for the longest time but I'm glad I could write a new chapter!!!#hope you enjoy it and please tell me what you think on here or on AFF #and like and reblog if you enjoyed it lol #I'm so excited lol #it's finally out #JongyUUuuuUUUU #sara's stuff #jongyu #jonghyun #onew #lee jinki #sarastuff:jongyu #the selfishness of our hearts #the selfishness of our hearts : a year in the life #mine #shinee #and yes you read that chapter title right hahahaha

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obsidianpen · 3 years ago

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You do know we would all love to read the tomarry Pokémon fiction, right? It sounds hilarious and brilliant!

Oh girl you don’t even know how complicated that storyline got in my head. I’ll ruin all of the spoilers for it now because I’m never gonna write it.

There would have been a whole arc throughout the story about the ‘legendary hallows’, aka the birds. They’d each correlate to a hallow from hp ish - articuno as the cloak, moltres as the stone, Zapdos as the elder wand. There is a legend that if you capture all three of them you’ll be, idk, the ultimate master. But ofc that’s just a legend because no one really owns a legendary bird; even when ‘caught’ they leave their ‘masters’ when the masters die or like, whenever they feel like it. Everyone knows that prof dumbledore (oak) briefly owned moltres for a time, before the fire bird amicably departed. And Harry’s dad, Harry later learns, briefly owned articuno. No one has seen or heard of Zapdos in decades.

so there’s a whole side story of Voldemorts company (is it still team rocket? Are they the death eaters? Sure yeah) and how they’re really a massive training organization cranking out great trainers to win all the tournaments out there and make all the money you can get from those. They’re trainers have gone as far as the elite four but no one has yet beat Tom riddle, leader of Pride team/house or whatever I’m calling that again. Snape and Bellatrix are two of those trainers and yes, they’re Jesse and James, and yes, they probably cross dress but the absolutely hate each other

Harry does make it to the elite four one day. He and Tom end in a never before seen draw, with the promise that Harry will be able to battle him next year and that Tom keeps his status as current champion. Oh, and later Harry wins part of the prize, which is the master ball (tho tom is not told this; in fact Cedric and the other champions say they think it’s shit he didn’t win and sneak it to him after the tournament is over. None of the like tom, the arrogant prick).

Anyway. Ive probably lost you by now. I swear this would all make a lot more sense if I spent millions s of words writing it properly. Er. Well. Eventually, after a thousand chapters, Harry would end up battling “Giovanni” (Voldemort), because in that year after trying to just be the best trainer ever he would learn about how corrupt that organization is (how they steal Pokémon and other shit too) and would decide he wants to take them down, and that’s more important than winning some fancy title. The moment before the V battle he would have had pika evolve (because we all have to grow up sometime and I always hated how no one ever really evolved in that show, literally or otherwise). Raichu would have beaten V’s Arbok or whatever he had (named Nagini ofc) and it would look for a moment like Harry wins, but then V starts laughing and blasts Harry’s Raichu (is it hedwig? Something else? Idk) with much more intense lightning than anyone has ever seen. Then ice. Then fire.

plot twist, turns out V has visited and found all of the legendary birds, but he never was interested in capturing them. He was only interested in gaining their power because (gasp) that’s right, Voldemort is a fucking Pokémon. Well half a Pokémon his mom was a ditto LMAO I swear this would be great not stupid hahahaha I hate myself, okay but really his mom was a sad ditto that managed to morph in a human look alike and charm a man who naturally freaked the fuck out when he learned what he’d had sex with and therefore baby half Pokémon Tom was abandoned and ditto mom died of grief. He was the only creature ever like it, and it explains who V, at least, can understand Pokémon.

so yeah that battle ends after Voldemort goes on a whole speech explaining this, admitting that he’s also tom riddle and he’s also whatever the fuck he wants to be because he’s the real master, and is clearly about to kill Harry and friends because no one can know all that, when Harry throws the master ball that V doesn’t know he has and… catches him. 🌈

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shijiujun · 4 years ago

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hey so uh, it's 110% Not Your Job, but can i ask for like a crash course on these chinese bl series that are everywhere around me but i don't know them. like i'm familiar with the untamed or however many names it has but i'm seeing two or three more???? help please if you can thank you

hello!! oh no worries, i happened to be looking for a distraction too so this was timely hahaha although it’s a pretty broad question since there are so many new live adaptations coming out (and some which have already come out which are featured as bromances), but let me see if I can like round this up for you a little.

*i may be giving you a bit more than you need or like irrelevant stuff, but i guess i’m bound to hit something hahaha

Okay so the chinese BL series you’re talking about is The Untamed, and since you said you’re familiar I won’t get into it in detail, BUT just for like flow’s sake:

The Untamed (Chen Qing Ling) is based on the danmei (BL) novel written by MXTX, called Mo Dao Zu Shi (and yes however many like English translations to this title there is), or MDZS for short. You watched the live-action, and there’s like a lot of other versions of it e.g. the anime, the chibi anime, audio dramas etc. etc. the list goes on. In case you still haven’t seen any of those, just glance through this masterpost made by @the-social-recluse - In any case, right now everything is sort of already out EXCEPT:

MDZSQ - chibi donghua, cutest shit you’ll ever see

More MDZS merch

Some teasers from MDZS mobile game which has been one year and developing

Now moving on to other BL series floating around so frequently - MDZS is the second book that MXTX wrote. So there’s SVSSS (The Scum Villain’s Self-Saving-System), which is also called lovingly by others in the fandom by Scumbag System/Villain in short, this is MXTX’s first danmei novel. Right now if you’ve seen this on Tumblr, it’s the anime (donghua) version - 10 episodes only for Season 1, available on WeTV with subs, finished airing like a few weeks ago. Translations of the novel are definitely out in full somewhere.

An absolute mess, but an organized one

Tried to do a manhua but failed

Everyone thought the donghua wouldn’t air on time either (it has a history of dropping development halfway) but it did

Would probably be the most entertaining if ever dealt with a live-action

And then there’s arguably, the most beloved child out of all three novels (at least right this moment) - TGCF (Tian Guan Ci Fu, or Heaven Official’s Blessing). This is the third and so far last (???) danmei novel MXTX has written, main pairing invented love. Strawhat-wearing scrap collector smiley angel with devoted kid-turned-adult-turned-ghost-king who follows smiley angel for like many years because he loves him. Anyway, if you’re seeing this, once again on Tumblr a lot, it’s the donghua version you’re seeing. Still airing, I think we’re midway through the whole season, the yelling starts Saturday (Asia time zone) and then extends into Sunday, sometimes Monday.

There’s like a god-tier Eng translation in full for TGCF by Suika

There is a manhua for this as well, only like 45 chapters in, but the time Jan/Feb 2021 rolls around, the donghua would have overtaken the manhua progress on the storyline HAHAHA

Apparently the director/production team who did CQL/The Untamed managed to get the rights to filming its live-action, but heh nothing much about that just yet aside from casting rumours and fans worrying that the casting will be done wrongly and also that they won’t be able to do justice to the story.

Alright now that we’ve more or less cleared MXTX and what everyone is hyping over (for good reason), let’s move on to the other CHINESE BL stuff you could be seeing (although I feel like you might not actually be asking about this), and these will all be live-actions (I’m also only clearing SOME of this year’s stuff, so none from before 2020, don’t ask me why I didn’t leave Guardian or SCI up here):

✨✨✨ Already aired, done and dusted or maybe ongoing, just ones I see on my dash and notifs so I definitely am biased ✨✨✨

The Sleuth of Ming Dynasty (Cheng Hua’s Fourteenth Year) - Many episodes, much bromance, base novel is gay af, but live action is cute af. Read more here and full translation is not yet done I think

My Roommate is a Detective - THIS IS A SPECIAL MENTION. NOT BL. Doesn’t even have like a book to go along with it, it’s just I’ve seen people getting into this again and creating content, so idk, imma just leave this here. It ain’t BL but it got the most glaring BL-esque relationship I’ve ever seen in my life. You’ll get what I mean if you watch it

The Lost Tomb Reboot - AGAIN another special mention, because many handsome young-ish men who you know, head into tombs, much bromance. Based on a huge series of novels, totally not BL, but as always with like a lot of men put into one story, ships happen. This year as well, in case you’ve seen it floating around

✨✨✨ Upcoming Chinese BL live-action adaptations, confirmed + casting + filming. You may have seen some of these because like posters were recently released etc. - As far as I know these are all slated for 2021 ✨✨✨

Faraway Wanderers (Tian Ya Ke) - A danmei novel by Priest, filming wrapped up, should be airing soon. Leads are pretty cute, although I’m sure they’ll turn this bromance. One of the male leads is known for a lot of period web dramas, and Gong Jun, the other male lead, is known for more contemporary modern dramas, but damn Gong Jun’s jawline

Winner is King (Sha Po Lang) - Another danmei novel by Priest, filming wrapped up recently as well if I recall? Posters recently released, and this is arguably Priest’s most famous and popular danmei

Immortality (Hao Yi Xing) - A super popular danmei novel called 2ha or The White Husky and His White Cat Shizun by Meat Bun. Filming also... wrapped? I think, because posters came out the next day and everyone from Earth to Pluto went mad, definitely one you should look out for next year spring i think, but I’m pretty sure there’s gonna be a hell lot more teasers, posters etc. coming up and then half of danmei Tumblr will probably go into cardiac arrest

The Society of Four Leaves (Zhang Gong An) - Ehhhh I think this hasn’t yet been filmed but casting was recently confirmed (contentiously). Concept posters are up though. This technically isn’t classified officially as a BL. There are no CPs officially in the novel, but apparently it’s very like idk flirty etc., also slated for next year

*There are a few more by Priest, e.g. Liu Yao, but no concrete news that I’ve seen (by now like at least 60% of her danmeis either have a live-action contract or a donghua contract or both lmao)

✨✨✨ Upcoming Chinese BL donghua adaptations (2021-ish). All by Priest✨✨✨

*Throwing this in just as a by the way thing, because these are also recent news (these two weeks). There might be more but I haven’t seen anything yet personally :D

Imperfection (Can Ci PIn) - Space AU, the novel won like two national literary awards if I recall like last year? Anyway a brief trailer recently came out last week I think, and main lead is handsome af, and once again it’s space and space wars so it’s pretty cool

Silent Reading (Mo Du Zhe) - Novel is called Mo Du, and honestly I think the donghua has been like teasing fans for like idk years, but it looks like we’re finally getting to the donghua as the team previewed the first ep like... two weeks ago live to an audience? Modern crime thriller thing, there’s a masterpost going on Tumblr

Lie Huo Jiao Chou - Another Priest fan favourite, a historical + modern danmei combination. Much angst from what I’ve seen, but donghua teaser looked good also, released also last week

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anyway hopefully some part of this or at least one part answers your question? if not, just send me another ask or like, DM me hahahaha

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bbrandy2002 · 5 years ago

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Fools Rush In

Part 4

Series: The Royal Romance

Pairing: Liam x OC (Riley)

Previous chapters can be found here.

Series Premise: With two weeks until Liam is to marry Madeleine, the guys throw him a bachelor party in Vegas. As a drunken night, he finds himself with way more than he bargained for.

MC did not exist in Liam’s social season. OC Riley Brooks lives in Las Vegas.

A/N: No wacky drabble for this one. Went a wee bit over and couldn’t cut. Oh well...there’s always next time. This is an 18+ series.

A/N: The lyrics to the song Maxwell sings comes from a Tik Tok video that was shared with me and the idea to include it in this is not my own hahahaha I will post the link to the video in comments to give the maker proper credit and just in case anyone wants to actually watch it. I thought it was funny..

Thanks @burnsoslow for beta reading and all of my lovely pre-readers.

Warning: Mention of STD’s

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All Riley wanted to do was go home, take a hot shower, snuggle up in a blanket on the couch with a Lifetime movie, and carry on with the rest of her life.

She'd had this crazy but exciting night out with a fantastic guy. They had a little too much to drink and woke up the next morning to find they were married to each other.

And she wasn't just married to anyone. No, it had to be the King of a small European country she'd never heard of before.

That's not something that just happened to everyone.

Depending on how one viewed her circumstances she was either the luckiest or unluckiest woman in all of Vegas.

If she were a betting person, she'd place money on the latter.

Riley stood at the penthouse door, engaged in a stare down with the blonde-haired obstacle blocking the exit.

In front of her was a woman wearing a black and white fur coat, a strand of pearls that hung loosely around her neck, and an impudent scowl.

If evil were a lady, Riley surmised she was looking at her.

Madeleine's green eyes bore agitation and scorn as she studied the petite figure she recognized from the dozens of photos that bombarded her text messages.

"You must be the bimbo who thinks she will steal my crown and title."

"Excuse me?" Riley's eyes narrowed, not knowing who she was speaking to, but could already tell she didn’t care to know.

Leo stepped up protectively behind Riley and growled at the countess. "Go away, Madeleine! How many times do we have to tell you the dalmatians aren't for sale?"

"You wish I were here for dalmatians," Madeleine sneered. "Now, out of my way, heathens."

She pushed her way past the two and stalked inside while Mara shuffled behind. She removed her cashmere gloves and took notice of her fiance with his back pressed against the bar top, one legs crossed over the other, and sipping casually on his scotch.

Liam tipped the glass to his lips as if he didn't have a care in the world and swallowed. "Can I offer you a glass of wine, dear? Or a cronut? Perhaps a ride to the middle of the desert to be left for dead?"

"That's quite alright," Madeleine quipped as she ripped the glass out of Liam's hand and slammed it down on the bar. "But maybe you'd like to first explain why I have been inundated with one message after the next telling me you were married to this ..." She motioned her hand toward Riley with derision. "This ... bitch?"

Liam paused as if he were thinking about it, then shook his head. "No. Not really." She's not a bitch ... she's amazing. He wondered why he couldn't say that out loud.

Stunned, Riley looked up at Leo in disbelief. "Did she really just call me a bitch? She doesn't even know me."

Leo nodded with a compassionate smile on his face, then pulled her further inside and shut the door.

He wasn't about to let her go now.

Liam grabbed his drink, pushed himself off the bar, and strolled to the center of the room. He could feel Madeleine's icy glare following his every movement. The King hoped his flippant attitude was enough to penetrate deep into her frozen exterior and piss her off even more. "I thought you were in New York, Mads. 8 million people in that city for you to torment, and you still make time to hop on your broomstick and find me. I have to say … I'm touched."

Madeleine shot him a dirty look. "Do you have any idea what I've been through because of what you did last night?"

He shrugged. "Nope, and I don't care."

"Well, you're going to care when I tell you everything that happened." She disregarded the audible groan and eye roll from him as she began her diatribe of offenses. "I had just settled in for the night when I get a message from that simpleton, Penelope, telling me what you did. I tried to call you, but apparently, you and the rest of your entourage of losers blocked my number. So I had this incompetent boob of a guard you hired for me book the first flight out here.

“When I got to JFK, I was detained and strip-searched because someone falsely alerted authorities claiming I was a Colombian drug lord, only in the U.S. to sell cocaine and hypodermic needles to children --"

Leo snorted.

Liam curled his lips into a devilish grin, knowing exactly who did it. He glanced subtly to Mara, who winked back at him.

"Are you even listening to me, Liam? As if that nightmare wasn't horrid enough, I find out Mara booked coach class … COACH! Coach is so beneath someone like me. There were babies and old people and sodas. But the worst was when we finally arrived here; they strip-searched me again. I had to get my own baggage and ride in one of those god-awful smelly shuttle vans to this hotel. And do you know why I had to do all of that? Because you're a complete moron, Liam. The people of Cordonia are laughing at you; you know that, right? I always knew you would be a total embarrassment and fuck up, but this is beyond anything I imagined."

A downcast expression was plastered on Liam's face as he stared down at the drink in his shaky hand. Those words stung -- “a total embarrassment and fuck up.” In his mind, he felt she was right. He had let down even his own expectation of himself and the reputation of the monarchy.

There was nothing to do but stand there and stew in silence.

But Riley wouldn’t.

She shrugged Leo's hand from her shoulder and spun Madeleine around by the arm to face her. "Is this what you do? You go around insulting everyone and being a first-class bitch? I will have you know, Liam is not any of those things. He's the kindest, sweetest man I've ever met. And it's no wonder he looked so miserable last night at the club. I couldn't understand why at first, but now ... now it all makes sense. Did you ever stop to think that maybe if you weren't such a fucking cunt, he wouldn't have been drinking so much and been so willing to accept the company of another woman?"

Liam felt his heart twinge. Riley had every right to be upset with him, and he felt guilty for putting her in this situation. But there she was, defending him. God, she was hot.

Madeleine guffawed. "How cute. You've got your little whore taking up for you now."

"That's enough!" Liam's eyes landed sharply on her. Before he could stop himself, the next few words sprang from his lips as naturally as his breath. "You will not speak to my wife -- your Queen -- like that again, or so help me I will charge you where you stand for treason against the Crown. Do I make myself clear?"

Riley's eyes rounded, unsure of what to say or do at that moment.

Leo loudly cheered and pumped his fist in the air.

Liam stood his ground as he glowered back at his slack-jawed, now ex-fiancee.

Madeleine couldn't believe what she was hearing. "You can't be serious? We are getting married in two weeks. I'm going to be the Queen!" Her tone was one of anger and desperation.

He laughed wryly in her face. "Not anymore."

He looked past a stunned Madeleine to the heedless guard smirking behind her. "Mara, please see to it that the countess returns to the airport and doesn't disturb us again."

She agreed and led a vociferously-protesting Madeleine toward the doorway.

"You'll regret this, Liam. You'll both pay for this travesty!"

"Use the taser on her, Mara!" Leo bounced with excitement as he followed them and opened the door. He handed the guard a $100 bill as she walked by and whispered, "Make sure they strip search her again. A bonus if they need double gloves and lube."

"You got it, boss."

Leo slammed the door and clapped. "Ding-dong, the witch is gone! So. Do you need help packing, sis? We still have a couple of hours before we go back to Cordonia. That should be enough time to gather some things."

Riley stammered, looking between the two men, completely dumbfounded by what just took place.

Liam noticed. He knew what he said to Madeleine about her being his wife and Queen was most likely awkward for her.

They didn't know each other; it was a fact, he continued to remind himself.

Liam rubbed the back of his neck, unsure of what to say. "Uh, Riley ... I just want you to know ... I only said that stuff because of Madeleine ..."

"Oh, yes. Of course. I knew that." She chuckled nervously and waved her hand. "But what about your engagement?"

"Yeah, Liam. You gotta have a queen." Leo clapped the back of one hand against the palm of the other and exclaimed, "Dem's da rules."

Liam shook his head and carried his empty glass to the open kitchen. "I know that, Leo. But I will not ask Riley to give up her life here just to help me clean up my mess. She deserves better than that."

Riley crossed her arms on the counter that looked into the kitchen, watching Liam get a bottled water from the fridge. "What happens if you don't have a Queen?"

Liam twisted the cap and gave a half-shrug. "I don't have a choice. I'll have to marry Madeleine." The words stung his lips.

"But she's so pissed at you right now."

He chuckled. "That won't stop her. She wants the crown, and that's it."

Riley could see the sadness in his eyes, the same sadness she saw last night in the club where they first met. "You'll be miserable with her, though," she muttered wistfully.

He nodded, regret written on his face. "Yeah."

Riley stood silent; she weighed the pros and cons of such a massive uprooting. Her life had been slightly stalled and bland for the last few years. Las Vegas was her getaway to a new life from New York, where she left behind both regrets and failed relationships. And yet ... this new place wasn't everything she told herself it would be.

She looked at Liam and felt her heart break. She understood him more than he realized.

But ... to be a Queen?

Riley inhaled deeply and prepared to speak up when Liam's phone rang.

He placed the cap on his water, sat it on the counter, and lifted his phone from the pocket of his shorts. "It's Maxwell," he called out.

Leo rushed to him. "Put it on speaker, Li!"

"Maxwell, I have you on speaker. Leo and Riley are with me. How's Drake?"

"He's in the pharmacy, and I'm standing outside getting air. It's going to take a while to amass all the medication and creams he needs."

The brothers looked at each other with wide eyes. Riley covered her mouth to prevent the chuckle that threatened to escape. "I think I'll give you guys some privacy. I'll just be in the bathroom."

Liam nodded and turned his attention back to the call. "Is it really that bad, Max? I mean, I think we know what he has."

"Dudes, I don't think you can even begin to guess half the shit Drake's got."

"You gotta tell us what the Drakester has, Max."

"I'm not really supposed to say."

They could hear the hesitation in his voice. It was almost like he wanted to tell them, but needed a little more coaxing.

"Maxwell," Liam spoke. "If Drake doesn't want us to know, then you should probably keep it to yourself ... for now."

"I did kind of write a song about everything he was diagnosed with for a TikTok video. Drake only said not to tell anyone. He never said I couldn't sing about it."

Leo nodded his head. "Agreed. Sing that song, Beaumont."

They could hear Maxwell shuffle further away from what sounded like a crowded street.

"Okay, the coast is clear," Maxwell said as he took a deep breath. The boys hugged their ears against Liam's cell phone.

"Drake just left the clinic, and I'm afraid its bad news.

So now I'm singing this song about it hoping it gets views.

Don't know how he's still alive.

Or how he survived.

The doctor said he's got five ... nasty STIs.

He's got some in his balls … got some in his ass.

And what's worse is his curly pubes are crawling with crabs.

He's got herpes! From a booty call!

He's got syphilis …now his dick is raw.

He's got chlamydia … And it's so sore.

And he doesn't even know where he got genital warts."

Liam pressed two fingers into both sides of his temples while he stared blankly at his phone. "Un - believable."

Leo swiped the tears from his eyes and made no attempts to hide the giant smile curling his lips or his overwhelming giddiness. "I've never been more proud of the Drakester than I am at this moment. He actually beat me out on this one. Gotta say ... I don't mind losing to him this time."

“Liam. Leo. I gotta go; Drake’s on his way out. See ya back at the hotel.”

Leo went to the refrigerator to search for a snack, pulling out a leftover pizza. “Ya know, we should probably warn the maid she may need to get a haz-mat team before cleaning Drake’s room.”

Riley rounded the corner. “I hope everything is okay with your friend.”

Liam smiled. “That’s very kind of you say. He’ll be fine … I think.”

She fidgeted with her bracelet and glanced over at Leo placing a slice of cold pizza on top of another slice and taking a large bite. “Leo, I hate to ask while you’re eating … again. But would you mind if I spoke to your brother for a moment? Privately.”

Leo chewed quickly while shaking his head. He swallowed hard. “Sure. I needed to use the shitter, anyway. Pinquee Kittee’s casserole isn’t sitting too well in the Leo tummy.” He grabbed the pizza box and headed for the bathroom.

Liam looked curiously at Riley, not able to read her expression or have any clue what she would want to talk about. “You needed to speak with me?”

She nodded. “Yeah. About our marriage ...”

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thetempestcup · 4 years ago

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9/10 WIP Challenge

For every writer still feeling that sweet, sweet afterglow of the ZFW...it's time to gird your nether fruits and work on that next chapter. To help thaw out those creative juices, here's something to tickle your ego (or stimulate your masochism, same difference.)

Answer 9 of the 10 questions below regarding your WIP of choice. (Translation: whatever you're feeling guiltiest about.)

Replace one of the questions below with your own question. (Which you still have to answer, sorry.)

Post!

(optional) Tag 2 other victims/friends.

And yes, these will be sneaky Zutara flavoring to this because, well. Come on.

Story: Tempest in a Teacup/No Map Without Water

(Is this shameless cheating by treating both stories as one storyline? You bet'cha. Behold the power of the OP.)

What's this story's Kryptonite? (Translation: what kills your writing mojo when tackling this story?)

Having to write about a character physically going anywhere. If Zuko has to cross leave a room to enter another room? Forget about it, pass the arsenic, goodbye.

How many hours a day do you write?

…hours? HAHAHAHA. But seriously, no. 75% of No Map gets written while I'm drooling through Zoom meetings. Please don't tell my boss. (In my defense, and to avoid a well-deserved public flogging, I tend to read 3-4 hours a day on the average.)

What was the hardest scene to write (so far)?

Hey, remember when I *SPOILER* Katara?

How much research did you do (or are doing) for the story?

For Tempest, almost zero. The only notable exception was looking up Chinese poetry. No Map is a whole different animal; I don't do research per se but the TBR book pile is frequently reshuffled to give priority to books featuring topics that could be "relevant" to the story. Of course, relevant is a very...gummy term. Case in point, in addition to calligraphy testimonials and Tale of Genji, there's also It Ended Badly: Thirteen of the Worst Breakups in History and Nose Dive: A Field Guide to the World's Smells. Also, food books. Ye gods, so many, many, many food books...

How did you come up with the title?

Tempest in a Teacup is a pretty common expression; I was originally only using it as a placeholder for the *real* title...which never came along. No Map Without Water is sick, sad proof of my horrifically pretentious twenties. (Guys, it's not even the worst example. At some point there was a WIP called Reflections: Advice On Nocturnal Relationships at Three in the Afternoon.)

Is this Zuko's story or Katara's story?

I'm going to be a coward and say: Tempest overall is Katara's story about Zuko, and Zuko's story about Katara.

What's the meanest/nicest thing you've done to the story's protagonist...so far?

So, hey, remembered when I *SPOILER* Katara? And then, hey, remembered when I didn’t *SPOILER* Katara?

What scene/moment are you looking forward to writing the most? (Provide or avoid spoilers as you see fit.)

For risk of spoilers let's simply say: the turducken chapter. It's coming.

Which scene, character or plot point changed the most from your initial idea to the finished text?

After a decade and a half it's damn hard to remember the original outline (especially since the laptop housing has long since passed), but I think there was a little amnesia mini-arc? It's pretty cringe-worthy to consider it now. (Translation: I'll likely write it, hide it, and admit to nothing.)

What is your writing process like?

Shabby and heavily reliant on pickles.

BONUS: What tea are you drinking right now?

Rosehip and hibiscus. It's sour as the milk of kindness in Ozai’s withered man-boo...bie...ok, yeah, no. Too far. It went too far.

Tagging @antarcticasx & @rideboldlyride

#9/10 challenge

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xeo-kunsatan · 4 years ago

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Beast Choices Chapter 1. Diagnosis

Long time ago in Pacopolis... A Russian/Korean Woman have opened her consultory for the first time, ready to receive her first patient.

Muriel Plizetxki.

Age: 21 years

Gender: Female

Birthday: April 4th

Sign: Aries ♈

Race: Purple Sphere-Russian/Korean

Blood type: B+

From her office's door, her First patient have arrived.. It was a insecure and tired white orb next to his mother wich was speaking with Muriel about her son's bad behavior, wishing Muriel would make him change into a perfect boy, to then left him in the office.

Betrayus Spheros

Age: 18 Years

Gender: Male

Birthday: October 28th

Sign: Scorpio ♏

Race: White Sphere-American

Blood type: A-.

–Remember Miss in 2 months of therapy i will give you his Diagnosis–

Muriel said trying to be professional.

–I hope you can handle him, he is sooo complicated... Well see ya Tray Tray, be good– Said the old woman before leaving the office.

–Wow.. what a nice woman..– Muriel said sarcastically.. –Y-Yeah... I guess..– he said with a notable uncomfortably.

The ambient was quiet for a moment, but Muriel started speaking.

–Welcome to this office Mr Spheros, or how can I refer myself to you?– –B-Betrayus.. just Betrayus

--Said bashful the white guy..

--Alright Betrayus, so.. Tell me... What are your problems?

Betrayus was quiet and nervous but he took a break and started narrating..

–Well.. Doctor.. My problems started literally since I born,.. my Dad died when i born... So my mother andmy brother.. they saw me as the guilty of his death and a black sheep...i Dunno if my older sister thinks the same of me....

He was narrating while Muriel was taking notes of his testimony.–

–I didn't knew how my father was, when i tried to ask my mom about him...she just avoid that topic and told me a "shut up" instead, My sister isn't in home for almost all the day because of her work, when i saw her, we just have a short conversations about future stuff and what places we want to visit so i forgot to ask that to her.. and my brother.. he just avoids me with Mom's same behavior.. i think i partly know why he is Mom's favorite..

–Because he is the same shit as her?–

Muriel commented in a jocking way.

–Heheh.. Exactly– He Chuckled

–Is that all, or there's is more you want to share?.. Like.. your childhood?– she said interested while she was still taking notes.

–Well.. about my childhood..it was hard too, i went to the same school as my brother, he was the brilliant Student of the class, he was the best in Chess, math, history, lenguage, football, swimming, golf and hockey. How I'm not like him, for a weird reason classmates sees me as a

Mr no One or a freak, some of them used to bully me....– He added

–Uhuh..– Muriel Answered while she was writting in a new paper

Betrayus seemed a little mad at Muriel's dry attitude, like thinking she wasn't giving a care about his feelings.

– Agh... you know, whatever, that's not important.. you're were just paid to control me

Betrayus's mad expression changed in a melancholic one, something Muriel noticed quickly, then she said him with a warm voice tone and a clumsy smile.

–Don't worry, i will not judge you, even when my work is hear your problems and understand you to then give you dry advices, i really want to help you, i know so well how do you feel, I'm sorry if I sounded like i didn't care, Heh.. This is my first work day and you my first patient, hehe–

Betrayus was embarrassed but relieved at the same time –R-Really?, Oh dang I'm really sorry, i didn't know..–

–No no no, it's okay, it was my fault– Muriel was still with a dummy smile, something that Betrayus saw with tenderness

–Heh at least that confirms me that you're really interested in help me–

She chuckled –Yeah i guess, hehehe

And we'll continuing this, tell me what are the things wich makes you shine?–

–Things wich makes me shine?– he asked confused

–You know, your skills, in what things you are good for– she answered chuckling

–Ooh!, I get it, heh.. well I'm good in lenguage, History, Gambling, Pac pong...well.. uhm.. I don't like it anymore... Also literature and writing, I'm kinda freaky with that..–

Suddenly Betrayus noticed a familiar book from the mini library behind Muriel's.

–Is that?.. No way! Is that the Divine Comedy book!?– He said on a impressed and kinda freaky tone.

–Y-yeah wow I thought I was the only weirdo by reading that book– she was impressed as well.

–Same old, Girl!

Both started sharing their tastes having the surprise that their tastes were the same as each other while they were yelling as bakudeku fangirls.

The hours have passed and Rotunda went to take Betrayus to home.

–Im back, Im sorry if he caused you problems– Rotunda said trying to be nice.

–Ohh Miss he wasn't giving me problems, he behaved really good– She answered keeping herself as professional

Rotunda just paid the date to Muriel and left with Betrayus.

Muriel just sighs of satisfaction at watching his first patient smiling before Left.

"He has a really precious smile".

Muriel have attended another 3 patients more until the day ended, she just left the building of her office to then left to a Cabaret club where she worked to pay her career and getting psychiatrist title, work wich still he is having for actually any Monday night. Sometimes to strip or filming adult movies, Always wearing a wolf mask to hide her identity as well keeping her work as psychiatrist. It's almost hard to say if she hated her job in that Cabaret.

She ended and Left safety to her department to just feed her wolfdog Yūu, take a bath and fall sleep cuddling with Yūu waiting for the next day.

In the timelapse of the days Muriel and Betrayus continued their meetings, sometimes with Muriel taking Yūu to the meetings to give a fluffy support to Betrayus, Muriel became into a big emotional support to Betrayus as well her best friend. Something big was growing up between them.

The 2 months have passed so Muriel will give Rotunda the Diagnosis of Betrayus.

Betrayus: hehe then i told her.. Don't move, and she moved and fell from the stairs.

Muriel: Unholy Satan hahahaha... Heheh.. Hey, did anyone told you that you have a beautiful smile?

Betrayus: R-really?.. thank you..*Blushes* no one told me that before...

Muriel: they lost it. *Smiles too*

Betrayus: you know.. you have a beautiful smile too Muriel.

She blushes as well.

Muriel: i want to see you smile Betrayus..

Betrayus: me too

The door was knocked, It was Rotunda and Stratos to take Betrayus to home as well to know the final diagnosis of Betrayus.

Muriel:*opens the door* come in.

Rotunda: thanks to take me Stratos sweetie.

Stratos: always for you Mom.

Rotunda: Tray Tray, wait outside, we have something important to tell with the doctor.

Betrayus: I'm not a child mom...

Betrayus goes outside and sits in the waiting room, near to the door to hear the conversation, suddenly Yūu appears in front him and gives him warm company.

Meanwhile Rotunda and Stratos were waiting for Betrayus's Diagnosis.

Rotunda: Tell me Doctor, what's the problem with my son, did he behaved bad?

Muriel: Oh no, he is a really nice guy but there's the problem.. he has light Depression attacks but it's not too serious in his case, he doesn't need medicine or something... But the only thing he needs is real attention and affection, something wich you clearly don't give him.

Rotunda: Aghh that's fake!

Stratos: but that's not right, it's just a bratty of him.

Muriel: and... Have you asked it what's the origin of his "Bratty"?.

Stratos: well uhh...

Rotunda: uhmm... Because yes?..

Muriel: *she is mad but keeping herself professional* that doesn't have a sense, no one can have a problem or issue because yes, there always a why, the reason of your son's "Bratty" it's because of the rejection and contempt you give him because of something is not his fault, like the death of your husband, being born after the death of your husband doesn't make him a curse, he is a gift your husband left you before his death, but you prefer to see him in that way, as your husband would liked you to do that to his son.

Rotunda was completely mad so she answered that by slapping Muriel, Stratos was shocked as well Betrayus wich was hugging Yūu stoping her to attack Rotunda.

Stratos: M-Mom..

Rotunda: don't talk about my husband!! you can't tell me how to rise my children, you're not a mother to know that!!.

Muriel:... Maybe I'm not a mother, if i were one i will not treat my children as a bullshit, i would treat them with love.. as my mother used to do

Rotunda: Arrgghh... This is a Nonesense... Stratos take me home..

Stratos: y-yes Mom..

Rotunda have left the office just to meet up with a angry Yūu, Muriel noticed that and ran off the office to calm down Yūu.

Muriel: Yūu-Min No! Calm down Girl, calm down...

Yūu calms down and looks at Betrayus worried.

Stratos;*sneezes* Wolf!!...

Rotunda: Ahh! Beast!!

Muriel;*lies* its actually, an Malamute Alaskan.

Betrayus: i heard everything... Mom.. it's not my fault my dad died, and you know what? I'm tired of you and your bullshit about me!!

Stratos: Betrayus don't speak in that tone to our mother!!!.

Betrayus: *mocks* don't speak in that tone to our mother.. you are just defending her because "you are his favorite child"...

Rotunda: that's it! Betrayus you better take your stuff and leave the house!

Betrayus: in that it's the only thing I can agree with you, mother.

Rotunda: hah, i doubt you can live without me.

Muriel: well, he can live in my department, i have a extra room there.

Betrayus: R-really Muriel? Can I?.

Muriel: Sure.

Rotunda: Fine! Go with your Slut, if she can bear with you.

Muriel: at least bear with me "a slut" it's better to bear with a witch like you.

Stratos: that's enough! Mom... Let's go..

Stratos have left with Rotunda.

Muriel: uff finally...

Betrayus:*hugs her tightly* .. thank you.. Thank you so much Muriel.

Muriel: *hugs back* your welcome...

After that Betrayus started living with Muriel in her apartment as her Roommate, Betrayus find a work as pizza Delivery guy.

Where their story started and their relationship evolved into real love.

To be continued...

Extra:

Muriel and Betrayus have left a bakery with a box of chocolate donuts.

Bully1: hey Babe, what if you leave this white loser and come with a real man~?.

Betrayus; Aghh.. not him..

Muriel: Tray Tray.. hold my donuts *give him the box of donuts*

Betrayus: Muriel?...

Muriel starts beating up the guy to make him Run.

Betrayus:... She is a real lady~♥

#pacman and the ghostly adventures #pmatga

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missfinefeather · 4 years ago

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RWBY After the Fall: Prologue

I think I’ve mentioned this before, but I’m doing like, a semi-casual liveblog of the books.

This is more like, a bullet point liveblog where I just type out my thoughts as I listen to it on audiobook. Just going to be a long list like the OST liveblogs. This’ll be super casual!

And with most casual liveblogs, this’ll happen when I feel like it.

Anyways, got the audiobook loaded right here!

(SPOILER WARNING: I’ve seen up to Volume 7 at this point, and will likely be talking about future events of the series!)

1. I accidentally opened up Before the Dawn first. It’s very confusing to have the first book titled with the word “After” then having the second book titled with “Before.”

Anyways, I got a funny situation where I read the first paragraph for Sun Wukong talking about how much he loves Vacuo. Then I got to After the Fall, and suddenly is Velvet talking about how much she hates Vacuo. xD It’s a funny duality hahahaha.

2. If yelp existed in this universe, Velvet would write a scathing review for it xD

3. “I hate sand. It’s course, and rough, and it gets everywhere.”

4. Of course Velvet would like Vale more... She’s like, a bunny! She’s destined for the sylvan plains!

Yes, I know there are desert bunnies, but we’re talking fairy tales here!

5. Nope, not going to remember all these names...

6. ...more than a year ago... omg, I forgot how much time passed between Volume 3 and 4....

Well, considering Haven gets attacked, Shade’s probably a safe bet for a school. I mean, obviously Vacuo is going to get attacked by Salem eventually, but it’s delayed thanks to Salem’s hate boner for Ozpin.

7. “Split hare pun” omg...

8. “Now this book is historically accurate!” “Here you fight a giant enemy crab! Attack it’s weak point for massive damage!”

9. Gotta keep the crabs out of her hare.... I’m sorry...

10. Okay, Yaughtzu is he big green guy with the buster sword.

11. I thought Velvet was going to propose to Yaughtzu for a second there when she knelt down on one knee there...

12. Damn, sand’s just out to get her!

13. Okay, the other member is Faux... and he’s the telepathic one. Alright. I’m not going to care about these guys...

Gog, not looking forward to the sausagefest waiting for me in the second book. Wasn’t Sun’s book all guys? Yeah, that’s going to suck...

14. I’m surprised sunglasses didn’t catch on sooner out considering... Are berets really that good in the desert?

15. Oh no! Coco got crabs! D:

16. I guess it’s Velvet’s turn to be a badass. Get our character introductions out of the way, or at least what their powers can do.

17. Shit, a photo of Ruby triggered a PTSD flashback...

18. Gog, I keep forgetting Ruby was unconscious for a good part of that battle. I mean, unless if it ended right after she stoned the dragon

19. Really hoping they are shipteasing Yaughtzu x Velvet. I’m not really feeling those two.

20. Gogdamn, I guess Velvet’s arc is going to be about her feeling like she’s holding back her group, and finding her place within it.

21. I...forgot Weiss partially summoned an armored knight in that battle 0.0;

22. Oof, the fact she had to burn up so many photos x.x

Maybe she should carry two cameras on her, one for combat photos and semblance, the other for personal photos, just of people.

I’m certain Velvet will see RWBY again at least...

23. Oh yeah, Coco fought Emerald. Got a taste of her illusion powers...

24. Oh, Penny... I’m hoping Penny goes with RWBY when they inevitably go to Vacuo, so Velvet can know she’s alive.

25. I’m assuming they got to Vacuo. Hell, the finale of Volume 7 felt like the beginning of the end, but I know the plan is for RWBY to go on to like, Volume 12 or something...

26. Oh. Okay, so CFVY was leaving just as Weiss and Ruby were heading for Pyrrha. Alright, we’ve got a timeline at least. Gog, are they going to see the silver eyes blast?

27. The last time she sees Ruby... okay, that broke my heart a little...

Not a bad first chapter! I don’t have a very good gauge on Yautzu and Faux yet though. We’re just starting though.

I’ll continue this another night! I’m tired! xD Thanks for reading!

#rwbyatf #RWBY #Missfinefeather Liveblogs #Missfinefeather reads RWBY #Velvet deserves love and cake #Liveblog #RWBY liveblog #RWBY After the Fall #Rooster Teeth #blacklist Missfinefeather

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phoxphyre · 4 years ago

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Fic Writer Interview

Thanks to @captain-aralias, @vampire-named-gampire, @ninemagicks and @amywaterwings for the tags! I’m loving reading everyone else’s.

Name: Allison (why be coy?). Fun fact: phoxphyre was a name I used to use for online gaming years and years ago (stolen from a side character in, I think, a William Gibson novel? Also, I love foxes). When I suddenly needed to create an AO3 handle it was the first/only thing that jumped to mind. It wasn’t until much later that I realized that people chose handles that are, y’know, actually related to their fandoms. Haha, n00b.

Fandoms: Only Carry On! I lurked on the extreme fringes of a couple previous ones, but never posted anything. I can’t imagine having time for more than one. But I just became wildly addicted to YOI, so you never know.

Where you post: Mostly just AO3!

Most popular one-shot: A Light in the Dark, which also happens to be my only one-shot, but it’s also the most popular thing I’ve posted in general by far.

Most popular multi-chapter: I’m not sure they count because none of them are complete yet? But it’s Hold Back the Tide by kudos & bookmarks.

Fic you were nervous to post: Um, all of them? I’m a nervous wreck when I post anything. I’ve been writing forever, but before joining the fandom I hadn’t shown my writing to anyone outside of my immediate family in an embarrassing number of years.

But I was probably most nervous to post A Light in the Dark, which was not only my entry into the fandom, but the first thing I had ever posted publicly anywhere, AND my first attempt at writing anything smut-adjacent. I think I spent most of the weekend I posted it wandering around jitterily and irritating my husband. But I got really lucky with a wonderful and welcoming fandom!

How do you choose your titles: Randomly? Badly? If I’m lucky some theme jumps out at me from the piece itself (that was the case for A Light in the Dark and Hold Back the Tide). Otherwise there’s more hand-wringing.

Do you outline: Always, unless the thing is very short. And even for short things I’d probably jot some brainstorming notes. I used to be a proud pantser and did several NaNoWriMos and a quarter of a novel with almost no planning at all. Then I realized that maybe there was a correlation between that and the fact that I tended to have an initial burst of inspiration and then get stuck. It turns out that I really, really, really love brainstorming, so pen-and-paper planning both makes me happy AND has the nice side effect of making the writing process much easier. (Okay, yes, I know I have a bunch of unfinished WIPs, but I’m confident I know how to finish them, which was definitely not the case before).

For long things I usually do some kind of high-level plan on sticky notes, and then do more detailed breakdowns as I start work on a chapter/section, plus scene planning for the next scene or two out. For shorter things it’s usually longhand brainstorming and maybe a scene plan here and there.

I still procrastinate on outlining, though, and I’m not sure why, because it always makes everything better.

Do you take prompts: Not yet! Right now my limited writing time (usually just weekends) is all going towards trying to finish my WIPs. Maybe someday?

Complete: Hahahaha this is embarrassing. One, I think? I’m going to blame this on a) I just joined the fandom a year ago b) that year was 2020 c) I started a Pride and Prejudice AU in about March, and it keeps growing and growing. So, see, it’s all Jane Austen’s fault. Also vampires.

In progress: A bunch!

Hold Back the Tide: My COTTA fic. First two chapters posted, and then I’ll post the rest chapter by chapter when it’s complete. Maybe 4 or so to go?

Pride & Prejudice AU, tentatively titled Valour, Vanity & Vampires. Currently at almost 80K (yikes) and maybe 3/4 done? I’m waiting till it’s done to post, but I may post a prologue for fun one of these days.

The so-far-not-ironically named Unfinished Work: One chapter posted, maybe 5 or 6 to go?

Coming soon: I’m hoping to post my It’s a Wonderful Life one-shot by the end of the year (maybe a bit longer depending on how much editing it needs). And then back to Hold Back the Tide, I think?

Whose haven’t I seen yet? Hmmm, tagging @krisrix @carryonsimoncarryonbaz @bazzybelle @wetheformidables @pipsqueakparker @twokisses @otherworldsivelivedin @nightimedreamersworld @aristocratic-otter @seducing-a-vampire @moonstonemagic13 @palimpsessed

#tag game

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obiyuki-beebs · 5 years ago

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I found this in chapter 56 and I thought it was kinda interesting. While Zen is comforting Shirayuki as she's crying, Mitsuhide says,"But this is about Zen and Shirayuki. I don't think this sudden distance is a big problem. It's not like being apart would cause their existence to become smaller in each other's lives." Maybe it's foreshadowing they will separate? What are your thoughts on this? Do you think ObiYuki still has a chance or is it just the author toying with us?

hi anon!! (￣ω￣)

Short answer:

Yes, Whoaboy get ready I have some THOUGHTS, YESS!! and No.

I have been sitting on this ask for a long time sorry for le wait

The vast majority of this post is below the cut. I hope it is not too much / addresses what you meant.

Here are some notes before I subject whoever reads this to my madness:

These little moments of “It’s okay to do what you want to do” always strike me, and I think about them when I’m considering Zen v Obi endgame because it opens up the possibility that things can change.

Yes it’s a shojo and shojo protagonists tend to stick with their initial love interest... blah blah blah. I don’t think this preconceived notion of how shojo manga ‘always goes’ is a valid point anymore.

So .... I think the comments we are both thinking of usually refer to Shirayuki’s Path and how she must be able to Stand By Zen’s Side as an Ally, etc. So I’ll kind of be thinking of this from the angle of a Journey.

Everything discussed is also after The Play We Believe is Foreshadowing (except for the panels pulled from ch 9 and 20) which I think should be considered for the context of the plot.

If it is actually foreshadowing for an eventual Obi & Shirayuki story arc -- which tbh we might be in the midst of (currently) at ch 117 without realizing it -- then it’s relevant to how we frame the comments made afterwards. At the end of the day, Akizuki-sensei is an author. She is telling us a story. I think it’s reasonable to seek out clues to foreshadowing in fictional stories. So I’m operating under a 90% certainty that the play is foreshadowing.

I have found that the best (fictional) stories are ones that have been planned carefully. I have no way of verifying if AnS has been so precisely crafted to weave in so much foreshadowing that we speculate over, but damn it sure feels like it was.

The manga was originally just the first chapter, so we can assume that after writing that chapter and deciding to make it into a series, there was some planning done.

ANyway............... strong speculation ahead. I think I was ~60% thorough in my search to find material relevant to Foreshadowing of a Separation.

Please enjoy!

1) So we’ll start with a panel from ch 9,

where Zen is considering his relationship with Shirayuki and his growing crush.

This panel is, as stated above, part of the story that Akizuki expanded on after the original one-shot. In the first chapter, we get a lot of cute fate-chitchat between Zen and Shirayuki, but I think -- after deciding to continue the story -- Akizuki changed the tone to allow for more character development, and to challenge the Fate tropes often seen in romance.

Thus, the statement above from Zen that they may not always be together.

foreshadowing ?! ( ˙▿˙ )

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2) In Chapter 28,

we have the crew essentially saying they are all growing stronger for the sake of each other, and lending their strength as needed.

Within the story, Akizuki-sensei has established a theme of moving forward and changing as needed as a way to get stronger.

Mitsuhide says this to Shirayuki, also in Ch 28:

Why .... does Mitsuhide look so serious as he says this to her? Is he reconciling the fact that Shirayuki and Zens paths may diverge at some point, as they do for the Lyrias arc?

He follows up the above statement with:

He goes on to say,

“I want you to follow your heart so you can stand on your own wherever Zen takes you.”

So... maybe that context takes away some of the significance for fellow lovers of AnS. But I don’t think we should just ignore the statement.

I think she’s being given permission to change her mind; that it’s okay for her to have feelings for Zen, but it’s also okay if she chooses to end things. Mitsuhide will support her either way.

Even though the the full remark still has to do with Zen, she is being encouraged to stand on her own. She is her own person. She has friends who will still be there even if she chooses something different from what people expect of her.

In this case -- pertaining to AnS as a whole, from the perspective of everyone who ‘knows’ about ZenYuki in-story and also (meta!) the manga readers -- Shirayuki is expected to someday marry Zen.

After this, in Chapter 29, Izana is a bit derisive to Shirayuki after she gets the title from Tanbarun. I think his comments are intentionally made to make her uncomfortable. He says,

“Hahahaha! What an unusual title! Amazing!”

- cue confusion from Zen and Shirayuki -

“I wasn’t poking fun at it, it’s just a bit strange. Hmm... before, I said a nobody like her at your side would sully your name, Zen, but with this you can be friends without any such worry, right?

“Shirayuki, I’ve never asked what kind of relationship you want to have with Zen. And I don’t know if it’s something that can be said.”

Alrighty. So. Izana says in front of Shirayuki that he had described her as a nobody. This seems like something said meant to disquiet her, and her initial reaction is, “taken aback,” so we can safely say it was at least temporarily disconcerting for her to hear. I imagine it’s hurtful to hear you were once thought of as someone unworthy of notice.

Don’t get me wrong, I think most of what Izana says and does is in relatively good faith. I think the fandom has come to a general conclusion that he’s testing their relationship.

Obi finds her in the early morning and he notices that she’s upset, commenting that she’s making a strange face. She is still thinking about what Izana said, and Obi asks,

“Is it about the path you want to take?”

“....No. It’s that I haven’t given it any thought.”

Zen already wishes (though I don’t think he’s explicitly stated it the way he does later in ch 33) to marry Shirayuki, and we see her here facing emotional turmoil because that part of her future isn’t something she has thought about yet. Interesting, to say the least.

I’m not really sure about this, but it seems like she either means where Zen is taking her and / or where she can stand on her own.

And then .......

“Obi, will you lend me a hand?”

“Didn’t I tell you before that I’ll take you wherever you want to go?”

This part of the story is still heavy ZenYuki, but I think Obi saying this to her right now is significant. Akizuki has repeatedly weaved Shirayuki’s path into the themes of the story so far, while contrasting that Zen will meet her at her destination, while Obi will be at her side for the journey.

Zen and Shirayuki meet and talk. They basically address that Shirayuki doesn’t really know what the future holds, but that she still wants to stand by his side, and says that even though he’s a prince she wants to think it’s okay for her to feel that way.

You almost forget about the significance of Obi and Shirayuki’s relationship when it’s followed up by this ZenYuki scene. I wonder about the aforementioned nature-of-planning involved in the story and the future of the characters at this point.

gnah how did this post get so long already

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3) Zen has presumably given his blessing for Obi to be happy in love

In chapter 31, while the group is stranded outside Wistal due to rain, Zen and Obi are in the bath talking about the possibility of Kiki and Mitsuhide getting married.

“It’s fine with me as long as they can say that they’re happy. I intend to make sure of that.”

“You’ll make sure of that?”

“The same applies to you too, Obi.”

More foreshadowing? Presently it seems that the MitsuKiki ship has sunk, so contrasting this conversation to current-manga-events is titillating to me. ESPECIALLY because Zen says that he wants to make sure Obi is happy when Zen knows how Obi feels about Shirayuki. So it’s established that they will support one another as friends.

Later, Kiki and Mitsuhide are talking after dinner and discuss how the nature of Zen and Shirauki’s friendship never changes (that’s the impression I got from it). Mitsuhide recalls when he and Zen talked about the same thing:

I think what Kiki and Mitsuhide are referring to is that Zen and Shirayuki have made a conscious effort to become friends despite the barriers they’ve encountered so far, by way of them showing the strength of their mutual respect and desire to aid one another. I get a similar feel from the conversation between Zen and Mitsuhide.

And then .....

“The two of us will always be friends.”

ahem

Zen saying this -- in context to everything from the past four chapters -- implies that Zen is okay if their relationship is not romantic. If it is true that the mangas plot was deliberately planned out, these chapters will become increasingly interesting to look back on as the plot progresses.

The direction of the story has changed since then if we are only looking at the big turning point of Mitsuhide rejecting Kiki.

And despite that rejection, the group is still a group despite their physical distance.

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Brief note to say that in Ch 33 Izana says to Zen,

“Let me be an ally as you and Shirayuki follow your own path.”

While this is a ZenYuki comment, I see it as Akizuki reinforcing that each character is following their own path and they will be supported as they do.

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3.5) After this point is the first Lyrias arc,

where obiyuki shippers are starting to salivate over how much is packed in just for their relationship. I mean .... remember when she pushed him to the ground because she thought he would get hit by snow? And he gives her those moony eyes just like it didn’t stop ... my heart

UGH JUST SAYING IT BECAUSE context! Shirayuki’s path is changing slowly, and Obi is still by her side.

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4) A period of transition

I think this is around the time the Bergatt arc is actually beginning, leading up even to current-manga-events.

In Chapter 53

And thus, they head towards the path that a new wind blows upon.

The times are changing.

While Shirayuki is preparing for her and Ryuu’s move to Lyrias, Zen and co. are at Wilant meeting with Haruto, who describes fools aiming to throw the country into turmoil. This is a seed for the plot that develops, ie, the Bergatt arc that was not actually resolved when Touka gets taken down at Sereg in ch (?) 86. I bring this up because I think it shows the level of planning that Akizuki has put into the story at this point.

In chapter 55, after Shirayuki has finally been able to tell Zen she’ll be away from Wistal for 2 years, and they have this conversation (slightly paraphrased) after he’s processed for a short time:

Zen -

“Sorry. The fact that you would be leaving the castle was something that I’d never considered. So my reaction was a little slow.

“I’ll hear it. I’m sure there was more you wanted to say.”

Shirayuki -

“I’m really glad that I got to meet you and come to the castle! I’m where I am now because I wanted to become Zen’s ally; and i achieved that by coming to the castle and becoming a royal pharmacist.

“I’m sure that, like how it’s always been, there’s something ahead connecting to my path now. That’s why, because there’s a place I have yet to go, I want to be there.”

This is Zen’s face after she says the above:

What is he thinking? Is he worried about their romantic relationship? I interpret it as preemptive disappointment that they may not stay together.

Shortly after we get to the point you made in your ask (sweet anon) re ch 56 with Mitsuhides comment. This adds to the reinforced theme that change is okay and they will all still be friends and allies regardless of where life takes them.

BUT IMMEDIATELY AFTER Mitsuhide says that in reference to Zen and Shirayuki, Obi responds:

Is Akizuki drawing a parallel between MitsuKiki and ZenYuki? No idea. maybe. But somehow I do not find it coincidental.

This seems like a MitsuKiki hint, meant to fuel the ultra-shippable pair that we all loved... but after the rejected proposal, it’s hard not to see the whole situation differently re: zenyuki / obiyuki and mitsukiki / hisakiki.

Then the first true ObiYuki hug, and this:

“It feels as though Obi might suddenly appear in Lyrias!”

girl you already knew. Shirayuki knows that Obi will follow her.

Obi deliberately postpones going to Lyrias, though, in order to consider his feelings for Shirayuki and how to tell Zen.

Then!! in 58-59 we get long-awaited confirmation from Obi that he has feelings for Shirayuki, and after this beautiful moment Obi goes to Lyrias to be at Shirayuki’s side, and after everything that has happened so far that is a clincher for me regarding our beloved Foreshadowing.

While discussing Obi’s crush on Shirayuki, Obi asks Zen

“Aren’t you going to propose?”

“.......................Well, I’m.. making her .. wait.”

“Master ... I don’t recommend postponing it, you know.”

I wonder about this comment. Is this a clue for us that Zen postponing engagement is going to be a negative thing in the future?

idk maybe ╮(￣ω￣)╭

Either way ........ This transition period, in between Lyrias 1 and 2, shows us that the story is changing.

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I have definitely not covered all of the possible moments of foreshadowing and am actually going to leave off on that topic for the time being. I might do a part 2 as its own post.

But for now I will switch to previously mentioned point that...

5) Obi and Shirayuki’s paths are walked together

I think the following two panels are a great way to frame their relationship. Chapter 20 in early Tanbarun arc:

And then, much later in chapter 106 as they stand by the fire and Shirayuki tells Obi he’s handsome in the light:

“... because you come with me.” ( ╥ω╥ )

And then more delightful talk from chapter 104 that I think is ... gasp

foreshadowing !!!!!

They are having this discussion after they’ve found out about Kiki becoming engaged to Hisame.

“It’s necessary to have the courage to make a decision and take a step down that path, isn’t it?”

Shirayuki is possibly saying this due to the implications of Kiki’s letter. Kiki has made the choice to take a new path from the one she had been on by marrying Hisame.

So what about Shirayuki’s journey? Has her growth led her to a path she didn’t expect, and now it will take courage to step down it?

In recent chapters Shirayuki is shown to be seeing Obi differently and as a man:

overhearing him calling her beautiful and being surprised that he is embarrassed she heard

witnessing him going to a marriage meeting

that little moment where he is holding her wrist as a Lyrias knight tells him that the knights sister wishes him luck in love

the firelight comment oh my god

realizing she lost the pin Obi gave her and tearing up as she literally stared at him; upset that the gift she cherished is now missing and potentially realizing how very dear to her Obi actually is

fake dating and the 10 seconds of ... just... I still cant even

Obi is the one who is by Shirayuki’s side. They developed a bond through years friendship that is now being reframed by Akizuki. The nature of their relationship has been slowly changing and I think we approaching a time in the manga where Shirayuki will realize it.

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To answer your last question ... I do think ObiYuki has a chance and I do not think the author is just toying with us. I’ve talked a lot about my ObiYuki Endgame feels in previous posts/asks. I could probably talk about it forever but this post is absurdly long .... sorry

Thank you so much for the ask! and wow thank you so much if you actually read this whole thing!

<3 beebs <3

#obiyuki #obi x shirayuki #speculating #so much speculating #ask beebs #i dont think this is even my longest post #that may be an issue #ans #akagami no shirayukihime #obyuki #meta

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kaahaani · 4 years ago

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Presenting to you, dishaa's live commentary as she reads chap 11: Leonardo DiCaprio of ASOWE!

First of all, dicaprio as jack screams HOT.

"see who this oppa of hers was" - every k fangirl's boyfriend can relate😂

“I am taller.” *snorts*

“My shoulders are broader.” *snorts once again*

“And I am an actual King.” *doubling over with laughter*

continues snorting with every comment😂

"strip, i am going to sketch you as well" OOOOOOH THINGS ARE GETTING SPICY.me likey.

that car scene in titanic killed me, and never in my Wildest dreams did i think anyone would ever write about this in a TKEM fanfic,but you sis, exceeding expections always!

(smells car sex, already loving it)

okay their conversations with the foreplay is killing me 🥵

okay this reminds me honeymoon part 4

"good girl" my ovaries are having a party! yes sir please, kill me!

"he wanted to, so badly. In the car, on the car, against the car. Everywhere" eye-we know boy we know!

"try every single one until he could write an article about which car was the best to have sex in" HE WOULD TOTALLY DO THIS, and i would pay to read this article.

okay then i got too engrossed in reading, and now im dying, because i need a cold shower and the chapter isn't even over yet 🥵🥵

"my queen" kills me everytime

okayyyyyy there's one more car now, wow!

ferrari, ooooooohhhh I'm loving it.

okay the Ferrari part has my dying and wishing i could live out all your smut pieces 🥵😭

“I have a lot of cars.” yes sir, i want to read more! buy all the cars in the world please.

ahahahaha lady noh and yeong!!😂

the second hand embarrassment I'm feeling rn🤭😅

yeong with his disinfectant and cleaning supplies has me ROFL😂

"you're the one who can't keep your hands off me" ooooohhh is this how the bet started???😉

oh wow! i was right, that's how the bet started! I've never seen a better starting for any bet in the World!

"And folks, this is the chapter that led to "The Bet" - if you needed an excuse to re-read, this is it!" - how to tempt dishaa 101😂

THIS WAS THE HOTTEST SMUT PIECE EVER!

GURL, YOU'RE KILLING ME AND I NEED A COLD SHOWER!

AND OMFG, WTF WAS THIS??? I'M CRYING, THIS IS SPICY, FLUFFY AND HILARIOUS ALL THE SAME TIME?!?!?

My heart 🥺 kuch kuch hota hai Anjali! 😭

okay chalo bye, I'm going to be swimming in ganga for a long time after this, meet you there!

THANK YOU FOR THIS! This was a blessing after the pain i went through!

xoxo

OH HI! I didn’t get a notification for this and just saw it! I love live recaps, especially yours hahahaha.

YOUNG LEO IS A WHOLE DIFFERENT LEVEL. Sigh.

Lmao, my husband all the time to my kdrama men too! While my mother screams focus on your husband hahahaha.

You know, LG is the only person who can get away with comparing himself to young Leo, because we both know that internally JTE is like “yes, yes, yes, yes”.

LOL, girl, I wanted to write the car scene for TKEM as soon as Leo was mentioned, my mind went there. Someone send about 50L of holy water please.

Foreplay ftw! LOL, your reaction to good girl is also me.

LG’s brain has a dedicated part that just focuses on ways to have sex with his wife, I am sure of this. HAHAHAHA, you know he’s also for advancing education. He’ll probably use a pseydonym like Yi Won, and everyone would be like who wrote this, who has enough money to have all these cars.

My queen also kills me. LOL, of course there is more than one car, he has to one up her oppa who used just one car hahaha.

LOL, I wish you can live out all the smut pieces as well *wink*

HAHAHA, I love how everyone reacted to JY and Lady Noh! Yes yes, this is how “The Bet” started!

Oh thanks, I am glad this one has taken the “hottest” title! I AM SORRY FOR KILLING YOU AND MAKING YOU TAKE COLD SHOWERS.

I love spicy, fluffy and comedy so I was like why not!

HAHAHAH YO LETS ALL GO SWIMMING THE GANGA, THIS FANDOM NEEDS IT.

I am glad you liked it all, thank you very much for your very entertaining review!

#tkem #fanfic: asowe #dishaad

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oumiyuki · 4 years ago

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Teachers don’t date teachers (but You-sensei and Riko-sensei definitely are) Ch13

Summary: The whole student body and teachers teases the gym teacher, Watanabe You, with the new art teacher, Sakurauchi Riko, that they make a cute couple. How long can You deny this when Riko isn’t helping to reduce the rumours?

Pairing: YouRiko

Genre: Romance, Fluff, Slice of Teacher Life ;D

Words: 1366

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Author Notes

Happy Birthday Riko-chan.

Happy Tease You-chan Everyday Day! XD

May you enjoy~

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Tease 13: You-sensei got called in by the Principal!? (Did the shipping go too far?)

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“Are you sure you don’t want me to come along with you?” The art teacher wove her fingers together nervously. “Being called to the principal’s office sounds serious…”

“I’m sure about this. Don’t worry about it!” You gives the worrying teacher a reassuring smile.

It does sound serious but at the same time…It’s not the first time I’m called into the principal’s office…

You’s gaze shift to the side as she thinks about how the principal called her in many a time even before Riko joined. In hindsight, the gym teacher is starting to realize that there’s a chance she frequents the principal’s office too much compared to a normal teacher.

“But…” Riko still could not calm down as she began pacing from left to right.

You’re just too caring, Riko-chan…

You puts a hand on the art teacher’s shoulder not noticing the slight jump and immediate relaxation to follow from her touch. “Riko-chan.”

“Yes?” Yellow eyes wide and waiting for what You is going to say next.

She seriously has pretty eyes—Ahem hem!!

“Help remove those photos?” You nudges her head at the notice board filled with photos taken of them, her cheeks involuntarily growing hot from reliving those scenes in her head just from a glance. “Artwork may be acceptable but those photos…probably not too acceptable.”

Seriously though, when do they even take them?

Riko nods and reaches up to take You’s hand, giving them a reassuring squeeze in her own. “Good luck. And… If you need help explaining. Call me.”

Riko-chan…

You was 100% ready to take on anything or anyone that would want to bully Riko in that instance. The gym teacher gives the sweet auburn-haired teacher a confident smile. “Leave it to me, Riko-chan.”

I mean… how hard could it be to explain about all this artwork?

And she leaves for the principal’s office, not before grabbing something sweet into her pockets.

Outside the big, brown doors of the principal office – You worries.

The ash-brunette raises her hand to knock but lowers it again, raises her hand, lowers it.

“I wonder what this is about… I guess it was extra loud and rowdy today so…” You mumbles to herself.

Her fingers fidget with one another as her confidence begins to waver.

“Will I get scolded? Punished? Ahh, I hope I didn’t make the principal upset!! No one deserves to be forgiven if they do!” The gym teacher subconsciously crossed her arms and closed her eyes as she voiced her thoughts matter-of-factly.

“Ah, but I hope she isn’t upset with Riko-chan too…” You’s expression morphed again, eyebrows slightly furrowed and lips a small frown.

“I gotta think of what to say to defend Riko-chan in any case- Ah, but I don’t even know-” You shakes her head, her short grey tresses fluttering about and she looks up at the door with newfound determination.

“I’ll only find out pass this door…”

It’s not like me to attempt to think too much anyways. Let’s just do it!

You remembers to knock the door at the last moment, received a response to come in and she enters.

“Excuse the intrusion…” You greets as she closes the doors.

“Ah, You-chan-sensei, you’re here.” The Principal’s voice came from behind the large office chair that wasn’t facing her at the moment.

“Yeah…I’m not in trouble am I?” The gym teacher chuckles to lighten the mood.

The chair spins around and You was greeted with the kind and sweet smile she always receives from the Principal, the ash-brunette felt at least fifty percent less stressed out already. “Principal Ruby-chan.”

Principal Ruby gestures to the sofa for the gym teacher to take a seat in as she made her way over too.

Ruby-chan is awfully quiet today…

“I’ve always liked the radiance and joy you bring to the school…” The Principal, small in stature she may be, youthful as she may be when donned in a pencil skirt and office jacket just like how Mari-sensei or Riko-sensei do – You could definitely feel the aura of a principal speaking to her.

The ash-brunette gulps and nods.

Maybe I thought too soon…

“But lately…It’s getting a little…”

“A little..?” You’s facial features were caught in a stiff smile as she held her breath.

“Wild?” Principal Ruby cocked her head to the side, wondering if she chose the right word.

“Wild?” You repeats and mimics the head tilt.

I guess it is kind of wild…

Principal Ruby slides an envelope across the glass coffee table and blue eyes simply stare at it.

An envelope!? What could be inside? …maybe a pay raise? Heh-

“This has been circulating around the school.”

Definitely not a pay raise.

You opens the envelope to find lots of photos of her and Riko in many situations and the school’s newspaper clippings inside too. With headlines like “You-sensei and Riko-sensei’s Dating Life in School.”

W-We’re not dating!

Or “Riko-sensei is infatuated by You-sensei’s charms”.

Wh-What charms?? And Riko-chan isn’t…infatuated…aahhh…

The headlines were already making You’s cheeks flow pink. “Um…I can explain?”

You was expecting Ruby to be upset about the photos and rumours and commotion this has been causing, maybe had to explain and come up with solutions to keep the peace in school.

Contrary to those expectations, Ruby beams. “I was hoping you would!”

“Eh?” You’s jaw falls agape slightly before she closes it.

Ruby nods, her red hair bobbing along. “Onee-chan, I mean Dia-sensei told Mari-chan-sensei and Kanan-chan-sensei not to tell me, so…”

“Oh.” You blinks.

If Dia-chan says no telling, am I allowed to??

“But I want to know!” Ruby protests; her tone an interesting mix of little sister defiance and exertion of Principal rights. “So explain to me about these… All these cute and exciting happenings! Are you two really dating!? Why didn’t you tell me? I want to help-”

Eh? EH? EHHHHH???

“Wait, wait, Ruby-chan!! Your face is too close and you’re too excited about this!!” The gym teacher leaned back so much; she would be lying on the sofa if not for her core muscles holding her up.

Ruby sheepishly straightens her back though her sparkling emerald eyes directed at the gym teacher was evidence enough for You to not try to think she was hallucinating.

“So, um…You-chan, are you dating Sakurauchi-sensei?” Ruby grins like a child about to learn about bunnies.

“N-N-No!! We’re not dating, Why would you even think so?” You rubs the tip of her nose to cover her reddening cheeks.

Ruby takes the envelope out of You’s hand and picks a photo. “Is this real?”

All those photos are real…

“Yes-”

“That’s like a prince to his princess!! Or well, princess to her princess!” Ruby squealed.

“I just happen to catch her!” You reasons.

“This too~”. Ruby shows You another photo.

“I’m just helping to hold materials??”

“This?” Ruby pulls up another photo, holding it excitedly and dearly.

“We are eating.”

“A date.” You was rather certain that Ruby had sparkles and hearts in her eyes and tone.

“No!” You shook her head desperately.

“She fed you…” Ruby was starting to feel bad that You was denying the romance this badly. Even she could feel the love and tension, why is her favourite teacher telling her otherwise?

“I-I’ve fed you before too?” You was blushing hard from having to see so many photos she did not know was taken of her and Riko. It made her happy and absolutely embarrassed.

“It’s different.” Ruby puts the photos down and had a serious face on. “Did you feel your heart race when feeding me?”

“I… no?” You blinked and took a moment to think.

Though…I guess my heart races a lot when I’m hanging with Riko-chan… I wonder why..?

Ruby smiles understandingly. “And you feel your heart race with Sakurauchi-sensei…right?”

“Well…” You turns her head to the side and made a thoughtful grumble. “I guess…”

Ruby’s smile pulls higher, proud of herself for being right. “You love Sakurauchi-sensei, You-chan.”

“I- Love!? WHA!?!? Nononononono-”

“You-chan-”

You had both hands covering her beet-red face and legs raised to her chest – a ball of in denial. “I-Is it…even possible for someone like me to love someone as beautiful as Riko-chan..?”

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Author Notes

In response to this chapter’s title: NOPE! Not at all!! Ruby is in on it as you have splendidly deduced!! Hahahaha~ XD

Happy Birthday Ruby-chan in advance. :P

And… … Is this a turning point!? Is You-sensei finally going to properly admit to her growing feelings of affections for a certain pretty art teacher!? XP

Ganbaruby, Principal Ruby! :3

And well, leave me a comment if you like! Let me know your favourite parts, thoughts, gushes, anything XD I love any and all feedback~

Catch you in the next tease! :D

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tineechi · 5 years ago

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Kono Oto Tomare Chapter 93 English Summary

https://raw.senmanga.com/Kono-Oto-Tomare!/093

Sooo... Sorry for the delay. The Japanese raw chapter was released a few days before in Baidu but I was so busy and lazy at the same time. T_T

Standard non-native Japanese speaker disclaimers apply.

The chapter is entitled 'Anxious/worried child' and starts off with Keishi cooking in the Doujima house's kitchen. He tastes his dish, declares it delicious and calls for Akira and their grandmother.

On the table, Akira says that the miso soup is delicious. Keishi happily tells them that he tried changing the dashi stock and checks with Akira if she likes this taste. Akira says "Yes. I like it." He asks "Grandma?" and Grandma seriously answers with "A little bit dark..." (I think she meant the color of the soup. Miso soup is usually clear but I think Keishi's dish may be more opaque than usual. Correct me if I'm wrong.)

Akira changes the topic and asks how Sakai-kun is doing. He tells her that he is doing good and trying his best. Keishi also says that Mittsu can now concentrate better than when her mother was not yet discharged from the hospital (She's still in rehabilitation though).

The scene shows their past practice where Keishi points out that Mittsu needs more volume on a specific part and Mittsu says that Akira-sensei has also pointed that out. He then continues on to say that his fingers (not having enough strength) is why he still couldn't play it.

Keishi tries to assure him by saying that he firmly has the basics in him but Mittsu is still a little unsure. Keishi sits beside him and "borrows" his hand. Keishi tries to show Mittsu how to do it by placing his hand over Mittsu's and showing him the movements. He explains that "You might get it if you experience it once". Keishi holds Mittsu's finger and shows him the direction to pluck the strings while saying "My way of playing it..."

Mittsu is surprised and enlightened. Mittsu says "Oh. It is like this?" Keishi clarifies that their posture is a bit different (because Keishi is sitting beside Mittsu and not sitting like he is actually playing the Koto) but the direction is kind of like that. Mittsu is astounded and says "Amazing!"

Mittsu continues to be super happy and amazed. He says that a wonderful sound came out and that he's using the same koto and nails as before but with this motion, the sound came out beautifully. Mittsu also says that he wouldn't forget the feeling just now and tries to copy the motion again and again. Keishi looks touched by Mittsu's genuine happiness.

Keishi finishes recounting that experience to Akira while saying "I was about to cry that time." Akira smiles and says that Sakai-kun's sound has really been improving lately. Keishi energetically agrees with her like a proud brother. HAHAHAHA. Akira tells Keishi that "After all, I am very glad that I asked older brother for this." Keishi is surprised and drops bits of rice from his chopsticks. Tears just falling from his eyes like a waterfall. XD

Keishi asks "Can I squeeze/hug you?" and Akira says "No!" :D

Grandma stubbornly makes a sound like "Hmph!" and stands up after eating her meal. Keishi asks if she is already done and Grandma says that she did not return to this house to hear them talk like that/talk about those things. Grandma tells Akira that she returned because she was worried when Akira said that she wants to rebuild the Tsubaki group. She asks them "What are you two doing? Taking care/looking after such amateurs (Tokise kids)?"

Akira and Keishi look at each other and Keishi jokingly says "Grandma also...would you like to come and teach?" Grandma shows an angry and scary face and Keishi takes it back immediately and apologizes.

Grandma resignedly says "Jeez...from a long time ago, you two..." She turns her back on them, and says "If you can afford to teach other people, why not try playing a song at a concert?" and leaves the room.

Keishi asks "Just now... was that referring to me?" Akira answers with "It's only about big brother, right?" (Because Keishi's the only one who stopped performing with the Koto. Hahaha)

Akira laughs and says that Grandma really isn't honest. She says that it looks like somehow big brother got involved in the Koto again and that makes her happy. Keishi smiles at her and jokes about the miso soup.

Keishi becomes serious for a moment, asks about the club and if it’s going smoothly. Akira tries to explain that it is a challenging song and that they're really having a bit of a difficult time. Keishi agrees but tries to say "but other than that..." but Akira interrupts by saying that there's still a bit of anxiousness and worry (As far as I understand, she mentions that there is still an anxious child. But I might be wrong. It might be an idiom or a common expression but I just assume that some club members are still unsure how to play their parts. Please correct me Native speaker-san.)

The scene changes to Momoya and Atsumu in the classroom. Atsumu is super excited in telling Momoya about what Kudou-senpai has said. Momoya looks a little bored listening but Atsumu continues with "And then... after that...". Momoya interrupts and tries to say "Yoshinaga...you don't need to report everything to me." Atsumu is shocked, feels a bit embarrassed and looks down while saying "Ahhh... I..It was annoying huh?" Momoya looks a bit guilty and tries to rein it in by saying something along the lines of "It's hard to do that, right?" (Meaning it might be hard for Atsumu to do that for him.)

Atsumu becomes excited again and says "Not at all!/It's defintely okay!" HAHAHAHA. (The interaction between these two will kill me. XD) Atsumu continues by showing Momoya a notebook that he writes on about what happens in the club and what every one has been talking about. (Talk about diligence and passion. Sheeesh this Atsumu boy! :D) Momoya reacts with "Uwa!"

Atsumu says that if Momoya wants to ask anything about the club, he can ask him. Momoya says "Well... Thanks..." then thinks to himself that Atsumu has bad handwriting. LOL

Momoya is a bit astonished because there was an entry written in the notebook about Momoya saying that they need to play more in the classic style. Atsumu writes in the first person perspective and notes that only his sound is 'floating'. Also, Momoya saying that playing according to the musical score is the start line (meaning... every one needs to know how to play the correct way as a basic skill. Then they have to improve their playing from that point on.)

Atsumu says that he didn't think before that music can be that deep but he thinks that Momoya is great because he knew about that. Momoya tries to disagree and says that he does not know about it that much. Atsumu insists otherwise and says that he was listening to music everyday and then it was like he suddenly understood (I think he meant about how Chika had an epiphany and explained how to play music from the last chapter. Atsumu uses a phrase I'm not sure about. 目からウロコ - I think it's scales from the eyes falling suddenly or kind of like genuinely understanding/seeing something. Correct me if I'm wrong.)

Momoya thinks for a few seconds and asks "You listen to music every day?". Atsumu smiles and says that "Yes, I do." and that he likes his grandfather's music very much. He also listens to anime songs, special effect songs and character songs too. Momoya says "Character songs..." and Atsumu embarrassingly says "Umm.. right... Momoya-kun doesn't listen to those kind of songs..." Momoya answers with "Well... I don't know much about it..."

Then Momoya says "If you have any performances/songs that you recommend, send the titles to me through LINE." Atsumu is surprised and clarifies "My recommendations?" and Momoya answers with "Who else's?"

Atsumu looks super happy, pulls out his phone and says "I'll send them. I'll send them right away." Hahaha. Momoya tries to say "It's okay if you don't send it right away."

While typing, Atsumu's hands are shaking and he keeps thinking that it's the first time that he's sending recommendations to Momoya. He is a bit teary-eyed and he says that "Looks like a friend." (Feels like a conversation between friends) out loud. Momoya is a little shocked and Atsumu covers his mouth, thinking "Oh no! I said that out loud/my voice came out." Atsumu tries to say sorry in a very panicked way and thinks to himself that Momoya definitely thinks that what he said was annoying.

They are interrupted because the class is about to start and Momoya turns to face the blackboard (with his back to Atsumu). Atsumu is still a bit troubled by the situation and Momoya is thinking to himself that this is a bit troublesome. He is thinking that it's not just about making it sound classical when they play. He thinks that when they play as an ensemble, Yoshinaga's sound is usually 'floating' and no one tells him that it is that way. Because no one calls him out for it, it becomes normal and he keeps playing the same way.

Momoya pulls out his phone and reads the Line message from Atsumu saying that he'll send the recommended titles.

Momoya continues to think that he can't say anything even if he notices. It is probably a sound quality issue and maybe Atsumu (he refers to him as Yoshinaga here) is not skilled/dexterous enough to make changes to his sound even if he informs him.

The scene changes to the practice and the four of them are playing as an ensemble. Momoya hears Atsumu's sound and notices the difference immediately. They finish the parts and Kota is happily asking Atsumu if he felt that it was good that time. Atsumu also happily says that he feels the same way.

Chika doesn't really look happy and says that it was "their best so far but..."

Kota asks "But?..." and Chika says that it's like it's not refreshing enough. It feels like it's not good enough.

Seriously, Momoya says "Mizuhara-senpai and Yoshinaga are still cheating a bit." Both of them react with "Eh?!" Kota says "I'm not cheating though." Atsumu also say "I also am not doing something like that."

Momoya, with a funny face, says that that means more problem for him.

Kota asks about the part that he did wrong and Momoya answers with "Well.. No.. it's not like it's a mistake specifically."

The he tries to explain something along the lines of "the best place for the pauses/places without the sounds". (Hihihi, it's very technical so I'm not too sure but I think he is referring to the way you put the pauses when you play the song. It has to have meaning to make it more evocative. Correct me if I'm wrong.)

Momoya continues on to explain that Mizuhara-senpai is probably listening to the other’s sounds too much. Because of that, his timing is delayed. On the other hand, Yoshinaga's issue is his basic impatience. He is usually staying ahead/ in front in terms of timing.

They're all surprised and Kota is panicking a bit. Hihihi. Chika asks if that is all. Momoya asks "Eh?" and Chika tries to explain that "Well.. No.. I can't say it properly... but the atmosphere/mood of the sound, is jerky/bouncy/shaky...It is not just about the timing gaps/differences only." Momoya is surprised and Chika looks at him seriously and asks "You understand what I'm saying, right?" Momoya thinks about it, then peeks at Atsumu for a bit (Atsumu notices this. I think he understands that the issue is with his playing.) and Momoya thinks "This is bad..." to himself.

Atsumu asks him directly "Is it me?" and Momoya tries to say no but he remembers Kota saying that it is okay to not hesitate and tell them things honestly. Atsumu seriously tells him "Say it." Momoya is shocked and Atsumu continues to say "If there is anything, say it/tell me." Momoya tells him "Yoshinaga's sound is floating. The sound quality doesn't match the surroundings/other sounds. It's probably the reason why the atmosphere/mood of the sound is jerky/shaky." (referring to how Chika described it before.)

Kota asks how exactly can you match sound quality and Momoya answers that it is not really simple/easy to match sound quality that's why he didn't want to say something. If it was a strength or technical problem, you could do something about it. But, sound quality is more fundamental.

Chika asks "Why is Yoshinaga the only one with a different sound quality? What if he changes/replaces his Koto?" Chika and Kota continue on talking about this matter but as they are discussing, Atsumu is not really listening. In his mind, he is thinking "Why is that? Why am I the only one different from the others?" He looks at his hand wearing the rounded nails. He remembers Takezou-senpai saying "We are from the Ikuta style. We use this kind of square nails." Then he remembers his Grandpa's smiling face and him saying his name "Atsumu!"

Atsumu looks really sad after that. The closing remarks are "The only bond with my late grandfather..."

So basically, Atsumu's style of playing and sound is a bit different from everyone else's. But he loves his grandpa and his music so it'll be hard to make changes to that. I say that they should ask Suzuka and Akira-sensei about this. I'm not really musically talented so I don't know how to fix it (even Momoya doesn't know and he's super talented) but I doubt that Suzuka-sensei will ask Atsumu to change his playing style. He probably knows a thing or two about incorporating different styles to make it better.

Shout out to our boy Momoya for being honest this time (though he needed a lot of convincing. His hesitation comes from a place of caring. T_T)

No romantic moments for the main couples this chapter. Boohooo! (Oh! Well... There was a lot from Momoya and Atsumu! ^_^)

Onto the next chapter... Thanks.

#Kono Oto Tomare!#KOT #Kono Oto Tomare #Kono Oto Tomare Summary #この音とまれ #この音とまれ！

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nish-with-no-niche · 5 years ago

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When No One's Around...

Chartered accountant!Jaebeom x Software engineer!Reader

Summary :

Ever wonder how much alcohol tolerance can Jaebeom have for you? Read till the end to find out ;)

Warning :

1) This chapter.....is a long ass ride.

2) I know some people prefer using their name, but I only realised it later that instead of (Y/N) I accidentally gave reader-nim a name, i.e, Yeseul. So kindly bear with me as it's my first time writing a 2nd person perspective and just imagine your own name in its place. Thankyou and.....enjoy!

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You finally had finished your board meeting and were heading out of the office building with your co-workers to retire to your humble abode.

"It's 7:37 pm ladies and gentlemen, and we are finally free for the night.", said Sarah, one of your close colleagues.

"Aaaand we're leaving 2 hours later than the designated office hours. This is over time!", exclaimed Kyunghwan, your senior, and sales manager. It was totally unusual but justified for everyone to feel this way. After such a heated discussion about the proposals everyone was exhausted and acted dramatically. Even though they were your seniors, almost everybody still treated each other without the honorifics outside of work; albeit they could seem eccentric given the time and place. You yourself had experienced it first hand and maybe tonight had just a little bit more in store for you.

" Everyone, I totally understand how you must feel.....", stated Mr. Yoon-ho, the team director. "We, are not getting paid enough. Let's go to a restaurant and give ourselves a well deserved treat. The person who is wearing blue today will be the ones to pay up!", came his suggestion.

Hearing his sudden offer, each person constituting the 8 people group cheered and hooted but started checking their dress colours as the realization hit in. 'Oh thank god, I'm wearing anything but blue today' , everyone thought simultaneously.

However everyone's eyes landed on you as you were the only one wearing a turquoise blue ruffle shirt with beige coloured cigarette pants. And everybody knew exactly where that suggestion in the director's mind had come up.

' Oh lord, it's Yeseul again.'

Firstly, Yoon-ho was a huge-ass spend-thrift. Even if he knows he wont eat or use something, he would still spend money on it. Especially when it's someone else's money.

And secondly, he despised you. You and your intelligence. And the fact that you were humble made it even worse for him.

Atleast one can hate on arrogant people for their arrogance. As for humble people, we can't even hate them for anything, much less like. Tch.

Sarah, concerned for you asked if you were okay with that. Not that you really had a choice in the first place.

But you had stopped listening-in to their conversation, midway. Because your eyes were solely fixated on this unexpected visitor, standing right across the road, leaning against his car and looking right at you.

Im Jaebeom, your soon-to-be fiancè, in all his glory was right in front of you and you had no idea what he was doing there.

"Sarah, I'll see you later."

Coming to your senses after 3.57 seconds, you waved back at him and quickly crossed the road to reach him.

" Yeseul, hey" started Jaebeom.

"Uh, hi! I didn't know you were here. How have you been?", unsure, you asked him.

"I've been good. I got off work early today so I decided to pick you up like a responsible boyfriend", smirked Jaebeom.

He had his hands in his pant pockets the whole time, was wearing a suit with his hair gelled up and looked like the epitome of a perfectly successful banker.

"How long had you been waiting?", you questioned. "Not too long, about 20 minutes? .... Yeah. Don't worry though, I was busy on my phone." He lied. He knew you'd feel even worse about the truth because in reality he had been waiting for you since two hours thirty-seven minutes and sixteen seconds.

But even then you insisted, " Now this makes me look really bad. You didn't have to come all the way here. Why didn't you call me?"

"I wanted to be here", he replied cheekily and pat your head. "And it was a good surprise, wasn't it?"

(Sighing) "what if I already went home or I was staying in late?"

"Well then lets just say I got lucky" he smiled.

You were about to say something further, but he cut you in, " By the way, your...... colleagues, they seem... expectant?" Looking back at them you see them all wide-eyed and smiley-faces as if they just didn't come out of an exhausting office day. Realizing their expressions , you turned and asked Jaebeom, " oh, um, Jaebeom-shi, you're not too tired, right? Have you eaten something?"

"No, not really, why?"

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" HA, HA, HA, HA, HA! WHAT A NIGHT MAN, WHOO!!" roared a drunk Mr. Yoon. "Wow, Yeseul, you have such a nice boyfriend, he's a keeper, hahahaha. Everyone! say, 'THANKYOU IM JAEBEOM-SSI!'.

Bashfully, everyone complied, giving you sorry smiles and yet enjoying the food and drinks in front of them as if it was their first time eating.

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Since the time the talks of you about to being engaged rounded up in the halls of your office, everybody had been eager and curious to meet this Mr. Perfect who they had only seen in photos. Everyday not only the women but also your male coworkers would come over at your desk asking you to set up a get together with him.

They all wanted to know who this mysterious person was, taking a liking for someone as stoic as you. They never imagined you being in a relationship with anyone- always holding the title of 'Fashion Femme Fatale'.

So now here you were- with Jaebeom- and a gang of 8 people who were doing nothing but wasting Jaebeom's hard earned money.

Yes, he offered to pay up in your stead.

Ah! So chic!

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You were getting really uncomfortable because you felt bad for Jaebeom who was nothing but sweet to everyone all this time. You were barely starting off in a relationship and now he had to witness all of ....... this.

You wanted to just take your bag and run away with him.

"Hmm, Yeseul , how long has it been since you guys started dating?" Asked Yoon-ho.

Huh?

" uh, it's been about...... 2 months?" you replied looking at Jaebeom for confirmation. After getting his nod of approval you continued, "why do you ask though, sunbae-nim?"

"Ah! I didn't get to congratulate you. First of all....... let me pour you a drink!"

"What, out of nowhere?"you retaliated.

"Ahem! I'm your superior."he countered. "You didn't even touch anything yet, Drink~ bottoms up~~".

In the midst of his coercions, you contemplated- 'Why... do I get intimidated by Yoon-ho ssi? .... Soju's too strong ...... Jaebeom won't be able to drive if he drinks it.... house is far tooo. *sighs* it's over for me if I get drunk and act like an idiot in front of them.... hhnnngg. But if I refuse, the mood will get cold.... last time I was fine for the first few drinks, right?-"

"Give it to me."interceded Jaebeom.

"Huh?"

Turning towards the crowd, he stated, "Yeseul's bad with alcohol. I'll drink for her."

"Ooo~ hahahaha~~"

"playing the knight for your girlfriend ? ~~ "

"so cool!! Whoa~"

Sighing you looked at him, starting to get a little worried. But suddenly everyone chimed in- "still! We're not satisfied with one drink!"

"Let's get Yeseul-ah drunk~!"

"Me too!"

"You cant resist our drink! We're your superiors!"

"Aah~ now, let's not push her too hard. Take it slow. Slow~" said Yoon-ho, giving you his ever so sweet smile.

'It is you I hate the most!' You thought.

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"Aah~ Jaebeom-ssi drank them all"

"~Food is great here!"

"Heard this is the hidden place for gourmets."

After a while things seemed to settle down, your thoughts again wandered towards Jaebeom-

'He keeps on tapping his fingers and feet.... all the while maintaining his smile. I wonder if he's getting bothered by them..... ' -

"Hey~ she cant take her eyes off her BOYFRIEND!" chirped Yujin( colleague, same age as you). Following suit everyone got started off- "He's good looking right?" " you didn't even glance at the others ~" "what ? No, when did I.. " you tried to defend yourself. Sarah who was sitting next to you all this time whispered, "don't take them too seriously 'seul- ah, they're only teasing you, and you know everyone is as good as drunk."

Suddenly Kyunghwan, who was sitting opposite to you, waiting for the right opportunity slipped in~ " You can take mild Brandy right?"

"Ah yes, I can"

"NO." Jaebeom interceded. Again.

He took the glass from his hand and drank it.

"Aish intercepting it all, gosh!"he exclaimed.

But leaving no stone unturned, he kept pressing, "hey! You guys are a couple, atleast show us a kiss!" And everyone started hooted demanding such a public display of affection.

Hearing this, your ears flared up, " oof, what's with you all? Dont you think it's too much? ..... please stop it already. I dont really want to do it. ........Why do we have to do it in front of you?"

Now this... was just too much. Right when you were about to give them a piece of your mind-

"Okay."Jaebeom announced.

" ...... "

" ....... "

What.

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The truth is that both of you had never really kissed before, the closest form of affection you were able to showcase for now was simply a hug, that too only when you were alone. You had no idea what went through his mind when he agreed to everyone's plea. Was he finally drunk? You had never seen him drunk before, all though a few of his friends that you had met told you he had a strong temperance. Maybe this was okay for him?.... Did he probably hear it wrong? Not being able to make head or tail of the situation you questioned him, "Jaebeom-"

"You....... and you." Cutting you off, said person pointed at Kyunghwan and then at Yujin.

"If you two do it, we'll do it too. In fact, it doesn't matter if any other two do it either." explained Jaebeom with a smile.

And then you realised what he was actually doing.

"Don't want to, right?..... I stink of alcohol and 'seul said she doesn't want it. Moreover, it won't look good, if a lady's colleagues at work would act like this, much less her seniors."

"Uh. . . . " a flustered Yujin tried to speak.

" Well I wasn't going to force her to do that" resigned Kyunghwan with a pout.

"Yeah let's just forget about it, okay guys? ", Sarah spoke.

"Wow~ get married already Yeseul, reqally" Said Yoon-ho.

"Such a perfect couple. Tch" mumbled Yujin.

However, when everyone went back to their own, Kyunghwan caught Jaebeom giving him a side glance with a poker face who then turned to look at you. Even though such a gesture unnerved him, the alcohol immediately brushed off that feeling.

You on the other hand were getting more and more worried about Jaebeom, you lost count of how many glasses he must've had on your account, and tried one more time to check up on him- " are you alright? You've been really drinking a lot." But he only gave you a smile in return.

(Sighing) 'He drank way too mu-' *plop*

His head suddenly on your shoulder now, he spoke, " I want to rest."

Looking at you Sarah whispered," He must be tired, you should go home now, don't worry, I'll take care of it here."

"Okay. Jaebeom-ssi ....... Jaebeom? Let's go home now, ok?" You asked.

"Seul."

"Yes?"

"My head aches."

"What? Headache?"

"Its too noisy here..... my head aches.....". Alarmed by this sight you wondered ' 'why's he like this ? Since the start he seemed a bit off. Is his head hurting from being drunk? This was such a bad idea."

You see him gently lift his head up and stare at his hands. Or the table. Or the plate? You see jaebeom blink.

"..."

And he blinked again.

'Ohmygod,he's definitely drunk.'

" uhh, hey- let's go get some fresh air, okay?" You asked holding him by the shoulders. You never witnessed something like this before. But he just stared at you.

'Answer me already.' You thought. Helping him stand up you took your bag, "okay, Sarah, we'll be leaving now, I'll catch you tomorrow, take care!"

"Yeah, you too, goodnight~" returned Sarah.

Once outside you tried to remember where the car was, since the restaurant didn't have a parking lot. You walked a few meters and then stopped. Due to him leaning on you, your back and neck hurt a little, so you decided to sit on the nearby bench. 'Ah, I'm out of strength.'

You both just sat next to each other like that for a while and then you asked him where the car was kept.

But he just smiled at you.

Heaving a sigh, you stood up and started searching around. "Just sit here, and dont move Jaebeom- ssi, I'll be right back." He saw your retreating figure as you left.

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After about 10 min you find the car at the backside of the building and return to where Jaebeon was.

"I found the car, give me the keys and I'll drop you off home" you said.

"Yeseul."

"Yes?"

He smiled. Again.

"Seems like you won't get up for a while." So you sat down. Did he even listen to a word you said? And no sooner than you did, he reached his hand out to touch your face, whereas you instinctively moved back. He paused for a moment, mid air, and then touched your cheek. "You look tired", he said thoughtfully.

Well he wasn't completely wrong.

He let his head drop on your shoulder, and again with the same sweet, mellow voice recited you name," Ye.seul.ah."

"Yes, yes I hear you." You laughed.

"I should've just left with you after work was over rather than come here. Everyone just wanted to meet you so bad. I'm sorry."

" . . . "

"Plus I didn't want you to pay for those guys." You confessed.

"Pay?", queried Jaebeom. "seeing how they sat and behaved with you , it's obvious that they were trying to leech off." He finally spoke.

" Yeseul, I want you to be very cautious and smart about who you associate yourself with in that work place and any where else. I won't always be around you, so you must be wary of people like Kyunghwan. Got it?" And then he lifted his head up to stare straight ahead.

So that's what was bothering him.

Trying to lift the strange tense atmosphere you spoke in childish wonder, "how dare they think of you as a pushover! In fact, why did you even drink whatever came my way, I could've handled-"

"What would you have done?" Cut in Jabeom.

You fell silent.

"Those two men and that woman, those three were your seniors. And anyone could notice how they exploited their position. I understood you couldn't do much from where you stand", he reprimanded you.

After a pause he continued, now in a smaller voice- "I dont think I can drive, how will you get back home?"

" Well thanx to a certain someone, I'm completely sober. So I'll drive your car to your house and drop you off. Then I'll take a cab to mine."

" 'seul?"

"Hmm?"

"You like me right?"

"Huh", you sat up straight, taken off guard by his question.

"You're sincere to me right? Whatever I do, I have always been sincere towards you."

Suddenly flustered by this uncharacteristic side of him you just tried to avoid his question, staring straight ahead.

"Just give me the car keys, let's go home now..." you said in a daze.

'Its definitely the alcohol in his brain.'

"Yeseul!"

"Ah, yes-"

chu!~~

"Wha..."

Chu!~~~

Jaebeom kissed you.

And the realization hit in.

Huh.

Huh???!!

" #$%@&**?! Jaebeom-!!! "

" ? "

"What are you ?! Why did you?!-"

"Hm? What? No one's around."

And he kissed you again. This time properly. Making you feel nothing like ever before.

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Sadly, he ended up passing-out right after and you drove him back to his house, aided the house-helper lay him on bed, took a cab, went back to your home, changed into your night clothes, slipped in your bed and you laughed. You laughed until sleep graced you with her presence.

Except she never came.You were awake the whole night, rewinding and playing the scene again and again with the thought that would nag any other girl in your shoes- 'How do I see him after tonight! '.

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Eeeek!

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