#and yeah when I was young I shipped Sherlock and Joan

[alexjcrowley]

No wonder I am aromantic I watched the entirety of Elementary as it was airing

[variousqueerthings]

sherlock: I was quite young when my father shipped me off to boarding school. i struggled. i was different to my classmates, i was uh... well, i was more intelligent, and i was brash, so they tormented me, mercilessly.

joan: yes i remember you saying once that you'd been bullied, but i wasn't sure if you were telling the truth

sherlock: it happened. i overcame it. it was a different time back then, there was no such thing as harassment via text or circulation of cruel cell phone videos, no, my bullies had one tool at their disposal: violence. so, i was beaten, fairly savagely, and with great frequency.

joan: thats when you started writing to abigail. she was being abused and so were you

sherlock: i meant what i said before, my interest in her, was... academic, she was to be a subject of study, nothing more. i confess as our correspondence continued, i grew more anticipatory of her letters. they were a welcome distraction from my life. an oasis from school

joan: well, it certainly sounds like you had feelings for her

sherlock: perhaps, but... nothing so mundane as "love." i was adrift back then, i ha no purpose, my so-called peers made me think that would always be the case. abigail... she gave me a gift. a view inside a mind capable of murder

joan: she was your first...

sherlock: killer, yeah. without intending to, she... she helped me understand who i was. and what i might do with my life.

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ALRIGHTALRIGHTALRIGHT

also local aromantic tries to understand other local aromantic's connection to people and only has "love" as a frame of reference, even though she's increasingly uncertain about her own connection to the idea of romance

sherlock, to a victim: "my father packed me off to boarding school when i was just eight years old. i was a little bit of a know-it-all, well... massive know-it-all, actually. turned a lot of the other boys at the school against me. especially one by the name of anders larson. over the course of the next year anders took his anger out on me in a myriad cruel and terrible ways- nothing close to what you experienced, of course, but... it seemed worth mentioning, because, yousee... the more anders hurt me, the more i felt gratitude that he was actually paying attention to me. that in tormenting me he was attempting to correct what i knew to be wrong with myself. one day, after a particularly brutal lesson - it left me in a very bad way - a teacher asked me who was responsible. i said i'd fallen down the stairs. funny the things that we do for the people that we care about"

joan, later: "any of it true?"

sherlock: "I went to boarding school"

[bisexualshakespeare]

my ao3 stats

i filled out half of these and then tumblr decided to clear out for no reason 😓

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

61 (if you filter out podfic and filk it’s only 17 that’s wild)

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

102,700

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

It looks like over 40 but this is highly inflated due to podficcing collabs where my name is on things I didn’t actually do.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

A Wedding of Errors - Teen Wolf Allison/Lydia Wedding Planner AU. First thing I finished that was a longer length (it’s just under 20k) and still probably the most romance of everything.

Not a Rebound - Supergirl Winn/James smut. First E fic I wrote I think. I just thought it was a great ship that needed more written about them. (and mechad brooks is very hot and i wanted to write about his abs)

No Time Like the Present - Young Justice Bart/Jaime. Bart gets traumatized by Blue Beetle Jaime but it’s okay because Jaime is great. I guess you could call it hurt/comfort? but that’s not what I tagged it with.

Handle With Care - HP Remus/Sirius hurt/comfort. I think this was my first podtogether! I just recorded it, all the love goes to the author!

Uninvited - Elementary gen fic. Co-wrote with a British author but I wrote Sherlock and she wrote Joan lol. Also two podficcers! Has ONE less kudos than handle with care.

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Garder le Silence - I don’t love the name but I couldn’t think of anything better at the time. HP gen fic of a PotterWatch broadcast. It announces the death of several people killed by death eaters and then everyone just sits there like oh shit...

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

I don’t know how to quantify the MOST HAPPY but maybe I Love You Too . It’s Teen Wolf, Jackson Character Study. It’s just several scenes of him telling people he loves them and ends with him and his adopted daughter.

7. Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

No I usually prefer an AU to a crossover.

8. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I didn’t for the longest time and now I still mostly don’t, but I wrote 2 fics of Winn Schott Jr getting dommed and I’m working on another. Smut isn’t usually what I think of as a fic prompt but he’s just so fuckable 😔

9. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

Sometimes I do but mostly don’t. It just doesn’t occur to me unless it’s a particularly long comment. From my formative fandom experience, people’s comment threads were usually for conversations so I only think about replying when I have more to add on.

10. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not that I remember but someone did comment on one of my Winn smut fics with “I shouldn’t like this but I do” which feels like a back handed compliment? but i still appreciate it lol

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I’m aware of but I haven’t checked

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yeah! A Wedding of Errors is available in Russian :)

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Only the above mentioned Elementary podtogether project, but I maintain some of the best parts of Wedding are there because of my beta @interropunct​

14. What’s your all time favourite ship?

(”ou”? the person who made this is british👀 )

Harry/Draco and any pairing that can be said to fit that dynamic.

15. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

Probably the fic based on the fake book series I got obsessed with for a hot sec.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I have great grammar and sentence structure. I think the things I write are very readable in that they flow together.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

What are character voices?? What are transitions? How do you visual description?

18. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I don’t even know how to ask where the restroom is in other languages unfortunately. I like reading it in fic where it makes sense but I don’t think I would be comfortable doing it unless there was a really good reason and I had a beta who knew that language well.

19. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Hey Arnold when I was like 10 and it was terrible, like even at the time I knew it wasn’t good

20. What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

This Haven musical fic I’m trying to post but I just need to finish the demo songs!!!

Anybody reading this please do it! <3

[kajaono]

Hey if you have the time, what are some of your current fav ships and what are your fav things about them (their dynamic or a scene in canon or whatever) and some headcanons? I know this is might take some time to answer and I'm not sure you want to, but if you do thanks a lot. Im just curious. And yeah, just have a great day (:

Thank you for asking. I am allways happy to make extra long posts ;)

I had a hard time deciding how to start that post but decided to go with:

Cherik - X men

There are multiple reasons why this ship means the world to me and will be allways close to my heart.

First, at all I grew up with the xmen movies. Cuddled up with my best friend, in her bed, watching the old x men movies (xm1 to 3) until 2 o’clock in the night. It is a feeling like coming home. And the underlying queer theme allways attracted me.

Second: I am a sucker for the enemies to lover trope. It is this amazing thing that no matter how much they “hate” each other, or how long they have not seen eachother, or how deeply they hurted eachother if one one of them is in danger the other one will allways run and save the other one. This is love imo

Also they are as canon as they could be in Hollywood. My headcanon for young!Cherik is similar to the one Michael Fassbender has for them. They are married, doing a fishing trip around the whole world, to come back at the end to Genosha raising, teaching and carrying for a new generation of mutant kids.

For old Cherik: They are happily living together in the school, due to the utopia Wolverine created in Days of future past. Magneto is probably teaching the kids mechanics

And there are allready rumors that Marvel wants to recast them. If they will touch our happy Cherik ending with their rotten hands i will riot!

Stormpilot - Star Wars

Yeah i still use that name. Because i am on this boat since the beginning. It is a little bit damaged but still sailing so this is my happy ship.

I was never a big Star Wars fan but these two dudes made me fall in love with Star Wats because even before i realized i was queer i knew this ship was special and make history, in one way or another. And we did, didn’t we? We are now taken seriously. Shipping is not a “ugly” fangirl thing anymore but people start to realize taht it is also a scream for representation. But we still have to go a long way

I love that this kind of a “love at the first sight” thing (at least for Poe). And that they have an instead chemistry with eachother. I was sitting in TROS and smiling like an idiot everytime they were on screen and cried buckets when they were both single and together in the end. They treat eschother well and have a deep respect for eachother. There is no macho behavior just pure friendship with a lot of gay tension. Every scene with them in TROS was a blast. And i am sure Finn is now slowly realizing he is love with Poe as well. Poe gives Finn his ring. Finn finds out he is a long lost prince and learns jedi tricks. And then they marry. And adopt a lot of droids children!

They are my hope. And they will be my first tattoo.

Phrack (Phryne x Jack) - MFMM

One of the few straight ships i actively ship. They are so damn well written. There is nothing toxic about their relationship. And the slow burn tension is killing you slowly. How they care for eachother without Jack being Phrynes savior. And how Phyrne allways gets calm perfect Jack irritated is so cute.

Also the moments where Phyrne is teasing Jack or Jack calls Phryne “Phryne” instead of “Miss Fisher” like he normally does.  And that Jack is ready to learn how to accept gay people and working independent women through Phryne is beautiful.

No headcanons here. I just want to watch the upcoming movie “Miss Fisher and the crypt of tears” that explains what happenes directly after the season 3 finale.

Give! Me! That! Movie! Now!

Keyla x Joann - Star Trek Discovery

There is not too much to say about them. I just hope they will be canon. They didn’t had much screentime yet but everytime they are together it feels like they are dating since years. And Keyla is confirmed bisexual. I hope we will see them together in season 3. If not i will just keep on pretending that they got married at the end, adopted a lot of space kitten and live their best lives as speca wIw.

Also the are holding hands in that scene above, fight me!

Michael x Tilly - Star Trek Discovery

Nothing better then space wIw pairings.

I like how they deeply care for eachother and Tilly was ready to accept Michael even though she was an outcast. And Michael was ready to accept Tilly even though she normally can not deal with talkactive people.

Tilly helped Michael a lot to express her feelings  while Michael helped Tilly to fight for her dream as a Captain.

Also they canonly hold hands multiple times. They are so soft around eachother. I am so ready for season 3.

Sherlock x Joan x Marcus - Elementary

I actually ship them in every variation (because above all Johnlock) but here i make an expactation. The deep care they have for eachother. They had a few problems at the start but if someone feels bad now, both are ready to help that person. Joan is constantly checking on Marcus personal live, and lives with Sherlock anyway, while Sherlock constantly looks out for Joan and Marcus and looks that they find happines. And Marcus has thought multiple times about moving in with Sherlock and Joan.

While Sherlock doesn’t really liked to be touched both Joan and Marcus have iconic hug scenes with Sherlock. And after Joan and Sherlock find out that Marcus will move to a new job they both do everything they can so Marcus will be successful, The epsiode ends with Sherlock looking at Marcus for a really long time, smiling like a love sick dork, while he lefts with  “ It’s alright, it’s alright, it’s alright now, I’m fine with how it all went down “ playing the background.

I haven’t watched season 7 yet but with Marcus risking his career for both Joan and Sherlock i hope he will finally moves in with them.

Honorable mentions to my fav ships forever:

Nomanita - Sense8

The lesbian crime fighting duo every show deserve. They only know pure love and support for eachother.

And i send a flip flop to netflix to see them getting married. Yeah i am that extra sometimes

Johnlock - EVERY univserse

Just because!

And the “i just discovered it”-ship:

Geralt x Jaskier - The witcher

They are so dumb. It is amazing. I hope Jaskier finds a nice boyfriend in the next seasons. Or gets to kiss Geralt. Because he definitly wants to

I hope this list satisfied you. I am allways happy to make more.

Have a great day as well

[drivingsideways]

for the fandom meme questions, if you're still taking them: F, G, W, and Y. (you don't have to do all of them, just whichever ones you wanna answer)

I answered most of those here, so gonna do the remaining one

W - 5 favorite ships and 5 kinks you like best for said ships

OH NO WHERE TO START HOW TO PICK THIS IS TERRIBLE 

I am such a multi-shipper at heart, i ship everyone/everything so picking a few is AGONIZING. 

under the cut ‘cause uh, i got carried away. No particular order of fave, and mostly restricted to ships from the last few years

Miranda Barlow/James Flint/Thomas Hamilton (Black Sails) - OT3 of PAIN omg, the fact that they barely had a chance to be together, and so much of their story  as a trio is basically one or the other NOT BEING THERE AND THE REMAINING TWO BEING DEVASTATED AND WANDERING AROUND THE WORLD LOST WITHOUT THEIR MISSING THIRD. UGHHHH. I yell a lot about James/Miranda here but internally I yell a lot about Thomas/Miranda pre and post James and James/Thomas without Miranda and basically every time I see their faces I’m *crying *, and honestly, my only kink for them is to literally be in the same room and the same time, like, my needs here are very basic. 

Dean/Castiel (SPN): I know, I know. Everybody and their grandmom ships these two, AS THEY SHOULD. I gave up on the show a long time ago, but every now and then a gifset crosses my dash and I’M UNDONE BY THEIR FACES WHEN THEY LOOK AT EACH OTHER WHEN THE OTHER IS NOT WATCHING (THERE’S A REASON SEASON 6 IS WHEN I REALLY STARTED SHIPPING THEM) AND I’M LIKE IT’S BEEN 15 YEARS AND SEVERAL RESURRECTIONS PLEASE KISS NOW. Hmm, kinks for this ship- lbr, fandom has written Every Possible Kink for this ship, and I’m happy to roll with most of it, but anything with true-form/eldritch horror Cas and a very human, very mortal Dean is probably THE BEST. Well, that and OMG ARE THEY HOLDING HANDS OMG OMG OMG (I can’t help it, I’m a marshmallow)

Superbat (DCEU) : I’ll be honest, I didn’t give a fuck about Batman until Ben Affleck ran onto the screen with with his fucking three piece suits and Emotional Trauma and Weird Psychosexual Dreams and I couldn’t believe the pit of shame I’d let myself fall into, but BvS was Something (yes, amidst a whole lot of Objectively Bad Somethings, yes I’m looking at you Jesse Eisenberg) anyways, i closed the tab where the movie had been playing, opened another tab for AO3 and fell straight into one of @susiecarter‘s fics, specifically THIS AMAZING FAKE DATING POST BvS ONE and it was basically over for me. This subset of Superbat fandom has some amazing writers and artists so honestly it wasn’t really even my fault, i just wallowed in all the hard work being done by someone else. PINING! CONTROL ISSUES! Emotionally Traumatized Man with a Death Wish meets literal Ray of Sunshine who can ALSO actually kill him with his little finger and has FEELINGS HE CAN”T IDENTIFY MUCH LESS TALK ABOUT. I love pining (is that a kink?) and like this is the otp where one half is/was literally dead while the other is dead inside AND IT WAS ALL TOO MUCH FOR ME. I REGRET NOTHING. Seriously, this version of an older, weary Batman meeting a young(ish) Superman who’s still trying to figure out how to be Superman, with both of them having control issues while being absolute rubbish at communication is perfect for a lot of d/s stuff but like my bulletproof kink in this ship is probably them...talking about their feelings? YEAH.

Joan/Sherlock (Elementary) : OH NO MY SUPER HAPPY CANON PLATONIC SOULMATES THEY ARE EVERYTHING I’VE EVER WANTED AND NEVER IMAGINED I’D GET TO SEE ON AN ACTUAL SHOW AND THEY’RE SUPER GREAT AND I LOVE HOW THEY ARE LIKE RIDE OR DIE FOR EACH OTHER AND THE WAY SHERLOCK ADORES HER AND THE WAY SHE’LL LOOK OUT FOR HIM AND TELL HIM COLD HARD TRUTHS BUT ALWAYS WITH KINDNESS WHY ARE THEY SO PERFECT WHY IS THIS SHOW ENDING AND HOLY HELL UNDYING KINK IS SHERLOCK SAYING ‘I’D MAKE ADJUSTMENTS FOR YOU’ AND JOAN’S FACE WHEN HE SAYS THAT THIS SHOW HAD BETTER END WITH JOAN ADOPTING A BABY AND LIVING IN THEIR BROWNSTONE WITH CLYDE AND THEIR BEES AND DOING DETECTIVE THINGS

*deep breath *

and current fave

Ning Yi/ Xin Zi Yan (The Rise of Phoenixes) : Ok, look, I basically ship Ning Yi/everyone and mostly Ning Yi/ happiness, homicidal woobie that he is, BUT the show just like WENT THERE with these two. Xin Zi Yan is Ning Yi’s mentor/friend/ally in the fight for his life within his batshit insane royal family and he is a cold, ruthless fuck who can hold grudges FOREVER and they flirt with each other (the show is particularly unsubtle about the flirting) and lie to each other and protect each other and STICK THE KNIFE INTO EACH OTHER AT THE SOFTEST POINTS BECAUSE THEY KNOW HOW TO. Like their fights are EPIC, blood on the floor everywhere and I’m like YES YES but also NOW FUCK. Like, canon just gave me this intense, competitive, kinda unhealthy dynamic and I’m like they’d be so bad for each other, BECAUSE LOL WHAT ARE BOUNDARIES XIN ZI YAN YOU CONTROL FREAK AND  NING YI YOU ARE ONE ABYSS OF NEED THAT YOU TRY TO HIDE BEHIND YOUR NONCHALANCE AND MURDER BUT YOU CAN’T HIDE FOREVER OMG I LOVE THEM A LOT LET ME WRITE 100K ABOUT THEM BEING THE ABSOLUTE WORST FOR EACH OTHER AND THE WORLD, SO I DID. Did someone say rarepair hell? I’m literally writing the only fic there is for them that’s how much i love them (its such a rarepair that the tag isn’t even searchable on AO3 yet). Uh, as for kinks for these two I CAN’T BECAUSE I’M NOT READY FOR THE MORTIFICATION OF BEING KNOWN. 

[wooolfies]

Space Odyssey

Verse: Trekverse 

Prompt: Sacrifice

Warnings: angst, death

Characters/Parties:  Joan Weiss, Logan Wolf

Word Count: 1353

One moment she was fully focused on the blue glowing tablet in her hands, the next she lied on the floor under the desk. A quiet curse left her mouth as she stood up.  Something must have stopped the ship’s drive.

“Logan?”, she called her friend via the intercom. He was the only other person on board.

“I'm sorry, Doc. We just performed a full stop. I’ll figure out the reason why. Give me a second,”.  He sounded stressed.

“I'll grab my gear and come forward, if you need a hand.”

“Well, if you must.”

The doctor let go of the button and grabbed the tablet and her bag. She left the room and turned into the narrow hallway, walking forward towards the bridge.

She pressed the key to open the door to the bridge, and entered the brightly lit room.

The grabbed an earpiece to contact Logan again, who was at stern, where the engineering was located.  

“Okay mate, what do you need to know?” she asked.

“First tell me, is something flashing red?”

“The main engine.”

“No shit Sherlock. That's what I'm trying to fix right now, but there must be a problem somewhere else. Joan, check the circuits.”

“Copied that.”

“Remember the time we had to save this man from the station on Moxa IV?” Joan asked after quite a long pause.

“Yeah, we had the real McCoy with us and I was just the guy to open the door,” the young engineer chuckled.

“And then a seal of my suit just broke; fatigue. You saved my arse,” her smile was transmitted too.

“Or this time where we went camping at the Elliot Lake and in the morning a grizzly was eating our food.”

“Good old times. You still were a cadet at this time.”

“Well after all that we have another story to tell.”

She came back to the problem they had. “I can't spot something that's wrong, wait,  there is too little power flowing through the temp regulation.”

“Okay I might have an idea. Can you help me down here. In person I mean.”

Joan turned around and started moving towards the door.

“I'll do this the old fa--,” with a bright flash she was wrapped into darkness.

She couldn’t hear her friend anymore.

Instinctively she reached in front of her, where she felt the cold material of the door. She heard a quiet murmuring.

“Logan?! Are you alright?”

No answer, the connection probably broke off.

She opened  her bag and tried to find the torch.

The door had opened, but just a  few centimeters. She tried to look though the gap.

“Logan?”

She heard steps approaching. She did not like the dark, this situation was starting to get weird already.

“We have no power,” explained Logan. “I will try to fix it. Are you alright?”

“I am. Are you?”

“I kinda tore my arm, it's bleeding a bit.”

“Okay.” Joan exhaled. “Let's try to open this door.”

“Aye. There should be paddles to manually open.”

Joan opened the small cabinet but it was empty.

“No, sir.”

“Fuck. Look, I need to talk to you about something,” he said, the ‘about’ carrying his Canadian accent. “Now you are trapped…” he added more softly. Logan and Joan had started out as people with similar interest but they had grown together in course of the years. At first working at separated places later on the same ship.

“Yes, mate.”

“I think I know why this is not working.”

“Our favourite Scotsman told me to replace the paddles. But I forgot to put the new ones in there.”

“So?”

“That's not the only thing. I think I made a mistake when rewiring the drive's temperature-regulation systems. The reason why we are now drifting in a powerless tin can. I fucked up.”

“You feel guilty?”

“Yeah, I do. By the way that's not all bad news. We don't have auxiliary power means--”

“-- no life support”, the medical officer finished his sentence.

“We are screwed.”

“Nah. We just wait. Our rendezvous point with our parent ship is a few parsecs away. They will find us”, Joan felt that it was her duty to keep him calm. That was quite of a challenge because it was hard to focus for her and she noticed that she was getting nervous as well.

“Logan, could you go and get my medical kit, please?”

“Yes.”

She could hear him leave. She sat down and turned on her tablet again. Her mind wrapped around the math she just did on it.

Logan returned and sat down.

“Can you pass it through the gap?” she asked.

“Let me try.” Thankfully it was a fit.

“Let's make a deal,” she said and tried to sound as optimistic as possible.

“I fix you and you fix the ship.”

Logan chuckled. “Okay.”

He put the hurt arm though the gap. Really no big deal, Joan thought.

It was really just a big scratch and she fixed it petty fast.

After that Logan left to take a look at the electronics again.

She never liked the dark ever since she was a child. “There is just Logan with you, there are no monsters,“ she whispered to herself. She began to humm the Largo from Dvorak's New World Symphony.

She already imagined all the worst case scenarios. She had to stop it, she was a professional, but being anxious was not really professional.

Logan in the meantime was at the end of the hallway, the torch in his mouth and trying to switch the charred cables and burned relais for new ones. If he could repair the auxiliary  power, they would have back the life support and communications.

He felt a drop of sweat running down his temple.

It was just a mess, nothing really looked like it looked before. His mistake had lead to a chain reaction that fried every neighbouring system. He would need hours to repair it needless to say that he lagged spare parts and he only had the basic tools onboard.

The situation had a dark feel to it and he felt kind of desperate. What if they suffocated until the others found them?

He cursed and went forward again to update Joan on their situation.

“Yes, I kind of knew that would happen”, Joan said. “I did the maths. We have 90 minutes left before the carbon dioxide level is too high and we pass out.”

“That's not a lot of time.” He observed her picking up the torch that was lying on the ground. She opened the medical kit again. He noticed that she was crying.

“What are you doing?”, he asked softly.

“I'll grab an injector and load it with vecuronium.”

“I'm not in pain,” Logan stated.

“It is not for you.”

“Wait what?”

“It's for me”, she sniffed and disappeared from his sight.

She sat down with her back facing the door.

“Vecuronium bromide relaxes your muscles. It's a fast working anesthetic. It will relax my diaphragm too. This will buy you time.”

“It will kill you. You can't do it. It's my fault. I could never forgive myself. Give it to me.”

“This is what I mustn't do. Logan, I swore an oath, to protect life and do no harm.”

“Even if this life is guilty of causing this situation?”

“Yes, even then. The truth is I love you. I couldn't live without you.”

“Same goes for me.” He replied, his voice was cracking.

“I am so sorry, Johanna. Please just don't, let us die together if we have to.” He put his hand through the gap and grabbed hers, feeling her warmth.

“I’m sorry as well.” She squeezed his hand. With the other one she lifted the injector to her neck and released  the content into the vein.

Her grip loosened up but he kept holding. With a weary sigh she fell over. He felt her pulse at her wrist and how it got weaker and weaker.  Unable to do something he watched her die. He felt like he was falling apart, all this guilt. But he had to stay alive, for her.