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Okay so like. You know your own name as a kid, right?

You remember how it sounds, how your parents say it, how your friends say it- you learn how to spell it, and maybe even what it means and why it was given to you, and it's yours.

It's not a tangible, physical thing, like your hair or your fingernails, but it's yours. It belongs to you.

So, like. Imagine there comes a point in life where everyone gets their name tattooed to their forehead, or something.

Could be when they're two. Could be when they're twenty. Hell, it could be when they're eighty, or ninety-nine, or whenever. But it's everybody, and it's inevitable, and it happens.

Now imagine the time comes for you, and you get up after and look in the mirror and realize they spelled it wrong.

And you have to go outside and live your life in a world where everybody is so totally used to knowing people's names on sight that not a single person second-guesses that your parents named you Susam, or Ahley, or Benjabib.

And you know it's wrong, every time you hear it, but you can choose to explain every single time- every time you're called in a coffee queue, every time a teacher picks you in class, every time you meet a new person or bump into a stranger or are greeted on the street, by children and employers and door-to-door salesmen and your fucking waitress- or you can kind of just learn to grit your teeth and ignore it.

You still notice, of course- maybe you learn to accept it, maybe you hate it every time, but whether you do anything about it or not, you still know. You know people have the wrong word for you in your head.

You know they still mean YOU, but it's not you.

So what's your solution?

Do you shrug, decide it doesn't matter, and go about your life?

Do you smear the typo over with foundation, pencil in new letters every morning?

Do you stare into the mirror sometimes and think, "wow, I should really get that fixed"?

Maybe you save up your money and get it removed, or covered up, or changed to something else. Maybe the whole damn thing was wrong, and you've been a Jacob running around as a Hailey this whole damn time.

That's the best way to explain it. It's not an easily-provable thing, or a demonstrable thing, or a feeling I can one-for-one substitute as something else-

but that's what it's like to know you're not a girl.

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Having your main anxiety response be Avoidance is crazy cause you'll think you're chillin and then one day you're like waitttt I've been paralyzed with fear this whole time. Damn

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Every time I read about Hermes I imagine the Disney version that's blue. I used to do it with all the gods but as I grew and learned more, they became more like regular humans but Hermes is still blue in my mind

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When a character who normally has a silver tongue and a quick wit is speechless.

When an expressive character who wears their heart on their sleeve goes still, face blank.

When a character who is quick to solve problems with their fists drops their hands to their side, frozen.

Just the sudden absence of something that is always there, in both the good and the bad.

Gone in an instant.

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The Scientific Endeavour, a musical duo comprising yours truly and Divya @divyx, is launching itself into music history with its first-ever live concert, given to help Palestinian evacuee Ahmed Frenah complete his studies in Italy. Join us on Saturday, November 30th for an evening of mystery, magic, synthesisers, and plucked strings!

🩵 About Ahmed

Ahmed Frenah is an art therapist and researcher in art education who is passionate about developing new methods of psychological care for children with trauma. He evacuated from Gaza, Palestine, to Cairo, Egypt in April 2024, and now has a new chance at life with a full scholarship to a Master's degree program in Italy.

🩵 About the Fundraiser

We need your help to raise $1,250 USD. Your donation of at least $15 will get you a ticket to this momentous occasion, and ensure that Ahmed is able to:

Apply for his Italian visa

Cover visa-related expenses (such as certifications and insurance)

Travel to Italy

Donations are being matched up to $500.

Go to tiny.cc/ConcertForAhmed to get your ticket!

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Jewish girl from North Africa

French vintage postcard

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all my homies have ailments

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Today I cried a little bit because I remembered that when Beethoven conducted his ninth symphony for the first time he got a standing ovation and one of the sopranos had to turn him around to see the audience. 

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[ID: first image is a tweet from tor @/tdubbzholla reading: you'll never guess who he is referring to here. It is quote tweeting derek guy @/dieWorkWear reading: he has the ideal body shape now. he literally made millions from this body. im saying he would look more stylish if he layered and wore outfits that had more texture and complexity. Under the cut is a tweet from

@/AaronLionheart8 reading: If you don't look good in a dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up and a button undone. With some jeans, belt and boots. Well that's on you…. Reply from derek guy reads: it's hard to look good in just a shirt because the garment doesn't have much of a silhouette. ask yourself: "is the outfit stylish or am i just into their body shape?" here are two similar body types. which outfits look best?

Attached is one picture of Winnie the Pooh in a red shirt with no pants. The next picture is several outfits worn by Paddington bear. They are all full outfits, including suits and streetwear.

reply from @/Lukejosef_ reads: Yea, you're staying the same thing. Pooh Bear would have a silhouette if he put the honey pot down and hit the gym. reply from derek guy: he has the ideal body shape now. he literally made millions from this body. i'm saying he would look more stylish if he layered and wore outfits that had more texture and complexity. /end]

putting this under the cut so you all have the same emotional experience i just did

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HEY GUYS! I just updated all of my prints on etsy and am running a holiday shopping sale! 20% off all printed paper products! (Coloring books, prints, and print bundles!) So check it out and do some holiday shopping!

Also consider- Zesty DnD Mousepads Painted DnD Miniatures

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Update: I officially don’t have enough money to buy gas to get to work tomorrow (10/28). Please help if you can.

A million thanks to everyone who shared or donated to last month's post. This month has been a bit better, but we're still struggling. I've got about $125 of credit on my cards and -$7 in my bank account to get my sister and me through the rest of October. If you reblog the link I will be incredibly grateful.

As a thank you, I can beta-read, proof-read, or copy-edit any piece of writing you might need. I can also do small embroidery or cross-stitch commissions. Message me with details.

Thanks again for reblogging and donating: reblog the link

Last month's post under the cut:

Ok, I really, REALLY hate to do this, especially when there are so many people in worse situations, but I'm in dire financial straits right now, and so is my sister (who is also my roommate). She's been staying with me for the last year, recovering from two broken ankles. She's been back at work for a couple months now, but barely part time. When she moved in with me, she was expecting to be able to get back to full-time work much sooner, and so she'd be able to contribute to rent and utilities. Unfortunately, her recovery is taking longer than her doctor initially thought, and she may end up needing yet another surgery (which means more missed work). She's barely making ends meet and therefore can't contribute to rent and utilities, which has put me in serious trouble. I already struggle to live in CA on a public school teacher's salary, even without adding on another person. As soon as I get paid, my entire paycheck goes to rent, car, and credit card payments. I don't qualify for any kind of emergency loan. As soon as I pay my credit card bills, I end up having to use that credit on food and gas. There is no end in sight. Which brings me to the part I really hate: asking for help. If you can spare ANYTHING, it would help SO MUCH to get us out of this hole we're in (and hopefully a little breathing room). Even if you can't, if you could reblog the link, I'd appreciate it SO MUCH. I can offer services as a proofreader/beta reader for any kind of writing as a thank you.

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[ID: photo of a people of paper taped to a window reads:

You are Just a neuron in the Pleasure Center of the Cosmos. all you gotta do Is Light up when you are lit up. there was never Supposed to be anything else ♡ /end]

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unpopular opinion but i like it when tv shows have women in them

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A friendly reminder to USians: if you are planning to vote on Election Day, your mantra is "Nothing I see today convinces me not to go vote."

Exit polls suggest DT cannot be caught? YOU STILL GO VOTE.

Exit polls suggest KH has it in the bag? YOU STILL GO VOTE.

Pundits are saying the country is swinging overwhelmingly red? YOU STILL GO VOTE.

Pundits are saying the country is swinging overwhelmingly blue? YOU STILL GO VOTE.

Polls can be misleading (intentionally or not). The methodology can be biased (or simply poor). Early results may not reflect what the full count will show. There may be a red mirage. NOTHING YOU SEE CONVINCES YOU NOT TO VOTE.

The biggest Democratic win in swing states means nothing if democrats don't turn out everywhere to keep the reliably blue states blue.

VOTE. Wear appropriate weather gear if you think you may have to stand in a line outside (coat, hat, gloves, umbrella, sunhat, whatever, you know where you live). Bring water and a snack and something to do (book, game on your phone, podcast and headphones, whatever, you know what you like). GO VOTE.

NOTHING YOU SEE ON ELECTION DAY CONVINCES YOU NOT TO VOTE.

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PIANOWRIMO 2024 #1

Welcome back!!! Pianowrimo - one (short) piano piece written and recorded for every day of November - now in its 8th (!!!!) year.

For today's piece hmm I was thinking how I'd like to do more interesting rhythms, or rhythm-focused, which I do for.. a bit anyway, and also since I've been writing a lot for my students lately, kinda something that's NOT that and that's just indulgent for me -- so it's not super hard to play, but it also doesn't worry about e.g. hand positions or exact repetition or making the rhythm specially easy to read.

it's also very short and has an emoji and a piece of punctuation for a title (for now) because why not.

thanks for listening, hope you enjoyed, and best wishes to anyone doing a wrimo (of any kind!) of their own this month.