#and yeah i also want to talk about THAT final scene in Scar's episode

[mrabubu]

How do you think the turtles from ROTMNT would deal with their feelings if they were in love with someone (be it human, mutant, Yokai, etc.)?

Oh man... Hmmm...

I really hope that wouldn't be a problem if I mostly ramble about Leo (I'M SORRY GUYS THE BLUE TURTLE LIVES IN MY MIND RENT FREE), and maybe a couple of words about the rest. I'll also be talking about both young and adult Leos, so, here we go.

I'll give short opinions on other turtles before Leo:

Donnie: Would be neglecting his feelings and emotions at first. Even though, in my opinion, he was established as the one prone to romance, I think when he'd actually feel anything towards anyone, he'd be really conflicted, because it's one thing to see this stuff on the TV and all, and another when it's in real life. But once he'll deal with all this mess in his head, he's a real gentleman.

With Raph and Mikey I'm going to refer to @souperwrites words, I hope they don't mind xd

"Mikey is confident and lovey dovey." And I totally agree with it. I feel like he would be the one who'd have the least problems with his feelings.

"Raph is shy but very genuine in his affection but also super nervous because of his size and the potential harm he could cause without meaning to." But honestly, I think my friend @daysofmoron could also give their opinion, since they love the red turtle. xd OKAY, NOW MY BOY LEO.

If start with young Leo, in the show he was always all "EWW!" whenever any sign of romantic love is shown, be it Big Mama and Splinter or Warren and Hypno (at least I remember them being all cuddly, and Leo's was just barfing at them on the background), but I imagine once his own heart goes "doki-doki" for Y/N (let it be Y/N or "you" for now), he's a total mess at first. Remember that episode when they met Jupiter Jim actor, and Leo couldn't even put the syllables together? Yeah, that's him at the start, especially if Y/N doesn't know about his feelings towards them. He'll be trying to impress Y/N but since his emotions are all over the place, he messes up more than usual, maybe even ending up hurting himself (like, he'd try to impress you with his skateboarding skills, but ends up eating concrete because he's too distracted).

And here I'm going to add a bit of my own ideas, because I've been thinking of some scenarios, like, if taking that previous idea with skateboarding, or, more easily, let's take the episode "The Longest Fight" when he fell, I imagine if on the contrary from others you'd actually show any genuine concern about if he's hurt, he'd be like "Oh..." and blushing, because usually his brothers would make fun if him, and here comes in you who doesn't laugh at his failure and worries if he needs help. I think after a moment like this he could begin to feel something.

And with Future Leo HO OHO I have an entire game reference on how I imagine him handling a romance.

First of all, I think as an adult he would be more confident with his feelings if he ever feels anything towards anyone, because, well, he's an adult now, and because when you at war you kinda already went through a lot to be all this blushing mess over feeling butterflies in your stomach.

So, as a reference, whenever I thought of him in a relationship, I though of a romance with Garrus from Mass Effect. I imagine Leo being kinda awkward, trying to make jokes at first that are much more sloppy than usual. Especially if talking about Garrus, I always think of that scene from Mass Effect 2, when he comes into Shepard's room before the final mission, trying to lighten up the mood, flirt and all, but ends up just being an awkward (but adorable) mess, and saying: "I've seen so many things have gone wrong... I want something to go right. Just once. Just..."

And it's just really easy for me to imagine Leo say that. And instead of touching scars you touch his prosthetic.

And also that dialogue with Liara after "The Lair of the Shadow Broker" DLC, when she asks if you fight for giving Garrus some peace, and you say that he's been hurt and deserves something better.

But once Leo's over all the awkwardness and let himself relax, he's just enjoying this new experience with you, having fun.

This scene with Garrus and Shepard trying the "first date" thing which ends up them dancing tango together. With all the teasing and all, I can easily imagine Leo would do something like that.

Honestly, I think that's it? There are more scenes in Mass Effect with Garrus and Shepard where I could easily imagine Leo would do something like that, but it's a lot. If you know, you know, If don't, well, I hope I was able to gave you an idea.

[sincerelystesichorus]

let's talk about that one scene in oops

(and fizzarolli in general bc me and my autism r obsessed with this scene and haven't seen someone break it down. also ft. blitz lmao)

just a general scene and vague character breakdown/analysis!

i first of all want to admire the perfect representation of best friends to enemies with blitz & fizz because ugh.

And like Blitz tells everyone this but the way it's so malicious here. Just the perfect simple dig and Fizz's little shit eating grin because it delivered how he knew it would sdfkjsdkf. Shoves Blitz to the side because really that's all he cares to say. Fuck you and what you did to me, bye bye <3 Fizz is so for talking shit and dipping (House of Asmodeus) I love how messy it is but also shows how he really doesn't hold malice for Blitz otherwise. Obviously we see this front and center later in the episode once they start reconnecting, but I like the subtlety and how he's so willing to snap at Blitz despite his usual anxiety with confrontation.

Blitz also knowing exactly what to say to really piss Fizz off once things escalate <3

(Fizz literally so smug and content with himself lmfao)

(smirk wiped off bc hey that's the thing i'm sensitive about!!)

But Fizz keeps his composure. And if you'll let me be alarmingly gay for a second, I love how his version of keeping his cool as a messy gay is managing to basically recreate this drag race confrontation in what is probably my favorite set of Fizzie lines.

eat him up babes. also it's so important that that shitty coffee and fizz were on this side of the street for framing i'll talk about it more in a sec jfskjdfksf.

and now my personal favorite exchange of this entire scene that is criminally underrated imo:

love his face after this line. I SUPPORT DISABLED PEOPLES WRONGS sfjdlkfsdd. literally so fucking nasty with his clown wit but also so justifiable because yeah blitz did just pull this nightmare and dip in fizz's pov. i cannot wait for that to get touched on more likeeee why were they kept apart ugh.

and finally!!

this cut to blitz,, specifically the scarred side of his face is sooo good.

the face of a man who just achieved critical vicious mockery vs. the face of a man that knows he can only win this interaction one way now

Blitz does deserve a little violence maybe <3 Fizz underestimated his ass jjdkfsdlk.

Idk I just love how indicative this whole interaction is for their characters but especially Fizz, it's a perfect build-up for him. Fizz has major imposter syndrome with dual layers because of general haters but especially because of Mammon and Asmodeus. Not on any fault of Ozzie's,, we just see Fizz obviously thinks he isn't fully deserving of their relationship/his situation and the healthy dynamics of it and so do most major news outlets apparently askjfsk.

(full fizzy meme post & also i like how this is a special also like damn do u think they were also apart of the crossword??)

It'll be really interesting to see how his character develops in future episodes because I feel like a lot of what I've rambled about here has come to a resolution after 2 Minutes Notice in the musical special lmao. I really like how here when he goes to compose himself, this is how he does it.

Makes me wonder how many times him and Ozzie have had the self-worth and imposter syndrome conversation before it finally stuck in the Mammon Musical Special. I just love their relationship and how they compliment one another,, and how it projects into Fizz's other relationships because they're healthy for one another. Love my OTP love Blitz & especially love Fizzie. Obviously.

[frankiebirds]

i need to talk about the goalpost scene or i'll explode. tw for the sexual assault of a minor, because. that is what reid is describing here, honestly:

i tried to gif it but the scene is quite long (especially because reid is constantly pausing to compose himself :(( ) and i realised while doing it that it's hard to gif a monologue, so instead here it is in text.

REID: I was in the library and, um... Harper Hillman comes up to me, and she tells me that, uh... Alexa Lisbon wants to meet me behind the field house. Alexa Lisbon's like, easily, the prettiest girl in school. MORGAN: So what happened? Alexa wasn't there? REID: No, she was there. So was the entire football team. They... stripped me naked and tied me to a goalpost. So many kids were there, you know, just watching. MORGAN: Nobody tried to stop it? REID: I begged... I begged them to, but they just... just watched. And... finally, they got bored and they left. It was like midnight when I finally got home. And my mom had... mom was having one of her episodes, so she didn't even realize I was late. MORGAN: You never told her what happened? REID: I never told anybody. I thought... it was one of those things that I thought if I didn't talk about it, I'd just forget. But I remember it like it was yesterday. MORGAN: Oh, Reid, you don't need an eidetic memory for that. You know, we forget half of what they teach us in school, but when it comes to the torment and the people who inflicted it, we've all got an elephant's memory.

i think about this a lot and honestly it makes me feel ill. because correct me if i'm wrong, but this is sexual assault, no? like yes reid is relating to owen as someone who was also severely bullied but he's also relating to owen as someone whose bullies committed a sex crime against them

something that i think gets missed a lot—reid was at the very oldest, twelve. again, correct me if i'm wrong, but football teams are big, right? reid even says "so many kids were there". just an unnecessary amount of people to restrain a pre-teen and a horrifying amount of people capable of standing there and watching. that is some stephen king level bullying honestly. not that ""normal"" bullying would be okay, of course, but just. jesus.

the implied length of the ordeal hurts too. a few things:

"they got bored and they left" to me implies that they left without untying him. had they done so, it would have made more sense to say "they got bored and they let me go." the phrasing reid uses implies they left him there and he had to get himself free. how long would that have taken?

reid also uses the word "finally" which. yeah. you know what the word finally means

the part that hurts the most is where reid says "[my mother] didn't even realize I was late." late. not gone. as in reid didn't go home inbetween speaking to harper and going behind the field house. this wasn't a "hey alexa wants to meet you behind the field house. nine pm" and the whole ordeal is "only" three hours. at best, it was right after school let out. at worst, he left the library and went straight there. so, at best, we're looking at...what, eight hours between going behind the field house and getting home?

this all happens in nevada. specifically vegas, which, from my understanding, is surrounded by desert. if it's winter/fall, the sun goes down relatively quickly and reid spends several hours freezing (i think? wikipedia says nighttime winter temps in vegas average at 4.4C/39.2F. is that cold in that region? canadian, sorry). if it's spring/summer, the sun takes a longer time to go down and reid spends several hours in the heat. ive usually headcanoned the second but the first is equally painful. but anyway, point is: take your pick. preteen reid gets either hypothermia or heatstroke. (also part of the reason i hc it was spring or summer is because i headcanon the goal post, which would have gotten very hot in the sun, scarred him. sorry to anyone whose day i just ruined <3)

sidenote: im always a little surprised by how calmly morgan reacts in this scene. not that he has a bad reaction, or isn't visibly troubled, but given how protective of reid he is normally...the first time i watched this scene i expected him to pull out a pen and paper and ask for names. so im headcanoning that the reason he's so calm in this scene isn't because he is calm, but because he's a good friend who knows that that isn't a productive response at the moment. and then he goes back to the bau and has garcia hunt them down (without telling her why) and uh. i dont know. maybe she destroys their credit scores or something.

[reijamira]

The Heart Killers episode 5: my first, wild reaction

SHIT! FUCK! DAMN!

My brain is all mushy, my heart touched. I want to smile, I want to cry.

I can't do this anymore! My pulse is out of control, my hands are ducking sweaty! I don't want ANYTHING bad to happen to ANY of them!! Please! Just no and NO and NOOO! FadelBison seem so tired and fed up with that hitmen life. They don't like it. They are being manipulated and forced. They crave a normal life. 😭 It's so clearly palpable this episode. Let's stop here, and they can live happily ever after. Yes? PLEASE!

No new scars for Fadel! I mean it! (Looking at the sling from the trailer! Go away!) Let's Bison be happy with someone else for the first time in his life!

Have you all seen how SWEET our precious Style was? I liked him before. NOW I'm madly in love with him! What a kind soul! How beautiful he is, inside and out! Gosh, he has already fallen in love with Fadel! Halfway!! And not just him. KANT admitted he is developing feelings, too. Dammit!

I loved that we got a bit of a background story for Style's character, finally. What a big heart he has. Helping his dad out (who was there for Style when his mother died and his dad fell apart???). I bet it's Style's BIG heart and his love for Fadel that makes him spill the beans in the next episode?

I melted at the "You chose me" scene. 😭😍🫠💛 (Fadel, honey, I loved you from the start. In each episode, I love you even more!)

I loved Fadel asking Style what Style likes about him! Style's answers were so funny and sweet. He likes the adrenaline of a good chase. And Fadel reminding him that it's no car race, and I'm watching this and thinking, "No, it's no car race, but it's a race against time, and a car is indeed involved". 😭😭 HELP!

Then their sweet, corny smexy times at Style's garage! I loved it! It was funny! It was hot! Yes, Fadel, pay him with your body! 💣🌶🫦

Speaking of body: Style making Fadel dance with him at the bowling alley by referring to Fadel's little dance at the host club was top-notch! He is such a quick thinker and sweet talker!

And while we are at the bowling alley: I adored every scene of their double date until it went heartbreaking. Especially the way Style convinced Fadel to wear the partner shirt. (He got the ship name right! Yeah! Put Fadel's name first because he would like it! 😭👌🫠 And KantBison also hit the mark!) I SO love Style's "You can take it off at my place!". (Kant's reaction: 🤭😁) Fadel hiding behind his beer when Style said he touched Fadel's body so many times, he knows its size, got me laughing so hard! 😂🤣

It's so clear that Style has Fadel wrapped around his finger! Our big hitman softie! The way Style can make Fadel fold! It was so beautifully shown in the scene at Style's garage when they wanted Fadel's help. Kant, ever wary of Fadel's grumpy, cool demeanor, noticed, too, how easily Style could influence Fadel! Loved Kant referring to Fadel as "big brother". That barely visible shift in Fadel's expression that followed immediately! Glorious!

I love how vulnerable Fadel was! He didn't tell Style about his past lover. And he also lied BLATANTLY about not liking Style. (Fadel, darling, we all can see those looks when you think no one is looking!) And that talk about laying oneself completely bare. OMG! My heart went out to him. He DID tell Style about his murdered parents, though! (LOL at Style's quick "I'm sorry! Let's change the subject!")

Can I take a moment to appreciate Style playing with Fadel's nipples TWICE this episode? That was hot! 💣🌶🫦 The mutual ass grabbing, too! 🫠🤤

So, no recording device in the pin. (I could have sworn...) No devices in Kant's apartment either. (DAMN, I was so sure. LOL!) BUT the camera in FadelBison's basement DID record the betrayal. Shit! I really don't want this! Both Fadel and Bison are opening their hearts. They are slowly letting others in, which is no easy feat for them. And in the end, it's a betrayal. I really hope both Kant and Style can assure Bison and Fadel that they do love them. I want them working together against their enemies. I don't remember the exact wording, but Fadel said something about people not wanting to risk their lives when they are with him. Maybe Style and Kant will do this? (Dear me, it looks like Bison is taking a bullet for Babe next episode! Look how invested our Bison is in Kant and his brother! He is so protective already!) Also, I really love that Bison is the mad dog here! I loved how feral he was there for a minute.

And yeah, Fadel's fingers on Style's chin made me swoon. Please, don't hurt this man, Style!

I need to rewatch episode 5 every day until next Wednesday! I need to write and read all the meta!

It was so amazing! But the foreshadowing is killing me dead multiple times! 😭😩

Before I finish this, one final thought or two: What is up with mother Lilly and her aversion against dating and being left alone? Abandonment issues? Trouble recruiting new hitmen?

What is with Keen? Is he a friend or foe? Surely, Mother has her eyes already set on him and his office boyfriend.

And now same torture as always:

I can't wait until next Wednesday! 😭😭😭😩

[crystalninjaphoenix]

Imaginary Friend

Paranormal Preteens AU: Episode Twenty-Eight

A JSE Fanfic

This one's a bit of a hodgepodge of scenes. First, the group gets together to talk about what happened on Christmas and what they learned. Then, they take a day trip to Ireland to finally track down this Jack guy that Jackie mentioned. And then, Chase wants to talk with JJ. And yeah, this is a pretty low-stakes chapter when compared to the last two. The kids are just learning more about the Circle and Anti and wondering what to do. Alright, hope you enjoy! :D

Previous Episode | More of this AU | From the Start | Read on AO3 at CrystalNinjaPhoenix

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“Alright.” Jackie sat down at the table, setting down a few sweets bags. “We have snacks. Full of sugar for your brains. Now... let’s talk about the Christmas incident.”

The kids were sitting around Chase’s dining room table. Mom was at work, but she would probably be back soon, so they didn’t have much time to discuss things. “What did you two learn when you were in the car?” Schneep asked, looking at Chase and JJ.

“Uh, well, uh...” Chase thought about it. Christmas was a few days ago, but he still very clearly remembered that brief moment in the car before JJ got them out of there. “Well, they were going to take us to city hall. So that probably means that there are Circle people there, right?”

“I guess that’d make sense,” Marvin says, idly tearing open one of the bags of candy. “If there are Circle people all over the city in important places, of course they’d be in, like, the most important place.”

And if people working for the city are part of the Circle, that means they can make sure the Circle stays hidden, JJ added.

“Did you figure out what the Circle really wants?” Stacy asked. “I know that we found those papers that mean they’re doing stuff with the Fissures, but why?”

“Well, uh... They said that they wanted to take away Marvin’s powers,” Chase said.

Marvin stopped messing with the candy bag and looked up in alarm. “H-huh?!”

“They didn’t say that exactly,” Chase quickly added. “I mean, they didn’t mention you. Because they thought JJ was doing it, so they said they were gonna make it so he couldn’t do any greenlight stuff. But that means that if the Circle finds out that you can do greenlight stuff, then they’ll want to stop you from doing it. Get it?”

Marvin nodded slowly, though his eyes were still wide-open in shock. “But... I like my magic.”

“I don’t think the Circle cares if you ‘like’ your magic,” Jackie muttered.

“Why would they get rid of Marvin’s greenlight powers?” Schneep asked. 

“They, uh... they said something about how it shouldn’t be in your body,” Chase said. “Because it can mutate animals and stuff. Which is kinda true, I guess. Remember the monster dog?”

“Well it is not exactly in Marvin’s body, we think,” Schneep said. “It is in the tiny crystal dust in his scars.”

“Yeah! And that’s a lot more badass than just having it mutate me!” Marvin said determinedly. 

They also said that they don’t want anyone to know about greenlight because “chaos would break out” if anyone knew, JJ said. And that they could handle it because they’ve been studying it for “almost ten years.”

“Almost ten years! Now we have a timeline!” Jackie nodded. “That’s good, that’s good. Now we know how long the Circle’s been doing stuff. Man... I was six years old when they started this.”

“I guess I get why they want to keep the greenlight secret,” Stacy said. “Bad guys might want to use it, if they knew about it.” She shook her head. “But how does the Circle know that they aren’t the bad guys?”

“Well they don’t, because they fucking suck,” Marvin said. “They’re the fucking bad guys.” He rubbed his hands together self-consciously.

“So... the Circle does not like the greenlight,” Schneep summed up. “And so they think they are doing something good by... doing all the things they do?” He paused. “They wanted to put some of Marvin’s blood into the Fissure. Marvin and anyone else they could find, ja?”

JJ glanced at Marvin. He nodded slowly and gestured for Schneep to talk faster.

“They must think, for some reason, that doing that would have stopped the greenlight. Because we know that the greenlight comes from the Fissures, ja? Anti told us that.”

“Oh yeah!” Chase gasped. “He told us that a long time ago. Okay okay. So... the Fissures lead to something Anti called the dark place, and the dark place is where the greenlight comes from.”

JJ frowned. But the blood makes the greenlight stronger. Anti said that, too. So... you would think that putting blood in the Fissure would be the opposite of what the Circle wants, if they don’t want the greenlight.

“Maybe we’re missing something?” Stacy asked.

“The Circle guys also said that greenlight can be, uh, used, I think...” Chase said slowly. “But that it shouldn’t be in your body. So... uh... maybe they want to use the greenlight but... make sure it doesn’t... affect anyone’s bodies?”

“Well that’s very hypocritical,” Jackie muttered.

“I think the most helpful thing we got from that car ride is that there’s probably a Circle thing in city hall,” Marvin said.

There was also that iris flower, JJ added.

“Oh yeah, that weird flower dangly thing,” Chase recalled. “Do you think that’s important?”

JJ nodded. There were iris flowers beneath the school, by the Fissure. We know that there are Circle people in the school. And those three were also Circle people. So maybe the iris flowers mean something?

“Hm... maybe the flowers have special properties or something,” Marvin said. “Maybe they’re magic flowers.”

“I guess the least we can do is look out for iris flowers now,” Jackie said. “Maybe they’ll mark locations where the Circle—”

The front door opened. “I’m home!” Mom’s voice called.

“Hi, Mom!” Chase said. “We’re in the dining room!”

Mom poked her head into the room. “Hey, kids. How are things going?” The kids respond with a chorus of various “good”s. “Great. I’ll let you all use the living room, I’ll just be upstairs.” Then she left. The kids all stayed quiet for a bit as they listened to her climb the stairs.

“Alright. Well. To change the subject.” Jackei popped a candy in his mouth, eating it really fast before continuing. “Do you guys remember Jack? Do you still want to go visit him?”

“In Ireland? Yeah, that’ll be fun!” Marvin said.

“I have never been there,” Schneep mused. “Will it be very different?”

Depends on where you go in the country, JJ said.

“Yeah, I think there are a lot of farms, like a lot,” Marvin piped up. “But there are some really nice, like coasts and beaches and shit, too! Oh, and forests!”

“Do you think Jack lives on a farm now?” Stacy wondered.

“Honestly from what I know about Ireland, it’s more likely than not,” Jackie said. “We’ll be in for a long trip. It might take... a couple days? God, we’ll need to rent a hotel for the night. This’ll be like... a full trip.” He frowned. “I hope everyone can convince their parents to let them come... I know I could get Dad to take me but... I’m worried about you guys.”

“Well... we could probably just say we’re sleeping over with one of you,” Marvin said slowly. “Mam and Dad don’t really care about what we do during holiday. They’ll call or text to check on us but we can get around that.”

Stacy looked concerned. “I dunno how I’ll convince my parents to let me hang out with a bunch of boys.”

“Are you, like, not allowed to or something?” Chase asked.

“Well... not exactly? But... I dunno, I get the feeling they think it’s weird.”

Chase hummed, thinking about it. “What if you say it’s because we want to take you somewhere cool for your birthday? It’s coming up, right?”

Stacy blinked. “You remember my birthday?”

“Yeah, of course I do. Why wouldn’t I?”

“I... I don’t know. Heather never really remembered my birthday.”

“I think we have learned that Heather is a big Arsloch,” Schneep said sweetly.

Stacy let out a laugh. “I don’t know what that means, but I think I get the meaning. And... yeah. I-I guess you’re right.”

Schneep then looked at Chase. “Do you... do you really think Aunt Jess would let us go to another country? Do you think she will want to come?”

“...maybe,” Chase said. “Do you want her to come?”

“I... I like Aunt Jess, and I like Mr. Mann, but...”

Chase nodded. “We can convince her, I’m sure.” He stood up. “This’ll probably be a good time to try, actually.”

“Chase?!” Schneep gasped.

But Chase was already leaving, heading out of the dining room and upstairs.

Mom was in her room, lying in bed reading a book, as she usually did. She glanced up as Chase entered the room. “What is it, sweets?”

“Hey, can Henrik and I go to Ireland with Jackie and his dad?” Chase asked.

Mom sat up straight. “To... to Ireland? Are you sure?”

“Yeah, it’s uh—Stacy’s birthday is coming up and she wanted to do something special, so Jackie invited us all along on this trip with his dad.” Chase paused. Mom looked... unsure. “Pleeeease, Mom? You let us go on a camping trip in the summer!”

“It wasn’t too far a drive to the camping site, I can’t come get you quickly if you’re across the Irish Sea,” Mom said.

“Jackie’s dad will take good care of us!”

Mom chewed on her lip, thinking. “And Henrik wants to go? He’s excited to?”

“Uh-huh.” Chase nodded. “He’s shy about it, but I can tell he really wants to.”

“Um... maybe,” Mom said slowly. “What days were you going to go?”

“Uhhhh we haven’t come up with that yet,” Chase said.

“Talk more about it and ask me again tomorrow, okay?”

Chase brightened. “Thanks Mom! Love you!” Then he spun around and headed back to the others.

Schneep had his head on the table, looking like he was going to die from anticipation. But he looked up when Chase walked back in the room. “Hah?”

“She said maybe!” Chase said cheerfully. “That’s basically yes!”

Stacy raised an eyebrow. “In my experience, a ��maybe’ is basically no.”

“Well for Mom it’s basically yes.” Chase sat down at his chair again. “She wants to know what days we’re going, though.”

“Hm...” Jackie thought about it. “What about the 29th and 30th? Because people might have New Year’s Eve plans on the 31st.”

Stacy, Marvin, and JJ all nodded silently. That’s pretty soon but we’ll see what we can do, JJ said.

“It’s totally fine if not all of you can come,” Jackie said. “I can talk to Jack on my own if needed.”

But as it turned out, Jackie wouldn’ be going alone at all. With some convincing, all the parents agreed to let the kids go on a short overnight trip to Ireland. So, they all made arrangements, buying ferry tickets and having Mr. Mann rent a car and a hotel room. They would leave on the morning of the 29th.

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The others were complaining that it was a long drive, but Chase thought it was fine. And he even had the worst seat! Jackie’s dad had rented a minivan once they arrived on the Irish coast. Chase was sitting on the middle seat in the very back, sandwiched between Schneep and Stacy. Marvin and JJ were in the two seats in the middle row, while Jackie had the passenger seat and his dad drove. They’d been listening to a CD Jackie brought specifically for this drive, a mix of some of his favorite songs along with some requests from the kids.

“Ugh, are we there yet?” Marvin complained.

“We’re almost there,” Mr. Mann said.

“You’ve been saying that forever, though!”

“Well, we’re really almost there now.”

Schneep looked out the window. “It does not look like there is much out there. Just grass and trees. And that stone wall that’s been next to us for ages.” They’d been driving along countryside roads, surrounded by farmlands, but now they were passing into a more wild area, with more and more trees popping up.

“You’re all really committed to finding this friend of Jackie’s,” Mr. Mann commented. “You were really insistent on coming.”

“Well, uh, it would’ve been boring to just hang out in the hotel room,” Chase said.

“Not that the drive is much more exciting,” Stacy muttered.

“Hey, at least it will be interesting once we get there!”

They only had to wait for a few more minutes after this exchange before Mr. Mann said, “That must be the driveway,” and turned onto a small dirt road. They drove through a small stint of trees, then emerged into a clearing. The dirt road led up a small hill to a cabin. It was a cloudy day, fairly dim despite it being around two in the afternoon, and the kids could see orange-yellow light coming from an open window. A figure moved around inside. Were they watching them approach?

“Hm... doesn’t look like anyone’s home,” Mr. Mann said.

JJ shook his head. No, I saw someone in the window.

“JJ saw someone in the window,” Marvin repeated, since Mr. Mann wasn’t looking in JJ’s direction.

“Yeah, I saw that too,” Chase added.

“Well, alright.” Mr. Mann parked next to the cabin. “You all can go up and talk. I’ll wait in the car for now. Jackie, text message me if you want me to stay or leave.”

“I will, Dad, don’t worry,” Jackie said. He opened up the passenger side door, then looked back at the kids. “Alright, I’ll lead the way. The rest of you stay back at first, Jack and his family might think it’s weird to be approached by a whole group of kids.”

“Got it!” Marvin said, immediately pulling open the door and hopping out. JJ wasn’t far behind him.

“Hey wait for us, you two!” Chase shouted. He undid his seatbelt and scrambled out after them.

The group walked up to the front door. Chase leaned to the side, trying to look through the front windows, but at some point while they were waiting in the car, someone had closed the curtains. Jackie rang the doorbell.

Nothing happened.

“...awkward,” Stacy muttered.

Jackie frowned and rang the doorbell again. Chase saw the curtains shift slightly, and then the door opened, just wide enough for the group to get a look at who’s on the other side. A teenage boy, with brown hair hidden beneath a flatcap, bright blue eyes looking at him curiously. He was wearing an oversized gray hoodie, which seemed to swallow him up. “Uh... hi?”

The kids all stared silently. This guy looked almost exactly like Anti. Obviously he didn’t have the glowing eyes or the shadowy body. And Anti’s hair was wild, a bit of a beard starting to grow on his face, which was a bit narrower than this guys. But other than that, this guy was a dead ringer for Anti.

“Hi, uh... Jack McLoughlin?” Jackie asked. “You might not remember me, but we... we went to school together last year. You were in the year above me. I’m Jackie Mann?”

“Um...” Jack squinted at Jackie. Then he glanced at the kids, confused.

“You, uh... might better remember me as some other name?” Jackie said reluctantly. “Jul—”

“Oh! Oh, you’re that one. Oh, yeah.” Jack nodded. “It’s uh... good to see you again. What’re you doing all the way out here? With a bunch of kids?”

“Well... this is going to sound strange, but we came here looking for you,” Jackie said.

“Me?” Jack blinked. “Uh... do I... have something of yours? Did I not realize I took something from you during class?”

“No, it’s not that, it’s uh... well it’s hard to explain—”

Do you know Anti? JJ asked.

Jack stared at him, clearly not understanding BSL. “Um... sorry, I don’t know sign language.”

Chase nudged JJ. “Hey, shush, you can’t just ask that.”

“He asked if you know Anti,” Marvin blurted out.

“Marvin! JJ!” Jackie gasped.

Jack started in surprise, opening the door a little more. “H-huh? How do you guys know about Anti?”

“You do know him?!” Schneep’s eyes went wide behind his glasses.

“Well, yeah, o-of course... How do you know about him? Who are you guys?”

“I’m Stacy,” Stacy offered, raising her hand.

“And I’m Chase,” Chase added.

“Uh, well, Anti’s been sort of... messing with all of us,” Jackie explained. “He’s been popping up all over Hollewych—you know, your old home. And we were wondering if you would have any information on him?”

Jack stared at them, eyes wide, mouth slightly agape. “Wait... are you telling me Anti is real?”

“Huh?” Chase looked up at him. “What do you mean? You just said you know him!”

“Yeah, but... uh...” Jack opened the door some more. “Why don’t you all, uh... come inside? It’s pretty cold out here.”

“...Thanks,” Jackie said, and he led the way into the room.

The interior of the cabin wasn’t much warmer. Maybe there wasn’t much heating. Chase looked around the living room, taking in the wooden walls and the blankets draped all over the cushy sofa and the reclining armchair. “Oh you have a GameCube too!” Chase said excitedly. “And a whole lot of other consoles, too! That’s cool!”

“Hah, thanks.” Jack closed the door behind the group. “So, uh... I’m Jack. You all clearly know me. Who are all of you?”

“Like I said, I’m Jackie Mann,” Jackie said. “This is Chase Brody, his cousin Henrik, Jameson Jackson and his brother Marvin, and Stacy Siegel. S-sorry for dropping in so suddenly. We, uh... couldn’t find your phone number. Only your address. I guess we could’ve sent a letter, but... this felt too important for that. And it might get lost and stuff, you know...” Jackie trailed off, realizing he was rambling.

“It is nice to meet you,” Schneep said politely.

“Yeah, your cabin is cool,” Marvin added. “And not just literally, though it is kinda cold here. I guess you don’t really have much heating, which must suck cause you’re all the way out in the wilderness—” JJ elbowed him lightly. “Sorry, we’re getting distracted. The point is. Anti.”

“Uh, nice to meet you all, too,” Jack said. “My parents are out right now. Do you all want... I don’t know, a snack or something?”

Chase was tempted, but he shook his head, as did all the others. “We should get to the point,” Stacy said. “What’s up with you and Anti? You look just like him.”

“I know.” Jack nodded.

“You know?” Jackie repeated. “So—so you’ve seen him. But... you didn’t think he was real?”

“Well, no.” Jack sat down on the sofa. Jackie sat down on the recliner, feeling awkward to stay standing, while Marvin and JJ casually sat on the sofa as well, leaving the other three standing. “You see, Anti... Anti was my imaginary friend when I was a kid.”

“An imaginary friend?” Schneep repeated. “No wonder you were so surprised to hear us speak about him like he was real. Which, ah... he is. He has really been bothering us.”

Jack laughed. “That’s fucking insane to hear.”

“How old were you when Anti was your imaginary friend?” Marvin asked.

“Uh... honestly, I remember him being around in some way since, like... my earliest memories. But I stopped imagining him when I was around, uh, eight or nine, I think? Or that’s what I thought. Clearly, he still exists... and is real, fucking hell.” Jack took off his hat, staring off into the distance.

“Can you tell us what you remember about him?” Jackie asked.

“Uh... sure, but first, tell me about how he’s been bothering you.”

JJ immediately started signing. He first showed up when we were doing a ghost hunt in the library, but Marvin and I didn’t see him that time—

“JJ, he wasn’t ordering you,” Marvin said gently. 

Jack blinked. “Uh, yeah, s-sorry, that wasn’t me, like... o-ordering you? I was just... asking you.” He seemed confused about the whole thing.

Jameson let out a relieved breath. I’ve been trying to talk this whole time, but the doll was listening to the shush command.

“The shush command?” Chase asked, confused. JJ glared at him. “Wh-what?! What did I do?”

“You did say ‘shush’ to him,” Jackie muttered.

“Oh, I... I-I’m sorry,” Chase said awkwardly.

It’s fine, JJ said, looking away but still glaring. It’s more important that we explain things to Jack right now.

“JJ...” Marvin said softly.

Not right now. Later. I’m fine, I promise.

Jack, only getting half this conversation, looked very bewildered at all of this.

“Um...” Jackie cleared his throat. “Anyway, I didn’t see Anti at first. I think Chase did. Chase, why don’t you start this?”

Chase nodded. He still felt a little unsettled by JJ’s glaring at him, but... well, if JJ didn’t want to talk about it, he should probably bring it up later. Mom would want him to bring it up, and starting a talk had helped with Schneep and Marvin before. So... he’d definitely talk to JJ about it the next chance he had. This wasn’t the time, though. “Well, uh, I think the first time I saw him was when I was skateboarding...”

The group took turns explaining everything they knew about Anti, including how they’d noticed Jack in the picture for Band in school last year and realized he looked like him. That seemed to make Jack think, as he tilted his head to the side. When it was all over, Jack said, “The shadowy bits and the green eyes are new... and so is the, uh, bleeding throat. Eugh.” He shuddered.

“What did he look like when you knew him?” Jackie asked.

“Well, uh... he just looked like me,” Jack recalled. “But he acted like the opposite of me. I didn’t like peas, but he loved them. I liked going outside, but he hated it. Stuff like that. So I called him the anti-me. And from there, it just became Anti.”

Did your parents know about your imaginary friend? JJ asked, and Marvin translated for Jack.

“Yeah, of course they did. I never shut up about him. Talked to him a lot, too, sometimes right in front of them.”

“What do they think about Anti?” Schneep asked, looking a bit worried.

Jack shrugged. “They’re just kind of like... ‘oh yeah your little friend, that was cute’.” He paused. “I... I think.”

“You think?” Stacy repeated.

“Well, uh... I’ve been having a bunch of thoughts while you guys were telling me all this,” Jack said slowly. “And I... I wonder if they’ve actually been kind of... dismissive about Anti? I-I don’t know. Like, they didn’t want to talk about him, so they dismissed me when I brought him up. Changed the subject and stuff. At least, that’s what it’s been like in recent memory. Whenever I bring him up like ‘haha remember my imaginary friend?’ you know. I can’t really remember if... if they did that when I was a kid...” He hunched, shrinking into himself. “Sorry, that’d probably not very helpful.”

“No, it is!” Schneep said. “Because it means your mama and papa probably do not want you to think about it. And since Anti is real... maybe they know that?”

“Maybe they know Anti is real?” Chase repeated. “But Jack thought he was imaginary. Why wouldn’t they tell him that he wasn’t?”

“Maybe they were trying to keep him happy?” Stacy asked. “Parents lie to their kids all the time to keep them happy.”

“Yeah, like Santa Claus,” Marvin agreed. “He’s like, the childhood lie.”

Chase blinked. “Santa Claus is what?”

“Anyway!” Jackie said quickly. “I definitely think your parents know something. I actually wanted to ask you about how you moved here. Everyone I talked to said your move was really sudden.”

“Oh yeah, it was.” Jack nodded. “Mom told me one day we’d be moving back to Ireland, and then like, a week later we were out of the country.”

“A week?!” Chase repeated. “There’s no way. Nooo way. I remember when me and Mom and Dad moved here—or, uh, to Hollewych, but you know. Anyway I remember moving. It took for-ev-er. Just packing everything took ages! I mean I guess maybe it was easier for you guys since you didn’t have to get plane tickets or anything, cause there’s the ferry to Ireland. But still!”

“I agree.” Schneep nodded. “There is no way you were able to take all your things.”

“We, uh... we didn’t,” Jack said. “I... thought that was normal.”

“I guess it depends on how attached people get to their stuff,” Stacy said. “But I agree. Moving in just a week isn’t normal.”

“What, did you leave your house under the cover of night, too?” Marvin added jokingly.

Jack’s eyes widened slightly. “We did... Mom said the ferry would be less crowded, but...”

“Oh that’s definitely not normal,” Jackie said.

“I...” Jack leaned back, staring blankly into the distance.

Are you alright? JJ asked.

“JJ wants to know if you’re alright,” Marvin reported.

“I... I’m thinking about some stuff,” Jack said slowly.

“...sorry about this,” Chase muttered. He felt so bad about this. They didn’t even know Jack—most of them, at least, and even Jackie barely knew him—but they’d come all this way. Only to break his brain. 

“No, no, it’s fine,” Jack assures Chase. “Uh... So do you guys think my parents made us move... because of Anti?”

“That, or because of the Circle,” Marvin added. “Those guys are bad news.” JJ nodded firmly next to him.

“...The what?” Jack asked faintly.

“Oh fuck we didn’t tell you about the Circle,” Marvin realized. “Okay so basically they’re a secret group...”

By the time the group got done explaining the Circle, Jack looked thoroughly mind freaked. “Holy shit,” he whispered. “And all that is happening in Hollewych?”

“Yep,” Jackie said, putting extra emphasis on the P.

“And you guys haven’t told anyone else about this? Why haven’t you told the police? Or—okay I know this is going to sound strange given what I’m thinking about my own parents, but—why haven’t you told your parents?”

“I tried to tell the police, but they didn’t listen to me!” Jackie said. “And I didn’t even mention any of the supernatural stuff, they’d think it was a prank if I started talking about all that. Not to mention our last encounter with the Circle on Christmas makes me think they have police people as part of their group.”

“As for why we don’t tell our parents... Our Mam and Dad suck,” Marvin said.

Well I wouldn’t say they ‘suck,’ exactly— JJ said.

“I say they suck. And you know they do too, otherwise we would’ve explained everything about the hospital to them!”

JJ slowly lowered his hands. Schneep sat down next to him, nodding slowly.

“And I think my parents wouldn’t believe me, either,” Stacy muttered. “Even if they did, all they’d do is keep me from seeing the boys and think that solves everything.”

“My dad would insist on going to the police, no matter what,” Jackie said. “Even if I told him that the local police wouldn’t help, I wouldn’t be surprised if he went to the government or something. And we—we don’t need this to get any bigger than it already is. Calling the government wouldn’t help anything.”

Chase nodded. “Mom would do the same thing. And she’d try to get us to stop! But Anti’s not gonna let us stop! He wants us to fight the Circle.���

“...Anti did like to play games,” Jack said quietly. “He was always coming up with ones. I did too, but I think he was better at it. Or, as good as a kid could be at making games.” He went silent for a moment. “Do you guys... want to look around the house?”

“Huh? For what?” Jackie asked.

“I don’t know. For... stuff about Anti. I think I used to make drawings of him. Or like... pretend he was in pictures. Maybe if I can find some of those old pictures I’ll find out that he was... th-that I wasn’t just pretending.” Jack shivered slightly.

“Are... are you okay?” Chase asked.

“I just... I remember Anti was a friend,” Jack said quietly. “An imaginary one, but still... I never thought he’d hurt people like this.”

“To be fair to Anti... I think he just acts really young all the time,” Stacy said slowly. “Even though he looks like a teenager, it’s like... his brain is a kid’s.”

“He still pushed me down the stairs,” Marvin grumbled.

“The last time you saw Anti was almost ten years ago, yes?” Schneep said. “A lot can change in that time.”

“I think it was... eight years or so. But, uh... yeah. You’re right.” Jack nodded. “Uh... anyway. Do you want to look around the house?”

“No, that’s fine.” Jackie shook his head. “That’ll feel weird.”

“Then... what if I looked around on my own time?” Jack asked. “I could give you my phone number and I’ll call you if I find anything?”

“That’d be great,” Jackie said. “Thanks, Jack.” He smiled slightly.

Jack smiled back. “Do you guys want to stick around? I don’t... don’t know what you could do. Play video games?”

Chase and Marvin perked up slightly, but the others didn’t look too enthusiastic. “It’s fine, Jack, thank you,” Jackie said. “We’ll just head back to the city and stay in our hotel room.”

“Okay...” Jack nodded. “I-it was nice to meet you guys. Even with... with you telling me all of this. I still need to, uh, think about all this.”

It was nice to meet you too, Jack, JJ said.

“Yeah, what JJ said! It’s nice to meet you too!” Marvin repeated.

“Thank you for telling us about Anti,” Schneep said. “About him being an imaginary friend.”

“And thanks for offering to, uh, text us and stuff,” Stacy added.

“I like your house,” Chase offered, since everyone else had already said what he was going to.

Jack laughed. “Thanks, uh, dude.”

“We’ll just head out now,” Jackie said. “Thanks for meeting with us.”

“No problem. I’ll, uh... call you... and stuff.”

The group left Jack’s house, waving goodbye to him as he closed the front door. The rented car was still there, with Mr. Mann sitting inside. As the group all got in, taking the same seats they’d been sitting in for the whole car ride there, Mr. Mann asked, “So, how’d it go?”

“Uh... good, I guess,” Jackie said. 

The others all agreed, but Chase stared out the window, looking at the cabin. He hadn’t felt like they’d learned much. Anti was Jack’s imaginary friend, but what did that mean? Was that going to help them at all?

Well... it was better than nothing, he supposed.

++++++++++++++++++++

The whole group was crowded into one hotel room. It was a big hotel room, but still. With six kids and a supervising adult, it was going to be crowded as they stayed the night here. Stacy cheerfully tried to frame it as a sleepover, but still. Crowded.

There were two double-size beds and a sofa that folded out into a bed, and Mr. Mann  had also brought a blow-up air mattress. Stacy got the mattress all to herself, since she was the only girl. Jackie and Mr. Mann shared the sofa, the twins got one of the beds, and Chase and Schneep shared the other.

They’d been traveling all day and they were exhausted. Schneep wanted to go to bed early, and it was decided that it’d be easier for everyone to go to sleep at the same time in such a small space. They took turns in the bathroom brushing their teeth and getting into pajamas and such, and then it was time to rest.

Except... Chase wanted to do something first.

“Hey, uh... JJ?” Chase tapped him on the shoulder. “Can I talk to you somewhere, uh... private?”

JJ had been adjusting his pillows for bed, but now he stood up straight. Not many options for that in this room. Do you want to go in the bathroom or something?

“Uh... yeah, I guess?” The only other option was to leave the room and stand in the hallway, and Chase didn’t want to do that. Any random person could overhear them. “Jackie’s dad is in there right now, let’s go in after him.”

JJ nodded. Marvin climbed into the other side of the bed and looked at them curiously. “What do you wanna talk about?”

“That’s uh... it’s supposed to be private for a reason...” Chase said slowly.

“Oh. Right.” Marvin winced. “Uh... go on, then.”

The two of them waited for a bit, then as soon as the bathroom was free they went inside, with Chase closing the door behind them. Hopefully no one else would need this... and hopefully no one would be able to overhear them. Chase wasn’t planning on being too loud, but if anyone stood outside the door, they might hear him—even if they couldn’t hear JJ.

JJ leaned against the closed bathroom door. The light in here was bright, bouncing off the white walls, the white floor, the white bathtub, the white... everything, really. Why were hotel bathrooms always so white? So... what do you want to talk about? JJ asked.

“Uh... well.” Chase hadn’t actually thought much about how to phrase it once the time came. “I... I know that you’re mad at me. And, uh... I know why. I’m sorry about all the... the doll stuff I’ve been doing. Or, uh, the way I’ve been... I-I really don’t mean to keep making you do stuff. I’m sorry. I just... I don’t want you to be mad at me.”

JJ stared at him. You “know” I’m mad at you?

“Well, yeah, you’ve been glaring at me and stuff.”

Sorry.

“No, no, I’m sorry,” Chase insisted. “I’m trying to be better, but I keep slipping up.”

JJ pursed his lips. Thank you, Chase.

Chase stared at him. Was he upsetting him more? “Uh... is there something you want to talk to me about?”

No, it’s fine.

“Come on, man, I can tell something’s bothering you. I-if I’m doing something wrong I want to know.”

I know you’re trying your best, Chase, JJ said, not looking directly at him.

“Well, yeah, but—but—”  Chase shook his head. “Come on, JJ, tell me what’s wrong.”

JJ’s eyes suddenly snapped to him. What’s wrong is that I have this stupid doll forcing me to do things I don’t want to do, and even if they’re things that don’t hurt anyone every time it happens I get scared. I already deal with Mam and Dad on my back about being their perfect son all the time, I don’t want to deal with other people forcing me to obey them, too!

“You don’t have to do what your parents say—” Chase started to say.

No, you don’t get it, Chase. I don’t think you get anything about this whole situation I’m in. Because you keep telling me to do stuff even though you know what the doll does, even though everyone else keeps telling you to be careful, you just don’t listen and keep doing the same thing. Is this not serious to you?! Because it’s very serious to me!

“I’m trying to—”

I know you’re trying, but I don’t think you’re trying hard enough. Because here I am, standing in front of you, telling you everything that’s wrong because you told me to. Even though I don’t want to! Even though I want to pretend that everything’s fine! I just keep talking even as I’m trying to stop my hands from moving. And you clearly didn’t even know what you were doing! Would it kill you to pay more attention to what you say?! Would it kill you to try to understand what I’m dealing with?!

Chase stared at him, mouth dropped open. He... had to be misunderstanding some of JJ’s signing, right?

JJ stared right back, breathing heavily. He rubbed his wrists; he’d been signing so much and so furiously that they were hurting. Can you... not talk to me? For the rest of the night?

Chase couldn’t respond. He just kept staring.

...Thank you, JJ said. He turned around, opened the bathroom door, and left.

But Chase just kept standing there. He thought he’d been trying his best to help JJ out. Was he not trying hard enough? Was that why JJ was so mad at him? He had told him to tell him what was wrong just now, and he hadn’t even realized it.

He should... give JJ some space for the rest of their trip. Maybe they’d both feel better about everything once they were back home. Maybe then he could ask Mom or some of his friends if there was anything else he could do.

And so, with that in mind, Chase left the room and climbed into bed. He laid awake for a while, listening to everyone else fall asleep around him before he finally fell asleep too.

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LOKI S2 FINALE GLORIOUS PURPOSE

Just spent over an hour crying over the Loki S2 Finale, and still havent recovered, but here I go anyway with my Reaction/ Review

*Loki S2 E6 Spoilers ahead*

Okay so... before watching the episode I wrote down a couple things that I did NOT want to happen/ but knowing myself, and my luck with my characters, figured that was exactly what would happen....

and turns out... I was correct....

Back in Infinty War I feared/ predicted that Loki was gonna die in the first 10 min in a stupid way where he wouldnt be able to show off his powers... and we all know how that turned out...

For this season finale, all I hoped was that Loki, for once wouldnt play the self sacrifical lamb, and find a way where he didnt have to lose Mobius and his new found friends, where he would be not alone...

So.... yeah.... about that....

Now to the Review/ Reaction:

God I was so scared

"Glorious Purpose"

The title alone had me tearing up.... we really came full circle back to S1 E1 and the fact that they started the recap with 2012 Loki too...

1 min 30 in and I'm already pausing, THE INTRO IS BACKWARDS, thar was so cool

So we all knew Loki would have to go back and try to safe everyone

BUT MARVEL DIDNT HAVE TO SHOW US TIMELY DYING OVER AND OVER AGAIN (and in so many angles too....)

Then Loki trying to learn everything OB knows to be prepared to help, but it would take time, makes sense

"CENTURIES LATER"

WHAT?! They really did that, good thing Loki has that long Life span...

The fact that all the characters realizes sth was off with Loki but MOBIUS is the one to stop and talks to him, and Loki telling him to trust him.... my heart

OH MY GOD ITS WORKING?! And Timely survived too? Did not expect that

I have never seen Loki this relieved/ happy but at the same time sad and exhausted before...

But of course its never that "easy"

No matter what, the infinite amount of branches will always detroy the loom, so the moment a timeline branched everything was doomed from he start... Ah yes Marvel and their existential dread...

Loki going back to before Sylvie killed He Who Remains, trying to convince her not to kill him.... and of course she says he has to kill her if he wants to stop her...

God Loki's Emotional Damage....

Of course Loki cant

HWR COULD HAVE STOPPED TIME THAT THE WHOLE TIME!??!! The fact that he figured Loki has gone through this whole scene before and still just watched

He knows about time slipping...

He paved he road

He planned this

Him and Loki had this conversations before

"We die with the dying, we are born with the dead"

That is such a sick quote :0

Its basically Loki vs HWR forever, and Loki knows he will always lose... but still wants to try... kudos to his determination

And of course Loki cant bring himself to trade lives... not Sylvie's, not his friends and not the multiverses...

Loki goes back to the first time he talked to Mobius...NOOOOO not the Throne talk, why does this feel like a final good bye talk.... I HATE IT

Though S1 E1 Mobius having a chat with S2 E6 Loki is such an interesting concept

He wants to find out how they chose who lives and dies... ("Who lives, who dies, who tells your story" huh? Sorry but I had to make that Hamilton reference XD)

"You're not gonna find comfort in the TVA" - Mobius to Loki

BUT HE DID, LOKI DID FIND COMFORT, IN YOU MOBIUS, Im gonna cry ... the TVA was the first place where Loki could just be himself and he found friends there too

Also Mobius might be the only comfort character who actually gives comfort (and isnt just an angsty mess who hasnt had a happy day ever)

Mobius telling the story of a hunter who couldnt kill a kid, which caused more death, loosing sight of the bigger picture

So he is talking about himself right? And of course Renslayer was the Partner

Mobius telling Loki they have to chose a burden and live with it... that it leaves scars.

Theres this sinking feeling again

And the scene SPGAHETTIFIES?! I SWEAR TO GOD MARVEL, NOT AGAIN, STOP GIVING US FANS PTSD THROUGH VISUAL EFFECTS

I dont know what to think of Loki & Sylvie's final talk.... Loki has an idea?

Oh NoNONONONONONO

I FREAKING KNEW HE WAS GONNA GO THE SELF SACRFICE ROUTE BACK FROM EP 1 AND I FIGURED HE WOULD TAKE TIMELY'S PLACE IN EP 5 BUT THIS?!

Cant he ever be happy?! Is there any Loki, in any universe who actually gets to be happy?!

The fact that Mobius was the first to notice and that him and Sylvie immediately followed Loki, tried to talk him out of it

Loki looking back, saying he finally knows what he wants

MY HEART

LOKI WALKING THROUGH SPACE WITHSTANDING THE RADIATION JUST LIKE THOR WITHSTOOD THE DYING STAR IN INFINITY WAR, THE PARALLELS

THE NEW OUTFIT, THE CAPE, HIS HORNED HELMET, OH MY GOD

It looks like an End of Time Aesthetic Version of his Ragnarok Outfit wih the Cracked Kintsugi helmet

Ngl at first I had no idea if he was using his powers to manually destroy, change or preserve the branches.... or weave them together

Oh and to be clear I was crying during like the whole last 20 min of the episode because that was just too many emotions at once

Also can we talk about how freaking cool looking the shots of Loki with the new Helmet and the branches being his cape, were?!

The throne... Oh god the remains of HWR throne...

LOKI'S GLORIOUS PURPOSE WAS TAKING ON THE BURDEN OF THE THRONE HE NEVER WANTED

*starts violently sobbing*

Poetic, Ironic and Heartbreaking, all at the same time

Like, is it extremely cool to see him use his powers to his full potential? Yes definitely.

Were the cinematics beautiful? Yes of course, it was gorgeous, tho the moment I realized he was making Yggdrasil, I started bawling my eyes out, because "You go Loki, show us what you can do"

But I also felt my heart break because Loki is now at the end if time, chose to have to watch over & protect the multiverse, all alone, forever.... (can he leave that place?)

Like this is the very same Loki, who just, 1 episode ago, admitted that he is terrified of being alone, who just wants to be with his friends. L1130 is a Loki who was actually happy and had friends, a place where he felt safe because he could be himself. And he gave EVERYTHING up to give EVERYONE ELSE a chance at life, a life he might not be able to take part in... he can watch, but we dont know if he can interact with them....

I literally talked about that in my reaction/ review from last episode. Sylvie & Loki are both selfish, which is ironically a very human trait (them being gods and all), but unlike Sylvie, Loki would actually give up everything to safe others, which is exactly what he did.

And I know Comic Loki, God of Stories, wrote himself out if the Narrative as well, out of the Story, to look behind the curtain, have a talk with the beings behind everything, but that Loki also had Verity, he had a friend outside of everything, he had someome to talk to, a friend. Verity is one of my fav characters and I would have loved to see her Comic Version too in the MCU, but I saw B-15's Name was revealed to be Verity Willis, so thats is cool Easter Egg :D

Back to Loki, I honestly cant tell which Loki has it the worst... I always thought the main Loki dying to Thanos had it the worst, but he sth akin to a life and he got the chance to mend his relationship with Thor before he died his heroes' death...

Now L1130, in the worst case, is damned to spent eternity alone, the very thing he is scared of, being without his friends, forced to watch from afar as they live life without him, when all he wanted was to be with them... that is unless he can just leave the place whenever he wants to (if the branches allow it I guess?) But if it turns out that he cant leave that place/ or interact with anyone, without everything going down immediately, then I would argue that this Loki's life is worse than the other's death... and I cant believe Im describing Infinity War Loki's Death as a mercy...

Back to the ep...

AFTER?! Right theres an after

The TVA is still intact, with a new leader ship and everyone working together, B-15, OB, Casey and even Ms Minutes is helping?

Mobius looks so sad doing his job though...

Hes gonna LEAVE?! He wants to experience his own life on the timeline, huh... Loki did promise that to Don... and M is going for it, thats sweet actually

Renslayer got sent to the end of time, Alioth waiting for her, well then

Mobius seeing what his life used to be is so sweet, likes how perfectly imperfect is it

Sylvie visits too?

"Its weird Loki's not around" she says and I start bawling my eyes out again, now thats just salting the wound.... at least they remember him

NOOOOO THE SHOT OF LOKI IN HIS THRONE

He is smiling, but he's crying too

Is there ANY Marvel Movie, or Show where Loki doesnt cry?!?! My freaking heart...

Look I know this ending makes rational sense.... and it was defintely epic, and we finally got Loki at his full potential, and yes, Loki being finally recongnized as one of the most powerful MCU characters is cool.

But personally, on an emotional level, that ending is somewhere between bittersweet and absolutely heart breakingly dreadful, because Loki didnt want this, he didnt want the throne, he only did this to save his friends, he gave up his own happiness and I hate it... I know he is happier knowing his friends have a chance at life and that he chose this, but there wasnt much of an choice with HWR....

I just hope that Loki learning to control time means he can at least visit his friend, pop in from time to time, because if him leaving the throne/ the branches means everything could come crashing down, then thats just sad...

And what does that mean for the teased Loki & Thor Reunion?! WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT?! We didnt even get an end credit scene?!

Anyways, I'm gonna rewatch the season the next couple days and go through some theories and head canons and see whether that will change my opinion on the ending, but we'll see.

[the-irrelevant-trumpeter]

OKAY PERCY JACKSON SERIES THOUGHTS REAL QUICK not in any particular order just what my brain is spewing

(spoilers obviously)

okay so like. it was so good. screaming crying throwing up like!!!!

walker leah and aryan are all excellent and i'm so excited to see them throughout the rest of the show

special shoutout to leah because in these first two eps she's had a lot less screentime than the other two and yet she has completely stolen the show for me

forgot that jason mantzoukas is in this and got jumpscared lmao

the car and then minotaur scenes would have been really good if i had been able to see them

i feel like i was expecting luke's scar to be bigger. this isn't a complaint or anything, just an observation.

"NO I AM SALLY JACKSON'S SON" slayed so hard like i screameddd

percy praying to his mum <3333 there's one thing percy jackson will do and that is think of his mum as a goddess

also HIM BURNING THE JELLYBEANS 😭😭😭

also also him telling his mum that he really feels like he's made friends when you know he's talking about luke is TRAGIC oh no the final episode is going to be sooo good and so heartbreaking. oof.

i really REALLY liked virginia kull as sally, but a lot of the dialogue in her scenes felt a bit clunky to me. idk i know they need exposition and all that, but some of it felt a bit weird. especially their conversation right before she was killed

okay i know a few people in the tag have already talked about this, but sally and gabe felt a little off to me. i know the posts i've seen have said that they downplayed how completely and utterly awful gabe is, and while i do think it was downplayed a little bit, he was still bad enough that i didn't feel like that was a major issue. the part that didn't feel quite right to me was the way sally argued back at him. i feel like what she says to him is kind of what the audience should WANT her to say (because gabe's a dick), but the point is that she doesn't say that, because sally jackson loves percy so damn much that she willingly endures that until she is able to get out of that situation. i swear i'm not going to be like "tHiS iSnT hOw iT iS iN tHe bOoK" much, because it's an adaptation and it's going to have to make some changes and that's fine! but in the book, percy states that he's "never heard her raise her voice or say an unkind word to anyone, not even me or gabe" and keeps on emphasising how she constantly withstands gabe and doesn't move against him because of her love for percy, and i just feel like that's an important aspect of her character. also i feel like sally arguing back at gabe is going to make her finally killing him less impactful. and i think it probably also plays a part in gabe's assholery being downplayed. because the argument they have there feels much more like "oh we're so dysfunctional ha ha" instead of "this is an abusive household". you know what i mean? idk i get that it was meant to be a #girlboss moment, and a part of me was like "YEAH GET HIS ASS", but i do feel like that moment didn't serve sally's character as well, changed the dynamic of sally and gabe's relationship, and negatively affected the impact the story will have when percy gives her the means to get rid of gabe and she takes it. this is a very long dot point i'm sorry.

mr d pretending to be percy's dad was SO FUNNY

clarisse is too pretty (/pos), like i was barely paying attention in her scenes because i was literally there like "women <3" thank you dior goodjohn

"you fell in love with god... like jesus?" is a top tier line

i'm so sorry but i'm a "tah-lia" pronunciation truther and it will remain this way in my head

the cut to percy flossing in the woods killed me. like straight up killed me dead.

BLACKJACK BEING THE FIRST MAGICAL THING PERCY SEES!!! THEY'RE GOING TO BE BESTIES!!!

these are all of the thoughts i have atm, and despite my more negative thoughts here, my feelings are almost completely positive (my excitement is less coherent than my criticisms, so i didn't write about them as much). i'm really excited to see the rest of the episodes!

[yourwolfmuzzle]

I still since vol6 surprise how easy its was to switch all attention from “Adam is the main terrorist guy in White Fang, who also have abusive relationship with Blake” into just “edgy ex who stalk Blake and dont have zero problem to kill Yang after finding out that she now new love interest for Blake”. Even such a basic portrait of abusive relationship with some much edgy energy was enough to make people just...forget that we have this whole thing going on with Adam, White Fang and faunus in general because “omg he reminding me my ex boyfriend, kill him girls!”.

Again i dont try to say “never write a stories about abuse” (and this show dont even trying to stop, remember about Oscar and Cinder backstory) or you just cant mix this two thing. You probably can, but with what we have its just two poorly written heavy topics that writers was at first trying to stick this all together, but at the end of the day vol6 just...drop White Fang and racism aspects into a trashcan and ngl, even “story about woman and her dealing with past abusive relationship (and dealing with killing someone, who was a part of your life even if not the best one EVEN if its was in self-defence)” was never later a poing fully and...exist in ONE SCENE. MAYBE TWO if you going to count her talking with Nora in vol8 but even then its more feel like “the end of arc and she already find her ways to heal from this”.

When Bees/Adam episodes happens things like “differences between them and how they want to deal with racism” was never a point about that. Adam showing his scar was not about something something faunus or how humans make this and showing that “i give them chance ones...dont do the same mistake” or shit like this...its was about how Blake left his ass. His scar end up the most confusing and problematic shit after his death and in the show its just...exist. Its just there to make people shut up about “what under his mask”. Its was all about they relationship and how Yang now will be with Blake and how cute and sad they look together after killing him.

And even after ALL THIS and dropping White Fang and racism problem almost fully, remembering only when they want to show how Weiss is protecting Blake from racism or how Yang have argument with some racism lady (who btw end up chilling peacefully with faunus. Yang just end up racism \sparkles\ WOW) a lot of people was exception that Adam death will affect Blake and Yang. At least Blake. People was ignoring this whole racism problem but was hoping that maybe at least the abuse part or post-trauma will be address in some way?

BUT AGAIN. WE HAVE ONLY O N E SCENE WHEN THEY MENTION THIS AND THATS ALL.

Blake dont have any affect after his death, no problems with building after that relationship with Yang and Yang herself dont have anymore any PTSD affect. (yeah because your PTSD work like curse in game. Kill a guy who curse you and all affects from curse will be G O N E). There is only one scene in vol7 about all this but its was more about what ever or not keeping secrets from Ironwood was a good decision and again, MAYBE scene from vol8. Blake was in abuse relationship for pretty long time but after she finally getting away from that, even with blood on her hands, there is not enough going on. There is no a lot of doubt if this was a good choose to kill him, no problems with dealing with new peoples or dealing with her new romance and at the same there is not even happiness that she FINALLY can breath without someone holding her back. All this problem with him and multiple episodes for all this in vol6 just now dont even exist.

Again i have to fucking repeat that - i dont ask to just transform this all into trauma porn. Its just hard to even believe that Yang and Blake even have anything after that. Okay Yang MAYBE, but Blake who know this man for pretty long time and just have almost zero emotions about that?

Both racism part and abuse part its just almost dont exist after that. Even worst, this whole conflict about faunus fighting for they rights, talk about what ever or not you need to fight peacefully or with some violence, just transform into “cute animal people”. Blake just calling herself a cat, talking with illusion Blake about if she want to be a cat or human and Yang just...saying that she have a cute cat ears.

You...you cant just...trying to combine two really heavy elements without any nuances only later just broke them and make from all this some fucking pink cake out of nowhere.

[casliveblog]

Custom Toonami Block Week 171 Rundown

Inuyasha The Final Act: Moryomaru’s on his shit again running around absorbing random demons and… he’s after the snake demons from Yashahime? Honestly I completely forgot they were in the original series and apparently for good reason because the FUCKING DIE, like for all its faults usually Yashahime was pretty good about the connective tissue between the original and itself but I guess these guys just aren’t dead anymore by the time of the series. It is kinda dumb that Moryomaru just kinda wants them because ‘they’re snake brothers that hate each other so if I eat them I can fuse stuff to other stuff’ but his arc’s getting ready to end anyway so who cares. Meanwhile Inuyasha’s consulting Totosai about why his new Tessaiga upgrade doesn’t work the diagnosis is basically ‘sword’s fine, you’re just a lil bitch’ basically the same principle that turns Inuyasha into a full demon if the Tessaiga’s not protecting him, he can’t just absorb demonic energy as a half demon or else he’ll go crazy (did anyone ever tell Towa this? Feel like that was literally never a problem for her) but yeah Inuyasha has to run through a demonic obstacle course and learn how to see swirls of demonic energy which… he could already do with the Wind Scar but I guess this is different. Long story short, he gains the power to cut open wells of demonic energy instead of absorbing them, I think this is used like twice before the Meidou Zangetsuha comes by and eats its lunch which is really funny because they already allude to Meidou Zangetsuha being Tessaiga’s Final Form (which you’d think he could just keep absorbing new powers forever idk) so even on release Dragon Scale Tessaiga is already power crept.

Castlevania: We get an extended scene of how Lisa was captured by the church for… having glass and gears I guess, most of it is stuff we already knew though the thing that sticks out to me is she didn’t use a fake last name, like she goes by Lisa Tepes, good for her being proud of her husband and all but don’t people know Dracula’s name is Vlad Tepes? I think I heard someone mention it before so you’re not really helping your case of not being a hellspawn when you literally have Dracula’s last name, it’s a Ben Kenobi situation all over again. Either way, Dracula calls all his boys up to be like ‘yo, we gonna fuck shit up�� and he’s hired two anime misanthropes with suitably tragic backstories for why humans are awful, to do the planning because if you can’t think on a human level you’re gonna fuck shit up. Though even the resident bloodthirsty fight dude Godbrand is like ‘wait we have a plan? I thought we were just sacking villages all over and summoning as much hellspawn as we could’ which is kind of the plan at this point. I do like how Dracula’s rage is personalized by an exhausted finality instead of a howling rage, like everyone seems to be on the same page of ‘look we don’t like genocide, but this humanity thing has had a good run and needs to stop’ which is kind of worse, like there’s only so much talk no jutsu you can do with someone who’s done talking. Meanwhile Trevor, Sypha and Alucard get their initial brooding about their new journey out of the way (Also how old is Alucard? Like he looks in his twenties, but Lisa doesn’t look that much older than when she met Dracula, maybe she just aged like a fine wine or maybe vampire aging is different and you just pop out a twenty year old classy man but it feels like that did not seem to be a twenty year gap). And now Dracula has moved the castle with the big 3D object thing that’s like the only thing I remember from Symphony of the Night.

Jujutsu Kaisen: Megudad is on the rampage and is ready to Rock Lee all over Cthulu and it’s honestly just fantastic to see like after all the complex bullshit with Domains and Animation jargon last episode it’s satisfying to just watch Dadgumi punch the absolute shit out of this guy. They establish he barely has sentience at this point and is basically acting like a heat seeking missile on the largest mass of cursed energy in the area but once he’s done stabbing Cthulu with nunchaku he takes Megumi outside so idk if he does have a shard of sentience in there and just wants to see his son for a sec or if Megumi’s vaguely defined secret superpowers just make him next on Dadgumi’s heat seeking missile radar. Meanwhile Jogo shows up and Cracatoa’s the remaining three guys in like two seconds and I’m not sure if that’s supposed to be an ‘oh shit he’s strong’ moment or an ‘oh shit those guys were really worn out’ moment. Meanwhile meanwhile, the high school girls are sticking fingers down Yuji’s throat because he apparently has no gag reflex and swallows whatever you put in his mouth when he’s unconscious. Only for Jogo to come out and feed him MORE fingers, like half of them right here which they acknowledge they have to do a bunch at once so Sukuna can take over temporarily before Yuji’s body can adapt. I had a feeling JJK wasn’t going to stick to a Shikon Jewel Shard narrative style of collecting the fingers one at a time but this is still a little more than I expected since he’s basically 75% done and got more fingers in him than a Battle Royale Chinese Finger Trap. So yeah Sukuna’s awake but unfortunately for these guys he want to the Muzan Kibutsuchi school of ‘if you’re not immediately subservient and stroking my ego you’re just dead’ and the high school girls get offed for asking him to save Geto even though he asked them what they wanted, like why’s he even asking if he has no intention of doing anything for anybody. I don’t really like this style of villainy like I tend to go more for people that are reasonable to at least not murder their subordinates instantly since it always makes the villains look egotistical and insecure if they can’t handle five seconds of someone not licking their boots but I suppose it is an effective way to show how powerful they are. Meanwhile Jogo goes over the plan to make sure Sukuna stays in control of Yuji’s body and Sukuna’s just like ‘bro I did that a season and a half ago’ but he gives him the same ultimatum he gave Yuji at that point, land one hit and he’ll do them a favor. Idk if Sukuna even intends to make good on any of these I think he just likes flexing on people cause he offers these a lot.

Frieren: Beyond Journey’s End: As a prelude to their journey to go meet with real ghosts, Frieren and Fern have a classic ‘can you shoot a ghost if it looks like someone you love’ mini-adventure, it’s pretty simple but it works for what it has to in order to solidify both of their resolve to go take care of their unfinished business. And then the girls take turns taking pot shots at a dragon and decide they could really use a tank, luckily Eisen was training a tank named Stark in the nearby village so they’re just gonna go pick him up, get the x-ray specs Frieren wants from the dragon and save the village in the meanwhile if they have time. Now Stark is kinda interesting because he’s like a combo of Zenitsu from Demon Slayer and King from One Punch Man in that he’s a weird coward and a fraud but also genuinely ridiculously strong, he just has no real combat experience and thus is terrified of actual monsters. This may also be in part due to him being the only survivor of his home village which he booked it out of when he was a kid, Eisen wanted to train that out of him which I feel like is a little harsh to beat up a kid about running from a horde of monsters, like that’s not cowardice that’s just being fucking nine. But he seems to have internalized some of that and never really gotten over seeing himself as a coward combined with his lack of experience so despite being able to chop a mountain in half like that story of the guy making a path to the hospital, he’s gonna need some help popping his Monster Cherry.

Vinland Saga: So Arnheid’s plan was a little different than I thought, she’s not sneaking in to see Gardar she’s just kinda… asking to come in and because Wolf left and can’t tell her to gfto she gets the one guy that will let her in, I like how she doesn’t even flirt to do it like she’s not a femme fatale she just shows up and looks pretty and the guy is just there for it. So yeah while they’re talking about a metaphorical storm it literally starts raining because Vinland Saga god has a sense of humor and Gardar pulls a Rick Grimes to bite the guard’s neck out and slaughters everyone when Arnheid cuts him free in a split second panic. Like honestly she was kinda against a wall here like ignoring the fact that it was a coin flip split second decision for her husband, even if she didn’t help him the guards are still gonna assume the guy with a chunk out of his neck had more to do with her than the guy that’s all tied up so she didn’t have much choice. Meanwhile back with Thorfinn and Einar, Thorfinn outlines his philosophy of dismantling the toxic masculinity of Norse culture and how defying cultural norms is better than just fucking murdering people that are mildly rude to you. Still he theorizes that if they can stop the root of endless wars they can kill two birds with one pacifist stone and end a large portion of the slave trade. Given slavery and human trafficking are STILL a thing we know this doesn’t quite work out but at least it’s not as normalized and prone to vast swaths of ‘we killed your guys that were good at killing so you belong to us now’ so uhhh… baby steps? Baby, thousand year long steps… Meanwhile the guards are searching their barn for Gardar and Arnheid which tips Thorfinn and Einar off that they’ve escaped and now they’ve got a decision to make about who to help with that.   

Was gonna add the two new shows this week but couldn't find some of them and ran out of time so I'll think more on what I want to watch this coming week and try to get some new additions for next weekend.

[arillusionist]

s&b s1 ep 4 live reaction!! i didnt have time to watch an episode yesterday unfortunately 😞

hm i thought she was writing him letters?? maybe she wrote them but didnt send them

so shes writing him letters and not sending them and hes writing her letters but not sending them?? i think?? im confused

love how she doesnt rlly treat him like a general and js treats him like hes some annoying guy 🔥🔥

inej looks so done with everything im cryinf 😭😭😭

his smirk!! book accurate kaz is here please let his sarcastic side show 🙏🙏

jesper is so dramatic and for WHAT

ugh not to be mean but everytime non crows come on screen i get so bored

i need them to show zoya she interests me

how the hell is hitting alina supposed to make her powers work 💀💀

WHAT IS KAZ WEARING LMAOO

I CANT STOP LAUGHING

inej is so cool the coolest this is why shes my favorite

eating up my 2.2 seconds of kanej banter 🙏🙏 inej definitely knew it was him lmao

nina mention whoo!!! they better actually show her

i need this conductor person GONE he keeps acting like hes part of the crew but hes not and we all know it

NINA IS SUCH A QUEEN I LOVE HER 🔥🔥🔥

"that you kill us. every chance you get" DAWG HAVE YOU SEEN YOURSELF

lmfaoo now kaz is the one who looks so done 💀💀 the side eye is crazy

NOT THEM SAYING "SHUT UP JESPER" IN SYNC #relationshipgoals 😍😍 (i think i watched this scene like 10 times)

"friends" Shut up

THE FUCKING EYE CONTACT I CANNOT BREATHEEEEE

THE WAY THEY NEVER TOOK THEIR EYES OFF EACH OTHER NOT EVEN ONCE!!!!!

I LOVE THEM 😭😭😭 SM 😭😭 another scene which i watched 10 times

but also "friend"?? inej babe stop lying to yourself

HELP NOT KAZ GLARING AT EVERYONE WHOS ADMIRING HER 💀💀

"i'll make my own way" haha you just have no talents

YEAH ALINA PUNCH THE SHIT OUT OF HER SHE DESERVES IT!!!

ah so that explains the matching scars. interesting

oh my god this scene makes me so uncomfortable... LIKE GET YOUR HANDS OFF HER!! GET A JOB 🗣️🗣️

and the way he literally dragged her forward?? weirdoo

mals little bro pal dudes are so boring and annoying who even allowed them to get screen time 😐😐

YESSS alina finally stopped pining over mal i mean im not opposed to the ship or anything but like. really all she did was talk abt him

i feel a teensy bit bad for mal tho 😭😭 like shes ready to get over him but hes not over her

wait but mal punching the quartermaster was so real... i feel a little more bad for him now IM STILL HAPPY FOR ALINA THO!!!

Oh damn when i said mals friends were annoying i didnt mean i wanted them to die ... 💀

EXCUSE ME WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS OVER?? WHAT ABOUT THE CROWS WHY DIDNT THEY SHOW UP AGAIN 💔💔

i think im getting a little more invested in alina's storyline now!! which is good

[erstwhilesparrow]

okay. been thinking about double life mecha AUs because there's some really good pacific rim AUs out there that make me want to chew on drywall. let's. attempt putting thoughts to words:

not really thinking about pacific rim specifically on account of I Haven't Finished That Movie. the drift thing sounds cool, i am generally willing to trust that it can be / is an interesting analogue for soulbonds. people should tell me if this is true / false.

also thinking about the way friends at the table tends to talk about mechs. Mechs Are About Bodies. what bodies do we think are beautiful / terrifying / grotesque. what do we think of as a human body. how do we talk about bodies and machines and where are the [blurred lines / overlaps / divergences]. this can be interesting when considered next to double life on account of [minecraft bodies are weird]? the only way to really interact with them is. distantly or violently. you can throw someone a thing but you can't put that thing in their hand directly. you can punch someone but you can't hold them. you can stand in front of someone but that doesn't necessarily stop them from moving past / through you. i don't have more of a thing here but this could be Interesting To Play With.

thinking about neon genesis evangelion's thing where their mechs are explicitly an attempt to copy a technology / being that they didn't quite understand that was capable of destroying the world. connected to this, thinking about minecraft as a game whose history clearly contains Something Happening. the ruins and the ancient cities and so much of it overgrown and wrecked. i like the idea of their mechs being something they copied the shape of but not the purpose. like, these things used to be used for games and now they are for war?

("sparrow are you implying the existence of mech sports" yeah have you ever seen friends at the table's bonus episode where they play Sports Are Just Numerology and invent mech sports. it's good and important and There's Precedent. you're lucky i didn't try to bring Mech Fishing into this.)

related to the point about games, opening sentence that struck me and never went anywhere: "It works just like the old games: three strikes and you're out." (about martyn trying to save grian, trying to save ren, trying to save cleo, and then failing or being rejected at each turn and giving up and killing scott. the realization that grian didn't want / need to be saved from scar in 3rd life. the dying right after ren did trying to kill desert duo in that season's finale, and also i hear whispers about helping ren out with a fire in his base in last life? thinking cleo needs to be convinced / saved from scott in double life and being told no, cleo suggested this and wanted it. hell, even as its own thing separate from mechs, this is not completely nothing.)

considering a scene where cleo, fed up with whatever nonsense martyn's doing, asks what he's even trying to accomplish, and martyn answers, "I'm going to get us out of here." which. implies some things. i haven't bothered fleshing out those things.

mech names. shoutout to Thunderbirds_and_Lightning for Slingshot Eden and Flower Delta. shoutout to friends at the table for Belgard and Stray Dog and a million other incredible names that i'm forgetting. wouldn't it be fun to have names that refer to each part of the pair. Mawseed:Brachiate. Calotrope:Diffusion. wouldn't it be fun to put them next to each other ostensibly joined but still visibly separated by something. consider the ways this can be like soulmates.

okay 100% this one is a porn premise but thinking about that post that's like "mech pilots aren't horny because of the joy of meeting your equal in battle or whatever, they're horny because the mechs have direct connections to their nervous systems and inextricably link violence / destruction to being pumped full of dopamine / oxytocin" and martyn getting fucked up while still connected to the mech and later showing up on cleo's doorstep talking about how his brain's gotten scrambled and asking them to hurt him because it's the only thing that feels good anymore and they're the only one who gets it. (alternatively, asking to have someone to hurt. alternatively alternatively, neither of them quite actually wants to be the one getting hurt but also they are the only ones who understand each other about this so they suck it up and deal and remind themselves they'll get their turn later.)

actually. direct nervous system connection to the mech is Also something that would be fun and interesting to play with just in full generality. i don't have more here but like. You Can Make This Upsetting (tone: having fun :] ). (Mechs Are About Bodies: what bodies count as bodies? what's a fair punching bag and what needs careful maintenance and how might a war adjust those priorities? -- thinking also about that one ttrpg that has a move specifically called Meat Is Cheap; Save The Metal.)

also thinking about that post about. mech pilots should be more visibly changed by their connections to their mechs? like. can't keep down food that isn't This One Specific Nutrient Paste. visibly haggard and also drippy from spending so much time in the cockpit filled with the fluid that lets them interface with the mech. clearly moving in ways and with the force necessitated by a giant body of metal, even when not in that giant metal body. cleo and martyn using each other as mirrors, tracking the other's deterioration (comparing it against their own?) and feeling some type of way about it? could do miserable (delightful) sickfic about this.

related to above: (1) cleo and martyn as mirrors of each other ("we're both survivors"). (2) that thing about not having mirrors causing you to kind of forgetting you're a person (and this also, is about mechs, because when you make a world with mechs it is probably good to ask: 'are mechs people?' AND 'are the people put inside mechs considered people?' thank you austin walker for your list of mech questions.).

[thewanderingace]

Olay I finally watched Outlander 7x07 and oh my God it was so good!!!! This whole season has been so good!

MASSIVE SPOILERS FOR BOTH 7X07 AS WELL AS FUTURE PLOTLINES CAUSE I REFERENCE BOOKS PLOTS THAT THE SHOW HASN'T DONE YET!

I think it's kinda funny but the same thing is happening to me with the show as it did with the books in which I am much more into Bree and Roger's story than I am Jamie and Claire. Not that I don't love them cause I do and I do very much enjoy their plots but it's not exactly new. Another war, another goodbye, more lovely lovely yeah seen that already. But Bree and Roger's plots are so interesting and I still find myself so intrigued by their show story line as much as I was by the book plot.

I'm thrilled to finally see more positivity around Roger this season. Any time I go on Twitter or Instagram, even Facebook, I'm finally seeing people be kind to Roger. And I am LOVING IT! Finally! I've been so alone in the loving Roger corner of Outlander. If be so happy if this season finally brought some others over.

But okay so this episode. I'm just gonna spe some random thoughts

More Roger in a kilt! Woohoo!!! So handsome. I love it.

It drives me crazy that the show opted to not include Roger's struggle with his voice or even a scar on his throat since it plagues him forever. But I guess I get it cause this way Richard doesnt have to be hoarse forever and I got to hear him sing again so....I guess I can't be too mad lol.

The new actor for Buck is so good. I really enjoyed every scene he was in and how Roger and Bree and the kids all reacted to him showing up. I love that they had a conversation about Buck and Roger being family. I looove that Roger got to punch the crap out of him for both scaring his kids but also for TRYING TO KILL HIM!! I wish Roger's ptsd was shown a little more though. Lile, the hanging severely affected him and the show continues to gloss over it. Like, one conversation and Roger's forgiven him and calling him cousin Buck? Come on. Stupid episode constraints.

Every time Rob was on screen I got so angry lol. Just knowing what he's up to and what he is gonna do. Argh I hate him. When he started to talking to Jem I internally screamed "GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM HIM!" This meme was all I could think of to properly express myself.

Anyway fuck Rob Cameron.

Just a little thing but all the family moments with Bree, Roger, Jem and Mandy were perfect and I love them so much. So much.

The Bree Roger steamy scene!!! What!! Okay at first I laughed cause of the song choice but I love that song unironically and I love Bree and Roger so I ended up thinking that scene was super nice.

Bree and Roger belong in the 1980s. They belong in modern times and I fucking hate that they go back to the 18th century and stay there. I hate it. I mean I love Roger going back to find Jemmy and the angst of the whole ending of the episode was so raw and good and I loved it. But it reminded me that they all go back and eeeeennhggh I hate it. So much. I want Bree to be with her parents again but she and Roger don't belong in that time. Not like Claire does. They both are much more suited for the 1980s and are amd can be so much happier then. Roger and teach and be a historian and take care of the house. Bree cam be a boss and an engineer. They have cars and electricity and modern medicine and ARGJ they just belong in that time!

Okay let me talk about Claire, Jaime and William bow cause I also have thoughts. Mostly about William. I got a lot of William thoughts because Charles Vandervaart KILLED IT!

Omg casting Charles was such a good choice! I know Charles from Murdoch Mysteries where he played John Brackenreid and I always loved when he was in an episode. I didn't even know he got cast as William until like a week before the premiere amd I saw an image of him comparing him to a pic of Jamie. First of all, holy shot they look so alike it's scary. Secondly he is such a good actor! I couldnt wait to see how he'd play William!

And in this episode he really shined! From the eager to prove himself young inexperienced officer to the first time he truly sees the horrors of the battlefield. I love how the show continues to give William opportunities to show the audience how kind hearted and honorable he is. Like giving his friend and his horse the apple. Helping the soldiers to dig the mass grave, literally getting into the trenches himself, so that his fellow soldiers, including his friend, will have a proper burial. I love it.

[heyseihai]

Now that the episode is finally out, watch out, a major Arès simp writes this post, for my tumblr is dark and full of spoilers.

"I don't care you are a woman, I'll crush you like all the others and you'll end up on your knees before me to pray like you've never prayed before!" - Arès threatening MC, not realizing that instead of fear, he's only instigating my horny fantasies lmao

His scene was perfect! He talks about his champions and we see what he values (personal effort and hardwork), he admits he caused chaos on Earth in the past and he doesn't regret it, and unlike the game establishes at first, we notice that it's not only Athena who goes for "smart war": despite his reputation for carnage, Arès can do this too.

He has a strategy and honestly, because of the way the dialogue is written, if we don't win I really want Arès to succeed, he deserves it. His reasons are valid, I'm not fond of Athena here either, she's harder to approach (like all gods should be) than Arès.

Another reason is during the feather minigame, June notices his scars and says that they even make him more human, like, there was a rather huge scar on Arès chest. Another reason is that thanks to his strategy he seems way more connected with the members of his team than, say, Esus with Méve+Ajax. My heart melted when he said "The most important is how I'll make them powerful. And how they'll be able to count on my strength during the symbiosis". Like, he's aware he decided to enter the games too late and the strongest humans are already taken by other gods, and yet he's confident in his strategy and the commitment of warriors so much that he willingly accepts to share his strenght with them, something we know that most gods are not fond of doing.

One of the things I like the most in the game is that even if we choose the options for June and she goes according to our directions, she still has her own personality: she's a know-it-all, a bookworm, too rational for her own good to the point of almost sounding arrogant (at least villagers think so), and that's what happens here.

She talks to Arès on the same level and that's when we unlock the secret scene. I. LOVED. THE. SCENE. UGH!

The soundtrack in this game is a gem, and in this scene it's the same of the moment when we see Yggdrasill fainted and got me melancholic vibes, but with the instrument of Arès theme (guitar) and daaaamn, really it helps a lot to establish the fear that June should feel.

Poor June, while she was scared hearing Arès words (because yeah, the guy was frightening here, I admit) I was melting and fawning like the beauty and beast's three blonde bimbos lmao

Luckily for June and unfortunately for me, she managed to trigger Arès and he lets her go. Later, they stare at each other silently and it gives me hope that they'll meet again next episode and *clichê lover mode on* they'll dance together, after all, seems like it's tradition not going to the Olympics opening alone.

The thing is: Bacchus is still unsure of which god he should support. He's supported Esus till now, but he's also apparently, supporting Arès by providing him a champion. If my MC were Bacchus route I could volunteer as a tribute and make him support us, but in other routes I have no idea how will we make him support us out of consideration for Nantosuelte.

And worse, even with we get Bacchus support Arès was clearly used by him, it's another humiliation for a god who has always been laughed at. I'm not sure he will be happy with Bacchus changing allegiances, even if the new allegiance is the know-it-all girl who flirts with Arès every other day. I guess not even physical attraction for June is able to overcome the feeling of being betrayed by Bacchus, who managed to convince him he was on his side.

I just hope we get an illu with him in the future like the one we can get in Bacchus route this episode. It was fire, ladies and gents.

Anyway, 5 out of 5 stars!

[hotwings0203]

Guys I’m having another Bakugo brainrot

Tw: bullying, noncon, nonconsensual peeping, manipulation

Remember that one episode of MHA where the class goes to the sauna and M*neta tries to check da girls out over the wall?

Imagine the same scenario, but years later when they’re all older

The class wanted a reunion, just to relax and blow off some steam

You’re with the girls, and you all lay back in the hot water reminiscing about the older days when everyone was still getting the hang of their own quirks

Mina brings up this exact same scene but years ago.

“Ohmigosh, do you guys remember the last time we came in our first year here and Mineta totally tried to get a peek at us?”

“Ugh, I hope Iida is keeping a good hold on him right now,” Ochacko giggles, kicking her feet up to rest on a rock

You hum in agreement, tilting your head back to rest against the wooden wall separating you and the boys.

As it was, Uraraka was almost spot on with her hopes. Except, Iida and Tokoyami were out getting refreshments for the rest of the boys, leaving the remaining group to their own plot.

Which was lead by Mineta, of course, who had the brilliant idea to spy on the girls, just like they almost did years back.

“Guys, come on, please they’re right there!” He practically salivates, wildly gesturing to the tall wooden wall in front of them.

Most of them shift uncomfortably and groan about him being a creep as usual, but the rest stay silent.

Mineta takes their lack of outright refusal as fuel to keep blabbering.

“Look, we almost got away with it back then-“

“-You mean you got away with it, we didn’t do shit. And you didn’t exactly get off scot-free, Kota completely demolished your attempts and you landed ass down on Four-Eyes’ face,” Bakugo drawls, leaning his head backwards and looking up at the obsidian sky. The boys laugh, remembering the ridiculous event.

The night is cool, the stars littering the inky atmosphere take the pressure off of Bakugo’s lungs. For weeks now they’ve been training like dogs, battling each other and even minor villains for extra practice of their quirks. This trip was supposed to be a leisure getaway, not a free porno.

But the grape-headed perv is insistent, scoffing and waving the blond’s quip off like some annoying fly.

“You know, there’s something in it for you too, Bakugo. I’ve seen the way you look at Y/N.”

This causes a murmur and a couple of light beers towards the blond, who in turn snarls and ignites his hand to quell the commotion. All of them had an inkling that Katsuki Bakugo had finally set his sights on some poor girl, and that was you. It was such a rare sight to see his face flush slightly when you walked past him, the way he stuttered over his words a bit when you two would be conversing amongst the same group, and best of all, when they would see how he would excuse himself to the bathroom or locker room occasionally when your hero suit would tear in certain places after battles.

“Shut the fuck up 3’2, unlike you I don’t need to ogle at those brain dead bimbos.”

“Oh? I didn’t realize you thought of Y/N as a ‘brain dead bimbo’, Bakugo, I’ll be sure to let her know how you feel” Mineta grinned maliciously, and the boys ‘oooo’ed at the jab.

Bakugo’s voice caught in his throat.

“You wouldn’t,” he growled, rising slightly out of the water.

“I already know you’ll kill me afterwards, but I’m prepared for the repercussions if you don’t help...cooperate here,” Grapehead inspected a cuticle and feigned a yawn.

“Come on Bakugo, it’s not like it’s gonna hurt anyone! Well keep this to ourselves,” Denki chimed in a little too eagerly.

“Yeah, I mean, we’re only asking for your and everyone’s support so that we can focus better on training y’know? A little fun never killed anyone.” Sero threw his arm over Kirishima’s shoulder, who blushed at the whole ordeal but kept silent all the while.

Katsuki looked around. Slowly, others were starting to really listen in and look interested at the outcome of Mineta’s plan. Surely a little peeping wouldn’t be too bad would it? And plus, it was only a one time thing.

Shoto was faring the same way as Kirishima, quiet and maybe embarrassed at what they were planning on doing, but no outright refusal. Even Deku had a weird longing glint in his eye, the same kind he would get when he used to fawn over All Might.

He thought about it for a minute more, a chance to see you, naked, honest, and pure, splashing around with your friends as you let your femininity dangle as it pleased.

“Do whatever the hell you want. I’m not taking blame if the bird and glasses come back, though.”

Hushed cheers and excited murmurs erupt from around the spring, and they huddle together to form a plan.

A couple minutes later, the boys were grouping around the wooden panels. Todoroki had burned a hole into the soft wood, and sero had used his transparent tape to cover it up so that the girls couldn’t see it from their side.

And there they were, completely bare, hair flowing, curves showing, voices mature and high pitched giggles emanating from around the water and bank.

Bakugo seeks you out immediately after the hole is made, shoving his way through the crowded bodies much to the amusement of others. But he doesn’t care, all he wants at the moment is to see you in your most honest element.

He doesn’t have to look long, because you’re right there, you’re right in front of them, only a few meters away. Your back is facing them, but the sight of your smooth, naked back and the round curve of your ass squishing against the rocks underneath you is enough to make Bakugo’s cock bob painfully above the water. It’s not too hard to hide his erection since the boys’s attention is elsewhere at the moment.

Your hair is open, and he wants nothing more than to feel it in his hands, run his fingers though your scalp and pull so hard that your neck is snapped back, he wants to know what kind of noises you’ll make for him, would you sound shrill and high pitched or would you wail and bellow for him to let go?

They can hear the girls talking amongst themselves, the hole in the wall makes their voices more audible and clear.

“Quit playing coy, Jirou, we know you’ve got your eye on someone,” Hagakure’s body is nowhere to be found as usual, but her chipper voice rings out from the middle of the hot spring.

Jirou is a few feet away from where you sit, her body also being shown for everyone to see. Bakugo glances at Kaminari to confirm his suspicion, but gags and quickly looks away when he gets an eyeful of his friends’ erect cock.

Not that Bakugo himself has room to talk, though.

“I mean, not really, it’s not a big deal.” The ravenette shifts and hides her head from the rest of girls’ cooing.

“Uh huh, sure. You’re not fooling anyone Kiyoka, I’ve seen the way you look at Denki. You two can’t keep your eyes off each other, it’s cute,” you purr, and Bakugo holds himself back from shoving the other guys out of the way just so that he can hear your voice the best.

Squeals and sounds of splashing fill the air, and Sero and Kirishima whisper excitedly and clap their red-faced friend on the back. Denki can’t keep the 50K watt smile off his face, and even Bakugo grunts and knocks shoulders with him, letting him know that he was happy for the human charger.

But then Jirou claps back with her own snarky observation, and the boys fall hush at the new revelation.

“Alright, you wanna talk about ogling Y/N? Then tell me, how’s Deku doing?”

“Or Bakugo, too,” Mina adds slyly, and now all the girls’ attention, as well as the boys’, is on you.

Bakugo felt like he had whiplash. He would’ve been elated, on Cloud 9 even to hear that maybe you had something for him too, had shitty Deku’s name not have been thrown in there too.

And he looks around wildly for the green haired freak, the freckles dusted across the expanse of his face even more prominent from the deep blush quickly forming, his scarred hands holding the sides of his face shaking in awe and gleeful shock.

But the rest of the boys aren’t as oblivious to how Bakugo seethes at his rival’s joy, from the way the water gets hotter from his quirk sparking underneath the rippling waves. Kirishima scoots closer to his friend and gently lays a hand on his shoulder as if to say, calm down, man. Not right now.

And so the hothead leaves it for the time being, opting to hear your response.

“I-it’s really nothing, they’re both just good classmates like the rest of the guys,” and although your back is turned to them, it doesn’t take a genius to know that you’re embarrassed too, your leg skittishly bouncing in front of you is making your ass jiggle from the back, much to the delight of the salivating boys.

Bakugo wants to spill blood when he suddenly realizes your body is being shown for the rest of these dogs to see

The girls start teasing you, your splutters being drowned out by their playful accusations.

“Come on L/N, whose cuter?”

“Dont act all coy now, I know how nervous you get when you’re all close to Bakugo. I mean I don’t blame you, have you seen his muscles? He could crush someone’s head with those things!”

“Yeah, but have you seen the way she giggles when Deku starts his mumbling tangents? That’s a classic crush right there.”

Bakugo is getting desperate to hear your answer now, some of the boys have left, feeling like they had their full of excitement for the night. They saw some tits and ass, heard some gossip, end of story.

The only ones remaining were Bakugo and his gang, as well as IcyHot and Shitty Deku.

Shitty Deku, who seemed equally eager to hear your response.

It pissed him off that he wasn’t getting the message to fuck off, even after all the growling and death stares he was receiving from his childhood friend.

But he guesses after a lifetime of dealing with it, it doesn’t scare Deku as much as it does anymore.

Maybe he’ll have to amp it up, later

“W-well I mean both of them have their own respective...flaws and strengths I guess..sometimes Deku can be kinda hard to talk to ‘cuz he’s so shy, but Bakugo can be a real jerk at times, too.”

You trail off, and Bakugo scoffs to himself. Him? Flaws? Those two words didn’t go well in one sentence together, but nonetheless he continues to listen. He wouldn’t refute the notion of him being an asshole, he wasnt that delusional.

“And yeah, I mean Bakugo definitely intimidates me sometimes with how aggressive he can be, but Deku is definitely getting up there in terms of physical prowess. But in terms of who I like, I’d have to say-“

“Midoriya! Bakugo! What are you two doing over there?”

Iidas voice booms across the water, and all 6 of the boys jump back, startled at the intrusion.

“No, wait-“ Bakugo hisses, clawing his way towards the hole to hear the rest of what you had to say, but Sero and Todoroki shove him back and patch the hole up with fire and tape, shutting off your confession.

Deku waves his arms around wildly, stammering some excuse of dropping his towel in the spot where they all were sheepishly gathered. They eventually waded their way over to where Tokoyami had set the drinks down, but the blond was shaking with hot rage despite the cool refreshment that was shoved into his hand by a wary Kirishima.

“Don’t sweat it dude, it’s not like her and Midoriya are gonna da-“

“Finish that sentence and I’ll blast both your and his head off,” he glowers at the redhead, shorting a dark look to where an all-too-happy Deku was chatting with Todoroki, as if they hadn’t been drooling over their naked classmates merely a couple minutes ago.

Kirishima backs off with raised hands in surrender, leaving Katsuki to mull over the situation by himself.

You couldn’t seriously be interested in that green haired freak, right? I mean he could barely talk to a girl without tripping over his own damn tongue, for fucks sake.

Not that he was any better himself. He failed to acknowledge the times where you had merely asked him for an extra pencil, when he snapped at you for being such a fuckin’ dumbass that you couldn’t even remember to bring your own shit. He had done that out of pure impulse, but he regretted it the moment he saw your face fall, his heart clenching at the sight

He’d have to show you that he was the better option, regardless of if you wanted it or not.

And so when they had all gotten out of the water and gotten ready for food, Bakugo already knew what he had to do.

You were all eating outside in the camp pavilion, each at their own separate tables. He was sitting with the boys, all of them joking around and throwing food at each other while he was staring you down.

He couldn’t keep his eyes off you. How could you expect him to, after he had seen half of you bare already? It was sinful almost, the way you were completely in the dark about what he had seen and heard, while he himself was fantasizing about what you looked like and felt like on the front.

So when Deku came by your table, no doubt also having the same conversation of the springs in mind, wanting to get closer to you, Bakugo felt his sanity snap.

The fork he held in his hand started melting in his ignited hand, steam curling from his palm. He watched as the green-eyed fuck made successful shitty attempts to make you laugh, his eyes trained on where you gently laid a hand on his shoulder after something he said that made you throw your head back and howl with glee.

“Hey man, your fork-!” Kaminari yelped, pointing at the disfigured mess of metal in his friend’s steaming hand.

“Huh?” Bakugo was pulled out of his irate daze, and he quickly dropped the fork when he saw what he unconsciously did.

They all looked at him for an uneasy minute after noticing the expression on his face, no doubt understanding he was furious about being compared to Deku once again in front of you.

“Look, Bakugo, don’t really take what Y/N said to heart. We don’t know who she actually likes, and Midoriya’s just her friend...” but Sero trails off hesitantly after glancing in your direction, seeing Deku’s dreamy expression as your hand still continues to rest on his shoulder.

“Just let her come to you, yeah? You don’t wanna force anything on her, that’ll make her really uncomfortable-“

-“Shut the fuck up Shitty Hair, and mind your own damn business,” Bakugo interjects, abruptly unscrewing his drink and standing up, unable to lose you to some broccoli- headed bug-eyed fuck.

He stiffly walks across the pavilion to where you two sit, and feigns a swig from his bottle. Your focus is still on Deku, so you don’t notice him approach until he comes up behind you two and ‘trip’s, falling forward and strategically spilling the liquid all over Deku’s back and your front.

You squeal as your blouse is drenched, and Deku shoots up from his seat to grab some napkins while searching for the perpetrator.

“What the- Kacchan?”

“Oops.”

Bewildered, you look at the two while dabbing the wet splotches on your shirt, Mina and Tsu jumping into action to help you.

The boys exchange a weird look, and although Bakugo gave his version of an apology, he doesn’t look very sorry. In fact, if you saw it right he looked almost...smug? With a bit of anger?

Deku wasn’t any easier to understand either. His voice was lilted as usual while he grabbed napkins, but his gaze never left his childhood friends’ and his eyes weren’t exactly the big doe-eyes you had grown fond of.

They were darkened, and narrowed as they bored into Bakugo’s eyes. Neither one of them was looking away from each other, and there was a weird tension in the air that everyone could sense.

But you couldn’t focus on that right now, you had to go and wash up.

“I gotta change and maybe take a shower, I can feel it sticking to my skin,” you scrunch your nose in disgust and tell Mina as you stand to leave. Deku offers to walk you, but you wave him off kindly.

As you pass by Bakugo, you can feel his eyes rove up and down your body, very obviously staring at the way your white shirt clings to your chest from the liquid, sending chills up your spine.

But he doesn’t come after you, not yet.

It’s only after everyone has finished up from their dinner and headed off to bed almost 20 minutes later that the showers finally, finally warm up enough for you to dip a hesitant toe in.

Curse the old pipes.

*******

He watches you from the dark, the only light you’re provided with is the dim emergency light from the rusty bulb, the camp counselors having been shut the facility’s lights off merely a half hour ago. But you were stubborn in waiting for the water to warm up so you were left alone in the showers, shifting uncomfortably in your sticky wet clothes.

And then miraculously you get up for the umpteenth time to check the temperature of the water, and it’s finally deemed appropriate for you when you sigh in relief and start taking your shoes off.

He hides in the door partition, his cock hardening slowly as he thinks of you alone with just him and his mercy. You were going to pay for almost breaking his heart and prancing around with stupid fucking Deku instead.

But asides from his rage, he still liked you, a lot. He wanted you to want him as much as he wanted you, so he decided to try and attempt to make your first time with him as gentle and as special as he could in the dirty cabin showers.

Bakugo waits with bated breath for the right moment, and the second your hands grip the end of your shirt to pull it up, he slowly emerges from the dark.

“You know, I’m glad you came here alone, at night. It’s almost like you wanted this.”

You jump violently at the low voice coming from seemingly nowhere, and you wildly look around for the source until you see him...coming at you slow from the inky abyss of the room, like a predator stalking his prey.

His figure seems to loom even larger than he actually is, the shadows of his tall body bouncing off the walls and grazing over the top of your head. He seems to be in no rush, taking his time with his hands in his pockets, eyes flashing dangerously at you as he stalks forward until he’s backed you up against the deteriorating wall, chest to chest with you.

“W-what the hell, Bakugo,” you stammer nervously. “This is the girls room, you can’t be here-“

And the hand you raise to push him away is caught in his calloused ones, your other wrist is quickly seized as well and slammed above your head. You cry out in pain and try kicking out, but he wedges a bulky knee in between your thigh and shoves his face mere millimeters away from yours, a mean leer adorning his normally-attractive face.

“What, I can’t be here? And here I was thinking that you almost liked me. But oh, I forgot, Deku’s your favorite, right?” The grip on your wrist tigthens and his leg flexes from in between your thighs.

You squirm and sob, about to ask what the hell he was talking about-

Oh.

Oh no.

He sees the understanding pass over your face, and he laughs cruelly at the horror that comes with it.

“You heard me? How?”

“Not just heard. I saw you, too.”

He lets his eyes drop from your neck, to your chest, and then to the juncture between your legs which was being massaged by his knee.

Tears well up in your eyes as you realize he was watching you this entire evening in the springs. How he got away with it, you didn’t want to even know.

“I saw your hair open for the first time, and not in that stupid hairdo you always do for school.”

He trails his hand softly up the sides of your body and up your neck until he reaches his big hand into your scalp. You whimper and gasp as he laces his fingers through your locks, seeming to caress you but then harshly yanking your head back so you had no choice but to look at him head on.

“I saw your ass pressed up against the rocks, and I wished it was up against my cock instead.”

He removes his hand from your hair and snakes it down to your bottom, kneading and slapping it lightly. You writhe even harder now, too scared to make a noise in case he hurts you even worse, just wanting him to get the hell off of you.

“But I didn’t see the front of you. I imagined what you would look like with tears streaming down your face while I was stuffing you full of me”

He plays with the edge of your shirt, a dark look in his eye as he plays with you. You try to budge your hands but to now avail, only serving in annoying him and shoving his knee up further into your crotch. The pressure on your clit is immense, and your legs start shaking as you’re forced to be suspended almost midair on his knee.

“Take this off,” he says softly, the rasp catching in his voice.

“Bakugo, please. You don’t have to do this, I swear I won’t tell anyone-“

“You think I’m worried about if you’ll tell anyone? Hah! I already know you won’t, wanna know why?”

He leans in, inhaling the scent of your hair and grazing his nose along the side of your neck. You force yourself to breath in and out, feeling an impending heart attack.

“‘Cause if you do, I’ll make sure to fuck you in front of everyone, especially on Deku’s broken body.”

And then you can’t stop them, the tears fall from your body shaking in pure fear at his threat.

You knew he wouldn’t actually do something like that, but hearing it snarled in your ear so softly made you believe it all the same, the power he held while you were fucked, literally and metaphorically.

“Now I’m not gonna ask you again. Take this shit off before I burn it, bitch.”

You don’t want to piss him off further, so with trembling hands you lift the edge of your sticky uniform and start to pull it off, but he stops you with a frustrated grunt.

“Slowly. I wanna savor this while no ones here.”

You bite your lip and suppress a scream as you do what he says.

And oh, does he ever savor it. The shirt clings deliciously to your breasts, and he licks his lips as it ruffles up and over your head. Your skin is perspiring from the humid air, a sheen of sweat lightly decorating your collarbones. Bakugo can’t hold himself back any longer, and you yelp when he comes at you suddenly.

He lunges at your face and pins your arms down by your side again as his lips mesh against yours, his kiss filled with clacking teeth and a thrashing tongue against your lips. The knee you’re straddling is bouncing lightly up and down, jostling you on it and causing your cunt to pulsate with heat.

You let out a distressed moan, and he swallows it greedily, using the advantage of your open mouth to delve deeper into your wet cavern. You open bleary eyes and flinch when you find his already wide open, staring back into unforgiving vermillion orbs.

He pulls back slightly, panting. “I bet Deku didn’t get this kind of treatment, huh? It’s all for me right?”

You don’t know if he’s genuinely asking you or just being insane, so you don’t answer him. Fortunately and unfortunately for you, he doesn’t care for your response, rather more focusing on dragging you by your neck towards the hot showers.

You slip and stumble as he shoves you in a stall, gaining your balance only too late when he turns and locks the door.

“Look, I’m sorry okay? I’m sorry if I hurt your feelings, just forget you saw or heard anything at the springs, it was just girl talk, stupid stuff that didn’t mean anything-“

“-even if it didn’t mean anything to you I’ll make sure you believe what you’ll feel after I fuck you senseless.”

And with that, he tugs off his clothes and licks his lips at the sight of you cowering against the wall, naked and oh so vulnerable.

He slowly shifts towards you, pressing his body flush against your trembling one. You can feel the outline of his erection on your thigh, and you swallow at how big it is.

“I don’t wanna have to close your mouth or restrain you when I’m balls deep in that tight cunt. So don’t do anything stupid and this’ll be a whole lot easier for you.”

He reaches a hand down and lightly strokes your labia, relishing in how you whimper and jerk against him, but don’t dare try to stop his hand.

Smart girl

Another hand finds its way to your tits, tugging and pulling at your hardened nipples. You gasp and arch into his touch, slowly coming undone from his ministrations. He humps against your leg like a teenage kid, grunting while he does so.

His mouth is attacking yours once again, but now you’re too tired from the constant surge of adrenaline coursing through your veins to even move your head. You just let him play with your body, your heart, your soul.

“I think the princess is wet enough for me now,” he leers at you when he pulls his fingers away, scissoring his digits to show the strings of wetness he pulled from your pussy.

You squeal and grab onto his chiseled arms as he suddenly hikes his hands underneath your upper thighs and picks you up, forcing your legs to wrap around his middle for support.

He slams you against the wall, the water cascading down your head is making your hair stick to your face, and in a strange and sudden show of intimacy Bakugo softly moves your locks away from your eyes. Your gazes lock, yours desperate and tear filled while his scarlet hues show no signs of mercy, but rather a strange predatory hunger.

Your arms scrabble behind his head and on his shoulders for balance as he slowly sinks you down on his length. You hiss and throw your head back at the sensation of being filled, and he eats it up.

He watches the way your mouth opens, your eyes widen, as every sinful sound your body can make escapes you.

As if he needed more of an ego boost

You wail as the last inches are sucked into your dripping hole, and he lets out a mean breathy laugh.

“Fuck, you really were ready huh? I should’ve taken you weeks ago, little slut.”

Your brows furrow and you try to turn your face away but he snatches your chin in a hardened grip.

“Uh-uh, none of that shit. You were doing so well, don’t turn away from me now.”

He slowly starts to roll his hips minutely into yours, not exactly thrusting but enough movement to make your cunt flutter and throb.

“What do you want me to say? You got what you wanted!” You whisper to him, more tears falling down freely down your cheeks.

He can’t help himself, he groans and surges forward to lick the salty rivers up, gripping your ass tightly when you flinch.

“Tell me you love me. Tell me how much you want me, how much better I am than that green-haired bastard and I won’t shove it up your ass.”

You can feel his abdomen clench and shake from the effort he’s making not to completely batter your cervix so you give in quickly, afraid of what he’s like when his thin strands of self restraint snap.

“I...I love you Bakugo. I really want y-ooh!”

The last bit of your sentence is choked off as he lifts you up all the way to his tip and slams your hips down his length. You gasp and weave your hands through his hair for support, your legs violently shaking at the pain.

He grunts and starts really giving it to you, setting a fast pace as he bounces you on his cock. Your head is bobbing around, you’re fairly certain there’s drool coming down your lips but you can’t find it in you to care as he fucks you into oblivion.

After a couple of more painful thrusts he pushes you against the wall and removes your hands from his hair, holding them above your head against the wall. You’re trapped with your upper half plastered against the dingy tile while your lower half is wrapped his dick.

Your cunt swallowing him down is the only leverage you have, so your whole body weight presses down on his shaft. He moans loudly at the pressure on his tip, your gooey hot walls clamping around him from every angle and you yourself can’t help it when your eyes roll back at the sensation.

He rocks his hips up, and up you go as well, whining and clawing at the wall behind you, desperately grappling onto your sanity as well. Your tits bounce with each thrust, and his glinting eyes take perverse joy in their obscene movements.

Bakugo starts moving in earnst now, deeming the slow strokes enough prep for you. He batters your womb, reaching places not even your fingers could access, making you go cross eyed.

He sees this and snickers at your pathetic state.

“Fuck yeah you little whore. You’re gonna learn no one else can satisfy this slutty pussy like I can.”

You give him nothing but a choked gasp in response. You head moves like a bobblehead, you can’t even see clearly from the water cascading into your eyes. He’s just a towering blob of ashy blond hair and large muscles.

His hips start stuttering in their rhythm, drawing to a close from his contrasting pounding minutes earlier. Your nails rake over his forearms, holding on for dear life as he pants and groans into your ear like an animal. His dick spasms inside you for a second or two, and then Bakugo suddenly holds you tight against him, wet bodies pressed against each other as he cums.

He lets out a loud moan as you whine into his shoulder at the sensation of his hot seed filling you up. You’re held against his heaving chest for a moment of two, the both of you catching your breath until he slowly backs up and lets you slip to the ground.

It’s suddenly very quiet, the sound of the shower is drowned out by the ringing in your head. You’re shaking, shock overcoming your abused body as you refuse to look at him.

But he won’t have any of that. He steps forward, and you flinch yet again, scrambling backwards to put very necessary space between him and you.

“You got what you wanted. Please leave, I won’t say anything to anyone.” You breath out shakily.

He’s silent for a moment before you hear him chuckle. His low chuckles grow louder and more derisive, he’s booming with sinister laughter and you snap your head up in horror at him.

“You think this is done?”

He crouches to your level suddenly, elbows on his knees as he cocks his head at you, eyeing your naked body that he so recently claimed as his. His gaze travels down to where his cum seeps from between your legs, and you quickly cross your limbs over to prevent him from seeing the lewd sight.

“You’re mine now, Y/N. I already told you, you’re not gonna be talking to Deku, or any other guy apart from me. You think they’ll even want you when they find out how you loved being fucked in the dirty showers? Everyone’s gonna call you a slut, nothing else.”

“No, that’s not true you-“

He crawls to you, and it’s so mesmerizingly terrifying to see a man of his build crawl to you like some deranged humanoid that you shut up, words caught in your throat.

“Shut the fuck up.” He says softly. “You’re my bitch now, and you’ll do whatever the fuck I say, when I say it.”

Bakugo might’ve felt a little bad to see the girl he liked so scared of him all because of his doing, but the way you trembled and crossed your legs like the stupid, helpless little girl that you were erased every hesitancy from his mind.

He grabbed your cheeks and smushed them together, paying no mind to the pleas and whimpers you let out in retaliation.

Licking a long stripe up your neck, you shivered when he growled, “now clean up and be outside in 10 minutes, you’re sleeping in my bunk tonight. The guys are all asleep so we’ll just take an empty room in the cabin.”

He released you and stood back up, grabbing a towel for himself along the way. Drying his hair off, his back was turned to you as he started picking his clothes up too.

You just sat there in a daze, wondering what the hell just happened.

“Oh, and Y/N?” He was dressed, and he was at the door now.

“If you think about doing anything stupid or take longer than 10 minutes, I’ll come back in and get you personally. And I’ll make sure that we stay here for the rest of the night, just in case you like your little time alone that I’m giving you too much.”

[avianhasnodignity]

I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT KING'S TIDE (especially relating to hunter but shhhh he's the emotional support kin with too many similarities. apologies if this is too long aelkrgmalkermg there are many thoughts)

Thought -> You know how Gus has those anxiety attacks that get so bad his illusion magic projects them? Well Gus saw Belos' worst memories when he did the memory spell, which included Belos' killing his brother. It then is, theoretically possible for Gus to have another anxiety attack about everything that happened before they all entered the human realm.

Which means that if Gus has an anxiety attack that projects what he saw in Belos' mind? Hunter has helped Gus before, but what would happen if he saw his uncle killing the person he was cloned from?

Thought -> While Hunter did protect his friends during the Belos fight (which was pretty impressive considering he was both injured and fighting off the draining spell) he never directly attacked or injured Belos. After Gus' memory spell Belos asks Hunter why he's hurting him.

Hunter never hurt him. Even after everything Belos put him through.

The last words Hunter hears from his uncle (the person who raised him and the person he dedicated his life to until a month or so ago in canon) is him asking Hunter why he's hurting him, and him telling Hunter he only ever wanted to help.

That's going to leave some (emotional) damage.

Thought -> Now everyone is in the human realm they're all going to have to come to terms with stuff BUT this will be the first time Hunter (and Amity and some of the other characters if I'm not mistaken?) get experience with a (fairly) good mother figure. Their lives won't be at risk. They can finally rest. (at least until Belos comes back aelrkgm)

Thought -> AU where Hunter went to look for King during the fight to protect him. He finds the room full of previous Golden Guards

Thought -> please info dump ideas and knowledge it is great hearing people info dump ideas and knowledge please do it

for the first one, gus also saw belos making a grimwalker and stuff so gus probably knows about that and now hunter will portably have to talk about it which i’m both excited for because i think it’ll be a good scene and not because not more trauma :(

yeah hunter finding even more golden guards… and their bones. so much trauma. i’m scared they king will probably tell hunter about it and nyntdjnff that

and then the expressions hunter has during the fight :( when he saw belos in his goop form you could see in his expression that he’s seen it too many times before :(

his expressions in this episode were really good but i with they’d stop making him blush around willow because it makes me scared they’ll make huntlow coming and i just don’t really like that ship but like i can deal with that

so mad we don’t get a full season three because hunter shenanigans in the human realm would be so good but it’ll probably be pure plot

also hunter and luz being scar buddies if luz gets an eyebrow scar is just 🤌

and no worries on it being too long

[coppermate]

While I freaking loved Eddie Munson (and Joseph Quinn’s portrayal of said character), I don’t see the Duffers bros bringing him back (aka, he’s not fake dead like hopper) nor do I think there was a way to save him. Eddie was meant to die.

Let me explain:

Up until this point, the main kids/teens don’t really suffer a death to them, to their specific group. Nor do the audience really suffer seeing someone young being killed off.

Now, you maybe seeing what about Barb or Will’s “death” and yeah they both played an important role but Will came back, and Barb’s main impact was Nancy. Neither really impacted the audience either since, we knew Will wasn’t dead & Barb dies very early on & isn’t talked about a lot afterwards. Also, neither characters are considered “main characters” in the show’s casting.

But Eddie? That’s a completely different ballgame.

From the first episode of season 4, Eddie is set up a MAIN CHARACTER of the season. He has direct connections to numerous characters, in particular—Dustin, Lucas, Mike, & Erica. Throughout the season, you see him grow closer to the other characters & be brought into the Hawkins group. He’s even told all backstory stuff about Eleven, Hawkins Lab & the Upside Down. The Duffer bros even gives the audience scenes where we can see a different side of him (Chrissy) & want to root for him (Jason & his posse). They make us want to care for him & the characters to care for him just so they kill him off because his death is a page turner or the start of a new chapter.

Eddie’s death makes it known that Venca/Henry/One isn’t playing nice anymore. His death makes it known that the story is changing—this isn’t just some little battle anymore, this is a war. No is safe anymore, no one. The little kids/teens we started off with have finally met a death they can’t return from, a friend they can’t save, someone whose death will be catalyst for a deeper, darker storyline & character growth. Eddie’s death is how our favorite little kids turn into adults, how the Duffer bros go from teen horror into straight up adult horror that leaves you psychologically & emotionally scarred