#and when i wake up i will eat and play hsr and clean Suc enclosure. and no one will care because starting my day late is not a crime | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

aquagrl · 12 days ago

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i find a bit crazy how i brushed off my hope and positive mind for so long

like, yeah i dont really like who i am rn cause i wish i was more feminine and brave and outspoken but also kind and comprehensive and everything of good i always admire. but omg how long did it take for me to just say "no one cares" and change. why did i spent my entire life hidding my goals and nice thoughts because i was afraid of not being seen as miserable? why i always earned to feel pretty and wear makeup but never actually tried to learn it because the knowledge of my interests was neglected and i was scared of changing that?

#been a little emotional lately cause im thinking about life a lot #sometimes i forget to slow down so i lay down on the floor with Suc and close my eyes and i remember how nice boredom is #its 1 PM. i woke up at 8 AM but didnt do anything other than lay down on my bed. i decided to not go to school last minute #then i thought of how my day isnt over until i go to sleep #so i took a bath. i brushed my teeth nd did skincare. i brushed my hair. i ate lunch. i worked out for 15 minutes. i talked to my friends #and now im going to sleep #and when i wake up i will eat and play hsr and clean Suc enclosure. and no one will care because starting my day late is not a crime #its ok to be slower than others #its ok to walk behind your friends. that will not matter and that doesnt matter because at the end of the day you did what you had to #； ❥ a distant melody

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