#and when akk was being the curse & hating himself & being so scared & ayan was being a very sad detective? little blue shorts! and jackets!

[poetry-protest-pornography]

Every once in a while, while watching or thinking about a drama set in a school, it occurs to me that the characters are going through all of the nonsense they're dealing with while wearing little blue shorts, and matching shirts with their names on them, or neatly buttoned up shirts that everyone in their major wears, like they all got best friend outfits.

And then I laugh.

[heretherebedork]

This episode is about bravery and what it means to be brave but also, more importantly, what is means when you reach beyond your bravery and cannot keep on going without the need for something more.

Ayan's bravery is immense. He is fighting forces, fighting authority, coming up against a world that tells him he is wrong. His mother tells him to stop, everyone is asking him to stop and to step back and to find a different way. He is filled to the brim with bravery... until he faced with telling Akk that Dika is dead, that the teacher who helped him find his path is dead, to speak the words that have filled him with pain and revenge.

Thua has some bravery, enough to keep going, enough to keep fighting to live his life... but he is also afraid. He is afraid of his stepfather and afraid of the other students and afraid of being alone and he wants to be anywhere but where he is, to disappear. And, honestly, his bravery needs other people and the one person he wants to rely on isn't ready to be at his side yet, not openly. So he is left with himself and he just doesn't have that yet.

Akk has his own kind of bravery, his own fight, but his bravery is limited by his goals and his own wants and his own needs. Akk needs to be safe at this school, he needs to be in control, he needs his scholarship, he needs so much that he cannot risk going against the rules or having anyone else go against the rules. That puts him in danger as the head perfect of the school and he cannot risk that. His bravery is also his cowardice, in the end.

Kan wants to be brave. He wants to be Thua's hero. He wants to be there for him, at his side... but the instant he is seen all of that vanishes. He doesn't have that bravery yet and he hates himself for it. He hates himself so much and he doesn't know how to change that. He's so scared of the curse and the possible consequences and he doesn't know what else to do, he doesn't know how to handle any of this. Kan is still struggling so deeply. And it's painful.

The World Remembers are made of bravery. They are fighting for their own future and to be seen as they are, to be respected for who they are, and they are so, so brave and so, so needed.

[larryisromance]

° The Eclipse°

Episode Walkthrough

Yes, I started another BL series, because apparently that's what I do in my free time, now.

Episode 1

Another high school BL, but with a supernatural/mystery plot? Count me in! FirstKhao looking fine in this episode. The shorts are too much, but since they are portraying high school characters I guess that's what we'll have to bear?

Kan and Thua are gonna be a great second pair! I can already picture Kan adoring Thua because he's so cute and adorable, my chest hurts.

The mystery 'curse' is something I'm finding funny idek why. I know it's probably gonna be some teacher or even a prefect who is behind all this. It's a hoax, that I can already tell.

Episode 2

Ayan is so wonderful in this episode. Also, he sees beyond the tough exterior of Akk. I hope Akk shows more human feelings though. He's too much of a goody two shoes right now.

Akk is a virgin and the smile on Ayan's face when he gets to know this!!

I love the interaction with the dog, this shows that Akk is actually a kind hearted boy, who is trying to be a perfect-rule-following-Prefect Club President.

They are so cute in this episode, I'm loving the interactions and they really do have an amazing chemistry till now. Even though, the plot is a bit heavy, I'm not finding this a hard watch. I'm craving more soft moments 🥺.

Episode 3

Ayan keeps teasing Akk, and it's so wholesome! Poor Akk, he's not even realising it yet, but you can already see that he is getting affected by the dashing Ayan. Akk is definitely stronger than Ayan, but that boy will have him wrapped around his finger pretty soon 😂.

Ayan giving Thua the needed courage is what I needed from this episode. He knows that Thua doesn't support all these forced upon rules, but he doesn't say or do anything about it. And he's trying to make Thua to let out all the pent up emotions he has. I'm hopeful they'll become great friends.

Kan admitted being worried about Thua!! Also he was jealous, but he didn't dare say that out loud 😂

I feel Ayan's pain. His uncle's death had something to do with how the school treated rule breakers and he's trying his best to find out what happened. Or change it? We'll know more in the further episodes.

The rebel group is getting more courageous, lying down in front of the student welfare department. That was definitely Ayan's idea, wasn't it?

Ayan teasing Akk has me sighing in content. You can see how it affects Akk and messes with his heart strings..

The flirting at Ayan's home? Oh Akk, I wonder how long can you resist this boy?

Episode 4

This was so satisfying as Kan is clearly jealous. And I'm loving it.

Judo, I love it. This was AkksGayPanic™.

Ahh, I was waiting for the 'accidental kiss' that always happens in Thai BLs. 😂 I love that they just awkwardly brushed the whole thing off and didn't even talk about it. Ignorance is bliss. The tension between them is palpable, now.

I hope to see KanThua together in the next episode, because that boy is too precious to be suffering this much. :(

Episode 5

Kan is a precious yet clueless bean. He is trying so hard to make Thua feel comfortable, and wanting him to be happy, but he is himself scared of being judged. That is a valid fear and I can't help but empathize with Kan.

Thua is such a sweetheart, he realises that Kan is affected by others' opinion and he spares Kan of having to leave his hand, and instead he leaves Khan's hand himself.

Thua has so many pent up emotions, he is bottling them up, and I'm afraid all of these will overflow soon. That Bruce Wayne account is Kan, for sure.

The trio of 'The World Remembers' group is so awesome. They keep on fighting despite getting so much hate, and being ridiculed yet they didn't give up on their rights. They represent the true spirit of fighting for your rights. I like this so much.

Ah, and I knew that Akk wouldn't delete the picture. He's so smitten by Ayan, I hope I'll be getting that pining soon!

Episode 6

Akk, dear, although I knew it was most probably you who is making up this curse thing, still I'm disappointed in you. Ayan is totally justified in not trusting you blindly now. I hope you do better from now on.

Kan and Thua are making me feel many emotions right now. It's clear that Kan likes Thua as in more than a friend. Even Wat sees it. I just hope Kan realises it soon.

Ayan and Akk spending almost an entire day together, and the cute moments of them just staring at each other, pulling each other ahhh. Their locker moment. My heart is satisfied. But I feel sad that Ayan and Akk are still at odds with each other, Akk still not knowing that Ayan's uncle is dead. Ayan's recurring nightmares are heartbreaking. AND FINALLY, THE KISS WAS SO GOOD. THE TIMING WAS KIND IF PERFECT. AND IT WAS SO GOOD. YES, THAT'S THE KISS OF PURE FEELINGS, SO SOFT. AHHHH.

The fact that Akk held Ayan even after kissing him, and not freaking out! Ahh, love it.

(Tumblr isn't allowing me more gifs so I'll reblog this with the other episodes later. Not my gif, last gif's credit to @heretherebedork ❤️. Sorry for reposting this gif, I couldn't find the kiss anywhere else. )

[heretherebedork]

This was an amazing episode comparing how healing begins and how silence can be all you need to support to the people you hate and how powerful a single voice can be even against the greatest of odds but also that the power of a single voice can be amplified by each voice that joins and how much that matters in the face of oppression.

Thua has been standing silent and watching others be hurt and when Ayan calls out his silence for what it is, he begins to see that his silence is not the force for good he thought it was but rather just another hurt for others to endure, another person turning their face away from their pain and Thua is starting to move towards healing, towards freedom, towards the realization that he can be himself and not have to hide it, not have to ask not to be protected.

Kan has accepted that his role is to enforce rules that are against who he is as a person. He does not agree with what he's doing but he's going to do it anyway because it's all he knows and it's all he can imagine doing. This is just part of his life. This is part of his identity even as he disagrees with what he does. He is the deepest part of the wound, the part that cannot be healed with the rest of the rest being cleaned. Kan will resist the healing as long as possible because the idea of change, the idea of the curse, is enough to keep him scared and trapped.

Ayan is the healing. He is the voice. He is the one who refuses to back down and refuses to be anything but himself, who gives his voice to those who are afraid to speak up and who shows Thua that he has to be one of the people to stand up as well. He is the one trying to clean a wound so old that the others think it's merely a scar and not festering beneath the marked skin.

Akk is clinging desperately to his role even as he grows more and more apart from it. He is trying so hard to be who he's always imagined he is even as he finds himself starting to think otherwise. He is clutching at straws to justify what he does even as he starts to defend the people who are disagreeing with him, even as he starts to see the value in what people are saying is wrong with everything he's believed. He wants to be like Kan, to have that unquestioning devotion, but you can see his growth as he fights but ultimately accepts Ayan removing the splinter. That's how you start healing a wound that's been sealed over. You open it up. You let it out.