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canisalbus · 8 months ago

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✦ Fashionably late ✦

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willyhoos · 3 months ago

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this is my favorite scene in the game because its just italy trying to make things as confusing and frightening as possible for reasons that end up benefiting NO ONE in the end

#hetalia #hetaoni #hws italy #aph italy #hetaoni italy #ok but like.#this scene actually confused me a bit at first.#how i interpret it:#japan makes a mistake (forgets about prussia). ita is ACTING confused. he should know by now that people forget each other here #(funnily enough in loop 1 he forgot japan! haha!!!)#so is he just trying to fit in? act surprised by japan's mistake so he isnt ALSO seen as suspicious?#but then he later makes a fake mistake of his own saying that theyre not even looking for america bc he didnt show up at all (false)#'Yeah、why did you say France and America、Japan?#The ones we have to save are Prussia and France、right? Why did you say America?'#...but WHY is he doing that #and then after jp gets confused AGAIN and says HE came here with america (he did Not. not this time anyway) ita seizes that opportunity.#even directing attention to him 'Wai-- what's wrong with you Japan? Don't you remember [that we...]'#yeah japan? dont you remember? hey everyone isnt is so weird that japan doesnt remember? hm? england doesnt remember either huh?#lets all argue about it. lets all distrust each other. lets all get reaaally distracted so no one notices how Blatantly suspicious im being #enough rambling. this is genuinly one of my favorite scenes in the entire game.#just. the weird anxiety. 1000 loops of memories... everyone fighting over what did or didnt happen... the psuedo alliances that form...#anger confusion disgust... distrust. why dont you remember? i remember something that never happened. i remember it vividly. ...why?!#AND ITS ALL ORCHESTRATWED BY MY LITTLE BOY!!!!!! <333 hehehhe itallyyyyyy #i mean.#assuming that uh. he. intended to do any of this.#and was not also suffering from the loops memory loss.#which i like to think hes not.#hetaoni italy got trapped in a murder monster timeloop #woke up on the morning of loop 5746546345 #and said to himself “how can i make this even MORE complicated in a way that benefits no one”

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witheredgardenparty · 6 months ago

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Yanderes as wife guys. That's it. That's the entire thought.

#not to be confused with malewife although there can be crossover #i have to have posted this exact thing before i know i have #gender neutral “wife”? spouse guy? is there a name for that?#where's that post about villains that are clearly queer-coded but are entirely motivated by their wives having died tragically #or am i misremembering that. anyway the false memory of that post fuels this thought #(also piggy-backing off of the previous post a little bit)#a version of that but the “wife” is alive but the “quirkiness” is also alive #personally i think it fits best with the shrewd and conniving characters. especially if they wear glasses #especially especially if they are already wet cat material #and especially if it's funny #*yan in the middle of a murder/evil business deal/etc* *phone rings* *stops tormenting victim* “wife time”#okay but no really what's it called when it's not actually a wife

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slayerdurge · 4 months ago

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the brainrot is telling me to do an evil karlach origin play through

#i feel like teaming up with gortash as karlach might get you some pretty stellar lines #especially if it's a version of her that's become ruthless and pragmatic #no way he wouldn't appreciate that #to see someone go through hell and come out exactly the same way he did #it would really confirm his worldview #maybe he'd even be kind of proud #and then of course she would betray him in the end #i feel like it'd be funny to get him all the way to the morphic pool and then kill him at the last minute #i'm not even sure if you can do that mechanically but it's like... give him so much false hope only to dash it at the last possible moment #that's vengeance baby #and you don't even have to harm the steel watch so you can repurpose them for yourself #god i don't know if i have it in me to start this game over for a fourth time though. this soon.#maybe i'll just write fanfic about it #the weird thing about npcs also being playable characters is you can play them massively out of character #which feels off but also like well yeah they're player characters in that scenario so the player has to have the choice #otherwise what's the point #it feels different with durge because they're not there if you don't pick them plus you can customize their appearance #so they feel more your own #plus the memory loss easily explains any change in personality #but it is also fun to explore the idea of alternate path lines for these characters that would never happen if they're npcs #i also kinda wanna do an astarion orgin with a minthara romance because i've heard they're really good together #apparently minthara is highly turned on if he ascends. naturally.#and she starts calling him “lord astarion” totally unprompted haha #god an evil wyll run would be horrible too... fuck i bet you can do the mizora sex scene with wyll that's fucked up #oh god if you're evil karlach too imagine tricking wyll into betraying mizora for you only to turn out to be everything he feared you were #💔

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ctrl-lupin · 24 days ago

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Mindscape flashback scene - the cards usually symbolize Fujiko and this fits the pattern

#'ight so #this is the point where i figured out what the end was gonna be #and i think tms did an incredible job there #of setting up the clues for what was going to happen #the point is that lupin's partners are part of him. so deeply embedded in his psyche that even tomoe couldn't dislodge them #she was trying to build false memories but there were always elements of his partners showing up #she was trying to build upon what was strongest in his mind #which. i guess is a sound principle #but those bonds are too strong for her to manipulate and use.#they fight back. they protect lupin that's the whole point!!#they're his family! by choice!! not by blood or by manipulation #they're the people he loves. they're here for him even inside his mind when everything else he thinks he knows is upside down #and that was already shown in this scene before the payoff in the finale #anyway. i am so normal about this anime #lupin iii #fujiko mine #teal jacket #tomoe

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aromanticasterisms · 7 months ago

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getting to the bottom of the new area and going oh 1. ajaw was telling the truth about what (he thinks) he was 2. so that's why he looks like that 3. did kinich go to ochkanatlan to meet him or was he set up somewhere else

#personal stuff #thorn plays genshin #I MEAN. I PRESUME??#otherwise it's just a coincidence that he's named Divine Rulership and mentioned by name. maybe he named himself that but c'mon #anyway head in hands oh my god. lore.#automatons modeled after dragons....yeah.... like the humans made automatons modeled after humans. wouldn't dragons do the same #cannot believe we just. killed them. no questions asked. they had 30 years to go we couldn't have like. asked them some questions first.#but anyway yeah presumably the land of seven flames was pretty big? not Just ochkanatlan. so ajaw Could have been elsewhere #were they in different places? or was ochkanatlan pretty much it. hm #anyway haha. what the fuck were those holy sovereign's notes huh #''she showed me all there was to know about the ancient empire:#''that ladder that climbed up to the firmament. those weapons converted from (...); those cannons that could tear (...) to pieces;#''those (...) that fell from the three moons; the research about (...) and wishes...''#HELLO? HELLOOO??#IS ANYBODY THERE.#[we knew most of this stuff already but hearing it CONFIRMED like this is making me insane]#the divine ladder [hinted at in the spiral abyss description] climbing up to the firmament [false sky]#those weapons [gnoses perhaps?] converted from [third descender's corpse if so]#are ''the cannons'' referring to the same thing? or does celestia have. oh fuck sentence canceled. the nails???#the research about something and wishes [visions]. but what was the other thing. hmm #ALSO WHAT FELL FROM THE THREE [destroyed] MOONS. WHAT DON'T WE KNOW. HELLO.#also i initially took her ''as a long lived species memory is a curse'' to mean like. mara. or erosion #which might be the case but also like. storage space. memory. on a computer...

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jonathanbyersphd · 6 months ago

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Again I refuse to start the discourse but like the internet's collective memory of a certain sequence of events is SO interesting to me

#like y'all remember two years ago when people tried to claim they edited the scene out #when the scene never existed #IDK something about fandom interpretation effecting memorywork is fascinating to me #cause I'd be willing to bet that most people dont remember it's a shor of Nancy from behind #which obviously doesn't make anything better #but imo that false memory is really what makes the discourse the Discourse #they're arguing over something that didn't happen the way they think it did #anyways #dearie rewatches st

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novelconcepts · 1 year ago

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the truly problematic thing about having insanely vivid dreams just about every night--and i mean the kind of vivid where you remember details days or even weeks later, like it's just another normal-ass memory--is that you wind up losing track on an emotional level of what's real. like. i know that was a dream. obviously it was a dream. but some part of my brain misses it like it really happened. i am painfully, achingly nostalgic for people i've never met, places i've never been, shit that literally could not ever happen--but i feel as though i remember. which is just the most unhinged thing, right? like, i remember going on a run that took me over a fence into Disneyland, and i remember having to take a shortcut through a Chinese restaurant, but it was fine, because Erika Ishii was there, and they'd done this before, so no worries. right? no! obviously not! why do i remember this with such visceral clarity three weeks later?

oh, what's your favorite episode of this TV show? the one i dreamt. yeah, don't worry about it, it didn't make coherent sense, but it was in the feelings, right? my ship had the best fucking scene. no, of course i can't explain it to you, that's madness. it involved a rocking chair. don't worry about it. it's fine. it's super important i don't accidentally reference this in a fic someday, though.

this shit is deranged, dude. missing people who are quite literally my own brain's invention with an actor's face. missing places that are a meld of a movie i saw once, my childhood bedroom, the second floor of my high school, and inter-dimensional space. like. no! no, this shouldn't be a thing! is, though. the clarity of it. just fucking bananas. this has been happening to me my whole goddamn life.

#dreams #the worst thing about being a writer who has had these wildly vivid dreams forever #is the CLEAR awareness that they do not follow story-logic. dream-logic is special and near-impossible to properly bottle #so like. i can't even use these not-memories #i can't write my 'new favorite episode' and share it with the class #i can't even tell my wife about the shit i fully remember seeing and doing while i sleep. because i didn't.#the other night i had such an insane flying dream that i woke up and told her 'for the record: i do dream in color.'#and she went 'of course you do.'#and i was like 'yeah of course i do but also this one was actively switching between color and black and white so. guess it's for suresies.#anyway i haven't had a dreamless night in...a really fuckin long time and it's nuts. false memories. everywhere.#it's astonishing i don't forget more real shit to make room #tell you what though. it does make warring against parasocial instincts WORSE. i am a mature adult who knows better.#but good goddamn my subconscious isn't helping

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number1spongebobfan · 8 months ago

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I remember watching this movie at the lowest point of my OCD. I was doing constant online research, reassurance seeking and crying nonstop. I wanted to prove myself that my memories were not real (I have false memory ocd). It was so bad.

It's amazing tho cuz, I relate to Bob so much. I was not alone. We are both anxious, overdependent people. But despite our flaws, we have good qualities too! We're both caring, friendly, and excitable.

It made me so glad to see Bob get the happy ending he deserves. And those scenes with the sailboat and all the times he spent with the family was so heartwarming. I love this movie.

It's still taking a while for me to heal, but I am getting there. One day, I will be truly happy just like Bob was at the end of the movie.

#personal post #movies #what about bob?#ocd #actually ocd #false memory ocd #false memories #neurodivergent #positivity

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holydramon · 14 days ago

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I will say nothing makes you feel stupider than takumi connecting the dots before you do

#somehow the idea that the brainwashing may have been used on nozomi did not occur to me AT ALL until takumi thought about it #if that is the case. jesus christ… seems she wasn’t just the cryptoglobin guineau pig but also the brainwashing one #legitimately though the more I think about it the more I’m like. oh god that IS what happened to her isn’t it.#nozomi being most steadfast to continue the mission and protect humanity no matter what… really does almost feel eerily similar to how #eva takumi and hiruko are all steadfast in whatever ideas were programmed into them (to various degrees of course)#I legitimately can’t help but wonder…. how much of nozomi’s past is true? I’ve been assuming nozomi’s memories were real but she was just #good at hiding stuff when she was karua but. what if none of them all. what if those are all just false memories implanted into her to give #her motivation to fight. what if her mom was never a cryptoglobin researcher. what if her mom never even died. what if everything nozomi is #fighting for is a lie? what if she really is just there as a plant to try to keep everyone fighting like the others thought in the first #timeline? and she herself just doesn’t even know it?#there are of course some issues with this thought process of just. in this scenario how would sirei not know about her. and also why would #she sneak in. but I am just throwing thoughts at the wall at the moment.#dramon thoughts #roseate plays hundred line

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lochley · 10 months ago

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when i have more braincells i need to think thoughts about vorlon involvement with stuff like sinclair becoming a religious figure, and g'kar becoming a religious figure, and lyta becoming... not a religious figure but it's what she deserved.

#og #honestly with her taking over for byron i don't think she has that same cult of personality vibe but like #i imagine there is SOME deification toward her depending on how much her powers are known and how #the colony members who saw her vorlon memories see them and whether they've spread the word etc #i wonder how her seeing the deification of byron vs. the deification of g'kar who did not want that would impact her ideas on it #like i imagine it's nice to feel revered but it is still another form of being used almost #so maybe there's some practicality of like 'okay well they'll do anything i say might as well use this to the war's advantage'#or some power tripping lol #i definitely see some of that with how she treats lennier #then there's also something to be said about the way people like delenn and sheridan are viewed too!#delenn an anomaly bridging species and having and otherworldly impact #and sheridan coming back from the dead #with first ones influence if not vorlon soul fragments #wHICH. even though lyta did not have an identifiable trace of kosh left for her own safety that is a way for her to still survive :)#i am getting off track but BASICALLYyyyyyyy inch resting to think about vorlons kinda being false gods #and if we as lesser races are now taking over for them what does that say about our own dynamics in the galaxy #and the different ways each character handles the ways they become viewed

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reflection-s-of-stars · 2 years ago

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Hey. Hey what if one of the OG lyctors was Jewish pre-resurrection. Wouldn’t that be so fucked up

#soph’s posts #The locked tomb #Or another religion besides Christianity. It’d be similarly fucked up #But I know the most about Judaism so that’s what I put in the post #Anyway. I was just thinking about how much M-’s atheism probably meant to her identity #And how John didn’t even think about how she’d feel about being semi-coerced into worshipping a seemingly omnipotent being #Not to mention founding a whole ass planetary society on the worship of that same omnipotent being #And then I started thinking about how important family and memory and rational thought are to Jewish tradition #And how having your memory and life taken from you and replaced by the teachings of a false god that you later have to learn lied to you #Is kind of one of the worst things you could do to a Jew imo #And THEN I started thinking about how the surname Shodash probably comes from Hebrew (sheish means six)#So yeah. My thoughts

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mariemariemaria · 2 months ago

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i was so lucky to be raised catholic in ireland in the 00s and not any time before that bc things were so much chiller then + there were actual concerns about child safe guarding and misogyny. like we maybe went to confession a total of three times when i was in primary school including first confession, we didn't go into confessionals we just sat in the church pews to give confession, my best friend was an altar girl and there was no issue, women could give out communion and nobody gave af. i took all this for granted and was the grand old age of 23 before i found out that some people are seriously against girls being altar servers. like what do you mean lol ?? 😭

#im 23 now btw i found out about the altar girl thing a couple of weeks ago and was like okay that's weird ! and now one of the faves to be #pope thinks girls shouldnt be allowed to be altar servers??? oh i was really raised in a very liberal catholic society lmao. thank GOD #also helped by the fact that my dad hates the church and my mam picks and chooses what she believes. so no catholic guilt for me <3 #and im p sure the confessions took place on the altar?? but i feel like that might just be a false memory bc why would they have us sit #there ?? but yeah kinda grateful that we didnt have to go into a confessional #still kinda fucked up to make a 7 year old confess their 'sins' but i just lied lol #and some people take the altar girl stuff SO SERIOUSLY. i googled it and people say stuff like 'its meant to inspire boys to go into the #priesthood they wont want to do it if they see girls doing it' LMAO GOOD. i hope there are 0 priests soon

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bayetea · 3 months ago

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For the false memory moment you are thinking of, is this it?

“‘But what if … what if he‘s [Piper’s Dad] a different person [after she wipes his memories]?’ // Leo had had the same thought. If the Mist could affect their memories, could Jason‘s whole personality be an illusion, too? If their friend wasn‘t their friend, and they were heading into a cursed mansion—a dangerous place for demigods—what would happen if Jason‘s full memory came back in the middle of a battle? // ‘Nah,’ Leo decided. ‘After all we‘ve been through? I can‘t see it. We‘re a team. Jason can handle it’” (Chap. 47)

I did see this one while looking for the quote I'm thinking of but sadly it's not quite it 😔 this quote you've shared is pretty significant and probably the most major instance of leo evaluating what the "real" jason (as in jason with all of his memories back) might be like (although it's not actually even an evaluation so much as it is a concern that's readily dismissed), but it doesn't say anything about leo's fake memories. thank you for trying tho!! 💜

the one I'm thinking of was probably in early-mid tlh and it's suuuuch a tiny little blurb in leo's thoughts, but it was specifically leo's expressed opinion on the false memories - an opinion that made it seem like he doesn't think they're important to deal with/doesn't think they're a big deal, which I take issue with because they are a big deal!!! I'm smhing at myself so hard because I literally just reread tlh but I didn't highlight the line 😩 disgraceful because I highlight everything. atp I just have to go reread it a second time

#I'm interested in this for a lot of reasons but especially because like no one talks about this in the fandom #<- “this” being that leo has fake memories of jason. and it's rick's fault lol because we know next to nothing of what leo's false memories #looked like. but if you aren't going to evaluate and break down those fake memories (which leo definitely doesn't) then how am I supposed #to have confidence that this friendship (leo/jason) isn't /still/ built on a lie the way jason and piper's relationship was #like yeah of course they do become good friends. but the books didn't do enough to convince me that leo's fake memories aren't #still an influence on their friendship. which matters to me because I hold friendships and romances in equal gravity #I think people have their shipping goggles on when they evaluate this stuff tbh. like I have no problem with the ship myself #(although I have never liked any jason ships in a canon setting I can only enjoy them in aus)#but this is writing flaw that very much impacts how I view their overall dynamic #baye.txt #pjo #leoposting

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kleeradragon · 2 years ago

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There's an experience I have that I don't think I've ever seen talked about anywhere, and I'd like to go through it and see if there isn't anyone else who has experienced similar.

See, when I first discovered myself to be a dragon/otherkin/therian/nonhuman, I was of the spiritual sort because that's what felt expected. I didn't even know a psychological side to it existed until later. I got my share of memories and info about my supposed past life and whatnot as a result of this imposed expectation, and some of those memories were pretty unpleasant. Traumatic, even. But eventually I found out about the psychological side of things, and I wanted to take a more psychological approach to my nonhumanity. I didn't feel attached to that existence/past anymore, I suppose I never totally did, I took it all as it came. Cause y'know, expectations, perhaps looking for things that wouldn't otherwise be there.

Not long after that I moved away from a nonhuman identity due to community issues and a general lack of feeling for it, only to return to it a couple years later when feelings for it came back in full force. And in digging around for those feelings, I had to ponder my old kin memories that I no longer necessarily believe in. Through that I realized that they still affect me like any trauma would, even after years of not believing those memories to be real. Now, sure, one can say that coping with trauma in a not-so-great way isn't gonna make the hurt go away. I totally get that. But these memories, false or not, did not happen to me directly, even if they may feel as such. There's a degree of separation. Couple that with the amount of time it's been since I gave much thought to them… I just thought and hoped that maybe that would be enough.

Either because those false memories still affect me, or because it's just what I was so used to thinking back in the day, sometimes I still slip back into thinking of my dragon self as a past life. All of this together makes it so hard to really tell whether my draconity is psychological or spiritual, even if it is a choice of belief in the end. I prefer the psychological approach -- that's just the sort of person I am. But the expectations from the past, and their resulting feelings and potentially-false memories complete with exotrauma, make it hard to let go of the notion of having been a dragon in a past life. It feels like those things really happened because that's what the memories were unintentionally crafted to do, because that was the expectation. These things make it so complicated and blurry what exactly the nature of my nonhumanity is.

My point of saying all this is to ask: has anyone else had a similar experience? Of having past life memories they don't necessarily still believe are true but can't shake? And if anyone has figured out a way to shake them… would you be willing to share how you did so? Definitely definitely would love to hear!

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twistpixel · 8 months ago

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Tbh the only thing I have to say abt uth is that winick kind of nailed it with “doing it because he took me away from you” because that is exactly the language Bruce uses when he’s talking about his grief and death the people (usually women) in his life are “taken away from him”

#I don’t have sources to back this up and I could literally be wrong #look it up and tell me I’m wrong or just quietly live in the satisfaction bruce saying that is in MY memory and I’m busy #my train of thought wound up on maturity and how Bruce expects the maturity out of the children he himself didn’t have at their age #but it’s excusable if you buy into Bruce being there to guide them and Bruce doing it alone #like again I could be so wrong but Bruce’s aggression and having to be held back from killing #I really don’t think he would’ve killed in those situations but it is hard and someone holding you back is easier #emotionally #and now Bruce has more maturity and does the hard thing and Steph when she did the hard thing and let back mask go #that is what killed her #maybe. you know like she was injured but the gsw couldn’t have helped #but basically : if I wanted this to be taken seriously I would back it up and maybe see that this is all based on a false assumption #but I don’t think Jason was wrong for expecting it out of Bruce because Bruce was. like Jason was holding Bruce back. and now he’s gone #his partner. the thing holding him back is gone. so Bruce would do it #but like I said that in my mind is Bruce leaning on someone else to give him space to be angry and not temper it (difficult)#but Jason was not lied to but like. you can see how he got the impression #plus NO this doesn’t have anything to do with Superman that isn’t relevant. it’s not relevant I’m not talking about that #I’m talking about the helicopter. and the flashbacks to that scene from jokers POV #and how Bruce had given up. and did want the joker to die. but when he resurfaced he had scabbed over and the wound wasn’t so raw #and he was more mature and made the decisions he could live with.#so Jason was right. about Bruce. he was just also wrong.#I feel like this whole tag tirade is full of flaws I’m not trying to convince anyone of anything I’m just doing blorbo sideblog activities

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