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soggypotatoes · 2 years ago

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Ive gotten myself into multiple pickles and it's not good !

I'm currently in a psych hospital, for the month, which is fine, I'm trying to stabilise and it's working, except it's not bc in may I have to go on 2 interstate trips (with 1 day in the middle), then I have a bunch of stuff to do and then uni starts (and my job but I'm gonna pull out of that)

I'm worried bc every time I come out of hospital I overspend my energy and wind up going back in due to burnout, this time the energy overspend is.. all booked and paid for.. and I can't stay in hospital longer if I need to.. and I can't go back in for months, until unis over.. I want to cancel one or both trips but as I said. booked and paid for. I'm drowning help

#im also mad bc like #its an old problem #but i am very alone with all the things #i dont talk to anyone when im not well #im voraciously avoiding any kind of content where ppl are in relationships #like even just tiktoks by people who have partners #cause like #thats probably never gonna happen for me #i cant talk to friends about anything #cant talk to my parents #not able to date probably ever #and what happens when youre completely alonenwith it all #is you go crazy and end up in hospital all the time lol #ive been in hospital a total of 7 and a half months now in the span of a year and a half #ed mumbles #how do i get out of these fucking trips #im not gonna enjoy either of them probably #cause ill be just so tired and anxious about starting uni in the middle of burnout

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