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iliketowrite1996 · 4 years ago

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Raising Jasmine Allen-Rogers

story for @areubeingserved-too

TRIGGER WARNINGS AND THEMES- heartbreak, loss of a spouse, loss of a parent , making mistakes, growing up

Summary- a look back into moments that stood out to Steve as he raised his first child- Jasmine Allen-Rogers.

AGE 1

‘’Happy birthday, Jazzy!,’ Bucky coos, setting his goddaughter in the new ride-on fire truck that he and Nat got her for her birthday.

‘’Aww, she loves it,’’ Sam comments, taking videos of his ‘’niece’’ as Tony and Pepper move the boxes out of the way for her to ride around the living room of Tony’s place.

Jasmine is all smiles as she is pushed along by her dad, who is enjoying the sound of her laughter.

‘’Just wait until she’s sixteen and I get her a real car,’’ Tony pipes up, only half joking.

‘’She’s not even out of diapers yet,’’ Steve snorts, picking her up out of the toy to press a kiss to her forehead, ‘’Come on, chickadee. Let’s go get ready for cake.

Had anyone told Steve a year ago that he’d actually have the strength to be happy after losing Petra, he never would have believed them. It took months for him to feel like himself again, and even then it was primarily for Jasmine’s benefit. His daughter is his favorite person, his best girl. He maintains that without her, he’s not even sure he would have wanted to have faith that things could one day be better.

‘’I love you, Jazzy,’’ he kisses her forehead once more before taking her upstairs to where he and her both sleep,, the room that one day was an office in Bucky and Natasha’s place and the next was a makeshift bedroom for Steve and his daughter.

Jasmine looks up at him with brown, almond-shaped eyes, giggling to herself as he gathers the wipes and a new diaper.

It’s the little things like this that make him miss Petra- how she was supposed to be here with him, and how she was supposed to have a chance to see their daughter.

Life doesn’t always work out as planned, though, so here he is.

It's been a journey but he’s grateful for Jasmine, his biggest blessing.

Tonight as she lays her head down to sleep, Steve stands over her crib and gently rubs the dark, jet blackc curls that adorn her tiny head.

‘’I’ve got you Jazzy. Always. You’re my best girl.’’

And he means it because even if his life didn’t turn out as he planned, he has Jasmine.

That’s good enough for him.

AGE 5

Steve Rogers hates field trips. Absolutely abhors them. They are the bane of his existence, and he wishes he could have signed off on the permission slip and had Jasmine go with Nat.

But Nat works nights and she needs to sleep today, so Steve is taking his day to volunteer to go with the kindergartners to the apple orchard.

Somehow, he ended up with four kids in tow- Jasmine, DeShawn, Lexi and Blake. Because Lexi’s sister, Lena, threw up on the bus and Ms. Carrington is watching her and giving her sips of ginger ale from a vending machine and Steve wouldn’t mind letting two more kids tag along, would he?

‘’Mr. Rogers, I’m tired,’’ Blake groans, pulling on Steve’s jacket as they continue their way to where the hay ride is.

‘’Blake, we’re almost there, buddy. Grab Lexi’s hand.’’

Steve is holding Lexi and Jasmine’s hands, and Lexi and Jasmine are holding Blake and DeShawn’s hands, respectively.

‘’I’m hungry, Mr. Rogers, when do we eat,’’ DeShawn questions politely before looking at Jasmine, ‘’Guess what?! Mommy packed me a bologna sandwich and cookies!’’

‘’Ooh! Daddy gave me a Lunchable,’’ Jasmine proudly announces, and Steve is almost glad that she looked up at him with those puppy dog eyes and asked if he’d be their chaperone.

That is, until Blake is crying because the hay is itchy, Lexi is crying because Blake’s crying, Jasmine is falling asleep, and DeShawn is sitting there and taking it all in with wide eyes.

Steve Rogers. Hates. Field trips.

Later that day, though, they are all on the bus.

He’s telling the kids a story and Lexi and Blake are happily listening from the seat in front of him while Jasmine sits in his lap and DeShawn is silently dozing off next to him.

Later that night, after showing uncle Bucky and auntie Nat the pictures her dad took on his phone, Jasmine and Steve retire to their place for the evening.

When his kindergartner is laying down,head on his shoulder, and falling asleep, she whispers, ‘’Today was the ebay day ever.’’

And, yeah, okay.

Maybe Steve Rogers hates field trips a little bit less.

AGE 7

‘’I did not know what to do, so I called you. I know Mother’s Day is a sensitive subject for you both, but I-’’

‘’It’s alright, Mrs. Lang. Really. I appreciate it. She can come to my class and do some work.’’

‘’Thank you, Mr. Rogers. I'm really sorry,’’ Jasmine’s first grade teacher looks into the classroom. Before telling her to grab her math packet and following her dad to his classroom.

‘’Am I in trouble?’’

‘’No, no Jazzy. You’re just going to come with me and do some work for awhile, okay?’’

‘’Okay,’’ she nods decisively, ‘’Can I sit at your desk while you teach?’’

‘’Of course, chickadee,’’ Steve pulls out his key to unlock his door, letting his daughter enter and set up shop at his desk before his fifth graders come to art today.

It isn’t until after everything is said and done with this class, that Jasmine speaks up again.

‘’My teacher is letting everyone make Mother’s Day gifts, and I am the only one that doesn’t have anyone to make one for.’’

She says it every casually, Steve thinks, as she works on her math packet.

‘’Oh,’’ he begins, ‘’How do you feel?’’

‘’I know you said mommy loved me and that she’s in heaven now but sometimes it hurts, daddy,’’ Jasmine confesses, ‘’Because I love auntie Nat and auntie Pepper and auntie Patty, but I want my mommy, too, sometimes.’’

Steve can relate to this- he lost his mother young, too, and he wishes he could make this pain go away for Jasmine, but all he can do is be there for her.

‘’Listen, Jasmine. I know nothing I can say can make you feel better, but I am here for you. No matter what. Got it?’’

‘’Got it,’’ Jasmine nods.

The conversation is far from over, but he senses that she doesn’t want to talk about it anymore right now, so he doesn’t push it.

He does, however, convince Nat to take Patty, Pepper, Deshawn’s mom, Jasmine and herself for a girls’ day brunch, with Bucky, Tony, Sam and Steve floating the bill.

She may not have a mother, but she’s got mother figures who love her very, very much.

And, for now, Steve sees her smile as a personal victory.

AGE 14

It’s the night before the wedding. Steve Rogers is going to marry you,tomorrow morning, and he can hardly step.

In typical Steve-Rogers-fashion, he forgoes the bachelor party and spends the evening bonding with Jasmine. It’s their last night together as a dad and daughter duo, and he wants to make the most of it before you all become a family of four tomorrow.

It’s when it’s time to go to bed that she pauses at the doorway of the kitchen, turning to face her dad, ‘’I like her, dad. She’s really nice, and really smart and pretty.’’

‘’I think so, too, Jazzy,’’ Steve smiles gently at his daughter, ‘’I’m glad you agree.’’’

‘’You remember what you said a few months ago, about how she isn’t going to replace my mom but you still mean that, right?’’

Losing her mom without having really known her has been more difficult for Jasmine lately. She adores you, and she loves Nat and Pepper and DeShawn’s mom. In fact, she was the one who asked Steve if he was going to ever propose to you last year. But now, the fat that you will soon be her stepmother becomes a reality and she’s a bit unsure of what this all means for her.

‘’Jasmine Allen-Rogers, I am never going to forget your mom. I might have lost her, but I have you. Me getting married doesn't change how much I love upi. And I’ll never stop telling you memories about your mom as long as you want to hear them.’’

‘’Promise?’’

‘’I promise. Remember what I said a few years ago, about you being my best girl? I meant that, Jazzy. Now, we’re just adding my wife-to-be and Olivia. I love all three of you. You and me, though? We’ve been in this thing together since day one. I’ve got your back, Jasmine. All the time. ‘’

‘’Thanks, dad,’’ Jasmine nods, a small grin sliding onto her face, ‘’I love you, dad. Good night.’’

‘’Night, Jazzy. See you tomorrow.’’

Tomorrow, Jasmine and Steve both cry as he pulls her to the dance floor for their dance to ‘’Isn’t She Lovely?’’, the Stevie Wonder song that he played the day that he brought her home from the hospital after painstakingly setting up their new home at Nat and Bucky’s place.

She;ll rush off the floor a few minutes into the song, grab Olivia’s hand, and make you sob at how sweet your little family is.

Later that night, Steve will carry Olivia to your hotel room and you’ll be walking behind him, arm around your new step-daughter’s shoulder as you guide them to where the four of you will spend the night before you and Steve leave for your honeymoon tomorrow.

And as the four of you fall asleep, Steve will have a smile on his face, because now his next chapter of life begins…

And he is grateful for his three best girls.

AGE 16-

‘’Tell me what happened again?’’

‘’Dad, please don’t make me go through this again.’’

‘’She clogged the sink and we didn’t know what to do so we panicked and here we are,’’ Olivia deadpans as you stand off to the side, trying to hide your giggles as Jasmine glares at her younger sister.

It’s her first time babysitting. She insisted that she could handle it, and she is very responsible. James, being a toddler, needs way more attention than Olivia so you figured it’d be fine.

‘’Well, all kids are accounted for, so I guess I can’t be too upset. I just want to know why,’’ Steve pinches the bridge of his nose, ‘’The dinner dishes are in the pool.’’

‘’Because I needed to clean them,’’ Jasmine shrugs, ‘’When we clogged the sink, we figured this was the best way to clean it up.’’

‘’We have a bath tub, honey,’’ you remind your oldest daughter, ‘’Why didn’t you use that?’’

‘’... This seemed like the easiest way to bathe James, clean the dishes, and not clog the tub,’’ Jasmine admits, looking to what seemed like such a good idea at the time.

Jasmine has always been a pretty quick thinker, Steve knows, even if her methods don’t always make sense to him. So, he’s sure that to her putting the dishes in the kiddie pool made sense.

‘’You didn’t actually bathe your brother in the backyard, right,’’ Steve inquires.

‘’No, no. He said he wouldn’t take a bath until you got home anyway. So he kind of just played while we did the dishes.

‘’On the plus side, the house is still standing,’’ Olivia reminds you all, trying to help her older sister, ‘’So there’s that.’’

Steve’s not sure whether to laugh or to shake his head. It is the first time that Jasmine has ben tasked with watching her siblings for this long, by herself, but he couldn’t even have begun to think that something like this would happen.

Still, he knows how hard she tried. She wants to prove how responsible she can be before she heads off to college in only months,

So he smiles, kisses her head, and thanks both her and Olivia for doing a good job, hugging his oldest kids.

Today, they’ll finish taking the dishes back in the house. Tomorrow, you show her how to fix the sink.

Forever, Steve continues to be impressed with his daughter’s quick thinking skill…

And thankful for the ray of joy that God brought to his life in his family.

AGE 21

Jasmine Allen-Rogers rushes into her apartment on a Friday night, tears streaming down her face as the wind outside blows, howling like she feels ready to.

As soon as she is in her door, she tosses her book bag into her chair, climbs into bed, and calls her dad’s number.

It rings a few tie, but he finally picks up, ‘’Hey, Jazzy, what’s up?’’

‘’Daddy, he broke up with me. DeShawn dumped me.’’

There’s a shift on the other line, and Jasmine can hear Steve sigh, ‘’Jazzy, honey, I’m so sorry.’’

‘’He met me on campus about a half hour ago. We got lunch together, and he told me that he just doesn’t have time for a relationship right now.’’

Jasmine and DeShawn had been dating since they were sixteen, which was a little under five years ago. Now, the twenty-one-year old feels like her heart has been ripped out of her chest.

‘’Do you need to talk to me? Do you want-’’

‘’I want to know why I don’t feel as bad as I think I should. I love him, dad. So why doesn’t this hurt more than it does?’’

Steve pauses at that before leaning back against the couch.

Jasmine has always been brutally honest. After high school, she and Steve sat down and had conversations about how she is officially an adult and she will have to make more decisions on her own. That conversation only made her bluntness even more apparent, and Steve can’t tell if she’s trying to be brave because she wants to or because she thinks she has to.

‘’Do you think that the two of you were growing apart,’’ Steve questions, mouthing the word ‘’Jasmine’’ to you at your look of concern.

‘’I think that we were trying to stay together because we didn’t want to break up, but we also didn’t really want to be together anymore. I love him, but I’m not the same person that I was when I was sixteen. And neither is he,’’ Jasmine confesses, looking up at the ceiling, ‘’And it hurts, but we’ve been together for years...so why doesn’t it hurt more?’’

‘’There’s no set amount of time or intensity of pain, Jazzy. You feel what you feel about this breakup, and it is valid,’’ Steve reassures his daughter, ‘’Do you need to talk about it?’’

‘’Can you put me on speaker?’’

Steve does, and you immediately say hello to your daughter, ‘’Are you alright, sweetheart?’’

‘’I… I really don’t know. I feel upset but not heartbroken. I just really want to say that I love you both, and thank you for being here with me. It made it easier to let DeShawn go knowing that I have you guys to lean on,’’ she sniffles.

‘’Darling, we’re always here for you. You know that. Olivia is just a video chat away at school, and your younger siblings would gladly talk to you on the phone,’’ you remind your oldest daughter, smiling when she giggles .

‘’I love you guys,’’ she breathes out, ‘’I just want to talk about something else.’’

‘’Your dad burned dinner las night. Again,’’ you pipe up, much to Steve’s chagrin.

‘’I had to stop Natasha from cutting her hair! She’s the busiest four year old I’ve ever met!’’

Jasmine laughs then, and you can practically hear the worry rolling off of her in waves as she releases the sounds.

A sound that Steve has always loved.

Maybe his life didn’t turn out the way he hoped for it to, but it’s still amazingly blessed and that’s a lesson that he knows that Jasmine is learning, too. So as the two of you continue to talk to Jasmine on the phone, he makes note of two things-

One- He’s even more in love with how you speak to Jasmine as if you gave birth to her yourself, and

Two- He thanks God for all of the life lessons that he gained from raising Jasmine Allen-Rogers.

Because he thinks, much like Olivia, Jasmine has turned out just fine.

DISCLAIMER- I own no rights to any Marvel characters or their fictional worlds, planets, galaxies, countries, cities, etc.

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