#and usually its just a passing thought but it's Really Fucking Vivid And Bad Right Now and I think im gonna cry and I hate myself
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violently ripping my stomach open and feeling warm blood spill through my fingers and letting all the guts and gore splatter out onto the ground would fix me I just know it would
#personal ramblings#negative#I'm sorry to anyone reading this awful post I'm having a really bad night for no reason at all#my whole life anytime I've felt awful all I want to do is tear myself open#and usually its just a passing thought but it's Really Fucking Vivid And Bad Right Now and I think im gonna cry and I hate myself#I hate everything#gore tw#I guess I dont fucking know#dont respond to this please ill be fine#too much of a coward to do anything drastic#just gonna lie here and think about it until I pass out
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summary; But for Jungkook to initiate some sexting, nevertheless sexting at 1pm on a Saturday, when you were at work and you were almost positive he was supposed to be on stream right now? Unheard of, you had to mark this down somewhere. warnings; sexting, dick pics, dirty talk?, phone sex, vivid depictions of jungkook being just so sexy bc its true, rating; mature (18+) misc; mentions of youtuber kook đ„°, heâs just horny, stupid selfie trends (see here), heâs a little whiny but so hot v.v wc; 4.6kÂ
notes; I've had this in my drafts since april đ n then i was like maybe we should actually finish this so i started n then last night i hit another follower milestone!!! so then i rlly forced myself to finish this bc i was so đ„șđ€đ©ââ€ïžâđâđ© anyway enjoy lmk what u think its not proofread bc uhhhhh yeah đ€©
Youâre at work when it happens.
Itâs sometime between your usual listless thoughts of what to write for your weekly reflection papers for some course, and your trip to your storeâs pharmacy to bother a coworker. Your phone vibrates in the pocket of your work apron. Youâre normally pretty good at ignoring the sound, most of the times itâs just a classmate asking for help on homework or Jimin lamenting his love life, so youâve grown used to ignoring the tiny vibrations, stocking a quarter shelf of different cooking oils before something in your brain tells you to check your phone.
You already know itâs not something grave, but that thought alone means nothing at the sight of the tiny jungkook⥠that appears at the very top of the list of notifications. Your boyfriendâs texts tended to be wildcards, never following a certain routine or alluding to any specifics. He could send you a long paragraph on how much he misses the scent of that one shampoo, the one youâd briefly run through last year because your usual brand was out of stock, with a ten point explanation on why you should switch back to it. Or two word, caveman sentences that drove you crazy because you never understood what exactly he wanted when heâd send those nondescript âmunchies dipâ texts.
You unlock your phone, clicking to the messenger app instead of directly on the notification. Hopefully the preview will give some warning on whether you should invest in this conversation or not. You hated the read receipts on messages, choosing to ghost conversations as you pleased, but Jungkook had wiggled his way into your phone one afternoon and specifically turned them on for his chat with you, and youâd never turned them off since. So he knows if you choose to ignore Attachment: 1 Image at 1:43pm exactly, and he'll pester you about it until you respond.
You contemplate it all for twenty seconds. It could be a variety of things, you guess, but the only way to find out is to actually see with your own eyes what heâs up to this time. He knows better than to distract you at work, is usually really good at waiting until your shift is over to spam you with messages. For him to send you something now, only a few hours into your shift, is uncharacteristic of him.
But you glance down the aisle anyway, taking note of some elderly woman youâd helped a few minutes prior and another teenager aimlessly walking around, probably looking for the snack aisle. You inhale and press down on your chat with Jungkook.
It takes you a moment to make out exactly what the image is, twisting and turning your phone around as you fight to see it without raising the brightness. Itâs only when your eyes finally adjust to the dark screen, the faint beeping of the check-out registers fading into the distance, that you realize itâs a shot of the front of his sweatpants.
âHm?â you murmur, getting brave enough to pinch the image between two fingers, zooming in until youâre able to decipher a multitude of details. For one, thereâs a Flaming Hot Cheeto stain on the hem of his sweatpants, the same one youâd accidentally put on there a few weeks back and havenât been able to wash out since. Then thereâs that huge palm of his, tattoos and all, rested carefully against his thigh. Itâs veiny and thick in all the right places, bringing all the attention to his knuckles, which you guess is what he was going for when you consider the centerpiece of the imageâhis hardened dick straining against the grey material.
Thereâs no text attached to the message, no snapchat font slapped over the image, so you wonder what exactly he wanted you to do with this information mid-shift. Well, realistically, you know exactly what he wants, but that doesnât mean you wonât clown him before getting there. After all, Jungkook was seldom the naughty texter; sexting annoyed him, he would whine, because he would do all that and not even get to feel the true pleasure of sex, of being inside you. Youâve dabbled in it here and there, but it never went as perfectly as it did in pornos. Heâd drop his phone and forget it, or you would straight up ignore the damn device as you went all in on yourself.
But for Jungkook to initiate some sexting, nevertheless sexting at 1pm on a Saturday, when you were at work and you were almost positive he was supposed to be on stream right now? Unheard of, you had to mark this down somewhere.
you whatâs this about?
You decide to play it safe, because as exciting as the image of Jungkook at his computer chair, cock hard and angry at the thought of you, fluffy hair ruffled in that way you adored, jaw twitching and tightening as he touched himself, moaned deep and rough and just how you liked andâ
As nice as that image was, for all you knew this vague message was Jungkook sending you a picture from a week ago to purposefully fuck with you at work.
jungkook⥠what time u get off? jungkook⥠miss you bad baby
Your stomach flips, and it takes everything in you to not squeal and bounce between the shelves like a toddler on a sugar rush. Here was your boyfriend, the cutest, sweetest boy, sending you dirty pictures of himself and telling you how much he needed you. Yes, YOU, not some random on the street, or someone else in a club, Jungkook needed pleasure and that pleasure could only come from you.
You glance back down the aisle again, checking your surroundings for the second time that day. Youâve been standing here, stock cart empty for a little over five minutes now, so itâs probably best to change location lest your manager come barking down your neck. You send one quick text before heading off for stock again.
you 4pm :(
Your phone dings again just as youâre leaving the stockroom, but you decide to check it once you get to the hygiene aisle you need to work on next. Still, the prospect of Jungkook having texted you has you walking with a skip in your step, one your coworker teases you about when you pass by her.
jungkook⥠fuck jungkook⥠tell me what panties youre wearing jungkook⥠please ?
You bite your lip, stopping yourself from smiling at the tone youâd picked up from his message. There was no doubt heâd been riled up for a while now, and you wonder if he sat through his usual Saturday morning streams with his cock hard, pushed against the edge of his desk like you knew he did when such things happened. The thought has you nearly fumbling with a bottle of aloe vera.
you seamless black thong you the one you bought me at the last vs sale
Briefly, you wonder if you should have lied and told him you were wearing that red lace set heâd given you last Valentineâs Day, the one heâd bought with his first big YouTube check. But the beauty of being in a relationship with someone like Jungkook is that you could have told him you were wearing grandma undies and heâd still think you were the most beautiful person to grace the planet.
jungkook⥠mm jungkook⥠tiny ones u ruined last time?
You set your phone down, speed stock a row of sunscreen like youâre on some shelf stocking national competition, before daring to text Jungkook again. Your cheeks are still warm, and your hand tightens dangerously around a bottle of shaving cream.
Before you can formulate some response, heâs sending another one in.
jungkook⥠u soaked those jungkook⥠came fast that day jungkook⥠want u so bad
Your cheeks burn, a little embarrassed that he remembers such details. As with all Victoriaâs Secret panties, they were, like Jungkook said, extremely thin. You pause, shift your stance just barely, but youâre definitely wet. Not terribly so, but with this fabric, youâd start to notice it sooner than with others.
you mm you makin me wet bunny
Itâs not a complete lie, but knowing Jungkook this is exactly what he needs to hear to get that competitive streak going. You shake your head to clear your thoughts, stocking another section of menâs shaving cream. It takes longer for him to message you back, and you wonder if he got off fine on his own. If itâs over now, at least he provided you with some distraction midway into your shift.
When he texts you again, youâve almost completely convinced yourself heâs finished, so the Attachment: 1 Video that appears on your lock screen throws you for a loop.
Itâs a short clip, no longer than ten seconds, but it has you scrambling to lower the volume on your device as some unsuspecting mother of two wanders past. You flash her your practiced smile, the same one you give all the storeâs customers. Not like your boyfriend is jacking it off on your phone, shallow pants filtering out from the speakers.
You turn your phone over carefully after she leaves, try to at least pretend youâre still doing your job as you play the video again.
Sweats are gone, but boxers remain. Legs deliciously exposed, thick thighs with muscles that ripple when he moves. Shirt pulled up just slightly to showcase that broad expanse of tummy, cute belly button and defined abs that tighten with each glide of his palm over the outline of his cock. Your mouth fills with drool at the sight. He was so hot.
Your brain hasnât even processed it yet, all your energy directed towards your clenched pussy, when he shoots another text.
jungkook⥠im so fckin hard jungkook⥠wanna kiss yuo every where baby jungkook⥠come ove r soon ??
Shutting your eyes and counting to ten doesnât help ward off the sudden wave of horniness that consumes you, but it does remind you of the job youâre supposed to be doing now. You shake your head, as if the image of Jungkookâs dick throbbing beneath his boxers, low voice in your ear, will magically disappear. It doesnât, and it plagues you even more when you begin stocking a section of sunscreen, numbly instructing yourself on what to do next. Shaving cream, sunscreen, lotion next, you repeat.
It doesnât help.
Two minutes later and youâre scrambling for the phone youâd hastily tucked into your apron pocket, tapping your passcode in until your messages with Jungkook are pulled up again.
you after work you promise
Your head is absolutely spinning, the coil in your stomach too tight for you to try and be a functioning member of society. Something in you says to sneak off to the bathroom and call him, but your boss is a little bit of a prick when he wants to be, thinks you take too many bathroom breaks as is.
Speak of the devil and he shall appear. A curt call of your name has you whirling to face your shelves again, phone tightly pressed against your ribs like maybe itâll melt into your skin and he wonât see it. At the same time, your sudden fright has you scrambling to turn it off, fingers sloppily pressing against the buttons, hitting the volume like seven times before you eventually feel the familiar click that signals itâs off.
Your boss disappears shortly after, and with his sudden appearance having made every hair on your body stand, you find yourself now slumping against your stock cart. Jesus, that man was a handful to deal with.
The paranoia sticks for a little bit, has you stocking shelf after shelf like a robot until you finish the entire row of hygiene products, back stiff from bending over so much. Itâs only when you return to the stockroom ten minutes later that you dare take your phone out again.
A pleasant surprise awaits.
It would appear that during your haste to hide your phone from your bossâ Jungkookâs scandalous messages and all âyour frantic hands had done something else. A fuzzy picture on your end, a blurry display of lotion bottles you had stacked just before your bossâs impromptu appearance, with no words to accompany them. Normally Jungkook would have ignored that; you frequently sent accidental messages like this, butt texted him, he says.
But thereâs something about Jungkookâs horny brain that makes him do stupid things, makes him blow up your phone with a series of question marks, call you four times, whine and fuss in your message thread, and eventually, send you probably the oddest image to date.
jungkook⥠??? jungkook⥠????what is that jungkook⥠baby please jungkook⥠I donât get it ??
jungkook⥠Missed Call (4)
jungkook⥠baby jungkook⥠what does it mean jungkook⥠please ur drivign me insane jungkook⥠jsut wanna hear yuor voice jungkook⥠fuck please just
And then, thereâs another one of those cursed Attachment: 1 Image messages.
You shouldnât be as surprised as you are. Youâve been dating Jungkook for a few months now, know he had that sort of unique personality most college dropouts turned YouTubers do. But every now and then the absurdity of his actions makes you question him still, makes you wonder what exactly goes on in that pretty head of his to warrant such ideas, makes him balance a bottle of body lotion on the thick outline of his cock like this.
Unlike the first few images, this one was taken in front of a mirror. The blinding fluorescent light in his bathroom paints him in a stark color, has every inch of his pretty face on display for you. Rosy cheeks, dewy skin. Perfectly swollen cock straining beneath his grey boxers, curved up against his hip. Shirt pulled up, finally freeing that expanse of muscles on his abdomen, cute little belly button on display once again. The red material is pulled up to his mouth, pearly white teeth biting down on the fabric, and heâs got this flushed expression on his face.
But the real star of the show isnât his chiseled abdomen or sexy expression, but the sheer hardness of his dick that lets him balance a bottle of body lotion over it, like a fuckinâ shelf or something. Heâs so hard, dick so full beneath his boxers. So big too, the little boxers pulled taught around said engorged cock and thick thighs.
Your brain says to laugh, to tease him for being such a clown even when heâs horny as hell. He wonât take it to heart, will probably laugh along with you and youâll add it to your still growing list of funny memories.
But your caveman libido says call him, so thatâs what you do, ducking down behind a new shipment pallet with a squeak as the phone rings. It only lasts four seconds before he picks up, voice breathy and low, but it sounds so loud in the silence of the stockroom.
He doesnât even let you get a greeting in. âYou like my picture, baby?â he husks. It sounds like heâs right there, right beside you, speaking into your ear. Your pussy throbs at the way he sounds. Paired with the picture from before, it has your body tingling all over.
âWhat the fuck is that?â you hiss, trying to not let the sudden overflow of arousal leak into your words. Jungkook chuckles.
âWhat?â he huffs. Thereâs the brief sound of shuffling, the scratchy noise of his phone presumably being pressed against his shoulder. âIâm so hard, baby,â he sighs before you can pretend to reprimand him any further. âFuckâ you, can you just talk to me?â he groans, and the disgusting sound of him spitting into his palm fills your ear.
Your face feels warm, eyes nervously peering across the stockroom like your boss will suddenly appear now of all times to rip you from this important phone call. The anxiety and arousal mix weirdly, have your leg bouncing but every new movement sends a shock up your aching cunt to your chest, and then out to the tips of your fingers.
âYou shouldnât be doing that when Iâm at work,â you murmur hurriedly, moving to nervously bite at your finger. Jungkook moans softly.
âUh huh,â he says.
The air conditioning turns on and you nearly jump out of your own skin. âKook,â you stress, frazzled by your own burning arousal and the fear of being caught. Like you said. Weird mix. âIâ not when I canât respond.â
He shudders on the line. âYouâre responding now,â he points out. You hate when heâs right. Before you can defend yourself, define what a proper response is in this scenario, heâs beating you to the punch. âBaby,â he whimpers, voice so airy yet low, makes your eyes roll into the back of your head, back unconsciously arching. âCouldnât stopâ fuck.â
Your mouth feels dry, all and any form of lecturing fading from your thoughts as you become consumed in Jungkookâs little whines and whimpers. He talks smoothly, a modern day Casanova, and itâs certainly because of that cult-like harem heâs gathered on YouTube. Teenage girls who kiss his ass, tell him heâs cute and dreamy. Make his ego so big.
But then he gets horny and can barely contain that lisp you tease him about, shivers and melts when you put his cock in your mouth. âCouldn't what, bunny?â you mumble, voice drawn tight because now you were really horny, and it was all his fault.
The nickname makes him mewl prettily, your speaker suddenly going scratchy as he fumbles with his phone. âC- Couldn't stop thinking about youâ your mouth,â he admits, and now youâre certain heâd sat through that Saturday morning stream like this. âT- Tits,â he adds, lisp slipping through. âFuck.â
You bite your lip, eyes fluttering shut as you remind yourself now was not the time or place to get yourself off. But, well. That didnât mean you couldnât get him off. âSat through your stream like this?â you murmur, circling your kneecap with a trembling finger as if itâll ward away the raging lust in your abdomen. Jungkook confirms with a breathy moan. âHad all your little fans wondering why you ended so early.â
He groans. âNo,â he chokes, voice hot from how much it wavers. âTheyâ I lied,â he confesses out of nowhere, âs- said I had a doctorâs appointment.â
You muffle a giggle into your palm. âNaughty,â you tease. âToo hard to do your job.â
âJust,â he cuts off, voice feathery. He sounds so close and you havenât even said anything of substantial value yet. âTell me,â he says quietly, âwhat toâ mmh, what to do.â
A smirk consumes your features. You try to hide it, but thereâs no one here anyway so youâre left grinning at an unpacked box of dental floss like a madwoman. âWhy?â you inquire playfully, bask in the sad little whimper he responds with. âShouldnât you know how to make yourself cum?â
Another groan of frustration, desperation seeping into his tone when he speaks again. âBaby, please,â he begs, and it feels good. Feels nice to have this big YouTuber begging for you like this, whimpering your name like his doesnât appear on the top 25 most viewed. âLike when youâ ah â when you tell me⊠what to do.â
Your body feels hot, thighs pressing together with each whimper that falls from his lips. âOkay,â you concede, and he audibly moans in relief. âTip first,â you instruct softly, eyes defocusing as your brain slowly starts to manifest the image of Jungkook spread out on his bed. Thick thighs, grey boxers pulled taught around them, fat cock between his pretty hands, inked knuckles squeezing around his member. You swallow. You can tell exactly when Jungkook does as you say because another muffled moan fills the speaker. âOne finger,â you remind him quickly, head spinning from the mere memory of his dick. âRun it⊠run it over the slit, bunny.â
âNnghââ Jungkook sputters. You can only imagine the face heâs making now, the bottom lip heâs bitten raw by now. He does it a lot; itâs a nervous habit. But as sexy as it looks when youâre in bed, you know he has sensitive lips because of it, bleeds easily if heâs too harsh. You have half the mind to remind him about it now, but then heâs hurriedly gasping out for more. âAnd, and then? Whaâ what then, baby?â
He sounds so sweet, melodic voice dripping with honey. âTouch your balls,â you say a little breathlessly. âDonât squeeze,â you add, âjust roll your palm over them.â Your palm squeezes against your thigh, as if itâs remembering the feel of his body, the soft skin between his thighs when youâre down there. He gets so jittery, thick thighs nearly crushing you if you drag him along too much. âO- Other hand on your cock,â you stumble, thighs squeezed together. âStroke yourself just like I do, bunny.â
Jungkook complies. âJust like you?â he mumbles, suddenly sounds farther away. As if heâs dropped his phone off to the side. âFffuck,â he grunts, âm- mouth is so pretty.â
âHm?â you inquire, so consumed with tampering down your growing arousal for a second that you miss his sentence.
Jungkookâs breath stutters, and for a moment youâre met with the wet squelch of his cock in his hand. And then, âpretty mouth⊠make meâ make me wanna see you cry.â
You bite your lip. âWhy,â you say tentatively, finally caving in with a hand fluttering over the front seam of your jeans. Not a question, more of a gentle nudge for him to spill his thoughts.
âBe- Because,â he cries, fucking into his hand. He sounds closer and closer. You have to wonder just how long he had been riled up. Itâs been a while since his first message, he was probably desperate by now. âY- Youâre so nice,â he cries, and the sentiment, though oddly out of place, makes your heart squeeze with adoration for the boy on the line. âWanna be,â he groans, âwanna be so fucking mean to you, baby.â
The sudden change of tone makes you choke on a moan, hand pressing against your mound like itâll somehow penetrate the thick material of your jeans and give you the sensations you crave. As it stands, itâs a muted feeling you get instead. When your hands fail, his voice compensates. âFffuck, donât youâ donât you think about it too?â
Admittedly, no.
Jungkook had always been a gentleman in bed. Always cared for your needs before his own, went out of his way to make you feel pampered and adored during your most vulnerable moments. Contrary to what his online persona might say, he was a good boy. Sweetest boy you knew, touched you like you were made of glass.
So to suddenly learn of this dreamâ fantasy? kink? âof his that you would certainly enjoy equally as much, well. It made you whimper into your palm, eyes worriedly flickering toward the stockroomâs entrance.
âWhy?â you whisper, feeling like a broken doll repeating the same phrase over and over again. Youâre suddenly aware of how hot everything was. Your polo felt sticky against your spine, apron too tight, jeans too stuffy. How long had you been hiding in here for? You donât even know. Hopefully your absence on the floor had gone unnoticed.
Jungkook pants into the line; everything sounds so sticky and wet on his end, hand undoubtedly working away at his cock. âShit,â he curses, doesnât really answer your question until you prod a second time. âI- I like it,â he stammers. âWhen you⊠fuck, when you look small.â He elaborates before you can even ask, breath heavy and drawn out. He was so close. âWhen your mouth⊠when it hurts,â he says, thoughts a scrambled mess. âLike when youâ when you cry because my cock isâ itâs too big for you.â
A blatant ego boost youâll ignore for now. Not like you can focus on too many things right now anyway. âYour cock is big, bunny,â you agree softly instead. Your legs feel cramped from crouching so long, so you push yourself to your feet. Except then youâre made aware of how fucking wet you are, panties soaked from the phone call with your boyfriend. You shift and they stick to your folds, make you release a shaky exhale that Jungkook doesnât miss.
âIâ youâre wet,â he says boldly, and this time your meek confirmation isnât a lie. Jungkook grunts. âFuck, baby, Iââ cut off by his own whiny cry, probably bucking into his hand like a madman by now. âWanna, wanna kiss you everywhere,â he says, a call back to his earlier message. Your legs feel like jello. You want him to kiss you everywhere tooâ lips, tits, cunt that is dripping for him now.
âI- Iâll be over soon,â you stammer, feeling like youâll pass out if he carries on any further. He sounds so good on the line, soft pants, rough growls. You canât possibly listen anymore, not when youâre so wet and horny in the middle of your shift. âJust,â you pause, canât get the image of his pretty cock out of your mind. Every blink makes it more vivid, reminds you of the vein on the underside, the exact shade of the tip.
âWhat?â Jungkook hisses, voice higher than usual, parts of it lost under the rapid movements of his hand. âTell me, baby, tell me what to do,â he begs hoarsely, âIâll do it.â Sounds so desperate and needy, two seconds away from busting all over his hand.
You have to lean against the wall of the stockroom to ground yourself, remind yourself youâre not in the same situation as Jungkook and canât cum in your pants like a teenager. âJ- Just cum,â you choke, eyes fluttering shut.
He mustâve been waiting for that command, because the second the words leave your throat heâs filling the line with breathy groans and cries as he comes all over himself, probably ruins his t-shirt. The sounds have your hips unconsciously bucking forward into nothingness, the frustration of not being able to cum with him manifesting in the form of a tiny little sob. Luckily, he doesnât catch it.
When itâs all said and done, heâs left panting into the receiver, flooding your speaker with breathy sighs that only make you more and more aroused.
âYouâre terrible,â you frown, cheeks flushed, body tingling. You flip your wrist over and check the time; itâs been about sixteen minutes since you disappeared from outside. Sixteen minutes of listening to Jungkook touch himself and moan and whine and whimper. Tease you with new possibilities you had never considered before. And now heâs satisfied and youâre not.
Jungkook chuckles, low and tired. The sound shoots straight to your cunt. âCome over after you shift,â he says, as if youâre not planning to fake a severe case of the flu right now in order to get off early and run to his bed. You only had a little less than two hours of your shift left anyway. Not like they paid you well to begin with. Jungkook shifts, releases one of those saccharine groans as he probably snuggles into his bed, all sweaty and worn out. âWant you to fuck my face, baby.â
You frown, counting to ten to calm yourself down. Another few minutes of listless conversation, and you hang up. Your body feels featherlight, a little woozy as you make your way back out into the floor.
Nothing has changed. Customers pour in and out, your boss scolds you for a display you didnât do, and life inside the store drags on. No one knows that youâre soaking your panties to hell and back, Jungkookâs soothing moans in your ear. Life goes on.
you shift ends in 20
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Quiet Music: Scherzo (Chapter Six; Part One)
In collaboration with @bethanysnow
Dreams turn into reality on smokey breaths. Inner turmoil melts away with the touch from warm skin. Promises make the evening decisions go from complicated to deliciously easy.
Content | Fluff, slight smut warning, tw soft drugs (marijuana)
Pairing | fem!Reader x Damiano
Word Count | 4421
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Soft skin against his fingers. A hand running down his chest to his pants. Heavy breathing filling the room. The flesh underneath him felt warm and welcoming, hot to the touch and begging for more. Her perfume filled his senses as she pulled him close. Nails running down his back. Whispers of "amore mio, just like that", "keep going,â âcara mia, vita mia, please".
A âDami, fuckâ leaving her lips as his hand started gripping her thighs. Running between them, as she threw her head back, fingers tangled in his hair, pulling on it. Biting her neck. Coaxing more moans out of him, on a mission to make him lose his mind. She was heaven on earth. Supple breasts moving with every breath as he let his mouth descend on them, one at a time, desperate to consume all of her. Kissing every inch of her, exploring her until he knew about every curve, every ridge, every little spot of her body. He wanted to know all the secrets she ever had. Drawing noises out of her that he wanted to keep hearing for the rest of his life. Her hands on his shoulders, on his back, on his arse. Pulling him further into her. Letting his mouth wander lower, getting wrapped up between her legs. She looked at him with dark eyes, nodding, and he was ready to suffocate in between her thighs.
Wait, was he actually suffocating on her thighs?
Damiano woke up with a start, face pressed deeply into the pillow, restricting his breathing in a way that was much less sexy than the one in his dream. A circle of drool had escaped his mouth and dropped onto the pillow. Well, that's embarrassing, he thought to himself.
He was in the middle of pushing himself up and out of bed, highly aware of the situation in his boxers - only to be interrupted when a knock on the door startled him. Trying to wrap the sheet around him, suddenly overly self-conscious of his state, he hastened to the door, almost tripping several times on the way. When he finally unlocked and opened it, he just about let his head appear in the opening, awkwardly hiding between the door still. Y/nâs face was painted in confusion. He forgot how stunning she really was, his brain not even coming close to painting her image in his dreams.
âYes, hi, good morning, Iâm up! Iâll be down in an hour!â He was rushing to finish his sentence, not giving her a chance to reply before he let the door fall back into its lock. A deep breath out. Her face instilled in his mind like a photograph, unable to be separated from the extremely vivid dream heâd just had. He felt bad. He had essentially slammed the door in her face while wrapped up in a bedsheet. Not a very good impression considering he liked the woman behind the door. This was going to be such a long day.
***
âWhy are you so awkward?â Victoria nudged Damiano as they had settled on a couch on the bus. He had been looking off since she had first seen him that morning, which was odd. Especially considering he was usually more of an early bird than the rest of them. âSleep badly? Bad dreams? Good dreams? Or did you scare Y/n away again with another morning wood incident.â
Damianoâs face burned up as if suddenly ignited, making Victoria gasp.
âOh my god, did you?!â She smacked his chest with her hand as she let out a gasp.
âI wasnât even aware you knew about the first time,â Damiano mumbled, slumping down deeper into the seat. Crawling into the shirt he was wearing. Anything to get out of this conversation.
âWord travels fast on tour, you should know that by now,â she giggled, repositioning so she had her legs spread across his thighs. âSo what happened?â
âIâm not going to talk about that with you,â he scoffed. Victoriaâs grin only spread further, though. She was loving this side of Damiano more than she would like to admit - shy, awkward, unsure of himself. He was one of the best people she knew, an amazing frontman, a talented musician, a loyal friend. Yet with one little addition to the team he had turned into a quivering mess.
âYou know Iâm just going to ask Y/n what happened, right?â
âYeah good luck with that, she didnât even notice. At least I hope not.â
âWait - so you hid your boner from her? I mean, at least you didnât traumatise her again. What happened though, did you have some good times before the wake-up call?â She once again nudged him obnoxiously, loving how uncomfortable she was making him. âDid you have a wet dream? Did- Oh my god, youâre blushing, you did have a wet dream! Tell me everything! Was it hot? Did she go down on you or something? Did you see her tits?â
âFuck off Victoria, Iâm not telling you anything, now stop! Itâs no like-â
âHi! Attention, everyone! I know it's early and everyone is probably still asleep. But - announcements! That includes you Thomas,â Y/n said pulling the curtain of the guitaristâs bunk back so he could listen too.
Victoria noticed how their assistant didnât seem spooked by Damianoâs presence at all - it seemed like he had been right after all. She hadnât noticed a thing. If only those two would stop playing cat and mouse and finally do something, anything, she thought.
"Now, I know we're all excited about going to Amsterdam today, and I'm not looking at anyone in particular here," she explained as she shot a pointed look at Damiano that no one missed. "But I have one ground rule: no weed before the show. You got tomorrow off, so whatever you do after the performance tonight is none of my business. But god help you if I find you with a joint in hand any time before that."
She smiled, but Victoria had no doubts she would be deadly serious if it came to it. Y/n passed out a map of the local area, highlighting the Leidseplein in the middle of town, and in red circles were the venue, the hotel they were staying at, restaurants, and several coffeeshops, all within easy walking distance.
âDo with that what you like,â she concluded. âAs long as you do it after the show.â
***
The band had gotten to the venue straight after lunch, excitedly discussing some new covers they were thinking about playing that night. Soundcheck consisted of a number of conversations all at once, trying to figure out how to change the setlist. Damiano found himself participating less, instead, staring down at Y/n sitting in the audience. She was busy writing in her notebook, the seats next to her taken up by her bag, folders, and laptop. He knew she needed a break. They all worked extremely hard all the time, so it wasn't difficult to spot the signs of a fellow overworked person. He made it his own personal mission to get her to go out with them that night. Spend some time outside of work, see the city, anything that made her put her phone down.
As day turned to night, the concert loomed on the horizon. As soon as they hit the stage, it was clear it was going to be a good night. Amsterdam was the best kind of crazy. Going from Zitti e Buoni into Billie Eilish's Bury a Friend, the crowd went wild. Damiano noticed with amusement that Y/n was absentmindedly dancing along from her spot on the side of the stage as well. His attention had only been diverted towards her for a second, he was sure, but it was enough to suddenly feel something hit his head. Soft, red fabric.
"Was wondering when the first of those would come around," Damiano chuckled into the microphone in between songs, swinging the bra around a few times, before draping it across his mic stand.
Yet as much as the energy of the audience rubbed off on the band, all of them felt like collapsing after the show, feeling like they'd given it more than their all. A perfect chance to unwind for the night, in a way only Amsterdam really knew how. It was legal, after all.
***
âI am absolutely not getting high with you lot.â
Everyone was gathered in Y/nâs hotel room more or less uninvited. It seemed like they were dying to drag her along on what was supposed to be one of the best nights out on that tour. After getting ready, they had simply stormed in as soon as she had opened her hotel door. Now they were perched on her bed, her desk, and her armchair, trying to convince her.
âI gave you all a map to see where you could go. I, for one, would like to stay in my room, just me and my bed, and sleep till my alarm in the morning. That sounds like a brilliant time in my book.â
âBoring!â Thomas shouted, hurling a pillow from the bed at her that she quickly caught and threw back with much less force.
âIf you come out with us, weâll be ready before your wake-up call for the rest of the week!â Victoria tried to bribe.
âIf you come out with us, weâll have breakfast ready for you every day!â Y/n shot a look at Thomas, knowing fully well this was not going to happen. The idea alone made her laugh.
âIf you come out with us, you can keep me company while the other three go crazy?â Ethan finally offered. She knew she was close to giving in, no matter how wrong it seemed to blur the lines between working relationship and friendship. She barely even agreed to drinks when she was on the job, and technically, she considered herself to be on the job 24/7. Yet these four had grown close to her heart so much more than anticipated.
Out of nowhere Damiano appeared next to her, slinging his arm around her shoulder. The way his fingertips brushed her neck as he did so left goosebumps. âCome on, darling, I promise Iâll take care of you.â
It turned out, that was all she had needed to hear.
***
The coffeeshop didnât differ much from the usual pubs and bars; people stuffed in every corner, a low murmur of talk with the occasional loud laughter over the music playing in the background, tables full of glasses and bottles. Only the smoke lingering in the air, its distinct smell, and the relaxed atmosphere let on that it was a slightly different kind of place. Y/n made short work of weaseling through the crowd and securing a table at the far end of the place, just enough space to accommodate all of them, as the others went to order.
âDo you want one as well?â Damiano asked as soon as he had let himself fall onto the couch next to her, already preparing to roll a joint.
âI think Iâm getting a second-hand high just sitting here. Maybe take a puff of one of yours, but I won't be able to finish one myself."
Damiano nodded, licking the inside of the blanks as he prepared his joint. Victoria came bouncing in like a tidal wave - her usual fashion - and crashing into the others already sitting down. As soon as Damiano was happy with his creation, she snatched it out of his hand, making short work of lighting it and taking a drag.
âHey, that was mine!â
âMake another one,â she grinned, obnoxiously blowing the smoke into his face. Rolling his eyes, Damiano quickly prepared another one for himself, everyone now happy and content with their smokes, until only Y/n was left holding at a glass of water.
She preferred to observe the scene from her little advantage point in the corner like she so often did. The mellow music in the background was loud enough to underline the atmosphere but quiet enough to easily talk to everyone around you without having to shout. She liked this much better than loud bars in the evening. Most people were minding their own business, in small groups or pairs, some on their own. Victoria was quick to start chatting to a pair of girls sitting at the table next to them. She wasnât going to lie - while not her usual spot, she didnât exactly feel uncomfortable.
A hand appeared in front of her face, seemingly out of nowhere, and it took her a second to realise it was Damiano, trying to pass her his joint. She hesitated - still not convinced whether she should be smoking at all, but one look into his eyes only proved to her that she was weak to his suggestions. Parting her lips ever so slightly, she let him push the blunt between them, his fingertips grazing her. She took a drag, careful not to breathe in too much too quickly, before releasing the joint. Damiano pulled it back towards himself immediately, putting it back between his own lips, and she felt hypnotised. The moment came to an abrupt end when a cough took hold of her.
âEasy, easy,â Ethan soothed from the other side, his hand on her upper back. âBreathe.â
Everyone around the table seemed to be looking at her now, but she quickly got her composure back, holding up her hands in a gesture that was meant to signal she was fine.
âFuck,â Y/n choked, taking a drink from her glass to wet her throat. âThis is why I donât smoke.â
âWrong,â Thomas threw in. âThis is because you donât smoke!â
Y/n shook her head, giggling at the guitarist and the know-it-all look in his eyes.
âUp to try again?â Damiano whispered in her ear as the attention had finally ceased to be on her. She found herself staring into his eyes once again, a fluttery feeling erupting in her stomach at having him watch her so intently, at being able to capture his attention so easily.
The look on his face was enough to get her to try again. And again. And again.
She couldnât tell how much time had passed, but for once, she genuinely didnât care. The people around them had changed, old ones leaving, new ones arriving, but the music stayed the same. She wasnât quite sure what the joke Thomas was telling them was about, but she found herself giggling along nonetheless. This was the best she had felt in forever.
Unaware of what she was doing, she leaned back, finding Damianoâs arms carefully wrapping around her, holding her softly. To her own surprise, she was sinking into him.
âHaving fun?â He asked in a voice so low she barely heard it. A voice so soft it made her heart melt. She nodded, slightly twisting around in his embrace to look at him again. She couldnât get enough of his face. Sheâd stay and study it for all of eternity if he let her.
"Have you ever seen brown zircon?â She suddenly asked out of nowhere. âIt's a gemstone that looks like they made sparkly salted caramel bonbons from rock. They mine it in Tanzania, I think? Your eyes sparkle just like that." She grinned at the man beside her. "I can attest to that from this angle at least. Itâs like the one scene in Aladdin! 'She's got these eyes, and this hair andâŠâ Ah oh god, what am I doing?" She couldnât help but laugh at how ridiculous she was being. She found her face resting on his shoulder, completely content. His eyes never wavered from her face, listening closely to what she had to say.
Then Y/n watched her hand brush Damianoâs hair to the front, attempting to style it in a slightly different way. âDid you mean to look like Eren Yeager or was that some sort of subconscious coincidence? Not that it doesnât look good, of course.â
âYou watch Attack on Titan?â Dami looked down at her with surprise.
âNo I donât, but my friends do. So you learn the names of the people they yell at through the TV screen very quickly,â she laughed, remembering the way her friends would huddle in the living room, shouting at whatever the characters were doing wrong in their opinion.
âThe more I get to know you, the more Iâm convinced youâre my kinda woman, you know?â he mumbled, a smile grazing his lips. The more she looked at him, the more she felt her brain shutting off and her heart taking over. Or was it the high? She wasnât interested in trying to differentiate.
Once again, he pushed the joint between her lips, holding the eye contact and it felt so much more intimate than it should have. It felt like her nerves were on fire. When he pulled his hand back again, she wanted to grab onto it, keep him in place, keep the moment.
I could stay in this forever, Y/n thought to herself.
"Also, I'm not religious by any means, but whatever God was responsible for creating you sure took their sweet time doing itâŠ" The words spilled from her mouth before she realized she was talking, eyes flicking back and forth between his. "You know?"
She caught herself looking at his lips. A small blush grew on her face as she looked away. Staring out into the room, out at the people sitting next to them at other tables. Something distracting to take the rising heat off.
***
Damiano could feel his defenses wearing away. All ideas of staying away completely vanished into the smoke that lulled them in as he was holding her in his arms, her back leaning against his chest. He could feel her breathing, giggling at nothing at all, or maybe something Victoria had said but he hadnât heard.
âIf anyoneâs been made by the angels, itâs you, amore,â he mumbled more to himself than anything, but she had heard him. Another chuckle running through her body. The atmosphere was fogging up his brain. He watched in amusement as he let a finger run up her arms, from her wrist to her upper arm where the fabric of her shirt began, and goosebumps appeared as if standing tall in a row. He tried it again on the other arm, getting the same result.
âWhat are you doing?â
She was turning around in his arms, just enough to look at him without removing herself from his embrace. He wondered if it was the dim light or if she was always this radiant. His hands travelled to the elastic that was holding her hair together and carefully removed it, eyes on her. Her hair fell around her face, framing it beautifully in its typically wild manner.
âIâŠâ Her eyes seemed to twinkle as the light of the bar reflected back at him through them. âI donât know.â
He looked away, suddenly insecure. What was he doing? He wasnât sure. All he knew was that he couldnât keep his hands off her, now less than ever. He wanted her. Wanted her all to himself. Wanted to keep holding her like this forever. There was no denying that.
âYouâre sweet.â
Her voice took a second to get through to him, but as it did, he turned his head as if in slow motion. All he had wanted to do was look at her again, but that wasnât what happened. Instead, her lips were on his.
***
All Y/n had done was lean forward to press a kiss against his cheek. Now their lips were meeting and she didnât know how she had gotten there. She wanted to pull back - no, actually she didnât. But she thought she should. Though the spirit was willin - to pull away, that was -, the flesh was weak. Delving deeper into his arms, she found herself kissing him like she meant it. Her hands found his chest, feeling the rising heat from his skin. Being closer to him than ever before was driving her crazy. His soft, warm lips against hers. Just the tiniest movements, as if he was afraid of breaking her. She let herself enjoy it. For a moment. That was all her brain allowed before switching back to the rational part. She pulled back in surprise.
She moved out of his embrace, stiffening at the contact. All of the twinkling lights of romance that had just appeared around them now popped as the kiss ended.
I just kissed my boss. I just fucking went and kissed Damiano! I am so, so fucked.
Yet, she couldn't deny that she wanted to kiss him again. And again, and again until they ran out of air to breathe. She looked back at him and the expression on his face said it all. His lids lowered, a small smile appearing on his face. Eyes twinkling in the soft light. He hadnât wanted the kiss to end either. Either that or the weed was affecting him more than she had thought.
But as cold air started to seep in between them he blinked a couple of times, only now noticing that she had pulled away.
"Sorry - about that. I was trying to- I wasn't trying to kiss you. Well, I was - but not on the mouth. That would have been very forward of me. I would never. That's not me. I don't know how that happened - sorry." Y/n rambled on, unable to stop talking.
Damiano smirked, pecking her cheek. "Y/n, it's fine, you're fine. I turned my head and we kissed. It happens." He shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly. As if this was some sort of common occurrence. As if she was panicking for nothing. Was she?
***
Damiano desperately tried to hide the turmoil inside of him. It happens?! Damiano, what the hell are you thinking! Not the right thing to say in this situation! Now it just looks like youâd kiss anyone, great. He looked down at his hands, fumbling with his rings. Trying to get his breathing back under control. He needed to be cool.
"I mean - not that I didn't enjoy it. You kiss good!"
You kiss good? What the? That wasnât even English. He was well and truly losing his mind.
***
Y/n took a deep breath, sitting back in her seat, making sure not to be as close to Damiano as she had been before. Victoria and Thomas had migrated to get more drinks and Ethan was deeply entrenched in some conversation with a man next to him. Luckily the rest of the band hadn't seen what just happened. Grabbing her glass once more, the cold wet condensation gave a stark contrast to her warm skin.
The kiss still left a tingly feeling on her lips. Quickly looking at Damiano, she met his eyes. He had not looked away yet, it seemed. She watched as he bit his lip in contemplation. Whatever was playing on his mind, Y/n didn't know. His words left her believing he wasnât quite as put together as he tried to pretend. He certainly wasnât making much sense. Although, she wouldnât dismiss his compliment of her kissing abilities. She wondered if he would think similarly if they did it again, or did more than thatâŠ
Her wandering thoughts were abruptly interrupted by a loud crash. The culprit was quickly spotted. The middle of the coffeeshop, which had been empty of people until then, now had Thomas lying on his front, surrounded by liquid and broken glass.
Y/n didnât hesitate, jumping up to offer her aid. The worry only lasted for a second though, until Thomas turned on his back, giggling maniacally. She barely managed to kick some shards out of the way before he could roll onto them.
She let out a deep sigh at the state of the guitarist, before quickly apologizing to the people at the bar.
âEveryone help me grab Thomas, I think this is our sign to call it a night.â
***
Y/n thought sheâd have an easy time going to sleep. The effects of the joint were lingering, plus, the day had just been plain exhausting. Yet, as her head hit the pillow, she felt restless. Her mind kept circling around Damiano. The way he had looked at her. The way he had looked in general. She had seen him basically naked at this point, but she still thought about how it would be different up close and personal. She wished she had been able to read his eyes more. Had he been thinking about the same things she had? Had he wanted to kiss her again and again, get lost in that bubbling excitement of finally being close, finally let his hands wander to new places? She wanted to pull his hair. See what kind of sound would leave his mouth when doing so.
She wanted his hands and his lips, all of him really, badly. She wanted to know what he felt like when he really kissed her. What his fingers would be able to do to her. Biting and moaning. She desperately needed some release, wishing it would come from him, but knowing there was no chance, at least not tonight. Her hand wandered between her legs as she let her mind run wild. Imagining it was him instead, letting his fingers run along the inside of her thighs, exploring every inch of her. How he would treat her just right, hit all the right spots, do so much better than her own fingers ever could. The words heâd whisper in her ear, seducing her with his mother tongue, breath fanning her skin. How he would kiss her senseless. Feeling the rhythm of their bodies take over. Watch his tattoos start to glisten with a sheen of sweat from what they would be doing.
She found her release almost embarrassingly quickly, burying her face in her pillow. Her body felt more at ease, although her heart was still craving something more. She had almost calmed down, getting her breathing back under control. In a moment of clarity, she checked her phone to see when she had to wake up the next day, when the sound of a moan caught her attention. One that definitely wasnât her own, but seemed to come from the room next door.
Damianoâs room.
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A/N: This is another draft that has NIT been worked on in forever, this was a request but I slowed down on my writing so I never finished this and I have no idea where I was going with this. This is not proof read and this has been in my drafts for 6+ months. Enjoy.
fuxxinâ love - soobinâĄ
contains: smut, soft!dom soobin, fwb!yeonjun, sorta rough sex, college au, slight fluff.
THIS IS FUCKING LONG I DIDN'T MEAN TO
Your face buried into the left side of Yeonjuns neck, breathing heavily as your coming down from your high. Yeonjuns slender fingers rubbing circles into your back, slightly tickling you.
âYou okay?â He questions looking into your face while you peel yourself from his body. You give him a weak nod and smile.
âYeah, but can you get me some water?â You request, pulling out some loose pajama shorts and a over-sized shirt from you drawer, stumbling a bit while putting on your shorts.
âYeah, of course.â Yeonjun leaves your room with his boxers on going into your kitchen.
You and Yeonjun have been sleeping together for about 3 months now, and no one else knows. Its sort of like a friends with benefits thing, I mean yeah you thought he was a fairly good looking guy but you didnât want a relationship with him. He also felt kinda bad for fucking you because his bestfriend, Soobin has a crush on you. Yeah Soobin was cute like really cute, the way his cheeks are always puffed out due to them being chubby and squishy, the way his eyes turn into a small soft arch when he laughs or smiles, and how polite and gentle he was towards you whenever you two spoke nonetheless you didnât really have a crush on him, what he doesnât know wonât hurt him, right?
Yeonjun walks into your room handing you a glass of cold water. âDo you have morning classes tomorrow?â He then grabs his shirt off of your fluffy white carpet, slipping it onto his small yet toned body.
You give a small smile, as a way to say thank you. âUh, yeah but its just literature.â Taking a small gulp before setting it onto your nightstand, tidying up your bed due to recent events. Looking up at Yeonjun, his hair is a mess.
He lifts an eyebrow, âSo that means I canât stay over?â He asks while sliding on his black sweats, running his hand through his blond hair.
âIt sure doesâ You reply walking over to him, slowly but surely pushing him out of your bedroom. You two walking into your living room area. âYou need to leave before my roommate gets back and sees you.â
He lets out a sigh, walking over to the front door. âFine. Iâll see you later.â Flashing a quick small smile before leaving your apartment.
                       next morning
You walked into your literature lecture hall 5 minutes before it started, scanning the room to see any open seats so you can settle down, while in the process you see Soobin with two other boys. You knew their faces but you couldnât remember their names at that moment. He never sat there but oh well there is an open seat next to him so what can you do.
With a big cheeky smile you walk over to them. âHey Soobin.â You set your things down and take your set. Looking over at him, his cheeks now red and flustered from your smile towards him.
âH-hey, y/n.â He replies softly, turning his body towards you. You made his heart flutter almost every time you were with each other, which was quiet often since you always group up for projects or study together. Soobin has always thought of you as a innocent crush I mean that doesn't mean he never thought about fucking you a few times but he never said anything about since the both of you were only friends.
âMe and Gyu are going to go sit down there, we canât see the projectorâ A tan skinny boy with wine colored hair utters while dragging an other boy with loose black hair, flashing a quick smile before taking off leave you and Bin alone. Taehyun and Beomgyu, those are their names. You talked to them a couple of times but never a really vivid conversation.Â
A few minutes passed, you just taking notes as per usual but you did catch Soobin staring at you a few times. It was cute, and so innocent just like him.
The lecture has finally ended, packing up your notebook and pencils you looking up at Bin, seems like he was waiting for you.
"You don't need to wait for m-"
"Wanna hang out later tonight?" He asked, looking down after his question, cheeks turning pink.
You had nothing planned, so why not. "Yeah, that sounds great."
Soobin's face lit up to your response. He couldn't believe you actually said yes. "W-well, we can hang at my place since you have a roommate and all."
"Yeah, see you later Bin" A wide smile spreads across your face as you exit the lecture hall.
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Hi, I really love your writing on Ao3! I was wondering if you could write an Adachi x reader where Adachi slips it in while reader is sleeping? Maybe halfway through being fucked reader wakes up but pretends to be asleep anyway because they are enjoying it? I imagine that they'd probably already have a preexisting sexual relationship and have talked about the sex that they are okay with (that could be a creative choice for you tho idc. manipulative adachi sexy). best wishes!
(As usual, you can find the AO3 version of all my uploads [and some things I donât post here to tumblr] via my Masterlist blog page)
Here you are, anon! This one really struck a cord with me, and I knew I had to fill it, eventually.
SummaryÂ
Adachi gives Reader a pleasant morning surprise to indulge a desire they previously confessed to him.
Tags/Warnings
Biting, Creampie, Dirty Talk, Hair-Pulling, Mildly Dubious Consent, Reader-Insert, Rough Sex, Shameless Smut, Somnophilia, Vaginal Sex
Rise & Shine (F! Reader/Tohru Adachi)
The early rays of morning scattered through the window blinds, bathing the otherwise dark bedroom in pale stripes of yellow and gold. The cloying spring heat had yet to creep in, some remnant of the coolness of night lingering, lending a refreshing feeling, rather than one hot and clinging. Tohru Adachi stirred on the bedsheets of the mattress next to the mostly shuttered window.
He started to disentangle himself lazily from the light sheets, but stopped. A look of confusion spread across his face when he noted sitting up wasnât as easy as it should have been, the cause your prone form tucked so securely against him. He remembered falling asleep at your apartment after some drinks at Shiroku and a couple rounds of fun, but you had fallen asleep with ample distance between you. Adachi decided you must have unconsciously snugged up to him while the both of you slept.
Though he was confused, that didnât mean Adachi wasnât exactly displeased. Neither of you had bothered to re-dress at all before passing out the night before. That left you naked, pressed against him, at least before he tried to extricate himself from your grasp. His eyes roved unchastely over your bare skin, exposed where the sheets rode down past your hips. Lying flat on your stomach after he had escaped your cuddling, your arms splayed on the pillows, legs spread haphazardly. He eyed the swell of your chest pressing into the soft mattress and the tantalizing curve of your ass, his gaze lingering as his hunger was roused.
In that moment, Adachi recalled a conversation that had taken place between the two of you not long ago. You had opened up to him a little with your fantasies and wants, admitting with a thoroughly hot face and hushed tone how badly you wanted him to use you. You hadnât described exactly how, though, only that your desire for him to use your body however he pleased existed. He remembered how excited the confession had made him, immediately diving into imaginations of how he planned to take you up on it. Somehow, though, the thought had slipped his mind until that instant.
The gears were turning in his head, and Adachiâs lips curled in a sinful, lecherous grin as he came to a decision. What better way to grant your wishes and use you only for his pleasure than to fuck you while you slept, when he had little reason to worry about your satisfaction or concerns. His cock jerked to life at the thought, and his mind was made up.
He drew the sheets the rest of the way off, flinging them to the side where they would remain unwanted and forgotten for some time. The full sight of your body laid out nude before him met him, and another punch of hunger seized him, his reacting in along with it. For a second, Adachi wondered if you would even notice. He couldnât remember if you were a light sleeper who woke at even a hardly intrusive touch, or if you slept like the dead and would drowse through it all. But he was going to find out very soon. =============================================
It was the touch of something solid and cool between your legs that eased you from the warm, comfortable haze of sleep. It prodded at the soft pink of your cunt before slipping inside with little resistance. At first, you thought you were having some kind of vivid wet dream, but you recognized the strange dark line of half-consciousness, so it was no dream. Something had buried itself inside your cunt, wet and welcoming even while you dozed. The sensation of whatever it was wriggled and curled, easing in and out for a moment before withdrawing altogether.
The thick fog of sleep threatened to lure you back into its clutches with the retreat of whatever had been intruding; you had nearly convinced yourself even if it wasnât a dream, you had  imagined it. Just a figment of your muddled, half-asleep mind. But whatever it was returned, clamping over your thighs and carefully prying them apart to spread your legs wider. The tip of something far more hot and hard poked at your slick lips, the sensation giving your growing consciousness a jolt. You froze, making yourself remain still despite coming further to, and the thick intrusion sank past your lips and your entrance.
A low, blissful groan caught your attention when the hardness filled you completely, and your cunt clenched reflexively around it. Several debauched noises longed to free themselves from your throat at the aching fullness, but you quashed them, forcing yourself to feign sleep. The groan no doubt belonged to the man you had fallen asleep beside the night before, there was no denying that. You were led to a conclusion even your hazy mind could make: Adachi was the one buried deep inside your cunt, basking in the tight embrace of your soft, wet flesh around his cock.
The realization didnât alarm or upset you, though. In fact, it only made your cunt feel wetter, and your walls tightened around him again, eliciting another erotic, gravelly noise from Adachi, A wicked heat blossomed in your gut and made your heart drum in your chest, your pulse beginning to race. It almost embarrassed you how much being fucked while you âsleptâ turned you on, and you wondered fleetingly if he noticed how readily your body responded to him. Would he think nothing of it and just assume you were still dreaming and none the wiser?
Any thoughts were drowned out, though, when Adachiâs hips pulled back and he thrust back into your heat, the start of a steady rhythm. He rocked his hips languidly against your backside, obviously in no rush. A series of small, carnal, and oh-so-arousing sounds drifted from his lips as he pumped his cock in and out of your core. Sounds quiet enough that if you had really been asleep, you doubted you would have noticed at all. You struggled not to react too noticeably to them or from the roll of his hips. But you couldnât help squirming here and there, a muffled, sleepy whimper escaping every once in a while. You hoped Adachi chalked them up to simply unconscious and involuntary reactions.
Whatever the case, your wriggling and tiny, nearly incoherent gasps and murmurs spurred Adachi onward, and his pace increased, fucking you more thoroughly into the bed. Each deep thrust made you want to swoon and melt and moan. The weight of Adachiâs body pressed into your back, his skin already growing slick with beads of sweat, radiating heat against you.
âYâknow,â he growled casually in your ear, ïżœïżœyouâre a really bad actor.â His pace didnât stop, and he his came to tangle in the sheets beside your shoulders, giving him more leverage to pound into your cunt more roughly.
You ignored him, unsure if he knew you were awake and was telling the truth, of if he was searching for some kind of conscious reaction to find out. Things were too enjoyable though to let them end so easily. Until Adachi could prove you were awake, you were more than pleased to let him have his way with you.
A moment of silence punctuated only by the sounds of sex passed, and then a low, contemplative hum droned beside you. âWell, I guess if youâre really sleeping through this, I can do whatever I want,â he said coyly, and to some it might have sounded almost like a threat. Right then, to you, it was a sinful promise you silently bade him to fulfill.
His hips snapped harder against you, and it was even more of a struggle to fight back the noises that wanted to break free, each thrust so deep it provoked a guttural response. He adjusted himself, tilting his hips and pressing his body more firmly against yours. You didnât know if it was out of mere convenience for him, or on purpose to overwhelm you and shatter your charade, but the new angle brought on a greater ordeal.
Each rough stroke of his cock, besides sinking so deep, brushed against a much more receptive spot that made your gut twist in a distinctly pleasant way. You tried to disguise the way you turned your head to push it into the pillows as an unconscious reaction, though you unsure how long Adachi would continue to buy your act, if he didnât already know the truth.
Each time he drove back inside, you lost more resolve to keep pretending, and to disguise and smother your moans and the way your body so badly wanted to meet his thrusts. The molten feeling that had grown in your belly served only to weaken you further, welling up inside and proving more demanding and wild than the sounds of pleasure seeking escape.l
You pressed your face into the pillows more as a particularly stubborn moan bubbled up, much louder than any of the others, trying in vain to stifle it. Though as soon as the sound left your lips, smothered as it was, your little game of pretend was over. A rough hand tangled in your hair, grabbing tightly and jerking your head back and away from the pillows. Your new position left you no choice but to moan freely into the air, already hot and thick with sex and sweat. The stubborn moan seemed like the bursting of a dam, and there was no stopping the myriad cries that followed it.
âAre you enjoying yourself, sweetheart?â Adachi hissed in your ear, amused and breathless. âPretending you had no idea what I was doing and getting off on being treated like the little cock sleeve you wanted to be?â
With your act revealed, you had no reason to try to fool Adachi any longer. You gave into the carnal heat swelling inside you, crying out and finally slamming your hips back to meet his. âFuck, yes! Use me, please,â you begged, and Adachiâs stinging grip in your hair tightened reflexively. âI want to be your plaything; use me however you want!â your voice broke with your admission, shattered by a stroke that stole your breath away and made your made briefly go blank.
The words were a catalyst, stoking Adachiâs already boiling lust to even greater heights. He rutted harder against you, feeling the urgency of an orgasm dawning on him, your shameless enthusiasm speeding it along. He relished the outpouring of bawdy shouts and moans bubbling from your mouth now that he had called your bluff. His fingered remained snared in your hair, pulling your head back almost painfully and ensuring there was no chance to muffle a single sound more.
You could feel Adachiâs desperation mounting behind each thrust, even through the lingering haze of sleep clouding your awareness. You felt it in the tension of his body, pushing yours so forcefully into the bed, and in his fingers, both in your hair and on your skin. But you were already ahead of him. The sheer excitement of being fucked in such an obscene fashion made your body tense and burn white hot. Each time Adachi filled you up again, it forced another cry from your lips, and the liquid heat wound tighter and more intense.
Your breathing hitched, becoming quickly ragged and sharp, and Adachiâs was just as labored in your ear. You bucked back against him mindlessly, seeking the last little push you needed and thinking of nothing else. When you came, his named rolled off your tongue in waves, interrupted by moans that pitched more desperate and airy as he fucked you through your orgasm.
He bent his head, and his teeth scraped the nape of your neck, your shoulders, anywhere he could find to leave a colorful, stinging mark. The sharp sensations added to the ripples of pleasure dancing through you, and your voice cracked in your ecstasy. His tempo slowed, gaining force where it lost momentum, until the smack of his skin on yours was clear even through the chorus of groans and cries ringing out. When he finished, he bit down again, harder, so hard a moan turned into a brief yelp, even though he hadnât broken the skin.
With each spurt of his cum that filled you, Adachi groaned, long and low, the noise feral and thick. The sounds made you shudder, and your cunt squeeze him tighter, even though your orgasm was wearing away and coming to an end. Finally, Adachi was spent, and you were left sweat-slicked and nearly panting, his grasp on your hair loosening. You couldnât think beyond the feel of him still sheathed in your cunt, or the sound of his heavy breathing beside you. Even smothered beneath his weight, your mind had room only for the pleasures of the afterglow.
You rested limp and pliant against the bedsheets as Adachi released your hair, and when you lay your head on the pillows again, they felt blissfully cool. You were too tired and out-of-sorts to move when Adachi withdrew, vaguely noting the sensation of something warm and thick trickling down your thighs.Adachi didnât bother laying back in bed, instead rolling to the side and getting to his feet. You summoned the energy to roll over and watch him as he went about getting cleaned up before searching for his clothes and re-dressing.
After several minutes, Adachi had sorted himself out and made himself presentable - or at least what counted as presentable for detective with his routinely messy hair, crumpled clothes, and crooked tie. By then, you had regained steady breathing, watching him lazily and propping yourself up on your elbow. He took one last glance over himself, patting the pockets of his slacks for his phone and keys and ensuring he hadnât forgotten anything, Satisfied everything was accounted for, he walked to the beside, bending down and taking your chin between his thumb and forefinger before tipping your head to meet his gaze.
âIâve gotta get going now, sweetheart. Be good while Iâm gone and maybe Iâll indulge more of your sick little fantasies the next time I come over,â he promised, punctuating his words with a kiss. It was a gesture that might have seemed sweet or affectionate, were it not for the sharp, hungry bite he left on your bottom lip.
Then, he was gone without another word, leaving you with a burning face, an aching cunt oozing cum, and many angry marks that would soon turn various shades of blue and purple. Yet, you were left also with a bone-deep sense of satisfaction that outweighed everything else. You slid back down onto the bed, recounting what had just happened. Even just the memory sent your arousing spiralling out of control all over again.
It was going to be torture waiting for the next time you could get together.
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Cross My Heart (Chapter 6)
Pairing: Agent Whiskey x Reader
Rating: Explicit/18+
Summary:Â A traitorous Agent Whiskey returns to the United States on the run. Being cast out by Statesman, he soon finds that youâre the only person he can turn to - the embittered former flame from years long passed
Word count: 7.7k
Chapter-specific Warnings: Descriptions of blood from a gunshot wound, alcohol consumption, talk of drug addiction, more death talk, mentions of entitled kid + parent, everyone being in denial and uh I think thatâs about it
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The strangest thing about dreams were how quickly they disappeared: you could be passed out in bed, a million miles away from the waking world before the rays of sun started to shine over the horizon to rouse you from your slumber, and just like that - whatever world you were in would vanish, being replaced by an often disappointing reality in front of you. For Jack, vivid dreams werenât too often of an occurrence for him, not that he really remembered anyway. Nightmares were even more rare, though at one point in time theyâd plagued him for months on end. That was how heâd spent the first few months after his wifeâs passing: waking up in a cold sweat, heart racing in panic from the lingering remnants of dream clung to the back of his mind, horrifying scenes of loss and tragedy playing out to torture him in his most vulnerable state. Usually the nightmares involved him being forced to watch Lilyâs death with his own eyes and being powerless to stop it, the illusion always shattering just as her body hit the ground. Other times heâd be confronted by her, blood cascading from the bullet wound in her head and onto her skin while she stared at him with harsh eyes. Heâd try to reach out for her, only to feel her hands had gone cold. And then the blame would start. The words that were repeated over and over by her until he felt his brain was going to break.You couldnât protect me. Those ones were always the worst, and thankfully, the most rare.
All of this being said, Jack hadnât dreamt of Lily in a long time. As the sting of her passing began to fade with time, leading into hate and anger towards the world for taking her away, the dreams slowly stopped. He still mourned for her every day, feeling frozen in time no matter how many years passed, no matter how fine he seemed on the outside, but the worst of it had left him. Or, so he thought.
Jolting out of bed with a fierce start, he could feel the rough material of the duvet in his hands, his hands grasped around it with an iron grip. He felt compelled to scream, though no sound was able to escape his mouth, and as he took note of his surroundings he started to feel less afraid when he realised where he was. He didnât know what the time was, if he had to guess it was probably after midnight. Hesitantly, he placed the back of his hand to his temple, feeling the stray beads of sweat running underneath. Itâd been a long time since something had managed to scare him to that degree, much less a nightmare. He probably should have felt relaxed once he realised that none of what he just went through was real, but he still felt spooked by the entire experience. Jack couldnât even remember most of what happened - it all blended together in a frightening blur. The only moment he could still make out in his mind from the dream were its final moments: his wife was standing in front of him, in the middle of the convenience store where she died, with a man holding a gun to the back of her head. He remembered screaming out, pleading for her to be spared. It was too late - the sound of a gunshot rang out and her body fell limp to the floor, a pool of blood forming underneath her head. That wasnât even the worst of it, as when he looked down upon her corpse he realised that it wasnât Lilyâs body lying dead on the ground anymore. It was yours.
âGod fuckinâ damn itâ he cursed, placing his head in his hands. On top of everything else that had already happened, he now had to deal with the return of old haunting nightmares that somehow were even worse than the ones he had years ago, because now you were involved. He sat up abruptly, grabbing onto a discarded shirt that heâd thrown over the foot of the bed and pulling it over his head, using nothing but the moonlight pouring through the curtains to guide himself out of the room and into the darkened hall. He stole a glance towards where your room was, a droplet of fear etching itself into his mind. Before he entirely knew what he was doing, he was opening the door to your room, being careful not to make any sound lest you were awakened. His fears subsided when he saw you curled up beneath the covers, sound asleep and none the wiser to his presence. Exhaling gently, he untensed his shoulders and looked over at your sleeping form with a small but sweet smile on lips. Of course she would be fine. Youâre being paranoid.Â
Pulling the door behind him softly, he turned his attention to the end of the hall where the stairs were, the vague recollections of the nightmare rattling in the back of his mind. If he didnât do something soon, he would keep himself up all night mulling over the implications of it all, and he wasnât keen to spend the early hours of Sunday morning losing sleep because of his fucked head. He supposed it wasnât that out of nowhere to dream about his wife, as he had been talking about her with you just last night. What scared him more so was that you were there, taking the bullet and ending up exactly as she had: dead. He couldnât begin to fathom its meaning. Did it have to have meaning? Was it nothing more than a nightmare?
Scooping up a glass, he poured himself a generous amount of whiskey to sip on, returning the bottle back to the corners of your liquor cabinet. He probably should have asked before helping himself but it wasnât like you were awake to answer to him, and he had a feeling you wouldnât notice anyway, considering heâd found the aforementioned bottle pushed to the furthest reaches of the cabinet. When he noticed the label on the bottle, he couldnât keep himself from smirking at the irony of it - of course youâd keep the Jack Daniels whiskey towards the back. Reclining into the couch with the glass in his hands, he took an absentminded sip while his mind further delved into the worrying implications of such a dream.Â
The only part of it all that made sense was that the dream had been about his deceased wife - with the discussion that happened between the two of you last night about her it was only logical that his subconscious had lingered on some parts of it. After youâd turned in for the night Jack had stayed up for a little while longer, seated out on that veranda with a pensive look and the bottle of bourbon youâd neglected to bring back inside. Your words made rings around his mind, sparking a debate of sorts with himself as he considered your criticisms towards him. The emotional part of him wanted to blindly hate, and to keep on doing exactly what heâd always been doing. But when he realised that blind hate had gotten him into this whole mess in the first place, heâd allowed himself to listen more carefully to your words, and to examine them on a deeper level. Upon knowing your own past with loss and pain at the hands of another, it made him take a step back and actually look at everything that had transpired in Cambodia, all the little things that led him to working against an organisation that he once devoted himself to. Whereas youâd taken steps to try and live in a world without your parents, heâd remained angry and hurt, stuck in a world that had long moved on from the tragedy and still feeling every raw cut of emotion that losing her dealt. Sure, he wasnât exactly inconsolable over it constantly - he had been able to live for sixteen years without Lily. If he went to a psychiatrist, he knew exactly what theyâd say to all that: âYouâve externalised your hate onto someone easier to blame, in this instance addicts, when really the only person you feel should be to blame is yourself for not being there to save herâ, or something like that. He couldnât help but let out a small laugh at the ludicracy of it all. Never in a million years did he think heâd be one for deep introspection. What in the goddamn has this world come to?
Even so, your words wouldnât leave his mind. Did you have a point? Was it wrong to blame every addict on the planet for the actions of a few? In a rational sense, he could see what you were saying. His actions hadnât been based on rationality though, it was all emotion. His instincts wanted him to reject the notion of him being ideologically wrong in this, a notion he in turn fought to reject from himself. One thing in particular that Eggsy had said to him during their final confrontation had stuck out to him at that moment: âYouâre working for the president?â. Heâd denied it at the time, and there was truth to his denial: as he put it himself, he didnât want any kind of association with that asshole. At the same time, his feelings on the matter did happen to crossover with the president's own agenda, and some part of that in general hadnât sat right with him.Â
Would it even matter by this stage if heâd accounted for his errors? Heâd already single -handedly destroyed all that he had by then, the only thing that could properly atone him in his own opinion would probably be death, and heâd be damned if he was gonna let himself die any time soon. The realisation that he might have to spend the rest of his days with the guilt of the incident in Cambodia eating away at him wasnât too kind on his psyche, but he was ready to accept it in lieu of the alternative. And damn it, if there wasnât something about that judgemental way youâd looked at him that gave him enough of a kick in the teeth to want to do better. Youâd said it yourself that you didnât believe him to be a bad man. Maybe somehow he could redeem himself enough to even be half of what youâd described of him.Â
Drumming a lone finger along the fine seam of the couch cushion, his thoughts circled back around to the disturbing dream and everything it entailed, including the part that had shaken him the most. Why you? Why were you of all people appearing in his nightmares? And not only that, why did you take the place of his long dead wife at the end? His mind was ticking into overdrive to decipher every little detail. There was only one other time in his life he remembered seeing you in his dream, and that was when you two were dating. He could chalk up your sudden appearance in his subconscious to the conversation the both of you were having the night before - it would explain the return of his nightmares about Lily too, although his mind swayed towards ruminating on a much more confronting possibility.
What if it means Iâve fallen back in love with her?
As soon as the concept crossed his mind, Jack frantically sought to purge it from his mind altogether. What a foolish idea, he reasoned to himself, taking a larger sip of whiskey out of the glass. There wasnât anymore to this, and he shouldnât be throwing out such wild theories based on a nightmare of all things. He went and thought back to the small moments you two had shared throughout the weeks together, times where one lingering touch almost seemed to convey something more. He realised just how many times heâd caught himself staring at you the last few weeks, or the times his touch lingered on yours a second longer than it should have, things he hadnât noticed until he began to pick apart his own behaviour and examine it underneath a microscope. Old habits die hard, I guess. He may have teased you about making him coffee by âaccidentâ a couple of weeks back, but there wasnât meant to be any insinuation behind it. It was just that - a harmless tease, a simple reflex of his infamous flirtatious charm. None of this necessarily meant there were any reignited feelings, and furthermore, if by some insane stroke of dumb luck that did happen to be the case, then they were only small at best, fleeting in nature. He couldnât fall for you again. He couldnât. Not after putting you through so much pain.
No matter how hard he tried to convince himself it was nothing, even he wasnât buying it tonight. If he was falling for you again, how would you take it? Not well he guessed, as you still felt hurt by his actions. Why wouldnât you? He was the one that hurt you then came back into your life without warning because he had to go screw up the one good thing he still had. It was painful to be reminded of how little still had left by that time: his status as an agent stripped from him, everyone he ever loved being dead and buried, and not able to return back home as he was still on the run. Him being at your ranch at all was putting you in enough danger, a fact that made him uncomfortable in of itself. Falling for you would make things more complicated than they already were.
She doesnât have to find out. Keep it to yourself, and sheâll never know.Â
Thatâs it. Thatâs what heâll do. He wonât ever mention these returning feelings of affection towards you, and in doing that, hopefully they will run their course and die out. Jack would still be courteous towards you, it went without saying since you were implicating yourself in all of this by hiding a fugitive. He could do that, right? Ignore it all, and avoid anything more than general amicable gestures. A part of him hurt to think of that, especially when those thoughts he had when you two were on the veranda together last night pushed themselves to the forefront of his mind. The way your hair had looked splayed out over your shoulders under the dim porch light, the burn in your eyes that gleamed as youâd admonished him for every mistake he ever made that shouldnât have made him so entranced. He chastised himself for thinking so lewdly of you in that moment, hating how the very image of you in such a light darted straight to his groin. Finishing off the last dredges of whiskey, he wiped his lips with the back of his hand and let out a heavy sigh.Â
Forget about it. Leave her be. Youâve hurt her enough.Â
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At long last, there was finally a lull in the day, giving you some off time to relax and decompress a bit. There was still an hour to go before the ranch closed for the night, though nobody else had any riding lessons booked and it was unlikely that anybody was going to show up unannounced at five in the evening. To say the day had been busy would be selling the whole experience short - downright exhausting would have been a more accurate way to put it. There was a function going on for a good chunk of it, a birthday party for the son of some big-shot oil tycoon. Youâd been worried your injury would slow down your progress with getting tasks done but to your pleasant surprise you were able to manage just fine, though having your other employees and Jack around had also been a huge help. Itâd been four weeks since youâd gotten injured, and according to the doctor during your semi-regular checkups the recovery process was coming along nicely, which had been more than evident to you with the lessening pain. Sadly, you wouldnât be able to get the cast off for a while, despite your protests. You didnât see why it all had to take so long: you hadnât been in any excruciating pain for a good while so it was clearly healing. As well as the cast being a nuisance when bathing and the like, it was also annoyingly itchy, leading you to talking yourself out of shoving a coat hanger down the side of it in an attempt to stop it several times. If only you didnât have a ranch to run, then you could take an antihistamine pill and be done with it.Â
Dragging yourself back into the house, you headed straight for the stairs, eager to lie down and doze a little - normally a long day like that would call for a bottle of scotch. This time round, however, you decided to forego the alcohol in favour of a more straightforward way to relax. Once youâd come to the door to the guest bedroom upstairs you felt compelled to stop, your mind wandering to where Jack was at that very moment. Last youâd seen him that day heâd been bringing the horses in. The two of you had stopped to chat for awhile, your usual bitter-edged banter being exchanged, things playing out just as they should when suddenly that same familiar feeling started to make itself known, the same thing youâd felt when heâd handed you the painkillers, or when you two had been out on the veranda a little while back. That spark, so to speak, the frightening feeling of something burning in you, something that shouldnât be there in the first place. Youâd instinctively ended the conversation soon after, making up some excuse about needing to take care of some accounting and hurrying off. Thinking about it now you couldnât stop yourself from going a tad pink in the cheeks at your behaviour, thoroughly embarrassed for daring to act like you were inflicted with something as trivial as a schoolgirl crush.Â
Donât be soft on him. Donât do this. Youâre better than this, those words you repeated to yourself like a mantra started to wear thin during those weeks, especially after the conversation you two had shared where youâd divulged some of the pain closest to your heart. You never thought that youâd tell anybody what you felt after your parents had died, not in a million years, so to have you in a position where you were comfortable enough to reveal such details was nothing short of astounding, particularly when one took into account the exact person youâd told it all to. You could justify these choices with the flimsy excuse of being drunk, but even you knew that in order to run your mouth about something that personal, even while intoxicated, meant you had to feel a certain amount of trust to the other person. Did you trust Jack? Was that what was happening here? To that, you couldnât fully answer, as you didnât really know.Â
Glancing from the doorknob to the stairs and back, you twisted the handle and allowed yourself into the spare bedroom, letting your feet move you towards the closet at the back of the room. Like a woman possessed, you didnât stop yourself from doing any of this, the feeling of your heartbeat ricocheting through your chest. It had been years since you permitted yourself to look at any of this stuff, let alone giving any of it a second thought. Out of sight, out of mind, youâd thought to yourself when youâd originally boxed it all away, not being able to bear throwing any of it out. Sliding the doors open, you took note of the fact that everything was left in its precise location indicating that true to his word, Jack hadnât meddled in any of it. A small sigh of relief escaped your lips while you sunk to your knees, poking your head through the rows of old coats that you kept neglecting to donate or sell to the very back of the closet where your eyes locked onto what youâd been originally seeking: a plain velvet blue shoebox shoved underneath an ugly knitted blanket that you plainly despised.Â
For as much of a hardline no-nonsense woman others perceived you as, a huge part of you was deeply sentimental towards both people and things, or more specifically, things people had given you, hence the choice to simply box up every gift and memento heâd ever given you rather than setting fire to it in some overly dramatic yet cinematic manner. When Jack and you had broken up, youâd gathered up everything that reminded you of him, thrown it in a box and then tossed it into the back of the closet of your apartment to be forgotten forever. When youâd taken over the family ranch from your parents, the box had ended up in the guest room closet instead due to you not wanting an object holding that many sorrowful memories anywhere near where you slept. Taking the box out and setting it down in front of you, you stared at it frostily for a minute, considering throwing it back into the closet and forgetting that you ever wanted to open it. Ultimately you caved, lifting the lid off and opening up the treasure trove of mementos, symbols of a love that used to be that became tarnished with time.Â
A lot of the items in question were photographs, a couple of polaroid shots of the two of you out at some bar in New York thrown in with the myriad of photos depicting you on various other dates with him. One in particular that caught your eye was a polaroid that had a heart drawn in red permanent marker on the white margins - you were wearing Jackâs Stetson and had one arm thrown around his neck, looking as if you hadnât a care in the world while he looked up at you with those heart-meltingly gorgeous brown eyes of his, as if nobody else in the world existed except for you. You could still recall the smell of the cigarette smoke from that day, how the loud music reverberated through your ears the entire night youâd spent there with your head rested against his shoulder, ignoring all your other friends in favour of him. You caught yourself grinning at the memory as if you were some kind of lovesick fool. Back then you mightâve been. Not anymore though. Not now.
Thatâs what you continued to tell yourself while you sorted through the boxâs contents, pulling out items ranging from small bits of jewelry to a small cat plushie that heâd won for you at the county fair. Your gaze zeroed in on a small silver chain necklace with a little horseshoe charm dangling on the end, earning yet another foolish smirk from you. Jack had bought that for you as a Christmas present, although you had insisted to him that he didnât have to go all out on a gift for you. Heâd even gotten the underside engraved with your name, which you traced over with the pad of your finger at that very moment.
Looking through all these gifts and the significance they once held to you, your mind started to wander back to the possibility youâd considered during your last proper talk with Jack, questioning once more if he deserved such harsh hostility being thrown towards him. You didnât want to let yourself be hurt again, so it only seemed logical to make yourself guarded and keep him at an arm's length. With that said, time and time again heâd managed to surprise you - he hadnât been pestering you as much you thought he would. Sure, he did jokingly insinuate that one time you made him coffee that you were growing fond of him but other than that heâd kept the charm to a minimum, or at least, less than you were used to in the past. It all made sense to you after youâd learned what happened to him that brought him back to you, his magnificent fall from grace so to speak. You meant what you said to him that night - you didnât think he was a bad person, rather just someone whoâs done bad things out of hurt and anger. With everything he told you about his wifeâs death, you couldnât help feeling a sense of powerful empathy towards him, a feeling that scared you a little to tell you the truth. Itâd been easy for years to write him off as a liar and a player, but in reality, Jack was far more complicated than that. Â How ironic: the advice you gave him ended up being a hundred percent relevant to yourself at the same time, you huffed with an absence of amusement.Â
If you had to be completely honest with yourself, without any kind of lies or facade to keep up, you didnât know what you felt about Jack anymore. You couldnât say you hated him, no, hate was far too strong of a word. Actually, you couldnât really say you even disliked him that much anymore. But you didnât really like him either. Or did you? Once again, the thoughts of how his touch had made you feel over those last few weeks invaded your mind, things that by all means shouldnât make you feel some type of way but did. Hell, even how you continued to make his coffee exactly how he liked it every morning, not bothering to question it anymore than necessary for the sake of your own sanity.Â
Shaking your head, you let out a heavy sigh as you glowered down at the box witheringly. Great, now youâd made yourself confused on your own emotions, all because you felt the need to reminisce on the past. Youâre being ridiculous about this. You donât feel that way about Jack, and if you did, you canât have him. Heâs on the run, heâs a criminal now, and more to the point he broke your heart once. Whoâs to say he wonât do it twice? Do yourself a favour for once. Ignore those feelings. Ignore it, and theyâll go away.
You quickly boxed up everything soon after that, pushing it to the back of the closet as if youâd never been there at all. Lifting yourself to your feet, you neglected to look back when you maneuvered yourself out the door and back into the hall, pulling your mind back towards any kind of ranch duties you could muster up out of thin air that you had to attend to, anything that could distract you from the small pink tinge that had crept across your cheeks that refused to leave, or the racing of your heart with every step you took.Â
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After a day that felt like it dragged on forever, youâd been looking forward to turning in for the night. For whatever reason, everything that could have gone wrong that day decided to go wrong - one of the horses had done a runner during one of the riding lessons and youâd had to go out and try to catch the bastard. It took forever to rope the damn horse back into the property. Jack, you and another one of the instructors managed to catch him in the end but it ended up setting your schedule behind for the rest of the day. Later on in the day, some entitled kid had come down and decided he didnât like the horse heâd been assigned to ride, waltzing right into the stables and picking out one that he deemed more suited for him. The horse, one of the older boys, was understandably annoyed by this random loud kid appearing out of nowhere and being rough with him, leading to said entitled brat getting chomped on the arm. The rest of the day had to be spent dealing with the screaming kid and his mother, who was every bit as entitled as her son was. Apple doesnât fall far from the tree, does it? Despite your damndest to put on a smile and placate the woman who was screaming threats of a lawsuit, she still wasnât letting up so youâd metaphorically thrown your hands up in frustration and told her straight to shut up. Sheâd left soon after that, huffing and threatening to get your entire business shut down. You werenât scared in the least of her empty threats: youâd dealt with hundreds of other people just like her in your stint running the ranch and nine times out of ten nothing ever came from their tantrums. It was still supremely exhausting to deal with, draining your energy and putting you in a foul mood for the rest of the day.Â
Youâd been angling to end the day as soon as the first instance of idiocy started, so when it was finally late enough in the night and youâd grown tired of the bottle of merlot that youâd been speeding your way through, youâd taken yourself upstairs, thrown on a random t-shirt and sweatpants, and sunk right into bed ready to forget it all and start over.
However, you werenât so lucky. From the moment youâd first entered your room that night, something had felt off. You couldnât quite put your finger on it at first, so youâd tried to ignore it, writing it off as feeling slightly on edge from the rough day. The weird feeling wouldnât go away though - everytime you closed your eyes, you felt like someone else was there, like there was another presence nearby. Five minutes passed before youâd flicked the lamp next to your bed on and looked around the room. You knew Jack had already gone to bed before you, and you couldnât hear any sort of noise from downstairs that would indicate someone else being there. Nevertheless, you couldnât shake the feeling that someone else was there, maybe not in the house precisely but somewhere on the property, as if there were a pair of foreign eyes staring at you from afar. Your eyes darted towards the window, the curtains open to reveal the glimmering starry sky outside, your breath becoming shallow as you were finally able to place the exact feeling that was making you tense up in fear:
You felt like you were being watched.Â
Diving out of bed, you scrambled towards the window and scanned the vast expanse of countryside surrounding your property, searching to see if there was anything out there that was unfamiliar to you. Nothing - all you could see were the stretches of field that lay beyond your ranch, with a lone few collection of trees situated off the edge of your property, exactly as it always looked. That alone should have eased your nerves a bit but for whatever reason that feeling of being watched wouldnât go away. You glanced back at your bed, trying to talk yourself into downplaying it all as you being paranoid. There isnât anyone out there.Youâve had a rough day, and about three glasses of wine so youâre a little bit tipsy too, you told yourself as you trudged back to bed and pulled the covers over your head, a useless action that did nothing to quell the anxiety festering in you. For the next twenty minutes or so, you did everything you could to push your unease away in favour of sleep to no avail. The entire time youâd been lying there you felt like there were a pair of eyes burning into your back, directly across from where the window was, yet every time you sat yourself up to check there was nobody there.Â
Fantastic, guess Iâm not sleeping tonight then. Clearly, that creepy feeling wasnât going to leave and you didnât feel comfortable in that room anymore. Briefly you contemplated going down to sleep on the couch but that idea was dismissed almost as quickly as it came to you - if you felt like someone was watching the house, then moving sleeping locations wasnât gonna solve anything. A part of you wanted to go grab a firearm and go on a patrol around the property to be safe, though once remembering that you were a little bit tipsy you didnât feel it would be the best course of action to go hold a gun right then. Throwing a single glance towards your bedroom door, another idea popped into your head, and before you could try and talk yourself out of it you were already out the door and down the hall to where the spare bedroom was.Â
Opening the door as quietly as you possibly could, you poked your head inside and peered over to where Jack was laying in bed, covers tangled up around him and facing away from you, appearing to be fast asleep. âJack? Are...are you awake?â you called out hesitantly.Â
It took a minute for him to respond, by that time youâd come close to convincing yourself that you were being a baby about all of this and that you should go back to bed. âDarlinâ? Is there somethinâ wrong?â he replied, his thick southern drawl sounding groggy, matching his dazed expression he wore while he fought to keep his eyes open.Â
âSort of...maybe, I donât know...I canât sleepâ you admitted.Â
âHaving nightmares or somethinâ?â he asked, sitting himself up in bed to properly face you. You couldnât help but let your eyes wander down his torso ever so briefly - it wasnât anything you hadnât seen a million times before but damn, he did look good. Shaking your head fervently, you attempted to ignore that fleeting thought and focused back on what youâd come there to say, proceeding to reply. âNo, no, nothing like that. I just...ok, this might sound a little bit crazy but I canât help feeling like Iâm being watched in there, and itâs freaking me outâ.
You could see Jackâs brow furrow through the darkness, a look of concern creeping over his face while he thought on what youâd just said. âWatched? Like how?â.Â
âI donât really know how to explain it, if Iâm gonna be totally honest. All I know is that everytime I close my eyes I feel like thereâs somebody outside. Whenever I go to look out the window though, I donât see anyoneâ you explained, and at almost the very second you finished your sentence you could see Jackâs eyes widen, the last remnants of sleep falling away and being replaced by an alert and alarmed expression. Before you could say anything about it, he was already throwing the covers off him and sliding out of bed, hustling over to where you were standing by the door. âStay right here. Iâll go take a look for myselfâ he instructed sternly, pushing himself past you and making a beeline straight for your bedroom. Instinctively, and in all honesty against both his wishes and your own better judgement, you followed in behind him, seeing him linger close to the wall just enough so that he was out of direct sight of the window. Slowly, he advanced forward to a position where he could properly take a look out, his eyes steely as they examined the landscape, the tensity of his demeanour feeding into your own feelings of concern.Â
âJack, whatâs going on?â you asked in a small voice, something that was uncharacteristically meek of you. In all fairness, something like this had never happened before. Youâd hoped that Jack would come in, take a quick look, confirm there was nobody on the property and give you a little bit of peace of mind but the way he was acting made the possibility of someone actually being out there all the more real to you.Â
âDarlinâ, Iâm sorry, but Iâm gonna need you to be quiet for a secondâ he orders, not tearing his eyes away from the window for a single second. You didnât know how long you two stood there for - it was probably no more than a minute or two at most, even so it felt like an eternity to you, until at long last you saw some of the tension in Jackâs shoulders dissipate and he finally slunk away from the window. âGive me a second, I just gotta go check somethingâ he mumbled, dashing back out of your room and still looking vaguely distressed at the entire predicament. This time around, you did as he said, not wanting to leave the house on the off chance there really was something to worry about. You heard him run back into his own room briefly before darting off downstairs, hearing the unmistakable click of the front door lock opening. You had no idea what to make of any of this - why was he acting so weird? Was there something you should know? Was there really something to your weird feeling and should you be genuinely scared?
The sound of gravel crunching from the ground below alerted you, leading for you to wander over to the window for what felt like the millionth time that night to see for yourself what was going on. Your eyes first landed on Jack, who was pacing the gravel and looking off into the distance, searching for something. You could see he was holding something in his hand but couldnât quite get a proper look at it as he was angled away from you. He disappeared from your view and a moment later he was back upstairs with you, appearing to be infinitely more relieved than he was before. Now you could properly see what heâd gone to fetch from his room once heâd left: his gun from his days as an agent, the moonlight streaming in through the window glimmering off the silver barrels and onto the floor.Â
âNothinâ out there, thank fucking christâ he sighed, giving you a smile that was meant to be comforting. His gesture did nothing to ease your worries, despite the confirmation that there wasnât anything out there like youâd originally hoped. Along with still feeling uneasy being in that room, there was also the matter of what youâd witnessed in Jack before, the plain and unconcealable look of suspicion and worry that had been showing on him.Â
âAre you alright? You...seemed worried. The way you were looking out that window, it was...like you were searching for something in particular...â.
âItâs nothing, sweetheart. Donât worry your pretty little head off about itâ he dismissed, obviously wanting to put this whole incident behind the two of you. You were having none of it, so you pressed further, taking a single step closer to where he was standing in the door. âYou sure about that? âCause you kinda got your gun outâ you pointed out, your eyes flickering down to the weapon resting in his hands knowingly. âDid you think it was Statesman or something?â.
Jack looked surprised that youâd dared to be that direct in your line of questioning. He supposed he shouldnât have expected any less from you, following your eyes down to where he was holding his gun. âWell, if Iâm gonna be honest, yeah. For a moment there, I was worried theyâd found me somehow. But there isnât anybody out there - besides, if they were doinâ surveillance on the house they woulda had me led away in cuffs already. Youâre safe as pie, sugarâ he confessed.Â
Exactly as you thought. Youâd wondered if Statesman would ever make an appearance, suddenly becoming hot on Jackâs tail. So far nothing had happened, thankfully, and seeing as your strange feeling tonight turned out to be nothing, you permitted yourself to relax a little, despite the still present feeling of discomfort from being in that room. âAlright...thank you for checking. Sorry I woke you up for something stupidâ.Â
âDonât apologise, sweetheart. I havenât been sleeping great this last week anyway so I wasnât even fully asleep when you came in. You make sure to get plenty of rest, ok?â he nodded towards you, turning to leave the room, the comfort of his presence slipping away from you and leaving you to feel the same odd and uncomfortable unrest that plagued you all night.Â
Glancing back over towards your bed, you dreaded the thought of trying to go back to sleep in that thing tonight. It sounded so childish and silly for you to say, or rather think, but you really didnât want to be in that room tonight. If you stay in here you arenât gonna get a wink of sleep.
What you did next was something you never thought youâd do in a million years. In your defense, itâd been a long day, youâd had some alcohol earlier, and you just had to deal with the intense unnerve of being watched only to discover that your feeling was nothing more than a spate of paranoia. With all that taken into account, it was only logical that you asked what you did next. âJack, waitâ you called out before you could stop yourself, freezing once you saw him stop in the hallway and turn back towards you with those sweet eyes of his. âLook, I know this is an odd request but...can I sleep in your room? Only for tonight. I donât know, I still feel a little on edge and itâs dumb but Iâd rather be around someone else right nowâ you mumbled, simultaneously hating yourself for asking in the first place and feeling utterly embarrassed at your own audacity.Â
Some part of you wanted him to laugh in your face. Laugh at you and make some stupid little quip about you being a âbig girlâ who could handle herself. It would be easier to hate him still that way. Of course, he didnât do that at all. What he did instead was give you the sweetest damn smile youâd ever seen from him, different from those charming smirks you were used to and harkened closer to those rare moments from when you two were together that he would lay down the bravado and be vulnerable. âSugar, you donât need to feel bad for askinâ at all. I understand completely where youâre cominâ fromâ he reassured, holding his hand out and beckoning for you to come forward. And come forward you did, following him out into the hall and into his own room, the anxiety from before fading into nothing and being replaced by relief.Â
âThank you. I know weâre not...like that anymore butâŠâ you stumbled dumbly as you glided over towards the bed, fatigue overcoming your brain and making you more impatient to be in bed and asleep as fast as possible. It had to be extremely late by then and you wanted to get a decent amount of sleep before having to get up and go about with business as usual the next day. Â
Jack, meanwhile, was on the other side of the room throwing his gun back into a chest of drawers. âSay no more, honeybee. If you want, I can sleep on the floor if it makes you more comfortableâ he posited, to which you promptly snapped your head back up and stared at him as if he were crazy. âYou donât have to do that, Jack, Iâm not about to be kicking you out of your bedâ.Â
âTechnically itâs your bed, not mineâ.Â
Rolling your eyes at him, you flopped down on the pillow and sighed. âDoesnât matter, just...stay here. Iâd rather have someone close right now, ok?â. If you werenât already tired beyond all reason, your brain might have been fretting over the oh so horrific implications of staying in the same bed as him, though if you were really being honest you couldnât care less right then. Itâs not like sleeping in the same bed meant anything, plenty of people did that all the time. So what if you wanted someone near after feeling scared? Wouldnât someone else do the same thing in your position?
âIf thatâs what you want, sweetheart. Iâll keep to the other side of the bed if youâd likeâ Jack assured you, sliding into the other side, doing exactly as he said and keeping a safe enough distance from you. It mightâve been silly for you to care so much, but you had to admit it was nice having someone else be there, and at the least it calmed your anxiety enough for you to feel fine sleeping. Stealing one last brief glance over at him, you wished him goodnight and let yourself relax truly for the first time in hours, letting the world fall away and fade into nothing as you closed your eyes and passed out in mere minutes of being there.
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When you awoke the next morning, it was to the strands of sunlight streaming through the parted breaks in the curtain, shining right over your face and rousing you from your slumber. Through bleary eyes, you became aware of the room around you, memories of the night before flooding back to you instantaneously. You noticed you felt warmer, becoming aware of the heavy feeling on your body, which caused your eyes to snap open fully. Looking back over your shoulder, you saw Jack, still sleeping and curled into your back, his arm lazily stung around you. You knew you two hadnât fallen asleep like that, reasoning that he must have reached out to you during the night, leading to the position you were in now. You could feel the light tickle of his breath against the nape of your neck, something so small managing to light an unexpected spark in your heart. You should have pushed him off. You should have woken him up. You should have done a million other things in that moment instead of the one thing you did.
When instead of flinging him off you and darting out of bed like a skittish cat you curled yourself further into his light embrace, the mortifying realisation hitting you right then with a full force - Jack Daniels, the man whoâd broken your heart, was caressing you in his sleep.
And you didnât mind it, not one single bit.
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12:27 AM [kuroo tetsurou x reader]
pairing: kuroo tetsurou x fem reader (platonic relationship)
genre: fluff and angst
warning(s): swearing, brief mentions of alcohol consumption
word count: 2.8k
overview:Â you go on one, final late night food run with your best friend to commemorate your last evening in tokyo
notes: as stated above, the reader and kurooâs relationship here is purely platonic. it just felt right. also, this oneâs a bit more dialogue-heavy than usual, but itâs intentional :) hope you enjoy!
At 12:27 AM, Kurooâs standing in the kitchen, poring over an open cupboard of foodânone of which seems to fulfill his cravings. Tapping the toes of his house slippers against the tiled floor, he sends a glance over at where youâre sitting on the couch, watching the movie heâd put on with rapt attention. His attempts at successfully blocking out thoughts of whatâs to come tomorrow are foiled once more when his gaze settles on the luggage waiting patiently in the entryway.
âHey, (f/n),â he calls out to you, shutting the cabinets in front of him and turning away from them. The eyebrow you raise at him expectantly has him continuing, âWhaddya say to going on one, last late-night food run in the city with your old pal?â
With a snicker, you toss the mountains of blankets off your body and stand up as you say, âYou act as if todayâs my last day on the planet, Tetsu.â
âSeriously, though, who knows when weâll be able to do this again?â he wonders, âMight as well live like itâs your last day on the planet, even if itâs just for a night, right?â
You shake your head as you pull on an old Nekoma hoodie out of your backpack that matches the one heâs wearing. âQuit it, dumbass; youâre gonna make me all sentimental.â
A grin spreads across his lips and he gives you a playful shake once the two of you have stepped into your shoes and left his home. It warms your heart but shatters it at the same time, since youâre painfully aware of the fact that tonight will be the last time you see it in person for what could be months. And if his words hadnât already made you a bit emotional, the drive through Tokyo wouldâve done the trick.
He rolls the windows of his car down, letting in the cool, nighttime air that whistles past as the vehicle picks up speed. In an effort he wants to seem as spontaneous as possible, he plays music from a playlist the two of you had made together back when you were in high school, shouting and dancing along to the lyrics of every song with you with an enthusiasm that has you doubling over in your seat with laughter.
Every stoplight gives other drivers and pedestrians buzzing around the bustling downtown area the opportunity to shoot you judgmental looks or those of entertainment, but youâre too busy living in the moment with him that you barely notice or even care, for that matter. You donât know where heâs taking you, but you donât bother to ask. Instead, you find yourself lost in admiring the dazzling array of lights passing you by during your drive through the lively city. Knowing youâll be in a new one by this time tomorrow has you gazing upon everything youâd simply passed by before without a second thought with a newfound appreciation and lingering nostalgia.
Eventually, after Kurooâs impressed you by maneuvering his car into a tighter parking spot than you thought he could fit in, you find your destination is a small restaurant tucked away in one of the back alleys aglow with neon signs. Though itâs packed to the brim with other patrons enjoying a late-night meal, thereâs plenty of conversation between you and your friend to fill the time you spend waiting for a table.
Once youâre inside, you bask in the warmth heavy with the delicious smell of fresh food as the two of you sit together and reminisce over steaming bowls of ramen. âYou know one thing Iâll never forget?â Kuroo begins, fishing out a few plump noodles with his chopsticks. You glance over at him expectantly while you blow on the broth in your spoon and he chuckles before adding, âThe look on Levâs face when he hit you in the back of the head during warmups and you gave him the coldest stare Iâve ever seen.â
âI felt so bad when I realized it was him, though, âcause I thought it was you!â you defend.
Kurooâs unoccupied hand flies to his chest to complete the feigned look of shock on his face. âAnd you were gonna look at me like that if it was?â
âYou were always aiming for me, Tetsu.â
âYou were always on the court!â
âHelping Coach toss and keeping hitters like you from fucking up your ankles by coming down on stray volleyballs, you asshole.â
Kuroo shrugs and comments, âI never hit you hard, though,â and moves another serving of noodles to his lips. âJust wanted to keep our beloved manager on her toes is all.â
With an incredulous scoff, you retort, âYeah, you did that, alright. And even well into uni, too.â
Thereâs a pause in your conversation as you both take a moment to enjoy your food before Kuroo questions, âCould you please submit your evidence to the court?â
âHalloween,â you state, (e/c) eyes laser focused on his own, hazel ones. Heâs narrowing them, as if heâs trying to remember the event in question, so you help him out by continuing, âYou and Kou were insistent on coming with me to a raging house party that night. The two of you got so, annoyingly drunk that you were laughing at the top of your lungs like hyenas about videos of pets dressed up in costumes at three in the morning.â
He raises a finger contemplatively. âI mightâve blacked out, but that does sound like something Iâd do.â
âIn that case, you probably forgot about all the noise complaints I got, then; and how the owner of the place came to scold me in person.â
A bashful grin forms on his lips at the memory youâve reminded him of, and he concedes, âAlright, alright; weâve both done a lot of stupid shit in the time weâve known each other, so letâs just leave it at that. Besides, Iâm sure you wouldnât want me to remind you of the time you lost your bikini top in the ocean and were too mortified to move, so you made me swim in and get it, right?â
âThis conversation is over,â you declare, face growing hot with embarrassment as a vivid image of the moment in question flashes across your mind.
As the two of you continue enjoying your delicious meals and reminiscing about other, more positive experiences youâve shared together, you feel the knot thatâs been settled in the pit of your stomach for what seems to be weeks now make itself known once more. In spite of your outward calmness and enthusiasm, you were starting to have trouble hiding your nervousness. The last thing youâd wanted was for anyone to notice and try to talk you out of your decision, but Kurooâs far more perceptive than most and knows you well enough to understand what youâre thinking.
When the two of you finish your meals and find the strength to scoot out of your chairs, he notices the way you gaze longingly at your surroundings. He catches sight of the gentle glimmer of emotion in your eyes as you request that he drive you anywhere he wantsâjust to hold off on going back to his place for a bit longer. And each time he takes his eyes off the road ahead to cast a glance in your direction, he finds your attention fixated on all the buildings and people that pass by.
But itâs not until the two of you arrive at a nearly empty parking lot outside a large, sprawling park that he decides to bring up the question of whatâs on your mind. âHey, (f/n),â he says, making you turn on your heels to face him where youâd been standing a few feet away from his car, watching the twinkling lights in the distance. He looks so carefree, perched on the hood of his vehicle, hands shoved into the pockets of his black joggers, whereas youâre much more on edge, trying to keep your foot-tapping against the loose gravel to a minimum.
âHmm?â
He purses his lips for a moment before answering slowly, âIâve been thinking about this for a whileâthe last day weâd spend together. And itâs one of those things that you just canât really prepare yourself for, no matter how hard you try to, yâknow?â The muscles around your brow relax, and your expression becomes more curious upon being pulled out of your worrisome thoughts. âI know how Iâm feeling, but how are you holding up?â
Your fingers interlace themselves as you bite the inside of your cheek. Even if you want to, thereâs no bullshitting Kuroo. Not when heâs seen you in every state you can imagine and is often one to pick up on your feelings before youâre even aware they exist, though he often brings them to your attention with a more lighthearted approach than most would think appropriate to take. Doesnât mean he cares any less, however; and you can see the genuine concern in his hazel eyes shining a paler color in the white moonlight.
âIâm excited,â you tell him. With the way your heartâs pounding in your chest, youâd be surprised if he couldnât hear its pulse in your voice. Moving towards him to occupy the space on the hood beside him, you take a deep breath and look up at him. âBut Iâm terrified at the same time.â Itâs instantaneous, the way you lean into his touch the moment he slings his arm around your shoulders to pull you closer to him. âSince we were kids, I was always talking about wanting to move to another country, remember?â
âI thought you just said that to make me sad whenever I pissed you off.â
You lightly swat his chest and argue, âOh, be quiet.â But, before you can continue with what you were going to say, you find yourself focused on the words heâd spoken instead. âWait, did you actually mean that?â
With a gentle chuckle, he shrugs. âNah, I was joking.â The adamâs apple in his throat bobs when he turns his attention towards the sky and admits, âBut I always did get a little sad whenever you mentioned it. Still do.â A moment of silence filled with the distant sounds of traffic and the chirping of insects ensues during which you watch your fingers toy with the aglets hanging off your hoodie. âI mean, come on, now; what kinda kid wants one of his best friends to move away when he knows how big the world is but how singular and small he is?â
âTetsu,â you murmur softly, feeling your lip tremble with emotion and your eyes sting with oncoming tears, âYouâve always been there for me through, like, everything. Or, at least, it feels that way. Part of the reason why Iâm so scared of leaving is because Iâm gonna be all by myself, in a brand-new place, just thrown into the deep end of things and having to teach myself how to swim all over again. But another part of it is because Iâm gonna be away from you. And even now, as an adult, I still donât wanna move away from my best friend.â
He doesnât even have to look at you or hear you sniffle to know youâre crying, and he tightens his grip around you, placing his other hand on your back. Appreciative of the gesture, you bury your face in the soft fabric of his sweatshirt and pull him into an embrace so you can hold onto him for a few, long moments that you wish didnât have to end.
âHey, itâs all good as long as you donât forget about me once you make it big out there, okay?â His tone is teasing and lighthearted, as per usual, but you can hear the subtlest break in his voice that has more tears cascading down your cheeks and pooling in the creases of his sweater.
âIâm not gonna forget youâI could neverâbut, what if I canât do it?â you whimper, âWhat if I get there and I hate the job, or I hate my coworkers, or I hate life over there? Then Iâll be stuck out there with no one.â
Rubbing your back gently, he assures you, âIf worst comes to worst, you can come back home and regroup. Youâll always have a place to stay here. Well⊠unless I get super famous and end up being offered a job to travel around the world.â You canât help but snicker at his comment, and neither can he. âEven if Iâm not physically there, Iâll always be there in spirit. And donât discount the possibility of me showing up at your doorstep, since we know I have a tendency to do that.â
âLike a stray cat I keep feeding.â
âExactly. Maybe youâll even get two if I can convince Kenma to come with me. Weâll have to see how long he can survive off his Switch alone.â
Your bodies both shake with laughter for a few moments before you pull away from each other, and his hands slide onto your shoulders to give them a firm squeeze. Keeping your head lowered for a moment, you drag the sleeves of your hoodie across your eyes to wipe up any stray tears you hadnât left on his. When your gazes meet, though, the confidence in his almost entirely dissolves the knot thatâs been building in your stomach for so long.
âHey.â He shakes you gently, and you jokingly let your head roll about, eliciting more snickers from both of your mouths before looking at him expectantly and with your full attention. âDonât let the worst-case scenario hold you back from something that could be great. Youâre so quick to think about how likely the worst possible thing is to happen, but why canât the best be just as likely?â
Playfully, you tease, âWow, seems like someoneâs trying to get me outta here,â with a smirk.
â(F/n),â he sighs, sending a long plume of steam upwards from his mouth. Giving you a firm pat on the arm, he admits, âIâm gonna miss you like hell. But this is what youâve been wanting for so long, and I want you to do it so badly. Partly so I can say that I have a vacation property abroad, but mostly because you know I want the best for you, since you deserve it.â
Your lip quakes once again at his confession, but you manage to blink back the tears this time and crack a smile. âOkay. But if youâd better not get even the slightest bit sentimental or teary-eyed tomorrow or else Iâm gonna cry like a bitch all the way through the airport.â
âEyes will be dry as long as you promise to video call me the second you land so I can go on the cab ride with you and see the whole, cute apartment reveal thing thatâs so trendy these days.â
A mixture of a giggle and a gentle sob leaves your mouth as you watch his figure distorted by your swimming vision rise from the hood of his car. You feel warm hands on your wrists pulling you up onto your feet before youâre ensconced in another tight hug while Kuroo rocks from one foot to the other.
âYouâre gonna be fine.â
After giving you a squeeze hard enough to push the air out of your lungs, he releases his grasp around you and opens the door on the passengerâs side so you can climb in and retreat from the coldness of the night. âWith all these emotions plus the food, Iâm gonna knock out so fast when we get home,â you mumble with a soft sniffle, reaching for the packet of tissues in his glove compartment once heâs settled in the driverâs seat.
He scoffs and furrows his eyebrows at you as he sticks his keys in the ignition. âWho said you were sleeping tonight? Youâve got the whole plane ride tomorrow to do that.â
âAlright, you canât blame me for being cranky, then.â
With a shake of the head, he shifts the car into reverse so he can back out of the parking lot and start the journey back to his home. While the music youâd been blasting earlier plays softly from the speakers, you rest your head on the door once more to watch your familiar surroundings breeze by outside.
âTetsurou.â You glance over at him and his head of haphazardly styled hair that youâre sure wonât fit on the screen of your phone the next time you see him, and his eyes meet yours when he brings the car to a halt at a stop sign. âThanks for spending my so-called last night on the planet with me.â
extra that didnât make the cut: kuroo didnât shed a tear at the airport until after he thought youâd left. but youâd actually just hid somewhere and caught him with watery eyes. you still video called him as soon as you landed, though.
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if youâre too shy ⹠richie tozier
(richie tozier x cam girl!reader smut)
[based off the song if youâre too shy (let me know) by the 1975.]
requested: i can't find it lol BUT đ€anon (i think) requested a fic based off of the 1975âČs new song, if youâre too shy let me know !!
warnings: swearing, alcohol use, switch!richie kinda, smut, unprotected sex, a tiny bit of cumplay i guess, mentions of phone sex, oral sex (female receiving), face sitting, a bit of dirty talking, UNEDITED as always
also i wrote this in a different style than usual and idk if i like it much but u can let me know what u guys think,, if its weird i can go in and change the povs since its 3rd person richie
[losers + reader are 21+ in this.]
7.4k words lol
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i see her online all the time i'm trying not to stare down there while she talks about her tough time
"h-hey, man, who's that?" the voice from right next to richie makes him damn near leap out of his seat. it makes beverly chuckle a bit as she takes a bite of her apple, shaking her head. "itâs nobody." richie says quickly as he tilts his phone towards his chest and shoots a toothy grin to bill. his friend raises his full eyebrows, "wh-what, so n-nobody was sending you n-nudes?"
"something like that." richie mutters, stomach fluttering as the image flashes in his mindâs eye - the curves, the dark red lace, the plush skin painting a perfect scene in richieâs vivid imagination.
richie looks back down at the photo. his his thumbs hover over the profile picture; he'd found her originally on his instagram explore page, the photos teasing and immediately he had to know more. y/n.
and then a few days later, he'd subscribed to her only fans, which he never quite thought he'd do with anyone, but he couldn't help it. she was so enticing, so perfect and so alluring. it was the playfulness that pulled him in; and he swears he's never lusted after somebody like he has with her. it was kind of starting to freak him out.
"is that o-onlyfans?" bill says and richie shoves bill's nosy face off his shoulder with a panicked grunt. "fuck off, mushmouth."
bill laughs and stan and bev perk up from across the table, staring at the two, interests suddenly piqued. "did you subscribe to a girl's onlyfans, rich?" stan says with a grin, setting his pen down on his notebook.Â
richie just smirks and wiggles his brows a bit, enough to confirm his question. bill chuckles from next to richie.
"let me see." bev says, wiggling her manicured nails in a "gimme" motion. richie hands his phone over with red cheeks. normally he wouldn't care about his friends discovering he's paid money just to see a hot chick's bod, but this was different. for some reason, he felt connected to her. god, that thought made him want to slam his head against a brick wall. she doesn't even know him, Â for all he knows she could live in the middle of.... montana, or like, ohio.
bev whistles and stan nods, "if i looked like that," bev mumbles as she tosses richie's phone back towards him, "i'd do that too. mad props."
noises of agreement fill the table but richie's just looking at the small smirk that peeks from the corner of one of the photos and he can't help but wonder what her eyes are like in real life. he wishes he could meet her.
girl of your dreams, you know what i mean there's something 'bout her stare that makes you nervous and you say things that you don't mean
it's a cold day when bill and richie find themselves stumbling in to the coffee shop for a drink. bill's muttering about some girl in his creative writing class that gave him head when richie's eyes catch a figure so familiar yet foreign that he stops dead in his tracks. bill turns to him, face confused. "r-richie, what's wrong w-with you?"
richie shakes his head, stammering in disbelief, "that-that's her, bill. the girl, from onlyfans. y/n." he whispers, gesturing with his eyes towards the girl working the register.
billâs jaw goes slack, green eyes raking over her form and igniting richieâs stomach with boiling rage. as if billâs doing something that only richie is allowed to do â as if they're not both being total creeps.
âh-holy sh-shit. sheâs b-beautiful.â bill mumbles. richie elbows him in the ribs, shooting him a glare that prompts an eye-roll from his auburn haired friend.
richie swallows and watches, his throat feeling like sandpaper as she laughs at something the customer in front of them said. bill nudges richie, "i-i'm gonna get a s-seat. t-talk to her."
he winks and grins as he walks away, leaving richie with his reckless self. he thinks he's sweating through his sweater as he walks up, finding himself face-to-face with her. "hi, how can i help you?" she asks, giving him a smile
holyshitholyshitholyshit.
he might've just came right then and there. okay, he's gotta say something cool, something smooth. don't be a dumbass, tozier.Â
"howdy, sugar. i'll have my coffee like i like my women." his mouth blurts as his brain sirens go off, PUT ON THE BRAKES, RICH â "a hot shock to the lap.â
she glares at him, cheeks light pink and eyebrows pulled together in annoyance and yep, richie's probably going to get hard because of that look but he's also probably going to toss his body off a bridge because what the fuck, tozier?
he can hear bill laughing quietly from a ways away and he quickly shakes his head, muttering quietly, "jail. jail, richard."
"funny." she deadpans, clearly not amused. because of course she isn't.
"sorry, i'll have a black coffee, y/n." he mutters, eyes widening to himself when he realizes she was not wearing a goddamn name tag and he just said her name.
this is a disaster. she gives him a bewildered, slightly creeped out look and if richie wasn't panicking, he'd gape at how she still managed to be effortlessly gorgeous even now.
he sighs, shaking his head, the door of the cafe opening and blowing a gust of frigid air through the warm room. fitting - douche chill.Â
"look, toots, i don't want this to be weird. i- um, i recognize you." he says, cheeks aflame. she raises a brow, face straight for a few moments, unsure what he means.
it's not long after when recognition flashes over her own face - must have ruled out coffee shop, university and her local gym - and she nods with a tight, almost uncomfortable smile.Â
he tries not to think of the livestream he watched last night where she showed all her new gifts and modeled lingerie, and how heâd spent his time to himself with his left hand immediately after watching. his cheeks are red with shame.Â
"okay." is all she says, writing down a scribbled order on the coffee cup. her eyes shoot back up and give richie a once-over that really makes his fingers itch - god, why did he have to be this way?Â
he almost runs his fingers through his curls but decides against it, eyes opting to focus on her own gorgeous eyes as they meet him. "i'm impressed i have a fan who looks like you, i must say. even if you are a complete jack ass." she purrs and his jaw nearly smacks the floor at its velocity as it flies open.
"what's that supposed to mean?" he asks then with a small grin, flattered at the tiniest of compliments that just barely, in his mind, eclipsed the insult that he so very much deserved.
"i'm saying you're kind of a dick. it's too bad, because you're real cute." she says casually, handing him his change. his stomach flips and butterflies release in his chest, a feeling that he's not felt in almost five years.
but damn, of course he messed up - he got the chance to talk to the hottest girl on earth and he started it by saying an awful joke that wasn't funny at all. of course she though he was a dick, he is one.
he's shocked, though, as he waits for his coffee with bill, who is still snickering into his hand every few moments, to find his coffee cup with extra sharpie scribbled on the white paper. a name.
y/n. and below it is a phone number with a small heart scribbled, and richie can't tell if it's a seven or a one but he figures he'd try every phone number in the damn state if it meant he could fucking text her. holy fuck.
"maybe i would like you better if you took off your clothes i'm not playing with you, baby i think that you should give it a go" she said, "maybe i would like you better if you took off your clothes i wanna see, and stop thinking if you're too shy, then let me too shy, then let me know"
he didn't text her for two days and three hours. yes, he counted it. no, he won't think about why he was obsessing over the numbers - but since the time he'd finally had found the courage to text her today, things have escalated proficiently.Â
she'd just mentioned how hot it was in her apartment since her heater had gone haywire - even though the winter winds were cold, she'd claimed she was burning up in what she was wearing.
and the mere mention of her clothing had sent richie into somewhat of a spiral, spending at least seven minutes glued to his phone and scrolling through the saved album he had of those photos of her that she'd posted; his sweatpants getting increasingly tight and his palm suddenly aching to slip through the fabric and find some release.
but, in true trashmouth fashion, he apparently needed that sweet, sweet rejection from a hot cam girl he'd somehow weaseled into getting the number of in order to wank off properly, so he types out a text and hits send immediately.
what are you wearing?
and then he almost vomits in embarrassment â what was she going to think? did he just royally fuck up? oh god, heâs going to have to shave his head and move to canada.
his phone buzzes and he nearly passes out when he lays his eyes upon the image attached â there her body is again, curvy and full and beautiful, her skin glowing in the fading light of what he assumes is her bedroom. and with it:
this. what are you wearing, rich?
and then he pulls his gaze from his phone and stands, breathing heavily because holy shit.
he's gotten nudes before, but.... none from someone like her. holy shit.
he walks to his bathroom, splashing water on his beet-red cheeks. he swallows, staring at himself in the mirror. fuck.
he slaps his cheek once, then winking at himself in attempt to muster any sliver of confidence. and then he snaps a picture, only in his boxers.
and then he has to physically refrain from making a joke about wearing the same lingerie set as her, instead sending a flirty text that he knows any other woman would blush at. he just doesnât know with y/n, and maybe thatâs why he loves it so much. she's keeping him on his toes.
you like what you see?
he sends that one afterwards, shaking his head because oh my god, she's going to respond with "no" and then bill him $40 for the nude she sent him. not that he wouldn't pay, but...
his phone dings and he nearly breaks an ankle running to his desk.Â
yeah, i do. but maybe i'd like you better without any clothes on.
he almost yells out loud at this, but he has a feeling that waking up stan in the middle of the night would not be optimal after their 'roommate agreement' they'd made that explicitly states richie cannot scream between 1am - 9am. so instead he smirks to himself, face turning red.
he's getting harder by the moment, and as he stares at that picture she'd sent earlier, he lets out a breathy groan. the lace....
we could face time yk
or we don't have to.
he reads her words in live time, watching the thought bubble appear again and watching it like a hawk. he can just imagine her sitting there with a small smirk as another text comes in and he almost groans as his dick twitches.
like, if you're too shy or something ;)
he stares at the screen for two seconds at that sinful photo she'd sent just before those texts and then sighs, shaking his head and pressing the green face-time call button.
i've been wearing nothing every time i call you and i'm starting to feel weird about it sometimes it's better if you think about it this time, i think i'm gonna drink through it
three days later, richie was undeniably and unequivocally drunk. but, as he's just explained about three times to mike, he knows that it is just easier to not think right, especially about her, right now - and the best way to do that is by getting so piss drunk that even if he tried to "hit her line," as he so eloquently put it, his dick would be too whiskey'd out to make a full appearance.
it's for the best. mike had fake gagged at richieâs cadence with a laugh, but richie was dead serious because he was starting to think he had a real issue.
it was obviously just a fun thing to do between two near-strangers, but he'd found that he was starting to almost pavlov-style condition himself into getting turned on every time the name y/n came across his recent texts or face times, and it was getting to be too much.
especially when her post notification popped up and he cracked a fatty in the middle of his econ lecture. christ, the point of elasticity of markers in the u.s. was not something he pictured when he usually had to quell a pitch in his tent. so yeah, it's too much.
because yes, he loves her fucking body and wants nothing more than her, but in truth he longs for the feeling of her skin against his; to touch her, to kiss her, to make her his. all the time.
but yet, it was just a good way to get off without all the strings and ribbons and yarn and whatever the fuck her soft-looking knit bra is made from attached.
so much for not thinking about her.
but i see her online (and don't think that i should be calling) all the time (i just wanted a happy ending) and i'm pretending i don't care about her stare while she's giving me a tough time
itâs noon the next day and he's laying in (for some reason) stan's bed instead of his own with a blinding, mind-splitting headache and an insatiable craving for a cheeseburger, eyes squinting in lust and something akin to shame as he watches the livestream y/n had just started. sheâs in a slip â a very thin, silk and see through slip and it makes him more frustrated than heâs willing to admit.
as he stares at her smooth skin and wonders how it'd be to touch it all, her eyes catch something in the chat and she smiles coyly. "hi, rich." she purrs and richie almost chokes - holy shit, she saw him join.
"do you like my gift i just got?" she asks coyly, snapping the straps of her bra with a small smile and he stiffens almost instantly, thinking of how many times he'd seen her skin in videos and photos that were just for him.
how she'd moaned his name two nights ago on face time, her fingers buried inside herself slightly off-camera. and oh, how he wishes he could see all of her, but they'd not crossed that line yet - anything they'd done hadn't been yet proven visually, only from facial expressions, noises, and the brutal honestly of being together through face time.
he wants her so fucking bad, he needs her like he needs water to drink and air to breathe and it's murdering him as he watches her react to the chat of her livestream, playing with the hem of her black lace panties.
god, he needs a cold shower or something if he's going to get anything done today.
and then he's calling her an a few hours after her stream ends because he just can't wait - he feels his stomach twist with shame as he realizes he should not be doing such a certainly a terrible idea. but she answers after three rings. "richie." her siren voice purrs and he literally feels himself fall deeper into the pit.
"hi there, toots. got any coffee in the pot for me?" he asks, sounding surprisingly eloquent compared to how she normally makes him feel.Â
she hums in fake thought, and it makes richie grin. she's fucking adorable. "come to the shop, i have my break in ten." and then she hangs up. he sighs, rubbing his face with his hand as he shakes his head. he's utterly fucked.
he's there in record time, a smirk plastered on his face as he walks in and sees her sitting at a table, lookin' all pretty. just for him.
"what made you think of calling?" she says in loo of a greeting. he sits across from her and wills his eyes to meet hers. "nothin' toots." he says with a half shrug, taking a sip of the coffee placed in front of him that has the the name 'dick' written on it in her handwriting. he rolls his eyes affectionately.
"oh, so it wasn't anything to do with my livestream this morning?" she asks with a look, eyeing him. her eyes are swimmable, they hold so many stories and secrets and maybe richie's just hungover, but he's feeling very flustered.
"we-w, uh, no. what... what are you talking about?" he rolls his eyes at himself inwardly, cursing stuttering bill and his contagious speech patterns. "-i don't know what you're talking about, sugar." he recovers fairly smoothly, if he may toot his own horn. and honestly, he can pretend not to care as long as he doesn't look into that goddamn stare of hers.
he chuckles awkwardly, cheeks aflame as she stares at him with a bored look and a small hum. she still looks perfect and he's even more nervous now, because oh god, oh fuck, he's gonna get slapped in the face by y/n.
it was pretty unspoken since they'd started doing... stuff... that richie probably still watched her content online, but she'd never fully addressed it until today during the livestream in front of a thousand others.Â
he's choking on his spit in shame but then a smile splits her face and richie's sure he's suffocated on his own saliva and gone to a sinner's heaven. or maybe hell.
"oh, richie, i'm just teasing you. look at your face!" she says with an airy laugh, pinching his cheeks and making him want to shrivel up as he turns even redder. what the fuck? "-so cute. alright, i've got to get back to work. i'll see you around, rich." she says with a wink, taking her coffee and tossing it into the trash bin as she stalks towards the employee back room.
he gapes as he watches her leave and then gets up and makes his way to the exit, clutching the coffee like it was trying to jump out of his grasp and make a run for it. god, she's too much.
"maybe i would like you better if you took off your clothes i'm not playing with you, baby i think that you should give it a go" she said, "maybe i would like you better if you took off your clothes i wanna see, and stop thinking If you're too shy, then let me too shy, then let me know"
"-babe, you'll have to try harder than that." richie says with a chuckle, watching his phone screen as the beautiful girl on face time gives him a sly, challenging look. she's in a green lace bra, one richie's not seen yet and he can feel himself stiffen as she absently trails her fingers over her chest.
they'd been much closer over the last week since he last saw her in person, enough so that in the three-is weeks of knowing her, he's positive he's head over ass for her in a way that he shouldn't be. and yet, she still comes back every time, still texts him and answers those face time calls. he's baffled, honestly.
"i know you hate me because i'm right." he adds, not even totally remembering what point he's trying to prove as y/n shifts back a bit and more of her body is revealed, her hair glowing dimly in the soft lighting of her room. his eyes run over her curves, her full thighs and stomach and hips that fill over her panties and he almost groans.
"whatever, maybe i'd like you better if you took off your clothes." she says coyly. and richie's half flattered, as usual, but the more he thinks of it the more deflated he feels. he kind of thought they were growing something more than just getting each other off over face time like horny fifteen year olds. he grins nonetheless.
"you say that a lot, you know." richie says breathlessly as he stares at her. she tilts her head ever so slightly and grins, biting her lip as her eyes move around her screen with a conflicted look. "-why?" he adds.
she hums again.
"well. okay, so there's the visual world - like, the internet, onlyfans, instagram- it tells us that everything is amazing. and we should want everything. and it makes us yearn for everything that we donât have and everything thatâs unobtainable. you know, love, a relationship beyond physical. and even physical, it's different when it's online."
her words confuse him much more than they aid him. "you think... that because of the internet, love is unattainable?" he asks with furrowed brows, unsure how somebody so perfect and, quite frankly, lovable, would think that.
"it is for me." she says it with a small sense of forlorning but mostly it's whispered. enough that richie's heart skips a beat and he's, for the first time, not having a hard time keeping his eyes on her face instead of her body.
"what?" he asks dumbly. she just laughs, shaking her head and he stares at her on his tiny phone screen in the dark.
"thatâs something that, you know. in real life, person to person, it has a lot of connotations of... trust and vulnerability and connection. doing what i do- and what we're doing⊠on the internet - it has the opposite of those connotations. like, before you, i didn't- i didn't really do this, i just was selling stuff. because guys don't want to fuck the girl who sells her body online. and you know now, i want to..." she trails off and richie doesn't dare interrupt her because he thinks she's about to say something he's wanted to tell her for a while now.
"i don't know, i guess. exploring someone's body in physical presence isn't seen at all as voyeuristic, or anything apart from...like, an intimate exchange." she says it casually, brushing hair from her face and shit, richie's swooning. he's in fucking love, he knows it, because y/n is so smart and intelligent and he's so fucking trashed for her. as she speaks, her hands move and distract him slightly from her body, doused in blue light from the screen and splayed out for him and only him on her phone camera.
the soft lace on her hips and chest make his body stiffen and it causes him to suppress a groan as she sighs, but richie knows he canât screenshot this heavenly sight because sheâll definitely notice and she can probably already tell heâs having a hard time not staring at her alluring figure as she talks.
"-whereas, you know. as soon as it happens on the internet, it becomes kinky and cam-girly. and, you know, that's fine. i love doing it. it's just, i'm not sure where the authentic communication even is now. or if i get to have a happy ending." she says and he finally sees her blush for the first time.
he wishes he was there with her, he wishes that he could touch the redness on her cheeks and caress her curvy body and taste her skin on his tongue. he wants to feel himself inside her, he wants to be with her and kiss her lips and yet he can't, so he sighs and shifts in his position, moving to turn up the brightness of his phone so he can see better.
"shouldn't you get to be the one to decide that, doll?" is all he adds. because he feels kind of lost and just as confused as y/n is with this.
he's starting to feel weird about it, because... is this authentic? what makes things like hookups or whatever the hell they've been doing authentic? shouldn't this be easy? it's just phone sex, phone sex with a really hot girl.
a girl who is complex and alive and full of sincerity and richie is definitely falling harder than he should.
she just sighs but makes no other comment. and then they just stare at each other, richie's face illuminated in his dark room by the phone's reflection.
well, i found a motel it looked like the bins i think there'd been a murder so we couldn't get in i need to get back i've gotta see the girl on the screen
"come over and watch a movie with me." he says into the phone, biting his lip. the silence from the other end of the line is deafening as she makes her decision, because they both know she's not about to come over just to watch the shining or psycho.Â
they've never done that before, and richie knows if she does come over, then whatever they have will crash down in a fiery mess. and he hates how excited that makes him as he waits in silence for her to drop the ball. so to speak.
"okay." she says, sounding shocked herself, and richie can't contain the excited grin from eclipsing his face. "yeah?" he asks breathlessly, and she's quiet for a little longer. "yeah. text me your address."Â
she hangs up after that, and richie's thumbs shake as he types his address and sprints out to where stan, mike, ben, and bill are playing video games in he and stan's living room, wheezing at all of them to get out because someone fucking unbelievable is about to walk through that door.
she's there about an hour later, cheeks flushed when richie opens his door, looking just as nervous and flustered. "hi, chee." she says breathlessly, staring up at him with those goddamn eyes, the eyes that pulled him in the first time. his stomach flips in affection at her nickname and he offers her a drink as she takes in his shitty apartment. he wonders briefly if stan ended up buying that rosé that he'd given him shit for considering, and then prays that stan will stay the night elsewhere.
she's already pouring out glasses of wine when he snaps back to reality, and he grins at her, mumbling in thanks as she passes him a glass that's certainly poured almost to the brim.
"what are we watching, then?" she asks coyly, lifting a brow at him. his cheeks are red, but he tugs her arm down the hall towards his room with a grin, their wine sloshing from their glasses as they move erratically.
"we're watching psycho, y/n/n." he says as he pulls her into his room, glancing back to see she's already swallowed down almost half her glass, a lipstick stain on the side of it. faintly he knows stan will be frustrated if richie doesn't clean that off, but he's more distracted by her lips.
"i like psycho." she says with a nod and a cheeky grin, "the whole 'voyeuristic gaze' thing with hitchcock." she mumbles, and richie recalls faintly learning about that in one of his film classes freshman year and he grins as he takes a hefty gulp of his rosé, figuring he's already given himself away and if she's going to do that, he can too.
he hums, setting down his glass and grabbing hers to set it besides his on the bedside table. he turns around, intending on grabbing his laptop so they could watch the film, but she's so much closer that he'd expected and her hands fall onto his shoulders and he almost shits himself.
unpleasant, but honest. just richie's style.
"can i try something?" she asks with a grin, and richie nods, knowing that she could do anything to him and he'd gladly let it happen and most likely pay out of pocket for the damages afterwards.
and then she's pulling him from her grip on his shoulders, her lips sliding against his and making him grip her hips. his mind almost explodes at with y/n-sensory-overload because he feels her everywhere - on his lips, against his hands, on his shoulders, and pressing against his front.
her lips taste like chamomile and rosé.
she thinks his lips taste like vanilla and cigarette smoke, just as she'd always imagined. he feels so real, pressed against her lips and his body against hers, and she sighs as her tongue slips into his mouth because god, she's needed him for so long. and now she has him.
his hands move, touching every inch of her as their tongues fight for dominance. she pulls back, smirking as she gently pushes him onto his mattress, sliding onto his lap smoothly afterwards, grinding her hips against his slowly.
the moan he emits is heavenly and she could cry because she finally gets to hear it in person and not through the crackling static frequency of the phone.
so she grinds down on him again, eager to feel all of him. he's hardening against her core and she whimpers into his mouth in need as his fingers slip under her top, rubbing circles on her bare skin and making her shiver. she's noticed to this gentleness; it was rare when she did get to enjoy the comfort of another body with her own, and when she did they were hardly half as loving or caring as him.
she's desperate now, she needs to feel him inside her after all these weeks of teasing and waiting, so her hand snakes down to palm him through his sweats. he lets out a small groan into her mouth, biting her lip as he pulls back slightly. their eyes meet and his are hooded with lust, lips parted as she pumps him slowly from outside his sweats. his hips buck up lightly into her palm and she smiles gently, kissing him slowly.
"let me make you feel good, y/n." he mutters, eyes pleading as he stares up at her. her stomach flutters with butterflies and she nods, shocked that he wants to pleasure her.
he gently pulls her off his lap until she's laying on his mattress and he stares down at her, biting his lip as he takes her in. he can't fucking believe she's really here. she slowly pulls off her top, leaving her in her bra and jeans as she stares up at him with a wry, seductive smile. then she unzips her jeans and slides them off, leaving her in his favorite set of hers - black, lacy, and revealing. she looks utterly stunning and he groans, his hands falling to run over the skin, tracing the lace on her breasts. her cheeks are red as she gazes up at him.
"touch me, richie." she orders and he almost groans as he drags his lips over the valley of her breasts, sucking on the soft flesh and admiring the splashes of budding purple and pink that he's created. her heartbeat is quick under his fingertips and he moves to unclip her bra, kissing her skin as the fabric falls away.
she's slightly cold in his room, and goosebumps appear over her flesh as richie leans to catch a nipple in her mouth, flicking his tongue over the sensitive bud. she lets out a quiet whine that has richie rutting into the mattress next to her, his fingers trailing down to dance at the waistline of her underwear.
and then he's pulling aside her panties, his fingers running up and down her slick folds and making her jump in lust. he can't wait, just like her, and he's rubbing her clit teasingly as she pleads, "chee, please." Â her eyes are eyes closed in bliss as his finger slips inside her, crooking slightly as he moves it. he presses his lips to the skin of her breast, pumping his finger and then soon adding another, crooking them both in a way that makes her let out guttural moans of pleasure. he marks her breasts with littered pink and red marks, smiling to himself at her figure.
she can't help but swoon as she watches him, his hair in his face slightly until she brushes it back, his fingers curling inside her and making her gasp, pleasure coursing through her body. his thumb softly comes up to rub her neglected clit and she grabs his shoulders to steady herself, the pleasure almost too much.
she's honestly slightly shocked - knowing richie as little as she really does outside of the literal booty calls at two in the morning and the accumulative forty five minutes they'd spent in person, she'd expected him to be... well, good. just good. because there's no way someone so funny, caring, and smart could also be that good in the sheets.
but right now, he's making her see goddamn stars.
"i've been wanting to touch you for so long, sugar." he mutters, eyes raking over her figure as her breath comes in stuttering gasps. she watches him with blown-wide eyes as his demeanor changes right before her, making her fall apart at his fingertips.
"that feel good, honey?" he asks, smirking as she whimpers, clenching around his fingers. "yes, god you feel so good." she utters, making him groan in approval from where he's sat back, watching her face contort in pleasure. she lets out another moan and richie stares at her body, watching his fingers as they fuck into her. he can't take it, then.
"will you sit on my face, doll?" he blurts, and she nearly yelps out as his fingers leave her. it's abrupt, but she's started to notice that this is how he operates - impulsivity is his second nature. and she loves it.
her face burns as she nods, the thought of richie under her making her whimper with anticipation. "yes, richie, please." she moans out again and he's grinning, laying back on the mattress with a wink. "c'mere, need to taste that pretty little pussy." he mutters and she feels herself clench around nothing, desperate for him as she swings a leg around to straddle his head.
immediately, his hands wrap around her thighs, thumbs smoothing over her stretch marks as he stares up at her, eyes glinting with desire. slowly, his finger pulls the seat of her lace panties to the side and his breath hits her bare, throbbing pussy, making her breath hitch. she cards her fingers through his hair and lowers herself slightly, gasping in shock as his tongue darts out to lick a bold stripe up from her entrance to her clit.
"chee," she moans out, tightening her grip in his hair and sending a groan through his body that reverberates and makes her shiver. his lips attach to her clit and fiery pleasure snakes through her body making her legs shake, a moan escaping her lips immediately. he sucks lightly before releasing to swirl his tongue, her moans making richie impossibly harder through his sweats.
"so good, rich." she mutters and he groans, tongue spreading her wet folds and slowly prodding at her entrance, dipping in slowly before pulling out, teasing her.
she can't help but grind down slightly, making richie grip her tightly, tongue sliding into her again and making her yelp. "you taste so good, baby." he mutters lowly before slowly reattaching himself to her heat, her eyes rolling slightly at the sensation as he fucks his tongue into her. one of his hands snakes up to her ass, gripping it tightly and then slapping it, the stinging pleasure making her buck her hips against him, emitting a hiss from her.
"rich, i-" she cuts herself off with a sharp gasp, the pleasure from richie's mouth making it increasingly harder to speak. her toes curl and her head tilts back as his tongue flicks over her clit, teeth grazing it slightly and making her buck.
she's embarrassingly close already, and judging by the way richie's smirking under her, he can tell. "please, please." she mutters, hips rocking on him as his tongue swirls, nipping softly at her clit and making her cry out. "please, make me cum, 'chee." she mutters and his tongue moves quicker, hand slapping her ass again.
and then she's clenching her thighs on either side of him and grinding down as she hits her peak, moaning quietly as she shakes in pleasure on top of him. he rides through her high, lapping at her and pulling away with a grin as she moans his name dejectedly. she's worn out from the best orgasm she's ever had and he gently nudges her so he slides in between her thighs, her back now on the mattress. he kisses her cheek and she keens quietly.
"fuck me, richie." she mutters, eyes still closed. his eyes snap to hers, surprised at the dominance in her voice after how she was two seconds ago.
he moans quietly, kissing her deeply as he ruts against her and relishes in the feeling. he's pulling off his sweats and boxers in record time and then he's pumping himself as he grips her hips, turning her so she's on her stomach, ass propped up slightly. his hand runs over the smooth skin of her ass, snapping the elastic of her panties and making her moan quietly.
then he's lining up her hips with his, pulling aside the lacy seat of her underwear to press against her entrance. he waits a moment as he leans to press a soft kiss to her spine, slowly easing into her. she moans loudly as he eases in, her face pressing against the pillows. she smiles as she smells the scent she'd just recently come to know as his, his cock stretching her and filling her up fully as he buries himself to the hilt inside her.
"so tight, sugar." he mutters and she whimpers, getting antsy as she adjusts to his size. "richie, please, need it so bad." she mutters, bucking her hips back against him in need.
"say that again." he mutters, sounding strangled, and she grins into the sheets. "please fuck me, richie. need it so bad, need to feel you ruin me." she whimpers, chest fluttering in anticipation. his hands grip her hips as he pulls out of her slowly, almost as slowly as he entered, before stopping almost all the way out. she moans loudly in pleasure as he pushes back in, snapping his hips against hers and filling her completely.
she briefly thanks god that his roommate seemed to be out for the night as she moans his name loud enough for the neighbors to hear.
he sets a brutal pace, his cock thick as it fills her up and makes her toes curl. he pushes her hair away from her neck and presses kisses to it as he hits a spot inside her that makes her scream his name. his fingers move to pinch her nipples, rolling them as he fucks into her.
she's completely blissed out at the feeling of him inside her, so glad that he invited her over and that they finally get to touch each other. "rich, oh my god." she emits, eyes squinted shut in complete pleasure.
"fuck, toots, takin' me so well, aren't you?" he asks, hands kneading her ass before slapping her right ass cheek harshly, making her arch her back. at the new angle they both let out a groan and richie knows he'll fucking cum too soon if they stay like this, so without warning he pulls out completely.
y/n whines, breathing heavily as his hands come to flip her around. now on her back, they make eye contact and she bites her lip, pulling him in for a searing kiss that knocks the wind out of both of them. images of richie in his room alone, snaps and late-night face times play through her mind as he grips her and slides her hips down towards him on the mattress and lines himself to her again, pulling her legs up so they're against his chest before pushing in.
he gives no time to adjust to this angle and it makes her moan loudly as he hits a spot deep inside her that pulls her closer and closer to her second orgasm.
his name leaves her cherry lips like a mantra and he can't stop staring at her as he fucks her into the mattress - the way her tits bounce with his brutal pace, the way her face is twisted in pleasure, the way she clenches and spasms around his cock.
one hand grips her breast, rubbing her nipple with his thumb and forefinger as he kisses her again, addicted to her taste as he feels himself coming closer and closer to the edge.
"chee, fuck, right there." she moans out and he groans in pleasure, the feeling of her walls clenching around him making his hips stutter. he keeps his thrusts up, though, as her fingernails rake down his back leaving small trails of burning pleasure in their wake.
her skin is covered with a sheen line of sweat as she looks up at him, hair wild and lips kiss-bruised. "god, don't stop, 'm gonna cum." she mutters and he snaps his hips harder, eager to make her cum so hard all she can think of is his name.
he moves a hand down to rub at her clit and he moans into her neck as she clenches hard around him, her hips bucking spastically. he can tell she's about to cum, and after a hard thrust, she does for the second time, spasming around him and sending waves of pleasure up his body. she's moaning his name, pulling him closer in bliss as she becomes sensitive and god damn it, she's so fucking beautiful.
"please cum, richie." she whispers against his lips, "please." Â and then at her will, he's spilling into her, hips stuttering as he pushes as deep into her as he can, loving how she clenches in sensitivity around him. he stays inside her for a moment as they breathe, coming down from their highs and eyes closed as they take in what just happened.
"holy shit." he says because yeah, that's like all he can say right now because he just got to fuck y/n and she's kissing his fucking collarbones right now and its making him blush and his heart flutter.
"that was...incredible." she whispers against his skin and he can feel her smile against his skin. it makes him feel all soft inside as he pulls out of her and flops next to her, kissing her forehead.
his fingers flutter over her sensitive core, smiling as he sees how wrecked she is, some cum dripping down her leg. he then soothes over the lace panties, patting her lightly and kissing her red cheek.
"rich?" she asks, making him look up at her. he hums in question, pushing some of her hair back. "can we still watch the movie?"
his heart swells and he grins, kissing her softly. "of course, doll. you're too cute." he says with a wink, making her roll her eyes. he hands her his shirt and then pulls sweats on himself, mumbling "stay here" and padding out to the kitchen to get her water and snacks, Â then returning minutes later to see her holding his phone in her clutch with a smirk.
"what're you doing?" he asks with a smile, but she shakes her head, making grabby hands for him and the snacks. so he laughs, cuddling up with the girl of his dreams and watching a flick, falling sleep with tangled limbs and a lipstick-stained neck.
and after she leaves the next morning with a kiss and a wink, he checks his phone and smirks to himself as he notices the lock screen she'd apparently made last night while he was making snacks.
a photo of her in his bed, wearing his shirt, a soft smirk on her face, neck littered in budding hickeys and a hand between her thighs next to her black lace panties.
god, she's going to be the absolute death of him.
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đ Never Too Late (Best Jeanist / Tsunagu Hakamada)
Genre: Fluff, Slight Angst, Family, Slice of Life, Halloween, Autumn
Word Count: 3,884
Pairing: Quirkless Reader x Best Jeanist
World: Boku no Hero Academia
Prompt: [x] âYou answer the door when Iâm trick or treating and at first you say Iâm way too old to be doing this but somehow I convince you to come out and join me.â
Authorâs Note: This was written for the âSweater Weatherâ collab over at the BNHA Sanctuary discord server. You can find the masterlist post [here] â make sure you check it out to read the other awesome entries for this collab! Thank you very much @pluviophile-imaginesâ for hosting this collab. Happy Autumn everyone! For reference, I picture [this] and [this] for him out of costume. I tried finding the original creators and couldnât, so if you know please let me know!
October 5th, 10:20 am đ
October had finally arrived, bringing with it a slew of brisk weather and a kaleidoscope of vivid oranges, reds, and browns. This was your favorite time of year, a time where you got to fully enjoy yourself, free of the shackles of adulthood. It felt so freeing, as if you were once again a child, ignorant of the ways of the world and just wanting to have fun.
Your eyes scanned the walls, lined with all manner of costumes. The back wall was dedicated to the top heroes, of course, the right wall featuring the usual suspects â cats, witches, zombies, even minions. The opposite wall was dedicated to characters from shows and movies.
Despite having been thinking this decision over for months, you still werenât sure what you wanted to dress up as. There were just too many choices!
âMaybe a pirate? Pirates are pretty cool. Ah, but black cats are a Halloween staple!â
After spending more time than you cared to admit, you eventually settled on a black cat pirate â which was just a pirate with black cat ears, a tail, and whiskers drawn on your face. With your costume now acquired, you left the back of the store to fill the basket with various decorations and as many different types of candy that you could find.
Satisfied that you couldnât fit anything else in the basket, you headed for the front to check out, excited to get home and start decorating.
October 29th, 8:10 pm đ
âNe, Katsuki -â you paused in the doorway of his bedroom, giving him a sheepish smile when multiple pairs of eyes turned to you. âIâm sorry, I didnât know you had your friends over.â
âTry fucking knocking next time,â Katsuki grunted angrily but his tone lacked its usual bite. âWhat do you want, Y/N?â
âOh, right! I was going to ask if you wanted to go trick-or-treating with me!â you chirped happily, clapping your hands together.
âLike hell I want to do that dumb shit! Iâm not a damn kid anymore!â
âA-Ah, rightâŠâ your expression fell but you tried your best to keep your smile intact. You should have known that he wouldnât agree. Seeing this made his resolve falter but he was in front of his classmates and refused to show weakness to them. If he gave in to you, theyâd never let him live it down.
âIâll go with you!â Kaminariâs hand shot up into the air, eyes sparkling with excitement.
âLike hell you will!â Katsuki snapped, smacking the blonde on the back of the head. âYouâre a damn adult, you shouldnât even be doing something so stupid.â
âYeahâŠâ your smile fell an inch, knowing that he was right. Was it really so wrong? Just because you had passed over into adulthood, you werenât allowed to have fun? To relive the best time of your life?
âCome on, Bakugo, I bet itâd be fun!â Kirishima commented from across the table.
âYeah!â Mina agreed, sending you a smile.
You shook your head, giving them a soft closed-eye smile. âItâs alright. Katsukiâs right, youâre not kids anymore! Whatever you guys choose to do on Halloween, please be safe!â You turned on your heel and left the room before anyone could say anything else.
Mina frowned at the closed door before turning to the ash blonde. âYour sibling is so sweet! You shouldnât be so mean to them, Bakugo.â
âJust shut up and do your damn homework!â he snapped, vermillion eyes narrowed at his notebook as he crossed his arm across his chest. A small pool of guilt was settling within his gut, but he pushed it back just as he always did.
October 31st, 9:30 pm đ
You checked the clock as you adjusted your costume in the mirror. It was getting late and most of the kids had already returned home, their parents not wanting them out too late. You honestly felt nervous about going out trick-or-treating, not knowing how people were going to react. The negative part of your brain was telling you that it wouldnât go over well.
So what if you were an adult? You just wanted to have fun for one night! To forget that you were quirkless and sheltered. To forget how unfair life had been.
Trick-or-treating reminded you of simpler times when your brother was more manageable and kind and was still friends with Izuku. You remembered fondly how your friends would always complain because you had to take the two out trick-or-treating instead of hanging out with them, but you didnât mind. It was fun for you â plus Katsuki looked adorable as a werewolf and Izuku as a pumpkin.
Now they were both teenagers. Even if they did still want to go trick-or-treating, they would certainly rather be with friends rather than you. They didnât need you to look after them anymore. They were heroes in training, after all, and you were just a quirkless adult trying to keep it together.
Shaking your head to rid yourself of the bad thoughts beginning to form inside your mind, you forced yourself to smile before stepping out of your room and down the stairs.
Masaru, your father, was just shutting the door after handing out candy to some kids. He smiled when he noticed you. âHeading out, sweetheart?â
You nodded. âYup! How do I look, dad?â
âGorgeous, as always!â he pulled you into a hug before pecking your forehead. âBe safe and donât stay out too late, okay?â
âOkay~â you tried to hurry out the door before your mom realized that you were leaving the house, but she seemed to have a sixth sense about such things. Just as you tugged the door open, she came waltzing out of the kitchen.
âY/N!â she cried, making your shoulders tense up as you turned slightly. She stood just inside the doorway, her brow furrowed. âYouâre really going to go trick-or-treating? Youâre too old for this and youâŠâ
âAnd Iâm quirkless and weak,â you finished for her, lips formed into a thin line. âYeah, I got that, mom. You feel the need to remind me every day.â
âThatâs notâŠâ her vermillion eyes landed on her husband and she scowled. âMasaru, tell them that they are too old for this!â
âHoney,â he spoke softly, putting his arm around her shoulders. âY/N isnât hurting anyone, theyâre just enjoying the season. Go on, Y/N. Have a fun night, sweetheart.â
You sent him a grateful look, ignoring your momâs sputtering as you quickly slipped out of the house, slamming the door behind you.
The air outside was moist and cold, wind whipping through the trees and robbing them of their leaves. The ground was littered with them, each one a vibrant shade of orange, brown, or red. Despite the sky being covered by clouds, the bright light of the full moon managed to break through in streams.
While the streets were mostly empty, there were still several groups of kids scattered about, talking and laughing loudly. You decided it would be best to leave the neighborhood since most everyone knew who you were. You worried about them complaining to your parents. You already caused them so much trouble, you didnât want to bring anymore onto them.
October 31st, 10:49 pm đ
As the night wore on, more and more people turned their lights off to indicate that they were no longer giving out candy or that they had run out. It was getting hard to find people still participating and most of the kids had given up by this point, deciding to hang out in the cemetery or return home.
âI havenât even been out that long, but⊠I guess I should head home so mom doesnât end up hurting dad trying to come looking for me,â you sighed, about to turn around when a light caught your attention from the end of the street. âItâs the only house on this street with its lights on. I guess one more canât hurt!â
You steeled yourself, walking down the dark street toward the house. The street lamps were spread far enough apart to leave darkness between them, the bulbs dull and flickering as they tried to die out. The only decoration on the house was a cute little sign on the door of a pumpkin covered in glitter. The words Happy Halloween were stitched on the top in what looked to be jean fabric.
You had visited quite a few houses and had procured several different types of candy into your bag. Most of them, surprisingly, hadnât given you a second thought when you knocked on their door. Others just gave you the stink eye but said nothing. There were a few, though, that had given you a stern lecture or cussed you out before slamming the door in your face.
For the first group of people, you believed you had just gotten lucky because you had walked up with or behind a group of kids and they most likely just assumed that you were with them. With no more kids around, though, you couldnât exactly pull that stunt.
Taking a breath, you brought your hand up, rapping your knuckles on the wood. A minute or so passed before the door was pulled open, revealing a tall, thin man. His blonde hair was swept over his left eye and he wore a tan-colored turtle-neck sweater with a pair of blue jeans. He looked so⊠familiar, but you couldnât quite place who he was.
You put on a bright smile, holding up the bag. âTrick-or-treat!â
He quirked a brow, leaning against the doorframe with his arms folded across his chest. âYouâre a bit old to be trick-or-treating, donât you think?â
Your smile didnât falter because you had expected this already at every house. âLast time I checked, there was no age limit on having fun. Iâm not breaking any laws, either. Now, if you donât mind sir, please give me candy or tell me to leave.â
His blue eyes observed you for a moment, a spark of amusement within them. âTell me, is it really so fun to do this?â
âI think you,â you nodded. âIt reminds me of simpler, happier times. Maybe Iâm stupid for trying to cling to that each year, but Iâll be damned if I give up now.â
His gaze locked with yours, softening at the pained look within your eyes. You hid it well, but he was trained to pick up on such things. He pushed away from the doorframe, stepping back inside the house to grab the candy bowl before holding it out to you. âTake what you want. I doubt any other kids will be coming around.â
âThank you,â you offered him a smile before picking out a few pieces of your favorite candy. âHave a good night.â
âWait a moment,â he held up his finger before disappearing into the house. When he returned, he was shrugging on a black jacket. âLet me walk you home.â
You quirked a brow as he pulled the door closed, sliding the key in to lock the door. âIt doesnât seem very smart to let a strange man know where I live.â
âThatâs true,â he chuckled, keys clinking as he slipped them into his pocket. âAllow me to walk you to your neighborhood, then.â
âWhat a gentleman,â you smiled softly, beginning down the street with him at your side. âWith that kind of attitude, you should be a hero.â
Amusement flickered through his eyes, lips twitching upward. âHm, I hear being a hero is quite dangerous, though.â
âYeahâŠâ you turned your gaze to the ground, feeling a frown come to your lips. âThatâs what worries me about my brother becoming one. Itâs his dream, though, and even if I said anything about it, thereâs no way heâd listen. Heâs such a hard head.â
âIâm sure heâll be a great hero one day.â
âHe definitely will.â
Silence settled over the two of you as you made it back toward your home. As you passed by another street on the way, you suddenly paused because most of the houses on this street were still lit up and decorated to the nines. Several groups of older kids were making their rounds around the cul-de-sac.
âNe, sir, do you want to experience trick-or-treating?â you grinned at him, excitement dancing within your eyes.
Blue eyes flickered from your own to the cul-de-sac and back. There was something about the innocent, pure gleam within your eyes that made it hard for him to say no. And itâs not like he had anything better to do with his night. âSure, Iâll give it a try.â
âGreat!â Without much thought, your hand slid into his, tugging him toward the first house. He didnât understand why, but his heart started to pick up its pace upon feeling your warm skin on his despite the cold weather outside.
October 31st, 11:30 pm đ
Katsuki paced around his room, narrowed eyes darting to the clock every few minutes. Where the hell were you? The neighborhood was dark, the neighbors no longer handing out candy and no kids had come by in the past thirty minutes. You should have been home by now, so why werenât you?
He could hear his mother in the living room pacing back and forth as she loudly voiced the thoughts within his head. The regret that was pooling within his belly from the other day was now getting worse as worry clawed at his insides. What if you had been captured by a villain? His eyes widened at the thought and he tore out of his room, feet stomping down the stairs.
âKatsuki! Where the hell are you going?!â Mitsuki shouted, pausing her pacing to look at her son. âItâs late!â
âNone of your business, hag!â He snapped back, flinging the door open.
âAt least put on a jacket!â
But he was already out the door, slamming it behind him as he took off in search of you. His heart was thundering in his chest and he could only hope that you were safe. If something had happened to you, heâd never forgive himself for not being there to protect you.
November 1st, 12:00 am đ
You giggled as you fell onto the swing, watching the blonde as he settled down beside you. âThank you for indulging me.â
âYouâre welcome,â he smiled softly at you, crossing one leg over the other. âI have to admit, it was more fun than I expected it would be.â
âSee~? I told you!â
He chuckled, poking you in the forehead with a slim finger. âSo humble.â
You grinned, sticking your chest out. âOne of my best qualities!â
âDid you have the night you were expecting?â
âNo,â you shook your head, tilting your head back to look at the sky. Some of the clouds had cleared up, allowing more of the moon to shine down on you. âI never expected to meet such a nice person and convert them to the ways of trick-or-treating.â
He propped his chin up in his hand, smiling warmly at you as his eyes slid across your face. With the moonlight shining down on you, you looked so magical and he briefly wondered if you might actually be a witch. It would explain why he felt such a strong connection to you after only having just met you. He most definitely wanted to see you again.
âYou never told me your name.â
âYou never told me yours, either,â you grinned at him before holding out your hand. âBakugo Y/N. Nice to meet you.â
His eyes widened at your last name. The image of his first meeting with Bakugo Katsuki filled his mind and it was almost laughable. There was no way such a sweet and kind person could be related to someone so loud and angry. He refused to believe it was anything other than a coincidence.
You tilted your head curiously. âIs something wrong?â
âNo, sorry. You just reminded me of something.â His hand slid into yours, his skin ice cold from the wind. âHakamada Tsunagu. Itâs a pleasure to officially meet you, Y/N.â
Your cheeks warmed at the way he said your name. It was like honey flowing from his lips and you could definitely get used to hearing it.
November 1st, 12:10 am đ
Katsuki huffed as he ran down the street, eyes snapping from one side to the other as he desperately searched for you, calling out your name. He didnât care that his voice was cracking or that the cold was turning his skin numb.
He was running past the park when he caught movement from the corner of his eye, head snapping around to find the source. Relief flooded him when he saw you walking away from the swings with a smile on your face. Without a second of hesitation, he rushed toward you, screaming out your name as if he hadnât seen you in years.
Your eyes widened at the familiar voice of your baby brother. âKatsuki, whatâs â oof.â His body slammed into yours, arms tight around your body as he buried his face in your neck, holding on to you for dear life. Your heart picked up speed, feeling your nerves begin to fray. Had something happened? âKatsuki -â
âWhere the fuck have you been?!â he barked angrily, tightening his grip on you.
âY-You knew I was going out tonightâŠâ you gently rubbed his back. âDid you forget?â
âNo I didnât forget, dumbass!â he huffed, fingers digging into your back. As badly as he wanted to pull away so he could scold you properly, he was too afraid that you would see the worry and the fear lingering within his eyes. He hated feeling vulnerable, especially around you. He was supposed to be strong, a hero that could keep you safe no matter what. âItâs almost one in the morning!â
âIs it really?â your eyes widened and you understood why he was acting so worried. âI must have lost track of time, Iâm sorry, Kat.â
Tsunagu didnât know how to feel about the sight before him. He felt frustrated that Bakugo Katsuki was, indeed, related to you. He felt amused by how Katsuki was acting, surprised to see something other than plain annoyance within the boy. He also felt a bit sad knowing that his time with you had come to an end.
âYou better be sorry!â When Katsuki felt like he had enough control over his emotions, he finally pulled back, keeping a firm grip on your shoulders as his narrowed eyes bore into your own. âYouâre going to pay me back for this.â
You smiled sheepishly, rubbing the back of your head. âI will, Iâm sorry.â
âGreat, now letâs go home -â he had grabbed your hand, turning toward the entrance of the park when he finally spotted the tall blonde whom he had failed to notice in his relief to see you. His eye twitched, a shitty look coming onto his face as he pointed his finger in the manâs face. âWhat the fuck are you doing with my sibling?!â
Tsunagu sighed, putting his hand on his hip. âStill as tactless as ever.â
âWait,â you glanced between the two, blinking curiously. âDo you two know each other?â
âNo!â Katsuki snapped, beginning to stomp away but you didnât budge, turning your gaze to the taller male.
âTsunagu? How do you know my brother?â
âYouâre on a first-name basis already?!â
His blue eyes met yours and his expression softened. âIâm the hero he interned with after the sports festival, Y/N.â
âDonât you dare use their first name, you bastard!!â Small explosions went off on Katsukiâs palm but the older male just rolled his eyes at him, more focused on how you were taking the news that he was, in fact, a pro hero.
Your eyes widened. âOh⊠oh my god. Youâre⊠youâreâŠâ
He smiled warmly, his voice soft. âThe number three pro hero, Best Jeanist. At your service, Y/N.â he reached for your hand but Katsuki smacked it away, putting himself between the two of you.
âI donât know what the hell youâre planning with my sibling, but you can forget it!â Katsuki tugged on your arm. âWeâre going home, Y/N!â But you still didnât move, staring wide-eyed at the tall man before you.
Now you understood why he looked so familiar and you wanted to smack yourself for not realizing it on your own. You had treated him so normally, as if he were just some average person. He isnât an average person, though, heâs a great and powerful hero, one that had looked after your brother once upon a time.
Tsunagu shifted, his lips tugging down. It was subtle, but he could sense the change in the dynamic between the two of you and he didnât like it, taking a step closer to you. âY/N -â
You suddenly bowed, eyes screwed shut. âI apologize for being so flippant with you, Best Jeanist. I didnât realize who you were.â
He reached for your shoulders and noticed Katsuki reaching for his arm. He was feeling annoyed now, tired of the boy interrupting him and getting between the two of you so he activated his quirk, the threads of his jeans unraveling to bind the younger Bakugo in place. He growled from beneath the cloth, struggling to break his binds.
Your eyes shimmered with wonder as you saw his quirk in action, taking note of the small holes that allowed you to see the milky skin of his outer thigh. You felt your cheeks heating up again when his hands rested on your shoulders, lithe fingers gently squeezing your skin beneath the costume.
âYou have nothing to apologize for. Please donât change how you act around me just because Iâm a hero.â His eyes were so sincere and warm as his hand slipped up to your cheek, smiling at the warmth he felt there. âI may be a hero, but Iâm still a person. I really did enjoy my time with you tonight.â
âI did, too,â you responded softly, offering him a smile before glancing at your brother, who was still struggling against the fabric. âWe really should get home, though. Our motherâs going to have a fitâŠâ
âOf course,â he reluctantly released the boy, dodging backward when Katsuki tried to attack him with an explosion.
âKatsuki!â you scowled, grabbing the back of his shirt without any hesitation, tugging him backward before locking your arm around his neck. âDonât be so disrespectful!â
âChe, whatever,â he scoffed, fingers wrapping around your wrist as he tugged you toward the entrance of the park. You let him for a few paces before you stopped, turning to look back at the blonde that hadnât moved.
âAre you coming, Tsunagu?â
He gave you a surprised look. âYou want me to?â
âWell, you did say you were going to escort me home,â you smiled, biting your lip in thought before finding the nerve to say the next thing you wanted to. âBesides, you need to know where I live if youâre going to pick me up for our date tomorrow.â
His eyes widened a fraction before he chuckled, easily closing the distance with his long legs. You held your hand out to grab his, fingers lacing together. Katsuki grumbled loudly, aiming insults at the blonde as the three of you headed to the Bakugo household, but neither of you were paying attention to him.
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How about gordon comforting borrower! Benery after something scary happened? -HLVRAHigh đ
alright here u goh! takes place a lil bit in the future of my fic :V
He was still getting used to knowing he had roommates, specially roommates he had just only found out about four months ago living with him. Since then everyday felt like he was learning a dozen or so more rules or facts about his new tiny group of...friends?
Tommy and Coomer were always more than happy to inform him about new things he was clueless about, and in return he did the same for anything they didnât know that he did. He found out Coomer could access his computer with a level of ease he considered concerning...until he found out all Coomer liked to do was get lost in the endless holes of information that Wikipedia offered, along with some various cooking videos on youtube. Tommy would sometimes sit with him and read along on the screen, it was kinda cute watching the tiny pair sit on his wrist rest and scroll for a few hours.Â
Bubby strangely would only come over to join the mini group when cooking was the subject..He seemed to only calm down when watching someone make some sort of dish...and of course when Coomer was beside him. Gordon found out after several scorching trial and errors that Coomer was a expert at getting Bubby to calm down and not set fires out of rage or stress. But he had been noticing lately even without Coomers help the mini firestorms had gone down considerably, for which he was ultimately thankful for.
Though...Gordon had taken notice that whenever he was in the kitchen, Bubby somehow always happened to be nearby to watch and sometimes give a few tips from the counter, and his few bad attempts never seemed to get too burned to warrant throwing out nowadays. Maybe sometime soon he ask Bubby officially to help him cook something for everyone.
Benry though...he was very strange to figure out at first. The others had fled being seen by him for weeks aside from him. Benry had come out the moment the so called âjigâ was up and started talking with him for hours on end...And despite all that talking Gordon still had little to no idea what the tiny borrower was about. The âsweet voiceâ he did most of the time, while very pretty to watch float around his head, was just as strange.. He had asked Tommy from time to time to translate when he found out the other borrower seemed to know inherently what the colors translated to and would happily lend a hand in the form of some honestly cute little rhyme to make it easier to remember for them both. Eventually Gordon got the idea after a few weeks of this and started to slowly map out Benrys feelings throughout the days when the sweet voice was more present than his actual voice.
Today was one of those days, Gordon had woken up to the sounds of heavy rain and after a quick look to the weather channel saw itâd be like this most of the day with possible chances of thunderstorms. He personally liked when the heavy storms rolled through, the town really needed it after the dry spell itâs been having for the last few months or so. The resulting day was a sleepy one at best, Gordon setting up a slow cooker of his favorite soup to dig into when it was time to eat with everyone.
Until then he sat on the couch with some snacks and caught up on some shows he had been prompted into watching by his tiny group, knowing theyâd all be out and about soon enough, he could already hear Coomer and Bubby on his computer. Tommy was likely with Sunny....or Sunkist as Tommy had renamed her these days.. It didnât take long for him to feel a tiny weight settle itself on his right shoulder and a even tinyer yawn to reach his ears.
âSup Gordo....sleepy day today? Fuckin...lofi chill rainstorms to sleep to man..â
âMornin Benry, and yeah seems like todayâs a sleepy one. Weather forecast says its gonna rain all day today.â
âMhm...niiice, cosy bro mode today..â
âPfft, you sound like youâre about to pass out on me Benry, didnât you just wake up?â
âMaybe....? Not my fault big bro Gordo gotta be all fuckin warm n cosy. Sâfuckin cheating..â
Gordon couldnât help but chuckle at that last very tired sounding quip and glanced down at the borrower in question. Benry was splayed out almost like a cat on his broad shoulder sucking up his residual body heat, only to be jostled a bit by his laughter.
âCâmon dude get down from there, I donât wanna knock you off on accident or something.â
âMmm maybe later, comfy here just fine bro, wonât fall off I got like..excellent climber hacks trust me.â
âAlright then, but Iâll warn you when I feel like movin or something.â
âHell yea man no worries here. Your lil buddy Benryâs got it all on lockdown.â
Gordon let out another laugh before they both settled down to watch whatever show he had picked out.
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A few hours had passed in relative comfortable silence amidst the rain, the soft background noise making Gordon a tad bit sleepy even now when it hit. A bright flash lit up the somber gray world for a brief second, just long enough to rouse him into a bit more of a alert state when the second half came.
It sounded like a gunshot had gone off, the thunder rolling loud enough to rattle the windows with its concussive force. From his computer he could hear Bubby let out a surprised series of curses followed by what he could assume was Coomer rattling off the wikipedia article on thunderstorms. So far so good right?
He heard a soft but tinny noise sound off beside him, or rather next to his head before another crack of thunder sounded off and made the lights flicker briefly with the charge.
âJesus hell, guess this is quite the storm huh Benry? ......Benry?â
He looked to where the sleepy borrower should of been laying...only to find him missing entirely, and instead felt something..or hopefully someone clutching the side of his neck in a surprising death grip.
âBenry..? You alright down there? You uh...kinda gripping the living hell out of my neck there dude...Something wrong?â
That same tinny noise kicked off again and Gordon could see some small orbs float up...they looked alot like..rancid beer? He sat there for a moment and let the rhyme come to him given Benryâs reaction and refusal to talk or let go of him..
âColor like rancid beer...means acute fear? Benry lil bro..are you scared right now?â
He placed a hand against the spot he felt Benry clutching at him and felt the briefest nods against his fingers. Shit if it was loud to him then it must be outright deafening for someone like Benry and the others...though it seemed like Benry was the only one being affected right now.
Gordon let out a slow sigh and tried to gently ease Benrys death grip on his neck with both hands.
âItâs all good Benry, Iâm here I gotcha..câmon dude itâs fine I wonât let anything happen to you okay?â
Slowly he felt the grip lessen until he felt the weight shift slowly into his awaiting hands. Cupping them gently he moved to bring Benry up to face him and opened his hands. Inside was a clearly frightened borrower..Gordon felt a pang of saddness seeing that expression on the usually chill borrowers face. So instead he offered a warm smile and shifted to lay down on the couch, grabbing the blanket pooled around his lap in the process.
âItâs alright man, thunderstorms scare me too sometimes, yâknow? They scared the hell outta me in college for years. But I learned about it and I slowly stopped being afraid..â
â...sâloud...wish the sky would shut its fuck..â
âYeah itâs really loud..might mean itâs right on top of us..but I think itâll move soon..wanna know a secret on how to tell its going away?â
â...tips and tricks from...big Gordos book of hacks? ..okay.â
Gordon snorts softly and lays his head against the far armrest of the couch and gently deposits Benry on his chest before adjusting the blanket over them both, Gordon seeing the soft blue glow of Benrys little eyes staring up at him as he got settled and placed a hand behind him for bonus warmth and protection..It seemed to do the trick as those vivid blues dulled to a soft sky blue and he felt Benrey sag against his chest after a few moments.
âWhen you see the lightening you count a few seconds..and when the thunder hits, thatâs how many miles the storm is..the longer the pause means the farther away its getting..If you want I can show you and let you know how far or close the storm is.â
â....okay, sounds fucky but big science Gordo gotta know the good science..â
Gordon waited for a moment or two for the next flash and mentally counted down the seconds until the thunder sounded out...it was only a few seconds but it was already moving out by the sounds of things..possibly down the valley like most other storms did.
He relayed the message to Benry and saw that he did perk up a bit at the news.
âIf you want, you can stay in there and Iâll tell you when its moving away, alright?â
âMhm...sounds good to me man..â
What Gordon didnât know though was that Benry had already nearly forgotten the storm thanks to a new sound overtaking the noise itself... Gordon had unknowingly placed him over his heart, or close enough to it that Benry could hear it as he laid against the other.. Coupled with the heat radiating off the giant human and darkness he felt...safer. He knew Tommy was going to rag on him later but..he felt nice being like this with the human. He might of had a little crush on the human and relished being close to him whenever he could. He was terrified of storms, the noise hurt his ears like hell and reminded him of...not so epic times..But thankfully Gordon pushed all those thoughts away and now he was here and safe.
It was all just enough to make him wanna sleep, he was warm and certainly cosy enough. Letting out a yawn he let those fail ass thoughts drift away as he looked up at Gordons smiling face and felt his own heat up a bit..Yeah he could sleep knowing someone like that was nearby.
âGettin sleepy already Benry?â
â...maybe, wake lil Benny bro for supper please?â
âPffft, yeah alright, Iâll let you know when itâs time to eat..get some rest Benryâ
âMâkay boss, you got it.â
Benry smiled and mouthed something else privately before letting the slow thrum of Gordons heart and heat lead him into dreamland. Gordon being the comfortable man he was..accidentally nodded off as well shortly after.
Bubby woke them both up by threatening to burn Gordons beard off a few hours later. But for once the malice was not present in his voice.
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A/N: Wowzers this one was a long time coming. This story is primarily told through Loganâs POV. It is his story after all. But youâre a very large part of his story, and so itâs only right that you get your say. So what has life been like for you while Logan was working through things with Zeke and Miguel? Youâre about to find out.Â
Warnings: discussion and description of drug use and overdose. and iâm pretty sure i drop a bunch of fucks.Â
Word Count: 5,928
What a day. You leaned your forehead against your front door as you keyed in your passcode. This overtime is really⊠Your finger missed the third digit, the lights flashing red as you sighed. But it wasnât the overtime that was to blame for how you felt and you had no reason to lie to yourself. Except that I have to get over it. Itâs⊠Waiting for the light to flash green you re-entered your code, correctly this time. You heard the soft whir and small click of the lock as it opened in the quiet hallway and you straightened up and turned the handle. Itâs what he wanted.Â
Opening the door you were surprised to find your roommate still awake, sitting cross-legged in the center of the couch, greenish light from the television reflecting off the walls in the darkened room. Checking the time on your phone you saw that it was well after midnight. Jordanâs usually out like a light by now⊠unless⊠You blinked at your phone screen and read the date. Itâs Saturday. Shit. You were a whole two days behind. Or ahead. It didnât matter. Saturdays hadnât felt like Saturdays in longer than you cared to think about. Not since-Â
âHey!â Jordan opened her arms as you stepped inside and closed the door behind you. âLook whoâs still awake!â She pointed to herself and despite how tired you were and how much you just wanted to shower so that you could crawl into bed, you had to laugh. âIâm watching this really horrible movie if you wanna join me?â You slipped your feet from your shoes and tossed your bag and keys on the counter. It has been a while since we hung out like this. Jordan passed you a bowl of chocolate covered pretzels without looking away from the screen. âI mean, itâs really bad, like 10 car pile up on the 405 bad.âÂ
You took a handful of pretzels and smiled. âYeah Jor, sounds good. Let me just go change out of this bullshit,â you gestured at your ensemble, âAnd Iâll be right back.âÂ
Jordan smiled and paused the movie. âCool. Oh, hey.â She called after you as you headed towards your bedroom and you spun back around. âSome of your mail mustâve got mixed in with mine from yesterday. I sorted through it this morning and found some things addressed to you- like a phone bill and something else? So I stuck them on your dresser.â No problem, that happens all the- âWho do you know in North Carolina? Someone you worked with or-â   Â
Her question was innocent even if there was a teasing lilt to the way that she asked it. Â
âLogan.â His name left your lips in an immediate whisper. You sucked in a breath and felt your heartbeat pick up its pace. Is he alright? Is he...did he change his mind about..? Does he still have me down as⊠Why now? Eyes widening, you blinked at Jordan.Â
âLogan? Logan Delos? Heâs,â she stood from the couch, pretzel crumbs falling from her lap as she shook her head and said your name. âBut heâs⊠isnât he in re-âÂ
âYeah.â You nodded, eyes still wide as your tongue came out to wet your lips. Is the letter from him or is it⊠you swallowed the thick dread before it had a chance to lodge itself in your throat. Or is it about him? You released a breath and felt the room get smaller.Â
Jordanâs eyebrows came together as she took a step towards you. âIn North Carolina?â She ran one hand over the crown of her head and grabbed the disheveled bun on top. You moved back towards the couch and nodded again, mouth suddenly too dry to speak.
 âThatâs-â her hands darted out as you sunk into the cushions as though she expected you to miss your mark. When you hadnât needed her assistance, she smoothed them down over her sweatpants and drummed her palms over her thighs before sitting back down next to you. âUnexpected, I guess?â You looked over at her and she continued, words rushing out all in one breath.. âI mean, that heâd choose somewhere so...far? I just thought someone like him would want to be⊠I mean, come on, Malibuâs probably got the-âÂ
You donât know anyone like him, Jor. âIt wouldnât have worked for him if he stayed here. He knew that.â Your voice was thin enough to splinter, scratching at your throat. He knew he had to get away from⊠from everything. You tried to swallow but it only made it worse. Eyes scanning the contents of the coffee table, you grabbed the only beverage there- Jordanâs half empty wine glass- and downed the remains.Â
âDamn,â she whispered as you pulled the glass from your lips with a cough, wiping your free hand over your mouth. âOkay.â She leaned forward to wrap her fingers around the glass and took it from you, setting it back on the table. âHey,â you felt the weight of her hand on your back then, and you sighed, leaning into her shoulder. âAlright, câmere.â She wrapped an arm around you then as silent tears pricked at your eyes. She was around for...a lot of it so she knows how this⊠But she doesnât know everything. After a beat she ran her hand over your arm and pulled away slightly, just enough to look at you. âYou knew he went to North Carolina? That wasnât a guess?â She phrased it as a question but you knew that she knew the answer, which you supplied with a nod, bringing one hand up to swipe under your eyes. âHe⊠told you?âÂ
You took a quick breath in and let it back out as you spoke. âYeah, heâŠâ You clamped your eyes shut as the memory of your last conversation with Logan flashed through your mind like wildfire. âHe told me where he was going when we...â Fuck. âJor, I never told you aboutâŠâÂ
âNo,â she said quietly, your eyes opening to look up at her. âYou never told me what happened⊠just that⊠that you werenât seeing him anymore. But-â She sighed, shaking her head. But what? âBut I knew it had to be⊠when I came home from Phoenix and saw how you looked?â She said your name and it carried all the concern and love youâd come to expect from your best friend. âI knew it wasnât just a regular break up or⊠whatever you want to call it, I know that you two werenât⊠just-â She blew out another breath before throwing her arms around you. You returned the embrace, not realizing how much you needed it. âWhy donât you go change, and Iâll get the letter and you can read it. Or we can talk or-âÂ
âYeah.â You squeezed her once more before standing from the couch. âOkay, Jor. Iâll⊠Iâll be right back.âÂ
You suddenly forgot how exhausted you were, how all you wanted to do was fall into your bed and sleep. Sleep, when you could catch it it large chunks, was great for passing the time, but now your mind was running wild with all the time that had passed since the last time you saw him. He was so⊠You could still feel the plastic medical I.D. bracelet snapping beneath your fingers when you took it off for him. He was too weak to do it himself and you felt your soul breaking with that thin piece of plastic. Six months had come and gone since then, and though youâd spent more time thinking of him than you wanted to admit, you had no way of knowing how heâd spent that time. You had no clue what you would read in the letter that was sent to you. Youâd had no contact with Logan since you left his apartment the day heâd told you that he was making a change. Though you knew where he was you hadnât reached out. You were following his lead, like you had for most of the time that youâd known him. But now heâs reaching out to me...Â
Your heart thumped as you peeled your work clothes off and rummaged through your drawers for a t-shirt and a pair of sweats. The second that your hand closed around the thick pair of navy sweats though, all that thumping came to a crashing halt. Without even looking at the pair youâd selected, you knew that they were the same pair that youâd put on when youâd gotten home from Loganâs that day. You sucked in a breath as you pulled them out, fingers flexing and bunching in the material, and before you could stop it, the memory of that night and the few that followed flashed violent and vivid behind your eyes.Â
.. .. .. .. .. .. .. Â
You watched the walls lighten, the shadows in your room growing and shrinking as they moved with the passing of time from night to morning. Your swollen eyes stung at the corners where salty tears still gathered, but you were too spent to sob anymore. Instead, they trickled involuntarily down your cheeks as your chest rose and fell almost robotically. Your whole body ached with each breath, ribs sore and limbs feeling heavy. Exhaustion was an understatement. Youâd never gone through anything like you had in the last 48 hours. But you refused to shut your eyes, refused to give over to the sleep that you so desperately needed. If I close my eyes itâs really⊠heâs reallyâŠÂ
A strained whimper pushed through your tight, raw throat as the rising sun pushed through the cracks in your closed blinds, bathing the room in a muted yellow glow. It was going to be morning whether or not you wanted the dawn to come. I donât. Falling asleep felt like resignation, and though you knew it was for the best, knew it was the only way heâd survive, you couldnât help the way it felt knowing that you might never see him again. Might never touch him or wrap your arms around him, might never kiss his lips or his neck or his back, might never feel his warm breath on your skin or his laughter vibrating in his chest. I might never get to tell him that I⊠If you fought hard enough, kept your eyes open long enough, maybe never would never come.Â
Aside from attempting to delay reality, you were also worried that when you finally did collapse into sleep you would be haunted by the what ifâs that you held at bay by staring at your walls. What if Iâd gotten there sooner? What if I missed that call? What if I hadnât been carrying that dose of Narcan? You shivered, recalling the moment that you watched his breastbone sink and realized it wasnât going to rise again unless you acted fast. What if I wasnât fast enough?Â
You had been though, and for the second time in too few weeks, the emergency room doctors had told you that youâd saved his life. Looking at him lying in the hospital, so frail and unlike the man youâd jumped into that pool with all those months ago, it was hard to believe that youâd saved him at all. Thatâs not him.Â
But his heart was still beating and he was still breathing and it was only because youâd acted as quickly as you did. You were beyond relieved when theyâd told you that he was expected to make a full recovery, despite how far from possible that seemed. That relief did nothing though, to lessen the weight of knowing that if you were even two minutes too late either time, he simply wouldnât be here at all. Logan⊠I wish⊠You were wrong when you thought you couldnât sob anymore, a stray one forcing you to draw a razor sharp breath in before it came shuddering back out. I wish none of it everâŠÂ
You could hear the sounds of the city waking up outside your window. Blinking, you realized that the light had changed again. The sun was over the horizon now and done with the warm glow of dawn. Instead, a thin, white light hung in the room, highlighting its emptiness. It was morning- probably close to 6am- and though you also heard the sounds of others stirring in your building, your own apartment was silent. You were alone, Jordan visiting her family in Phoenix for the long weekend, and the grayish, early light seemed intent on exposing that fact. I wishâŠÂ
With a heavy sigh, you slid your legs over the side of the bed and stood. You took three steps, one arm crossed tightly over your abdomen as you moved towards the window, that hand curled around your hip. The other came up to rake over the top of your head, pushing your disheveled hair back before reaching for the wand dangling from the window. With a small twist the room brightened further and your eyes narrowed. You kept twisting until the blinds flicked all the way shut, clicking together and darkening the room once more. I wish none of it ever happened to you, Logan.Â
You wished he would have stayed in bed with you instead of peeling himself away from your body to leave for the park with William. You wished he would have canceled his flight and stayed tangled up in your limbs and the sheets, in your hair and your hands. You wished he would have woken up late to your breath on the skin of his throat and canceled the whole trip, spending the next 18 hours learning how it felt on other parts of his body instead of sitting on a jet with a man he couldnât stomach.Â
You wished that once heâd gotten back, you hadnât been the only one to believe him. You wished heâd had just one other personâs support. You wished Juliet hadnât abandoned him, wished that he had more than just you to lean on. He needs more. Everyone does.Â
You wished heâd never stumbled so close to the abyss. Like the plastic strips youâd closed to shut out the daylight, your wishes piled up and clacked together in your mind. And like the blinds, they did nothing to shut out the truth.
But you never once, not even as you slumped back into your bed, leaning the base of your skull against the headboard, wished that you hadnât met him. Eyes slipping closed, just to remember, not to sleep, you shuffled back to that first night with him. Your soaked dress clinging to your skin, the goosebumps his fingertips raised on your flesh as water dripped from his touch, the way he draped his jacket over your shoulders and dragged you closer. Everything that followed. You regretted none of it. Youâd jump into that pool all over again, even knowing where it would lead you, because every second spent with him had been worth it. Every single one.Â
You opened your eyes but even though they were trained and focused on the far wall, your bedroom swirled and blurred as you blinked, your lashes heavy and drenched in tears. The flat expanse between the door and your closet served as the perfect screen for your mindâs projections, and you helplessly let the most horrific scene of your life play out for what you already knew would be the first of far too many showings.Â
It started with a phone call. Loganâs name popped up on the screen of your dashboard just as you got onto the freeway leaving your office. You knew that he had had a meeting with his father that morning, knew that it was primarily to discuss Loganâs return to work and the full resumption of his duties and responsibilities at Delos. Though you didnât think that he was ready for it, you knew how much the company meant to him and so you silently hoped that he got the result that he was looking for instead of voicing your opinion that he should hold off, focus on finding stability. You sucked in a breath as you tapped the button on the screen to answer the call through the speakers. Please, let it have gone well.Â
You swallowed as the call connected, skipping the question in your tone. âHi, Logan.â You could hear stillness on the other end of the line, much too quiet for him to be calling from the Delos offices. Shit. âYou o-â You shook your head, fingers tightening around your steering wheel. You know heâs not okay, donât ask that. âAre you home?âÂ
He didnât answer right away, at least not verbally- his breathing, heavy and labored with the feeling of defeat would have given him away to anyone, even if they hadnât known him as well as you had. You pressed your foot harder into the gas pedal, switching lanes to maneuver around traffic as he responded. âYeahâŠâm at my place.âÂ
Your heart thudded hard and painfully at the slight slur in his words. Oh, Logan⊠no, no, no. Another driver honked as you changed lanes again, speeding around and between other cars to get to Loganâs exit sooner but the sound hardly registered. âIâm about ten minutes out but Iâm on my way.â You said it as though that fact were enough to make any kind of difference, but you knew that it wasnât enough. It made no difference. âDid you...do you want to...did-âÂ
You sputtered from question to question, not sure which was the right to ask. It had turned out not mattering, Logan speaking over your last few words. âHeâs givinâ it all to him. Delos. My company âan heâs gettinâ it âan...and Jules is-â He sounded as though each word was heavy and sharp on his tongue, hurting him on the way out of his mouth. A tear rolled down your cheek. Because it does hurt. This is killing him.Â
âLogan, I-âÂ
âJules isnâ answerinâ me anymore âan I⊠keep tryinâ but sheâs not- she wonât âan I donât⊠I canât,â his voice broke apart then, collapsing into a ragged sob, and for a brain-numbing moment one thought filled your mind- donât let âI canâtâ be the last thing you hear him say.
âWe can try to give her a call when I get there, Logan, okay? Weâll call her, Iâm on my way, almost there.â Glancing down at the time, you pleaded with everything you had that it wouldnât be too long. âSeven minutes.â You were crying through your words now, vision blurry as you blinked furiously to clear your eyes enough to drive. How could she do this to him? Heâs her brother, howâŠÂ
You swallowed as angry drivers laid on their horns to show their opinions of your driving, but still you hardly heard them, ears straining for the sounds of Loganâs breathing.âLogan?â Please. Please answer me. You waited three beats before saying his name again, this time a little louder as you leaned closer to the steering wheel, the sole of your shoe grinding against the pedal. âLogan?! Logan are you-âÂ
ââM still here⊠still⊠âan you should⊠Dâyou say you were cominâ here?â You breathed a speedy yes into the phone but he didnât hear. âWant you to- need to see you again. Before...â He trailed off leaving long seconds between each shaky intake of breath and each shallow exhale.Â
âYes, Logan, Iâm...â you were desperate to keep him talking, keep him alert and responsive for as long as possible. But you also knew that every second mattered, and that every second you stayed on the phone with him instead of calling 911 was another second that help was not on the way. âIâm⊠of course Iâm coming, Iâm almost there, okay?â You swiped at your eyes, fully aware of the black streaks of makeup that you were painting on your cheeks. âF-few more minutes, Logan, okay?âÂ
You thought you heard him acknowledge what you said but you couldnât be sure that what you had said even registered with him in the state he was in. Fuck. What the fuck do I do here? Between your racing heart, bleary eyes and panicked breaths, you were starting to feel dizzy. And scared. The cold, frigid fear that you felt the night of Julietâs wedding, when youâd pulled Logan from his pool after heâd fallen in and hit his head, filled you again and you knew what you had to do.
 âLogan?â You were terrified to hang up the phone, terrified to sever the connection. But I have to. âLogan, listen to me, okay? Iâm gonna have to hang up to call for some h-help.â Tears ran down your cheeks but you focused on speaking clearly through them. âListen to me, please Logan. Please⊠please just hold on, okay? Iâm coming. I'mâŠâ Fuck. He hadnât said anything in too long and you couldnât keep talking to the static in the air, not with each second ticking against him. Please hold on, Logan⊠I love you.Â
As soon as the thought materialized, your chest tightened and you pressed the button to end the call, fingers already moving on the screen to dial emergency services. You were only five minutes away now, just a few more turns and youâd be there, but you knew that getting him the medical attention that he needed as quickly as possible could mean all the difference.Â
You answered all of the dispatcherâs questions as best as you could. Since you werenât there with Logan, you couldnât confirm what heâd taken, but you told them exactly how many weeks it had been since his last overdose, that one a combination of opiates and benzodiazepines. Still driving and responding to the professionally calm man as he let you know that help was on the way, you took the wheel with your left hand, the right reaching over into the passenger seat for your purse. Pulling it into your lap, you looked down briefly to yank the zipper open before flicking your eyes back up to the road just in time to slam your brakes, narrowly avoiding sinking the hood of your car beneath the bottom of the trailer in front of you. Shit that was⊠Please. Shoving your right hand into your bag, you felt the small container that youâd started keeping in there since the morning after waking up in Loganâs hospital bed with him. Relief washed over you as your fingers closed around it and you pulled it out.Â
Your relief seemed to pass through the phone to the man on the other line as you informed him that you had a dose of Narcan to give Logan if necessary as soon as you got to him. He told you that that was good, that it would certainly help if things had gone that far, that heâd stay on the phone with you until EMS arrived, talking you through what to do. You hadnât told Logan that youâd gone to the pharmacy and requested a dose of the life saving medication to have on hand just in case, because you had hoped, foolishly, that the night you dragged him out of the shallow water and into your lap, his back against your chest and his head rolling back onto your shoulder, would be the last time that you ever saw him like that. You didnât want to mention the emergency reversal drug you had stashed in the secret zippered pouch of your purse. You didnât want to mention that it would only do him any good if you were with him when he needed it. The pharmacist hadnât asked any questions as you handed over the request form that youâd printed out earlier that day, the woman handing you your purchase in a brown paper bag with a small nod, her eyes warm and sympathetic, and so youâd treated the small device with the same amount of discretion in its place in your bag.Â
No amount of reading up on it could prepare you for what it would be like to actually give someone the drug, though. Let alone someone you cared for as fiercely and fully as you cared for Logan. Nothing, not even seeing him in that state before, could prepare you for the absolute horror of falling to his side and realizing that his chest had stopped moving. It was like being outside of your body, seeing him so outside of his own, and though you could feel yourself moving and working and doing everything that the dispatcher still on the line with you was saying, it was as though someone else was pulling the strings to control your hands as they administered the medication, or your arms as they held him when it started to kick in, his long legs jerking as he took a sudden inhale. You had never felt anything like the adrenaline dump that occurred when you saw that he was coming back to the surface, your entire being buzzing and vibrating as the ambulance finally arrived, trained medical personnel taking over for you.Â
Nothing had ever hit you as hard as the look in Loganâs eyes as they flicked to your face, lingering there and filling with tears, then closing as he was loaded into the back of the emergency vehicle.Â
Somehow, the residual adrenaline still coursing through you was enough to get you back into your car to follow to the hospital. The next few hours lasted years and sped by in seconds, and there wasnât much you remembered but beige walls and generic abstract artwork, a kind nurse bringing you a coffee that you were too jumpy to drink. You set it on the small table in the waiting area where you sat, watching the steam swirling above it until the liquid was too cold for any to form. Heâs alive. Heâs alive. Heâs alive. You felt it with every beat of your heart as it finally began to slow. Still here. You inhaled, you exhaled, trying to get the ceiling to stop spinning. LoganâŠÂ
Youâd left your phone in the cup holder of your car, so you had no way of knowing- other than by gauging the temperature of your untouched coffee- how long it was from the time you arrived until you were allowed into his room to see him, but when the kind nurse came back you nearly sprang from your seat, body humming with anxious energy once more. The woman had told you that he was sleeping, and you were glad. He needs it. You thanked her and she left you at the door to his room, your hand shaking as it reached for the silver handle.Â
Despite having seen him in this very same hospital only weeks prior, and at the medical facility at The Mesa, the sight of him laying in the darkened room pierced your heart like a knife, a terrible tearing feeling opening up in your chest as the air slipped from your lungs. Look at him⊠heâs⊠You swallowed, turning slowly to close the door behind you before you faced him again. He looked small, a word youâd never have associated with him before, and it hurt to see him this way. Heâs barely hanging on⊠thatâs not him.   Â
You crossed the room to sit by his side, dragging the chair that was against the wall closer to the bed and sinking into it. âHi, Logan.â Your whispered words were brimming with tears as you extended a hand to brush the hair away from his brow. His skin was warm when you touched him, not clammy and cool like it was when youâd first gotten to his apartment, and though it was a small measure of consolation, it was enough for now. âIâm here,â you told him as you raked two fingers through his hair. âYou have me.â Turning your hand you ran the backs of your knuckles down his cheek and over the slightly overgrown beard that covered the bottom of his face, then let it fall to his arm. âYouâll always have me.â  Â
Your fingers curled into the crook of his elbow then, encircling nearly all of his thin arm. Oh. Oh, Logan. It was a shock to you, even though you had noticed that he was losing weight again; you felt it each time you wrapped your arms around him, felt him shrinking. Brushing the pad of your thumb over the fresh marks that marred his pale skin, you heard the words youâd said to him just days before play back in your head.Â
This isnât all that you are, Logan.
Lowering your lips to the bend in his arm, you pressed a kiss there just as you had the other day, when you thought that some of his track marks were disappearing. They were. He hadnât⊠They were healing. He wasâŠ
 No matter what they looked like days ago, the marks that dotted the fair skin of his forearm were an angry reddish purple now. Your tears fell into the valley of his elbow as you straightened up again. He continued to slip in and out of sleep for the next several hours, only waking for brief moments in which heâd mumble or moan, but neither your tears nor your trembling lips were enough to pull him out of it completely. His eyes remained closed and yours remained on his chest, watching its rising and falling in slow rhythm with the chorus of soft beeps from the machines monitoring him. This isnât⊠this canât be all there is for you, Logan.Â
.. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. Â
By the time you made it back out to your living room, Jordan had refilled her wine glass and poured a second one for you. She sat cross-legged on the couch in the same spot sheâd been in when you came home. Your eyes were immediately drawn to the long, narrow envelope in her lap, widening as they landed on your name in his handwriting. Sucking in a breath, you brought one hand up to your chest, fingers curling in the neckline and tugging absently. Oh this is going to be⊠You felt tears pricking the corners of your eyes, stinging sharply before they filled and flowed. This isnât going to be easy, LoganâŠÂ
âHey,â Jordan tilted her head and patted the cushion next to her. âCâmon, itâs⊠whatever it says in here?â She lifted the envelope as you slowly sunk down. âItâs gonna be-â she sighed. âLook, itâs gonna be alright, okay? Just⊠read it. You need to read it.â I do. âAnd Iâll be right here, and we can talk about it or we donât have to but,â she handed you the piece of mail and you took it between your thumb and fingers, testing the weight. âBut you need this. Whatever it says in here?â She placed her hand on your shoulder. âYou need it.âÂ
Nodding, you swallowed the thick feeling that was tightening your throat. âYeah⊠thanks Jor.â Sheâs right. Taking a deep breath, you leaned forward and picked up your wine glass. âOkay, Logan,â you closed your eyes and took a sip before setting the glass back down and releasing a long breath. âLetâs see what youâŠâ You trailed off as you lifted the envelope flap, pulling it open and removing the folded paper inside, the feeling of his words pressed into the page beneath your fingertips stinging your eyes again. Shit I donât know if I canâŠÂ
But you did.Â
It had taken you almost twenty five minutes to read through his letter, despite the fact that it was just one page. You kept needing to pause to let a word or phrase sink in, or to catch your breath or wipe your eyes. By the end of it you were sobbing softly to yourself while Jordan looked on, ready to be there for you in any way that she could. There was nothing she could do except offer her shoulder and her ear, and she gave both, letting you lean against her while she soothingly stroked your hair, letting you pour out all of the things that you felt, even the things that you couldnât put into words, the things that came out solely as broken cries and shattered whines. Jordan had never met Logan, and she didnât know everything about the relationship that you had with him, but she knew enough to know how strongly you felt about him. She knew I loved him. She⊠now she knows he loves meâŠÂ
Heâd said it.Â
Not in those words, not blatantly or clearly. But the way that he talked about why heâd waited so long to reach out to you even after thinking about you nearly every day for the last six months, about how heâd wanted to be sure that he would make it through his program before he got his or your hopes up⊠the way that he thanked you, not for saving him in the very literal ways that you did, but in the deeper, more invisible ways that heâd carry with him on the rest of his journeyâŠÂ
The way that he'd apologized for ever hurting you, for not getting help sooner, for not being able to be there with you⊠the way that you could hear the sadness in his tone when you read the words at the end of the letter.Â
 You said Iâd always have you. I know thatâs true now. Iâll always have you⊠maybe someday you can have me. Not yet, but maybe someday soon.  Â
He loved you. And it was because he loved you that the letter didnât end with a request to meet again or a promise of an end to all this separation. He still had things he was trying to fix, to rebuild and make stronger, and the fact that he didnât want you anywhere near the construction site until it was stable and safe said it louder and more clearly than three words ever could. It was closure, in a sense, because you knew that he was healthy, that heâd done what heâd set out to do and gotten himself off of the drugs and away from the toxicity that would absolutely have killed him otherwise. You knew that everything youâd felt for him hadnât been for nothing, that heâd felt it too and that it had helped him through one of the hardest times of his life.Â
But it was bittersweet, because while you understood that he still needed time, that he couldnât just dive back into the deep end of things, you also understood that life didnât stop for either of you. If I donât fit in his life anymore⊠You couldnât expect him to make room for you in it. If we see each other again⊠if heâs ever ready to⊠then maybeâŠÂ
Maybe. Someday. Soon. In your head they sounded a lot like unlikely, impossible and never, but in your heart they felt like very thin, very dangerously spun strands of hope.Â
Maybe someday soon, LoganâŠÂ
You sent the wish silently through the air, hoping it would float out your window and catch a Pacific breeze to be carried to wherever he slept tonight.Â
You have me, Logan. Always.
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Wisdom Teeth (part two) - Richie Tozier
word count: 2930 warnings: swearing summary: Richie doesnât remember all that much of what happened after his operation... but he does have a hazy memory of a kiss and itâs driving him mad. ___
When he came to, Richie wondered for a minute where the hell he was. Â Because he definitely was not on his bed at home.
It only took a few seconds for his brain to wake up for him to realize he was at (y/nâs) house, sprawled out on her living room couch. Â The thought brought a smile to his sore mouth, and he rolled onto his side, pulling the covers back over himself as he got comfortable to go back to sleep.
But as he switched positions, he caught sight of her.
She was passed out, and it must have been unintentional, because there was no way she would have willingly slept in the living room chair. Her body was balled up and her limbs were sticking out at weird angles, in ways that he knew were going to hurt when she woke up.
But she looked so precious when she was sleeping, and he hoped that he hadnât worn her out too much.
He vaguely remembered the events of the day before.
Getting into her car with a lot of struggling, eating jello, a kiss, watching movies-
Richie shot up from the couch, and it was at that moment he figured he probably wouldnât be able to go back to sleep.
A kiss!?
Had they kissed? Had she really kissed him?
He grabbed his glasses from the coffee table and rubs his eyes roughly before putting them on.
The memory was fuzzy, and he wasnât sure if it really happened, or if heâd just dreamed about it. Â Fuck he really hoped it was real, he really wanted it to be real.
(y/n) sat up straighter, all sorts of popping sounds coming from her as a result as she stretched and groaned.
âJesus Christ,â She muttered, hands on her back as she tried to get the last of the cracks out. Â âWhat time is it?â She asked Richie, who had just been sitting on the sofa, staring at her.
âUm- did I wake you up?â He asked, but she shook her head.
âNo, I donât think so,â She answered, rubbing her eyes before turning around to look at the clock on the wall. Â âOh my god itâs already noon, I hope you werenât waiting up because of meâ She said, getting up and stretching even more.
âNo- no of course not, I just woke upâ He assured.
He watched while she fixed up the cushion and the blanket on the chair to make it look better.
He watched her like he needed to study and memorize each of her movements. Â And she wasnât blind, she noticed how weird he was being.
âYou alright?â She asked, picking up her pillow.
Sheâd managed to bring her pillow and blanket from her room to be comfortable watching movies last night, but didnât manage to go back to her own bed when she started to grow tired.
âUm, yeah, yeah Iâm⊠fineâ Richie mumbled back.  He covered his awkward answer with a yawn and a stretch.
âAnd how are the holes in your mouth?â She asked, only kind of teasing.
âItâs not that bad, just dull pain,â He shrugged. Â âI once almost got eaten by a demon clown, so..â
(y/n) laughed, holding her pillow close to her chest.
âIâm gonna take a shower, and then Iâll make breakfast?â She offered.
âWhat are you gonna make that I can eat?â He asked.
âBreakfast⊠smoothies?â She tried.
âBabe, please donât ruin a bunch of good and decent regular food by blending it-â
âI was going to use fruit, dummy,â She retorted. Â Richie shrugged, and nodded his head approval. Â âIâm gonna shower nowâ
She left the room, heading off with her pillow and blanket, and still, Richieâs eyes were trained on her.
He could just ask about the kiss, but the idea of asking her that sort of thing made the hairs on his arms stand up and a chill of anxiety go down his spine. Â What if it was just a dream and she thought he was lame?
Or worse.
What if it did happen, but only because she felt so bad for him, what if it was a pity kiss?
Richie scrambled up from the couch and practically dove for the telephone.
He dialed one of the only numbers he knew by heart, but only because he used to call it every day in the second grade.
âH-hello, this is-is B-Bill-â
âYeah I know its fuckinâ you Bill you have a pretty telling voiceâ
âR-Richie?â Bill spoke, confusedly, through the line. Â âH-howâd the sur-surgery g-go-?â
âIt went fine, move on Bill, thereâs bigger problems,â Richie cut him off again. Â He didnât have the patience to go through the pleasantries with him right now. Â âI think (y/n) and I kissedâ
âY-you think?â Bill repeated, obviously confused by the statement. Â âYou d-donât r-remember?â
âI was practically high!â Richie declared, whisper-screaming into the phone.
Bill was silent on the other end, and Richie was left to imagine the bored âreally?â face he was making.
âOkay, not high, but seriously, I donât remember anything before the anesthetics wore off. Â Not well, anyways. Â Itâs kinda blurryâ
âRichie, y-ouâve s-somehow remembered all the n-nights youâve g-gotten w-wasted. Â I th-think you c-can re-remember if you k-kissed-â
âI canât tell if it was a dream!â Richie cut him off again.
âY-youâre d-dumb. Â J-just ask-â
âIâm dumb? Bill, I canât just ask her if I kissed herâ
âO-okay, sh-shut the f-fuck up. Â Y-you called m-me,â Bill snapped, tired of not getting to finish a thought. Â âI-I thought you l-liked her?â
âI doâ Richie mumbled defeatedly.
âW-well then w-why not j-just risk it a-and ask?â Bill suggested. Â âM-maybe sh-she likes y-you back?â
âWhat if she doesnât though? What if it wasnât real and she-â
âIâm p-pretty s-sure she does,â Bill argued. Â âShe w-was the one to p-pick y-you up from the hos-hospital, a-and you t-two are r-really close,â
Richie didnât say anything, pondering the idea that (y/n) could return his feelings. Â He liked thinking about it, reading into the things sheâd say, the way sheâd call him sweet names without really thinking, and she did tend to touch his arm more than necessary.
âDo you r-really h-have to th-think about it all w-while weâre s-still on the ph-phoneâŠ?â Bill asked awkwardly.  âI k-kinda have h-homework t-to doâŠâ
âYeah fine, bye Big Billâ Richie muttered, and placed the phone back on itâs holder.
He sat back down on the couch, trying to think as hard as he could about what happened yesterday.
âWhy the hell do you want to marry me? Because I bought you jello?â
Her voice rang in his head, and he was sure that sheâd said that. Â The confused face sheâd made a vivid image in his head, too vivid to have not happened.
âYouâre alâthâo very prettyâ
He remembered saying that. Â Richie cringed at the compliment now, realizing how cringey heâd been when heâd flirted with her. Â Usually he was pretty smooth, or at least funny. Â That comment was neither.
âSo!â (y/nâs) voice rang out as she came back into the room. Â âStrawberry banana, or mixed berry?â
Richie turned to look at her. Â Sheâd changed into a fresh set of clothes, and her hair was still kind of damp. Â She looked really pretty, and heâd been right to tell her so yesterday.
âRich?â She snapped her fingers in front of her face. Â âYou in reality, babe?â She asks, and she starts to laugh when he blinks rapidly to focus.
âYeah, sorry. Â Whatever you want to makeâ He answers, and sheâs already heading into the kitchen.
âStrawberry banana it isâ She decides.
He followed her into the other room, sitting at the counter while she gathered the ingredients for their breakfast smoothies.
And he just canât bring himself to tear his eyes off of her. Â Especially her lips. Â If he had kissed her, he knew that her lips had to have been as soft as he imagined. Â Like kissing a marshmallow-
Richie cleared his throat, trying to disrupt his daydreaming and get back on the right track. Â Remembering.
âYou sure youâre okay today?â (y/n) asked, dumping ice and fruit into the blender.
âYeah, why wouldnât I be?â He lied with ease, but she still doesnât believe him.
Her eyes meet his, and she studies him for a minute, trying to figure out what heâs thinking. Â But itâs hard, because even though she can read him pretty well, Richie Tozierâs a bit of a loose cannon.
âYouâve just been quiet,â She shrugs. Â âAnd usually you donât shut upâ She adds playfully.
Richie rolls his eyes, but doesnât say anything, so she starts up the blender.
He was still being weird, but she knew that heâd tell her what was going on in time. Â Eventually he wouldnât be able to hold it in, she knew, because it wasnât the first time heâd let something bother him this much.
It was pretty easy to get on Richieâs nerves though, so (y/n) tried not to worry too much. Â He probably just didnât want to tell her how much his mouth really hurt.
They drank their smoothies in peace, and the quiet wasnât too uncomfortable. Â Richie relaxed as much as he could, and tried not to dwell too much on yesterday. Â His memory would come back to him in a matter of time, he just had to wait. Â And he figured spending the day with (y/n) would help trigger it.
They played games and watched movies, and she did what she could to keep his focus off of his mouth, as well as reminded him to take his pain medication.
It was nice to have a whole Sunday to themselves, just the two of them. Â Richie wished that heâd had the guts to spend more alone time with her, but at least he had her all to himself now.
(y/n) liked having him over as well. Â Even though he did whine about his jaw, and made more inappropriate jokes than usual. Â He couldnât help it. Â However a part of her found it charming.
(Any of their friends would have made fun of her for thinking so.) ___
She drove him home that evening, since it was a school night and his parents were expecting him back.
It was a short drive, but the whole time his leg was bouncing anxiously in his seat. Â To the point where it started to make (y/n) nervous as well.
It got to the point where she just couldnât take it, and reached a hand over to place it on his knee, still his leg.
âWhatâre you thinkinâ about?â She asked softly, glancing over to him quickly, before looking back at the road. Â âAre you worried about going home?â
She was well aware that Richie didnât always get along too well with his parents, and it had been odd that they werenât the ones to help him out after the surgery. Â She assumed his nerves were because he didnât want to go home to them.
When he didnât answer, she looked at him again.
âRichie?â She called, thinking maybe heâd zoned out. Â Heâd been doing it a lot today, and again, sheâd wrongfully assumed it was the pain.
âSorry,â He finally spoke up, and let out a long sigh. Â âI canât seem to focus todayâ
âThatâs okay,â She said, about to retract her hand, but Richie grabbed it before she could.
She cast him one more glance at the odd action, her worry increasing, but she didnât take her hand away.
âYou donât have to apologize,â She added, folding her hand into his. Â âAnd hey, if you want to come over tomorrow after school, Iâll kick your ass some more at Space Invadersâ She added, trying to keep her tone as chipper as she could so the mood would lighten.
There was still a heavy tension in the car though, and it was completely Richieâs fault. Â
(y/n) wasnât sure what was going on with him, but it was starting to make her shoulders droop and she wanted a hole to open up beneath her and swallow her whole so that she didnât have to deal with it anymore.
When they arrived at his house, she walked him to the door, as she always did, because she was polite like that.
With a sigh, she gave him a perplexed look, a nervous smile plastered on her lips.
âYou know if theyâre weird or something you could come back over,â She said, rambling a bit from her own nerves. Â âYouâd have to sneak in, probably through my window, and honestly please try to wake me up first because I will think that youâre a murderer trying to break in-â
âOkay, (y/n), calm down, Iâll be fine,â Richie cut her off because she was really starting to derail. Â âI donât mind staying here tonight, itâs no big dealâ
She bit down on her lip, and nodded her head.
âAlright then,â She said softly. Â âGânight, Iâll see you in the morningâ
She forced a bright smile, before turning and heading off of his doorstep.
Maybe she just needed to go home, take a bath, and call Beverly to talk this through in order to calm her mind-â
â(y/n) wait!â Richie called, after she was already halfway down the driveway.
She spun around, a look of shock on her face from his outburst, but he continued yelling before she could say anything.
âDid I kiss you yesterday?â He blurted out before he could chicken out. Â âSee I- I keep on replaying it in my head and I just canât fucking tell if it actually-â
âNo,â (y/n) answered abruptly, walking back towards him.
Almost instantly, Richie deflated. Â His heart sank to his gut and he frowned.
âThatâs not what happened,â She explained. Â âYou told me that you wanted to get married-â
âOh godâ Richie muttered, hanging his head.
â-and then you told me that you were gonna get me to fall in love with you,â (y/n) continued to recall yesterdayâs events as she walked back up to him. Â âAnd then you admitted that youâd liked me since the second grade- very incoherently by the way-â
âOh my fucking god,â Richie leaned his head back, staring up at the skies. Â âIf youâre up there, please, kill me nowâ
(y/n) giggled at his antics, and stopped just in front of him.
âAnd then I kissed you,â She corrected, softly. Â âIs that what youâve been all anxious about today?â She asked, a teasing smile on her lips.
Just like that, all the nerves that heâd passed off to her, disappeared. Â She crossed her arms and cocked her head to the side.
Richie covered his face with his hands in embarrassment.
âWhy are you so bothered? Did you not⊠mean it-?â
âNo! I- of course I meant it!â He said quickly, and (y/n) nearly jumped at how quickly heâd declared so.  âI just- I feel bad that I⊠I didnât rememberâ
A small smile quirked up on her lips, and she stepped forward, leaning up on the tips of her toes and pressing a light kiss against his cheek.
He dragged his hands away as she did so, revealing a pink blush on his face.
âYou were all drugged up Richie, donât feel bad,â She said sweetly. Â âHad I known youâd been overthinking about that, I would have talked to you about it, or something. Â I just figured it didnât need to be talked aboutâ
âWell I- I wasnât sure and I didnât want to uh⊠you know, ruin anythingâ
(y/n) grinned, a wide, cheeky grin.
She pulled his hands away from his face completely, and tugged on them just a little bit to pull him closer.
âRuin?â She repeated, tilting her head to meet his downcasted eyes. Â âRichie, you wanted to marry me yesterday, like, more than Iâve ever seen you want anything,â She explained, her wicked grin turning into a sweet smile. Â âAnd I donât- I donât think that really ruins anything in my opinion,â
Bashfully, he looks at her, trying to hide his own smile.
âI didnât think Iâd get you all nervous though, Trashmouthâ She teased.
âJesus christ, fuck you,â He said, his tone too sweet for the words.
His hands pulled out of hers, only to grab onto her waist with one, and tuck the other behind her head, pulling her in close so he could lean down and slant his lips against hers.
Heâd been right, her lips were soft like marshmallows. Â And sweet like them too.
She pulled away after a moment, and she giggled, wrapping her arms around his neck.
âIâll take you to that church now, if youâd likeâ She teased.
âYouâre gonna make fun of me a lot, arenât you?â He grumbled, gazing down at her affectionately.
âOh, definitely. Â I think itâs only fair, seeing as I dragged your ass all over the place yesterday. Â Because you claimed you couldnât walkâ
âNah, I just wanted your hands all over me,â Richie teased, leaning down to steal another quick kiss. Â âI better get insideâ
She bit down on her lip to keep herself from grinning like a lovesick fool, and nodded her head, dropping her hands from around his neck.
âAlright,â She said softly. Â âIâll see you later then, Richâ
He winked back at her as he opened the door.
âSee you tomorrow, wifeyâ He retorted, and went inside before she could tell him for the millionth time they werenât getting married.
But as she was driving home, she thought what the hell? Maybe heâs right. ___
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Iâm usually a vivid dreamer.
Iâve had dreams where I had powers. Or dreams where I saved the world. Or dreams where I go through an apocalypse.
Sometimes itâs just going through an exaggerated day. Sometimes itâs not me at all. I find that itâs an odd mashup of my feelings, stresses, and fears coming up & encouraging me to deal with them. More often than not, if I donât deal with the issue, I continue to have the dreams.
Dreams are a fun place for me, and I havenât had nightmares â true nightmares â in so long. But for the last year theyâve been more apparent, and for the last month, almost every night.
I know itâs because Iâm grieving, and Iâm not sure /how/ to grieve.
My grandmaâs death was something I always saw coming. Looming over the horizon, peeking over the fence every time I looked at her. Sheâd been sick my whole life. Nearly every birthday wish I had was for her. Wishing for another year. Wishing for her health. I stopped wishing when I visited her one year and she was practically bed ridden, turning black and blue in the tips of her fingers and on the soles of her feet.
My stomach would fall, and my eyes would water. I knew it pained her to live more than it would pain me to see her go. I started dealing with her death long before she passed away.
It still hurt of course. But she lived a long life. A happy one. Full of love, and family. She loved me so much. I loved her so much. Its enough for me to know she is no longer suffering.
My cousinâs death gave me the entirely other perspective. He was young, younger than me. Still, we grew up together. He was the goofy one. The positive one. Always calm. Always kind. The kindest of his brothers, & the most determined to do life Right. No gangs. No violence. No drugs.
His death didnât make sense to anyone. Didnât make sense to me. His death wasâŠcomplicated. Complicated because it was one of those deaths that many people wouldnât feel bad for when you told them the story. One of those deaths where people /said he deserved it/ when it hit the news.
They didnât know him. Thatâs what I tell myself. That it doesnât matter what other people say, but fuck it still hurt. He deserved everyone to miss him. He deserved everyone to give their condolences and mean it. He deserved to graduate college, and achieve his dreams. He deserved to live longer.
This one hurts because I never saw his death coming. When I looked at him I didnât see skeletons in the closet, or tragedy in his eyes. I dealt with this by trying to be there for everyone else. For my aunt and uncle who gave him his chance, for his siblings â my cousins who grew up with him. I wanted to be there for them to lean on, for us to celebrate him the way he deserved to be celebrated. Thatâs how I dealt with this.
But my dad. My father passing away. I donât know where to begin.
Itâs funny that I said my cousinsâs death was complicated, because my dadâs feels 100 times more so. His is the type of complicated where I was told to lie. His is the type of complicated where I have to keep track of what I say, and who I said what to.
If I thought I couldnât tell people how my cousin died, I definitely cannot tell people how my dad died. /Why/ he died.
I wish I could. I want to. But the reasons for it create complicated feelings in myself.
My dad was a great man. He raised me with stars in his eyes, & laughter on his lips. Growing up, Iâd meet his friends or talk to extended family & theyâd lean back, smile at me, and say âAh, youâre definitely his daughter.â
My dad was goofy, and positive, and tough. Always encouraging, always behind my decisions. I adored him. I was a daddyâs girl through and through.
Thatâs not to say he was perfect. He wasnât, and his faults are what ended he & my motherâs marriage. But like I said, he was tough, & he pushed forward. Heâd tell me that later in life. To keep pushing forward. To not let anything keep me down.
âLook at me,â heâd go. âIâve been through a lot. But I keep going. You have to do the same.â
As I got older, I could tell things were getting to him. Whether it was because life was harder for him, or because Iâd been hardened, I donât know. I began to see the tiredness in his eyes, the stress. Instead of him asking if I was okay, I started asking him.
âI feel bad,â heâd go. âI wish I could help you more. I wish I could be there for you. I wish you called me.â
I always told him that it was okay. That he was. He was there for me when it mattered, that I never thought of him and wished heâd do more. I told him that itâs hard for me to call anyone. He never believed it. That I knew. I chalked it up to some weird, macho man thing. You know, men always want to be the providers. Be the one for everyone to depend on. Everything I said was true. Still is.
He was remarried. He had a wife, and more kids. He did great with me, & I thought heâd be even greater with them. Everything that bothered him about our relationship he could fix and improve on with them.
And he did. For awhile. I like to believe it was all the way until the end.
The last time I saw him was on Fatherâs Day. My sister and I spent the day with him, and I could tell he was happy I came to see him. I was happy I did, too. He was very open this visit. Iâd asked him for help (with getting my license lol) & he was very adamant that we would get it as he was teaching my step-sister as well.
âOf course! Come any time. Iâll teach you, and youâll definitely pass.â
Maybe it was because it was the first time Iâd asked something of him. Maybe he felt good that weâd share this milestone together. Maybe he was just happy I wanted to spend time with him.
I never followed through. The summer was so busy, and I was too short on money to make it back to him. I didnât tell him this. Why? Because I knew heâd send me the money. I knew heâd give me the time. Neither of which he had much to spare (heâd vented to me many times about his money issues). I didnât want to add to that.
I thought that once my job started Iâd be able to go to him in the fall, instead.
He contacted me, which he rarely does. It was a strangely emotional text, in a good way.
âHi baby! Are you still coming to see me? I really want to help you get your license!â
It made me happy, and I felt guilty I hadnât told him why. I was reminded of how he felt like he failed me, and that I didnât want to depend on him. That I thought lowly of him, or something. I told him I just didnât have the money at the moment, but that I would see him as soon as I did.
âI want to get my license with you too!!â Iâd said.
âHow much do you need?â Heâd sent back. I didnât respond. I didnât want him to send me money.
He still did.
A day later: $500, and a caption that read âMy baby.â
I cried. I donât know why, but I did. I think it was because I felt the weight of his love for me in that moment. Not that I ever thought he didnât love me, butâŠhe always struggled with showing his emotions. To me, this showed a lot. Not the money, but the caption. My baby. My baby.
I saw a lot of my dad in me. From his interests, to his ideals, to his personality. I never realized how much of me reminded me of him until he passed away.
It was a few days after my birthday. He sent me a nice message, & I told him how excited I was to see him. âSee you soon.â Iâd said.
A few days before he passed, I was informed that heâd done a terrible thing, & that heâd left his house & was unreachable. No texts. No calls. No tracker.
Knowing my father, as soon as I learned of the situation, I knew it was the beginning of the end. He was a prideful man. He wouldnât want sympathy, heâd just want justice. He would never let himself get away.
I cried that day, when he was still alive. I just knew my father was gone. The man I knew, he wasnât there anymore. The next few days were full of anxiety. I kept checking my phone, waiting for a call or text. About him. Or from him.
I actually did text him. I was afraid that if I contacted him & he knew that /I/ knew, that itâd speed up the process. That itâd send him over the edge.
I texted him, asking him to stay. Asking him not to hurt himself. Asking him to come back. I told him I loved him, that I appreciated him, & that I needed him.
He texted me back. He told me I was the best thing that ever happened to him. He told me that he wished he couldâve done more for me. He told me he was ashamed. Of what? Of everything, I think. Of his whole life.
He told me he only wanted 3 things from me. To be a strong, independent woman. To take care of my sister. And to always be grateful to my aunts.
I texted him multiple times after that. I never heard from him again.
A couple days later his body was found in another state. A âhiking accidentâ the police ruled it. I knew it was a suicide. I knew his reason for it. I knew that he said he didnât want a funeral. I knew that he said he didnât want us to mourn him. I knew that he didnât want to be remembered at all, as he deleted all his social media, all his pictures.
Hardly anyone will ever know the man I adored ever existed.
The police said he needed to be cremated. They were adamant about how much we should not see the body. They told us that he was unrecognizable. That they only identified him through fingerprints. Out of everything I knew, I wish I never knew that.
Iâve never seen the body, but when I go to sleep at night I see it. I see him standing on the edge of the cliff. I feel his pain, his turmoil. I feel him thinking of his family. Thinking of his life. Thinking of me. I see him make the decision. I see him take the step. I see him fall. I hear him scream. I see him become mangled beyond recognition. I see him. I see him.
In my dreams I see him clear as day. In my dreams I speak to him. I chase him. I beg him to stay. He tells me no. He runs away from me. He tries to go away, but I see him.
I wake up, and I donât see him. I wake up, and I know heâs gone away. I know that if there is an afterlife he will not see me, he wouldnât allow himself that. I know that the last time I saw him, on father day, is the last time.
So then the dreams. The dreams where I chase him. Where I beg him. Where I look at him & he looks at me with pain in his eyes & guilt under his skin. Still, I wake up and fall into another nightmare where I lie about how he died and why.
Iâm torn then. I want the dreams to stop, but I like seeing him. Iâm scared to lose this, because then I will have lost all of him, maybe. I donât know. Grief sucks. This sucks. I know I need to deal with this, but I donât know where to begin. Or how. Maybe this is the first step. Getting this down. Even after writing this much about it I can feel how much more needs to be said.
Like, maybe I havenât driven home how much he meant to me. Maybe I havenât driven home how traumatizing it all is. Maybe I havenât explained how my childhood was filled with him teaching me all the skills I utilize today, or how all my favorite interests started with him. Maybe I havenât made it clear how I look in the mirror, or I speak, or I do my favorite hobbies and am reminded of him.
Grief sucks, but at least in my dreams, everyone is still there.
#this is a really really really long late night vent#basically a journal entry except I canât stand writing in a journal so now itâs on my *blog* wow#lots of trigger warnings#tw death#tw suicide#I will need therapy for this eventually#when Iâm ready#I think this is a good start#I donât remember what I tagged text posts under#Iâll start a new one lol#tp
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Title: Dawnshard
Author:Â Brandon Sanderson
Summary:Â Dawnshard follows the story of Rysn, the Thaylen merchant whom we've seen before in the Interludes of the first three books of the Stormlight Archive series.
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Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Anyways.
DAWNSHARD!
I feel Rysnâs pain. I too find stuff most unimaginably boring interesting.
Oh no, something is wrong with Chiri-Chiri.
âA few anxietyspren, like twisting black cross shapes, appeared around Rysn.â
Huh, interesting.
âSheâd already sent a request via spanreed to someone she thought could help with Chiri-Chiri.â
*Narrows eyes* Who?
âher eyebrow jewelry tinkling softlyâ
Roshar is so weird. (Edit:Â Understatement of the goddamn decade)
âThe king wants to meet this Dalinar Kholin and see these Knights Radiant for himself.â
Man I should have reread these books. Oh well. Goodluck Dalinar.
Itâs very interesting that now Navani is Queen of Urithiru. So Dalinar is King? WAIT WEâRE IN URITHIRU! AHHHH!
âShe was an intimidating woman with her Alethi height, her black and grey hair done in intricate braids atop her head and woven with glowing sapphires.â
Nah, sheâs a mom. I wouldnât be surprised if she tries to mother you.
Rysn Ftori. Did we know her last name?
âFinally the queen stopped, focused on the chair at the rear of the room, then pulled her chair over and sat before Rysn. It was a small gesture, but appreciated. Rysn didnât mind when people remained standing in her presence, but there was a certain thoughtfulness in the way Navani situated herself so they could discuss at eye level with one another.â
As stated, Navani is a mom.
Oh, I think we read about this in Oathbringer.
The Prince of Liafor???
The Rock of Secrets. I see Brandon wasnât trying too hard with this name.
âAs the months had passed, Rysn had begun to truly grasp the strategic importance of Stormlight as a fuel both for fabrials and for the Knights Radiant. Beyond that, the enemy had creaturesâknown as Fusedâ who used the Voidâs own Light. Chiri-Chiri fed on that just as eagerly as Stormlight.â
HmmmâŠyeahâŠ
âŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠI kind of ship Lopen and Talik. I donât know how to feel about this. Brandon is creating some very odd ships this year. (If you havenât read the RoW previews, trust me, thereâs a weird one)
ââItâs politics. The annoying kind.â
âThereâs another kind?â
 No.
YAY RUSHU IS COMING ALONG!
âShe owned it. She commanded it. But at least according to maritime tradition, it was not hersâ
This reminds me of how Navani sees herself as not an artifabian (Iâm not even going to bother look up the correct spelling for this)
âRadiant the Lopenâ
PFFFFFFFFFFFT
ââLopen,â Rushu said as she worked, âyou should not be tormenting Brightness Rysn with your prattling.ââ
Rushu! How dare you question the Lopen!!
ââBrightness Rysn shouldnât have to crack jokes at her own expense in order to make other people comfortable with their personal insecurities.â
âYup, true,â the Lopen said. âShe shouldnât have to.ââ
Oooooooooooooooooooooooooo
âTwo halves of a ruby, containing two halves of the same spren, can be made to move in tandem with one anotherâ
âŠTWO HALVES OF THE SAME SPREN. PARDON?!?!!
Iâm assuming that if you can get a ship to move fast enough then a spanreed will work. Much like Brandon has said that time bubbles can work at a certain speed. Plus yâknow, Roshar is constantly moving, we just donât feel it.
âItâs why the motion and curve of the planet donât influence spanreeds.â
Or yâknow, Iâll just be fucking WRONG.
âThat . . . didnât make much sense to Rysn.â
Same.
Iâm guessing that Nikli is a worldhopper. From where though? I donât really trust Nikli right now though. Hmmm.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NIKLI IS ONE OF THOSE CREMLING THINGS NONONONONONONONONONONONOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
WHAT MEAN YOU ONE OF THESEâŠSWARMS KNOWS DALINAR âI know he will destroy usâ
From the dustjacket of Way of Kings:
âThe last is the highprince, a warlord whose eyes have opened to the past as his thirst for battle wanes.
The world can change. Surgebinding and Shardwielding can return; the magics of ancient days can become ours again. These four people are key.
One of them may redeem us.
And one of them will destroy us.â
So Dalinar will Destroy the Sleepless.
âPlus, Yelamaiszin said, we should have compassion for those we must cull. It is good you like the humans.
Must we cull them though? Nikli replied.â
Oh, the Sleepless gotta cull humans. Fucking great. AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Is it just required that every single novella is going to have these fuckers in them?
âWhen the swarm that had become Nikli had been Separated, it had already contained hordelings evolved for this subterfuge. Nikli had further evolved them, and was now certain that the body didnât need the tattoos to cover the seams in its skinâ
Wat.
Also whoâs Arclomedarian? Now I need to go reread Edgedancer to see who that guy was. Oh? Who are the true traitors? Itâs probably Hoid.
âwhere they would either fall to the winds or enter the realm of the Sleepless.â
Man, if I was on that ship, Iâd take drowning over finding that. Letâs notttttt.
âThis was sent to another vote, and Nikliâs bodiesâ the distant ones, not on the shipâall vibrated with anticipation.â
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
âCan block a Shardblade, Rua tells me, if itâs thick enough. They get it from Soulcasting, though only a few can make it, so itâs pretty rareâ
YâŠyou can soulcast aluminium? Holy fuck.
No Lopen! You belong with Talik. He can capture that Tsundere heart.
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?
As someone who has read Mistborn, you donât want a dramatic end of the world. It causes essential crisis.
âMore spren than animal, they were somehow able to magnify peace and confidence.â
LikeâŠrioting?
ââNo,â several voices said from the crowdâbut she couldnât see who. âThatâs bad luck!ââ
NiklaâŠ
âStorms. It was as if . . . as if the body had been made up of cremlings.â
Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
âno more real than things like the gloomdancer or sea hags from Thaylen mythologyâ
Well, Iâm sure these things donât exist.
âHmmm? Oh, no I was napping during that.â
I do love Rushu.
SoâŠHuioâŠcreatedâŠflying machines. Motherfucker.
I canât believe Roshar has hove chair before cars. Also HOVER BRIDGES LETâS GOOOOOOOOO.
NikliâŠwhat are you doing?
Rushu is a soulcaster! Wild.
âRegardless, I demanded that Navani send me with either a Shardblade or a Soulcaster to get through.â
You fucking what mate?
âStrange, to think how optimistic sheâd been only a short time ago.â
That tends to happen with Brando Sando books. One moment the characters are on top of the world and next everything is crashing down.
The sun being shattered into pieces? Well that canât be good.
âShe counted the shards in her mind, over and over, feeling a reverence to the number.â
Ten or sixteen?
âIt looked vaguely like an enormous grub with a wicked beak of a face. It had spindly arms running all the way along its body, and had reared up so it was mostly vertical, using its pointed limbs like spears to try to skewer the sailors beneath.â
Again. Roshar. Fuck off.
âThe Mother of Machines,â
Thirty emerald broams says the back of the book has something about the Mother of Machines on it.
âI . . . have no idea what any of that means,â
Me reading half of this book.
âAnd in truth, those treaties were made with other gods. I had hoped the Gods Who Sleep Not would be similarly bound, but now I am not certain.â
OTHER GODS? WHICH ONES?!
GOOD JOB HUIO!!!
âWe wish to avoid losing control of a force that could destroy the cosmere.â
Odium? Just donât let any love struck teenagers near it and youâll be fine.
âAs I and my kind are not native to this planet, we prefer the term âhordelings.ââ
WâŠWhere are you from?
This reminds me of Skyward.
I am sure that Rysn will not be able to employ it. How many books do we have left?
âAnd then eventually, they were used to undo Adonalsium itself. . . .â
YOU FUCKING WHAT?!
Rysn, youâre going to get a visit from an asshole. Be prepared and good luck.
I canât for Arc 2 where we get so BIG CHIRI-CHIRI.
Interesting so Rysn will never become a Radiant.
âRegrettably, there has been a conflict on the beach with some of our more . . . specialized hordelings,â
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
âYou have Remade yourself.â
Remade? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Oh no. Lopen noooooooooooooo.
Who needs a Hover chair when YOU CAN RIDE A CRAB DRAGON! SUCKING ALL THE STORMLIGHT! WIELDING THE DAWNSHARD!
âWas it . . . brighter than usual? Why did the colors in her room look so exceptionally vivid all of a sudden?â
Idos Domi! What heightening are you?
I was not expecting this. My thoughts are currently just on the floor, screaming. Brandon, you cannot just drop lore on me like this.
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âThere is no me without a you.â (Paladin Danse x Reader)
(Au! Where Danse doesnât read rivet city and the reader is a friend of his and Cutlerâs. Also I guess the reader technically isnât sole..so enjoy! Itâs an idea I had brewing for a long time.)
The thought made your stomach turn. That was putting it lightly.
For years it had been just you, Cutler, and his weirdo buddy- Danse. You were family, the only one youâve known or at least cared to consider as such. So many nights had passed where your friends laughter was the only thing that kept you willing to face the next day, both of their grins forever imprinted in your mind and usually serving as the only things you could trust in the life you led.
It was rough. You had came to the shelter of Rivet City seeking to make a fortune as a merchant, having left home and everything you once knew to do so. The first couple of weeks hadnât been easy, you had barely even gotten by but..then, by some miracle, some flame-haired man with a seemingly permanent smug grin came strolling up to your stand, a tall- handsome fella with dark hair close behind him. That fucker that interrupted your business introduced himself and his bashful friend, Cutler and Danse were their names...and of course, you started the beautiful relationship off by asking them just where the hell they came up with such âcrap-tasticâ names. Indeed, it was the start of a beautiful friendship.
It was the recollection of memories such as these that made tears blur your vision, each step you took forward feeling more labored than the one before. Days ago those same goofy men you met all those years ago, the ones youâve grown to love so much, had said they were going off to join some crazy ass organization in the capital- begging you to come along as well.
As much as you adored your friends, neither of them were all that bright. At least not if they couldnât see just how dangerous this thing they wanted to run off and join was. You had an uncanny gift of being able to see when something was a catastrophically bad idea, and this was certainly one of them.
Shaking your head, you did the best you could to blink away the built up tears- having realized that you were at your desired location.
Danseâs rickety shack.
The poor man really needed to brush up on his building skills.
At least that made you laugh, even if it was choked up and sounded more pitiful than anything. Regardless, you carefully knocked on the door- unaware of where to begin. All you knew was that your time was limited to figure it out, the much expected rattling of metal being able to be heard from the other side within seconds, signaling that Danse was both indeed home and also on his way to answer the door.
Fuck.
Much too soon, the door opened up and revealed the man you once ridiculed for his unfortunate name. His stoic, yet lovely amber eyes softening as soon as they fixated upon your familiar form. Damn, he was such a sight to behold. Even wearing a red flannel with the sleeves rolled up and some ripped jeans, he was undeniably attractive. The acknowledgment of this fact made your heart skip a beat, your breath hitching in your throat as your eyes met his own.
Over the years youâve known him, danse and yourself had became close- very close. You grew as people together, spent a couple nights out alone while Cutler reaped the spoils of being able to trick some person from the bar into bed with him, and even danced around the line of becoming a little more than friends every once in a while.
â(Y/n)..? Whatâs going on? Is something amiss? Nevermind that, please, come inside.â That deep, raspy voice tore you away from the invasive thoughts you were so deeply enthralled with. With a graceful like motion, the bulky man stepped to the side and allowed you to enter the his humble little home.
Of course you obliged, your knees growing week as you bumbled to his beaten up couch- sinking down into itâs plush as soon as you sat. However you werenât alone long, Danse quickly following you, having no problem with sitting right beside you.
Funny, years ago when you first met, he barely seemed to be able to talk without Cutler doing the legwork of the conversation.
Now here he was, his arm resting on the back of the couch right behind your hunched over body. Practically beckoning you to just say âscrew itâ and cuddle right up into his side, hell, the man practically radiated warmth so there was very little holding you back at the moment. There were more important things to tend to now...
Steadying yourself, you tried your very best to put on a strong face. Straightening your back and giving him the âseriousâ look, or as Cutler called it, your âbitch face.â Whatever the look would be called, you just hoped he couldnât see right through you. Because as it stood now, anxiety courses through your veins like a terrible icy brook- threatening to steal your spirit itself and make you retreat and forgo this plan of yourâs.
For just a moment, it almost won. Your gaze shifted over to Danseâs coffee table, taking notice of the disassembled pistol that laid upon the horribly scratched wooden surface. Heh, he mightâve been a terrible architect but Danse sure as hell could modify guns. It was cute really, how invested heâd become in something so complex. Sometimes youâd come over in need of a friend and heâd keep you company by explaining how to modify a 10mm pistolâs barrel, all while doing so.
Your eyes fell close now, a hollowness in your chest. It was time. It was now or never. Later wouldnât exist, especially since you refused to run off and join the brotherhood.
âD..danse..?â Your voice stammered out in a way that you despised, sounding so scared..like you truly were. That in its self was enough to make the relaxed look on danseâs face morph into one of concern, his weight shifting as he leaned more towards you.
Did he feel it too? Did he also want to embrace you as badly as you wanted to embrace him?
After a moment of waiting, he audibly gulped. Your obvious distress filled the poor man with worry, he..he didnât like seeing you feel this way. âYes?â Now even his own voice was demure as it urged you to continue.
The muscles in your legs clenched in response, adrenaline beginning to run its course.
Why was this so hard? All you had to do wa-
âI canât stand it Danse.â Real Nice. Real good start. God you hated yourself already. âYou two..you two asshats want to go play soldier and I canât stand it..â oh yeah, only getting better, but the words just wouldnât stop coming..and the affects of them wouldnât heel either. âYou-youâre Just going to leave me..and I..I get it because you want to find purpose b-but..â
Now you truly felt foolish, your face contorted and the anguish you felt deep inside made itself blatantly apparent by your expression. As though that wasnât enough, those tears you thought were gone away came back with a vengeance. The longer you looked at the now confused man, the more your chest hurt and the more obvious the feeling a hot tears rolling down your cheeks became.
Everything just hit you all at once and it wasnât fair. How could they just decide to leave what you all had together? Was it not good enough? Was it not what their purpose was? Better yet, how could he leave you like this? How was it right for him to swoop in one day, make you feel something and fall for the bastard, only to one day down the road decide that no, this isnât what he wants? How was any of this fair?
âI..I um, I didnât realize how much this affected you..â Danseâs shaky voice replied, his hands cautiously reaching out to pull you towards him. Countless times before when he felt emotional distress, you had grabbed him, embraced him without second thought and each time you did it, it crazily enough brought some degree of comfort to him. âI apologize but Iâm not the-..oh (y/n)..â His chest heart seeing you cry.
In a way, as it stands now, youâre not the only one in need of a hug anyways- so as he pulled you close to him, the relief was felt on both ends.
For you, heâd try anything to help ease the sorrow you felt. However it was no secret Danse was absolutely terrible at these kinds of things, any extreme display of emotion generally made him uncomfortable..but seeing you like this? It made him feel a deep, sorrowful pain in his chest. Why? He didnât entirely know the answer, at least not a straightforward and simple answer at that. You somehow always managed to elicit such passionate emotions in him, ones that he hardly understood- after all he was not by any means an overly emotional man.
As sobs wracked your body, he couldnât help but feel the compulsion to shed a tear as well in response to your pain. A pain that he knew that ultimately, he caused. That hurt. That hurt really bad. Before he could even process what it exactly was he felt, a single tear slid down his cheek as well, his arms tightening and squeezing you the slightest bit in search for the comfort your embrace usually brought.
Time slowed down in an almost ethereal manner suddenly, all that pain you felt facing reality slowly began to subdue to a throbbing ache in your chest- sobs transforming to soft sniffles and a vivid embrasser blush as you hid your face in his form chest- his scent providing a minimal amount of comfort despite reminding you of how much of an idiot you probably seemed like.
Now there really wasnât anything to say...except what you came to say anyways. Well..it was somewhat of a sad win/win situation. If you confess to your more than platonic feelings for the brooding man, he could either return the feeling and maybe, just maybe you could convince him to stay....or he doesnât and then at least you wonât have to live with the shame of ruining your friendship for long seeing as heâd be leaving with Cutler soon.
Feeling as though your whole world was on the brink of shattering right before your eyes, you withdrew from the man- not daring to go back enough to break away from the comfort of his arms around you, instead only enough so that you could get a proper look at his dumbfounded- almost heartbroken looking face.
âPlease..Danse, donât..donât leave me. I canât take it. You- you mean the world to me..â your voice was barely over a whisper but you knew he heard you loud and clear, his eyebrows scrunching into a slanted, concerned look as guilt flashed in those beautiful puppy dog like eyes.
He cleared his throat, carefully contemplating his next words as he licked his lips- his eyes unconsciously gazing down to look at your own as he did so. âIâm sorry (y/n), I..I didnât think Iâd hurt you so badly..I shouldâve been more considering..â for a second he paused, the next words sounding painful to even utter. âEspecially considering how close of...friends..we are.â
Thatâs it. Thatâs fucking it.
Without better sense, you leaned forward right after his words- knowing words would get you nowhere with him. Actions. Actions worked. As such, you willed yourself not to scream as you finally connected your lips with his own- the very thing youâve wanted to do since he first lowered his walls and let you get to know him all those years ago.
A muffled groan of surprise could be heard but you didnât care, he wasnât trying to push you off yet..so that was good. In fact, unbeknownst to yourself, Danseâs eyes fluttered closed as soon as the shock of the situation subsided and suddenly he found himself pressing back and trying his very best to let you know he returned the affection before it was too late.
Damn, heâs wanted to do that since he first laid eyes on you at your stand. How crazy..
As the kiss deepened, Danse could feel his heart pounding in his chest, all the feelings hitting him like a charging raider in power armour. Regardless of how confused he was, he couldnât help but follow his instincts- which landed him laying back on his raggedy old couch with you laid lazily on top of his body, his legs on either side of your hips. For it being an entirely innocent moment, it surely was a provocative position and had he been in his right mind- he likely wouldâve flipped out and had a heart attack.
Eventually you had to end the fantastical moment, the need to breath becoming too great to deny any longer. So, with a viciously bright red blush and pure terror in your eyes despite your watery grin, you gazed down upon him.
âA..actually, thatâs what I wanted to..to um talk to you about.â It was about now, as you panted, you realized just how you were sitting. âDanse, I want to be something more than just your..your friend.â
The very second he processed what you said, his thick eyebrows practically ascended half his forehead, his jaw dropped and his eyes became the size of saucers.
Boy, his expressions never ceased to amuse you. Even now when shame shouldâve been consuming you, he made you giggle.
âAre you...are you saying that youâre in love with me?â He asked in pure disbelief, his hands courageously settling upon your hips to rest despite his sudden urge to fidget and twitch his fingers. Nerves making his stomach tighten painfully even though you just plainly made your intentions clear.
âYes Danse, Iâm in love with you..you fucker, I wouldnât act so crazy if I wasnât..â
Once again, words usually didnât suffice with Danse..so, you leaned in for another kiss. This time he was prepared and he sure as hell wasnt going to disappoint.
He loves you too, you truly are crazy if you think heâll ever leave you now.
Who knows, maybe one day you and Danse will get to live the happily ever after. Run a decent stand, Get hitched, maybe even have a couple babies way down the road and be the parents you both wished you couldâve had. Cutler, that bastard, was just going to have to stay too if he liked it or not.
Besides...what fun would it be to be whatever the hell a Brotherhood of Steel soldier is? Pfft, what even is a Paladin?
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132. Stakeout Paradise
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Arai watched with curious amusement as Rei paced the back of the briefing room. There was a certain level of focus on her face, a deep-seated concentration. She looked as if she was desperately trying to solve a math problem, or as if she was constipated. Arai wasnât sure which was the case but either way, she was intrigued.
Without breaking her gaze, the blonde leaned over the table toward her comrades. âAlright, how much you wanna bet sheâs going to lose it in five minutes?â she whispered, a sly smile touching her lips.
âAre you really going to gamble on our captainâs sanity?â Hitsuji asked. He glanced to Rei and frowned. Nothing about this felt right.
Kikkake abruptly slapped a ten dollar bill on the table. âMake it two minutesâ he said.
The head of the ANBU, Meishu, cleared his throat as he shuffled his paperwork at the podium. âI guess that just about covers itâ he concluded gruffly. He shot Arai a fierce, momentary glare as if to warn her about the dangers of interrupting his briefings. Arai merely smirked back at him, unaffected.
Meishu was a raspy and apathetic man. It was obvious that he had seen some shit. Scars dappled his body and dark circles bloomed under his eyes. His hair was stringy and graying, but his body remained muscular and agile. No one knew how long he had been in the black ops for and no one dared to ask. As he shoved his papers into a bent manila folder and approached the door, he grumbled and then pointed across the room to shout, âOh, and Natsuki! Fuck off with that pacing shit. Youâre giving me a migraine.â
Rei immediately froze, eyes wide and unblinking, and her face turned bright red. Arai stifled a laugh. âThereâs an outcome we didnât plan forâ she whispered to the others. Yugao grimaced and whacked both her and Kikkake on the backs of their heads. As much as she enjoyed seeing their little team finally getting along, she wished their camaraderie did not have to be at Reiâs expense.
As the rest of the ANBU filed out of the briefing room, Yugao rose to her feet and patted Rei lightly on the back. âItâs showtimeâ she whispered with a soft, reassuring smile. Rei nodded, huffing, as she mentally prepared herself for what was to come. This mission could make or break her reputation in the black ops. They could not afford to fail.
âAlright, this is who weâre looking forâ Rei said, slapping a stack of case files in front of them. The pages outlined all of the intel thus far gathered about a rogue shinobi by the name of Shuncho. He was a tall, sleepy looking man with drooping eyes and greasy brown hair.
Sukui immediately cringed. âWell, he certainly has no sense of style whatsoeverâ he complained.
Arai smirked. âYeah, because thatâs why weâre out to arrest him. Crimes against fashionâ she jested.
âNo, actually heâs accused of murderâ Yugao corrected.
âWell, if you have to commit a crime, you might as well look goodâ Sukui remarked. âThe cameras we take mug shots with certainly donât do anyone any favors.â
Kikkake rolled his eyes. âNo one gives a damn what you look like when youâre in jail.â
âWhoa, hey, wait a sec, thatâs not entirely trueâ Arai countered. âThey care if you look like a little bitch. Then you get beat to a pulp every day by the bigger guys.â
âAnd how would you know?â Kikkake asked. âHave you been to jail? Because I donât think the black ops take kindly to reformed criminals.â
âI heard Meishu-sensei will have your guts just for trying to break protocol, let alone anything worseâ Sukui interjected with an airy laugh.
Arai rolled her eyes, paying no mind to Sukuiâs comment. âI donât have to go to jail to know how it works, smartassâ she argued to Kikkake. âItâs common knowledge.â
Sukui pursed his lips. âBut how do you know itâs the same for womenâs prisons as it is for menâs? Not to sound sexist, of course, but there has to be a differenceâ he countered.
Hitsuji chewed his lower lip. âIâve heard womenâs prisons are actually more dangerous thanââ
âGuys, focus!â Rei interjected, slamming her fist heavily on the table. The whole group silenced, staring back at her with wide eyes full of mild embarrassment. They had all noticed itâthe recent surge of fury in her eyes. It was undeniable, growing ever clearer with each passing day. Her newfound angst sprung up seemingly out of nowhere. She was harsh, stern, tense. Her tolerance for their shenanigans had waned to absolute zero.
Yugao rose to Reiâs side and fed the group a reassuring smile. âThis is a very serious assignment, so I expect all of you to bring your best. Is that understood?â she asked. Her delivery was far more encouraging, much to her subordinatesâ relief. Yugao glanced to Rei, to her tired eyes and her clenched jaw. She hoped, perhaps selfishly, that she would not remain this uptight throughout the entire mission. Bad moods made for long, rough nights and now was not the time to be unpleasant.
Konoha had gained intel of their target heading toward an outpost on the edge of town, someplace trashy and rife with tourists. It was the type of place known for gambling and attractive womenâthe exact opposite of Reiâs comfort zone. Other anonymous tips recalled seeing him around a rundown inn in the center of town, hood up and back hunched like he was clearly hiding something.
The venture to the outpost was torturous enough on its own. Arai and Kikkake argued constantly about heaven only knew what, Hitsuji was constantly sneezing and coughing from the âheightened pollen count,â and Sukui decided that their trip was far too boring and required an acapella concert. Clad in plainclothes disguises, they looked like the most ridiculous ragtag group of civilians to ever exist. Rei could only hope that theyâd blend in well enough with the equally ridiculous types of people that the outpost tended to attract. Or at the very least, theyâd be mistaken for traveling musicians. At least Sukui could play that part well. His voice, though refined, was beginning to give Rei a migraine. She sucked in a sharp breath and swallowed back her own unease.
Try as she might, however, Rei's sanity grew progressively more unstable as they journeyed further. Yugao's concern mounted as Rei paled and insisted they stop for the fifth rest of the morning. Her constant breaks were starting to irk the others, growing impatient with their drawn-out trip.
"We should've already gotten there by now" Kikkake grumbled under his breath.
Arai crinkled her nose. "Yeah, isn't this kind of a time sensitive thing? What if he gets wind that we're coming for him and books it before we can even show up?"
"Th-that's not a very comforting thought" Hitsuji stammered, picking at his lower lip.
Sukui sighed and replied, "Well, I for one am enjoying this relaxing little stroll."
"Yeah, no shit" Arai muttered under her breath.
"You just want to take advantage of forcing us to listen to you sing" Kikkake added.
"Excuse you!" Sukui shouted. "Sorry for thinking our trip would be better with a little music!"
"If you can even call it that" Kikkake snarked. Sukui gasped, offended, before lunging at his comrade. Arai immediately swooped in and grabbed him by the back of the shirt, tugging him back hard as he swatted at the bald man and complained that Kikkake wouldn't know good music if it boxed his ears in.
Amid the chaos of their escalating argument, Rei snuck away to a nearby tree to catch her breath. When leaning her forehead against the trunk was not enough, she slid down to the gnarled, exposed roots and tucked her head between her knees. Her face was hot and numb and her stomach churned. She sucked in a deep, sharp breath and willed her body to cooperate.
âHey, are you sure youâre alright?â Yugao asked, kneeling down in front of Rei. âYou look terrible.â
Rei swatted at the air dismissively, pursed her lips. âIâll be fineâ she lied. âI think I just got food poisoning from my momâs cooking last week, itâs really not a big deal.â Yugao paused, furrowing her brows as she counted the days on her fingersâdid food poisoning usually last this long? She wasnât sure. She had, admittedly, been rather lucky in avoiding digestive ailments over the years. Her lack of expertise was of no help to her now, though.
Even the mere thought of her motherâs cooking made Rei gag into the crook of her elbow. She squeezed her eyes shut tight and dug her nails into her palm, her breathing growing evermore labored and desperate. Yugao pursed her lips and an overwhelming anxiety began to fill her stomach. This was not going to end well, she was sure of it.
By the time they reached the outpost, Reiâs head was beginning to throb. Her clammy hands tightly gripped the straps of her backpack and she could feel the world begin to sway as if she was on high seas. The sun had just started to set, welcoming in the dark, vivid nights when Komaeda Outpost truly came alive.
The inn was actually far nicer than Rei had expected. The mucus-colored linoleum had been polished nicely and the spackled walls were adorned with abstract paintings. Large potted ficuses stood guard at the creaky double doors. The night auditor, a greasy young man with a crack addictâs fidget, awaited them at the counter.
Rei was not necessarily the type of person to actively find disgust in unsuspecting people, but there was something about this man specifically that made her stomach churn. She immediately froze by the doorway, clapping her hand over her mouth. The others paused and glanced back at her suspiciously. âYugao?â Rei croaked. âDo you mind?â She handed Yugao a folded piece of paper from her pocket and swatted her hand toward the counter. Yugao cocked a brow but slowly turned to oblige. Again, this was not going to end well.
Yugao smiled politely as she approached the counter. âI believe we have a reservation?â she greeted, discretely sliding the rogue-ninâs wanted poster across the counter. The auditor wiped his nose with the back of an unclean hand as he glanced down at the paper. It took him a moment to recognize the face but once he did, he immediately knew that these were the guests that he had been waiting for.
âThe hokage sent a message earlier!â he whispered enthusiastically, winking in a rather obvious fashion. He then spun around to the display of keys hanging on the wall and plucked one from the rack. âYour room will be number 402 up the flight of stairs and around the cornerâ he explained.
As Yugao hesitantly reached for the key, however, Arai stalked forward with an expression of sheer disgust and disbelief. âWhoa, wait a second: are you telling me we only get one room? For the six of us?!â The thought of having to sleep with everyone was completely unacceptable. Rei and Yugao she could accept. After all, they were all women. They saw each other naked in the locker rooms every day. They were of no concern to her. It was the men that she struggled to accept. Hitsuji was a wimp, insignificant, so she didnât expect much issue from him but Kikkake and Sukui? The thought of it made her nauseous. Sheâd hate to think of Sukui clinging to her in the night or Kikkakeâs morning breath. A shiver ran down her spine. Unacceptable.
The night auditorâs eyes widened and his face went pale. âW-well your supervisors only paid enough f-for one room!â he excused.
Kikkake scoffed, patting Arai on the shoulder condescendingly. âYou should be lucky they paid for our room at allâ he said. Arai glared up at him and swatted his hand away.
âWeâll be fine!â Rei shouted angrily from across the lobby. She had since doubled over, hands on her knees and hair falling in her face. Sweat beaded on her brow and her breathing had grown significantly heavier. âJust donât fucking argue about it, itâs not impââ she continued, but suddenly all of the color drained from her face. Her composure had finally broken. Whipping around, she leaned over behind the potted plant and violently vomited onto the lobby floor. The night auditorâs face went from shock-white to sick-green.
Yugao winced in both concern and embarrassment. âWeâll, uhâŠweâll pay for any additional cleaning charges for that" she said to the auditor. He nodded weakly, clearly disturbed by such a vulgar display. Hitsuji seemed to share in the sentiment, his heart rising into his throat as he instinctively grabbed Kikkakeâs strong arm for support. Frowning, the bald man shoved him off in distaste.
Meanwhile, Arai chuckled under her breath and invited herself behind the counter. She kicked down the door to the janitor's office, rummaged around, and then resurfaced with a pathetic little mop.âHere you go, good sirâ she grinned, shoving it into Kikkakeâs hand.
âWhat the fuck?â Kikkake grimaced. âWhy is it my job?! I donât fucking work here!â
Arai looked back at him as if it was the most obvious answer in the world. When it became clear to her, however, that it was not, a sickening grin spread across her lips. âSorry, I thought you were Mr. Cleanâ she sassed.
Kikkake shot her a fierce glare, throwing the mop across the room violently and complaining under his breath about how this was absolutely ridiculous and that at this point he might as well just buy a fucking wig. Frustrated, he snatched the key from Yugaoâs hand and made his way for the stairs.
The night auditor sucked in a sharp, uneasy breath as they departed. Perhaps his expectations had been shatteredâafter all, the thought of elite ninja should garner images of badassery. Instead, he was stuck with a bunch of dysfunctional misfits. He shouldâve known better.
Pressing a button on the phone, the night auditor brought the receiver up to his mouth. âWeâre gonna need a janitor in the lobby ASAP. Weâve got another puker.â
Yugao cocked a brow as she made her way toward Rei. âDoes this happen oftenâŠ?â she asked cautiously, wrapping an arm around her captain to provide support.
The night auditor sighed. âEvery other day.â And itâs no less disgusting every time it happens, he thought to himself. If he knew he would see vomit this often in this career, he never wouldâve pursued it.
Yugao fed him an apologetic smile. She pitied him, really. His job had to be far from easy, especially in a town such as this. Despite the danger of her own career, she was certainly not above acknowledging the challenge of other peopleâs jobs, as well.
Yugao helped Rei to her feet and something in her chest tugged. Rei looked so pathetic, so flushed and weak. âI think you ought to get some restâ Yugao whispered.
As much as Rei wanted to protest, deep down she knew her lieutenant was right. She fed a sheepish smile to the night auditor as they passed, croaking out a pained, âIâm so sorryâ as they disappeared up the stairs. She knew it didnât mean anything, but she felt obligated to say it anyway. A courtesy, if nothing else.
Their room was, as expected, kind of a dump. The sheets were stiff and almost crunchy, the carpet looked like ground beef, and there was overall the faintest hint of cigarette smoke despite this very clearly being a non-smoking room. But it had a perfect view of the hotelâs west wing where the rogue-ninja was rumored to be staying. Between the two areas was a large courtyard with dying grass and complimentary hot springs. Yugao didnât even want to consider what kind of germs were floating around in that water.
As they all settled in, Rei slumped down on the edge of the bed and buried her face in her hands. Arai glanced to her curiously, cocking a brow. âYou really donât look so good, bossâ she commented. âAre you sure youâre gonna be okay?â
Raking her fingers through her bangs, Rei nodded but her affirmation wasnât all that convincing. âIâll be fine. Like I said, itâs just food poisoning. Iâm sure Iâll be good as new by the time weâre back homeâ she replied.
Hitsuji twiddled his fingers anxiously, his voice rising an octave. âB-But by the time you get home, the mission will be over already!â he exclaimed. âA-are you going to get sick again? Are you going to be sick th-the entire mission?!â
Arai tilted her head back to view Hitsuji from upside-down, furrowing her brows. âAnd whatâs got you so fucked up?â she asked.
âI-I just donât have a very strong stomachâŠâ Hitsuji replied sheepishly.
Sukui settled into the wobbly chair at the roomâs complimentary desk, propping his legs up on the desktop. âIsnât your sister a nurse? Shouldnât you have a better tolerance for these sorts of things?â
Hitsuji shook his head rapidly. âSheâs got the stomach, Iâve got the brainsâ he explained. âI could never handle stuff like this.â
Sukui pouted in thought for a moment. âIt is pretty disgustingâ he confessed. Turning to Arai, he then asked, âHow can you stand to handle it?â
Shrugging, Arai leaned back on the bed casually. âWhat can I say? Iâve got a sister whoâs a lightweightâ she replied. âIâve seen my fair share of puke.â
Hitsuji shivered and shook his head. âC-can we please stop talking about this?â he begged.
Rei reached across the bed and rested a gentle hand on Hitsujiâs shivering shoulder. âIâll be fine. Promiseâ she assured him. He nodded with wide-eyed panic, glancing to her hand as if she could transmit her illness through touch and had just risked infecting him. The moment Rei recognized this, she inched away and shot him a small, apologetic smile.
Kikkake cocked a brow with crossed arms, not entirely convinced by his captain's words. âAnd how long have you had food poisoning for, exactly?â he asked.
Rei shot him a fierce glare, a threat for him to not go there. She was so sick and tired of people asking her that same exact question. What did it matter? She was sick, and she had been sick, and all that meant was that she was nearing the end. Disgruntled, she snapped, âI donât fucking know. Maybe a little over a week or something?â
âThat doesnât sound rightâ Arai snarked. âAs far as I know, most cases of food poisoning clear up in, like, a few days. Right?â
Yugao raised her hands in surrender. âDonât look at me, I wouldnât knowâ she replied.
Hitsujiâs fingers twitched. His body needed a release, a distraction, since his mind by now was too far-gone. âA-are you sure itâs food poisoning?â he stammered out. âI-It could be a parasitic infection, like Cyclospora. Or something internal! Have you had any pain? Fatigue? D-Diarrhea?â
âEw, gross!â Arai shouted, lopping her shoe at Hitsujiâs head. Maybe he did belong on her hit list after all. âI thought you said you had a weak stomach!â
âI-I do!â Hitsuji countered.
âThen why are you asking nasty shit like that?!â Arai asked.
Kikkake smirked, smacking Arai on the back of the head in response. âI thought you said you had a strong stomachâ he jested back. Arai frowned up at him and slapped his hand away, muttering at him to get away from her.
Hitsuji pursed his lips. âThe health and wellness of every team member is important. Besides, itâs good to know whether what Captain Rei has is contagious or not.â
âI knew we shouldâve gotten separate roomsâ Arai grumbled.
Sukui shook his head. âDo you really think we have to ask such ridiculously invasive questions?â he asked.
Tenting his fingers, Hitsuji dropped his gaze to the floor and replied, âWell, yes, sometimes asking unpleasant questions is necessary.â
Rolling his eyes, Sukui leaned back in his chair so that the front legs rose up off the ground. âThis whole thing is unpleasantâ he pouted.
âOh, big words coming from the guy who decided our road trip needed a soundtrack!â Arai fired back, laughing incredulously. âYou know, youâre not as good a singer as you think you are!â
âGuysâŠâ Rei whined, desperate. Their voices were too loud, the room was too bright, and yet again her stomach began to churn. No one seemed to hear her.
Offended, Sukui gasped in exaggerated, but unfortunately genuine, offense. Kikkake, however, burst out laughing and slapped Arai amicably on the back. âNow thereâs one thing we can finally agree on!â
Sukui pouted and tilted his chin away from them like an arrogant little child. âIâll have you know, I was the runner-up for the school talent show back in the academy. At least back then people appreciated talent!â
âWere the judges tone-deaf?â Kikkake asked.
Arai erupted in hysterical laughter. âYou were a kid!â she shouted. âPeople always lie to little kids that theyâre the best so they donât bitch and moan. They probably just thought you were too pathetic to be honest with.â
âThatâs not true!â Sukui shouted, his voice rising in pitch.
His shrill remark rang through Reiâs head, unbearable. âOh godâŠâ she groaned, clapping a hand over her mouth. Hitsujiâs back went ramrod straight at the sight, squeezing his eyes shut tight and clapping his hands over his ears. The tension was becoming too much.
Sucking in a sharp breath, Yugao launched a kunai for the wall, whizzing right past Hitsuji and Araiâs heads. âGuysâ she interjected, voice firm but not loud. The whole room fell silent. âNow is not the time. Have we all forgotten we have a job to do here?â She motioned toward the large window in their room, to the west wing across the way. Sighing, she brushed her hair back and continued. âListen, I know that we all think Rei being sick is an inconvenienceââhere, Rei whimpered in offenseâ âAnd should she have stayed home? Probably. But itâs too late to turn back now so we all just have to make the best of a bad situation, okay?â She strode toward the bed then, resting a soothing hand on Reiâs shoulder, a show of support to the others. She locked eyes with the four of them and pursed her lips. âIâm sure everything is going to be fine. No one is going to get sick or contract some deadly disease. Rei just needs to rest up and part of that means no more arguing. Do I make myself clear?â
The others remained silent as they stewed in Yugaoâs words. For only a lieutenant, she certainly had a commanding presence. If they didnât know any better, they wouldâve even mistaken her for their captain. Reiâs current state was, unfortunately, not boding well for her leadership skills. The moment the thought crossed all of their minds, however, they unanimously felt guilty about it. It wasnât her fault that she was sick. And really, pursuing the mission regardless spoke volumes for her dedication to her career, didnât it? It may not have been the smartest choice, but her determination was admirable enough.
Placing her hands on her hips then, Yugao surveyed the group and asked, âAlright, who wants to take night watch?â
The sun had already set and the chatter of tourists echoed through the halls, eager for a night on the town. They all knew full well what kind of environment was awaiting them in the coming hours. The more chaos the enemy had to camouflage himself within, the more dangerous he became.
Hitsujiâs hand immediately shot up in response. There was an eagerness on his face that no one had actually expected of him. âPlease let me do it!â he said. âI want to do it. I need to do it!â
Kikkake narrowed his eyes in suspicion. âAnd what if something happens? Youâre too weak to take down the bad guy on your ownâ he argued.
âMm, yeah, thatâs trueâ Arai replied. âIf he gets to us, heâll kill Hitsuji in a split second.â
Hitsuji sighed, muttering under his breath, âThanks for having so much faith in me.â
âWhat about you, pretty boy?â Kikkake asked. He wadded up a piece of paper from the notepad by the phone and tossed it at Sukuiâs head. âWhy donât you make yourself useful for once?â
âAs if!â Sukui exclaimed. âI need my beauty sleep. You donât become this attractive by pulling all-nighters, you know.â
âGod, youâre so conceitedâ Arai complained under her breath.
Kikkake shot her a glare. âThen what about you? Why donât you do it?â
Arai matched his fury in her stare. âWhy donât you?â
âI never said I wouldnât!â Kikkake shot back.
âGuys, come on!â Yugao called. âIf Hitsuji wants to do it, then I say letâs give him a chance. Teamwork is important and we have to trust in our comrades' abilities or else weâll never succeed as a squad.â
A soft smile fought itâs way through Hitsujiâs panic as he climbed over the beds and settled down in front of the window. His hands moved dexterously as he began assembling the little telescope from their arsenal of supplies. He paid no mind to the instructions. âI wonât fail you guys, I promiseâ he said softly as he worked.
âI hope notâ Arai muttered.
Once she was finished organizing their weapons on the floor, Yugao stepped lightly across the room and rested a hand on Reiâs back. She had hardly moved over the past fifteen minutes, leaning forward with her face buried in her hands. âRei? I really think you need to get some rest. Come onâ she said softly. Rei gave a minute nod and allowed Yugao to help her shift back onto the bed, curling up on her side. Yugao pushed the trash can dutifully beside her just in case.
The others watched in subtle intrigueâit was kind of refreshing to see that not only was Yugao a formidable leader but she also possessed a very tender, maternal side to her, as well. It was comforting to know that she would look after them should anything happen in the field. I bet she'd make a great medic-nin, Arai thought to herself.
Meanwhile, Sukui readjusted in his desk chair and plucked a room service pamphlet from the document holder. A sly smile touched his lips as he idly flipped through the extensive menu. âWell, while weâre here, whoâs hungry?â he asked. âI think Iâm going to order some room service! Iâve heard that thatâs about the only thing this hotel is good for: their food.â
Arai shook her head, sprawled out like a starfish on the bed. âI donât even know how you can eat at a time like thisâ she groaned.
âDonât worryâ Kikkake replied. âSooner or later weâll get hungry again.â
âGod, I donât even want to know how much the food here costsâ Arai replied. âIâd probably go broke. Good thing I brought snacks, at least.â Here, she rolled over onto her stomach and dug around in her backpack, fishing out a pack of peanut butter crackersâŠthat had since crumbled into nothingness. She frowned, disappointed, before tossing them over Reiâs hunched body and into the trash can. âWell, there goes that idea.â Frustrated, Rei grabbed one of the decorative throw pillows and launched it squarely at Araiâs head, but missed and hit the ceiling light instead. One of the three bulbs cracked and shattered across the floor. Again, Rei groaned.
Yugao sighed and rubbed her forehead, muttering, âIf the food doesnât eat up all of our money, Iâm sure the custodial fees will.â
By midnight, the groupâs energy had significantly dwindled. Rei had passed out, her hair sticking to her dewy face. Meanwhile, Yugao sat cross-legged on the floor indexing their weaponry and polishing their kunai. It was always important to keep track of your supplies just in case. The last thing they needed was to return to Konoha only to discover a shuriken was missing. In contrast, Kikkake had idly waded halfway through the complimentary copy of Our Lady Kaguya tucked into the nightstand drawer, and Arai had zoned out tossing a wad of paperâthe same one launched earlier at Sukuiâs headâup and down toward the ceiling. Sukui snuck out hours ago and was nowhere to be found.
âYou think we ought to go look for him or something?â Arai asked. âMaybe the enemy found him and killed him. The least we could do is retrieve the body.â
âAnd have a dead guy in our hotel room?â Kikkake asked boredly. He licked his fingertips, turned the page. âIâd rather not.â
Yugao looked up from her work and grimaced. âShe has a point. If something happens to him, Rei and I are responsible. Losing a comrade in the line of duty doesnât reflect very well on usâ she replied. Let alone the emotional toll. Sheâd hate to think of the chaos that would ensue should another comrade die on Reiâs watch. Not that she was watching anything other than the inside of her eyelids, but Yugao did not fault her for that. She just wanted Rei to be okay.
From his post, Hitsuji gave the smallest shake of his head. âI think heâll be fineâ he said. âSukuiâs not stupid. Heâs stronger than he looks, too. And besides, I havenât seen anything questionable the entire time Iâve been sitting here.â If anything, he was sure Sukui disappeared among the party animals to both gain intel and flirt with the local women. If there was ever a member of their group who could effortlessly blend in here, it would be Sukui. Hitsuji had faith.
âHow are you holding up?â Yugao asked him, a sympathetic smile touching her face. Hitsuji had been sitting there for nearly five hours straight now. âIf you want to switch out, just say so. Iâm sure the others wouldnât mind the change of pace.â
Hitsuji, however, protested. âIâll be just fine, donât you worry about meâ he reassured and though he did not turn around, it was clear that he was smiling. âOne time, I had a panic attack so bad that I stayed awake for 36 hours straight, no problem. This should be a breeze for me.â
âAre you still panicking?â Arai asked in disbelief. Hitsuji made a mild noise to indicate that, somehow, yes, he was.
âWell, if and when you pass out, Iâm not carrying you to bedâ Kikkake snarked.
Just then, there was a knock at the door. The whole group went stiff. Rei groaned and creaked her eyes open, curious. She reached for the kunai in her back pouch just to be safe. An anxious electricity filled the air.
âIâm sure itâs nothingâ Yugao whispered in reassurance. She rose to her feet, grabbing a kunai of her own as she approached the door. âItâs probably just Sukui. I doubt the enemy would figure out what room weâre in.â
âUnless he got it from the night auditorâ Arai whispered.
Kikkake shook his head. âI donât think heâd be that stupid.â
âUnless heâs in on it, too!â Hitsuji replied.
âOr maybeâŠâ Arai started, hunching her back and curling her fingers in a creepy stance. âThey killed the night auditor!â She peppered in her best spooky, evil villain laugh for extra pizzazz. Hitsujiâs back went ramrod straight. Rei reached behind her to slap Arai hard on the thigh.
âDonât say that, thatâs not funnyâ the redhead grumbled.
âLook whoâs awake!â Arai jested, poking Rei in the side. Rei swatted her hand away, grumbling under her breath.
Yugao shot them all a sharp glare and rose a finger to her lips, shushing them. Her opposite hand hovered over the doorknob. She stood on tiptoes to peer through the peephole. Relief washed over her as she recognized who was on the other side and opened the door.
âDid you miss me?â Sukui asked, sliding into the room. A wide grin spread across his face and his cheeks were flushed. Kikkake wondered if he had been drinking.
âWhere the hell have you been?â Yugao asked, taking hold of his shirt. âYou had us all worried sick.â
Sukui swatted at the air dismissively as he wiggled out of Yugaoâs grasp and plopped back down in his desk chair. âOh, I was checking out the kitchen!â he replied. âIt might not be the fanciest place to cook, but damn do they mean it when they say this place has great food!â
Yugao shook her head as she bolt-locked the door. âIâm just glad youâre not dead.â
âSo, what have I missed?â Sukui asked, making himself comfortable.
The five of them replied in unison, âAbsolutely nothing.â
âWell, then itâs a good thing I went to go make my own fun then!â Sukui grinned.
Grimacing, Arai launched her wad of paper at his head then and sneered, âI hope you didnât go poking around where youâre not supposed to, you little creep.â
âYeah, we donât need you out blowing our coverâ Kikkake agreed.
Sukui rolled his eyes. âHave a little more faith in me!â he plead. âI think youâll all find that my poking around will do us quite a bit of good.â
Yugao froze, eyeing him. âI donât like the sound of that.â What had he gotten into? What damage had he done? She knew she never shouldâve let him wander on his own.
Sukui, however, seemed completely unaffected and unconcerned. âJust hang on. Youâll seeâ he mused, a playful smile toying on his lips. Yugao swallowed back her fear and tried to remain calm. She glanced to Rei, rolling sleepily over onto her side and burying her face in her pillow. For a moment, Yugao hated her.
Another uneventful hour passed. Yugaoâs worry only mounted further. Hitsuji hadnât reported any movement in the west wing whatsoever and at first, she accepted the quiet. She was almost relieved, even. Regardless of her experience in the field, she always felt a sense of anxiety whenever she was confronted with the enemy. She was too aware of the dangers, of the possibilities, of her own mortality. It was like stage-fright before a big recitalâeven if you were well-rehearsed, there were still so many things that could go wrong in the moment. But unlike a recital, in this case lives were at stake.
The longer they went without a hint of action, however, the more Yugao began to fear that they had, in fact, been misled. After all, the enemy was not stupid. If he caught even slightest murmur that he was being watched, he could bail in an instant and Team Ku would never know. Yugao hated to think of how long they would last before they realize that this was all for nothing, that they had been duped. For a moment, she even caught herself praying for something in an effort to relieve her own anxiety. Anything to assure her that they were not wasting their time.
And then, as in direct response to her prayers, there was a knock at the door. Yugaoâs heart skipped a beat, her breath hitching in her throat. Sukui immediately leapt to his feet and raced to the door. He was a little too confident for Yugaoâs comfort. âBe careful!â she called after him. He wasnât even armed, or at least not that she could see.
Sukui swung the door open excitedly to greet the rather tired-looking man hunched on the other side. In front of him was a heavy, undecorated metal cart. âYour room service, Mr. Yukioâ he droned, wheeling the cart inside. It clattered and clanked as it went, cluttered with food. Yugaoâs eyes widened.
Rei furrowed her brows, disrupted by the noise, before rubbing her eyes and slowly sitting upright. âWhat the hell is all of this about?â she yawned.
Sukui grinned proudly as he tucked a few dollars into the manâs pocket as a tip before sending him on his way. âWell, I figured since weâre all working so hard and need to keep up our strength, Iâd order everyone dinner!â he explained. âI got all of your favorites.â
And truly, somehow he had gotten all of them their favorites. Tsukimi udon for Yugao, broiled saury for Kikkake, vegetable stir fry for Hitsujiâwho evidently was a vegetarianâand tonkotsu ramen for Arai. Sashimi for himself and for Rei, a platter of gyoza alongside a bowl of miso soup. Sukui distributed everyoneâs food one by one, face beaming with satisfaction and delight. Perhaps he wasnât as self-centered as he seemed, after all.
He served Rei last, being very careful with the hot bowl of soup. âNow I donât know if miso is necessarily your favoriteâ he started, âbut I thought maybe it might help your stomach.â He set the bowl down on the nightstand with a napkin and a little spoon. The steam wafted up into Reiâs face, the scent of the warm, salty broth hitting her nose, and she was instantly overwhelmed with a welcome sense of calm. âMy mother always used to feed me miso soup when I had to stay home sick from school, and I know it always made me feel better so I hope it does the same for you, tooâ he added.
Rei was, quite frankly, awestruck. She thanked him softly, exercising great care in cradling the bowl in her lap. With each tiny sip of broth, her entire body was further drenched in a tranquil warmth. She shivered, but out of delight rather than cold. Her stomach finally began to unclench.
âHow did you even know what we all liked, anyway?â Arai asked, slurping her noodles.
Sukui merely shrugged. âI pay attentionâ he replied bluntly.
As grateful as Yugao was for such a kind act, there was one point of contention that she could not seem to shake. âDid you pay for all of this out of pocket?â she asked. She could only imagine how expensive this all was. Where did he get that kind of money?
Shaking his head, Sukui replied, âI just put it on our roomâs tab.â
Yugaoâs face immediately went stark white. âY-You did what?!â she exclaimed.
Sukui popped a piece of sushi in his mouth, unbothered. âI donât see what the big deal isâ he replied. âItâs not like the room is in any of our names to begin with. Weâre not paying to stay here.â
Yugao sucked in a sharp breath, prayed for peace. âThatâs not the pointâ she replied. âSomeone has to pay for this.â And itâs likely Lady Tsunade, she thought to herself. She already knew the hokage was deep in her own debt. Surely this was not going to help. Besides, Konohaâs good civilian tax dollars were not meant for luxurious meals to the ANBU. Now Yugao was the one getting a migraine.
Arai paused before spitting her noodles back into her bowl. âShould we not be eating this then? Should we send this back?â she asked.
âNo!â Sukui demanded abruptly, pointing at her. âNo, you put those noodles back in your mouth right now!â
Arai blinked in shockâshe had never seen Sukui so assertive before. Without breaking eye contact with him, she slowly lifted the noodles back up to her mouth and slurped them down at an obnoxious volume. For what it was worth, Sukui had been right about the food being incredible. Even if she had to, she didnât particularly want to give her ramen back to begin with. Not that they would want it back anyway. It had already been in her mouth, they had no way of repurposing it.
Defeated, Sukui dropped into his chair and rested his chin in his hands. âI just wanted to do something nice for everyoneâ he sighed. âI wanted to show how much I appreciate you guys.â
âWe knowâ Yugao replied, resting a hand on his shoulder. âI just need to make sure that weâre doing things right.â
Suddenly, Rei interjected herself into the conversation. âFuck itâ she said. âLike he said, weâre not paying for it. Itâs not our problem. Letâs justâŠtry to enjoy this while we can, alright?â
And while they were all still relatively uneasy about the subject, Rei had a point. They had a big mission ahead of them, they had been working long and tiresome hours. It was exhausting being on guard all the time and certainly they were all feeling the strain. But that was no excuse for slacking on self-care. Heaven forbid if anything happened, starvation and sleep-deprivation did not make for triumph in battle. Clearly, Sukui knew this. He was only trying to keep everyoneâs morale in check. He had no obligation to go to such lengths to provide for them, but he did. The least they could do was accept his generosity and enjoy the good food.
They ate in silence, at first slow and cautious. As they fell into comfortable acceptance of the meal, however, their hesitancy transformed to ravenous and messy. By the time they had finished, a sleepy haze swept over the lot of them. Arai fell back onto the bed and patted her stomach, full and satisfied. Kikkake smirked and gathered everyoneâs dirty dishes. He veered away from Rei, her bowl still half-full, and then slipped into the bathroom to rinse everything in the sink.
While Rei did not scarf down her meal like the others, simply nursing her soup had soothed her and seemed to ease the tension out of her bones. It was perhaps the only thing she could really keep down for the past five days and for that, she was grateful. She hadnât realized just how weak she had become until now. She chewed her lower lip, squeezed her hand around her wrist. The tip of her thumb overlapped with the nail of her middle finger. She swallowed back a lump rising in her throat, prayed for her stomach to remain calm.
On her way back from the bathroom, Rei rested a gentle hand on Hitsujiâs shoulder and gazed out at the view. It was truly breathtaking: flickering technicolor lights lined the streets, the bubbling of the hot springs echoed from below, and in the distance the craggy mountains faded into the night sky. She lifted the glass in her opposite hand to her lips, the water from the tap tasting metallic and rotten. âYou should get some restâ Rei whispered. âIâll stand guard.â
Hitsuji shook his head in protest. âLike I said, Iâll be fineâ he smiled up at her.
âBut youâve been at this for almost seven hours nowâ Rei argued. âYou need to take a break.â If nothing else, she felt obligated to take over in an effort to feel productive. All she had done this entire mission was puke and sleep. It wasnât fair to pass the work off to all of her subordinates. After all, she was their captain. She wasnât doing a very good job of leading them this time aroundâa fact that left a rancid taste in her mouth.
Hitsuji reached out and halted Reiâs hand from adjusting his telescope. His grip was tighter than she had expected. âCaptain Rei, pleaseâ he murmured, voice level and sure. âI need you to let me do this. Iâll be fine. Besides, you still need your rest, too.â His voice cracked slightly on this last sentence, a hint that he was still paranoid about Reiâs sickness. Perhaps his tolerance for vomit really was nonexistent. So long as she kept sleeping, and so long as he kept his focus squarely on something else, he would have no problems. He knew it was selfish, but he was willing to sacrifice his own energy stores for the protection of both his comrades and his own sense of sanity.
Not wanting to argue, Rei gave a single nod before trudging back toward the bed. Arai had since sprawled out across the lower half, passed out and drooling on the duvet. Rei maneuvered around her and curled up on the right edge, closing her eyes. She felt the mattress shift yet again as Yugao settled in beside her. The light flicked off.
âHey, Rei?â Yugao whispered after a long stretch of silence. âCan I ask you something?â
Rei rolled over, though she knew she wouldnât be able to see Yugao in the dark. It just felt right to face her anyway. âYeah, whatâs up?â
âAre you sure you have food poisoning?â she asked. The question was unexpected, to say the least.
Rei blinked, dumbfounded, as she tried to process the question. She opened and closed her mouth for a solid minute, attempting to formulate a response. âW-why do you ask?â she finally stammered out.
Yugao rolled onto her side, head propped up on her arm. âIâm worried about you, Reiâ she confessed. âFood poisoning doesnât last this long. Youâve been down for the count all night. I donât think Iâve been doing a very good job of holding down the fort without you. I need your help. I canât do this by myself butâŠI also donât want to push you past your limits.â
âYugaoâŠâ Rei murmured. She instinctively reached out to take her lieutenantâs hand in hers. âI promise, Iâm perfectly fine. AndâŠIâm sorry. I know I need to be there for youâfor all of you, really. This is as much of an inconvenience for me as it for all of you. Believe me, I donât want to be fucking sick like this. But Iâm already feeling tons better. Iâm going to be fine.â
Yugao gave a single nod, rolled over onto her back. She stared up at the ceiling, chewed her lower lip. She shouldâve taken comfort in Reiâs words butâŠshe was still unresolved. âAnd Rei?â she asked. Rei made a small noise to ensure that she was listening. âIf something was genuinely wrong, you would tell me, right?â
Rei blinked. âO-of courseâ she admitted. âWhy wouldnât I?â
âI donât knowâ Yugao replied. She knew something was going on. She knew that Rei had been acting differentlyâsaw it in the way she avoided meals, in the way her temper flared so much easier now. Perhaps it was just the stress. Taking on the role of a captain was a lot of added responsibility. It had only been a month. Surely Rei was still struggling to adjust. Especially after what she had been aiming for beforehand. Yugao instinctively rested a hand atop her own stomach, wondered if thoughts of parenthood still circulated through Reiâs mind. âJust promise me one thingâ Yugao finally whispered.
âWhat is it?â Rei asked.
Yugao sucked in a sharp breath, closed her eyes. A promise. âDonât keep me in the dark.â
By morning, everyone had rearranged into one catastrophic dog pile. Araiâs foot in Kikkakeâs face, Sukuiâs arm draped across Araiâs eyes. And all the while, Hitsuji still sat guard by the window. His eyes were droopy and bloodshot, his mouth dry, and his hands began to shake. Fatigue weighed his body down, slumping his shoulders and hunching his back, but regardless he did not falter.
Kikkake swatted Araiâs foot away as he groaned awake, rolling the tension out of his neck and stretching his arms out in front of him. Somehow, he was the first to wake up. The moment he noticed Hitsuji, he trudged toward the window and slapped a hand amicably on his back. âMan, come on, youâve got to go to sleepâ he croaked. Shed of his hardened exterior so early in the morning, there was something almost heartwarming about Kikkake now. He was more palatable, kinder.
Meanwhile, Sukui sighed in his sleep and muttered something about a pretty woman, rolling over and hugging Arai close. Arai furrowed her brows and shifted in her sleep, her mind immediately waking up to a question of what, exactly, was pressed against her thigh. As she blinked her eyes open, it became all too clear to her.
âGet off me, you little freak!â she shouted, shoving Sukui away from her. Sukui scrambled awake, his blonde hair sticking up in all different directions. Arai aimed a pillow for his crotch and shouted, âGo get a cold shower, you fucking pervert!â
Sukui blinked and then looked down to find an unfortunate case of morning wood. His cheeks burned bright red as he hid behind the pillow and apologized profusely.
âGod, itâs so early for fightingâ Rei groaned, pressing the heels of her hands into her eye sockets. âCan you guys please tone it down?â
âIâm with Reiâ Kikkake groaned. He dragged his tired body to the mini fridge in the corner, started a pot of coffee. The coffee maker hissed, gurgled, and then inconsistently spat lumpy liquid into the glass urn.
Yugao rolled over onto her side, furrowing her brows toward Hitsuji. How he managed to stay awake this long was beyond her. She was grateful for his dedication, of course, but not at the expense of his own health.
âHitsuji, you really ought to get some sleepâ she said, slowly sitting upright. Rei nodded as she reached for the glass of water on her nightstand.
âYouâve been up all nightâ Rei added. âSooner or later, youâre going to start seeing things. Come on, get some rest.â
Hitsuji, however, shook his head. âI canâtâ he protested. âNot now.â
âAnd why not?â Arai asked sourly. She hated to admit that even she was desperate to see him sleep.
âBecauseâ Hitsuji began, narrowing his eyes, âThe enemy is looking right at me.â
Kikkake choked on his coffee, gasping for breath. âIâm sorry, what?â he asked.
Hitsuji gave a single nod. âHeâs right there, across the courtyard. Third floor, fifth window from the cornerâ he explained, staying innately still.
âYou sure youâre not just seeing things?â Arai snarked, restraining an incredulous little laugh. After an uneventful night, she wouldâve more readily believed he was hallucinating than anything else. If the enemy was really going to make waves, he wouldâve done so already. The entire mission was a sham.
Arai stretched her arms out in front of her, releasing the tension from her body. As she reached up to the sky, however, the window shattered and a kunai came whizzing past her ear to stick in the wall. The entire room went still and silent.
Hitsuji sucked his teeth. âYeah, Iâm sure.â Â
Rei gasped and ducked, narrowly avoiding a stab to the eye. The kunai just barely grazed her fluffy ponytail, a few strands of fiery hair falling onto her pillow. The blade stuck in the wall with a metallic thud, a paper bomb dangling from the handle. Fuck.
In one swift motion, Rei knocked back a large gulp of water, puffing her cheeks out as she held it in her mouth. Meanwhile, she crumpled the paper bomb tight in her opposite hand.
âRei, hurry up!â Kikkake shouted. He had since dropped his coffee and grabbed one of the many weapons off the floor.
Rei grimaced at him, making a frustrated whine, as she worked. She focused on the tag in her hands, on separating the chakra from the paper like removing dye from a scrap of fabric. Once she had separated as much as she could manage, she let the enemy's chakra seep into her palm, willed it to siphon faster and faster up through her own network. She leapt across the room as she infused the chakra with the water in her own mouth, the strength of it burning like mouthwash. Rei leaned over the windowsill then, cupped her hands around her mouth, and shot the water across the courtyard in a projectile attack. The enemy shouted in shock, pummeled with the exact level of power he had intended to hit them with.
The scream had, understandably, attracted a fair amount of attention. The bathroom door bust open at the sound and in raced Sukui, covered in soap and water with a towel around his waist and a shower cap on his head. âI heard screaming! Whatâs going on?!â
Yugao and Kikkake immediately raced out the door, fully prepared to apprehend their suspect. Rei's attack had immobilized him enough to grant them extra time. As Arai followed behind them, she shoved a set of clothes against Sukuiâs chest and demanded, âGet dressed, idiot. Itâs go-time!â
It took Sukui only a few seconds to understand what was happening but once he had, he quickly mopped the suds off his body and scrambled to step into his clothes. He wasnât a very fast dresser, however, nor was his balance very great, so he ended up falling over and faceplanting straight into the nasty carpet instead. Now Iâm going to need another shower, he complained in the back of his mind. He didnât even want to know what kinds of vermin were burrowing deep within that carpet.
âW-what do you need me to do?!â Hitsuji asked as Rei raced out the door.
Glancing back at him over her shoulder, she responded simply, âStay here.â
It was a reasonable enough request. He wasnât particularly in the best state to fight right now and besides, they couldnât leave the room unsupervised with their weapons and other belongings scattered everywhere. Hitsuji was good at keeping watch anyway. Involved in the battle, he would only get in the way.
The arrest went as smooth as any arrest can go. The man fought back, and hard, but a couple rides on the lightning (courtesy of Arai) and a genjutsu to further subdue him seemed to make him manageable enough. If only his resistance had not caused the eventual destruction of the entire west wing of the hotel.
Rei coughed into the crook of her elbow and leaned against a broken pillar as she surveyed the damage. âFuckâŠweâre really gonna rack up the custodial fees, arenât we?â
âWell, think of it this way, bossâ Arai grinned, slapping a hand on Reiâs shoulder. âPuking in the lobby is far from the worst thing weâve done here.â Rei glared at her in periphery, swatting her hand away. One did not negate the otherârather, they only made each that much worse.
The night auditor, sleep-deprived and likely nearing the end of his shift, came racing onto the scene then with the hotel's manager in tow. âWhat have you done?!â the auditor shrieked, gripping at his hair and trying to comprehend the immense volume of damage.
Kikkake smirked. âWe got the enemyâ he said, nodding his head toward the rogue ninja now unconscious and slung over his broad shoulder.
âTh-th-thatâs not the point!â the auditor argued. âYouâve destroyed the hotel! Weâre ruined!â
Yugao pursed her lips. âWell, if it makes you feel any better, this guy was the only occupant in any of the rooms so itâs not like anyone lost their lives todayâ she said.
Arai snorted in amusement. âHey, listen, if half of your hotel was empty, I think you were already ruined.â
Neither the night auditor nor the hotel manager found this funny. Grimacing, the manager shook his head in disdain. âWell, you all better be fucking loaded because this is going to cost you all a fortuneâ he grumbled.
A delighted smile touched Sukuiâs lips, apparently viewing this as a challenge. Sliding forward, he lightly grazed the managerâs arm and batted his eyelashes. âWe may not have tons of money, but Iâm sure we can work out alternative methods to repay youâ he cooed.
The manager was a rather burly man with thinning hair and a stubbled face. His belly protruded out over his waistband and he seemed to wear a permanent scowl. He eyed Sukui suspiciously, the young ANBUâs charms clearly having no effect on him.
Sensing the rising tension, Sukui backed away dutifully and muttered under his breath, âHe must be straight.â
Arai rolled her eyes and whispered back, âGood eye, Sherlock.â
Sighing, Yugao stepped forward and projected her best business voice. âI promise, weâll have all the damages paid in full by our supervisors in a timely mannerâ she assured. âIn the meantime, is there anything we can do to help?â
The manager huffed gruffly and shook his head. âThe best thing you can do now is get the fuck off my property.â
Yugao blinked, taken aback by the bluntness of his reply. âDuly notedâ she murmured. Then, turning to her team, she made a motion with her hand and shouted, âAlright, time to go.â
The others nodded in agreement, bowing their heads as they scurried past the manager and night auditor in embarrassment. Really, the six of them were just trying to do their jobs. If only their jobs did not cause so much damage. Rei trailed behind them, dragging her feet. Her face had since grown pale and her hands unsteady and clammy.
âYou alright?â Yugao asked her, waiting by her side.
Rei nodded weakly. âY-Yeah, Iâll be fineâ she replied. âJust took a lot out of me.â
âMaybe youâre not as better as you think you areâ Yugao said softly. Her attempts at comedy were overthrown by the concern deeply laced in her voice. Rei hated to admit that she might have been right.
Together, the six of them trudged back to their hotel room, gathered their things, and went on their way.
The journey back to the village seemed far quicker and more tolerable than the journey there. Perhaps it was the adrenaline of the moment, or the promise of sleeping in their own beds, that fueled them further. Or maybe it was just the anxiety of having to face Lady Tsunade--a desperation to get the confrontation over with.
After sending the criminal off to the Intelligence Division for questioning, Team Ku slipped into the hokage's office to submit their mission reports.
âWell? How did it go?â Tsunade asked. Though there was no explicit malice in her voice, Rei shuddered with the fear that she knew something. Perhaps the manager had called her on their way back and outlined the disaster they had caused. Either way, she had a bad feeling about this. Her gut twisted.
âWe did the job we set out to doâ Yugao replied, hoping to present some level of positivity to the situation.
Tsunade smiled. âAnd you did a fine job, at thatâ she replied. âYouâre all turning out to be a splendid group of shinobi. Youâre really progessing wonderfully, which must be attributed to the strong leadership of your captain.â Here, she eyed Rei with a proud gaze. Rei smiled weakly, arms wrapped around her unsettled stomach. If anything, this mission only proved how weak her leadership truly was. After all, she had barely been conscious the entire time. The guilt was overwhelming.
Shizune, standing dutifully at the hokageâs side, cleared her throat then and whispered, âUh, Lady Tsunade, there is one thing that should be addressed."
âHmm? What is it, Shizune?â Tsunade asked. Whatever it was, she didnât think she wanted to know. She didnât want to put a damper on her good mood.
Anxious, Shizune slid the bill face-down across Tsunadeâs desk. The entire team simultaneously shuddered. This was it: the ultimate end.
Tsunade skimmed over the bill, her expression initially uninterested but quickly transforming into utter shock and disbelief. âWhat is the meaning of this?!â she shouted, slamming the receipt down on the table. âHow the hell did you all manage to spend a million dollars?!â
The six of them peered forward cautiously in disbelief. There, plain as day, sat six figures with a note that read âfor fine food and campus destruction.â
âA million dollars?!â Kikkake shouted, automatically turning to Sukui.
Sukui blushed and laughed nervously, swatting at the air as he replied, âWell, it wasnât entirely my fault.â
Hitsuji nodded, pointing at the receipt. âOnly about 25% of that is the food. Everything else was the destruction.â
All the color drained from Reiâs face as she leaned on the arm rest of the office couch for support. âI think Iâm going to be sickâ she murmured.
She knew that it was going to be bad. That much was obvious. But a million dollars? The figure far exceeded her expectations, and not in a good way.
Without missing a beat, Arai bounced forward and presently snatched the bill right off of Tsunadeâs desk. Displeased, Tsunade narrowed her eyes. âAnd what do you think youâre doing?â she asked.
Arai grinned at her, unadulterated and proud, as she replied, âDonât worry about it. Iâm going to take care of everything.â Truly, there was no way Arai could afford this but she did not allow any time for protest. Receipt in hand, she skipped happily--suspiciously--out of the office. Rei and Yugao exchanged concerned glances. Again, there was no way this was going to end well.
Gloomy clouds hung low overhead as the heavy double doors of Rootâs headquarters screeched open. A hawk cawed in the distance. Danzo Shimura looked to the sky. With an arm extended, he summoned the messenger hawk to land upon him and carefully took the note strapped to his leg. He hadnât been expecting mail but the thought of a promising new opportunity invigorated him. He unraveled the note quickly and as he skimmed the page, his face fell. Staring back at him was the receipt to a trashy hotel, the total of which reached a million dollars âfor fine food and campus destruction.â
Danzo, baby, Hereâs a little gift from me to you! Make sure you pay it in full, k? Love, a secret not-very-admirer <3
Grumbling under his breath, he ripped the receipt in half and stomped it into the ground before hobbling back inside.
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