#and to know i could have it too someday <33 eeeeeehh

[idolshineitai]

hii!!!! happy pride!! for the pride ask game.... how about 32? ovo

🥹 HII TYSM!!! Happy pride to you too (o^▽^o) i rlly appreciate u sending an ask !! ♡

32. Something you wish people understood about your identity?

oh gosh. there’s a lot! and there’s a lot i don’t even understand myself!! :0 But .. a big one for me is that.. yes i am transmasc yes i am a femme,, as in EXPLICITLY femme lesbian!! No other sense of the word. a noun, not an adjective. a way to refer to Me entirely!! (i fucking adore when i see this and would LOVE to have it for myself someday - to be called someone’s femme, as in “my femme”, in place of any other word………it Just. feels so holy and lovely and Right. Soo outrageously lesbian)

i love being called a boy + am one sometimes (genderfluid). i love using he/him pronouns and they’re often the most comfortable out of all my sets no matter how im feeling. i love my body hair sooo much so bad + i do want to go on T someday for that reason (+ many others 💘) + all of this wouldn’t really make you think Femme, and that upsets me sometimes, but this is literally .. what makes me feel good + pretty + confident in myself + HAPPY !!! When i first figured out i was a femme lesbian it felt so so right + homely to me (still does) + if it helps my case i swoon over butches @ any given occasion ww 💗💗 i love.. fitting into this rich and vibrant community i love using these terms for myself i love being a femme full stop . i am also autistic and nonbinary which i feel factors into my understanding of gender a good deal!!

i want to take femininity and make it my own . i want to dress up in my own beautiful restoration of it (i LOVE dressing feminine i love reimagining femininity i love being fashionable and Looked At and putting shit together in all these creative ways to make something new!!!!!!!!!!! i love being seen by LESBIANS!!) + maybe even get a handsome girl’s attention in the process :> I love my transmasc identity i love my femme lesbian identity i looove existing as a complicated queer person thank u and goodnight

(+ thank u for the opportunity to talk abt this, it made me really happy ♡ i love my identity i love gay peopleee. i dont think ive discussed this so openly before + im guessing maybe some people will dislike me now? + i dont know what to say to them, but i am very happy being who i am ^_^)