#11o8x4

[idolshineitai]

tagged by @acanthemp3 hii!!!!! ^_^

rules: shuffle your liked songs playlist & post the first 10 tracks, then tag 10 people.

hey lover! - wabie

nobody - mitski

vuii - in love with a ghost (Itty Bitty)

accidental light - sleeping at last

jupiter - sleeping at last (damn my shuffle's in a Mood i guess)

your biggest mistake - ellie goulding (nostalgic. i think i made a fnaf edit to this once)

cycles - lili trifilio (i... do not remember where i found this... or when i last heard it ... it's pretty tho ⭐️ why do u have my name /j)

newly edgy idols - mitchie m (IS THIS THE SECOND TIME THIS SONG'S IN THIS CHAIN ? help)

in the corner of my eyes, there is stardust - in love with a ghost (blessed w more ilwag i guess !)

who is she ? - i monster (FUCK YESSSSSSS this one was formative to me personally, hello to the homestuck mep — flashy/straining effects, pawssibly unsettling — that my dad said he couldnt finish watching bc it was satanic even though we werent religious. i adore this song even now and relate it to Everything /hyp /silly)

damn im kind of sad its over :-( BUT i have another song game i was tagged in i think ehehehe >:3c

tagging umhmmhhm @butchexe @catboyteto @lemonroller @strangelove1988 @heatabnormal @iamvampiress @kittydelight @buckbutch @candied-peach @11o8x4 i care u all a Lot

[yam1ka1]

OMG KAI I HAVEN'T HEARD FROM YOU IN A WHILE!!!! (maybe because i rarely check tumblr whoops) I HOPE YOU'RE DOING WELL!!

WAHHH HI EVE!!! I FEEL LIKE I HAVENT SEEN YOU ON MY DASH EITHER, I HAD TO DOUBLE CHECK I DIDNT ACCIDENTALLY UNFOLLOW YOU WIEJFNICIWJDK-

IM DOING WELL, TY!!! ^^ i hope you are too mwah mwah <33

[idolshineitai]

OOOOO I WANNA KNOW ABOUT YOUR OCS !!!!! tell me about them!! maybe your main oc? aaaah or your fav oc? anything goes <333

YAYAY OFC HII THANK YOU!!! Im very excited to answer this !!!

RN IM THINKING VERY HARD ABT my two guys August & Tuesday ! Suicide talk throughout for their whole deal

Tuesday is an angel who comes to earth for reasons i haven’t,, exactly decided yet which is Unfortunate bc it is kind of a catalyst here. tuesday meets august who is Human and they fall in love! They’re both lesbians who use they/them btw :3

There comes a time where tuesday starts feeling,, Weird. and Bad. they come to the conclusion that they’re being called home to heaven and this leads to,, many many suicide attempts. brutal n gruesome n excessively Human, its not like they can simply Return, which is something that causes august to maybe question that being called home is NOT whats actually going on. they r distraught by the entire situation and dont want to let tuesday go , especially seeing as they r their first love.

There are many different endings for this that i’ve considered!! And i think if i do anything with this i might turn it into a visual novel for that versatility :) But.. major ones are these:

the story of august and tuesday is part truth part fiction, both involved are human and august is actually writing this abt their partner and their story together (both alive!!!!! and safe and well)

tuesday IS actually being called back to heaven within the story, but it’s obviously a big ol metaphor

tuesday is NOT being called back to heaven they just don’t know what being suicidal is. Eventually they figure it out together and get help

tuesday is successful with one of these attempts, perhaps after august agrees to let them go. i dont know what happens from there but i imagine it would have to deal w stuff that im not really prepared for or interested innnn????? So probably not this one ♡

i consider myself an angel sometimes and theyre a good way to express all that! and im really!!!!!!!!! Really interested in having characters w menhera stories/themes/etc!

IF Anyone has any further questions please do . <3 TITLE SUGGESTIONS WELCOME

[idolshineitai]

hii!!!! happy pride!! for the pride ask game.... how about 32? ovo

🥹 HII TYSM!!! Happy pride to you too (o^▽^o) i rlly appreciate u sending an ask !! ♡

32. Something you wish people understood about your identity?

oh gosh. there’s a lot! and there’s a lot i don’t even understand myself!! :0 But .. a big one for me is that.. yes i am transmasc yes i am a femme,, as in EXPLICITLY femme lesbian!! No other sense of the word. a noun, not an adjective. a way to refer to Me entirely!! (i fucking adore when i see this and would LOVE to have it for myself someday - to be called someone’s femme, as in “my femme”, in place of any other word………it Just. feels so holy and lovely and Right. Soo outrageously lesbian)

i love being called a boy + am one sometimes (genderfluid). i love using he/him pronouns and they’re often the most comfortable out of all my sets no matter how im feeling. i love my body hair sooo much so bad + i do want to go on T someday for that reason (+ many others 💘) + all of this wouldn’t really make you think Femme, and that upsets me sometimes, but this is literally .. what makes me feel good + pretty + confident in myself + HAPPY !!! When i first figured out i was a femme lesbian it felt so so right + homely to me (still does) + if it helps my case i swoon over butches @ any given occasion ww 💗💗 i love.. fitting into this rich and vibrant community i love using these terms for myself i love being a femme full stop . i am also autistic and nonbinary which i feel factors into my understanding of gender a good deal!!

i want to take femininity and make it my own . i want to dress up in my own beautiful restoration of it (i LOVE dressing feminine i love reimagining femininity i love being fashionable and Looked At and putting shit together in all these creative ways to make something new!!!!!!!!!!! i love being seen by LESBIANS!!) + maybe even get a handsome girl’s attention in the process :> I love my transmasc identity i love my femme lesbian identity i looove existing as a complicated queer person thank u and goodnight

(+ thank u for the opportunity to talk abt this, it made me really happy ♡ i love my identity i love gay peopleee. i dont think ive discussed this so openly before + im guessing maybe some people will dislike me now? + i dont know what to say to them, but i am very happy being who i am ^_^)

[yam1ka1]

MAN it sucks that you're shadowbanned ughhh i love your art so much T~T

I LITERALLY LOVE YOUR ART SM??? JWDKNCKS- this is unrelated to your message you’ve just quickly become a favorite menhera artist of mine

seriously tho- it does suck. it’s happened to me before, but it wasn’t permanent. let’s hope it miraculously fixes itself again hhhh

[idolshineitai]

(left a comment instead like an idiot so i'm re-asking sjjdjsjs) anyway who's ur fav in proseka

NO YOURE DEFINITELY NOT AN IDIOT i wouldve answered there but i saw this first ^w^ <3 OK!!!!! WEEELL!!!!!! i have many favs for different reasons i guess >:? ! It all kinda depends but here we go

AND AH JIC U DONT READ TO THE END CUZ THIS IS LONG I UNDERSTAND: DO U HAVE FAVES U WANNA TALK ABT AS WELL ..? (o^▽^o) 💗

i relate to: ena and minori!!!!!!!! i hc enanan as having bpd and i Really really understand her struggle w seeing her bandmates as her Besties and then her worsties you know. everyones out to get her and if they act in a way that hurts her its Obviously on purpose, everything relates to her feelings, and they all hate her and think shes not good enough secretly. whatever whatever. shes pretty self-absorbed at times but i get it. i understand. shes me. MINORIII!!!!!!! IS CUTE its such a. silly dream but i think being an idol in a band is 🥺🥺 SOO ……that makes me happy, and i . Understand her thinking she has bad terrible luck that follows her wherever she goes and then finding hope thru haruka and getting to work with her and 😭😭 IDK IDK …… 25ji is my first fav but mmj… also wxs……. WXS I LOVE SM CUZ I LOVE THEME PARKS N I LUV HOW ….Just…..bright n good n sunny wxs is <3 ALSO MINORIS OTTER SHIRT LOOKS A LOT LIKE MY OTTER SHIRT !!

i am Crushing on: MOSTLY SHIHO (a little bit kanade. A little) i’ve posted abt this before but aauuu……the fact that shes like…..quiet but in a literal not shy way. shes firm but never unkind . But also shes like the cutest most precious thing with such goofy adorable habits and i want to hug her and take her to theme parks forever and steal her hoodies ..she doesnt like clingy ppl SOB (idk for sure but i would Consider myself clingy lol) but w the way shizuku treats her i understand (I LUV SHIZUKU!!!!!!! i can just see how that would b like…smothering bothersome esp bc im. autistic)

i love them Just bc: AIRIIIIIII!!!!!!! AIRI MY LOVE <3 SHES SO GOOD i love that shes good at cooking and taking care of kids shes Such a big sister 💖💖💖💖💕💕💘 and a really good friend it seems.. like she can be blunt and stubborn but it PALES in comparison to her kindness and willingness and enthusiasm helping her friends and she’s just so nice and lovely and i would also like to hug her tbh tbh <3 Yay. Also to a lesser extent emu!! she is ADORABLE PRECIOUS i really admire her and wish i could be as bright and fun and cute and spontaneous.. really want to be like her

i could definitely be pegging some of them wrong as i havent been into this franchise for sm time yet, but! i really adore all of them nonetheless ^_^ ALSO THE OUTFITS/STYLES IN THIS GAME JUST LIK THE DEFAULT ONES THEY ALWAYS WEAR? R SO GOOD. It makes me happy that the characters i relate to also share a rlly similar style to my ideal it’s like Ah >:3 validation

[idolshineitai]

just stopping by to wish you a great day/night !! ♡♡♡

TwT thank you so so sooo much!!!!! it made me really happy to see this/you in my inbox :D!! i wish you the same (o^▽^o) ♡

[idolshineitai]

HIII!! stopping by to send u hugs :( maybe you're going through some stuff rn and it's okay to take your time!! when the storm subsides it will all be okay again!! <333

SENDING HUGS BACK thank you so much!!!! i really really appreciate you being so kind 2 me !! This made me feel better :) I hope you’re well !! Or that you feel better soon too ʚ♡ɞ

[idolshineitai]

STOPPING BY TO WISH YOU A HAPPY NEW YEAR ????? IF I'M NOT TOO LATE KSKSJHFH lots of love! ♡♡♡

WAH WAH not at all too late thank you so much !!!! 🥺💗 you too, i really appreciate you thinking of me ♡♡ :D