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I was just told by my coworkers that in June our working day is extended from 6 h to full time (8 h) and I'm "happy" because that means more money, but it also kind of ruined my mood because it also means less free time.
Halp.
#to be honest i could deal with it much better if i was#working from home#my office is the bane of my existence#but no of course i have to be there so that everyone can see how productive i am#even if i'm deprived of most of my options for stimming while working#and therefore i'm barely able to focus on my boring job#and my being productive means struggling and being stressed for containing what my brain begs me to do#like they even frown at the idea of you having one earphone with a fucking podcast#i could be watching mamma mia as a background thing#and instead i have to listen to my boomer coworkers being unable to communicate without fucking shouting#send help#mine#ravings
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BLACK TIE
A/N: Thanks again for this idea @mindlessstories
I hope you have fun with it
Pairing: LEON KENNEDY x READER
Words: 1.736
Warnings: fluff, cursing, Leon in a suit
Synopsis: Yn and Leon are on a mission with fancy clothes. But somehow the mission is not the most interesting thing...
"W-What the bloody... What are you wearing?", Yn asked as she checked the appearance of the man in front of her. The guy was neatly dressed in a white suit shirt, black suit pants and a black jacket. Even a black tie was bound around the manâs neck. Quickly, Yn checked the number of the hotel room once again in fear she had mistaken it and might stand in front of some stranger. No, it was the right room and actually, it was also the right guy. It was just ⌠even if it was part of the mission, Leon S. Kennedy had swapped his typical, casual leather jacket with a tuxedo. It was a sight for sore eyes. Unusually and at the same time, perfectly fitting as if Leon would be some kind of secret undercover supermodel instead of an agent.
Leon, amused about Ynâs big eyes and astonished expression, chuckled and stepped aside, letting his partner in who was still watching him as if he would be an alien. A handsome one but still. Leon closed the door, "It's a tuxedo. That's what you wear on a bow and tie event.", he explained and watched how Yn rolled with her eyes.
âI know what it is but to see you in it⌠and by the way! Black Tie, Kennedy! Itâs called Black Tie! And not âbow and tieâ.â, Yn explained for maybe the hundredth time since they both got assigned to this secret mission. In fact, the job was easy. A rich weapons dealer had started to âextendâ his sortiment with some BOWs. His business was flourishing. But instead of just catching him, Yn and Leon had decided it would be better to bug the dealer to get information about his clients as well. Therefore, they were able to dig out the whole nest.
âI donât care what these events are called. Theyâre all the same. Itâs just to show off how rich and important everyone is.â, Leon said and leant with crossed arms against the doorframe.
âI know how much you hate these things.â, Yn said, grabbed her bag and aimed for the bathroom to change her outfit as well, âBut I have to admit, you look good in this tuxedo. It suits you.â, she said through the half closed door.
Leon smirked, âOh, really? You know, maybe you could show me how much you like my outfit?â, he asked flirtatiously.
Yn opened the door again and stepped out, âFocus on the mission, Kennedy.â
Leon was hearing her words but his mind went kinda blank as he saw her robed in a floor-length, backless, black dress. The silky-soft fabric hugged all her curves perfectly and gave much input for many, many x-rated fantasies. Slowly, Leonâs eyes wandered upwards until he met her challenging glance. Slowly, he stepped forward with a smirk, âI might hate these events but I could get used to seeing you working in such a stunning outfit.â, Leon said low.
Yn saw dirty thoughts glittering behind his steel-blue eyes and smirked, âTake a picture, it might last longer. Come, we have to go.â, she said, passed Leon and knew that he was staring at her back all the way.
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Thirty minutes later, Yn and Leon were entering a huge, pompous decorated ballroom. Chandeliers bathed the room in dim, atmospheric light. Soft jazz music played in the background. And obviously a whole diamond mine had exploded because it was sparkling and twinkling in each corner. The room was filled with high-society and in the middle of it two special agents who tried to fit into this kind of world.
âShall we split up?â, Leon asked low.
Still with a wealthy smile on her lips, Yn shook her head, âLet us take a round together and then, if necessary, we split up.â, she said and linked her arm with Leonâs.
The idea had been good but quickly, they had to admit that the room was too stuffed with people. And because they searched for a guy, and everyone looked kinda the same in their black suits, they had difficulties finding their subject.
Evading into a quiet corner, Yn looked up at Leon, âThatâs not working. There are too many people here. Alright, we split up. I walk around a bit. You could monitor the guys who are without women like the group over there at the bar.â, she said and nodded unobtrusively into the said direction while putting a small intercom into her ear to activate it and gave Leon the other earpiece who mirrored her move. With a serious expression, her eyes met Leonâs, âIf one of us finds him, the other one comes to the position.â, she said and was about to leave.
Leon held her back, âBe careful, okay?â, he said and looked her caringly but serious in the eyes.
She smirked, âOf course. Iâm not the one with the reckless moves like fighting against infected dogs on a motorbike.â, and with that, she stepped back to vanish in the crowd.
Leon chuckled about her boldness and shook his head before he followed her idea to aim for the bar. He ordered a drink and while waiting for it, Leon looked left and right to check out the people around him if their target would be with them. Leon was just about to check an older man with salt-and-pepper hair as fragments of a conversation waved over to him, catching his attention.
âThese women are all the same. Rich, wealthy and absolutely boring.â, one tall man said before taking a sip of his Whiskey.
âYeah, or ugly. I mean, how many surgeries are really necessary? I get the impression that all these women here are just made out of plastic and silicone.â, another man said. He was a bit smaller than the first one.
Leon was just about to leave as the third guy said something that caught his attention to the point that he fully turned over to them, âYou might be right except with this pretty thing over there. What? None of you havenât seen her yet? Okay, then, sheâs mine.â, the guy said and let it sound as if the woman was just a piece of meat and he was the lion to hunt it down.
Leon knew he had to focus on the mission and he really was about to leave the group of idiots behind but then, he noticed the way how the guy looked at the unaware victim. It was a lust filled glance that even Leon felt disgusted by the sight. The guy was pretty sure about himself that he would be successful to win the woman over this evening. The guy, tall, dark haired and looking like a lot of money, licked over his lips while his eyes showed that he looked at a point that was lower than the womanâs waist. Now more interested in who the innocent lamb might be, Leon followed the guyâs glance and felt how his blood ran hot and cold at the same time.
Yn stood there, talking with an older lady and facing the group of guys with her back. The dress gave a beautiful sight of her flawless skin. While she talked, her body moved beautifully and she even swayed a bit to the soft tune of the music so that her hair fell over her bare back, dancing a little through the air.
âYou canât have her! I saw her first. I just couldnât say anything because I became speechless by her eyes.â, the first, tall guy said.
âBy her eyes? Forget them! Look at her god damn ass. So round and juicy.â, the guy said and his eyes became filled with raw, sexual hunger.
That was enough for Leon to forget the mission for a moment as he walked over to the group, âI couldnât miss hearing how you were talking about this young lady.â Leon said low, getting the attention of all three men at the same time, âStay away from her. All of you. Or otherwise, things will turn ugly.â, he said with a kind of threat lingering in his voice.
One of the men stepped closer to Leon, slightly towering over the agent and looking down, âWho do you think you are, huh? Nothing we do is your concern.â
Not impressed at all, Leon stepped forward, holding the manâs glance, âSheâs mine, get it? Therefore, yes, it concerns me how you are talking about her. So, do yourself a favor and stay away from her or I will become your worst nightmare. And trust me, I know what Iâm talking about.â, Leon said threateningly, leaving no room for any further arguments.
The guy stared at Leon for several more moments and considered his best next step but in the end, the guy saw something in Leonâs eyes that told him to better back off. And after another few seconds, the guy stepped back, nodded to his friends and disappeared somewhere else.
Leon went back to his drink and emptied it in one big sip. As he placed the glass back on the counter, Yn stood already next to him, leaning against the bar with a smirk on her lips, "So, I'm yours, huh?", she asked low.
With a shock filled glance, he stared at her and swallowed thickly, "Oh, uhm... Well... I- I didn't like the way he looked at you.", he stammered with an apologetic glance.
Yn nodded, "Yes, I heard that.â, she said, tapping at her ear with her index finger to remind him of the intercom. As Yn saw his awkward smile, she stepped forward, âYou know, to see you jealous and protective was kinda cute. But it was unnecessary, don't you think? I'm not your girlfriend."
Leon also stepped forward, a smirk was playing on his lips while he snaked his arm around her waist to bring her even closer, "Actually, we're just one date away that I can call you mine."
"Oh, really? Then, I would say we count this evening as a date, what do you think?", Yn suggested whispering against his lips which were just inches away.
"Deal.", Leon breathed before he kissed her. It was a deep kiss. Filled with hunger to show off to whom Yn belonged to. Yn tugged on his suit jacket to bring him even closer, knowing exactly where these clothes would land later this eveningâŚ
#leon resident evil#leon scott#leon scott kennedy#leon kennedy#leon s. kennedy x reader#leon s. kennedy#leon#leon s kennedy#resident evil infinite darkness#residen evil village#resident evil leon#leon in a suit is a thing
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tag as confused. idk why but i've noticed something about myself that confuses me. I'm 18 and I've realised now as I'm revising that I many times I can't finish anything - for example I eat a meal and almost always leave a bit behind. I'm revising my topics but none are fully revised - i leave a bit behind. I can't seem to get myself back to finishing things, it's like I'm already done and bored with it. I'm very bad at planning ahead and sticking to it, so i end up cramming eveyrthing. (1)
confused(2). I had a panic attack today because I barely revised for myfinals this week. I think I might fail. But i can never stick to anyschedule and plan I make and have lost trust in myself to do so, overthe years. I feel like a failure. I therefore hate thinking about thefuture and dealing with it and planning anything ahead of time too.But when I play video games or something I canât stop, and I canrarely be bothered enough to finish movies or tv shows. am i justunfocused?
Heyconfused!
Itotally understand being frustrated about not being able to finishanything. Sometimes itâs hard for me to focus and I canât finishanything I start. Sometimes this is a symptom of my mental illnesses,and sometimes I just havenât gotten enough sleep. There are a lot ofreasons that you might be experiencing this.
Pleaseremember that we are not professionals, so we canât diagnose you withany mental illness. However, from what youâre describing, you mightwant to look into ADHD. Iâve heard a lot of people who have ADHDdescribe symptoms similar to what youâre going through. They justcannot get themselves to focus no matter how hard they try or whatthey do. Itâs not because they are stupid or because they are doingsomething wrong, itâs just how their brain works.
Ifthis is seriously messing with your ability to go to school or hold ajob, I would strongly suggest you go and see someone who hasexperience treating ADHD. There are medications that help, and thereare some therapy techniques you can use to increase your focus. Iwould definitely recommend going to see a professional who hasexperience in treating focus issues. Some people think thatmeditation might help with ADHD, but there are actually a lot ofstudies that show that it can make it worse instead. Since it doesnâtbehave the same way as a lot of other illnesses, you need to talk tosomeone who knows what theyâre talking about.
Goodluck with everything, and I hope this can help!
âWhatwe achieve inwardly will change outer reality.â
~Mel
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