#and there's no guarantee you'll ever actually be able to get where you should/want to be

[glubsurleseuil]

Don't be scared - Chapter 1

This is the first chapter - Next

A Pennywise X F!Reader fanfic 'cause I need to get these ideas out of my head before they eat me up. I'll post this thing on AO3 when I'm not so lazy to create an account. If I go ahead with it, it'll be NSFW, sexually disturbing, gory, violent, reader is an autistic drepressed suicidal girl… In short, skip it if you're a sensitive soul. For the rest of you, enjoy (I hope).

(Note: It was translated by Deepl, English is not my mother tongue, so I apologise for any mistakes. If you want to correct me, don't hesitate!)

(Note 2: The image is by @fandomscreenshots but you should already know that because what she does is amazing)

You've always lived in Derry, Maine. Well, actually you were born in Derry, went to school in Derry and, like any good citizen, you now work in Derry. You don't like it, you never have, and you know that no matter what you do, you'll never like it.

Firstly, because no matter how hard you try since childhood, you just can't seem to make any friends. Worse, people seem to have agreed to shut you out and hate you. At best, they ignore you, at worst… well, let's just say there are certain people you've learned to avoid at all costs, so you don't have to spend the evening licking your wounds…

Secondly, because there's something unhealthy about the general atmosphere of this town, as if it were being devoured by a cancer that affected not only the surrounding greenery, but also the buildings and even the people. A cancer that could be called suffering, melancholy or despair. And although no one knows where these feelings come from, everyone seems to accept them as an inevitable burden.

Tonight, like most evenings, you're working at the Canal Rouge, a rather quiet bar where people can drink and listen to local artists perform on a small stage. You're a waitress, and it's not the most pleasant of jobs, especially when you're a woman. Fortunately, your boss is a woman too, and she's very strict about the respect customers show her staff, so things could be a lot worse.

But tonight, you're in a particularly bad mood. Fatigue has always been a difficult thing for you to deal with, and lately your nights have been… tormented. You've been having a dream, always the same with little difference, on and off for over a week. It's a hazy, dark, incoherent dream that's hard to remember. What you remember most is anguish, fear… and an unbearable feeling of being watched by something dangerous, making you feel like prey waiting to be devoured. When your therapist asked you to describe this dream, even with random words, you said 'fear', 'red' and… 'clown'. You laughed after saying that last word, a nervous, uncontrolled laugh, like a continuation of the one you always hear in this dream before waking up.

But tonight, the worst is yet to come, because you have to serve Jenny's gang as consumers, young people your own age who, like you, are stuck in Derry and like to pass the time by annoying other people. Especially you, since you met them in kindergarten. You know you won't be able to get home safely tonight…

And your fears are confirmed as you finish your shift. As you emerge into the alley to which the service door leads, you see them laughing at the end of it, looking in your direction. This is the way home. You quickly think of another option, but you know that even if you take a longer route, they'll be able to corner you sooner or later, and that's what they'll do. Unless… you go through the forest…

You don't hesitate, knowing that your pursuers won't follow. Their parents have given them the same instructions as you: never go into the forest at night. Ever. Your father had made it clear that he meant business by emphasizing his order with the back of his hand. But tonight, you're a grown-up, and between your dead father's old superstitions and Jenny and her gang's guaranteed beating, the choice was quickly made.

You head into the forest, at first more worried about your pursuers who, as expected, quickly abandon their target. Then you decide to turn on the torch on your phone, as it quickly becomes very dark between the tightly packed trees in the middle of the night. You recognize the path you're on and follow it to the ancient oak tree where you used to climb as a child to escape the bullies. But even this place, reassuring by day, gives off a menacing aura by night…

All is quiet, too quiet for a forest where animals should be going about their nocturnal lives. You get the impression that a kind of fog is floating around, light but unnatural, and as you look at the thick branches of the oak tree, you get a strange feeling… Like a memory from another life… Like a dream…

Suddenly, there's a sound. A sound you know well, having heard it every night for over a week. A laugh. A clown's laugh… You turn in all directions, shining your phone in every nook and cranny around the oak. And just as you realize that there's nothing there, that maybe it's your imagination playing tricks on you, the laughter starts up again. You jump back against the tree, light pointed ahead, anticipating the appearance of someone, something… The laughter becomes more distinct, closer… But it's not coming from in front of you, nor from the sides… It comes… from above?

With a quick gesture, you point the light towards the branches of the oak tree and there, hidden in the shadows of the leaves, you see it: a clown. No, THE clown. The one who has haunted your dreams, distressed your nights, devoured your sanity. This present moment has repeated itself endlessly in your nightmare and now it's all happening for real, clear as day and just as terrifying.

With a muffled scream, you drop your phone, the lamp face down and your legs buckling beneath you. The little light that escapes from beneath your phone only faintly illuminates the bottom of the tree, but you know IT's there.

And it's not long before he leaps down from the tree. You can only make out a silhouette in the darkness, and as you hear him coming closer, you try to remember the end of the dream. It's all a blur, and all that comes back is a vague memory of a hunt in which you are the prey… Back on the grassy ground, you pull yourself back as best you can with your hands, never taking your eyes off the presence. Is this how you're going to die?

He moves slowly closer, slipping into the shadows. You can make out that he's leaning forward, then addressing you in a childlike voice.

"Hiya Y/N! I'm Pennywise, the dancing clown!"

He suddenly picks up your phone from the floor, pulling it up slowly, light downwards, gradually revealing his appearance as he continues.

"I've been looking forward to meeting you, you know? Don't be scared, I'm not going to kill you…"

As he utters these words, light finally shines on his face, reflected in his abnormally large and sharp teeth, piercing yellow eyes focused on you, and horror fills you.

"… yet."

The instinct to survive gives you new energy. You leap to your feet and flee the way you came, briefly illuminated by your phone in the clown's hands. You run at full speed, ignoring the noises behind you that make you think he's chasing you. If you've got a chance of getting away, you're going to take it. In fact, the forest exit isn't far off. One last push! You close your eyes and accelerate again… when hands often clutch your collar, brutally stopping your momentum.

"There you are, you bastard!"

"I told you she'd come back! She's such a pussy!"

"No way out now, you bitch!"

Jenny and her gang… It was Tim, the big muscular guy who caught you. They were waiting for you just outside the forest…

"Why are you running so fast? Are you afraid of the big bad wolf?"

They burst out laughing, but the sound reaches you distorted. The adrenalin from your run is wearing off too slowly and you can still hear your heart pounding in your eardrums. You struggle on, your brain unable to make sense of what has just happened. Suddenly, you hear a foul noise. A kind of hoarse, inhuman growl, coming out of the depths of the woods like an echo to their pitiful mocking laughter. You feel Tim's hands trembling with uncontrollable fear on your collar and watch their faces disintegrate before your eyes. Tim lets go and they all flee in a single scream of terror, leaving you behind.

You turn around, your body still tired from your frantic run, and you quickly understand what made them flee: golden eyes, shining menacingly in the darkness, perched on a huge, muscular, fur-covered figure, its multiple sharp teeth accentuating the evil growl rolling down its throat. A werewolf.

You barely have time to realize that it's the clown from earlier before he disappears between the trees with a hoot that sends shivers down your spine. Just as you regain your strength to flee, something falls near you. You examine it carefully: it's your phone, and as you turn the screen towards you, you see a message written in a torn red font:

DON'T BE SCARED

You don't wait any longer and run towards town without looking back.

[suzukiblu]

ask game: purr

"Dude, you need to develop super-speed, like, yesterday," Bart huffs sullenly. "I cannot wait the amount of subjective time that it's supposedly gonna take."

"Maybe I should start tanning and really max out my yellow sun intake?" Kon jokes, feeling weirdly warm at the thought that Bart thinks they'll still be fucking around like this by the time his Kryptonian physiology comes in enough to stop making his TTK do all the heavy lifting. Especially because it's Bart, who has subjective time to deal with and less patience than a bored goldfish.

That makes Kon feel pretty good about himself too.

It's not a real guarantee that he'll ever develop super-speed, of course, but given certain accidental temporary forays into full adulthood and also what Black Zero's apparent powerset had been, well, he's got some hope for the possibility.

"You're kidding but I'm gonna buy you like eight sunlamps tomorrow and take you to the beach every freaking weekend this summer," Bart grumbles, rubbing a hand across the small of Kon's back. "And maybe we'll hit a tanning salon while we're at it."

"Oh yeah? You in that much of a hurry for somebody to be able to keep up with you?" Kon asks, biting his lip at the thought.

"I can't even explain how patient I've been being waiting for you to be able to keep up with me, actually," Bart says, and Kon feels even warmer over the way that he specified "you". "You'll get it when you actually know what the frick I'm talking about when I talk about subjective time, okay? It will all be clear to you then. Like glass or crystal or the empty space where my dwindling self-restraint used to be."

"I am pretty into the idea of the two of us being able to fit in a supersonic quickie literally whenever we want," Kon muses.

"Ah," Bart says, and blurs at the edges. His dick goes rock-hard against Kon's ass again inside another heartbeat. Kon grins into the mat and rolls his hips back against the sensation of vibration.

"You know, we could maybe work on your stamina a bit, Imp, but I gotta say I fucking love your refractory period," he purrs admiringly. He doubts he's getting off like this himself, but he has no complaints about Bart doing it. Like he said before, it's flattering.

Also maybe if Bart gets off a couple times he'll be able to slow down long enough for Kon to get to kiss him for a while or something.

That'd be pretty nice.

[hananoami]

[ Open Orbit ] Stage 120 Clear VOD

I was previously hard stuck on this stage for quite some time; since 04/21 according to my earliest blog entry about this stage here. What originally started off as a meme attempt run turned into an actual CLEAR!! After a few attempts in the second half that is... (ᵕ—ᴗ—) Before I go in depth about my experience some notable information about this fight-- Stage 120 is the final stage that's currently available in the Deepspace Trials until the next big update in July. Like all x0 stages it requires two teams: Team 01 uses 6-Emerald memories Team 02 uses 6-Violet memories. TBH, I'm still in shock over this clear. I really didn't expect to clear it using the memories and protocores I had equipped. Literally awestruck as I'm writing this, reflecting on everything. Below are my thoughts and reflection about this wild adventure, as well as my final team set up and stat attributes.

BEFORE AND AFTER

Here's my before and after team set up for Open Orbit - Stage 120. I want to note this change was made as a meme/suggestion amongst friends during Xavier's Shimmering Moonlight limited-time banner. It was due to me getting super duper lucky with my pulls, which I will write about soon. Originally I wanted to respect the Protofield Stellactrum and match the colors for the perfect match and additional bonuses. I usually try to match the stellactrum because every bit of stats helps. However, I also want to mention that there have been instances where I opt to go off color and attempt to brute force it. For the record, this would be the most notorious one I have ever brute forced. It's not that I haven't attempted to brute force this stage before. I have. My Violet build with Rafayel was lacking in CRIT and I wasn't entirely satisfied with the protocores I rolled. So I tried to brute force it with my Zayne foreseer build, using his highest leveled memories. Usually that build carries me hard since it has a duo rank i bonus. however I still wasn't able to clear it due to lack of damage. My plan was to farm for more protocores. Specifically look for better delta cores with CRIT rate as its main stat and upgrade the ones with better substats to swap out what I currently had equipped. It's a long grind. Protocore farming is the true gacha in this game, unlike the wish pool where you're guaranteed a memory from pity. You never know what you'll get or if you'll even see what you're looking for. Well, like I mentioned earlier I got really lucky with my pulls for Xavier's banner and came out with his new myth pair at Duo Rank 3. I had cores from my SN build I could have used, but since I didn't need oath recovery anymore (duo rank ii bonus replaces having to equip that stat) I had two options to choose from-- Expedited Energy Boost or Oath Strength. So I tapped some beta cores to see what I could work with. You know, the usual trial and error testing. As luck would have it, as I was gambling my protocore upgrades I somehow managed to roll 2 Expedited Energy Boost cores with similar substats. A friend who was watching me tap away suggested that I try to brute force the fight again, but this time use my new Xavier solars/EEB protocores for the second half and use Zayne for the first half. I'm always down to try new things. So we decided to science it. Xavier's Moonlight myths is my first duo rank 3 pair. I was genuinely curious to see if it would be possible to clear open orbit - stage 120. Narrator voice: Lumiere cleared the fight with flying colors. (even if it did take him several attempts during the second half, hehe) The disrespect though lmao. It just goes to show you that there is no right or wrong way to play the game. Match the colors. Don't match the colors. You should use whatever is available to you and works best for you. Just have fun with it ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

ADDITIONAL SCREENSHOTS

Team A team set-up and stat attributes

Companion: Zayne's Foreseer Weapon: Everlasting Song ♡ Affinity Bonus: 88 When you take a fatal blow, Zayne teleports to you, blocks a hit, and counter attacks. Enemies will be knocked back. [ HP 3400 || DEF 85 || ATK 170 ] Pair Bonus [FS] - Starting Effect: increases team DMG by 8%, and reduces team DMG taken by 8%. When fighting together with Foreseer, your Active Skill DMG is increased by 25%. - Duo Rank 1: boosts Ardent Oath charge by 20%. When you and Foreseer are granted with Wards of Curses, team DMG will be increased by 12%.

5☆ Forever Sealed (sapphire/solar) Lv 80/awakened rank 1 using +9 and +12 SSR protocores

5☆ Promise Everlasting (sapphire/solar) Lv 80/awakened rank 2 using +9 and +12 SSR protocores

5☆ Business Trip (sapphire/lunar) Lv 80 rank 3 using +12 SSR protocores

5☆ Hearts Within Reach (sapphire/lunar) Lv 80 rank 1 using +12 SSR protocores

5☆ Cozy Afternoon (ruby/lunar) Lv 80 rank 3 using +12 SSR protocores

5☆ Medical Rescue (Ruby/lunar) Lv 70 using +9 SSR protocores

Team B team set-up and stat attributes

Companion: Xavier's Lumiere Weapon: Moonchaser ♡ Affinity Bonus: 93 When you take a fatal blow, Xavier teleports to you, blocks a hit, and counter attacks. Enemies will be knocked back. [ HP 3600 || DEF 90 || ATK 180 ] Pair Bonus [MN] - Starting Effect: increases team DMG by 8%, and reduces team DMG taken by 8%. The Enemy [Moonstruck] is extended by 3 seconds. - Duo Rank 1: boosts Ardent Oath charge by 20%. [Moonlight] will attach 1 stack of [Phasing Moon] to the enemy, increasing DMG dealt by 25%. - Duo Rank 2: increases Energy Charge cap by 1. When [Moonlight] is activated, the cooldown time of your Active and Resonance Skill is reduced by 0.5 seconds, and a small amount of energy charge is restored. - Duo Rank 3: increases team DMG by 8%. When your Active Skill or Charged Attack hits a target with [Moonstruck], [Moonlight] will be activated, boosting CRIT DMG by 30%.

5☆ Midnight Whispers (amber/solar) Lv 80/awakened rank 3 using +9 SSR protocores

5☆ Midnight Rainfall (amber/solar) Lv 80/awakened rank 3 using +9 SSR protocores

5☆ Unique Aftertaste (ruby/lunar) Lv70 rank 1 using +12 SSR protocores

5☆ Tender Night (amber/lunar) Lv70 rank 1 using +12 SSR protocores

5☆ Romantic Afternoon (emerald/lunar) Lv70 rank 1 using +9 and +12 SSR protocores

5☆ Fluffy Trap (emerald/lunar) Lv70 rank 1 using +9 protocores

[deepwithintheabyss]

damn I had forgotten huge parts of this and how hard this scene hits

I guess it's a good sign that just reading this hurts me so much

from the Dad!Jason au the very first scene I actually wrote for it before the baby fever took over my brain

I put this under a read more because well, this would be a huge emotional scene for the story so only read if you want to get spoiled (even though I'd probably edit this a lot still)

"Hey Jason?" Tim asks, still staring blankly at the wall from where he sat in Jason's lap.

Jason hummed as he glanced down, glad that Tim finally was done with pretending to be a living statue, he had started to get really worried and wondered what he should do.

"If I-" Tim hesitated visibly, before turning around to stare just at the side of his head, clearly not able to hold eye contact right now. He took a deep breath before beginning again, "If I forget everything could you," he paused and Jason unconsciously dragged Tim closer to him at the mention of him forgetting everything.

"Could you please not give up on me? I don't-," his voice wavered "I don't want this second chance, I don't want everything I have been through to be for nothing, I don't want to forget everything, my live my friends my family, the good and the bad. I don't want to vanish like it's nothing and-," his voice broke on a sob and he aggressively rubbed at his eyes to stop the tears.

"I can't trust that Bruce won't decide this is better for me, that I'll get to grow up free of my burdens and traumas. I know that it will probably seem so alluring to him to have one of his sons happy and free of the weight of the world but," he shook his head violently, unable to continue the train of thought.

"And even if it was just that I can't go back there when I'm like that. I already grew up once with Bruce and I can't do that again. Especially as a small defenseless child who won't know anything else. I can't to be stuck in the same problems again. I think, I think it would break me when I remember again."

He turned to look Jason fully in the eyes, to show how desperate he was how much he meant this, and to know Jason wouldn't lie to him.

"So can you promise me that you'll take care of me? That you find a solution?"

Jason's eyes were full of sadness from where he looked at Tim, it ached in him deeply that Tim would want to make this choice but he understood, if the price of a do-over was forgetting everything that had happened he wouldn't take it in a million years. He had been shaped by everything to become the way he was now and he couldn't imagine being ever different (even if sometimes it seemed easier to just lose the ugly parts that made his life so complicated,) and it was never guaranteed to begin with that the second choice would be any better. For all they knew it could turn out worse than it was before, with the added guilt of knowing they would be responsible for it in parts by giving it.

His voice sounded rough to his own ears as he went to reply, "I- yeah of course babybird. If that's what you want."

[thetruejerrycan]

I'm honestly kind of dreading SF6 season 3. Whatever major balance patch comes out will determine what Capcom wants the game to be. I love SF6, it's my third favorite fighter, but it has major problems that really hurt my enjoyment of the game, especially at a higher level. I don't think drive rush is a problem more than it is an unpopular design choice (there's nothing you can do about it as a whole now because it's baked in. If there's one thing I'd like to see changed, I would like them to fix the screen freeze eating inputs because it always felt like a bug rather than intended part of the mechanic because the way it works is inconsistent with other screen freezes in the game), but individual character balance and throw loops are easily the weak points of the game right now.

SF6 is designed in a very specific way. Most buttons are negative to where even jab pressure isn't guaranteed, thus putting a strong focus on decision-making. Almost every action you can take is a commitment that can be hard punished, hence punish counter as a mechanic. But there are a handful of characters in this game who either don't adhere to this design philosophy at all or have easily abusable ways of circumventing it. Ken is still the best character in the game because he has it all and more importantly doesn't have to make any meaningful decisions to get his win condition. All it takes is one jab and a run tatsu for him to get the corner and run his meterless throw loop with zero effort. In fact, Ken gets a lot without spending any resources unlike every other character in the game. It's not so bad to the point you never see Ken burn out but the disparity between how much drive he doesn't need to spend compared to the rest of the cast is obnoxiously apparent.

Speaking of obnoxious, M. fucking Bison. This character is honest to god the worst thing that ever happened to this game. If you don't like the way Street Fighter 6 plays, you'll love Bison because he's playing Street Fighter 5. I get the idea of what they're going for with this character, he's an oppressive rushdown character with good meterless pressure that is difficult to punish if you don't know what to look for. While I am a little annoyed that he's designed in a way that incentivizes you to counter hit him rather than punishing him (the central mechanic of the game), I don't have a problem with a character like him existing nor do I have a problem with him being good. The major issue is that it takes so little effort to actually play him well. His normals are mostly unpunishable with some of the better ones including his 5HP being plus. I play Ryu so I'm no stranger to having free plus frames but the difference is that Bison is a much stronger character in neutral so tripping up people trying to counter hit him is so easy, not to mention that Bison is notorious for having a combo that pretty much kills every character. It is the only combo you see Bison players do because it's easy and the damage is ludicrous. And I haven't even mentioned the mostly safe on block neutral skip that is his scissor kicks, or his safe on block OD psycho crusher that also blows through air attacks and projectiles. And people will say these moves aren't that bad because you can drive impact them on reaction, which is bullshit. Even if DI is the best thing you can do, you don't always have access to it because of the way the drive gauge constantly fluctuates throughout the match (not to mention the health cost), depending on the situation you might put yourself into burnout and not be able to deal enough damage to kill, and you should not just have to rely on hard callout system mechanics to beat extremely abusable moves that a character can use for free. That's just not fair. Between M. Bison's repertoire of attacks that are either impossible or proportionally too difficult to reliably punish on block and Akuma's insane plus frames out of demon flip, I genuinely think Capcom made these two DLC characters overtuned on purpose.

And finally, my main problem with this game that I absolutely will not defend, throw loops. Throw loops are without question the worst part of the entire game. I have yet to meet a single person who even likes throw loops. Everybody wants them out of the game whether they are in master rank or have never even touched ranked matchmaking. The corner is scary enough as it is not only on accounts of it being a fighting game, drive impact is an unblockable wall splat that leads to combos. Throws are also already very strong in this game because they're frame 3 (which makes them the fastest move in the game), knock down, and don't tend to create a lot of distance between both players in the corner. I get that Capcom didn't want the game to be devolved into fishing for perfect parries, hence why throwing people in a parry state take additional damage and suffer a hard knockdown, and why perfect parry punishes have 50% scaling. But throw loops are the worst possible solution to preventing this because it creates a different brainless problem. The game up until you're in the corner is rock-paper-scissors, and when you're in the corner, it feels like it's supposed to be another RPS but instead turns into a 50/50.

On offense, your main three options are to go for another throw, do a meaty strike, or shimmy. On defense, your main three options are to do an invincible reversal, block/parry, or do a fast low. But like I said, this isn't actually an RPS, it's effectively a 50/50 that favors the attacker. Shimmy is simply too safe against two of the better and more rewarding options. Walking backward makes you block the reversal and it also lets you walk back in and punish parry attempts. This and the fact that strikes beat throws on the same frame also makes trying to tech the throw incredibly risky. Frustratingly, if you go for a low and they're committed to a meaty, you lose straight up and you get blown up on counterhit for it. SFV had this exact same problem and from what I can tell, nobody liked it there either. Interestingly, neither of these have throw invuln on wakeup, which is just, why? Every other game has wakeup throw invuln and don't suffer from this problem whatsoever when when those games' grapplers are really good.

I've heard two main takes about solving the issue: one is the suggestion of increasing pushback from the corner with every successful throw which while it would be a solution to throw loops, landing multiple throws in succession in and of itself is not an issue that needs changing. The other take I've heard is that if they did end up removing throw loops, they would have to majorly restructure each character's moveset around this change, which first of all, no they wouldn't. Every character has some sort of baked in strike-throw and the frame data reflects this. A move being +3 is a deliberate design choice. There are 2 frames of throw invuln after being hit or blocking, which means that you can either input a throw that is 1 frame more difficult to react to or go for a 4 frame jab which will intercept the opponent if they attempt to counterattack. But an important distinction to make is this only works against grounded opponents. As soon one of you is knocked down, the relationship between all of these options is completely different and frankly irrelevant to the discussion of fixing throw loops. Secondly, even if Capcom is intentionally designing characters to abuse throw loops in the corner, that's a really fucking stupid way of making strong characters.

I've talked about it before and I'm not going to stop until I feel like Capcom starts listening to the community about this, but I genuinely think the solution is to just add wakeup throw invuln to the game. Every other Street Fighter game other than SFV has this. Even if it was just the 2 frames that you get after hit or block, it means you can't just meaty throw to invalidate two of the opponent's options in an RPS and your other two main options on offense don't have to change, and on defense you actually have a proper RPS that's still in the spirit of the game. Invincible reversals are still invincible so they beat both throws and strikes and lose to blocking, parrying still gets blown up by shimmy, and fast lows can reliably beat shimmy attempts. Universally, this would be a great change.

But does Capcom think so? Do they care that throw loops are just not fun to play with, against, or even watch? What about the aforementioned problem characters? That's my main fear with season 3 and onward. They've done so good with this game even in updating it but at the same time I feel like they just aren't responding to community feedback nearly enough to make the game feel healthy

[amysubmits]

Hi there, hope you are well. Realistically speaking, how can I get over the fantasy or rather my "unrealistic" desire of how I want my first time having sex to be? Nobody forgets their first time, but I can't help but want to it be a certain way that I know isnt exactly attainable. I want it to be romantic and sensual and very very intimate, in other words for it to be really love making instead of just getting it done with. I am mid twenties so I am pretty young and obviously inexperienced so I am not sure if it isnt right of me to want that cause its not really how the real deal is or if its just me being nieve to want something so unrealistic..

Hi! I am doing pretty well, thank you!

I don't think having a desire for something specific is ever bad or wrong. But, I can understand why you may find yourself wanting to double check that your expectations are reasonable so that you don't end up setting yourself up to be let down.

I think it's really reasonable to aim for romantic, sensual and intimate. I think your best bet for making that happen would be to talk to your partner in depth about what those three things mean to you or how to create those feelings for you. Because what feels romantic to one person might not feel romantic to you, and vise-versa. This is just me, but something that came to my mind with those words was massage. If massage helps you to feel intimate and sensual then perhaps specifically discussing starting out with a slow moving, quiet massage might be a plan you could make that would nearly guarantee that you'd at least tick off the 'sensual' goal if nothing else. Perhaps you can come up with other specific things to include that you know have a really high likelihood of making you feel intimate and romantic. In my mind, where you need to leave a lot of space for flexibility is in the actual sex part of it. Bodies are finicky especially when our emotions run high and it's natural to be nervous your first time, or your first time with a new person, or you're with someone who you know its their first time - and sometimes anxiety makes it hard to relax and that can make our bodies not respond to sex as positively as it would if we were able to relax more. The first few times I attempted to have PIV sex it wasn't possible (vaginismus). For other people they might be able to experience penetration but it might not feel good, or the guy might struggle with getting or sustaining an erection. Any series of things could 'go wrong' and so I'd try to go into it just planning to make an attempt and learn about your body and your partners body. I would try not to go into it hoping to have amazing sex that makes you both cry and orgasm together, or something like that. Because while that might sound really romantic, it's sometimes really hard to make our bodies react the way we'd like them to. So try to leave lots of space for how that part of it might go. But a mood of romance, sensuality and intimacy should be able to be achieved regardless of whether your body parts respond as you're hoping they will. So I'd try to focus on that rather than the exact details of how he sex will go. Maybe also ask yourself if there are needs you have based on fears. I easily could be reading way too much into what you wrote, but with you saying what you said about 'just getting it over with' I wonder if you have specific fears about sex not lasting very long, and/or about feeling used or something along those lines. And if you can pinpoint what your fears are, you can communicate those with your partner and see if you can come up with ways to buffer against those. Maybe discuss cuddling after the sex, for example, if that might make you feel like it was less of a 'just getting it over with' kind of experience. It's cliche, but communication is often really key to working things like this out. Try to communicate your needs and wishes as clearly as possible and with the right partner you'll get pretty far together by doing that. :)

[fizzingwizard]

pt 2

Continuing. So this idea of the "male provider" is still very ingrained despite societal shifts. The men in the video were able to identify the harm it does to them, while still considering it important (in the anti-feminists' case, vital), and not considering at all women who are providers like my mom. Even though my parents were traditional and my mom didn't even want to be a provider. For her it was circumstance. Meanwhile, my dad probably has undiagnosed conditions (that's what he says himself). Who knows - his mother was a drinker, though I don't know how much she did during pregnancy. I mention it to point out that, for someone like that to provide adequately for a family on his own would be really hard unless he was rich or something. The male as provider is inherently flawed because men are flawed. Men are flawed because humans are flawed. You can't as a man guarantee you'll be everything your wife needs because you're human. She can't guarantee you that either of course. But traditional roles don't allow for her filling the gap if her man struggles! And if circumstances turn out that way, like with my mom, she might be able to do it... but not with any credit! Not with any pride. I once asked my mom, when she was lecturing me about the female responsibility to protect male pride at all costs, where female pride fit in. She went quiet. She'd never even thought about "female pride."

That was the main difficulty I had with the video. None of the men could get past their "provider" identity. One of the feminist men spoke about his struggle to accept help from female family members after his brothers' death. I thought about my own dad and brother, freely accepting my mother's money, time, and emotional support. Once again, I believe men should have support in general, including from women - I just absolutely cannot with this praiseworthy "identity" that applies to all men and is somehow to women's benefit, while completely ignoring what women's lived experiences actually are. The men in my family are Not. The. Providers. Or the support - the women are doing BOTH.

The anti-feminists also attribute the majority of social problems to classism. They're not wrong about that, but they don't acknowledge the intersection of gender and class. (Race was occasionally mentioned, but was more of a footnote.) They say they think female-dominated jobs should earn more pay but don't see the value it's been given as related to gender because "if a man is a teacher he'd make the same salary." If a woman is a CEO she'll make a high salary same as a man, and she has more opportunity now to do that than ever before - therefore no need for feminism, and all those underpaid caretaking jobs that are part of the backbone of society are somehow all incidental, having nothing to do with the correlation with femininity.

I ranted about this before, but I gotta end with the amazing take on the anti-feminists' side that they are able to both "believe women are equal" and that "feminism is unnecessary" and ALSO that "women are unfit to be president." They do not believe misogyny is an issue in the modern world, yet they don't think women should be leaders, and they don't think that is misogynistic. It is absolutely no different than believing women shouldn't vote. If they lived in the 1910s-20s that's what they'd be arguing. "I think women are equal to men, I just don't think they should have an equal say in government because they're [insert sexist reason] and this isn't misogyny, it's just how it is!" Absolutely baffling. And terrifying. I really appreciated the one feminist guy who was like "So it seems to me that in this alleged matriarchal society I'm in, all I have to worry about as a man is feeling bad sometimes. But in a patriarchal society, women have their wealth, liberty, and freedom restricted..." Lol. I have no doubt that the anti-feminists consider getting accused of mansplaining an equal trauma to being denied your own vote.

It was nice to hear some of the arguments made and see a couple bright spots for a common ground. I didn't think any of the men in the video hated women. I do think the anti-feminists have decided on social values by themselves, regardless of what anyone else, let alone women, actually want, or how society actually functions, and don't see that for the authoritarian act of control it is - I'd even call it violence. I come away from this video thinking we most definitely DO still need feminism. Evidently very much so!

[uncle-fruity]

I think there's also a big difference between wanting to do art for community vs. wanting community so you can profit off your art. When I say ppl should do art for themselves, I don't mean they should take all their drawings & hide them away & be satisfied that they did it at all & that they shouldn't even need or want people to see their stuff. I mean they should do the art that speaks to their interests, that tells the stories they care about, that gives a personal POV, etc -- and not try to do empty greatest-common-denominator art that they don't connect with for the sake of popularity & profit. (For example, drawing fan art because it'll get ppl to engage easier than your original work, not because you love the thing you're doing fan art of.) Like, there's a big difference between doing art that you need to get attention for so you can make money as an artist and doing art to share with a community for the sake of engaging with those people & getting your ideas out there. If you don't count sharing your art with your friends and family as engagement or community, then I don't think you're actually wanting to build those things as much as wanting to make money off your hard-earned skills. I also don't think there's anything especially wrong with wanting to prioritize money in an increasingly pay-to-live world, nor is there a problem with wanting to be paid for the hard work you put into your art nor is there a problem with wanting online engagement to gain clientele -- that's just good business.

But if what you're really looking for is community & genuine, enthusiastic engagement with your art, you probably aren't going to find that online unless you're very lucky and very good at promoting yourself on social media to the right people. If you don't care about profit & just want more people to care about and engage with your work, I recommend joining an in person group (or starting one if you don't have any in your area). I never feel more artistically fulfilled than when I go to my monthly comic creators group and am surrounded by other creatives who are constantly asking what I'm working on and encouraging each other. Also, I personally organized a group of queer creatives who do all sorts of art and community outreach efforts -- that group actually has a table at Pride this year where we will be doing a pay-what-you-want art shop, specifically to make nice (usually expensive) originals accessible to folks who would otherwise not be able to afford them. And there's no guarantee that any of that will eventually translate into more money for me, but I do it for the community and support. I am hopeful and optimistic that I will also gain a few more commissions by just putting myself and my work out there, but if all I ever achieve is getting engagement & community from my friends & art groups, I am happy with that.

I guess what I'm trying to get at is... I don't think most people are going to find that kind of satisfaction online. Not that it's impossible, obviously, but for the vast majority of us, we are in an oversaturated market online & your success really depends on how appealing you can be online. If you join a media corporation to make your art & money, you have to deal with the market being fairly hostile to anything too weird/off-putting/diverse/original, and it is far more likely that you'll find yourself working on shit you hate so you can pay your bills than it is that you'll get your own show/comic run/etc that gets big enough to satisfy your need for engagement & community.

I think clicks & likes & reblogs & comments can feel empty because it's so easy to dehumanize people online. You might get 100 likes, but your brain might not translate that into 100 actual people engaging with your work. It's why I think every artist should try to find offline communities to belong to, because just 5 other artists telling you how cool/interesting/valuable your art is will always feel better than 100 people pushing "like!" and fucking off into the internet void.

Idk. No hate or judgement here. Folks will do their art for whatever reasons they have to do their art. I just hope that y'all can find ways to make it meaningful to yourselves and the people around you.

"immoral" "self-destructive" opinion or whatever but making art for no one fucking sucks shit

[vampiricgf]

finished starfield and man do I have some thoughts

first it's bullshit to give you the best weapons in the game at the very end and then tada you don't get to use them if you're like me and check off every single quest before finishing. I started a ng+ save just to see if they'd be in my inventory or somewhere I could pick them up and nope. I understand the assumption is that if you're doing ng+ you'll be a high enough level to get really good drops pretty much immediately but what if I don't wanna gamble? What if I choose to not do the main story again and just miss a ton of opportunities for those drops? guess you can enjoy not seeing those weapons appear again

also if you choose to not do the main story you can't complete the commitment quests with a romanced character??? How does that make any fucking sense? oh I see you guys just didn't wanna write in a divergent path for if the player tells the truth about being starborn in a ng+ file, lazy

I did enjoy the bit where you get to see the consequences of all your major choices and how it influenced your universe, that was very nice and a good way to wrap things up plus give ideas for different choices my only issue is that it seems like there's only two outcomes for every choice? for expecting people to do 10 ng+ cycles to get the fully decked out starborn stuff it means that end sequence will get stale after the second time through and much less interesting when making your choices in a playthrough since you already know if you pick x y will happen or vice versa. give us some more variety to keep things interesting if you want people going through 10+ playthroughs to exhaust the armor and weapons

STOP LOCKING THINGS BEHIND POINT SYSTEMS. seriously why is the bar that tells you if you're detected while sneaking locked behind a fucking perk level system?? that seems pretty basic and like something you could just toss out for base stealth but idk maybe that's just me. also if you're going to give ships as rewards for quests don't skill lock them. They'll sit there and I won't touch them because I'm too busy dumping points into actual shit I need for a build to waste a bunch on design or engineering just to be able to use a ship, it's also not a good choice to go well you can use it in ng+ if you do the quest again because you'll get more points as you keep leveling up. Not every player is going to want to go through ng+ some people are happy playing once but will be disappointed they have a useless quest reward gathering dust

there should be a bigger emotional scene with whoever the player is romancing when they talk about going through the unity for the first playthrough. It felt so flat I was like okay glad you're real excited about the idea of being permanently separated from your spouse in the multiverse with zero guarantees you'll ever see this version of them again but I'm actually pretty broken up about it. Goodbye forever or whatever

Overall despite my criticisms I did have a ton of fun playing and I will probably do at least this ng+ file but idk doing 10+ files is a bit too intensive for my taste with not a ton of pay off for the time sink. the romance is something that, if possible, should be reworked in another major update maybe. idk after playing bg3 starfield is so dull in comparison with its romance choices and dialogue. the characters are fun, they have the foundation for something really cool but there was just no execution on most of it which is disappointing and I can see why there's like zero active fandom specifically for the romance. there's only so much fill in the blank style shit people are willing to do before they lose interest

[00katrinka00]

Landcaster Legacy Gen 7 Update #12

"Oh, my watcher!" Janie exclaimed. "it's really you, the Lacy Landcaster. I'm such a big fan." "And who are you?" Lacy asked. The question wasn't just directed at Janie, but Violet too. "Oh, I'm Janie, and this is your granddaughter, Violet. We brought you back from the dead"

"I see that much," Lacy rolled her eyes. "Can we just go home?" Violet asked quietly. She couldn't help but feel like anxiety was consuming her. Which of her family members was now dead? Was it her mother, father, Leo, or watcher forbid, Rosie? "You're so boring," Janie scoffed.

Regardless of what Janie wanted, all three girls began walking back through Moonwood Mill. "I'm just worried," Violet explained to Janie. "The well said someone I care about is going to die." "Oh please," Janie brushed her off. "It was just trying to scare you, nobody is dead."

"How would you know?" Violet asked. "If someone had died, your parents would have woken you up to break the news, and when they realized you weren't in bed, they would have called you," explained Janie. "What if they don't know yet?" "Someone died and they don't know, sure."

"This is serious, Janie!" exclaimed Violet. "The well was just trying to scare you," Janie said again. "When you get back home, you'll see, everyone is alive, and I'll be proven right." "You're sure about this?" "Absolutely!"

After arriving back in Copperdale Janie split from Violet and Lacy and headed back to her own home. "Can I ask a favor of you?" Violet asked Lacy as they walked back in silence. "I can't stop you from asking, but there are no guarantees I'll agree to whatever you want me to do."

Violet took a deep breath "so all I've ever wanted to do is being a singer when I grow up. My family think I should go to college, meet people who can help me in the industry, but I have no interest in college. It'll take too long, and I'll be considered too old for the industry"

"You did the whole acting thing, and you became successful without going to college," Violet continued telling Lacy. "Can you maybe help convince my parents that I can be successful without college as well?"

"You brought me back from the dead for that?" Lacy said, she sounded annoyed. "No." "You owe me though," Violet said. "I brought you back." "I never asked you to do that!" exclaimed Lacy. "I was actually enjoying the whole death thing, I was happy. I never wanted this."

"Just do this, please, for me?" "I don't even know you," Lacy pointed out. "I don't even have a granddaughter; Isla had boys. I don't know maybe practice, work on your skills develop some work ethic, and then they'll believe that college isn't necessary for you." "So unfair."

The rest of the walk home was in silence, Violet had hoped that her parents would not have realized she was returning home much later than their agreed upon curfew, but her hopes left when she saw her mother standing in the entry way looking angrier than Violet had ever seen her.

Then it hit Violet, her mother was angry, not sad, so nobody had died. "Where have you been, Violet Jane Landcaster!" Mads said her voice thick with anger. "Mom, I'm sorry," was all Violet was able to say. "Living room, now."

Ethan was waiting on the couch as Mads, and Violet took their seats. Not knowing what to do or where to go, Lacy just took a seat in the living room as well. "You have a lot of explaining to do young lady," Ethan said sternly, just then he seemed to notice Lacy. "Who's this?"

"I'm Lacy Landcaster," said Violet awkwardly "Violet brought me back from the dead" "You've got to be kidding me" "I think we should talk to Violet alone," said Ethan directing his words to Lacy "You're more than welcome to our guest room it's in the next room and to the left"

"What happened tonight?" Mads asked. "You're bringing people back from the dead?" "No," Violet said quickly. "Well, yes, but it's not what it looks like. I wanted to prove to you guys that college isn't necessary for me to be successful. I thought Lacy would help convince you."

"Oh, my watcher," Mads pinched her nose. "You can't just bring people back from the dead, sweetheart," said Ethan. "Have you ever thought of working hard, developing your skills as a way to convince us college isn't necessary?" Mads asked. "That's hard though," complained Violet

"And what did you do with the 5,000 simoleons that was taken from our account?" Mads asked. "It, um," Violet stuttered. "Well, it was an offering for the well." "The well?" asked Ethan. "The well, I made a wish, and it brought Lacy back."

"Your father and I need to discuss your punishment," Mads explained to Violet. "For now, go to bed." "How much trouble and I in?" Violet asked. "I don't think you want to know," Ethan said to her.

Leo was leaving Rosie's room, after having just comforted her from a nightmare, when Violet made her way up the steps. When he saw his sister Leo's eyes narrowed. "What the hell is wrong with you?" Leo said his voice raised. "Excuse me?"

"I heard Mom and Dad talking earlier, what the hell makes you think it's okay to steal money from them?" Leo asked angerly. "I really don't want to do this right now," Violet told him. "I want to go to bed." "You're a selfish brat," Leo told her. "What's your problem?"

"What's my problem?" Leo glared at her. "I don't understand why the watcher picked you!" "Huh?" Violet asked "As the heir. I'm the oldest, I'm smart I get good grades, and then there's you. You're selfish and have no regard for anyone else's feelings. Why'd the watcher pick you"

"Leo," Violet began to say. "I don't-" "Just leave me alone," Leo grumbled before turning around and heading back to his room, leaving Violet feeling hurt.

Dear Diary, I think I've ruined everything, nobody is dead, but they're all mad at me. I also can't believe Lacy is refusing to help me. I never knew Leo was jealous because I'm the legacy heir and not him. I really don't know what to do from here. I've ruined everything. -Violet

[actualhumansunshine]

Can't agree more, I hope he properly goes down that rock/blues path this time and doesn't tone it down for a general audience, which is my one complaint about HBW. And I don't want him to lose acoustic singer songwriter Niall, that side of him is important too. Tbh it's rarer than people give credit for that someone can do both things so well, and Niall really does. Let's see both on album #3!!

RIGHT!!! don’t get me wrong, i absolutely love hbw for what it is and wouldn’t really make any major changes (other than maybe to no judgement—get rid of the trop pop drumbeat and lean more into the bluesy riff in the bridge—because i feel like that one suffered the most in terms of going out of their way to make a radio-friendly hit), but i do think there’s a very ‘top 40 friendly’ slickness and sheen to a lot of the album that can feel a bit.......much at times, i guess??? so it would be an absolute dream to hear him strip back even just a layer or two of that and step outside of thoughts of what he Should Do to make pop music, and instead really go for whatever feels most natural to him in that moment, even if that means going a little more bluesy or a little more rock or whatever.

cause i think that was part of slow hands’ charm as well?? of course, he worked his ass off promoting it and getting it heard by as many people as possible which directly contributed to it’s success, but so much of that was also the fact that it was interesting and a little different compared to everything else out at the time, but it was also so him through and through, with the swagger and verging-on-bluesy feel to it.

[applesandbannas747]

oh m a n this took me so long to find jsdkgfsa I stupidly did not save it to my drafts when I first saw it and thus shot myself in the foot. But I found it! and am forever in awe of you being interested in lore from my fics TT.TT <33

Seiji's clothes are obtained in a mix of ways:

When he traveled the world, he collected anything that caught his fancy, including already-made pieces (such as some of the more sculptural corsets), commissioning tailors and sewers whose work he was impressed with, and purchasing fabric to magic it into shit himself

He's essentially subscribed to a fashion box lmfao his measurements and aesthetic preferences are in a log with other witches' which ambitious sewers may reference in hopes of creating something that witch might like--or going through it looking for a witch that suits the design they want to make/have already made. Witches are fickle things though and though they'll pay handsomely for clothes they like, there's no guarantee that they'll like it. And of course the highest paying ones are also the most difficult--Seiji and Jesse won't review designs before seeing the garment on them themselves and deciding whether to keep it or not (which is where one would look for some other witch who would be easy to alter it for). It should be noted that Seiji has a specific 'delivery' room in his closet for new designs to be sent in by one of the moderators of the list, so bestie never leaves his house to try shit on. Seiji does have a fair number of pieces from this service--the more unique designs are always human-made, either from his travels or from commissions

Magic is the last way he gets his clothes, generally speaking. His house is set up to 'conjure' any material he might need, from oranges in the kitchen to fabric in his closet. This is essentially online shopping but without any middle bits. Open up the cupboard/drawer/whatever with the vision of what you're looking for, and you'll find it, plucked from any number of places around the world that subscribe to witchy fuckery, where shit disappears but money is left in its place (obviously, Seiji is Insanely wealthy to afford such fuckery without ever batting an eye. it's really his wealth that makes all the magic systems in his daily life seem infinite and absolute instead of a more moderated use of such portals that are kept careful track of). All this to say that Seiji can step into his closet with the idea of an outfit he wants, and conjure it up, pulling instantly and easily from any number of different shops for everything needed to make it. Creating straightforward things is easy, but the more elaborate you get, the stronger vision you need to have and the more specificities you need to know, which is why more elaborate and intricate and unique pieces come from people who craft clothes. Still, if he needs a long-sleeved black turtleneck with a boob window to tie together an outfit, magicking that up would be simple and easy

Bonus fun fact! Bobby is a sewer who designs for witches. He got his start using the logbook and gained some regular customers, which turned him into a shop taking commissions specifically instead of chasing down witches himself. He does well for himself, and Jesse has gotten several pieces from him himself

And I do in fact have a pinterest board of collected inspiration for Seiji's fashion, some of which are more heavily referenced than others. Some Jesse fashion snuck in there too, and because I hate pinterest, there's other shit there on accident too that were meant for other boards. i trust you to recognize the patterns to determine 'which ones do not belong' lmfao. anyway, here's a link

2. I say all this all the time but it's still true: the hardest part of writing Ribcage was being done with Nichoji's story--which is to say, not being able to write moments like this because we're not following Nick, and the details are irrelevant to the story we are following. That explained, I have not actually written the scene, and without having written it, I can't pinpoint exactly how things went, so I can't give a ton of detail on it at the moment either. What I currently imagine is that Seiji's parents would be very surprised, the dinner would be awkward as hell with some forced 'polite conversation' that lasts like three sentences total, and there'd be some (or,,, a lot) of worry from the Katayamas that Seiji's been pressured/threatened into things by Nick, which boils into Nick telling them off for sitting there assuming he's hurting Seiji when all they've done for the last ten years is make Seiji more scared and ruin a lot of lives to achieve it. Seiji gets Nick to calm down with a death grip on his thigh under the table and says that he actually feels like he's healing when he's with Nick, not just surviving. Not still running for his life. and dinner is finished as awkwardly as it started, but Nick's bade farewell with a sturdier handshake and a 'take care of Seiji' and a little less doubt.

Thanks so much for giving me an excuse to share useless lore 💜💜💜

Do you ever read a fic so interesting you want behind the scenes lore, ten pinterest moodboards and one of those fancy .gif edits but none of that exists bc it's a fanfic?

[minho-hoho]

Yandere!Sunoo Headcannons

Warning: Yandere themes, murders, torture, death, violence etc...

Requested: Yes

A/N: REQUESTS ARE STILL OPEN, sorry it's short, hope you all have a nice day/evening/night ~

MASTERLIST

Affection

Sunoo loves showering with affection

Whether you like it or not he'll baby you, kiss you, hug you

He just loves skinship with you

Whether you reciprocate or not doesn't matter

As long as he can cuddle you, he'll be alright

But if you do reciprocate his affection he'll be on cloud nine

It's like a dream come true to him

He's attached to you by the hip

He'll probably die if he doesn't have you by his side

He needs to fell your warmth

He needs to feel your touch

It's going to be very overwhelming for you to be living with him

Jealousy

He's the most jealous person you'll ever come across

And he'll make sure you'll know it

There has countless of times where his jealousy embarrassed you

But he obviously doesn't care

To Sunoo, it's legitimate for him to be possessive

After all, you're his S/O

And he genuinely thinks that no one in this world deserves to see you, or hear

You're way too perfect for the world

Though his jealousy rarely will harm the others except make them uncomfortable

Why would he harm or kill someone when he can just kiss you or cuddle you to feel better?

But there are times when things are too much for him and he'll act

And if he won't hold back at all

Kidnapping

Sunoo won't waste time with kidnapping you

Only he should be able to be near you

Because you are made for each other

He might not even bother to get to know you

As soon as he sees an opportunity to kidnap you he'll take it

He wants to take you on dates, but that means going outside and seeing other people

So you will never go on a date outside

You'll never leave his house

He has high security, and if you ever attempt or even to escape

He'll get you

No matter how far you are or not

He will and his punishment will be relentless and so harsh

Killings

Sunoo's not one to kill anybody

He doesn't have the time for that and it requires too much work for him

You or someone else really needs to push his buttons to make him kill somebody

Since you live in captivity with him, he doesn't really sees any threats

So he'll only kill if he's really really jealous

And he'll make sure to make them suffer before actually ending them

He's quite sadistic in those moments

Love

He'll shower you with love

He loves you so much and wants you to know it

He wants to make you feel loved by him

And the last je wants is for you is to feel as if he doesn't love you

That'll break him

He'll cry if he finds out you feel this way

He'll feel like a failure for making you feel like this

He knows he's obsessed with you

And he doesn't see anything wrong with it

He thinks of it as totally normal

Punishments

Sunoo rarely punish you

He doesn't have the heart to

Generally the most he'll do is yell at you

And he'll say tons of things he doesn't actually mean just so you feel bad

And you'll never make that mistake again

If you cry when he yells at you, it's better to him

Even though he hates seeing sad or upset

It at least somewhat guarantees that you won't do it again

If you did something really bad

He'll punish to the point you might almost die

And he'll take an immense enjoyment out of it

It's a really big contrast with his personality in general

Spoiling

He'll spoil you rotten all the time

Just in hopes of seeing a smile from you

He'll give you anything you want

He'll treat you like a Goddess

Because that's what he sees you as

But he might stop spoiling you if he doesn't even gain a smile from you

Because he loves seeing you smile

Especially if he's the reason

So if you still want to recaive tons of gifts, you better atleast fake a smile and say thank you

[night-market-if]

Ooh!! Oh!! Okay here's some questions:

How'd you first get into IF games?

In the near or far future would you ever be interested in more projects?

If we choose to go to the Ruins and not our gate, are we barred from seeing our Gate again or is it an event that can be revisited later? (Hot Sad Ghost Man? 👀)

Depending on our choices, are there going to be consequences depending what we do or don't do?

And actually because I thought of this just now, if said choices do result in consequences, when Malcom comes back into play, would that in turn affect his opinion on /us/? I've seen some other asks about Malcom and the affect he had on the people and world around him in general and he's casted a big shadow. I wonder about our affect on him in response to that. Whether or not we wanted it, the fate of the Nightmarket is in our hands and Malcom was the Gatekeeper. Maybe he'd feel some type of way about that and about MC in turn

I know Hazel's mom died but where is she? Assuming ghosts haunt the Night Market forever, where is she? Are we gonna meet her?

And...that's all for now! Good luck on Chapter 7!!

Oh this is going to be a long one. Answers under the cut. :)

How did you get into IF's?

I didn't. I hate to say this but my IF knowledge is limited. I've always found it a really cool form of medium and now that I'm doing one, I have mad respect for everyone that attempts one. But I was not an IF reader. My friend was and they were the ones who kind of pointed me in the direction of this but it was never something I had a burning passion for. I just wanted to write.

If we choose to go to the Ruins and not our gate, are we barred from seeing our Gate again or is it an event that can be revisited later?

Undecided. I wanted to have you visit the gate or the ruins again, based on your previous choice. But with how the story is going, I don't know if it will fit anymore. That one just has a big old question mark. But as for Sad Hot Ghost Man, you'll see him again. :)

when Malcolm comes back into play, would that in turn affect his opinion on /us/?

This one I have to be careful about because there are spoilers here. :) Malcolm will be having some opinions on the things that happen in Book 1. When he is able to, there is most likely going to be an entire chapter where MC and him can break down what has happened, what that all means, and how or if it is something that should be fixed. Malcolm is a big player in the Night Market in an entirely different way and he is going to look at MC with their lack of guidance, and turn a bit more ire to others for thrusting you into dangerous situations in a way that you were probably not ready for. I think that overall, Malcolm is going to feel more sympathy towards you than anything else. But his opinion on events will most likely change some plot points around.

I know Hazel's mom died but where is she? Assuming ghosts haunt the Night Market forever, where is she? Are we gonna meet her?

You've been told Hazel's mother is dead. Doesn't mean she isn't around. Or watching. And she will be a problem. I can guarantee that. The latest short for Hazel on Patreon, you do actually get to meet her.

Thank you for all of these questions! I love deep and involved ones so much.

🪷✨🪷✨ If you want to support me 🪷 ✨🪷✨

        Demo 🌿 Patreon 🌿 Ko-fi

[sanghyukstattoos]

SF9's reaction: first time over at theirs, accidentally leak

Warnings: mentions of blood, medicine (tablets)

A/N: None of the images in the collage are mine, refer to here for more; For more SF9, read here, for iKON, read here and for optional bias writings, read here

Safe and happy reading everyone!

Youngbin:

Partly anxious, partly thinks he knows what to do

He has a vague idea of what he should do, it presents itself to his decisions in the form of a solution but he isn't sure, is it what he is supposed to do? Suppose you have been asleep when he found out about your period, he will softly climb back into bed and wake you up. He'll hold you as and when you wake up and he finds it important to cuddle you all day long, even when he suggests that you watch something to distract yourself. He'll try to engage you in doing something like cooking as well but when he see that it doesn't work, he'll tell you that it's okay and pull you to the sofa where the two of you will spend the time either watching the tv or not but in each other's arms. You may go on a walk because he insists on getting fresh air and it's reliving, to feel the wind breeze through your hair, away from the growing stuffiness of staying indoors all day long.

Inseong:

''Oh, she must be in pain, what do I do?''

He may wake up because of your whimpers and heated body (you feel warm to the touch, much more than usual) so he wakes you up, giving you a detailed report of the blood stains and your probably high body temperature. He's freaking out which is cute before you sigh. The previous evening you felt your pms but when would it actually come? That was your question. Nevertheless, he leaves you to freshen up and takes the sheets for cleaning. He has some tricks up his sleeve; he knows that to do. When you come out, maybe hug him from the pain, his heart will squeeze like a towel filled with water, he'll press kisses on your face and give you gently words of support, ''You're doing so well. You want to lay down? I'll lay down with you, come.'' as he tugs you along. If you feel more active, he'll try his best to cook, as in, he'll give in his ultimate best. Extra effort so that you can eat food at home rather than from outside, it will taste good in the end because he would have followed the recipe and it's measurements to the t. Shining eyes should be following your movements when you taste his food, anxiously waiting for your response. Should you feed him, he'll melt, like a marshmallow. He loves you that much.

Jaeyoon:

Jaeyoon's a sweet heart

He'll ask you, ''Are you cramping?''. His voice is soft, almost down to a whisper. It draws you closer to him. You nod, pout whilst holding your lower tummy. You feel uncomfortable standing because of the pain, he knows it and draws you into his arms, holding you steady on your feet. He gives you little kisses on the cheek, teasing out giggles from you. He'll cook for you, maybe pancakes or avocado with fried eggs on toasted bread, whatever you want + as long as he is capable of making it, he may even surprise you! When you are eating, he'll give you company, his chin will rest in the palms of his hand and he'll give you this look where his eyes shine and the pads of his fingers drum on his cheek. He'll melt if you feed him, into a puddle his true form has been summoned. He'll make you smile, partly because of his cheeky jokes but also partly because of his own smile, lit cheeks that resemble a baking bun. He'll tell you not to apologise for the stained sheets, kissing your concern away. He'll join heads with you and figure out to do with it. The rest of the day, he'll spend it with you by taking you into his arms. Be prepared, fluff! passionate-driven! domestic husband! Jaeyoon is out to cuddle you!

Dawon I Lee Sanghyuk:

🥺🥺

He may wake up to your groans of pain, too disorientated at first to comprehend that you may be pms-ing so he'll go back to sleep. When he wakes up later on, the first thing he may say is, ''Shit.'', biting his lip but not yet thinking of a solution. He'll first check up on you, to see if you are still asleep or not. If you are, he'll let you you be and sit back with his mouth agape, wondering how this could happen. This may go on for some moments. He doesn't have even half the heart to wake up but if he has to, he will. When you curl up into a foetal ball, his heart will break. After you refresh, he'll rush to sort out a hot bag for you and maybe some tea and cuddle with you on the sofa till you begin to feel hungry (he may wait for when you are ready to make breakfast!). It's because he loves eating and so he'll love to see his significant other too. He knows that you enjoy what you are eating and that makes him happy, so he'll wait!

Rowoon I Kim Seokwoo:

Luxurious level Rowoon 💸💸💸

You may already be up when he wakes up. ''Oh!?!?'' is his voice when he looks at the lil' crime scene you left. You didn't stress about it okay maybe a little but decided to deal with it when he woke up. O-O is his facial expression. He can't believe his eyes. He's scared, he may never be able to un-see it again, ever. To bad for him, slightly better for you. You are already refreshed and not feeling to great, drained even before the day has begun but he's not asking anything, only how you are feeling. You settle in the seat beside him, pressing a kiss to his cheek, he greets you with a kiss back, discussing about your plans for the day. ''About the sheets'', ''It's okay'' he says, noticing your apologetic face, ''We'll throw them out'', ''Okay~ they are your sheets'' you laugh. Otherwise, if he wants to make love to you, your period may briefly hinder his thoughts but not by much, especially if you agree. He undress you in the shower and kiss you all over, to relieve the soreness of your body and fill you up. He would be okay to cock warm, to sit there with you on his lap and talk to you, giggle and laugh with you, occasionally cutting you off by giving you love-bites and sucking your nipples, nipping the area around them, if you find yourself comfortable with cock warming.

Zuho I Baek Juho:

Home-man Ju, never-leaving-his-cats Ju

But for you, it'll happen. You may have not brought pads or tampons with you because your schedule is hay-wire. If no and you have some then problem solved but if not, he'll leave you with a hot bag and run to the nearest store to buy you some pads. He'll hurry, knowing that you are in pain so he'll even say to his cats before he goes, ''Be good and take care of y/n for me okay?''. You have half a mind to chuckle at this adorable behaviour. In his pyjamas and slippers, he'll walk out, coming back with pads/tampons and food! Food! What's not there to love about this man? He'll bring your favourite snacks, putting them on a plate while you freshen up. If you borrow his clothes, you'll take his breath away. He'll put something on to watch or go out, like an amusement park or food stalls or wherever you would love to go. He wants you to feel better.

Yoo Taeyang:

Shocked or master level response

The first would be more appropriate for this man no? But I can't also help but think that he would see you in pain and move quickly. Without thinking of a plan or immediate solution, he would try to use what he has, a resourceful character is my point. He may rummage through the kitchen and medicine cabinets, standing there for two to three minutes, pondering over what he could use. He is quick to find a heat bag and warm it up, perhaps a wet towel that he thinks he will come back to and tablets for your pain. No doubt that his once blurry eyes and tired mind have disappeared to the back, your peacefulness of mind and sleep becomes his first priority. He takes you to the toilet and while you hazily strip off your clothes, he warms up the water and fills the tub with it. While you soak, cleaning yourself up, he lets you be, giving you the space you need to take a while and gather your peace of mind. There's a lot he would do for you. In the morning, he would cook for you and take you out. Later in the afternoon, you'll fall asleep together and in the evening, if you both are in the mood, he'll be willing to try and ease your cramps with releases. He's someone to be grateful for.

Hwiyoung I Kim Youngkyun:

Shy, to the bone

You knock on his door, ''Kyun?'', ''hm? You okay?'', he is curious. ''Yea, I'm going to the store and coming back.'', ''It's pitch black outside, I'll come with you.'', ''okay'', it's dangerous outside, anyone could be there. Just left the complex, he asks, ''What do you need?'', ''Tampons'', ''oh.'', he's flustered now. The tips of his ears turn pink and his cheeks- he can't resist them from going upwards. After scratching the tip of his ear, he asks, ''Does it hurt?'', ''hm, I can feel it, it's hurts a little but later it may hurt a lot.'', ''As in, unbearably?'', ''Yea and I think that I may have already leaked.''. ''Shit'' he murmurs, stopping in the middle of the sidewalk, ''If you want, you could go home and I could get them?'', he asks, in all seriousness. He doesn't contemplate that he's never done this before but he could, for you. ''It's okay, I think I can make it. Plus, you won't know what to get.'', ''Call me, ''Are you sure about this?'', ''Absolutely, I'll drop you off and then I'll pick them up, do you want something to eat?''. The endeavours make you smile, now you are at the front of his house, ''Anything is okay with me.'' to which he chuckles. He knows what you want, ''So some snacks?'', in a teasing manner. He moves closer to you. It's a pause from the outside world, cupping your face entirely in his hands, he kisses your cheek. You softly gasp, slipping into his grasp when he lets go. You could smell his shampoo and the way he lingered, he's already telling you, ''Go up, I'll come to you.'' having you shake you head and tell him, ''thank you.''. As he begins to walk, he resists turning back and pulling you into a kiss driven by heat-blinding passion.

I guarantee that the kiss doesn't happen for sometime but when it does, you end up making soft love under the covers. He starts with mapping out kisses along your body + he loves how you touch him when he kisses you.

Chani:

Loving and admirable

When he sees you in pain, he hurts too, expressed as a pout or frown, tugging your hand and asking if you are okay. He wants to make your pain go away. He may be doing some work on his laptop, he'll hold you in his arms with your head on his chest and you softly snoring away. It'll make him smile, after all you were woken up so early in the morning by your cramps, waking him up to a few hours later to find that you made breakfast. It depends on who wakes up, one or the other makes breakfast after a long competition of seeing who can sleep the longest. He feels grateful and he tells you that, before saying that you shouldn't have when you felt this much pain and that he was okay with eating outside food. You have to smile and place a finger to his mouth to prevent his nagging from chewing your ears off and give him a little kiss and then immediately pull him for cuddles. Complain about how you are in pain and he will melt like a lolly on a hot summer day and instantly cuddle you, hovering over your figure that he placed on the sofa and tease you, maybe by feeling your waist to your neck to a small make-out session. It'll be automatic for him to compliment you and shower you with love, easily embracing you and kissing you to tell you that he loves you.

[gemmahale]

Holy shit, Mads. This...this is something else. (Yes it's taken me 4 days to respond because I'm still reeling.)

The color coding is probably my favorite part of my entire set-up. I love color.

From your final notes: I shall not stop, for I cannot be stopped. 😘 Fics springing forth completely finished is more or less how I write. Little nuggets to nibble on, and eventually you'll get the whole thing lol. (Also thank you for comparing me to a deity, I think I shall swoon now.) And you should have less concern about your sanity because you're all caught up! 🤣 It'll be a lot slower now.

Anyway, I'm going to answer each review below the cut, because incoherent screaming doesn't cut it. 💚💚

Feylands Josie's my favorite of my OC's right now. She's such a smitten kitten. 🥰 (Also re: who Gary is - look up Roach's legal name. 😉) I'm so excited to share more of this (when I get around to writing more, lol).

Call of the Wild As a wavy hair girl who's been doing too much research into how to style it, I love including small details that make my OC's/headcannon thoughts more human and varied - curly hair, hearing aids, etc.

(Side note: I think that prologue is actually from the Contract prequel. I might have it mistagged, that wouldn't surprise me. But yes, the sensations are so crucial to my stories too!!)

Corporal Distraction Augh, I need to get back to this one. I love the premise. Sleep-deprived Soap is a menace. 😎 The second take of this is one I like a lot more than my original attempt.

Flowers from My Love Eeee, I'm so glad you liked the casserole. I'm hoping I can use it to settle the 141's voices a little bit better. The moodboard was a riot to make, and Pepper is my baby. (I need to do a bit of background work on this one and more concrete plotting/plot solving, but I love it.)

Palace Hallways Ugh, I hadn't even thought of the D&D connotations until now! I mean, I sort of had, but I totally feel you on stories ending. 😭 Hopefully this one lives up to what I want to have happen.

Edge Dressing What if...I told you I had...hm...maybe a Laswell meeting Letty story in the cannon too? Hm? Maybe? (I make no guarantees it'll be Letty. It's a concept only at this point.)

Embroidered Secrets This one I have aspirations for. But I need to do more research. 🤓 I'm so glad you love it though, because that gives me motivation!

141 Studios I'm so glad you'd read a multiseries of this, because that's probably what it'll turn into! I love world-building and this leant itself so well to that. (And I have friends who have worked in the adult entertainment/porn industry that I can glean nuggets of info from.) This PS!Simon is suuuuch a big gruff teddy bear, I adore him. Also the lube thing - I had a partner that did lubed wrestling one summer at a kink retreat. I'm not surprised. 😂

Protege's Trust NOOOOOOOO. That peeves me (I know it was the accents that fucked it up - my phone autocorrects, my computer does not). Try this link if you want. Because it's SO GOOD. Enemies to ??? to lovers. Price/Gaz and Laswell/Compton reflections. What happens when your two protege's can't stand each other? You keep putting them in situations where they can't get away from it. (I think I've fixed the link now?)

Museum Muse You yelling about it in my DM's made me cackle. I'm glad you don't know what's going on, you'll find out.

Brix Annabeth is a goddess among mortals for being able to withstand that man's charms. (TBH I had totally forgotten about that scene because it did emerge fully developed - swear I was possessed writing that one.)

Squeamish Stitches Weirdest one-shot (maybe more) I've ever written. In the sense of "I don't know where I'm going with this beyond this one scene". Tbh, Ghost being a cock-block makes me laugh so hard because again, Gaz is down so bad for Glitz.

Useful Girl I love teaching people new things! Tbh, I learned that from a professor who was whinging about the fact that basically no one came to class on a day right after a holiday lol. Secretary wasn't a direct line I'd made (tbh I can't stand the film, oops), but I can see the resemblance!!! (They WILL negotiate on screen though)

Highland Tartans That line tickled me to write - I'm so glad you picked up on it. Again, historical research needed, but also literary license ftw ;).

WIP WRITES RIGHTS NOW! I SAID WIP WRITES RIGHTS NOW

blahblahmaster rant list link blahblah dont look at me

PSA when you only just discover a moot is a prolific writer you run to read all her writing and comment in excruciating detail cc: @gemmahale

blorbo x named oc fans, this one’s for you (it’s me, im talking about me)

please see below a random and incomprehensive ramblelist of my stream of consciousness as I sampled from gemma's works:

Feylands WIP

I find the content warning tags extremely titillating (also I have not seen such a prolifically well organized tag list AND color coordinated to boot like gemma’s blog???? putting my outlook inbox/work docs/excel sheets to shame!!!) and I don’t even read/like fae stories (yes I never read ACOTAR and I don’t plan to anytime soon, I missed that booktok ship, most likely cos im not on the tikky tokky as the children like to say, i watch the reposts on instagram like a proper mlllenial)

Josephine’s heart pitter-pattered at the compliment, heat climbing up her cheeks as she mumbled a thanks, their eyes locking again. 

🥰🥰🥰NOT THE PITTER PATTER

my inquisitive ass is already like “what’s gary’s real name” and “hearing aid = soap b/c of all the damn bombs he blows up?” “but i headcanon gaz with freckles, maybe it’s gaz? gaz = gary?” “or maybe ghost = gary?” GEMMA GIVE US WIPS I MEAN HINTS PUT ME OUTTA MY MISERY

Call of the Wild WIP

I love the little note gemma included about this being inspired by @deadbranch (shoutout to branchy btw my beloved) - honestly floored at all the beautiful fic/headcanon/drabbles/askfills ive read that are the brainchilds birthed from love for other creators’ brainchildren

also equally floored at how many of writers here are like “this incredibly layered/moving/tender/spicy/nasty fic came to me in a dream”

also SUBVERTED TROPES SUBVERTED TROPES SUBVERTED TROPESSSSS

Kyle cleared his throat, shifting his stance. “She prefers to be called a wolf.”

AHAHAHAHAHAHA GODDDD THIS WAS A ZINGER

“Please!” Kyle called back, face half covered in shaving cream.

i need fanart of this right fucking now let me, i mean shannon, sorry oops but haha..unless? finishing shaving you bby

and FUCKING ROACH IS IN THIS FIC HOLD ME BACK OR YOU *WILL* GET CAUGHT IN THE CROSSFIRE OF ME TEARING APART THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE BECAUSE MY BRIEF HYPERFIXATION ON ROACH IS BACK WITH A VENGEANCE FROM THIS SMALL SNIPPET AND IN THIS 500 PG DISSERTATION I WILL-

also THAT PROLOGUE APPETIZER SLAYED ME

“The way I see it, you’re fucked either way. You don’t make it out of here, you’re fucked. You become mine, you’re fucked - but in the good way.”

this + the mention of bulge + damp cheek definitely brought a visceral IRL memory for me (affectionate/horny)

also sidenote: it’s the little things that matter and gemma i see you gurl and salute you - incorporating things like hearing aids, mentioning roach is HoH/using sign language, shannon using a shower cap for her curly hair - 😘👌

Corporal Distraction WIP

holy MOTHER OF FUCK THIS SHORT LITTLE EXCHANGE IS FUCKING HOOOOOOOOOT

The captain moved closer to her, gently lifting her chin up with his finger. “So you’re the bird that’s got my sergeant distracted.”

“Sir?”

“Been trying to figure out what’s got Gaz so twisted up lately. Figured it was a partner, didn’t think it was a Corporal under him.” He didn’t release her chin, now holding it between his thumb and finger. “Has good taste, at least,” he muttered, eyes shifting to the Lieutenant, who only huffed in response.

any premise that fucks with/frustrates/sleep-deprives soap has my heart 🥰

Flowers From My Love WIP

the bit where they discuss the casserole perfectly encapsulates each of the boys imho - price grunting out a response, soap eagerly asking about the food (such youngest of the group/im baby vibes), gaz picking up on the note and name/# left, ghost grumbling and ofc he fucking HAS to bring up manchester- 

and the MOODBOARD!!!! God I fucking love when writers flesh out a bit of their worldbuilding with related art, moodboards, face claims, etc etc etc i WILL lick up every crumb from the floor like a starving doggo- fun fact, one of my first interactions in cod fandom was requesting a moodboard from @the-californicationist (also shoutout to cali my beloved)

and PEPPER THE SERVICE DOG OH MY LORD PLEASE GOD IF THE 141 MEN CAN’T BE REAL LET PEPPSY BE REAL PLEASE GOD IF I HAD TO ASK FOR ONE THING FROM THIS CURSED HELLSITE-

Palace Hallways WIP

my mind blacked out at artificer soap and knight kyle and druid ghost - I also just finished a campaign with my homegroup IRL not too long ago and we’re taking a long break before the next game while our DM preps and this is making me miss playing with them ;-;

Edge Dressing WIP

KATE KATE KATE KATE KATE KATE that’s it that’s the tweet

“She did, did she?” Kate murmured, scratching at Letty’s scalp and smirking as the woman went boneless against her.

yes only natural, i too would also go boneless if laswell was scratching my scalp and giving me a massage mommy? sorry. mommy. sorry? mommy. sorry?

Embroidered Secret WIP

if someone told me a year ago when I wasn’t into regency shows/fics that reading some COD AUs - yes fucking CALL OF DUTY, the military propaganda first person shooter video game - would change my mind - well id be more shocked than if someone flashed some ankle at my victorian pearl clutching ass

also please i love every single trope listed here

141 Studios WIP

“Our sweet soft girl Samantha (plus size rep ftw!) finds her niche quickly as the resident camgirl - creating a new set of films called "Tip of The Tongue", where she (and others) commentate on the scenes being filmed in a behind the scenes way.”

fuck i would read an entire multiseries for this premise alone???

Crew scramble around to clean up the sweat and cum streaked across the couch to reset for another scene.

fun fact - i briefly interned as a PA in college and one of the producers i worked with mentioned offhand that he once rolled up to a set that was cleaning up after a porn shoot and claimed they were rolling away literal barrels of lube 👀

“You the new girl?” His voice was deep, rumbling like stones cascading down a mountain.

NEW GIRL, OLD MAN, BLUE BIRD, CLOWN WITH A BUCKET HAT, I WILL BE ANYTHING FOR YOU PS!SIMON

A Protege’s Trust WIP

The most titillating tag of all..an empty one! lol jk im just messin with ya gemmy but actually yes i don’t see any posts with this tag

Museum Muse WIP

ahem you already know my rabid thoughts on this but noticed this new post re: multiple timelines and tbh do I know what’s going on? absolutely not - do I want to dive into this museum muse multiverse regardless? absolutely yes

Brix WIP

Re: “If it’s a story about learning to be loved again after a series of devastating losses, can that story then end on another loss? (And should the epilogue soften that loss by allowing them some sort of reprieve?)”

YES! i need to be in a certain mood to read angst but GOD WHEN I AM IN THE MOOD DOES IT HIT THE SPOT/FEEL SO CATHARTIC

also re: these comments - “Also, a bit of catharsis for my shitty experience working in the orchard industry.”

“It's less of a love story and more of a healing story. It's also a bit of a middle finger to the orchard that nearly hospitalized me. 🙃 (It's healing not only for the characters lol.)”

i find these types of fics are some of the best ive read when the writers have IRL experiences bleed into their writing - just has a certain je ne sais quoi about em

also i could be knee deep in sewage sludge and if i sensed soap within a 1 mile radius i would throw myself at him, brb busy handforging a trophy for annabeth for having enough willpower to continue working while JOHN SOAP MACATAVISH WHINES ABOUT WANTING TO COP A FEEL

Squeamish Stitches WIP

✨GLITz!!!! ✨fucking love this name

“God, I’d die here a happy man,” he grumbles into your thigh as you adjust your balance. 

His hands wrap around your calves, grunting as the treads dig into his shoulders. “No, between your legs.”

Ghost interrupts. “Keep it tactical, Sergeants.”

THE FUCKING BANTER? GHOST COCKBLOCKING GAZ? FUCKIGN SCREAMINNG

Useful Girl WIP

you had me at “we gonna get nast-ay kink-ay” and also got strong “secretary” with maggie gyllenhaal + james spader vibes 

also i had to look up ‘brown bottle flu’ as i’ve never heard that term before! ✨i learn somethng new with fanfic daily✨

She felt the breeze as the door opened behind her, the whiff of cigar smoke and cologne causing her to shift in her seat and sit up straighter.

if you’ve ever smelled/heard someone before you saw them it is *quite* the experience

“It's the prickle of the mountain's oncoming storm. It's the flapping of the flag in the howling wind. It's the explosion of lightning hitting a tree, splitting it open, part charred and part living - two states diametrically opposed to each other. It's the sigh of relief when the clouds finally part and the rain pours out. It's the breath of fresh air when the storm dissipates and everything is left clean.

It's yearning so hard for something that it leaves one fundamentally changed when they achieve it.

...I really ought to make moodboards for this fic. 😅”

this was an incredible fucking paragraph to read, fucking poetry right here, also incredibly erotic? though that might just be leftover brainworms in my head from watching shogun and a scene where one of the main charas describes an orgasm as “clouds parting after rain” 

Highland Tartans WIP

She reached her hand into his wool, petting him. “He comes from a good line and all, he’s just young.”

MacTavish laughed, sliding his hands to rest on his waist. “Aye, young and dumb. I know the type.” 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

PLEASE GOD GEMMA

I CANNOT CHOOSE FAVORITES BUT SPARE A THOUGHT FOR MY FREE TIME AND WORK HOURS WHEN YOU POST MORE OF THESE AND AT LEAST SPREAD THEM OUT SO I CAN KEEP MY JOB AND PAY MY BILLS INSTEAD OF GORGING ON YOUR WRITING

anyway to sum up i am fully convinced the multiverse lives inside of gemma’s brain because goddamn i am convinced once day some god-tier epic space opera multiseries is gonna spring out fully formed like athena from the gemmamind (yes I compared you to zeus, a mythical god, deal with it)