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ALRIGHT jumping in to talk about gender and sexuality in my little fucking universe because all of this is SUPER cool, and because my wife and I worked really hard to ensure that the world we made (initially for a homebrew DnD campaign and now just a whole setting of its own) was enticing for our VERY queer group of friends, but also had some fucking ISSUES.
How sexuality and gender is handled ENTIRELY depends. On where you go. For example- in Avalon, which is a nation almost entirely supported by the VERY mixed city of Fairgold, they're pretty damn chill about sexuality and gender. Love who you want, be who you want. The entire philosophy that Fairgold was constructed on after the Cataclysm destroyed... almost everything (some 50,000 years ago don't worry about it) was the freedom to have a future and make your mark. Being not-straight and not-cis, as we understand those words (we don't really HAVE terms like "trans" and "bi" or "gay" in Avalonian, as these are just... Things that you are and that doesn't matter what DOES matter is are you making money?) is just considered NORMAL there. Fairgold is the place in Urae with the LEAST social restrictions on behavior, and it is a melting pot of people from all over not just the continent, but the known world. The closest we get to modern gendered concepts is in rural parts of Avalon, outside of Fairgold, where life is mostly farming and hunting, and we see mothers staying home with and raising their children and fathers going out and hunting. Aretea is a bit different. There is a MASSIVE emphasis on bloodlines, relation to royalty and the past, and social responsibility. A lot of the rules there apply MUCH less to the lower classes. No one cares if you're for example, a gay cis man who marries another gay cis man: if you decide you don't want your bloodline to continue? Eh. You're poor. Who cares. But among the nobility it is an ENTIRELY different issues. Aretean nobles are EXPECTED to reproduce biologically within marriages that are arranged by their families. It is a MUST. Now, there is some room for things like, say. A transgender man and a cis man being wed- provided that the trans man is willing and able to bear children "the old fashioned way" (without magical interference). There is also the unspoken rule of "arrangements" for people in marriages they would rather not be in. Having a lover (or several) on the side is all well and good, and many couples agree that, outside of their duties to produce heirs, they will see and be intimate with others. But it ALL must be kept very hush-hush. The principle of the matter. Even if people know you're doing that, they cannot KNOW, out loud, acknowledged publicly. This isn't even TOUCHING the bullshit that is Xandris, where sexuality and gender are not only completely outside of what we, in the real world, as humans think about as gender (Xandris is UNDERWATER and a lot of aquatic species can, and do, just... Change their biological sex!), but everything depends on SOCIAL CLASS! There are genders that ONLY people of a high enough class are ALLOWED to have! There is an entire gender of "Outcast" (lovingly joked about as "I identify as a fucking problem"- our first Barbarian was a Naga from Xandris who was technically trans, as he found that he related much better to the surface concept of "man" as opposed to his Xandrian gender).
There are a lot of other places to talk about, but the gist of it is that not only is everything varied. But there also wouldn't BE terms like "lesbian" or "gay" or "trans" in most places, at least not how we understand them. A big part of the world is that the Cataclysm destroyed the world before, and most of what Urae is BUILT on has been lost to history, quite literally destroyed. You may find derogatory terms and discrimination related to sexuality and gender: for example, in Xandris there are some genders that are "low class" that are considered insulting to be assigned. In Aretea, should a noble choose a relationship that cannot result in biological children, there are plenty of nasty things to be said, in addition to extreme social punishment- up to and including total loss of social status.
I love that the world we built is so queer.
I also love that we built this world and it is STILL. So supremely fucked up. None of this is touching on all of the really REALLY dark shit that happens in some places.
All the cultural relativism going away in a person's worldbuilding once they get to sexuality & gender
#worldbuilding#fantasy worldbuilding#i have had so much fun building this and it's still in development!#Urae is forever growing#queer worldbuilding#queer#like Avery is from this setting and while I talk about her as bi and nonbinary like#she's just... AVERY at home in her world#she wouldn't say “I'm bisexual” if I was writing this in a book because like#there's not a WORD for that she just is#she wouldnt' say "I'm nonbinary#because gender in Fairgold where she is just like yep sure you're you and that's that#like the understand sometimes people want to change things or change their bodies#and there are places that cater to that#but it's just another one of those things you do like#oh yeah I need more milk and also I need to stop at the dick store today#A lot of people from Elas who flee end up in Fairgold and uh im not gonna touch on Elas today#cuz uhm holy fuck is that a can of worms but#yeah yes we have this very queer world#but no it's not a fucking paradise there are PROBLEMS and imo#it's more FUN to explore how having open queerness can CREATE certain issues depending on other social rules!
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continuing that "maya tries to contact claire" post, i present you the post-Spirit of Justice follow-up
#post that caters to ME specifically#let me first tag#ghost trick spoilers#lost future spoilers#now that that's out of the way. you know who's on that suitcase ;)#also claire is fucked up by time travel shenanigans so it's possible let's just say#also ghost powers grow and change with time sooooo. let's play with canon#layton “i have a dead girlfriend” and yomiel “i had a dead girlfriend” bisexuals#also yes the whole gang traveled to london they're just strolling around#maya had unfinished business and now that she's more powerful she's BACK#this would take place 7-or-so years after lost future/plvspw so layton is in his mid-forties here. i had to look it so correct me if im not#also yes this is a crossover AU i have rotating in my mind i love the source material and layton's and claire whole thing no shade to that#powerful narrative that made me cry#but with aa and gt magic fuckery we have the technology#also about the jail bit. that's a fic i am writing (one sentence every month)#ghost trick#professor layton#ace attorney#my art#ms paint#GOD. that wall of text is surely something
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One of the best things about Disco Elysium by far is that it does not fear ugly women. The world is full of ugly men, but ugly women are so hard to come by.
#I'm not calling the characters ugly btw#i don't believe any one can be ugly#i do not care for beauty standards and thus i don't rank people based on how “ugly” or “pretty” they are#but the characters in DE do not meet the conventional beauty standards and look like actual people with unique faces#and thus would be considered “ugly”#and that is so important to me. i go feral whenever media represents how people look like in real life and not how they look like in the#fictional parallel universe where everyone is a model and where a majority of the movies take place#because irl you don't have to be a model to be desirable#the most attractive man in any video game I've ever played has a receding hairline and a big nose and thick glasses and a small chin#and not only is representing realistic people. just good. in general. but it makes the character of Dolores Dei stand out so much more which#works for the game so well. she's barely human. she's a deity- a myth- a legend. the only version that exists of her now is the one with#glowing lungs. she's perfectly beautiful because she's inhuman. the fact that everybody else looks so human only highlights how inhuman she#has become yk?#if everyone was as conventionally attractive as her then she wouldn't stand out. we wouldn't get why she's so special.#disco elysium#disco elysium analysis#media analysis#beauty standards#this is only one aspect of how this game portrays real people btw. as someone interested in character design this just immediately stood out#to me#the first time i noticed it was when i first met garte and the second time was when i met ruby because neither are conventionally desirable#oh my fucking god the nerds who complain about a woman with a model face having body hair in a video game would perish if they played this#mainstream game/movie studios catering to western masses could never
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to be honest i had this idea since i started listening to twice i just never did anything about it until now
#drawfee#drawtectives#drawtectives fanart#rose drawtectives#what did you people expect me to credit every outfit#because i will#top left is Nayeon in the abcd mv because she was honestly giving tommy february and we stan#top right is momo in that one tour no i dont remember which jsut look up pink cowboy twice ok but its momo#middle is chaeyoung in fancy because im obsessed with that mv#bottom right is also chaeyoung in alcohol free mv which is the outfit that inspired me to even draw this in the first place#bottom middle is Jeongyeon in what is love mv because yeah#and top left is the goat the best the slightly ominous dahyun in the scientist mv#yes in dahyun biased but i only drew her in one of her fits oops#im sorry to mina sana tzuyu and jihyo#i was complaining to pencer and she told me i cater to karina guess what shes the reason i even listen to twice so take that#twice#rose is my bias
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sometimes, you wondered if the 'i love you's you had said were enough. if he understood how much you mean to them. if he truly ever heard and took them with him, tucked in a secret corner in his heart.
you wonder, if he knows that you regret not saying it more to him.
"i..." you tried to tell the empty space in front of you. a space that had come to place itself in your life in a presence that resembles a puzzle's hole more than a crack.
something should have been there and you know more than anyone what it is—who it is. yet, it remained unfilled no matter how much you wish to reverse time back to a happier time.
you wish it was all meaningless. that all these thoughts are mere hauntings built up by your own fantasies and when you blink, he will be there. maybe he could smile, maybe he could feign a cool mask, but all the same, his finger would intertwine with yours.
maybe, he would take a step closer to you, bumping your shoulder. maybe, his eyes would stray and look around, while the heat from his body remains just next to you. maybe, full of concern, full of care, he will ask you, "what's wrong?"
but, it is mere wishful thinking.
from somewhere, the strangers' footsteps resounded in the distance and he was not by your side. it would have been like a penitence, like an admittance to no one. so, in the end, you swallowed all your words down.
"i love you," you wanted to say, "i truly do."
sae, ISAGI, nagi, chigiri, VIL, jack, deuce, cater, jade, cyno, al-haitham, zhongli, NEUVILLETTE, wriothesley, diluc, KAEYA, XIAO + your faves.
#people you love will exit your life one way or another no matter how much you love them. in their place there are memories and regret#this piece is clearly romantic in its tone but honestly it happens to every kind of relationship#the thought of my “i love you” not reaching them is a really self centered and sad thought. but hey. i love you is an i love you#i think that concept is comforting. at the very least. tho another note i should work on my longer fics lol#bllk imagines#genshin imagines#twst imagines#twst x reader#bllk x reader#genshin x reader#twisted wonderland x reader#blue lock x reader#isagi x reader#sae x reader#vil x reader#cater x reader#neuvillete x reader#wriothesley x reader#xiao x reader#kaeya x reader#genshin angst#bllk angst#twst angst#making angst in this format is fun check again when im awake god bless scheduled post
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2nd Lieutenant of Squad 3 " #your cute Lieutenant<3 #fight in the Sereitei #following the captain's orders "
♦️ Cater Diamond ♦️
It's like in the manga that speaks 3 sentences throws the Unique Magic at Yuu.
Well, here is the Bankai so run.
♦️ Curiosities:
He is not a really demanding lieutenant, however he follows Riddle's orders in line.
He prefers to be given missions in the Human World.
After a certain mission in the HW, Cater became interested in it. And because of this it teaches other shinigames to adapt.
He uses his Gigai A LOT!
Cater has social networks in the HW.
He hates the flip cell phone (old shinigami model) and demands a Touch one.
He suggested to the research team and Squad 12 the creation of a Shinigami Social Network. Progress: It is quite bad and no one knows how to use it correctly. The shinigamis gives a lot of Cringe there.
Cater is training his Bankai, he still doesn't know it completely.
He likes to finish his work and obligations quickly.
He talks a lot on the flip phone and sends A LOT of messages.
♦️ Zanpakuto: " Shining Immortal Jewel "
♦️ Shikai Activation Phrase: " Split Card "
[ Allows him to multiply the hits of an attack depending on the number of steps he takes ]
♦️ Bankai: " Shining Immortal Jewel : Shatter in thousand parts ".
[ It has stages, After the Bankai activation:
1- With the next blow of the opponent his Zanpakuto breaks, dividing into MORE swords that fall to the ground. He can take and attack with any of them.
2- As long as there is a "Zampakuto Fragment" he can multiply HIM. Cater dont usually advance from this stage.
3- He can "Multiply" the enemy. This leaves his opponent confused: those copies are under Cater's command, but They remain fully conscious. No further stages are known. Cater is exhausted at this stage.
4- No other stages are known BUT- ]
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Ceru if you see this... this is going to give you some clues...for the future... THIS IS NOT AN ATTACK, LOWER THE GUN 🔫🔫🔫. If you want to change or add something, feel totally free! You know Cater much better.
#twst au#cater diamond#twst cater#TWST bleach Au#twst#The level of the bankai is totally out of place but LOOK HOW COOL IT LOOKS YYYYYEEEEESSSS#I try to imagine Yuu fighting all these beasts with many powers... and well... poor Yuu... sorry
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it’s brutal out here (on the hephaestus)
#I know tumblr isn’t the place for twitter style edits but this id not catered to my twitter audience who only wants two things from me#so. Here. Deleting this if it’s nothing btw#wolf 359
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i know i am not at all a big creator i'm just some guy with some internet access and an account and friends but even then all of this, fandom, internet fun, its all become so incredibly insufferable to be in? the only reason i made a tumblr was so i could post my art online and maybe get some validation and silly for it, and because there were strangers on the internet who would share the same opinions as me and we could interact via shared interests and love for content we both enjoy but never actually ever know each other personally and as someone whos been in the undertale fandom since i was like. a genuine child, how did fandom culture go from fun and joyous to genuinely exhausting and like walking through a landmine? i understand trying to weed out all the genuinely shitty people, but like, atleast on my side with my friends, and of course one of the bigger online presences in them being kia, why is it so unimaginable that people are friends with eachother outside of fandom discourse that doesnt hold a single candle to anything in real life? i'll tell you this much; whatever shit my friends like to draw doesn't do anything to me in the real world all of this "blocklist" shit (which, by the way, never has to be made public, if you really want a blocklist make it in private or dm people if they want it), is so dangerous and it's absolutely insane and incredible to me that nobody in the rabid anti spaces can see it as a genuine danger that has real world consequences until things don't exactly go "the way they wanted" why are you airing out, generally average and pretty fucking normal, people and artists around on a list expecting whoever's on the internet to see it and have an ounce of etiquette? and, actually, why are you even willing to put out public lists in the first place? does it not fill you with regret? i fucking hate dreammare as a ship and i dont like the shit that people would consider proship, if anything i'm pretty normal, i just dont give a fuck about what people do in their own little spaces because i can choose not to go in there. so why are you choosing to put me out on a list as if i personally hurt you? like i drew incest brothers and sisters kissing with nsfw written all over it or some shit? brother the only social media that i post publicly on for the world to see is this one!! tldr please leave me the fuck alone and have some idk, sympathy? i dont look on tumblr much, i'm busy you know, living on my own barely a year after turning 18, its not very fun running the risk of harassment, and knowing that people are stalking you and your friendgroup constantly over shit that doesn't fucking matter to you
#beef meister#this was kind of all over the place#im just fucking tired??? i dont know dude#its like people see “oh god someone doesnt want to be apart of exhausting hateful discourse!! they obviously ship incest!!!”#have you ever considered that maybe someone just doesnt like hate#or hating others#i dont care about what people think of me and i dont think anyone cares about what i think of them unless i know them personally#i only follow people on tumblr for their artwork and content because it caters to my interests#shocking announcement that someone doesnt let internet drama run their life and how they view their relationships with others#its also annoying#considering the fact most of the people doing dumb shit like this are younger than me#but at their age i still had half the fucking brain to you know#be a decent human being#i genuinely cannot understand nor fathom how you have the energy to hold so much hate for people you will never meet irl#i dont even have the energy to hate my abusers bro what fent are you all taking#rant over i guess#leave me out of your stupid fucking chronically online drama that i literally dont care about!!!!! i use tumblr to bring myself joy#so leave me out!!!!!!!!!!!! dont fucking talk about me regarding that shit nor ask me about it i dont FUCKING CARE!!!!!!!!!
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Stepping out into the cold for a quick hot cocoa and a photo
#my art#cater diamond#twisted wonderland#twst#twst fanart#this is an old drawing and you an tell I grew up in a warm place bc I didn’t think to give him a hat or earmuffs or whatever#😭😭😭#twst cater
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Cater Thoughts
Cater Diamond x Reader
Maybe it’s just the stuff that I come across, but a lot of Cater fics focus on his character flaws and personal issues. Which is great, and often a good read! But I was thinking about Cater who is doing the healing instead of being the one who is healed.
Let’s say you just came out of a relationship that wasn’t working for you. Your ex wasn’t a bad person. But none of his interests aligned with yours. Furthermore, while you put an ocean’s worth of effort into learning about his interests, his efforts were more like a single drop of water. When you started talking about something you liked, he often brushed it off and changed the topic to something that suited him. It was such a common occurrence that you kept quiet and let it happen.
Ironically, one day during your relationship, he asked you about your hobbies. Instead of feeling happy, your first thought was: “What’s the point of telling him?”
A few months after your breakup, you meet Cater Diamond. He’s fun, sweet, and as much as he likes to talk, he also listens. You don’t realize it at first. You continue on with your habits from your previous relationship—always nodding along to his hobbies, interests, problems, gossip, and whatever else he feels like saying. Everything goes smoothly. Cater never runs out of things to say. The conversation is always lively and you’re enjoying yourself.
One evening, the two of you lay beneath a tapestry of stars in the night sky while Cater points out various constellations. There’s a lull in the conversation while he snaps a picture of the dazzling display. Just as you’re about to ask him to elaborate on something, he asks you a simple question.
“Am I talking too much?”
You blink up at the stars. They blink back at you.
“No,” you say, somewhat confused. “I like hearing you talk. It’s fun.”
“Oh, that’s good.” He laughs and sets his camera on the grass, laying beside you. “I was worried that I was boring you. You don’t really say much about what you like, so I thought maybe you aren’t that into me.”
That wasn’t the impression you were trying to give at all. You roll to your side, facing him, and frantically try to assure him of your attraction.
“No, that’s not it! I just . . . I’m not sure if you’d be interested in the things I like.”
“Well, we can’t be sure until you tell me, right?” He reaches over and gently touches your cheek. Beneath this blanket of pinprick diamonds in the sky, Cater Diamond is the most dazzling in your eyes as he utters the words you wanted to hear this whole time. “Tell me anything you want. Cay-Cay’s listening.”
You’d think that it would all gush out like you opened invisible floodgates, but that’s far from what happens. You have absolutely no idea how to start. What do you say? You’re drawing a blank, and he can tell.
“How about listing a bunch of your favourite things?”
You try that. Luckily, Cater is an excellent conversationalist, and you end up saying a lot more than you thought you could. His reactions vary from subject to subject. For some, he’s just as passionate and knowledgeable as you. For others, he’s never even heard of them. But he’s more than happy to listen and learn.
After your stargazing date, he often sends you posts on Magicam related to what you said. You’re surprised he even remembers. The act of remembrance indicates importance, prioritization. The fact that he remembers what you like makes you feel loved. Like you’re important to him. It’s a non-verbal confirmation of your mutual affection, and you’re more determined than ever to show that affection to him ten-fold in return.
#disney twst#twisted wonderland#twst cater#cater diamond#cater diamond x reader#twst x yuu#twst x reader#cater was actually my first ssr#even though I took Jade’s hand at the start of the game#he’s got a special place in my heart
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Let it be known I first got turned down from childcare college because I (stupidly) disclosed my disability during the interview, and it immediately turned into ableist assumptions, mostly stemming from "well what if you have to lift a child?"
Today not only do I LOVE working in the field, but I've realised children are light as fuck, and I too, cannot resist the allure of uppies
#fires posts#ramblings#That interview was sooooo fucking ableist. The tone immediately shifted the minute I mentioned my scoliosis#Which I shouldn't have! But they asked why I never had a job and well.. how the fuck else could I explain#that most retail / no qualifications jobs aren't exactly friendly to someone with a spinal condition#They also said I was limiting myself by not wanting to work with infants which LMAOO#barely any places here cater to babies idk what tf thry were on about#anyway today was my first day back on work experience! I have missed the kiddies!!#fire toddler talk
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for strange and unknowable reasons i have spent the past seven and a half hours making this emotional catharsis amv instead of sleeping. my personal love letter to the art that has changed me over the years.
homestuck / avatar: the last airbender / everything everywhere all at once / soul / homestuck / infinity train / koe no katachi / gravity falls / up / frozen / blue planet / the prince of egypt / night in the woods / the good place / everything everywhere all at once / blue planet / wonders of the universe / night in the woods / monument valley / monument valley / homestuck / journey / the good place / infinity train / homestuck / koe no katachi / gravity falls / infinity train / omori / avatar: the last airbender / everything everywhere all at once / blue planet / the prince of egypt / homestuck / spider-verse / monument valley / journey / homestuck / frozen / moana / mulan / avatar: the last airbender / kung fu panda / frozen / avatar: the last airbender / omori / everything everywhere all at once / gravity falls / kung fu panda / my little pony / infinity train / omori / how to train your dragon / soul / frozen / up / journey / koe no katachi / omori / undertale / infinity train / gravity falls / monument valley / àiqíng gōngyù / soul / the good place
#🌃#almost all my favorite scenes from almost all my favorite media#and then some because they can't all be gut punches. only most of them...#anyway this is basically the extended version of my webweave but without words#and once more specifically catered to what i find emotional and meaningful in art. an about me of sorts#homestuck#avatar: the last airbender#everything everywhere all at once#soul#infinity train#a silent voice#gravity falls#up#frozen#blue planet#the prince of egypt#night in the woods#the good place#wonders of the universe#monument valley#journey#omori#spiderverse#moana#mulan#kung fu panda#my little pony#how to train your dragon#undertale#ipartment
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Happy birthday, Kalim!! :D
#there was more i wanted to draw#but i got tired#like always...#i wanted to draw all the members of pop music club#but uh just randomly placed Lilia to the side...#just another typical day of the pop music club goofing off~#or light music club#chocodaffodil art#twst#twisted wonderland#kalim al asim#twst kalim#lilia vanrouge#twst lilia#cater diamond#twst cater
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My favorite funny thing on occasion is to imagine sugar baby/daddy dynamics with Tails ships
Something so comical about the fact that Sonic the hedgehog (hedgehog without a home) would be sugar baby to Tails (fox who has so many labs. Like who needs to worry about money when your little buddy pays for stuff heroing doesn't and keeps his bases fully stocked with ingredients for your favorite food
Or like, Tails, who basically ended up being Sonic's sugar daddy, accidentally gaining more sugar babies by virtue of making sure certain characters don't inconvenience people (basically playing damage control)
While I think it's Rouge mainly who would probably suppliment the money for Omega and Shadow (if need be) and play this sort of role for them, it's still funny to imagine Tails insisting on setting them up in hotel rooms because Shadow was just about to sleep outside and saw no problem with that (and because Tails can't very well just let Shadow do that)
A friend of mine also moved that, under this framework, after the idw issues where the Chaotix took a job helping Knuckles get an artifact back, Tails would just silently patch them rent money as an apology for the whole thing.
Rich inventor Tails accidentally gaining bfs out of the main cast as his sugar babies because he's assumed responsibility for their antics and cares about them too much to just let them live life the way they have been. Do you see my vision?
#sonic the hedgehog#tails the fox#miles tails prower#sontails#unbreakable bond#knuxails#shadails#i just be ramblin#for the record it's not limited to these ships by any means#they were just examples#While this is largely funny thoughts or au stuff genuinely one of my favorite headcanons is that Tails is the sugar daddy to Sonic's sugar#baby. Since Tails has all the resources and the housing and the labs and the budget and pretty much canonically has his home set up to cater#to Sonic#While Sonic kind of just adventures and does whatever#but ultimately does drop by Tails' place often to take advantage of Tails' assistance and catering to him#and since they adventure/go places with each other pretty often it's pretty easy to imagine Tails paying all the bills😂#Not even to mention idw where it's all but implied that Sonic has been living with Tails at this point (crashing at his place much more#often than before at minimum)#As for the Rouge comment. While I don't personally ship Rouge with either Shadow or Omega you can take that comment about her playing the#same role to them (possibly) as Tails does for Sonic as ship if you so wish#And with that being said you can also interpret this post as implied omegails/tailsmega/taimega too. I only didn't tag it cause I didn't#really talk about those two much specifically
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watching the invitation and i have to giggle when she’s doing her ceramics
#her elbows are all over the place so no wonder her pot is uneven as fuck#throwing requires a surprising amount of arm and core strength but a cheat code for beginners is to tuck your elbows into your ribs or hips#depending on how high your seat is but ribs should be the first go to#otherwise you’ll be hunched#anyway i miss ceramics but seeing people do it badly in films always makes me smile#also bc like she’s catering in new york and poor as fuck but she’s got her own kiln in her apartment???#behave the electric bill alone….#stelle yaps
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Archive-locking the fics that YOU WROTE and are thus 100% yours to decide what to do with 'hurting people' is so silly tbh. Skill issue on their part. Wish those people could be normal about the amazing fics that writers like you put out & be understanding or at the very least respectful of the choices that writers make about how and where they make their fics available. Especially in light of recent ai training theft and nonsense & all that.
I hope this doesn't sour the fic writing & sharing experience for you too much. I love your writing & think you're very talented & skilled!
There seem to be dual attitudes I'm coming up against recently (and obviously these are not held by everyone, I don't even know that they are held by a majority, but they are certainly held by a plurality).
The first is that authors should be grateful that readers deign to read what they put out there. I think this stems from the "content creation" mentality and the idea that everyone who posts things wants as massive as an audience as possible (for monetization purposes which... isn't a thing in fanfic). I think this mindset also leads to readers demanding that people write specific tropes/pairings/whatever, or threatening basically to take their business elsewhere. "Nobody will read unless you do [X]." 1. Not true and 2. Okay, you weren't my audience.
(I also think authors circulating those posts about how badly they want comments/kudos feeds this mentality of readers doing authors a favor by even clicking on the fic. "Wow, if people are so desperate for attention, then mine must be worth an awful lot!")
Fanfic ain't a business, and I write for myself. Readers choosing to read my work isn't a privilege or an honor they are bestowing upon me (nor are comments for that matter), just as me posting my writing where they can see it isn't a privilege or an honor for them. We are both engaging in hobbies and a love of some media, and sometimes we will overlap and connect and sometimes we won't. Readers aren't reading out of altruism for attention-starved authors, and authors aren't writing out of altruism for content-hungry readers.
And there are those who will read these paragraphs above and think to themselves "wow, what an ungrateful author," and that's exactly the attitude I'm talking about. Don't get me wrong, it's delightful and rewarding to receive comments on fics and chat with people about Blorbo and the Situations. But it should be delightful from both sides of the exchange, or why the hell are we doing this? If I'm meant to be grateful for every commenter who jumps into my inbox, then every commenter in my inbox better be grateful for me, and I can tell you right now there is a population who is not. There is a population who sees me as a service provider for their entertainment, and whatever form I take in their brain, it is not shaped like a full person.
This attitude also leads to people thinking that things like lorefm are no big deal. Don't I want to get my work in front of more eyeballs (or ears)? Don't I want to broaden my audience? And once I put my work out there for readers to see, should I be shocked (or express any negative emotions at all) when someone plagiarizes/scrapes it for AI/demands updates rudely/reads it on a monetized youtube channel/binds it and sells it for profit?
The other idea I've been coming up against is almost the opposite of this--that because some readers form attachments to fic, deleting that fic (or even archive-locking it!) is actively harming those readers. Sure, they can't be bothered to hit the download button or get an AO3 account, but that's no reason not to think of these strangers first before doing what I want with my creative output.
Yall, life is ephemeral. There are things we will see and enjoy and never find again for one reason or another, and it's not harm being done to us, it's just the nature of existence. Having an emotional reaction to something does not give you any sort of ownership over that thing. Artists are allowed to change their minds about whether they want that art in the wild, particularly given that it's free. Maybe it's because I utilize the library a lot, but reading a book and then losing access to that book is not a crime against you, it's just a normal thing that happens. If you read something and it means that much to you, there are ways to avoid losing it (download it).
Seeing this particular attitude extend out to "not making your fic available for as many people to read as possible is harming them" is beyond bizarre. If I woke up tomorrow and deleted everything I have ever written, there would still be thousands upon thousands upon thousands of beautiful, emotional, meaningful fics out there for people to read. They would lack for nothing. Would some people be upset? Probably. Would I be hurting them? No, not really.
Sometimes people have negative emotions because of our actions, but that doesn't mean we did anything to them. This is one of those times.
Lastly, this AI and everything else bullshit really has taken a toll on my enthusiasm for posting my work. It's one thing for companies to try to pillage every thought, every word, every stroke of a pen or paintbrush to enrich themselves while actively making the planet an unbearable and inhospitable place to live, it's another when fellow fans are telling you that "Whelp that's just life, what did you expect, give us your content anyway or you're a bad person and if you complain, then I'll be taking my business elsewhere, you sensitive, entitled creative, lol."
#because here's the thing#it just stops being fun#and fun is the reason I (and hopefully all of us) started writing in the first place#if I wanted to cater to people whose tastes aren't mine#I would be trying to woo the taylor swift fans who control the publishing industry#and don't get me wrong the people on AO3 who interact with my stuff rule#Particularly patrochilles fans like that group of people has given me the best writing experience of anyone#and I don't want to let some idiotic exchanges ruin the joy I get from writing#but it feels like it's coming from all sides this year#I do think everyone would benefit if we all remembered that author-reader interactions are just two strangers attempting to communicate#sometimes good sometimes awkward sometimes wires get crossed sometimes cultures clash most often it's just small talk
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