#and then they lived happily ever after and nothing bad happened. ever. 😇

[idyllic-affections]

YOU.

you went dark on me.

┊ʚ₊˚꒱꒱︰ ven’s musings ; @idyllic-affections. yes i have the audacity to wait until i was aware of your online status to post this. LAB YOU ADDI <33333333

┊ʚ₊˚꒱꒱︰ cw ; strictly platonic, fluff to angst, older sibling/father xiao (it just depends on how you choose to interpret their relationship), child reader (around 8-10), rewritten from old blog, self-hatred/deprecation, slight overprotective xiao(?), fire

xiao hasn’t received many good things in his long life, even after being freed from the shackles that were placed upon him by his former master at the hand of rex lapis. but you… although he has yet to admit it out loud, you rekindled the lost flame of joy that he had all those centuries ago, once extinguished by the harsh winds of reality and fate. xiao swore to protect you, to keep you safe, to take care of you. if you even so much as whisper his name into the wind, he will hear you, and he will come to you no matter the cost. he always has.

just seeing you, spending time with you.. fills his chest with an indescribable amount of ecstasy and happiness, happiness he wasn’t sure he even deserved to receive from someone as pure and precious as you, but the feeling was so elating and euphoric that xiao found that he couldn’t care. you bring such peace, so much happiness into this world that there is barely anything left for him in this world after your departure, a fact he finds absolutely intolerable. xiao would rather give up everything in order to have you return home safely and to be able to see you again. it makes the pain and weight of his karmic debt more tolerable somehow, less unbearable, and he isn’t sure what else he can do but to hold onto hope for the future when hope feels like he has run out of oxygen.

when your smile brightens his world, it seems to illuminate everything around you, too; a warmth in his heart and soul, an almost magnetic pull towards you, something so intrinsic to the very essence of who he truly is that xiao doesn’t know how to describe it. it’s not fear that he feels whenever he sees you, though, because it’s so easy for him to forget the horrors of the past - you are still so young, yet so soft, so caring, so sweet. you’re like a beacon that shines throughout the darkest corner of his heart; like one of the brightest suns—no, the brightest sun. you burn so bright, but never had you once burned anyone.

xiao was not the moon, he was never even a star to begin with. but you, you were the sun. his sun. the light to his darkness. you are the only thing in this world worth fighting for. he has devoted the entirety of his existence to protecting you, from whatever might threaten you. he loves and cares for you so dearly that he could cry at the thought of ever hurting you, but he also wouldn’t stop fighting against himself if it meant protecting you without any repercussions. he is willing to fight for every single thing he holds dear, and he knows that you are worth it. you are worth his whole existence. he knows that now more than anyone else. he knows it with all his heart. 

and you deserve the world. so much more than he could ever dream to provide. it’s okay that xiao didn’t deserve that, or even the possibility of having you in his presence; it’s okay that he has nothing. but you deserve love and affection; all of it.  you deserve everything good in the world. you deserve everything good that xiao could offer you. so, so much. but most importantly, xiao thinks you deserve happiness. you deserve to be happy. he knows you don’t need him or the world or anyone to give you happiness. your own hands can provide it, but even then, xiao wants nothing more than to give it to you. he wants to take care of you. he wants the world to leave you alone and let you be happy. 

he wishes the gods of celestia would be just a bit kinder to you.

“xiaoxiao!! can we go stargazing together?” you had suddenly asked him, and with the pure, genuine spark of excitement in your eyes, how in the name of rex lapis could he even have the cruel heart to refuse? he was so weak for you… so, so weak. but he didn’t have it in him to say no, so he agreed with a small smile gracing his features so now here he was, allowing himself be led by you into the night sky of the moonless night. ‘it has been a while since I last went stargazing with them.’ he thought to himself. 

as they took their spot at the side of a very pretty clearing. you took a seat next to him, legs crossed as you admired the stars with your own pair of soft [eye color] eyes that had been filled with longing ever since you were born; you couldn’t help it. xiao liked the way the stars seemed to shine brighter and brighter when you looked at them with such fondness. as his golden eyes looked over at you, the starlight reflected beautifully off his gorgeous dark green and teal locks.  

the two of you were content just sitting quietly beside each other under a canopy of stars, enjoying the other's company. it was all quiet for several minutes until you finally decided to break the silence, pointing at different constellations of which that piqued your interest. the more you pointed at the bright, shining stars, the wider the grin became on your lips until you reached to point out two specific stars that were not there before, causing xiao to look over at you with curiousity. you explained the names of these two stars to him patiently and gently as if the stars were something precious, even though both you and he knew they weren’t exactly rare, or precious… but they were special either way. 

you had always been like this with everything that caught your eye.

xiao listened intently to every word you said. it was true that he wasn't good with words, especially things that could possibly relate back to the topic at hand (like astrology), but there was something about hearing what you had to say that made it all feel so much more meaningful than if he were enjoying the texture of almond tofu. your tone was so soothing, it made the entire time seem worth every second of every minute spent listening to you. after all, xiao was well aware that you were someone who enjoyed spending time by themself as well; maybe it was because you were such a sweet person that it rubbed off on others… and you were so kindhearted too. (and not to mention, rather persistent.)

he never wanted to take away the joy in your face from him (especially since you had an adorable, lovable smile). so, whenever he could manage to make you happy he tried his best, and the result seemed to be the same, whether it was a big gesture or a subtle touch, it always did. 

“i told you to call my name, did i not? why did you not call my name?” xiao questioned, eyes fixated on treating the wounds on your knees. he’s already so scared for you, that something would happen to you without his knowledge. he doesn’t want to lose you, even if it means losing himself as well. xiao has always been rather protective of you, hovering over you like a helicopter parent. he always tries not to get attached to people too quickly — it ends up hurting more when it inevitably does. but xiao has grown accustomed to the feeling of loneliness that comes with losing someone, and it has hurt him terribly. 

and despite that, despite how much he’s tried to suppress it, the pain of losing you would hurt so much more. you opened your mouth to refute, but xiao beat you to it. “yes, i know ganyu was with you. but even still, you should have called. me being busy shouldn’t stop you from doing so, especially when you were in danger.”

a few hours earlier, when you were spending time with ganyu, the two of you had been ambushed by several geovishap hatchlings. she was strong, of course, but her fighting style was long-ranged, while theirs was close-ranged. those vishap hatchlings never roll in a straight line. therefore, when you trying to dodge one of its attacks, you ended up tripping over the roots of a nearby tree, landing unceremoniously on the ground. ganyu cloaked herself in frost and dashed forward, leaving behind an ice lotus in her place, before it eventually exploded and killed the vishaps. which then led to this conversation.

“sorry.” you said quietly, turning your face away. you looked so dejected that xiao felt his heart shatter into a million pieces. you weren’t supposed to look like this; it wasn’t fair. “i didn’t mean to worry you.” that just made xiao’s heart break even more. his gaze softened and he gently brushed some stray strands of hair out of your face. “it’s fine, just please call me next time, okay?” his heart filled with a mixture of emotions, mostly guilt. even if he wasn’t the cause for your injuries.

“okay!”

xiao knew that this day would come eventually, when he would be forced to part ways with you. but he didn’t think it would come so soon… he has never had such deep-rooted hatred for the flames of destruction as he did this very moment. but even then, he knew, that he didn’t have anyone but himself to blame. he wasn’t there for you when you needed him the most, he was weak and useless when you needed protection and help the most. he wasn’t there when you needed him most. he was angry and bitter at himself for being so.. useless. he felt worthless. xiao wanted to die, just like the others. if he had arrived on time, maybe he could have saved your life instead of allowing you to get wrecked and buried into the burning debris that was once the place you and he called home.

he wished he could go back in time to change his failure. but he can’t. and that really, truly hurts. he would make up for those failures one way or another. but he couldn’t do that with you. and that’s what xiao regrets the most. he wishes he had taken better care of you. maybe the two of you would have stayed together longer. maybe you would have stayed happy. maybe the two of you would have survived and lived happily together, living amongst a group of friends and family and never being alone ever again. but there was no use wishing for what could have been. all that was that left were the memories that xiao could never go back to.

and as he lost his footing and fell to the ground, still holding onto his spear, xiao supposes that even nature was mourning your loss from the way that rain began to pour, soaking his hair, skin and clothes, but most importantly, extinguishing the flames that took you along with it. for the first time in over a millenia, he allowed himself to cry, to grieve, to weep, for he has lost the only blessing in his life to his own incompetence. 

in the end, this whole ordeal was worse than any loss he could possibly bear. he would trade his entire life, his whole existence, if it meant you were safe and happy.  xiao would give anything to live with you once more. xiao would sacrifice everything just for you to smile once more. but, he supposes, he cannot ask for such things. he cannot ask for your life back, even in exchange for his own. he will never be able to forgive himself. he will never forgive himself for letting you down. he wasn’t sure if he’ll be able to ever even recover from this terrible loss. archons, how he hated this. 

he lost you.

he lost his sun.

and he felt a very familiar darkness swallow him whole, and his heart had become vacant and numb once more.

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[funkypoacher]

@natesofrellis long story short, I had to delete the original post so here we are.

Thank you for this prompt, it was amazing. It let me explore what was supposed to be Gray's Big Death Scene, because originally I killed her off but have since decided fukkit—everyone lives happily ever after making babies in the bunkers😇 That said, welcome to Stream of Consciousness Hell, population: this shit.

How stupid are you? curdles on visible breath. And then nothing. She assumes she heard the gunshot—assumes she fell to the ground—she wasn't born there, after all, she didn't grow out of the sludged fall leaves like a spindly aspen—she isn't those maple shoots swaying in her darkening vision, and fuck if blood loss doesn't make you weird.

Holding her stomach, she rolls to the side. Dirt and worms escaping soaked ground stick to her—she's willing her lungs to work through that creaking as ribs crack and mouths scream. She tries to be angry because it was an insult—how stupid are you?—and if she isn't angry, and isn't fighting, then she's scared and weak and he'll be mad and

"Jacob!"

Gray sobs. It isn't the pain: it's the fading. Face in soil, she sobs, begging his name to be more than just something a dying animal cried in its last moments.

"Where are you?"

And then she's dead. And she hates that.

Collapsed lung full of blood, buckshot that's not all out yet, and she can bank on some vicious infection: that's the good news. The better news is that she made it to Saint Francis at all, brought in by some of their soldiers.

The middling news is that her jacket's a bust. She really liked that one, too: pink and purple patches clashing with the camo, but you can't serve your purpose if you ain't cute.

And the bad news? Jacob wants to know who.

There's tubes in her—in lung and veins. Open windows welcome the breeze. 

"Who did this to you?" Jacob asks.

Standing beside their bed, arms across his chest, he doesn't get angry, Mister Seen-It-All. Something about his eyes, though—oh, he's really up there: high on some war horse because Gracie got a boo-boo. Well, like, a few dozen of them, but whatever, that's how shotgun blasts work. Either way, Jacob Seed doesn't get angry, he gets this: jaw squared, eyes steeled, and righteous. He's gonna make someone realize they're weak.

How stupid are you?

Gray just looks away.

"It doesn't matter," Gray answers quietly with a sticky throat. "Let it go, babe, it doesn't—"

"Yes, it does." 

Dragging a metal chair over, he sits, elbows on knees.

"Who did this to you?"

A sob tightens her chest first, which isn't fair—she already has a lot going on there, where she wheezes and rattles. Spotting the anguish, Jacob asks "what did they do to you?" which is sweet—it's sweet how much strength he assumes of her. 

"Nothing, it's…" 

Huffing, Gray winces. Leaning back into the pillow, she winces again. Her injuries, bruises and bullet holes, have her skin tight. She can't move without feeling stretched by her stitches; she can't look any place for long before Jacob's presence calls her and repels her for the same reason. Love. She wants to find comfort, there, in sky blues, but she's got to be harder.

So she is.

"Who shot you, Graciella?" Jacob says.

"No one. Everyone." With a resolute expression, Gray clarifies, "it could have been anyone, Jacob. That's my point. I'm on everyone's shit-list, I guess. And I missed it happen."

Three years back, if you'd've asked Gray to list the locals she knew, she would have thrown the phone book at you. She'd considered town meetings a family reunion. Where her parents had never cared, the county stepped up—she'd always felt she had, like, five moms, eight dads; she was in with everyone. 

Then she met Jacob. And apparently there really were some men that you shouldn't bring home to the parents.

"Are you going to sit there and tell me you are whining about the cowards of this county no longer liking you?" Jacob frowns, brow bent, arms crossing. "Because strength? Survival? Purpose? It doesn't come down to a popularity contest. Popularity is for those who need the herd. It is for those who are too weak to stand on their own." 

Getting to his feet, Jacob cups her jaw. His fingers dig too much. "You are not weak. Stop acting like it. You're better than this."

And he walks to a table behind him.

"Oh my God. Oh my God." Bursting out with laughing, shaking for both the agony and the hi-lar-ity of it, any tears streaming down Gray's cheeks are at his expense, now, and they are certainly not sad.

"Oh, that is good," she snickers as Jacob's back remains facing her. "You were seriously so worried, weren't you? I mean really. Me? Weak? Try that again when I'm on my feet. Or are you afraid of a fair fight?" 

"Who shot you?" he asks again.

Still Gray won't say.

Jacob's hands are on the table. They hurl it so fast that the only thing left is the echoing cacophony of metal clanging across dirty tile flooring. Scalpels, scissors, knives—medical equipment from her surgery, and some of it there just for fun. A lock-box smashes to the ground; coffee canteen, too. Papers, maps, and jesus christ. 

"Is it a fair fight you're worried about? You're lucky I don't give you to the wolves." Turning to her, scowling, Jacob points towards the window. "Protecting those feeble, spineless nothings out there demonstrates to me that you are just as weak as they are. And you know what we do to the weak. What I do to the weak."

"'Protecting'?"

"Yes." 

Gray grips the bedsheets. There's few things that scare her—that soften her voice, smooth her features, and make her unwilling to punch back. 

Jacob isn't one of them. He should be. He's not. Flipping the table, going primal, it looks good on him. It reminds Gray that he's alive. Sometimes his confidence comes off as arrogance, but mostly it leans towards torpor. He's slow and empty for all he's seen: Jacob doesn't rile because what's the point? His crap kismet fueled by Darwinism keeps him cool—all this was set to play out like the Romans or whoever else he can rattle off about, so rarely does Jacob get angry. Feral, maybe—reaching for where he feels something, he has to dig so deep that what crawls back is canine, and predatory, but it's not angry. It's hungry.

No, Gray has never been afraid of him. Afraid of disappointing him, however? Her knees buckle and she's not even standing.

"I'm not telling you who shot me because I'm bringing them in, not you," Gray says, trading his glare for her own. "If I tell you, apparently you'll just flip tables at them. But I want to see her run the trials with a pound of buckshot in her stomach. If she comes out the other side? We'll make friendship bracelets, probably."

Jacob's mood shifts. "They shot you," he reminds.

Gray snorts. "Yeah, and who cares? It's just pain." 

Pride. That's it. It puffs him up. As his chest expands and shoulders square, she can't see any way to describe it but washing. Pride washes away any doubt—it cleans him down to that smile. She's seen Jacob do this with his soldiers: where he abhors weakness and lauds strength, sometimes the latter's got him looking like a happy den-mother. 

And with her… Well, she can still remember the first time. His head tilts back slightly, eyeing Gray around a smirk. She swirls and dizzies in her mind and body—damn, but he's gorgeous. With the world so soft, anything that's otherwise impresses Jacob, and it's why his approval gets to be like a fucking drug: rise to his expectations, and you've got the fortitude of a God.

She feels like that. A god. Powerful; perfect. 

Jacob's ire has passed. He bitches about betrayals and ninth gates of Hell a lot, so the fact Gray isn't guilty of his assumed trespasses has him a lot less surly.

"Until you are healed, and I am talking one-hundred percent, you're on limdu. Got it?" Jacob closes the gap between them, sauntering over, arms across his chest  "No ops, no reserve work. You wanna help out in the mess, or with laundry, that's fine. And I don't want to see you out of this bed for at least a week."

"Okay," Gray agrees with a relenting eye roll at his fussing-like-frick attitude. Smirking, she adds "there's still a lot of shit I could get up to if I'm stuck in bed for a week. You like me with extra holes, baby?"

Jacob snorts, shaking his head. "Oh, Jesus Christ."

Gray leans deeper into her cool, plump pillow. "Yeah! He had extra holes, too!"

Chuckling, Jacob sits on the side of the bed. They look at each other across space filled with a pointed silence. His big, wide hand touches her. Caresses her. Needs her? Jacob's hand slides from her cheek to her neck to her back, pulling her close, until both arms are around her, and Gray smells him as they press close—she's pretty sure he's at day five of his bathing rotation, meaning she can smell five days of living on him. Sweat from drills, deodorant slapped on on day two, wood smoke and engine oil and gun grease and it's not like she can actually smell dinner from the night before, okay? But that salty sting in her nose has her thinking about the can of cold porked beans they shared, and how she went to bed after, and he went to go check in with the next Bliss shipment details out to the lodge, and so Gray fell asleep alone, and

"Jacob."

Gray turns, dragging her lips across his neck. Jacob looks into her eyes. She thinks he's gorgeous.

"Love you," she says. 

"Don't you ever leave me again," Jacob replies, hand tightening in her hair. 

And that is how Gray learns she died. For two minutes.

[punkscowardschampions]

Noah & Sekhmet Pt.2

Sekhmet: Do you already have a place or can we look together?

Noah: I didn’t want to do this with anyone else, you caught my eye & I had to find out what you wanted

Noah: I had a maybe place but it’s not right for you, we’ll look

Sekhmet: 🥳

Sekhmet: as long as you fuck me in every single room in every possible position you could ever want me in, so we’re really, REALLY sure it's right for us

Sekhmet: I don’t care if we have to do a hundred viewings, okay daddy? 😋🤤

Noah: What school you studying at? If it ain’t being overlooked by where we live I’ll have to stop you going for real

Sekhmet: I go to UAL, the fashion college in Westminster

Sekhmet: Which would definitely be a view to overlook but I’m just more interested in being locked away right now so perhaps that says a lot

Noah: I was willing to give you a small outside radius for the sake of your skin glow when I’m not there, but right answer

Sekhmet: You’re right, a balcony for the limited sunbathing this country allows, and other activities, is a VERY good idea

Noah: you wouldn’t wanna get too pale, it’d look like I don’t take good enough care of you

Sekhmet: Not when that’s the furthest from the truth

Sekhmet: I’ll take as good care of my body so people have no doubts how cared for I am

Noah: I’ll get you your own private pool access

Sekhmet: I’m ready to have my new uniform be 👙 at all times 🥺

Noah: easy to take off is a bonus when we’re short on time together

Sekhmet: I know how a guy like you deserves to be treated, I’ll always be ready for you, whenever you need me

Noah: my girlfriend works long hours, I’ll need you a lot

Sekhmet: Nothing or nobody will take priority over you

Noah: it’d only happen one time before you’d lose whatever did

Sekhmet: As I should

Noah: I know you’re more committed than that

Sekhmet: I’ll happily take the punishments I deserve but I want to be 😇 for you, 99.9% of the time

Noah: think of something to give up for me now, before we’ve met or you’ve seen my face

Sekhmet: [screengrab of her deleting these dating apps except the one we’re still on rn]

Noah: 👼🏽

Noah: but the angel’s gotta be sexier & it’s gotta be something more personal you care deeply about

Sekhmet: 😳 Let me think

Noah: take a sec or 2

Sekhmet: I do feel like I need it but

Sekhmet: Okay, I was meant to be going home to Ireland

Sekhmet: [showing the cancelled flights and if Lulu said anything about being sad that isn’t giving away why we told her we need to cancel lol]

Noah: you did so good, baby

Noah: I’m proud

Sekhmet: 🥰

Sekhmet: I would only be thinking of you anyway

Noah: I’ll send you [something expensive af from an irish designer if one exists idk I’m not in the know] you don’t gotta miss out

Sekhmet: How much you’ve spoiled me already… I’m going to have to get used to it, aren’t I? 😍

Noah: you will, I’m not going anywhere & unless you upset me my presents won’t either

Sekhmet: I want you to stay

Sekhmet: I need you to

Noah: say it again

Sekhmet: Stay with me, I need you

Sekhmet: all I need is you and what you give me, because you want to take care of me

Noah: you don’t say shit you don’t mean, do you?

Sekhmet: Never

Sekhmet: we can date, before we start the full arrangement, so you can trust me, I can earn it

Sekhmet: I just want someone who wants something as intense as I do

Sekhmet: I think its you

Noah: it is me

Noah: but that’s smart, a probation period

Sekhmet: You say that now

Sekhmet: give me a night

Noah: tonight, [the city break destination we’ve said about for the face reveal] & 1 more after you’ve seen me to prove you like what you saw

Noah: 3 dates

Sekhmet: Classic

Sekhmet: Do you think I won’t like what I see?

Noah: I think you’ll lose your shit, we’ll find out if it’s in a good way or it ain’t

Sekhmet: I’m really remembering how bad I am at being patient rn

Sekhmet: Too curious…

Noah: 😏

Noah: You wanna ask me anything?

Sekhmet: Too many things

Sekhmet: Do you miss NYC?

Noah: yeah, ive been looking to move back but she won’t leave her family

Sekhmet: well what about yours? Kinda selfish

Noah: it’s just my folks & they’re not big fans

Noah: them of her or her of them

Sekhmet: Are you close to them?

Noah: not hardcore to where it’d be a red flag or distant to the level it’d cause another major !

Noah: avoiding the headache of what she calls a culture clash, though rich London girls ain’t so different from East Coast if you ask me, is safer a lot of the time, that’s the reality for right now

Noah: keeping shit ticking over

Noah: it’s unsatisfying living, you nailed it about not wanting to keep it up when I could get more

Sekhmet: I feel you

Sekhmet: I’m not sat here angsting about any separation but I’m also not acting like putting any between me and mine would be wildly unique, family is just family, you make it work

Sekhmet: There’s a lot family life can’t give, though, things we both want

Noah: there is, she wouldn’t let me do to her none of what I’m gonna do to you

Sekhmet: No one would

Sekhmet: no one else can have me, I need this to work

Noah: we’ll make it work

Sekhmet: I’m going to start pampering now

Sekhmet: 💅🛀🤍

Noah: Don’t forget the 🍾🥂 it’ll keep you relaxed

Noah: no nerves

Sekhmet: [selfie like chin chin gals ‘cos that’s how we’re living always]

Noah: good girl

Sekhmet: You kill me

Noah: I feel it, you gotta

Sekhmet: I want you to kill me

Sekhmet: this is the best feeling

Noah: what goes on in the shadows is gonna make us feel better than we ever have

Sekhmet: I feel that too

Noah: I feel impatient

Sekhmet: 😖

Sekhmet: How can I help?

Noah: you can’t pamper yourself in the dark, I’ve gotta wait & you’ve gotta be worth that

Sekhmet: Okay, I’ll be brave

Sekhmet: I’ll miss you a lot ‘til then

Noah: is your outfit hung up waiting? 🤔 could you get dressed in the dark?

Noah: thinking out loud

Sekhmet: You could dress me in the dark

Noah: would you like that, baby?

Sekhmet: so much, daddy

Sekhmet: Please come help me, I’ll blindfold myself and unlock my door

Noah: I’ll help you out the bath, dry your body & hair with a fluffy towel for you, then the clothes

Sekhmet: damn

Sekhmet: god damn

Sekhmet: I’m listening to every single tiny sound whilst I wait, feel the air on my bare skin

Noah: where are you?

Noah: cos there’s no tracker under that skin

Sekhmet: Yet, yeah 😏

Sekhmet: [send your location, which is absolutely the family home you had your proposal party at, thank god your family is a busy one lol]

Noah: [show her your google map to and from so she knows how far away you are, but obviously you’re not somewhere that gives anything away]

Sekhmet: I’ll start counting

Noah: keep your hands busy so they don’t stray

Sekhmet: This body is yours

Sekhmet: I can’t touch it unless you’re here to see

Noah: you wanna show me exactly what you like

Sekhmet: yes

Sekhmet: and you to show me how much you like what you see in person

Noah: I should’ve ordered a blacklight later for this dress instead of a spotlight, my bad

Sekhmet: Looking like a crime scene 🥴

Sekhmet: We can always go to the club

Noah: OK, bring your blindfold

Sekhmet: Everyone will be looking at me but I can’t even see you, the only person I’d want to look at

Noah: everyone will be looking at us

Sekhmet: I wanna get used to being an us

Noah: give me a night to get you there

Sekhmet: If I promise not to take the blindfold off, will you stay the night with me

Sekhmet: or until I fall asleep, if you really have to go

Noah: there’s nothing I’d have to go that bad for, you know that, don’t you?

Sekhmet: I know I want to hold you and be held all night

Sekhmet: and if that’s not your girlfriend then I insist you stay with me

Noah: if you insist

Sekhmet: 😻

Sekhmet: I’m going to be ruined for tomorrow

Noah: your tomorrow’s cancelled, whatever you had planned, forget it

Sekhmet: Forgotten

Sekhmet: my head is all you, all this

Noah: mine too, I’ll be working & with her thinking of you

Sekhmet: That makes me insanely happy

Sekhmet: Does that make me a terrible person?

Noah: it makes you good for me

Sekhmet: That’s what matters to me

Noah: what do you want me to do with her? everything or nothing?

Sekhmet: A tough one

Sekhmet: do I be selfish and jealous and say nothing

Sekhmet: or do I say do exactly what you want to do to me so she can spend some time missing you

Sekhmet: 🤔 will you think of me the WHOLE time?

Noah: before, during & after

Sekhmet: in that case, fuck the shit out of her

Noah: she ain’t gonna know what’s gotten into me

Sekhmet: That would be me, before you go feeling special, babe

Noah: �� you can keep the blindfold before she goes feeling too special either

Sekhmet: what does she look like?

Noah: brunette, blue eyes & she keeps herself in shape

Sekhmet: Cute

Sekhmet: she’s white, right?

Noah: yeah & she’s got the accent all posh girls have over here

Sekhmet: 😂 is that a plus or a negative for you?

Sekhmet: I know a lot of Americans like it

Noah: it’s a plus when she’s gonna be talking dirty to me tomorrow, but a headache when she’s in the other kinda mood

Sekhmet: Okay, so I can keep you in the mood so you can fuck her happy

Sekhmet: She is so welcome

Noah: the dog won’t be, maybe I should borrow the blindfold, keep its eyes off me

Sekhmet: Not the creepy dog, I can’t deal

Sekhmet: my friend’s dog is like a little gremlin sitting in the corner judging

Noah: you british & your pets, in the US it’d sleep outside

Sekhmet: You’re super hot when you’re mean

Noah: you need a yard too, huh?

Noah: I’ll let the estate agent know

Sekhmet: Imagine

Sekhmet: is there room to chain my girlfriend up? 😈

Noah: if not outside, there’ll be wall space & high ceilings

Sekhmet: Please leave me there ‘til you need me again, that is all I need to be happy

Noah: with your water & food bowl

Sekhmet: FUCK

Sekhmet: 🥵 will you give me love if I perform all my tricks for you perfectly, daddy?

Noah: love & treats

Noah: I’ll remember to keep your hair brushed too

Sekhmet: ALL the tummy rubs

Noah: the nicest collar hard-earned money can buy

Sekhmet: Only you can take it off, if not I’m keeping it on forever

Sekhmet: proudest pup 🥰

Noah: we’ll go shopping for toys after we’ve found it, can’t have you running off & I can’t wait around for you to get used to walking to heel before we can go anywhere

Noah: unless you learn real fast

Sekhmet: By the time we go to [this work soiree] I will be the perfect pet

Sekhmet: You’re so strong and masterful, there’s no way I could resist, every instinct tells me to obey you

Noah: you have fucking awesome instincts

Sekhmet: Do you know how hard it is not to touch myself right now 🥺

Noah: show me how hard you’re working to resist

Sekhmet: [the visual of that, namely being us squeezing our legs shut but obviously we’re uncrossing them so you can see that we’re this close to cumming regardless]

Noah: Shit

Noah: where’s your level of dedication been all my life?

Sekhmet: am I worth the wait, daddy?

Sekhmet: I can do better, wait

Sekhmet: [write his name right above your foof]

Noah: you can touch yourself there, as a reward

Noah: run your fingers along all the letters of my name

Sekhmet: [do it, the way this would be getting you off so hard is gonna kill you boy]

Noah: God damn 🥵

Sekhmet: Thank you thank you

Sekhmet: How does that feel that good, what have you done to me

Noah: say my name until it makes you cum

Sekhmet: [Do that, and be adorable about it when it clearly happens so fast like oh no 😳]

Noah: Baby

Sekhmet: Say it out loud for me, please

Noah: Ok, so you can hear I’m dying to fuck you & you don’t gotta be 😳

Noah: [thank god you’ve probably never called Jay that in front of anyone lmao so she won’t recognise your voice when you do say it]

Sekhmet: Your voice is

Sekhmet: I’m too weak to feel this turned on immediately again

Sekhmet: kill me

Noah: Don’t go under in the 🛀 before I’m right there to pull you out the water

Sekhmet: Well, can we do that when you get here though

Noah: you wanna get me wet

Sekhmet: As wet as you’ve got me would be a stretch but I think you’d like it 🤭

Noah: both of us shivering & doing the fake out it’s the only reason why would be a stretch but I can give it my all

Sekhmet: If you want to hold me under before you save me, no one will ever know

Sekhmet: being unable to breathe seems to be the default for me when it comes to you

Noah: for a few seconds then

Noah: to scare you, just in case you ain’t gonna be by my identity

Sekhmet: You really could be anyone, at this point

Sekhmet: even if I feel like I know you, I don’t

Noah: nobody does, but I want you to

Sekhmet: I want that too

Sekhmet: you to know me too…

Noah: 😳 in this car on my way over

Noah: how willing you are to say & do it fucks me up

Sekhmet: I am fucked up, be it with me 🤞🏽🙏🏽

Noah: me & you, baby

Sekhmet: 😍😍

Sekhmet: if you go back to New York, take me with you

Noah: you know I will

Sekhmet: Even if your parents like me even less, I wanna see your 🌎

Noah: they’d love you for treating me right

Sekhmet: And believe it or not, I’d be great at pretending I don’t let you treat me however you like when we’re in front of them

Noah: you’ve had on the job acting training

Noah: every guy or his spending habits ain’t making you feel like this, I don’t buy it

Sekhmet: If it’s not real, it doesn’t get as far but sure

Sekhmet: Plenty of guys have been humoured

Noah: humoring assholes is part of my job too, it’s OK

Noah: it’s good business

Sekhmet: It definitely pays, however you have to

Sekhmet: assholes need to be parted with their 💸

Noah: my folks can keep theirs, but there’s allowances gotta be made for other shit, talking points round the dinner table etc, with how conversative they can be

Sekhmet: 😬 how conservative are we talking?

Noah: it’s not the South, you’re safe from a white power rally

Noah: old school & old money is present & correct though

Sekhmet: Oh that I can handle

Sekhmet: it’s the same here, half my social circle from school was that type

Noah: my girlfriend hates that type despite being from it, UK edition

Sekhmet: That’s tacky, trying to claim you’re not what you blatantly are, like, oh, so you’re special and different, huh? 👌🏽

Noah: I told her, do poor for a day & come find me when you find out you don’t like it, but I’m still waiting

Sekhmet: SERIOUSLY 🤣

Sekhmet: I don’t have the family name but I’m not going to pretend I don’t have the money, or don’t want it

Sekhmet: People hate that more, faking being ‘like everyone else’ like everyone who’s not got cash is exactly the same 😷

Noah: if she really hated being double barrelled she’d take my last name instead without putting up the fight about it

Sekhmet: Me and your parents can probably agree on that one

Sekhmet: why wouldn’t you want the love of your life’s name? To make a faux feminist statement?

Noah: to make the statement she doesn’t deep down wanna marry me, is what I figure

Sekhmet: That’s horrible

Noah: she can be

Sekhmet: 😢 put your name and mouth on me ‘til you feel better

Noah: [send her your google maps again so she knows we’re on our way]

Sekhmet: It’s so rude of my parents to insist on living out of the city, I know

Noah: I’ll save you from that too

Sekhmet: I technically live in the city with flatmates but that’s even worse a situation so you really gotta

Sekhmet: can’t handle them up in my business for another night

Noah: 😬 how many flatmates we talking?

Sekhmet: FIVE

Sekhmet: and not one of them knows how to party, it’s the lamest

Noah: it won’t do

Noah: asap viewings, I hear you

Sekhmet: A kennel would be preferable

Noah: you’re not going back, get your girlfriend to collect your stuff if you need any of badly

Sekhmet: 🥰

Sekhmet: Maybe I could stay at [a bouj hotel in the city] so I’m close whilst we wait

Noah: top floor

Sekhmet: daddy!

Noah: book yourself in, the charges coming in’ll push me keep the wait short

Sekhmet: My kind of motivation 👏🏽

Sekhmet: one of, anyway

Noah: I wanna see the drink tab running expensive, can’t have you thinking I’m in your flatmates’ league

Sekhmet: Staying ready can include staying perma tipsy, I’m down 🤪

Noah: I figured you’d be 😏

Sekhmet: 😱 Are you saying I give pisshead energy 🤣

Noah: life & soul of the party energy

Sekhmet: Right answer, baby 😏

Noah: sexy as you’d be angry, I ain’t there to enjoy it in person

Sekhmet: [send a selfie 😡 but obviously we’re joking so then one 🤭]

Noah: 😍😍

Sekhmet: My girlfriend is going to go get my stuff, but she wants to see what the top floor look like

Noah: She’s never been that high, huh?

Noah: OK

Sekhmet: Nope, she’s brand new

Noah: how new?

Sekhmet: She’s 18

Sekhmet: but she only starting doing this stuff ‘cos of me, like real recent

Noah: you’ve got full control over her

Sekhmet: Mhmm

Sekhmet: [some photographic proof of that]

Noah: you look good together, where’d you find her?

Sekhmet: That’s a story

Sekhmet: 🤔 how hard you might judge me for that one

Noah: are you saying I give judgemental energy?

Sekhmet: Nu-uh!

Sekhmet: but it’s more than a little bit bad 😶

Noah: you want me to know you, you said so

Sekhmet: Yeah, okay

Sekhmet: so, we have the same half-sister

Sekhmet: but in a way that makes us not related so it’s okay, right 🙃

Noah: like step sisters, nobody’s ever mad at that

Noah: it gets insane numbers of clicks

Sekhmet: Exactly, I didn’t even know her before, as you can clearly tell, the whole branch of the family is a mess so 💁🏽‍♀️ it’s no more real than the fantasy that everyone wants to see

Sekhmet: you still like me, don’t you

Noah: I like you more

Sekhmet: Yeah?

Noah: you gave info up to me a lot of people don’t know, can’t know, cos you’ll get in trouble

Sekhmet: I can tell you even more things that would get me in the worst kind of trouble

Sekhmet: things escalated

Noah: I’m listening

Sekhmet: The more ways I give you to fuck me up, the more you’ll know I’m serious about you and us

Sekhmet: She’s in her last year of school, I’ve been there to see her

Noah: boarding or day?

Sekhmet: Boarding 💀

Noah: they gotta be strict, how did you do it?

Sekhmet: Borrowed some of her uniform, pretended I went there, less suspicious than creeping in

Noah: she must’ve been the happiest girl there that day, to see you

Sekhmet: Yeah, she’s pretty into me, if we wanna go with an understatement

Noah: I’m guessing she didn’t show it in an understated way

Noah: what happened?

Sekhmet: Well, I could describe it to you in vivid detail, or I could let you sub to my OFs now and you can see the video we made there

Noah: do both, describe to me how you felt first & then I’ll watch to see why you felt like it

Sekhmet: I was mad at her, so she had a lot to make up to me

Sekhmet: She makes me feel sick, in all the ways

Sekhmet: but she was even badder in the cab out of there, which I’m gutted I can’t show you now

Noah: who cried, her or you?

Sekhmet: Her, a lot

Noah: you didn’t at all?

Sekhmet: Nearly

Noah: we’re not gonna fight, don’t worry, you won’t have to cry a shit ton over the thought of losing me

Noah: cos I know you would but I’m not gonna power trip it

Sekhmet: It’s a relief, ngl 😶

Sekhmet: we seem to, a lot

Sekhmet: girls are drama, right

Noah: yeah, they are

Noah: & at her age it’s nothing else

Sekhmet: True

Sekhmet: how old is your gf?

Noah: I've got a few years over her, nothing major

Sekhmet: At least I don’t need to be jealous of her over her youth or anything

Noah: 😂 she hasn’t aged bad but nah, jealous is the last thing you’d be

Sekhmet: just any time she has you and I don’t then, that I can handle

Noah: she doesn’t have me the way you do, nobody does

Sekhmet: I want it like that

Sekhmet: you know it’s given back 10x

Noah: Yeah?

Noah: date 4 give me your girlfriend

Sekhmet: Can we keep her? 😸

Sekhmet: Just as a plaything

Noah: we’ll see how she acts when you bring her to me

Sekhmet: I can get her to behave

Sekhmet: however you want

Sekhmet: I’m in her 🧠

Noah: if you’re in there hard enough, we’ll keep her

Sekhmet: where would she sleep

Noah: the end of our bed, she’s a pet

Sekhmet: 🤤

Sekhmet: She won’t let me down, I’ll get to give you her 🎀

Noah: I look forward to unwrapping her

Sekhmet: Maybe you will wanna make her cry

Sekhmet: because you wanna be especially nice to me, right

Noah: right, I do

Sekhmet: I’ll show you how I do it

Sekhmet: but I wanna see your own ways

Noah: show me now

Sekhmet: You want fresh tears

Sekhmet: her eyes get so red, like the rest of her face

Noah: you’ve sold it, baby, deliver it

Sekhmet: [at least you can act Lulu so we don’t have to threaten to leave you because that’s actually how we do it lol, but take some time to do that before sending selfies she’s sent you like]

Sekhmet: She’s real needy

Noah: how many others have you given her to? ballpark figure

Sekhmet: Hmm

Sekhmet: [a number that is either true or nah but either way will seem insultingly big because we’re saying something about her here]

Noah: dang, she is needy

Sekhmet: I know 💸 for me, ruined pussy for her

Noah: I respect both of your worth ethics, but maybe she needs a different piece of vocab for hers

Sekhmet: Like, she undeniably puts the time in but can we call it work when she enjoys it that much ��

Noah: is it a girls’ school or co-ed? Debating out loud which of us need to be 🤔 about how she’s spending her time there when we let her attend to give us time on our own

Sekhmet: Co-ed

Sekhmet: if we give her rules she’ll follow ‘em, or else

Noah: detention would seem a walk in the park

Sekhmet: 😈

Sekhmet: She SWEARS she only likes me and older guys like you

Sekhmet: but there’s no reason we have to believe her word

Noah: I don’t yet

Sekhmet: She has to earn it herself

Noah: ask her how she plans to

Sekhmet: [your time to shine gal, we’ll give you the lowdown so you can come at this]

Noah: [we know the vibe girl and so do you, give him something so he feels special haha, either tea or a sacrifice of something for his benefit]

Sekhmet: [Ooh, I had an idea, she could tell him her real name ‘cos we’re using an alias unlike someone so you could be like no one from my real life has found me yet, here you go]

Noah: [we’re doing it, he’d LOVE it cos he knows she ain’t lying cos he literally knows what her real name is already lol]

Sekhmet: 👍🏽/👎🏽?

Noah: A1

Sekhmet: She’ll be 😁

Noah: we’ll allow her to be, there’ll be other times to make her cry again

Sekhmet: We want that to be a surprise/shock, no warning

Noah: you wanted her to give up the 🐶 I know 😏

Noah: shock & horror from you, but I’ll make you feel better soon

Noah: [updated google map]

Sekhmet: I can think about how much you’d have to break her to make that happen

Sekhmet: then you’ll be here, shit

Noah: she’s gotta love her/him so much to risk you being angry about 👀

Sekhmet: The thought has crossed my mind… I don’t THINK she’s trained him like THAT 😱

Noah: What other thoughts are going through your head? Grab one and give it to me

Sekhmet: That I’ve let this bath go ice cold

Sekhmet: how hot your fingers are gonna feel on my skin now, like you could burn me

Noah: wait ‘til you feel my mouth on you

Sekhmet: Now my head is just 💋

Noah: & 👅 & 🦷

Sekhmet: I’m so glad it’s just us

Sekhmet: she keeps talking about you now but I don’t want to share right now

Noah: me too, I’m still not sure she could handle what is about to happen between us

Noah: & I wanna be all yours until I know

Sekhmet: Mine

Sekhmet: You got me this way and I got you like that, it’s nothing to do with anyone else

Noah: that deserves some hot water, not too much 🤏

Sekhmet: [video of that, lowkey scalding ourself a bit just for funsies]

Noah: careful, baby

Sekhmet: Just more to kiss better, sorry, making you work so hard

Noah: kiss & cover in lotion

Sekhmet: please

Sekhmet: massage me? 😻

Noah: I can sometimes be overly liberal with the application of both & my hand pressure

Noah: you don’t mind that kinda massage, do you?

Sekhmet: no 🥺 that’s perfect you’re perfect

Noah: your muscles must be so tight, all the stress your girlfriend’s got you under

Sekhmet: I am

Sekhmet: I need time to stop with you, so we can do this forever

Noah: I’ll take all that time to go in really deep ‘til you’re as relaxed as can be & letting go of as much tension as you need

Sekhmet: you’re SO good to me

Sekhmet: are you going to let me touch you too

Sekhmet: I wanna feel you all over ‘til I can picture how you look vividly

Noah: if you can’t keep your hands off me I don’t want you to have to try to, it wouldn’t be relaxing

Sekhmet: feeling spoiled 🥰

Noah: it’s how you’re gonna be from now on

Sekhmet: Okay, I’ll try not to cry

Sekhmet: though the blindfold would hide that from you so 😭

Noah: no hiding shit from me, if you’re gonna cry I wanna see

Sekhmet: okay but you’ll have to trust me to keep my eyes closed to see

Sekhmet: do you?

Noah: yeah, you’re my good girl

Noah: repeat it back & I’ll know you promise to be

Sekhmet: I’m your good girl, daddy

Sekhmet: I wanna let you spoil me and keep you happy, no matter what

Noah: even if you wanted to look, you won’t have no choice but to squeeze your eyes tight closed when I’m railing you as hard as I am

Sekhmet: I want your cum inside of me as much as I want it all over me

Noah: you want me to fill you up

Sekhmet: so much

Sekhmet: I wanna feel you inside me still when you have to leave

Noah: I wanna feel your perfect pussy clenched around me so tight I can’t leave

Sekhmet: I can trap you

Sekhmet: you don’t even need to give me babies, you’re going to be dedicated to how good I feel on you

Sekhmet: No other bitch is ever gonna feel as good as me

Noah: we’ll trap each other then, I’ve already got you locked in any room I tell you to be

Sekhmet: I’m perfect, you have to keep me somewhere only you can get to

Noah: I do, I feel it

Sekhmet: It’s a big responsibility but you can handle it

Sekhmet: and being the only one who knows how good I feel, the only one I serve with my body

Sekhmet: that’s a pretty great prize

Noah: it’s priceless to me

Noah: you’re worth any amount of money or time

Sekhmet: All I need is to be taken care of, then my head can only be full of you

Sekhmet: no stress equals total devotion to you 24/7

Sekhmet: I’m not greedy, daddy

Noah: yeah you are, greedy for me

Sekhmet: Okay, you got me

Sekhmet: if I’m not making you cum, with my perfect pussy in person or my words and the thought of me when I can’t be with you, then I’m just wasting my time

Noah: I’m not gonna let you waste your time or skills

Sekhmet: ‘cos you care for me, already, so well

Noah: you got me, it’s true

Sekhmet: I love it

Sekhmet: the idea of relying on you for everything in my life

Noah: you’re gonna love me

Sekhmet: I already know it

Sekhmet: I can feel it, the obsession…

Sekhmet: are you going to love me back?

Noah: I’ll love you back harder than you’ve ever been

Sekhmet: I know it’s already real because I was really scared you were going to say no

Noah: I’m not trying to be the kinda daddy who tells you no ever

Sekhmet: You’d be a good dad

Sekhmet: I’d want you 😍

Noah: you’d give me cuter kids than her

Sekhmet: I’m going to 💀

Sekhmet: you’re gonna have me taking it back and saying actually give me those babies

Noah: you’d have to come back to the states with me then

Sekhmet: How many do you want

Noah: it’s not up to me, it’ll happen as many times as it’s meant to

Sekhmet: Fated

Noah: but the red blooded American answer is something like enough for a football or soccer team

Sekhmet: 😏 making so many would be a LOT of fun but they’d be harder to ignore than our pet

Sekhmet: bit mean of us to make them a dampner on our good time

Noah: it’d be a different good time

Sekhmet: You’re something else, you know 😍

Noah: you’re not ready yet, it’s OK

Sekhmet: What if I was bad at it

Noah: everyone thinks they’re fucking up the important stuff, but I figure, if you honest to god were, you wouldn’t be worried about it

Noah: you know what I mean?

Sekhmet: That makes total sense

Sekhmet: it’s people who don’t care, that fuck us up

Noah: you’d give it your all cos that’s how you do everything, that’s plain to see

Sekhmet: I feel like people think I half-ass everything, especially right now

Noah: Where are they looking? Not at you

Noah: gotta be at themselves

Sekhmet: They don’t get what I AM doing, so all they see are the things they think I should be, what they’d do if they were me

Sekhmet: not looking at all the things I actually do day to day

Noah: societal pressure & family expectations sucks

Sekhmet: Seriously

Sekhmet: but I bet when you decided what you were going to do, your parents barely understood what it was, let alone the value in it

Sekhmet: and look at you, so, I try not to care

Noah: it’s the trust your gut thing coming back to the front & center

Noah: it’s all you can do

Sekhmet: Agreed

Sekhmet: fuck anyone trying to tell me otherwise when I’m so sure what I want

Noah: same, I don’t need anyone else to understand it, I need ‘em to get out the way

Sekhmet: How you think is hot

Sekhmet: be prepared for me to pick your brain when we don’t have more pressing matters to attend to 😅

Noah: 😏

Noah: everything you do & are is hot

Noah: I’d let you grill me while I’m drilling you any time or place

Sekhmet: Me trying to keep a train of thought/speak and not just 🥴

Sekhmet: IDK if you’d find it hot or you’d lose it 😂

Noah: I’d find it hot seeing you lose it

Noah: your train of thought & ability to speak

Noah: is it gonna be your voice breaking to my first thrust or giving out by the end, or is it both?

Sekhmet: If I’m just talking and you’re behind me, I won’t know it’s coming and I’m

Sekhmet: I want you to just slam into me so hard, no preparation

Sekhmet: you know I’m wet enough

Noah: let your girlfriend know you got to [tonight’s date venue] & how you like it & when I arrive I’ll arrive like that

Sekhmet: Okay 🥵

Sekhmet: I’ll know it’s you when I start getting fucked like I never have before

Noah: & she’ll know when you drop your phone

Sekhmet: She’ll be so jealous 🤭

Noah: you’re gonna be too wet for me for her not to hear me go in

Sekhmet: It’s going to be loud

Sekhmet: Hearing that noise is only going to make it louder

Noah: Shit, I hate London for keeping me away this long

Sekhmet: from now on, do not get stuck in traffic without me

Sekhmet: You need me right now

Noah: be on my lap begging for the traffic to keep us gridlocked where we are,

Sekhmet: any time I’m on your lap I’m gonna be begging

Sekhmet: you’re gonna be so glad you came to London to find me

Noah: I am, I’m so glad right now it hurts

Sekhmet: Make it so I hurt tomorrow

Sekhmet: so I know you did this, it’s real and you own me

Noah: Fuck, baby

Sekhmet: Daddy, please come claim me, I’m lost without you

Noah: you’re gonna make me lose it in this car

Sekhmet: Are you in a cab or are you driving

Noah: I was trying to drive

Sekhmet: I’m glad I don’t have to fight any driver for enjoying what’s mine 😡

Sekhmet: You should pull over so you can save me more cum 😋 I want it all

Noah: I need to give it to you

Sekhmet: Feed it to me

Sekhmet: make me try to lick it all off my face

Sekhmet: because the first load you give me in real time has to go straight up my pussy, sorry

Noah: we’re not gonna be sorry

Sekhmet: never

Sekhmet: I would cry if you pulled out

Sekhmet: I’m trying to give you your football team

Noah: I wouldn’t be able to, you’re gonna feel too good

Sekhmet: I’m gonna grip onto you for dear life

Sekhmet: milk every drop out of you, I am greedy, after-all

Noah: you are

Sekhmet: I can’t help it

Sekhmet: you wanna give me everything, don’t you?

Noah: & you wanna prove to me you can take it

Sekhmet: I can do it, daddy

Sekhmet: that’s why I’m your special girl

Sekhmet: I like it when it hurts a little

Noah: you like that it’s hurting me having to do the work for you cos I can’t wait

Sekhmet: …Yes 😶

Sekhmet: I’m sorry but I like that no matter how many times you cum thinking about me, the only thing that will stop it hurting, will make you feel right, is cumming inside me

Sekhmet: that any time you cum in your girlfriend you’ll be wishing it was me

Noah: You’re not gonna leave any for her, you’re gonna empty me

Sekhmet: Is it all for me now

Noah: every greedy hole

Sekhmet: your greedy holes

Noah: I’ll have to think about you all day just to get it up for her for a few minutes

Sekhmet: You’re too romantic, I’m fucking obsessed

Sekhmet: I’ll give you all the things to think about

Sekhmet: and when you’re fucking her, I’ll be texting you, you can read all my encouragement and jealousy as soon as she’s finished being a disappointing comparison

Noah: Loving you is gonna be too easy

Sekhmet: I feel it too, other people would call it scary but I’m just

Sekhmet: alive

Noah: [Tell her about some kind of travel thing you did that made you feel alive, god knows what or when, but like in a I feel even more than I did then energy]

Sekhmet: Take me on adventures

Sekhmet: You have to show me all the places you’ve been, so I know every experience that’s shaped you

Sekhmet: then we can go to new places together and do it all brand new

Noah: Where’ve you been?

Sekhmet: [Realistically a fair few because rich but it’s probably more tropical resorts because your parents vibe, so only a few ‘cool’ city breaks and whatnot that we’ve done ourself]

Noah: it’s gonna be as easy to take you on adventures as it is to love you

Sekhmet: What date am I allowed to say it on?

Noah: say it when you feel it

Sekhmet: Don’t be scared, okay

Noah: it doesn’t scare me

Sekhmet: Me either 😌

Noah: Do you love her?

Sekhmet: Yeah but

Sekhmet: idk where I stand with her

Sekhmet: don’t tell her

Noah: is she scared of it?

Sekhmet: I don’t think she knows what love is

Noah: my girlfriend either

Sekhmet: I want to

Sekhmet: I think it might be all I want

Noah: Yeah, I’ve got everything else I want, with work & my folks, friends & travelling, but this is left

Sekhmet: I’ll always have the money and lifestyle, that’s easy, I understand how to work for that, anyway

Sekhmet: having love, I’ve never

Noah: I don’t understand why my girlfriend is still making me work for it, how she can be OK with doing it

Noah: I love her but it makes me hate her

Sekhmet: I could see feeling that about Lulu

Sekhmet: it’s probably why I keep making her cry, punishing her

Noah: we can’t be as hard to love as they are making it seem

Sekhmet: You aren’t

Sekhmet: your girlfriend doesn’t know how, that’s her, not you

Sekhmet: how long have you been with her?

Noah: since she was around your age

Sekhmet: If she’s still with you and not loving you properly… in that amount of time

Sekhmet: it’s definitely her, that’s deranged

Sekhmet: I don’t understand what her motives are at all

Noah: she comes from deranged family stock, another pro for you in the baby mama column

Sekhmet: Even if I told you not to speak too soon

Sekhmet: I won’t because I’m not going to limit myself by who I’m from

Sekhmet: if I wanna be better, then I will, not cry about it

Noah: rise above

Sekhmet: exactly

Sekhmet: I can’t deal with a victim complex for a personality

Noah: no threesomes with my girlfriend, yours’ll have to do instead

Sekhmet: Have you ever had a threesome with her

Noah: a long time ago, with no repeats

Noah: she doesn’t drink a lot now, health kick, you know

Sekhmet: Ugh

Sekhmet: there’s no way we’d get away with it then

Noah: I don’t wanna share you with her, I barely wanna share you with Lulu

Sekhmet: let’s make her work for it

Sekhmet: I could get her to do anything you want, you know

Noah: OK, I’ll think about how far I wanna take that ‘anything’

Noah: how far I can before you don’t wanna love me

Sekhmet: I told you I’m sick, I want you to take it the furthest

Noah: I don’t know if you mean her furthest or yours

Sekhmet: Yours

Sekhmet: it’s about you

Noah: get used to being an us

Sekhmet: 🥺

Sekhmet: what do we want

Noah: I think you’ve gotta make her feel how she makes you

Noah: but the feelings you’ve been shoving down cos you’re not trying to let them see any light of day

Sekhmet: break her heart?

Noah: is that what she did to you?

Sekhmet: She’s trying

Noah: we should try harder in retaliation

Noah: if she’s got you worried you’re 2nd best, put her lower down your list, if she brings drama, bring more, that kinda thing

Noah: I don’t know how you feel so I can’t get into specifics but

Sekhmet: you’re making me feel wet and evil

Sekhmet: it’s a really good combination

Noah: 😈

Sekhmet: It’s like you can read my mind

Sekhmet: the parts I don’t want just anyone to see

Noah: it’s an awesome read, but I’m skimming, I wanna be able to do a presentation on you or some shit

Sekhmet: I’ll tell you anything

Sekhmet: everything

Noah: Where are you gonna start?

Sekhmet: I want you to pick

Noah: Do you really wanna give up on college or did you say it to turn me on?

Sekhmet: I really do, though if it’s a turn on it’s always a bonus

Sekhmet: I thought it’d be everything I wanted but it just feels like a waste of time, all the time

Noah: it’s not the missing piece you were searching for, but good news is, something else will be

Sekhmet: Could be us

Noah: lowkey waiting for you to add ‘but you’re playing’ 😏

Sekhmet: You do be playing too much 😆

Noah: you’re my new, fun as hell, toy

Sekhmet: you are dressing me up like a Barbie 🤤

Noah: & I’m gonna use you like a sex doll

Sekhmet: these holes need playing with

Sekhmet: like, yesterday

Noah: I’m [somewhere really close by] you can get me hard again & I won’t need to pull over this time

Sekhmet: DADDY

Sekhmet: I’m so so so insanely excited, I could make a mess

Sekhmet: my pussy is all tingly and it looks all shiny and pretty, wanna see

Noah: I wanna touch but I’ll look for now

Sekhmet: [All the pics but we’re not touching because he hasn’t said]

Sekhmet: I think I need something daddy sized

Noah: 😍😍😍

Noah: your body knows I’m minutes away from being inside it

Sekhmet: I’m literally shaking

Sekhmet: never have I wanted someone so badly, I know this is going to be the best fuck you’ve ever had and that has me drooling

Noah: the best fuck we’ve ever had cos it’s our 1st, us together

Sekhmet: once you put your cock inside me, I’m yours forever

Sekhmet: no takebacks, you’re mine

Noah: you’re getting claimed, baby

Noah: every inch of me is gonna own you

Sekhmet: I’m your owned fucktoy babydoll, all I want is you, no one else will register

Noah: nobody else can, I’m your whole world now

Sekhmet: I want you to leave me brainless, all I can think of is when you’re next going to give me what I crave, and how I can get you hard for me

Noah: you should love me for only leaving you ‘til tonight

Sekhmet: I love you, I love us

Sekhmet: you’re going to keep me safe and I’ll keep you adored

Noah: what if I let you put a finger inside yourself, the meaningful one?

Sekhmet: Shit

Sekhmet: you’ll walk in on me cumming for you, saying how much I love you over and over like they’re the only words I know

Noah: slowly slide it in

Sekhmet: i’m so swollen it feels huge, your dick is going to break me

Noah: be gentle cos I won’t

Sekhmet: slow is painful, you drilling me will feel like ecstasy

Noah: keep your eyes open for this, no blindfold or anything

Sekhmet: wait, really

Noah: I’ll tell you when to close them & you’ll do as I ask

Sekhmet: ask me to do anything

Sekhmet: I want this to be everything you want

Noah: say you love me

Sekhmet: [voice note and the desperation is so real]

Noah: & you’ll never stop

Sekhmet: Never, I want you forever

Sekhmet: ruin everyone and everything else for me

Noah: whoever I am & for whatever reason I’m doing this

Sekhmet: you’ve found your answer

Sekhmet: breed me, make me yours forever and I’ll give you all you need too, just me

Noah: Ok, close your eyes

Noah: [we showing up sis]

Sekhmet: [obviously we have shut our eyes]

Noah: [gal you and your intense af baes]

Sekhmet: [not you always being this way]

Noah: [I’m deceased because this hook up is gonna be iconic then it’s like okay see you in a few hours love you bye xx]

Sekhmet: [just getting yourself into the weirdest scenarios, like why do you think you can’t see him yet, you must have suspicions]

Noah: [when on some level you KNOW… haha]

Sekhmet: [not like oh he’s just self-conscious, you must think you know him somehow and we’re like well, okay, into it haha]

Noah: [the dude from the terrible beauty and the beast remake or someone you know IRL, either way, sure lol]

Sekhmet: [like I don’t think you’re going to be surprised, even if it’d be silly to say you KNOW now like, there were a lot of coincidences there]

Noah: [mhmm, not saying we slayed it but we probably slayed it, do you think they should talk again before or like they just show up to this venue & have a date? Because I think the latter potentially]

Sekhmet: [Lets go with that, just both recovering, don’t wanna be the first to start it]

Noah: [agreed, and I feel like although you both talked a big game and also knew it’d be good for your own reasons you’d be shook by HOW GOOD it was]

Sekhmet: [when you started something and life is gonna be DIFFERENT either way]

Noah: [so yeah we probably wanna go back to the gals and deal with cancelling ireland, this convo and the date aftermath next]

Sekhmet: [Agreed, let me see if we can get this on one doco (reader we could not)]