#and then there are some that i cant fathom winning but if they do. im becoming a terrorist...

[pikslasrce]

mentally preparing to burn the rts building down

[jadetheblueartist]

WHATVE YOU FOUND ON THE WEBSITE!? I WANNA KNOW!!! THAT WEBSITE IS SO COOL IINDVFI)JKCNSDKNCSKJSNDC

AHHHHHHHH I NEED TO READ THE BOOK OF BILL MY BRO STILL HAS IT SO I HAVE TO WAIT IUSDNIUWEFFNJKWENDJKWENDKJEWNKDJWENKJDEWNKJ

Okay okay I’m gonna share my most favorite thing from the website (that doesn’t really interfere with the book bc OOOOOOH SOME OF THE BOOK CODES ARE CRAZY ON THE WEBSITE ASHHDJDJSJS) but when you put Stan in the computer repeatedly it takes you to different eBay pages. First to brass knuckles, then to gold chains for old men, and so on and so forth a few more pages. That is until you get to the “wheel of shame.” It’s a little page with different drop downs relegating shameful parts of Stan’s past and stuff. I’ll put a cut here if you wanna check it out yourself without spoilers.

The last little drop down is “how he beat me.” When you first click it, it says (presumably from Bill) “He didn’t beat me. I’m still here, sucker.” If you go out and click it again, it says the same thing. But if you continue to click it, the messages of Bill get more angry and desperate and the notes descend into madness and screaming and then there is a page saying “WHAT ARE TOU DOING TO ME?” then “DO YOU EVEN FATHOM HOW MUCH PAIN IM” then “SOMETIMES WHEN I CLOSE MY EYE I CAN” then “I CAN STILL SEE (followed by four different codes which roughly translates to “through everyone I’ve ever-“)” then “I CANT TURN IT OFF” then “AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA”

Then finally the glitching disappears and it’s just Stan’s symbol on fire with the following written:

“Stanley Pines, the conman clown,

Always dragged his family down.

One mistake, disowned, denied,

Only thing to do was hide.

One way out: the open road.

Reinvent, retry, reload.

A girdle, eyepatch, fathers fez,

"I'm a new man!" so he says

Couldn't outrun life's regrets,

Just kept placing bigger bets.

Changed his haircut, switched hotels-

Truth is just whatever sells.

When you've lost track of your lies,

When the poison starts to rise,

When the walls are closing in,

When its clear you cannot win,

When your actions make it worse,

When they see you as a curse,

Give the wheel one last spin,

Take your chips and go all in,

And Lucky Stan- the roll's on black,

He got his life and family back.

His big break, it finally came,

Redemption from a life of shame.

You really think you won the day.

You packed your bags and sailed away.

You think you left the past behind.

But trust me, I’m still on your mind.”

So yeah this part makes me go insane, especially after watching some theory videos (here’s the playlist but it has spoilers for everything) about what Bill said could mean exactly (like the pain thing and I can still see)

Video one, two, and three (I can’t remember which one covers what I talked about but I think it’s one or both of the last two)

BUT YEAH IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU TO READ THE BOOK ITS SO GOOD IM IN THE MIDST OF DECODING EVERYTHING AND AHHHHHH

[3000-200-grains-of-salt]

pictured: me having anger issues about jimmy solidarity

Im watchin' jimmys empires series (i skipped like. 20 episodes. sorry whoops i have no time and just wanted to see the villain arc tbh) and. like. in Three episodes flat he has ACTIVATED my anger issues to the vERY CORE.

Currently on episode 33, with the fae thing, and my Jimmy Failure Senses smell a prank. If its a prank IM gonna have a villain arc ok???? I. I JUST. THIS MAN CANT CATCH A WIN. I aM liTERALLY GONNA RWRITE A FIC WHERE HE JUST. BLOWS STUFF UP. PARTLY TO CALM THE FLAMES OF MY ANGER AND MAINLY JUST SO HE CAN WIN AT SOMETHING FOR ONCE IN HIS LIFE. I jsuts. This guy is gonna make me go Insane

I m sorry i dont know what came overme i just want this guy. to stop. just. like. being so pathetic. i just want some poetic justice man. i get insanely triggered by stuff like this for No reason. When ppl (read: me and jimmy solidarity) get angry and then try and Voice the anger then make a fool out of themself. Like, someone (again, jimmy solidarity) getting angry (literally Because people make fun of them/dont take them seriously) and then trying to do Angry Things then the angry things Not working (queue people making fun of them/not taking them seriously) and then it jsut. it. id doesnet solfve the problem and now im More angry. Same feeling i get from "aawwww your so cute when your angry!!" Like your invalidating my (VERY DEStructive and Terrible) feelings And making them worse at the same time (AND I WANT TO STOP FEELING THEM AN YOUR NOT HELPING) elike how bad is that????

All im saying is I caNOt fathom how Jim has lasted THIS LONG without a villain arc like i woulda been blowin stuff up in episode 8. props to jimmy. i used too many parentheses

man im tired and i want to Cry

Also should i be going to therapy for this^^ lmaooooooo

[compassionatereminders]

hi, i hope its okay if i vent here cause i know shits been rough for you lately (wishing you the best btw, which ik simply saying that doesnt magically make things better but hope yk what i mean)

i sent an asks a few months ago about having empathy for someone for the first time and really struggling to come to terms with it, how to deal with new overwhelming emotions and the like (i believe i also mentioned them being in an abusive situation at the time, which was a whole other complicated feeling to empathize with someones pain and to take it internally on levels i had never experienced or was capable of fathoming before in my entire life)

currently struggling with that person again, they left their original abusive situation but have entered a new complex one, as this person isnt intentionally shitty but they're rich, white passing and extremely privileged and out of touch, like truly they don't grasp my friends trauma and why it makes things hard for them (friend has gone through severe abuse and childhood trauma, neglect and homelessness just to say the light ones, its truly awful what they've been through) despite having some trauma of their own and i truly fucking despise them with my entire being

my friend is abusing alcohol and debating killing themselves due to this person dangling ending their relationship over my friends head --- (which is another thing thats complex and hurting, my friend never told me they were dating which like they totally dont have to obviously!! but they continuously insisted to me they were only friends, before suddenly revealing through a screenshot of their partners text that they were together, which they did with their previous abuser so like having it happen twice was icky feeling for some reason despite the fact ik they don't owe me that information at all, i dont care they hid it i just feel hurt and confused if i had done something to warrant not being trusted with that information but thats a whole other can of worms) --- due to them struggling to do something the person wants, because my friend has trauma what the person is requesting is hard and my friends explained why its hard and hurts them, they've thrown up daily from the stress and this person knows that but somehow doesnt grasp why its causing my friend such distress

i feel utterly suffocated by the entire situation and its put my life on full stop because i cant just leave my friend to deal with this themselves, but theres nothing i can say or do that can help them because they're deeply in love and won't break up with their partner even though the stress is physically ruining them. i feel hopeless and unable to do anything, i encourage them to talk to me because really i wanna be there for them but i feel so scared all the time that somethings gonna happen to them which makes me need to listen even more because their other friend is horribly abusive and contributed to their trauma, so i don't wanna leave my friend alone. i don't know how to deal with empathizing with their pain and not being able to stop it feels like its killing me cause now im also throwing up multiple times a day, genuinely debating drug relapse to cope with it all and i can't sleep properly anymore and only sleep on specific 4 hour intervals throughout the day next to my phone so i can be on constant standby for the friend and i know its not healthy and if they knew it was like this they'd never tell me whats wrong again (which i really dont want i truly honest to god wanna be there for them), i feel like no matter how i go about it theres no winning in this situation and honestly i wanna die from it all which sounds so silly cause my friend is going through SO much worse and here i am going waaah this hurts me!! i just eugh, i don't know what to do. which i guess i know what to do, but i don't wanna do any of it i've never cared about someone like i care about them and the thought of leaving them to sort it out themselves feels like the end of the world, even though i know they're also a sociopath and don't feel empathy towards me which is also a new shitty feeling cause now i know how people feel around me. this is exhausting i don't know how people with empathy deal with it especially you kat!! if i remember correctly you mentioned being very empathetic, it's amazing you're able to handle having empathy and running a blog where people often dump stuff in your inbox (which uh is the very same thing im doing now, sorry!) ok i got it all out of my system i'm gonna go take a nap and hope the problem is solved tomorrow (it wont be but a bitch can hope!!) thank you for being a space where i could word vomit my brain out, i really hope things get better for you and that your eye gets sorted out <3

No matter how unwell your friend is, you're allowed to have boundaries and limits. And while I get the desire to be there and do everything you can because you care about your friend, you will not be able to continue pouring from an empty vessel. This is not a sustainable situation. You neglecting yourself and not sleeping and getting physically ill and wanting to die is not an acceptable consequence of your friend being in a toxic relationship without being able to change their situation. I know you didn't ask for advice, but I strongly encourage you to establish some boundaries here and stand by them. You do not lose your right to have boundaries when a loved one is mentally unwell and if you do not prioritize your own mental well-being, you will not be able to continue being there for you friend

[daintydreams00]

a little vent,

dont open unless you accept the heightened emotional state I am that is simply exacerbated by my mental illnesses that get massively triggered by events such as political elections

tw some mention of OCD/SI

"God has a plan for us all. God knows best. Trust in God."

I've been trying so so so so hard to not be a cynic right now. SO hard. But it just hurts me because why, why God is this the path you want for the US. Why is being so fearful on election days for the past however many times the norm? Why are people genuinely fearing for their lives rn? Why is our future destined to this fate? Is God not meant to care for us, care for our wellbeing? If God has a plan for us, why does this plan have so much misery, pain, and such a desolate future in store? I just cant fathom God to set this as our future; I cant believe that God wants harm to people of color, women, lgbtq+, the non-wealthy, etc. I truly don't. I truly don't think that can be possible.

And yet the current outcome is so dreary, I can't seem to lose some hope. But maybe God does have a plan for us, maybe this is something grander than our immediate existences. The only way I can reckon with this currently is the belief that God is using this election to show us what happens when we don't trust in him. Not in the strictly "im religious" sense, but more so in the Christian values. Kindness, carrying and loving your neighbors, respecting women, etc. Both the present and past of the US have been ripe with hate, prejudice, discrimination, and sinful rhetoric and I can't help to think that maybe this election may seem like an initial "win" for some people, but ultimately i think the consequences of it will be an eye opener for the majority of Americans, but oh why does it have to come at the cost of so many people's livelihoods.

I don't think God is petty. I don't think God toys with our lives. And I do think that this is one of those many historical moments in which He exemplifies the consequences of human free will being so easily swayed by evil. I hope I can one day make out a better understanding of why this is all happening like this, but honestly this is as good as I'm going to get. I trust in God, but I just pray that he protects us all. People are frightened and worried for their livelihoods, while some are fueling their budding rage and hate with the newfound success. And I just wish, at the end of it all, this is as far as American division gets. I don't know how basic aspects of a human existence have become so controversial and contentious, and it's terrifying. It's terrifying to have a leader who so openly speaks terribly about women. It's terrifying to have a party majority who has been predicted to change so much of the future in such a negative manner. But it's especially terrifying to see how people on the internet just act like this is a game, and that "they won" and now troll and spread hate under people's posts expressing their fears for their future. I thought no person could truly be evil, but whether it's ignorance or true evil, I just can't fathom people being so insensitive to their fellow citizens' worries and livelihoods. But clearly, there's so many of them on the internet and in real life. </3

And in all of this, my OCD, SI, and ED have just gotten so much worse. I feel sick thinking about the possibility that this outcome may have been my fault. Because I didn't do what I should have done this past week. Because I didn't pray enough, fast enough, exercise enough. I don't even want to write more about that because I feel so guilty and so evil and just such a bad person. But at least my arms are all bruised up and legs stinging so I've enacted my punishment for you all </3 im sorry i feel so guilty for this being my fault and I cant shake it.

I guess on the bright side, I think im going to have restriction motivation for the next millennia because of how men being proudly and openly misogynistic triggers me to the core. Starving to be desexualized. Starving to be infertile. Starving to exist in a plane men don't know of. Starving because the curves I have now are enough reason to be frightened for my future. Starving because I am evil. Starving because that's the only way to bring back my childhood.

I pray God protects us dearly. I pray for these upcoming years to not be as tumultuous as forecasted. I pray for everyone to be able to have their livelihoods and dreams safe and possible. I know He has a plan somehow, and I just pray that plan minimizes the people hurt. </3

[violetnotez]

HC: Being Super Fluffy and Giving Them Lots of Love!

Anonymous: Could I request something for Izuku, Todoroki, Shinso and Bakugo. They're doing their own thing and are super concentrated or something and reader is just so entranced by them and they're so glad to have be able to call them their boyfriend and reader just gently cups their face and gives them and the most love filled, soft kiss cause AGH THEY'RE PRECIOUS TO READER! 😭 You can totally ignore this if you don't wanna 😂😂😂 I just feel so soft rn

Ahhhhh this is adorable anon! Honeslty some days I just wanna give these babies the biggest hugs UGHHHHHH

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Pairings: Izuku x reader, Shoto x reader, Shinso x reader, Bakugo x reader

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I Z U K U 

You and Izuku are having another study night, your body sitting next to his

Obviouskyyyyyyyy this boy does nothing but study smh

But you had completely given up- your brain had shut down after an hour and now you were just half listening to Midoirya mumble and half just admiring your adoarble boyfriend

You honestly miss seeing him look so domestic- you always see him in his uniform, his hero suit, and occasionally his All Might PJs on the weekends

But it feels like agessss since you’ve seen him in proper clothing

He looks just so cute in his teal sweatshirt, his scars peeking out of his sleeves as he wrote random equations on his paper

And his mannerisms are just so adorable-his tongue is poking out of his lips as he tried to work through a math problem, his eyes squinted in concentration and freckles dusting his cheeks like stars

How did you get so lucky getting someone so sweet and cute as him?

“If two goes into this fraction then possibly the variable will be isolated once I subtract the four-” hes mumbling under his breath, his voice so comforting against your ears

You lean your head against his shoulder, the scent of him just barely noticeable but so intoxicating- 

AND HES SOOOO WARMMMM

“’Zuku?” you asked tiredly, a lovesick smile plastered on your face

The sound of your voice breaks Izuku’s thoughts, his brows softening as he looks down at you

“Yes puppy-oh, are you getting tired? You look pretty sleepy...maybe we should take a break-”

omg why is he so sweetttttt

You just feel so calm, so comforted with Izuku it felt like your chest was just filled to the brim with love for this boy

Without warning, you leaned up to Izuku and kissed him softly on the lips,  your head feeling like it was spinning from butterflies

AHHH HE COMBUSTING TOO THO

Once you pull away, Izuku’s cheeks are as bright as cherries and you cant help but smile, cause seriosuly no matter how many times you kiss him he ALWAYS gets flustered

“You know I love you right?” you tell him, butterflies filling your stomach as he looks down at you withe wide, green eyes

COMBUSTING IZUKU IS DECEASED REPEAT IZUKU.EXE IS NO MORE

“o-of course! I-I-love you too!” he stuttered out, his nerves so intense that his tongue was like lead in his mouth

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S H O T O

It was just one of those crappy

CRAPPY NIGHTS

You couldnt sleep, it was too hot, you were uncomfrotable, your ,ind was racing

And once you DID fall you course had a gut wrenching nightmare that left you panting and sweating from fear

WHAT THE HECK BRAIN

So time for some good ol’ Shoto cuddles

And that’s how your now cuddled up into Shoto’s side, his body keeping you nice and cool

This boy was literally the sweetest- even though it was like1 in the morning, he couldnt care less about that and just focused on you

He quickly knew something was wrong when you were waiting in the doorway, his strong arms encasing you in atight hug

“Y/n dear, are you feeling alright? Whats bothering you?”

You just snuggled yourself deeeepppp into that boy cause he felt so comforting, his voice was velvety

also how does he always smell like detergent and expensive ass cologne like yessir thats the scent for meeeee

He quickly ushered you inside his room, his hands gripping your shoulders firmly

Literally all fears from that dream melted away with Shoto- his energy was so unbelievably strong and protective, it felt like nothing bad in the world would ever happen cause Shoto was there, and he wouldnt let anything bad happen to you

Also- seeing him in a plain white tee and black shorts literally could have made you swooned, cause god this boy really looks hot in anything huh?

He didnt judge you in the slightest about the dream, just offering for you to spend the night with him

Your head was cuddled into his firm chest, that intoxicating detergent-cologne-rich boy smell making your insides feel fluffy like cotton as his hands quietly brushed the hairs away from your face

He’s ask you small question, like “Are you comfortable dear?” or “Is that dream still bothering you”, just little things to make you feel more safe and open to talk to him

Shoto never wanted you to feel like you had to hide anything from him, and the effort really showed

You were know getting sleepy but the overwhelming feeling of appreciation and love for Shoto was exploding out of you

At this point you just wanted to show your undying gratitude to your boyfriend for being so unbelievably adorable and sweet

You shifted yourself, propping yourself slightly on his stomach so you could look at his face

damn this boy really got blessed with all the good genes huh?

You ran your fingers lightly against his skin, relishing the slight changes from cool to hot, your hands cupping his cheeks and feeling both sensations course through your body

Once you felt him sigh from content, you took it up a notch, leaving feather light kisses on his sheeks, his brows, his eyes, his scar...any avaliable skin you marked with yours

“Love, may I ask what you’re doing- you should be sleeping right now, its quite late-”

“I wanna show you I love you tho...” you sent the boy a pout, a deep chuckle rumbling through his chest and vibrating throughout your body

“But I already know you love me,” he grinned sheepishly cause god your just so adorable, like a puppy desperate to give their owner attention

“Well-I still want to show you,” you stated, your voice slightly thick from sleep as you continued to kiss the rest of Shoto’s face

All this boy could do was lean into his pillow, his hands finding themselves on your waist cause he knew you were gonna do this until you were tired

He wasnt complaining though- you being cuddly and cute like this literally rocked his world in the best way possible

“You know- your very endearing when your half asleep”

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S H I N S O 

Shinso is probably the most hardcore gamer you know

It was late in the night, and this guy was still going at it, now playing a game of Mario Kart on the TV, the screen bright against his features

You had gotten tired of the video games, just deciding to watch your boyfriend play instead of being the one to play

And god were you happy with THAT decision

He just looked so...adorable, his body clad in a tight black tee and baggy gray sweats, once foot straight and one foot bent as he sat on the floor playing

His hair was unruly as ever, sticking out in every direction

HIs eyes were completely enraptured by the task in front of him, scanning the screen 

He was just so cute, lookking so intense yet so sleep deprived 

it was adorable how badly he wanted to beat the player playing against him

And then he went a licked HIS LIPS

IN THE MIDDLE OF PLAYING

Your face erupted in red cause

OMG

HES JUST SO HOT AND PRETTY AND UGHHHHHHH

You waited unpatiently to the last round, the music picking up pace as he sped to the finish line, hes cart victoriously earning 1st place

The dude didnt even cheer, just the most self absorbed smirk plastered on his face in pride

THAT IS WHEN YOU POUNCEDDDDD

You quickly plopped yourself gently into his lap, your thighs cradling his sides

“Aww whats the matter kitten, not giving you enough attention?”

Yours hands fell against the softness of the black shirt and oh thank godddddd its so thin, your digits trailing upward and feeling the slight ridges of his muscles underneath the fabric

“No....its just- its not fair for you to look so cute while playing games and I cant cuddle you....”

“Heh, I look cute?”

This boy really cannot fathom how you find him so endearing, and now you just want to prove it to him

“Mmhmm,” you answer a smile on your lips as you cup his face in your hands

HIs hair is so tickly against the tips of your fingers, his broad chest radiating heat throughout your body

Your start to leave quick kisses on him, starting from his checks and working in towards his mouth, but not quite kissing him square on the lips

The closest you get to kissing him is on the corners of his lips, leaving electric sparks against his skin

The boy is desperate now

You cant just do that to him 

“Aww cmon darling, dont tease me like that” he sends you a cocky grin, his pointer finger gently tilting your chin and pulling you into a deep kiss

SHINSO IS A GOOD KISSER FIGHT ME ON THIS

Once you pull away, your head is just spinning cause goddddd this boy is just a blessing

“Let me play one more round, and then we’ll head off to bed, alright?” he asks, his free hand now cupping your cheek

You sigh in content, your hands wrapping around his waist and snuggling into his chest, a warm, smoky smell like cedarwood drifitng to your senses and lulling  you to relax

“Okay...”

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B A K U G O

“Im winning this damn bear for you-”

“Katsuki no you already wasted $15 now lets go-”

“Im WiNiNiNG. ThE DaMn. BEAR- SO SHUT IT AND LET ME CONCENTRATE >:(”

You have been standing here for 10 minutes now, Bakugo determinnneddddd to win this gigantic teddy bear for you from a claw machine at an arcade

You feel so bad about it, but honestly, its turned into a personal grudge from him now

HES DETERMINED TO WIN IT AND MAKE YOU HAPPY

While your watching him you cant help it but find him adorable

Hes wearing a plain black tee and jean jacket, something he NEVER wears but looks so good on him?

This boy could be a model fight me on this

His face is the cutest tho-

You can tell he’s absolutely pissed cause he expected to win the animal way sooner than this, his eyebrows pointed downward and his teeth gnawing at his bottom lip

and then

AND THEN

THIS BOY FINALLYYYYYYY GETS IT

He’s trying his hardest not to start cheering cause he really just did that (after wasting $25 but ya know we’ll overlook that)

Your so happy too and that triumphant look on his face just melts your heart

cause he may be a cocky asshole but hes YOUR cocky asshole

“Ha- see told you I’d win it!”

Whatverrrrrr- you roll your eyes, your hands already snuggling the big bear up to your cheek

ITS SO SO SOFT AND SQUISHY YOU MIGHT CRY FROM THE CUTENESS

Your mind is already thinking of where to put it in your room (names too??) but then you look up at your boyfriend and UGH you could literally melt on the spot

cause he looks SO PROUD and SO SOFT- his hands stuffed into the pocket of his pants as he gives you the smallest, happiest little smirk everrrrr

Your just feeling so grateful for the boy in front of you right now, that you put the teddy bear down and wrap Bakugo into a hug

Bakugo always acts like he doesnt want physical attention, especially in public-

But you know this boy lovessss to be touched, so when he returns the hug and gives your sides a small squeeze your weakkk in the knees

AND HE SMELLS SO GOOD

Always like caramel and something rich like firewood

You give him a quick kiss on the back of his neck

AND HOLY SHIT

HES COMBUSTING

Thank god the arcade is dark cause you would totally see his blush (something he will deny)

You pull away a smile on your face as you tell him thank you,

And

*le sigh

of course he ruins the whole cute moment you two had by saying, “Whatever-your the one who wanted the damn thing even though your too old for that shit-”

Just remind him of the All Might figures he secretly had stashed in his closet and he will combust again

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[normal-thoughts-official]

Oooh yeah the first time I was playing as a female mc because I wanted to romance ava and I usually go male mc if I want to romance a man and female mc if I want to romance a woman (and I think there was one book with where mc could be non-binary so I picked that one but I didn't finished the book), and Stacy's brother felt Hetero™ in a way, like Hollywood ish (? Honestly like cinematographicly bad hetero) but I ended up really loving Andy too, and Stacy felt a little flat but also I really liked her potential, like go crazy girl, and the mom issues.

Apart but holy shit you're 10000% right about that teacher like who inmediately threatens expulsion just like that for something not violent ??? And to an honor student with way too much on his plate ??? Obviously it would have been bad with any student, but you have literally the reason of why he's doing it and as a teacher HE LITERALLY COULD HAVE HELPED WITH IT ??????? Like something teachers can't really help students because it's a family thing only or is a financial struggle or etc but it was literally because of school (and his family, but the teacher could have heloed him with the school part)

(Identity thief anon (also I go by any pronouns ahhshs))

ur valid! that's lowkey what i wish i'd do (picking female MC if my fave LI is female and the other way around, i mean) but unfortunately i always go into the stories blindly having no idea what i'll find </3 so i cant really do that doiajdiosa and then i get attached for the MC i picked so i feel bad about changing their gender/name/appearance when i replay. so what i usually do is that i pick a male MC when i get the option because A- u don't always get the option, so i end up being male half the time and female half the time either way; and B- i feel slightly more comfortable with a male identity than a female one. like i'm still nonbinary and i wouldn't consider myself male aligned or within the gender of Man, but like... when i first came out i went by any pronouns but then because im afab everyone was like "cool, she/her only it is" so i was like fuck that and stopped using she/her. so i feel slightly more comfortable with a masc MC and end up going with that

there's also the fact that it always feels slightly genderfucky to have a male MC because choices is so sexist and also always writes the stories assuming ull pick a female MC, even when they give u the option not to. so when u pick a male MC he's very like not toxically masc and some things they add to make a QuiRkY MC that are very white woman and would feel annoying are actually kind of subversive for my black and brown male MCs. so like another win for queerness /j

ILITW MC in particular i feel has HUGE nonbinary vibes like no reason at all he just does <3 maybe it's just that for once the male clothes for ILITW actually fUCK. i wanna dress in that goth outfit <3 so gorgeous ugh. i love him even tho he's a fucking dumbass

also there's a book where an MC can be enby? worm? ive only ever read one book in choices with any enby characters at all (america's most elligible, books 2-3) but they weren't even a LI which is disappointing cuz they were a billion times superior to any of the LIs. sorry america's most elligible LIs fans

also oh connor IS the epitome of white cistraight man even when u play as a man tbh, like he was just so cistraight to me daouhdsaojdasij he kind of annoys me but also i forget that he even exists until he shows up onscreen and choices starts trying to push me into his lap and i'm just like, ugh, not again

and yeah i think i feel a similar way about stacy. i don't dislike her as a character and i don't feel like she as a character felt flat, her growth was very interesting and i loved seeing her start to challenge her mom like YESSS GO GIRL GIVE US EVERYTHING, she just felt flat as a LI to me ig? like idk i didn't feel chemistry between her and my MC personally, but also like, stacy girls are valid u know

right exactly. like i don't think ppl really understand that a school that doesn't drive people to cry during finals week and feel absolutely crushed by having to be there and that makes ppl feel like they're stupid, not enough, and overwhelmed IS IN FACT POSSIBLE and actually pretty easy to make when we stop treating students like statistics that will get the school more clients/funding (depending on whether it's a private or public school). and like as a teacher getting my degree in brasil it just feels completely surreal to me that anyone would see a student who's so overwhelmed by the amount of extracurriculars and responsibilities he feels like he has to take that he starts taking drugs to help his performance despite it affecting his health, and see that as like... something morally reprehensible? like it is bad that it happened but it's not the student's fault, what's morally reprehensible are the circumstances that led to his decision, not his decision

and like it is very much a systemic problem, more and more kids are taking focus pills to be able to survive the pressure of school and have a shot at a future, either on their own or because we are actually medicalizing not existing to be productive. and if it's a systemic problem then the fault is at the system?? and like holy shit i legit don't understand why choices gave us options like being like "it still isn't enough" when lucas gets rid of his pills, what do you mean it isn't enough??? enough for what??? to FORGIVE him???? for something that only hurt himself??? for something that is very much a systemic problem and therefore NOT HIS FAULT????? literally what the fuck even is this, lucas doesn't have to "make up" for a single thing, he needs to be HELPED is what he needs

like idk i know that the school system in the US is...... extremely backwards lmao which is not a term i like to use because it usually implies imperialistic views but the US is the height of world imperialism so like actually idc. brasil has a pretty progressive constitution and as a teacher my whole education was focused on being critical of the school system, particularly the productivity obsession, and drilling into us again and again that we aren't supposed to just be teaching subjects, we are also supposed to be teaching how to be a citizen, be a critical human being, work towards building a better future, and learning and growing AS A PERSON to be healthy and happy are values of the school system

like that's easier said than done when schools are under insane amounts of pressure by companies in practice to be productivity-driven, and most teachers who actually want to do a good job end up having to live at the edge of the knife and constantly fighting back outside pressure, but at least it is very much a mandatory part of our education to become teachers and also like literally part of the constitution. so i just... i can't fathom reacting the way mr cooper did? like as a teacher i felt BETRAYED, i felt like he shat all over my profession because that is the opposite of what we should be doing, this is a kid who needs help

and just like hOLY SHIT HE DID NOTHING WRONG, what are you punishing him for??? it's not even a like, stealing bread to feed your family situation, because what he did HAS NO VICTIM OTHER THAN HIMSELF, and therefore HE IS THE VICTIM NOT THE CULPRIT. he doesn't have to repent or atone or answer for a single fucking thing, he didn't victimize others, he doesn't have to apologize, there's nothing to punish him fOR??? like i don't believe in punishment anyway cuz im a prison abolitionist but doDAUSDJADASIJDAS???????????? HE DIDN'T. HE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG. WHY IS THIS WHOLE GAME ACTING AS IF HE WAS IN THE WRONG. OH MY GOD

it's like saying that someone needs to be forgiven for self harming????? like how is it that someone has been hurt continuously until it led them to hurt themselves and then they have to? make up for it to a bunch of other ppl? my god it makes me so mad and i genuinely don't understand the logic, like usually when i see someone doing fucked up shit i can see the logic but i don't agree with it, but this time i genuinely DON'T SEE THE LOGIC. my USan friends said it was because he was technically doing drugs but like i legit still don't understand

anyway any school that drives a student to do something like that needs to rethink their entire curriculum and the psychological effect it's having on kids, because lucas is 1- not even the first one according to mr cooper; 2- even if he was, that'd be the only one who got CAUGHT; and 3- even if there was really only one singular student who went tHIS far, i doubt the others weren't feeling that same pressure and dealing with it in other similarly unhealthy ways

i know that's probably easier in brasil than in the US even if it's by no means easy here because here at least in public schools the curriculum and political-pedagogical plan has to be agreed on by the school community (teachers, parents, students, workers, and anyone who lives in the area of the school) and it's updated every year, so like, you have more means to do something to change the school in a deeper way, altho of course that still has to mean swinging the rest of the community, but still. but at the very least he could have looked for counseling for him? tried to find a way to take some of the workload off his shoulders? given him some more time on assignments? motioning for all the clubs he was the president of to have co-presidents so he was less overwhelmed?

like there was just daodsao he could have done so many things and he justs DIDN'T he chose to not only punish him instead but quite literally THREATEN HIM WITH DEATH because that's what calling the police on a latino student over a drug charge is. like he might've survived but the possibility that he would fucking DIE was very much there, and i know choices didn't think of that because they'd rather die than think about the racial implications of anything but holy fucking shit. and im not even getting into how mr cooper is BLACK because then ill just start biting people like thanks for putting that threat on a black character's mouth choices. if u need me ill be foaming at the mouth

anyway SORRY god why is it that i always get to the salty part within 2 seconds of joining a fandom i promise that i actually like it lives and the way they handled most of their plot, i genuinely think it's a very well written and actually worth ur time story but i just doadosaida like i said particularly as a teacher in the context where i'm being taught, plus with all my political beliefs, i just can't let it go aaaa

also ty for telling me ur pronouns! idk if i assumed them at any time, i don't think so but i might have done so without realizing and if i did im really sorry. also sorry for the gigantic salty reply daojdsaojdaisjsajdoadsaodasj rip me i never shut up

[screechingtrashcalzonewombat]

"Apopalictic Astral Asending" Reavaluate disassociate my self worth...

The galaxies have birthed an uncontrollable being ....

I've feel as tho Ive seen myself split in two ..

Witch side do u wanna see if ur lucky I'll let you choose .

Cause in the end I loose..

One of hate one of love could both be from up above..

Or down below ...

I've began to show signs of delusions as half my mind goes an tells me it's only mild confusion. As my body fights my brain an heart to escape theys terrible illusions.

Yet the other half tries to start a fusion of body an mind an all the suddently my thoughts are no longer mine..

But a evil so Divine that its wound it's way threw time itself I've fealt the damage the energy dealt. I've yelped in anquish an pain been stuck for 7 long years in the rain with nothing to gain .. I can barely fathom to explain im not fully on earth I'm on another astral plane but i fear i flew out of my lane I've gone insane never wanted fame Ever fealt like bat man I mean oops Bruce Wayne. Nah fuck hes spoiled a wet rat infact I'm more like hulk duck when I'm near i wearly see I'm drowning inside my mind but no one can hear my dear I fear I've lost control again but cant compute I've been booted out of the system I've clawed hit an kicked to try to get to the top but i outta of known I've been ripped an thrown from my throne ive been shown what this beast can do but who woulda thought a demon bought my soul ..a jackal a goul.....you'll see me shift into numbness I suposse it was my own dumbness for being to open now cause of me my body an mind are broken an stole. as I weep an shutter an i try to speak but only stutter I found myself weak in defeat ....as ik this demon reaching its peak will plunder an pillage the town I've found I'm bound to this beast nowhere to run not north south or east I can run it will feast on my soul until the end of time ..

For diamonds cannot compare to the rarity of a soul nor a bowl of Ruby's an jems rolled in gold .....

A bold statement you say........

.. theres no ray of light here they stole it away buried it in your mind but how can u define being locked trapped in yourself ...

You've dealt your own fate ...

Wanting ansers u dint deserve ..

Did you like your just dessert's...no?

Dose it hurt ..... After you itll kill children's childhood freinds like bernie & eart ....whent bizzirk an bashed there brains makeing bloody rains

curking on everyone with cutlery forks an knifes* slice *cook big bird with chives after I've shanked him 900 times... 100 more woulda been devine serve him drink to dry alone cooked an ripped him to the bone but not quite alone u may not be home inside but u can still watch...I thought I taught u better than to close ur eyes dont beg or look surprised look away an I'll adopt another stray to do the same a slow sweet death cure's my hunger anyway

.the wines innocents blood bitter sweet to the taste of the tounge

no one thought it capable I seemed...looked ...so young..

They dint know it had just begun it wasn't me but the evil half committing crime with glee an fleeing repetavidly revealingly images to my mind of times & crimes so sickening I thought I'd die forever scetched seered into my mind .binded with no power as one towers over you using your power you cowar for how dose one define the disasbalment of there an every defined mind while ur inner demon dines on flesh making a mess of your vessel you cant even wrestle your way to the light to stay only break down in defeat that your so far away you've became an internal mess cant even stand on ur feet the beast has u chained in defeat u cry an apologize looking for answers as of how to stop.....an then...you hear a voice .." you outta stayed silent instead of talk back. U shouldn't of complained do u still think ur life used to be pain...... . Ur a sack of shit ur wit is less than that of an ant not to rant but I'm not done yet I have ur soul now I'm never letting go no no no I have plenty more so much to show many souls to reap an emotions to subdue after all u said yes.....

...did you forget ur the one who started this.

mess ......you dressed your mind with fantasy an fiction word to the wise never mess with other worldly friction an your itching for a way out but I doubt ull get there before the end of time .after all you had a devil an an angel on ur shoulder an you chose wrong this time. Only took 666 times but I'm patient an always waiting for 6 years hating an burning flesh waiting for a prayer a call after all Lucifer was once an angel an the most beautiful you just dint get to see from what angle he had beauty wrath an determination but u humans resulted in his isolation incarsorason. So now we will end up being humanity's enialation when were done there entire selves with evaporate for the demons have released self hate to pro create creatures in confidence we annihilate the fate of the human race at least the trace slight like us able to bust threw dementions so weve mentioned a start to find the inordinary soul an heart ......humanity was doomed from the start.. you stole our purpose our reason to be......humans sit in sin an glee.

Your humanitys Pride is overbearing never genuinely caring ..

Greed is sweeping the nation its reached ever state an it's got a hot heaping plate of corruption for mankind's consumption greed is grotesque in its steps of the darkest quest to corupt ur mind an want. .want..want until that's all you are is wanting more

Lusting over losely draped garments you've tarnished ur soul .

Envy of what you do not posses but for all you know that information an life would make you a mess but ud still test ur envious tendencies.....

Glutton glutton what have you gained it's not knowledge no for it's to plain rather glutton uve found a urge that wont go away....

Wrath an vengeance blood draw too no one stops till some dies him or you....

Sloth last but not least cant forget you cause uuuh wait what that fuck do u do....you sleep an sulk sit slither out of simple tasks an that's why ur not 1st no ur last like humanity just ask ....

So soon the day will draw near the the number 4 is what you should fear our dear old freinds were sending up for a visit so they can reddit ur fate for each a horse an a trait the first out the door with bow in hand riding a white horse with bow in hand

..

Conquest the start of the final test leading the restthere dark version of light on a white stallion he leads the way an soon will follow hades anyway.

War was next on a red steed he rode prepared to purge an quench new blood for the wars an battels would just begin brother against brother an close of kin witch to win?

Famine foe of all on a black horse with the courses hair so fair merely bone but dont let his appearance fool you hes for he is full devouring your greed taking away everything you want or need an now ur rationed to nearly starvation stretching farther than destination world wide sensation...

Pleage reaper of souls slowly apears steadly trotting riding a very sickly steed looking pale an almost gruesome green with sores an sickness best keep a distance. For he shall be the bringer of death an reap you all one by one to the four you shall fall...

Will you be spared are you true....

Are you happy with your life what did you do...?

Rapture no you still must die.....

Say good by to this earthy chapter theres so much more that manifest after.

But only your earthly husk must rust an fall your all energy of grate mass....

It's time to take the task of self evolvment an enjoy an enlightened installment

this world was just step wrench ur third eye wide open an accept the token of eternal life.

Grinded it to atoms a flash of dust all together ur a self fulfilling must memory pass u in a rush.....

. sudently ur bodysuit is gone ....

But it dint felt like it quite belonged.

You were 7 grams of light matter to be exact an sudently you've cracked the atmosphere ..steering energetic waves my metal psyche caves to the new information flying threw stars consolations.

Suddently speeding at the sound of light the stratosphere seems to disapear ..

My fear is gonewithout a trace an freedom transferred in its place

but am waved in infatuation to find out about out true destination...

Restoration of the soul the goal of a higher self being achieved as I crash into the sun 1500°

I feel a warmth like no other each being hues of light I might of missed earth if not I heard a voice but a mental push no need for speech just thinking it shall be done said by the the brightest in the sun.

Rejoice at last but ur journeys yet to pass ..

This is merely were you start ....

Our flames grew high with frantic waves not wanting to give up the new life we were just gave

Suddenly our flames grew dim as we felt a swirling deep from withn sudently the surface of the sun turned to tin an bent in a cracked an caved with itself our time an space sending us ascending in alignment the same assignment.

Because the sun has begun to change ina twisted way a black hole some could say.

As all of our astral beings were ripped an tore apart at the seams we all merged an formed one all knowing creative being an sudently everything I've know has little matter I'm past a point of human chatter i understand infinity the holy trinity I down in the milky way an experienced every life I've relived it twice I've spliced my genetics into over 2000 million beings I've seen good an bad in between experienced every tragedy to build my strength an studyd every thesis an theory thread an chain nearly drove my vessel insane even took knifes threw my veins in anger yet it failed I was just a trailer.ive seen love hate an anger

Comprehension compasing many others I have love an understanding past many beings there anger seems to brush by me cause I'm with 2000 souls an minds that have formed one to reach a state I can medidate in the milky way an force your negative away .

Our astral self has accumulated complete power an understanding by costuming to our full potential our old body's merely a rental.

Gentle at first then bursted into power showered in knowledge I know now much that I wondered before but now I want more an I've thought till I an 2000 shared beings head hurt cause my girth of knowledge will now never be enough it's tough cause now I must find .... how to ascend again but for now i must defend my vast mind defind crime ...?

Keeping 2000 vast voices locked away so I can focus an try to learn anyway leaning in to vast places is I the 1st 2nd or 3rd or other many plains I cant quiet place I'm traveling threw them all searching for everything I couldn't before .

This life isent like the countless other this life I like it has interesting teathers

I've surpass Angel's an there feathers an vison of a hawk.

I've surpass demonds and there demonic temping talk ..

I've walked on water as I was ripped apart an I felt my self rebuilt every cell of my being got hit with rods of power lightning not even myself can fight me god like abilities the universe as built in me theres ben a spiritual shift a tilt in me somthing generations of DNA sprawled out in a numerical display my old life experiences is the price I pay so that I can be god even if only for a day

I think I'll sit an think somewere in the outter spink of the universe I've cursed myself with knowledge an now I'm aware step into my astral space....

If you dare...

[parkaiur]

(Un)popular Opinions ep 9!

wowowoow so like... this whole thing was a R O L L E R C O A S T E R and like ten times worse cuz im so emotionally fragile after all of this is over djfhjkhfggj

this turned into “what i liked abt each performance” instead of unpopular opinions BUT i still added some throughout so :^) 

OK LETS GET INTO IT :D 

so honesty hour~ i was scared when Seunghun was joining treasure 5... NOT that i think hes untalented in any way shape or form, but he’s the oldest and it seemed like the group would be seunghun + the kids LMAO 

BUT I WAS SURPRISED (not rly) that he fit so well into Going Crazy ??? Like i was so shook that seunghun could sing any song and totally slay it ,, like wowowow he keeps surpassing my expectations

i screamed when he appeared on stage

BOOMERANG PERF ! : ) 

ok ok okokokok for those who dont know... jihoon .... is my bias and this performance i have been dreading looking forward to the entire week

i know YG edited it and made it seem like Boomerang was too powerful and strong for dohwan and yeongue, but honestly, out of all the groups, i think boomerang was most suited for this team ,,, 

like yeongue??? singing daehwi’s parts?? i didnt know i needed that til now... their voices are so similiar (like tone and style) and their dancing was similar as well !! 

 all of them were so good? like dohwan is an amazing dancer + vocalist and yoshinori..... really.... wearing that... rapping like that.... sgjdfghsfdjgh

plus,,, where are those ppl who were calling jihoon untalented?? BOY WAS LITERALLY THE MAIN VOCAL IN THE PERFORMANCE U HOES

anyways, choi hyunsuk......... he is an amazing leader wowow like when he was leading the boys in the rehearsal and shouting at them while they were literally on stage kdfjdhskd  that was a side of him we hadnt seen before

and the fact that he choreographed the dance breaks ?!?!? like he couldve asked jihoon to help him, but the fact that he carried that on his own is AMAZING ... they truly had the hardest dance to learn and when they made it themselves,, it made everything 10x cooler 

GROWL TEAM !

well ,,, this was depressing cuz i knew only one of them would survive ... 

tbh my pick wouldnt have been junghwan, it wouldve been jongseob, but i agree that junghwan did very well !! like he has lots of stage experience and knows what to do on stage ,,,, i mean jongseob too but idk man he is underrated : / 

anyways , DUMB AND DUMBER PERFORMANCE !

ok like from that teaser... we all knew they were going to win ... it was just expected with confetti guns and backup dancers 3 members of team a +mashi and yoonbin,, all very talented boys and mashi has been training for a long time as well 

in my opinion, this song suited Byounggon and Doyoung the most! they really caught my eye in this performance !! like i knew they were going to win as soon as Byounggon yelled “PARTY PEOPLE~~” like...ok byounggon if u wanted my attention, all u had to do was just ask ;-;

byounggon looked really good in this perf... like really good..... too good *chokes*JFGKDGJKJSGF

im usually not fond of that “wet hair” style,,, but it looked so good on him...... /i cant breathe/

ALSO Doyoung’s singing??? i knew he was a good singer but this song really suited his voice and i got chills when he sang 

anyways, DNA TEAM ! :D 

they were amazing as well !! :D but their stage wasnt as flashy cuz DNA isnt really a flashy song,, its very straightforward LOL

anyways,,,,, yedam and seunghun’s high note was a literal out of body experience like i cant even function thinking abt it cuz it was so beautiful ... it was so flawless as well ... 

they sang so smoothly together ... i’ll never be over it ... 

i wish i could actually see them tho wtf was that green lighting

also can we appreciate how hard yedam works? i know lots of ppl say yyg exaggerates yedam’s talent and basically calls him a God LMAO ,,, but like,,, after this ,,, he truly is a genius cuz i cant even fathom learning a dance and song in an hour tops wowowow on top of studying for exams??and how much stress that is ?? i can barely eat when im studying for exams oml

.... he really is amazing ... and doesnt deserve all the shit yg throws at him 

OVERALL ! 

ok ok ok so now it gets controversial 

ELIMINATIONS : ( 

ok so as expected, Keita and Seunghun were eliminated which was such a shit move on yg’s part :/ like Keita is the longest running japanese trainee and seunghun is the longest running korean trainee... like wtf

and before i get shit for this, obviously i didnt want any of DNA team to be eliminated (i dont want anyone to be eliminated period),,, but c’mon ,, a 14 year old who has been training for not even a year VS 9 year and 5 year trainees ... ,, i’l admit, i think seunghun deserved that spot, 

and jeongwoo thought so too ,, like the look in jeongwoo’s eyes were not “oh yay i won!!” they were “me park jeongwoo??” kdfjdgkhsfd ,, he looked at seunghun immediately which was so sad cuz these trainees dont even have the time to be happy for themselves cuz they are too busy feeling sad for their friends... ... /sigh/

ok boomerang elimination time freaked me TF out cuz jihoon is my bias of like the entire show and ;-;;;;;;;;; jihoon ;-;;;;;; like obviously hyunsuk was expected, but i was thinking yoshinori or jihoon? really dont know with yg :/  

bUT IM SO HAPPY JIHOON MADE IT AJFKDFJSKGJ  like yes i love Yoshinori but ugh my heart hurts for jihoon .. he’s been through so much ... (but later i felt better keke)

and after those eliminations were over,,, like hyunsuk’s crying really got to me... he was crying ever since seunghun was eliminated and we all know hyunsuk cannot hide his emotions for shit so he was covering his ears during DNA eliminations and he apologized multiple times to the boomerang team and looked SO guilty... my heart ached hearing his sobs... they sounded so child-like and pitiful. it really put things into perspective ;-; 

before this, i was unsure if hyunsuk was fit to be a leader, not cuz he cant lead, but cuz he’s so emotional ... but after boomerang team, i think he really can lead Team A if/when they debut... like wow he was a really amazing leader and sometimes showing/feeling emotion can be good as a role model ... but ofc all team a members are amazing leaders LOL (also jihoon aka leader of team b)

ok i already said my peace abt growl so yeet ,,, was expected and i heard spoilers... /sigh/

and ok ok ,,, so i truly think Dumb and Dumber deserved to win,, but all the groups did so well ! i enjoyed all of them except growl tbh (maybe cuz that song has been covered so many times and im lowkey sick of it sdlkjfhdsjgs) but !! they all worked so hard :’(    

ALSO THAT ENDING AHAHAHAHA :))))

i believe the trainees who come back are Seunghun (i know it is LMAO) and Yoshinori(??) i say that cuz the camera zoomed on Treasure J members and Haruto opened his arms up for a hug !! and i feel like he would do that for another one of his members kldsjfdgahfjd 

PLUS Hyunsuk looked so happy and i know that happiness was directed at Seunghun too, but Yoshinori was also on his team which probs made him feel so much happier !! 

****** Another side note: Seunghun is LITERALLY SO UNLUCKY & HAS IT SO BAD ... like first, he lost against Mashiho when he was chosen by the 100 treasure makers (mashi was chosen by yg). then he won against yoonbin and yeongue, but was called out by everyone by being a popularity contest (which no one is complaining about now even tho these performances were all chosen by the fans ahah funny weird lmao ahah more sarcasm) + YG didnt even compliment him and/or Byounggon ?? :///  

AND ON TOP OF ALL THAT, he gets chosen to be in the Treasure 5, which i was initially SO excited for, but then D&D wins over the Treasures, leaving seunghun to be eliminated...he can never truly win ... + the only time he got complimented was right before he was eliminated, so waht the fuck...

we really though yedam was the protagonist of this show but UHH we thought wrong: it’s Seunghun !! :)))

also my inbox is open to im open to debating/talking/crying/screaming over all of this dksflhdsgkjhasf also fangirl/boying is allowed :^) especially about jihoon 

[tayegi]

Hey Lu! I'm sorry you have to deal with such bullshit, like you are an amazing writer and hearing that your work is being stolen really breaks my heart. Props to you for being nice the first time around, because as someone that's dabbling in writing myself, i might've lost my shit the first time around if i saw my work being stolen

Anonymous said:Honestly I admire you so much for not deleting everything you have ever written because of people like the wattpad author.... that’s fucking crazy.

Anonymous said:Hey Lu, I've never sent you a message because you're already inundated with so many. But I wanted to send some support after what happened with that anencephalic rat who blatantly plagiarized your work. I'm a TA in my uni's computer science department and I posted some of my code online as a reference for my students in lab, until one student pulled all my code from github and submitted it as their own. Safe to say I don't provide code samples anymore. (1)

Anonymous said:Whatever you decide to do with your writing from now on, I just want to say I really enjoy all your work and I'm so sorry that you had your work stolen like this. Looooove you (hehe love LU) (2)

Anonymous said:Hey Lu, I’ve always been a quiet follower of yours, but after this plagiarism incident, I had to send something. I’m sorry you have to deal with ignorant and immature people like her. I legit understand why you would want to stop writing after something like this. You gave her a warning and she’s just not understanding how polite you’ve been about it (imagine once she gets to college, yikes). Anyways, we’re always here to love and support you. We can get through this!!! ❤️❤️❤️

peachyguki said:This is so bs. People dont understand that THIS IS ILLEGAL. SUCH DUMBASSES. I feel so fucking bad for you Lu...jfc she better comprehend what she did was wrong.

taebunsuga said:Fuuccckkk I knew it abt the plagiarizing thing but I wasn’t sure,, I was reading Pour Up and thought it seemed awfully familiar and was like is this new rules, but then thought maybe I was just reading a fic, but then she mentioned the office hoes theme part and I’m like shit omi this is new rules and then next thing I asked her abt it and so she posts this whole ass chapter abt how her plagiarism wasn’t intentional 🤧🤧💀💀

Anonymous said:This! Entire! Situation! Is! Whack! Srsly she's so dumb thinking she wouldn't face repercussions at some point. If it means anything tho her writing isn't great and I think it's safe to say we all know you're superior here. I really hope this gets sorted out and she faces some type of consequences

Anonymous said:There's nothing I hate more than a theif and I'm so sorry you have to experience this.

lucielux said:I wasn't on tumblr much today so I just saw this whole plagiarism thing and I'm soooo sorry this is happening to you :( idgaf if I can't report her for ripping off your fic, I'm reporting her for hate or something else then but Wattpad won't stop me from reporting her this is just not okay fam. Anyway hope you're okay girl ❤️

lucielux said:Lu I know you're off the internet for today, but just in case this is still an issue when you come back, when you report for hate Wattpad will send you an email asking you to complete a form. In the form you should include what point of the "Code of Conduct" was violated, and one of them is "Don't share stories that aren't yours". SO what I'm getting at is y'all can't repot plagiarism but you can repot for hate and then add that plagiarism happened. In any case, hope you're feeling better 💖

Anonymous said:I'm so sorry Lu. You definitely don't deserve this shit. She's being two faced and doesn't understand consequences. Honestly, I don't think she will understand unless you file a formal complaint. Her behaviour is shameful to say it lightly.... All my love you Lu!! I hope this bullshit ends soon.

Anonymous said:I don't get why people want her to send them the pdf files of her rip off??? why don't thy just like, read the original one here??? Instead of supporting plagiarism??? like what

Anonymous said:how is she so dedicated to plagiarizing, willing to send pdfs'? rather than spending time just trying to write herself.. 🤷‍♀️

Anonymous said:why don't you do the same? send us all pdf files of your writing and let's see if she'll continue to write "her original story" HA! her fans will realize that she's not so innocent and original when in a few weeks she still doesn't have any more additions to "her story"

Anonymous said:It looks like people don't like going back on their opinions, like: I like this author and I'll keep liking it no matter what, oh look she was accused of of plagiarism, but i said I like her I can't go back, I won't even see the original story, I'm just gonna say I don't believe in it" IT'S OK, to like an author and then if this author do shit you can and SHOULD be disappointed and stop supporting this bad thing they done, this actually apply to any artist,actor,musician+

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I’m so sad and angry at the same time that the plot was originally yours and it was plagiarized by this author on wattpad. Honestly that became my fave fic tho because of the girl mc’s attitude and character. Now that I have found the real author I’m going to support the story so much💕💕💕 I downloaded the tumblr app just because I want to read your other fics hahaha 💕💕💕

littlekookieboy said:Omg I’m so outraged and the fact she’s trying to play victim with everything is even worse! I really hope she gets reported and she learns not to do plagiarism anymore. Seriously ur one the first writers I’ve ever read from here and seeing as how she has the audacity to do something like this is disgusting. Anyways I hope all goes well!!!!

canadiankae said:smh kids these days. I am actually astounded at her stupidity for announcing that she straight up stole your work and then tried to play victim. She'll get what's coming to her when she forgets to source for her assignments in school... then try to say she came up with it lol. If she keeps it up we'll help you take care of it. No way i'm letting my favorite writer go through this again

Anonymous said:im rly sorry all of this is happening to you. i wish i could do something to make u feel better and reassure you that we all care about you and hate seeing people do this shit to you. big hugs

Anonymous said:Lu, have you ever tried any online plagiarism check? I think it would be fun if you showed her the 99% similarity with New Rules. But I don't get it. Doesn't she feel embarrassed? I think its so sad.

Anonymous said:hoenstly the whole 'i spent hours on it tho' bs shes trying to pull is so annoying cause like if you were really willing to spend that much time plagiarizing someone elses work, why couldn't you have just written your own stuff during that time??? i just ugh im like mad for you if that makes any sense just urgghh

Anonymous said:I'm sorry you're having to deal with this shit. You are much more talented and well thought out than someone who cant think of their own ideas. and I've genuinely loved a lot of your fics. New rules is an amazing story that I always check for updates on and I love what you try to convey through your stories. It's disgusting that someone would do that to your work but I just want to remind you how appreciated your work is by actual fans. Love you!!!! I hope you feel better!

Anonymous said:Tbh i am so sorry that you have to deal with this situation now... you deserve so much better. I hope this thing ends quickly before upsetting you any further..

Anonymous said:Do it, file the report. If you don't you're letting her win. She has to learn her lesson and realize that she's in the wrong

Anonymous said:Ah! I sent the whole pour up ordeal and i’m so sorry i mistyped and put Tumblr instead of Wattpad because I was rushing to let you know! I’m glad it’s sorted because I became so angry that she plagiarised your work so blatantly! 💜

tywriteskpop said:I hope this thievery issue is resolved soon! I know I’d be devastated if my hard work was taken like that. Hopefully all of the support from your readers and many others will help convince her she is in the wrong. Please don’t stress too much about it. 🙏🏻 You have many people backing you up on this, and the option to report her for plagiarism is there when you’re ready, should she not cooperate. I wish many blessings to you, friend.

Anonymous said:Ok but like plagiarism on Wattpad is such a problem??? I’m sorry that you’re dealing with this rn 💕💕💕

sheridandwyer said:I am so sorry to hear that you're going through this! As a fellow writer, it breaks my heart to see a story that you've worked your ass off to craft and make original just stolen like this! I will DEFINITELY be leaving a comment venting my frustrations)in a respectful way, of course.) We've got your back and your followers will fight for you. Please know you're not in this fight alone!

Anonymous said:Lu! I'm so sorry about this whole problem! I went on wattpad to see the story and your comment is there. I cannot even fathom how much you work for your fics, but I do know how much it means to you. We will help you out any way we can and take that story down. It's not acceptable this person continues to get credit fot it. We love you, Lu!

Anonymous said:hey hon!!! i read her story before reading yours (after finding out her irresponsible actions) & i really want to say, yours is wayyyyyy better

acucarebiscoito said:Omg Lu this wattpad plagiarism thing is really annoying, what can we do to help? I love your work and I'm so angry and sad that they are disrespecting you this way ):

awkward-kooks said:Oh babe :( people are awful, stealing works is exactly why I'm scared to write on sns :/ hope they come to the realization that what they're doing is wrong and remove the story.

thank you guys so much for all of your love and support. Seriously, without you guys, I wouldve been so upset and frustrated right now. But it’s only because of this incredible outpouring of love and all of your support in talking to her, reporting her, etc. that we’ve gotten through this. And all of your suggestions are so hilarious and creative! I cracked up reading this alsjdfklsdfj i love you guys so much

[ghostofhallownest]

cw: long-ass COVID rant, ft. a real shit eugenics-y quote. bc it’s all finally Got To Me.

so. parents gave me COVID 2 days before i got vaxxed w the bivalent booster + the flu shot + i didn’t know bc i started feeling the symptoms exactly…2 hours after i got jabbed 🫠

and honestly? and im…im SO upset. i cried. i will probably cry more, for awhile.

i try so hard to be careful. i’ve let go of so many things i desperately wanted to do or would have tried to make happen if we lived in a world that, if it weren’t pandemic-free, at least fucking tried to respect Other People, because “personal responsibility” or whatever the fuck will never be enough.

i had the chance to visit one of my dear friends, and simultaneously to see a play that as far as we knew was a limited-run adaptation of a book i hold very, very dear. i had everything in order. and then the 2021 summer wave of COVID hit and i just…wouldn’t risk it. i didn’t get a refund on my flight because the airline claimed to no longer provide COVID-related refunds.

i had the chance to see one of my favorite bands live in concert. the concert required proof of vaccination and/or a negative test. i masked. i left the event early. and i still caught the delta variant, perhaps at the concert, perhaps at an airport. and since then? i don’t do much of anything i want to.

my friends around the country want me to visit them. i go to the ones i can afford to drive to, sometimes—and so i haven’t seen most of them since 2020 or before.

and im just. really really hurt honestly that everything i tried to do and everything i wanted to do and didn’t wasnt enough, that i still got sick bc my own parents can only half-ass caring, because, in my father’s words, “some people will just die and the world can’t stop for them.”

being infected with delta is still fucking with my lungs. i used to, and enjoyed!!! walking for 2+ miles daily. i was a swimmer with a decade of swim team behind me; i would swim laps decently, if not at the level i was as a teenager (which lmao wasnt anything special, despite the history, i promise), without Perishing.

i tried to swim a few weeks ago for the first time since COVID. it was like drowning; for days afterward, i couldn’t breathe properly. mentally, it felt like crossing off something i used to love: “guess i can’t do that again—for now, i hope”

i cant walk and talk at the same time now; pacing circles in my living room on the phone leaves me gasping awkwardly between words in short sentences. my friends used to ask if i was alright; now i suppose they’ve adjusted, too. walking and talking through a mask is near-impossible; ask me if i’m going to bitch about it. i went from “i’m not the peak of physical health, but i can function about the way you’d expect,” to “i’m using this grocery cart like a funky little walker because i’m Having A Time Of It getting to the goddamn bread isle”

it’s shit!!!! it’s such fucking shit and i didn’t WANT this again and i dont want anyone else to have it!!!! other people have had lasting symptoms SO much worse than mine and i can’t fathom shrugging this off when it’s the worst fucking roulette wheel!!!

god, i want this to be over, too. i want to visit my friends, i want to see the book i love adapted to its award-winning play, i want to go to fucking graduate school and sit in classes and not be terrified that the majority of the class isn’t wearing masks and someone in here is sick because of a shit sick policy! i want to go to live events and not weigh the cost of whether it might earn me a 3rd infection, and what that might do to me long-term!! i’m so sick of sitting in my house with my cats and my silly little internet connection!!!!

im so tired of letting things go that i would so desperately look forward to

anyway, if you read this far��wear a fucking mask, at least. please. tightly-sealed n95s are ideal, but if you look into it? literally any mask reduces the chances of infection DRAMATICALLY if all parties are masking.

[squiddoodle]

https://thehudsonindependent.com/why-im-voting-for-biden-and-why-you-should-too/

”

A week ago, I went to grab lunch with a friend I had­n’t seen in a while. We caught up about life, col­lege, and of course, the pan­demic. But af­ter we got through those top­ics, our con­ver­sa­tion shifted to pol­i­tics. Ob­vi­ously, we talked about Trump and his in­com­pe­tence in han­dling the va­ri­ety of is­sues our coun­try is fac­ing. But then we talked about the elec­tion. And I told him that I’m vot­ing for Biden. He told me he was­n’t vot­ing at all.

I was so con­fused. How could he not be vot­ing for Biden? And how could he not vote at all? I asked him, and he went on to ex­plain his rea­son­ing. He ar­tic­u­lated that the De­mo­c­ra­tic party needs to crum­ble so that we can build some­thing that can ac­tu­ally help peo­ple. The clas­sic, “Biden is a ter­ri­ble can­di­date,” line was used. And he very clearly ex­plained that his vote means some­thing to him: when he votes for a can­di­date, it shows that he agrees with all of their poli­cies. All of this made sense to me, and I re­al­ized that I have been so naive in think­ing that every­one thought the same way that I did. I am so grate­ful that I got to hear him speak about why he is­n’t vot­ing, be­cause I want to con­vince him—and other el­i­gi­ble vot­ers like him—to mo­bi­lize and vote for Biden this No­vem­ber.

I un­der­stand where you are com­ing from. It’s easy to feel hope­less right now. Trump won the 2016 elec­tion even though *most* Amer­i­cans did­n’t vote for him. Re­cently, we have lost so many Amer­i­cans be­cause our gov­ern­ments, lo­cal and fed­eral, blue and red, have failed to prop­erly ad­dress all of the is­sues that Amer­i­cans face. So it’s very un­der­stand­able that peo­ple have “tapped out” and lost hope in pol­i­tics. I know that this rhetoric comes from a place of dis­ap­point­ment or hurt, but I can’t help but feel like we are giv­ing up on a bat­tle we can win.

Some peo­ple have the priv­i­lege to re­frain from vot­ing be­cause they feel like De­moc­rats should “face con­se­quences” for their cor­rup­tion; these peo­ple can wait to vote for some­one to bring sig­nif­i­cant change. But oth­ers can’t. In fact, a lot of peo­ple sim­ply do not have the priv­i­lege to not par­tic­i­pate in pol­i­tics, be­cause they are fight­ing for their own rights. The rights of so many groups—Na­tive Amer­i­cans, il­le­gal im­mi­grants, dis­abled peo­ple, low-in­come Amer­i­cans, BIPOC, the LGBTQIA com­mu­nity (just to name a few)—are se­verely threat­ened by an­other term of Trump. These groups of mil­lions of peo­ple can’t wait four more years be­cause they are fac­ing life-threat­en­ing de­ci­sions right now. But even if you are so priv­i­leged to not be­long to any of the groups I just listed, your life is still threat­ened by Trump’s elec­tion, too. He has han­dled the pan­demic in the worst way pos­si­ble, and he will only con­tinue to worsen the state of our coun­try be­cause of his fail­ure to un­der­stand sci­ence and data. But if you think you’re care­ful and you won’t get the virus, I ask that you think about the en­vi­ron­ment. The earth can’t wait for rad­i­cal change in 4 years. Our en­vi­ron­ment is de­te­ri­o­rat­ing, and the Trump ad­min­is­tra­tion has re­versed over 100 en­vi­ron­men­tal poli­cies, which has only ac­cel­er­ated the rate of de­te­ri­o­ra­tion.

I’m list­ing only a frac­tion of the is­sues that are af­fected by Trump’s pres­i­dency just so you know what peo­ple are talk­ing about when they say that this elec­tion is a hu­man rights is­sue. Trump is the most in­com­pe­tent, un­pro­fes­sional pres­i­dent in Amer­i­can his­tory, and he does­n’t de­serve a sec­ond term. But more im­por­tantly, the mil­lions of peo­ple who need change right now should­n’t need to wait four more years. Some of these peo­ple won’t make it four more years. It’s re­ally that sim­ple to me. And we can’t say that it’s okay if we don’t vote, be­cause other peo­ple will. We must take mat­ters into our own hands, and we must vote to pro­tect the rights of our fam­ily, friends, and peo­ple who we might not know yet. We vote be­cause we are com­pas­sion­ate hu­man be­ings and care about other hu­man be­ings. Sim­ple.

We have the op­por­tu­nity to make this elec­tion a turn­ing point in our his­tory if and only if we vote for Biden. I’m not happy about vot­ing for him, but I will do it any­ways. I will vote be­cause I care more about the mil­lions of peo­ple whose lives are at risk than whether my vote per­fectly aligns with his poli­cies or sup­ports his past.

In twenty years, we will look back to this mo­ment in our lives, and I hope that you can re­al­ize that this elec­tion is much more sig­nif­i­cant than we can cur­rently fathom. Vote.”

Poltics is a journey not a wedding. Vote for Biden because he’s a step in the progressive direction from what you have now! Vote for Biden because he’s more likely to do good things than Trump is! Vote for Biden becausecatleast then you will have the vote on your side and you then have hope of things getting much better, safer for all because Biden just winning WILL already be better and safer than what you have now!

The planet, can’t wait for your perfect candidate!!!

The people dying, can’t want for your perfect candidate!!!!

It can’t wait for your ”great revolution”!!!

It needs ATLEAST THE BEST YOU CAN DO RIGHT NOW!!!

Your puritanism has already killed 100, 000s! The planet is already on fire! You KNOW things would not be as bad was hillary in power! Don’t let your self be fooled into doing nothing again! If you really care you should be doing everything you can to get any bit of improvement you can! Cause little bits add up. The right wing know this! That is how they are winning despite being a minority!!!!!

[sutterbabe]

#10 Auston Matthews

Hi could you please do an imagine where you're Auston's best friend and he helps you through a sleepless night and maybe you realize you like each other? Thank you!

warnings: swearies bc I have a potty mouth

Idk what this is but at least the last bit is cute

song suggestion of the day: Laid by james (cover by catfish and the bottlemen bc i cant stop listening to them atm)

It hadn’t been a great week if you were being honest. This wasn’t your first restless night but at least tonight you could find a little comfort in snapchatting Auston. He’d had the opposite problem and had pretty much just slept for three days straight so it was nice to talk to him again.

‘You look tired.’

‘wow thanks.’ you replied.

‘maybe you should sleep its already 11.40′

you laughed at that. It was cute how he’d say little things like that. He was always looking out for you and you appreciated it.

‘Maybe you should. Weren’t you trying to get back to a normal sleep pattern?’

‘don’t think that’s going to happen anytime soon’ he replied. ‘but seriously, you look exhausted.’

‘fine I’ll go to bed if it’ll make you shut up about it.’ you replied, knowing that he was not going to let it go anytime soon if you didn’t.

After tossing and turning for what felt like hours, you were scrolling through instagram looking for something to do when Auston messaged you.

‘thought you went to sleep’

‘you stalker.’ you replied with a small smile. ‘can’t sleep’

he sent you a sad face. ‘why not?’

‘idk. Just can’t’

‘im coming over.’

You rolled your eyes at that. ‘no you aren’t. Go to sleep Auston.’

You should have known that he was way too stubborn to listen to you. About twenty minutes later, you were up watching whatever on your phone when there was a knock on the door. 

“You shouldn’t have come.” you told him, but moved aside to let him inside anyway.

He pouted at you. “No way. I’m not letting you stay Sleepless in seattle all alone.” he informed you, making you smile. “Lets watch a movie or something.”

“It’s 12.40 in the morning.” you protested.

“Well you weren’t sleeping anyway.” he reasoned, settling down on your couch and flicking through netflix. You sat down next to him, cuddling up to his side for warmth.

“You don’t have to do this you know.” you told him.

“I know.” he replied, gently wrapping an arm around your waist and leaning his head on top of yours.

“What?” Auston asked when he noticed you were doing more looking at him than you were the TV. You flushed and quickly looked away. You both had been in and out of sleep for the past few hours. Truthfully, you could hardly believe he was here. He was so busy and you knew he loved sleep more than life. Yet here he was, cuddled up with you in the wee hours of the morning all because you couldn’t get to sleep. “Seriously, Y/n, you’re making me nervous.” he told you, unconsciously reaching across to brush a strand of hair from your face.

“I just.. you don’t have to be here.” you shrugged.

He rolled his eyes. “Y/n stop. No one’s forcing me to be here. I’m here because I want to be.”

That sentence alone made your heart skip. You took a breath to calm yourself. “I know. It doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate it.” you replied with a small smile.

He smirked. “Never said why I was here though did I? Maybe I raid your chocolate stash once you’re asleep.” he replied, waggling his eyebrows at you.

You snorted. “Possible.” you mused. “I think it’d be a win for both of us.” you poked his ribs. “you’re boney”

He pouted at you. “I’m not boney.”

“You kinda are.” you retorted.

“Not as boney as you.” he smirked, nudging your side.

“Cheeky.” you laughed, contorting your body to try and get away from him. He knew you were ticklish. “I thought you were going to help me go to sleep.” you added as Auston jabbed his fingers into your waist, making you shriek out and jerk away from him.

“Never said that. I’m just here for your chocolate.” you replied with an evil grin as you writhed under his fingers.

“Stop!!” you laughed, struggling to get away. “Auston please!”

“Only if you say ‘Auston Matthews is an amazing best friend/hockey player aand the most attractive person you have ever seen.’” he smirked triumphantly.

“That’s not saying much seeing as I’ve never seen Noah Hanifin in real life.” you began, shrieking again as Auston continued his onslaught.

“Well I guess this is how you want to die. I’m not stopping anytime soon.”

“What about hockey?” you blurted out before being overcome by another wave of laughter.

“I can multitask.” He shrugged with a smirk. That. Right there. That was way too attractive than you should have found it. The smirk, the cocky confidence, the nonchalant shrug. God, you were doomed. 

Plan B was to try and escape, which ended awfully. Auston was way stronger than you were and knew exactly what you were doing. In a matter of moments he had you pinned down with no means of escape with you yelling weird stuff like “Beau Bennett wouldn’t treat me like this.”

“Say it.” Auston demanded.

“Never.” you were close to crying from how hard you were laughing. Auston was relentless but also with a weird combination of care, if death by tickle was an option, always making sure to let you breathe before he continued his assault.

“Say it.”

“AUSTON MATTHEWS SUCKS!”

“Incorrect.” he smirked and you screamed as he returned to tickling the life out of you again.

“You’re a sick person.” you spluttered out between laughter.

“I am.” he agreed, but he didn’t seem too broken up by that fact.

You finally surrendered a few moments later, Auston’s offensive too great for you to resist. Especially with that damn smirk.

“AustonMatthewsIsagreatBestFriend/HockeyPlayer.”

“Sorry what was that?” He mused.

“AUSTON MATTHEWS IS A GREAT BEST FRIEND/HOCKEY PLAYER”

“and?” he prompted with that same shit-eating grin.

“theMostAttractivePersonIHaveEverSeen.”

He raised an eyebrow and you huffed dramatically.

“AND THE MOST ATTRACTIVE PERSON I HAVE EVER SEEN.”

“Thank you.” he smirked, rolling off of you as you glared at him and smacked him in the chest. “Now can you believe I’m really a sick sadist who’s only here for your chocolate?” he mused as you got up from the couch to fetch a glass of water.

You smirked. “Sure. That, or you’re just in love with me.” you waggled your eyebrows for effect. God, you wished. Of course, you were just joking but the way Auston paled for a second made your eyes widen.

“...Oh...my god.” you whispered almost dropping your glass. “Auston...”

“I should go.” he murmured quietly.

Holy shit.

Auston Matthews had a fucking crush on you and you had been too caught up in making sure that he didn’t find out about your own gigantic crush on him, that you’d missed it. Holy Shit. H O L Y  S H I T.

“Auston,” you began. How...? When...? You had no idea where to begin.

“Goodnight Y/n.” Auston said quickly, grabbing his keys off the bench and heading for the door.

“Auston!” you were left standing there, frozen, for a few minutes before your body is finally moving, racing out of your apartment after him. You caught him outside, on the pavement before he got to his car. It was close to four in the morning and the first few slivers of sunlight were starting to pry apart the horizon, dying the sky streaks of purple. You always found this time of day some kind of magical. There was a shudder that ran through your body when your hand brushed Auston’s elbow, sending your heart racing and the butterflies in your stomach aflutter. He turned around to face you, the light did something to his eyes, catching flecks in them that you rarely got to see. Some kind of beautiful. There was that sadness in them, the one that latched onto your heart and dragged it deep down into your stomach, stealing the breath from your chest. His hands were buried deep in his pockets and he watched you silently.

“Don’t go.” you found yourself saying, you reasoned it was the fact that you couldn’t fathom how to explain to Auston how much you adored him.

“I think I’d like to be alone for a bit.” he murmured gently. “I’ll drop by later.”

That broke you in half. You found yourself stepping forward, staring up at him. He turned his head away from you.

“Auston,” you found your voice, it was choked and got caught in your throat. You reached up to place a hand to his cheek, turning his gaze back to yours. The sky began to bleed soft pinks above you. Your breath caught in your throat as you leant up, balancing on your tip toes to place a quick kiss to the corner of his mouth. You felt his sharp intake of breath at your movement. You sent him a small, surprisingly sad smile as you went to move away. “I’ll see you later then.”

He was stood stiff and frozen in place as he stared at you, wide-eyed before lurching forward to catch your waist and pull you back into him. His lips were soft and cautious against your own. He relaxed into you, you could feel the tension bleed out of him as he did so.

The pale yellow light of dawn washed Auston’s beaming face in colour as he finally pulled away with a breathless laugh, resting his forehead gently to yours. You grinned up at him, equally as giggly.

“Oh,” he whispered.

[doodleywhack]

Music things i will never get tired of

When going through the songs, u might wanna just lay down on your bed and like, *really* listen to them w/o rushing

They all make me feel some type of way

The beginning of nico and the niners by tøp. It makes me nostalgic?

"i don't know where i am, i don't know where i am" in the first verse/chorus/thing at least in "anarchist" by yungblud

The part where "A version of Romeo and Juliet" in i love you will you marry me (also yungblud)

"i am huUUman and i need to be loOoved" (how soon is now - the Smiths)

bIGMOUTH ladadadadadaa bIGMouth ladadadaaa (Bigmouth strikes again - the Smiths)

2:19 in im not okay by mcr: i'm okay, im oKAAAAYYYYYY

Trust me, im NOOOOOT OKAAAAY

The opening verse and bassline of 'looking at me' by brina (her voice is so FIERCE) believe me when ive many girl power dance battles w myself at night w this one

The whole three cheers for sweet revenge album really

Cemetery drive is just so good and the 'i miss you' into the chorus ohmygod

Also i really love "the jetset life is gonna kill you" shitt it's too good

The "I MISS MY MOM " part in the verse or idk (it's at 1:11 i think ) in you know what they do to guys like us in prison at like

Run by ff: between ca 1:40 og 1:55 there's a transition around i think 1:47 or smth that i really love. And when it gets harder again if u know what i mean

^^also the guitar is this whole song ESPECIALLY from 4:07 and onward (and waaay back at the very start of the song) and then also in the ending of the song and you know what, just this whole sack of music is heavenly

The part where the drums come in and then the guitar in "dom som forsvann" by kent

^^AND THE REALLY SHORT PART OF GUITAR IN THE BACKGROUND AT 3:37 GOSHHH it makes me so nostalgic

^^also 'lifesavers' and 'vi är för alltid' by Kent is just so good

When the bassline kicks in in fine mess by interpol

^^as well as "the rover", "rest my chemistry", "Evil" and a couple of others by Interpol is also good

Daft pretty boys by bad suns it just has this really really specific feel to it (at least in the beginning of the song) with just the guitar and then the BASS

^^ALSO "even in my dreams i cant win" is just.. It just has this feeeeeeling to it u know? Like an alternate universe or parallell universe or somethingg

2:38 in sweather weather tnbh OH OMG the rhythm changee!

1:13-1:37 in talk fast live 5sos GOD BLESS (the WHY so complicated (...) part Is my fav)

3:30-4:21 in alentine live 5sos ffffff (and 0:12 when calum uses his magic voice on us and says "london let's fucking dance"+the whole first verse. +the shole second verse. Og my god.)

Okay the ups and Downs in the vocals like everywhere but especially in the chorus of "drug" by simple creatures. Also after the bridge when it all comes crashing down again. And like his voice is so attractive

All the parts where it's like aah Aah aah AaAah in boulevard of broken dreams by green dayyy

El matador by the Smiths - i LOVE IT it gives me this kind of really beautiful nostalgia feel yk?? And just the opening singing melody or like the first verse where he goes up in tone kinda + the relaxing guitar and aaaaaaaaaaan idk if u understand but iii just love it sm

The beginning of just like heaven by the cure. Like the bass introduction or something. So good

Hhkdkdkd 'the sound of war' by Susanne sundfør is SO. GODDAMN. BEAUTIFUL.

Music. I can't fathom how us humans can create so beautiful melodiesEven if it's just a split second

Related, here are a list of songs that just like, MMMM they're just SO good. Crunchy good. Like snack bars

Like idk you might not even like them but i do so that's good enough for me

World party ext by the waterboys. Oh my god. I was it live once and holy fuck

Still loving you - scorpions

Angels (live at knebsworth, not the original studio version) by Robbie Williams. Shitttt

I wanna be adored - the Stone roses

Reise reise - rammstein (Just the like second half of the song is just so good imo)

Grand pappy du plenty ('02 digital rem) - rchp

Oblivion - Susanne sundfør + m83

Watching over - greta van fleet

Come as you are - nnnnirrrrvvvanaa

Dirty Diana (2012 rem) - good ol' mj

The chain - Fleetwood Mac (SHIT, the bassline at like 3:04) oh my. Idk, it might not mean anything to u or u might even think, uuuuh nah that's not even that hard or complicated heck idk. But for me aaaah ive danced so much to this song in my room at like 2 am

December - all about eve (I've Grown up w this song and 'gold and silver' playing at full volume downstairs and they hold a special place in my heart

Feel free to add whatever