#and then my last two videos preforming pretty terribly

[sillee]

I would also like to second the YouTube comment. I just subscribed and I am so inspired by your save file and lore and it makes me so excited to play the game again, you made it feel so alive and full.

ahh thank you!!! it is so good to hear this type of thing, honestly! <3 it’s so exciting that my channel can be that for people.

[thefanficmonster]

My Kind

Corpse Husband x Reader (Female)

Warning: Swearing

Genre: Fluff, RPF (Real Person Fic)

Summary: Having been chosen by the gang to be a guest streamer on today’s stream of Among Us, it’s safe to say Y/N’s super excited but also a bit nervous. The whole of her anxiety gets lifted off her when she meets someone with the exact same vibe as hers - yeah you guessed it.

Requested by @monizzle96 Hi dear! Thank you so much for your wonderful request! I’m so terribly sorry it’s taken me so long to write and post it but here it finally is! I hope you come across it and read it and if so I hope you enjoy it! Love, Vy ❤

This has to be the fiftieth time I’ve checked my setup in the past twenty four hours. But no, I’m definitely not nervous, what are you talking about. Pshhh. Nah, being nervous isn’t in my brand. Plus, what do I have to make me nervous - a group of famous streamers inviting me onto their stream to play Among Us with them because they enjoyed my own streams? Ok yeah, that’s a pretty good reason. Not gonna lie, I almost chucked my phone out of excitement when I received that DM from Toast, telling me they’d picked me to be their guest streamer for today’s date. My stomach was doing somersaults for a good forty-eight hours following that text and then the anxiety slowly started setting in fueled by the expectations they probably have of me.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not inexperienced in the streaming field, I’ve been a streamer longer than some of the members of Toast’s streamer gang actually. But I never managed to garner that big of a following which I’m honestly quite ok with. I have a modest - ok, maybe larger than modest - following consisting of incredibly loyal fans which I will never stop being grateful for. They are all so respectable of me, my privacy and my boundaries. They know the main rules: no shit-talking in the chat or in any of my comment sections, no bashing other YouTubers in my comments/chat, and most definitely not asking for a face reveal. Fun fact: I didn’t even set up that last rule, they all just collectively know not to ask for it. 

I’ve been keeping my brand pretty low-key to avoid garnering some unwanted attention - some of which I’ve already experienced on certain social media platforms following the full body pictures I posted on there - face not visible of course. I tend to also have my webcam on, facing towards my hands working away on the keyboard sometimes when I stream. I don’t know why people obsess over faceless content creators’ hands, but I appreciate the enthusiasm - it also drives me to do a manicure every now and then which ain’t so bad, self-care and all that you know.

Now, back to the subject of my ridiculous nervousness.

You see, it has layers.

I’m nervous of ‘preforming’ underwhelmingly and I’m nervous of what my own fans will think of the person I will become during this stream. They know me as a super chill and laid-back person, which I am by the way, but they might think I’m putting on a show if I exhibit any nervous gestures/vocabulary. I highly doubt they would, but the possibility is not letting my mind rest. And now that it’s about ten minutes till the stream starts, I’m getting doing my best to calm my nerves.

They are all just people. You know they are super chill too. Just be yourself, that’s why they invited you, because you are yourself on all your streams. They liked you for your personality, humor, maybe even your gaming skills. So chill the hell out and be yourself, damn it!

Easier thought than put into action that’s for sure.

I start my stream five minutes early just so I can vibe with my viewers for a little while before I have to meet the gang. My fans always have a way of injecting me with confidence, they remind me of where I was when I started and how far I’ve come. How much I achieved when I thought I’d be nothing and no one, someone the algorithm would simply overlook. But then they entered my life and I entered theirs and it all became much better than I ever thought it would get to be. I rarely tell myself ‘good job’ for the milestones I’ve reached or the hard work I’ve put into my content, but that’s probably cause I orient myself based on that quote from the movie Whiplash: ‘There are no two words in the English language more harmful than good job’ - simply put, I’m never satisfied with what I do and I always strive to do better. My fans, however, make sure I don’t go overboard with it - always serving as a reminder that I’ve done plenty for myself and others. And that’s what makes an amazing fandom, one I consider family.

Whoa, when did those five minutes fly by?!

Ah shit, here we go. Deep breaths, Y/N you got this.

“Hello!“ I say as I enter the Discord call, subconsciously biting my lower lip, grateful the camera isn’t capturing it. However, I make a mental note to keep my hands steady cause that’s the one part of me people can actually see and the last thing I want is for them to see how much my fingers are trembling.

“Oh hi, Y/N!“ Toast is the first one to greet me, “Welcome to the stream! Thank you so much for accepting our invitation.“

“Thank you for having me and inviting me, Toast. This is a huge deal for me. You guys are basically YouTube legends, this is unreal to me.“ I reply, cringing immediately afterwards because of my fangirl rambling. Great way to make first impressions, Y/N. Bravo.

To be fair, they already have an impression of you. Quit stressing.

Aright, you’ve got a point, me.

“Oh please, we owe all that to our fans. We’re really nothing special. All streamers are almost completely alike, we all owe where we are to the people who helped us make it there - our fans. We’re no legends.“ Toast says, bringing a small smile to my face as well as a light pink blush to my cheeks, “And from what I’ve seen, you yourself have quite the following. And your fans seem to adore you.“

“And I absolutely adore them.“ I chuckle, “They mean the world to me. They are the reason I’m here today.”

“Then we have to give them a special thank you, don’t you think?“ The teasing, familiar giggle, widens my smile - it’s Rae, “Nice to meet you, Y/N! I’m Rae, and, no cap, I’m quite a fan of your content. No joke, I binged your entire series of Resident Evil 7 as soon as I found your channel when Toast said he’d invite you.“

This rattles me a bit. I can hardly believe it - am I really receiving a compliment from an A-list name in the streaming world? My fans must be hella proud of me right now. A quick glance at my chat confirms that they indeed are. That in and of itself fills me with joy and newfound confidence.

“Oh Gosh, thank you so much Rae! That means the world to me. You’re all so sweet.“ I reply, lifting my ice cold hands to cool down my burning cheeks, my lips spread into a grin, my stomach filled with butterflies.

“Oh please, we have some real savages around here.“ A male voice, seemingly Charlie’s scoffs, “Don’t overlook us please.“

“Wait, we do?“ A deep voice, one I immediately know the owner of speaks up, “Who? How come I don’t know about that?“

I can’t help bust snort, “Nice to meet you, Corpse. Sarcasm central, I see.”

He laughs, “Just returning it to where it’s due. Nice to meet you too, Y/N. Sick Outlast series, by the way.“

Ok, wait, I have two A-list streamers complimenting my content. Ok, I’m bound to crack open a few beers to celebrate later cause OH MY GOD.

“Thanks! I’m a horror junkie so I’d be lying if I said I haven’t binge watched all your story-times. Personal favorites are the deep web ones, they fascinate me.“

“Oh, you’re one of my kind even more than I expected, huh?“ He replies, the tone of his voice changing, raising a bit due to what I can only describe as excitement and enthusiasm. “I’ve had people tell me it’s twisted, but I really like seeing the lengths to which the fucked up human mind can go to. Like, the shit I’ve read is insane! Some stories I didn’t narrate cause I would’ve probably had my video taken down, it was that messed up.“

My eyes widen, sharing the same excitement at the thought of digging deeper into this phenomenon, “Careful, Corpse, you’re walking a dangerous line of tempting me to deep-dive on Reddit in search of those exact stories.”

“No need.“ Corpse says, his tone now taking up a bit of a cocky note, “I still got them all saved, I can send them to you no problem.“

“Please do! I seriously gotta read them now. If I can’t sleep afterwards, I’m blaming you, Corpse. Just FYI.“ I say, giggling slightly, finding myself all but completely comfortable now. I wonder where all that anxiety went? 

“Blame fully taken. Given that I’m not much of a sleeper, I’ll keep you company whenever you think there’s a killer hiding in your closet or fear a red room pop-up will appear on your computer screen.“ He replies, chuckling.

“Um, that’s oddly specific.“ Charlie comments, “Been there yourself, buddy?”

“Perhaps.“ Corpse wheezes, getting a laugh out of me too, “I will neither confirm nor deny.“

“You know what, I’ll just private message you my number so if you see it call you at some ungodly hour, you don’t freak the fuck out. Sounds good?“ I ask, already prepping to type it out and send it to him. 

“Perfect. Wait...“ he pauses for a second, sounding puzzled for a second, “You don’t have mine.“

“Oh, do I not?“ I reply with a sinister tone - thought to answer the question, I of course don’t have his number.

“Oh, do you?“ He sasses me right back. “If so then you don’t need me to send it to you. Cool.“

Ah, shit

“Wait, no! I-I need to confirm it’s the correct one!“

Damn, never did I think I’d be complimented by some of the most important streamers on this platform, but to get a number of theirs too? That’s a whole another level that will take me time to process. But I’ll do that another time, right now, I have to kick these people’s butts in Among Us and later I have some deep web stories to read.

Turns out, all it takes to get comfortable in a new surrounding is someone of your kind. And Corpse is definitely one of my kind.

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[art-by-rozzai]

had a bad day so more band au headcannons

anyone who wants to write a fic for this is absolutely allowed if they tag me, i’m not gonna make any full length ones but i might post some one shots eventually

anyway i had a really shitty day so here’s me self projecting and creating more band headcannons

check out the first here~

check out the second here~

tag list~

@athenashipsthings @thelesbianspoon @flowersheep @insert--self--hatred @nafsbluebery @sunflowerss0 @nerdiegurlie @stars-and-rose

okays lets do this✨

so last when we left the boys, it’s the day before they release their album “death of a bachelor”

to celebrate, roman suggests they get dinner out and maybe go see a movie??

logan is suprisingly the first to agree, saying that if he doesn’t get to watch the “scary stories to tell in the dark” movie soon he will explode. plus there’s no food in the fridge

virgil is also down to go see the movie, but is more reluctant to get dinner. he hates formal things, so to make him feel more comfortable roman offers they go to the local diner that he knows has virgil’s favorite chicken parm dish and virgil can’t say no to that

patton doesn’t want to see the movie at first-he really doesn’t like scary movies. but he wants dinner with his friends and he might be able to latch onto logan during the scary parts so he goes with it

so patton offers go help virgil with his hair and they end up getting ready together! they talk about everything they can think of as patton does hair and virgil does makeup and they both do each other’s nails and then they’re ready to go out whooooppp

meanwhile roman collapsed on logan’s bed an hour ago and began complaining about how he needed to impress virgil to get him to fall in love with him and has been talking ever since

logan doesn’t mind tho, roman helps him pick out a nice outfit and gives tips on how to woo patt

even though it’s not a date

yet

anyways they get to the diner and they all have an incredible time! by the end of the meal they’re in tears laughing at each other, from roman’s hysterical stories to virgil’s banter to logan’s fun facts and spilt tea to patton’s enthusiastic impressions

they love each over like family :)

and the movie is top notch. virgil is in love with it, him and logan spend the whole time guessing what’s going to happen while roman hides behind virgil and patton shoves his face full of popcorn and squish himself into logan’s arm

and yes virgil can’t stop laughing and logan’s immediate tensing up and blushing

after the movie they just don’t want to go to bed quite yet, so the friends head to the park and enjoy lying in the grass, talking and letting logan point out the stars while roman makes up stories of the aliens and space princesses that protect the galaxy

virgil makes everyone his famous hot chocolate and they stay up until midnight to release their songs

and then the clock strikes 12 and death of a bachelor is available to download

the boys decide that staying up and watching the comments flood in is a terrible idea and instead they put on some disney films and fall asleep on the couch

it’s nice

they wake up to millions of notifications

everyone is freaking the fuck out

this album ??? is beautiful ???

all of the fans are in love but also have a lot of questions-so the fab four start doing monthly live-streams to just chat and answer questions and catch up with their fans

“are y’all single?”

um

well yes

but uh

this question is not goOD ROMAN WHAT THE FU-

anyway virgil comes to patton one day, slams the door, puts his face in a pillow and screams “PATT IM SO GAY HELP”

because roman called his hair pretty this morning and yes it’s stupid and it happens all the time but this time was different

don’t worry tho they won’t admit their feelings to one and other for another three months

death of a bachelor does really well-all of the songs end up going either gold or platinum

their song “victorious” is played on the radio all of the time

so november rolls around and the friends decide it’s time to go on tour! starting with just north america, they post a video on the youtube channel that gives all the locations and dates

it’s to start in april:

virgil is extremely nervous. being on the road for so long and preforming live in front of thousands of people and will anyone even show up and-

logan is slightly nervous but honestly he really enjoys preforming-once he ties the tie around his head like a bandanna he almost transforms into the punk rock bassist he is known by the fans to be

patton!!! is!!! bouncy!!!!!!!! he wants to meet all these people!!!! and he can’t wait to give back to all of them by preforming and meet and greets and social interaction makes him really happy!!

roman is so excited-preforming is his thing. when he’s on a stage, he’s in his element! he can’t wait to show off and travel and be with his friends for even longer :)

but they can’t go on tour with their boring old instruments sooooo

roman and patton team up to paint and decorate all of the instruments

virgil’s piano matches his jacket, lots of purple and swirls and patton paints the classic nightmare before christmas scene on the front (u know, this one but stationary)

and they decorate the microphone stand purple and silver and black

logan gets a dope space themed bass-the outside is dark blue and the inside is painted like a galaxy, with a plain silver pick

roman paints his gutair with a castle and sunset in the back, with a bright red pick to play

patton’s drums have clouds on them nowww like a sunny day with blue puffy clouds

they’re ready to go! but it’s still only december so u kNoW whAt ThaT mEaNs

CHRISTMAS!!!!!

since none of the squad are jewish, (although technically patton is half jew since his mom is, but he just really loves christmas and always celebrated that growing up so)

they decide to celebrate at their house

they invite all of their close family to the apartment and have a lovely dinner

and yeah virgil doesn’t invite anyone cuz he was adopted by a shitty family who he doesn’t talk to anymore, bcuz all they did was try and get money out of him

and yeah he has a panic attack when all of his best friends are excitedly talking about their family coming over

and y e a h roman helps him calm down and swears that he will always b there to protect virgil bcuz he’s never met anyone quite like him and it’s not easy to explain but he just wants virgil to know he’s safe with roman

and yeah virgil wishes he could stop falling for roman but the ground keeps disappearing beneath him

so time skip a bit closer to christmas and logan bursts into romans room with an idea

“i can rap”

“we know”

“you can rap”

“kind of but okay”

“christmas rap song for fun”

“yeS”

so they write “gonna kill santa claus” (look it up) and decide to post it on the youtube channel on christmas eve

they film a music video for it where they jokingly set up different traps for santa like poison cookies and fire cracker chimneys and more

virgil sings the chorus, logan raps the rap parts, roman does the bridge, and patton lays down a pretty sick beat

it comes out really nice and honestly really fucking funny

so after a delightful family dinner with everyone over, the friends release that video and the internet fucking dies it’s so funny and logan can rap (??????) and ohmygod all of them are so cute what the fuck

anyway back to christmas dinner

roman has like 6 little sisters, and his mom and dad and papa and nana over

(he’s latino, his mom and dad are both from the dominican republic)

patton invites his mom and dad and little brothers, thomas and dee

and logan invites his two moms

everyone comes over for lunch and gets along reallyyyyyy well

logan’s got the punk mom and soft mom dynamic whereas, patton’s family is all super kind and like homey and boisterous and romans family is wild and crazy and funny and they all instantly click

presents are passed around, lots of money and books and movies and stickers and jewelry

really sweet stuff

and then everyone goes home and the friends have their own little gift exchange

virgil got logan the stephen king book “insomnia” and a (sort of) joke blanket with benedict cumberbatch’s face on it that he can use when he goes stargazing at night

logan gets virgil some noise cancelling headphones and a framed picture of a wedding with virgil’s face cropped on one and gerard ways face on the other

they both can’t stop laughing at the fact they attacked each other’s celeb crush

virgil gets patton a cute little cat stuffed animal that when u push the hand it’s a recording of all of them saying “we love you!!!” and a really sweet card

patton gets virgil a eyore necklace that was super expensive but matches patton’s winnie the pooh one and a itunes card for him to buy more music (and yes a really sweet card)

virgil gets roman two tickets to see mean girls on broadway and a framed picture of the two of them

yeah roman tears up a bit fuck u

roman gets virgil a collage of him and roman and a handmade hoodie that virgil is never going to take off oh and also meet and greet passes to see dan and phil at their interactive introverts tour

and maybe virge gets a little teary too

roman gets patton a recipie book and an apron that says “you BAKE my day”

patton gets roman a new ukelele and a printed out pamphlete of theatre song chords that he can play

roman gets logan the sherlock script and an empty box just to fuck with him

logan gets roman the entire grimm fairytale series and tapes a note to the front that says “bcuz u are an illiterate fool😜”

patton gets logan a phone case with the stars that were out on the day they met, hand painted framed picture of him and logan, and comic con tickets for this spring

logan gets patton tickets to the art museum downtown, a gift card to the coffee shop next to it, and two gold hoop earrings with a note that says “next week, friday at 7. it’s a date ;)”

so christmas is pretty good for all :))))))

and that’s the end of this one i’ll make a part four soon lmao

[mozsombi]

There are no breaks on the Erasmus train! (11.04)

Well, I actually wanted to write this a few days post after the Open Mic but I just didn’t have much motivation. 

Last tuesday the Open-Mic went pretty well, I played some tunes with my dude Óscar and an austrian girl called Sara. We preformed a song called “Kids” from the band MGMT, I was just playing the guitar, Óscar played the piano and Sara was singing. We also played "Uprising” from Muse (the one that uploaded last week) i think I forgot to write about that last week so I will now. Óscar (from Mexico/Spain) played drums, Joe from the UK played the piano, Ivan from Spain played the guitar I played the bass aand Matteo from Italy sang the song. I don’t think it can get any more international than that..We also tried to play “Feel Good” from Gorillaz with another group of people but that turned out pretty to be terrible, nobody knew what was going on, which part of the song are we at etc etc..I totally destroyed all the “image” I built over the past few weeks. (just kidding. I don’t have an “image”) We also played another song with Sara and Óscar from the band Of monster and men, called “Little Talks”. This song actually turned out pretty good I think. Even Oliver showed up who’s not really into things related to music, I was honored! Had some Tinto de Verano, good talks, and saw some better and not that good performances from all kind of people. I even totally randomly joined to a “jam song” that Óscar played with two dudes from the US. One of the guys called Ryan was on the drums, Óscar and Jeremy were playing the guitar and playing solos alternately(? is that the right?..idk.) I was playing the bass. It was a lot of fun!

Sadly I was already sick on monday-tuesday, and it only got worse by wednesday so I didn’t go anywhere, buut since Óscar left his briefcase at the pub the previous night I took it so he stopped by to pick it up and grab a coffee. He was also kind enough to get me some nasal spray and chamomile from the pharmacy. 

The thing is, besides going to a class on thursday (and having a really high temperature after that) I didn’t really go out all week, was trying to get better, drank a lot of tea, took some pills, was laying low. Today I felt much better, still not 100% yet but getting there slowly! If I feel the “boogie” I will probably go climbing tomorrow!

Since I didn’t have much to write about I’ll just upload some videos from the open mic!

[multikfantrash]

Duet

It was the second company Munhee thought of auditioning for. She had already had her parents sign the consent forms and she paid the audition fee. She was auditioning as a vocalist and bassist. She made it passed the first around of the auditions a presentation of talent. However, it was the next round that made her nervous. The company wanted to see how quickly they could pick up on music and how well their teamwork skills were. The company decided to pair the auditioners with one of their trainees.

“Choi Munhee, you’ll be with Lee Daeyeol.” An assistant announced. Munhee searched the line of trainees before her eyes fell upon his name tag. He was tall with beautiful facial features. He Had on a serious face however it didn’t seem to suit him. or at least that’s what Munhee thought.

She moved forward bowing before him, “Hello”.

“You must be Munhee.” He smiled, “Shall we find a practice room and get started?”

“Yes, can we.” Munhee smiled back. “Since it’s a duet, you’re a vocalist, right?”

“Yes,” Gestured to an open room, “do you have anything in mind for the song?”

“Either Some by Junggigo and Soyou or Eyes, Nose, Lips by Taeyang.” Munhee set her bag and case down by the wall, “I know it’s originally a solo song, but I feel confident I can break it into a duet.”

“If you’re confident in your ability we should go for it.” He smiled down at her.

Munhee sat down back against the wall as she laid her case down. She brought out her bass and stared up at Daeyeol, before patting the spot next to her. Telling him to sit down.

“They will be judging us extra hard, so our duet has to be extremely well.” Daeyeol spoke.

“Why do you say that,” She nervously strummed the bass.

“My brother is on the judge’s panel.” He admits.

“Brother?” Munhee asked still confused.

“Yes, brother.” Daeyeol laughs, “He’s in Infinite, Sungyeol.”

Munhee froze in terror. “I’m sorry. I knew Sungyeol-ssi had a younger brother who was a trainee. I’m sorry for not putting it together.”

Daeyeol burst into laughter, “It’s fine. Its very refreshing when someone doesn’t know who my brother is.”

“Are you sure?” She asked nervously.

“Yes, I’m sure. Now, let’s get to work. You only have an hour and a half to get this duet put together before we have to preform it.” Daeyeol smiled, she nodded and pulled out her phone to search the lyrics.

After half an hour of distributing the lines they began to practice. “It can’t just be us standing at behind the mics, can it?”

“No, it really can’t be.” Daeyeol admitted.

“So, we make with it’s story. Almost chest to chest here.” Munhee points at the lyrics. “Then split apart here.”  

“How about you throw out some rifts here.” Daeyeol points to a break in the lyrics.

“What about you?”

“This is still your audition. You need to show off as much as you can.” Daeyeol advised.

“Alright, let’s try it out then.”  Munhee moved back to the center of the room and hit play on the music. They ran through the song multiple times. Each time they finished she felt more and more sure that she chose the right song.

Before the time was up she set her phone up to record Daeyeol and herself. She wanted to see how they were before they had to preform before the judges. Video showed a lot. Their vocals fit perfectly for the line distribution, however their bodies showed that the song wasn’t for them. They were stiff and kept their distance from one another. “We aren’t very convincing.” She stated.

“We aren’t, but we really don’t have time to change anything.” Daeyeol reasoned.

“We look like complete strangers.”

“We are stranger.” Daeyeol pointed out.

“How about if we tell each other about ourselves. That way we can feel a little more comfortable and it won’t be so ridged.”

“That’s actually a really good idea. It gives us time to rest our voices.” He smiled, “Want me to grab you a tea?”

“Just hot water please. I have my favorite coffee blend with me.” Nami answered with a mall shake of her head.

“Do you have enough for two?” He stopped at the door.

“Honestly, I have enough for sixteen.” She laughed at his shocked expression, “I’ll explain when you get back.”

When he returned, he and Munhee spoke of their homes. Daeyeol spoke of the distance relationship he has with his brother. How Sungyeol didn’t want him to be too dependent on him during his training. He explained that he knew his brother is proud of him. Munhee spoke about her parents and her being an only child. She told him she spent most of her life in her mother’s café, and that’s why she’s addicted to coffee. She explained that she carries so much coffee blend with her because it reminds her of home, which she misses terribly. She told him about the other companies she had auditioned for and the ones she still was going to audtion for.

He complimented her for keeping an opened mind when it came to auditioning. He told her that if it was up to him she would have already been handed a contract. She was grateful for the compliments, however before she had a chance to thank him there was a knock on the door.

“We’ll do great, don’t worry’ He reassured her. She nodded three time quickly and packed up her bass, before following him back to the audition hall.

Six pairs preformed before them. Three of them did simple dance along with a catchy song that did not show off their vocals. Two of which focused solely on the vocals. They stood behind their mics singing the best they could. And the last pair, made their mark by daring to cover Infinite. Their vocals were slightly off either due to the dance they made or out of nerves.

They were next up, before leaving her spot in the audience she opened her case and strummed the bass. Then She adjusted her phone to record the stage. “Daeyeol, follow my rifts at the end.” She whispered as they made their way up to the stage. The stood ten feet from one another. Instead of facing the judges they faced each other.

“Don’t be sorry,” He started. He kept his eyes on her, “That makes me more pitiful. With your pretty red lips. please hurry, kill me and go”

“I’m all Right” They sang together.

“Look at me one last time. Smile like nothing’s wrong,” She took over.

“So, when I miss you, I can remember. So, I can draw your face in my mind” They harmonized.

“My selfishness that couldn’t let you go. Turned into an obsession that imprisoned you.” She took her mic off its stand.

“Were you hurt because of me?” He copied her action.

“You sit silently” They stepped out from behind the stands.

“Why am I a fool?” He sang taking a small step forward.

“Why am I a fool?” She mimicked.

“Why can’t I forget you?” He took one more step.

“Why can’t I forget you?” She followed again.

“You’re already gone” They sang stepping forward once more.

They stopped moving, “Your eyes, nose, lips. Your touch that used to touch me. To the ends of your fingertips, I can still feel you. But like a burnt-out flame, burnt and destroyed all of our love. It hurts so much, but now” They take a breath and step closer one last time “I’ll call you a memory~” They sing together.

“Love you, loved you. I must have not been enough,” Munhee takes over showing off the strength of her voice. “Maybe I could see you. Just once by coincidence”

“Everyday I grow restless��� Daeyeol joined her. Munhee broke off, “Everything about you s becoming faint.”

“You smile back in our pictures,” She joined in only supporting his vocals, before falling out once again.

“Unknowing of our approaching farewell.”

“My selfishness that couldn’t let you go. Turned into an obsession that imprisoned you. Were you hurt because of me? You sit silently” They sang together.

“Why am I a fool?” She sang taking a small step forward.

“Why am I a fool?” he mimicked.

“Why can’t I forget you?” she took one more step.

“Why can’t I forget you?” He followed again. They were three feet from each other at this point

“You’re already gone” They sang out staying in their place.

“Your eyes, nose, lips. Your touch that used to touch me. To the ends of your fingertips, I can still feel you.” Daeyeol sang.

“But like a burnt-out flame, burnt and destroyed all of our love. It hurts so much, but now I’ll call you a memory~” Munhee sang out softly.

“Your black eyes that only saw me. Your nose that held the sweetest breath. Your lips that whispered”

“I love you” He lead, stepping forward.

“I love you.” She sang back. They were inches away from each other.

“I love you.” He sang looking down at her.

“I love you~” She stepped back singing with as much power as she could control.

“Your eyes, nose, lips. Your touch that used to touch me, to the ends of your fingertips~” She sang out as she walked away leaving him center stage. “I can still feel you~”

“I can still feel you~” He reached his out in her direction.

“But like a burnt-out flame. Burnt and destroyed all of our love” She sang not turning towards him.

“It hurts so much, but now” They sang together.

“I’ll call you a memory~!” She sang out facing the judges, “Woah-ah~” She gave everything she had.

“Woah~” Daeyeol followed. Each of them threw out rifts that complemented the others last.

As the music ended, Daeyeol and Munhee finally looked out to the judges, who had amazement written all over their faces. The pair quickly placed their mics on the stands before meeting center stage once again. They looked out once again and bowed.

They raced off stage, were Munhee practically attacked Daeyeol with a hug. “Oh my god that was amazing. They looked impressed.”

“My brother looked shocked. Truthfully I completely understand why.” Daeyeol returned the hug.

“What do you mean?”

“The rifts and control you showed out there were nothing like what you showed me in the practice room. Honestly, I didn’t think someone so small could have such power.” He looked stunned.

“Was it bad?”

“Heaven’s no. It was amazing. Come on let’s get another coffee as the rest of the pairs go.”

“Hold up let me grab my bass and phone.”

Most of the pairs that had gone were hiding out in the hallways and practice rooms. As Daeyeol and Munhee were walking back to the practice room they used, the others would whisper as they passed by. Which made Munhee upset. It was as if a switch was flipped. The nice easy-going demeanor she typically wore was covered by Ice. Her face was serious showing no emotions. Daeyeol could feel the sudden shift in temperature next to him.

“Munhee grab the water. I’ll be back”

“When you get back we’ll watch the performance”

“Alright.” He left her in the door way. She made her way inside, leaning the case against a wall. Then claiming the spot next to it for herself. By the time Daeyeol returned Munhee had calmed down. “The chill in the hallway earlier what was that?”

“People talk. Most of the time they talk bad about a person. They think just because I look small and harmless that I won’t say anything about it.” Munhee stirred her coffee, “A long time ago I wouldn’t say anything because I was to be scared I’d end up alone. But now being alone isn’t bad since I have music.”

“So that’s were the power comes from.” Daeyeol smiled, “Come on I want to see the performance.” They sat there laughing at the performance. “You’re plan really worked. We did feel more comfortable with each other after we talked.”

“It will be a shame if we never talk or see each other again” she picked up her phone.

“You’ll make it in. I’m not worried about it.”

“I told I still have two other companies I’m auditioning for.”

“Come on but after meeting me the decision is a no brainer. You have to choose Woollim” Daeyeol joked with such confidence.

“It’s a strong contender now.” She laughed.

“There’s always Kakao” He puts out his hand for her to hand him the phone. When he took hold of it he put in his information and handed it back.

“Whatever company you join at some point we are doing another duet.” He was only half joking.

“There’s no doubt that’s happening” Munhee laughed.

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There are no breaks on the Erasmus train! (11.04)

Well, I actually wanted to write this a few days post after the Open Mic but I just didn’t have much motivation.

Last tuesday the Open-Mic went pretty well, I played some tunes with my dude Óscar and an austrian girl called Sara. We preformed a song called “Kids” from the band MGMT, I was just playing the guitar, Óscar played the piano and Sara was singing. We also played “Uprising” from Muse (the one that uploaded last week) i think I forgot to write about that last week so I will now. Óscar (from Mexico/Spain) played drums, Joe from the UK played the piano, Ivan from Spain played the guitar I played the bass aand Matteo from Italy sang the song. I don’t think it can get any more international than that..We also tried to play “Feel Good” from Gorillaz with another group of people but that turned out pretty to be terrible, nobody knew what was going on, which part of the song are we at etc etc..I totally destroyed all the “image” I built over the past few weeks. (just kidding. I don’t have an “image”) We also played another song with Sara and Óscar from the band Of monster and men, called “Little Talks”. This song actually turned out pretty good I think. Even Oliver showed up who’s not really into things related to music, I was honored! Had some Tinto de Verano, good talks, and saw some better and not that good performances from all kind of people. I even totally randomly joined to a “jam song” that Óscar played with two dudes from the US. One of the guys called Ryan was on the drums, Óscar and Jeremy were playing the guitar and playing solos alternately(? is that the right expression?..idk.) I was playing the bass. It was a lot of fun!

Sadly I was already sick on monday-tuesday, and it only got worse by wednesday so I didn’t go anywhere, buut since Óscar left his briefcase at the pub the previous night I took it so he stopped by to pick it up and grab a coffee. He was also kind enough to get me some nasal spray and chamomile from the pharmacy.

The thing is, besides going to a class on thursday (and having a really high temperature after that) I didn’t really go out all week, was trying to get better, drank a lot of tea, took some pills, was laying low. Today I felt much better, still not 100% yet but getting there slowly! If I feel the “boogie” I will probably go climbing tomorrow!

Since I didn’t have much to write about I’ll just upload some videos from the open mic!

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Shinee World V in Dallas Fan Account

It literally took me two days to do this because I’ve been so emotional

this is going to be so long ;^;

I don’t even know where to start?!?!?

Aaaa okay wait. Yes I do. The beginning. Um?

Honestly, I’ve been a fan of Shinee for seven years now, and I always imagined and daydreamed about what it would be like to go to a Shinee concert. But absolutely nothing could have prepared me for the real thing. Nothing.

When the lights shut off and the intro to Hitchhiking came on (one of my favorite tracks!!) I thought I was ready like, yes finally after all these years of watching videos online and buying dvds, they’re gonna be standing right in front of me! Live in concert! And then it happened and I literally couldn’t deal!! My video for that song is so terrible because my hand was shaking, I was sHOOK, lol.

I had to stop recording for Why So Serious because I had adjust to the fact that I wasn’t watching a YouTube video and they were actually there!

Key started off the night perfectly, and he was really such a good host the entire night. The breaks in between when they spoke to us were such great moments. Keys “my Gucci burned” moment was so cute and funny. Jonghyun was laughing really hard as he told the story. Couldn’t help but laughed at his reaction when he told us he took of his clothes to give to his stylist and the fans started screaming. We caught him speaking into the mic offstage and he came out an explained later that he was whining about uncomfortable stage outfits for the next section lol. Idk he really brightened up the whole show I loved hearing him talk.

Onew. Oh Onew. Whats not to love? I went in expecting to melt because of his voice and I totally did. Every note he hit was perfect. But what really got me were his dance moves and his looks? Onew was serving looks okay!(also the thighs are so real, its one thing in pictures but in person? GIRL! I was so weak during Odd Eye idk how I even filmed that but I’m so glad I did bc Onew was killing it that performance. Waited forever to see him make the M.V.P. sign and it felt so good being able to do it with him ahhh! He radiated warmth the entire concert. Every time he smiled you could feel his warmth. A soft, sweet, musical angel.

Taemin is so impressive omg. He makes every move look so easy and relaxed, like he’s not even trying but I know he gave us his all. SO captivated by his solo Goodbye! Pretty sure I had my mouth open the entire time, just in awe of him. I noticed a couple of times watching my videos that during a couple of songs his mic and ear piece were bothering him? But I honestly had no idea he carried on so professionally. He mentioned in the concert he about not being able to relax, but the fairy prince was incredible. Oh and so dead when evilmaknae!taemin showed up interrupting Key: “we’re not talking about that”. Made my night LOL

Minho!! Homeboy was feeeling himself. My best friend and I always say there’s a member who shines the most each concert, and this was Minho’s concert okay!! Every time he came center stage fans screamed. No matter what he had our full attention. And I don’t know why he had to be so sexy but he was doing The Most™️. So many body rolls and hip thrusts I had continuous heart attacks. I have always loved Minho but, for whatever reason I never felt emotionally connected to him like I did with the other members? Until now. Baby was such a sweetheart the entire night! Nothing but fanservice and smiles. His personality, shined though and his bright spirit was contagious.

Last but certainly not least my ultimate bias Jonghyun. Omg my hearts throbbing just thinking about him. I fell in love with Jonghyun’s voice when I first heard him sing, he honestly moved me to tears. I always told myself that I’d if  I ever got the chance to see Replay live, I would cry. But I didn’t I was just really happy? Instead I cried during Selene 6.23. The second I heard Jonghyun’s voice the tears came. Because everything in that song, I could feel all of it in his voice. The fact that Jonghyun wrote song for international Shawols with the thought that we’re always so far away from them. Like I said, I always dreamed of seeing Shinee but that never seemed that something that could really happen. It was a dream. They always felt out of my reach. And hearing him sing those lyrics I always identified with in person, with such soul? It sound so sappy to say this, but it was the moment I realized my dream came true. It really touched my heart.

Gosh there’s so much to talk about. The fans were great too!

I met a fan named Amber, and she took me and my friend to the concert and around the Korea town in Dallas. LOVE her! Super sweet. She made my trip tbh. By the end of it I couldn’t believe we’d just met I felt so comfortable with her. Shawols are really the best. Were so friendly! I live for interactions like that.

The energy of the crowd was honestly the best thing. You could hear everyone singing before the concert started and the intro of the song. I really felt like I was a part of something so great! Everyone I meet, in line before the concert and sitting next to me were so sweet and so excited. During Ready or Not and Savior everyone was so happy jumping and singing along. Whenever Minho would wave his hands and give us direction to swing our fanlight the stadium looked like a beautiful sea of aqua. 

The best and worst part was the end. I always wanted to be in the confetti pit of a concert and it blew my mind when it all started raining down during An Encore. A girl next to me said it looked like a confetti crown in my hair lol. But then it was over! Seeing them disappear behind that curtain was so heartbreaking. I didn’t want any of it to end.

I usually get post concert depression but I’ve been smiling ever since I left the theater. It was such an honor to be able to sing with Shinee and watch them preform. I’m just so grateful to have had to opportunity to see them.

Long story short, I love Shinee. lol. The love I had for them multiplied a thousand times over now that I’ve seen them live.

All I can say is I just feel so, so very blessed and I love them with all my heart.♡

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It’s been what, two weeks? One week?

A surprising amount has happened since my last post, idk where to start. So much has been on my mind as well

Last I had said was my last time I saw J I think, which was last Wednesday, the 18th. After that we had just snap chatted for a while. This past Friday I actually had another date with a guy I met on Tinder that I’ll call G, he was a close call to J. So I had told him on Thursday the night before I was going to meet him up in Easton that I was already also talking to another guy. I just wanted to be honest with him because I didn't want to just lead him on and then disappear after the date if it went south. He said that he respected my honesty and that not many guys would do that. So all in all Friday came and we met in Easton at Barnes and Noble. He’s really cute actually, a bit cuter than J but I wasn’t going off that I was going off personality. We ended up spending quite some time at Barnes and Noble talking about comics and books we’ve read and a few other random things. After that we went to get some food at Chipotle and sat outside and talked. We had talked for hours really until it got dark. We got along really well actually, we had so much in common. Books, the way we thought about things, movies and video games. He was like a walking meme too it was fun. But I just didn't feel a spark. Im not sure why I didn’t. Was it because I was already so invested with J? I had been talking to J for about a week longer than G but like I said J was a little more aggressive. G seemed like me, he was softer, gentler and passionate. After we finished talking I had drove him home since he went to college at OSU in Columbus, I didn't want him to have to take the bus home that would’ve taken forever when I could just drive him. I dropped him off and that was the night. I went back home and we said goodnight on snapchat and that was that. The next afternoon he was asking if I had made a decision between him or J and I had chose J because like I said, I for some reason just didn't feel a spark with G. Idk why. I said Id still like to be friends of course because I mean he’s a pretty cool dude, I like him. But since then we’ve talked a little less which I mean is understandable as well. We keep our streak going and make a little talk but thats about it. I hope he’s doing well, I saw today that he had unmatched me on Tinder.

That day though, Saturday I had managed to finally pay off 5,000 that I had owed my college that I went to out in Portland Oregon. I am so so so relieved now, Ive been working so much since this past June to pay off that debt because since I owed them 5,000 they wouldn’t release my transcript which meant i couldn't apply to transfer to a college back here. But now that its paid off I can set all that up this week because I believe my deadline to apply for spring classes is the 30th of this month. 

After that day, I had picked up a shift on Sunday because my friend C was actually going up to Cleveland to see a guy HE’S been talking to on Tinder as well so that was fun. I worked Sunday, C got back that afternoon, he said it was an really good time. The guy he is talking to is 23, a musician and finishing his masters in Cleveland. They fit together really well he had said. Im glad, C had never really had a relationship before and I hope this goes well for him. He hasn't had the best of luck with guys or girls really in the past. Just a lot of hookups, which I guess works for him, whatever floats his boat. Im glad he's met someone though. But so I picked up his shift on Sunday, gone to the Band Competition back in my hometown because two of my friends were helping set up for their high school band who were preforming at my high school. So I got to go around see a bunch of my old friends again which was so nice. Ive missed seeing all them in high school and that. After the band perfomance we had a work meeting that night at the bowling alley downtown, then I left and went back up to Columbus to see J. He had really been wanting to see me, and I had missed him a bit. 

So I got up there about 9, we got in bed and played on our laptops until about 3am. We had talked the week before to go to the botanical gardens the next day, possibly head out to Easton and go to one of his coworkers house for a cookout. Well none of that happened because I didn't sleep well that night so I woke up about noon but I didn't want to wake him up yet because I wanted to let him sleep. Plus whenever I say with a friend or anyone and I wake up first I feel terrible because I feel bad waking the other person up. What if they’re not ready to wake up? What if they didn’t sleep well either? What if they are a heavy sleeper and don’t wake up? Will they be grumpy when I wake them up? Will they actually be awake when I wake them up or will it take then another half hour to actually get out of bed? But so I didn't end up waking J up until about 3pm which of course he didn't like because we didn't end up having time to do anything. We had gotten a shower together, gone out to town because he was hungry and also wanted to return this game he had gotten. Well we get out to town, he began to get annoyed because he couldn't make up his mind one which game to trade it in for then didn’t know where he wanted to eat. I felt back because he was getting so annoyed at himself and it was my fault because I should've waken him up earlier so we had time to do stuff. Because also that day I had to go down to Athens at 7 because I was signing a least for a house with C, and another one of my friends we’ll call Jo. So J took us back to his apartment I grabbed my stuff and left for Athens, signed the lease, came back up to Columbus, went to the cookout with J, met some of his coworkers, they were fun. I felt a little out of place because of how young I was. Everyone else was over 21 and some were married couples with kids. It was still a good time, I had a few jello shots which I was a little disappointed they didn't get me anywhere even buzzed. But we had left about 2 hours in, got home about midnight and I watched J play Fallout 4 until about 2am, we had drank a little back at his place too but I still didn't even get tipsy. When I drink I drink to get drunk, because when Im drunk the most that happens is I get a little off balanced. I can still talk and think straight its just my center of gravity is a bit off and it makes things fun to me. But so we had gone to bed then. I got up today about 9am, we took a shower and I left and went straight to work.

So much has happened this past weekend, so many good things as well. Nothing ever usually goes this well for me. Me and C felt the same way and were joking that something is just gonna come crashing down on us, because life has never been so nice, me him and Jo are all talking to someone, we got a house, I paid off college. Everything is just going to smoothly. Part of me like I said is waiting, something is going to happen I'm afraid. Something bad but I don’t know what or when. But part of me is also thinking you know what if this is it? Have I finally got my life on track? After years of struggle and trial have I got things going the right way? But what do I do about J? I still have this feeling with him. Am I just enjoying the romantic attention and dealing with his aggressiveness for the sake of the romantic attention? Could I do better? Am I just holding onto him until I make it down to Athens? I just still have so many doubts about things