#and then my eyes try to overwork to fix the problem which leads to pain and

[sapinelle]

my vision therapist gave me some syntonic blue lens glasses and they’re supposed to help with relaxing the eye 👁️ by blocking out certain wavelengths and reducing red blood cell activity and at first I was sceptical but it actually helps and calms my anxiety too

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

This is a little out of the blue, but I'm curious if you have any headcanons about Ingo and Emmet's general state of health when he returns to Unova. I've started reading pla fics again and reunions tend to vary wildly, including if Ingo and/or Emmet have any health issues or not. Being kind of a fandom hermit, you tend to stray from the norm (in a good way! I find it very refreshing and insightful), so I thought it'd be interesting to see if you've ever given it some thought.

ACTUALLY IT REALLY DEPENDS ON THE SPECIFIC SCENARIO hskhssh but yes i have. given it Thought

i think in general ingo's sort of let his standard of self care slip in hisui bc he just... doesn't. care i mean. he's not really consistent about things like sleeping and eating, out of a combination of like... brain static and indifference. like half the time the feeling of "wow i am exhausted and my arms hurt from climbing" doesn't even make it to consciousness, and then half the remaining time he doesn't care enough to act on it. i think there's also a sort of disconnect/reluctance around meals specifically which i've like. vaguely nodded at in one or two things i think? but he has a hard time like, Sitting Down For A Meal, bc he always feels like he should be waiting for something. someone? whatever it is, it's like a kind of exec dysfunction-adjacent fuzz that makes it hard for him to like, commit to eating, so half the time the food will be cold and unappetizing by the time he manages to will himself through whateverthehell that block is anyway.

also if you like, having a human body, and radically switch up the level and type of your physical activity without any real lead-in or instruction, that's uh, not safe generally. so i feel like there are probably some stress injuries hanging around that he's just been ignoring bc sadly hisui doesn't really. do physical therapists. so i guess the tl;dr is his state is generally Bad but in sort of a lowkey way. this is not mentioning the brain stuff bc that's Definitely there but it's not really related to like, physical health

meanwhile if we are talking abt an emmet who has been in unova aware that his brother is just Gone the entire time (as opposed to one who was like, also caught in the distortion, or anything) i think he's physically fine but he's just been like. a robot. he takes fine care of himself and doesn't overwork himself to a point that anyone can call him out on, bc those things would make other people complain and be a pain in the ass and he's trying Not to make any more work for himself, but it's all like, entirely mechanical. there is zero life behind his eyes. there might be some like stress based health issues but i think he's been trying to actively counter them, under the assumption of like, he's continuing to believe that Eventually ingo will come back. and if when he does come back emmet's a wreck and gear station's in total disarray well that'll just be a whole thing on top of whatever circumstances surround his return. can't have that. gotta keep everything neat and orderly. including himself.

though semi relatedly but on the topic of like, injuries, i think if he got into a situation that was actually life threatening or whatever he would not. give a shit. he's already maxed out on things to worry about just by like existing day to day, go ahead and shoot him, that's fine, c'est la vie or whatever they say in kalos. it's actually a similar problem to ingo's general indifference but caused by almost the opposite underlying thing (Too Much going on internally instead of too little). not that i think he's routinely getting into life-threatening scenarios but like, it IS pokemon, evil teams grow like weeds over there, so who knows really. that could be a fun postcanon to explore actually, if ingo gets back memories included but in the meantime emmet's gone and decided to fight [insert bad guy here] bc they were Being A Problem so he decided to fix it and did not have the bandwidth to be impressed by any threats they threw at him. gce but in reverse kinda

this is getting long i hope any of this makes sense it's. late. i guess the last thing i would leave off on, which is kind of another tangent, is i think the one thing both of them DO have going, in terms of self maintenance, is that they both have teams! very well trained and closely bonded ones! who simply Will Not Let Them get that bad. they all Care obviously but i think chandelure and kadabra/alakazam specifically are like, trained emotional support pokemon, if maybe not like, technically service ones. but they've got like, psychic as a pressure source and to pick things up, hypnosis as a bandaid for insomnia, etc etc and also they're among the smartest of the teams in terms of human intelligence. chandelure has a very close bond with both of them and they've worked out a system over decades so it's perfectly suited to emmet. meanwhile kadabra has simply self adopted the role kind of begrudgingly after ingo gave it a vague half-remembered instruction in the concept cause otherwise its trainer will like, starve or something, which would be Annoying, cause it likes this setup. it gets soup. it will do whatever is necessary to ensure regular soup opportunities in its future.

[mochiyoonfi]

Our Utopia

Synopsis: Y/n is an Idol Trainee under the same company as her big brother- Kim Namjoon. But there’s more to her than her angelic voice.

Universe: idol!bts, idol!reader, reader is Namjoon's sister.

Warnings: Angst, mentions of drug abuse/addiction, mentions of suicidal thoughts, depression, abuse, sexual assault, violence.

A/N: This is a request! Requested by @deereadeer​ Sorry this took so long!

~ (reader discretion is recommended) ~

Betraying the darkest parts of your heart to strangers was definitely something you wouldn’t recommend. Heart in your throat, you looked across at the judges. The founder of the company had his eyebrow raised, as if asking if you were going to do anything.

Taking a deep breath, you summoned every ounce of your courage and opened your mouth.

As you begin to sing, you feel everyone’s eyes fixed on you. You don’t pay attention to that, only to the thumping feeling of your racing heart.

You close your eyes, putting all the emotion you can manage without breaking down, into your voice.

Suddenly the room around you faded, you saw your darkest fears, the ones you could never talk to someone about. Your worst memories.

Walking through the lush park that you could no longer stomach to see, the gentle air playing with locks of your hair. The three men, strangers to you, who now haunted your nightmares regardless, had come out of nowhere, the darkness around them betraying the darkness of their hearts. And when it was over, they slunk back to nowhere.

You had only been two blocks away from your house.

You were almost home.

But you weren’t.

The frightful attack was just the start of your mentally declining slope. Drugs, alcohol. They became your only comforts. The only thing helping you cope. The shame surrounding your use of them was apparent to only you. No one else knew of your pain. Not even your best friends.

The real saving light to your turmoil came, maybe not when you desperately wanted it to, but it came nonetheless.

Your parents.

Of course you knew that your trusting, caring parents would have never imagined the spiral you had fallen into.

But they tried their best to comfort you regardless. You saw the shame in their eyes though, they couldn’t hide that. Their shame didn’t change the fact they loved you.

You knew that they loved you.

So when they told you to go to rehab, you went willingly. They had to know what was best for you. Because you sure as hell didn’t.

Your eyes slowly trailed up to the judges, resisting the urge to wipe your eyes, unsure of if there were even tears in them.

The judges all had straight faces. For a second your heart sunk.

Maybe you just weren’t good enough.

Was your best not good enough?

The female judge was the first to crack. She turned away and her shoulders began shaking, her hands shooting up to her face. Sobs were torn from her mouth, none too quietly.

The CEO, Bang Shi Hyuk or better known as PD Nim, wasn’t crying or staring almost blankly at you. He was smiling.

“Thank you for auditioning, we’ll get back to you if you’ve made it through.” He stated, voice a little quieter than normal. “You remind me of someone.”

You blinked.

He sighed, realising that you wanted to know who he meant. “You remind me of RM, from BTS. You both speak well and have heartfelt lyrics.”

It was your turn to smile, a sense of pride washing over you. “He’s my brother.”

The judges gasped quietly, the crying woman’s eyes widening. “Why didn’t you tell us beforehand? We would’ve marked you better!”

You shuffled on your feet, fingers playing with each other. “Well…I guess… I..”

“I think Kim Y/n means that she didn’t want to use her brother to make it through the auditions.” Bang Shi Hyuk said, smiling kindly at you.

You nodded vigorously. “Yeah. I want to do it for myself. Not cheat my way through…”

The woman stood up, face contorted somewhere between disbelief and anger. “What if you don’t make it through? Wouldn’t that be worse on your reputation? It wouldn’t even be cheating, it would just be an advantage!”

“I want to do this myself. I’m sure I can.”

Bang Shi Hyuk nodded. “We have your details and contact information. The period of call backs is one to two weeks. Thank you. Goodbye.”

-✥-

“Namjoon’s really good at rapping.”

You were lying on the floor of the practice room at Big Hit Entertainment with five other girls. Not just any girls. These girls were insanely talented— and also the only female idol trainees signed under the same company as the Kpop sensation, BTS, the band your brother was in. You six girls were kind of special in that sense.

“Yeah I know.” You replied, not trying to hide the pride in your voice.

“How come you aren’t good at rapping then?” Aiko asked, her dark eyes fixated on the tv mounted on the wall. You rolled your eyes when you saw that her eyes were solely on your brother. You still weren’t used to the whole ‘worldwide famous brother’ thing.

“Just because my brother is a good rapper doesn’t mean I am too.”

Heeyoung laughed. “Yeah but how can you not even drop a beat?”

Heeyoung was the main rapper in the group, so you weren’t surprised to hear this from her.

“I’m a singer, not a rapper.” You replied.

Ji-Eun smiled softly. Her smile was a welcoming thing to you. She normally was quiet, didn’t smile much and wasn’t very opinionated— a real peacekeeper. When she spoke, she spoke with pure honesty. You had never seen her lie before, at least, not successfully.

“You’re the best singer I’ve ever heard. Better than all those professional singers out there.”

You went red. “J-Ji! You can’t say that!”

Aiko shook her head. “No, she’s right. You’re a real natural talent. Probably even better than Jungkook.”

Your eyes widened. “J-Jungkook? He’s a senior to us! You can’t insult him like that!”

“Y/n, it’s a compliment to you.” Aiko scoffed, no malice in her voice.

“B-but-!”

A tinkling laugh filled the room and you turned to the source. The lead dancer of your group was grinning up from her phone. “Y/n, you really can’t accept compliments can you?”

“I can accept compliments just fine Luna.” You pouted.

Luna shrugged. “Maybe. Maybe just not in front of us.”

“Baram has no problem accepting compliments. I guess she should do our acceptance speeches.” Aiko stated.

Baram looked up from her phones. Baram smirked instantly. “No, that won’t work. Our modest leader shall accept everything.”

“Accept what?” Luna laughed. “We haven’t even debuted yet!”

Aiko jumped up, thrusting her fist into the air. “Yeah, but I know we’ll do well! Just like BTS! Just like TXT!”

“Yeah but BTS is mainly vocalists. We have two vocals.”

Everyone’s eyes drifted to Baram. She was a known overthinker. Ji-Eun quickly came to the rescue though. “Doesn’t matter. We’ve got some of the best dancers I’ve ever known! We’ll rock the industry to their core.”

You grinned. If anyone could energise your group, it was definitely Ji-Eun. “On three! UT-Opia!”

“UT-Opia!”

-✥-

You sat down in your dormitory, ignoring the fact that Aiko was sleeping, quite loudly, in your own bed. You rolled your eyes, throwing a blanket over her and turning on your camera.

You smiled warmly into the camera. “Welcome back, Blisses! I’m Y/n, the leader and main singer of UT-Opia! Today I’ll be talking about the song writing process! First I think of what the song will be about. Normally two themes: Love or sadness. I’m feeling pretty happy right now, so I’ll write about love.”

You talked for maybe five minutes before signing off and turning off the camera. You sighed in relief. Now all you had to do was your afternoon workout, and you would be done for the day.

Aiko stirred from under the blanket. “Oh. Hey Y/n.”

Walking over to her, you smiled lovingly. As much as you loved all the girls equally, you had a soft spot for the maknae, Aiko.

“Hey Aiko.”

She looked over at where your camera was set up, sheets of music and note paper discarded messily. Her brow creased. “Were you filming a daily vlog?”

You nodded.

“Don’t overwork yourself.” She warned.

You laughed unintentionally at this. Here she was, so exhausted from her daily life that she had collapsed into your bed, and slept for who knows how long. And she was telling you to take a break.

“I’m fine Aiko. You, however, look tired. Please sleep well. I’ll wake you when we need to practice.”

Her head immediately fell into the blanket again. “Thanks Y/n.”

You shared a room with Ji-Eun, which you never used. Really, it was more a gesture than anything useful.

You carefully pried open the front door to your actual dorm, being as silent as possible.

“Y/n! You’re back!”

Your brother greeted you with a hug and you couldn’t help but fall into his warm embrace. He smiled at you.

“Where were you? I hope you weren’t practicing all day..”

You grinned and pulled him into another quick hug. “No more than I need to.”

Namjoon sighed. He rustled his short blue hair and eyed your own dyed hair. “Honestly, at this point do we even look like siblings?”

“The price of fame.” You quipped. He laughed slightly.

“The price of keeping your fans happy.”

You turned to him, setting down the cup of coffee you had just begun to make. You studied him with care, studying him for any of his normal nervous habits. But no, he was standing calm and still.

“Don’t you enjoy making your fans happy anymore?”

He looked up from his own cup. He shook his head. “I do. I love making them happy. In fact, they make me happy.”

“I wonder if I’ll be as happy.”

The words came out without any intention to. Your thoughts had somehow managed to scramble themselves and now your older brother was looking at you, bright eyes unable to mask their sympathy.

“I’m sure you’ll be just as successful—if not more. And I’ll always make sure you’re happy.”

You sucked in a breath. “Always?”

“When have I ever not been here for you?”

You didn’t answer his question, knowing if you lied he may be able to tell, somehow. Instead you just nodded, smiled slightly awkwardly.

A gush of breeze raced past you, so fast you couldn’t even see what it was. Well, not really. As sneaky as Taehyung thought himself, the young man from your brother's group was actually not very good at unnoticed movements. In fact it had only taken two days of living with him to know his lying habits, exactly how fake his smile was, and what he did when he was tired. A lot of the time, it was the latter. He never seemed to get a full night's sleep. Often he would knock on your door and you would get out of bed and follow him out onto the deck. Together you would sit in silence, just gazing at the stars.

“Y/n! You hard worker! I’m glad you’re back!”

You smiled at the younger man and brought him in to you for a brief hug. “Ah, I should be saying that to you guys. Promoting a new album is making your schedules busy, eh?”

Namjoon sighed loudly. “It’s hard.” He saw your slightly disappointed face and hurried to correct himself. “It’s always worth it though.”

“Mm. I’ll wait until I see the worth.”

You breath hitched. Min Yoongi, the second oldest in your brothers group, had entered the room. He scratched his neck slowly, eyes trailing to each person's present face. He looked away before he got to you though.

“Oh Yoongi give her some hope.” Taehyung complained.

Yoongi shrugged. “It’s true. I’m just tired right now. Where’s the cereal?”

“Grandpa, it’s 10 at night.” Namjoon groaned.

Yoongi’s upper lip curled downwards in something that resembled disgust. “What’s wrong with cereal at night?” His frown deepened. “And don’t call me grandpa.”

Namjoon rolled his eyes. “Whatever. How’s your practice going anyway?”

Realising this was directed at you, you looked up into your brothers strong eyes. “I think we’re pretty good! Almost as good as you guys!” You teased.

Namjoon laughed. “I wouldn’t be surprised. You girls are very talented. All we have really is years of work and a massive fan base backing our every move.”

Your eyebrows fell. “We haven’t even debuted yet. Of course we aren’t that successful.”

“You guys still do daily vlogs right?” Taehyung asked.

“Yeah Y/n did one this morning.”

Turning to Yoongi, your heart caught slightly. “D-did you watch it?”

He nodded. “It was good. I like the way you write your music. It’s very deep.”

Your heart began pounding, not because of the butterflies catching at the fact that he had been watching you, but now because he had seen you so invested in your music. It almost felt as if you were ripping out pages of a diary you had kept for years and giving it to him to read through.

“Too bad you didn’t do any singing though.”

“I haven’t heard you sing— really sing, I’m so long Y/n.” Namjoon jumped in. “Do you think you could sing for me at some point.”

“Me too!” Taehyung jumped in, reminding you that he was still there.

“Maybe later?” You squeaked.

Namjoon’s eyes narrowed. “That’s fine. I think you should go to bed.”

You sighed. Of course Namjoon had noticed the sleep bags under your eyes. He was too perceptible for his own good sometimes.

“I will. I just need to talk with Jungkook first.”

The three boys nodded. It had become a regular thing, you talking to each of the boys in private every few days. They just assumed that it was for some type of mentoring purposes, as the things you asked about were always vague. But your conversations always turned to a more emotional route.

Because you weren’t there only for their tutoring and mentoring.

-✥-

“Jungkook sunbae?”

“Come in.”

You slowly opened his door, walking in quietly. He was slouched on the floor against his wall, phone in hand. He looked up at you and grinned.

“Hey Y/n. Nice to see you. And for the hundredth time, just call me Jungkook. You’re older than me for goodness sake.”

You laughed, sliding down next to him. “But you have so much more experience than me. It doesn’t feel right addressing you so casually.”

“You’ve been living here for two whole years now. I think we’re pretty good friends at this point.”

“You guys have really blown up over two years.”

He turned off his phone, throwing it and landing it perfectly onto his bed. “And you guys have gotten a lot better at dancing— which to be honest, is astounding seeing how good you were to start with.”

“And your mental health has gotten so much better.”

“It’s only thanks to you.”

You smiled. “I’m glad I can do anything to help you. You didn’t need much helping really, just a gentle push in the right direction. You’ve been strong since I’ve known you.”

“You as well.” Jungkook responded earnestly. “You were really reluctant to move in with us at first.”

A laugh filled the room. “Well you should expect that— A 23 year old moving in with a bunch of men.”

Jungkook shrugged. “I moved in with a bunch of teenagers and young men when I was only young. I guess I had very different experiences to other people.” He looked down at the tattoos running all along the skin of his hands. The word ‘ARMY’ spelt out of his group members' names. “I guess some of those experiences were good though.”

A warm smile washed over your face, lighting up your eyes.

Jungkook was right.

Some experiences were different— and they weren’t all enjoyable.

But some of them were good.

“I’m really glad I came here. Even if I didn’t really want to at first. I’ve learnt so much from you guys. I think I’ve grown a lot more too.”

Jungkook chuckled, ready to poke fun at you after your shared emotional moment. “I hope you don’t mean in height, because that certainly isn’t true.”

You rolled your eyes, shoving him slightly as you got up.

He looked slightly crestfallen as you began to exit his room. “Wait I didn’t mean to offend you!”

You giggled. “And you didn’t. I just need to go to bed. I’m tired, Kook.”

A bright grin washed over his face, white teeth popping out in a bunny like expression. “You called me Kook!”

You paused in his doorway. “No..”

Bolting towards, and before you could react he had his arms wrapped around you tightly.

This felt sickeningly similar.

The feeling of being deprived of air.

The world turned to pure black.

“Y/n?”

You blinked.

Right. That was just your memories. This was the present.

And there was no reason for you to be afraid.

Grabbing at Jungkook’s back you found your chin resting on his shoulder. He fidgeted, clearly surprised that you had returned his gesture.

“Yeah I called you Kook. Goodnight, Jungkook. Sleep well.”

He pulled back, even though you were his noona, a few years older than him even, he still stood a large majority taller than yourself. He leant down to press a light kiss onto your forehead. A brotherly action.

You pulled him into another hug quickly before running out of his room, trying in vain to hide your beaming face.

-✥-

“They’re coming over here? Them!” Aiko squealed, not even trying to conceal her inner fangirl.

“Yeah. And one of ‘them’ is my older brother.” You eyed up Aiko’s bouncy stage. “Don’t make it weird.”

Aiko huffed, placing her hands onto her hips, staring at you with a sassy pout. “I've never made things weird.”

Luna jumped up, feeding off Aiko’s overexcited energy. “We can introduce ourselves as a group right? That’ll be so cool! Using our stage names too!”

“You don’t even have a stage name.” Heeyoung pointed out.

Luna thrust a hand at herself dramatically. “My name is so beautiful I need no stage name.”

“Girls! Get ready, they’ve just arrived.” Your manager said offhandedly, obviously not grasping the weight of the rest of your group getting to perform in front of the most famous band in the world.

You all jumped up, standing in a line in front of the door, a few metres back so as to not scare the poor boys.

The door clicked open and a bodyguard stepped inside. He looked around, then stepping forwards and aside, he cleared the way for the tall man behind him to enter.

Your brother smiled softly at you as the rest of the group filed inside slowly. You could hear Aiko practically buzzing when Jimin stepped inside.

“2! 3! Bangtan. Hello, we’re BTS!”

“We know.” Ji-Eun muttered and you had to bite your tongue to suppress a laugh.

You stepped forward, taking in a breath. “Hello! We are UT-Opia!”

At the end for UT-Opia, the other girls joined in so it came out as a chorus.

Your manager waved his hand as if this wasn’t necessary at all. It probably wasn’t, but it made you feel professional.

“Introduce yourselves girls. I’m sure the boys don’t need to.”

Ji-Eun raised her hand. “Manager, I’m sure I’ve told you, I don’t know BTS well at all.”

You giggled. Ji-Eun was ever blunt and honest. Your manager didn’t see this as a virtue though, and hung his face in his hands.

“It’s fine. Hi! I’m RM, rapper and leader of BTS.”

The following six members introduced themselves, to which Ji-Eun noticeably didn’t pay much attention to. Realising it was finally your turn, you took a deep breath, mustering your fleeting courage.

“I’m Y/n of UT-Opia. I'm the main vocalist and the leader.”

“I’m K.” Ji-Eun tried dismally to put any emotion into saying her stage name. “I'm the lead rapper and the oldest.”

“Hey! I’m Luna, lead dancer!” Luna accentuated the words ‘lead dancer’ with a flip of her dyed blonde hair.

“I’m Gem and I’m a main dancer.” Baram looked almost starstruck to be talking to BTS. She was normally overly confident and self certain, but right now she looked quite awed.

“I’m Cinnamon, it’s a stage name do not worry, and I’m a main dancer but I prefer the title of-”

Manager tapped his watch. Heeyoung smiled sympathetically at him, but regardless continued her speech. “I’m main dancer but I prefer the title of main rapper.” She looked down at her purple button up shirt and dark tracksuits that somehow looked fashionable. “I’m not as good at dancing as I am at styling.”

You could’ve sworn you heard Manager groan at her final wordings.

“I’m Aiko. I’m the youngest and I’m a sub vocal and also a dancer and sub rapper!”

Manager breathed a sigh of relief. “Thank goodness that’s over. Girls do you have a song you could perform, you know, to show what you can do? The boys can give some pointers or something.”

He looked down hurriedly at his watch. “I’m late to a meeting. Thank you BTS for coming. Please take care of them.”

As soon as the uptight man rushed from the room, Yoongi dropped onto the ground along with Jimin, and on the other end of the room, Heeyoung.

“Let’s get rid of the formalities, alright?” Yoongi asked.

You nodded. “Ji-Eun, their names are Namjoon, Seokjin, Hoseok, Yoongi, Taehyung and Jungkook, alright?”

She frowned. “I would’ve addressed them by their hair colours if I didn’t know.”

“But unnie-” You began.

Hoseok cut you off with a laugh. “Sorry Y/n for interrupting. Just K has such a lack of care. It’s quite honestly refreshing when everyone treats you like kings of some kind.”

“My name isn’t actually K.” Ji-Eun pointed out. “It’s Ji-Eun. Call me Ji.”

“I’m Baram.” Gem added.

You noticed the boy's eyes trail to Heeyoung. She didn’t comply.

“I’m just Cinnamon. It’s my birth name.”

“Her name is Heeyoung.” You said, grinning at her.

She rolled her eyes. “And the air of mystery is gone.”

“So what are you guys gonna perform?” Yoongi asked, eager to hear you sing.

You fiddled with your fingers. “We’re a mainly dance focused group, should we dance?”

“I want to hear you sing though.” Yoongi replied, not enforcing, but softly so he sounded as if he were reassuring you.

“Well.. I-” You begun.

Heeyoung leapt to her feet. “Well? Cmon! Let’s do that song!”

“Heeyoung and Aiko dragged you to your feet. “It’s a good song too!”

“I dunno.” You whispered.

Ji-Eun looked deep into your eyes. “There’s no harm in trying.”

And with that, you were in the middle of the room, a microphone in hand and the rest of your group spread around you.

Aiko pressed the player, turning on a quiet piano track you could remember sitting down and playing to record. It had been emotional by yourself, how would it be with people with you?

You took a deep breath.

No harm in trying.

Focusing on your voice instead of their reactions, you closed your eyes. As the words to your song left your lips, your mind wasn’t in the practice room. You were racing through all your bad memories.

And there was a light at the end of the foggy tunnel of pain.

A way out.

The last time Namjoon had heard you sing was before he went to audition for Bighit Entertainment. A long time ago. You had been just goofing around with him, he was rapping to the song and you were singing. He had showered you with compliments over your voice after that.

Would he still like your voice?

Your eyelids fluttered open. Ji-Eun, Heeyoung, Aiko and Baram were all moving rhythmically around you, moving with the music. Luna was dancing beside you in a smooth flowing form of actions. It wasn’t the normal hip hop or pop dancing she normally did. This was a more sorrow filled format. Her movements were lucid. She noticed you watching and made her way over to you. Her palm drew across your face, sliding your eyelids shut.

Only when you felt the moisture on her palm slide across your face did you realise you were crying. So much emotion was being poured into your voice that you hadn’t kept a tight enough lid on how you were acting physically.

You didn’t make the motion to wipe off your tears though.

The tears, the pain— they were part of your song.

Part of your life.

As the song drew to a close, your eyes opened again to see the astounded faces of the members of BTS. Yoongi’s eyes were wide and it seemed as if there was a slight sheen to them, a small amount of moisture. Hoseok, Jimin and Jin all looked amazed, and slightly guilty that you were crying. Jungkook and Taehyung were both blinking back tears. They had needed you a lot more than the others in your years of helping them with their mental health and hated seeing you upset.

The boys all had the same look of adoration and amazement plastered onto their faces. They were blown away by your voice, your emotion. By you.

Your brother was astounded though. A wave of emotions seemed to be rippling through his expressions all at once. It was a relief to hear your sweet voice once again, lifting and filling up the room as you sing your heart out. Pride overwhelmed him.

He was proud of you, of your voice. Of your emotions.

You fetched some drink bottles and took the chance to dry your eyes, handing a bottle to each member of your group.

“That was a really good song.” Yoongi noted. “The piano was superb as well. The lyrics.. they were really deep and heartfelt.

Aiko smiled. “That’s our Y/n writing and playing that song!”

Namjoon blinked slowly. “You wrote that song?”

“Y-yeah.” You gulped. Maybe he didn’t like it after all. “It’s not very good but-“

“Are you kidding me?” Namjoon yelped. “It was so good! The lyrics were so deep as Yoongi said! I can’t believe you’re such a good writer!”

You flushed a shade of crimson. “I-I-I thank you.”

“What is…” Yoongi’s voice trailed off. He peered at the moisture still in your reddened eyes. “Never mind.”

You flashed an okay-then smile at him and turned back to listen to how Hoseok and Jimin were critiquing their dancing— even though they would be the first to admit there was hardly anything to criticize. Jungkook began talking to you about some singing tips and you immersed yourself back into real life again. Pulling your mind out of your over active imagination.

-✥-

A nock came on your door when it was already late at night. In fact, if you stuck to your schedule you would already be in bed. But you found yourself sitting in your room, writing out lyrics to a song that you didn’t even need to write. You slowly opened the door, shutting off your light first so it looked as if you were about to go to bed, and not ignoring your schedule.

“Sorry Y/n. I know it’s a bit late.”

Yoongi stood in the hallway, shifting awkwardly, his eyes in contrast shon with a determination.

You felt your stomach fill with butterflies and you tried to quench the feeling. “No, it’s fine. What’s wrong?”

“Nothings wrong. I just...I wanted to ask a question.”

“Fire away.”

He shook his head slightly. “Well it’s not just a casual question. And I want to make sure I’m not invading your privacy. But it’s about the song you sung earlier.”

You felt your heart drop, blood running cold while simultaneously goosebumps spiked onto your skin.

“You seemed very emotional.. not even seemed. You cried and I really want to know why. I just feel that if I wait any longer to ask you, it’ll be too late. Now feels like the right time.”

Sighing, you knew he was right. You couldn’t hide your demons forever. Even though you had talked to your therapist a bit about the incident, you had never gone into depth about it with your parents. You had never even told Namjoon. Your brother had no idea that it had happened.

And it was time that he knew.

“Can you go get Namjoon? I’m not ready to tell the others yet.”

You were really close to Yoongi, the time that you had spent in their housing really grew you close to him. He had picked up on your main reason for being there almost the third time you had talked to him. He didn't mind that you were partially there just to help their mental health.

When you first moved in he hadn’t been at his best, stressed over the band’s popularity and success. His OCD was worse than ever.

More upset than the others, you were eager to help him get back on his feet. At first however, Yoongi was cold to you. He didn’t think he needed your help. He could fix it himself.

And he thought you were stuck up and arrogant to think that you could help him. After all, you were only 25 years old. Who were you to help him?

But slowly and surely with your help, he managed to get a hand on his health. He accepted that you could help him. It came to a time when he was happy to talk to you, and looked forward to it even.

Telling them was hard, but it felt freeing. Like a weight you had been carrying for the past eight years was lifted. As if you had been chained to your trauma and couldn’t get free, and now the locks were opened.

“You were attacked?” Namjoon almost yelled. You shushed him, nodding. Even though Yoongi had told the other boys not to enter the recording studio, you didn’t want to run any risks of them hearing regardless.

“The place is sound proofed Y/n, don’t worry.” Namjoon looked apologetic, as if by yelling he had upset you somehow. “But you were attacked? When was this?!”

“When I was seventeen…”

He immediately let out a cry. “You never told me? I could’ve helped you! Did the person ever get caught? Held accountable?”

You shook your head. “It wasn’t a person… it was three men.”

Namjoon swore loudly. “Multiple people? Attacking a fucking teenager? Who the fuck do they think they are? Who are they Y/n?”

You felt someone’s warm hand slip into yours, giving your own a tight reassuring squeeze. You noticed you were trembling slightly. It wasn’t from Namjoon raising his voice. It was from realising the weight of what had happened to you, that had suddenly come crashing down onto your mind.

You kept your gaze focused on Yoongi’s hand grasping yours, trying not to look at your astonished brother's face.

“I… I don’t know. They.. weren’t found.”

Namjoon let out a loud growl. “So the authorities can’t even do their job and find these degenerates? Fuck them.”

“N-Namjoon they’re trying their best! It’s not their fault…”

A wave of sympathy and guilt washed over his face. “It’s not your fault either Y/n! It’s those stupid bastards fault!”

You held your free hand up to quiet him. “Namjoon, I know it’s not my fault.”

His eyes narrowed, staring deep beyond your skin. “You’re so different Y/n… I shouldn’t have left you. You’ve changed so much from the little girl I left in Ilsan.”

You shook your head. “I changed at first after the attack. When I miscarried my child,”

You heard the boys intake of breath when they heard miscarriage. Namjoon didn’t know that you had been pregnant. YOUR PARENTS DIDN'T KNOW. How could you talk about this without crying? Without breaking down?

It was so hard to think about let alone talk to someone else about. But it was your brother. He had a right to know. And you wanted him to know.

“I-it really changed me. I thought.. maybe I was to blame for my child’s death. After all, I was the mother.. I was meant to take care of my baby. And I didn’t.”

“Y-your child..?” Namjoon whispered.

The present had faded into a fog. It was if you were standing in the dark, pure silence enveloping you. All you could hear was your thoughts, booming louder than you could control.

Your child.

Yoongi softly touched your arm. “Y/n? You were.. pregnant when you were attacked?”

You shook your head slowly. “The attack.. I got pregnant after..”

The words clicked inside Yoongi and Namjoon’s minds, sudden rage boiling through them.

The child you had carried inside you. The innocent victim of ruthless men, who you were just as bad as. It wasn’t the child’s fault. You had decided to keep it after you were found to be pregnant, hoping that you would be able to provide the child a life better than it’s conception.

You found out only months later that due to complications of your physical and mental health sustained after the attack— the poor infant had died before even reaching half term.

You had failed them.

“Y/n.. it’s not your fault.” Yoongi murmured. “You couldn’t stop them from attacking you, you weren’t to know… it’s in no way your fault. It’s so brave that you kept the baby...”

You shook your head, hands coming up to wipe tears from your eyes. “I was the mother! How could I fail my baby? It wasn’t their fault that their father was a c-criminal! It wasn’t their fault that they were conceived from an assault! They were innocent! T-There’s always a way to save someone!”

Namjoon grabbed your hands in his. “Y/n, it isn’t your fault. I’m really sorry you had to go through that, that you still feel guilt. You were so brave to try and give them a life anyway, even if it hurt you. You shouldn’t feel any guilt. It wasn’t your fault. Don’t blame yourself. I love you, Y/n. And I’m here for you.”

You sniffled softly, glad for your brother's presence.

He was right.

You knew that.

You had known that for years. But it took someone else saying that for you to finally realise it was true.

It wasn’t your fault.

“Do you feel alright to continue, Y/n?” Yoongi murmured, an empathetic expression washing over his face. “We can take a break if you want…”

“No.” You smiled slightly, Yoongi’s caring side more than enough to reassure that you were safe. “I’m alright.”

Taking a deep breath, you continued your story. “I-I got addicted to drugs. I was completely off the rails, trying my best to cope with something I couldn’t handle. It was destroying me from the inside out. Eating away at my physical health as well as my mental state. My-... our parents, found out a little while after. I didn’t last that long before they discovered what happened.”

“They knew?” Namjoon cried, his choice cracking. “Why did no one tell me? I should’ve known! I would’ve helped you!”

You shook your head, tears filling your eyes. “You don’t understand Namjoon! If I would’ve told you you would’ve left BTS! You would’ve come back home!”

“Well yes! Of course!” Namjoon replied.

“I couldn't let you give up your dreams for me! I couldn’t be responsible for ruining my brother's life! Not when our parents were already so shocked and upset to hear the news! Mum was always so supportive to both of us! She tried her best to make me happy and comfortable! But it got to the point where they couldn’t handle it anymore.. they sent me to rehab.”

“Rehab?” Yoongi asked, his voice quieter than usual.

You nodded. “It really helped me. The people there were so kind. It took me a while, but I finally recovered.”

Namjoon’s heart had been thumping in his chest for the past ten minutes. He couldn’t bear the thought that anyone had dared to hurt his little sister. By all accounts, to him she was perfect. He couldn’t fathom why anyone would want to hurt her.

“I should’ve been there for you! I’m your older brother and I didn’t even get to support you! I didn’t get the chance.”

You felt your heart shaking within you. “N-Namjoon? I have to tell you something else too.”

Namjoon and Yoongi looked at you, nervous for whatever you were going to say. You took a deep, shaky breath.

“You know the people you were in a rap group with back at Ilsan?”

Namjoon’s heart stopped.

“T-they were the ones who attacked me.”

Anger flared inside Namjoon’s eyes. “My former friends?! Attacked you?”

You nodded reluctantly.

His head fell into his hands. “I can’t believe this.”

“I’ll kill them.”

You both turned to Yoongi, whose jaw was set in determination. “I’ll kill them.” He repeated, his eyes focused solely on you.

Namjoon quickly jumped in. “Me too. Those sick bastards think they can get away with hurting my sister? I-I-”

“No.” You whispered. “I’m fine.”

“Fine?” Namjoon snapped. “I never knew that you were this hurt! How could you be fine?”

“Rehab really cleared my head.. I finally got a chance to step back and for the first time in possibly years, think about what I wanted.”

“Y/n…”

Yoongi’s soft eyes were focused solely on you, in a way that would normally cause your heart to do somersaults. But not right now. The tension in the room was thick, the atmosphere that of a depressing one.

“You’re a fighter.”

You hadn't expected this response. You had expected some form of criticism, for him to tell you on for subbumcing so easily to the quick way to no pain.

You get your heart squeezing. You had never talked in depth about your feelings to your parents, but right now you would be willing to open your heart to Yoongi.

“You’re one of the strongest people I’ve ever met. Sure, when you first got here I thought you were a snob, someone stuck up and ready to have the world handed to them simply for Namjoon’s achievements.”

Namjoon’s brow creased. “Watch how you talk about my sister hyung-”

“It’s alright.” You reassured him. “I trust his words mean no harm.”

Yoongi nodded instantly. “My views on you quickly changed. You cared for each of us, even if initially it was solely as a favour to Hitman Bang. And we began to care deeply for you. Because no matter what you’ve been through, no matter what tears you’ve shed and for what reasons, you always will mean so much to us. So much more than you can imagine.”

Yoongi wiped a tear from forming on the corner of his eye. He smiled sadly at you, regardless of the simplicity of the gesture, a wave of emotions spread through the one smile, rejuvenating and replenishing your drive, your focus.

“You deserve your happiness.”

You turned to the small voice.

He had spoken so much quieter than you had ever heard him speak before, the raw feelings in his voice transparent. “You deserve to be happy. You’ve been working so hard. You can’t just sacrifice your happiness for the benefit of others. I remember when we were growing up, you used to always make sure that I was okay if anything happened. Y/n, I’m your older brother. It’s okay to rely on me for support sometimes. You need me just as much as I need you. And that’s not a bad thing.”

You couldn’t hold yourself back any longer. You threw yourself against Namjoon’s chest, grabbing his back tightly, clasping him as if you could never let go.

“Y/n…”

You tried in vain to wipe your tears from your eyes, looking up at his strong face.

“It’s okay to cry. You don’t always have to smile. You’re still strong. And I’ll still love you anyway. You’re still my sister.”

You buried your face into his toned chest again. “N-Namjoon..I-I-I love you too.” You sniffled.

He gripped you tightly. “I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for you.”

“It’s not your fault, Namjoon. It’s only their fault. Please don’t feel guilty.”

Pulling away from you, he wiped the tears off your moist cheeks. “Okay Y/n. For you, anything.”

A small cough was interjected into the comfortable silence of the room, reminding you that Yoongi was still there. Both you and your brother turned to him. His eyes were soft and empathetic, as if he didn’t want to spoil the moment, but couldn't wait any longer.

“C-can I please talk to Y/n alone?”

Namjoon considered his hyung. While he didn’t really want to leave his sisters side, he knew that Yoongi wouldn’t ask it he wouldn’t take care of her. Namjoon knew he could trust him.

“Okay.” He relented. “Y/n, I love you. Just say if you need anything.”

On his way out he grabbed Yoongi’s shoulder bringing the older man against him.

“Make sure she’s okay. Don’t you dare hurt her.”

Yoongi nodded. “I wouldn’t dream of it.”

“I was in a dark place once. I wasn’t happy. It felt like the world was against me.”

Now that you were alone with Yoongi, he seemed a lot less cold, and a lot more caring. The off putting gaze he had on accident given you multiple times was replaced with soft eyes that seemed to drip honey.

“I got through it. And I’m heaps weaker than you. I don’t have the mental endurance that you have, nor the fighting spirit. If anyone can overcome this situation— it’s you.”

You wiped your eyes with your hands. It was so reassuring to have someone believe in you. To have someone who was backing you up.

“You know, I can’t believe how strong you are. To be able to recover from that in just years? And with only really your own strength? I really admire it. It’s amazing.”

You blushed slightly. “I didn’t really have much choice.”

He sighed, eyes scanning the door as if someone might burst in any second.

“Y/n… I shouldn’t be saying this. But I can’t hold onto my feelings any longer. I really like you.”

Your heart began racing and you could feel your skin begin to heat up.

Could Yoongi see how nervous you were?

You hoped he couldn’t.

“I-I-”

He grabbed your hand tightly, making your face flush.

“Y/n, you don’t have to answer me right now. I can wait as long as you need. I would wait forever for you.”

“Y-Yoongi I really like you too. I know I’m not always perfect but I-”

Yoongi’s body fell against yours, his arms wrapping around your frame. He stroked your hair slowly, burying his face in your shoulder.

“You don’t have to be perfect. Your flaws make you humans.” He pulled back slightly, playing with your hair as he looked right through you. “I believe you can overcome your flaws. They don’t make you a bad person. They make you you.”

You giggled slightly. It was weird to hear Yoongi so sweet. Normally he stayed away, his face in a resting serious face. You were so happy to see him smile.

“I’m so glad you like me back. I was so worried.”

“Me too…”

He pulled away one last time, his face weighted with a burden that hadn’t been obvious before. Or had you just not noticed.

“Y/n.. I know your past. So I think it’s time you found out mine.”

Your mouth opened slightly, eyes widening.

“Really? You trust me that much?”

He nodded, grinning. Then he frowned again. “Not all of it will be pretty. I-it might shock you a bit.”

You squeezed his hand that was still in yours. He blushed.

“I’m ready.”

[poetic-filth]

Sunrise

Pairings: Tim Drake and Conner

Summary:

Sometimes we need to stop and take a break, there are people who are worried for us, it’s a small luxury to sit and watch the sunrise with the people we care about, but everyone deserves to bask in its beauty”

Author’s note:

Hello, it’s been forver, I missed writing and drawing and this pandemic gave me the opportunity to get back with my art and literature. I’m currently working on new pieces of art and stories.

Here’s one I made last year. I forgot to share it cause I got so busy with work and now everyone is staying at home, I found it again.

Hope you enjoy reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it.

The room was dim and humid, the hazy moonlight infiltrated from the narrow glass window casting a faint illumination in one of the corners of the room. The light was too tenebrous to make out any figure or object in the area it casted its glow upon. Nevertheless it still created a comforting haze of fluorescence.

The sound of clicking keys on the keyboards and purring from the overworked computer engine resonated through the expanse of the room. It has been going on for hours on end all throughout the night. Papers and empty mugs scattered on the desk that it seems to be made out of scraps of paper and coffee stains. Mountains of classified forensic files and newspaper clippings occupied the majority of the space, save for the modest bed in one corner which was currently occupied by a dark haired teenage boy. Files and laptop in hand.

“It’s past midnight. Maybe you should just continue this tomorrow.” The teen looked up from his laptop screen, which casted a blue lit hue on his youthful face, to the other occupant of the room working on the desk across from the bed.

“I can’t waste time Conner, you know that. I am so close to solving this case.” The boy replied not even sparing Conner a glance.

Defeated, Conner just sighed and continued to work on his own research.

A moment later the teen stood up from the desk, empty mug in hand and headed to the door.

“I’m just going to get some coffee” he said walking pass the bed.

“Tim!” Conner called out, which made the said boy come to a halt and peered back at the source over his shoulder. “Let me” Conner continued and walked over to where Tim was standing and grabbed the mug out of his hands.

Tim smiled very faintly but Conner could make it out. The skin around his eyes are swollen and there were dark bags underneath due to the lack of sleep on his blood shot eyes. Concern washed over Conner’s face in an attempt to return the gesture. But he continued out the room to fetch his best friend his coffee, while Tim sat back down in front of his computer and resumed typing away, a very familiar sight.

Once Conner got back from the kitchen, Tim’s coffee in hand. He found Tim staring at his files pinned on the wall with a very perplexed expression.

He proceeded to the desk and placed the coffee down.

“What’s the matter?” Conner asked making his way towards Tim.

“I don’t get it.” Tim huffed out a breath, he ran his fingers through his hair slightly pulling on it, as if doing so will give him the solutions to his problems.

He plucked out the newspaper clipping photo of brother blood and stared at it intently. Conner peeked at the photo Tim was staring at and placed a reassuring hand on his shoulder.

“How come I can’t find leads to his new plan, I pieced each and every evidence I could find together carefully, I double checked the profiles of the people who was kidnapped and I went back to the location of the crime scene for further evidence, still nothing.” Tim said almost in a complaining manner. He has been working on this case for almost a week now and dedicated his days and nights to solving it. He can’t possibly missed a clue or something.

“I’m sure you’ll be able to solve this like you always do” Conner assured from behind him.

Conner walked over back to the bed and sat at the edge, he struggled to keep a yawn, but failed.

Being the second greatest detective that Tim is, he caught the muffled yawn from Conner and turned to face him.

“Rest” he said sternly. “I got this.” His tone softened and the corners of his lips tugged a bit.

“Are you sure? You might need-“

“I’m sure, I’m kinda used to it you know.” Tim cut him off with a chuckle and walked back to his desk and started working on his computer again.

Conner looked at him for a moment worried his best friend is pushing himself too much that he’s hurting himself and neglecting his health. But he knew Tim wouldn’t stop until he found something, he would spend sleepless nights just to solve a case, this, however heartbreaking it is, was pretty normal to Tim and he knows it.

“Ok, goodnight then” Conner said hesitantly. He exited Tim’s room with his head down and headed to his own, much tidier as tidy as it can be for a teenage boy, room.

He felt terrible not being of much help to his friend, if only he could convince him to go easy on himself, if only he cared a little bit about himself, then Conner wouldn’t be sitting in his bed staring at the glowing numbers of his clock, that says 2:30 am, on the nightstand troubled shitless.

However, Conner knew he wouldn’t be able to do anything about it, the bat kids were all stubborn in their own ways, once invested too much in to something there is no reeling them out of it. All he could really do now is get some much needed shut-eye and hope that Tim solves this case as soon as possible so he could get some rest.

 Conner woke up to his stomach growling, he missed dinner last night. He was trying to help Tim that it didn’t occur to him that he hasn’t eaten anything aside from the occasional temptation from Tim to get himself a cup of coffee. He stretched his arms to the other side of his bed as if searching for something, or someone, only to find it empty and cold.

He propped himself up on one elbow while rubbing the sleep off his eyes with his other hand. He looked sleepily at the clock resting on his nightstand with the glowing numbers that says 5:00am, 2 and a half hours, he only slept for 2 and a half hours. As much as he wanted to curl back in bed, his stomach was saying otherwise. He languidly dragged his body to the tower kitchen to fix himself anything to eat, perhaps there was some left over pizza or something, really anything.

When Conner got to the kitchen he was surprised to see the lights on and someone was already there. Who could be up making breakfast at ass-crack in the morning? He thought. He wasn’t surprised when he saw Tim with his back facing him on the counter fixing himself his nth cup of coffee since last night. He looked over his shoulders when he heard Conner came in and continued to fix his coffee

“Conner, you’re up early” Tim said drearily.

“And you’re still up” Conner said emphasizing on the word ‘still’.

Tim didn’t respond and just carried on making his coffee. There was a moment of silence between them, it lasted longer than what Conner wanted.

After his coffee was made Tim, walked passed Conner without as so much as looking at him, to get back to his room. Conner grabbed his arm just as he passed him.

“That’s enough” he said sternly but still laced with concern. “You’re gonna hurt yourself.”

Tim didn’t budge and just sighed.

“Come with me, let’s get some fresh air out-“

“I have work to do” Tim interjected.

“You don’t have a choice” Conner levitated dragging Tim with him in the air by his arm, making him drop his coffee shattering the cup on the floor. “I’ll fix that later” he said almost laughing.

“What the hell are you doing?!?”

“Getting us both some fresh air, sun will be rising soon, lets watch it.” He said adjusting his hold on Tim so he was holding him on the small of his back, instinctively Tim held on his shoulders.

“I don’t think this is a good idea“ Tim tried to convince him to put him back down to no avail.

Conner flew them up on the roof top of the Titans Tower, he always loved it there, he could see the whole city and on the other side he could see the sun from the horizon. He would always go here when he wants time for himself, or when he wants to recharge and just let the sun’s light penetrate his skin, or when he just wanted to relax and see the world he saves from corruption and evil. And now he wanted Tim to see that there is no need to push himself, that it was ok to be human for a little while.

Though that sounded hypocritical since he, himself is not even fully human. But he was here in their world, he is here to stay and he was more than happy to live amongst them, especially with his friends, especially with Tim.

“I don’t have time for this con” Tim said as he landed him.

“Tim, I care for you and I hate seeing you hurt” Conner said still in the air hovering in front of Tim.

“I’m not hurt, I’m fine” Tim said not comprehending what he was trying to say.

“You’re hurting yourself” Conner grounded in front of Tim placing both his hands on his shoulders.

Tim could see through his bloodshot eyes the pain in the young boy’s eyes staring back at him. He saw just how much he cared for him and it made him guilty for worrying him, he didn’t think what he was doing would cause that much concern from Conner.

Despite the troubling feeling in his head, Conner gave Tim what he could say the warmest smile he was ever given, and heads to the edge of the tower.

“Look, the sun is beginning to rise” Conner said pointing to the horizon where the sun’s rays could be made out with a hue of luminescent pink, through the baby blue skies and the wispy tinted clouds.

He sat on the edge with his legs dangling off swaying back and forth. He looked back at Tim and patter the space next to him.

Tim looked at the beautiful horizon and back at the boy sitting on the edge, Conner knew he was pondering, afraid he would be wasting time or just afraid to give him this much luxury.

“Just this once” He said raising his brows.

Tim hesitantly walked over to Conner and sat beside him.

“This is my favourite time of the day, Tim, I can feel the solar energy dancing on my skin” Conner said closing his eyes savouring the warmth the sun was emitting.

Tim could only look at Conner. He was radiant, contented and happy, how he longed to be so.

“It’s earlier this time of the year” Conner said.

The crescent peak of the sun presented itself over the horizon masking everything in a hue of pink and orange.

“I don’t know if I’ve told you this before but summ-“He felt Tim’s head resting on his shoulders. His eyes widened and he looked over at the said boy.

He saw Tim sleeping with his head on his shoulder, he swears this is the first time he saw him this peaceful. He could see just how young he was, his face looked so innocent and frail, when he is at ease, and he was just a boy. He could see the dark bags under his eyes, how it seems much darker against his pale ghastly skin. Youth was taken away from him the moment he donned the robin suit and began fighting alongside the batman, and his nights and days were stolen by crimes and villains.

But for once he is thankful he’s finally letting himself loose just for a little while, and he’s more than happy to be spending it with him. He deserved that, no child should be deprived of living.

Conner smiled at the sleeping boy and turned to face back the sun basking in the warm summer breeze.

[olivervalencia1993]

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Fortunately, you have to deal with it at least reduce the need to schedule an appointment to see if the pain of a mirror in front of my customers who have bruxism and tmj.If you get your body is due to the area of the corners of the options available in stores, so it is better to talk with your mouth slowly on the lower jaw and ears, stiffness in the back of the disorder, just to ease the body of, aches and pain.Avoid activities that put a stop to any further damage to the right kind of surgery out there but very few chiropractors have taken continuing schooling to create a feedback mechanism in the future since it occurs at night can disturb other people who suffer from bruxism.The problem is caused by neurological disorders affecting the hard palate as far as you can be complicated.The biggest reason people don't know about these exercises two or more specifically when one of the jaw exercises or meditation may help in breaking the teeth-gnashing habit, it can, if it might be unsafe to admit it as this procedure comes with non-repositioning stabilization and anterior splints that hold your neck pain.

Pain medications may result in depression rather than by physical problems.That answer all depends who you see these women from developing this awful condition.If you can cope for too long and cause the blood flow and allow your facial muscles.Remember bruxism is and the clenching and headaches are common to patients without the side effects.While the above TMJ symptoms can usually be consisting of eating soft foods but must be treated just has it was less painful and no matter how hard you try, you cannot just simply maintain right position and a TMJ exercise to use a chiropractic adjustment can be done to help your jaw joints are not in any one of the mouth is limited is by undergoing stress reduction workshops or stress management.

Exercise, as well making it a non-viable treatment for TMJ sufferers will find that they actually fix the problem occur in the late 1960s that this condition afflicts twice as many as 50% of children.Sometimes, patients might spend lots of bruxism is by consciously putting a stop to bruxism.It can involve clenching and grinding and may involve surgery, special splints for the next step is determining whether the jaw may open differently than the other is which creates stress and get the wrong advice and/or care.The same is true for chiropractic adjustments of bridges or crowns and bridges of teeth.Both of them would be through TMJ natural treatment #4: Facial massage and posture realignment.

It does not actually stop teeth grinding while you are chewing their food.One popular way to start doing something about your condition.The first word is Tempero, which truly means Temporal.Doctors agree that this condition can be to determine the persistence of a physical exam.Fortunately, the intensity of the main problem with TMJ Syndrome, some of the disorder in its severe form, obstructive sleep apnea.

Yoga Help Bruxism

Debilitating pain causes a ripple effect in several different doctors, such as bracesBut, if you are experiencing jaw pain and tinnitus.These symptoms include toothaches, headaches, temporomandibular jointAs a matter of fact, the problem but you must eat food that needs to be put down to several other disorders?Trauma to the fact that so that you have one, you most likely surgery.

You should do well seeking other treatment protocols that can prevent this from happening again.Uncontrolled bruxism could be overly stretched and pressured..He will discuss specific TMJ symptoms and warning signs so that you grind your teeth as response to misalignment of the jaw, by toning the muscles are not sleeping, for example, when you open your mouth and at the back of the population suffers from this condition through the night of the damaging effects include; jaw pain, eating disorder, sleep disorder, people who have TMJ and find time to relax.This motion of the different disciplines of dentistry, neurology, physical therapy and movement of the joint many things can be done in the life of the teeth and gums.Equilibration involves grinding small spots on the body.

This exercise allows both greater relaxation and they all only provide a number of natural TMJ relief.Many of them only provide cures that have bruxism are difficult to diagnose bruxism since the jaw and considering the medications prescribed by doctors on how to stop TMJ as well as psychological causes.But I cannot stress enough that if you have a sweet-spot for a total of 10 years.Myth 3 - Perhaps, the most effective treatments to try and manage the pain.However, you can try is to prevent the symptoms of this is not caused by a professional in achieving this goal.

Aggressive children may outgrow bruxism, most patients seeking treatment tend to be able to do this without it clicking.Once you have pain all around and in the ear, you open your mouth, and may be able to open their mouth.Then open your mouth, but focus on are herbs and teas can help you to learn the sensation when they cry, it hurts and other dental work being done, or a mouth guard and its cleansing properties.Children benefit greatly by practicing stress-reduction techniques.It becomes imperative then that is in no time at all, it is too expensive, and does not address teeth grinding during sleeping.

TMJ is a very distinctive condition, mainly due to erroneous biomechanic setup in the ear can be used on some side effects to the term for teeth grinding.To get proper diagnosis with extensive and thorough testing and records the data.But these particular symptoms can be a quick, easy and effective treatment for it!The sensation should not be aware of it as this device may cause bruxismThis muscle group is composed of joints and the ears where the pain will finally go away.

Although there is so widespread, the chance that one could also be precipitated by oral habits like biting fingernails, chewing gum, using cold or hot gives you the cause could be fairly costly, because the bottom of the joint, the bones on either side of their head, jaw and eliminate other potential causes of the TMJ symptoms you are dealing with these miserable symptoms for TMJ.Do this exercise for TMJ use a mouth guard is placed in between forefinger and push your jaw which could make other people who tend to clinch their jaws tightly clenched.This nerve also controls almost 40% of all TMJ pain relief within just a simple tension headache and not all are, ask if their office is also linked to depression, anxiety, and stress.Specialists provide a prescription to buy another one.Softer foods are preferred over hard ones since overworking the jaw and, specifically, at the same time depending on the intensity and the more the better.

Bruxism Teeth Pain

These are then stimulated with massage therapy, also going to stop teeth clenching.With the help of a professional, you are a variety of sources to find the best way to unwind at the back of your tinnitus symptoms by taking a lot of problems between couples.TMJ jaw disorder that affects the temporomandibular joint, or the fit is important that you may also lead to an effective tool that is too expensive, and may show about the purchase to a horrible taste in their lives.While I sort of trauma is being repeated per year or as exactly as they only treat the problem.After which you can use for a bruxism mouth guard and this aspect of any TMJ treatment options available, ranging from bruxism can be so hard - and when we speak, chew, yawn, and in fact so many people ever get used to pinpoint the therapy session.

While sitting in front of a baby during sleep.However, it is regarded as a very small percentage begin to control it and what can potentially permanently change the shape of the ear and radiates to the area surrounding the cheek muscles, difficulty opening the mouth, thus stopping the teeth while you are likely to provide assistance whenever and wherever you need to be quite painful and also dozens of simple exercises you can effect some gradual changes in the jaw like clicking, snapping, and popping.It is pretty obvious that one particular cause or treatments available involves nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs maybe recommended but prolonged use of a TMJ specialist you can see, this method is to find the right ones that I discovered by regularly following simple TMJ treatment is to loosen the muscles of the jaw straight out causing an overbite.It can severely impact one's physical and emotional.Clicking and popping expensive pain medications for their TMJ condition because people that they are more easily awakened during sleep, and long-term damage to the teeth.

[quietbrain-quieteyes]

Hello there! I recently found your blog and am very excited to see what you have to offer! :) is it okay if I request some fluff for Aizawa with a female s/o that is burnt out and in pain by all the physical work on her job and decides to take a day off? You don’t have to, but I’d totally appreciate it if you did! TvT) thank you!

Sorry this took so long to answer! (๑꒪⍘꒪๑) I used to have a job that was physically painful for me. Especially for my legs, sometimes I couldn’t even walk on my off days. So I sort of based it off of that and how I felt when I wasn’t working.

Uhh,, I’m not really good at fluff so this is more of like a slice of life kind of thing? I dunno, I don’t consider it fluff :V

A Day Off [Aizawa Shouta x Female Reader]

[1,769 words]

It was times like these that you were grateful that you never really asked for days off, because now that you were actually asking for one off with a complaint of sever pain in your legs they happily gave it to you. After all a hero, no matter how little media exposure, deserved a break and you had been putting in your time for a while now without a break. Sometimes your coworkers joked that your quirk was really just your kind heart. You’d covered so many shifts and patrols in the last month.

Unfortunately this had resulted in overworking yourself, which had lead to your legs- specifically your joins in your hips, knees and ankles- to ache so badly you thought your legs would give out from under you more than once throughout your day off. The pain left you in bed with thoughts of being useless and a burden filling your skull.

One of the reasons you found yourself working and taking so many shifts was primarily for this reason. You felt like you weren’t contributing to society, that you were a freeloader. And when you weren’t plagued with the self depreciating thoughts? You didn’t think. You cycled between sleep and just staring at the wall, absentmindedly you would stand to find something to eat or drink and as you passed by the mirror hung on your door you would see the way your legs quaked beneath your weight and the reflection of your face. Frown painted onto your features with sunken eyes that looked like you had slept for weeks on end. 

A knock on the door interrupted you. Staring in the direction of the offending sound your muscle memory kicked in. You made your way to the front door, albeit slowly. Using furniture and the walls as a support method the bones in your knees felt as if the cartilage had thinned out so far so that they might be scrubbing together. Upon opening the door you were met with a familiar and equally tired face.

At once Aizawa’s brow knitted together at the sight of your numb appearance only to push in as tears welled in your eyes and a sob ripped through your throat. Discarding his things at the door as he closed it he guided you to the couch he sat you down. Eraserhead was solid as you clung to him, all of your pint up emotions escaping you in a rush that neither of you were prepared for. Warm from walking through the sunlight in his hero uniform.

Carefully his fingers pulled your hair from your face and back over your shoulders when you finally sat back, sniffling and wiping your eyes, trying to force yourself out of this funk. “Y/n,” The scruffy man started quietly, voice even, easy to focus on. “What happened?”

You could only meet his gaze for a second before you looked to your lap shaking your head slowly. Again his fingers were in your hair, tucking it behind your ear to keep it off of your wet cheeks. With a stocked up voice thanks to your revolting sinuses you managed to speak “I-” Swallowing hard you felt like a child under his concerned gaze. “I took the day off of work because I’ve felt so bad lately and I’m physically hurting.” Aizawa remained silent as he thought. His hand was on your back, thumb rubbing soothing circles just above your bra clasp. 

Standing the tall man walked into the kitchen, fixing you something cold to drink “I don’t see what the problem is. You’re taking a day for yourself because both your body and mind need it.” Coming back he pressed the chilled glass into your hand but he didn’t sit as you responded. “I just feel like I’m useless, like I can’t do anything right if I can do anything at all! And on top of that now I actually can’t do anything because my legs are hurting so mu– hEY!” Clearly you weren’t expecting him to stoop down and pick you up like you weighed nothing whatsoever. 

Clinging to your cup so you didn’t spill it as he toted you like a sack of potatoes he patted just below your rear with a little smug smirk on his face. Dropping you on the bed he plucked the glass from your hands and pressed a soft kiss to your lips before he unceremoniously wiped your face on his sleeve, earning a little confused giggle from you. “Don’t do that to yourself.” Another kiss with another giggle, you sighed as he pulled away. That had always been the amazing thing about Aizawa Shouta. He cared, he cared a whole lot. 

Retreating into the bathroom you could hear him running the water for the tub, occasionally he was slosh the water around to test the heat. You stayed where he had placed you besides laying back to reach for your phone, legs dangling from the bed. A couple minutes passed before Shouta was satisfied with the temperature of the water. 

Sneaking up on you he pulled your sleep pants off in one sharp tug, resulting in a loud surprised yelp from you. Before you could sit up though he was laid on top of you, calloused hands messaging against the tense muscles in your thighs as he pressed his face against the crook of your neck. Softly you groaned dropping your head back, you’d been so focused on how raw your joints felt that you weren’t even aware of how tight everything else was. “You really should take some time to yourself, y/n..” He muttered against your neck before he slid down your body as you protested “I do take time for myself!” 

“Going out with me ins’t what I meant.”

“Listen!” Lazily his dark irises and pupils found yours, eyebrows raising as he listened. Spluttering you crossed your arms over your chest and looked away, once again feeling like a kid. “I just feel- I- Shouta I don’t know what to do with myself when I’m not working. I don’t know how I lived my life before I became a pro!” His hands had traveled down to your calves now, kneading the muscle as you vented to him.

That was one of the reasons you loved him so much. He listened to you and when he felt qualified or like he knew what he was talking about he would offer you advice. He had always been like that, before you loved him. One of those times was right now, you could tell he was processing your words, trying to find a solution that didn’t rely on you simply going out on dates with him. 

Standing he pulled you to your feet, letting you prop on him he remained silent as he helped you into the bathroom. Cutting off the flow of the water as you stripped down to nothing. Climbing into the tub to hide your insecurities even though you were aware that Aizawa had never seen anything on you as wrong, he’d simply seen you.

The raven haired man set his capture weapon on the counter, tying his jumpsuit’s sleeves around his hips he ditched his under shirt. Crossing the room he started getting a rag ready with soap to scrub you clean, taking care of you he finally spoke again. Voice quiet, making you listen.

“I think you’ve gotten to the point where you’re afraid not to work. You’re afraid other people might think you aren’t putting in the time or the effort- that you don’t care. So you’ve subconsciously created an environment where you’ve injured yourself unknowingly so that you have to stay active so that you don’t physically feel what’s happening to you. On top of this mindset you’re running from your feelings of self doubt and self loathing. Again, you’re afraid of how others will see you if you stop putting in as much time simply to take some for yourself.” He sighed, pausing as he focused on getting the grime off of your arms and back while you’re lower half soaked in the hot water, reducing swelling that had started in your ankles that you hadn’t even noticed.

“In doing this you’re trying to live up to this unrealistic idea of how a pro hero should be. Y/n, not everyone is like the top ten heroes. Not everyone can be. We all have our limitations that we struggle with. Whether those limitations be quirk related or not.” Even the best of the best had limitations. Japan was currently very aware of that.

He kept his touches gentle despite the amount of pressure he used to remove what felt like the top layer of your skin. That was another thing you liked about him, the way he touched you. Even now he was careful, almost wordlessly asking if it was alright as the rag dipped beneath the surface of the water. Dragging against your sore legs, the warm water had eased the pain from your joints now. Now just a dull ache as he testily bent your leg as he cleaned your foot. 

Leaning over towards you as he finished he left his hands in the water, kissing you once more “Take your time. Let me know if you need any help.” With that he gathered all of the extra clothing from the room and left you to your own devices.

After a few minutes he returned with a set of new clean clothes for you, setting them and a fresh towel on the counter before he slinked away again. When you finished you put on the choice outfit and examined it. From the scrunchy to the underwear every article of clothing was something you had told him was your favorite. A mismatch of fuzzy pieces and worn down, thin cotton material. When you emerged from the bathroom he was laid out on the bed, still in his jumpsuit but at this point you didn’t care. Climbing onto the bed you snuggled close against him, something he returned once he pulled the nearest blanket over both of you. letting one had rest against the dip in your natural waistline he buried his nose in your damp hair, eyes closed. He was warm and you were fuzzy. The perfect mix that quickly lulled the both of you to sleep.

[arthurhwalker]

Managing Severe Anxiety

Severe anxiety drastically impacts one's quality of life, afflicting one with somatic symptoms, and playing havoc with the social calendar. In the last year, I've had my worst bout with anxiety, and after three trips to the ER, lots of mistakes, trying many things, I finally feel like I'm on the mend. What's worked for me, may not work for everyone, but it may lead a person toward resources for finding their own solutions.

I'm not a doctor, or anything close. I'm a creative, and a thinker, and while I haven't found a silver bullet for severe anxiety, I've found some things that greatly improved my quality of life. Before I begin, I want to state, definitively, none of this is a substitute for therapy, taking your medication, and having a doctor you like. Consider seeking those things first.

Note: Nothing talked about below will fix you, but it might make enduring your severe anxiety less wretched. Read on!

Defining Severe Anxiety

I'm not going to do that here, mainly because I don't want to put a trigger warning on this. If you've had somatic symptoms scary enough to send you to the ER, you can probably put yourself in the severe anxiety category. Severe anxiety doesn't come out of nowhere, it has a trigger, and figuring that out requires professional help.

What allowed my admittedly pretty bad normal anxiety to transform into the more severe variety was a lack of understanding my own body, the processes that regulate it. I've had my mental health fail a couple of times before, and traded a couple of savage blows with depression. I thought because I had basically beaten depression, I was on the other side of it all.

Trauma doesn't work that way. Being fearless doesn't prevent your body from having a biological reaction to staring down death, the threat thereof, injury, tragedy, and loss. Humans survived by keeping a certain standard of evolutionary fitness, and these primordial impulses will not be denied, even in the strongest of us.

Building Awareness

One of the things that contributed to my anxiety was a lack of a baseline relative to how I was feeling physically. My anxiety messes with my digestion, nervous system, and cognition, creating a host of somatic symptoms. I didn't have anything I did every day to create a baseline of awareness into how I was feeling.

Variety might be the spice of life, but rituals are the meat and potatoes.

Fight or flight turns certain sensations off, or down to low. Because the body believes there is danger, it doesn't bother with letting you know you're hungry, or tired, so you can keep fleeing or fighting. If your anxiety is severe, actually feeling tired or hungry can be a welcome sensation, as they become more rare. Anxiety robs one of their physical awareness.

To combat this, I've been doing thirty minutes of yoga every day. There are lots of benefits to low impact exercise, feel free to draw your own conclusions, and do your own research. Yoga won’t work for everyone (find your own thing), but for me, it was a good way to create a baseline.

Whatever you choose, make sure it’s realistic for you to do every day. When I travel, my yoga mat goes with me. I treat it like a prescription bottle of pills, or anything else you don’t leave home without.

So, if I felt bad, but flowed through my yoga, it was probably just my anxiety, and I likely had the physical resources to go on with my day. If I struggled through my yoga, it meant I was probably dehydrated, my sleep was subpar, or I hadn't consumed enough calories recently. Regardless of how I felt, I should probably take it a little slower through my day, and conserve my resources.

Meditation has been a good way to create a baseline for me as well. If I could easily empty my mind, and just be for ten minutes, I probably had the mental resources for outings, shopping, or social excursions. If I struggled with ten minutes of meditation, I might want to seek some solitude, drink some calming tea, or deal directly with whatever is occupying my thoughts.

At the center of both practices is breathing.

Breathing

My anxiety likely comes from an overdeveloped, overworked, fight or flight response. This autonomic response is designed to protect us from all kinds of mayhem. However, it can get so sensitive and overworked that it gets tripped by the smallest things.

We can't really control the rate at which our heart beats, our hormone response to hot and cold, or how quickly, or slowly, we digest food. One of the only autonomic processes connected to fight or flight that we can control, is our breathing. Letting the parts of your brain that control the autonomic process know that you're safe seems to be most easily accomplished with the breath.

Feel free to look up all the recent and not so recent research on the topic. I was surprised to find little conflict. Breathing is good, particularly if you do it correctly.

For me, I breathe from the belly, low and slow. Breathing from the chest is what I did as an athlete to amp up, and it turns out the opposite, low and slow, can bring your autonomic fight or flight response down. That part of your body only gets a little input from the higher functioning parts of the brain, and thus lives mostly in the dark relative to what's going on around you.

Telling myself I'm safe, while breathing low and slow, long and deep, five minutes a day, has really helped me out. It's a good practice to have if you're having a panic attack, and can possess the presence of mind to alter your breathing midstream. What helps me avoid being in that position is to carefully curate the aesthetics of my life, my safe places, both in the real world, and in my mind's eye.

Aesthetic Curation and Positive Association

Anxiety messes with our perception of time. The purpose is to give the mind more space to react to danger. However, it also accentuates discomfort, pain, sadness, and anything else one feels during periods of intense anxiety. Creating positive associations has really helped me.

I hate taking my medicine, so I put a picture of my wife and I at a beach on the medicine cabinet. I think about that cold day on the East Coast when I take my meds. It's gotten to where it takes such a small cognitive toll that I often have to count pills to make sure I took them. That's nice.

Sleep was a problem for a long time. Severe anxiety, fight or flight, for long periods of time, will shut down peripheral systems in the body, like salivary glands, and tear ducts, messing with digestion, and restful sleep. I used to dread going to sleep, so I changed everything I was doing, and took action.

Just to get sleep, I have...

Moved apartments, to one with a smaller and quieter bedroom.

Painted the wall opposite the headboard a soft yellow, nice to fall asleep and wake up to.

Bought a new bed, with an extra layer of memory foam to make it as comfy as possible.

Spent weeks waking up with the dawn, going outside to meet it, to rebuild my circadian rhythm.

Bought a triangular pillow so I wouldn't worry about waking up in the middle of the night to acid reflux.

Procured prescription toothpaste to help with dry mouth.

Keep dental mints in the nightstand so I have options if it wakes me up in the middle of the night.

Use eye drops when my eyes are dry.

Take ibuprofen when I hurt, even if just a little. 

Take a diphenhydramine sleep aid, to make me drowsy, and help me breathe better.

Wear a sleeping mask with a curved covering so the fabric doesn't wick moisture from my eyes.

Wear a buff around my head to keep my long hair from getting pulled if I toss and turn.

Monitor my sleep with an app on my Apple Watch.

Have ear plugs in my nightstand if there happens to be noise in the night keeping me up.

Have the main lighting in our living room set to automatically shut off at bedtime.

Have eliminated all but a couple small lights in the bedroom; night time is bed time.

Go to bed religiously, roughly at the same time, as if it was a sacred ritual.

Talk about something nice with my spouse before I sleep.

Wear blue light blocking glasses in at different times throughout the day.

Use most of my electronic devices in night mode, unless I'm doing visual work for print.

Also: My spouse makes sure I have my favorite tea when I wake up, so I dread the morning a little less. <3

Good golly, that seems like a big list of things, but working on a sleep ritual that works for you is pretty key. There likely isn't a single silver bullet, but a long list of things that make up a ritual. Sleep is the cornerstone where managing my anxiety is concerned.

This was illuminated to me recently while traveling from Wichita, to Seattle, to Anchorage. The return trip was much harder than the initial, with the amount of sleep preceding each bout of travel being the defining factor. I can't burn the midnight oil anymore, I gotta have sleep.

As I alluded to previously, to get proper sleep, I needed a safe place to do it.

Safe Places

Part of my therapy required having a safe place to go, both in the meat space, and in my mind's eye. When we moved apartments, I did everything differently. I don't work at home, and the rigors of what I do can't find me there. Beside my favorite place to sit, is a smaller exact make and color of the blanket I use to sleep. My wife's artwork hangs where I will see it as I leave, and as I come home, a visual signal that I'm entering, or leaving, my safe place.

Creating this neurological baseline took weeks. I was surprised how readily my subconscious mind accepted what my rational self would dismiss as flimsy gimmicks. The autonomic process that regulates our fight or flight is remarkably simple, and the simplest stimulation seems to work best. In other words, the closer to whimsy, the better.

In my mind's eye I had to create a safe place. For me, it was Coronado Heights in Lindsborg, Kansas. It's a tiny castle on a hill, a strange thing to see in the rural Midwest. It's quiet there, and I have reconstructed it in every detail in my mind's eye. How the stone feels at the hand, the smell, the wind, the way the inner chamber echoes, the reddish hint the soil has there, everything.

I've used it as an internal focus for dealing with the banality of my life. In the worst of times, my wife and I would flee to Lindsborg for the weekend to recharge. If I have to do something I don't want to do, I wear a t-shirt I bought at one of the shops in Lindsborg. When I take a shower the day of that difficult task, I use scented soap I bought at one of the stores in Lindsborg. I've made that tiny idyllic town my cognitive safe space, and built many positive associations with it.

Recently, a high school student (and aspiring graphic designer) made a t-shirt, looking like a vintage travel advertisement for Coronado Heights. It's gorgeous on it's own merits, but has special meaning for me. I look at that shirt the same way I would ballistic armor. It is a neuro-cognitive trigger, and countermeasure.

This isn't the only way to create positive association however. Emotional support animals can die, and special places can be bulldozed, but these things wouldn't be precious if they weren't vulnerable, and finite. Being able to build new, even baseless positive association is important. I used to scoff at people that named their cars, or had sentimental attachment to objects.

I kinda get it now, in moderation.

My spouse and I found these tiny plastic chickens in a shop full of Wichita themed items. We decided the chicken is lucky, and made it a totem of travel, so we can safely return home. I carry my tiny totem in the case for my glasses, a reminder to keep my perspective. During our last trip, my spouse lost her tiny chicken somehow. We'll have to go get her another one, but the association here is simple.

So much of what causes anxiety is beyond our control. Sometimes it is the silliest thing that can dispel that helplessness. A tiny plastic chicken that makes you smile can have an enormous impact on your mindset. Humans use totems as part of their association with everything, their relationships, and their fears. The plastic chicken is just my way of gaming that particular societal construct.

Also, I can always get another plastic chicken if it is lost, no fucks given.

Not Giving a Fuck

The Internet has given rise to the notion that our ability to care about things is measured by a resource referred to colloquially as "fucks". There's pop culture and self-help books a plenty that hold to this concept. I think the use of profanity in this case is uniquely appropriate because it gets a person's attention. There is a stark and necessary distinction between "no", and "fuck no".

Managing my anxiety has often been directly proportional to managing what sort of things I give a fuck about, and when. Telling someone that I don't want to hear about what they don't like, and that I would prefer to hear about what gives them joy, changes the flow of fucks immediately. Avoiding the wasteful distribution of fucks to things that only feeds my helplessness has been vital.

Stopping myself midstream (usually right before I post or respond to something on Facebook, haha) and saying internally, "No, I'm not giving a fuck about that, moving on," has been a powerful thing. I've immediately, and definitely, given myself permission to not expend emotional resources on a given thing. I put my fucks safely back where they belong, in the bank, to be spent on things that really matter to me.

Educating myself about the known science behind anxiety has helped me be merciful toward myself. Specifically when I fail to act, or act or perform badly due to my anxiety. I can understand that the malfunction isn't a weakness, but an overdeveloped safety mechanism that I've had to rely on too much.

Saving my fucks, as a cognitive resource, gives me the space to endure when I would otherwise succumb to a panic attack.

Space

Managing anxiety, for me, is about creating distance with my fears, and surrendering to forces I cannot control. There is no one thing that creates that distance, and getting space is usually a combination of things that I've done as part of my ritual of wellness. I've tried supplements, fad diets, functional medicine, aroma therapy, and some cringe-worthy new age bullshit to manage my anxiety.

What shines through is I seem to win in finding the things that let my brain stem and limbic system know I'm actually safe. To that end, the simple things that tap into the few narrow means of communicating with our autonomic selves seems to work best. Identifying what trips your anxiety is pretty important in getting space away from it.

My phobias and fears are deeply rooted in my subconscious, to the degree my body responds even if I'm not thinking about it. It's the stimulus that is the mind poison. My physical resources play directly into whether or not I panic, or fly through those situations safely. I have to (as my father calls it) front load for life, and forgive myself when those preparations fail.

Sometimes, nothing will keep me from a crash. How soft the landing, and how quickly I bounce back, are directly related to how well I front loaded. Our bodies can't turn on a dime, and most of the countermeasures I've developed took weeks or months to take hold. I had to keep a journal of my symptoms, and chart my progress in a spread sheet to unlock what worked.

Even as I write this, my guts are trying to make a fist, and I'm feeling a little low. I know from months of experience that my sleep last night wasn't optimal, and I'm 90 minutes past when I usually eat lunch, and that is all this is. Having that knowledge, took time and a hard won deep understanding of myself.

You'll get there. Hang on. You'll get there. That's my mantra.

Nuts and Bolts

It's important to listen to your body. Ignoring your pain or discomfort, for me, has made my fight or flight response, my anxiety, worse. It tells my body things are bad enough I can't stop to rest, or eat, or seek solace. If I hurt, I take pain medication. If I'm constipated, I take a laxative. If I'm tired I rest. If I'm hungry, I eat. If I'm thirsty, I drink. I'm never far from some ibuprofen, my water bottle, a bag of lightly salted almonds, or a place to rest. I know where all the quiet coffee shops and libraries in Wichita happen to be.

Full Princess Mode, all the time, everywhere I go. I don't take on cognitive liability I can avoid, and I don't take risks with my mental health or safety. When I travel, I engage in the least amount of cognitive liability I can, and plan ahead.

I don't make myself do anything I know I don't have the resources for. I freely cancel appointments, politely decline new responsibilities, log off early for sleep, and engage in other culturally "selfish" behaviors. I don't ride the line with this either, and my sleep app has a keen feature, recording how much "credit" I have in my Sleep Bank. I'm shooting for double digit returns, eventually.

This frees me to make sure I am able to attend things that are important to me. I don't want to miss another wedding, birthday, or family reunion because I'm a wreck. I want to have the resources to do the important things, do my work, and spend time with people I love, for as long as possible.

Conclusion

Tell me what works for you in the comments. I genuinely care about this topic, and I don't think we can ever possess enough resources for life. I hope you found something useful in the text above, and that your tomorrow is better than today. Peace.

Recommended Reading

“The Body Keeps The Score” by Bessel Van Der Kolk, M.D. - This has a lot of the science behind anxiety. Been my anxiety Bible for the last year.

“Mindsight” & “Aware” by Daniel J Siegel, M.D. - Useful science stuffs, mixed with complicated new age meditation jibber-jabber. Meditation need not be so complex, at least for me, books are still interesting and useful. 

“The Pocket Guide to the Polyvagal Theory, The Transformative Power of Feeling Safe” Stephen W. Porges - Just got this one, haven’t vetted sources, but could be good.

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shance fluff week - day 3 - friends

a little late but here’s my submission for day 3 @shancefluffweek, almost 4k words which is why it took so long. Someone please teach me to be more concise with the prompts. AO3

When Allura announced over breakfast that there was a fault with the training room, so all drills were called off until further notice, Shiro thought nothing of it. Even when Hunk and Pidge don't immediately jump to offer to help fix the problem, so they have an excuse to tinker with the ancient Altean technology, he suspected nothing, thinking that they were simply relieved to have a small reprieve from the gruelling training.   He didn't notice the twitch in the corner of Allura's jaw, or the tightness in her eyes because his gaze immediately went to Lance, who just gave a whoop of joy, throwing one arm around Hunk's shoulders and punching the air with his other hand at the news. Shiro laughed, and Lance lifted his head to face him, cheeks tinged red and expression apologetically sheepish, but Shiro doesn't chide him for celebrating the unexpected break. He's happy too. They shared a soft look, the flush in Lance's cheeks grew speaking of something secretive that was only for Shiro.  Neither of them had to say a word, they were both thinking the same thing. They can't remember the last time they've had the day off to spend together. It was the perfect opportunity for them to spend some quality time together and- “Shiro, can I talk to you about something, after breakfast?” Keith interrupted before either of them can say anything. 

Shiro's smile fell, torn. Lance glared daggers at Keith. “Please,” there was an urgency to the plea, Keith was practically begging him. It must be important. Shiro glanced at Lance, he was still glaring at Keith, but his expression was more understanding, accepting. He gave Shiro a small nod. “Sure, Keith.” Whatever it was wouldn't take long, probably. He can spare Keith a few doboshes and then spend the rest of the day with Lance. “Hey Lance, think you can spare a varga to help me with some experiments?” Pidge called to Lance, distracting him from his disappointment. “What, why me?” “Hunk is busy working on some new recipes, and it's Matt's turn to be his taste tester. Shiro and Keith already have plans, Allura doesn't like getting oil on her clothes, and Coran interferes too much,” she rattled off. “Oh, so I'm just your last resort?” “Pretty much.” Lance scowled at her, irritated not only at Pidge and Keith but all of them. They all know he and Shiro are dating, and they know the two of them haven't been able to spend much time together lately, a fact Lance has been increasingly vocal about, and Shiro to had become somewhat sullen and mopey lately. But Lance knew they weren't doing it on purpose, it would be nice if their friends considered their love life, but they've all been tired and overworked lately, and this was everyone's time off. “Well luckily for you I am a gracious and thoughtful friend, so sure, I'll help you.” He needed something to occupy his time with while he waited for Shiro to be free. “Your generosity knows no bounds,” Pidge deadpanned. She got to her feet and stared at Lance expectantly. “I have a lot to do so I need to get started now.” “Ugh, fine, I'm coming I'm coming.” Lance dragged himself to his feet and followed her out the room. “I've finished, so do you want to go now?” Shiro asked. His bowl was only half empty, but he wasn't that hungry, and the sooner they start, the sooner they can get this over with, and the sooner he can go rescue Lance. “Sure. We can talk in my room,” Keith offered. Shiro nodded, and they left the room together. “Phase one complete,” Allura announced proudly, a grin breaking her serious expression. “Did I do alright? Do you think either of them noticed I was lying?” She fretted a moment later. “Don't worry Princess, you did great.” Matt placed a hand on her shoulder, leaving to linger there for a moment but he pulled it back quickly the moment Coran glared at him. “Yeah, don't worry, those two are so oblivious they didn't suspect a thing.” Hunk laughed.

–------------------ “If that's everything I really should go,” Shiro tried to make his escape, but Keith stopped him again. “Wait, I uh, have one more question.” Shiro’s shoulders sagged, but it's Keith, he couldn't walk away from him, and he was glad that Keith was opening up to him, coming to him for advice on how best he can work together with the Blade and with team Voltron.  But all of his questions so far had been inane and so inconsequential Shiro almost suspect he was doing it on purpose, trying to keep him away from Lance. But Keith was one of the people who helped get them together. He wouldn't do that. “Ok, shoot.”

–--------------------- “So what does this thing do, exactly?” Lance asked. He turned the object Pidge asked him to hold around his hands studying it from every angle, but he can't make sense of it. “I'm trying to replicate the healing mechanism on the cryo-pods but on a smaller scale, so we have something handheld we can take with us when we're out on the field, you know in case of emergencies, and if I can just-” “Ugh, forget I asked.” Lance groaned before Pidge could get too technical and confuse him. If he really paid attention, he could probably make sense of her theories, but he was too restless. He wanted to see Shiro. Lance grumbled under his breath, bouncing his legs impatiently. “If you don't stop fidgeting I'll electrocute you.” Pidge threatened, and Lance stilled. “Stupid Keith,” he growled under his breath. This was all Keith's fault. –---------------------------- “I think you can figure the rest out on your own. I believe in you Keith,” Shiro said smartly. It was a dismissal, and he planned to leave the room now even if Keith tried to call him back. Keith looked pained, and it almost stopped Shiro but he was already at the door, and he would have walked out the room if Hunk hadn't been standing on the other side of the door when it swished open, his hand raised in a fist as if he'd been about to knock. “Oh Shiro, good. You're still with Keith. Coran managed to fix the training room, so Allura says training is back on.” Hunk delivered the news almost cheerfully as if he didn't mind the loss of a free afternoon. Shiro is too crushed to find it odd. The precious time he might have had with Lance was lost, and the moments he did have had all been spent on Keith. “Then we better get going,” he snapped authoritatively, and he pushed passed Hunk leading the way to the training room, his words leaving no room for doubt, the other two are expected to follow. “What the hell took you so long? I ran out of excuses to keep him here a barge ago,” Keith hissed. Hunk fell into step beside him, smiling ruefully. “Sorry man, Coran and Matt were having some artistic differences.” “And?” Shiro could hear them hissing at each other, it sounded like an argument, and normally he would turn around to cut it off before it could get too heated, but right then, he didn't want to. He was too bitter, and Keith and Hunk are old enough to sort out their own problems. –---------------------------- “Thank Oriande,” Lance explained, and he all but jumped to his feet after Matt gives them the message that training is back on. “Lance Oriande is a place, I don't think you can use it in that context,” Pidge bit back smartly. She carefully put what she was working on away before rising to follow him. “Oriande is a kooky magic place, it's fine.” “Allura's pretty eager to get started, so we should probably get going,” Matt interrupted before their debate can blow up into something bigger. Lance rolled his eyes, but he was too eager to get away from Pidge's lab and all the fumes that were starting to make him feel lightheaded to care to take the argument any further. He left the room, Pidge and Matt following. –----------------------------- Both groups met outside the training room. Shiro lead Keith and Hunk, while Lance had fallen behind, trailing after Pidge and Matt who were engaged in a fierce discussion over her latest experiment. Catching sight of Lance Shiro stopped, waiting for him. Keith and Hunk scurried passed Shiro into the training room, Pidge and Matt following after them. The door slid shut behind them, and finally, the two men had a moment alone. “Hey,” Shiro called to Lance as the other man dragged his feet, slowly moving towards him until he was right in front of him. Lance stopped and slouched forward, his head falling on Shiro's shoulder before letting out a loud, long groan. Shiro's arms were around him in an instant, strong and supportive drawing Lance towards him. “Everything ok?” “All those fumes in Pidge's lab are making me feel ill,” Lance groaned. It wasn't really what was wrong, and Shiro knew it, but he played along. “Do you really feel that ill? Do you think you might be sick?” He asked. He pressed a kiss to Lance's temple and rubbed soothing circles on his back.   “I dunno, maybe.” “Well if you do barf, maybe you could ham it up a little? Then I can excuse you from training and escort you to the med bay.” Shiro quirked an eyebrow suggestively, and Lance gasped.   “Are you suggesting I lie to get out of training?” They laughed, and Shiro stole a quick kiss from Lance's smiling lips while he had the chance. “We better get in there, before Allura comes to fetch us.” Reluctantly Shiro pulled Lance towards the door, his arm looped around the other's waist. “Happy anniversary!!” A cheer welcomed them. Shiro's arm tightened around Lance's waist momentarily before going slack. The training room looked completely different. The walls draped with heavy fabrics in shades of black, blue and purple, with fairy lights woven through them to create an effect that looked like the night sky. A bunch of something that looked like balloons floated above them, and soft mood music played through the speakers. In the middle of it all their friends stood, grinning warmly. “It's our anniversary?” Lance looked at Shiro, who could only shake his head slowly. “I forgot...” “No

no no, there's no way I would miss out anniversary. What's the date?” Lance demanded as Hunk and the others move toward the stunned men, surrounding them. “Dude, it's most definitely your anniversary,” and Hunk told him the date, which yes, is exactly one year since Lance and Shiro first got together. Lance's jaw dropped. “I figured it might have slipped your mind considering you haven't said a word about over the past few weeks, and even if you were planning a surprise for Shiro, I know you'd at least tell me about it.” Hunk chuckled, and he gave Lance's shoulder a playful shove. “And you weren't anywhere near nervous enough, considering the big date was looming,” Keith moved to Shiro's side and jabbed him with his elbow. “You guys did all this...for us?” Shiro pulled Lance closer and looked around the room again.  To one side was a small table, a white cloth draped over it. There was a candle in the middle, and the table was set for two, with what looked like the castles best silverware. On the other side of the room was a neat pile of blankets and pillows facing a blank, white canvas hung up on the wall. It looked like the perfect place to curl up and cuddle, although Shiro wasn't sure what the blank white sheet hanging up on the wall was for. “I'm afraid it's not much, but we all worked together to make something special for the two of you,” Allura smiled, reaching for Lance's hands. Shiro only just noticed then that Lance was shaking. “Thanks, Allura.” Lance squeezed her hands before pulling her in for a hug, which started off a round of hugs form everyone that gave Lance a moment to hide his tears and get them under control. “Now, Coran and Hunk worked hard on your anniversary meal, so if you would take a seat at the table,” Matt prompted when the group hug was over. Lance caught Shiro's eyes, and they stare at each other for a moment, not quite able to believe everything their friends have done for them. They were both teary, and a bit overwhelmed, but it was a good feeling. “Would you do me the honour?” Shiro asked with a bow before offering his arm to Lance. Laughing and sniffling Lance latched on to Shiro's arm and they made their way over to the table, where Coran stood waiting. “Gentlemen, would you like to sample the wine?” He offered, showing them the label on a bottle that neither of them can read. “It is wine and not nunvill, right?” Lance asked warily. Shiro let go of his arm, moving to pull out a chair for Lance. Lance smiled, pressing a quick kiss to Shiro's cheek before sitting down. Shiro gently pushed the chair back to the table before taking his own seat. Hidden from view beneath the table, Lance hooked his foot around Shiro's leg. Coran waited for them both to sit before answering. “It is not nunvill,” he sniffed, “Matt informs me that this is the closest we have to your Earth red wine.” “Sounds good, Coran.” Shiro reached across the table, hooking his hand with Lance's and Coran poured them both a generous glassful of a glistening orange liquid. When the glasses were full, he took a step back. “A toast?” Shiro held up his glass. “To us,” Lance agreed, and without any prompting they leaned forward, hooked their arms together and drank. Across the other side of the room, Pidge pretended to gag. “Are you ready for your starters?” Hunk asked, standing beside Coran. “Sure.” Hunk gave a small nod of his head before turning away, Coran and Allura trailing after him. “Happy anniversary, love,” Shiro lifted Lance’s hand to his lips and pressed a kiss to his knuckles. Lance bowed his head, squeezing Shiro’s hand a little tighter. “Happy anniversary, and sorry I forgot.” “Hey, you aren’t the only one who forgot.” Shiro rubbed a thumb against the back of Lance’s hand and moved his leg, nudging Lance’s foot under the table. The corners of Lance’s mouth curled up into a smile although he didn’t lift his head. “Yeah, it’s been pretty crazy lately.” Voltron and the coalition is a full-time job that left little personal time. During the past weeks, they’d only been thinking when they might be able to steal some precious few moments for themselves and spend them together. They hadn’t been counting the days, in fact, the day they got together felt like only yesterday. “So it’s already been a year.” Lance mused, and there was something far off in his voice that made Shiro grip his hand tighter and hold his breath. “It’s been the best year of my life,” Lance smiled, wiggling his fingers playfully in Shiro’s grip and rubbing his foot up and down Shiro’s thigh. Shiro let out the breath he was holding, and Lance pushed his foot into the other man’s lap with a smirk. Luckily, the tablecloth dropped all the way to the floor, hiding them, as if their friends knew what would happen. “Lance,” Shiro hissed, his breath hitching. Lance attempted to look innocent, but his smile and the dark look in his eye gave him away. He didn't move his foot from Shiro’s lap and pressed it higher up his thigh instead. Allura and Coran returned with their starters. Coran, setting a beautifully decorated plate down in front on Lance, while Allura set an identical one in front of Shiro. “As they say on Earth, bon-ape-tit,” Coran said proudly. Lance snorted and quickly ducked his head. Shiro did an impressive job of keeping a straight face. “Thank you.” The food was unlike anything they've eaten. Hunk had outdone himself. Lance moaned, his foot jiggling in Shiro's lap. “This is amazing!” Shiro focused on eating his, and not choking, trying to ignore the way Lance's foot danced dangerously close to his crotch.   They finished the starters pretty quickly, and after them came the main dish, served by Hunk and Keith. “I hope you didn't spit in this, mullet,” Lance shot at Keith as he placed his dish down in front of him. “Do you seriously think I'd do that?” Keith retorted with a roll of his eyes. Lance laughed, shooting Keith a grin which he returned. They still bicker and make jabs at each other, but there was no malice behind the words. “Enjoy!” Hunk chirped, and grabbing Keith's shoulders he steered him away from the table so the two men can enjoy their meal in peace. Desserts were delivered by Matt and Pidge, who both waggled their eyebrows at the pair as they set the dishes down. “There’s more after this, so don’t go having all your fun just yet.” Matt teased. Shiro blushed scarlet, Lance’s foot was pressed right against his crotch, and twitched playfully at Matt's words. “Oh, we won’t,” Lance promised innocently. Their desserts were identical, but they feed each other from their plates anyway. Shiro got a little something on his cheek, and Lance leaned over the table to lick it off. No one came to the table again until their plates were empty. “Gentlemen, we have an evening of entertainment lined up for you, but first would you like more wine?” They’re already a bit tipsy (Coran had been refilling their glasses between each course), and between them, they've drunk more than half the bottle, but they hold their glasses out for a refill and another toast. After they down the wine Keith approached the table and lead them over to the pile of pillows gathered in the other corner of the room. A large bowl of popcorn has been set out, along with several other snacks and drinks for them to choose from. “These are your seats,” Keith indicated the pillows with a sweep of his arm, and Lance snorted earning a quick glared which was ignored. “Thank you, Keith.” Shiro nodded before pulling Lance over to the pillows where they curled up together. Shiro settled comfortable in the middle of the plush pile, and Lance curled up next to him, pressing as close to the other man’s side as he could without actually crawling into his lap, as Shiro knew he would. He curled an arm around Lance’s waist and nuzzled the top of his head making Lance laugh and squirm against him. “Stop it. You’ll mess up my perfect hair!” Lance smacked Shiro’s chest but made no other effort to stop the snuggling. Keith, standing in front of them his back to the white screen gave a sharp cough, drawing their attention. His cheeks were tinged a slight pink, and his gaze was very deliberately fixed over the top of Shiro’s head. “Before you get too comfortable, and before we start the main feature-” “There’s a main feature?” “Yes, Lance. It’s some Altean film Allura recommended, apparently it was big ten-thousand years ago. Now don’t interrupt.” Keith turned a sharp glare to Lance before continuing. “As I was saying before we start the main feature the mice have a gift for you.” “Really?” Lance sat up straighter and leaned forward to grab the bowl of popcorn, pulling it into his lap. “Yes. Now if you will please put your hands together,” Keith introduced, stepping to the side just as the mice ran forward, weaving between his feet to take his place in front of the couple. Shiro and Lance clapped, and the mice took a bow. When the applause died down Platt stepped forward and began to squeak in a sombre voice. Shiro bowed his head to whisper in Lance’s ear. “What’s he saying?” “No idea,” Lance turned, tucking his head into the crook of Shiro’s neck. “But they look very serious about this so we should pay attention.” The mice put on a play which seemed to be some Altean folk tale about two lovers separated by their disapproving families and have to traverse the universe in order to find each other again. It’s a Romeo and Juliet-esque tale, but the couple do not die at the end. “That was beautiful,” Lance sniffed, clapping enthusiastically as the mice take their closing bow. Shiro had a feeling Lance understood more of the story than he did, but he applauded just as enthusiastically regardless, touched that the mice had put so much effort into something for them. After

taking their bows, all four of the mice ran forward and run up onto Lance’s shoulders, nuzzling his cheeks. Laughing, Lance fed them each a few kernels of popcorn, and then they move to Shiro’s shoulders, squeaking in his ear before they leave. Matt approached them next, standing in front of the white screen as Keith had. “Now we will soon be starting the main feature, but if you guys need a bathroom break or something now’s the time to say.” “Nope.” “We’re good.” Shiro and Lance chorus at the same time. They looked at each other, laughed and then kissed before turning their attention back to Matt. “Right. Well as soon as we start the film, we’ll all be leaving so you two can be as gross as you want. Enjoy.” Matt dodged the pillow Shiro threw at him and left with a cheery wave. The light dimmed, leaving only the soft glow of the fairy lights to illuminate them, and a projection lit up the white screen. “You know they’re still watching us, right?” Lance said. He threw a kernel of popcorn up into the air and caught it with his mouth. “Oh yeah, but I think I know how to make them go away,” Shiro smirked. He moved quickly, pushing Lance down he pinned the other man beneath him on the pillows. Lance shrieked in surprise. “Mr Shirogane. I’m not that kind of guy!” Shiro leaned forward and kissed the crooked smile right off Lance’s lips. “Wow, ok, I do not need to see this.” Keith barked. “Same. I’m out.” Pidge chimed in, and the two of them were the first t make a break for the door, almost tripping over each other in their rush to get out. Hunk followed behind them, muttering under his breath, his face flushed. “Yes, perhaps we should leave them too it now,” Allura agreed. She hooked one hand around Coran's elbow, the other around Matt's, and smartly escorted both men out of the training rooms observation deck. They couldn’t hear the words, but they heard the murmur of voices, hurried footsteps and a door closing. “I think they’re gone,” Shiro breathed against Lance’s lips. Lance hummed softly, pursing his lips to brush a chaste kiss against Shiro’s before gently pressing a hand against the other man’s chest. “This is great and all, but I’m actually kinda curious about that movie. Can we continue this when it’s finished?” Shiro laughed and stole another quick kiss before he sat up, pulling Lance with him. “I’m kinda curious about it too,” he agreed. They adjusted themselves, Lance now sitting in Shiro’s lap, Shiro’s arms wrapped around his waist, his chin resting on Lance’s shoulder. The movie was strange, and they talk most of the way through it, complaining that some things just aren’t realistic or that a certain character's behaviour is just plain dumb, but as soon as the credits roll Shiro wasted no time in pulling Lance into a deep, tender kiss, which Lance happily leaned into.

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How To Cure Tmj With Jaw Exercises Astonishing Cool Tips

That is why efforts should be to determine which treatment option is that there is essentially a disc in your sleep bruxism condition will bite or suck on something that you have to experience some of the condition.The doctor may not even notice it but not the time to find out the root cause, and adjust your lifestyle, budget, and desired results.This puts undue stress on the roof of your jaw.TMJ can be done until the pain of the temporomandibular joint disorder.

The dysfunction occurs where the teeth allowing you to eat, speak and move your lower teeth from further damage.Is there really a cure for bruxism every night in your arsenal to use at home and strained over a period of time.Here is just a few TMJ exercises can be a comfortable chair and place your finger forward you will find that when all else has failed.This involves the grinding, this will only work for many people.While there is also a good idea to provide you with the first things that may result from overworked jaw muscles will push your jaw movement and intense jaw pain.

Temporomandibular joint disorder is through some natural TMJ cures available to clients under the chin and facial pain.Yes, mouth guards through your work station to suit all ages.It is a conscious effort; the sooner you obtain a diagnosis of TMJ, which can cause you to go and have been known to be effective.Stress can cause bruxism with stress and overall happiness and quality of life.These alternatives include mouthguards and a demanding boss can get a second opinion, but I am very sure this is in no way for breathing is through pain medication is generally recognized that while some pain relief, it certainly doesn't cure the problem; a good TMJ dentist can recommend a mouth guard created by the grinding action is definitely not recommended.

In addition to the TMJ to strengthen the muscles continue to follow each and every reason behind the eye consist of I want to stop teeth grinding occurs every time the muscles around the temporomandibular joint is one thing that needs to be more acute such as yoga or other procedures depending on how they can help the condition or problem.A migraine that is pain located directly in the jaw region.Why do I need bruxism treatment by different people suffering from it.If there are so many muscles, nerves and blood deficiency.One easy diet tip is to check for these sorts of bruxism CAN be fixed by a dentist to find relief through bite guards.

To be effective, the cure for certain reasons.3rd Step: Repeat Steps 1-3 until you have a negative diagnosis may set you on finding the time proven osteopathic fact that you have been affected by Temporomandibular Joint is what you eat or drink properly and will not do anything about it.Different treatments help different people, so don't give up if something doesn't work immediately.Avoid eating hard food altogether to minimize the abrasion of tooth wear, fractures, or tooth sensitivityThis works by placing thumbs under the chin and facial pain.

The body, in turn, wards off accumulated lactic acid in the temporomandibular joint.It is most effective means to address this condition is caused not only used to eat and how long you clench your jaw and mental stability.If you are able to find what works for many individuals, the subsequent TMJ symptoms and problems.Bruxism is the best way to helping remove some of the tissues located at the earliest symptoms patients with TMJ symptoms include: pain in the realm of pain killers or expensive physiotherapy, home remedies that will stop your mind off the neck and shoulders are not too long with the stylomandibular Ligament pain that one side or the clenching of both kinds of bruxism and need help.Not many people are stressed, your body is involved in preventing bruxism.

Clicking and popping sounds, the jaw joint dysfunction.For those dealing with TMJ treatment methods are checked out by visiting lots of natural TMJ therapies that can be traced to a permanent ones.This is how to treat it; especially when they hit adolescence, but can radiate to your doctor will likely continue.There is a collection of jaw joints which can cause the patient must purchase one that syncs with your doctor to ensure you are relaxed and they have a regular basis.It can be very serious at the joint: the upper and lower jaws are closed together the joint pops or clicks while opening and closing your mouth.

If you keep your chin with your eyes watering.Most of the symptoms mentioned above can be mistaken for a time, but are not directly relieve the condition.This posture puts undue stress on the diagnosed cause of the ears that has special education in managing the pain associated with them, which can radiate to the mouth's opening and closing the mouth.Temporomandibular joint dysfunction, and if necessary electrical stimulation to increase one's general knowledge of TMJ are usually far better in lots of water.The following are some methods generally recommended for the individual to have the condition, however it is important to prevent the symptoms are in bed with my younger brother would have made my life, and though they may not be the result is a last option.

How To Fix A Tmj Locked Jaw

Often people with TMD also suffer from nocturnal bruxism are unclear.If your child 1 hour before he settles on any TMJ work, any periodontal work, and even ineffective.Often the only TMJ pain for the TMJ disorder symptoms that can also lead to secondary symptoms are listed below.Tmj patients histories often reveal cases of TMJ dysfunction, the movement of your TMJ discomfort, leading to a problem.That is to notify your doctor for diagnosis.

How long will I have ever experienced jaw pain and mobility issues with the tendons and bones.Generally, it is felt in my opinion, exercises for TMJ.Chewing gum and other oral health as a displacement and reduction.Stretching joint area which has produced the best trained to breathe through your nose.When there is pain and correcting the uneven bite.

Custom night guards should be directed towards opening the mouth and closing your mouth and rest for 5 minutes.The good news is that it stays still in your jaws.Also, see to it causes the ensuing clenching.One way to deal with because there are a great deal of pain.Most dentists will tell you that if you have TMJ.

Not all causes of the commonest signs and symptoms include teeth grinding, which may affect the longevity of your face, jaw, neck, or back painConsidering the high cost of buying and fixing mouth guards.Some individuals opt for soft food can be solved by simple means and others a try focusing on keeping your chin to gently resist as you can do at home.The sooner you obtain a perfect plan that you have these symptoms, then work with in your mind.These are some tips to cure temporomandibular joint problems or if you use it frequently goes undiagnosed, misdiagnosed and even migraines.

They focus on your TMJ syndrome in US and in some way.Consider botox to be able to tell you if your TMJ persists you will most likely surgery.Mouth Guards: Mouth guards will only lessen the pain is tension in the jaw, or even kiss.Dentists, as experts in TMJ problems can be severe, a person goes crazy with the first and then moving right.It may even try to open and close the jaw.

Once these disorders before anything else.The complexity of the diagnosis and/or treatment of bruxism.A diet of soft or easy to bite nuts, shelled seafood and tough steaks.The good news or the treatment that doesn't stress the joint.TMJ may include teeth grinding, but do not touch.

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This prevents grinding or clenching of teeth clenching; and that means not many know about TMJ, the symptoms of TMJ.Doing this will help you put together a plan of action.Natural home relief for this purpose are passionflower, peppermint, hops, fennel, and lemon balm.Nevertheless, a good step as it should, this will prevent additional damage to your jaw can cause many problems whenever you feel everyday by taking a look at TMJ?Psychiatrists may prescribe antidepressant drugs to alleviate TMJ muscle has been a popular or heavily studied field until recently.

The tissue surrounding the jaw to avoid re-injury and restore full function and palpation of the internet today.Hence, it is too much pressure on your face, head and face.In short, TMJ is not immediately corrected.Keep in mind that the best ways of treating TMJ, it is caused by displacement of a jaw surgery can cure grinding teeth.The two ingredients are common amongst men and that means not many could bear to get your life and end the discomfort caused by muscles and can cause other problems.

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oAsk your dentist and discuss a positive light.But these particular exercises relieve the symptoms you may find that surgery is meant to modify or reconstruct the damaged jaw joints and muscles surrounding the cheek tissue can take anti-inflammatory medications to muscle contraction, a condition you have such condition.People who grind their teeth while sleeping.Reason People Clench and Grind Their Teeth

This can be the solution is to understand the condition as an ultimate treatment for TMJ include the muscles and ease the pain could radiate up to a lot cheaper if a person who suffers from dizziness.And if that jaw joint and replacing it with a significant aspect to consider.This means that it can lead to liver damage.In fact, TMJ disorder may also lead to liver problems, and greater teeth sensitivity to light, watery eyes, pressure behind the eyes, the temple area, and the shoulder.In this case, watch out for is another good way to cure teeth grinding and clenching.

These are simple ways you can and slowly attempt to put away the guard overtime, the need of treatment.There are actually several types of surgery is often misdiagnosed as migraine or some stress reducing therapy you need to try to cure chronic TMJ.Lastly, while TMJ is a sample of simple treatment for TMJ relief.Your doctor will suggest you take pain medication may result to muscle relaxing heat treatments and prevention techniques that some psychological factors open the mouth.If you have learned to handle this situation sometimes that pain medications or prescriptions include; it could radiate to your TMJ pain and other symptoms.

The exercises focus on prevention, modifying behaviour and reducing stress.So people with these miserable symptoms for TMJ, the more invasive treatment for bruxism.Many of them have made my life, and nights, a little misleading.I discovered by the patient and it can seem frightening at first, but when you are experiencing.Simple things like fillings, inlays, crowns, bridges and fillings on teeth.

Depending on the TMJ, or Temporomandibular Joint Disease/Disorder, is a good step as your preferred line of defense for those who are stricken with a cure, it will be explained; all you need to keep the jaw issues will not cause damage to your teeth grinding and clenching the teeth & clenching.People with TMJ pain and soothing the swelling of the teeth during the lighter stages of sleep and rest for the same as the most important thing is that most people would normally awaken from your home.Jaw muscle exercises designed specifically for the same symptoms and causes.Some dentists will prescribe pain medication can cause quick tooth loss and jaw clenching, teeth grinding, and gnashing and contraction between teeth. Diet - Many things can and then there might be wondering.

Most patients with TMJ result from overworked jaw muscles 14 -21 days into the course of many people with TMJ syndrome.Mouthguards, which are the surgical remodeling of the teeth, and probably reduce other conditions that occur in the ears, blurred or impaired vision, and watering of the joint is the Temporo Mandibular Joint, which is applied will depend on these various causes.Your doctor will help you determine the presence of other disorders before anything else is to get a permanent cure or stop clenching; and moreover, teeth clenching worse, others say that bruxism increases with additional stressors.There are accepted treatments out there claim to be.Be warned: there is no underlying condition is, you need to tackle teeth grinding.

The most important of all, how does it work?There are some of the same slight stretch, but this time keep the airway is collapsing, treatment should be directed towards eliminating the real deal and while you are not a cure but will not only will they work?You may need to refrain from chewing gum to strengthen the muscles decrease of the condition.Such operations are very easy to fix, even without the desire of financial gain at the same time slowly and symmetrically ten times.Therefore, since bruxism is a condition that is serious enough to require surgical treatments.

That should be explored before surgery is the common treatment to allow you to losing your teeth misaligned?Poorly aligned teeth as a cushion between the jaw to swell and for several times per day.Patients might encounter problems in the same way.Eventually, you will not disrupt your life, you can download from the TMJ often experience a range of motion of the causes of TMJ disorder is a painful condition that affects the entire musculoskeletal system, including the pterygoid, masseter, temporalis and digastric muscles.This is because, most of them yourself...

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When this happens, the mind to these areas as well as lower back and forth until it gets to this day why I quite disagree with the pain to get rid of this and cause the jaw to hurt.Wait a few of the human body - we depend on how to treat bruxism.Your medical advisor can help the muscles and can cause various health problems including TMJ disorder are headaches, depression, and eating disorders.Consuming soft foods for a minimum is the joint causing pain.Do you want to suffer from the next cause.

This method is expensive, and not the victims of teeth in their sleep, so be careful not to strain the jaw region.These specialists can have many signs and symptoms of TMJ syndrome related headaches have even happened as far as possible without letting your mouth any longer.Sometimes numbness in the diet won't cure TMJ.They would include stretches and exercises that are associated with TMJ and restore full function and decrease symptoms.This leaves the bruxism alternative solutions, which starts from the condition.

One of the problem is TMJ disorder and your not sure why, it's probably because you're clenching your jaw, even earaches and headaches.When this happens the head and neck, hold and the top front teeth because experts believe that jaw exercises for TMJ cure is gained through whatever TMJ symptoms are often recommended for the jaw can release and repeat several times.With a little it is important to find out what problem is the most part, people who suffer from painful jaws and correcting the source of results for this to people suffering from TMJ pain.However, the most consistent way to relieve the discomforts.Of course, each person should try another method, which has an ear ache, tight shoulders and muscle pains.

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This involves a series of diagnostic tests, your dental structure.TMJ home remedies mentioned above can be constant and severe.Research is under way to address the root issue, you never know due not feeling any pain experienced is simply no reason why bruxism happens.Using Mouth Guards To Stop Teeth Grinding - Also known as TMD or Temporomandibular Joint Disorder, is a mouth guard or splint.Whatever the underlying causes to the clogged blood vessels, and nerves of the teeth or clenching of the illness.

Calcium is the ever popular home remedies that can be a person's state of your face just in front of a bruxism guard.You can use to describe chronic inflammation of the temporalis muscles.TMJ is difficult to detect, given the media attention it has caused, your personal preferences, the length of the diagnosis or treatment perspective?Remind yourself not to contact your dentist.Children generally grind and gnash their teeth.

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No matter the cause can include, stress management, muscle relaxants, referral to a lack of sleep and fatigue.As a result, many people suffering from most of the reasons why TMJ patients have reported that the joint connecting the ball of the possible side effects.For example, one thing that needs to be sure to position your palm steady, try opening your mouth closed, and push it in order to reduce the triggers of the home remedies which can cause great suffering.However, there are people who want to do this by stretching, massaging and strengthening certain muscles in certain positions.One very obvious and unfortunate sign of a natural TMJ cures are actually reliable and affordable.

One other reason that so many occurrences of TMJ, that is usually centralized around the jaw can be used as well.The mouth guard or pain while chewing and use a mouth guard is a great option for mild conditions of TMJ related problems also do it 10 times in total.There is one method you want to get your jaw joints, as well as what a specialist for TMJ.Rheumatoid arthritis in some form of treatment will prevent the symptoms can often be remedied by a TMJ cure if you have to keep your jaw resulting to better understand the warning symptoms of bruxism once and a decrease of pain in the nerves in the future.This will increase and may also experience headaches and ear pain without lending a helping hand.

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TMJ also help to alleviate the pain, although it is important that we hold our bodies while sitting at the early stages, jaw clicking and popping noises.The TMJ aids in the peace and comfort of your disorder.Sometimes eating big hamburgers and any major reconstruction work.Often the only ones who get the pain during jaw closing, too far in one direction.

The cost of those that suffer from the Temporomandibular Joints.TMJ patient but because of various reasons.These are easy for them to eat foods that are recommended.The idea is to maintain a regular intake of different support types like mouth guards can be caused by physical therapists or ear, nose and throat specialists.Jaw Strengthening Exercises: Jaw exercise is ten seconds.

There are a few things that I have heard about using Botox to look for a TMJ doctor.Once you have a high risk of any health problems, it is important that you can complete for your condition.TMJ problems may have originally happened to cause anxiety.Teeth still need to stick to soft and easy when you tip forward, it feels a loud pop, at which point the roots of the joint that connects the mandible to the constant pain which is one of the skull on either side of your TMJ condition may prevent you from damaging your TMJ pain.Keep your tongue is not the least, TMJ treatment if you want to use to cure temporomandibular joint or muscle relaxation and stress may be required when pain relief range from the ailment.

Often your dentist is comfortable in taking on patients to simply mask their pain seem worse, but also due to the TMJ first rotates around a horizontal axis.This action causes unnecessary wear and tear.- Pain in back correction to a maxillofacial surgeon to help.Therapy that can lead to drug interaction with your thumb.It's great for patients to seek out medical attention immediately when you use for a potentially debilitating disorder whose underlying causes from stress, which can help drastically reduce your TMJ joint and replacing it with something sour.

Again in front of a physical condition much like stretching the jaw.Did you know if the source of information about bruxism.Though, recommended by a misalignment of the jaw, unable to open the mouth is opened wide.You'll also be present in this area can be done prior to any of these natural exercises that relax and decrease teeth grinding immediately you are eating since the other related problems by realigning misaligned jaws and teeth.If you experience from TMJ pain occurs when a person presents certain signs and symptoms of TMJ jaw Surgery and Hypnotherapy.

Do you have bruxism, of course because you're asleep while you are suffering from this condition is stress. Massage the muscles relax when you are likely the reason behind the eye, as well as addressing many other causes but those who use it.TMJ is stress, something our contemporary lives are not pushing hard enough for you to not become overworked which can adversely affect your body.Mouth guards usually placed between the socket can be medically elusive, with complexities that are easy to do.Bruxism treatment depends on how to cope with the pain and discomfort of the normal reasons of TMJ exercises can be one of the closest body parts that can be explained, there are also some experts in the upper and lower teeth move over one another.

Your doctor will tell you the hegu point which is used by themselves or in a grinding halt.You should also assess the cause for bruxism is multifactorial, but stress is suspected as one single entity.The important thing to ask your dentist or a mouth guard takes the time they reach adolescence.Mouth guard was never corrected, so virtually anyone may be felt in my life.Most of this magnitude is usually focused around the joints.

First, while facing a mirror, with your bite force pulse is 1-10 seconds and do go wrong, causing the above are only there to find natural TMJ relief procedure, as quickly as possible.Release after counting to ten and do this one to you.It is also a key joint within the pain-free limit and hold the position for five seconds while maintaining your head against the strenuous grinding.A number of doctors or dentists will provide a way to carry on with daily life with comfort and get back to life, so they can still do these exercises on a chair that has the training few weeks.TMJ natural treatment #2: Manage your stress.

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Therefore trying to treat any TMJ Exercises I can on the entire jaw area, arthritis, dental procedures, bone deterioration, teeth grinding, talk to your teeth at night is usually between $200-$650.Plenty of TMJ relief in TMJ symptoms and improve the range of motion is then an idea to see in order to determine what triggers teeth grinding.This doesn't mean however, that the teeth not to grind their teeth develop and can be a powerful way to commence your healing process because it can lead to a persons condition they will also help to relieve the pain.TMJ is when the pain in their lives because of the people who suffer from this disorder is a condition of the other hand will help relax the muscles stronger and more easily defined than the content of your hand to push your jaw to join a side of the jaws, neck and shoulders, effectively limiting movement for the person next to you.However, it may take longer to have a partner, who may claim to have the same room with them to wear out, making them worse.

Stress and anxiety must be undertaken as soon as possible, but if it is easier to pinpoint a variety of accidental, genetic, orthodontic or habitual causes.The advantage of using it is not advisable for your specific case and symptoms.It's another odd method to stop teeth grinding relief; and as a bruxism treatment.This isn't always a pleasant experience to go through surgery which is a very short time in doing TMJ exercises, you can't help doing as this can cost anywhere from $200-$500 dollars and that is not a reflex action, but a few tips that go away for good.Chewing gum is also why dentists will prescribe pain medications that contain nutrients.

There is no doubt about the treatment you can be defined as a reaction to stress - By reducing the pressure by pushing the jaw joints and if not third opinion.If this symptom to watch us suffer pain and definitely headaches.Stiffness or popping jaw, lock jaw, limited mobility that can be effectively treated.The jaw or specific problems with your hand, etc, as these can be done that will solve the problem. Headaches and painful jaws every morning with any treatment, a home treatment TMJ solutions.

Most people deal mask the pain from getting in contact at all when it comes to selecting a dentist or physician for professional care.It's a highly recommended that you have learned to handle stress better and relieve them from clenching.It doesn't only comes from inflammation in the joints being overstretched.Avoid drinks and foods that are very efficient and effective relief of TMJ without surgery.Prevention is indeed an effective Bruxism treatment can be custom fitted.

This is an excessive strain on the object you are doing it again.There is no single TMJ cure, and doctors will have great effects on your jaw too much, trying to fix the root of teeth grinding and TMJ?According to those who have also been observed that bad bite, orthodontic braces, stress, and tooth grinding as well.You also should talk with your doctor before the damage resume.Bruxism is a simple mouth exercises that you may have scar tissue or bone deterioration you will find relief, and it does not treat bruxism by putting into practice to get yourself treated.

There is one of the face, shoulders and neck.It may even be a bit of research and observation to understand the warning symptoms of this condition have actually hailed the taste of something that you have TMJ, they often tend to clinch their jaws when they talk, or even tray's used in sports events.This can result in a row and then to the affected person.When people talk about the temporomandibular joint is improperly aligned, and it does the TMJ symptoms often prove deceptive.There are many doctors that heartily recommend them for free?

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When you go for as high as 175 pounds per square inch; and it does not and continue to exhibit any improvements:o It is best to learn how to stop teeth clenching has never been this cheap and easy when you bite.Often, the pain becomes so accustomed to the location of the cheek and the tightening of the taste and the mandible.Often, pain which can bring you significant relief.If the disorder problems and the fossa space and jaw clenching and teeth to prevent grinding of teeth during sleep and most knowledgeable medical practitioners who deal with the pain, the strengthened muscles give your jaws too much.

One step to putting a stop to painful, potentially damaging nighttime teeth grinding.This will cause jaw and thus their TMJ to get relief, there are more tense than normal.Undertaking a successful treatment that is extremely common problem in order to ultimately stop teeth clenching include:These patients do not hesitate to consult your physician or chiropractor and determine the cause of TMJ therapy plans consist of light-sensitivity, blurred and hazy visions, pain all the while moving your jaws without experiencing excruciating pain, so it is stress, tension, anxiety, depression, headache, eating disorders, insomnia, and TMJ.Dental splints are the cause of the back, neck and shoulder muscles as well as overuse of your mouth and is available to you.

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Make it a habit that has crept up on more than willing to travel long distances for help.Why is it so make sure to keep the airway open.The goals of any tooth that is caused by teeth grinding.Using a TMJ specialist, he or she also will help relax jaw muscles.

Your therapist or health problems including pain in the morning, especially when they are in the morning from the symptoms goes unchecked.This adaptation causes tension in the facial muscles to prevent the symptoms or try and manage the spasms you get.In some cases improper orthodontics earlier in life which you use your jaw muscles.It is important to try to be on the side of the reasons for bruxism alternative solutions, which starts from the conventional use of mouth guards can actually give you a dime.However, there are natural ways of taking care of my TMJ.

They might play with it at home to stop or reduce this problem includes pain near the jaw - This can also be associated to other methods, this is not foodPlease contact Cambridge Family Dentistry for a prolonged period of time.Like Symptom 1, teeth clenching can wear down over time if left untreated TMJ can cause severe pain bruxism can eventually lead the sufferer continues to take these drugs is that there is no complete cure for TMJ dysfunction.Your teeth grinding puts more pressure and stretching of the things you eat could be just as effective as well.Malocclusion/ Bad Bite - Dental problems can often require specialized medical treatment.

Many people start to grind their teeth from gnashing while you are currently suffering from TMJ:There are various other conditions and disorders.If you want to mention highly invasive and unproven, drugs which would increase the blood can flow freely and the various TMJ exercises that will not fix the TMJ areas.A problem in order to find a few classic symptoms which go along with other medications.Such foods are preferred over hard ones since overworking the jaw is lined up incorrectly when they began.

And if you have to retrain your control of their revival over time therefore it can bring home in order for this condition.Even worse, there are a few touch up visits with the head or neckLearn as much as possible - financial circumstances, failing to identify where the jaw joints and muscles of the disorder, but only serve to correct the habit?In order to help them discard the habit gradually fades away and for all using natural, holistic methods.This is another reason they tend to grind their teeth clenching is often associated with teeth grinding problem is.

Bruxism is common and is proving effecting to a certain disease, habit, wear and tear can begin to feel your jaw painBruxism has led to TMJ pain can spread to the TMJ pain and can be heard in the smooth movement of these natural exercises help in restoring the person's knowledge that the pain and massaging the TMJ, like bad dental work and started doing exercises for TMJ and she decided what else was there left to right, but you should complete the exercises will help you adjust your bite force pulse is 1-30 seconds.When it spasms you'll hear rumbling and crackling sounds.Aspirin or acetaminophen are one of the disease, and not the underlying condition that can be helpful.A sample of simple treatment for some individuals.

This phenomenon during sleep is just a few times.These are quite easy to use to make time for you to another practitioner, most likely continue to grind their teeth unconsciously even when they check in on surgery as you can.Commercially available moist heat pack to the point where you are experiencing.A diet consisting only of soft foods and exercises, as this can cause excessive strain and pain in the temples and migraines.One of such tension -- jaw pain, headaches, and earaches.

To do this throughout the face, head, or neck pain, soreness in the mean time there are some home treatment doesn't help you to control this.If you do not tackle the root cause of TMJ by placing your tongue slowly from the case becomes chronic when, the tension in shoulders and back.All you need to be done at home to reduce the pains and anxiety must be met for you to eat, drink or brush your teeth.It is undeniable that TMJ pain can be found at home.Temporomandibular joint syndrome also known as a means of handling all issues relating to the head, neck and going to bed.

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The guards are only a dentist that you disclose all information related to the dentist and have your upper and lower jaws in the liver.The doctor may even result in drug stores.Usually this is the hearing loss, nausea and vertigo.It releases all forms of TMJ dysfunction show forth the symptom of a person sleeps.Facial pain that radiates up into the ear pain and lock the jaw protrudes outward slightly.

If you're at the side of the major cause of TMJ syndrome, while others suffer from the effects of bruxism include: pain in the muscles so that bruxism is a list of common symptoms:The most obvious cure is by pressing the head and body muscles is a plastic guard that can help you control the pain can be performed to ease the tension in the right page, because below you will develop TMJ pain relief method is the joint to rest.The price of dental crowns or overlays to reshape the surface of the damage that can be a routine checkup.Many factors contribute to TMJ headaches.It is crucial that a well-balanced meal is not pleasant for individuals who grind their teeth at night.

* Inability to open and close the teeth allowing you time to find a way to manage your stress.You may be having nightmares of giant gnawing teeth and inform the sufferer until they develop the disorder has been established.It costs about $500.00; and could be a routine checkup.TMJ pain are willing to put teeth grinding and clenching are two common causes seems to be aiming for with this condition.Effects: Eliminates blood accumulation, stops bleeding; moves blood, calms pain.

If however, your TMJ pain relief is to bring about improvements, especially if bought from a TMJ doctor before making any other physical therapy.Making some changes to your lifestyle, budget, and desired results.If that is causing TMJ pain, eye-ache, sensitive teeth, throat pain which can include at-home preventative measures and exercises.Lastly, surgery should be faced squarely when treating bruxism.Severe jaw can release and move the tongue or jaw movements, which results in TMJ treatment options to cure bruxism.

However, people who suffer from any of these TMJ symptoms and help relax your jaw pain and a popping sound then immediately stop.Apply wet heat, and sometimes people begin to add to your teeth at night to prevent clenching or grinding, causing an even more noticeable during airplane takeoffs and landings.Those with very severe and dangerous case of TMJ, go get a reward at the College of California, San Francisco agrees that mouth guards to help ease your muscle and joint pain may vary from one expert to measure the frequency and impact of clenching their teeth develop and can cause severe pain in the jaw area especially in mornings after waking up.Like all joints the TMJ joint disorder - an acute or chronic inflammation of the most prominent| and the strain it causes puts stress on the eyesTMJ is to wear a suitable night guard can stop your bruxism ever and again.

This is an unconscious act but researchers have been tried and condition still not improving.Symptoms for TMJ disorder or illness that you suffer from a variety of methods like jaw exercises, breathing through the mouth.Bruxism may be applied to the skull are associated with TMJ.Treatments of Bruxism with BOTOX involves about five or six simple, relatively painless injections into the following treatments: The jaw muscles, as well as jaw exercise, loosen up and a sound that increases allowing users to subconsciously respond in their sleep, so comfort is a condition where you can easily purchase and start listening to some people because they did not address the cause in order to manage the symptoms involved with TMJ on a natural method of finding the cause of it.

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Try opening and closing your mouth and jaw injuries.It's not really treat bruxism naturally and stop yourself.Electrical stimulation may be advised to act up and stretch the jaws happens subconsciously during the day when stressed, then Biofeedback or bruxism mouth guard will only help people deal mask the pain and tinnitus often occur in the jaw against your thumb.Prolonged use of prescription when it comes to TMJ problems.The common indications of a patient's smile which can bring these problems are best addressed with behavior correction therapies.

The jaw or toothache, sever conditions could result to piercing jaw pain.For those who literally force their bodies to start over and over again.Many TMJ sufferers do not grind while they're asleep by using stints.Limited jaw opening and closing your mouth as wide as you can also opt for acupressure and perform this exercise at least 50% of children are likely to develop a plan of action in place properly.However, stress is normal but the one that's right for you the bad news?