#and then lewis can fucking yell at him dkjfndkfnk

[andthebubbles]

fellas im tired and bored, i need coffee... HAHAA

i kinda hate it when f1 testing is on cause all they talk about in the live feed is merc and red bull and ferrari when all i wanna hear about is aston martin... 

(the only driver i kinda like from those 3 aforementioned teams is perez just because we share the exact same birthday so whenever he stands next to seb i feel like i’m standing next to seb 😂😂😂 but yeah kjfdngfkgj no i don’t care about merc or their sidepods or ferrari and whoever lol (sainz??? why kfjgkfg i mean i don’t mind him but dkjfgnkg???) and okay i kinda retain a soft spot for rbr except for christian horner and helmut marko... adrian newey is still cool though... and i miss having no/‘no’ team orders... now they’re fucking everywhere and perez is so nice, i miss mark’s arseholeness (who would’ve ever thought i’d say that lol))

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since i’m sleepyyyyy... am gonna say i’ve kinda hit the pause button on superpowers fic... unwillingly though. i’ve noticed that with those moments in a fic which you thought of months ago, which have been in your head ever since and you were looking forward to writing it... when you actually get there you actually fucking stall? i think it’s because i had preconceived notions of how it’d go, but when you actually get there, so much other stuff has happened that maybe your original idea doesn’t work anymore.

like, in superpowers fic i threw in something new cause i thought it’d be cool (and they were heading in that direction anyway); then... well the scene that’s been in my head for months, it had no beginning lol it was just rami asking something about seb. now the lead up to it will be different anyway, more angsty, less fluffy... but maybe the issue is more that i have this black box before it, before that Moment

a similar thing happened with sebis fic... the ending took me like 5? months to figure out. cause i originally imagined seb would regret doing the Thing, so my first drafts were written like that and then the ending got longer and longer and longer and there was no ending, seb and lewis don’t get together, if they did it’d actually be so fucked up. (it’s a simi fic in disguise lol i just can’t get away from my otp :3) anyway fkjgnfkgn it took me 5 fucking months to realise that seb wouldn’t regret doing what he did, and it’s a so much better ending because he was an arsehole for most of the story (a sympathetic one though!! or maybe i’m just whipped) but you don’t clearly see it till the end and i know it sounds weird to say this but i still fucking love the suckerpunch you get cause imo that’s the first time you realise that he’s really fucked up.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :3 i still have a lot of feels about sebis!seb okay