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Very genuinely I appreciate all the people offering fixes (I really mean this, I hope it helps people finding this post and its showed me a few more Windows debloat options).
At the same time, it doesn’t change the fact that I’m sick of workarounds for something that never needed workarounds. Things that should be basic features on hardware you own. I even have a Linux machine with a Mint distro on it and have been messing around with it, but switching to Linux shouldn’t have to be the answer.
So many people are pointing out that they have to use a personal smartphone for work or for banking. I needed one to get the app to buzz in my office building’s locked door.
Things that should be tools (AI, photo editors, software on computers) have been weaponized against users. Social media is homogenized and difficult to truly personalize or control. Everything wants your phone number. Google asked me to add my home address to my email. Cars don’t come with knobs, but touch screens. It’s harder and harder to buy appliances that aren’t connected to wifi.
I am unbelievably grateful for those that have workarounds— who make programmers to strip bloatware, reprogram OSes for things like iPods and the Car Thing, who program raspberry pis to block ads, make forums and browser games and communities online as alternatives. We have gotta keep doing it. It can’t be about quick fixes and begrudging compromises anymore. Not everyone can ditch their smartphone or use Linux. But we can not shut up about stupid crap and make changes ourselves.
I don’t mean that to sound like a wearying call to action demanding you stop talking to that friend you only have contact with on Facebook, etc. But I do think it’s good to evaluate what you’re willing to put up with on your computer and what you can change for your own personal benefit, just like you should be able to do in the first place. And to not shut up and make your distaste for crap features known.
In the wise words of the angry guy in the Windows support forum:
I don't know I'm not done talking about it. It's insane that I can't just uninstall Edge or Copilot. That websites require my phone number to sign up. That people share their contacts to find their friends on social media.
I wouldn't use an adblocker if ads were just banners on the side funding a website I enjoy using and want to support. Ads pop up invasively and fill my whole screen, I misclick and get warped away to another page just for trying to read an article or get a recipe.
Every app shouldn't be like every other app. Instagram didn't need reels and a shop. TikTok doesn't need a store. Instagram doesn't need to be connected to Facebook. I don't want my apps to do everything, I want a hub for a specific thing, and I'll go to that place accordingly.
I love discord, but so much information gets lost to it. I don't want to join to view things. I want to lurk on forums. I want to be a user who can log in and join a conversation by replying to a thread, even if that conversation was two days ago. I know discord has threads, it's not the same. I don't want to have to verify my account with a phone number. I understand safety and digital concerns, but I'm concerned about information like that with leaks everywhere, even with password managers.
I shouldn't have to pay subscriptions to use services and get locked out of old versions. My old disk copy of photoshop should work. I should want to upgrade eventually because I like photoshop and supporting the business. Adobe is a whole other can of worms here.
Streaming is so splintered across everything. Shows release so fast. Things don't get physical releases. I can't stream a movie I own digitally to friends because the share-screen blocks it, even though I own two digital copies, even though I own a physical copy.
I have an iPod, and I had to install a third party OS to easily put my music on it without having to tangle with iTunes. Spotify bricked hardware I purchased because they were unwillingly to upkeep it. They don't pay their artists. iTunes isn't even iTunes anymore and Apple struggles to upkeep it.
My TV shows me ads on the home screen. My dad lost access to eBook he purchased because they were digital and got revoked by the company distributing them. Hitman 1-3 only runs online most of the time. Flash died and is staying alive because people love it and made efforts to keep it up.
I have to click "not now" and can't click "no". I don't just get emails, they want to text me to purchase things online too. My windows start search bar searches online, not just my computer. Everything is blindly called an app now. Everything wants me to upload to the cloud. These are good tools! But why am I forced to use them! Why am I not allowed to own or control them?
No more!!!!! I love my iPod with so much storage and FLAC files. I love having all my fics on my harddrive. I love having USBs and backups. I love running scripts to gut suck stuff out of my Windows computer I don't want that spies on me. I love having forums. I love sending letters. I love neocities and webpages and webrings. I will not be scanning QR codes. Please hand me a physical menu. If I didn't need a smartphone for work I'd get a "dumb" phone so fast. I want things to have buttons. I want to use a mouse. I want replaceable batteries. I want the right to repair. I grew up online and I won't forget how it was!
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ever since I wrote the thing where spock tells mccoy that the ozh'esta can be platonic, in the back of my head I keep thinking about a fic where the entire basis is that spock does know he's into mccoy, and he (don't do this) basically lulls him into vulcan dating without telling him? like finger kissing sure sure sure, but other things as well that, like, up the ante a LOT. and because i'm not a particularly kind person, I was trying to think how kirk could also be doing that, but of course he doesn't have the same leeway as spock, as mccoy obviously knows what human gestures of affection/romance are - so i think the best workaround would be for kirk to convince mccoy to try a chill/casual friends with benefits thing with him, except kirk keeps, like, doing super intense romantic things, and (i'm exaggerating for comedic affect) gaslighting him that they're really just what every friends with benefits situation is like, and because mccoy's never had a fwb, he's just like......"that sounds wrong but I don't know enough about them to prove you wrong" and goes along with it.
point being that he is routinely getting to idk vulcan third base with spock, but spock is just like "odd that you think this is romantic and/or sexual, this is just vulcan friendship, doctor," and meanwhile he's supposed to be having quickies with kirk to blow off steam, but kirk keeps doing the most romantic shit and being like, "yeah, giving you roses is my kink, why are you being so weird about it" and mccoy's just. listen. he's dated around okay, he's not some shy blushing virgin, but he has made the tragic mistake of trusting his two best friends, and by george are they gonna abuse that trust (don't do this) in their attempts to win him over lmao.
I mostly keep thinking about other vulcans coming on board and them subtly realizing and reacting to spock's ~claim~ on mccoy, and spock being disgustingly smug about it, and meanwhile someone hits on mccoy and kirk swoops in and, like, tenderly cups mccoy's cheek and kisses him and then leaves, and mccoy's like, yeah, no, we're just friends?, and everyone around him is???? babe??? no you aren't???
is it possible to write this without mccoy coming off TOO oblivious and/or spock and kirk coming off TOO lacking of boundaries, I just don't know, but it does make me giggle now and again when I think about it
also the fact that he is going to genuinely murder them when he realizes what they've been doing, and they can't even complain, because they both know they absolutely deserve it.
#tos writing ref#this feels too disjointed to put in the tags so i will just keep it in my writing tag#i think about this pretty much every time someone interacts with the counseling fic tbh#listen listen listen i have admitted many times that i'm a sucker for kirk and spock running roughshod over mccoy's boundaries#and mccoy long-sufferingly Allowing it. and this feels like the logical conclusion of it tbh. he's gonna hafta murder them both tho.#that or he's gonna set payback along the lines of......they aren't allowed to touch him for two months (how long he had to deal with this!)#but he's allowed to touch them whenever/however he wants during that time 😌😌😌#(honestly they'd have preferred if he just killed them lbr)#okay i'll shush up i need to go make dinner anyway lmao#the heart wants what it wants and my heart wants silly and unhinged mcspirk 😔🙃😌
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Right but as I am writing the Wall E AU I keep finding plotholes in both the film and in my interpretation and god its driving me up the bend
Like- yk how all of earths population is living in space at that point? Thats alot of bloody ships and now I've gotta come up with an explanation for it because they dont properly explain it in the film but then I was doing some research on it and then I found out that in film canon there was a climate disaster which wiped out over half of the worlds population and thats why theres not as many ships,
BUT I CANT BLOODY WRITE THAT PLOTPOINT BECAUSE THE WALL E'S IN MY FIC ARE HUMAN SO THEY WOULD HAVE BEEN WIPED OUT TOO IF THERE WAS A CLIMATE DISASTER
godddd why've I decided to make this fic more complicated than it needs to be its literally Silly Red dwarf guys but Silly Wall E robots, I dont know why ive done this to myself wtf
Anyway I'm probably gonna try and ignore that plothole and let it sit in a corner while I continue to write lolll
#jesus christ it makes me want to rip out my hair#and I've added all these silly little plotpoints which weren't in the original film as well so its all complicated now#and every chapter i write I go - holdon does this even work#and then have to come up with a workaround#like how i had to come up with Lister getting into the ship because I couldn't just have him hanging onto the outside of it like in the fil#cause he'd die#theres so much in the film that works because they are robots#like the fucjing 'Define Dancing' scene#the most iconic one in the whole goddamn film#which I have to come up with a workaround for cause I still wanna write that scene cause I love it so much#but I cant just do it like in the film cause Wall E gets sent into space in the escape pod which he blows up (idiot <3)#and I cant just blow up Lister and then have him zoom around in space without a space suit#dude would die#Why did I do this to myself#Tip guys#dont ever write an AU with human characters based off a film with robot characters#because its a bloody nightmare#THERES A REASON THAT THEY ARE ROBOTS APPARENTLY#so they can do all this funky flying around in space stuff without worrying about goddamn dying#screaming crying throwing up#why did I have to get comitted and obsessed with THIS idea specifically omgggggg#red dwarf wall e au#red dwarf#rimster#my posts
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i have this fic series i'm still working on where mihawk sort of becomes rayleigh's kid and spends ages 11-17ish on the oro jackson.
shanks and buggy imprint on him (bugs considers him a sort of older brother figure/sparring inspiration and shanks has a crush that eventually turns into full-blown love) and this is how i imagine they're like on the day mihawk sets off on his own haha.
#fic recs#dracule mihawk#akataka#mishanks#buggy#buggy the clown#shanks#akagami no shanks#red haired shanks#one piece#one piece fanart#op fanart#clearly my workaround to 'i should be working on my deadlines instead of doodling mishanks' is to finger-draw on my phone instead#on the plus side i'll never be tempted to go and fully render what was supposed to be a sketch#on the minus side i'm wondering if drawing with my finger takes up the same amount of time anyways.........#smh#anyways in this au i have this part planned where after shankd and buggy get into a fight over the chop chop#shanks comes crying to mihawk all devastated and annoyed and mihawk who is 16 and absolutely doesnt want to deal with a crying 12 year old#decides to fix things himself by showing buggy the pros of his devil fruit via forceful and incredibly harrowing sparring session LOL.#makes him see right away how much of a boon it is to never be able to get cut by a blade. it turns into an actually fun sesh#'cuz mihawk starts enjoying the challenge and the creativity and control and buggy starts wielding his knives in flying hands.#ends with mihawk berating him on how he treats his brother and how mihawk never wants to have to deal with shanks like that again#and also lowkey encouraging buggy by saying he's a resourceful kid and he's got people if he cant do things himself.#at this point in time shanks kind of wants mihawk to be his knight in shining armour so he's happy to hear what mihawk did#but mihawk is Fully Over bunking with two 12 year olds. ray please can he just set out on his own now. he's done it before. come on.#he is not a babysitter!!!!!!#tho these fics will focus mostly on hawk & ray jsyk#i digress
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hot take but the gatekeeping and purism in these replies makes it so evident that some people haven't even bothered to see how ChatGPT works.
If you've ever used it, you'd know it is an excellent tool, but ultimately, it does not replace an editor, or in this case, a beta reader. In short, when you use the GPT, you have to invest time into teaching it what you need it to do. This is part of prompt engineering, and it takes some level of skill. You can't just ask it to do shit as if it were the genie in the lamp, contrary to popular belief. If you are trying to use it as a quick workaround from a beta reader that focuses on developmental issues, it is simply not going to work. You need to coach it. Full stop.
That being said, and pushing the ideological point aside for a moment, as someone that has written fanfic, original fiction, and corporate documents (though only have used AI on my own original work), I do think it is a better tool for developing original work of any kind than for transformative fiction because in transformative fiction, you already have a set of parameters you need to follow and there is only so much the GPT will be able to help you with if it knows you are working with someone else's intellectual property. Basicslly, you already have the tools you need to get yourself unstuck from a plot hole, since the actual story, the base parameters you must follow in order for it to be considered derivative fiction, has already been written for you by the original, canon author.
GPT is probably best as a brainstorming and iteration tool, i.e. when you are stuck on something and want to see your options or be reminded of a bird eye's view of your work (something that is not precisely the strongsuit of a discussion with a peer, as these usually are rich in details, and notably, also unintentionally biased). This is more useful if you are coming up with something from scratch imo, because as an author you are continuously developing those parameters readers will later on use as the starting point for their own derivatives, i.e. fanfic.
So, it is not whether or not AI has a place in fandom, it's just that it is simply not as useful as it could be when it comes to developmental work (not line editing).
That being said, to shun AI as nothing short of a sin speaks of closemindedness, bordering on willful ignorance.
AI can't replace the input of a colleague because the AI will give you the answer that is logical, not necessarily the pleasing or aesthetic one. Not the one a human would enjoy reading, in any case. That is inalienable. It is up to you as a creative to exercise your discernment. The usefulness of ChatGPT is directly tied to your ability for critical thinking and your mastery over your topic. If you can't do much of that, then it simply won't be that useful.
On the matter of whether it constitutes the end of fandom community as we know it, and that no one that uses it can call themself a writer, I think it is a very gatekeepy thing to say. We say that as though there aren't any cliques and egos and jealousies and dynamics of influence that people, especially newcomers, have to navigate in order to find their niche in these communities. We say that as though everyone has all the best intentions at all times and we all have all the time and energy in the world. Sometimes, people do not have beta readers, not for a lack of trying, but simply because they are ignored, rejected, or simply too new or too shy in their communities. Here is when AI can actually make a difference to an extent (because again, if you are new to writing, you really should be striving to learn by practicing instead of asking the chat). If you are a writer with some skill, you know it cannot replace the interaction with like-minded peers because all the AI does is speed up your own creative process, but it cannot write the thing for you, not really. It cannot say, "My heart skipped a beat when I read this".
Under capable hands, it is a tremendous help, but it simply isn't a replacement.
Fanfic is ultimately a subversion of capitalism. It is labor with absolutely no purpose other than enjoyment. A core tenet of fanfic is to use other people's ideas as a playground and to just. waste time and have fun. Whether you need AI for that or not... well, that is up to you to reflect on.
just saw a fanfic on ao3 have a dedication for chatgpt... that section is meant for your horny perverted mutual who proofread your work, you violated sacred law and you will be torn apart and laid bare btw
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I'm Caroline from Gaza. Am sorry for sending you this request without your permission. My house was destroyed in the war, and my family lost everything. We've been displaced multiple times, but there's no safe place here. I'm battling Type 1 Diabetes and can't afford insulin, and my mother needs treatment for kidney failure outside Gaza. Any donation, no matter how small, can help us survive and get my mother the care she needs. A friend outside Gaza is helping with the donation program. Please reach out if you need more details.
Damn, your name is Doreen, Mary Ann, Ruth, AND Caroline? You sure have a lot of names. Also somehow is able to use Paypal, despite it not working in Palestine. (Update since this is still getting attention. While Paypal can be a red flag, I do want to make it clear that there are workarounds to this, and not every fundraiser that uses it is a scam)
On top of all your blog activity being around the same time (which is a major red flag)
#rinblings#Caroline Nangunda#colorfulgladiatordelusion#ffs please look into any blog claming to be from Palestine (or any new blog asking for donations) that is using Paypal#on top of the OP having an autogenerated username#not saying every Palestinian using Paypal is a scammer though since there are workarounds and I've seen at least one legit one using it#if no evidence comes up for their username then search their Paypal name#lovingchaosheartladdy#enchantingladyearthquake#if you're pretending to be a victim of a genocide for a quick buck then go to h3ll :)#donation scam#scam warning#scam alert#gaza scam#scammers#online scams
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things aren’t going well with peach. while i think my dad’s very right to be concerned that she hasn’t eaten anything in nearly 60 hours (obviously i am too), im becoming increasingly concerned that she hasn’t slept at all in around 36 hours and prior to that she was under anaesthetic, which isn’t exactly restful, so it’s closer to 48 hrs
like dad took her back to the vet today and we’ve got injections for her painkillers now because she’s not eating, and also injections for fluids (because she doesn’t drink; she only gets water from her food), so the not eating is Bad but also kinda under management, but if she doesn’t sleep soon i’m extremely worried. dad was like ‘if she doesn’t eat by tomorrow afternoon we’ll take her back because the injections will run out’ but like. if she doesn’t sleep tonight we have GOT to take her back first thing in the morning so they can sedate her or something
#her pain doesn’t seem to be too bad now that she’s got pain relief so idk what’s stopping her from sleeping#she won’t even lie down unless i’m sitting next to her. she just sits there staring out the window#her pupils are also taking up her entire eyes and have been all day#that’ll be a side effect of the medication and maybe the lack of sleep? but it won’t be making her feel any better#she can probably barely see at this point#like imagine you’ve been awake for 2 days after surgery and you’re in a lot of pain and haven’t eaten since before surgery#and are also on strong painkillers. and you also have no idea what’s wrong with you or why everyone’s doing things that hurt you#bruh your brain would be COOKED. there’s no way she has any idea what’s going on rn but she’s clearly feeling terrible#personal#like i think she’ll be ok in the long-term but she’s gotta somehow get through all these immediate issues#last time something like this happened she stopped drinking and never started again#not eating or sleeping don’t have workarounds as simple as putting water in her food#it really doesn’t help that there’s so much other shit going on rn#i’m doing a whole bunch of stuff with my phone and computer that’s taking a lot of work#but also my sister’s going on a long overseas trip that she’s leaving for tomorrow#so the combo of dad and sister coming and going constantly and also like 6 random deliveries for tech stuff in the last 2 days—#has the dogs really wound up. so georgie’s been howling at absolutely everything#and it’s rainy so my clothes aren’t trying and they’re hanging on a rack hooked on the hallway door so the door can’t close#which puts one less door between my room and the dogs so they’re waking me up every time anything happens#and i sleep during the day so that’s ALL THE TIME. i’ve had like 8 hrs of sleep between the last two afternoons#my sister always has so much random life stuff she wants to talk about and was getting really annoyed that i wasn’t very receptive#like ‘im about to go away for 3 months’ sorry i know its a big thing but i can’t just reschedule peach’s medical emergency
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what do you MEAN i have to suffer through another 6 days of work. and then do it again. and again. and again. and ag-
#d speaks#deadass about to bring this up to my bosses like HEY can i have a workaround please#id be willing to come in on sundays if i got two weekdays off to balance it out#never mind im losing sleep over other stuff lmao
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Next step on the journey of self-indulgent ghoul-Durge headcanons which I'm bizarrely invested in is: 'Replace Doresain as God-King of the Ghouls.'
Vel's sort of an elf, and half-murder god so that's a step closer than working from scratch. It'd be simple enough to start a cult following and get deliberately muddled up with Doresain as an identity and use that as a jumping point from which to steal his portfolio/domain...
#They even both favour the scimitar as a weapon#There's a whole new timeline opening up in my collection of timelines. This one might be canon to me#Being used to ghoul-type nonsense Durge would be able to adapt faster in theory getting past the overly feral stage#So I don't think it'd be a dealbreaker for his relationship with Astarion. Vanity and physical issues also come with workarounds.#Ghouls have very long dextrous tongues so that will pay off in some ways that make up for a lot#Take a cue from Gortash's wardrobe: gold claws#Gold claws and roast dwarf instead of raw - he will be the most cultured ghoul around#Mostly because vampires are squeamish babies and relationships come with sacrifices#babbling#/durge#edgelord hours#OCs#Vel
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Nothing pisses me off more than when people talk about my friendships with mid-support needs autistics and other people with differently-wired brains as if I am descending to help them because I’ve taken them on as a charity case. That is NOT true. Oh they’re a burden because they’re neurodivergent? WELL GUESS FUCKING WHAT: SO AM I! THE REASON I HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS WITH SO MUCH SHIT WRONG WITH THEM IS BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT OF SHIT WRONG WITH ME. WE ATTRACT EACH OTHER! WE LIKE EACH OTHER! IT’S NOT THAT FUCKING HARD TO UNDERSTAND!
#How about I just start strangling ableists from now on?#Would THAT convince them I’m actually this person’s real friend?#Literally nothing I say to them is able to get through their dense fucking skulls—#as if it’s sooooo hard for them to believe I actually enjoy their company#Also (halfway unrelated): if I hear “It takes a special person to work with special children” one more time I am going to SCREAM#Tell me I’m calm; tell me I’m patient; tell me I’m creative��� do NOT tell me I’m “special” for doing a job I LOVE#Can you imagine telling a quantum physics major “It takes a special person to solve special math problems?”#😂💀 WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. I’m gonna start saying that to people from other professions. To see how they like it.#The children are not a burden to me; the children are very enjoyable to be around#and I enjoy troubleshooting what is preventing them from learning and coming up with workarounds for them#I made a glued roll of paper for a kid who constantly peels their skin because I saw them peeling crayons#It works!#I made math problems into a Skibidi Toilet role playing game for another kid who hides under tables when it’s time to work. It works!#You know why I was able to come up with either of these inventions? Huh? You wanna fucking know?#1.) I peel my lips and mouth and palms of my hands and calluses and cuticles and scabs; and#2.) I have awful executive dysfunction and have to do weird stuff to engage myself#People talk to me like I’m one of the “normal” ones; little do they know I’m getting assessed for ADHD and score 142 on the RAADS-R#and I essentially self-destruct when I get mad so I don’t break valuable items or punch through drywall and oak doors#I give myself bruises that swell a half inch high and form hematomas under the skin#I think I’ve permanently weakened the blood vessels and a vein in my right thigh from beating it so much#because it only takes one well-placed blow on my right; but several blows to my left#And I can see the bruise pooling towards my heart along the path of that vein from day to day after the initial beating#and sometimes it just randomly aches when it’s not injured; so I have to shift my weight when the kids sit in my lap wrong#so with that and something else I did to it not super recently that I should have gone to urgent care for… I probably have nerve damage lol#so it’s gross when people say such things about other NDs to me as if I am above them#Just fuck off already
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Random hot take
JJK would unironically have been better if Gojo beat Sukuna. Just make it a mutual kill or have Gojo just barely survive and be unable to fight and now you're free to have all the other characters show their stuff against Kenjaku without locking in the ruination of the series. Also, the series' worldbuilding died forever when it showed Gojo having killed the council behind the screens who run the jujutsu world. If he could've just done that whenever, that invalidates basically all the problems that came about due to friction between him and the conservative faction. The electric guitar principle was always able to work with him despite being a tsundere about it, so why not just put him in charge by virtue of all his colleagues being dead? Why even have the plot point about Itadori being under a suspended death sentence when Gojo not wanting him to die was all it took to ensure that never came to pass?
#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu gojo#i get the argument of “he had to get rid of gojo precisely because of these issues”#but that's taking the cheap and easy way out#This is the same story that finally codified “explaining your power makes it strong” from HxH to a full ability with showing one's hand#gege is absolutely smart enough to have come up with a better fix and/or workaround than just getting rid of gojo altogether
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Laois's party would see post-Shibuya Incident Tokyo as another dungeon. Tokyo Jujutsu Tech students would see the island's dungeon as a vacation.
#if i wrote fic i would its all fleshed out but heres some notes#both groups would solve each other's problems. for itadori it'd take a week. for laios it would take countless lives.#tonal whiplash so intense you'd get physical pain#marcille et al having to cope with the fact that they are also creating the horrors every waking moment#laios & senshi just think thats perfect for a self-sustaining ecosystem until one of them either gags on a curse or wakes up not quite aliv#itadori would refuse to eat a single monster unless it was absolutely fucking necessary no other options no workarounds etc#jjk cast would have a funky good time BUT not know how to process - positive or negative - the soul lingering in the body after death#pseudo death if you will.#thats breakdown time eventually but also ''oh i can finally kill you for real'' friendly teasing. and unprecedented sparring ofc#dungeon meshi party would figure out more of how curses work exactly than even tsukumo yuki but not before so many people died#jjk crew come out of it all as tragic though bc like#they just saw a world where NO ONES negative emotions spawn curses but they werent there long enough to figure it out#bi rambles#also fushiguro was MADE to be discontent in the frog suit.#edit i cant believe i forgot: falin and rika would be BESTIES
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Save your canvas every time you find yourself thinking "Wow, I do NOT want to redraw that ever again"
#I have a nervous trigger of ctrl+s every five minutes these days XD#babygirl if you mess up enough times you will come up with workarounds for everything. I hven't drawn on the wrong layer in years
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i am standing at the kitchen counter deseeding a pomegranate (my favorite fruit) and I am carefully going through every seed (because I forgot about it) (because it's started to turn) and they are dull red instead of vibrant and taut (it's started to turn). I discard almost half the pomegranate (my favorite fruit) seeds because they're mushy (I forgot about it). and I remember how every day I saw the pomegranate on the counter (I remember things when I see them) and thought that I should deseed it (because it would start to turn) and then I'd turn away and I'd forget (because I couldn't see it) (because I didn't want to remember that I was forgetting). and now all these seeds (mushy, dull red) are being discarded because I forgot (even though it's my favorite fruit). and I can remember (because I'm seeing it) (because I'm holding it) (because the juice is on my hands) that I forgot it day after day. and I wonder if my distress, the frustration will be enough (so I won't forget it next time). and I know it won't be (because I'm going to turn away when I'm done) (because I won't see it anymore) and that I am going to forget, again, to deseed the pomegranates (my favorite fruit). I will be here again (again). i discard another seed. i am standing at the kitchen counter deseeding a pomegranate
#shitpost#quil's unholy underworld#no one fucking talk to me I am SO upset#<- you can talk to me I am exaggerating#i don't know what this is#poetry?#but sometimes I /hate/ my shitty object permanence#i LOVE pomegranate. SO much#and yet I let it rot on the counter for what. a week? two?#i can't even remember#and all those seeds I had to discard would've been perfectly fine if I could just! remember! the pomegranates! on the counter!#and no one else in the house touches the pomegranates because they're mine. mom buys them specifically because I love them#so no one touches them#and I repay that by letting it rot#i know i'm not doing it intentionally#but it still. hurts#and I know it's not gonna change! i'm still gonna forget!#i can come up with systems. I can find workarounds#but at the end of the day i have to come up with systems because I am someone fighting not to let my favorite fruit#bought just for me. rot away on the counter#screams screams screams screams screams screams#anyway. deseeded the pomegranates this evening#what's up with y'all?
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My hands are Killing me in a way that they shouldn’t be when it’s also this hot out like man what’re you doin all that for??? We don’t believe in overtime here
#very confusing moment earlier wherein it was suggested I ease up on the hand washing in such a way that implied I’m making an active choice#to like baby it’s In My Brain disjjd I’m trying I promise but like there’s only so much to be done#the issue with lotion is that it requires me to come into contact with the tops of my hands which would mean I have to wash em again and#yeah I’ve got workarounds but it SUCKS and is BAD#uggggHhhhhhhshsbddhhdhd#tacit rambles#vent#contamination
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blasting into a discord with my 750,000 simulated dice rolls and stem background to argue about the rules of a game with the designer
#to clarify i am not doing this to be an asshole i am doing it because i had neat dice facts and strong opinions#there's a specific rule about how rolls are resolved if you don't have *anything* in your dice pool#but unfortunately in tough situations (where you'd be cutting the highest 1 or 2 results)#the roll resolution with nothing gives you better odds than mid-tier dice pools. statistically disincentivizing using your skills.#to be fair one can come up with potential narrative and mechanical workarounds as a dm#and it does require your players to either be desperate (not putting together an alternate route) or to have also run the numbers#(and to be willing to use a mechanical loophole)#but as i had neat stats information (hooray!) and one of my favorite activities is rules-lawyering i had to say *something*#anyway! dice-rolling stats are *weird* and vary *wildly* depending on how your system uses them#and a fun and easy thing you can do before playing any new ttrpg is get yourself some dice stats information#familiarize yourself with your odds of success
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