#and then come up with a comeback 3-5 business days later in the shower

[lichenmoose]

actually speaking of games i really wanna play more online games and make friends but men make me wanna tear my bush out

anyways if anyone sees this and plays online games help a girl out

[heyitsmerose]

Ateez Reaction to their s/o calling them when they’re in danger (hyung line)

TW: Sensitive content and mentions of abuse

Word Count: 2.5k

Mature Language*

Hongjoong: (peeping tom)

You and Hongjoong have been dating for a while now, with his busy schedule he tries to make as much time for you as possible, however you’re left home alone for majority of the day, especially during comeback time. 

Today, your boyfriend and the rest of Ateez were recording their new song at were all at the KQ building, a good 30 minutes away from your apartment. He wouldn’t be back for another 2-3 hours so you decided to take a shower and treat yourself.

Halfway through your shower, you heard noises. Thinking it was just your brain being paranoid about being home alone you decided to leave it and continue showering. Another 5 minutes later you hear shuffling outside and the noise of clicking. This time, being a little more cautious you decided to stop the shower to better hear the noise. After a few seconds you heard the noise again and decided to go outside into your shared bedroom. 

The second you did, you briefly caught a glimpse of someone standing outside your window with a camera, through the mirror in your room. Acting as if you hadn’t seen anything, you took your phone into the bathroom and locked it, trying to act as cool as you could. The second the door closed behind you, you dialed hongjoong. 

[“Hongjoong, how much longer”] you whisper yelled voice cracking at the end

[“Woah, hey Y/n, what’s up?] you were greeted by your boyfriend’s, bandmate, Wooyoung’s voice

[Can you give the phone to Hongjoong please]

[Y/n, he’s recording right now, is everything alright]

[Please just give him the phone]

[Alright I’m putting it on speaker] Wooyoung said and you heard some shuffling in the background

[Hey hun, whats wrong, is everything alright] you were greeted by your boyfriend’s sweet voice.

[Hongjoong, I’m stuck in the bathroom with nothing but a towel and there’s someone outside our window taking pictures of me!] You whisper yelled, voice cracking at the end of you sentence, not because you were sad, but because you were scared and frustrated of the situation you were in. 

You heard a few gasps from the rest of the members and a “what the fuck?”, presumably from Seonghwa.

[Okay, babe, stay where you are, we’ll come get you] You heard Hongjoong say, after which he hung up.

You tied up your hair and turned on the shower again to cover any noise you were making. Soon you heard shuffling outside and footsteps coming closer to the bathroom wall. 

After a while the footsteps stopped and you heard banging on the bathroom wall from the outside of the house.

“Come out, honey, unless you want these pictures to be spread all over the internet” You heard a sinister voice call out from outside.

At this point you were done, you hid your face in your knees and sobbed, your life would be ruined if those photos got out.

“Leave me alone!” you yelled back

Soon you heard more shuffling outside and grunting. You then heard the familiar voice of one of your boyfriend’s bandmates, Mingi.

“What the fuck is wrong with you, creep!? You heard him yell.

Feeling a little more relieved you simply sat and waited until either the police or someone came to get you. In a few minutes, you heard light knocking on the door and you violently flinched. Slowly and carefully opening the door, you were engulfed by the sweet smell and warm embrace of your boyfriend Hongjoong, not caring whether he got wet. Tears of relief started pouring out your eyes and you collapsed into him.

“Hey, you’re okay now” He whispered to you, warm breath against your face. “I won’t ever let something like that happen ever again” you heard him whisper into your hair. 

Seonghwa: (creep at night)

You and Seonghwa were a funny couple, showing love to eachother with your constant teasing and nicknames. Recently, he pranked you by banging on the window and knocking on the door when you were home alone. It was safe to say, you were quite spooked. You forgave him quickly and it was forgotten. Today, you had gone out to get some ramen from the supermarket and were on your way back home. It was quite late at night, and Seonghwa was at home sleeping. You wanted to surprise him with some ramen, and so here you were. It started off quite normally, you were used to going out late at night, loving the breeze and the silent streets. 

About halfway home, you saw a hooded man walking across the street from you. It didn’t seem to out of the ordinary, except the fact that he was wearing all black and had a black mask and hat on. You started walking a little faster just to be safe. You noticed that the man started walking a little faster too, and so you decided to start jogging lightly, wanting to get home as soon as possible. The man, this time, crossed the street and was right behind you. Fearing for your life you decided to full on run as fast as you could. The man started chasing after you, and you had no option but to try and take abnormal turns while running to try to lose him. You soon ran around a corner into an alley and took the opportunity to call Seonghwa.

[Seonghwa!] You practically yelled, once he picked the phone up after a few rings

[Y/N, where on earth are you, it’s like 9pm, what are you doing] You heard his husky voice, suggesting he just got up

[Babe, I don’t know where I am but this dude is chasing after me and he keeps grunting and growling at me, I don’t know what to do, please help!]

[Babe, What?!] he yelled through the phone

[Send me your location and I’ll come pick you up]

[What if he has a knife, you cant come here] you tried reasoning

[I don’t care! now send me your location and don’t hang up!]

You were relieved that he was coming to get you, but were still scared that the man could find you any second. Keeping the phone next to you, decided to peek out the corner, to check if he was still there. Bad idea, the man saw your face and instantly ran to your direction. You couldn’t run anywhere as there was a dead end and just backed up against the wall. 

“You thought you could run from me?” The man sneered at you. 

“Please leave me alone” You tried to muster up the courage, only for your eyes to betray you with tears spilling out of them.

“No need to be scared” He creepily grinned at you and grabbed your wrist. You tried pulling away, but to no avail. At this point you were a crying mess. 

“Please let me go” You sobbed, as he pinned you against the wall nearing your face. Only for the pressure to then completely vanish. You looked up and saw your boyfriend Seonghwa swing at the man all of a sudden. You gasped and held him back. 

“That’s what you get, you sick, son of a bitch!” He yelled at the man, shoving him to the ground.

You spent the evening cuddled up in eachothers’ embrace, with you trying to calm him down

Yunho: (creep at the beach)

You and Yunho were at the beach with the rest of Ateez and their girlfriends. It was a nice way to get away from their busy lifestyles as idols and for everyone to just have a day off. You and San’s girlfriend were quite close and decided to go shell collecting together.

The rest of Ateez’s and Ateez girlfriends were taking pictures, building sand castles and having fun, while Yunho and his Mingi went to go get ice cream for everyone. 

You were laughing and giggling with one another, collecting sea shells, and comparing one another’s like kids, until two tall men interrupted the both of you. 

“Hey ladies! are you here at the beach to have a fun time?” One of them said. Being the bubbly and friendly person San’s girlfriend was, she decided to respond and make conversation, while you were a little more cautious.

“Yeah, we’re just collecting seashells” she smiled back at them

“with our boyfriends” you made sure to emphasise.

“Hey, it’s alright they’re just being nicee” San’s girlfriend whispered to you.

“You never know” you just shrugged back

“Anyways, do you girls know where we can pick up some hot ladies” At this point, San’s girlfriend looked a little uncomfortable too.

“There’s a bar up ahead, hope you find what youre looking for, it was nice talking to you” you promptly cut the conversation short and turned on your heel grabbing your friends arm.

“Hey, no, no wait up, we just want to talk” The other man grabbed your wrist.

“Let go of me” You sternly said, but he didn’t let go and just looked at his friend

“We need to go back now, let me go!” You yelled at him.

The one holding your arm looked at his friend again, and the other one stepped closer to san’s girlfriend taking her chin in his hands.

“Let go of me!” She tried stepping back, but he held her by her shoulder inching closer to her face.

“Let us go!” you yelled at both the men and shoved the one holding your friend to the ground. 

He let go of her, and you told her to call someone for help. She took the opportunity and rang Yunho on the phone, telling him to hurry, as the men wouldn’t leave you alone and you were aggressively yelling at them. You kept struggling in his grip, while the other one tried getting to your friend. After a few minutes of struggling and yelling for help, the grip on your wrist loosened and you heard both the men grunting. Yunho had shoved the man holding you, to the ground and had kicked the other one too. You were still yelling profanities at them, so Yunho turned to you and put his hands on your shoulders, and kissed your forehead. 

“What the hell is wrong with those creeps” You head San yell as he was comforting his girlfriend

“Well, one thing is for sure, they’ll think twice before even trying to approach someone again” Yunho replied while holding you close

Yeosang: (spiked drink)

You and Yeosang were total opposites yet were such a power couple. Yeosang helped the both of you stay grounded, while you were the more outgoing friendly type. 

Hongjoong’s birthday was coming up and everyone decided to go to the nearby bar to just chill and have a nice time. Yeosang initially wanted to go and leave a little early, as he thought the bar would be too overwhelming for him, but after some convincing and your puppy eyes, there was no way he could refuse. You decided to wear matching outfits with him wearing a full sleeved black button up and bleached skinny jeans, while you wore a black dress up till your knees. Yeosang blushed at the idea of matching, but blushed even more when he saw you in your dress.

After a quick makeout session and some giggles here and there, you both decided to leave to meet everyone at the bar. When you reached, you reached peak happiness. The bar had music so loud and there were so many people, you were excited to say the least. You dragged Yeosang into the bar and he bro-hugged Hongjoong while wishing him happy birthday. You on the other hand were already on the dance floor with Yunho and Mingi. You were yelling lyrics at eachother and breakdancing to no end. Yeosang glanced over at you and laughed at your childish antics. 

When a slower song started to play, he knew it was his time to shine. You were already looking around for him in the crowd and when you finally saw him, a wide smile erupted on your face. You grabbed his shoulders and he grabbed your waist, as you fumbled a bit and were panting.

“Are you drunk?” He asked laughing a little. 

“No, not yet, I’m just tired from dancing” You said looking back up at him.

“I think you mean jumping up and down like a mad lady” He laughed at you. You playfully rolled your eyes and smiled at him. You were definitely aware of how much your dancing affected him. 

 “Yeo, I’m going to go get a drink, I’ll be right back” You said a little breathless.

You went to the bar table and simply sat there for a while deciding on your drink, and taking a break from dancing for a bit. After a while, you saw a drink slide in your direction, and looked up to see a stranger slide the cocktail in your direction. You didn’t know her, but being the naïve person you were, you accepted it instantly, thanking her for the drink. You gulped down the drink in one go and as you did, tasted a weird bitter taste in your mouth. A few minutes after chugging the drink, you felt quite dizzy. You have been drunk a few times and knew how it felt, this was definitely a new feeling. You looked back up at the lady, while your eyes were drooping and having a hard time staying open. She moved her stool closer to you, as you just looked back at her uncomfortably. 

As you felt more lightheaded, you decided to go the washroom and try to throw it up. You went into the women’s washroom and couldn’t even stand up. At this point, your legs felt so wobbly you couldn’t even stand up. You dialed your boyfriend amidst the loud music and he picked up on the first ring itself.

[Y/N, where are you, it’s been like 20 minutes, are you okay?] Yeosang said first.

[I don’t know, I feel lightheaded and weak, I think someone drugged my drink] you slurred your words.

[Wait What?! Where are you right now] He yelled over the phone

[In the women’s washroom]

[Okay wait there, I’m coming to get you]

[No, but you can’t-] And before you could respond, he hung up. 

You heard the washroom door opening and you crawled into one of the stalls. Locking it behind you.

“Where are you, beautiful?” You heard a female voice whisper out.

You felt grossed out, this had never happened to you before. Before you could say anything back, you heard the washroom door slam open and someone stomp in. It was Yeosang, he was growling and aggressively asked the lady,

“Have you seen my girlfriend?”

“Oh, her, I don’t know, I’m looking for her too, but hands off she’s mine” The girl replied. At this point he was furious and pushed the girl to the wall, pinning her against it. 

“Shut up!” He growled.

You unlocked the door to your stall and weakly called out to him. He promptly crouched down to your level and picked you up. It was safe to say, you were definitely not going to be let out of his sight for the rest of the night, and probably forever.

[atinydise]

Ateez reacting to Seonghwa being a “grown man”

❦ Genre: Suggestive.

❦ Pairing: OT8.

❦ Word count: 12k8.

❦ Requested: Yes, thank you! 🦋

❦ Masterlist.

HONGJOONG

You were dating Seonghwa for 3 months already. Hongjoong could remember well the first time Seonghwa introduced you to the group. You seemed really shy. You stuttered a lot and followed your boyfriend everywhere. Now, you were almost a part of the family. Hongjoong always thought that you and Seonghwa were made to be with each other. Your shyness was your main common point. And your clinginess as well. Seonghwa and you were always together. So much that everyone thought you would end arguing. But you never did. In conclusion, it was not a coincidence to see you everywhere. The leader didn’t tilt when he saw you exiting the KQ building, today. You simply waved at him. He noticed that your hair was bit messy and your lipstick faded away a bit. But he simply waved back at you. He headed to the vocal lesson room to help Seonghwa with his vocal part for the upcoming album. “Hi Hwa,” he greeted Seonghwa joyfully. “Wow it’s hot here.” Seonghwa blushed slightly at his remark, “not really.” Hongjoong stared few seconds at his friend. “Your hair is messy.” “Y-Yes. I didn’t have enough time this morning.” He stuttered, trying to give a good form at his hair. “Okay anyway! Are you-” the leader paused. “What?” Hongjoong pointed at Seonghwa’s shirt. “What?” At this moment Hongjoong tilted. “You! You & Y/N!” “What?” Repeated the eldest member, praying that Hongjoong didn’t understand the situation. “You have lipstick on your shirt! The same she was wearing when I saw her not even 5 minutes ago.” “Joong...” “Did you just? Here?” he asked, disgusted by the thought of Seonghwa’s naked butt sitting here. “Hongjoong calm down.” Ordered Seonghwa. “Sinner! You fucked at work!” He pointed at the couch. “That’s why it’s hot.” He mentioned. “It was not expected.” He facepalmed. “And this smell!” He grabbed his MacBook. “The smell?” “Yes! The sex smell!” He shouted before leaving. Seonghwa exhaled loudly, “I’m done…” When everyone will know about it, it’s going to be awkward.

YUNHO

Yunho woke up when he heard the entrance door slamming loudly. When he saw that San wasn’t on his bed anymore, he rushed outside, maybe the manager was there. But instead, he saw you removing your coat. “Hello Yunho!” “Hello Y/N!” He smiled at you. “Sorry for waking you up,” you apologized. “It’s okay. Now that I am awake, I’ll take my breakfast.” “Sure.” You smiled. “I think Seonghwa is till sleeping then I’m going to take a nap.” Yunho nodded, “rest well!” The tall boy went to the kitchen, but in the same time he grabbed his earphones on the coffee table. He liked to listen to music while enjoying his cereals. When he finally started to eat, he noticed that the bass on the song music was kind of offbeat. At first, he didn’t mind it. It was probably a lag from his phone or the music app itself. But 2 songs later, the problem wasn’t solved. Yunho threw his earphones on the table and focused back on his cereals. But these knocks were still present. He stood up and searched were it was coming from. As more he walked, more the noise leaded him to Seonghwa and Hongjoong’s room. Effectively, knocks were coming from there. Quickly, Yunho understood the situation. “Oh my god!” He whispered going back to the kitchen. He plugged his earphones as fast as possible, but the external noise was still there. To avoid the awkwardness, he rushed to his room but tripped on a slipper. He got back on his feet quickly and he grabbed his shoes. Seonghwa entered the living-room. “Yunho are you okay? I heard something falling?” The tall boy blushed furiously; he couldn’t say that he heard you banging like rabbits. “I just tripped.” He simply replied. “Oh okay… where are you going?” He asked. “I don’t know but not here!” He replied, leaving the dorm. “What’s going on with him?” You asked, coming behind your boyfriend. “No idea.” “Do you think he heard us? The bedhead was bumping really loudly.” “No... Impossible. He always listening to music when he takes his breakfast.” “I’m not really sure…” you crossed your arms on your chest. “But I hope so because I won’t be able to look at him ever again.”

YEOSANG

Yeosang was peacefully walking down the street. He needed to practice with Seonghwa for an upcoming special performance. At first, he was really excited about this whole opportunity but now, he was a bit confused. Seonghwa is a perfectionist, he needs to be perfect at everything. But it was before, Seonghwa’ve met you. When you started to date, all the members noticed that he was a lot more absent and busy. It wasn’t an issue at all, they were happy for him. But for Yeosang, it was a little bit more confusing. Anyway, with time, maybe he could understand why Seonghwa was so absent or in rush to see you. Yeosang entered KQ building and greeted politely the staff who were already present and called the elevator. Before leaving the dorm, he texted Seonghwa, just to say that he was coming but his Hyung hadn’t seen the message yet. “He’s probably already training.” Thought the blond boy. As fast as possible, he reached the third floor. When he stepped out of the elevator, he heard music bumping through the walls. For sure he was already practicing. Yeosang rushed there and opened the door loudly. “Hyung! I’m rea-” Everybody froze in the room. Yeosang was standing at the door frame, while Seonghwa stared at him, his hands were still cupping your butt. You immediately, tried to fix your dress, embarrassed. “My eyes! My eyes!” Shouted Yeosang covering his sight from this kinky view. “Shh! You are going to alarm the whole company!” “But why you needed to do it here?” He rubbed his eyes, trying to forget the terrible scene. “It was unexpected,” you claimed shyly. “That’s why you are always with her.” He stated. “You will understand later!” Added Seonghwa, unbothered. “I don’t care! Next time just take a room.” Shouted the boy finally entering the room. “I think I should go,” you whispered shyly. Seonghwa nodded and tried to pull you in a hug before leaving, but Yeosang interposed between you two. “Don’t touch each other anymore, especially when I’m here!” “This is going to be a nightmare.” Sighed the eldest member.

SAN

“Seonghwa and Y/N kissing on a tree! Smooch smooch!” Sang San. Seonghwa growled, “stop San...” “Never,” he stuck his tongue out. It’s been 2 days that San was singing this cheesy song non-stop. It started when he spotted a kiss Seonghwa and you kissing in the living-room, thinking that nobody was there. You always made sure to show affection to each other in private. You were simply holding hands or hugging sometimes but in 4 months of relationship, none of the members saw you kissing. Unfortunately for both of you, San woke up thirsty. He got up and looked for a bottle of water. Right when he entered the living-room, he saw you and his Hyung kissing shyly on the couch. It was a pure and cute kiss. “Ooooh,” giggled San. “So cute!” “Shouldn’t you be asleep?” Asked Seonghwa a bit mad and shy at the sudden San’s comment. “I was thirsty,” he winked going in the kitchen. “Seonghwa and Y/N kissing on a tree. Smooch Smooch!” “I’m going to kill him...” whispered Seonghwa, laying his head on your laps. You thought that San would stop the next morning, but he didn’t, and your boyfriend was losing his patience. It was a bit awkward for him. He was used to be a shy boy. Seeing San evoking a private moment made him really shy. You called Seonghwa the night just to talk about his day, but you were cut by San singing through the phone. “Seonghwa and Y/N kissing on a tree! Smooch smooch!” “AAH STOP STOP!” Yelled Seonghwa completely done. “You know what? Kissing isn’t the only thing we did.” “Seonghwa,” you tried to get his attention. “Sometimes we are cuddling! But not the simply hug. The special you do when nobody is around a.k.a SEX.” “Park Seonghwa!” You tried to stop him. “And you know what? It’s sooo so so good! Y/N is better at sex than kissing.” “PARK SEONGHWA!” You yelled enough louder for him to hear it. At the way you shouted his name through the phone, Seonghwa realized what he just said out loud. San’s mouth was open widely, not believing what he just heard. “YAH PARK SEONGHWA!” He yelled again. “Are you crazy?!” “I- I- San!” He stuttered. “I need to erase this thought of you and Y/N...” he said, faking to throw up. This was unexpected.

MINGI

The group was practicing peacefully. The upcoming comeback needed all their attention and skills. They had been practicing for almost 4 hours in raw, without taking break. “Hyung why don’t you remove your turtleneck? It’s hot here!” Asked Mingi a bit worried about Seonghwa’s health. “No, it’s good.” “Are you sure? We don’t want you to faint!” He insisted. “I’m okay Mingi.” He patted his shoulder. The tall boy shrugged, not believing this since the choreography was intense. Few minutes later, they decided to stop the practice for today. They all went to the locker’s room, except Seonghwa. He simply said that he would take a shower at the dorm. Mingi found his behavior really strange. They were used to take a shower together since they’re trainee. Why was he suddenly so distant? Seonghwa needed to persuade Mingi once again that everything was okay. In vain, but at least now, he was alone in the practice room. Seonghwa made sure they were all gone before removing his turtleneck, he was suffocating inside. He stepped in front of the mirror and stared at the not one, but at the 3 hickeys you’ve left all over his neck. “Ah... Y/N...” he sighed. “Hyung, have you seen my-” started Mingi, entering the room. “My... my- HICKEYS.” He shouted pointing at Seonghwa. “Don’t yell!” Rushed his friend closing the door before someone else see it. “It’s not a big deal...” he focused back at his reflection on the mirror. “Did- Y/N made these big hickeys?” Seonghwa smirked, “she did. And this is not the only one thing she does.” Mingi hid his ears behind his hands, “I don’t want to hear! LALALALALA!” Seonghwa sneered at the shy member. “This is why you were late this morning?” Asked Mingi outraged. “I think you don’t want to know.” He winked back, putting his shirt back. Mingi was about to reply when Yunho entered. “You are not coming Mingi?” “Guess what!” He turned around to face his best friend. Seonghwa pinched Mingi’s arm discreetly. Making him understand that he needed to stay quiet and that only him should know about this. “Hey!” Mingi glanced at his Hyung, who faked that nothing happened. “So? Guess what?” Insisted Yunho. “Finally... nothing important. Let’s take a shower.” He claimed running away from the eldest member.

WOOYOUNG

Wooyoung went back to the dorm earlier than expected. He met his friend around a cool and fun dinner. He loved to spend time with his friends that he can’t meet often. The boy was in a really good mood tonight. When he unlocked the dorm’s door. He spotted your sneakers next to the entrance door. He concluded that you were spending the night here. Quietly, because it was already 3AM, he went to his room to sleep, not even bothering to wear his pajama. Instead of slipping under the sheet, he sniffed at his shirt. He could smell the strong Soju smell on it. “Maybe I should take a shower...” he whispered disgusted by his own scent. Going back to the hallway, he headed to the bathroom. He was so absorbed by the scent, and the sleepiness didn’t help neither, that he didn’t notice the light coming through the door, signaling that everyone was already inside. His brain froze, along with his body when he opened the door. Why? Because he wasn’t expecting to see Seonghwa head resting against the mirror and you in front of him, on your knees. “Wooyoung?” You gasped in horror. “Woo- why are you talking ab-” Seonghwa who didn’t spot his friend yet, was confused. But when you pointed at the door, he understood what was going on. “Shit!” The eldest member put his sweatpants correctly while you were trying to hide behind your boyfriend. “Sorry!” Apologized Wooyoung closing the door. So shocked and embarrassed he rushed back to his bedroom and tried to fall asleep as fast as possible. The next morning, all the members were already awake when Wooyoung got up. Just when he left his room, you exited Seonghwa’s room. You blushed furiously, avoiding his stare, but still bowing to greet him. To tense the atmosphere a lot more, Seonghwa appeared behind you. Wooyoung just ran away to the kitchen before his Hyung could say anything. You both joined the rest of the group, trying to act normal as possible. “How was your diner Wooyoung?” Asked San. “You were so happy yesterday when you left.” “Good. It was fun.” “Fun only?” Added San. “I thought you would say something juicier.” Wooyoung gulped. He was interiorely struggling to keep the sin he saw yesterday for himself. “You know what is juicy?!” He stood up, giving up. “Wooyoung no!” Yelled Seonghwa. “Sorry I can’t keep that for me!” “What are you taking about?” Questioned Hongjoong. “While you were all sleeping... these 2 were banging in the bathroom!” “Oh god...” you sighed, hiding your face behind your hands. Everyone was shocked. Of course, they understood that sex was one of the important things in a relationship. But they never expected Seonghwa to be sexually active. He always seemed so shy.

JONGHO

“And don’t forget to clean the living-room!” Shouted Seonghwa heading to the bathroom. It was Jongho’s turn to clean the dorm with his eldest Hyung. And honestly, he hated that. Seonghwa was like a tyrant when it comes to housework. Today, the maknae was assigned to his bedroom, the kitchen and the living-room. It was almost 4PM and the living-room was so messy that he thought it would take at least 3 hours to clean entirely. Before ending procrastinating and argue with Seonghwa, Jongho rushed to clean all the surfaces possible. He made sure to not see any dust. While he was tidying the magazine on the coffee table, he saw one of your earrings there. How he knew it was yours? Because Seonghwa was always talking about this. It was the first gift he gave you and every time you wore it, he couldn’t help but to be soft and ask all the members to say how gorgeous you look with these earrings. The maknae just put in on a side and focused back on his task. Now, he was tidying all the cushions and blankets on the couch spread out everywhere on the sofa. Jongho lifted the biggest one. He was clearly not expecting to see an empty condom pack here. He needed to know who left it here. If the manager had saw it, they would all get scolded so bad. “Hyung!” Yelled Jongho enough louder for his friend to hear it. “What?” He replied, coming in the room. Jongho pointed at the empty pack on the couch. Seonghwa gasped, completely panicked. “Forget about this okay?” “Wait... it’s yours?” Asked Jongho. Jongho never imagined that Seonghwa was sexually active and the type of man to do it on the couch. Where other people sit every day. And by “other people”, it includes himself. “Just forget about that.” He repeated. “You never saw it okay?” “Okay...” he replied. “Good.” At this awkward moment, the maknae saw a good opportunity to stop this cleaning session earlier than expected. “I won’t say it... only if you finish to clean the living-room. I’m tired.” He said sitting on the couch, but his expression changed from pride to disgust, when he remembered what you did there. “What? No, it’s your turn.” “Okay... I guess that Hongjoong would like to know that you and Y/N-.” “Okay! I’ll do it!” He changed his mind, not wanting the leader to know about this privacy. Jongho knew that sex was good but using it to manipulate people was better than sex itself.

[heartbrokenct]

without you - jjh

pairing idol!jung jaehyun x reader

genre fluff + the slightest bit of angst

word count 5.7k (i know)

warnings get ur tish ready b, this is-...

summary Jaehyun is sent to the US for a music study, but what he doesn’t expect is to leave with a lot more than just music theory. 

a/n i was going to make this a multi-part thing just so i could keep it short but i figured why not make it one huge fic. anyway, pls lmk if you enjoy this!

    “Oh, come on, loser. It’ll be great! Besides, what is one small blind date going to do? Nothing, exactly! So get dressed and do whatever, and be ready to go at 7.” Your friend rambled on the other side of the phone, and you rolled your eyes. 

     “How in the hell do you always manage to convince me to make the dumbest decisions?” You say, slightly annoyed. Apparently one of your cousin's friends was “on the market” and of course your cousin decided to make plans for you and this friend of theirs without even asking you beforehand. Hell, you didn’t even know what this "friend" looked like. After a few more minutes of your cousin desperately getting you to agree, you laughed and hung up, realising the time was just past 4pm, and the date was in only 3 hours. 

    Quickly jumping into the shower, you heard your phone ringing again, and assuming it was your cousin, back to bother, you ignored it and got busy getting clean and fresh. After the shower came the skincare routine, as usual, and after that the terrifying choice of “what to wear on a first date with a stranger” loomed over you as you stared at the numerous possible outfits in your closet. Sighing, you start to yank things off hangers and try them on, twirling in the mirror and doing a few greeting motions, trying to gauge what you’d look like. You caught sight of yourself as you were taking off a top, and noticed just how great you looked, instantly getting  a boost of confidence. 

   You checked your phone quickly and noticed a missed call and a few texts from an unknown number, so you unlocked it and took a closer look. 

  #### : Hey, this is Jaehyun. I got your number from your cousin, they mentioned that we should probably decide on where to go but if you don’t mind, I made some reservations at this restaurant.

  #### : Address. 

  #### : Does 7pm sound okay?

You checked the time stamp on the message, and gasp. He’d messaged you almost an hour and a half ago, so you quickly typed a few messages in response, and hoped that he wouldn’t be too upset. And you hadn’t even gotten the chance to set your phone down when it dinged again, and another message popped up on the screen. 

   Blind-date guy : Oh wow, I was beginning to think you were standing me up before the date even began. 

   Blind-date guy : I’m just joking! Please don’t stand me up again, I truly can’t go through the night again with 5 waiters giving me sympathy pats on the back. 

   At that, you let out a small laugh, and wonder suddenly if he was some creep who just emanated those vibes. Honestly, leave it up to your family to prank you like that. They mentioned he was some sort of celebrity in Korea, but was here in the states studying music. 

   Blind-date guy : Was that too much info? That was definitely too much info… Hopefully I’ll see you tonight! 

     A smile graced your features, and you gave him an affirmative response before frantically turning towards the closet with a rather worried look. The address he had sent you was of a pretty upscale restaurant, and you weren’t sure if you had anything nice enough to wear. Plus, it was almost 40 minutes away from your place, which meant almost an hour and a half with the traffic in your city. You sighed, and double checked the time. Almost 6pm. Screaming, you decided on something elegant but also pretty casual, and grabbed your favorite pair of shoes to match. After one last look over in the mirror, you snapped a pic and sent it to your cousin, who called you while you were rushing to your car to tell you just how great you looked. 

  “Jaehyun’s going to be drooling all over you. He loves that fashion style, and the fact that you just look so exquisite… yeah hopefully you wore something nice underneath too!” They quipped, and you gasped, laughing and telling them off, before thanking them quickly and hanging up. 

     Almost 75 minutes later, you got to the address Jaehyun had sent you and you marveled at the exterior of the building. It looked so wonderful, and the smell of the food emanating from inside only reminded you of how hungry you were. Rushing inside, you went up to the hostess, and said you were here under a reservation for Jaehyun. She smiled, giving you a knowing look before leading you to a table near the back where it was more quiet. 

   You knew who he was even before the hostess motioned you to the right table. He just looked kingly, and his presence seemed to draw everyone’s attention all at once. His face looked a bit nervous, but as soon as he looked at you, it seemed to drain from his face and was quickly replaced with awe. His eyes looked up and down your body and suddenly you felt the need to hide from his piercing gaze. He stood, and nodded a thank you to the hostess, then came around the table and took out your chair, allowing you to sit before tucking it in slightly. 

    “Hi-ello...Hello.” He said, his voice coming out a bit softer than he expected, and you stifled a laugh. 

    “Hi, I’m Y/n. It’s really lovely to meet you Jaehyun.” You said, and sent him a warm smile. His face seemed to go a bit red and he cleared his throat, trying a greeting again.

    “Hello Y/n. You look amazing; it’s likewise very lovely to meet you.” A short pause, and he continued, “My friend told me a lot about you, but they didn’t mention just how attractive you are. Well, not attractive- I mean yes attractive but- Like- Y'know-” He stammered, and lifted a hand to run through his hair, and somehow managed to poke his eye slightly. He let his hand drop to the table and he laughed. You let out the laugh you’d been holding and joined his, reaching over the table to grab his nervous hands softly. 

    “Thank you, please don’t hurt yourself trying to compliment me.” You joked, and paused to check out the menu as the waiter came to take your drink order. After getting over the original awkwardness and choosing a meal, the both of you fell into a comfortable conversation ranging from your careers to deep philosophical questions. You picked up on the fact that he seemed to be really proud about his career as an idol in Korea, and how he had always wanted to become a singer. His eyes lit up as he described a bit of what it was like, before he asked you about your job, and passions.

 You barely noticed when the food was placed in front of you, or when the other patrons all looked at you both talking with knowing looks in their eyes, or even when the water came by with the bill. You could only focus on this wonderfully interesting man in front of you, who was surprisingly deeper than his very apparent good looks. The waiter came by to see if the bill was ready, and the both of you stopped your conversation, and then half argued about who would foot the bill. He refused to even let you see the total cost, so in the end, you had let him win. He went to reach for his wallet before asking you another question which again distracted you from the bill and as the waiter made his second appearance, Jaehyun quickly (and rather proudly) tucked his card into the leather folder all while giving the waiter an apologetic smile. You watched him, your head tilted to one side and a soft smile played on your lips as his dimples made their comeback on his face. He turned to you and then grabbed a hold of his drink, making eye contact with you over the rim. 

   “Why are you looking at me like that?” He asked, and you cleared your throat, shaking your head. 

   “Oh… Just admiring from afar.” You said, and he seemed to get a tad flustered. You let out a laugh through your nose, and the waiter came by with Jaehyun’s card. 

   “How much was the dinner? It wasn’t too much was it?” You ask again, and he shakes his head. 

   “I’m the one who made the reservation so I gladly paid for it. Don’t worry about it at all, okay?” He said, in a soft tone, and stood coming around to your side of the table and holding out his hand. 

   “Shall we?” He said, and you raised your eyebrows while putting your hand into his. He gripped it as he led you out of the restaurant and then stopped outside, looking up at the sky. You checked your phone, and saw the time read 11:17pm. 

   “Already?” You mumbled out loud subconsciously, but Jaehyun caught it. 

   “Already what?” He said, and looked at you, peering down at the screen of your phone. He noted the time, and sighed. 

   “Ah, did I keep you too long? If you’re taking public transit or a cab home, let me drive you. Since it’s late.” He said, and raised his eyebrows waiting for a response. You smirked, and rummaged around your belongings before producing your keys, and you jangled them in front of his face. 

   “I’ve got a ride, but thank you. It’s been a wonderful evening. Everything and more.” You said, a smile plastered on your face. He gave you one of his own, dimples and all, and you melted. 

   “Well good. If you’d like… maybe we could do this again? I’ll be in the states for another few months, for my music study.” He said, and you nodded, suddenly hit with the fact that he was some celebrity, but you hadn't seen a single crazed fan anywhere tonight. Nonetheless, you said your goodbyes, and gave him a hug before walking to your car. You missed the way he stared at you as you walked away and smiled to himself. He missed your creased brow as you wondered if it was even worth pursuing him. 

-

     A few dates and three months later, you were sprawled out on Jaehyun’s couch after a long day at your job. He was currently in the shower, leaving your eyes to roam around. The last time you’d been here you hadn’t really stopped to look around, and as those thoughts flooded to the front of your mind, you felt your face heating up. Suddenly the shower turned off, and you straightened up, trying to push the memories out of your mind, as a half clothed Jaehyun walked around into the living area. 

   “Hey, stranger, long time no see.” He said, walking over and leaving a soft but chaste kiss on your lips. You smiled at him and stood, using one finger to push him away by his chest. 

   “Hey yourself, stranger, I suggest you get dressed before we get really well acquainted with one another.” You said, and your eyes flicked down to the edge of the towel that was currently the only thing wrapped around him. He smirked and tried to pull you closer to him, and just as your lips were about to connect, his phone rang. He sighs and lets his head drop, and apologises before quickly picking up the phone. 

   “Yes, Hello?” He said into the phone, and suddenly his back tensed. You frowned, looking at his suddenly stiff muscles, and wanted to reach out to comfort him but something in your gut told you to hold off. He huffed angrily into the phone and let his head fall back, looking up at the ceiling. He finished his call, and turned to you with an upset look on his face. You pouted and he sighed, running a hand through his hair. 

   “An emergency came up. I have to fly back to Korea early.” He said, dejectedly. 

   “How much earlier?” You ask, afraid to ask. Truthfully, you knew this time was coming. The time when this weird three month long fling would come to an end, but you had decided to pursue it anyway. You knew that you’d end up hurt and he’d move on to whoever in Korea while you’d be left back here picking up the pieces of your heart. But his face twisted into one of empathy and he swallowed down his tears. 

   “A few weeks early. My manager said my flight is… next Thursday.” He said, and you gasped. He came up to you, and enveloped you into a huge hug, just holding you tightly against him. The smell of your shampoo invaded his senses and the only thing he wanted was to hold you like that forever. He suddenly remembered everything that he left back in Korea. His career, the rest of the members, his family. Everything was there, but you were here. You had changed his life in these past few weeks more than all his 23 years of experience had. More than his music study could ever teach him. And now, with just a few days left to be here with you, he found himself dreading going back. 

   “Jae?” You mumbled into his bare chest. 

   “Hm?” He answered, still holding on to you. 

   “Can you go put on some clothes and let’s just chill at home?” You responded and shifted your gaze so that you were looking at him. He peered at you and smiled, before leaving a kiss on your forehead and going to quickly change into some loungewear. 

   About 5 minutes later, he strode back into the living are where you’d made yourself comfortable on one of the couches. He smiled and threw himself next to you with a grunt, and grabbed you close to him as you cuddled up together. 

-

     Jaehyun had asked you to accompany him to the airport and see him off, but as you woke up on the day, you dreaded having to see him off. He texted you, and you responded that you’d be there. After all, you were in love with the guy. 

   You rolled out of bed and took a super fast shower, then got ready and jumped in the car. His flight was in just a few hours, but you wanted to make sure that he was there on time. As you pulled up to his apartment and went up to his door, you tried to hold back your emotions. He seemed intent on going back the past few days, and even mentioned that he was excited to leave and see his family and work again. Little did you know he was just trying to convince himself that it was the right choice. 

 You couldn’t help but think that some of the moments you shared weren’t as special for him than they were for you as you took the elevator up to his apartment. Before you even had the chance to knock on the door, he swung it open and you were greeted with a red eyed, puffy faced Jaehyun. You instantly could tell he had been crying, and you stepped in, pulling him into the biggest hug, which he returned with such ferocity it almost knocked you over. He let out a muffled sob and your heart broke into a million pieces. You gently pried him off of you, and calmed him long enough for him to tell you what was wrong but in between his breathy crying and staggered breathing, you could barely understand, so you just held him as he let it out. 

   The one part of his ramblings that you did catch however made your heart skip a beat. 

   “A-and you...these months-” A few sniffles, “So good, -nd I don't wanna go-” A soft ragged breath, “b-cause you are my everything…” He said, and then stopped. You felt his heartbeat quicken at what he just confessed, and you tried to steel your emotions 

   “Jae, I know. We grew close and these past few months have been fun, but that’s it. You have a career and your whole life in Korea, and you deserve to go and live it out and follow your dreams, like you told me you always wanted to do.” You said, tears pricking your own eyes. He suddenly shifted off of you and gave you an incredulous look. 

   “Just fun? Just fun?” He said, his voice rising a little. “So all this time, this was just a fling for you. You made me fall in love with you and now you’re telling me it was just fun? You’re saying that if I asked you to come with me you’d say no and tell me this is what? One sided? That you don't feel like this is the worst mistake?” He said, and you folded your arms over your chest. There was no way that you’d stand in the way of his career, no matter how much of a bad guy it would make you. He would get over it soon, and continue and be a world famous singer… Right? 

  You thought that is what he wanted, but as his words wash over you and you understand the depth of the relationship between the two of you. Something clicks in your mind but you don’t speak. You just stand there and look  down at the floor. 

   His breath catches in his throat and he mutters a quiet but forceful, “get out.” And you follow suit. Sighing and holding back tears of your own, you step out of his apartment and head out to the car, knowing that at some point he’d have to come down since you were his ride to the airport. As awkward as that one hour car ride was going to be, you didn’t have much of a choice, as before everything went down, he made sure that you were the only one to see him off. 

   A couple of minutes later, a puffy faced angry Jaehyun appeared at your passenger side door, and he knocked aggressively on the window, jutting his thumb to the back of the car. 

   “Open the trunk.” He mouthed, and the already thick tension only grew as you nervously opened the trunk and waited for him to climb in the car. He opened the door, and then slammed it with such force you thought the door was going to snap off. The two of you sat in silence for a few minutes as you drove, and when you pulled into the freeway, you decided to speak. 

   “Listen-” You started, and he interrupted you with a raised hand. You heard him take a loud breath, and then he began to speak. 

   “I know you’re driving and your attention has to be on the road but please, hear me out.” He pleaded with you, and the desperate tone in his voice sent the waterworks your way again. 

“It's true. Without you, I can’t live. I can’t eat or sleep, or breathe without thinking about you. Everything that you did to me was so ethereal. You changed my life so much in these three months. I can’t begin to describe how hard it is for me to go. Honestly, when my company suggested that I come to the states for the music study I was skeptical because I already know music theory and production. But it was the best decision of my life. And now you’re sitting here telling me that this isn't-” He said and the tears began to spill on his face again. You gripped the steering wheel tighter and tried to keep your eyes focused on the road ahead, but the emotion in Jaehyun’s voice was getting to you as well, and a few rogue tears slid down your cheeks. 

   “I know you can’t just leave your life behind here, but I really really want you to. I want you to come to Korea and live with me, and we can be happy. I can introduce you to my family and the other members, and it’ll be so good. I can ask the company to find you an apartment and we can-” he continued, but you stopped him. 

   “Jaehyun. You and I both know that as soon as you get back, you’ll be so busy that we won’t have time to see each other. You’re about to have a major comeback and I don’t even know Korean so it’ll be hard for me to even assimilate there. I really really want to put my whole life on hold but… How can I?” You say, and the hurt is clearly evident on your face as the both of you have tears streaked faces. The rest of the ride is relatively quiet, but at some point, Jaehyun reaches over and rests his hand on your thigh as a signal for a truce. 

   He sniffles and leans his head back on the headrest, eyes squeezed shut as you pull into the airport parking lot. After finding a space, and getting his luggage out of the trunk, he takes your hand and you both go inside. He checks in, and you start to head over to the security checkpoint, which you were not allowed to pass.

   “Please, promise me that you’ll stay in touch and we won’t be like those couples who promise and then never do and they grow apart. I seriously cannot live without you.” he said, while pulling you to face him. A couple of people were starting to gather, and by the looks of it they recognized Jaehyun, so you sent him a sad smile and gave him a huge hug, never wanting to let go. The both of you pulled away, and he grudgingly went to the passport check. Just before he disappeared behind the security checkpoint, he turned and locked eyes with you, and even from this far you knew he was sending you a soft, sad smile. Not a “goodbye”, but rather a “see you soon.”

Four Months Later

   You rushed to shove on your shoes and grab all of your luggage as you heard your cousin impatiently honking outside of your apartment building. You had been planning to surprise Jaehyun for a few weeks, and asked them to come and take you to the airport. You left your apartment and quickly went over to a neighbor's where you asked them to take care of some plants and to pick up your mail each day. The middle aged woman agreed, and happily took your keys, wishing you a safe flight and travels. 

  You thanked her as you flew down the hallway, and heard her chuckling just before you rounded the corner and smashed the call button for the elevator. You knew it wouldn’t come any faster if you kept pressing the button, but you did it anyway. The nerves kicked in as you descended in the metal box, and ran out to your cousin’s car. They flung the door open for you, and you threw your bag into the backseat before hopping in. The drive was filled with some laughs and the memories from your last trip to the airport came suddenly flooding back. It had been only a few months ago that you had driven Jaehyun to the airport and had your first teary-eyed farewell. 

   Since then, you both called at least once a week, but texted every day. You slowly became more interested in NCT, his group, and even started talking to a few of his other English-speaking members, who all welcomed you with excited messages. You had been learning Korean with Mark and Johnny, to surprise Jaehyun, and not to toot your own horn, but you’d been getting pretty good! You could now communicate at it’s most basic sense of the word, and at least order food and ask for traveling directions. You smiled as you pulled up your conversation with Jaehyun, and read some of the new messages.. 

   Jaehyun : Babe! Have you had the chance to watch our m/v yet? It came out like a few hours ago! 

   Jaehyun : You really should watch it and let me know what you think. I wrote the lyrics with Johnny-hyung this time. I think you’d be proud.

   Jaehyun : Yo babyyyy….? 

   Jaehyun : Babe? Ah you’re probably busy. Ok call me when you watch it so i can see your reaction!

You smiled at all the messages, and sent him a quick “I’m at work, call you later, love you.” and then thought about how you’d explain away being inactive for your 13+ hour flight. You sighed, and locked your phone, then leaned your head back. 

   Your cousin pulled into the drop-off lane at the airport. You looked at them with a grateful smile, and gave them an awkward hug over the center console which they returned. As soon as you grabbed all of your belongings and double checked for your wallet and passport, you waved them goodbye, and they sped off. You turned and walked into the airport, and after a tiring 45 minute ordeal through check-ins and security, you finally made it to your gate. You took out your phone while you waited for the flight to board, and saw a few messages from Mark who was also in on the surprise. He said that him and Johnny managed to get you a company car to pick you up from the airport, but that you’d have to find your own housing. 

   “Shouldn’t be too hard…” You mumbled, and replied to him before searching for hotels in the Seoul area. There were a few upscale locations, but you decided to also check Airbnb for any long-term residence options. You came upon a sweet little apartment near Itaewon , which was about a 45 minute drive from the SM campus. You searched for anything cheaper or closer, but after not finding anything, you quickly booked the location for a 2 week period. You smiled happily, having one less thing to worry about on your flight, and then heard the “All-Passengers Now Boarding” message, so you grabbed all of your things again, and huddled in the line. You had been lucky to find a good deal on a seat in the economy class, so you took your seat near the front of the plane, having a rather great view out the window. You smiled and relaxed as a kind looking lady sat down next to you, and you fell into a comfortable conversation as the rest of the passengers were seated and the plane took off. She told you a few stories about how her family was all in Korea but she visited the US to see her daughter who just had a baby. You smiled at her story, and she patted your hand. 

   “You go to Korea? What do you have in Korea?” She asked tentatively, and you told her your love story. You left out the part about him being a singer, thinking she might not believe you, and she smiled warmly, and recounted a few stories from her youth about her and her now late husband. You smiled, and upon checking your phone, saw that you’d managed to pass a few hours of your time swapping stories. A steward announced that passengers could now use their in-flight wifi, and you quickly took out your phone to see a few missed calls from your cousin (who probably just wanted an update) and a few tests from none other than Jaehyun himself. 

   Jaehyun : Baby, I have the night off… are you still at work? We should call. 

   Jaehyun :  Please? I really want to see your pretty face, I miss you.

   Jaehyun :  Ahhh, come on, I know you’re not busy because we usually call at this time… 

You stifled a laugh, and rolled your eyes softly at his antics. He was always begging to see you, and now you didn’t know how to remedy the situation and not expose your location. You got an idea and ran to the lavatory, which was thankfully unlocked. After fishing your headphones from your pocket, you plugged them in and asked if he was free at the moment, and before you were even able to respond he was already video calling you. You laughed and hit the accept button, and smiled at the camera. 

   “Hi! Oh- I missed your face so much, you beautiful work of art…” His voice rang into your headphones, and you saw his eyebrows furrow as he drew the phone close to his face to see the screen. 

   “Where are you?” He said, brows still furrowed, and you smiled, trying to look as genuine as you could, 

   “I’m in the restroom at this little place, I wanted to take some time out and just treat myself, you know?” You said, and technically you were vague enough to not lie, and somehow he didn't press for any more information. 

   “Oh, baby that's good that you get to do something nice for yourself… Have you watched the m/v yet?” He asked, impatiently and you already knew he just wanted you to stroke his already inflated ego. You laughed, and he smiled widely, and shook your head. 

   “ I haven't but I swear I will as soon as I get home tonight? I know it’ll be late but you have to promise to wait for me!” You say, and he tiredly laughs. 

   “I promise to wait for your call tonight babe, I don’t think I’ll even sleep peacefully until I hear your opinion on the m/v.” He said, and you laughed. After a few more minutes of talking, you told him that there were others waiting to use the restroom, and after an insurmountable nu be of "I love you"s and "Yes, I'll call you later"s, you hung up just before you exited the lavatory. You spent the rest of the time napping and sometimes chatting with the lady seated next to you, who had a multitude of interesting things to tell you. You’d lost track of time, and only noticed when the stewards and stewardesses came by with lunch trays. 

  After that, you fell into a deep sleep, and only woke when the “Please Fasten your seatbelts for landing” messages were being played on the intercom. You hastily buckled it, and the nervousness started to kick in once again. The lady next to you must have sensed it because she reached over and gave your hand a sympathetic squeeze, and reassured you that “He will be excited to see you. I promise”. 

  After the landing and a rough battle through customs, you finally made it to the gates where onlookers waited for their friends and family to walk out. You spotted a man holding a paper with your name on it, and went over, greeting him formally and returning his polite smile. He took your things and led you to a nondescript car, where he put your things in the trunk and held the back door open for you to get in. Once settled, he asked if you would give him an address, or if he should take you to the SM building. 

   “SM building, please.” You say, hoping that you were using the correct verbage and honorifics. The driver’s eyebrows raised, and he made eye contact with you in the mirror. In a soft broken English he complimented your Korean, and said he was surprised that you knew pronunciation so well. You smiled and thanked him, and explained that some friends had helped you study it before coming. He nods, and the rest of the ride is spent in a comfortable silence.

    An hour and a half-ish later, the car pulled into the parking lot of the SM building, and you almost burst out of the car in excitement. You’d been texting with Mark and Johnny in a private group chat, and they said Jaehyun had fallen asleep waiting for you to call him somewhere in a waiting room. You were shown into a side entrance, so as to avoid any prying eyes, and you quickly met up with the aforementioned boys, who greeted you with wide smiles and big hugs. They led you around the building and showed you a few of the locations that you’d seen before in videos and on call with Jaehyun. 

  You smiled fondly as you followed them around and they led you into a small room with couches lining the sides, and a few tables thrown in the middle. And you saw him. Him. 

  He was slouched against one of the couches, chin to shoulder and out cold. An innocent look was on his face as he slept and as you admired him, Johnny and Mark said they'd wait for you guys downstairs and left. 

  You gently set down your small bag on a table and silently made your way over to your sleeping boy. Smiling, you sat on his lap, legs straddling his thighs and he stirred from his sleep with a sharp intake of breath. His eyes fluttered open and he made eye contact with you, staring into your eyes with a confused glare. You put your hands on his shoulders, and then moved them up to his face, cupping his cheeks as you sent him a smile. 

  "Y/n…? I-Is this… Am I still dreaming?" He whispered and you laughed, answering, 

  "No, you're not dreaming. I'm here… kiss me." You said, and he immediately obliged, closing the distance between your lips. His hands finally made their way around your waist, and he pulled you closer to his chest, and smiled into the kiss. 

  "What? How? How did you even find me?" He said, breathlessly and you explained to him the whole story from beginning to end. He listened with a marveling look on his face, and let his head drop as he smiled shyly. 

  "Well I am so glad you're here. I missed you so much, you've got no idea. Korea isn't half as fun without you." He said, and you sat and caught up for a few minutes, before you remembered the other two who were waiting. 

  "Johnny and Mark are waiting for us! They said we should go out to get some late-night food." You quickly said and climbed off of Jaehyun's lap as he stood and stretched. He gathered his things and you yours and just before you two set out the door, he took your hand in his and placed a gentle kiss to your knuckles. 

 "Have I ever told you how much I love you, Y/n?" 

 "Everyday."

[kjmsupremacist]

Ten and Johnny’s friendship turns sexual, but they’re not dating, cuz, you know, Johnny’s not gay. Ten’s in love with him, though, but how can he tell them when they never talk about any of it?

Chapter 3   |   Chapter 1   Chapter 2   Chapter 4   Chapter 5   Chapter 6   Masterlist

Characters: Ten, Johnny; the rest of nct intermittently

Genre: angst, smut (not very sweet smut tho), hurt/comfort, mutual pining

Warnings: homophobia, internalized homophobia, vague references to self harm; it’s just quite heavy

Rating: Mature

Length: 2k

Taglist: @parfaiitjoon​​

It remained awkward for a while, especially after Ten was done promoting the 7th Sense, especially when 127 debuted—without either of them. Johnny was upset about it; how could he not be? But he didn’t really talk to Ten about it like he used to. They still fucked—more, now that neither of them were that busy, but they rarely talked. It was always strained when they did; Ten felt like he was pressing his hands against glass, trying to get Johnny to hear him, all in vain.

And the truth was, they needed each other less and less now. Ten’s Korean was much better; he was close with the other members of the 7th Sense subunit, and didn’t have only Johnny to go to when he wanted to talk about something difficult. Taeyong was a kind and open listener; Jaehyun had nice shoulders to lean on when they were watching a movie; Mark was cute and sweet, and happy to distract Ten whenever he was sad; Doyoung was great for when Ten needed some sense smacked into him. So it was good. So what if he and Johnny were drifting apart? No one ever said it had to be for forever. Ten wouldn’t miss him after a while, right? And it’s not like he didn’t try. Johnny was the one that had made it awkward. Johnny took a step back first. Ten was only following his lead, because he didn’t want to make him uncomfortable.

These sorts of thoughts ran around Ten’s head all day long. Every day, it only got worse. He knew he’d committed himself to things being this way—detached, meaningless—but he was starting to regret it now. And then, Johnny found out he was going to be added to the 127 lineup for their January comeback. Suddenly, it was Johnny who was busy everyday while Ten sat waiting at home. When they did have time to fuck, it was quick and harsh; Ten usually prepped himself just in case, so that Johnny wouldn’t have to wait, so he could get what he wanted and then go to bed.

The night before the music video for Limitless was released, Johnny came back to the dorm even later than usual. Ten wasn’t asleep yet, though he’d kind of been thinking about it, so when the knock came on his door, he sat up and told Johnny to come in.

It was the same as always—a nearly wordless exchange, Ten pressed between Johnny and the sheets. And as he was rocked with each of Johnny’s thrusts, Ten knew what he had to do. The decision was made, sudden and quiet, and once they had both come, and Johnny was gathering his things, ready to leave, Ten drew a breath.

“I don’t think we should keep doing this,” he said softly. “We—we’ll be doing very different things with ourselves. And we don’t really need each other anymore.”

Johnny was silent for a moment, taking his time tying the strings of his sweatpants. And then—“Okay.” He didn’t even turn around. “That’s fine.”

Ten didn’t know what he was expecting, but his heart sank all the same. “Good luck tomorrow,” he forced out.

“Thanks.” And just like that, sudden and quiet, Johnny was gone.

Ten knew he should be relieved. It was over; he could dust his hands of this strange, terrible period of his life and move on. But as much as he knew it had been the right thing to do, he couldn’t help but miss it a little bit. He’d spend all his nights alone now, without even the illusion of comfort and companionship. He’d lost his best friend.

Really, I lost him the second we started this, he admitted to himself as he crawled out of bed to shower. We knew from the start this would end, and end badly.

It was just as lonely as he expected. Johnny didn’t even nod hello when they passed each other in the halls. Luckily, he was usually busy with promotions, so Ten rarely saw him. And soon after promotions ended, Ten was given a solo song to prepare for, so he was too busy to really worry about it. And somehow, months passed without them speaking. Ten threw himself into his work, and hoped Johnny had, too.

And then, one day at practice, Ten didn’t come out of a turn quite right, and he was crumpling to the floor. His knees had always been weak, but apparently he’d pushed them too hard, because he was getting shuttled off to the doctor’s and scheduled for surgery. Once he got over the initial panic that he may never walk again, let alone dance, he settled into a light haze of depression. Recovery was strange and slow, and worst of all, there was little to distract Ten from his feelings.

He wished he still had Johnny, so he could go to him for comfort, so he could pretend to fall asleep on his shoulder during a movie and be carried to bed, cradled in Johnny’s strong arms. He wished he could tell Johnny he was scared, and have Johnny tell him everything would be fine. He’d believe it if it was him.

It wasn’t that Ten was utterly alone. He’d grown close to Taeyong over the last few months. Taeyong, kind and good; always popping his head into Ten’s room to see if he needed anything, always free to give Ten a hug and a smile, always there to listen. And after weeks and weeks of Taeyong’s patience, Ten couldn’t help but open up to him and his gentle, understanding eyes. Taeyong sat with him and pet his hair as he explained how everything happened between him and Johnny, how stupid he had been. And Taeyong just nodded and soothed him, pressed kisses to his forehead and promised it would be okay. And Ten almost believed him. Looking up at him as he stood and bid him goodnight, his pretty eyelashes and sharp jaw, Ten felt his heart thrum in his chest. I could see myself with him, he thought. Maybe that wouldn’t be so bad.

It was hard to even begin thinking about, though. For one, it wasn’t like his feelings for Johnny were going to disappear overnight. Ten hated himself for still being so hung up on him; it’s not like he was the love of his life, right? He was tired of it, and impatient to move on. He mentioned this to Taeyong at one point, that he was so sick of being trapped in his own sadness, that he wished he could just get over it.

“You love him,” Taeyong pointed out. “Of course it takes time.”

“I don’t love him,” Ten lied. “Besides, love doesn’t matter for us, does it?”

“I suppose not,” Taeyong murmured, eyes far away. “Not for a long while, at least.”

“I like him, sure,” Ten acquiesced. “But it’s fine. I’ll get over it.”

“Do you need to, though?” Taeyong said. “Why don’t you talk to him?”

“He’s never really been one for talking,” Ten replied, wry. Taeyong just gave him a look, but he didn’t press.

Late spring bled into early summer this way. Ten still didn’t talk to Johnny; Johnny still didn’t acknowledge Ten’s presence. Ten knew he had to know how close he’d gotten with Taeyong. He hoped he wondered what they were up to. Not that it mattered; they weren’t up to anything. Yet. Until one night, halfway through one of Taeyong’s Japanese animations, when Ten had enough of Taeyong’s awkward fidgeting.

“What is it?” he asked gently. “You seem like you have something on your mind. You always listen to me, so just go for it.”

Taeyong just gave him an almost petulant look. “I don’t know. It almost feels cruel.”

“If it’s that you like Johnny, I won’t be mad. Good luck, though.” Ten said, a little too derisive.

“No, I’m not interested in Johnny,” Taeyong said with a laugh. “Unlike you, I don’t go for the straight ones.”

“Then what?”

“I might be interested in you.”

“Oh.” Ten blinked. “Oh, I see. And what if I was interested in you?”

“Well, I don’t know. What about Johnny?” Taeyong asked. “I won’t be his stand-in.”

“You wouldn’t be a stand-in,” Ten said, rolling his eyes. “I liked Johnny because he was my first real friend here. We were young. But you’re different. I feel safe with you.”

“Why does everybody say that to me?” Taeyong muttered, but he was smiling.

“Is that okay? That I liked him, still like him a little, and I also like you?” Ten fidgeted with his hands. “It’s not like I’m trying to replace him. You feel completely different, and I mean that in the best way possible. Different is good.”

“Yeah, that’s okay,” Taeyong said. “I don’t mind, as long as you’re honest with me.”

“I can do that,” Ten agreed.

Taeyong slept in his bed that night, and it wasn’t until Ten woke the next morning that he realized how much he’d missed having someone next to him like this. And Taeyong was different from Johnny in almost every way, and Ten really liked that. He was small and cute and pretty, and he actually acted like he wanted Ten. He whined and cried so pretty when they fucked, clung like Ten was precious to him. He pressed close to him when he cuddled after, held Ten’s hand when they slept. And it wasn’t necessarily that they were in love, but Ten didn’t mind. It was actually something. When they were separated, Ten knew Taeyong missed him the way Ten missed Taeyong. With Johnny, he’d always had to wonder.

When late summer came around, after 127 finished touring, they both had all the time in the world. While Johnny was spending his time playing video games with Donghyuck, Ten spent his time fucking Taeyong and covering him with kisses. All the days felt warm, bathed in a golden light only shadowed by the bitterness of Johnny’s absence. Because as much as he hated to admit it, Ten still thought of him, still wanted him, still loved him. Some nights, the grief felt almost overwhelming. He wasn’t just mourning a partner; he was mourning a friend. He missed the way they could talk with their eyes; the way one word could make both of them burst out laughing. He longed for the language they had built together. Nobody else knew how to speak it. It didn’t help that now that they all had very limited schedules, Ten saw him all the time.

And if Johnny noticed the hickeys that littered Taeyong’s body, he didn’t say anything, didn’t ask. It wasn’t that Ten was using Taeyong to make him jealous, but in his worst moments, he kind of hoped it still had that effect. But of course, he also didn’t ask. He didn’t say anything at all.

Some nights, Taeyong would catch Ten unraveling himself. He’d take Ten’s face in his soft hands, and say, “Hey, hey, where’d you go?”

“Did I do something wrong?” Ten asked him once. Even he could hear the anguish in his voice. “I feel it, regret, sitting in my stomach. But I don’t know what it’s for. What could I have done?”

“I can’t answer that for you,” Taeyong said, gentle and understanding as ever; good and kind. “But if it’s about Johnny, I don’t think it’s ever too late.”

Ten just shook his head, closing his eyes and drawing Taeyong closer. “It’s far too late,” he murmured. “It’s been far too late for quite some time. There’s nothing left there. I only wish I could let it go.”

“Maybe there’s a good reason you can’t,” Taeyong suggested quietly.

“I can’t imagine what it would be,” Ten said.

Taeyong just huffed and shuffled closer so he could kiss his jaw. “Okay, silly,” he said. “Then just put it away for now. Sleep. You’ll have plenty of time to worry in the morning, and lord knows you’ll use it.”

Despite himself, Ten found himself laughing alongside Taeyong’s tentative giggles. It was nice, but it raised a lump in his throat all the same.

[xzephyrusx]

SEVENTEEN Imagine

seungcheol x reader

notice! before you start reading, the BLUE texts with underlines are links to show you what I’m talking about. you can click on it or not, it doesn’t matter. it’s just more of a visual just to let you see what I’m talking about. also, here are some terms/abbreviations I used for this imagine so you don’t get confused: (Y/N) your name; (F/N) friend’s name; (U/N) username

plot: the boys are filming a going seventeen episode and your boyfriend seungcheol asked you to come with.

Slowly opening my eyes, I reached for my phone on top of my bedside table. I squinted because of the sunlight beaming through my white and slightly translucent curtains. The bright light filled my room, but not enough that it blinded me.

I rolled on my back and checked to see if I had any important notifications.

30mins ago from FACEBOOK — (F/N) tagged you in a comment.

4hrs ago from FACEBOOK — (F/N) liked your picture.

17mins ago from INSTAGRAM — (U/N) and 12 others followed you.

18mins ago from INSTAGRAM — (U/N) and 25 others commented on your photo.

4hrs ago from iMESSAGE — Cheolie ❤️ : Good morning, jagiya. I’m on my way to the company. My schedule is full today ㅠㅠ I miss you. I hope you’re getting your beauty sleep. I love you, beautiful. 😚

I smiled and tapped on the message from my boyfriend. It wasn’t a secret that he’s always busy, especially since he is in a band called Seventeen which is becoming very popular nowadays.

They haven’t been touring because of the pandemic. That’s the reason why they’ve been busy just preparing for their comebacks, stages and different contents that they will be releasing. I don’t really mind not seeing him as much.

It might sound as if I don’t love him, but the real reason might be too cliché. Although, it’s really because of the fact that he’s happy with what he’s doing. I can see it in the way Cheol’s eyes light up when he talks about his members.

Everytime he calls me or FaceTime’s me after a long day at work, he’s still gonna be smiling. You’d thought after a long day at work just practicing for hours and hours, he would look tired. But he’d be so happy to tell me about his day and how much he had fun with his members.

I quickly replied to him with, “Good morning, oppa. I woke up later than anticipated. ㅋㅋ I don’t have anything planned yet, but I might go to the café I own later just to check things out. I might have my breakfast there too. I know you’re having fun at work. I love you.❤️”

I opened up Spotify and connected my phone to my home speakers. I clicked on my playlist which played their recent song Home Run and stood up to get ready for the day ahead of me. With the song playing loudly in the background, I went in the bathroom to take a shower.

It was about 11:40 when I had finished taking a shower. As soon as I was finished, I went in my closet to find what to wear for the day. Dancing through the song playing in the background, I dug through my closet to figure out what to wear.

About 5 minutes later, I settled on wearing a casual business outfit since I’ll also be checking on my café today anyway. My days usually just consist of working in my café or just staying there while I work on how to improve the cafés menu, ambiance, or managing the different places where people who franchised had put up our café.

Although it’s theirs to take care of, I still make sure to visit and keep in touch with the owners. So as not to bring down the good reputation of my brand name. It’s been about 3 years since I had started this business and I couldn’t be luckier. My sweat and hard work had finally paid off.

After getting dressed, I took the elevator to the parking lot. I walked toward my white Mercedez, then drove to the direction of the café. It’s located near Han River at Apgujeong-dong. It was a really hard spot to get but, thanks to my hard work I convinced the owners to sell it to me.

I finally arrived at the shop, so I parked my car at the back. I took out my laptop and bag, check if I had my keys and phone inside before circling back to the front to go inside.

“Annyeonghaseyo, (Y/N)-nim!”

I was greeted by the two staffs as soon as I entered. I greeted them back and went to a table near the counter to place my things down. Then I walked up to the counter to tell the staff what I wanted.

“Kindly give me a Summer Jam Waffle and one iced americano. Thank you.” I said then gave my credit card. Yes, I own the café but I still had to pay so I won’t mess up the gross sales and inventory.

I proceeded to my table and opened my laptop to check my emails. About 5 minutes in from what I’m doing, the staff handed me my order. I thanked them and continued to eat while I worked.

Standing up, I took my phone with me because I had to go to the comfort room and stretch my legs a bit. I’ve been in the café for I don’t know how long. There were a lot of emails coming in today. I had to read each and every one of them, then send my responses.

After washing and drying my hands, I opened my phone to check the time; 3:28 PM; when I got greeted by a text message from my boyfriend.

Just now from iMESSAGE — Cheolie ❤️ ; Hi babe, you’re probably still busy at work. Don’t forget to eat. I just wanna tell you that you can come by the set if you want. We’ll be filming at for our next Going episode.

I got excited when I read the text. I don’t really go to their filming sets that much since I’m busy most of the times, or just the fact that there’s always a lot of staff with them and I get shy.

“What time should I come and how many people are there?” I replied.

I sat down to continue working while waiting for Seungcheol’s reply. Not a minute later, I immediately got a response.

Just now from iMESSAGE — Cheolie ❤️ ; You can get here before 7pm. I’ll send you the address. It’s only gonna be the staff and the members.

I clicked on the shared directions he sent. It was about a 40 minute car ride. I guess I’m gonna be driving for a long time then. It’s a good thing I always keep sneakers in the trunk of my car.

“Wow, I didn’t know it would be so far. But it’s okay. And I wanna know because I want to bring some food from the café to you guys.” I replied.

I put my phone in my pocket and went to the counter to check the inventory. There were still a lot of cups and straws in stock, so I went to check the back of the house for ingredients. Everything was still okay. I think I can bring them food. My phone vibrated in my pocket so I took it out.

Just now from iMESSAGE — Cheolie ❤️ ; You really don’t have to, babe. But there’s 13 of us, plus the 9 staff that’s with us. Drive safely. I’ll wait for you.

“Alright. I’ll be there. 😚”

Fast forward to how many hours later, it was finally 5:30 PM. I went to the bar to help the barista make 22 iced americanos and heat up 22 croissants. I thought I should just bring snacks since they’ll probably have dinner after the shoot.

While the barista was making drinks, I punched in the orders and swiped my card.

Iced Americano — 22 x ₩ 5,600

Croissant — 22 x ₩ 3,640

Total : ₩ 203,200

I helped the staff pack the orders and made a double ristretto for myself. The coffees and croissants were inside two different thermal bags to preserve the heat of the pastry and coldness of the americanos.

I went to put the drinks in the trunk and sat down to change into my sneakers. It would be much more comfortable to drive with my sneakers on. After changing into my sneakers, I closed the trunk then went off for a long drive.

“You have arrived at your destination.” The app said. The place was quite big, there were lots of parking space. I saw where the staff were setting up so I just parked behind them.

Seungcheol knew what my car looked like, so that’s probably why he was walking towards my car with some of the members. I turned off the car and exited the vehicle, thinking it was best to just keep my bag in the car and put my keys and phone in my pocket.

“Jagiyaaaaaa!” Seungcheol shouted, running towards me. I laughed, facing him. He went to hug me and lifted me up.

“I missed you so much.” He whispered.

“I missed you too, baby.” I told him, kissing his cheek. He put me down and held my face between his hands then have me a quick peck on the lips.

Dino, Mingyu, Joshua and Jeonghan who went with him greeted me. I gave them all a hug, greeting them back.

“How was the drive, (Y/N)?” Joshua asked.

I sighed, “It was long. And pretty tiring.” I laughed. “But it was great. As long as I get to see this big baby.”

I turned to Seungcheol who was smiling from ear to ear. He grabbed me by the waist, “You can’t resist not seeing my handsome face.”

I rolled my eyes and laughed. “Yeah, yeah. Now help me get the food out.”

“FOOD!” The 4 other members yelled at the same time and quickly followed me to the trunk. They took it out as soon as I opened the trunk.

They were going to bring the food to the other quickly before I stopped them, “There’s also food for the staff.”

They all nodded and ran to bring the food to the others. Seungcheol grabbed me by the waist and held a hand to my cheek. “I’m glad you came, even if it was a long drive. You don’t know how much I missed you.”

“I know. I missed you so much.” I leaned in to his touch. He pulled me close and kissed me softly.

After pulling away, he kissed my cheek. “Come on, we’re about to start soon.”

I nodded, then suddenly remembered my coffee. “Let me just get my coffee. I forgot it in the cup holder.”

When I finally got it, he held my hand and led me to the set. When we got there, the staff was thanking me for the food that I had brought for them. I bowed to greet them. “Annyeonghaseyo. You’re welcome.”

Seungcheol then led me to where the members were at. They seemed to be enjoying the food that I brought. He sat down on one of the chairs and patted his lap, signaling for me to sit. I was too shy to do it so I shook my head and just stood by him.

“Thanks for the food, (Y/N). I swear your café has the best pastry and beverages.” Seungkwan said, sipping on his coffee.

“Thank you.” I laughed. “I try my best to establish quality control within the café. Taste is very important.”

“You brought the food just in time. The staff told us we couldn’t eat until we finished filming. Who knows how long that would take?” Jeonghan joked and the staff laughed, along with the members.

“Okay, guys. We need to start filming so we can wrap up quickly.” Their producer announced.

I squeezed Seungcheol’s hand and smiled down at him. “I’ll be behind the cameras with the producers.”

“Okay.” He pouted, then pouted his lips. “No goodluck kiss for me?”

I scoffed at him while smiling. “We’ve have enough PDA for today.”

I walked towards where the staff was at. We greeted each other again and I sat beside their producers. All of them went inside the car.

“Hana, dul, set!” The staff yelled. Then one by one, they slowly went out.

“Someone looks very happy to see you on set.” The producer whispered at me, while laughing. I turned to see my boyfriend Seungcheol smiling while looking at me. I waved my hand to tell him not to focus on me.

The film set was full of laughter. The past half an hour or so consisted of Joshua’s failed attempts at hosting the show, the members getting angry and protesting at their producers. Even I couldn’t hold my laughter in. These boys don’t even need content to have a content, because they are the content.

After Joshua was “fired”, the producers just randomly played Sorry, Sorry for the boys to dance to. Then they went in to get angry and throw the table with bowls, chopsticks, spoon and fork.

Suddenly Cheol stood up announcing that they had to have a meeting with the staff. One by one, everyone started complaining. It was all getting so noisy and I had to bury my face between my arms and knees to hide my laughter.

“Come here, come here.” Hoshi said, gesturing for them to there. “You too, (Y/N). You’re part of this too. Apologize now.”

Seungcheol gestured as well, pointing to the spot beside him. “Babe, apologize right here.”

When it was Dino’s turn, we all couldn’t take him seriously. Everybody was just laughing too hard. Then he showed the letter in front of the camera that was facing the staff, which included me. I gasped but still couldn’t hold in my laughter when one of them brought the camera closer to the producers.

At that point, I was kind of nervouse because it might be an issue. But I ignored it since both of the producers were women and it just looked like I was one of them.

Then the complement festival came. It was a part of the episode where they had to complement each member.

It was time for the each one of the boys to pop up on the sun roof of the van and other other members to speak up one by one. My stomach had been hurting for about 40 minutes at this point. These boys never cease to make people laugh.

“Thank you for being a reliable person.” Dokyeom told Seungcheol.

Next it was Jeonghan. “Hyung, thank you for having a girlfriend like (Y/N) because she always brings us food and is such a great person.”

Everyone laughed and looked at me. I shook my head and hid my face, being shy.

“Mmm,” Seungcheol nodded while smiling and looking at me. “But we can’t air that.”

“Producers, please edit that out.” The boys begged. “We have to keep Seungcheol’s private life in... private.”

We all laughed, then Jeonghan said. “Do I have to say something else then?”

“Yes,” I yelled. Everybody chuckled. “Please do.”

“Okay. Okay. Let me think,” he seemed deep in thought then spoke up. “Hyung, thank you for having the same hobbies as me.”

Then everybody started laughing again.

Unbeknownst to them, the staff had prepared fireworks for them to enjoy. They handed out the candles and fireworks to each of the boys.

“Eonnie, can I light one firework in the back?” I asked the producer. There were lots of fireworks that were set up behind them, waiting to be lit up.

“Of course. Just be careful.” Then she handed me a lighter.

While the boys were lighting up their sparklers, I stood up and dusted myself off. One of the staffs accompanied me to light up the fireworks. There was a song playing, while the boys were enjoying themselves.

I proceeded to go at the back, knowing that they’ll blur my face if I ever get caught on camera. Seungcheol looked at me with a questionable look, probably wondering why I was going there.

I held up a the lighter and gave him two thumbs up. I bent down, slightly shaking. To say that I wasn’t nervous or scared would be an understatement. But I proceeded to light it anyway.

“Woah.” I whispered as soon as it lit up the sky. I was in awe, it was beautiful.

I heard the snap of a camera and looked at the direction of where it came from. I saw my boyfriend holding his phone out, with the camera pointing at me. He smiled, embarrassed that I caught him.

— photo creds —

I proceeded to look up at the beauty of exploding lights above me. After what felt like a long time, someone had finally snapped me out of it. I felt a hand grab my arm and an wrapped around me. I looked to see my boyfriend beside me.

“It’s beautiful.” I told him, looking back at the sky.

“It is.” He answered. I looked back at him only to see that he was staring at me.

“You’re so cheesy.” I giggled, burying my face in his neck.

He kissed my forehead and told me, “Only for you, babe.”

“Alright! We’re done!” The staff announced. Everyone cheered and clapped. Seungcheol and I went back to where they were.

“We’re done for today. You guys can stay or you can ride with us back to the dorm.” They announced.

Cheol went to his members and talked to them. I checked the time on my phone. 9:39 PM

I looked back at him and saw him saying goodbye to his members. Then they went to bid goodbye to me and gave me hugs as well.

“Let’s go?” Cheol asked, his hand waiting out for me.

I held his hand and I looked at him confused. “Aren’t you gonna go back with them?”

“I was thinking, we could drive back together.” He smiled. “Then I could sleep over at your apartment.”

I nodded and led him to my car. I was about to go to the driver’s side when he stopped me. “Give me the keys.”

“What? No! You’re tired enough as it is. Let me drive” I protested.

“Babe, come on. You drove a long way just to see me. Now get some rest.” He tells me.

I tossed the keys to him and went to sit on the passenger side. He sat down and gave me a peck on the lips before starting the car. Then he proceeded to back out of the parking lot and drive the both of us home.

It was a great way to end the night.

[drunk-onsunlight]

"I have been doing it since I was little"

Summary: 

 "He's kidding with me, right?" it's the only thing that crosses my mind when I heard the words coming out of his mouth. But no, he actually grabs a few towels and goes to the bathroom, and guess what, he closed AND LOCKED THE DOOR! Why he needs so many towels, btw? I definitely hate him! I know you must be thinking "what the hell is she talking about?” Well let's say I have the hots (maybe I'm in love or whatever) for a guy that it's a total dork. Lucky me! But I will tell you the full story while the loser takes his stupid shower... Without me.

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"He's kidding with me, right?" it's the only thing that crosses my mind when I heard the words coming out of his mouth. But no, he actually grabs a few towels and goes to the bathroom, and guess what, he closed AND LOCKED THE DOOR! Why he needs so many towels, btw? I definitely hate him! I know you must be thinking "what the hell is she talking about?” Well let's say I have the hots (maybe I'm in love or whatever) for a guy that it's a total dork. Lucky me! But I will tell you the full story while the loser takes his stupid shower... Without me. I met this sweet, amazing, totally idiot of a man when we were in high school. I got kind of obsessed with him but he never knew that, not that he needs to know. And things happened (by things I mean he got bit by a fucking radioactive spider and got some weird and sticky superpowers and long story short, he is spider-man), we got closer after lots of decathlon practices, homework nights and yeah, I fell for the guy. Peter Parker is a loser, but a cool loser. I will never accept that to his face, never! It's been 5 years since we became friends, 3 since he told me he is Spider-Man and 4 and a half since I figured out he was Spider-Man. Ned, Peter's best friend (dork/loser #2), is the only one that knows about my little and insignificant crush on Peter. Don't worry, I treated him a little just in case he gets the amazing idea of telling Peter about my feelings, none existent feelings... Whatever, let's move on. Why was I talking about Ned? Oh, yes! It's his fault I'm in my room, flirting with Peter Parker and obviously falling. Ok, I covered very fast who the dork and his friend is, how we meet and blablabla. Now let me tell you what led me to this exact moment. It was 10pm and I was talking to Ned over the phone about how winter break was going, how he manages to do college, a part time job and being Spider-Man's right hand (I have a soft spot for the nerd and I worry about him, ok?) when he got a message about a big fight between fishbowl man and Spidey somewhere in New York. As soon as I heard Ned saying to Peter that we were ok and that he needed to trust his Spidey senses, I knew something was up. The fishbowl man, better known as Mysterio for everyone out there, uses very high tech and illusions to set Peter off, it's not the first time they have crossed paths. And just in case you are wondering, I call him fishbowl man because he literally uses a fishbowl as a "helmet". Look, the man is a dick, the name and the fishbowl are proof of that. Let along that he tried to befriend Peter and ended up using all the info he could get from him to torture him with his stupid illusions. Now you get why I'm not very fond of Mysterio "Ned, what's happening with Peter? Please tell me that idiot is not getting in his head with us because or I will personally go and end him" I was being a little dramatic and Ned knew that. Very not like me, I learned that from Peter.

"Not much, you know Mysterio. He is trying to get the best out of Spidey so he was just checking that we are both save at our respective apartments. No biggie" I have never tell Ned how much I admire him for what he does every day with the Spidey thing, his job, college and dating Betty. The man is a champ. One day I will tell him, probably not sober. "Ok. I hope he actually listens to you for once and trust his Spidey senses." I was being serious here. Peter needs to listen to Ned more. He was a bit of a bad adviser back in high school but now it's actually very wise men (Betty's words, not mine).

“He is doing quite well MJ, you don’t need to worry about him. You two are the worst friends ever.” Wait, what?

“Worst friends ever? What do you mean?” Now I was a little bit offended

“Blind, just blind” Again, what? Ok, poor Ned it’s just losing his mind

“Whatever you say loser” I can hear him laughing and mumbling something to Betty but I can hear what they are saying, and I’m definitely not asking. None of my business. We keep talking while Peter on the other end is still fighting Mysterio.

Peter is still fighting fishbowl man, Ned is eating something with Betty so we are no longer on the phone, it’s 11pm and I´m on my third glass of wine. What a lovely night. But that’s not the point, remember I have the very stupid Peter Parker taking a shower on his own, on my bathroom, right? You must be asking “well, what happened MJ? How Peter got to your apartment and why are you so surprised he is taking a shower alone?” Ok, now that you asked me I can tell you. Serve yourself with some popcorn or your favorite food, maybe even something to drink and enjoy my misery.

I was drinking that third glass of wine, feeling a little bit tipsy when I heard a knock on the window of the living-room. Can you take a guess who that was? Yeap, Spidey, well, actually Peter but you get the idea. I didn’t move from the couch I was very comfortable because the window was open and he knew that. He is knocking because one day he almost gave me a heart attack when he got in and “walked” on the ceiling and dropped himself next to me while I was cooking… yes, I almost killed him with a pan. Anyway, he got inside, took his mask of and I can tell he is fucking tired by just taking a brief look at him. His face has been always an open book. I’m actually surprised no one else knows that he is Spider-Man.

He drops himself on the couch next to where I am and releases a deep breath, he is too quiet for Peter Parker, and damn, he is too quiet even for Spider-Man. But I’m not gonna talk if he doesn’t want to, God knows what Mysterio made him see today. I poured a glass of wine and handed it to him. He took it while looking at the table in front of the couch. No words needed and I knew it had to be bad. I put on my "I don't care" face, the same I have been using since high school, the same one that Peter learned to read all too well, he knew I cared a lot for things and I just wanted to keep people away from me so I didn't get to attached to them.

"That bad, huh?" I couldn't resist, ok? Don't judge me.

"Yeap" Damn, he sounded off, like a mile away from me. His head haven't moved an inch, his eyes fixed on the table and the glass of wine intact in his hand. I wanted him to feel better but I knew he needed time to process what happened and be back to reality. So I got up from the couch, headed to my room and let him for a bit, he didn't need me there checking on him, he needed time to breathe.

Ten minutes later he walked inside my bedroom and sat at the end of the bed. Remember the three glasses of wine? Well, they decided to kick me right there! My mind literally went like "ooohh, he is in your bed, tired, maybe a little massage or maybe even a kiss will help him relax!! Yes! Let's do that!" what an idiot right? The man just had a terrible and probably traumatic night and all I could think of doing was kissing him! Very intelligent of me.

"You wanna change into normal clothes?" I heard him a few times saying his suit wasn't the most comfortable thing in the world so normal clothes maybe could make him feel better.

" I'm glad you are ok. He made me saw you fall from the Empire State and I couldn't get to you" See? I was a total idiot. Peter faced my dead, on illusion tech that apparently looked too real and there I was, thinking about kissing him to nonsense.

"Peter I'm fine. You need to rest, relax or sleep. Maybe all of them. Look at me, I'm perfectly fine" He actually looked at me with so much fear in his eyes that everything seemed to disappear around us. I wanted him to be fine again, the bubbly, too chatty Peter Parker.

"When I fight him, I know anything it's real. But he knows how to get to me with little things. Tonight was the first time he put you in one of his illusions, that threw me off completely" He was checking my face like he never saw it before.

"You just realized that your life would be totally miserable without me, Parker" I needed to break the tension somehow, ok? And those kind of comments where always my to-go. And guess what, I made him laugh!!

"Maybe… just maybe. You can be a total headache when you want!" and he made me laugh, internally, I wasn't going to show him how true and funny that was for me, but I was tipsy so sue me for what I did right after.

"Oh, stop suffering. You love this headache" but sue him too because I wasn't waiting for his answer either.

"Do I? Ok, yes. Maybe I do love this headache" And the kissing think was back! I wanted to kiss his stupid smile away from his face "But don't flatter yourself a lot, I'm here just because of what Ned told me" remember I said that it was Ned's fault that I was in that room with Peter Parker flirting? Well, yeap. As soon as he said that I started planning the murder of Ned Leeds.

"What did he tell you?" Very good MJ, pretend you don't know what he is talking about. Not like I know but you get me, right?

"That you threatened to go end Mysterio by yourself if he used you guys on his illusions and that you were worried about me" yeap, poor Betty, Peter and I would be attending Leeds funeral very soon.

"I do wanted to kick that fishbowl man and I do worry about you Peter. Nothing new" the wine is speaking, not me. And that actually took him out of ward.

"You look nice today, by the way" hold the spicy and stupid comeback that's one your tongue MJ, you can do it!

"Thanks dork. I could tell that you look nice but you actually look terribly tired and your suit is full of dirt" I tried!! I swear I tried to have a nice comment, I'm terrible at flirting and the compliments thing. Good thing: He is laughing now

"Sorry. You are right, my suit it's full of dirt and I'm here just sitting on your bed and probably you want to kill me for getting dirt on your bedsheets" He started to lift from the bed and my reaction was to… Hold his hand. It was a little weird with the gloves he used with the suit.

"I actually don't mind. I like having you here. I can always just wash them or whatever" I pulled him back to the bed but this time we were a little bit closer.

"That's cool. And just for the record, you are not a headache, I was messing with you" maybe Ned was right, we were the worst friends and totally blind. Cancel the funeral people

"I know. I actually like when you tease me like that" bless that wine

"I like it too. Among other things" and there we were. Looking at each other like we wanted to do more than looking. I could feel the tension rising between us and I felt that was my chance to make a move. It was a now or never moment and I was tipsy so, why not?

"Would you like to take a bath?" ok, the ball was at his side. He needed to make a move now

"Actually, yes. I would love that" oh men. It's happening! It's actually happening!! Keep you shit together Michelle.

"You want me to help you?" brave move Michelle. I was giving myself a little pat on the shoulder but then… The dork had to ruin it

"No, it's fine. I have been doing it since I was little" and the mood was death, the tension gone and my wants to rebook the funeral back!

"Ammm… Ok. Cool. Yeah" I'm not gonna lie. He took me completely off ward! I was waiting for a million things but that… That wasn't one of them!

He headed to the closet, grabbed like three towels and walked to the bathroom. You know the rest. He closed and locked the door and I was left there, sitting like an idiot thinking he is somehow just messing with me, or that maybe I'm an idiot because he is actually really tired and I shouldn't be trying anything tonight, not when he told me he had to see me die because he couldn't save me, even if it was fake. It's been like 20 minutes since that and now I can hear the water stop from falling. I just hope I didn't mess anything up. After all, Peter is my best friend.

"Hey! Better?" oh no. I wish you could see what I'm looking right now. His hair is really curly and the drops are falling to his shoulders and some to his face. I can see every freckle on his nose and he looks adorable. Now I understand why he took the three towels, one for his hips, one around his chest and one for his hair.

"Yeah. I feel so much better. Now I just feel very like I need to sleep for a week" the dark circles under his eyes were clear. I take a look at the clock and I see it's almost midnight. We definitely should go to sleep.

"Well, you can take the bed. You need it more than me and I'm not letting you leave until you get some sleep" see? That was the right thing to do. Offer the bed, let him rest, maybe try to make a move other day with less traumatic events.

"Just with one condition. You stay with me, if that's fine with you, of course. I just want to know that you are really ok" and I wouldn't dare to say no to that. How could I?

"Ok. I'm staying with you. Just let me change in something more comfortable" I grab some oversized shirt and ran to the bathroom to change my clothes. When I go out he is already on the bed, under the covers wearing some sweatpants from his drawer and I walk to my bed. When I get under the covers he pulls me closer and I try not to shake from the sensation. I'm pretty sure he can hear my heartbeat go faster but he doesn't say anything.

"Thanks, MJ. I really appreciate this" He hugs me and I put my head in his chest and my left hand is hugging him from the middle. I can feel every muscle in his abs and I can see some bruises and cuts healing. I instantly knew they looked worst just minutes ago.

"No problem, loser. Anytime" I can feel myself falling asleep, side effects of the wine.

"Em?" He is whispering but we are so close that I can hear him clearly.

"Yes?" I'm too tired and sleepy so I whisper back my answer.

"I was messing with you. When I answered you about the shower. I did wanted you to go with me but I knew what it looked like under the suit. Not a nice view" For God's sakes, he is an idiot!

"Peter, you are an idiot" If I wasn't this sleepy I would totally have more words to say, right now we just need to sleep, and we can talk about this properly tomorrow.

"Well, you love this idiot" he has a point. And maybe this is the moment we stop being idiots and actually do something about this weird thing that has been going on since we were in high school.

"I do" in that moment I look back at his face and decide to go for that want I had a few hours ago. I give him a soft kiss in the lips and separate just a little to look at his eyes. Bright, happy, sleepy eyes. And this time he is the one that closes the space between us and we are kissing again. A really soft kiss that last a few seconds that feels like hours. When we break apart he is smiling at me and I can help but smile back at him. We don't need to say anything, I readjust myself on his chest and he hugs me closer.

Maybe I am in love with the dork and maybe I should thank Ned for telling Peter what I said and maybe we can take that shower together tomorrow. But for now we need to sleep the fake illusions away and take care of reality and feelings tomorrow.

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Just For A Little Bit (M)

“It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives”

Summary: That night was just suppose to be nothing but careless fun, but after drinking shot after shot that night was your first time having a one-night stand. What did you have to worry about? 99% of the time you never see the person you sleep with again… right? WRONG. What will happen when your past comes back to life to haunt you again?

Previous Parts:

Part 1 // Part 2 // Part 3 // Part 4 // Part 5 // Part 6 // Part 7 // Part 8 // Part 9

Part 10 is here~ AFTER YEARS 

Part 11

Masterlist

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~Two weeks later~

It feels like forever since you last spoke to Bobby. You could easily lie and say that you haven’t thought of Bobby ever since… The moment you heard Bobby talk with the other members about not wanting you in his life, it hurt to just let go of the friendship you had with him.

You spend way more time with Bobby than you have with Mino… Your boyfriend.

These two weeks have been lonely… When you’re not working, you're usually by yourself back at your apartment bored. Your best friend would come over anytime she had the chance, but you are still alone the majority of the time.

It’s got to the point where you were alone bored to death you began to drink all alone and was about to text Bobby till it wasn’t long until you fell asleep with your phone in your hands.

You woke up in the morning and looked at your phone, there you would see Bobby’s name being ready to be called.

Although you were tempted to call or even talk Bobby you didn’t…

You can miss him all you want but you heard what Bobby wanted and that was for him to no longer talk to you. He’s probably happy now that you aren’t part of his life and you should be fine with that.

As you were sitting on your couch, you continued to scroll through your tv looking for something to watch until you felt your phone vibrate.

You grabbed it without even looking at who could be texting you. The moment you looked down there you see a name you haven’t spoken to in a while….

Not Bobby… But one of his bandmates.

There you see Jinhwan’s name.

Should you look at the text or delete it?

One side of you wanted to delete the text and pretend like you never received it in the first place. Another side of you felt bad and thought the only one you have to avoid is Bobby not the rest of his bandmates…

Jinhwan has done nothing wrong plus you two were friends.

Instead of ignoring his text, you opened it up and looked at it.

“Hey… I feel like we haven't spoken to you in such a long time. Are you busy later?”

Later? You had to think about it, but nothing came to mind.

You instantly texted back.

No why what’s up?

You set your phone down and looked around. You were waiting for Jinhwan to maybe take long to reply but catching you completely off guard he texted back faster than expected.

Are you coming to today’s little party at YG?”

Did you just read that correctly? Did Jinhwan just ask you if you are attending YG’s party? When was he having a party? Why hasn’t Mino mentioned it?

Whatever Mino probably either wasn’t planning to attend or maybe... He didn’t want you to go…

Probably not

You texted back acting as if you knew the party even existed…

There you set your phone down and suddenly felt upset. You wanted to ask Mino about the party, but you decided you should wait and see if Mino invites you may be the last minute…

Your phone suddenly lights up and you looked down. Jinhwan has texted you again.

Well if you do show up… It would be nice to catch up. I know the boys miss having you around.

The boys? Probably all of them except for Bobby… You tossed your phone and just laid down.

Whatever…

~

“Babe are you home?” you opened the bathroom door and fixed your towel a bit looking at your boyfriend.

“Sorry I just finished showering,” Mino approached you and instead of kissing your lips like he usually does, he kissed your cheek.

Okay…

“I’m not staying long I have to head back to work,” Mino says as he walked over to the kitchen and you just looked at him and decided to act like you didn’t know anything.

“Head back to work? Why?” You asked him waiting for him to mention the party but you had this feeling that Mino was probably about to lie to you.

“Babe, you know I’m currently working on a comeback with the group, right?” Wow… You were expecting for Mino to lie to you, but you weren’t expecting to be right with this prediction…

“Oh right… I forgot,” you said beyond disappointed with the answer you received but instead of making it a big deal that you knew he was lying… You decided to brush it off.

“Well… I’m probably going to head to sleep early, it’s been a long day,” usually you would approach Mino and place a kiss on his lips once before going to your room, but you were upset that he lied to you…

If Mino wanted to go to the party without you then all he could have done was tell you the truth instead of lying right to your face…

You walked right past Mino and closed the door.

Looks like your plans consist of your bed and you being completely alone… Bored…

Instead of Mino walking into the bedroom asking you what’s wrong, you stood quiet and suddenly heard the front door open and close. Mino was off to go to the party while you were here planning to do nothing…

You stared at the blank wall in front of you and tried to tell yourself it’s okay that Mino lied to you…. Just this one time…

But you couldn’t help but wonder why Mino didn’t invite you… Why didn’t he want you at the party? So many possibilities popped in your head and none of them were positive whatsoever.

You grabbed a hold of your phone and looked back at the text messages with you and JInhwan.

Would it be wrong for you to show up at the party because Jinhwan invited you and not even your boyfriend…? You know that if you go to this party Mino and you will both probably end the night arguing…

Should you just ignore Jinhwan's invitation or should you accept it and go have fun?

Decisions… Decisions…

You quickly went to your contacts and clicked your best friend name, right about now you need help making the right decision.

~

*Why am I even here? What am I doing here? *

You thought to yourself as you continued to stand right in front of the YG building… Oh, I have a feeling I am probably going to regret even showing up… How is Mino even going to react the moment he sees you?

Aish maybe you should just go home…

You turned right around and just as you were getting ready to head back home you suddenly hear your name.

“Y/N!”

Slowly you turned around and Jinhwan and YoonHyung. They were now approaching you… So much for trying to escape. …

“You came! For a second I thought you weren’t going to show up,” Jinhwan says as he pulled you into a hug and you hugged him back.

“I’ve been M.I.A so I thought why not swing by and make a quick visit to my friends and… boyfriend,” you said even though Mino has no idea you even know that there is a party going on.

“Well perfect! Let’s go,” Jinhwan says and all three of you walked in and you could feel your stomach-turning. Right about now you have no idea what kind of expression you will see Mino have.

~

As you all walked in you seen many people. Right now, you were feeling beyond anxious because you have no idea where and when you’ll see Mino and on top of that you have no idea how he will react.

The moment you stepped in and seen a bunch of familiar faces…. You suddenly began to feel stupid showing up at the party uninvited but your boyfriend… How stupid do you look right now... VERY...?

On top of all of this Bobby doesn’t want to see you so what was the point of coming…

Instead of walking any further, you stopped and looked at Jinhwan...

“Um…” You spoke up but stopped talking as if a cat got your tongue. Jinhwan noticed that you stopped walking, so he stopped and looked at you confused.

“Is everything alright?” JInhwan asks confused and you were about to tell him the truth, but something stopped you.

From a distance, you saw Mino smiling big and wide. You are dying from curiosity why Mino lied to you and came to this party… You thought things were good between the two of you...

As you continued to look at Mino smiling, you looked next to him and see a female who you recognized to be one of the backup dancers.

Okay…. You know what on second thought you’ll stay.

“Nothing… Just thought I had something in my shoe,” you lied and from that point on you continued to follow him into the dance floor.

Jinhwan instantly found the rest of his members. As soon as you lifted your head you saw Bobby and the two of you made eye contact.

Now seeing Bobby made you come to the conclusion that it was a terrible idea for you to show up here. First, your boyfriend doesn’t want to see you here and now you have Bobby who probably hates you…

“Y/N! You made it,” Yoonhyung says smiling from ear to ear and you tried to smile but for some reason, you suddenly felt a mix of emotions.

Why were you here to begin with? You would glance at Bobby and he didn’t bother looking your direction not even once.

“Yeah… But I don’t think I’m planning to stay long,” in other words your planning to run off before m-

Before you could even finish your thought you suddenly see Mino with his friends. The moment he saw you… Mino looked shocked and did not look happy.

Shit… Shit…

“Y/N? Are you alright?” Jinhwan asks and you looked at him and faked a smile.

“Um… I just need a minute,” you walked off without giving any of the boys much of an explanation.

Mino was walking over to you and you decided to walk over to him as well. As soon as the two of you met halfway Mino grabbed your hand and instantly pulled away from the rest without saying a single word.

To be honest you have no idea why Mino looked mad…. You weren’t doing anything wrong, if anything you just decided to show up to a party that you weren’t invited to at least by him...

He pulled you into a room and closed the door. He looked over at you and you had a bad feeling about this.

An argument was arising. To be honest you have no idea why you the two of you are about to argue. Like what the hell?

“What are you doing here?” Mino immediately asked.

There was no hi or anything before that, Mino went straight to the question.

“It’s nice to see you too… I thought you were busy with work… But I guess not,” you didn’t mean to be petty and be at his level but you were getting kind of upset at the fact that Mino was getting mad just because you were here.

Is there a reason why Mino doesn’t want you here? Was Mino hiding something from you?

“I have every right to be here because this is my company. But what are you doing here?” Is Mino being serious right now?

Mino standing here and overreacting began to make you question a lot of things…. And suddenly you began to question your trust to him. There was something Mino was hiding from you, but you have no idea what it could be…

“Why is it bothering you so much that I am here? What, are you afraid that I’ll find a dirty little secret you’re hiding from me?” You asked Mino firing back. If Mino wants to argue and be an asshole than two can play this game.

“Y/N, are you serious right now?” There has to be some kind of explanation for why Mino doesn’t want you here.

“Yes, I am. Mino the moment you saw me you look mad. I thought you and I were on good terms but apparently, I was wrong. I must have done something wrong.” The more you stood here talking to Mino the angrier you were starting to feel.

“I just want to understand why you came,” Mino wasn’t explaining a thing to you and at this point, you started to feel frustrated.

Instead of wasting your breath any longer you looked at Mino and walked away.

Okay coming to this party was not a good idea at all. Right now, instead of enjoying yourself, you’re here arguing with Mino over something stupid…

Why was Mino bothered by the idea that you were here? In the past, Mino took you to these parties all the time and it was never an issue… Unless there is someone in the picture that you’re not aware of.

“Y/N,” you heard Mino call out your name but instead of responding you were back at the party.

Okay after Mino has completely killed your mood you were now debating whether to walk over to the boys and let them know you were planning to leave or just leave unannounced.

Before you could even make a decision, you felt someone grab your arm. You look and see Mino right there. How the hell did he catch up?

“We still need to talk,” Mino tells you and you tried to pull your arm away.

“Why, so you could continue arguing with me? We have nothing to talk about.” You tried to remove yourself from his grip, but he wasn’t budging.

Next thing you know Bobby came and began to interfere.

“Mino let her go…” Bobby was the last person you were expecting to see. Bobby didn’t even want to talk to you the moment he saw you and now here he is kind of defending you?

“Bobby stay out of this,” Mino fires back at Bobby and you just looked at the two.

Why was Mino giving Bobby attitude? Aren’t the two best friends?

“I would but you’re causing a scene at the party in front of everyone,” the moment Bobby said that Mino let’s go and storms off.

That’s all it took.

You could feel people still staring at you and Bobby, but they all looked away eventually.

Why did Bobby decide to help you? You were confused… But instead of being ungrateful you looked at him.

“Thank you,” you know that the moment you get back to your apartment you are probably going to continue the argument with Mino but right now you want to be as far away from him as possible.

You were waiting and expecting for Bobby to walk away from you but instead, he got closer to you and whispered, “do you want to get out of here?”

Bobby went from not wanting to talk to you to now helping you out not once but twice…

“Please.” before you know it the both of you were gone and away from the crowd.

~

“Where are we going?” You asked Bobby confused about where the two of you were walking to.

“You see there is this place I usually like to sneak off to when times get tough,” Bobby says as he approaches a completely random building.

The building looks almost abandoned. Wait why was Bobby bringing you to an abandoned building? Should you be scared?

As soon as he opened the door, he turned back to look at you. Just from your facial expression, he could tell you were confused and kind of freaked out. You have watched plenty of movies to see that coming to abandoned places is never a good idea.  

“Look I know it might like usual to come to a place like this… But trust me the last thing I want to do is ever hurt you.” hearing Bobby say these words began to make it harder for you not to give him the benefit of the doubt.

“Do you trust me?” He asks taking out his hand for you to grab it and at first you began to think about it.

Bobby has never given you a motive not to ever trust him so why are you hesitating now?

“I… do,” you said grabbing on to his hand and from there you two walked into the building.

~

Wow…

The moment you two reached the rooftop of the building you were shocked. It was night but standing on this rooftop it gave you a view of the city lights. Now can you imagine how this view must look like when there is a sunset?

It must be absolutely breathtaking.

You walked over to the edge but stopped at a certain point. You looked at the view and just took a deep breath.

What the hell happened tonight?

Why did everything go wrong? One-minute Mino and you were on good terms, next thing you know Mino doesn’t want you at the party and suddenly gets mad at you.

What the hell are you missing here?

What did you do?

“Y/N,” you looked next to you and see Bobby standing right there before you.

What’s more confusing to you is the fact that Bobby decided to help you out. One minute he’s being completely stubborn and wasn’t anything to do with you and the next minute he helps you out of the party away from Mino.

“Yes,” you looked at him.

You were expecting him to talk but he stood there taking one good look at you. Is there something you're missing here?

“I know it’s none of my business… But what the hell happened back there?” Bobby looked as confused as you did with the whole situation between you and Mino.

“I have no idea,” that was the truth…

You have no idea why things went bad back there. Last time you check both you and Mino were happy, if anything before he left to the studio earlier, he was in a good mood… And now here he is mad at the fact that you came to a party... Did your presence bother him that much?

“Did you guys argue or something?” Bobby asks actually sounding concerned…

“That’s the thing… We didn’t argue, if anything we were on good terms this morning, so I’m confused… Where did things go wrong?” You said looking out of the view of the city and Bobby stayed quiet...

Wait… Yes, Mino is the issue. You swear everything was fine, so you are beyond confused why out of the blue Mino was being a complete asshole.

What the hell happened? What did you do wrong? If Mino doesn’t want, you around he could have just said so…

Recently you cut Bobby out of your life because you didn’t want conflict between Mino and you… You thought the two of you were good and to avoid confrontation and avoid breaking up with you, you distanced yourself from ikon completely…

Those past two weeks both of you had a good time with one another but now you don’t know…

“Well, I guess something must have happened… But I noticed that Mino has been a complete jerk to me too... “Bobby speaks as you continued to stare out to the city.

You looked over at Bobby and he looked right back at you.

“You… Didn’t possibly say anything. Did you?” Bobby asks totally calm...

“What? Why would I?” The last thing you would do is go run up to Mino and tell him... Oh, by the way, just so you know I kissed your best friend behind your back… I know I fucked up but I hope you and I can stay together...

Oh yeah, that definitely sounds like a bright idea…

“I don’t know… I mean isn’t it ironic how not only is Mino being a complete ass to me but to you too… It’s like he knows,” Bobby looks away from you and looks at the city.

You know… Now that you look at it… Bobby has a point.

The thing is you haven’t opened your mouth…. Bobby didn’t because he thinks you did… So, who did?

Who else has seen Bobby and you kiss?

Why couldn’t Mino confront you more discreet and talk about it face to face instead of being a complete jerk?

You were upset how everything went down but now you were curious why Mino acted the way you did…. You needed answers and you weren’t going to get anything if you continue to stand here.

“I know to go find Mino,” you told Bobby and just as you were planning to walk off and leave, Bobby ran up to you and grabbed your hand.

“Where are you going?” He asks as he looks directly into your eyes and you smiled.

“To get an answer,” you didn’t feel like explaining yourself.

You tried to walk off again, but he didn’t bother letting go of your hand. Instead, he continued to hold on preventing you from moving any further.

“Bobby,” you said hoping he would let go but nothing.

“What are you planning to do? Go to Mino and tell ask him if he knows that we kissed? What if he doesn’t know? You’ll be throwing yourself under the bus and not getting the real explanation why he’s mad at you in the first place. “Bobby had a point but what other choice did you have?

The whole Mino and you have been together… You learned he was the stubborn type of person. If he’s mad at you then he would give you the silent treatment until you ask him what the problem is… It’s annoying. But this time seemed different… It seemed as if Mino didn’t want to tell you what was wrong and even though you have to drag it out of him… He always tells you what’s up eventually.

“So, what am I supposed to do then?” You asked him hoping he can help you figure something out because right about now you were frustrated.

“I don’t know… I mean the two of you are in a relationship, isn’t communication key?” This is what made the situation complicated. You have no idea why the hell Mino was acting this way… Usually when you two had an issue the two of you promised to confront one another and fix it by talking… However, you must have done something to make Mino mad.

“Well even though you probably don’t want me to tell Mino anything, I have this strange feeling that he already knows what went down about us,” you said looking out at the skyline and you could hear Bobby sigh.

“You’re not wrong,”

The two of you stood there in silence. You were trying your hardest to collect your thoughts because right about now you have no idea how you were going to do.

“I know you’re not going to like this, but I am going to tell Mino the truth,” you were waiting for Bobby to try to stop you but he didn’t say anything. You had to even look over at him to make sure he heard you.

“Bobby?”

“I heard you… As much as I hate to have things turn out this way… I guess it’s the right thing to do,” Bobby looks like he was drained… You don’t know if he was drained of the idea of keeping what you two had a secret or if he was drained of just having you a part of his life...

“I should probably go look for him,” you were walking away until….

“Y/N,” Bobby calls your name and you turned back around.

“What exactly are you planning to tell Mino…” You noticed the way Bobby had his hands in his pocket looking down at the ground instead of you.

“Well, I have to explain everything that went down between the both of us…. And then maybe depending on how everything works out I will probably end up single… So, you won’t be seeing me around here anymore,” Not that Mino brought you around here in the first place.

“Well… I know we haven’t spoken to each other but if you need someone to hear you out when you’re done talking to him…. You can give me a call,” Bobby gave you whiplashes… One minute he explains that he wants nothing to do with you and then he’s here saying he is here for you...

“I’ll keep that in mind,” you gave a small smile and turned right back around.

You have no idea where Mino could be… And if he even wants to see you but you two had to talk or else this could get worse.

~

You texted Mino and you were expecting him to ignore you… But catching you off guard he texted you back. The two of you agreed to meet in front of YG.

As you walked to the building you felt uneasy… Regardless if you two talk you already know that this is going to end ugly.

The way Mino acted back at the party was a side you never have seen before. Mino has never been so annoyed to see you before… You wanted to understand why he was suddenly acting this way…

You arrived at the front hoping to see Mino there, but you see absolutely no one...

Is Mino planning to come out or is he planning to leave you outside?

“Y/N,” you looked next to you and saw Mino finally stepping out of the building.

If you’re being honest you feel quite bitter with Mino especially with the way he acted. Right now, you could scream at him and tell him how rude he was back at the party or you could just have a normal conversation like the civilized adults you two were…

“We need to talk,” I told Mino and he nodded his head.

“Just not here,” so Mino made you come in front of the studio too, later on, tell you that he didn’t want to talk here? Does that make any sense? No…

“Okay… Where then?” You asked him annoyed.

“Let’s walk,”

~

The moment the both of you began to walk, you two didn’t bother saying anything to one another. You’ve been waiting for him to initiate the conversation, but he didn't say a thing.

You were trying your hardest to hold yourself together but little by little Mino was making you lose your patience. You stopped walking and looked at Mino. You two were in the middle of a bridge with nothing but cars driving around. Mino probably had a precise place he wanted to stop and talk to you but right now you needed answers, you’re tired of waiting.

“Okay cut the crap, what the hell is your deal,” you didn’t mean to be straight forward with Mino but you had enough.

“I don’t know what to say,” Mino responds, and you felt dumbfounded.

Did he just say he didn’t know what to say? Is this boy serious right now?

“You’re kidding, right? Mino, you have a lot to explain to me…. Like what the hell did I do wrong? Why did you get so mad that I suddenly came to the party? I need to know what I did wrong so I can fix this… but that’s if you want any of this to be fixed,” you said looking at him waiting for an explanation but Mino just listened to the words you said and didn’t bother saying anything…

“I see,” was the only words Mino blurted out and your patience completely left, and you were filled with anger.

“This is fucking bullshit. You wasted my time making me come here to hear you say I see? If you’re mad at me then fucking tell me. If you heard about me and Bobby, then I understand but fucking tell me already!” You shouted annoyed and Mino's eyes widen.

“What?”

~

To Be Continued.

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The Wrath Part 3

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Summary: Another surprise weigh in yields some unwelcome results and a member must pay the price when Mr. Park isn’t happy with what he sees. 

Warnings: This part is a bit darker and does include some “minor” physical and verbal abuse.

Requests are open so if you want a certain scenario with a member or the group, feel free to shoot me an ask and I’ll try my best to respond when I can.

It has been two weeks since the girls comeback and Loca had been doing surprisingly well. It reached number 13 on gaon digital charts while another one of their songs from the EP - freesm - reached number 15 after Lisa from blackpink did a dance cover. The company was buzzing with excitement and the girls were riding a high. They were finally starting to make a name for themselves and all the hard work was starting to pay off. 

Unfortunately, all that excitement would soon come to a halt on the dreaded day of weigh in.  

All six members of DIVIN3 stood side by side with their hands clasped behind their backs, heads lowered as the CEO and Mr. Park whispered to each other a few feet away. The tension in the air was thick - enough to suffocate someone, really - and the results were not good.

Mr. Park strolled up to the most nervous member of all - Jenna - and let out a long, exasperated sigh. “How did you manage to gain 5 kilograms in two weeks? The diet we had outlined for all of you would have prevented that if you had been following it.” 

Jenna bites her lip hard and bows her head. “I’m sorry Manager." She whispered, too ashamed to explain herself. 

“No, it’s fine because it’s not your fault.” Mr. Park tutted and turned on his heel to walk to the end of the line where Sora stood. Her heart was racing as the manager stared her down while shaking his head.

“It’s not your fault because your leader here was supposed to keep an eye on all of you but it appears she failed at doing so.”

Sora felt the sting of tears forming in her eyes and she looked up, preparing an apology for failing everybody but she didn’t get a chance to open her mouth, because what happened next happened so fast she didn’t get the chance to utter a word.

There was a loud crack followed by a pained squeal and it wasn’t until the burning of her cheek that Sora realized what had happened. Her members gasped. Yua - who was standing next to her - grabbed her hand and gave it a comforting squeeze while she shot the dirtiest look at the manager. It took all her self-control not to say and do unspeakable things to the man before her.

“Jihoon? Are you an idiot? You’re angry because the girls let themselves go and don’t look as pretty yet you leave an ugly mark on her face?” Mr. Ho motions to Sora, who’s holding back tears, a red welt forming on her cheek now.

“Makeup will cover it up just fine.” The Manager snaps back. The two clearly knew each other quite well, with how informally they talked to each other.

“That’s if you,” he turns back to Sora and points at her, “can do something right for once and make sure to cover it up everyday. You really don’t want to cause a scandal for your group, do you?”

Sora sniffles and shakes her head. “No, Mr. Park.” 

“Good.” He smiles hearing that before stepping back and checking his watch. “We will be taking full control of your bank accounts from now on and locks will be placed on the cupboards in your dorm. I don’t understand why they let you spend your funds so freely but that will end immediately seeing as how none of you have the proper self-discipline or respect for your bodies. You are idols and looking good for fans is a must. They want to see beautiful ladies performing, not dancing cows.”

Yua bit her cheek hard enough to draw blood. She wanted so badly to speak up - to tell this new manager to go jump off a cliff - but she knew if she did, one of her members would be punished, and there was no way she’d do something that could get one of the other girls hurt.

“Due to your leaders negligence, you will be spending an extra four hours here practicing all of your latest choreography. As you may or may not remember, we are planning a small tour and you need to be at your best so that you don’t make the company look bad. Is that understood?” His voice is so condescending it makes the girls sick.

“Understood, Mr. Park.” The girls murmured weakly. 

The CEO and Manager left for the time being, leaving the girls to begin warming up while they waited for the choreographer. Today was suppose to be their off day - the next two days would be spent practicing and recording more music show performances, along with preparing for appearances on a couple variety shows.

“Are you okay, Unnie?” Jenna whimpers as she timidly looks to the leader.

Sora nods and smiles, “I’m fine,”  she reassured the younger girl. Her face throbbed and was so warm to the touch but she would get used to it. 

“I’m sorry.” Jenna's eyes were teary and her lip quivered as she tried hard to hold back the sob that threatened to come out. She reached out for Sora - like a child desperate for the comfort of a parent. 

“Don’t you dare be sorry you wild thing.” Sora was stern when she said this, bringing Jenna in for a tight hug. “You didn’t do anything wrong, okay? He’s a mad man. Nobody here did anything wrong.” Sora took a few deep breaths to settle her nerves. “Let us warm up and get through this practice.” 

(Four Hours Later, Back At The Dorms)

The girls were tired, sweaty and famished. As soon as they walked through the door and into the kitchen, they saw the locks on the cabinets and a chorus of groans rang throughout the small kitchen. Chanri ran a hand through her hair and turned on her heel to head for the bathroom to shower  but gasped when she spotted a fruit basket on the table, next to it another basket of assorted breads and cheese. The other girls joined her, eyeing the food wearily.

“Oh my god! It’s like heaven!” She moans and picks up the card attached and reading it outloud.  ‘I am so sorry girls. I am working on fixing things, please be patient and keep your heads held high.  - kang yuri ♥️’

Finally some hope - the girls did have somebody on their side. CEO Yuri was a bit strict but caring and dedicated - nothing like her cousin. Though she had her cards stacked up against her and it would take a lot of careful planning before she could finally set things right for the company and the girls. 

“She’s still around!” D.UH sighs with relief. The CEO hadn’t shown her face too much the last month and the girls had wondered what happened to her. It was a huge relief for them all to know at least one of the “top dogs” of Starpunch was around and would have their back.

Sora made sure all the girls got a good portion of the food before excusing herself.  “Where are you going? Aren’t you going to eat too?” Kay asked mid-bite. 

“Just save me some. I’m going to take a shower because I feel gross.” She smiled and dismissed herself, quickly jogging up the stairs despite her legs being sore and feeling rubbery. 

As soon as she entered her room, she collapsed on the bed and immediately began to cry, hand rubbing her cheek that was red and tender from the slap earlier that day. She buried her face in her pillow and let out a pained sob, questioning whether she really had what it took to be a good leader and to be a good idol. It always felt like she was never good enough and all she did was let people down. So much weight was on her shoulders and there were times when she wasn’t sure she could hold it all anymore.

“Oppa...” She whimpered to herself, grabbing her phone and debating on calling Seven. It was a toss up between calling or not. He was busy and she didn’t want to worry him and cause more trouble for her group...but she craved some sort of comfort, and hearing his voice or seeing his face - especially that adorable smile of his - soothed her no matter what the circumstance was.

It was a horrible internal struggle Sora faced these days because she didn’t want to be too needy or clingy - it made her feel like a nuisance and slightly pathetic. What kind of leader was she if she constantly relied on others to help keep her shit together? 

With another pathetic whimper, she put her headphones in and curled up into a ball, choosing to stare at the wall for however long it took for the music to take her away to a better place.

To Be Continued...

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The day after the grand Halloween event, the girls have gathered once again inside a typical practice room. With their comeback already planned, they should all be kept in check.

“I hope you all had a lot of fun yesterday,” Kim Geonwook, their dance coach, starts things off, “because from today on we’ll work on getting everything right, which shouldn’t be as fun.” He starts by staring at the newest member. “What we worked on the most was getting Joohyun to learn all the songs she needed to. She did her job, but the struggle now is to get you all in sync. This isn’t like changing a tire where you just it into a new one and the car starts to move. Each screw needs to be properly fixed and, right now, she isn’t the only problem. Because you aren’t used to her as well, you can’t anticipate her movements, which leads to people not matching each other.”

He claps his hands together once. “But, Joohyun, you’re a good dancer. At the start of this, we had to push each of the members to work on their dance to make this teamwork. Now, I believe you can all do well together. My diagnosis to you is a lot of hard work and maybe some bonding time.” And so their month starts. To help with bonding, the coach prepared some trust exercises such as trust falls, but since that’s not really his style, they quickly moved over to just practicing their moves. With that the coming months have prepared, the group needs to go through the same routines over and over again not to screw up on the most viewed live shows of the year. 

Two weeks after her audition, Minji receives the news on November 10th right from her manager about how the producers got interested in her for the role. However, how this will be a big-scale project, things can’t be confirmed with one simple audition. Between all the people who tried for the part on the month before, five of them remain, including Minji. She’s told to return for a second round of auditions on November 24th. This time, more information was given on the project in hopes that it’ll inspire the candidates on doing the best job. The drama will follow a group of rich, privileged high school students as they are about to take over their families' business empires, overcoming difficulties and growing every step of the way. The role they’re auditioning for, however, is of Cha Eunsang, a down-to-earth and somewhat cynical woman who diligently works part-time jobs to support herself and her mother. When they arrive on the scheduled day, the five finals actresses looking for the role will receive a scene on the spot to study for in a set of minutes before performing it. They’ll also receive an impromptu prompt to act on-the-spot in a group scene. The final results will come out the following month.

Since Eclipse were invited to some end-of-the-year shows, that means that Joohyun will have to perform with them live for the first time. Before that can happen, the girls will be taken out to record a reveal video for their new member. They’ll go on November 11th to record the video outside. It’ll follow the essence of this video, but the content will be different. Following Joohyun’s reveal video for the KTROOKIES project, all five girls will be recorded on the busy streets of Seoul while the cars zoom past the streets. They’ll be moving as if they’re looking for something with their faces never being completely visible. That’s until another car crosses the screen and Joohyun is revealed standing on the other side. They’ll also be recording a video like this one next to the Han River. These will be uploaded later in the month. The girls will be using the outfits as seen in this image (without the skates).

Anna — Umji

Blue — Sowon

Haseul — Yerin

Jennie — Yuju

Joohyun — Eunha

Minji — Sinb

In order to avoid the harsh cold of December, the group will be recording the music video of their title song still in November. Their comeback will happen in early January. On November 12th, the girls will go out to their usual hair salon to make needed changes, or just to make sure their hair is in good condition. 

Anna — Brown ( reference )

Blue — Red ( reference )

Haseul — Black ( reference )

Jennie — Black ( reference )

Joohyun — Brown ( reference )

Minji — Blonde ( reference )

Members who changed their hairstyles are told not to reveal them to the public.

On November 16th, the group will go out for their album photoshoot. This will consist of two different sets, one inspired by these images ( 1, 2, 3, 4 ) and another by these ( 1, 2, 3, 4 ). The day after, their music video recordings will start.

DAY ONE — NOVEMBER 17TH

8AM: Get hair and makeup done

9AM: Go to filming location

10AM: Change into outfits

10:30PM: Shooting of bridge scenes ( 0:08 [Sinb: Anna; Yuju: Blue] ; 1:33 [Yerin: Minji; Eunha: Joohyun]; 1:41 [Yerin: Minji; Eunha: Joohyun]; 3:06 )

12PM: Filming of bridge dance scenes ( 1:30 ) 

1PM: Lunch break

1:30PM: Recording of grass & street scenes ( 0:31 [Yerin: Haseul]; 1:22 [Yuju: Anna; Sinb: Jennie]; 1:45; 2:55; 3:03 )

3:30PM: Head to second filming location; Change outfits

4:30PM: Recording of house dance scenes ( 2:58; 3:12; 3:15 )

6PM: Change outfits

6:30PM: Recording of pool scenes ( 1:59; 2:04 [Yuju: Anna]; 3:13 )

8:30PM: Recording of pool dance scenes ( 2:00; 3:10; 3:17 )

10:30PM: Thank staff for hard work; prepare to leave

11PM: Head back to dorms; eat, shower, rest

DAY TWO — NOVEMBER 18TH

8AM: Get hair and makeup done

9AM: Go to filming location

9:30AM: Change into outfits

10AM: Recording of gym dance scenes ( 0:51; 0:56; 1:37; 2:26; 3:27 )

11:30PM: Change outfits

12PM: Filming of gym scenes ( 0:19; 0:36 [Yuju: Jennie]; 0:53 [Yerin: Blue; Eunha: Haseul]; 1:01 [Yuju: Haseul; Yerin: Blue]; 2:24 [Eunha: Joohyun; Yerin: Minji]; 2:33; 2:43; 2:47; 3:21 )

2PM: Lunch break

2:30PM: Recording of room dance scenes ( 1:06; 1:36; 2:39; 3:29 )

3:30PM: Recording of room scenes ( 0:00; 1:01 [Sinb: Jennie]; 1:39; 1:55; 2:44; 2:53 [Yuju: Haseul]; 3:00 )

5:50PM: Thank staff for hard work; prepare to leave

6PM: Head back to dorms; eat, shower, rest

The first award in line is on November 30th, it’ll be the Melon Music Awards which will take place at the Gocheok Sky Dome. ‘Me Gustas Tu’ will be the only track they’ll perform. They’ll enter the stage while an intro audio plays before breaking into the song. For this event, they’ll all be wearing wigs to hide their new hair colors. This will be their first public group performance with Joohyun on the team.

December 4th is the date of the Mnet Asian Music Awards. This will be their first stage after their comeback. Their stage will be slightly based on this video and this video. This means that Eclipse’s stage will be highly linked to Convex’s, however, the two groups will not practice together until the day before the show for the final stage check. Since the event will take place in Japan, they’ll fly over there on the day before and return soon after the end of the event. Their roommates were separated as Anna&Haseul&Joohyun and Blue&Jennie&Minji. For the pairs, Minji will be Sinb; Anna will be Yerin; Blue will be Eunha. On the dance duet, Haseul will be Yuju. The stage will start with Haseul singing one of her lines from ‘Me Gustas Tu’ (2:20-2:25). Blue will do Eunha’s part from behind the stairs, also from ‘Me Gustas Tu’ (0:26-0:35), leading into the song’s performance. For the duo dance and onwards, the girls will put a robe on top of their previous outfits as seen here. Haseul will sing one of her lines from ‘Chase Me’ this time (1:02-1:07) before they head into this song’s performance.

You will gain +5 POINTS TO DISTRIBUTE AS YOU WISH, +3 DEBUT POINTS and +2 ACHIEVEMENTS for completing the written requirements as explained on the idol tier page. As this is not a promotional month, you may choose any two achievements for the month’s points. There is a capped maximum of five solos, sets of starters and/or partnered threads you may write for to collect this month’s points.

* For clarification, old threads from previous months will count towards points so long as they fulfill the requirements as explained on the idol tier page. However, at least one of this month’s requirements must be written about the schedule to gain any points for November.

The only form that needs to be submitted at the end of the month is a verification form for your debut points and achievements. Any SP points earned can be collected as soon as you finish the requirement for them. At the end of the month, you will submit the following form to the Points Verification blog:

IDOL’S NAME - KT ENT - NOVEMBER SCHEDULE (for the December 4 verification form)

PROOF OF ACTIVITY: [ x ]

POINTS: +00 SP [ distribute these however you like ]

TOTAL POINTS EARNED: +00 SP +00 DBT

+1 WK ACHIEVEMENT #1 [ NUMBER OF TIMES TAKEN + CURRENT LEVEL ]

+1 WK ACHIEVEMENT #2 [ NUMBER OF TIMES TAKEN + CURRENT LEVEL ]

DEBUT POINTS SPENT ON THE IDOL SHOP THIS MONTH:

NEW DEBUT POINTS TOTAL:

**** Their performances in 3 end-of-the-year awards gives them 3 EXP. For more information regarding GROUP EXP, refer to the idol tier page.

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Too Good To Be Wrong - Part 1

Summary: No matter how much you tried, you couldn’t resist Park Chanyeol, even if you knew it would test everything that you thought family stood for.

Genre: childhood friends & “siblings” to lovers au / forbidden romance / older woman - younger man au

Characters: Park Chanyeol x female reader

A/N: This is a series about falling in love with your “brother” Chanyeol - your family took him in when you were younger. It will contain mature content in later parts, but for the majority of the story it’s about reconnecting as adults and discovering feelings for each other.

I am expecting Too Good to be Wrong to be around 10 parts long, but this could change depending on how the story progresses in further parts.

Too Good To Be Wrong will be posted every Tuesday at 10am NZST.

Prologue | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10

You groaned when you checked your phone again, the short vibration indicating that it was a text this time. It was another message from your mother and in any other situation, you would have answered her when she called the first time an hour ago. But it was your second week as an intern at your new job and you were a little busy.

And by a little, you were literally being run off your feet.

Answering her call would have to wait but she seemed incessant about getting in contact with you that you started to panic. Was it something to concern yourself over? You had been preoccupied trying to balance two trays of takeout coffees as you dashed back into the office when she rung the last time. Then you were photocopying enough copies of the month end report for all the team members when you felt it vibrate in your pants pocket once more.

Deciding you couldn’t do anything about it until you could squeeze in a toilet break, you made the decision to place your phone into your bag under your desk and began typing up the sales reports your supervisor had just placed down next to you.

“Y/N, I need them in an hour!” she called out after her departure and despite your pleasant response, you were grumbling on the inside. You’d even have to hold on to go to the bathroom now too.

Finally, your work day was over and as you exhaustedly left the office you turned out the lights, being the last to leave for the day. You were barely out of the building before you heard your phone vibrate again and you groaned, fishing it out of your bag and pressing talk.

“Oh what, Mum?!”

“Finally, you answer!”

You sighed heavily from your outburst and pulled the phone away from your ear momentarily to see how many notifications had stacked up over the day. Gasping at the number, you pressed the device back to your ear. “Is everything okay there?!”

“It would be too bad if it weren’t with your lack of attention. What made it impossible for you pick up a call for five minutes?” she prattled and you heaved another sigh, your annoyance returning.

“Having five minutes to myself today would have been a blessing,” you admitted with a groan and narrowed your eyes on the darkened street ahead of you. All you wanted now was food, a shower and your bed.

“Well, do you have five minutes for me now?” she asked, her tone changing. You knew that tone all too well and it made you teeter between hanging up and listening on to what she had to say. “Do you?”

“What, what?” you bit back, hearing her triumphantly laugh at garnering enough of your curiosity. “Let’s hear what’s been so important for you to blow my phone up about!”

“Your apartment, remember how your father and I helped pay the deposit for it?”

“Please don’t tell me you took out a loan and now I’m homeless so you can pay it back,” you breathed down the phone and the older woman gasped.

“What do you take me for?! It was your Uncle that one time and I paid you back every cent I borrowed. Some filial daughter you are.”

“Fine, what?”

“Channie.” She started and you huffed out air at the mentioning of the real pride of your family. “He’s coming to Seoul.”

“So?”

“He needs a place to-”

“What, no! Mum, you know Chan and I never get along together. He’s so frustrating and I’m too old to put up with him,” you cut in, shaking your head at her half spoken request even though she couldn’t see it. “I can’t, I have adult friends and important things that I do with my life.”

Like order in Chinese food and cry over k-dramas romances, you thought sadly to yourself, unable to even bring your pathetic lifestyle up to the woman who raised you.

“You act like Channie is still that awkward kid who followed you about everywhere. He’s an adult too. It’ll only be for a couple of weeks, maybe a month at max. He’s landed a job up there as a music teacher at a university, so it’s not like he won’t be able to pay his way and I told him he has to treat your house rules as gospel. Come on, Y/N. He’s not even going to be in your way much.”

“But…” You had no comeback, and the woman on the phone knew it. “Ugh, fine but if he does so much as one thing wrong I’ll kick him out immediately, okay?”

“He’ll be there in two days, thank you!” The call disconnected and you let out an indignant scoff at her manipulative ways.

Fried chicken and beer it was for dinner tonight.

It was the weekend when Chanyeol arrived and it was far too early in the morning too. You stood in your doorway with sleep in your eyes and a scowl attached to your face. He grinned at you. “Some things never change.”

“Know that I only agreed to this because Mum made me aware that I’d get paid for you staying here.”

“Duly noted, what a generous heart you have towards your brother,” he admitted as he stepped inside with his belongings and you cringed, shaking your head at the tall boy.

“Ugh, brother is too much and you know it, Chan.”

“Our parents were thinking of adopting me last year but I told them I was fine with it being the way it is. I’ve been a part of your family for so long now I don’t need it to become legal. Besides, it’s fun being able to tease you about it.”

“What, that my Mum dotes over you more than her own flesh and blood?” you challenged and he smirked, nodding his head once. “You even admit to it now so freely!”

“You left home and I filled her heart, what can I say?” he retorted with a grin as he went back to the door to head out and grab more of his belongings. You merely stood there, watching as box after box filled up your small living space. Shaking your head, you waited until he closed the front door and smiled at you.

“I’m going back to bed.”

“It’s ten in the morning!”

You nodded slowly, as if he didn’t understand the need for sleep anymore. It used to be him that you’d be kicking out of bed in the early afternoon only a few years ago. “Try being an intern who works for one of the biggest editorial companies in Seoul and see how well you sleep during the week. I’m an adult unlike you most days!”

“I can’t guarantee I’ll be quiet,” he warned teasingly. You marched over to his side and gazed up at him, your nose scrunching up at how tall he was now. He had grown again, you were sure of it. He watched you bemused as you turned and climbed up onto your sofa to gain some height and authority over him. Chanyeol tried to suppress his laughter but his shoulders bounced and you swiftly kicked him in the leg. Yelping out a curse, he bent over enough and you smiled triumphantly. “My house, my rules.”

“Noona! Didn’t you just tell me you are an adult?! Still playing your dirty tricks with me!”

“Like you said before, some things never change,” you told him sweetly and shutting your bedroom door behind you.

Having Chanyeol living with you wasn’t as difficult as you imagined it to be. It was lively and you embraced any moment you had to tease him, the younger boy giving it back just as much. Such as your relationship was, nothing was ever serious and you had been laughing all weekend. You had learnt despite all this he had actually gotten himself a pretty decent job at the university near your work, and it allowed you to bribe him to take you to work in his car. This not only gave you an extra half an hour in the morning to sleep, but you would get to escape the woes of the crowded subway too.

You decided having him stay was going to benefit you in the morning.

“Remind me why I’m doing this for you?” he asked as he strapped in his seatbelt, glancing at your all too happy expression. “Noona, you look deranged.”

“Just drive Chan, I can’t be late.”

“Like I’ll make you late, I know how to drive,” he muttered and pulled out of the car park. It was silent for a few minutes until he reached over to turn on the radio, loud music full of drums and bass immediately blasting out which made you groan. Chanyeol laughed. “What? My car, my rules.”

“Petty son of a bitch.”

“I got taught by the best, what can I say?” he replied with a laugh as you reached to turn it down a little. You would placate his music taste as long as you could hear yourself think.

“So, this week should I be aware of any plans where I might need to vacate the apartment?” he asked and you glanced at him, your brows knitting together. Chanyeol smiled, keeping his eyes on the road. “Mum said I have to be mindful of your male friends. I of course asked her what friends but – oof!”

You slapped his chest and Chanyeol shot you a glare. ��I’m driving!”

“You’re being a butthead!”

“You’re almost thirty and you still use language like butthead? And you say I’m not an adult?!”

You folded your arms over your chest in a huff.

“So, no male friends then?” he tried again, holding up a defensive arm as your own shot out to attack instinctively.

“Park Chanyeol!”

“It doesn’t suit you anyway,” he mentioned after laughing at you for a moment and you looked at him from the corner of your eye. “You and a man? I can’t imagine it.”

“I’ll have you know I am capable!”

His eyes widened. “I don’t want to know how much!”

“Then you shouldn’t ask such questions,” you surmised smugly, turning your attention to out the window. Inwardly, you whined over his attack and wished for the car ride to hurry up.

You were regretting not taking the subway now.

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Part 2

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The end of the year is a busy time for everyone, but just a little bit more for Luxe.

To start things off, Euijin will go by herself, on November 6th, to record her parts in ‘Like A Cat’ and ‘Cherry Pop’. With the songs finally ready to be released, all the girls will go onto their final comeback preparations. Their first stop will be on their usual hair salon to make needed changes, or just to make sure their hair is in good condition. They’ll all be going together on November 8th.

Cheri — Red ( reference )

Ella — Black ( reference )

Euijin — Dark Brown ( reference )

Yena — Brown ( reference )

Zoe — Ash Brown ( reference )

Members who changed their hairstyles are told not to reveal them to the public.

On November 11th, the girls will head out to an indoor set in the Gangnam district for a photoshoot of their release. You may look at these images as references: 1 , 2 , 3 , 4. Soon after, on November 12th, they’ll go out to record their music video for the title song ‘Like A Cat’. The recording schedule of the MVs is as seen below:

DAY ONE — NOVEMBER 12TH

5AM: Get hair and makeup done

6AM: Go to filming location

7AM: Change into outfits

7:30AM: Recording of wall shots ( 1:21; 1:32 [Hyejeong: Yena]; 5:06 )

8:30AM: Greet and thank actor William for participating in recording

9AM: Filming of room scenes ( 1:51; 1:58; 2:08; 2:18 [Hyejeong: Yena] ) 

10AM: Filming of first beauty shots ( 0:37; 1:22; 2:15 )

11AM: Recording of hallway scenes ( 0:35; 0:41; 0:46; 0:55; [Choa: Cheri]; 3:14 [Jimin: Euijin] )

12PM: Filming of second beauty shots ( 0:49; 0:54; 0:57 ) 

1PM: Lunch break

1:30PM: Recording all vault scenes ( 0:00-0:27 [Seolhyun: Ella]; 2:36; 2:49 [Yuna: Euijin]; 3:28 [Seolhyun: Ella; Choa: Cheri]; 4:12; 4:36; 4:44; 4:47 )

4PM: Thank William for his participation & Filming of third beauty shots ( 1:03; 1:06; 1:14; 1:41; 4:11; 4:16 ) 

5PM: Filming of third beauty shots ( 1:03; 1:06; 1:14; 1:41; 4:11; 4:16 ) 

6PM: Filming of first dance scene ( 0:38; 0:51; 1:27; 1:37; 1:54; 2:05; 3:04; 4:21; 4:33 )

8PM: Recording of vents and hacking scenes ( 1:04; 1:07; 1:11; 1:40; 1:43; 2:17 [Chanmi: Zoe]; 2:26; 2:55; 3:01; 3:12 [Mina: Zoe])

9:30PM: Thank staff for hard work

10PM: Head back to dorm; eat, shower, rest

*Due to Zoe being the only one who needs to stay late per the schedule above, the other members may leave early if they wish to

DAY TWO — NOVEMBER 13TH

6AM: Get hair and makeup done

7AM: Go to filming location

8AM: Change into outfits

8:30AM: Recording of beauty shots in red ( outfits as in 0:28 [cut from the final MV] )

9:30AM: Filming of second dance scene ( 0:28; 0:44; 0:59; 1:10; 1:18; 1:46; 2:20; 2:44; 4:30; 4:46 )

11AM: Outfit change 

11:30AM: Filming of third dance scene ( outfits as in 4:31 [cut from the final MV] ) 

1PM: Lunch break

1:30PM: Recording of final beauty scenes (  2:03; 2:25; 2:35; 3:00; 3:08; 4:24; 4:31; 4:40 )

2:30PM: Thank staff for hard work

3PM: Prepare for next schedule

Their comeback date will be on November 27th.

On November 16th, Zoe will receive some news from their manager. As one of the dancers of Luxe, Zoe will take part in a dance video in a popular dance studio. She’ll meet the choreographer on November 17th to chat and start learning the choreography as seen on this video. The day after, November 18th, she’ll return to the studio to record it.

Meanwhile, a producing team enters in contact with Royal Entertainment to offer audition opportunities to a new drama of theirs. Ella is the one who is offered this opportunity. The role she’s auditioning for wasn’t specified, nor was the drama they’ll be producing described. She is to choose any scene of her liking to act for an audition on November 25th. The results will come out the following month.

To help with promotions, the five girls will head out a recording of the variety show ‘Knowing Bros’ on November 13th based on episode 27 featuring TWICE. You can find clips of it here. This episode will air on November 30th. On November 20th, Yena, Ella, and Cheri will go together to a recording of ‘The Return of Superman’ as based on this episode. This episode will air on December 1st. All of this may and should be changed to fit Luxe’s story, discography, and each of the members’ personalities.

Their comeback showcase starts at 7PM on the day of release. The MC of the night will be Kim Boyeon and she’ll start the show by calling the members one by one onto the stage. Once they’re in line, the MC will introduce their newest song before ‘Like A Cat’ starts to play. After they’re done, the group will make their official greeting and personal introductions. The MC will ask them questions about an explanation of their concept, album and title song, as well as their personal lives and latest member addition. They’ll perform ‘Cherry Pop’ next before another short break for playing simple games together. Before the end they’ll perform ‘Mini Skirt’ and as a planned encore, ‘Boy’, from their previous album. Once they leave the stage, their showcase will be over. Their outfits will be as seen below:

Cheri — Mina

Ella — Seolhyun

Euijin — Jimin

Yena — Choa

Zoe — Hyejeong

As shared by their company, end-of-the-year shows season is coming around, and LUXE will be attending a number of them. Due to this, they’ll have to practice their previous promoted songs in other to put a good stage and try to earn new fans through this big event as well as, maybe, earn some awards of their own.

The first award in line is the Asian Artist Awards on November 26th. Since the event will take place in Vietnam, the group will fly over to the other country a day before and stay in a hotel before returning to Seoul right after the show is over to prepare for their comeback showcase. Their roommates were separated as Cheri&Zoe; Ella&Eujin&Yena. Since this will take place before their comeback, the group will perform ‘Every Night’ and ‘Mini Skirt’. This will be their first public group performance with Euijin on the team.

After their new album is released, the group will have their first comeback stage on November 30th, during the Melon Music Awards which will take place at the Gocheok Sky Dome. ‘Like a Cat’ will be the only track they’ll perform. They’ll enter the stage while an intro audio plays before breaking into the song.

The following is the music show promotion schedule for LUXE’s ‘Like A Cat’ activities:

12/01, 12/08, 12/15, 12/22: SBS Inkigayo

12/03, 12/10, 12/17, 12/24: MTV The Show

12/04, 12/11, 12/18: MBC Show Champion

12/05, 12/12, 12/19, 12/26: Mnet M!Countdown

12/06, 12/13, 12/20: KBS Music Bank

12/06, 12/13: Arirang Simply K-Pop

12/07, 12/14, 12/21, 12/28: MBC Music Core

During the first week of promotions, LUXE will use ‘Cherry Pop’ as their sibling song and performing its short version alongside the title track. For any day that you do not have to perform or have any other schedules, you may have a break at the dorms unless said otherwise.

Music show promotions will last for a total of four weeks this time. Programs will begin pre-recording early in the morning and groups are expected to stay at the broadcasting station until the live broadcast takes place later in the day. Although music shows in real life follow varied recording schedules, for IC writing purposes, the schedule for every music show will follow this consistent pattern:

06:20AM: at broadcasting station: basic first rehearsal on stage; no makeup, casual clothes.

06:45AM: head to salon: get makeup and hair done.

07:45AM: return to broadcasting station: eat breakfast, nap in dressing room/space.

09:00AM: dress rehearsal on stage; stage outfits, makeup on.

09:20AM: return to dressing room/space: rest, eat, nap.

11:00AM: final camera rehearsal on stage; stage outfits, makeup on.

11:15AM: greet senior artist groups at their respective dressing room/spaces, accompanied by a manager. you may not sleep during this time, up until the live broadcast.

07:00PM: live broadcast; when not performing, must stay in dressing room/space until the ending stage of the show.

08:00PM: line up in waiting room area to formally greet producers, director, and senior staff.

09:00PM: meeting time with fans who attended the recordings.

10:00PM: return to dressing rooms to clean up, change back into casual clothes.

11:00PM: arrive back at dorms.

On applicable Fridays, members leave the KBS building for recording Arirang Simply K-Pop which airs 1PM ~ 2PM.

On December 2nd, all the members of LUXE will go together to Super K-pop Radio at 4PM where they’ll answer to questions as well as sing their own songs.

December 4th is the date of the Mnet Asian Music Awards. Since the event will take place in Japan, they’ll fly over there on the day before and return soon after the end of the event. Their roommates were separated as Cheri&Zoe; Ella&Eujin&Yena. Their stage will be slightly based on this video. Cheri and Ella will start by performing an acoustic version of ‘Mini Skirt’ with Cheri playing the piano (the piano audio will be pre-recorded). Ella, Euijin, and Zoe will take over with their version of ‘Like A Cat’. Unlike seen in the video, their performance of ‘Like A Cat’ will continue normally after Euijin’s rap part. A line distribution for this special performance can be seen here.

You will gain +5 POINTS TO DISTRIBUTE AS YOU WISH, +3 DEBUT POINTS and +2 ACHIEVEMENTS for completing the written requirements explained on the idol tier page. As this is a song promotion month, one of your chosen achievements must be relevant to the above schedule and all required content should be written about activities listed on the above schedule for the month of November. There is a capped maximum of five solos, sets of starters and/or partnered threads you may write to collect this month’s points.

To clarify, the only form that needs to be submitted at the end of the month is a verification form for your debut points and achievements. Any SP points earned can be collected as soon as you finish the requirement for them. At the end of the month, as you did with your previous evaluation forms, you will submit the following form to the Points Verification blog:

IDOL’S NAME - ROYAL ENT - NOVEMBER SCHEDULE (for the December 4 verification form)

PROOF OF ACTIVITY: [ x ]

POINTS: +00 SP [ distribute these however you like ]

TOTAL POINTS EARNED: +00 SP +00 DBT

+1 WK ACHIEVEMENT #1 [ NUMBER OF TIMES TAKEN + CURRENT LEVEL ]

+1 WK ACHIEVEMENT #2 [ NUMBER OF TIMES TAKEN + CURRENT LEVEL ]

DEBUT POINTS SPENT ON THE IDOL SHOP THIS MONTH:

NEW DEBUT POINTS TOTAL:

* Rookie and trainee characters are allowed to attend pre-recordings and fan meetings to interact with idol muses if they choose to do so. Just be realistic about the scheduling; trainees who skip too many lessons to support idol muses will be noticed by their company staff!

**** For their promotional days, the group receives 24 EXP. The members' appearances on programs and radio shows gives them 3 EXP. Zoe’s collab with the dance studio gives 1 EXP, and their performances in 3 end-of-the-year awards gives 3 EXP, making it a total of 31 EXP. For more information regarding GROUP EXP, refer to the idol tier page.

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Are you kidding me?! Part 4

Bucky x Reader

Word count: 1782 Warnings: Swearing? Slow burn af

Sam walked me through all the main spots in the tower, I must admit he was a very charming man. We were on our way to the library when J.A.R.V.I.S made an announcement that everyone was having lunch together today in an hour if we were joining them. I looked at Sam, shrugging.

“I don’t mind, if you go I’ll go but I need to go shower first.”

I touched my hair feeling the grease, grimacing.

“We will be there J.A.R.V.I.S, go have your shower, do you want me to come get you and we can walk up together?”

It was a sweet gesture from Sam so I nodded, his signature smirk reappearing as he walked me back to my room. Smiling I walked into my bathroom to see that my towel rack is full. After a quick shower I get changed into a dark blue pair of jeans, a black tank top and red flannel shirt. I tried to make my hair look presentable but gave up after 5 minutes slinging it into a pony tail. 25 minutes still remained before lunch so I started putting my things away, not seeing reason to leave them in the boxes on the floor. Half way through a knock on my door snapped me out of my daydream, quickly I threw the dress I was holding onto the bed and went to the door. Leaning against the doorway was Sam, who bowed at me when the door opened.

“I am here to escort you to lunch my lady.”

I couldn’t help but laugh at his words, but took the arm he held out for me. Unfortunately my nervousness came out as we rode the elevator to meet everyone, I mean only this morning guns were trained on my head.

“Don’t worry Y/N you will be fine, you just took everyone by surprise this morning.”

It seems Sam was very good at reading people, it didn’t erase your fears but it did take the edge off, so you smiled and let him lead you to the rest of the team. Turns out we were the last two in, no one turned from the table where they were all sat as if they were already used to you being there already. The two remaining seats were situated between Bucky and Bruce, you were about to take the one next to Bruce when Sam pulled out the chair to the left motioning for me to sit down. Awesome lunch next to Mr I am gunna choke first, ask questions later. Everyone started grabbing and putting things on plates as soon as you both were seated, casual conversation flowing.

“So Y/N how did you like the tower?”

Steve was the first to involve you in a conversation, how very Captain America of him.

“Yeah it’s really nice, I can’t wait to get into that library, so many books I want to get my hands on.”

The conversation with Steve was pleasant, you spoke about books others chiming in with good recommendations for you to read. It almost felt too pleasant, like they were sticking to safe subjects. I let that happen until almost everyone had finished lunch, well I might as well get this over and done with now.

“Okay then, what do you want to know about me? It’s okay I will answer as many questions as I can.”

I leant back in my chair and waited for the onslaught of questions but was met with guilty looks and silence instead.

“Guys come on, I’m not stupid I know this is what lunch was about, to try and get a feel on me. Just ask your questions I won’t be offended, we’re gunna be teammates soon, you will need to know all of this sooner or later so it might as well be now.”

I smiled, trying to let them know I was being truthful, it seemed to work because Tony was the first to start asking questions.

“I like her she is direct. Okay kid how old were you when this happened and how did you find out you had abilities?”

Good question, okay here we go.

“As far as I know it was when I was 16, at least that’s the first time I shifted. I was in my room looking at myself in the mirror being vain and making a list of things I wanted to change about myself. Smaller thighs, bigger boobs, longer hair you know all the things a normal teenage girl thinks. I has a clear picture of what I wanted in my head and then it felt like my whole body was stretching out of place, man did that first time hurt. I curled up in a ball on the floor because the pain was too much and then it just stopped. I was so confused, but when I got up I had shifted into the girl I wanted to be in my head. I freaked the shit out wanting my old body back and not knowing what the hell had happened, unfortunately that triggered a quick shift which is quite possibly the most painful thing in existence.”

I shivered thinking of that day, Quick shifts were definitely the worst. They were all looking at me expectantly, so I continued.

“After the quick shift I was reluctant to use my abilities but curiosity got the better of me and I tried it again, the pain wasn’t as bad as the previous time. It turns out the more you shift the less painful it is every time, now it just feels like an ache then a pain but quick shifts are still ridiculously painful so I try and avoid doing that as much as possible. It normally takes 30 seconds to a minute to shift depending on how clearly I can see what I want to become in my head that’s about it on that front.”

Clint had the next question for me.

“Can you change into anything? Like real or not real?”

“It has to be real like something I have seen in a video or in real life, I couldn’t shift into a dragon or a mythical creature or whatever. Although I always wondered if I went to Asgard If I could shift into something I have seen there.”

I smiled at Thor who seemed just as interested at the thought. Tony pointed a finger at Thor.

“No taking the newbie to Asgard, not until she is cleared for missions at least. Another question we know you get their voice but when you shift into someone do you get their abilities and memories?”

I thought for a minute, remembering through my shifts for the information.

“I know I don’t get their memories but I have never tried with abilities, I have turned into a bird and tried flying but that was a massive fail. Turns out I had to learn how to do that, it’s not as easy as it looks you know.”

The rest of the team started asking questions ranging from how long I can stay shifted to what’s the coolest thing I have shifted into. The questions turned into conversations about the rest of the team and missions they have been on, I was thoroughly enjoying myself plus I was getting to know everyone.

Tony was all arm movements and re-enactments when he was telling stories, I could tell he didn’t mind being centre of attentions.  Bruce didn’t talk much only to add things the team had missed or to correct Tony when he started exaggerating, Nat and Clint seemed to finish each other’s stories even though sometimes they were not even there when it took place. Thor had the most infectious laugh, big and booming I couldn’t help laughing with the God too. Sam had such wit, he was fast with the comebacks and loved joking around with everyone. He kept looking at me when he thought I wasn’t looking, I had also noticed that during the conversation his arm went around to rest on the back of my chair.

But the two who interested me the most were Steve and Bucky, whenever I had seen Steve on the news he seemed to ooze confidence but sat at the table he seemed different. He didn’t except praise very well, blushing at even the slightest compliments from the rest of the team, it was ridiculously cute. He was polite, courteous and just seemed like a downright gentleman. I couldn’t help but feel sorry for him when it came to Bucky who seemed the complete opposite of Steve, different sides of the same super soldier coin. He didn’t speak apart from the occasion grunts of conformation, he was the only one who hadn’t asked me a question seemly not caring that I was there at all. Bless Steve, he tried to get him involved during the conversation afterward but only got eye rolls and sighs in return. At one point I met Steve’s eyes and he gave me a small apologetic smile and inclined his head towards Bucky, I shrugged and returned to the conversation.

“Right kid now onto business.”

Tony said after me and Thor had stopped giggling at a comment Sam made at Bucky’s expense, I turned to face him waiting for the said business.

“There are 3 parts to your training it’s up to you what order you want to do it in or if you want to do them all at the same time, but I would suggest to do them one at a time otherwise you are going to be wrecked.”

Nodding I gestured for him to continue, I was intrigued on what I needed to do.

“The 3 parts are physical combat, weapons training and technology training. In the next couple of days everyone will be training, you will be watching to get an idea of what you are up against and what order you want to do them in okay?”

I didn’t realise I was grinning until Tony smiled back, ruffling my hair. I looked around at everyone around the table, each of them giving me smiles in return, suddenly having an overwhelming feeling of belonging. My gaze stopped at Bucky making him meet my eyes, his jaw clenched as he looked back at me making my smile falter slightly. He seemed to notice just as I turned my head away I caught a slight smile upon his face.

The rest of the day was pretty uneventful as everyone had cleared their schedules for that lunch and had to get back to work. I went to bed that night unable to get this smile off my face, excited for tomorrow.

Part 3                                                                                  Part 5

[loverknj]

Boyfriend!Bangtan (Kim Seokjin)

A/N: hi loves! thank you so much for all the love on my bf yoongi post, i honestly expected only like 10 notes but you guy showered me with so much love and for that, i’m forever grateful ♡ so, as you guys requested, here’s another bf bangtan hehehe 

Every au or fic I read always displays him as the one who always cooks, does house chores and takes care of the boys

Basically the doting mother figure who doesn’t really get action

But oh mannnn

This man is lethal

He’s like a total meal including the desert and starter

Might even come with champagne

He’s that gentleman your mother always tells you to date when you were young

And undoubtedly, Kim Seokjin is every girl’s dream man

Tall, handsome, rich

He can cook, he can sing, he can dance, he is caring, funny, attentive...

I would say he is Prince Charming in the flesh

But we all know seokjin is much better than prince charming

A serious & playful boyfriend?

Definitely not one for flings

I can see him as someone who will hesitate to ask you out until he completely knows you inside and out

I think this is mainly because of how his lifestyle is; he’s always busy with comebacks, rehearsals, recordings... and he’s frequently out of the country

he doesn’t have time for someone who will not devote herself to him  

And here to stay

But when his feelings get too overwhelming and that he’s certain that you’re the one

he will give his 100% to you  

Would show up at your doorstep all dressed up

as he carefully leads you to his car boot with his hand covering your eyes

your confused expression is immediately converted into a shocked one

And next thing you know, you’re crying

Because all you can see is his car boot filled with endless roses and fairy lights

And he’s behind you, holding a teddy which says “be mine”

Would probably be like “I think we both know how we feel each other, so pls say you’ll be mine, because well, the flowers are expensive and I can’t return them”

Also the type who would write

“Please be my girlfriend?”

“Option 1: yes, option 2: hell yes option 3: yes”

Would be offended if you didn’t choose option 2 lmao

Seokjin would be an extra af boyfriend and you all know this.

The most likely out of bts to tie himself up in a ribbon on Valentine’s Day and Insist that he’s your present

“Happy Valentines Day babe, I got you the best present in the world: me.”

But in the end, he’d probably stop joking around and bring out a huge bouquet of flowers and the giant teddy he prepared

And I imagine he’d prepare a lot of things for you throughout your relationship

Flowers, jewellery chocolate, dinner, his face

The one to keep extra hair-ties in his pocket when you go out

And would just tie your hair for you with no words asked when he sees you struggling to eat without hair getting in your way

Would even keep pads and an extra set of clothes of yours at the dorm too

And when he finds out your favourite drink is banana milk like jungkook, he would go out of his way and buy an entire box of it

Definitely an amazing boyfriend

Remember in the rookie king prank, how he was the only one who asked the girl if she was okay?

Like if he’s so kind and caring to a complete stranger, imagine how loving he can be to someone he loves

A boyfriend who undoubtedly would go out his way for you

The type who would spoil you with everything

As I think he would try to make up for his absence by showering you with gifts

A new bag or perfume after he��s back from his Europe tour

Wine and dine at restaurants

Huge bouquet of roses

Giant teddies

Couple bracelets from Hermès

he would spoil youuuu to no limit

And he wouldn’t even notice until you brought it up to him

“Baby, I love you and that 10 foot teddy but don’t you think it’s a little too much? You don’t have to waste so much money on me”

Probably smile back at you and say “don’t worry, oppa can afford it” or “it’s okay princess, you deserve it”

But his grand gestures would tone down a little after you really talk to him about it

Because yes, it feels nice to be pampered and spoiled but even if you are jin from bts and the son of a ceo, money doesn’t grow on trees

Emphasizing to him that you love him and not those materialistic stuff

Would love you even more after that talk

And I imagine that would also be how you both solve your fights or arguments as well; by sitting down, talking through it like adults

And explaining your doubts and point of view to one another

Will always make up before bed, it’s a rule

But I think there would be also be times where Jin just lets you win because he would rather lose an argument than lose you

Because he knows you’re a definite keeper

And would want to wife you up so badly  

He would even call you wife in real life

Your name in his phone would most probably be ‘wife ♡’

Kim seokjin, A sHAMELESS texter

I don’t see him being those who text “good morning beautiful”, he’s probably those who would text “good morning, I’m beautiful”

Or the type to jokingly reply “how can you not” or “I love me too” when you tell him you love him

Overflowing confidence, oh gosh

Would randomly just say “babe, how are you so lucky? you get to date worldwide handsome”

And while you sit there, looking at him in confusion and slight disbelief

He’d be laughing his signature wind-screen laugh while the boys roll their eyes

Speaking of wife-ing you up, I can see him as one who will talk to you about your future a lot

Like it’d be 2 in the morning, you are both snuggled up in bed; and the conversation somehow ends up just being about marriage and kids

Or when you are both in the kitchen, preparing dinner for you and the boys, he’d talk about how he used to do this every week with his family and that he can’t wait to have this tradition with his own

And you can’t help but blush by the way he’s looking at you and smiling

He just lovesss planning out his future, especially with you by his side

And by that, he’s undoubtedly a fun & playful boyfriend who can be serious when he wants to

Also, an attentive boyfriend

He’d take note of your favourite food, drinks, places, movies, clothes...

He’d notice things you don’t even realise yourself, like the way you scrunch your nose when you’re nervous

Or the way you nod your head too much when the food is good

And If you say you’re craving something or when you compliment a dish

He’d cook or learn how to cook it for you

But when he’s busy, he’d probably order take away and pamper you with kisses, promising to cook it for you next time

Also I wouldn’t even be surprised if he showed up randomly at your workplace or school with your favourite food just because he wants to

Or if you find the shoes you have been saving up to buy just lying on your bed, with a note attached: “saw you looking at them the other day and got them for you because my princess deserves the best. I love you.”

Or even some medicine and vitamins sitting on your kitchen counter along with a cup of warm herbal tea because he says you have been sniffing and coughing too much

He’d take care of you better than how he takes care of himself

And the members will probably tease him about it at the start or act jealous because they no longer have his 100%

But they would honestly adore you so much because you take care of their hyung and them so well

Appreciate all the little things you do for them

you coming over to cook a home cooked meal for them during comeback season.

Making lemon tea for them because it helps with the throat and they have a recording tomorrow

Even doing their laundry for them because they are too busy to do so

Showing up at big hit with your own baked goods like cookies or cupcakes and coffee

they love you so much and they know seokjin does too

Because he is definitely the type to show you off

at the start, he would maybe try to limit the PDA, especially when in front of family or the boys

Like he would only keep a hand on your back and sometimes he would hold your hand while walking

And on really rare days, he would put his arm around you

But after a while, he wouldn’t care anymore

He would basically be by your side, kissing & hugging you whenever, cuddling, backhugging  

Kisses on your forehead, cheeks, eyelids, nose, lips, head... just EVERYWHERE

Constantly craves your attention

would playfully whine “jagiyaaaaa” or shout “yah!” if your attention wasn’t on him

Contented sighs when you are in his arms

Would give you assuring taps on your hair, back rubs, massages

Which would turn into tickle fights

And I’m sorry but like I can definitely see him screaming “babe, im horny!” just randomly at the dorm

The boys would probably burst out laughing and scream: ”hYUNG!” the first time round

But as time passes, they wouldn’t even blink

He’s all into PDA

Would just kiss you randomly and spontaneously no matter when or where

Whether it be when you are just walking, on your phone, cooking, talking, sleeping

He just loves being close to you

And it’s honestly friggin adorable

His shoulders will be your safe haven

I’m not much of a shoulder person

But I’d imagine his to be so comfortable

Like you’d probably be lying on it 90% of the time

Whether it be on dates, in bed, while walking...

and he would die for it

speaking of dates, Dates with him would honestly be so fun

I can see him bringing you on vacation in exotic counties for your anniversary

Because he says that you both deserve it

The kind of guy who would prepare and plan everything

And each date would be unique: visiting museums, theme parks, going for a picnic, bowling, karaoke, movies

Cafe hopping or food dates where you both just go from place to place and eat to your hearts content

You guys would visit all types of restaurants, whether it be roadside stalls, 5 star restaurants, those hidden gems in alleyways

Sooner or later, you would have eaten at every single restaurant there is in Seoul

And knowing how romantic he is, he’d probably leave a mark of both of you whenever he can

Or take polaroid pictures at every date

Road trips!!!

Where you both have long drives with music blasting; Seokjin screaming lyrics or humming songs

and his hand would be either holding yours or on you thigh

But there will also be lazy dates where you both just cuddle at home and make out or build forts and chill in your ugliest PJs

You would most definitely end up in his clothes because he’s a sucker for you looking so damn cute in them

Seokjin, the kind of boyfriend who you can just spill everything and anything to

He is both the start and end of your day

Even if it’s the littlest things like what you had for lunch, he’d still listen to you as if it was the most important thing in the world

He’d even give you advice on your worries or doubts and would help you in whatever he can

honestly the worlds best listener

he’d undoubtedly be your best friend

Who can read you like an open book

And on the saddest days where you don’t even know where to start talking

He’d just know by how you look

And would hug you and give you cuddles while whispering over and over again how much he loves you until you feel like talking

Or tells you his dad jokes in hopes to get a laugh out of you

Or when he’s not next to you

He’d FaceTime you and show you Odengie and Eomukie

“Eomma is sad today babies, let’s cheer her up”

Or he’d babble about his day

Or or he’d sing and play guitar

And that’s honestly the biggest blessings to your ears

Kim seokjin singing just for you

Like imagine that angelic voice before bed

Or coming from the bathroom

Your relationship would honestly be so beautiful and loving

Every memory is documented by polaroids which you both would keep in your secret box

And Kim Seokjin that spectacular man would be so supportive and loving and amazing that he will keep you wondering if you saved a kingdom in your past life

Because you feel like you do not deserve him

He’s every I love you whisper, every Polaroid picture, every inside joke, every slow dance, every laughter, every tear (mainly happy ones), every hug and every kiss

He’s everything you ever wanted and he’s there

Yours. Completely and utterly yours.

[chipsandwaffles]

forgetful

Synopsis: You forget Doyoung’s birthday. Member: Doyoung/Reader Word Count: 2,656 Notes: for the sweetest boy in all the land, the cutest bunny boy i’ve ever seen, my favorite guy, doyoung. i hope he has a good birthday and i hope you enjoy this cute fic ^^

You’re half-awake when you hear your phone go off next to you. You’d say it’s way too early for that kind of thing, but you’re almost certain it’s already noon. Your boyfriend isn’t in your bed, and there’s no noise coming from outside your room that your roommate would be causing. You’re sure they’re both at work, and if they were at work, it only meant it was already noon.

Which meant you should probably get up. You couldn’t sleep all day, especially when you probably had things to do today.

Who knows. You’re still half asleep. You’d have to figure out what you had to do after you took a shower and ate. In the meantime, you reach a hand under your pillow, plucking your phone from under it as you yawn. Whoever was texting you probably wanted an answer.

You roll over onto your back and open up your messages, seeing two from your boyfriend, one from your best friend, and another from one of your coworkers. You ignore the other two in favor of your boyfriend, happily opening them up to see what he was saying.

Dododoyoung <3, 12:11 P.M Hey are we doing anything tonight?

Dododoyoung <3, 12:20 P.M Don’t sleep all day without me ;;

You smile and roll out of bed, yawning again as you begin texting Doyoung back. You can barely text as you walk to the kitchen, your message barely coherent as you read it over. You laugh, knowing Doyoung won’t understand it and quickly delete it before setting your phone down. You get together a bowl of cereal as you continue waking up and sit down at your dining table with it, eating slowly in the quiet of your apartment.

It felt like today was going to be a good day. As you get your bearings, you remember it’s your day off, and you could do anything you wanted. You could probably go spend some time window shopping at the mall, maybe bring Doyoung dinner, and then you could go home together and finish watching the drama you started yesterday. Maybe somewhere in between you could pick up a nice dessert for yourself.

Yeah. That sounded like a nice day.

You pick up your phone once more, finally feeling awake enough to properly text Doyoung back.

You, 12:29 P.M I’m gonna pick you up from work when you’re done if that’s okay? I was thinking we can finish the drama we started yesterday but I’m up for anything really if you don’t want to

You’re about to set your phone down when you notice a wallet sitting on the dining table. You smile, shaking your head before texting Doyoung again.

You, 12:29 P.M You left your wallet here loser. Do you need it for anything?

You finish up your cereal while you wait for a text back from Doyoung, heading to the bathroom once you’re done. By the time you’re ready for your shower, he still hasn’t texted you back, so you leave it. Once you were out you’re sure you’d probably get a text back anyways. You set your phone on the sink counter top and hop in the shower so you could finally finish off your late morning.

You’re stepping out of your shower when you hear your phone go off. You quickly wrap your hair in a towel before dying off your hands, picking up your phone right after. Doyoung has finally texted you back and you can’t help the smile that finds its way on your face.

Dododoyoung <3, 12:51 P.M No it’s okay. I’ll wait until later to get it

You, 12:52 P.M Okay :) tell me when you’re out later and I’ll come get you

Dododoyoung <3, 12:52 P.M Okay :) I hope there’s something special planned

You stare at your phone in confusion. Something special? Why would he want something special planned? Today was your day off. There was no way you were going to go out and plan something special for some random day just because Doyoung asked. That was too much, especially when you just wanted to relax at the end of the day.

You quickly text him back before setting your phone on the counter once more and then start getting dressed.

You, 12:53 P.M Pfft yeah right we’re gonna be eating pizza and finishing that drama babe

-

After a pleasant excursion to the mall, your favorite pizza joint, and a short trip to Doyoung’s favorite bakery, you’re sitting outside NCT’s practice room waiting for them to get out. Apparently they were doing comeback stuff, so you weren’t allowed in, but, you were in good company with your cake so you didn’t mind much.

You happily munch on it as you wait, savoring the delicious taste in your mouth. You’re sure Doyoung was going to like a piece of it too. You weren’t going to originally get him anything considering the bakery tended to be a little pricey, but you were feeling generous today so why the fuck not.

He was going to enjoy it, so you didn’t feel all that bad for your wallet.

“Ohhh, Y/N!” You look up from your cake at the boys leaving the practice room, smiles on their faces as they pass you.

“Hey guys! Any teasers on your comeback for me?” You grin at Mark especially, staring right at him because sometimes, if you were lucky, you could get little tidbits out of him.

“No, no teasers!” You watch as Mark is quickly dragged away from you by Johnny. You pout, but it was probably for the better. Sometimes you just couldn’t get any teasers from them.

“Y/N.” Your thoughts about their comeback immediately dissipate when you hear your favorite voice speaking to you. You look up at Doyoung, seeing a smile on his face and you can’t help but smile back.

“Hey. You’re done, right?” He nods his head, coming to kneel down in front of you. You both lean in until your lips are brushing against each other’s in a sweet kiss, one that makes you want to hurry home so you can kiss even more.

But he quickly pulls away before you can do anything more, and he licks his lips.

“Mmm, are you eating cake?” You nod your head, pointing to the bag next to you.

“I got pizza and stopped at that one bakery you like so much. I’m very prepared to eat a lot and chill out for the rest of the night,” you say. Doyoung looks at you, a frown settling on his face. You don’t like that look at all. “What? Do you want something else?”

He shakes his head. “No it’s just… You don’t have anything else prepared?” You tilt your head in confusion. Why was he on this again?

“No. Should I?” He stares at you with this hard look, one that makes you feel absolutely stupid. You weren’t forgetting anything, were you?

“Is there something special going on today?” Doyoung keep staring, waiting for you to realize what you were forgetting. You frown and quickly take out your phone to look at the date.

Thu, February 1

Your eyes widen almost immediately at seeing the date.

“Oh my god- Doyoung- I’m sorry I didn’t even think about it-

“Wow. That makes me feel really special,” Doyoung says. He moves away from you and stands up. You quickly do the same, grabbing at his hand before he can go anywhere.

“I didn’t even it like that. I’ve been so busy since I got that new job and I was so excited to have a day off I didn’t even…” You sigh and squeeze Doyoung’s hand. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have forgotten your birthday.”

Doyoung shrugs, pulling his hand away from yours. “It’s fine-

“It’s not-

“It is. The guys forgot it was my birthday too, so… It’s whatever.”

Your frown deepens and you reach for Doyoung’s hand once more, grabbing it and pulling him close. You wrap your arms around his waist and pull him close to you.

“We still got the rest of the day. Let me make it up to you, okay? What do you want to do? Go to a fancy restaurant? See a movie? Go driving around or-

“Nothing,” Doyoung interrupts. He pries your arms away from himself and steps back, shaking his head. You can tell he’s unhappy, but he wasn’t going to say anything about it. “I’m going to go shower. We can just go back to your place when I’m done.”

Doyoung turns around and continues walking down the hallway. You can’t help but feel absolutely shitty as you watch him walk away.

How could you forget your boyfriend’s birthday, especially when you had never forgotten it before? Was it just routine at this point after being together for so long that it didn’t even occur to you? You sigh, and quickly open up your messages. Whatever it was, you couldn’t continue being shitty. You weren’t going to be able to do much, but you’re sure anything would get Doyoung’s spirits up.

Besides, you could make it up to him for real later.

You, 5:11 P.M Were you guys doing anything for doyoung’s birthday??

Johnny Boy, 5:12 P.M yeah taeyong and yuta are preparing stuff right now in the practice room. Why?

You, 5:12 P.M Okay great. I need to go home and prepare some stuff myself so could you drop him off at my place afterwards??

Johnny Boy, 5:12 P.M Of course

You, 5:12 P.M Thank you you’re the best

You quickly pocket your phone and grab your things before heading down the hallway. You had to prepare a surprise at least for Doyoung’s birthday. It was better than letting him think you didn’t care or something.

-

You’re exhausted by the time you’re done with your surprise preparations. You had rushed to the bakery to buy even more cake, something your wallet would definitely never forget, then you had gone to a party store to buy balloons to make it seem like you had it a little bit together, and then you had rushed around your apartment looking for a gift for Doyoung. You practically tore up your room just looking for it.

Once you found it, you did your best to wrap it up and place it next to the cake before taking a moment a to relax. The rush of everything really had left you with little energy, but you needed some of it back if you were going to spend the rest of the night with Doyoung.

It was going to go fine. Doyoung was going to be happy on his birthday. That’s what he deserved after all.

You sigh and stare at the cake on the table, your eyes wandering to the gift a moment later. It was a gift you were planning on giving to him for your anniversary, but, this was an emergency. Giving it to him early wasn’t going to kill anything anyways.

You just hoped this was enough to cheer him up.

Suddenly, you hear the door to your apartment open. You quickly grab a party popper you had bought and run to the door. You pop it before the person on the other side is even halfway in, and they yell in surprise.

“Y/N-! What the hell?!” You laugh awkwardly at Doyoung, watching as confetti rains down on him.

“Happy birthday!” You try. Doyoung sighs, stepping into your apartment and closing the door behind him.

“It’s okay that you forgot, Y/N-

“I didn’t!” You step forward and grab Doyoung’s hand, leading him into the kitchen. The balloons you bought are sitting by the table on either side, and the cake is lit with candles, finishing off the surprise nicely.

“See? I have balloons and cake and there’s even a present.”

Doyoung looks at you, rolling his eyes. “I don’t believe you for a second.”

You frown but give in anyways. There was no use lying to him. Doyoung knew you too well.

“Okay, fine. I forgot and I feel super bad. But that doesn’t mean I don’t love you or that… I don’t know. Please don’t be mad? I bought you your favorite cake and I really do have a gift. And we can enjoy pizza and do whatever else you want.”

Doyoung finally cracks a smile and he pulls you in for a hug. You’re surprised for a moment but hug back as well. If he was hugging you, that definitely didn’t mean he was mad at you.

“Thank you,” he says.

“You’re not upset, right? I don’t want you to be upset. Especially on your birthday. I’ll make it up to you for real for real another time but for right now, this is all I have,” you say. Doyoung pulls away and presses a kiss to your lips, his smile soft as he looks at you.

“I’m happy you went to the trouble of trying to make up for it. This is… better than nothing.” You roll your eyes and take his hand, leading him over to the table.

“This is definitely better than nothing. I mean, don’t you see this cake? It’s going to last an entire week,” you say.

“That sounds great. Sing me happy birthday now, will you?” You do as Doyoung asks, clapping your hands as you recite the happy birthday song to him. Once you’re done, he closes his eyes and blows out his candles. Together, you take off the candles from the cake and Doyoung cuts it up, handing off a piece to you. He gets a piece for himself after and you sit at the table together, eating the cake.

“Good, right?” You ask. He nods his head and picks up the gift you got him.

“So good. What’s in here?”

“Open it up and you’ll see,” you say. Doyoung looks between his cake and the present and you laugh, shaking your head. “Finish your cake and then open it up.”

Doyoung quickly finishes his cake, setting a second piece on his plate before focusing on your gift. You watch as he rips open the shitty wrapping paper, the small box the only thing left in his hands when he’s done. Your leg bounces nervously as you look at him. You really hoped he liked it. If he didn’t, you’re not sure what you’d do.

You hold your breath as he opens the box and his eyes widen at what’s inside.

“Do you like it?” You squeak out. Doyoung looks up at you, down to the box, and then up at you once more.

“Y/N, these are- they must’ve cost so much,” Doyoung says. You shrug, your eyes on the box.

“You kept talking about them and you had the page bookmarked on your phone- I thought it’d be a good gift to get you. You’re always spending so much on me, I thought it’d be nice of me to spend so much on you too.

“Do you like it?” You ask again. Doyoung nods at you, his smile big as he takes the gift from the box. It’s kind of simple, really, just customized in-ear’s that Doyoung had been looking at since Christmas. You know he was never going to buy them, and, you had extra money from your old job, so you decided to buy him them instead.

It would’ve been a great anniversary gift, but, you’re pretty sure it’s better as a birthday present, especially for this birthday.

“Y/N, these are… Fuck, I love you,” he says. You’re suddenly being kissed, Doyoung’s lips pressing against yours a little more loving than you were expecting tonight. You don’t mind though. This was good.

When you pull away, Doyoung is still smiling.

“Does that make up for forgetting about your birthday?” You ask. Doyoung nods, leaning in again to kiss you once more.

You were right. Today was a good day.

[ariainstars]

@soloscavenger353

Thank you for the reblog and your thoughts. See my answers below.

1. I did not suggest that „children read fanfiction”. I am not aware from which part of my meta you interpreted that. I assume most readers are young girls and women.

2. If these silly fanfictions were only a few and in between, I wouldn’t mind, but my impression is that they have become a real pest ever since TLJ came out.

3. Ever wondered why nowadays so many women come out confessing that they were the victim of some scam artist? A guy whom they e.g. matched on Tinder, who made them believe he was rich and showered them with gifts and attention for a while, only to want money from them due to “some business having gone badly” later on, and after having got said money left them never to be seen or heard of again? I’m sure the popularity of stuff like FSOG and its derivates has nothing to do with it. (Sorry not sorry about the sarcasm.)

4. Our today’s society is decadent enough. We need no more encouragement from stories who pick up where glam magazines and Instagram influencers leave us, making us believe that a person can only be happy by living “The Life”, i.e. being so wealthy that they can spend the rest of their lives shopping useless stuff (which they forget the next moment), driving luxury cars, travelling by private jets, and having lots of sex in the meantime before they get bored to death.

5. Applied to Reylo, since Rich Bad Boy and Tough Poor Girl stories thrive like the plague, this does not show a fandom that consumes certain stories “responsibly”. On the contrary, they are obviously read and passed on fawning over them, together with the conviction that they describe True Love, and forming the ideas of many young girls and women about what love is supposed to look like. (Cinderella’s prince may have been boring as hell, but at least he wasn’t a killer.)

I wrote over and over that I am not a fan of TRoS. I dislike it because it’s badly made, because it wrapped up the saga in a disappointing way, and because it didn’t even hint at a comeback for Ben although he is the hero of the sequels. I dislike that movie wholeheartedly.

But, sometimes I tend to be a little sarcastic. And stumbling about these disgusting fanfictions over and over, after a while I considered that since everything has a positive side, maybe Ben’s death will at least discourage the toxic and silly side of the fandom to stop using him as an excuse for the revolting Reylo stories which are written and consumed with the excuse “Oh, but we all know it’s only fiction”.

Humanity is in the middle of a terrible crisis, our economy no longer providing a living despite hard work for millions of people, climate crashing all around us, and new warzones in Europe. No one needs more of this superficial, selfish mentality “Oh, if only I was rich and could have sex all day!” I hate that I have to come across so many stories which enhance these silly dreams over and over, females sighing about how wonderful it must become a useless person, and how they would forgive a Bad Boy any crime as long as he’s both sexy and rich, because you know, that’s what True Love looks like.

We are supposed to envy billionaires and influencers and to struggle to be like them. Star Wars, a story that used to be about redemption, family legacy and forgiveness, come the second instalment of the sequels was reduced in the minds of many fans to a “love story but without any responsibility” trope.

Despite modern females allegedly all being “free and equal”, very many contemporary “love” stories glorify sick power dynamics, with the guy allegedly controlling the girl through his physical prowess and his money, while in truth she is controlling him because she knows how to manipulate his feelings. This distorted idea of “love” is spreading like wildfire through many fandoms, including Star Wars and, with it, Reylo. It’s not the fault of the studios. They did not come up with the idea and they did not encourage it. I find it highly disturbing that so many female fans believe they have found an ideal playground for their sick fantasies.

As I said over and over, everybody can have and keep their own opinion. But right now, I’m fed up and disgusted by what the Star Wars sequel fandom has become. Which is why, yes, maybe it’s good the studios ended the saga in a way that doesn’t encourage any more of this distorted mentality. Yes, it’s true that some fans will write on and on no matter what, but I still remember how the fandom practically exploded after TLJ. It was after this movie came out that the fandom gradually and partly became toxic and FSOG / Twilight-style stories started popping up like mushrooms, pulling out all the stops and hardly leaving room for morals or legitimate concerns any longer. TRoS, as bad as it is, at least leaves little to no room for these alleged “romantic” interpretations.

Hopefully, there still is room for a better future.

Ben Solo? Sorry. Maybe He’s Better Off Dead.

I have read it more times than I can count: Ben Solo shouldn’t have died, that’s what one side of the fandom says. The other side argues “Reylo’s have destroyed Star Wars.”

Both are right. And both are wrong in a way.

Yes, I was disappointed when Ben Solo died at the end of the sequel trilogy. He was by far my favorite character, the most intriguing of the movies and one of the most interesting of the entire saga.

My husband argued for years that they couldn’t let a patricide and multiple killer live, let alone give him a happy ending. And I myself was skeptical when it came to the popular Reylo interpretation that “their love” would save the day. Apart from the fact that it would have fitted a romance but not an action movie; important as personal developments and relationships always are in the saga, it would have been sappy.

However, since this is the Skywalker saga, I figured that they couldn’t kill the last of their blood; and since the Force wants Balance and this was heavily foreshadowed in The Last Jedi, I imagined Ben, alone or with Rey’s help, would somehow find the key to this balance and pass it on. Had that happened, at least his death would have had some meaning. The Rise of Skywalker was an unsatisfying ending because it brought the saga back to zero, with a Palpatine in charge and no hero in sight. I still don’t like it. But as for Ben Solo, I sometimes think that maybe this was the best ending for him after all.

One great mistake I made was to spend too much time on social media after having seen The Last Jedi, a movie that I was and still am enthusiastic about. I quickly learned to keep away from the toxic parts of the fandom and found myself mostly among Ben Solo and Adam Driver fans, romantic souls who obviously expected some Disney-style happy ending. It was nice to exchange thoughts and dive deeper into the saga’s theme together with these fans. The downside was that we all set our hopes high and fed off each other’s energies expecting with too much certainty that Ben would get his happy ending.

And that’s not the worst part.

The most annoying part of the fandom, for me, has become the realm of Reylo fanfiction.

While I have read some that are very good, by now I am fed up with the probably most common Reylo trope: “poor, tough girl and rich bad boy”. Yes, I know that we read and write fanfiction only for entertainment, but isn’t it going a little too far when in every second Reylo fanfiction you stumble on the Fifty Shades of Grey narrative?

The morals of such stories are more than dubious, you can call me narrow-minded and old fashioned all you want. Poor girl meets guy who is tall, dark and fascinating, finds that sex with him is lots of fun, and the fact that he’s a billionaire doesn’t hurt either. (A millionaire is no longer enough: nowadays to give a girl everything she wants, billions are necessary. I wonder what she could possibly need.) Of course the hero has some dark, distant past, like having killed and tortured people, but that only adds to his fascination. The fact that he wears Armani and drives a Maserati only adds to his charm. Poor girl, not having had a family growing up and no education, has a low inhibition threshold, so she enjoys kinky sex with the bad guy, can’t get away from him because “his tormented soul needs her”, and because the wicked things he did or still does add spice to their sexual relation; besides, he can offer her silk dresses, a brand-new luxury apartment and jewels the size of rocks. Either she’s so poor that she is dazed by all the magnificence, or she’s doing well enough but she will take what she can, even if he did not earn all his money but inherited it or got it the criminal way. Besides, rich boy and his girlfriend don’t have to worry about old socks lying around, empty pantries and overcooked meals, since he can afford plenty of servants for such boring, mundane tasks. Of course she will forgive him and love him - who would let such a magnificent fish slip through her fingers?

Strangely, these stories are seen as highly romantic and interpreted as “love can conquer everything”. In the end, rich boy turns good again, they will be together courtesy or her forgiveness, and they can spend the rest of their lives having much more money than any person could reasonably spend in an entire lifetime. Oh well, maybe a few of their friends will get underpaid jobs. The big chunk of the cake is carried away by poor but smart girl who knows how to wrap rich bad boy around her little finger.

These are not only a few bad apples. I have stumbled on this cliché (and stopped reading these fanfictions when I realized where they were going) dozens of times. It doesn’t get better although the sequel trilogy is concluded by now. I don’t even know where the idea came from in the first place, maybe due to Ben being a princess’ son; but we never saw any hint at Ben’s youth and whether he lived in abundance or not. And I’m fed up.

No, wealth should not make a guy attractive. No, the fact that he’s capable of killing and torturing also shouldn’t make him attractive. No, if a man you hardly know gives you expensive stuff it’s not a proof of “true love”. No, it ought not to be fun to have sex with a ruthless guy who just so happens to have a soft spot for you. No, love is not a magic power that makes everyone better, and most of all, richer.

Those of you who also read fanfiction: have you ever wondered why so many Reylo fanfiction are set in modern times? Right - because it makes it easier to turn Kylo Ren / Ben Solo into a thinly veiled Christian Grey. Or maybe Edward Cullen. In any case, for mysterious reasons average girl meets dream prince not where he’s hiding away in a castle but at Starbucks or McDonald’s, like a billionaire would ever go there, “love” takes over, and you can imagine the rest without having to read it.

And please don’t tell me that this is only fiction and that we can consume kinky stuff responsibly. The stories you read or watch, in particular growing up, have an influence on your mind, no matter how aware you are that they’re not reality. Pornography is no more realistic than a Disney movie. Poor tough girl finding love and happiness with rich bad guy is extremely unlikely to happen. But such stories are consumed over and over and countless girls and women sigh about them, fooling themselves that their minds are too superior to get contaminated. Believe me, they’re not. I have been married a while now and looking back I often shake my head at the stories I used to read and how far detached they were from reality. And yet they made me unhappy, because for many years I subconsciously believed that “love” is only real when it happens a certain way.

I’m sorry for Ben Solo, not only because he’s dead but mostly for what many Reylo’s have made of him. I’m beginning to think that maybe he’s better off dead than bestowing diamonds and designer shoes to girls who apparently have no quality except for the fact that they are not afraid of him.

I’m glad the Disney studios have retained enough morals not to have paved the road for more of this mentality. This is not Cinderella or Beauty and the Beast, where the peasant girl marries the prince and they live happily ever after. Ben Solo has a terrible past and that needs to be approached. That he’s dark and brooding and allegedly rich should not make everything he did forgivable. Even if he had no other way to go, he gave in to his frustration by killing and believing this would make him stronger. “Love” is not a sponge that wipes away the past. A man was still formed by the life he led before he met the girl, he’s not born again through their love because she has decided to project all of her expectations onto him. This is a toxic and highly unrealistic expectation on the female side, and I wouldn’t want to know how many girls and woman have been made unhappy because they believe it.

A main mistake Reylo’s who expected a happy ending made was not to consider that most fans only watch the movies, where we learn little to nothing about Ben Solo’s past. That Palpatine whispered in his head is only hinted at in the third movie; he says his father disappointed him but not why; we never see him talk to his mother; his uncle failed him but that was obviously only the last straw for him. Only reading the novels and comics and interpreting them from Ben’s point of view a fan realizes the tragedy of his situation. Technically, he’s the villain. Yes, it’s of course good that he redeems himself, but it’s not Rey who saves him through her love, there are many factors pushing him back to the Light. His redemption was heavily foreshadowed and he more than earned it. Did he deserve a happy ending with Rey? No. They were very different and they hardly knew one another. She was repeatedly unnecessarily aggressive towards him, and he was the main villain. She did not “deserve him” and he did not “deserve her.”

For very many Reylo’s, all of that seems to make little difference. They are both sexy, that’s enough. Of course bad boy from blue blood he must get married to good but poor girl and have plenty of hot sex with her. It doesn’t matter if they fit together, and how their past can fit the picture: they must get their happy ending because the cliché expects it. Rich sexy guy can’t die, even if he was a ruthless killer who slaughtered innocent and disarmed people for years. Poor tough girl can’t remain alone because she deserves a guy who will do anything for her, even change sides and his whole character, and the fact that he can shower her with jewels doesn’t hurt either.

I can only speak for myself. But I find these expectations both trite and immoral. There is nothing “romantic” about them and I’m glad nothing came of that in the saga. As long as I only met these tropes in fan stories from time to time I just shrugged them off, but they have become unbearable. What ideas do some fanfiction authors have of love? How sick and distorted is it to assume that money and sex are what keeps a couple together? Do two people really need nothing more in common? Can differences in upbringing, attitude and past experiences simply be swept away by passion and diamonds? In a so-called bodice-ripper perhaps. One of the reasons why I like Star Wars is that for all of its mysticism and symbolism, it’s psychologically very realistic.

I would be happy for Ben Solo to get a second chance, and after all, Anakin in a sense had two lives too. It only seems fair. Maybe he could meet Rey again some day and they could give it a new start.

But rich sexy bad guy and poor sexy tough girl riding into the sunset, where kinky sex and wealth are waiting for them?

This is not romantic in the least. This is capitalism at absurdum - not only having More Money Than You Could Ever Spend and Never Having to Lift a Finger Unless for Pleasure, but also Having Done Nothing to Earn It, except feeling entitled to it for obscure reasons.

No. I’m sorry, Reylo’s, but in my opinion both Ben and Rey deserve something more meaningful than that. Ben is better off dead than reduced to a sex fiend with an unlimited credit card; and Rey is better off alone than wearing designer clothes over lace underwear and handcuffs. These ideas are a slap in the face of their dignity and neither romantic nor erotic. They wouldn’t have fitted the Star Wars saga either, and they wouldn’t have been in line with Disney’s moral standards. Maybe the studios had other plans at first, but honestly: if these disgusting tropes don’t get any more fodder than the first two movies already gave them, it’s for the better. I believe young people, in particular young women who read fanfiction, need something different than sex, violence and riches to form their ideas of what love and partnership should look like.

The Jedi didn’t deserve to be wiped out; their mindset deserved it. Ben didn’t deserve to die; what he has become a stand-in for in the eyes of countless female fans can’t die too quickly.

Give Ben Solo another chance? Any time. But please, not like this. And please leave Adam Driver alone, his sexiness is no excuse to morph him into a f*** toy.

Please be respectful in your comments, these are only my personal points of view and no one asks you to agree. Thank you.