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writeouswriter · 2 years

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Is the problem that I'm being too self indulgent with my plots that they start to lose coherency or is the problem that I'm not being self indulgent enough and thinking too hard about trivial things like whether they make sense rather than whether or not they kick ass severely and look good as the backdrop to my daydreams

#writing #writeblr #much to think about #much to write about #writer things #textpost #relatable #can't get over how much 2016-2017 me wrote just absolutely off the rails self indulgent angst mostly #with some demons and beasts and angels and melodrama #and i had that day where a week into nano having forgotten about it i wrote nearly like 10000 words #and had a vague plan of where i was going #and now it's like 7 words i'm burned out what am I doing #i gotta shamelessly self indulgently poor little meow meow ify some characters again #first nano project my character's introductory scene is him running from a ghost in a nightmarish chase scene that messes with his head #and has to do with his hashtag secret dramatic past #then having him be introduced to the other main character as passed out on the porch like a drunk before getting in a fight and getting sho #then getting driven to the hospital in a small car with claustrophobia with the person who shot him #and then arriving at said hospital only to be met with painful memories and meetings of a previous stay there #and then getting tricked into investigating a murder scene there that has to do with his specific backstory of demon angst #and then burning his hand on silver having paranormal flashbacks talking to demons and idk #i was just beating this guy up scene after scene glorious 37000 words unfortunately lost a couple thousand to a power out and lost steam #but still like it was so much writing and some of it wasn't even half bad #what happened that i can't write that self indulgently anymore #i mean worsening adhd and loss of structure and better writing skill and over perfectionism happened but hey #i used to daydream consecutive scenes and opening scenes now i just got that one thing in the middle half the time #and a premise and vibes with no solidity despite the ideas being more solid to me the execution is less solid #anyway ignore me #now my plots are very self indulgent premise wise but after I get the premise I start thinking of all these complicated things that get in #the way of the indulgence I think

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