#and the tag is CONSTANTLY lacking in amelia posts and analysis

[upsidedowngrass]

your Amelia analysis post is so on point aah

and I also feel like a lot of people overlook that Amelia dies in ep 1 and would have definitely motivated her actions in ep 7 😿

THANK U!!!

YEAH.... i think it gets overlooked largely bc it was Fast, rather than drawn out like liams death was, to the point where it looks kind of like it even confused amelia when she was revived- but no matter what, no matter how slow or fast it was, she died and she KNOWS it, and i dont inagine someone just walks away from that

similar to how liam , in s2, seems to kinda just... lean into some feeling of already having Died, amelia comes to REALLY have complicated feelings on her own life bc she died too. ive seen ppl talk abt her relationship w life pre-one, and i agree w it a lot, but a lot of it doesnt even include the fact that. i imagine dying has a deep impact on how one sees their own identity. in ep 7, i think the guilt was Likely the biggest factor, but that feeling of having died also seems to have just been building and building and DEF had smth to do w it. i think it all comes to a head during the 7 months, leading her to sort of imagine her before one AS being dead. before that, i think the gradually increasing ease of being agitated is REALLY impacted by seeing the plane as a place that she Died At, but during the 7 months that stress turns from 'i need to get out of here bc i dont wanna Be dead' to 'who i was before this already died, so this is just life now'

theres also the fact that i think maybe, it was hard to consider getting the others out before herself, because up until then, she WAS the only person to have died. but after liam drowns, i imagine it... makes her not forget that she died, too, but think that it was irrelevant, because it was fast and his death wasnt, which makes all of this just ADD to her guilt. i dont think it SHOULD illegitimize her own death. brcause she still DIED, but given that ep 6 definently impacted her in terms of giving her so, so much, guilt, it looks to have made her feel like what happened to her was irrelevant in comparison to him :(

to her, she already died, and she couldnt even save liam from dying, too. the least she could do at this point was to stop anything else from happening to him