#and the best part is that it'd be for a character barely anybody is interested in HAHA

[paimonial-rage]

Omg hi! How are you? Sorry for taking a while to write the fic I promised you. I struggled to figure out which word, the character, and the setting. I'm almost finished! Will be done in the following days, so there are no more delays! -Yuri

Aww, don't worry about it! Even though I am looking forward to it, I am in no rush. Honestly I'm having trouble with writing right now, so I totally get it.

[mercair]

Goodbye Mercair

On January 7th of 2017, i posted my first song ever. It was a shitty self-insert megalo that never got any likes and barely got listened to. But i didn't really make it to get popular, i knew at the time that that would never happen and i was okay with it, because i didn't make that song for that. That first song was my way of thanking this community for helping me so much during a grim part of my life, to thank YOU, Undertale/Deltarune fan just for being there, creating stuff, and making people happy... I wanted to pay back the happiness this community gave me, and it has been like that ever since.

But now i realize, after 7 years, that... I'm not needed here. Whether i'm here or not, people would still be happy. People would have banger songs to listen to and characters to obsese over, without me. And that's wonderful! I enjoy seeing people happy more than i enjoy seeing myself. Just like in real life too, i'm the kind of person that can disappear from earth, and almost nobody would notice. But it's not like i can blame them, in the last 7 years i've been here i barely talked to anybody, i barely interacted and i barely got any friends.

And also, i'll just never be able to pay my debts with this community. I owe you guys so much, but nothing of what i do will ever be enough, not for me at least. And now i just have nothing to offer. I have no new ideas, i'll have no way of composing in what seems like months at this point, and i just lost my motivation. I've ran out of excuses to justify my presence in this place.

But also, in all honesty... After 7 years of creating stuff, even though i told myself that i never did it for popularity... I just thought i would stop feeling like a nobody, and that i'd stop feeling jealous of everyone else's success on this community. Is that ungrateful of me? Am i being greedy and not appreciative enough of what i got? Honestly, that's another reason of why i decided to leave; i'm just so secretly jealous of every other famous person in this fandom, i just think it'd be unfair for you guys to have a person like me around here. Ungrateful, greedy, jealous.

So i decided it's just time. To give up. To leave.

Once i'm done writing this letter, it'll be over. I'll stop being a musician, and i'll stop being an artist too. But please don't be sad about that. I don't want you to be sad. I want you to keep being happy, living in this fandom, like always. Keep making banger tracks, keep making cool art whether it's of your favorite characters or your own awesome ocs, keep talking to your friends and the people who love you, and overall, just forget about me. Forget about all of this. All my creations, all my characters, songs and concepts, they're not worthy of your praise. But everyone else's stuff is. So please, don't remember me or else i won't be able to leave this place in peace.

And now, i guess the question people are more interested in right now is "What will happen to all your stuff then?" Well, as some may have noticed, i've already taken down all of my original tracks from my soundcloud account, except for the covers/songs i made for other people and collabs, which are still up, since they're either not my characters, or i just wasn't the only one that worked on it, and it would be unfair to delete it. The soundcloud account will soon go unnamed, and i'll erase any connection to me it has, so people will be able to listen to those songs, without my name in it. As for my Tumblr and Twitter account... I'm now debating on whether or not to delete them, or just do the same and erase my name from both of them. I also gotta point out the possibility of me regreting this decision, but even if i do, i'm most likely not coming back.

So that's it. But before i go, i want to apologize. For everything.

I'm sorry i wasn't the best at what i did.

I'm sorry if my music wasn't good enough to make you smile or bang your head to it.

I'm sorry if my artistic abilities never catched your eye.

I'm sorry that i was never able to make a character you could obsess over.

I'm sorry if i was just too awkward and unfunny when talking to you.

I'm sorry if i was never able to become your friend and be someone you could talk to on the daily.

And most of all, i'm sorry for thinking that i could be like you. That i could be one of you.

All of you are so talented... SO incredibly talented and such good people... You're all legitimatlly amazing, and don't let people tell you otherwise. You're all gonna do great stuff in the future with the skills you have now, i guarantee it.

Well, i have to go now.

Thank you. For everything, and for what you did for me so many years ago. Thanks to you, i managed to be happy for the last 7 years of my life.

Goodbye UTDR.

[monochromepalette]

Thank you, I hope so too! Do you have any cousins you need to babysit? Or anybody in yoir family in particular?

Totally understandable, don't worry! :D I know what you mean, though. To be all honest, there's quite a few games I need to finish... I'm nearly done with most of them. Gosh, I gave up on Genshin. That game has messed up my perception of fantasy, and I can't enjoy it as much anymore 😆 I'm glad you're still enjoying it, though <3

I 100% agree that setting commitment to a game is difficult. Especially a mobile one, where you need to constantly get new updates and story *which is another reason I can't finish my games. I'm distracted by gacha games.

Oh! I hope your dad still has the game! It'd be really fun with you. And correct, very little commitment ^^ Wait, you dooo?! Nintendo Switch or the mobile one of Animal Crossing??? True, Puyo Puyo sounds fun as well! I've only played it a couple times, so you'd beat me XD

Oh yeah, I had Roblox downloaded once from a time when I played with one of my other friends! Though I uninstalled it for space. I don't mind getting it again for you :) Oh really? Ahaha, I'll keep that in mind that you scare easily! I can relate. Being the one controlling the actions of someone in a horror game can be very eerie. Literally front row seats to death-ville. But I'm up for it, too! Do you have a pc? Just asking so maybe we can run up some games on Steam ^^

Yay! What kind of paint??? I'd love to see a part of it or whatever you're comfortable with whenever you're done. Though, not forcing you. Just whatever you're okay with or not okay with!

Honestly, I do enjoy those dynamics sometimes! It's adorable! I'll give Oh! Holy! a try the next time I want to read romance~ Keeping it in my list! I'll do my best to connect dots within the plot if you got lost! ( > n < ) I suppose maybe some translation errors or something? That's all I can really think of. Ohh, I don't mind suggestive! I think a lot of mangas are like that anyways XD

Haha, alright! It's just really cool how there are different types and I had never known / heard about it. I mean, I think I have *heard* those terms but it wasn't something I had to go and look up immediately until now.

These games really be doing us dirty by not giving us a gay option 😭 Though like you said, not surprised. Not really in the norm in the east, so... I GUESS it makes sense... Though obv not agreeable 😭😭😭 I don't think I ever got that far in the game. I think I stopped at like... the 5th day or something. If I can't remember, it def did not make a good impression on me.

"Not that I'm jealous..." LOL 😆 Honestly, I hope in the future they add her as a romance option :((( It would be super nice if they did. Isn't Zen the newest character? I remember seeing him being added as of recently when I saw the icon for the game on the playstore.

Ouh, Yoosung! Isn't he the cutesy-type? He would seem like your type in all honesty 😆 I've never been attracted to the super-cutesy male characters. I mean, they're what they are: cute. But I never held any romantic feelings onto them.

I had to look up Jaehee again. I don't think I got that far if I don't remember her? Hrm, I barely remember anybody, sorry! 😭 How long do you think it'll take for you to finish everybody's routes and complete everything?? You said you were feeling worn out, so hopefully it doesn't stay that way for too long!

I think I didn't like the daily login aspect of it. When I want to play a game, I want to be able to sit through it for a long while and not need to wait to play the next day for some extra dialouge. I hated doing that with the Otome games as well. Took way too long.. And again, I just think the characters weren't all that interesting to me. I had a friend who loooved the game but it was so long ago that I barely remember our coversation about it. The only one I liked was 707. Um, though, from what my friend told me, it would be a while until I would be able to play his route. He just kinda looked like my partner when we were back in high school... Soooo, I was ready to fall in love with another him

Hello, Mono ✨

How have you been? Anything interesting happen at the donut shop? Play any cool games? Developed your ocs?

Hi Moo-Moo~!!! It's been a while, hasn't it? ❤️

Nothing cool at my work place, sadly. Just same old, same old. No developed OCs either. I've just been babysitting so I haven't had time to think to myself for a while v_v

Though, I have played some new games :D (Some of them not really *new* new games but have been in my roster for a while but haven't touched till as of recently):

- Honkai Star Rail (I'm sure you've heard of that one!)

- Phasmophobia (Hunting ghosties~~)

- Outlast Trials (Horror/Sci-fi(?) I've been waiting for one of my friends on the other side of the world to get back home so I can play it again x_x)

- Left 4 Dead 2 (FPS shooter game. I usually don't play them but it's been for so far!)

-Cult of the Lamb (Uhh... Animal Crossing meets Binding of Issac?)

- Project Zomboid (Survival game w/ zombies)

Most of these games I've been playing with my family. I'd love to play a game with you in the future if possible. It would be a lot of fun ❤️

How about you? Anything fun planned during the summer, or excited for the following school year? How about your OCs? ^^