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i am struggling to know what to do here. i think i definitely need a little time away just to… soak in everything and work on myself, because the last thing i would wanna do is make anyone uncomfortable here, whether it now with the negativity i’ve brought to the dash the past couple of days by platforming the other blog, or in the past with public criticism that i am not in a position to take a stance on. i do wanna take this opportunity to apologise for that. i had a few hours to think about things and i decided that i shouldn’t get to say what offends people and what doesn’t offend people. if you have seen a vague on my blog before and was hurt by it, then you have a right to be hurt by it, and it was unfair of me to think otherwise, because in spite of how i felt in that time, i shouldn’t have used my platform to slam others, even if i thought it was inconsequential or harmless. if you want a personal apology, i understand and my ims are open. for now, i’d like to have the chance to move on and progress. for months now i’ve made a conscientious effort to not promote negativity on my blog (total backslide, i know) and to give people the benefit of the doubt. i’m not so heavy on the block button, i talk to people about any issue that arises, and i think i think we as a community should continue to practice this because it truly is the most effective way of communicating. there’s a lot of uh… fearmongering, where we think we shouldn’t speak our mind because of how people receive us, and we should try to actively disband this way of thinking. please know that my blog is always a safe space for communication. i see these anons about me and it makes me so sad to think it’s something that could’ve been resolved privately. and listen, that’s my fault too. i shouldn‘t have vagued about anyone and i shouldn’t have blocked people so freely, i could’ve done what i endeavour to do now and said “hey sorry i’m not comfortable with this” and i totally recognise that behaviour is much more acceptable. i think i just figured i was curating a space that was comfortable for me and i think i’m definitely entitled to do that, but perhaps more cautiously, as i don’t fully recognise the knock on effects that i caused. and finally, i’m sorry that you feel more comfortable going through another blog to voice your complaints about me than speaking to me through my own anonymous feature or in ims. i want to be an approachable person that you feel like you CAN talk to, and i really hope by seeing This you can understand its not in my nature to treat people badly or unfairly, i’ve just made some pretty poor decisions in the past, whether fuelled by egotism or just plain laziness. finally, for that blog, i think it’s just gonna lose traction if we as a collective no longer pay attention to it. i know that’s easier said than done, but truly if it has no audience, it has no hate to produce. and i know some have tried to defend me, also have sent me screenshots of the blog, but i really don’t want anything to do with it anymore so if we could just… not tell me, i’d really appreciate that. i’m an emotional sponge and i just sap up any negativity i see, true or otherwise, and i really wanna move on and enjoy my time here. i hope you guys can give me a second chance but if not, that’s also fine. as i said, curate your safe space. i’ll catch all of you guys in a bit, take care 😊