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hate the mental block i have that prevents me from embracing and/or trying out things i’m interested in or curious about.
#mostly cause i’m chronically embarrassed of everything#and tell myself i’m not allowed to#bc it’s smth people are more likely to point at and judge#mm anyways#robin rants
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Not to rehash this discourse so close to his birthday but genuinely what other mysterious unnamed trauma of Jason’s is Bruce referring to in bftc if not csa? We know that:
It’s something that happened to him
It’s something that happened to him pre-Bruce, so it presumably could’ve happened while he was an extremely vulnerable unsupervised homeless child
It’s something associated with secrecy and shame: Jason only told Bruce about it and freaks out about Dick playing his hologram talking about it
It’s something that affected him profoundly, Bruce says it left him “broken” (ugh side note: hate this language) and he seems to get retriggered by it being brought up again
What other trauma is coded like this besides sexual assault? Like genuinely I have yet to hear an answer that fits as well or better
#Jason rehashed Mia’s entire storied history of abuse and assault and ended with ‘u just like me fr fr’ brother WHAT do you mean by that??#people get mad about this headcanon like people just pulled it out of nowhere for Jason whump but I’m sorry to tell you that Judd Winnick#and Tony Daniels did that first. It’s just a valid interpretation of the text I fear 🙈. And as far as headcanons go I think the backing is#pretty solid#Jason Todd#dc#I’m not saying that you have to adopt it into your headcanon I kinda go back and forth with it myself I’m just saying that the evidence is#there. I think some people just don’t have to stomach to think about it (fair I guess) while others act like you’re only allowed to be a#victim if you’re a Good Person (lame). And I mean Jason did specifically name rapists on his shit list when he was talking to Onyx in utrh#which could mean anything 🤷🏾♀️…#Csa mention /#csa tw /
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🎶 The Crown…
Pix now wears the Crown… 🎶
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The moment of recognition when that ancient and powerful thing deep in the catacombs… discovers the Crown.
#empires smp#pixlriffs#empires smp fanart#pixlriffs fanart#empires fanart#empires pixlriffs#empiresblr#floweroflaurelin art#mcyt fanart#mcyt#mcytblr#gif#animated#aha! by making that post about not having time to make fanart I tricked you all into not expecting any#thus freeing myself from the pressure of feeling like I have to get fanart done for major story beats#and allowing me to have the motivation to procrastinate my thesis and make stuff for fun instead!#anyway this is the same crown design I did AGES ago but it’s all tarnished now#I’m so excited to have it back the way everyone covets it is so good#I mean THEE historian sees it and instead of preserving it he puts it on his head and comments on how well it fits??#he’s never had any interest in telling people what to do and then declares himself king and threatens those who disobey with ‘punishment’??#everyone who sees it is driven to do anything in their power to get it for themselves?#what does the Crown want. what does it get out of this. it is so very much a cursed object and I love it
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Nothing in television bothers me more than how the criminal minds writers handled Reid’s opioid addiction in the sense that they just didn’t handle it at all
#he’s just suddenly clean at the end of season 3??????#Gideon and hotch can’t tell or don’t care??????#sweet baby Reid hates the bones of Emily and no one’s questioning why????????#like sorry but none of it makes any sense and I’m allowed to say it bc this is my favourite show ever made#like the bau? thats my family fr someone save the genius or ill step into the tv and do it myself#criminal minds#spencer reid#Reid#emily prentiss#aaron hotchner#derek morgan#jason gideon
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Magma art dump of random gay Stanley things (Featuring me! Go figure!)
Anything that isn’t in some kind of blue or yellow is by one of my friends
#my art stuff#gravity falls#stanley pines#stanford pines#mabel pines#durjas#tiefling OC#stanley x oc#art dump#if you’re curious about some in particular - feel free to DM me or send an Ask or something#there’s too much going on here for me to bother listing right now#I give him freckles cus of that one flashback inside Stanley’s brain#even if they dropped it later - I REALLY like him with freckles#I haven’t started giving them to ford yet like my friend cus I’m biased#and I don’t draw him enough either way to bother remembering it#also kinda using it as an anchor for myself to tell them apart better cus my brain is slow sometimes#uhhh what else to tag#disaster bi#digital art#magma#sketches#doodles#memes#one of these is dedicated to my fading strength to not draw Stanley with his concept art balls#shielding my friends from them while LOUDLY complaining the entire time#I genuinely just want him to be allowed his ball freedom without judgement#I don’t mind it attractive in any sort of way - he’s just been casually depicted like that -#- so it feels like a very HIM thing to my brain and he deserves not to be censored!!!!!#…But I also love my friends and so I have to be strong 😔#suggestive
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I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc
#And to be clear I have nothing against therapy. I’ve seen it do wonders for other people#I think the reason it’s a point of defeat (just a little) for me to be like ok. I need a therapist. Is bc I’m admitting to myself that I#need one to begin w. And I get it’s not healthy but I always liked to think I could handle anything by myself#That was even the whole point of this blog. It was supposed to serve as a conduit for these feelings#And I’m not saying I don’t have a support system. I do. I have many wonderful friends#But I struggle to be vulnerable at all tbh and whenever I am I’m guilty ab it bc#I understand so many people have busy lives & I feel like an emotional burden on them by venting#Despite them telling me that it’s totally fine. Obvi a therapist is literally paid to listen so no guilt there#And I think that’s what I need#I’m not like on the brink of a psychotic break or anything but it’s just little things. I think it’d be nice to sit in someone’s office for#One hour a week and just go. That did bother me actually. I am tired actually. I do feel that way actually.#Rather than just burying my feelings w school and a busy schedule#I don’t think therapy will make me any less of a workaholic anytime soon but it’ll at least allow me to slow down one hour a week#And also not bottle shit up so fuckin much#But ya all of this is to say I’m drafting the email to her RIGHT now .#Starting the day off strong by oversharing on tumblr dot com
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rewatching dead poets society for the first time in 4 years and i had to pause to make this it came to me in a Vision:
#they’re so fucking!!!!!!!#all of them!!#it’s overwhelming!!!!!!#also knox is about to SA chris so making this gave me an excuse to procrastinate pressing play#dps#dead poets society#anderperry#todd anderson#neil perry#charlie dalton#nuwanda#knox overstreet#steven meeks#gerard pitts#yeet my deet#dps fandom i will always be loyal to you#you’re my ride or die#i may be basically a phannie account at this point but many moons ago you and i ran this joint (aka the at the time very small dps fandom)#mwah i love you so much#guys i need to be asleep but i am choosing to torture myself instead bc i make bad decisions#can’t wait to get so fucking triggered#maybe this time neil will be ok#i’m just gonna take out mr perry and then we should be good#then neil will be able to be a happy gay theatre kid and read poetry with his faggy friends and kiss his faggy boyfriend in peace#it’s mindblowing to me how disinterested neil and todd are in girls like they Do Not Care#the hardest they tried was that deleted scene where todd just barely jokes about wanting to go to neil’s rehearsal bc there are girls and#neil immediately getting jealous and telling him he wasn’t allowed to go anymore and then them continuing to flirt and run lines and poke#each other and giggle like lovers in the springtime bc that’s what they ARE#bog#image description in alt
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Not to be dramatic but since hiori is blasian in canon I need black x readers asap🗣️ like we are DEF not getting any cultural background on this kid (because they just slid it in there like we weren’t gonna recognize in the first place)not that we have any background on any of these children’s parents but I think he should explain how he feels being mixed in Japan because it’s just really funny having these two in the exact same anime, and they are both black 
This is ABSOLUTELY hilarious 😭
Edit: so I’ve noticed a pattern of EVERY character looking like their mother and barely sharing any resemblance to their fathers so ig he gets a pass for being pale BUT there’s even more melaninated characters so let’s give him some sun too!!🥺
Respectfully; come the fuck on
#blue lock#hiori yo#blue lock hiori#bllk hiori#hiori x reader#blue lock x reader#like I’m most likely gonna do some thing myself#but like the fact that I found out from Twitter#I am once again asking if it is a nod to like being white passing#like is he not supposed to look black because of that#he don’t look like his parents where did his dad come from? Did he immigrate to Japan? Is he Afro American ? Is he Nigerian?#like they’re doing so good on representation so far please.#IT HAS TO BE ON PURPOSE#BC LEO OR WHAYEVER HIS NAME IS IS THERE AND SHIDOU AND TYE OTHER BLACK GUY#I’m literally choosing to believe that it’s on purpose#I am reaching for Atoms I’m not grasping at straws!!#he says he feels like he doesn’t belong so does he mean displaced from two cultures or just one?#what about his extended family is he allowed to talk to them since they’re so suffocating?#I feel like this is a very real thing black kids relate to you can’t just give me him and not tell me shit about him.#if I catch up in the manga and I don’t get any more details I’m going to start chewing lava#Filling in the blanks on his backstory on God#does he just know English and Japanese?#He has a very specific dialect of speaking so is it from knowing a different type of language??#aave mixed in???#French is a very prevalent language in Africa. Does he know a little French?#CREOLE??#like please sad backstory aside who the fuck is he!!#does he get to interact with any of the other black characters??#HIM SHIDOU AND LOKI CAN HE BESTIES LIKE COME ON!!#im in so much pain I’m reading ahead of where I am
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[A3!] Event | A Postman Delivering Your Feelings | Episode 9
Tsuzuru: Guy-san and I have finished changing, so we’re ready to go on stage now.
Guy: Since all the seats but the ones in the front row are free, it seems that more people have come to see our performance with their families than just the usual fans of the company.
Yuki: True. It does seem like there’s a pretty wide range of ages.
Sakyo: So you were able to successfully resolve that fight from earlier, Takato?
Tasuku: Yeah, they were able to work things out.
Misumi: Thank you for working so hard to serve customers while I was away from the booth, Masumi!
Masumi: It’s not like I really did that much, I had Director helping me out a bit, and all that really matters is that you managed to sort things out.
Izumi: I’m not only grateful for Misumi-kun and Tasuku-san, but I’m also grateful for the rest of you guys for being so adaptable and accommodating while those two were gone. So, thanks, everyone.
Izumi: The audience is a little different from the kind we’re used to, but make sure to have fun performing like you always do, okay?
Misumi: ‘Kaaay! We’re off!
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Play Cast
Masumi - Riffle
Tsuzuru - Man/Lease
Yuki - Stamp
Misumi - Letra
Tasuku - Tiga
Guy - Carta
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Izumi: (A city in the near future filled with advanced technology. The young people living here have almost never used the post office.)
Izumi: (The number of post offices and their employees has been decreasing over the years, and letters sent out to the post offices are usually delivered by the office’s employees until the end of the day.)
Izumi: (Our story focuses on Letra and Riffle, who are working as new employees after easily getting the job due to the office’s understaffing.)
Envelope: “How many days did it take you to deliver that letter from the other day?”
Riffle: “I mean, the place was pretty far away, so.”
Envelope: “Regardless, it arrived way too late. What the hell were you doing…?”
Letra: “Whoa, Envelope-san’s really scary. I’m really glad that Tiga-san is my mentor!”
Stamp: “You’re supposed to call them senpai.”
Stamp: “Anyway, Tiga-senpai isn’t really all that different from Envelope-senpai, though.”
Letra: “He’s at least nicer when he gets mad!”
Stamp: “Maybe you should just stop doing things that make him mad in the first place.”
Stamp: “Letters are really important, so get going! And do it accurately! Make sure it gets delivered properly.”
Letra: “Hmph~, you’re only one year older than me, but you’re already so good at this, Stamp~.”
Tiga: “Stamp’s right. Both you and Riffle need to learn to stop taking detours and start taking your deliveries more seriously.”
Carta: “Even though Stamp is a newer employee, she knows just how important letters are and works very diligently.”
Carta: “That’s what we’re expecting from you and Riffle, Letra.”
Letra: “Got it, Chief Carta.”
Letra: “...That said~, I don’t even really know what a letter is exactly…”
Izumi: (New delivery employees usually deliver things together with the guidance of a senior employee, but sometimes they get to go out on their own to make deliveries.)
Izumi: (Taking letters by hand to places they’ve never heard of and heading in completely different directions after roughly deciding which way they’re supposed to go…)
Izumi: (The two newbies continue to do their work adequately every day.)
Letra: “Which house does this letter need to be delivered to~? Riffle, look for it with your binoculars!”
Riffle: “Got it. I’ll check right away.”
*Phone buzzes*
Riffle: “!”
Riffle: “…”
Letra: “Hm? Wasn’t that your terminal just now, Riffle?”
Riffle: “...It’s fine. Probably just someone trying to ask about my car’s extended warranty or something.”
Letra: “Huuuh…?”
Izumi: (One day, Letra and Tiga return from a long-distance delivery and are greeted by Stamp.)
Stamp: “Welcome back. Everyone’s doing deliveries right now. I’m just about to head out to do a delivery too, so if anyone shows us, make sure to deal with them. Later.”
Letra: “Okay, got it, see you later.”
Man: “…Um, excuse me…”
Tiga: “There’s a customer. Letra, you go help him.”
Letra: “Got it. …Hello~, do you have something to be delivered?”
Man: “I’d like to have this letter delivered, but…”
Letra: “You’ve even got a stamp on it. Alright, here, allow me to deliver it for you.”
Man: “…Wait, really?”
Letra: “? Yeah, I mean, that’s my job, so…”
Man: “Right. Then… please deliver this for me.”
*Man runs off*
Letra: “We hope you come again.”
Letra: “Okay, and the destination is… Huh, that’s…”
Tiga: “What’s wrong?”
Letra: “Nothing, just… It looks like it’s just addressed to Riffle instead of having a delivery address, but…”
Letra: “A letter for Riffle from someone who doesn’t even know his address, doesn’t it make that guy seem kinda suspicious…?”
Tiga: “...We’re not the ones to be the judge of that. Let’s go talk to the Chief.”
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Carta: “A letter addressed to Riffle? And the sender is…”
Carta: “...I see. Well, I supposed it’s time for him to face it.”
Carta: “Can you please give this letter to Riffle?”
Izumi: (Leaving the Chief’s office while nodding their heads, Letra asks Tiga if he knows anything about Riffle.)
Izumi: (Tiga also doesn’t have many of the details, but he tells Letra about the circumstances that led to Envelope becoming Riffle’s mentor.)
Izumi: (Having been told to give the letter to him, Letra gives it to Riffle when he returns from his delivery.)
Letra: “Riffle, I was told to deliver this letter to you.”
Riffle: “…Gh!”
*Riffle runs off*
Letra: “Wait, Riffle…!?”
Izumi: (Riffle reads the letter, gets upset, and crushes the letter in his hand as he leaves without saying a word. And the following day, he calls in sick…)
Izumi: (At first, they thought Riffle would come back soon, but a whole month passed and he still hadn’t returned.)
Izumi: (Letra then goes to ask the Chief when he’ll be back.)
Carta: “...I’ve been treating it as a leave of absence, however, Riffle has actually handed in his letter of resignation. It’s very possible that he won’t come back.”
Letra: “What…!?”
Letra: “But we came to this post office together… What’s the big deal, Riffle…!?”
Izumi: (At first, Letra wasn’t so sure about him, but gradually, he started to get to know Riffle more.)
Letra: “That guy who sent him the letter’s gotta know something. I remember the sender’s address. I’m gonna go and pay that guy a visit…!”
Letra: “If that’s what I’m deciding to do then… Excuse me, Tiga-senpai! I wanna take the day off today…”
Tiga: “...You’re planning on tracking down the person who sent Riffle the letter, aren’t you?”
Letra: “Uegh… Busted…”
Envelope: “If that’s where you’re headed, one day won’t be enough. I’ll approve three days of leave for you.”
Envelope: “...Please bring back Riffle. Even someone like him can end up being a cute kouhai.”
Letra: “Envelope-senpai… Yeah, leave it to me! I’m headed out now!
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Letra: “I dunno why you had to come along even though I would’ve been fine on my own, Tiga-senpai.”
Tiga: “Because I’m worried about you being on your own.”
Letra: “Hmph. Anyway, this area is pretty rural. One day really wouldn’t have been enough…”
Tiga: “The address of the house we’re headed to is over there.”
Letra: “Wait, here!? That’s a really big house! That’s obviously some sorta super-rich guy’s mansion!”
Man: “...Huh?”
Man & Letra: “Ah, it’s you!”
Izumi: (Letra tells the man about how Riffle saw the letter and resigned. Tiga is stunned by how direct he is…)
Man: “No way, did he really…?”
Letra: “How do you know Riffle?”
Lease: “My name’s Lease. Riffle is my little brother.”
Letra: “You’re Riffle’s big bro!? Wait, so Riffle’s some super loaded rich kid!?”
Lease: “He’s always been treated like a failure by our family…”
Lease: “I promised that as his older brother, I’d always be there to protect and help him, but I couldn’t keep my promise because I was sent to study abroad to be educated as the family’s heir.”
Letra: “I never knew that about Riffle…”
Lease: “We kept in touch at first, but then things got busy and we just sort of naturally stopped talking.”
Lease: “And when I finally came back just recently from studying abroad, Riffle was gone from home.”
Lease: “I looked into things and found out that he was being treated even worse after I had left.”
Lease: “I think he sent me a letter before he left home, but no one at home ever delivered it to me.”
Letra: “Oh, I see… But I wonder why Riffle went outta his way to send a letter instead of just messaging you.”
Lease: “I was always so busy every day that I didn’t have the time to take the time to talk to him, so I’ve basically been communicating with Riffle through letters ever since we were little.”
Tiga: “For Riffle, those letters were probably the only way he could really talk to his older brother. They were probably like an emotional support for him.”
Letra: “Those letters were important to Riffle…?”
Tiga: “I’d say probably.”
Lease: “But I didn’t have the courage to meet up with Riffle and face him directly… That’s why I sent him such a bland, innocuous letter.”
Tiga: “Is that so…”
Letra: “...I never woulda thought that Riffle’s upbringing was worse than mine.”
Letra: “I get it now. Riffle was treating letters so carelessly despite being someone who’d know the importance of them because he was betrayed by them.”
Letra: “...Lease-san. If you think about it as being for Riffle’s sake, can you please write him a letter with all your thoughts and feelings about him in it?”
Lease: “But…”
Letra: “Do you want how things are with Riffle now to stay the way they are?”
Lease: “...No, I don’t want that… Got it, I’ll write one right away. Please wait for me at that cafe over there.”
Izumi: (And so, while on the way back after receiving the letter from Lease…)
Letra: “I wonder why Riffle even became a delivery person.”
Tiga: “This is just speculation, but… My guess would be that he couldn’t let go of his memories of his brother, or maybe that he still had hope for his brother in a letter… Or something like that.”
Letra: “I see… For some reason, I feel like it might be both of those things for Riffle…”
Izumi: (As soon as they arrive at the post office, Letra makes his way straight to Riffle’s house. He thought that Tiga would be coming with him, but…)
Tiga: “No, I think it’s best if you go alone, Letra. We’ll be waiting for you at the post office tomorrow. Now, go and give Riffle his older brother’s thoughts and feelings.”
Letra: “Yeah, got it.”
Letra: “Time for me to send the thoughts and feelings of a loved one to Riffle properly.”
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#a3!#a3! translation#misumi ikaruga#masumi usui#tsuzuru minagi#yuki rurikawa#tasuku takato#guy#// not really sure on the play names but what else is new#allowed myself to be funny with one line i’m sure you can tell which one it was
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Me: Ok robot story is done let’s get back to long form content—
My brain this morning, entirely unprompted: Gay/trans werewolf fur trappers.
Me: … what?
Brain: You fucking heard me the first time.
#to weather the wild storm#i would love to stop having ideas for short stories but unfortunately i can’t#I don’t know if I’ll even draw these guys but i can tell u i love them very much#Walter#my characters#my shit#Nina is writing again……..#you know as long as I’m writing I’m happy it doesn’t have to be super productive#it’s not like I’d suddenly be able to write friend if i didn’t allow myself to write this one#carlos olmeda#charlie olmeda
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In my mind Kabru is so clearly and obviously bi/pansexual that any time I see someone with a headcanon that he’s only attracted to one gender my fight or flight response kicks in
#you can headcanon him anyway you want!#but I do struggle not to go ‘BIPHOBIA’ any time I see a ‘Kabru isn’t attracted to women’ post#like… he’s called a ladies man too often in the manga for that to be the case but OKAY#(like I’m trying so hard to tell myself it isn’t misogyny or bi/panphobia but sometimes it FEELS like it#and people are allowed to view him however but to me he is bi!)#anyway shoutout to my bi king#I love bisexuals with ptsd#kabru#kabru of utaya#I’m not gonna main dungeon meshi tag this cause its such a dumb post
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i’m watching spirited away for the first time in probably a decade and i can’t believe i forgot about the giant baby. and the greenheads. but joe hisaishi serving as always
#trying to tell myself i’m allowed to be high and watch a movie without doing another task. i can just sit here i don’t have to be doing#chatpost#i hope im at least kind of sober by dinner lol.. i have two more hours#i was looking through responses to that ‘comfort movie’ post & was like ‘yeah you know what i could watch spirited away’
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thinking about evan kelmp asking a man what he wants him to tell his family after evan murders him, showing him his own funeral leaving him aged, and STILL squaring up when that clearly broken guy insults k
#he’s boyfriend shaped#i’m obsessed with him#‘what do you want me to tell your family’ BRENNAN. HOLY SHIT DUDE.#dimension 20#misfits and magic#misfits and magic spoilers#evan kelmp#k tanaka#whitney jammer#sam black#aabria iyengar#brennan lee mulligan#erika ishii#lou wilson#danielle radford#they mean a lot to me#i cannot believe this is the first post that i made for myself about dimension 20 on this blog#but he’s rotting my brain rn#i kiss him on his mouth#new take: the only character brennan is allowed to play in every season npc or not is evan kelmp from now on#he’s so. i. he. hhhhhhh#never not read the tags
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Chappel Roan saying she’s sad she’s demisexual and then there’s me being aroace as a whole like don’t you think I’m even more sad 😭
#not saying she’s not allowed to feel sad at all#just makes me think about myself LOL#I hate being aroace it’s like everyone’s part of a secret club I will never be a part of#and that people don’t tend to understand and if they do they never uphold that fact#like I actually have thrown up before from the concept of being in a relationship because it’s horrifying#and disgusting to me in a practical sense#like I don’t want to throw up every time I start thinking about those things I just want to be normal#and not panic like a relationship sounds like even worse than a death sentence#ppl think aroace is cute and problem free but it’s literally so uncomfortable and inconvenient when you’re in a world which a) doesn’t#understand wth aroace is b) doesn’t respect it at all c) has shit povs on what friendship is and how it can be more fulfilling than somethin#and d) how badly it impacts some ;-; like ik it sounds easy but try telling yourself omg I want to have a forever bestie#but then said forever bestie will never end up truly putting you first because they’d have a partner who will be their number one#and as usual you won’t even be second place you will be last like always#because I’ve noticed that the moment ppl get a partner suddenly they become their forever bestie role and then I can’t have that cause it#freaks me out and disgusts me all at once so I’m literally just cursed with forever feeling lonely and not meaning anywhere near as much to#someone who you wish could even look your way the way you do to them …#honestly by the day these reminders make me feel more and more aplatonic but it’ll simultaneously always feel like a hole in my heart#because apparently being aroace is like being some weird person and some freak#and not in the 𝒻𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝓎 type of connotation LMAO I mean just plain freak#and then that loneliness will always accumulate and accumulate and accumulate until I physically cannot handle it anymore or I take matters#into my own hands and just off with her head to myself LMAO#dora daily#and that is why despite aroace being cool to me it’s just not placed in an environement which makes it cool#as those assholes tend to say oh meh meh meh you never struggled girl … we’re in the 21st century every person in the lgbt community is#living the life dating who they want and being with who they want#but allegedly it is but a crime I can’t like anyone and that nobody fucking listens to me when I say I have an attraction deficit#and that they take it upon their hands to define what I’m attracted to or head canon me as whatever they are#I swear I’m not even fucking worth that shit just leave me alone 😭#I promise like if I was with somebody they will regret the day they were born by being with me LOL I am not all that in fact me being aroace#is saving them from torture ☠️ anyways ! rant over :3
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i’ve been home for just two hours and i already want to blow my brains out jesus fucking christ
#i’m very lucky that our dad never hit us#but i was constantly afraid as a kid that he would#bc he would tell us about how his dad would hit him and his brothers with a belt#and when my dad got angry he would often throw things or just hit inanimate objects#and now that he’s in a wheelchair and can barely lift a fork the fear i had as a kid is gone#and his temper’s gotten a little better but he still overreacts at the smallest little things#it’s so ridiculous to me that he can’t fathom why i don’t want to be around that#he feels so justified in his anger that he gets hurt when i walk away because it makes me uncomfortable#i’ve been working very hard these past few years to allow myself to get outwardly angry#but it’s shit like this that makes me want to lock all my emotions up from the world#personal
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seduced into reading boring plots by the raw sex appeal of good writing
#if you tried to tell me about villette by charlotte bronte i’d die of boredom but the writing is genuinely enjoyable i get it#allowing myself to be flirted with by classics by being like no no i’m not interested.. unless..?#every time i enjoy a classic i’m like huh. who knew? but the answer is everybody for the last several hundred years#mine
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