#and tbh i feel like when ppl do that they also don’t understand betty’s character

[ladysophiebeckett]

on a completely unrelated note, fics that make armando president again while betty either gives it up or becomes vice for ‘reasons’ are my enemy.

[the-dot]

dot rants without cohesion: childhood lack of understanding edition

do you know....i didn’t know what being gay was until i was like 7 or 8. it just Never Occurred to me that someone might like someone of the same gender. i think i first saw it in ugly betty, where that one assistant dude was dating that guy with the tweety tattoo who might have been someone’s dad. i brushed it off as  completely normal for that guy, bc my brain said “that guy is Weird so this makes sense”, or smth.

and i actually can’t remember if this was before or after, bc due to Brain Shit the vast majority of my childhood is gone from my memory, but i have a very distinct image of asking one of my sisters what the word gay meant and her saying, in a very uncomfortable tone, happy.

god i don’t even know where i learned homophobia. i just am like...pretty sure that i was. maybe it was glee?? i don’t even remember. WHICH IS REALLY WEIRD bc we were supposed to be rooting for kurt. i don’t think i liked kurt, due to the fact that he was a Feminine Boy. or smth. god i was an asshole about LITERALLY EVERYTHING until i was like.........12 and a half. geez.

i think my next gay character was nico di angelo??? which i was super angry with. i can’t remember if that was just Because He Was Gay or because i didn’t feel like rr had built it up enough.

then when i was like 13? i started looking at tumblr blogs (...i am still following like, all of those people) and saw LOTS OF PICTURES OF PRETTY PEOPLE. and i started thinking that MAYBE i was gay, bc i’d never LIKED a boy SHIT WHAT WAS I GONNA DO, and then i was like “lol it’s just that you’ve only ever been around shitty boys (/been shitty to boys. sorry, old classmates, hope you’re well.) and all your friends have been girls.” and then i was like “wait.....i’ve been obsessed with every single friend i’ve ever had.........did i have a crush on them? or was that just Lonely Dot?” (probably both, tbh.) and then i was like “okay, well all of these ppl are fuckin gorgeous, and i don’t think i’m ace? so?” i decided i was bi. and then i discovered that nonbinary people existed and the term pansexual, and was shitty about trans people until like, a little less than a year ago, and also about a year ago discovered that Yep I Am Definitely Not Straight because i spent actual time in the presence of pretty people my own age.

...i don’t have a way to close this. imma go back to rewatching marvel movies and cursing yarn.