#and suddenly all those sacred memories - her laugh; jim the fish; all those nights he snuck out to see her; their entire marriage -

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#when she said his frown was audible i've never understood it more than in this moment #the moment she says she doesn't love him #i can h e a r his hearts breaking #he's seen her married to another man; watched her make out with Ramone TWICE and he's confused and hurt and frustrated #bc where does that leave him #and he just wants to know am I special to you? do i matter? #and she stares right into his eyes and says no but you're terribly useful #she doesn't know it's him but that's what makes it worse bc what reason does she have to lie to a stranger she'll never meet again #and suddenly all those sacred memories - her laugh; jim the fish; all those nights he snuck out to see her; their entire marriage - #all of it was a con and he fell for it; and for her; hook line and sinker #but still he stays seated bc even if none of it was real to her; it was all real to him; and still is #do you think he loves her so little betraying him would make a difference? he died for her on the steps of berlin and he'd die again #bc she's the woman he loves and he'll never stop loving her even if she doesn't love him back #so when she confesses later that she loves him like the stars themselves his whole face transforms bc ITS REAL #and he's so giddy and relieved and in love; always madly hopelessly unapologetically in love (tags via thedenimofrose)

The man who gave me this was the sort of man who'd know exactly how long a diary you were going to need.