#and some of my faves got the worst endings fr

[assiraphales]

u know how in some shows the women are all treated poorly? the show bones said “let’s flip the narrative” and gave men the worst conceivable endings

[starsandgutters]

ok, look, give me a fake dating with kevaaron and my life will be YOURS. (Please)

okay, LISTEN- 😭

It’s actually a travesty I haven’t written this already considering it’s like my fave trope ever. Like I want to read the fake dating KevAaron fic I would write too fr LMAO

I actually !! Have !! A loose !! Concept !! For one !! But I haven’t written anything yet so I cannot offer you an excerpt for WIP Wed 😔 I can give the overview tho

Set when Aaron’s in med school/maybe his residency, and Kevin is playing pro.

Also welcome to the SALU (Shannen’s Aaron’s Literary Universe) where a Frequent Fixture is now his hugely queer biology study/friend group that Katelyn dragged him into. Like, as much as I am a big believer in Aaron & Seth & Matt being bros if given the chance, the unfortunate reality of the situation is Seth’s being deceased before they made amends makes that quite difficult in canon settings. And Aaron is just too much of a skeptic to be cracking the ouija out. Now with Matt, I think they did get on really well when they were roomies, but their lives head in separate directions after college. So. I want Aaron to have friends. That are not connected to his family. And I use OCs very sparingly as I know the reason people come to fanfic is for familiarity and characters they already know/love, but Bio Bunch™️ were well received and consequently I will be recycling them forever thanks (Aaron dated nurse Dylan in my sapphic WIP, Miles’ family adopted Jean and Elodie in my KevNeil AU so now he’s Jean’s lil brother, like literally they’re my standby bonus characters now)

All this to say. Aaron very much appreciates having friends. He was not very good at making them when he was little and going through the worst of Tilda’s abuse, and his teens were lost to a haze of drugs and pain where he had people he would speak to at school/on the team, but no one he was really friends with. Then he gets a brother! But oh no. Andrew doesn’t want him to have friends either and also Aaron kind of feels like he hates him so he’s still alone ☹️ - so to finally be at a point in his life where he has a close knit group of friends, people who actually like him and want to spend time with him for some reason!, it means a lot to him. He would not want to risk damaging those friendships. Especially because he’s not sure how to make new ones, he kind of just absorbed these ones via osmosis through Katelyn.

Which is why he panics when Dylan asks him out.

“Do you have a girlfriend?” he had asked, and Aaron, thinking nothing of it, had said: “No.” Because he doesn’t. He hasn’t dated anyone since Katelyn. Like, he’s been on his med school GRIND, y’know? Who has the time. And who can compare to her anyway?

“Would you maybe like to go out with me sometime?” Dylan then said, and listen, it’s not like Aaron is proud of what he did, but he panicked. He saw his friendless future flash in front of his eyes because he hurt Dylan’s feelings and it’s all awkward between them now and Aaron ends up iced out because he wrecked the vibe, and he panicked!!!

“Oh. Uh. I have a boyfriend though.”

And why the fuck did he even say that what the fuck what the fuck?!

But y’know it worked because Dylan got a sad little smile but nodded and said “lucky guy” and Aaron was like PHEW! Y’know, bullet DODGED! Except somehow this gets around their group, because wow one thing about having friends is apparently you’re not allowed secrets 🙄 (not that his relationship would usually be a secret but considering it is NONEXISTENT he would have appreciated people NOT KNOWING)

Of course Katelyn is on him like a rash because when has she ever let him get away with anything ever there is no peace in this world for him as long as they share space (he loves her more than anything). Immediately quizzing him on WHO he could be dating, because she knows he doesn’t really talk to anyone outside their friend group (because she knows everything about him shit how is he going to lie to her), and she is DYING to know who he has been hiding! (Like shit Kate me too guess we’re gonna find out together)

Consequently the panic continues as he speed skims through his mental catalogue of all the people he has ever actually communicated with who are not A) his family or B) already in committed relationships. And, listen, ok, here’s the thing. There are just not an awful lot of people in Aaron’s life who fit the cross reference of those categories. Really the only person he can think of is Kevin, and then he’s blurting out his name before the consequences of that action occur to him (🦋🦋🦋) because Katelyn KNOWS Kevin so there really should have been a C) someone Katelyn doesn’t know (though on reflection Aaron’s search results would have thrown up entirely blank with this addition)

“Aw, you always did have a crush on him.”

“What are you talking about?” No, because what is she talking about??? “No I didn’t.”

“You’re dating him now, why are you getting so defensive?”

He’s not getting defensive. He just thinks it’s an absolutely insane implication to suggest he has or ever will have feelings for Kevin Day. Except he can’t say that. Since that’s his fictional boyfriend now. Fictional on the boyfriend part. Kevin Day is unfortunately very real. A fact that has plagued Aaron’s existence ever since Wymack first brought that broken stray back to PSU.

Enter Kevin, truly baffled by this entire situation.

“Why didn’t you just tell him you’re not interested in guys?”

“Well, Katelyn knows I’m bi, so I couldn’t say that. Maybe he asked her first. Or she might mention it if it comes up.”

“Wait, you’re bi? Since when?”

“Since birth probably, can we focus on the actual issue at hand here.”

But like. This is Aaron. Aaron has never particularly been one to mince words. Kevin doesn’t know why he doesn’t just tell Dylan he’s not into him. Kevin’s been on the receiving end of Aaron’s attitude and bad manners more than often enough. 🤨 But after the truly painful and pitiful display of Extremely Emotionally Constipated Asshole Aaron Minyard trying to explain his newfound value for the Powers of Friendship, Kevin eventually agrees to be his fake date to a party with his friends. Like, whatever. It’s a small event with some med students, it’s not like they even have to be overly affectionate, or that this will get out anywhere. Then they can use Kevin’s busy work schedule as a reason he’s never around, and after a few months Aaron will just pretend they broke up. Easy.

Except photos get leaked to the media, outing Kevin. Instead of the career suicide he expects, he actually gets positive feedback. His PR rep encourages him to bring Aaron to a charity gala for a children’s mental health charity, thinking it could be positive rep for the kids to see a happy older queer couple as queer kids have higher rates of mental health issues. The team are doing some outreach with the actual kids before the gala - going down to play some games with them - Kevin doesn’t expect Aaron to come to this. He can just show up to the event, y’know, it’s basically just a free night out. They’ll just postpone their fake break up another couple of months.

But Aaron is like, uhm, excuse me. Did you even think to ask if I would want to come along to meet the kids? You know I’m going into peds, right? I’d much rather come hang out with the kids than have to rub shoulders with your snotty famous rich friends all night. Of course I’m coming to both of them.

So Aaron does come. Where Kevin is awkward and fumbling and never quite sure of the right thing to say (he never interacted with kids even when he was one???), Aaron is a natural. He’s excellent with them. They all love him within the first ten minutes, and it’s weird, because who is this? This is not an Aaron that Kevin knows. This is not a side of him he’s ever seen at school or around their family. It’s making Kevin feel all weird inside. In SOFT and GUSHY ways.

So they go to the Gala and both get a little tipsy, and whoops. Of course everyone thinks they’re a couple, so they’ve been given a room with one bed (because one bed trope supremacy ALSO 🙏🏻). Kevin thinks Aaron’s gonna be mad or upset, but Aaron’s giggly as he undresses. Which. Oh. Okay. Usually Aaron had weird hang ups about changing outside of the locker rooms. But now he’s. Shirtless. And his body has changed since college. Obviously. He doesn’t spend five days a week training anymore. He’s still kept some of his muscle in his arms and shoulders, and his legs have always been naturally strong, but he’s gotten a bit softer. Which Kevin realises he actually quite likes. And. Oh. Shit. Okay. He might actually be a bit attracted to Aaron. But. That’s fine. That won’t be a problem, right?

Right? 😐

ANYWAY THAT’S ALL I GOT FOR NOW. I simply can’t start another WIP until I finish some of the ones I got running. Like it would be fine if I could write things of a MODERATE length but I’ve never been chill about anything ever in my life and it’s too late to start now so I write excessively and I just. Cannot risk not finishing things by starting something else.

BUT SOME DAY. MAYBE. PROBABLY.

[delusional-mishaps]

well guys. since i missed epic's birthday (devastating) have some headcanons :)

he is one of those weaboos who learned japanese so he can watch anime "the authentic way" (his words)

so he's fluent in japanese 💀 he literally only learned it for anime but dude was DEDACTED

he's so cringe guys 😭 i can say that. he's my boyfriend i love him

he would adore those cute anime girl v-tubers. like not in a weird way but he'd watch a lot of them

HE PLAYS GENSHIN 💀 he'd probably main beidou or raiden shogun/ei.. maybe run a full electro team with miko and fischl too 😭 (fischl is his fave character he loves her backstory and her bird thing idk i dont use fischl 💀) he loves the electro characters for some reason idk

HE HAS THE WORST LUCK ON THIS GAME THO. bro has c6 diluc (me too ☹️) and all his artifacts SUCK ASS even tho he'll grind every day

he has to spend money on every banner because he always loses his 50/50 and only gets high pity

ok enough genshin headcanons he's cringe we know this

im here ranting about a game i hate because my dumb boyfriend plays it so much

he hangs out with cross a lot ofc BUT

whenever he hears the word cross used in any context he turns to cross like "CROSS????? BRUH THATS YOU!!" (i always make these jokes. im projecting)

cant believe jesus died on his best friend fr... LMAOOO

he speedruns minecraft. he's NOT GOOD AT IT. but he can do it

he's had his speedruns ruined by creepers like 7 times

one time he somehow got into the deep dark and got killed by the warden??? idk what bro was doing down there in a speedrun dawg 😭

sorry he's a gamer in my head but hes really bad at every game he plays (just like me fr)

he sleeps under like 6 different weighted blankets in the hopes that he wont thrash around when he sleeps but he's too strong and ends up tossing them all off his bed 😭

bro needs to be CRUSHED to fall asleep!! he literally cant fall asleep without the weight

not that he likes to sleep anyway because of the nightmares but whatever. hes gotta do it. unfortunately.

he fights in his dreams ofc thats like canon but bro is throwing punches in his sleep fr

if he gets a partner (me fr!!) they gotta sleep in a different ROOM 😭 he is taking NO CHANCES and tbh thats so fair i wouldnt wanna wake up being beaten up by my bf

he is so ipad baby-core <3 he'll just watch youtube on his ipad all day if u let him but he's an old man and needs his spectacles otherwise he's holding it at arm's length 💀

don't forget bro is literally a doctor?? he's SO smart but he uses his goofy persona as a cover up

im convinced like most of the people that know him actually dont know this. they all think hes dumb as bricks 💀

them he'll casually say smth super smart and everyone is like ???????? HELLO??? SINCE WHEN DID UR BRAIN WORK??

i love drawing epic with glasses guys he looks so cute. but he has old man reading glasses

this the typa shit he wears

AND HE FUCKING. anime glasses 😭

like yk how ppl in anime push glasses up

him fr

AUUGH WHY IS HE SO CRINGE I NEED TO CRUSH HIM

he actually needs his glasses all the time but he doesnt like to look like a NERDD so he doesnt wear them

he makes cross read everything for him

they go out to eat and gotta make him read the whole menu otherwise hes holding it 2cm from his face 💔

"whatd that sign say i cant read it"

"dude the letters are huge how cant you read it"

"oh lol i need my glasses my bad bruh"

"YOU ARE DRIVING A CAR RIGHT NOW????"

actually he cant legally drive. because thats funnier than if he could

id still be his passenger princess <3 i refuse to get my license

anyway guys isnt my boyfriend so silly

im so tiredni needto seelp goodnight smooork mimimumumu

its 3am i neednto get up in 5 hours naioiiooooooo

goodbye guys enhjoy my boyfrien mdgrf

[oodlyenough]

aa3 trials and tribulations

alright after dragging my heels to get four months out of a idk 35 hour game i have finished aa3. spoilery thoughts mostly about the last case bc i played the others months ago fjglhgkf

Positive stuff:

FRANZISKA... my mvp... I loved Franziska after aa2 but she was so great here, everything I could've wanted from her lmao. My best worst girl. I LOVED having her hang out with Phoenix fhlgfhgklf incredible, showstopping, spectacular. Their dynamic is sooo much fun and I also really liked seeing her interact with the witnesses outside of the courtroom, and how she tries to establish her authority but uses that authority to try and comfort them, etc -- she gets mad at Phoenix when he isn't complimentary enough of Sister Bikini lol, she takes control of the sacred cavern situation, she bullies Edgeworth into selfcare garden sulking after the earthquake, etc. It was really interesting and kind of sweet, in her way, it was nice to see that side of her. I can easier see how she and Adrian ended up with their weird gay thing although I have to admit Franmaya remains my Franziska ship of choice. (Just yesterday I was telling someone "I want Franziska to show Maya how to use her whip"... so close and yet so far Capcom.)

Defense attorney Edgeworth was awesome what a fun idea, and the Edgeworth/Franziska court battle ruled. I think I talked about it a lot at the time so I won't dwell much but lmao. wonderful. you're both sooooo bonkers

The Fey family drama! Cool af! Love a matriarchal society of women murdering each other. Amazing. I was spoiled for bits and pieces but not for Misty, which was a great surprise, I had expected they'd just leave that thread hanging but resolving it was the correct choice. I also loved that this game gave a bit more of a nod to Mia. I had said in my previous reaction post that I loved Mia having her own lil Moriarty in Dahlia and their showdown was so fun. Get her ass Mia. Pull each other's hair in the afterlife.

The actual plot mystery stuff in this case was great. I was able to do 3-4 and 3-5 without any walkthrough help AND without banging my head into a wall, which really does make it more fun, lol. You feel clever for solving it without feeling like it's being spoonfed. Or at least I didn't feel it was spoonfed :P and I guessed wrong about some things.

I loved Dahlia LMAO she was fr on the stand like "Your honour I was born evil and I died evil and I'm still evil now. Peace". I sort of expected she'd have mixed emotions at least about Iris but uh nope. Choose a way to born: Evil Baby. You could probably say something about AA returning to these cartoonishly evil villains to smooth over any of the ethical quandaries probably but tbh for the most part I just find it fun. Whatever. Cant a girl have hobbies (poisoning, failure).

Less positive stuff:

I was surprised and disappointed to not get a send-off epilogue screen for Edgeworth or Franziska 😔 they just kind of disappeared in the back end of the case, and while I don't have an issue focusing on the Feys in the end, the Edgeworth/Franziska stuff felt a bit unresolved to me, to not even get a few lines when Oldbag and Larry do. I guess Capcom wants me to play AAI (... sort of. not enough to port it or translate it :P).

Two finale cases in a row shelved Maya for a considerable portion. She got much more to do here, in the end -- her as Nick's last witness was very good, and obv she's central to the whole case -- than in 2-4, but I still felt her absence.

And I do wish we'd gotten to see more of Edgeworth and Phoenix interacting - they're sort if implied to be spending time off screen but I would like to see it.jpeg, I thought he was gonna be a more active part of the case after trial day 1. Since AA1 it often feels like the game is juggling characters so I can have like, one fave with me at a time but not more lol. Rude.

The Iris/Phoenix stuff was 🙄 I realize it's futile to be mad about like, token heterosexuality in a 20+ year old video game, but 🙄 lol. Also naturally I spent most of the game believing Dahlia had grudgingly put up with Feenie while dreaming of murder for 8 months and that's so much funnier than the truth turned out to be, lmao. Her eternal torment.

I couldn't stand Godot lmao I didn't like him at the start of the game and by the end I hated him. His gimmick was boring to me at best, I found him deeply condescending and sexist in the case with Mia, and then obviously 3-5 just sent all of that overdrive. The upswing was that he was the killer so that was satisfying for me lmfao. Throw the book at him judge.

Overall:

I see why this is often called the best game. The overarching stories all tied together well, I can see how the cases of the week led into the finale even if I hated one of em (mask de masque do NOT interact), the puzzles are good while being solvable, and there are some really really great fun moments of character stuff in here for almost everyone.

Having said that, I think the first game is still my fave. Its comparatively limited scope meant each major character got their moment, Maya and Edgeworth are my besties and it's the only time I actually got to have both of them around at the same time. And Turnabout Goodbyes is just so good and so is Rise from the Ashes.

I'm sad the trilogy is over 😔 while I wait for 4-6 to get ported I'll play TGAA and AAI, but not sure in which order, and in either case I'm gonna miss my best friend Phoenix Wright. Luv u buddy

[wikiangela]

just finished Ted Lasso s2 and I fucking love this show omg

some chaotic thoughts:

I can't believe they got me to care about this stupid fucking game - at least in the show lol, you still won't catch me even knowing when any match is, let alone watching it - and I'm actually excited when they play and I look like all the fans watching lmao

I loved dr Sharon, I hope we'll see her again

all the backstory this season was amazing, it was so sad and deep and emotional and I cried a couple of times lol

Keeley and Roy are still my faves, but I gotta say, Sam is stealing my heart, he's so adorable - and I lowkey ship him and Rebecca tbh 😂

I'm worried about Roy and Keeley, I'm sensing a breakup coming (they've been hunting at it for like at least the last couple of episodes, I bet it's gonna happen) and I'm sad - but like, I'm cool with it as long as they end up together in the end, and as long as Keeley never goes back to fucking Jamie 😂 (almost every tv show has to have the break-up era, it's fine, I'm fine, I'm gonna just be in denial about it lol, they have to be endgame and that's that haha)

I did love Roy's arc and how he came around to finally coaching, he's so great - and I'm so happy for Keeley and her new job, she deserves all the best haha

I actually really enjoyed Jamie's character this season, his growth was amazing, and he had a few moments with Roy that were actually so sweet, I love their dynamic 😂

fuck Nate. I've seen this coming, and his descent was actually so well done, but oh my god he's the worst, and as soon as Rebecca said that Rupert bought that club, I just knew fucking Nate would go work for him - I can't wait to start s3 fr (and I can't believe I'm almost caught up and soon I'll have to wait for new episodes wtf why do I always start shows just as a new season is coming out 😂)

I really love Rebecca, she's been one of my faves since like half of s1, and she was even better this season, I really enjoyed her story

and Ted - god I love what they're doing with his character, those panic attacks were heartbreaking but I'm so happy he finally reached out for some help, and finding out about his tragic backstory was just so sad, I love him

also, coach Beard's episode was insane, I was like: what show am I even watching rn 😂 he's the best

oh, and Higgins is awesome, I fucking loved him this seasons

all the characters are so good, I adore them all (apart from the assholes we're supposed to hate lol) and all the relationships and dynamics are just amazing - but my fave is officially Roy and Phoebe, they're the best 😂 (followed closely by Keeley and Rebecca and their most adorable friendship haha)

imma watch what's available of s3 tomorrow, but oh my god this show is fucking amazing

[the-talented-tink]

Monday, November 11 — The Comment Section: Write ten comments your character has left around the Internet— perhaps a YouTube video of a song that means something to them, a TikTok that they got into a fight in the comments of, a recipe that they tested from FoodNetwork.com… the sky’s the limit! Can be from the same site or different

Tink's Comments on Youtube Over the Years:

10 Popular Party Theme Ideas | Feel Good Events

@pixiesbell commented: ok but why is no one saying how predictable these themes r? There’s not an ounce of creativity with them. Popular, sure, but overdone? 1000%!

The Best Of Steve Rogers

@pixiesbell commented: ughhh he’s just a dreamboat hunk. Might not be worthy of him for all time, but like hey Cap…babe. Just one night, promise it’ll be your best one ;) 

Guess The Song From The Movie Soundtrack | React

@pixiesbell commented: honestly not sure how I keep ending up here. These vids are just NOT fun to watch! Oh wow i can react to stuff that’s ACTUALLY good. Congrats!

Captain America: Brave New World | Official Trailer

@pixiesbell commented: i told myself i wouldn’t get hype. Marvel is soooo over etc etc. but also… damn sam can get iiiit. <3 <3 <3 he might not be steve rogers, but he’s sam motherfucking wilsooon!!! Slay king!

Kendall Jenner & Gigi Hadid Arrive on Horseback at Vogue World: Paris | Vogue

@pixiesbell commented: really not sure why they would do this shit LOL one of those nepo baby disasters showing off rich people don’t even need to walk anymore or whatever.

Blake Lively losing all her fanbase in the span of a week and honestly i did not expect that at all 

@pixiesbell commented: LMAO. girl doesn’t have any sense of humor OR taste. She’s a hot mess and deserves to go down with her bullshit!

Top 10 Times Rory was the WORST on Gilmore Girls

@pixiesbell commented: goooood. For SOME reason the whole town loves this entitled little b– I don’t get it!! She’s AWFUL to her bestie, she freaking DROPS OUT OF YALE, and she happily becomes the other woman with Dean??? Srsly she’s almost ALWAYS the worst!

Audiences Hate Bad Writing, Not Strong Women

@pixiesbell commented: can i say D U H. like movies these days are pandering so hard and going SOOOO extra with rep that it loops right back around to empty and shallow and disappointing. And like being a boss bitch doesn’t mean the people around you have to suck in comparison. You just have to be even on the playing field ppl!!

‘Never Have I Ever’ ends in TEARS | Love Island Series 11

@pixiesbell commented: OMG the dramaaaaaaaaaaaa. Gotta agree with the other comments though lmaooo. Just cuz you CRY doesn’t mean you’re the victim. Get it together babes <3 

Klaroline being an married couple for 14 minutes

@pixiesbell commented: i recognize they’re problematic faves babes but no one come at me and yuck my yum here. They’re like the def of right person wrong time and it DRIVES ME MAD. Also blame the writers fr like everyone else. Delena who? Elena was a world class nuisance god. Caroline deserved waaay more screentime.

[gridadimorte]

random Sinclair brother head canons bc this movie is all I have thought about for months and I need to put these out there’s so ppl can agree w me bc I’m right:

-Lester is a pro w spicy food, like he’s that one white guy that will outdo you as a bipoc on spice level and put you to shame.

-I just know he’d love Thai food 😔

-bo however…

-bo thinks he has same taste buds as Lester, or at least he convinced himself that he does

-everyone at the table will warn him about ordering the hottest spice level even the waiter will warn him against it but Bo’s a fucking show off and he’s gonna suffer the consequences

-this man cannot do spice, I’m talking a lvl two has him sweating.

-one bite out of anything lvl 4 or higher and his head is in his damn hands.

- Lester has definitely tried to get bo to do those hot chip and noodle challenges and it’s def ended w bo dry heaving on the floor or threatening Lester through chugs of milk

- imagine taking these mfs to a Starbucks drive thru, lester is in the passenger seat, already knows what he wants, a pink drink w light ice ✨ or a dragon fruit lemonade

-Vincent is an artist so it’s only natural that he’s gonna go w a matcha drink, def an iced matcha latte but if he wants smth else I see him drinking chai lattes

-don’t get me started on Bo 🙄 it’s not gay to have caramel in ur coffee, like he’s not bisexual

- is gonna talk about how he ONLY drinks his coffee black, a barista’s worst nightmare

-but if it’s hot he’s gonna pretend like he doesn’t want any of those “damn fruity little drinks” (please get him a refresher or lemonade)

- I feel like Lester would like old school reggaeton despite not speaking Spanish

- All artists have one female vocalist that they worship, Vincent’s is björk. Definitely has a vespertine vinyl that was stolen from a victim’s bag, he’s absolutely hoping to “find” a post vinyl to go with it.

-crediting my friend for this one but Lester would absolutely love Waffle House 😭 dinner and a show

- tbh I really don’t see bo listening to a lot of country if any, maybe some johnny cash and a little Reba but I feel like that’s pushing it. I think his taste in music mostly stays within the rock and metal genres 😔 probably has the smallest music range out of all three brothers, sorry y’all </3

-bo has a cd and cassette playlist that he only shows people he likes, def nabbed some rare merch and cds from victims and you’ll have to pry them from his cold dead hands to touch them

-yes ik we can assume he mostly like nu metal and 90s metal/rock from the HoW soundtrack but I feel like bo def likes Black Sabbath too

-bo let me put u on she wants revenge 😩

- no one talk to bo if smth goes wrong in the kitchen, just mind your business (he’s just like me FR)

- dude cracks an egg just to get eggshell bits stuck in there and as soon as Lester and Vincent hear him sigh 🏃🏼‍♂️🏃🏻‍♀️ they’re out the kitchen

- Vincent’s fave insects r praying mantises

-Lester has crazy grilling skills but is not allowed to cook for his brothers anymore bc they’ve been secretly fed raccoon meat too many damn times (2x)

- Vincent makes the best pancakes and bo makes the best French toast 😤

- while they have jonesy and she’s loved by all three I think bo has a secret soft spot for little dogs

- bring him a small dog and he’s gonna talk about how he “doesn’t want that rat” but he’s gonna be buying them little sweaters and a nice dog bed within a day. Will even have the dog in his own jacket when it’s cold.

-got help w my sibling for this one, but if they played any video games these would be their faves:

Bo: duke Nukem (unironically)and doom

Vincent: postal and bioshock, I think he’d also enjoy the game ver of I have no mouth and I must scream

Lester: Turok evolution, I wanna say he’s insanely good at fighting games, probably plays tekken 3 and 4, but he never memorizes any of the character’s names so if you ever ask him who plays it’s “oh uhh that one fella with the fucked up eye”

-Lester kazuya and or hwoarang main

- imagine twitch streamer Lester 😭

-(sorry to any old school gamers my first console experience was a ps2 and I’ve never played on anything older </3 but I’d love to see yalls thoughts on their fave games considering they grew up in the 70s-80s)

- I already know horror movies don’t do a damn thing to the twins but imagine them playing a survival horror game together 😭 like the first outlast or even worse silent hill, them being in such a vulnerable and open position would freak them tf out

- the sibling arguing you’d hear over the ominous music coming from the tv bc bo refuses to let go of the controller and Vincent is angrily pointing and signing at bo like “no damn it you went the wrong fucking way you were supposed to go through the other door”

-bo will absolutely scream once or twice, Vincent will flinch violently or start panicking and trying to snatch the controller away from bo

- if you make them play just dance we all know Lester is gonna win

- imagine these bitches playing wii, bo would smack his brothers w the Wii remote on purpose 🤦🏻‍♂️

-pronouns n sexualities:

-bo: cis he/him and bisexual but doesn’t talk about it, doesn’t stop him from hitting on everyone regardless of their gender tho

-Vincent: he/they or they/he I cannawt decide but also bisexual

-Lester: He/Him I’d say Lester is cishet but there’s def times where he opens his mouth and it’s like……r u sure

That’s all I have so far but catch me adding onto this post over time 😏

[swanimagines]

SHADOW AND BONE (TV SHOW) MASTERLIST

THIS LIST IS NOT UP TO DATE, AND I DON'T KNOW WHEN I'M ABLE TO UPDATE IT. ALSO, SOME LINKS DON'T WORK/DON'T WORK PROPERLY!! PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME ASKS OR MESSAGES ABOUT LINKS NOT WORKING, I'M FULLY AWARE OF IT!

GIF IMAGINES

HEADCANONS

Enemies to lovers with The Darkling

Being a runaway princess and falling in love with Matthias Helvar

Kaz Brekker caring for you when you're on your periods

Being a Grisha and a Crow and joining the Crows to kidnap Alina

Dating Kaz Brekker

Dating Kaz and being another mastermind

Dating Jesper Fahey

Dating Kaz and being a really cheery person

PREFERENCES

Nothing here.

DRABBLES

Matthias Helvar

Kaz Brekker

The Darkling

Malyen Oretsev

Jesper Fahey

Nina Zenik

ONESHOTS

KAZ BREKKER (❤️ means it's one of my faves)

A Memory | Part II ❤️ (fem!reader, kind of hurt/comfort)

Y/N thought her childhood best friend died during the Plague, but after she comes back to Ketterdam, she encounters a surprise.

Accidental Kiss | Part II ❤️ (fem!reader, fluff)

Y/N opens up to her brother about her crush on Kaz, and the evening ends unexpectedly.

Safe ❤️ (fem!reader, kind of self-insert, hurt/comfort)

Kaz is trying to comfort Y/N over her father’s death.

We All Have Our Own Demons ❤️ (fem!reader, Rollins!reader, hurt/comfort)

Y/N is Pekka Rollins’s estranged daughter, and finds help from a surprising party to get rid of her father. A series LOOSELY based on this oneshot is coming!

Unspoken Words ❤️ (gn!reader with no pronouns, hurt/comfort, my personal fave out of all my work)

Y/N deviated from the plan during a heist, and got hurt. Kaz isn’t happy, but the reason isn’t what Y/N thinks it is.

Unfolded (fem!reader, hurt/comfort)

Y/N and Kaz’s relationship gets exposed and Y/N sees something Kaz has tried to hide from her.

One By One (fem!reader, hurt/comfort)

Y/N is the only person left who Kaz has had since his childhood and he trusts her more than he trusts anyone.

A Broken Past (fem!reader, platonic, hurt/comfort)

Y/N returned to Ketterdam to look for work, but she found out something she definitely didn’t expect.

The Honest and the Thief (gn!reader with no pronouns, platonic, unlikely friends prompt)

Helping a little boy who had been soaked wet in a cold Ketterdam night had a result Y/N would never have believed would happen.

Gone Away For A While ❤️ (gn!reader with they/them, hurt/comfort)

It was just another heist. Except everything went wrong in a worst possible way.

Foolish Memories (gn!reader with no pronouns, hurt/comfort)

Y/N came back to Ketterdam and met their childhood crush by accident, but he’s not the same anymore. Now it’s time to talk about what has changed.

In the Darkness (gn!reader with they/them, hurt/comfort)

Pekka Rollins has a proposition for Kaz that’s doomed to be turned down, but that’s exactly why he uses Y/N to encourage Kaz to take his offer.

Crimson and Black (fem!reader, kinda hurt/comfort)

Y/N has suffered a lot since her childhood, making her to be someone children were scared to see in Ketterdam. Then she meets someone who she can finally relate to, and that feeling wants to grow into something more.

Teasing, Longing, Trusting (fem!reader, kinda hurt/comfort)

Dirtyhands saves a girl from being harassed, and something deeper ensues.

Golden Cages

Being the best of the class would be a good thing in a lot of cases. But being a Grisha and been promised to the Queen’s daughter once she’d graduate makes Y/N run away and offer her skills to a criminal gang in Ketterdam.

Hollow Hearts

Y/N screwed up a heist when they tried to save Kaz and he’s angry about it. Him scolding Y/N ends unexpectedly.

Doubts

Kaz doubts himself about if he’s good enough for Y/N.

Moving Forward

After Y/N becomes blind, Kaz shows his rarely seen softer side.

The Final Payment

Y/N has to calm Kaz down after a job gone wrong.

Bloodied Memories | Part 2

Kaz abandoned his little sister, Y/N, right before he joined the Dregs. She comes back looking for him, and Kaz tries to hide himself from her - but no lie lasts forever.

[purrincess-chat]

Cat’s Not-All-Encompassing Character Ranking

Okay, so I have to admit that I omitted a lot of characters I don't have strong opinions on. Most of them were one-off akumas, so don't get your panties in a twist, your faves are probably still on here (and ranked lower than you think).

As a preface again, these are just my personal opinions. They can't hurt you. You can still like characters more or less than me. And I don't care how you feel about them. This list is for me. And the person that asked for it. So shut up. Go make your own rank list if you’re so butthurt. 

We're going in reverse order this time, starting from the bottom:

84. Gabriel Agreste- I mean, is anyone surprised? I am not private about how I think Gabriel should go to jail. Or fall off a cliff. Or be erased from existence. Rip to those that like him, but I’m different.

83. Thomas Astruc- Honestly, he’s down here on principle. Self-inserts are generally a no-no, and I just laugh every time I see him on screen because he really put himself in this show and said boohoo no one appreciates me XD

82. Bob Roth- I feel like this one should also be obvious. He’s just a dick. Terrible human. I give him 0 stars.

81. Tomoe Tsurugi- We all collectively hate her, right? It’s not just me?

80. Su Han- This mans has small peepee energy. And he bad mouthed Fu, so get FUCKED, my dude.

79. Rolland Dupain- Listen, I get it, he liked Marinette in the end, but I could do without the racism.

78. Nathalie Sancoeur- My opinion of Nathalie took a nosedive after the s2 finale. I just do not care that she is in love with her boss. Don’t care that she’s dying. Just do not have it in me.

77. XY- Justin Bieber ass wannabe.

76. Nora Cesiare- I didn’t care for Nora. I know Thomas loves her, but the overbearing sibling trope is tired.

75. Anarka Couffaine- I underestimated how much I don’t really like her. Like, it’s not full-on hate, but I just do not care for her.

74. Otis Cesaire- Got akumatized because a kid said he could outrun a panther. I’m still not over it, Otis.

73. Andre Bourgeois- No love for the crooked mayor. I hope your wife divorces you. 

72. Alec Cataldi- The real villain of Stormy Weather. Like fr why is he such an asshole?

71. Roger Raincomprix- Is Officer Roger just doing his best? Sometimes. But like sometimes this mans just needs to take a chill pill.

70. M. D'Argencourt- Please get out of the 1600s

69. Ella/Etta- These two are basically the same character, and I am indifferent to both of them.

68. KnightOwl/Barbara- Listen, I would have liked you more if you were less controlling.

67. Majestia- Same as above, but like I guess I like you more

66. Theo- *Mean Girls principal voice* Stay away from underaged girls!

65. Andre the ice cream man- I just want a scoop of chocolate, Andre. Is that too much to ask??

64. Amelie Graham de Vanily- We haven’t seen much of her, but she seems like a snake bitch.

63. M. Kubdel- I mean, if my son wanted to resurrect an ancient mummy and believed in aliens, I’d give the family heirloom to my daughter too.

62. Jalil Kubdel- Lolol, buddy, pal, dude, my guy. Chill.

61. Vincent (Adrien's photographer)- Head empty. Mom’s spaghetti. Idk he’s alright.

60. Manon- I don’t hate Manon. She just gets on my nerves every time she talks.

59. M. Ramier- This mans got akumatized a billion times because he gets emotional about pigeons. I mean, honestly mood.

58. Mme. Mendeleiev- She doesn’t put up with Chloe’s shit, and we respect her for this.

57. Baby August- Someone just give this mans some food. He’s a growing boy.

56. Santa Claus- If I were Santa, I too would list Ladybug as the best kid in the world.

55. Art Teacher- He doesn’t even have a name, but I vibe with him. He seems like he likes to paint scenes of nature with his pet squirrels.

54. Prince Ali- Lil mans just wanted to have a good time. I can respect that.

53. Duusu- Duusu, I get that your Miraculous was broken, but get with the program, girl. You is a hostage.

52. Other Kwamis- Idk, all the ones we haven’t seen as much. I don’t have real opinions on them yet. Just neutral.

51. Sass- He gives me dad vibes.

50. M. Damocles- You go, you funky owl man

49. Jean (Chloe's Butler)- He deserves a raise. What is your name, sir? We may never know.

48. Mireille Caquet- She’s pretty cute. No complaints.

47. Aurore Beaureal- Baby’s first akuma. I love her design. She’s a cutie.

46. Claudie Kante (Max’s mom)- This womans just wanted to go to space and live her dream. We stan a hardworking queen.

45. Hot Dog Dan- I like him more than Andre the ice cream fraud. Sure, my hotdog might turn me purple, but if I ask for chili on it, I bet he’d oblige.

44. Nadja Chamack- I mean, she’s doing her best.

43. Audrey Bourgeois- So, as I said in the episode ranking, I have a love-hate relationship with Audrey. She’s the worst, but that’s why I love her. I love her ironically. Like, yeah she’s atrocious, but I just want to watch her burn the world.

42. Luka Couffaine- Directly in the middle, like he’s always been.

41. Nathaniel Kurtzberg- My opinion of Nath improved after Reverser surprisingly. I ship it.

40. Chris Lahiffe- I like Chris better than Ella/Etta. He’s just a little mans out here living life wanting to grow up. Don’t believe it, Chris. Stay little forever. Being an adult suuuuucks.

39. Fang the Crocodile- The goodest boy.

38. Nooroo- I just want to give him a hug.

37. Mlle. Bustier- She’s doing her best, but I mean, when ya whole class keeps getting turned into supervillains, I’m surprised she’s not an alcoholic.

36. Penny Rolling- I just like her. I think she’s neat.

35. Ondine- Mermaid queen! She’s so sweet, and I love her with Kim. I hope we see more of her in the future.

34. Marc Anciel- Marc is a little cutie bean. Idc if he’s based off one of Thomas’s irl friends. He can stay.

33. Wayzz- He loves Master Fu so much I cry.

32. Felix Graham de Vanily- I know everyone hates canon Felix, but tbh he exudes massive chaotic neutral gremlin energy, and I actually kinda vibe with that. And he pisses with his uncle which is a whole ass mood.

31. Tikki- Tikki is very cute, but bby please work on the preaching. You don’t always know what’s right, babe.

30. Sabrina Raincomprix- Sabrina deserves better. I hope we see good things happen for her.

29. Lila Rossi- Surprised? I actually like Lila. The first fic I ever wrote for this fandom was a Lila redemption. I think she is a good antagonist and foil to Marinette. I absolutely want to see her get dunked on in canon, but that doesn’t mean I hate her.

28. Wayhem- I don’t know why, but Wayhem makes me laugh. I love him XD

27. Uncle Cheng- He’s just a good mans with a birb who wants to make you tasty food. What’s not to like?

26. Trixx- Trixx shot up after GoS. Chaotic bean make Eiffel Tower go bendy

25. Jess- She’s pretty cool. She’s a vibe.

24. Aeon- The cutest bean!!! She saw Adrien and Marinette and said yep. Those two are meant to be together. Jess, we gotta make it happen.

23. Ivan Bruel- Ivan is such a gentle bean. We love him.

22. Mylene Haprele- Smol

21. Fei Wu- I still have not watched the Shanghai special with subs, but I liked her.

20. Gina Dupain- The grandma I aspire to be.

19. Marianne Lenoir- I love her. She is good. She and Fu are so cute. And she seems like she would have kicked le ass back in the day. (and even now)

18. Rose Lavillant- I am so excited for Pigella!! Rose is too cute. We love her. 

17. Gorilla- aka Adrien’s real dad. If the series doesn’t end with Gabriel getting yeeted into the stratosphere and Gorilla adopting Adrien, I don’t want it.

16. Clara Nightingale- She’s in love with Marinette. You can’t change my mind. 16 is also how old I hc her to be, so don’t nobody come for me.

15. Tom Dupain- Most. Supportive. Dad. Soft bean. Just wants to make you fresh bread.

14. Sabine Cheng- Good mom vibes. We love to see her.

13. Juleka Couffaine- Shy goth bean. Just wants to have her picture taken. Definitely a lesbian. We stan.

12. Nino Lahiffe- The goodest boy. He’s just out here doing his best, loving his friends.

11. Chloe Bourgeois- Chloe is another one I have a love-hate relationship with. Her brattiness is funny to me. We had high hopes for her. Honestly, she ranks this high because I like to play with her in fic.

10. Max Kante- He smol and smort. And I adore his friendship with Kim and the fact that he made an AI himself at 14. What a legend.

9. Alya Cesaire- Rip to Alya salters, but I’m different. Outside of Chameleon, Alya is fine. She’s a supportive bff. All yall people that are mad she doesn’t kiss Marinette’s ass all the time need to go out and make real friends. I said what I said.

8. Alix Kubdel- I love Alix. I love how she is always so done with all the lovey-dovey bullshit. She is tiny queen, and Bunnix, while OP af, is still super cool. We love to see her.

7. Kagami Tsurugi- I will fight anyone who shits on Kagami. She has done nothing wrong, you guys are just haters. All she did was exist, and yall said, wow what a toxic bitch?? Disgraceful.

6. Jagged Stone- We are going to ignore the deadbeat dad trope that canon thrust upon him. He is a Marinette stan, and we love that.

5. Kim Le Chien- I really love Kim, you guys. Does that surprise you? Listen, my favorite male character types are sweet beans and himbos. Kim is both of these.

4. Master Fu- If you didn’t pick up on how much I love Fu from the episodes ranking, then idk what to tell you. I want him to be my grandpa. I would trust this mans with my life. He did his best. You paint those pictures, you funky little man. I love you.

3. Plagg- My galaxy trash man. Love him. 10/10 chefs kisses all around.

2. Adrien Agreste- The biggest Marinette stan there is. I just want him to kiss her on the face. And marry her. Idk, I just think that would be neat if he could do that. I just want good things for them.

1. Marinette Dupain-Cheng- Honestly, are you surprised? I have always been and always will be a Marinette stan. If you expected anyone else to be in this spot, then clown suit rentals are off to the left.

[ticklishpeter]

klaus & diego tickle headcanons

oKAY my inbox is exclusively requests for klaus and diego headcanons so like,, i’m gonna do some for each of them (both ler and lee!!! we luv!!!)  🥰  UGH they’re my faves so i’m so excited to do this big ol post khfdsjb

lee!klaus:

he’s a VERY ticklish lil bean

not the most ticklish in the family (we’ll get there ;)) but he’s def up there

he won like 50% of family tickle fights??? bc he likes tickles, he can hold out wayyy longer than some of the others

cutest lil high pitched giggles (think s2e7 17:43-ish ok?? like so precious)

flails like a fish out of water fr fr

worst spots are his armpits and his HIPS wow

i headcanon that when he was in vietnam, while they were kissin probably,, dave touched his hips and he sorta just melted into a giggle puddle uwu

his scrawny ass makes it ,,, so tempting to just grab em yk??

he’s like,, feather ticklish! like he honestly might be more sensitive to light tickles than hard ones???

his body just kinda,,, twists and contorts in some really silly ways when he gets tickled?? like he has rly,, interesting reactions that usually make his ler laugh about as much as him

the SQUEALS and just,, completely authentic laughter?? precious

ler!klaus:

a RUTHLESS ler,, him and allison typically team up on the others (especially diego dhjfsb)

he’s def the kind to act super nonchalant like,,, “oh? what’s so funny?” “hey! that’s rude, this is a brand new shirt! i don’t think it’s that bad.” “hey now, i’m trying to talk to you but you keep on laughing over me!” hkdjgfb

his fingers??? move so??? quickly??? and he’s v precise??

just kinda seems to know everyone’s weak spots

he’s also a touchy drunk so like ,, drunk!klaus is the tickle monster fr

def baby talks five and he HATES it

initiates tickle fights a lot!!!! he just loves to mess w his siblings lmao and he sees tickling as a really good bonding time!!!

he’s the one who found out that luther was ticklish when he tucked his feet under luther’s leg on the couch once ,, and he never let him live that down 

lee!diego:

i cANNOT STRESS TO YALL ENOUGH HOW UNBEARABLY TICKLISH THIS MAN IS

u cannot touch his stomach without at LEAST a flinch

his thighs and armpits and neck are also rEAL BAD but yknow,,, they’re at like a 9/10 and his tummy’s at a 36/10 hksdg

and his siblings obvi KNOW that so whenever he gets wrecked, he just,, rolls onto his stomach like,, instinctually to guard his belly,,, but it never really works bc he’s also ticklish everywhere else jlgfdb

has the most entertaining reactions to tummy/side tickles,,, like he kicks his legs and he covers his face and tHRASHES and squeals,, 

he always denies that he squeals

i’ve said it before but pokes and one-finger tickles get him sO BAD. i think it’s because theyre just so teasy and quick and simple so he just knows they shouldn’t tickle him so much!!! jkghds his ler is always like “what? it’s just one finger! it can’t be that bad!” but DAMN it is,,, lmao

took the brunt of all tickle fights held in the hargreeves household

and grace also tickled him a ton,, ever since he was a literal baby

baby diego got so many tummy raspberries ok

when he gets wrecked long enough, he starts SCREAMING and being overdramatic like “i’m gONNA FUCKING DIE I HATE YOU FUCK FUCK!!”

luv him (there will most likely be 86 more posts filled w headcanons about this boy)

ler!diego:

hkjdbfs he tRIES and he likes to THINK he’s a good ler BUT HE ALWAYS JUST ENDS UP GETTING TAKEN DOWN (i have sUCH trouble picturing ler!diego but i’m TRYING for yall)

tickles five aloT which is dumb bc five doesn’t go without revenge but ofc he still does and they get into crazy tickle fights 

he’s GREAT at pinning ppl down tho!!! and really good at getting to weak spots ,  yknow with his master precision and such LMAO

he’s also out here brave enough / dumb enough to tickle luther and he CRACKS UP at his reactions ekdjg much to luther’s embarrassment

he doesn’t tease all that much??? but he’s still ruthless!! like he WILL hone in on the one spot that drives the lee CRAZY and just not stop until theyre begging yk dfhj (or until they get him back)

when he does tease, it’s mostly like “not so tough now, are ya?” and again,, laughing at their reactions to certain tickles lmao

he also tickles lila a bunch which,,,, again DUMB bc lila’s a TERRIFYING ler wbk

he’s only soft when he tickles her tho tbh he thinks she’s really cute when she’s laughing 

[circumstellars]

Fandom trash - TUA - Questions 1-16 ✌

You cheaaaated! I’ll try to be concise:

1) name ur politically correct ship that no one ever questions

My politically correct ship? Vanya/Sissy. After season 2 I also am starting to like Allison/Luther, and it shouldn’t be politically incorrect cos it’s right there in the main canon, but it is. I don’t think anyone will give me a hard time about Vanya/Sissy tho (but you never know).

2) now name ur trash ship

I’m still working on those omg. Um, I saw a smutty Luther/Klaus ficlet that honestly /worked(!!)/, I was amazed. I need to explore more but it’s going to be between the siblings and people will get mad anyway ehehehe

3) and ur really trashy im-going-to-hell ship 

-Omg- The going to hell ship? In this fandom? I dunno just yet but I’m sure I’ll adopt at least one at some point. I see you Klaus/Five shippers, you little nutbags, you may be on to something.

4)  who is your cinnamon roll fave who everyone loves

Five. He’s my sweet murdery nugget but it’s not like he’s unpopular - loads of people also love on him a lot.

5) who is your sinnamon roll fave who everyone loves to hate/hates to love

Everyone hated on Luther so much but he’s honestly just a pure, simple man trying to live with the fact he’s deeply in love with his sister and is now a monkey ok

6) who is your trash fave who is so problematic they probably have hate tumblrs dedicated to them 

My trash fave is fr The Handler. Yeah yeah she’s problematic, well she’s a goddamn villain, so I sure hope so. I want her to have nice things she doesn’t deserve.

7) what is ur  guiltiest guilty fave fandom

N/a, I usually stick to one fandom at a time, and all fandom to me is a guilty pleasure. I’m ADHD and have an addictive personality. Embarrassing, I know.

8) what is the fic you want to write/read but can’t because it is too full of Sin

There is not one answer to this... but several. I’m not really sure how to answer this, hmm... Since I haven’t really seen much in the way of fic in this fandom thus far, it’s sort of difficult to go beyond headcanons and basic concepts. I suppose my most secretly sinful fic tropes are A/B/O, but don’t tell anyone...

9) what is the most sinful fic you have ever read/written

I haven’t written full fic in generations but I did read a lot and in my last fandom the filthiest fics I recall off the top of my head that are within my tastes are A/B/O fics again yikes wow /loosens tie Usually has to um, do with a lot of desperation and body worship, lots of um, bodily fluids I guess, and lots and lots of sappy romance...

10) what is the worst thing you want to become canon (character death, trash-ship etc)

Allison/Luther happens in a more physical way but they don’t end up together. I like their constant struggle. Also, the absolute worst thing I want to happen that I know is bad writing but I don’t care - Ben (our Ben) coming back to life. /sobs

11) what is your most sinful headcanon

More sinning ugh. Okay the truth? I think Five banged The Handler, or they’ve just fooled around or something, when Five was working at the Commission. I don’t think it was any sort of proper relationship, and it certainly wasn’t healthy, and I don’t think Five particularly likes her either (in fact he rather finds her tedious) - I just think she’s manipulative and he’s a 50 year old who’s pent up both emotionally and physically. I just know she took advantage of him in some way, but I can’t explain it in detail on stupid SFW twitter now can I?

12) what is your cutest headcanon

My cutest? I have a lot of those too. One of them is Five used to cry a lot as a kid and has conditioned himself to suppress the urge as he got older, but when they were really little, Ben would comfort him and be his emotional support brother.

13) what is your heart-breakingist head canon

That Ben was killed by the tentacle beast after he loses control in front of his siblings. Breaks me up inside and I don’t even know if it’s true!

14) what is ur crackiest crack ship

I don’t have crack ships, really ever. I mean in a way Five x Delores is a crack ship, does that count?

15) what is ur marginally less cracky crack ship

See 14

16) what is ur favourite ridiculous au

Again, because fanfic is a bit sparse in this fandom thus far, I haven’t had a chance to explore AUs. I hope to, eventually. I don’t care for some of the overused AUs used by teenagers like High School AUs or some shit. A really well thought out coffee shop AU is often satisfying. Of course again, there’s always A/B/O AU, but we don’t need to talk about that...

[smores100]

once again we’re in full agreement lol. What’s your take on s3 remakes you’ve watched? Wondering how you feel about Skam FR as it’s kind of a similar situation to me where the chemistry & beauty is there but the writing and style is iffy (overwrought &overdramatic). My favorite s3 is druck. As a wlw I had high hopes for españa but it was p slow/v desexualized—a whole discussion, but my other gay friend & I were disappointed given how remakes with guys don’t hold back in that respect.. Thoughts?

Honestly re: wtfock tho I really do wonder if they had like one good writer in the room surrounded by fools. Bc it really does feel like some group projects I’ve been in where I feel like I’m the only one who’s not a fucking fool and carry the whole thing while having to fend off bad ideas (but when the majority rules, those bad ideas/execution get put in). I wonder if that’s what happened w wtfock.

re: wtfock, lol group projects are the worst….idk what wtfock’s writing process was like, but i’d love to know it. according to their wiki there were 3 writers this season? all seem to be male, naturally. did the two other writers have good ideas but there was a main writer who overruled them and did his own thing? or maybe they’re the rl one brain cell squad, that would explain a lot :p in any case, i’m unimpressed (friday’s clips did not help with that).

as for the other part of your ask….oh damn i have so many Thoughts on that, lol. this is probably gonna get long and messy, but you asked for it!

* druck - my absolute favorite. it’s the only one i’ve watched since s1, so that definitely played a part in my emotional investment and attachment. still, there was more to it than that. it was the closest to og imo in vibe and style (it felt small, real, lowkey, quiet, natural like og, as opposed to - as you said - overwrought and overdramatic + overproduced like the others); they cast an actual trans guy to play a trans character, if you wanna talk about a skam remake doing something REVOLUTIONARY? druck is the one; i loved matteo’s and david’s characterizations, how they both had a bit of isak and even in them, and the role reversal in some scenes, made things feel fresh *and* fit their characters/story; i LOVE that teens matteo and david were played by actual teens michi and lukas!! they’ve completely ruined me for all other remakes, bc thissssss is how it’s supposed to be! thisssss is how it should look like! THEY ARE KIDDOS. and they (druck and michi/lukas) truly captured what it’s like to be young and fall in love for the first time, the awkwardness and the nervousness and stuttering and fumbling around, the softness and pureness and innocence of it all!!! also they have THE BEST dynamic - other people might prefer all the hot kissing and steamy making out and the smouldering looks, but me? i just couldn’t get enough of their dumb chaotic energy, best friends who love each other deeply and are also constantly little shits to one another. gimme them pranking each other and playfighting every day! and then being soft and THE HANDS and matteo being a clingy koala basking in david’s affection :3 i also loved how for the most part they didn’t just copy/paste og’s storyline, they made some changes and knew how to make *other* changes accordingly for it to make sense and fit the story *they* were telling - for example, replacing the ‘call your gf’ scene with matteo’s panic attack/breakdown (one of my fave scenes), or their reunion at the end of ep 7 (replacing the desperate kissing + sex with a comforting and relieved yet also bittersweet and melancholic hug), or even matteo getting advice from his drug dealer instead of the school’s doctor, lol. also THE BEST BOY SQUAD, hands down. and matteo is my favorite isak bc to me he felt like his own character instead of just another isak, he was different and reletable and a constant Mood. that being said - it wasn’t perfect and it had its issues. there were a few times when i did feel they stuck too close to og scenes and it didn’t *entirely* work for me, just felt a bit off; i will forever be disappointed that they didn’t directly address and acknowledge matteo’s mental state/depression, bc there were enough signs imo to indicate that he did suffer from something. they mentioned ‘therapy’ in mia’s, alex’s and kiki’s cases, i truly thought they would with matteo as well, but alas, they dropped the ball on that one; i was extremely upset with david’s outing, but i’ve since calmed down and have managed to see it in a more positive light, tho i still have mixed feelings about it and am not fully on board with that decision, still wish it had been done differently (but at least! it wasn’t brushed off and was addressed immediately and eventually led to david having agency and yelling out his pain!!! which was good and important and cathartic); also eps 8 and 9 were pretty messy writing-wise, things either didn’t make sense or would’ve made more sense had the clips were organized differently (that random ping pong clip….?). overall tho, the good outweighed the bad, and it remains my fave

* skam france - now that’s a tricky one. the way i felt about it in the first half of the season, is different from the way i felt about it in the second half of the season, is different from the way i feel about ever since watching druck’s s3. it’s funny you should say how similar it is to wtfock for you, bc i’ve been thinking the same thing for quite some time. those neighboring countries sure have a shared flair for the dramatic! fr’s s3 was pretty much the first s3 i watched (i gif-watched half of skamit, couldn’t get into it). i wasn’t planning to (i was extremely unimpressed by the couple of s1 eps i tried watching, and same by axel’s acting in those first two seasons), but even is the loml and they got me gooood with their eliott pov trailer, which might have affected my excitement over it during the first half. back then i really enjoyed it for the most part, despite some clips being rushed or missing the point thus not fully having the required effect (their locker room scene, for example, or the ‘generalizations are bad’ convo), or how much i hated basile (a character so obviously written by a man it’s amazing), or the cheesy piano music. there were enough good things for me to focus on instead (more in a bit) that i could ignore the things i didn’t like or weren’t as good imo. however, all the positivity got sucked out of me when yann noped tf out after lucas came out to him bc WAY TO MISS THE POINT OF SKAM!!! and things went downhill after the director’s IT’S NOT DISNEYLAND IT’S FRANCE 2019 comment. i’m getting all upset just thinking about it, but to say *that*, to explain that horrendous decision bc lowkey homophobic reactions are realistic!!! only to THEN be all ‘haha jk yann isn’t homophobic! we just wanted you to *think* he was! he’s actually an awesome friend who took several days to reflect on all his past wrongdoings while his bff was at home having a nervous breakdown bc he believed his bff hated him!’ ughhhhhhhhh, miss me with that shit. great that they had yann apologizing for his past comments, but the way in which it was done was for pure shock value and angst, completely ooc for his character (all season he was all ‘tell me tell me tell me let me help let me help let me help’ only to do *that*?? nahh), and interesting how out of everyone the only black character was the only one with a negative reaction (remind you of anyone), highlighted even more during ep 7 aka the ott lucas coming out tour. then ep 8, that should have been 100% all lucas and eliott and building up to eliott’s manic episode suddenly had that weird random pov changing clip in the middle of it which truly wtf, basile was still basile, lucas thanked chloe for outing him, more scenes felt rushed, they had sex in school where people could come and go in front of huge windows in broad daylight and luckily didn’t get poisoned from licking all that paint! and i did not like the flatshare, i absolutely hated mika and lisa kicking lucas out of his room - which he pays rent for! - and manon not even trying to put up a fight, and them being like ‘roommate isn’t just a place, it’s a way of living. that’s a family, and you’re more like a cousin.’ ‘a second cousin.’ ughhhhhh and then when eliott was recovering from his depressive episode, they *still* didn’t give lucas his room back or at least let eliott stay there, he was sleeping on the couch, i’m aldjlajdafj. can’t believe i’m gonna say it, but TAKE NOTES FROM WTFOCK. tl;dr there were some good moments in the second half, but i was feeling bitter more often than not about certain things, so my enjoyment wasn’t as high as when it first started. and after watching druck, druck’s brand is definitely much more my style. plus, i was already struggling with making myself believe axel and maxence were in their teens, but after druck it’s completely impossible, so i just pretend they’re in college or something lol. all my issues with it aside, i’d still rate it higher than wtfock, bc overall the writing was better, more coherent, and made much more sense. i also liked lucas’ friendship with the girls; i loved that instead of copying the underwater kiss + 21:21 like some others have, they came up with their own thing i.e. polaris, which i thought was lovely; the lucas/manon crying in the middle of the night together in front of the tv was one of my fave scenes of the season; also love how we were introduced to eliott on the first week! and they spent time together! and specifically the piano playing scene, ohhhh; and in general elu are sweet and i reeeeally like axel and maxence and their friendship. so yeah, it had some major issues, but i’d rather have a coherent story with something done for shock value and drama ONCE than an incoherent story with several shock value moments.

* skam espana - sorry to hear you girls were disappointed! i only watched half of it, so i can only comment on what i saw. i decided to binge watch s1 and give s2 a shot when i heard they were giving cris isak’s story - it felt a bit weird to me, but it was also something different and new, and i did have an appreciation for their decision to have a wlw season (also much more revolutionary to me than showing a gay bashing), so i was intrigued and willing to try it. sadly i didn’t really vibe with s1? it’s totally a personal preference i think, maybe even a cultural thing idk, but it felt very fast and loud and hectic to me, idrk how to explain it. i was just more into the chill more lowkey vibe of druck and skamnl. but i still gave s2 a shot, and idk, it still wasn’t my cup of tea. i thought it was ok for the most part, but there were some things that bothered me - joana/cris felt underdeveloped to me? and things b/w them felt like they were moving so fast from the second they met, like jona was so intense and forward ALL THE TIME, they had like 6 almost kisses in a really short time, like shhh slow down. i remember disliking their ‘call your gf’ scene, it felt really petty and kinda mean to me? bc i felt like joana came on to cris *really* strongly and *very* frequently, so cris was more than entitled to feel hurt and betrayed when she found out joana had a bf, but then cris was kissing a dude and joana positioned herself and her bf in front of cris so she’d see them kissing too, and i just didn’t like bc seriously?? cris is valid, just apologize to her and explain?? idr much else tbh, they had some really cute and sweet scenes afterwards, i’m still against doing the underwater kiss + 21:21 so i was kinda meh about that (tho aesthetically speaking it was BEAUTIFUL, and i’m like, fiiiiine girls deserve an underwater kiss too, i’ll allow it just this once!), and that cuddling clip in ep 6 i think was sweet and the last one i watched. like i said, i was less vibing with this remake, and iirc it was going on during druck’s s3 and skamnl’s s2 - which were my faves, plus skamfr was on too i think and i was lowkey following it too, so….there was just too much all at once and something had to go, and it was skamesp. it was also around the time when panaphobia-gate happened, so *shrugs* i’m not wlw myself so your opinion on it being desexualized is probably more valid than mine? i just know when i did watch, there was a lot of kissing and making out and being cute and touchy with each other, so i thought it was ok? as i’ve mentioned before, i don’t need to see a naked butt or anything like that to *get* it lol, i thought they were lovely! but that’s just me. i will say that my faaaave part was most definitely the cris/amira friendship. they were so wonderful! one of the best skam friendships imo. i might one day go back and finish the season just for the heck of it, but they didn’t do anything major or highly offensive that made me have negative feelings towards it, it was just a personal preference + circumstances (too many remakes!) that made me be less into it and drop it before the end.

[johannesviii]

Top 10 Personal Favorite Hit Songs from 1990

Well, that is a pretty terrible, not good, bad year for hit songs uh? I mean, for the kind of hit songs I like, at least.

Obviously my first-hand experience of “hearing songs on the radio and actually liking some of them” starts when I was around 3 or 4, so nostalgia will have very little to do with the first top 10 lists I’m making.

Disclaimers:

Keep in mind I’m using both the year-end top 100 lists from the US and from France while making these top 10 things. There’s songs in English that charted in my country way higher than they did in their home countries, or even earlier or later, so that might get surprising at times.

Of course there will be stuff in French. We suck. I know. It’s my list. Deal with it.

My musical tastes have always been terrible and I’m not a critic, just a listener and an idiot.

I have sound to color synesthesia which justifies nothing but might explain why I have trouble describing some songs in other terms than visual ones.

I struggled to find more than five songs to put on this list.

Think about it. A pool of roughly 160 hit songs to pick from, and there’s only 3 and a half songs I actually enjoy on this list.

This is terrible.

10 - On écrit sur les murs (Demis Roussos)

US: Not on the list / FR: #20

This song is only there because the lyrics themselves are lovely and because I genuinely like the recent cover made by Kids United even though it’s Uncool(tm) to admit that in my country.

I kinda dislike that version and its singer though, and the fact I had nothing better to put in the 10th spot is sad. But. Like. It was either this or MC Hammer. Give me a break.

9 - Vogue (Madonna)

US: #5 / FR: #28

As I said before, I had a very brief Madonna phase back when she released Die Another Day.

This song was NOT one of my favorite Madonna songs even during that brief Madonna phase.

But I literally had nothing else I could possibly put in that spot.

End me.

8 - The Power (Snap)

US: #26 / FR: #83

Not my favorite Snap song (stay tuned for another list to know which one that is). Still pretty decent, and since, again, I have nothing better to put here, it will do in a pinch.

7 - Dangerous (Roxette)

US: #34 / FR: Not on the list

Basically the same thing. These two top 100 lists are pretty wretched as far as my musical taste goes, so I’ll take what I can get.

6 - Hélène (Roch Voisine)

US: Not on the list / FR: #34

Insert here rant about White Guy With Acoustic Guitar Song (c) ToddInTheShadows.

My parents listened to this a loooooot. I really, really like the melody ; shame about the lyrics though.

We’re at #6 and we still haven’t reached the songs I actually used to listen to occasionally.

5 - Les Valses de Vienne (François Feldman)

US: Not on the list / FR: #10

Back when I got my first cd player, around 2001 (it was small, round and grey, and it had a radio and a tape recorder), the number of cds I could play on it was fairly limited, and one of them was some sort of old hits compilation. This was on it. It sounded nice and passed the time nicely.

That’s apparently enough to warrant a 5th place on this list.

4 - Pump Up The Jam (Technotronic)

US: #13 / FR: #88

This is my go-to music video to link when someone asks me what the general aesthetic of the 90s was. I enjoy it a lot and I’m not even sure whether that enjoyment is completely ironic or not. And the song is pretty great too. Not as good without the visuals, though.

3 - Free Fallin’ (Tom Petty)

US: #64 / FR: Not on the list

We’ve entered the top 3 and finally we’ve reached a song that I can 100% say I enjoy for no other reason than the song itself. My father was (and still is) a big fan of Tom Petty and I really liked it when he played this song but it took me years to actually know what the title of the songs were and who was singing them. This one is one of my faves.

My favorite Tom Petty song is actually Learning to Fly, and sadly it won’t appear on these top 10 posts because it’s not on any official year-end list. Also I only found what this particular song was this year. “Only” 28 years after it came out and roughly 20 after I started to like it.

It happens, I guess.

2 - Sadeness (Enigma)

US: Not on the list (...yet. It charted the next year) / FR: #31

I love Enigma, I have nearly all their albums even if it took me years to find them, and I have this one (MCMXD a.D.) on CD, on vinyl and (brace yourselves) on a video tape containing an album-long music video. It exists. The worst part? I also have it on DVD.

It’s pretentious to the point of being funny, it’s weird, its chart success makes no sense whatsoever, and Enigma would went on to make much better tracks, but still, it’s already damn good, and it was one of the only two songs that were on my 1990 list right off the bat.

To top this one, we need something even more pretentious, grandiose and iconic.

Wait.

1 - Enjoy the Silence (Depeche Mode)

US: #66 / FR: #72

Was there ever any doubt this song would top this list? No. Nada. Niet. None whatsoever. Even in a better year, it would probably have topped the list anyway. The first notes are so dramatic and exciting. The whole song has this weird blue luminescence that every Depeche Mode song from this period has (probably due to the slight reverb effect but again I’m terrible at understanding music in non-visual terms) but still shines incredibly bright in the dark. The album version is great, the single version is even better. Even the music video is good. Also I’ve always been a sucker for very ‘controlled’ electronic music with repetitions because it’s visually very satisfying and this is a great example of that.

Maybe it doesn’t sound incredible to you after hearing it being overplayed for more than twenty years but it is still genuinely that good to me.

I should also mention that I first discovered it through the 2004 Mike Shinoda version, which kickstarted my appreciation for Depeche Mode through my appreciation for Linkin Park.

How much appreciation exactly, you ask?

Oh, it was only my second favorite song of all time two full years after I first discovered it.

See. No big deal.

Next up: A way better top ten.

[artsoupsoupart]

Okay but the fact that athenagrantnash isn’t even an activist is reason enough not to defend her. I’m not saying to send her death threats because that’s equally as bad, but not only has she done things not worth defending, but she hasn’t even done something that makes her worth defending.

I mentioned activists bc y’all truly expect regular people to speak up every single time some injustice happens and that’s unhealthy. We’d never shut up and enjoy the blessings we do have in life if we’re constantly talking about the negative. Even activists have a right to be quiet on some topics. ESPECIALLY if they don’t know about what’s going on. Since the end of s5 she has constantly said she’s over 911. She got some asks about Taylor and about the show and because she wanted to answer them she did, and y’all still used even that against the fact that she didn’t want to speak up about the homophobia happening in the fandom.

I’m black. And i RARELY speak up about the injustices that actually happen in real life. Because it’s exhausting and that’s not my calling. I try to get out as much info as possible and to read and keep myself informed but no one HAS to. Especially in fandom, that’s supposed to be an escape from the bs we deal w irl. And just because they did before doesn’t mean they have to again. That’s just a hard truth yall have got to accept.

Also, she’s literally not done anything besides have opposing opinions on the value of characters on a tv show. No fr. Go back and READ FOR YOURSELF instead of being in your gc and regurgitating what your fave fandom friend says to you. Actually take a moment to THINK FOR YOURSELF. Fr. Go back and actually read bc i have been for this entire time that she’s been harassed and it’s really unnecessary every single time.

I have been consistently talking, IN DEPTH mind you, with agn for probably 2 years now. I mean we have had some looooooong convos about a variety of things. I AM ONE OF THE PPL SHE COMES TO for insight on a lot of things that yall have demonized her for pointing out. There is so much to defend because SHE ASKS for multiple points of view. She talks to people to figure out how to BE better. She literally has used her voice to speak up for ME, someone who is arguably exceedingly marginalized (re: black, woman, lesbian)

You don’t have to like her. You really really don’t. You don’t have to like anyone on this planet but yourself tbh. But y’all spam her inbox (and others’) with such vitriolic hate and don’t even give her even a modicum of respect. And that’s fucked up. And you know it’s fucked up or else you wouldn’t be on anon. You would actually talk to her like respectable human beings. But you don’t even try to do that. Y’all never do. Regarding anyone who opposes you in even the slightest way.

Now, considering the Supreme Court just made one of the worst decisions regarding bodily autonomy in the country (and subsequently the very state) that I live in, I’m gonna drop this fandom drama simply because THERE ARE FAR BETTER THINGS TO BE LOUD ABOUT THAN YOUR DISDAIN FOR A STRANGER ON THE INTERNET AND HER OPINIONS ON FICTIONAL CHARACTERS AND STORYLINES.

[rnaryjune]

OH HELL YEA CAST LIST TIME

let’s do some (inevitably wrong) first impressions, shall we?

(following is based on cast bios ONLY, haven’t watched any interviews

Steve: he’s either a derrick or a glenn and it’s a little hard to say which but im leaning towards glenn. that being said i agree with the whole “don’t have a strategy thing” because he’s right, this show can be too unpredictable. however, should have at least *some* outline about what he wants to do. wanna say he’s gonna make it at least to week 2

Sam: YOOOOOOOO WHY SHE GOT THE “I NEED TO SPEAK TO THE MANAGER” HAIRCUT SHE’S ONLY 27 SHE’S TOO YOUNG FOR THAT. i get the distinct feeling mom won’t like her which means i almost certainly will. i like her strategy because. same. but also im intrigued that she called the show a social experiment cause like....it’s been so long since anyone’s really seen the show in that way. it’s kinda nice tbh. anyway imma keep an eye on her.

Haleigh: WHY DO I SUDDENLY HAVE AARYN FLASHBACKS OH HELL NO SHE THINKS DERRICK WAS *CUTE* ARE YOU *SHITTING ME* like okay imma feel bad if she’s actually decent but i mean. she’s from texas. and she likes derrick. which is the safest fucking choice man come ON. she’ll make it to jury before being backstabbed by an all-guy alliance tbh. sidenote: chainsaws and crossing the street are absolUTELY reasonable fears tbh.

Kaycee: okay i immediately wanna like her but why the hell is a pro football player in this game like what do THEY need the money for. i mean it’s not as bad as fr*nkie grande but still. well anyway she’s gonna be one of those women you THINK is gonna kick ass at physical comps but ends up giving it up to the guys who end up backstabbing her and HANG ON WAIT SHE LIKES *CODY*? FUCKING MCFUCKWAD *CODY*? OH HELL NO okay tbf if she just means from a game standpoint like. i *guess* but also there are just. so many other ppl u could choose cody is weak sauce as a choice. ALSO HOLD UP SHE GAY? THIS GIRL IS A ROLLERCOASTER FIRST I LIKE HER THEN I DON’T IDK IM SO ON THE FENCE WITH HER. then again mom probs won’t like her so im kinda obligated to ka;dshflkasdhflksadfk

Tyler: oh BOY. HE SAID HE’S “QUESTIONABLE” KHSALFHADSFLKA oh lord i can already tell ppl are gonna stan him cause he named victor zach and dan as his faves and like. maybe one outta three is good lmaoooo. (victor was okay i *guess* but zach? pfffffffffffft) im sorry it’s a no from me im not feeling it. curious to see if he’s gonna be sweet or if he’s a complete ditz.

Bayleigh: bayleigh and haleigh alright sure bbcasting. “i call ppl out irl” oh hell. she’s not gonna last. im sorry i wish she would but i already see them picking on her and sending her out. i really really really wanna be wrong but like do u SEE another black woman in the house. uggggggggggggggh not looking forward to the ugly shit they’re gonna say this season. fucking hell casting can u be more diverse pls im so tired of just seeing y’all fill spots with the usual suspects. anyway bayleigh has a sweet smile and i love that she chose donny as her fave; unfortunately ppl who choose donny never seem to make it far.

Kaitlyn: a life coach oh brother. “im gonna use my messages from my guides” oh LORD. okay she might be nice but she ain’t gonna last. honestly so far i think she’s gonna be the first to go.

Winston: this the one mom is probs gonna like (actually come to think of it maybe tyler too). he writes love notes to his dog? oh mom’s definitely gonna love him. KHAEIFHAEOFSFDL okay ryan reynolds i can kinda see but justin timberlake? who the hell saw THAT. anyway hard to read him but imma say a tentative yes cause i see potential

Angie: oh LORD. i shoulda known she liked joey cause soon as i saw her i was like well there’s joey sdajlhslhsdfl. she’ll get on with kaitlyn. maybe try and do an all-girls alliance? but like. ya gotta win comps to pull anything off. and i don’t see it. might actually be the first to go. next.

JC: holy SHIT i can’t tell u how glad i am he said he liked josh and not fr*nkie or zach. mom is almost certain to not like him so i gotta. do i think he’ll last? proooooobably not but we shall see.

Brett: okay no THIS is the one mom’s gonna like. oh my god he’s an IDIOT HE FUCKING SAID “TROPHY” TO DESCRIBE HIMSELF DJLAHODFHAEOIFEOIF MAYBE HE’S JUST CONCEITED IDK. vehement is a good word but like hmmmm not sure it’s a great character descriptor. oh god yea he IS conceited i HATE him so yea mom’s def gonna like him.

Angela: oh she gonna get with brett. she sees herself in rachel @god pls i would be so down for a rachel 2.0. anyway aside from her shit taste in men because im calling it now she’s gonna get with brett, i think i like her. she’s probs gonna be the worst woman this season tho lol

Scottie: hello oddball man u will never be dentist johnny though. oh man this guy’s gonna be annoying as hell. he likes evel dick which...i know y’all hate him and i understand why but i’ll be damned if he isn’t one of the most iconic players. anyway im fine with that hOWEVER IDC UR A 26-YEAR-OLD VIRGIN HE JUST WANTS TO GET SOME TAIL which actually he might with kaitlyn idk. anyway pass.

Faysal: i kinda like him but idk how well he’s gonna do. once again hard to read but i see potential.

Rachel: SPEAKING OF RACHEL 2.0. AND SHE’S ACTUALLY A VEGAS PERSON OMFG. oddly enough she likes britney oh man this is great yea sorry she’s top of my list just because i really really want her to be good and she probably won’t be bUT

Chris: gotta disagree that derrick is better than paul but aside from that i mean. he’s kinda right wrt paul? like would i say top 5? ...probably not but paul WAS a good player. a shitty person but a good player. do i think he was “robbed” of the half million? no dude blew up his own game TWICE he got what he deserved he’ll be okay. anyway. DUDE I ALWAYS WANTED TO BRING A NOTEBOOK IN THE HOUSE TOO BLESS. okay yea no i like him i think he’ll be underestimated and tbh i really wanna see him go far.

[oppatxtme]

Christian Yu: What’s On Sight (7)

CHRISTIAN YU x READER x JAY PARK

Chapter 1 // Chapter 2 // Chapter 3 // Chapter 4 // Chapter 5 // Chapter 6 // Chapter 7  // Chapter 8    

WARNING:  Read @ Your Own Risk

A/N: (Nhaks lakas maka-A/N HAHA!) Finally able to post this. Yeah, it took longer than expected, but here it is and so please do enjoy!

Also, just keep in mind that English is not my native language so there might be some spelling and grammar error. Sorry for my lack of talent and I promise to work hard on this. Thank you and please enjoy. Any feedback is well loved. <3

"Are you sure you'll be fine here?"

  "Of course! I'm not a child Y/N." He answered while his busy setting up his laptop on the desk in your room.

  He looked at you when you just quietly watching him.

  "What? I know I'm handsome but I think you should be somewhere else right now?" You just laugh. "You know Y/N, as much as I want you to just stand there and watch me all day -"

"Ugh! I can't! We have a meeting first thing today."

  "That's what you keep saying, but why you're just standing there? You said you'll be late awhile ago."

  You checked your wristwatch and saw that you only have 15 minutes left before your scheduled meeting with your Bosses.

  "Shoot! I need to go." You panicked and looked around for your backpack. Yes, backpack not some handbag or shoulder bag that usually office lady have.

  "That's what you said 30 minutes ago baby Y/N." He laughs.

  But you froze. It's not because you felt delighted about his laugh. It was because of the pet name he called you.

  You looked at him. 'What happened to 'Love'?'

  "Baby? Baby your face. Call me that one more time and you are out of my house."

  "Oh!.." He said surprised on what you said. "Why? Too cheesy for you to handle? It's not as if that's how your ex called each other."

  "No. It's not cheesy, more like corny." You said while you double check your bag.

  "Whatever you romance killer."

  "I'm going. If you need anything just call me using the phone in the living room since you can't use your mobile internationally."

  He leaves what he was doing and walked you on the way to the door.

  You sit down to put your shoes on. And he watched you carefully, thinking that him staying there at your place is not so bad after all.

  "There's some food left in the fridge and some numbers of my fave takeout. My address is already registered once you called using my telephone, so you'll just need to confirm it. And by that, I already put notes of my exact Address just in case."

  You are done putting your shoes on. And stand up to face the man who you're not so sure if he is man enough when you leave him alone in your apartment.

  He is your responsibility. So as much as possible you want to stick around and work at home. But you have a meeting that's been scheduled ahead so you can't let Jamie seat in for you.

  "Are you listening Yu?" You gave him the knowing look because he still doesn't respond and he totally looked like in the middle of daydreaming.

 "Yah!" He reacted when you kicked him in his knee.

  "That's what you get when you are ignoring me." You stick out your tongue at him, not sorry for him at all.

  "I heard you. Don't worry. As if I've never been alone in an apartment Y/N. What do you take me for, a kid?"

  "To be honest? Yeah. So do me a favor, and don’t burn my apartment down. Call me if you need anything at all. Okay?"

  "Ara - Arasseo!" He comes closer. You thought he will hug or kiss you, so you stand still and closed your eyes.

  "What are you doing? Is something wrong?"

  You open your eyes. And you saw a worried face of Christian.

  "Nothing." You turn around immediately. You feel that your face is all red because of the embarrassment. 'Assume much Y/N?'

  You didn't know that Christian knew what you are waiting for, but decide he played you a bit because for him you are the cutest and it's his for you to miss him even more.

  "You sure? I thought you're sick or something because you turned red all of a sudden."

  "Whatever! Bye!" You opened the door and about to step out when Christian holds you in your arm.

  "Not so fast there Love. You're not going anywhere without the proper way." He smirked and leaned closer.

  Afraid to make yourself embarrassed again, you let your eyes wide open. And oh, you shouldn't have and just closed it when you have got the chance.

  He kissed you on your forehead, on the tip of your nose and finally his lips settled in yours.

  It's a light kiss. That you wished it would last longer.

  "That's how it should be Love. So see yeah later, Love. Now go!" And he pushed you off your apartment. And he smiled at you while he closed the door in your face.

  When you realized what just happen, you about to rant the door. But your mobile rang.

  You pulled it inside your bag pocket. And saw Jamie is calling you.

  You gave the peephole of your apartment a dead gaze thinking that Christian is watching you there. But then you slide to answer Jamie’s call while you headed towards the elevator.

  "Oh, I'm already on my way. Could you stall them for 15 minutes more?"

  "Sure. No problem to that since they're still not in the building as well."

  "Well, that's odd. Did you asked for follow-up?"

  "I did, and they confirmed that the meeting will proceed as scheduled."

  "Ah, okay then. Maybe they'll be there once I arrive or else I'm gonna go home immediately."

  "Well, I doubt that’s gonna happen, Madam."

  "Why?"

 "I called you because Mr. Park is here and waiting in your office."

  "What is he doing there? Tell him I can't accommodate him because of the meeting. Tell him it’s gonna be a long one."

  When you got in your car, you threw your backpack in the passenger seat.

  "I already told him all the possible thing Y/N, he just said that he's willing to wait." She heard you sigh as you tried to drive your car out of the parking of your building. "Didn't he tell you that he is coming?"

  "No. I blocked him last night."

  "Well, great. That explains why he's here early in the morning."

  "What do you expect? He keeps on calling me last night. And I am with Christian. Haaaish!"

  Jamie murmurs something but you lost interest to ask her what is it.

  "Just let him wait. I'll be there in a while anyway."

  "Okay, Madam."

  And you ended the call.

  "I guess that would be all Gentlemen and Ladies." Said by your Big Boss. "So Ms. Y/L/N, when are you gonna tell us about the big news?"

  You stop gathering the file of papers in front of you to look at him since you notice the stares of the people inside the conference room.

  "I mean, we heard that you're engaged or getting engaged? Is it not?" He asked when he saw the confused look in your face.

  'Could it be Jamie? Nah ~'

  Then your eyes landed to the lady next to him. Joy.

  And as if she felt your dead stare, she just smiles as if she didn't know anything.

  'Imma kill her one time.'

  "Ms. Y/L/N?" Your boss called you again.

  "Yes-?" You responded surprised. But he takes that 'yes' as yes in his question.

  "So, is he that gentleman waiting in your office at this moment?" He asked while giving you that teasing look. "I heard that he is big in the entertainment industry. Is that true? Is that why you want to quit your job here to be with him?"

  This is why you called this company as shitty shit. The company is so well off and stable that there’s no more trill. So, the people have this tendency to gossip at each other nonstop.

  And the worst part is that your Boss, instead of putting an end to this kind of entertainment he enjoys it. And he fished for more. Just for that showbiz like a parade.

  "Well," You lost your words. It was like your brain stop functioning and can't find the right words to disagree and argue that what he said is all wrong.

  The other people inside the conference room didn't wait for you to answer. They gather up around you and saying there congratulators and shaking your hand.

  You smiled. Confuse is written all over your face.

  Before you enter your office, Jamie gave you that teasing smile.

  And you can't react because your damn Boss decided to tag himself with you to great your 'Husband-to-Be'.

  So you just move your lips trying to say without a sound the words "You're dead!" and she gets it since she looked away.

  The moment you open the door to enter your office, his ever manly scent welcomed you.

  Nothing to complain though, it smells good and all suited for Jay Park. But the thing is, besides the fact that it can make you smell like one.

  You knew well that he uses the same perfume even before. Burberry Weekend. And it just brings you memories that way berried.

  You saw him seating in front of your table.

  He stands up when he saw you, and by the looks of his face, irritations are written all over.

  In your mind, you want to smile just to tease him even more. Because you knew he will be mad, because you not only blocked him all night, you made him wait for almost 3 hours in your office.

  Since you asked Jamie to bring your stuff needed for the meeting in the conference, so you don't need to see him first thing in the morning.

  'Serves you right dutch Park.'

  He's about to say something crazy but paused when he saw a big man followed you. Your damn Big Boss.

  So he just stands there and waits for you to come near him.

  And the moment you’re in his reach, he does his move that you didn't expect.

  He leans at you for a half embrace and a peck in your chick. 'Oh yea, you forgot that he is Jay Park. The king of suave moves.'

  After that, you smiled awkwardly. You didn't expect him to do that. You brought back from your senses when your Boss cleared his throat.

  "Oh right, Jay this is the COO of our company. Sir, he is Jay Park my fr-" You failed to say the word FRIEND when your boss cut you off.

  "Your fiancé. We know. And I want to welcome you in our humble layer, Mr. Park." He offered his hand for a handshake that Jay warmly accepts. Showing his million dollar smile.

  You rolled your eyes. You can't believe that your boss cut you off when you had a chance to correct everything that he thought about you and Jay.

  Jay just accepts it. And if you correct it again, what mess are you making Y/N?

  "Pleasure to finally meet you, Sir," Jay said.

  "The pleasure is all mine. Let's sit." As your boss lead the way to your couch on the edge side of your office. "Jamie, be a good girl and make us a cup of coffee?" He asked Jay, and he totally ignores your presence.

  "Hmm, Sir?" You tried to caught his attention because you just stand there not believing on what’s happening.

  "What are you doing there Y/N?"

   'Ah, so it's now on the first name basis Sir?'

  "Sit beside him. Let's chat a little. I really want to know the story of you both." And he looked at Jay and totally ignoring you.

  You looked at Jay, and you can see that he is enjoying the attention.

  "I still can't believe that someone can really tame Y/N here." Your boss laughs, Jay laugh and you rolled your eyes.

  It's almost 15 minutes pass and your Boss throw all this question, knowing Jay's background, work and something more like where did you two meet and know each other.

  You are not sure what to say, but Jay answers it all like it was nothing. Though his answer is mostly based on the past. Making it seems that you've been in a relationship for almost 7 years and just decided that its time to tie the knot.

  Now that you notice it, you are somewhat in kind of showbiz or variety show with all the question your boss is throwing. No wonder Jay is like a pro with this.

  "Actually Sir," Jay is saying something but you cut him off to make them notice you. And now both of them are looking at you.

  Jay shifted his body to looked at you properly even though he is just seating at your right side and in the same couch while your boss is at the single one.

  You clear your throat.

  "Jay and I are not engaged, so it would be best if this issue or news would not go around the company." After saying that in one blow, you release a sigh of relieve.

  "What are you saying Y/N?" Your boss is now confused and looking at you and Jay.

  You are thinking of what to say next when Jay beat you again.

  "Y/N is right sir. This issue is not good if being spread all around especially here in her workplace."

  You can't believe that you and Jay are on the same page for the first time. So you just nod when he looked at you waiting for your reaction.

  'I guess he is not that hopeless after all.'

  "Since that nothing is been published yet. I mean, Y/N and I still need to keep this as a secret to protect her from harmful rumors. You may know my line of work is unpredictable that I really want to protect Y/Ns privacy as much as possible. That’s until we can publish this in the right time and way."

  He is still looking at your boss may be reading his reaction. But he moves his left hand and put it on your right thigh and press it a little.

  You knew what he was trying to say. He wants you to shut up and let him handle this.

  Now you take all you thought back. This man is hopeless.

  "I understand." Your boss finally answered. "Don't worry, the management will deal with this. Since we are all professional here."

  'Yea right,' You wanted to say but you just rolled your eyes.

  "That would be appreciated, Sir," Jay said with a light bow gesture.

  "Well, I won't keep both of you any longer since it looks like you two need to discuss something." Your boss stands up and fixes his suit.

  Jay followed and you as well, even though you're still in a blank.

  "No worries Sir, anytime. It's really a pleasure to talk to you." And he handed his hand for a shake. And your boss willingly accepts it.

  "Y/N, since the meeting is done and the plan is still in the process, you can take your half day. So that you and Mr. Park here can have time privately." He leaves without waiting for your response.

  And in just that, you are now alone with Jay.

  Being alone that you and Christian are trying to avoid.

  You're brought back to your senses when you heard a knock on your door, it was Jamie.

  And you find Jay sitting in the seat on the front side of your table.

  You signal Jamie to come in, as you walk to be seated in your chair.

  "Oppa, I assumed you already knew my assistant Jamie Smith. Jamie, Jay."

  Jay stands up to offer a handshake and Jamie accept it with all smiles she can offer. And you knew with that smile, she is giggling inside her mind.

  "Just Jamie, Jay?" Jay said. And you looked at him.

  "What?"

  "Nothing, I thought fiancé is already next to my name whenever you introduce me. Like earlier." He is teasing you. It’s all over his face.

  But you knew better than to argue with his 4-year-old mentality. So you ignore his existence and focus to Jamie.

  "What is that?" You asked her as she is holding a few folders.

  "It's the minutes for your meeting and some papers need to sign to resume the process of the new theme that been discuss inside." She said while she handed you the folders.

  You notice that she can't keep her eye at you when she is standing in front of Jay who is busy on his phone to even give a care for her.

  "Is that all?" You asked her, somewhat irritated on the way she is acting

  "Yes, Madam. After that, the boss said you are clear to go."

  "Fuck!" You blurred out that Jamie and Jay got surprised. It was too much, you hate the idea that your boss is treating you differently because of Jay. Well, that’s how you see it.

  "Hey baby girl, language?" He said, eyeing you that you’re not alone and he doesn't really mind but since Jamie is there so he is embarrassed for you?

  "Shut up." You said as you side-eyed him.

  Jamie walked out and make sure to shut the door because she can sense that a storm is about to hit your office.

  "What?" Jay looked at the door making sure it was close. "What's up with you Y/N? I know that you blocked my number and I don't know why. And now you're acting like a bitch."

  You tried your best to ignore his mere existence and the fact that he said the B word at you.

  "Whatever. I will wait for you till you finish that and so we can talk." He surrenders.

  "Talk."

  "What?"

  "I said talk. If you have something to talk about then tell me, here." You said without looking at him.

  Jay can sense that arguing with you will lead him to no good. He just sighs and just goes with it.

  "Why did you blocked me?"

  "Why are you calling me?" You said without looking at him.

  You didn't see how his eyebrow raised, 'Oh is this a Q2Q game.' He thought.

  "Where are you when you answered my call yesterday?"

  "Why you want to know?"

  "Who is that guy you're with?"

  You paused in signing the papers and looked at him.

  "I'm not deaf Y/N, even in that short time I heard. And it's a damn man's laugh. Who was it?"

  "Why do you care?"

  He sighs.

  "Does your father know who he was then?"

  "Why should he?" You return your focus on signing the papers.

  "Then that leads me to just ask him myself, right?"

  And like every time, he wins.

  "What do you want Park? I mean, seriously what are you getting out of all of this fucked up mess? Money? Fame? Does what you have now still isn't enough?"

  You said while setting the papers aside and just holding your sign pen as if your life hold in it.

  Jay tried to hide the fact that what you said to him hurt him like you just stab him in his chest.

  "Is that what you really think of me Y/N? Is it that hard to accept that maybe," he leans his both arms in your table to face you properly. "Maybe that after all these years I am still in love with you?"

  "Don't play with me Park. We both know that that's not what this is." You lean your back in your seat because you can't handle how close Jay looked at you. "What we had was all in the past, it ended 7 years ago. So let it be."

  "You're right that what we had is all in the past now, but we both know that it didn't end like what you are saying here Y/N."

  "Oppa.. it's old history." You closed your eyes and massage your temple. "There's no need to bring the past now." You looked at him, "What I want to know is why did you agree to my father’s terms? I want to know so I can really understand you. Because if this shit continues, I am sorry Jay but I will really start hating you."

  It's his turn to lean back.

  He was looking at the ceiling as if he was searching what he will say there.

  That gives you time to study him.

  He looked as if he didn't age a bit. He still looked the same. Though somehow he is much thinner than the fluffy yet masculine Jay you knew before.  He really matured, and he matured in a really damn fine way.

  And the fact that his height hasn't changed as well, your height is the same so you didn’t care, but compared to someone you know.. he defined as 'Tiny'.

  "I'm hungry."

  "Huh?" You got confused because you didn't expect him to say that.

  "I said, I AM HUNGRY."

  "Haaaaish!" You side eyed him and just continue reading the papers you set aside.

  "I will tell you everything," He caught your attention again.

  "Over brunch." Then he showed you his pure million dollar smile with matching puppy eyes?

  You almost cursed when he still remembers your weakness.

  "Seriously Jay? Now?" You gesture him that you are working. "You can just go and come back once you're done."

  "No way. I can tell that if I do that, you'll not be here when I come back."

  You didn't respond because he was right.

  "Just sign that damn papers and let's go." He said as he took out his mobile again.

  "And who said I'll go eat with you?"

  "Damn woman, can't you get it that I'm hungry and don't worry I'll be paying so just finish that shit and let's get going." He saw that you didn't like how he talked to you. "Please?" And he was saved by his puppy eyes again.

  "If you want me to finish quickly, then stop barking all the time."

  He is about to say something, but he holds it in because he was really hungry to argue more.

  What you didn't knew was that he hasn't eaten anything since last night. And he is really pissed at you and about to question you first thing you enter to your office.

  But seeing you in one piece and fine, he forgets all that.

  In the end, you agree to come with Jay to eat somewhere. Since he promised that he will tell you everything you wanted to know.

  "Jamie, I'll be back after he fills himself. Try to finish everything before I came back. You need to accompany me somewhere." You're not looking at her since you’re looking for your phone in your bag.

  "Okay Madam." She said while looking at Jay behind you.

  Jay was holding a phone that she knew was yours. She tried to poke you to get your attention. Because Jay is currently scrolling thru your notifications.

  "What?" You asked Jamie irritated. And he points Jay that still busy checking your phone.

  Your eyes almost pop out when you realize he has your phone. You immediately grab it from him. You will say something when you check first on what he saw in your notifications.

  It was messages from Christian, Dabin and Cream. But mostly it was from Christian. Even though his name in your contacts was Barom, you knew Jay wasn't a fool to not figure it out.

  You looked at him. Don't know what to say.

  "I guess I am not the only one who needs to tell everything here baby girl." He smirked and walks ahead of you.

 Both of you settled to eat in a restaurant near your office, and since it was almost lunchtime, the place is packed. The only vacant table was outside of the said restaurant.

  Jay didn't want the idea of seeing in a public place with you, but something pops up in his head so he just goes along.

  For you, it was troublesome if both of you went far since you need to come back in your office for Jamie.

  As the both of you waiting for your orders to arrive. You busy yourself on checking your phone.

  You already message Christian that you will talk to Jay so that all of you can talk. But you didn't mention that you are with him already.

  Jay looked at you. He took out his phone and message someone. And he can't believe that he will do such measure just to have you.

  "So, who is this Barom?"

  He said, interrupting you when you are about to reply for Christian who informs you that he mistook your garlic powder as brown sugar that he put in his coffee.

  You didn't know how to respond. You knew the fact that Jay already crossed works with Christian as DPR Visuals and CEO.

  "Barom...well, I only knew one Dabin and assumingly Cream is one of the producers from DPR. So that gives," You swallow hard because he is damn right.

  "Yea," You cut him off, "Barom is the DPR Visuals and CEO, Christian Yu." You looked at him to see how he will react.

  But he just nodded continuously while his lips turned in one line.

  By that, you knew he wants to say something more but he is holding it in.

  "Okay. Before I asked anything else, let's go to the main reason first."

  You've been taken aback from how Jay response, so for once you agreed to him.

  "Why did I agreed to your father is your question right?"

  You nod, but somehow you felt uncomfortable because on how he looks at you as if it wasn't the same Jay you're with a while ago. He feels like someone you never knew in the body of Jay. But you tried to ignore that.

  "Don't get me wrong Y/N, but your father offered me things that hard to refuse. Being the owner of a real-estate and hotel mogul - business, connections and all is just a piece of cake for him. But still, believe me, or not. I refuse his offers. More than once." You just looked at him.

  "But shit happens Y/N. It was unexpected." He said breaking the eye contact you have while he was talking.

  "Why? What happen?" You asked him as you lean in the table. Curiosity took over you.

  He tightens his hold in his cap, then put both his arms in the table.

  "How can I put this so that you can understand it." He seems troubled. And it made you too worried.

  "Just tell me, trust me." You assured him as you hold his one hand.

  "You see, you know about my new record label right?"

  "Yeah, H1HGRMUSIC right.." And he nods.

  "The thing was, in the different company. I had one person who manages and advised on everything financially. He was good at what he does. But what I don't understand is that a few months after me and Chase deposit our additional investment for H1HGRMUSIC account. He just disappeared, along with all the money deposit in both company." You felt that his hand squeezed yours.

  You don't know what to say because that news surprised you. You never knew such things do happens and with Jay.

  "Both companies are struggling Y/N. We tried to fix this shit internally. Since AOMG is known, all we need to do is make our artist sign more offers and shit. But still, it wasn't enough. And H1HGRMUSIC is in way worst condition. Since we need to release their albums before the end of the year."

  "I understand." He didn't need to continue. You know how hard it was for him. And it was wrong to question him any longer.

  "Believe it or not Y/N, I am still the same Jay you knew 7 years ago. The same Jay that drives to work hard not for myself but for the people around me who needs me. And believe me, as the day pass by, it has grown bigger. So I just can't."

  "Sssssh.." You hushed him. Because if he continues, you can't handle a teary Jay since you're already holding your own tears not to fall.

  "So, how much did my old man offered you?" You asked, trying to lighten the atmosphere between you.

  "I only want what I needed to keep my two company running, but your old man gave me more than that." Jay looked at you in the eye. "He said that he was just investing for her daughter, YOUR future and it was not a debt that needed to be paid since I'm gonna be your husband and what I own will be yours as well."

  "I still have an iffy feeling about the whole idea, because I accept his offer without even knowing who his daughter was."

  "What? You are saying that you didn't know that I was his daughter?"

  "Yes, whoever it was, I accepted the fact that I have to do it. So when your old man asked me to come here in Dubai to finally put things in action. And when he showed me your picture before we went to your office the other day. I don't know if it’s wrong for me to feel or even say this but I was relief Y/N. Relief, happy and there's even a time that I thank God that he let shit happens just to lead me to you."

  Jay looked at you in the eyes deeply, as if he is trying to see what you're thinking. So you closed your eyes afraid of what he might see. By that, a tear escape from your eyes.

  You opened your eyes when you felt his warm hands touch your cheeks to wipe the trail of the tear.

  You just watch him you tried to blinked your eyes just to make you see clearer or more likely bring your brain working again.

  And the next thing you knew is Jay holding both of your hands and he was about to kiss the back of your hands.

  Everything around you was turned to a slow-motion mode. And by that, your mind is saying to you to pull your hands before his lips landed on them.

  But your damn body is taking its time to move accordingly. And you felt that your heart is going to explode in the anticipating on what about to happen.

  And just like that, you closed your eyes and when you open everything went back to normal and Jay already kissed the back of your hand and now sincerely looking to your eyes.

  You've just betrayed by your own body and feelings. And what's worst is the fact that somehow you knew you betrayed Christian.

  Jay let go of your hands when the waiter arrived to serve your lunch.

  You busied yourself in it. Trying to forget what just happened.

  Jay knew what you are doing so he shrugged it but the smirked in his face never disappear.

  When the waiter leaves. Jay caught your attention by clearing his throat. So you looked at him while you set the table napkin to your lap.

  "So, before I continue on talking about my shit. I want to know who is Christian to you." And he looked away to start eating what's on his plate.

  You inhaled and tried to relax. You tilted your head to the side when you questioned yourself on why are you getting nervous all of a sudden.

  "Well," You start as you focused on your food. "I met him during my college community tour for the homeless in Seoul. His agency is part of that community service as well. We stayed connected since then."

  "Lucky guy." You looked at him. "Well, it’s true. He was lucky to have that consistent connection with you. For me though, I don't have such luck."

  He brought the past again. You just shooked your head and ignore what he said.

  "So, he's just a friend?" Jay asked.

  "No. He's currently my boyfriend."

  "Since when?"

  "Seriously? Why do you care." Inside you don't want him to know that your relationship with Christian has been clear just yesterday.

  "Don't give me that look, Babe, I just want to know where I stand here. I bet your father didn't know about your relationship with him. Cause if he does, I wouldn't be here having dates with you."

  "What date?" You're surprised that Jay just declares this as a date with him. But as you looked at him, he just shrugged. "Haaaish. You are right. I didn't formally introduce Christian to them. That's because he's been busy with his work. But now that he's here and have some time to spare, I will introduce him."

  "Really now, did you think of how your father will react to this?"

  "I don't know. Do I look like I care?" You tried your best to looked according to what you are saying for him to believe you.

  "Well, I do." He said it with authority that you can't help but look at him.

  You see him all serious. Looking at you that like you just said some bad joke.

  "I thought you understand why I agreed to your father Y/N. I was wrong to even believe that you can really get what I was trying to say for you to understand me from the beginning. I thought you are better than this Y/N."

  "I am."

  You thought to really introduce Christian to your parents. Even though the feelings you have for Christian is all new, and if that is even enough of a reason for you to marry him then you will accept it.

  Rather than to be with someone who's someone your father is set up with you by money.

  Jay shooked his head with disbelief.

  "Look, Oppa, I really do. You need the money. That is why we're here in the first place. All we need to do now is look for the money you need for your company. So you would not have any obligation to my father." You said as if it was easy than one plus one.

  "Okay, let’s go with what you’re saying here." Jay continues eating, "Yes, I am rather being force than obligated with this shit." You felt some kind of a pain in your chest when you heard him say that.

  "And yes money is the main factor here, money that I don't have but your father have and already provided me a long time ago." He stops eating to look at you seriously. "Meaning, I already used the money Y/N. What's left is just the quarter of it."

   "How much are we talking about here?" You asked. But you sooner to regret.

  "He gave me one billion fucking US dollars."

  You drop the spoon you're holding and your mouth wide open. You can't even believe that your father is ready to release such big amount of money just to give it to the man he chooses to be your handsome.

  'Oh wait, business this is all about.You thought. No wonder. Money and you are just an investment for him.

  "And you only have now is just the quarter?"

  Jay didn't answer.

  "Fuck Jay, that's a lot."

  "What do you expect? I have two companies that need to keep running."

  You drank in one shot the glass of wine that the waiter made sure that was full.

  "Give me a year and so." He said all of a sudden.

  "What?" Still, drown with the wine you drink, you face Jay with a total of confusion.

  "Let’s get married for just a year. By then, I'm sure I have the money to pay your Dad."

  He said it while looking at you. And you can read in his eyes that he is begging for you to agree with him. He is asking your help, not for him but for his company and for the people whose relying on it.

  This is too much for you. The effect of the wine and the hot temperature in Dubai is not helping at all.

  "To tell you honestly Oppa, I am willing to give you all the help you need. But I am with Christian now. And I can't really say anything about this without him." You manage to say.

  "Do you really want to help me Y/N?" Again with that eyes of him.

  "Of course Oppa." You said with all honesty.

  "Then I'm sure Christian will understand. That is if what the both you have is real." He said as if it’s a given fact.

  You failed to say anything and just watched him finish his meal.

  You poured more wine into your glass. And drink it bottomless. Hoping that all the thoughts running in your head will be washed along with it.

Chapter 1 // Chapter 2 // Chapter 3 // Chapter 4 // Chapter 5 // Chapter 6 // Chapter 7  // Chapter 8  

A/N: I really troll Christians IG and I didn’t imagine that he really went to Dubai just last year. Oh well. I hope you guys excuse my trolling him and putting some of it here. HAHAHA

 what do you think about this chapter? Talk to me, don’t be shy. I won’t bite. Have a good day/night everyone!

Y/N Portrayer in collage is @Mari_jasmmn  ~ check her out in IG (GIRL CRUSH)