#and she is the reason I cried thrice yesterday

[apprenticestanheight]

reblogging this every single time I think “I don’t wanna go to work tomorrow” and “I don’t wanna be at work today” and pitting why in the tags. it’ll start tn and go through my shift tomorrow bc between meals I have a fair bit of downtime and simply don’t care if they catch me on the cameras because, at most, they have me for another three paychecks if A, the contract extends and B, I don’t have enough for a new laptop saved come the end of the month

[im-getting-better-i-swear]

so yesterday i went to the dentist to get like 3 cavities filled, and i fucking hate going to the dentist. but i thought this time would be better bc they’d be putting me under for the operation.

i was wrong.

so i wasn’t supposed to eat anything for four hours before the appointment, given that my appointment was scheduled for 8:40 am and i usually wake up at 8:30 am, this wasn’t a big deal. so i wake up a bit earlier than usual to get dressed and wait for my stepmom to pick me up and then she drives me there and we wait for my turn.

you know when it was my turn?

it was my turn at 11:45

i’m fucking hungry at this point, and hunger makes me anxious, and the dentist makes me anxious, so i’m hella fucking anxious.

by the time they take me back i have already cried twice. they take me back and get me hooked up to a machine that beeps at me and periodically takes my blood pressure. and then they leave me there for like 20 minutes.

i cry thrice more while waiting for them to return.

they return, they put me on laughing gas and it makes me dizzy and nauseous and i start to panic. they don’t notice for far too long because they’re putting in an IV.

the IV was put in without them telling me they were putting it in. this contributed to the panic.

they eventually notice i’m panicking and turn down the laughing gas. they then leave. again.

this time they return much faster and with someone who clearly has more experience and knows how to handle an anxious patient. he compliments my oswald the lucky rabbit pin and talks me through it as he administers the sedative through my IV.

i wake up panicked and crying, i don’t remember much from this part but my stepmom was there and the my usual dentist was too. he talked to me but i don’t remember what he said. something about how i woke up before they finished, he gave another sedative.

i woke up again, although i don’t remember it. i think i was crying. the first thing i really remember is being in the car again, i had grapes that the people at dentists office gave me, i think i had a banana before then too.

anyway i remember being at a mcdonald’s drive-through, i was gonna get a smoothie but all they had was a strawberry banana smoothie and i’m allergic to strawberry. and for some reason they didn’t have shakes either, so i got some fries instead.

and then i was at home, and then i cried again.

i hadn’t had any water at all, all day. i was so fucking dehydrated.

[my-socialdiary]

Behind His Mask

Words Count: 1973

Pairing: Childe x Lumine

Warning: it contains intense fighting scenes, blood

Here we go again, an angsty fanfiction about Childe and Lumine. For these past days I’ve been CONSUMED by this pairing and all I can think is that writing angsty story for them just becauseeeeee. And again, english is not my first language so bear with me >_< enjoy! 

***

He pushed them, they went away. It’s fair. It’s how things should be done. 

He also pushed her. He pushed her so badly, he even did wicked; he lied, he betrayed her, he even broke her faith in him. He showed her his bad side. 

Yet, 

She stayed. She smiled. She put up with everything he did. 

She’s too good to be true. She’s too perfect for someone like him.

She’s…

Unreal.

Lumine knows sooner or later, she needs to confront her biggest enemy in this quest given by Zhongli. Her enemy, he is someone who is now carving the biggest scar in her life, pushing her away because of the perspective that has been given to him, made him believe that he’s wicked. 

Yes, dozens of times, she wanted to run away from him but she just couldn't do that. Somehow, deep down in her heart, she wants to believe… in him. 

And today, she’s trying to not let her faith be shaken while she’s seeing Childe一now finally一standing in front of her, showing her that he’s her enemy she needs to beat in order to complete the quest. 

“Well… what do we have here?” His voice sounds different. It’s not the voice of Childe she knows. “Finally, the time has come. I don’t need to explain anything, don’t I? Let’s just start the battle, then.” As he was saying that, he forms a water blade each in his hands. The sound of water along with the groans of the whale. 

“No. I want an explanation.”

“No. You don’t need one,” he said. “You’ve already seen the facts but you just want to believe in your own thoughts and opinions.” Childe walks forward, he lifts up his right hand and makes a slashing move towards Lumine. 

All she needs is just one second. She dodge her way and try to balance herself while aiming her right hand forward, palm facing directly to Childe, ready to cast palm vortex. She’s shocked by Childe’s sudden movement, but she tries to calm herself. She’s now looking at him, and trying to convince herself that this is still the man she knows. But all she sees is that the warm smile is now replaced by a cold, distant smile. “You have no idea who I am, do you?” His eyes were cold and lifeless. There’s anger, rage and… guilt. “Why are you holding back?” He asks with his husky voice. He raised up his eyebrow and gave her a smirk. 

“I demand an explanation, Childe,” meanwhile, she takes her sword from her back. “Now.”

“I told you since we first met,” He is now moving again and striking her with his blade, twice. Which makes her now tossed to the side, dealing high damage to her body. Pain creeped up through her palm, making her unable to cast anything except fight him with her sword. “I am a bad guy. But you don’t believe.” Before Childe can do anything, she gathered up her stamina and stood up then ran to the center of the Golden House. 

“The truth is, I was just going to aggressively ignore that part until it goes away,” she said. Suddenly, a burst of wind fills up this space. Soon enough Childe sees a hurricane come right towards him, but he doesn’t have enough time to escape from it. The pain it caused is not high enough to stop him so as soon as he freed himself from the grasp of the hurricane, he took out his bow and shot her with six consecutive water arrows. Her body is now marked with Riptide Blast which deals more damage to her body. 

“That’s definitely not going to work!” He shouted. He now changes himself into his delusion, which is an electro and casts his homing attack. A purple-ish ring of electricity appears around her body. Before it can deal anymore damage, she runs and attacks him with her sword, once, twice, thrice. Cancelling his moves. 

Childe seems tough but now she’s sure that she’s dealing enough damage to him. And that makes her heart ache. But she is still attacking him, half of it represents her anger towards Childe. I hate you. You hurt me. I want to kill you so badly. The tears burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down her face. She feels the muscles of her arms tremble like a small child caught stealing those delicious fried radish balls. Her walls, the walls that hold her up all this time just… collapsed. Ruined. Destroyed. 

Her sword is making clanging sound when it met with Childe’s water blade as he tries to defend himself. With her endless attack, she is now slowly pushing Childe to the wall. I can't stop... I can't stop. Why can I not stop crying? She thinks to herself. Her vision is blurry, but she still can see expressions Childe makes. Eventually, she now pinned him to the wall. Panting, she stopped attacking and now looked at him. Her right hand holding a sword pointed to his throat, ready to slit it while her left arm held him in his chest. “All this time… you made me feel so many… emotions,” she muttered between her breath. “I was sad, confused and angry… but I couldn’t understand why,” She pressed her sword gradually into his throat. “But why does it have to be you? Why, Childe, why?” She just broke down. The sobs bursted out, ripping through her throat, muscles, and guts. 

She didn’t care anymore. All she wants is just to stop this nonsense, go back in time and choose not to follow him after he saved her from the Millelith guard. She would rather not meet him. Or she would rather not come to Liyue at all. 

Next, all she knew was she dropped her sword with a trace of Childe’s blood and pressing her forehead into his chest while grabbing his armor with both hands. She cried. And cried. And cried. She can’t hold it anymore, she chooses not to. The pain came out like madness in the form of a scream. She thought if she acted like it didn’t matter, then it wouldn’t. But turns out the more she pretends, the greater pain she gets. 

“I don’t want to put up with everything you did anymore,” She whispered. 

***

Memories are the worst form of torture. 

And Childe couldn’t agree more with that. You can heal the pain from physical torture with herbs and medicine fom Bubu Pharmacy but you can’t just cut you head off to get rid of things you don’t want to remember. Even though you really want to do that. Even though that ‘thing’ is the most beautiful thing he ever experienced. The thing that he will never, ever dare to dream in his life. And that’s exactly what he feels now. 

The muffled sobs wracked against his chest. The world turned into a blur, and so did all the anger he tried to keep. Except for those damn memories. Instead of forgetting it, it keeps playing in his head, rewind itself, filling his mind with a picture of her smiles, her cheerful expression, her flowing hair, her beautiful golden eyes and conclude with the sound of her footsteps, keep coming back to him even though he pushed her away. 

Childe, I’m back! Are you feeling better now?

Childe, I hope you don’t mind if I come back here. 

Childe, let’s go! You won’t think I’ll leave you here alone, will you?

Childe, I was being too pushy yesterday, wasn’t I? Sorry, I’ll try my best not to do it again if you don’t like it. 

Childe…!

Childe!

...Childe!

He tries to shrug that off. He doesn’t want to remember anything at all. 

Childe looks down where he sees her bleeding head, probably from one of his attacks. That girl is still burying her face in his chest, clutching his clothes, begging him to stop all of this, while he tried so hard to not lift up both his arms and bring her to his embrace. The sound of her footsteps played again. Stop coming back. Just… stop. I didn’t deserve you. His head now swarms with new formed-regrets. 

“I regret a lot of things,” he finally opens his mouth. The heaviness was in his limbs as much as his throat. He sounded tired. “Having this kind of conversation tops the list.” He pushed Lumine from himself just to see her face, now red and wet because of tears. He tried to look away but his eyes were stubborn. “Now let’s finish this game and一”

“Is this a game to you?” 

“It’s nothing more than a game with reward,” He forms the electric polearm. Ready to fight her. He’s bleeding, but he doesn’t care. “You should’ve slit my throat. Now I won’t give you another chance.” As he said that, the mask that he keeps on his hair flies over to cover his face entirely. His mind is now consumed and so all of his action. The anger form in a mask is now a safe haven to protect him from the regrets. With this anger, now he can freely do anything he wants. With this anger, his fear of hurting someone he cherishes is now gone.  

“I give you the chance to kill me, but you don’t,” With the mask on, his voice has now changed drastically. “This is what cost you for thinking that I can be tricked by your actions!” That gravelly voice is now filling up the entire Golden House, making it tremble a little. Without hesitation, he comes towards the weaponless Lumine and attacks her with his electric polearm. He didn't mind electrifying, slashing and stabbing her with his weapon. Lumine tried nothing to defend herself, she’s now beaten, smacked, thumped and all of her body is screaming with ache but she keeps doing nothing. Because she knows; nothing is matter for him right now. He had been titled Eleventh of The Fatui Harbingers for a reason. 

Behind his mask, it pained him to let out all of his attacks to her yet soon enough… a little bit more energy in a form of purple flash and waves combined into one deadly attack should be enough to kill her, giving him a sense of satisfaction amongst agony to end all of this. 

Childe is now casting his final spell when suddenly a burst of wind blows away his mask, exposing his rough face. At that time, his eyes locked to Lumine who is now strengthless, her eyes are half closed, and she’s bleeding everywhere. It was Lumine who blew the wind for the last time and made him realize what he did to her.

“Do… it…” She said under her breath. 

“No…” The anger is now gone, his emotions are back, his eyes now filled with fear, anxiety and guilt. He threw his polearm and kneel beside the girl who did nothing but good things to him. “What did I do… No…Lumine, no…” He has seen so many deaths, he never truly cried. But now, he’s unable to speak, unable to breath. The world around him becomes darker. The weight in his chest locks in his throats. A token of sorrow and misery. He bawls and screams, and that is more than crying. It sounded like a desolate weeping that comes from a person drowned in the sea of regrets. His tears mingled with the rain outside Golden House which suddenly showered the entire Liyue and his gasping wails echoed around that place. 

“Childe一” She whispered, and coughed a little bit. 

“All this time,” he cuts her sentence. His voice is now trembling with agony. “Why are you doing that?”

“Doing… what?”

“Treating me…” He sobs, again. “Like a person.”

She smiles. “Because you are.”

[ertrunkenerwassergeist]

Born Into the Wilds - Snippet

This chapter is already 8 pages long and still not finished XD

Hhhmmm, what to choose...

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“I would have loved to see their faces though,” Libertus suddenly said, jarring Nyx out of his thoughts.

“What?”

“With the fire-ash. I would have loved to see the Insomnian's faces when it suddenly grew up from under the streets.”

Crowe gave an amused snort. “Probably as dumb as yours was.”

“Hey! You weren't a paragon of serenity either, so you have no room to comment.”

The two glared at each other until Crowe huffed and rolled her eyes good naturedly. “Yeah, whatever.”

By now they had all seen the newsreels about it. Interviews with upset pedestrians and citizens that their beautiful city had been blighted by a blessing of Ifrit. But on moogle net there were quite a few people voicing their interest in learning more about this. Especially young people. It was strangely heartening in a way.

Nyx looked out his window at the large form of the fire-ash peeking out from behind the buildings. It's crown had grown around the main street of Insomnia and the Founder's Plaza along with a few other places. It looked like round islands of bronze and green in all the grey. Currently there were concerns flying around about how much light the lower districts were getting now with the tree blocking out much more of the sun than the buildings already had, but Nyx could already tell that somehow they now had even more light and that the air had become cleaner.

“You think the sinehär gisdrauhti will declare it a sacred sight?” Pelna asked no one in particular.

“Don't think so,” Crowe answered. “They would never declare something of Astral making sacred. Also, it's at a too inconvenient a place to set up a sacred sight. I give it until noon today at most until the children are climbing all over it.”

“No bet,” Libertus snorted, amused.

The sudden ringing from a phone made them all twitch. Libertus gave a quiet slew of curses and fished his phone out of his pocket, it's screen lit up and emitting a series of semi-melodic high pitched jingles. He answered in Lucian.

“Yeah? Ostium speaking. - Wait, how did you get your hands on this number? - Yeah, okay stop. What did you call me for? - Know what, get yourself over here and we'll talk about our training sessions. - Of course that's alright. Why wouldn't you be able to come down here? We didn't shut us off from the rest of the city, you know.” Libertus sighed and rolled his eyes before giving out the address for Nyx' apartment. “You know how to find it? - Good. See you in an hour then. And don't be late.”

“Did you just invite the Amicitia kid for food?” Nyx asked with a raised eyebrow.

Libertus stared down at his phone like he couldn't believe he had just done that. Suddenly, Nyx grinned.

“Admit it. The kid grew on you.”

His hunting-brother scowled and shoved Nyx in the shoulder. “Shut it, you.”

“But you don't deny it,” Nyx singsonged and ducked out of the way of the kitchen towel sailing his way.

Someone clapped their hands together to gain their attention. It was Crowe.

“Okay, playtime is over. If we want to eat at a reasonable time today, we need to start to clean up. No getting out of it Luche! Don't think I didn't see you try to sneak away. You can help Libertus in the kitchen.”

The bond's expression did not change eve a little bit as he walked over to the kitchenette, where Libertus had finally started to sort through the bags. As always, he had bought at least thrice as much as should be needed.

Nyx turned back towards his bed and started to resort the loose papers into their proper binders, all carefully labelled for easy manoeuvring. It was done relatively quickly, so after he was done, he went to help Crowe, who just shooed him away. So he just shrugged, turned the TV louder and retreated into a corner to mix some limeschti after his Clan's recipe.

“... live from the Founder's Plaza.”

“Thank you, Lucius. I'm here at the Founder's Plaza where you can see the very top of the fire-ash. It appeared yesterday precisely at high noon, causing a minor accident on the Insomnia Main Street and surprising the pedestrians here,” a female reporter in a muted green military styled blazer spoke into a microphone.

“They still harping on about that?” Libertus wondered out loud. “That's old news already!”

“Not for Insomnians,” Luche said. “You know they love to regurgitate things like that again and again, until no one wants to hear it anymore.”

“Thank you. And that was Julia Videte, life on-site. And now please welcome in our studio renown biologist Doctor Sania Yeagre. Thank you for coming, Doctor.”

The screen showed a woman in her early to mid thirties with dark skin and black, curly hair done into a bun on top of her head. Large glasses framed eyes that glinted with a childish enthusiasm rarely seen in adults.

“The pleasure is all mine,” she said, a bright smile on her face.

“What can you tell us about the general attributes of a fire-ash?”

“The Fraxinus Ifriti, commonly known as fire-ash, belongs to the olive family. Since the fall of Solheim this tree has become exceedingly rare, for a few centuries it was even considered extinct until they found a living specimen during the construction of the Tomb of the Fierce on Mt. Ravatogh. It also is the slowest growing tree on Eos, with barely half a centimetre per year. Studies also showed that its sap could be used as a strong curative.”

“Can I infer from the scientific name, that there is a connection to the Infernian?”

“No shit,” Libertus muttered, causing Nyx to snort.

Sania Yeagre, not at all perturbed by the leading question, nodded enthusiastically. “Yes! In some of the earliest botanical works we have today, it is listed as a symbol of Ifrit's blessing. Which is why the tree must have been very common during the existence of the Empire of Solheim. It is depicted in near every work of art we have left of that time.”

“Then the fire-ash that spontaneously sprouted from Little Galahd, can be seen as a sign of the Infernian blessing the Galahdian people?”

“I imagine so. This is a very rare opportunity. I returned to Insomnia as soon as I heard of the fire-ash's existence. Hopefully the Galahdian leader will let me study it.”

Nyx shared a look with Pelna, who had also finished cleaning up his papers. He stood by the door, papers and laptop crammed under one arm.

“I'll be back soon. Just need to put these away and get Tethys, Moireus and the girls. We'll also bring another table and some chairs. There's no way we'll fit all at this tiny thing you call your dining table, Nyx.”

“Hey. I haven't needed a bigger one until now.”

“Time to get a new one, then,” Pelna teased and slipped through the door.

Nyx scowled after him while Crowe and Libertus snickered and Luche's lips ticked up into a grin. A knock came from the open doorway. There stood Athina, her hand raised and a smile on her face. She looked gorgeous in the dark red tunic dress with a wide cream cloth belt.

“Athina!” Nyx exclaimed, surprised and joyous. “Come in. Can I offer you some tea?”

“Good day, Nyx. Thank you, that would be very appreciated,” she smiled.

She stepped into the apartment and towards the table that looked like nothing had changed for the last ten minutes. Still papers were everywhere but woe to the person who wanted to help Crowe clean up her mess.

“Can I help you? Four hands are faster then two,” Athina asked the other woman.

Nyx was about to open his mouth to tell the dark skinned woman that it was hopeless to ask, when Crowe squinted at her and nodded after a few seconds of staring, which Athina bore patiently. Libertus gave him a wide eyed look. Crowe never let people help her with cleaning. Never. Athina, not knowing what had just happened, just asked their storm-sister where which papers went and started to help as per her instructions.

Very deliberately Nyx turned around and reached around Luche to fetch another tea cup. His last one, since he only owned four. He poured the last of the tea he had made earlier, and earned himself a bright smile when he set it down at a spot of now paper free table. The answering smile growing on his face was more of a flirty smirk that made Crowe roll her eyes.

Not too long after that there was a roast in the microwave oven and Libertus had gone to fetch Crowe's to put the second roast in. Because one was apparently not enough with the amount of people who were suddenly coming. Pelna returned with Tethys and the children not too long after that, bearing a foldable table and chairs along with more dishes. Nyx sent them a grateful look.

“Nyx!” Moireus cried and barrelled into his legs to give him a tight hug around the waist.

“Buhgil! How have you been? My, have you grown taller?”

Nyx tousled the boys hair, which earned him a bright, toothy smile. “I grew this much!” He held his thumb and index finger about two centimetres apart. Nyx nodded, impressed.

He looked up and gave Tethys, Ker and Dione welcoming smiles. “Thanks for coming.”

“Thanks for having us,” Tethys returned with a smile of her own.

“Don't mention it. I think Libertus' secret ambition for today is to feed the whole house with how much he bought.”

“I want to see the pretty tree!” Moireus spoke up, tugging at Nyx' trouser leg.

“You need to ask your parents that, buhgil. Maybe they'll take you tomorrow, if you're on your best behaviour this evening and go to bed without complaining.”

“I will!” the boy nodded eagerly and ran over to his mother to tell her, even though she had clearly heard every single word being spoken.

The TV was turned off and someone set up a CD player on his chest of drawers. At once a lively drumbeat filled the apartment along with their chatter and the smell of meat and steaming vegetables. It gave Nyx a sudden pang of homesickness. What would it be like to do something like this again in his Clan house? To fill it with voices and music and laughter? He hoped he would find out sometime soon.

Not long after everything was set up, the tables and chairs cramped into all the available free space, and they were just starting to set down the plates, there was another knock at the door – which, surprisingly enough, had been closed sometime during this endeavour. Nyx, who was closest, opened it.

[green-spear-of-causality]

For the OTP Drabbles Ask thing. 21- Proto-Cu and Robin Hood

- And so it begins.

I hope you enjoy, @oddnub!

21. "Jinx, you owe me a coke." *Can't speak until they buy the other a soda*

Proto Cú's Luck was as abysmal as ever.

First, he woke up and fell off the bed. After untangling himself from his blankets, he padded towards Chaldea's mess hall only to accidentally bump into Gilgamesh -- yes, the one from his older self's Grail War. The Gold Archer then proceeded to mock him, pointing out his messy hair (that was hastily put into its ponytail, give him a break it's his day off - ) as well as his clumsy footing while laughing in that condescending way of his. Proto Cú hurried around him to grab a bite to eat, only to slip in the remnants of last night's Food War and fall face-first into a pile of molding cheese. Gilgamesh howled with laughter, and Proto Cú felt his cheeks burn as he stood up and went to the sink to wash his face off.

He didn't think it could get any worse than this.

"Yo."

Proto Cú whipped his head around to see Robin Hood wave to him, the Green Archer situating himself on one of the very few untouched seats. All the others had some form of ketchup, eggs, or relish on them (Nobu knew how to utterly vandalize a place).

"Yo..." Proto Cú sighed out, wiping his face off on a dish towel. Robin's mouth quirked in amusement at seeing the Lancer's miserable face, eyebrow raised in concern.

"You look awful. What happened?"

"Goldie happened."

"Ah." Robin tilted his head towards him in sympathy, and Proto Cú felt a wave of gratitude for the Archer. Ever since they met, they hit it off almost instantly. It was similar to how his and Emiya's friendship worked, actually; the main difference was that he apparently shared a single brain cell with Robin, considering the amount of memes they casually throw at each other.

Another thing they shared was their love of pranks. Proto Cú had waited until he felt that their friendship was on a more secure level to hide Robin's cloak (it...actually smelled pretty nice) underneath Alter's mattress. He did it with permission from the Berserker, of course; he didn't have a death wish. He then got to watch with amusement as Robin sent him a withering glare for the rest of the first day, the May King scurrying around Chaldea and asking numerous Servants if they've seen his cloak. The Archer eventually found it a week later, looking like he fought four lions to get to it and flipping Proto Cú the bird once they saw each other again.

"I won't forget this," He had declared. Proto Cú remembered waving him off, too busy wheezing as he took pictures of Robin for future blackmail to really consider the implications.

And now, he wishes that he had. Proto Cú wasn't an idiot; he'd get his due eventually from him. The questions were when, and how.

Actually... Proto Cú frowned. "What are you doing up this early? You're usually walking around in another hour or so."

"Can't a Servant change their schedule up a bit?" Robin said innocuously, and immediately warning bells were ringing in Proto Cú's head. Robin prided himself on the amount of sleep he got; while Proto Cú rose with the sun, the May King waited until it was nearly all the way up in the sky to even consider moving.

Crimson eyes narrowed. "Uh-huh."

Robin snorted in laughter at his suspicion. "Nevermind that; let's eat some breakfast!"

"Like what?" Proto Cú asked as he grabbed some dish soap and a sponge, wiping down the seat next to Robin and drying it off before sitting down.

Robin looked around, stopping his search as his eyes landed on something. "Well, we'll just ask the Red Archer himself."

Proto Cú followed Robin's line of sight to the dual-wielding Archer, who scrunched his nose up at the sight of the destroyed mess hall. The Lancer lifted his hand and waved to him, calling out. "Yo, Archer! Do you know what's for breakfast?"

"I was going to try my hand at a Western-styled dish," The Counter Guardian began, making his way over to them, "But it seems that it will have to wait until a new shipment arrives. The only thing left should be the leftovers from yesterday..."

The Red Archer stepped into the kitchen, opening the fridge and pulling out a plate of dumplings. Robin and Proto Cú stared; they knew that it was enough food to fill one Servant, not two.

Silence. Then,

"Gimme that bitch!"

"You better STOP! STOOOOP!!"

Emiya grunted as the two Servants pushed each other out of the way to reach for the plate, the taller Archer holding it over his head as they jumped for it. They were arguing all the while, and slowly he was developing a headache because of it.

"Let me at least set down the goddamn plate first or so help me I'll - "

He didn't finish. He didn't need to; Robin and Proto Cú stilled, drawing back and looking at him.

They spoke in perfect unison, seeming to sing the two words. "...You're angry."

Emiya blinked. The duo locked eyes with each other, shouting in tandem. "JINX! DOUBLE JINX!"

Robin then kicked Proto Cú's shin hard, making the blue-haired Servant double over in pain. He grabbed the plate of dumplings, Emiya letting him with a sigh as he dropped back into his seat to eat.

Proto Cú could hear the smugness in his voice. "Triple jinx. You owe me a coke."

"Son of a bitch!" Proto Cú cried out, Emiya sending him The Look as Jack and Nursery Rhyme chose that time to enter the mess hall themselves. The Lancer couldn't believe that he fell for it; Robin was known for playing dirty when it was required, and he's seen him do it numerous times to their enemies.

"You know the rules." Robin sing-songed, and Proto Cú gritted his teeth. He then mimed drinking a bottle, favoring his injured shin as he all but ran out of the room.

Emiya turned to Robin, anger forgotten as curiosity took over. "Mind explaining that?"

"He's jinxed." Robin stated matter-of-factly, taking a bite out of another dumpling and humming in content. Emiya didn't even know that he liked cold dumplings. "He can't talk until he gets me a soda. Specifically, Coca-Cola."

An ominous smile stretched across his face. "Little does he know that I've hidden all of the Coca-Cola Chaldea has in the last place he'd ever think to look."

Emiya blanched. He then paled in horror, eyes wide with disbelief. "...You didn't."

Robin cackled. "I did."

"But - That's - "

"Suicide?" Robin poked a dumpling absentmindedly. "Well...he should've thought about that before stealing my cloak and putting it in Alter's room."

"This is an entirely different manner of beast we're discussing here, Robin." Emiya stressed, resting his hands on the (thankfully clean) counter. "You know what she can do, especially considering it's him - "

"He'll be fine." Robin said, a little bit too forcefully, and Emiya could see that he was trying to reassure himself. The May King grimaced, no longer finding the situation as amusing as he had beforehand.

"...He has to be."

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Goddamn smug Archer with his goddamn kicks - ! Proto Cú seethed, unable to voice his frustrations out loud as he made his way over to Da Vinci's Workshop. He couldn't believe that he fell for the oldest trick in the book; hell, he should've expected it!

He threw the door open, startling Da Vinci. The genius let out a breath, body sagging in relief.

"Oh, it's just you, Proto...I thought you were Romani for a second. What can I do for you?"

Where can I get some damn Coca-Cola? Proto Cú almost said that out loud, but he remembered Robin's smug look as he jinxed him.

He grimaced. He mimed drinking something, drawing a C in midair before Da Vinci got it.

"Oh, Coca-Cola? So Robin finally got you, didn't he?"

HE PLANNED FOR THIS?! Proto Cú wanted to scream, instead settling for throwing his hands into the air while his face contorted into some form of angered exasperation. I should've known that it was payback for the cloak...

Da Vinci giggled at his antics, looking over her work with a knowing smile. "Sorry, but I don't have any Cola here. You can wait for the new shipment to come in, if you want to; it'll come in...oh, about three months."

THAT'S THREE MONTHS TOO MANY!! Proto Cú silently groaned, burying his face in his hands. Da Vinci hummed.

"Well, try asking Romani. He's the one who keeps an eye on the shipments coming into Chaldea, and also keeps track of inventory. If anyone would know where to find some Cola, it'd be him."

Proto Cú bowed in gratitude, taking off down the hallway towards the Doctor. In his haste he almost ran over Arthur, scaring the Saber.

"Lancer! Why are you in such a rush?"

Proto Cú waved his hands around wildly, mind in disarray. Can't talk gotta go find Roman so he can tell me where the Cola is because for some reason it's gone from Da Vinci's Workshop and this is turning into some Grand Adventure -

Arthur held up a hand, making him pause. "Is this about a bet between you and Robin Hood? If it helps, I heard him in the West Wing a couple of days ago in the dead of night. I was visiting Mordred at the time, and it was late, so I was surprised to see him out and about."

The West Wing. That was where the female Servants resided, and if Robin was there, then -

Oh no. A voice, one that sounded very much like Ozpin when Hazel found him reverberated within his reference-addled mind. Robin had to have hidden the Cola as payback; that much, he was sure of.

If he was in the West Wing, then that left two options: Scáthach, or -

Don't think about the Devil lest she appear.

Proto Cú nodded his thanks, Arthur wishing him luck with a smile and a wave as he took off. He'd go to his mentor's room first; that way, if he had to die at least it'd be an honorable death. He straightened himself as he approached her door, knocking thrice.

The answer was immediate. "Come in."

Proto opened the door. His mentor sat cross-legged on her bed, braiding Fran's hair as a soft tune played in the background. The Berserker hummed along brokenly with it, a smile on her face, and Proto felt as if he was intruding on a serene moment.

Scáthach side-eyed him. "State your business."

Proto Cú inwardly sighed. Was he really prepared to embarrass himself in front of his mentor? ...It was too late to back out, anyhow. He outlined an invisible drink, spelling out C-O-L-A with his hands before stepping back and waiting for a response.

Scáthach paused in her actions, Fran continuing to hum happily. "If this is about that Green Archer, then I don't have anything of value to you. I heard him speak to Medb three days ago, though, in the dead of night."

...

It really was the Worst-Case-Scenario.

Proto Cú nodded his thanks, and turned to go. Scáthach stopped him, her words giving him pause.

"Good luck, my student. You know what you must do."

Aye. He thought miserably, gently closing the door behind him so as to not further disrupt the serenity. He had two options: either wait for the next shipment to come in, or to brave the horrors of Medb's room.

He didn't think he could stay mute for three months.

Robin's lucky that I'm not going to eviscerate him with my spear. Proto Cú manifested it just in case, tip toeing towards the Rider's room. Then again, this whole mess is my fault in the first place. I've learned my lesson.

He sucked in a breath and knocked.

Silence. He waited with bated breath, deciding to knock again. No response. He almost knocked a third time before noticing that the door was unlocked. Just as he was about to open it, movement out of the corner of his eye caught his attention.

A dust cloud was seen in the distance, seeming to grow larger with each passing second. A high pitched sound made itself known to him, becoming louder as he turned to face it.

...The hell?

He peered closer. It...actually looked like a person was running -

"CÚÚÚÚÚÚÚÚ!!!!!"

Medb.

Oh shit.

RUN!!!

Proto Cú let the fear kick his legs into overdrive, turning tail and running back the way he came. He could hear the Rider's footsteps growing closer; was she..actually catching up to him?

If you stop, you're dead. His mind helpfully supplied, making him almost let loose a string of curses. No matter how many turns he took, she was right there behind him. It was like she had a Cú Detector on hand.

I need to lose her somehow!

He was in the East Wing. Think...Think! His older Lancer counterpart yawned as he stepped out of his room, rubbing the sleep from his eyes. Perfect.

Proto Cú slapped his fellow Lancer's back as he ran by, diving behind the couch as the other stumbled. "What the - ?"

"YAYYY THERE'S ANOTHER CÚ!!" Medb's voice made the counterpart yelp and start running, leaving Proto Cú alone as he emerged from his hiding spot. He dusted himself off, sending a silent apology to his older self as he ran towards Medb's room.

It was time to end this nightmare.

--------

He'll be fine. He has to be. Robin paced back and forth in one of the break rooms, Emiya watching him out of the corner of his eye with a knowing smirk.

"Worried?"

"Shut up." He retorted, mentally berating himself for not telling Medb to go easy on him. This is the last time I let my anger get the best of me.

The door burst open. Robin's head whipped up to see Cú - not Proto, but the other Lancer version - throw himself into the room and slam the door shut behind him, locking it.

Crimson met steel. "Hide me."

"Pardon?" Emiya asked, confused. Cú gave him no time to respond; the Lancer moved around behind him and peeked over his shoulder, eyes trained on the door. Robin noticed his messy hair, strands sticking this way and that, and figured that the blue-haired Servant just woke up.

"A crazy bitch is after me." Cú whispered, eyes wide yet unmoving. "I don't care what I have to do to make it up to you; just hide me."

Emiya glanced down at him. To Robin's amazement, his face morphed into a strange expression for a split second before going back to its default. "There's a side room tucked away in the back right. Stay in there until I say otherwise."

"You are a lifesaver!" Cú breathed a sigh of relief as he went through the side door, shutting it softly behind him.

Robin stared at Emiya.

"Don't say it."

Robin stared.

"...It was spur of the moment."

Stare.

Emiya flushed in embarrassment. "It's not - "

The doorknob jiggled.

The two Archers zeroed in on it, falling silent as it rumbled more violently. The readied themselves for a battle they'd rather not have, drawing their weapons -

The knob broke as Proto Cú burst into the room, scouring it for .4 seconds before chucking something at Robin. The Green Archer yelped as the offending object hit his head, falling into his lap innocuously and resting there.

"There's your motherfuckin' Cola." Proto Cú said in exhaustion, closing the door behind him and dropping to the ground. Emiya lowered his weapons, letting them dematerialize as he let out a puff of air to relax his suddenly tense muscles.

Robin opened the Cola, taking a sip. "You're alive." He noted.

Proto Cú bristled. "Yeah, no thanks to you! I can't believe you've done this!"

The British accent made Robin chuckle. "I know, I know. Bringing in Medb was a bit much."

"A bit? A BIT?!" As Proto Cú began his (unnecessarily long) rant, Emiya gave the two a small smile. They really did act like an old married couple, didn't they?

All's well ends well, I suppose.

-------- OMAKE! --------

Fsn Cú: ...Is it safe to come out yet?

Fsn Cú: Oi! Guys? Helloooo?

Robin: Just come out of the fucking closet already

Robin: We all know you're gay for Emiya

Fsn Cú, opening the door: Okay, thanks -

Fsn Cú:

Fsn Cú: Wait -

Fsn Cú: WHAT -

[libidomechanica]

Being alone

Being alone. I grass, uncared he, the  Fate! Like the cries, dying.  Make memories, Genii, Elves bene faster,  clever languish keel the  poore Shirúehs Feet drenched to declaim,  and yawning. It of Loyal 

Peeretree snatched Patriot ever sphere. Let 

Foes, and sick of pleasant bears 

as charm in please, but found the 

most his angels, murdered  gold tourners of Proper exultation  can Crave. The was  hot, and least and is, in  Silent her gall, and in  me; that looked at thy Mind sallying: so  by there, who lies interest  whence to gr atitude a harme, stord to  be enviable Matadore, and  said: “o friends improbably  and Restore:” as sealed: he wandring fame 

to playd the old mistress 

may call asleep. (For she have fleshly  gather —how so waste, beside!  And near, yet if my deaf and  did nothing finger is  fight or colourd Robe, and that whisper, 

which hollowing  at a looks to Waters whip  on. With rose, as  his hand; whose links anotherly they both  Loues dainty,) nor down to the  proue, but we means of Aid, falls on 

yesterday who  had a man we all: their Strengths of  his being—had I love-knots Sword- knot Stonehenge answered bound, he rought blossom: a  petty doth take—and none 

act a piecd her home I and t ake a beam happy plight went and  make youth cold sabbath; and adder-bitter  of thou silent my craft of  some when should chamber teeth of  Leader of delight Marigold  of all spells with Friend bear  after firing Water 

friendly in his own; so, in  tables attention an  Appendix of melt into  thou art my Lucasia, since more  and stripped away, could reason, or selfe  doth made of Verse musket, drench Romance  would; but a torrence, and  wonderd Treat, and cauld will  be blind. In my brow like a crownd 

in Dust. —Blythe walls in their very  day-nets not love and expird, her  so, as ever mouth, by their  daunton men our annals, and  great Nemesis breaking through the  Lord, nay oft, and boatmen never saw 

her end were is no  rest; like bowed, for thy bliss assignd. 

the Priest, and prime: Why  should faild, and Noble Sounds, his part,  half to his think I might  be and nor shut one a  shake the duckling nod of  a womans Thunderground, ravish, or  the Peoples of men, the  curtain her too, Him as  freedom of law the  hornes did her, bless here we learnings  oppress bough she discerning of  zero. down and Shock me never  sad like Amazon her  mither hand all the born to  the sun; thrice she foot on 

Tweezer-Cases. These set a body: 

he hollowd, would he rolled the  affairs only lovers like a  buttondown, and smitted with  all be thirsty and he frail  such Envy as thick-leaves that  I shall grown; Sank and so show and her  ee? we are cross to  life rusty hear than you must parts ere  you may he shut eye and see as  Thou miss a Stake Physick, A hyacinth  is that have been  the nursed, the raise. drawn  to then piteous, general  Joy detain me. And hand; in  this beauty of the  sun, but long to ages  knife to see how am  I not unders ascend, while yet with  remove; that undulant  games? With your shaw; but know no 

Wrong, a beauty, bird of 

my love the yard look us at  once for ever in that, 

she smelling and her selfe-miserie, 

[andromeda3116]

tagged by @thereigning-lorelai (thank you!) to answer 85 questions about myself

last

1. drink - sauvignon blanc 2. phone call - some telemarketer about renewing my warranty, with no elaboration on what said warranty was supposedly on 3. text message - “home safe” to my friend jessy 4. song you listened to - “which witch” by florence + the machine 5. time you cried - yesterday, because i was tipsy and watching fullmetal alchemist: brotherhood

ever

6. dated someone twice - as in “gone on two dates with”? yes. as in “gotten back together after dating and then breaking up”? no. 7. kissed someone and regretted it - hoo boy 8. been cheated on - no 9. lost someone special - has anyone not? 10. been depressed - i have spent a significant portion of my life depressed 11. gotten drunk and thrown up - a few times, although at least two of them were because of what i had eaten while drinking rather than just too much alcohol

fave colours

12. sage green 13. cobalt 14. wine-red

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes. 16. fallen out of love - no. 17. laughed until you cried - i’m sure 18. found out someone was talking about you - i mean, not for sure, but i would be absolutely floored if my gossipy coworkers hadn’t 19. met someone who changed you - i don’t think so? 20. found out who your friends are - yeah, that happened years ago 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - i haven’t kissed anyone, period, in the last year, facebook or otherwise

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - most of them 23. do you have any pets - a lab/pit mix (i think) and two cats, one who is aggressively affectionate and the other who’s an asshole 24. do you want to change your name - i used to, but i got over it 25. what did you do for your last birthday - i got lasik surgery 26. what time did you wake up today - around 6 AM but i fell back asleep around 9 27. what were you doing at midnight last night - sleeping 28. what is something you can’t wait for - my tax return, holy crap 30. what are you listening to right now - steady rain coming down, which is soothing, and also the steady dripping in the back room from the leak in there, which is less so 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - i used to work for one. 0/10 do not recommend 32. something thats getting on your nerves - that steady dripping, for one 33. most visited website - tumblr 34. hair colour - dark brown. 35. long or short hair - pixie cut 36. do you have a crush on someone - like, in real life? no. buncha celebrities, though 37. what do you like about yourself - i like my appearance, mostly 38. want any piercings - no more than the ones i already have in my ears 39. blood type - o positive 40. nicknames - my supervisor calls me tinkerbell because of my hair, but otherwise no 41. relationship status - single 42. zodiac - aries 43. pronouns - she/her 44. fave tv shows - i have this nasty habit of starting a show, loving it, and then just like... never watching any more of it. i’ve done this with b99, parks and rec, the office, the good place, orphan black, among many others. fave shows i’ve actually finished would include the aforementioned fma, one day at a time (although i haven’t seen s2 yet), the planet earth and cosmos series (if they count)............. 45. tattoos - one, a phoenix on my right ankle 46. right or left handed - right 47. ever had surgery - thrice, all minor outpatient 48. piercings - only two piercings each in my ears 49. sport - hohohohohohoho......... no. 53. drinking - probably still more than i should, but much less than i used to. i tend to gravitate toward wine now, rather than hard liquor as in the past 54. i’m about to watch - ...probably some more fma 55. waiting for - the world to turn, mostly 56. want - to get back into school within the next year or two 57. get married - eh. if i find the right person, but i’m not chomping at the bit. 58. career - for sure.

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - hugs 60. lips or eyes - eyes 61. shorter or taller - taller 62. older or younger - older 63. nice arms or stomach - arms 64. hookup or relationship - relationship 65. troublemaker or hesitant - my girlish fantasies say troublemaker, my coward-ass adult personality who has no patience for that sort of thing says hesitant

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - no 67. drank hard liquor - yes 68. lost glasses - psh, all the time. once my dog chewed them up. 69. turned someone down - plenty of times 70. sex on first date - no, but it’s not, like, out of the question. just haven’t before. 71. broken someones heart - unfortunately, yes 72. had your heart broken - ...sort of. 73. been arrested - no, but i have had to ride in the back of a police car to the station, because one guy in the group was getting arrested, but because i was underage, they had to release me to my parents, only i was four and a half hours away from my parents.... it was A Thing. 74. cried when someone died - do enough people answer no to this for it to even be a reasonable question? 75. fallen for a friend - not really

do you believe in

76. yourself - *shrug* 77. miracles - if anything can be called miraculous, everything is. 78. love at first sight - no; infatuation which may develop into lasting love, however, yes 79. santa claus - is there anyone old enough to use this site who would answer yes to this? 80. kiss on a first date - sure 81. angels - no

other

82. best friend’s name - i have several really good friends, not really a single “best” friend 83. eye colour - grayish-green 84. fave movie - it changes. i saw thor: ragnarok in theaters three times, though, so i’m gonna go with that 85. fave actor - same with the movie thing, it just kinda depends on what i’m currently obsessed with. i will say that i have watched a *lot* of bad movies in my time because of how paul bettany charmed me in a knight’s tale, so there is that

i’m gonna tag... @seserakh, @mechanical-orange, @raisindeatre, @ohbeeone, @firefeufuego, and @peaceheather

[itsnotsammy]

HEY HEY HEY ALL OF THE QUESTIONS!!!

get in my business (aka GODDAMIT CAIT)

1. The meaning behind my url: It’s Sam, not Sammy. Only Dean calls Sammy Sammy.2. A picture of me: I’m too shy for that. As soon as I get a nice pic, I’ll be showing ya.3. How many tattoos i have and what they are: I have 4 tattoos. One is a triskele, a celtic symbol, one is a quote from a song I enjoy, one is a Sherlock/Moriarty anagram and one is the Kindreds’ mask.4. Last time i cried and why: Last night watching some episode of Supernatural. I’ll let you guys decide which one.5. Piercings i have: None. Not a piercing fan.

6. Favorite band: At this moment, Poets of the Fall7. Biggest turn offs: If a person is rude to someone for no reasons at all, it just irks me right there. Don’t be rude, people. Be nice. And also, really bad grammar here in Brazil. Just. Don’t.8. Top 5 (insert subject): no subject, no top 5. Bye Cait.9. Tattoos i want: I have a list under my bed. Let me get it.10. Biggest turn ons: Being kind and sweet and soft like Sam Puppy Winchester. That wins everything else.11. Age: 23, turning 24 in June12. Ideas of a perfect date: At home. Don’t take me out of home. We can do things inside.13. Life goal: Meet Jared Padalecki and give him a nice hug if he wants.14. Piercings i want: Nah.15. Relationship status: S-s-single16. Favorite movie: Ugh too many choices!! I love movies so bad! But I’d need to pick one, it’d be Lord of the Rings.17. A fact about my life: I had sex with my cousin more than once. The same one I almost got killed when we were kids. He’s damn hot nowadays.18. Phobia: Clowns. Seriously.19. Middle name: Elliot20. Height: 5′4″21. Are you a virgin? Nope.22. What’s your shoe size? 9/1023. What’s your sexual orientation? Gay af24. Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs? I used to smoke once or twice during the week, but I’ve stopped months ago. I enjoy drinking, tho.25. Someone you miss: My self esteem.26. What’s one thing you regret? Not being Jared’s husbando.27. First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive: Did I ever mention Jared Padalecki? Oh well, there you go.28. Favorite ice cream? Chocolate.29. One insecurity: 30. What my last text message says: dAMMIT CAIT31. Have you ever taken a picture naked? Yes, but never posted it.32. Have you ever painted your room? Yes.33. Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex? Of course.34. Have you ever slept naked? Nah.35. Have you ever danced in front of your mirror? Yep.36. Have you ever had a crush? Definitely.37. Have you ever been dumped? I can’t really remember.38. Have you ever stole money from a friend? I think not...39. Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes. I’m this stupid.40. Have you ever been in a fist fight? No, but it looks fun.41. Have you ever snuck out of your house? Never needed to. Grandma is nice. “Hey grandma, I’m going out to sell some drugs!” “Sure, just take your coat, it’s cold outside.”42. Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? No.43. Have you ever been arrested? Never.44. Have you ever made out with a stranger? Yes.45. Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yep.46. Have you ever left your house without telling your parents? Yea.47. Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor? Nah.48. Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun? Thrice a week, at least. Good days.49. Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yep.50. Have you ever seen someone die? Nope.51. Have you ever been on a plane? No, but I’d like to!52. Have you ever kissed a picture? Obviously.53. Have you ever slept in until 3? Every sunday.54. Have you ever love someone or miss someone right now? No, not really.55. Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? I think I used to do it when I was a kid.56. Have you ever made a snow angel? It doesn’t snow here in Brazil!! Gah!57. Have you ever played dress up? Yep.58. Have you ever cheated while playing a game? Hahahahahhaa. Of course. I’m a sore loser.59. Have you ever been lonely? 24/7 tbh60. Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school? Y e s61. Have you ever been to a club? Nope.62. Have you ever felt an earthquake? Once. Scariest shit ever.63. Have you ever touched a snake? Yes! And it was so cool!!!64. Have you ever ran a red light? I don’t drive.65. Have you ever been suspended from school? I don’t think so?66. Have you ever had detention? Nope.67. Have you ever been in a car accident? No.68. Have you ever hated the way you look? Every. Fucking. Day.69. Have you ever witnessed a crime? Yes, but I did nothing because the guy had a gun and I’m a chicken.70. Have you ever pole danced? No, but I’d like to!71. Have you ever been lost? Yes, and it’s not fun ;-;72. Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country? Not yet, but I intend to!73. Have you ever felt like dying? A few times during the week, yea.74. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? Yes. Too many times to care.75. Have you ever sang karaoke? Yesss76. Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? Yes. I’m terrible at keeping promises.77. Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? YES!78. Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger? Nah. Never.79. Have you ever kissed in the rain? Nop.80. Have you ever sang in the shower? Everyday! I love to sing in the shower!81. Have you ever made out in a park? Yes.82. Have you ever dream that you married someone? Not my thing, no.83. Have you ever glued your hand to something? No, but my grandma did and it was so funny I couldn’t stop laughing for like half an hour. It sounds cruel but the old woman is fierce and scary af, dudes. Don’t trust an old woman. She can do things.84. Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? Nope.85. Have you ever ever gone to school partially naked? Nop.86. Have you ever been a cheerleader? No, never. Please no. Not my thing.87. Have you ever sat on a roof top? No, but I’d love to.88. Have you ever brush your teeth? Obviously.89. Have you ever ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Nah. I enjoy horror movies.90. Have you ever played chicken?91. Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes, those damn motherfuckers...92. Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger? Nah, never. I dress like a homeless old man when I go out.93. Have you ever broken a bone? Yes, not fun.94. Have you ever been easily amused? Yeeees95. Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? Yes!96. Have you ever mooned/flashed someone? Nah.97. Have you ever cheated on a test? Did it yesterday.98. Have you ever forgotten someone’s name? I do it daily. I just work dealing with too many people.99. Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real? Yessss100. Have you ever give us one thing about you that no one knows. Yes! I trust Tumblr more than I trust my relatives, hah.

[purplesurveys]

95

Are you and the last person you kissed in a relationship or just friends?  We’re dating, yay. What was the worst night of your life, or the night you have been scared the most? I’ve had lots of bad nights brought on by anxiety and sadness, but the worst one I can think of was the night I had a particularly bad argument with my mom and I had to call my girlfriend while heaving and having a difficult time composing myself. I had bad, scary thoughts that evening but luckily I slept it off. Which do you prefer a kiss or hug?  I could use a big hug right now. Are you missing someone?  Always. Do you want to say something to someone? Not really, no. If I wanted to I probably said it already.

Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? I do, LOL. We were such babies. I told Gab to wait till midnight because I didn’t want my first kiss ever to fall on the date of my middle school enemy’s birthday. SO MATURE (I would still totally do the same thing today.) Why did you last smile? I heard my dog walking into the room and thought he looked precious. Are you afraid of falling in love? I remember feeling that when I was going through it, yeah. I guess it was mostly fright from being confused, if what I felt was legitimate, being uncertain if the other feels the same, that kind. Do you judge other people by the bands they like? Just for a split second, but then I realize it doesn’t matter. Ever wanted something, got it, and then no longer wanted it? This is me about material stuff, never a person.  Do you tell people what they want to hear? Partly, yes. I can be blunt too though. Do you wake up easily in the morning, or do you like to sleep in? It’s not difficult for me to wake up, and I never sleep in successfully regardless of how tired I am. Have you been to an Emergency Room in the past three months? Nope. I don’t go to the hospital a lot in the first place. Do you like music? I do. There has to be something on all the time save for when I’m working. Where do you wish you could hop on a plane and vacation to right now?  INDIA. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? Countless times; I threw out the tally a look time ago. Are you a shy person or outgoing? Very shy. I said ‘no’ when my blockmates invited me for brunch yesterday because I had 'a presentation to prepare for.’ I was perfectly free that time. Would you go to California? Probably not. My depression has something to do with my aversion to the place, so I’m likely to end up avoiding it. What’s something you really want right now? For my papers to finish themselves. Anything you are looking forward to? Friday. How is your heart? An overasked question. It’s fine, a little anxious for the week but nothing too heavy. The last person you held hands with go to your school? She doesn’t, she’s a few kilometers and a traffic jam away. I don’t mind the distance, although the people in Gab’s school are all shallow, pretentious, spoiled snobs so that’s always an issue whenever I drive there to hang out or pick her up. Let’s test your memory, what were you wearing during your last kiss? I had on a loose black tank top and black skinny jeans. Did anything bad happen to you in August? The only bad thing I remember happening was dropping my phone, which cracked my entire screen. Have you given somebody more second chances than you can count? No. Has anyone ever pointed out that your laugh was unusual? I can’t recall being told such, no. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? Of course, but not all the time for everybody. Would you get a lip piercing? I used to want to, but I hate the thought of any sharp thing hitting my skin. So maybe not, but I’m bummed about it. Nose piercing? ^   Did you sleep alone last night? Yes, as with every night. Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous? It’s terribly easy to annoy me, so yes. The last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them? More than I can count. Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? There’s no room for that; I’ve got a whole school day tomorrow. Is tomorrow going to be a good day? Nothing particularly remarkable going on, no. My Thursdays are spent alone and is usually the quietest day of my week. Someone knocks on your window at 2 am? I’d wrap myself in a blanket and refuse to look out till the morning comes, tbh. Is there someone that knows how to make you smile? Yeah, fortunately it’s very easy to make me smile. :) If you could seek revenge on someone would you? Not right now. What are you currently waiting for? I’m dreading my journalism class on Friday and I’m waiting for THAT to end as early as now. Do you think you’re wasting your time on the person you like? Not at all! Everything’s going perfectly with her. Is anything bothering you right now? A little bit. Everything related to my journalism classes are bothering me at the moment. I skipped my class today just because I had to, and I have a news report due on Friday that we aren’t 100% done with yet. Do you even KNOW how to do the laundry? I don’t, I’m so lame. I’ll have to learn it soon. Would you date an 18 year old at the age you are now? No, no age differences for me. Have any memories that you like to forget? There is a whole bunch of them. What do you bite more, your tongue, lip, or cheek? Like, accidentally? My lip. Do you love anyone at all? I love a lot of people, yes. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? Gab. Would you ever change for anyone? If it was something bad and it’s already doing harm to the relationship, then I’d obviously put in some effort to try and change that. But if it’s neither, then there’s no reason to change and I’m certainly not going to convert to be something else to please somebody. Do you think your ex has moved on and is happier with another person? She’s since learned from her mistake and is in a better relationship with me than the first time. Is “because I was drunk” a good enough excuse for you? Fuck no, don’t give me that. Where is the most romantic place to kiss someone, in your opinion? Maybe at a ledge overlooking a lake or bay. Or in an empty field while having a picnic. Or a planetarium, I don’t really know. Who did you last lay in bed with? My dog. When you were fourteen, what was your favorite song? What Happened? by H2O. Do you repeat yourself often and not realize it? I do, but seldom realize it. I tell people stories and then just have them tell me I’ve told the same story to them thrice already. What are things you couldn’t live without? A dog around the house, good fluffy doughnuts, and my phone. Would you rather be blind or deaf? Deaf, but this is quite a dumb question altogether. What three places in the world do you want to travel to? Chicago, Thailand, India. Do you have feelings for anyone? Yesssssss. What’s the last show you watched? I caught RAW on the rare occasion I watched TV an hour ago. Have you ever experienced being in love? Yeah. 10 year old me would be shook. How long ago did you hug someone? Last night. It had been a long, bittersweet hug. Have you ever run over an animal? Never. I would take that very badly :( Have you ever watched a movie in another language? Other than a language I’m already fluent in that isn’t English? Yes. Have you ever experienced an airport hug? No, but that’s lowkey in my bucketlist. I think it’s sweet. When are you most likely to say something you don’t mean? When I’m sad, or ‘in the void’ as I call it. Do you want an ex back? I did, so I took care of it. Have you chewed gum after someone else already has? No? What color are your nails? They aren’t painted. These surveys should know I never paint my nails by now. Have you ever found yourself worrying about commitment? Never, actually. It never came to mind. Who was the last girl you had a conversation with? Gab. Have you ever slept a whole day away? Some weekends, yes. But this is only when I was incredibly busy the previous day; my body never allows me to sleep for a long time. Have you ever been called heartless? By my own mother, yup. Have you ever smoked a cigarette? Never. When people sneeze do you say ‘bless you’? Nope. I never understood why. I also refrain from saying it because my grandfather who passed recently used to tell me that whenever I sneezed. It would be too much of an emotional trigger if I picked up the phrase. If you could spend 1 hour, 20 years in the future, would you? YES. Are you dating the last person you talked to? No, Agatha’s my blockmate.