#and she got mad at me for staying overnight at my bfs place

[kitaava]

my mom is a fucking monster and i hate her so much

[tiredpaledoll]

WIEIAD blog ⋆ ˚｡

-boring day, almond grandma (???, and Kee learning to use Tumblr.

I started the day early with a glass of water before everything.

Today I breakfast overnight oats w pb (cuz I hadn't any fruit TT) and ofc black coffee.

In the morning I did nothing I spent time scrolling while drunk water and anything more.

For lunch I had a delicious soup of veggies and a lil of chicken my grandma made.

I trust a lot in her food cuz she's like a almond grandma? But weird, cuz if I no eat she got mad and if I eat a lot she doesn't got mad but look at mi with the "THAT'S BAD!! U FUCK3D!!" eyes, u know, I just feel it.

I think she's 0πth0re×1c cuz also she have a condition that don't let her consume yodo. (She is SO thin like bmi 18)

So her food is so clean but delicious, my f favorite food in the whole world, she doesn't eat prossesed foods, it's too carefull with her meals and she fast too but naturaly.

One thing I notice abt her it's she always eat the same. Her meals every day are the same and clean thing, some days she changes foods 2 times a week, and the most important thing it's that she just eat ONE time a month a food that she likes and it's high calorie.

All of this she made it as naturally routine. I have respect to her.

Well and start fast then that, It's a safe space to n0t dinn3r.

I don't work out again, I have no dumbbells anymore but I will do something for it, and did 17.5k steps.

I went to the mall and bought diet coke while everyone was eating ice cream I felt Bella Hadid lol, I love that my family respect my decisions abt food, at least.

Idk how many water I drink today but enough I guess.

Short, boring, looks like my life being w/o my bf, I want to make my days with him, everyday, forever, in any place where's not my home, I'm tired of here. (Ewww love and feelings sorry)

BUT NOT EVERYTHING IS BAD I HAVE A NEW CUTE BOWL MY GRANDMA BOUGHT ME. TT

I'll show u all soon, but today I had no time to take pictures :(

Stay safe and drink water, see y'all tmrw!!!

[hsdro]

“ FaithxHope Pt4 ”

Here’s to the girl who suddenly enjoys reading to whatever I have on show on my Tumblr. She have finally learnt how to have patience to read. I fancied sleeping but keeping your girls happy is essential.

Quick cut to the chase. I can officially say that I belong to the most hottest chick in school. It certainly turned some heads. Well not some but probably a whole lot of them. We were like an amazing pair of Beyonce and Jay Z. Recess, we walked in a pair. She distressed how lessons have been tough on her. She was hard on her brains back then. Furthermore we had similar bags. A black leather one. No one knew how hard she went in to get autonomously high grades besides myself. She was smart, intelligient. I like it that way because it brings out the confidence in her. That makes her sexy. Attractively sexy. We stayed back till the late hours of the evening to study as she emphasized so much on the importance of grades. I didn’t do fantastically great for my end of year. Passed but my old man always said “always be the first and note anything other than that is last” . In this part there isnt much amusement or humour as compared to the previous parts. As we go on we realised the basic fundamentals being in a relationship. It was a massive and uphill task. After school hours I would send her back to her place. What was still fresh in my head was when I fetched her early on in the morning at 620 in the morning. God she has always been punctual. BUT NOW RABAK BRO 1 HOUR TO SIAP 1 HOUR++ AFTER APPT THEN COME. We will use the same route bypassing the legendary Padang Ahmad to the crossing of the junction at Northpoint. One very fine and yet miserable day. We were seated at a table in the canteen. It was just the both of us eventually. Then I received a phone call from a very close friend, Ahmad S. He told me he wanted to meet up. What I did not expect was my ex gf, Amirah or Myra Ke'Ai came into the picture. I told Shafiqah that I was heading home to get some rest for tomorrow. Apparently I decided to be a lil bit Degil alright. I went over to get a better glimspe of what was going on . Unfortunately the person whom I do not wished to see on our wedding appeared out of nowhere. She was Shafiqah’s public enemy number 1. Amirah popped out of no where and pointed out she needed some help. Indeed being the nice kunji that I am I offered a helping hand. Shafiqah on the other hand was watching me closely. She blew her top so bad that Lake Toba had to postpone its eruption. That was when Amirah led me to Ahmad S. . I couldn’t understand which part of help she needed. Worst she sat on my lap and Shafiqah couldn’t help to ring me up. Amirah snatched the phone away from my grasp and had a prolonged conversation on the phone. It was only till late evening that day I realised the younger of the two ladies told Shafiqah to fuck off and don’t mess with what that belongs to her. This message that was put across to her was not broadcasted until I found it out in 2014. Embarrassing ain’t it ? Because why ? KENTAL BRO GADUH BECAUSE OF BF/GF. Back in school I was labelled as a cheat. How heartaching that was when all I wanted was to offer a so called helping hand. Me and Shafiqah were not in talking terms for about almost a year after that incident. It was our 1 year’s anniversary. As much as I can I tried not to sound shallow. I dropped her a text saying that I still love her and that we should relax and let nature take its course. You wouldn’t believe what she replied me. “ …… I wanna see how long you can last in this r/s …” . It didn’t take long to undestand that she was ready to drop this. I was in complete disarray because at the point of time I knew I was already fighting a losing battle. After all the embarrassment I put myself through I didn’t expect things to end abruptly. We lived through the days in school away from one another. Her friends thought I was a general cheater. Overnight I gained and unlocked the title as the school’s badass. Thought along the way througout our days in YTSS we still talked to each other. We'd put up texts like telling each other how much we ve missed all those moments together. But we both knew we weren’t ready for the plot. Her O Levels was looming over the horizon. Throughout her stress I was there for her, but most of the time virtually. I walked past the hall upstairs on her Results Day. Never knew I thought she d jumped on me to express how happy she was when she got her results. Then again she was leaving me again.. on to another level. Her tertiary years were mad. She picked up this nightlife habit in an instant. Something I never liked, something I disapproved. But I told her its up to you, its about time we walk into the unknown and let us walk independently. I cringed as I let her go. It was time for me to move on. Pain was what I felt throughout my final year in YTSS. I missed the sight of her in school, her distinct voice was a thing from the past. I never really shared my issues with anyone except my cousin Shafiq although he was still a kid in his head back then. But he’d still listen to me anyway. Along the way I have met girls from different neighbouring schools. Northbrooks and Northland was the most prominent ones. In the end I got myself hitched by Ain with this girl from Northbrooks. To be honest I never really fancied that. I was still in love with Shafiqah. TAHU KENTAL TAPI BENAR. Anyway Ain knew how much I needed to move on. And so she tried to explore ways and avenues to help me out. Stay tuned to another Part of the painful life of Hirman and Shafiqah in FaithxHope.