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The redacted doodles pt3 are done!!
(but this time more as bust shots instead of head shots)
Here ya go
@the-stars-that-line-the-sky @morgansplace @everything-redacted-and-others @deezbignutz @vampiriceclipse
#freelancer was so rushed I'm sorry#and sam is bugging me AGAIN#also samuel is spelled incorrectly on purpose before someone starts riding my ass#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redactedverse#redacted caelum#redacted damien#redacted sam collins#redacted guy#redacted freelancer#redacted fanart#hmrhd arts
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My housemate is moving out in January
She told us this a week or two ago, when she sat down and, after sitting with us watching TV for over an hour, said "hey so I bought a house and I'm moving out. We agreed on 2 months notice so I won't move until the end of January."
The last time she talked in the immediate terms about buying a house was in 2021, when the sale she was working on fell though and she was unemployed so it was a "when I'm back in a position to look I'll start looking again." Since then I've occasionally asked her how she's doing on the house buying front and she's been like "oh I'm getting there financially" but hasn't mentioned anything concrete.
She didn't tell us she was looking at places. She didn't tell us she had put in an offer. She told us when the offer was finalised. A week AFTER she emailed the letting agent about getting out of her part of the lease. And, it increasingly feels like, only because the letting agent's response was that we had to agree to change the lease.
The letting agent's response (which our housemate obviously didn't copy us into; we had to follow up separately and they copied us into the email chain) also includes that when we change the lease, they're empowered to change the rent, quote, "no cap". Rent was already going up in January - there's no possibility of Sam and I paying her share of the rent.
The really fucking upsetting thing is we're not strangers. This isn't a casual "housemate we found on flatshare" thing. She and Sam have lived together literally their entire adult lives. Me and her have known each other well over a decade. I lived in her and Sam's flat when I was homeless. We were the first people she came out to as trans. We're not super close but I thought we were fucking friends. And she's literally gone out of her way to not talk to us about this for what must have been months while the sale completed - which means she's lied to my face at least once cause I've asked her about her finances in that time (cause she's in a job she hates that she only took to get the house money, so it's like. when we've been commiserating about work stuff I'm often asking 'are you almost free?'). she literally went out of her way to talk to the letting agents before talking to us about putting us in a situation where we could lose our fucking home.
And she keeps. trying. to pretend nothing's happened. Every time I've seen her since then she's not mentioned anything or apologised or anything, she just keeps chatting away and offering hugs and fistbumps like nothing's happened. Like we're still fucking friends.
All it would take for us to still be friends and to be happy for her would have been one fucking sentence in the groupchat like "hey, just put an offer in on a house" or "I'm looking at properties, just so you know, that might happen in the next few months". Like nobody begrudges her for buying a house! It's very cool for her! She's 31 she's worked really hard to get the money I would love to be happy for her! Unfortunately she decided avoiding conflict is more important than giving the people she fucking LIVES WITH (who btw fronted her a month on the rent here while she was unemployed and agreed to take on a larger proportion of the move-in cost back in 2021, if we're still holding ourselves to shit we said 2.5 years ago), so no, you are not entitled to our friendship or to going back to normal.
like if she'd been honest with us it would have been something to process but we'd have had time to figure out our next steps. instead she's left us in a position where we have to find a new roommate before she gives her one month notice, which means finding someone by the end of December, which oh look that's the middle of the fucking Christmas holidays. and she didn't tell us anything until the START of December, or copy us into her conversation with the letting agent, meaning we still don't know what the rent on that space will be so we aren't yet in a position to advertise it. Has she offered to help find a roommate? Has she fuck. Has she offered to help out by moving her move-out date? Nah, she's moving as soon as she gets the keys because, quote, "that means her finances won't have to change". SOUNDS LOVELY. NOT HAVING YOUR FINANCES SUDDENLY CHANGE. I THINK THAT SOUNDS LIKE A REALLY REASONABLE FUCKING GOAL.
Thirteen fucking years she's lived with Sam. Four fucking weeks over Christmas she's left us to figure out a way to not turbofuck our living situation. And she's got the fucking nerve to try and pretend we should be interacting like nothing's changed. Jesus Christ. What a fucking unhinged way to treat...anybody, honestly. never mind the friends-your-entire-adult-life part. literally cannot imagine a scenario in which I would buy a house without telling the people I lived with.
(haha actually this is what my parents divorced over so apparently it's not unusual. although at least my dad had the decency to tell the woman he shared finances with at the point he put in an offer not the point the fucking sale went through.)
Like we'll be fine. It's a huge city centre flat with decent rent and queer housemates, hopefully even when the rent goes up it'll be an easy sell in a city with a huge housing shortage and big queer community. We've got a couple of people interested already, sight unseen - worst case scenario we have to live with someone we don't get on with. And it's given Sam and me a push to look at our own finances and as of today, we've got a mortgage decision in principle and can start looking at flats in the area - mind, we'll be transparent upfront and tell any prospective housemates that yeah, we're looking to buy and move out in the next 6-12 months, and we'll tell them if we put an offer in, because we're decent fucking people who aren't going to spring that on someone out of the blue.
But it's been I think 2 weeks and I'm so fucking angry I could spit. It's such a fucking betrayal. And frankly you know selfishly like. I just had a breakup a couple of months ago, I'm in the middle of moving jobs, both me and Sam have a history of housing instability and this has been the first decent, stable, safe, not-mouldy not-freezing home I think any of us have had, and this is so fucking triggering and upscuttling I could just start biting. like I was talking to my friend about it last week and it's just like. Can I have One Fucking Thing of the three main tentpoles of survival - home, work, relationships - that are fucking stable right now? because shit has been In Flux lately. and at least the work and relationship stuff has changed because of my decisions. going through all that work to make myself short-term unstable to gain long-term stability has been really hard and draining and then just as I was reaching the crisis point with work stuff BOOM, IT'S HOUSING INSTABILITY WITH A STEEL CHAIR. fuck. seriously fuck this and fuck her. we're going to make something good come of it but what a deeply, unbelievably shitty thing to do.
#red said#the other thing that bugs me about it is. ok and again this is old shit dredged back to 2021 when we moved in together#but i had my housemate. and Sam had her. and each of us were really close pairs who'd lived together a long time#and we tried looking for flats as a four but a) a flat with 4 good sized bedrooms in Edinburgh is hens teeth#and b) my housemate was pretty happy to live with me and Sam but increasingly felt like a 4 man flat was going to be a lot for him#and so in the end we talked about it. and through a combination of that and same housemate being in a pretty#unfavorable position housing wise. cause she was unemployed and had shit credit at that moment.#we agreed she'd move with us and Joe went and found a one bed#and in the end that's been really great for him tbh he's a lot happier and more confident and we were pretty sick of each other by then#and so we get on much better now#but at the time it was a real heartache i felt like I'd let Joe down i felt like our friendship was over#and honestly I have never been a huge fan of living with our current housemate. even before we lived here#like when i was staying with her and Sam too. she's incredibly messy and takes up a lot of space in conversations#I've always liked her as a person but she's exhausting and often unpleasant to share space with#and there's a bit of me that's like. we bent over backwards to accommodate you when you were precarious.#like it would have been WAY easier for us to look for a 2-bed during 2021. and if it was a 3-bed I'd have rather stayed with Joe.#but we moved with her for her sake. and she left Sam to clean up their old place (and there were Literal Rats)#and she got really pissy about driving the moving van even though a) that was her idea and b) she's the only person with a license#and c) i walked all MY shit over by hand anyway and the only reason she hired the van was to move her tv#me and Sam found all the core furniture. me and Sam sorted out all the viewings. me and Sam did all the planning. Sam set up all the bills.#we spotted her for rent!we took a bigger share of the costs! because we fucking cared about her and wanted her to have a fucking home!#and she can't even do us the courtesy you'd offer a fucking lodger you found on fucking gumtree
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Anyway, Alice headed off to work, just time for the pets to start complaining that there was no food in their bowls. XD I sent Smiler to go fill up the automatic feeders for them, then to stand guard as they started fighting just a bit over who ate from which bowl. In the end, they both ate from both, so I guess that works? Perhaps I should move them farther apart, but thatâs really the best spot in the kitchen where they both fit. . .
While all that was going on, Victor spent the rest of his morning puttering around in his greenhouse! Which was looking much healthier thanks to @littlemssamâs mods, hooray! :) Still having trouble with a couple of the trees (and that damn plasma fruit tree is STILL not fruiting), but at least all the plants are PLANTS and not just dirt. Smiler thought it was pretty good themselves. :) And look at that, thanks to the fertilizer regime, it looks like all of Victorâs oversized crops are gonna be giants. :D Not a bad result at all for the first try!
With the gardening done, the day continued in much the same vein as it had before. Grim came to pick up the original rooster of the chicken coop; Smiler grooved to the tunes on the downstairs phonograph while Kelly decided she didnât like music and ended up hiding under the couch for a bit; Smiler went upstairs to fix their own personal radio, reply to comments on their last video, and record a new inspiring vlog, watched by Shadow (who apparently DOES like technology); Victor broke the coffee machine trying to get a fresh cup and had to repair it; and Kelly took out her frustrations with the phonograph on one of the porch couches, necessitating Victor going out there and telling her off. Always something in this house!
#sims 4#the lazy save#victor van dort#smiler always#the smiler#alice liddell#thank you for your good work little miss sam#that plant bug was really starting to get to me#now the greenhouse looks right again#and Victor can start making new juices and flower arrangements#but yes interesting discovery#Kelly's afraid of the phonograph#while Shadow seems to like it#Shadow definitely likes going and watching Smiler record#I bet the next set of comments they answer is gonna be largely 'OMG who's the cute dog??' XD#which is entirely fair as Shadow IS a cute dog :)#queued
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Google why are my dogs eyes so large and wet
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Oh my gosh she's a conspiracy theorist. AHH! Thank you so much for the Sam fanart! Your artwork is amazing >:) and your characterization is brilliant <3 I have so many fun thoughts now.
The fact Sam would take notes and photos of Zote, for talking bug research, is just too good an opportunity to miss. Zote would have a field day with her, talking about his numerous victories and triumphs.
Sam! (And others)
Im incredibly normal. Okay headcanon time.
Sam has a "secret lab" in a closet in the basement that was used for winter jackets but she dragged a coffee table in there and called it her lab
Sam is a conspiracy theorist
Her mind fucking exploded when she met TALKING BUGS
Loooooots of photo evidence (Zote likes the attention lol)
Wears ripped clothes because she's just cool like that
She's giving potential social outcast
Various documented interrogations with Zote (an excuse to listen to his stories)
None of this is canon, I just think a lot. (Also yes I know I spelled Zote wrong in the drawing) and this awesome au belongs to the one and only @lilybug-02
slay the day away
#kjNSFD;jlqsdg fdsff#AHHHH!!!#Thank you so much again!!!#I wanted to giver more social outcast vibes to kinda parallel her to Zote. Glad you picked up them haha#She totally freaked out at finding TALKING BUGGGS#she also hates bugs. But is willing to learn more about their gross terrible society- begrudgingly. FOR SCIENCE!#the fact she takes photos of him posing for the picture is sending me#;alskdjf lkjasd;lfkj asdf#Im so happy you like this one off character I made for a single ask. Love you for that#hollow knight#sam hk#zote the mighty#reblog#fanart!!!
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Desperate Villain Danny AU
(this is a 17 yr old danny)
It started out slowly.
First, a few of Danny's less active Rouges stopped showing up at all. He didn't really notice, and just assumed that they had finally had their Fill of their Obsession for a while and would simmer down for a bit.
Then, some more of his Rouges stopped showing up. No big deal, but he is getting a little concerned for them. They had definitely not had their fill of their Obsessions yet, why did they stop?
Then, the worst started happen. All of his actual Ghost Friends start to disappear. Ember, Kitty, Johnny, even Amorpho, they all start to not show up at all in the Living World.
He goes looking for them in Realms, but he can't find any of them whatsoever. He tries asking around, but everybody else noticed the disappearances much earlier than him and began to hide away from whatever was taking all of the strong Ghosts. He can't find anybody, and the ones he does find won't tell him anything (or don't know themselves)
It takes weeks of searching, but eventually he gets his answer.
The GIW show up in Amity again after a period of absolutely no activity. They have stepped up their operations HARD. Advanced Ghost Hunting Equipment, Much more Competent Agents, and most worrying of all, they seem to know that Phantom is friends with Sam, Tucker, and Danny Fenton.
The GIW comes to his house for a Meeting with his parents, where he overhears them offering his parents a position in their Organization as Head Scientists. While there they also manage to plant Bugs in Danny's room somehow. Although he finds them quickly enough and destroys them.
And then, one night during dinner while his parents are ranting about the GIWs Labs, they mention something that cinches it for Danny.
"And today we even got to Dissect one of the Spooks! It was that Mind Controlly one, you know the one with the blue firey hair stuff that sang a bunch! We're going back tomorrow to continue our Study, this time we'll see how long it'll pretend to experience pain before it decides to give up on tricking us!"
That night, Danny packed up all his things, destroyed the Ghost Portal alongside everything else in his parents Lab, and left his house.
He tracked down the GIW Base, saved Ember from her Cell, and decimated the surrounding Area. No survivors, none of the research is preserved, and he left the Site Director alive to question him.
Turns out, the GIW had managed to Reverse Engineer the Ghost Portal from that brief period of time where they had taken control of Fenton Works. They had been using their own Portal to kidnap any Ghost they could get their hands on. Using the research from those subjects, they perfected their Ghost Hunting Tech and started going after the bigger fish.
"But good luck finding it, Ecto Scum! The Portals location was hidden to everybody, even me!" He said.
"Where are the others!" Danny cried. He was losing control of his appearance by this point. After seeing what they had done to Ember, he was too angry to maintain his Humanoid Form successfully. Even now, with most of his control, he could hear the Static in the air around him, and see the Glitching of his hands as they clenched this Monsters clothes.
"Scattered!" He said with a crazed laugh, "We knew we couldn't contain all of them, so we send them to all of our sites across the Country! You'll never find them!"
Without another word, Danny plowed his arm through the man's chest.
He turned around, picking up Embers weakened Body, before beginning his long flight to Wisconsin. Vlad still owed him a few Favors after all, and honestly his mentorship offers seemed VERY Tempting right now.
(Why reject him if you don't care about keeping your dad alive anymore?)
...
The JLA had recently received a distress signal from somewhere in the middle of some random Forest in Illinois, but when they got to the location, all they found was a crater filled with the ruins of some kind of Military Base, and so so many Bodies.
They had managed to figure out that this was a Government Site owned by an organization called the GIW. A Paranormal Investigation Wing of the Government focused on the study and capture of Supernatural Beings called Ecto-Entities, otherwise referred to as Ghosts.
As it turns out, an Ecto-Entity that had been terrorizing the local town for a few years now had made a drastic change in normal behavior and had attacked the GIW Base that had been posted there.
They would have destroyed it years ago, but this one was unnaturally powerful. It had eluded their capture and terrorized the Town for years, but they had too much pride to contact the JLA and admit that they needed help. And honestly until now, they didn't really need it. The Entity had been entirely confined to the singular town, and had not strayed from that behavioral Pattern in the 3 years since it's inital sighting. They had made the difficult choice to leave it there, sacrificing one town in exchange for the rest of the country.
But now they did need their help. This Entity, this Phantom, was one of the most powerful beings that had ever recorded, maybe even The Most Powerful. The fact that it had left the Secluded town it usually frequented meant that it was loose to wreak havoc across the rest of the world.
The JLA Needed to Find this thing, and Fast.
#Dp x dc#Dpxdc#Dc#Dcu#Danny Phantom#Villain Danny Phantom#Morally Grey Danny Phantom#He doesn't care about killing GIW agents#He'll still avoid Civilians though#Danny accepts Vlads offer#He doesn't care anymore cause he has no reason to refuse#He doesn't care about being evil#He doesn't care if his dad dies#And Ellie once told him that she still held some love for vlad so that's not really too big a conflict of interest#Speaking of Ellie...#He hasn't seen her in a while...#ïżœïżœïżœ#Foreshadowing???#Hmmm
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FOREVER.
âsynopsis brothers best friend!sam x female reader,, reader takes sam with her to get her nipples pierced.
â18+ nsfw, all smutty n shit I know i said i would be taking a break for awhile but guys this is based on a true story (winks) and its been bugging me, not proofread sorry :â(
You and Sam Monroe have always shared a close bond, perhaps inevitable given his status as your brother's best friend. Over the years, with his frequent presence, your relationship naturally blossomed, forging a strong connection between the two of you.
Your birthday came and went, and just a couple of days prior, you finally mustered the courage to book an appointment for a piercing you'd been longing for. Despite your excitement, you couldn't shake the nerves; you were a total wimp when it came to pain. Faced with the prospect of enduring it alone, you pondered the idea of bringing along a friend for support.
Initially, Sam wasn't your first choice at mind, but with all your other friends tied up, you figured, why not? After all, he'd seen your body before, albeit accidentally during that awkward vacation moment when he stumbled upon you changing. Though flustered at the time, it was never brought up again.
As he locked his car and stood beside you, he gallantly held the door open. "So, y'feelin' nervous?" he teased, a smirk playing at the corners of his lips.
"No," you replied, your tone dripping with sarcasm, rolling your eyes as the piercing shop loomed ahead.
"Maybe a little," you confessed in a hushed whisper, earning a shake of his head and a chuckle. He reached out, grabbing the door for both of you, his easy confidence adding a touch of reassurance to your jittery nerves.
As you approached the front desk, butterflies twisted in your stomach, a nervous energy coursing through you. Confirming the appointment, the receptionist informed you that they'd be ready in about fifteen minutes due to the busy schedule. You nodded reassuringly, both you and Sam making your way to the small seating area.
He could sense your unease, fully aware that this moment would rattle your nerves. "Drink," he offered, handing you a bottle of water you hadn't even realized he brought along.
"Relax, I'm right here, remember? n' you've gotta stay hydrated, you look pale. Does this shit really get you that worked up?" he questioned as you accepted the cold bottle, nodding in response. A mixture of nerves and excitement coursed through you; after all, you'd been eagerly anticipating getting your nipples pierced for ages.
Shortly thereafter, you found yourself in the chair, your shirt pulled up and bra discarded, feeling a rush of vulnerability as the piercer meticulously arranged her equipment. With a gentle touch, she guided you to lie back on the piercing table, where she began the process of cleansing both of your nipples with precision, using alcohol and surgical scrub.
"I'm going to need you to take a deep breath, alright?" she asked, her voice calm but firm, as she positioned the needle within your line of sight. You nodded, steeling yourself for the inevitable discomfort, and closed your eyes, bracing for the sensation.
"Relax," Sam's voice broke through the tension, his tone soothing yet tinged with a hint of excitement. Despite his attempt at reassurance, you couldn't help but feel his gaze lingering on your exposed chest, his curiosity palpable.
As you focused on regulating your breathing, you couldn't shake the awareness of Sam's presence beside you, his unwavering attention drawing a flush to your cheeks. Despite the nerves that fluttered within you, there was a strange sense of comfort in knowing that he was there, offering silent support during this intimate moment.
"Took it like a pro," he whispered softly, his hand a reassuring presence on your back as you both emerged from the place. There was no denying the pain, it was sharp and present, impossible to ignore. But even in the midst of it, you couldn't help but be aware of Sam's gaze, lingering a bit longer than necessary on your chest.
His eyes traced the movements of the piercer with keen interest, noting every grimace and subtle shift in your demeanor as the needle pierced your skin. It was as though he was cataloging every moment, every reaction, committing it to memory with a mixture of fascination and concern.
And damn well you were taking him like a pro now.
"You think you're special, princess?" he sneered as he loomed over you, your legs tucked up, stuffing you fully. "All dolled up, begging for it like a good little slut," he taunted, his gaze burning with raw dominance.
"Just like those piercings, you're gonna take every inch of me, whether you can handle it or not," he declared, with each aggressive thrust, he asserted his power over you, his cock buried deep in you, his balls slapping against your skin as your juices flowed freely, dripping all down your ass.
"You're nothing but a toy for me to use," he growled, reveling in your surrender. "Beg for more, beg for it like the desperate whore you are," he commanded, his voice dripping with authority.
"oh fuck, sam!" you cried out, eyes squeezing shut.
"That's right, take it all, take it like the filthy little slut you were meant to be," he snarled, his lips assaulting your neck in a possessive kiss before he left his mark, branding you as his in the most primal of ways.
"So fuckin' sexy," he murmured against your skin, his lips finding purchase around your breast, his eyes locked onto yours as his tongue teased over the piercing.
"Sam," you pathetically whimpered,
"mhm," he mocked in response, the vibrations sending a delicious sensation through you. "You like that?" he asked, pulling away for a brief moment before attacking your other nipple with a fierce hunger, sucking hard.
"yes, yes, yes," you moaned, your fingers tangling in his hair, urging him on as pleasure surged through your body.
"I can feel you getting off on this," he snarled while he pushed his fingers into your mouth. "You tryna' let everyone know what we're doing baby, hm?" he taunted, his lips grazing your ear with a hint of menace.
"m'gonna cum" you whined out, squirming beneath him.
"Even your dear brother?" he sneered, completely ignoring you.
"He'd tear me apart if he caught us like this," he warned, his fingers probing deeper. "But you know damn well I won't stop, no matter who walks in," he growled, his desire fueling his aggression.
"Do you like 'em?" you managed to choke out, your voice strained around his fingers, but he only chuckled darkly.
"You know I do. Watching you squirm as you got them had me throbbing," he admitted, his grip tightening on your hair.
"I've been waiting for this moment since the damn beginning," he spat, the anticipation making him reckless.
"And now that they're healed, I'm going to show you," he promised, his voice dripping with cruel intent.
"I'm going to show you just how much I love 'em, how much I love you ."
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Hii! Can I request for Jamil where his s/o helps him with cleaning dishes after Kalim made another big party? My boy needs some support</3
SO I didn't read the s/o part until after I'd finished but you can imagine that I think? Jamil is reseved and wary enough for it
*à©â©â§âË a white lie
type of post: fic characters: jamil additional info: romantic, reader is gender neutral, reader is yuu, not proofread
Suffice to say that Jamil had not enjoyed the party.
If he ever enjoys Kalim's parties is another question, but there were a few things that made this one particularly insufferable:
#1 Jamil had explicitly told Kalim not to have this party, since he had failed his last alchemy lab and needed to study before the retake #2 Kalim had agreed to not have this party and Jamil was already in bed when Kalim threw his door open to announce the party was back on #3 unprepared for this party that Kalim was not going to have, Jamil had run across campus in the cold to pick up food from Sam's before it closed #4 on the way back, one of those weird nocturnal bugs scuttered across the path in front of him
...And so now, at half past one in the morning, with all of the confetti vacuumed and glitter still stuck to his skin, Jamil was washing dishes.
He's fantasizing about the sad look on Kalim's face when he would inevitably fail the alchemy lab on Monday. Again.
Just a little something to keep him awake.
A squeak of the door. Jamil tenses, praying to any god that would listen, that that is not Kalim, come to ask for milk and cookies.
"You're still up?"
Your soft voice releases some of the tension in his shoulders.
Jamil sighs. "Yes. Is it late?"
He asks that as if he doesn't know. Better to play dumb than to look pitiful. He doesn't need your sympathy, after all.
"Yeah," you say, letting the door squeak shut behind you. "Why're you still here?"
He shrugs. "I don't know the time. I suppose I lost track,"
Which is a little white lie. He's been counting every minute.
Without asking, which is so insufferably like you, you stand beside him at the sink and begin washing dishes.
"You don't need to do that," Jamil says. "I'm almost done."
Which is another white lie. There's still dishes in the lounge he hasn't even collected yet.
"Then you'll be done faster,"
An almost intolerable act of kindness, but with that knowing look in your eye. He hates that you can tell when he's lying.
"...Very well," At least you're competent.
He knows you won't break anything. And you might even wash something, too. Much different from Kalim.
"...Did you enjoy the party?" he asks.
"I didn't go,"
"Didn't you?"
You respond to everything he says with this calm, soft voice, so unassuming, so innocent, but the way you look at him says something much different.
"I didn't," you repeat. "I didn't want to."
Jamil almost smiles. "So, then, may I ask what you're doing here? You surely didn't just decide to take a stroll through Scarabia at one-forty in the morning,"
"You know the time, now?"
Damn it. How do you manage to get him so tongue-tied???
Jamil steps away from the sink and dries off his hands just to put them on his hips.
"What do you want?"
"I want to help,"
And there's that cuteness again. You must have an angle here, something you need from him, but what could he possibly have to give?
He scoffs. "Surely, you'd have better results sucking up to Kalim. Or perhaps Azul. Or anyone but me,"
Your hands never stop working, shining each dish with a gentle efficiency he almost admires.
"But I want to suck up to you,"
Jamil crosses his arms and glares. It's frustrating just how good you are at this. Playing cute. You already have everyone on campus wrapped around your finger, don't you? The housewardens, the vice housewardens, the princes, the celebrities.
What would you want out of him? What good would being in his favor do you?
"What exactly are you implying?"
You look back into the murky depths of the sink. "I like you,"
"You like me?" As if he'd believe that.
But Jamil can't deny how honest you had sounded. And from what he knew, you hardly went around saying such things in such ways. Even to your friends.
"Why?"
You hesitate. As if you genuinely don't have an answer for that. An answer he'd like to hear, anyway.
"Because... you're like me, I suppose,"
Jamil's eyes widen. A lot of feelings suddenly go through him in hot flashes- shock, anger, resentment, jealousy- but mostly...
Confusion.
You continue. "Not in a literal sense. Just that... well, you know. No one helps me, either. They look to me for support and I'm expected to just... coddle them. I can't ever be upset or angry or resentful,"
He has no response. That's...
...Not untrue.
Jamil says nothing, letting the silence be broken only by his own loud, restless, thoughts, and then he slowly returns to the sink.
He takes each plate and glass from you with trained silence, rinsing each before setting them to dry.
And he looks only at the water. He doesn't want you to see how his expression has softened.
When you're done with everything, lounge and all, he walks you to the door.
"You're fine walking home on your own?"
You nod. Jamil isn't exactly sure why he asked that, but it felt like the right thing to say.
You both linger at the door. Looking at each other. Saying nothing.
"Thank you," he finally says. "For your help. It... meant a lot to me. I probably wouldn't have finished before sunrise without you."
Again, he's not sure why he said that. It felt right. It felt good to be good to you, he supposes. And his intentions were honest, even if his words were not. He certainly wouldn't have taken that long on his own.
But a white lie has never hurt anyone.
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Times You Threatened to Kill Dean Winchester- Dean Winchester x Reader
Summary: A brief account of all the times you wanted to kill a certain hunter.
Warnings: Language, character death, thoughts of suicide, references to sex, threats... A good mix of fluff and angst! Word Count: 2.3k A/N: This one was a labor of love! I have a few other fics in the works as per a few requests I have received, but this one was speaking to me tonight, so I sat down to write it! Please enjoy- in the meantime, your requests are coming soon! <3
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âDean Winchester, I could just KILL you!âÂ
You were extremely familiar with the Winchester boysâ prank wars by now. You had been witness to a few different cycles of this behavior over the many years you had known them- in fact, if someone were to dig through the old cardboard box you kept hidden in the spare room at Bobbyâs, theyâd probably find a few faded teenage pictures of a bald Sam after Dean snuck Nair into his shampoo, or a sleeping Dean with some sharpie-d enhancements adorning his face. But up until now, you had always kept to the sidelines. Time and time again, you claimed Switzerland to avoid their shenanigans, because it always got way too out of hand.
But today, when you climbed out of bed, still groggy with sleep, stepping into the bathroom of your shared motel room, an entire bucketâs worth of ice water that had been balanced atop the door came crashing down on you. The sensation sent a shockwave through your whole body, and from the noise that escaped your lips, you wouldâve thought you had been shot. And to add insult to injury, the bucket itself smacked against your head on its way down.Â
So to start your day, you were soaking wet, freezing, pissed off, and nursing a swelling bump atop your head. A blind rage filled your body. You knew it had to have been Dean, it was his turn to retaliate after Sam had messed with the stereo in the Impala so that it only played Barbie Girl. It had been a long, silent ride home after last nightâs hunt.Â
âDean Winchester, you are a dead man!â The words came bursting out of you as you stormed your way out of the bathroom.
âWhat did I- Oh my GOD. That wasnât for you.â Deanâs eyes looked like they were going to bug out of his head. He knew he had fucked up.Â
The first thing to go flying across the room was the bucket, which nailed Dean in the chest with an anticlimactic thud. You followed close behind it. At full speed, you sprinted into Dean, knocking him back onto the bed behind him.
âGet off me! Youâre soaking wet!â Dean protested, throwing his arms between you two in an effort to shield himself.Â
âYeah, how do you like it?â You werenât going to back down.Â
So that is how you ended up wrestling with Dean. You put up a surprisingly good fight for a lot longer than you expected, able to overpower him via sheer force of will. Once Dean got his bearings, though, he flipped you over, hovering on top of you and pinning you to the bed by your wrists. You held an intense eye contact for a brief moment while you each caught your breath. In doing so, you came to the mutual realization that this was ridiculous. You didnât know who cracked the smile first, but as Deanâs grew, so did yours, until you were grinning like idiots and erupting into laughter.
âYou know, this isnât what I meant when I said I wanted you wet and in my bed,â Dean raised his eyebrows and tossed you a sly wink.
âYup, Iâm doing it. I am killing you.âÂ
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âDean I swear to God, if you keep me cooped up in this motel room for one more minute I am going to lose my mind.âÂ
âWould you relax? Sam and I are almost back at the witchâs house. Weâll gank her, itâll reverse the spell, youâll be right as rain.â
âGod I hope so. This is driving me up the wall. I will never watch another second of daytime TV after this.â With the press of a button, you hung up the phone and tossed it across the room onto the bed. This was getting seriously old.
While taking on a vengeful spirit case, you and the Winchesters had run into a particularly pesky witch. Long story short, she cast a spell at you, and none of you could figure out what it was. It was driving you crazy, and what was driving you crazier was that the boys had locked you in the motel room for two days while they tracked the witch back down. All around town, all over the area, until they finally caught her trail heading back to her own house. Where they had started.
The problem was, you felt fine. You really didnât think there was anything wrong with you. You wanted to get out there and help them, do some research, go to the damn grocery store, literally anything. But Sam and Dean had insisted that the safest thing for you to do was to stay behind. We donât know what she did to you, Y/N. It could be dangerous for you to leave. Itâs better if you stay here and do absolutely nothing. It made sense, to an extent, you just werenât very happy about it.Â
After a few hours and several more episodes of the most mind-numbing daytime talk shows you could imagine, you heard the sound of keys jingling and the motel door creeping open. In came Dean, wearing a strange expression on his face. If you hadnât known any better, you wouldâve thought it was fear.
âSo? Ding dong, the witch is dead, I donât have to blow my brains out?â You asked, more than ready to be done with the whole fiasco.
âUm.â Dean was avoiding eye contact. His hands slipped into his pocket and he sucked in a long, sharp breath.
âDean.âÂ
âSo, uh, maybeâŠâ He slipped a hand across his mouth, stalling his words. âLook, you might have to stick around here for one more day. We uh, think she might be in the town over, but we kind of lost her trail.â
On the car ride back to the motel, Dean had prepared for you to react by yelling, screaming, hitting, anything to unleash the anger he knew was coming. In fact, that was why Sam had waited in the car- to give him a little time to break the news. But in front of Dean was something much, much scarier. Your jaw was clenched, your gaze was distant, and your eyes narrowed. You were just⊠sitting there. The silence lasted for what felt like ages. It was enough to send the man spiraling. Finally, you looked up.
âDean?âÂ
â... Yes?â
âYou better kill that witch tomorrow before I kill you.â
âDuly noted.â
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Losing Sam had been just about the worst thing that could have ever happened to any of you. Watching him fall to his knees after Jake backstabbed him, Dean cradling him as the life finally slipped from his body⊠It brought you to tears just thinking about it. You had loved Sam like a little brother. But as much as it tore you up inside, his death had happened. So goes the life of a hunter. It was time to let Sam rest.Â
Dean, however, had still refused to make peace with the loss of his brother. It had been several days and Samâs lifeless body was still laying out on a mattress. Dean just couldnât let go. You and Bobby had begged him to let you lay Sam to rest, but he simply wasnât having it. Dean was angry, defensive, and hurt, far deeper than you had ever seen. After conferring privately with each other, you and Bobby figured maybe it would be best to give him a little time alone with Sam, for closureâs sake.Â
So a day later when Sam Winchester, live and in the flesh, waltzed into the room to thank you and Bobby for patching up his wound without so much as a second thought, your heart dropped like a rock. The feeling that washed over you was worse than any grief you had felt this past week. Of course, it was amazing to have Sam back- it felt like a miracle. But miracles donât just happen, especially not to Winchesters. And when you looked to Dean, he refused to meet your eyes.
Not wanting to alert Sam of the situation, you made an excuse to get Dean to follow you outside. You trudged as far as you could in silence, you not daring to look in his direction, until you knew you were out of earshot from the house.Â
âWhat did you do, Dean?â Your back was still turned, and your voice was hardly a whisper. You were surprised Dean could hear you at all.
âY/N-â
âWhat did you DO? How long did they give you?â The question ripped from your chest, but you werenât sure you were ready to hear the answer.Â
âA year.âÂ
One year. You dropped to the ground. The gravel dug into your skin, but all your senses were numbed with hurt. You wanted to ask what made him think he could do this- to Bobby, to Sammy, to you? But when you opened your mouth to speak, the ache that resonated through your chest stifled the words.
Dean slid down next to you in silence. He wrapped a single arm around you, and you leaned your head into him. All you could do was cry silent, heavy tears. For what felt like hours, there was nothing you could say. The pit in your stomach swirled back and forth from anger to despair to fear, culminating in a blinding nausea. You looked up at Dean, who simply stared straight ahead. There was a staggering coldness in his eyes that drove the knife further into your core. Â
âGod damn it Dean Winchester, I could just kill you myself, right now.âÂ
âYouâll have to get in line, sweetheart.âÂ
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If you thought a few days without Sam had been bad, four whole months without Dean was your own personal hell. After Deanâs time was up, you couldnât bear to be around anyone who reminded you of him. You hadn't spoken to Bobby or Sam or any other hunters- any other people, for that matter. You had practically dug yourself a grave, isolated from the world around you, lost and in the dark.Â
This was the worst hurt you had ever felt in your life. Four months later and the wound in your heart was just as fresh as the day it arrived there. Every time it began to heal, one wrong move and it started aching, throbbing, bleeding again. But at this point, the pain was all you had left of Dean. So you let it bleed.Â
The knock on the motel room door did nothing to stir you from your place in bed. It had been days, maybe a week, since you had risen for anything but your basic needs. You had called the front desk to extend your stay multiple times, running up a scammed credit card Dean had probably given to you at some point. There was nowhere else for you to go, so you laid down weary roots right here.Â
The knock persisted but you remained still. It couldâve been the police, the president, or the pope and you couldnât have cared any less. Go away. There was a clanging noise followed by the shifting of the lockâs mechanisms. Whoever it was, they were breaking into your room. A few months ago, you wouldâve jumped into action, but all of your hunter self-preservation instincts were long gone. Whoever it was could come in and take whatever they wanted and shoot you dead in the process. Maybe theyâd be doing you a favor.Â
You rolled over in bed as the door creaked open, prepared to lay eyes on whoever was here to bring your demise. However, you were met with the one face that could have coaxed you out of the bed. The face you hadnât seen in four months. The look in his eyes teemed with love and longing, which made your stomach churn.Â
âThis is a real sick joke.â
âNo, Y/N, itâs-âÂ
For the first time since before Deanâs death, you snapped into hunter-mode, rising to your feet and snatching holy water and a knife from the bag under your bed in the process. It was a little slow, a little clumsy, and clearly a bit out of practice.
âYou know, I was about to let whoever you were come right in and kill me. What reason do I have to stick around anymore? But this- this is just sick.â You laughed- your first laugh in months, and yet nothing was funny.Â
âItâs me, Y/N, I-â
âNo. Iâm going to kill you now.â And you lunged, splashing holy water with one hand and thrusting the knife with the other.Â
When Dean caught your hand before the knife could strike him, twisting your arm to defend himself from your lackluster attack, it took you longer than it should have to realize that the holy water hadnât fazed him. Before it registered, you struggled against his grasp, but months of malnutrition and stagnant muscles had left you weak. You cried out as you fought, before fully dissolving into tears and dropping the knife in a mix of defeat and acceptance. Dean placed two heavy hands on your shoulders as if to ground you back in the moment.
âItâs me. I swear.â The beads of holy water that rolled off his face paralleled the tears that rolled off yours. Your hand reached up to wipe a droplet away- partially out of habit, partially to test that he was real, that he wouldnât disappear at your touch. He didnât. Instead, both his hands planted on your face, matching your movement.Â
âOh, Dean.â That was the only way you could express it. Dean. Here, real, standing in front of you, and not a demon. Just pure Dean.Â
âHi sweetheart,â he whispered, and it felt like home. He pulled you into a gentle hug, as if he harbored the same fear as you- that you may disappear beneath his very touch. But you were real, and so was he. You wouldnât disappear, and neither would he. Dean was back, and because of that, you were back too.
âGood thing you didnât kill me, right?âÂ
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Just a Note
Pairing: Dean Winchester x F!Reader
Warnings:Â Fluff, mentions of a little spicyness, mentions of injuries
Summary:Â When you start receiving little notes around the Bunker, you go on a hunt trying to find your secret admirer.
Word Count:Â 1600
Authors Note:Â This is my @spnfanficpond Secret Santa for @kazsrm67. This also fulfills squares for @jacklesversebingo and @anyfandomgoesbingo Happy Holidays everyone!
Jacklesverse Bingo Prompt: Secret Admirer
Any Fandom Goes Bingo Prompt: Head Wound
Divider by @saradika-graphics
Tag List: @zepskies @king-of-milf-lovers @king-of-milf-lovers
It started out as sticky notes placed strategically in places across the Bunker where only you would find them: on the mirror in your room, or on the stack of books you kept sequestered to a table in the corner of the library room. Various colors of square paper with little compliments, albeit a little awkward, scrawled across them. The first time youâd found one, a blue square tucked into the cubby where you kept your bug-out bag in the armory, youâd been caught off guard. The neon, stark against the muted brown and black and grey tones, had caught your eye as you went about replacing and checking the supplies you kept within your duffel. You plucked the paper from where it was nestled amongst the various weapons and supplies kept within, sitting in wait for the next hunt. As you gingerly pulled the sticky note from your bag, you noticed the scrawling words written across it in black ink.Â
You look sharper than these knives.
Your head cocked to the side, face contorted into a mixture of confusion and amusement. Was that meant to be a compliment? More importantly, who was it from? Aside from yourself, Sam and Dean both took up permanent residence in the Men of Letters Bunker. Charlie, your childhood best friend and the person who introduced you to the Winchester brothers and the hunting world in general also lived here 90% of the time. It could be here playing one of her many pranks. A few other hunters used this place as refuge between hunts or came here for the endless trove of supernatural knowledge archived within its walls. Youâd even convinced Dean, despite his best efforts to ignore your pleas, to host a couple seminars and training sessions for newer (and seasoned) hunters using the knowledge you and Sam spent hours upon hours organizing.Â
âWhen I was first introduced to this world, I wish Iâd had this kind of training available to me,â Youâd reasoned with him one day in the kitchen. âIâd have a lot less scars and a lot less near death experiences if I had.â
The eldest Winchester, whom youâd grown close to in the months youâd worked with him, Sam, and the cabal of supernatural beings that they considered friends or at the very least occasional allies, leaned against the island with a mug of freshly brewed coffee in hand.
âIâm not sayinâ itâs a bad thing, Sweetheart.â Dean placated you, setting his mug on the counter. âAll Iâm sayinâ is that thereâs more to it than just puttinâ flyers on the street. How would we even advertise somethinâ like this?âÂ
You shrugged. âYouâre smart, youâll figure it out.â
And figure it out he had. With the help of Charlie and Sam, the four of you managed to create a strategically worded ad, spreading it to known hunters who would even be remotely interested. It had spread like wildfire from there. So it was very possible one of the hunters passing through had put it in your bag. Even that explanation didnât quite fit, but at the time it was a one-off, a fluke to never happen again.
That was until another one showed up. Youâd taken a blow to the head when a rogue shifter slammed you back into a wall, knocking you unconscious. Blearily you opened your eyes to the dim light of the Bunkerâs infirmary. A dull ache throbbed at the back of your head as you looked around. The room was kept mostly dark save for a lamp in the corner. I must have a concussion, you thought as you sat up, the crisp white sheets crumpled on your lap. You had reached over to check the clock on the table next to the bed when you saw yet another Post-it stuck to the top of it. The paper was red this time, but the writing held the same characteristics of the first one.Â
You take my breath away.
Your eyes must have read the sentence a hundred times over, wracking your brain trying to figure out who in the Hell is leaving you these messages. Some rational part of you whispered there were really only two options. Sam or Dean. You knew it wasnât Sam; your relationship with the younger brother was strictly familial. Youâd never seen him as anything other than a younger brother, despite his protests that he was only 6 months younger than you.Â
Dean on the other hand was a different story. Sometimes he acted like you were another younger sibling for him to be responsible for, other times the tension between the two of you could be cut with the dullest knife. Lingering eyes as the three of you changed between or after hunts, his fingers trailing over your hair and tucking it behind your ear when he assumed you were dead asleep. Youâd be lying if he was the only one giving mixed signals. It made sense. To anyone who didnât know him, Dean was a casanova, a womanizer who took what he wanted and offered nothing. And sure, maybe he was that way in his early 20âs, but life and the work of a hunter had taken a toll on him. So while you and Sam partook in one night stands, it was Dean who usually ended the night alone.Â
You found the notes enduring, actually, and very in character for him. So from that moment in the infirmary, you compiled the notes and the occasional small gifts left for you. Once you were sure it was, in fact, Dean showering you in corny one liners and sweet nothings, you hatched a plan. You figured there were a couple ways to go about it. One: confront him head on, which he very well might deny all together in embarrassment. Two: let the notes continue to pile up, hopefully bottlenecking Dean into coming to you personally. Or three: beat him at his own game. Out of all of them, the third sounded the most fun.
Like a game of tag, the next time it was your turn to go on the supply run, you stopped by a Dollar Tree and grabbed a stack of Post-its. Unfortunately, they only had the plain and frankly ugly yellow ones, but theyâd do. If you played your cards right, you shouldnât need too many of them anyway. You snuck around the Bunker for nearly a week, leaving the Post-its in inconspicuous places as Dean had. The first one youâd left next to the decanter of water he kept by his bedside, calling him a tall drink of water. The next one was slid under his disassembled 1911 when he went to take a break. You giggled to yourself as you positioned it, reading the line youâd printed on it. Is that a gun in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?
On the 7th day with no response from Dean, no change in behavior when the three (or four when Charlie came for dinner) of you went on hunts or stuck around the Bunker, you had started to lose hope. Maybe it was someone else and youâd read into the situation completely wrong. But something in your gut told you that you were barking up the right tree. Give it one last try, it seemed to say. So one last try it was. Youâd know once and for all if it was Dean. You wrote the message that started it all on a sticky note, making sure Dean was in the kitchen before slinking off to the armory. All of you kept at least one bingo bag here, the main thing was finding which one was Deanâs. He kept his main pack in his room or in Babyâs trunk so it took some rooting around until you found the right one.Â
Just as you unzipped the bag, poised to place the sticky note against the blade of one of Deanâs hunting knives, a voice called out your name from behind you. You froze, your lips pressing into a thin line as a small cheeky smile started to form. You stood up, turning around to see Dean leaning against the door jam.
âWhatcha doinâ Sweetheart?â He asked innocently, but his tone and the smug look on his face was anything but.
âNothinâ.â You mumbled, suddenly a little sheepish. The plan didnât involve you getting caught red handed. âYou weren't supposed to catch me.â
âFigured as much.â He joked, crossing the space between you, plucking the Post-it from your hand, his fingers brushing against your own in a way that made your heart flutter a little faster than it already was.Â
âAsshole.â You huffed equally as teasing,watching him look at the sticky note, reading your chicken scratch.Â
You were both silent as Deanâs eyes met yours, his cheeks tinged a bit pink. You were sure your own were as well as you suddenly felt the urge to hide from his observing gaze.Â
âSo,â Dean breathed. âWhat now?â
Ever the gentleman, you thought. Giving you the option to back out, to deny this thing between you both even though heâd quite literally caught you leaving a flirtatious note in his bag. You let your hand drift forward, hesitantly finding his own. You intertwined your fingers, feeling his callouses brush your own as you gave his hand a reassuring squeeze.
âI think now, you need to start sayinâ those things to me in person, not just on paper.â You gave him a small smile.
âSounds like a plan, Sweetheart.â
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Demo Update (07/12/24)
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Bladewinter has come!
The demo has updated once again, with further additions to Chapter 2. This update comes in at ~86,000 words added, much of it being additional (optional) scenes for the festival portion of Chapter 2, though a few extra scenes have been added to the main plot of the chapter. I have removed one of the fair scenes, as I felt it wasn't very interesting or necessary.
This is the biggest update to the game yet, though I'd advise you to temper your expectations. A lot of the size comes from the variation I've included, although I'd love to get 86k words of pure plot down in 2 months one day đ.
This is Chapter 2's penultimate update. No matter how long it takes, the next one will drag the game, kicking and screaming if necessary, over the finish line into Chapter 3.
As always, if you encounter a bug or something that seems off, don't hesitate to DM me or send an ask, here or on itch/Discord! You can join the Bladeweaver Discord here: https://discord.gg/DRTehWHfv6
In this chapter you can:
Visit five attractions at the Festival of Light in Sola with Sam. These are:
A fortune reader's tent, where you can discover an unclear future for yourself, and for your companions.
A light show, where you can witness the (abridged) retelling of an ancient legend of Phanol.
A strength test, where you can show off all of your eight year-old prowess. Sonia takes this one very seriously.
An archery challenge, where you can meet a very enthusiastic young archer and (if you're clever and skillful enough) beat her!
A tent of magical trinkets and displays, where you can choose a gift for yourself and (more importantly) meet a cat.
Optionally, you can now do the festival and duel route without Sam. Keep in mind that only one optional scene, the fortune teller's tent, is available here.
There is also a small addition to the main plot of the chapter, with the consequences of Ser Malack's attack revealed...
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Summary: Being Sam Winchesters long time girlfriend was wonderful until he had family business and was on the road all the time, but what happens when you find out youâre pregnant?
Pairing: Early Seasons Sam Winchester x f!reader
âąMasterlistâą
Sitting in my apartment missing waking up to sharing the bed with Sam, cuddling against his warm body, sitting on the counter as he makes us pancakes, getting ready for college parties together, everything we use to do now just memories
âCome on Sam I miss you, when are you gonna be home?â I sighed into the phone
âIâm sorry baby I miss you too but Dean and I are working some jobs andâŠ.â
âJobs? I thought you were just looking for your dad? Sam are you okay Iâm worriedâ heâs been gone for a month now and it was miserable he helped pay half the rent and it was a struggle by myself now and heâs my soulmate and being apart really wanes on the heart
âWell weâre still looking just making some stops along the wayâ I could hear Dean in the back making fun of him calling me baby
âYou know I canât be mad at you Iâm justâŠâŠI just miss you but I hope everything is going good with Dean and you find your dadâ he told me all about his problems in the past with his family but all I wanted was for him to be happy
âYou know I miss you too baby, wish I could see you, sleeping in these shitty motel rooms doesnât compare to WOAH Dean stop hitting me!â Dean obviously didnât want to hear the end of that making me cheer up a bit
âWell just call me more when you get the time but I have class, I love you Samâ
âLove you too Angelâ the call ended and I was forced to go along with my daily routine, get ready, go to class and come back to an empty apartment
It went on like this for 2 more months and it just got worse, his calls became less frequent maybe once a week, I fell into a deep sadness that only Sam Winchester could brighten, and I became sick at first I thought it was a flu maybe a stomach bug but after talking to some friends and one test later and I find out Iâm pregnant, I have to be atleast 3 months along since thatâs the time heâs been gone
After having an hour long breakdown I dialed Sam hoping he had some time to talk and not on another job
âAngel why are you calling so late?â His voice groggy
âSammyâŠâŠwe need to talkâ I stutter out still emotional
âWhatâs wrong are you okay?â
âIâm preâŠâŠI canât tell you over the phone I need to see youâŠ..pleaseâ I beg praying heâll just come home
âI donât know Dean and I areâŠâ
âSam this is really important what ever youâre doing can wait, I need youâ
âOkay weâll be there by the time you wake upâ
I woke up exhausted from the stress of the day before, Iâm pregnant actually pregnant under normal circumstances Iâd be happy starting a family with Sam but with how absent heâs been I feel him drifting away
I willed myself out of bed and pulled on one of Samâs hoodies that hung down to my knees and wore a pair of pair of black legging, running a warm cloth over my face to freshen up when I heard a rapid knocking at the front door
My heart filled with panic and I was becoming hesitant about coming clean, I opened the door and there he stood, towering over me like a god yet still so soft on me
He swooped down and lifted me easily into his arms and held me close, being back in his arms just felt right it felt like home and so I broke down again as I clung to him
âSammyâ I whined as I hide my tear streaked face in his shoulder smelling his oh so wonderful cologne
He brought me inside and sat me down on the couch, Dean looming in the room after he rummaged for food in our kitchen
âAngel whatâs wrong? You donât look so goodâ he asked as he stroked my hair helping calm me
âYouâve been gone so long and I understand but itâs been a hard 3 months alone, I canât sleep, I canât think straight, Iâm broke andâŠâŠ..â
âAnd what?â Dean intervened making my heart jump, Sam sending him a glare
âI thought I was just sick butâŠâŠ.im pregnantâ I felt so vulnerable as he just looked at me seeming to be in shock
âYouâre jokingâ Dean groaned
âI didnât mean tooâŠ..im sorryâ I say as my lip trembled
âOh Angel this isnât your fault itâs mine and I shouldnât have left you alone so long like that I donât know what I was thinkingâ he sighs as he holds me to his chest
âFamily business Sammyâ Dean stated
âDean stopâ
âSam if being with your family is so important and doing all these jobs I understand but if thatâs what you want then I donât want to hold you back if this isnât what you want anymoreâ
âWhat? No of course I want you I want this, youâre my soulmate and Iâm never letting you go again, you deserve to know the truthâ
âSam donâtâ deans assertive tone booming in the room
After Sam told me everything about this new supernatural world I was sceptic at first but honestly it connected a lot of dots
âSo these jobs you work are important but I canât go months being apart againâ
âYou can come with us, just for while youâre pregnant and then when you give birth we can go home and settleâ he said with a bright smile, that smile I fell in love with
âAre you sure Dean wonât hate meâ I whisper to him
âHeâll lighten up trust me Angelâ
Sam helped me pack all the my clothes and personal items I needed and we were off on the road, it was a nice car with lots of room for me to stretch out in the back
âSo where are we going?â
âThereâs signs of a vampires nest in a small town, going to check it out see whatâs going onâ Dean says his eyes still on the road, he still made me a bit nervous though
âUmm are vampires one of the easier monsters you deal with?â I ask trying to make conversation
âThey can be, but a nest of them can be a bitchïżœïżœ
They go on to tell me all the cases theyâve worked since theyâve been gone and itâs crazy to wrap my head around, after driving all day we finally got to the town settling into a little motel room
âIâm gonna go pick us up some dinnerâ Dean said as he threw his bag on his bed and left
I sat on the bed me and Sam are sharing sighing once the door closed
âWhatâs wrong Angel?â
âI just hate being a burden to you guys I know how stressful this is for you plus having this babyâŠ.â
âHey youâre not a burden Iâm just glad youâre with me now, being cooped up with Dean 24/7 can become a bit machoâ he says making me laugh
âDo you think itâll be a boy or a girl?â I ask as he places his hand on my tiny bump
âIâm happy with either, you know my mother would have loved you youâre as kind as she was, well atleast thatâs what Dean says about herâ
âYou know this baby is the luckiest in the world to have you as their father, and such a handsome one at thatâ he smiled as he pulled me into his lap pulling me close
âIâve missed this, holding youâ his hand runs down my back sending shivers
âKissing youâ his lips gently press to my collar bone making me gasp
âBeing with you at nightâ the door bursts open interrupting our moment, I jump out of his lap and their stands Dean and what I believe to be their father from old pictures Sam has showed me
âSammy trying to get someâ Dean laughed making my body heat in embarrassment
âWhoâs this?â John asked his voice full of disapproval
âDad where have you been? Never mind that right now, this is y/n my girlfriendâ
âAnd what the hell is she doing here son?â I felt little under his gaze
âShe canât be alone sheâs pregnantâ Sam said confidently as he held my hand
âSam what the hell were you thinking, you canât have a pregnant girl doing this job, you need to be focusedâ
âMaybe I should just go homeâ I say as I go to pick up my bag
âNo! Youâre staying Angel Iâm not letting you go againâ he said as he wiped a stray tear I didnât know had escaped my waterline
âSheâs family now dad, you canât push her away cause if you do then youâre just gonna push me away too, for good this timeâ John sighed and gave a look to Dean
âTomorrow weâre going to stake out the vampires nest, be readyâ he said sternly before stomping out of the room leaving an awkward cloud looming over the three of us
âCome on you two letâs eatâ Dean said in a lighter tone obviously trying to pick up what his father ruined
We ate at the little table chatting about random things, how Sam and I met, our first date and how nervous Sam was, almost everything we had together up until this point
âHave you told your family about the baby?â Dean asked after he took a swig of beer
âI donât really have family, I was raised in an orphanage and when I turned 18 I was pretty much on my own, I stayed in the schools dorms until Sam and I moved in together, plus our friends kind of changed after first year so itâs mostly just been Sammy and Iâ
âIâm sorryâ
âOh no itâs fine Iâm happy with the way my life turned out it lead me to Sam after allâ I smile looking at Sam who had that loving look, he was so gentle compared to his brother
âYou guys are going to make me hurlâ
Itâs been a crazy and stressful 6 months but Iâm now in the last week of pregnancy and to say Iâm scared is an understatement, Iâm terrified but I feel like I canât tell Dean and Sam with what they face everyday, this is probably a walk in the park to them
They were out right now hunting a werewolf as I paced back and forth in yet another motel room, Iâve been having cramps in my stomach since I woke up but I just thought it could be indigestion from the food we ate last night but theyâve only gotten stronger, walking helps but this could just be Braxtonâs hocks I try to tell my self that is u til my water breaks, Iâm hesitant to call Sam because of the case but like he said this is more important, I dialed hoping heâd answer
âHey weâre on our way back now did you need us to pick you up anything?â
âSam my water brokeâ I could hear him tell Dean to drive faster
âOkay just hold on weâll be there soon, just do the breathing exercises like we practicedâ
âOkay Iâll tryâ I breath deeply as another contraction hit a whimper left me but I know itâs going to get much worse
Minutes later Sam and Dean busy through the hotel room, Dean get my to go bag and Sam gently picks me up and brings me to the car sitting with me in the back
âSammy Iâm scaredâ
âWeâre almost to the hospital hold on kiddoâ Dean said trying to reassure me, heâd warmed up to me over the months like Sam said
âYou can do this, think of our little girl or boy weâre about to meetâ I nodded gripping his hand, we got to the hospital and were settled in a private room, Sam at my side and Dean on the couch used for husband or partners
âWhat if something happens?â I ask as he brushes my hair back
âEverything will be okay, youâre the strongest woman I knowâ
âItâs time Mrs Winchesterâ the doctor said making my heart swell at the name, he was wrong but I didnât care
After some agonizing pushes that pressure was gone replaced by a little babies cries, the nurse laid the baby on my chest and she was beautiful, she had Sam big green hazel eyes and had light brown hair
âCongrats on a baby girlâ the nurse said, they cleaned me up and left the room letting the four of us settle
âWhat are you going to name my little niece?â Dean asked now standing on the other side of the bed mesmerized by her
âHow about Luna Mary Winchesterâ I say looking up to Sam for his opinion
âI love it, I love you, both of youâ he smiled as he played with Lunas little fingers
âThe three of us just became fourâ
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Just Keep Breathing
Sam and Dean & little sister!reader, Castiel & Winchester!reader, Rowena & Winchester!reader
Requested by Anonymous (x2)
Synopsis: You get sick from a mysterious illness, and you just canât seem to get better.
âFinally!â
Deanâs voice was the first you heard as you stumbled into the bunker after an insanely long school day. You were somehow sweating and freezing at the same time, and it felt like you might collapse any second.
âGrab a book, thereâs a ton of lore to go through,â Dean continued. âWeâre looking for more info on witches, seems like there might beâŠâ Deanâs voice trailed off when he looked up to see you all but slumping down the stairs. âHey kid, you ok?â
âMm-hmm,â you huffed in response as your backpack dropped to the floorâhad you done that? You didnât remember making the decision to take it off, it seemed to just fall off your slumped shoulders on its own.
âOk, commere.â You blinked and there was Dean, his hand lifting to your forehead and his brow drawn in concern. âJeez, youâre burning up.â
At Deanâs words, Sam looked up.
âSheâs sick?â He asked.
âYeah.â Dean removed his hand and lowered himself to one knee to look at your downturned, unfocused gaze. âSweetheart, look at me.â
You tried to focus on Deanâs eyes, but your gaze refused to settle.
âYeah ok,â Dean sighed. âLetâs get you to bed.â
You let Dean lead you to your room and tuck you into bed. He even helped you take your shoes off when your fingers fumbled with the laces.
âDid you eat today?â Dean asked as you settled in.
âIâŠâ you wracked your befuddled brain. âI had lunchâŠbut then I threw it up sometime after sixth period.â
âOk.â Dean cringed. âYou get some sleep, Iâm gonna go make you food.â
âNooo.â
Dean turned in surprise at your desperate whine.
âWhat? Whatâs wrong?â
You grabbed at his sleeve and tugged.
âDonât go,â you sniffled. âI donât want food, I just want you to stay.â
âOk, ok,â Dean relented, figuring that once you were asleep he could make you something. âYou better not get me sick,â he said, only half kidding, as he sat on your bed. When you reached out to him, he went to put his arms around you, but the second his hands touched you, you flinched away.
âThat hurts!â You were starting to cry now as you backed away from your brother.
âWhat hurts?â Dean was baffled. âI barely evenâŠâ he trailed off as he pressed the back of his hand to your head again, ignoring the way you hissed and tried to flinch away from him. âJeesh, itâs even worse now,â Dean mumbled. âJust lay back now, you gotta get some sleep, ok?â
âDonât go,â you begged.
âIâm not going anywhere, just take it easy sweetheart,â Dean promised. âGet some rest.â
Dean waited until he was sure you were asleep before he went to talk to Sam.
âShe asleep?â Sam asked, not even looking up from the lore book he was studying.
âYeahâŠâ Deanâs voice trailed off as he stood there awkwardly for a moment. âSam, somethingâs wrong.â
âWrong? What, with Y/N?â
âYeah. I donât know how to explain itâŠshe was getting hot so fast, and when I tried to touch her, it was like I burned her or something. I donât know, I guess I canât be sure, but something about her getting sick doesnât feelâŠnormal.â
âOk.â Sam nodded. âWell, you call around at the school and see if thereâs a bug going around. Iâm gonna hit the lore a bit more.â
The boys didnât speak as they got to work.
âŠ
Sam was heading to the kitchen when he heard you calling for him. He detoured into your room, his heart constricting when he saw youâyou were pale and sweaty, the sheets sticking to your skin. He couldnât tell if your cheeks were glistening from tears or sweatâit was obvious you were in pain.
âHey honey,â he greeted gently. âDid you need something?â
âCan you stay with me?â You pleaded. Sam didnât hesitate, coming over to sit on your bed. You reached out to hold his hand, but when your fingers touched his you hissed and pulled away.
âSomething wrong?â Sam asked, remembering what Dean had said.
âIt hurts.â Now there was no mistaking the tears on your face for sweatâSam had never seen you so upset and in pain. âItâs like-like my skin is on fire and-and I just want a hug but when anybody touches me it justâit just gets worse.â You were out of breath and choking on your words by the end, and it took every ounce of Samâs will to ignore his big brother instinct and not pull you into his armsâthe last thing he wanted was to hurt you worse.
âStay right here, Iâm coming right back,â Sam said as he stood. You didnât say anything, you just watched curiouslyâand a little worriedâas Sam left. Sure enough, he returned a minute later with a bowl full of water and a glove.
âOk, Iâm gonna try something, hold still,â Sam instructed.
You started to giggle when Sam pulled the glove on and plunged his hand in the bowl. He grinned at you, happy to hear you laughing again.
âOk now, hold still,â Sam insisted. âThis is serious.â But he was still grinning as he took his dripping, gloved hand and pressed it against your forehead. âHow does that feel?â
You closed your eyes in contentment as the cool water hit your skin and the gentle cloth brushed against your forehead.
âBetter,â you told Sam with a smile. âThanks, Sammy.â
âAnytime,â Sam said.
The two of you stayed like that for most of the afternoon, with Sam comforting you and trying to cool you off with the wet glove. Sam was determined to do anything he could to make you feel better while Dean was trying to investigate the cause of your illness. Heâd also been calling Cas all day, but he hadnât gotten an answer.
Dean was just about to give up on the books and catch a few hours of sleep when he heard Sam calling for him. He followed the sound to your room, where he found his little siblings resting on your bed.
âCan you sing me a song?â You asked, shyly picking at your sheets.
âUhmâŠâ Dean swallowed, a little uncomfortable. âSure sweetheart.â
Sam relented his spot next to you so that Dean could climb in. He started off just humming âHey Jude,â and within minutes you were fast asleep.
âYou were right, Dean,â Sam said when he was sure you were asleep. âI donât know what it is butâbut itâs bad.â
âOk well we donât need to panic,â Dean assured him, noticing Samâs rising anxiety. âSheâs been sick before, letâs just give it a little longer and see what happens. Maybe Casâll finally come around and set her straight.â
âI donât remember,â Sam mumbled.
âWhat?â Dean asked.
âHer getting sick. I barely ever remember her being sick.â
âDad always sent you to school whether she was sick or not. I usually stayed behind to take care of her.â A ghost of a smile passed across Deanâs lips. âMost of the time I had to convince dad that Iâd caught whatever she had so that heâd let me stay with her. I never wanted to leave her when she was sick.â
Sam was quiet for a long moment before a thought occurred to him.
âI donât ever remember you sick.â
At this, Dean shrugged.
âI usually just powered through it. I had a job to do, after all.â
Sam was about to comment on that when his eyes suddenly snapped to you.
âDean, isâŠis she breathing?â Dean jumped up as Sam moved closer to you. âDean sheâs not breathing!â
Dean blocked Sam from getting in the way and grabbed hold of your shoulders.
âHeyâŠhey!â
You jolted awake when Deans shook you, taking a great gulp of air the moment you were awake.
âHeyâŠokâŠâ Dean breathed a sigh of relief, holding you in his arms until he heard you crying as you tried to pull away. âYou ok?â He asked as he let you go.
âIt still hurts,â you sniffled. âWhatâŠwhat happened?â
âYou stopped breathing,â Sam said. âItâŠjeez kid, you scared us.â
Dean noticed that your breaths still sounded labored.
âAre you ok?â He asked.
âItâŠit kinda hurts,â you muttered almost to yourself as you rubbed at your chest.
âBreathing?â Sam met Deanâs eyesâthey were terrified.
Your only response was a tiny nod as you continued to take shallow breaths.
âIâm gonna try Cas again,â Dean said, standing from your bed.
âIâmâŠâ Sam hesitated, as though he didnât want to tell Dean what he was thinking. âIâm gonna call Rowena.â
âRowena?â Dean demanded. âWhy?â
âBecause we donât know what this is, Dean!â Sam insisted. âFor all we know, she got cursed! We were looking into witch activity in the area. Maybe Rowena can help.â
Dean backed off.
âFine. Call her.â
âŠ
âI canât heal her.â
âThatâs because itâs a spell, you idiot.â
âI canât be sure of that.â
âWell I can!â
âOk, ok,â Dean interrupted Rowena and Casâs argument. âThis isnât helping anything. Rowena, what can you do?â
âNot much Iâm afraid,â Rowena sighed. âI canât undo the spell.â
âWell can you at least tell us what the spell is?â Sam cut in before Dean had a chance to get angry.
âThatâs easy enough. It seems to be some kind ofâŠanti-body spell.â
âWhat does that mean?â Dean demanded.
âIt means that her body is slowly starting to reject what it needs or wants the most. Basic needs like food, water, probably even sleep, will start to hurt her.â
âIt hurt when I touched her skin,â Sam interrupted.
Rowena shrugged, and continued. âI suppose the need or desire for physical affection counts. It will get worse, though. Things that she canât live without will be too painful for her to do. Eventually even breathing will be unbearable.â
âIt already hurts to breathe.â Everyone had all but forgotten you were there until you made yourself known. Your voice came out in a terrified whisper, but everyone heard you clearly.
âWeâre gonna fix it,â Dean asserted. âAll we have to do is find the witch, right? Then kill her.â
âIt might not be that simple,â Rowena sighed. âI mean, it couldâve been anyone. For all we know, they put a spell on Y/N to make her forget them.â
âThen what are we gonna do?!â Dean demanded.
âYou and Cas try to find that witch,â Sam jumped in, trying to find a way to keep panic down. âWe already have a head start, since we were pretty sure one was in the area anyway. You know where most of the strange activity was, start there. Rowena and I will stay here, try and see if thereâs an undo spell.â
Dean didnât hesitate to agree. If he wasnât so preoccupied worrying over you, he wouldâve been very proud of Sam, stepping up while he was panicking. Now that Dean had a direction, he was calmerâhe was ready.
âOk. Letâs go.â
âŠ
âPlease donât leave me.â
Dean and Cas had already left, and Rowena and Sam were halfway out of your room when you tear-strained voice reached Sam. He turned to face you, and his resolve to hit the books in the library crumbled when he saw you, shaking in fear and taking shallow, painful breaths.
âBring me some books to look through,â he muttered to Rowena before coming to sit on your bed.
It was silent in your room for a few deafening seconds, before your shattered gaze met Samâs and you spoke, breaking his heart.
âI donât wanna die, Sammy.â
âHey,â Sam turned to face you, resisting once again the urge to pull you into his arms. âMe and Dean are never gonna let that happen. You know that, right?â
âIt-it hurts to breathe,â you cried. âAnd it keeps getting worse. I donâtâI donât know how long I can do it.â
âHey, heyâŠâ Sam was reaching for you when he remembered that that would only make you hurt worse. His hand froze in the air, halfway to your face. âIâŠâ Samâs voice cracked. He cleared his throat and tried again. âDonâtâŠdonât say that, ok? You have to keep fighting, ok? Weâre gonna find a way to fix this, but you just have to keep fighting.â Sam was so desperate to hug you that he pulled his sleeves over his hand to cover his skin and pulled you into his arms. You allowed it for several seconds, wanting so desperately to just sink into his arms. But you couldnât.
âThatâŠâ you struggled to get the words out; you didnât want to say them. âThat hurts, too, Sammy.â
Sam flinched back like heâd been shot, looking down at you in utter defeat.
âIâmâŠIâm sorry,â he mumbled.
The despair in the room was total.
âŠ
âIâve got it!â
Sam regretted his outburst when you jolted awake. Rowena had warned the both of you that sleeping might end up making you hurt more rather than feel better, but you had all but passed out from exhaustion and pain, and Sam didnât have the heart to stop you. Even in sleep, your body and face twitched in pain periodically.
Now that you were awake, it was obvious that Rowena was right; it had made it worse.
âWhatââ your breathing was labored as each breath pained you. âWhat happened?â
Rowena stepped into the room, having heard Samâs declaration.
âI found the spell,â Sam insisted, holding the book up. Rowena approached him with a dubious frown. However, once she started to read the spell she slowly nodded.
âThis might just do it,â she said.
âIâm gonna call Dean.â
âŠ
Dean and Cas returned within an hour.
âNot a single lead,â Dean said, annoyed. âSo this had better work.â
âLetâs hope so,â Sam sighed, looking at Rowena. She nodded.
âItâs a good thing that this bunker is well-stocked,â she said. âI believe weâre running out of time.â
Your gaze turned downwards when everyone glanced at you at Rowenaâs words. Sure enough, your breaths had been getting shallower and shorter in your failed attempts to make them hurt less. You were also weak and pale from the lack of food and water youâd had over the past two days.
âDo it.â Dean was the first to look away from you as he spoke to Rowena.
Rowena handed you a cup filled with a mixture of herbs and things you didnât want to know about. Your lip was quivering as you lifted the cup to your lipsâyouâd avoided food and water for a reason; if breathing was like a stab to the chest, how would swallowing down a potion feel?
Samâs heart was breaking as he watched you struggle to swallow through the pain, and Dean couldnât even look.
As soon as you had the potion down, Rowena started reading a Latin incantation from the book. Sam watched you carefully as Rowena finished it. He crossed his fingers behind his back, holding his breath as he hoped that your own would become less labored. Instead, your eyes widened in surprise as your breaths became even more panicked.
âWhatâs happening?â Dean demanded, his eyes flashing from you to Rowena. âWhat did you do?!â
âI-I donât understandâŠâ Rowena muttered, flipping through the book. âIt should haveâŠâ
âSamâŠDeâŠâ you whimpered.
Deanâs panicked eyes met Samâs, then yours, before they went back to Rowena.
âFound it!â Rowena breathed relief, before her eyes once again clouded with worry. âOh no.â
âWhat?â Sam and Dean demanded in unison.
âThe-the counterspellâŠit takes an hour to work, and as it works through the curse, the curseâŠfights back.â
âWhat does that mean?â Deanâs breathing sounded almost as labored as yours as he struggled to keep down his fear as well as his anger.
âIt means that itâll get worse before it gets better. If weâŠif we had found this at the beginning, it wouldâve worked easily, butâŠâ
âBut she might not survive an hour like this,â Cas finished for Rowena, realizing what she was saying before either brother.
âWhat can we do?â Sam asked.
âNothing.â Rowena shook her head. âThis spell was her only hope, soâŠso we just have to wait and see if she outlasts the curse now. It shouldnât take any more than an hour.â
âOk,â Dean said, coming to sit by you. âYou can do this kiddo, ok? Weâre gonna be right here, youâre gonna be fine.â
The seconds crawled by one eternity at a time. Every time Dean thought you couldnât look more in pain, your face twisted again as you tried over and over to take a deep enough breath to satisfy your starving lungs. Once it reached fifteen minutes left, Dean noticed that every minute or so you stopped breathing completely.
âHey, câmon.â Dean resisted the urge to cup your face. âCâmon keep breathing, you can do it.â
Suddenly you were reaching your arms out to Dean, and he was backing away.
âI-I donât want to hurt you,â Dean said.
âDonâtâŠcare,â You whimpered. âIâŠn-need yââ you couldnât seem to get out full words, but Dean didnât need anything more.
âOk, yeah.â You were in Deanâs arms in a second. âOk, Iâm here sweetheart. Iâm here, you just gotta keep breathing. Keep breathing for me.â
You burrowed against your big brother despite the pain, trying all you could to keep breathing. The pain was so blindingly unbearable that you started to feel your vision blur and blacken. Sam was the first to notice you drooping in Deanâs arms, and he reached down and pulled your face away from Deanâs chest so he could look at you.
âHey, you gotta stay awake honey,â Sam insisted.
âDonât let her sleep!â Rowena commanded. âHer body will stop breathing automatically if she passes out.â
âHey, hey,â Deanâs gentle taps to your face felt like full-on punches, but they did the trick. Your eyes fluttered open once more, and your hands gripped onto Dean even harder. Sam had joined Dean on your bed, his one arm wrapped around your shoulders from behind while Dean continued to hold you in his lap. Their touch was like fire on your skin, but never had a burn been so welcome.
âKeep breathing,â Dean was repeating over and over, and without that mantra you truly would have stopped ten minutes ago.
âSeven more minutes,â Cas announced.
You went to take another small breath, and you couldnât keep the cry of pain in when it was the worst pain yet. It hit you so hard that you felt the darkness returning.
âNo no no, hey,â Dean pleaded. âBreathe kiddo, youâve gotta keep breathing.â
Youâd barely even noticed that you stopped. It felt so good to stop. The pain of your unfilled lungs wasnât nearly as horrible as the pain of breathing.
The relief was so great that you barely even felt when the blackness finally took over, and you slumped in Deanâs arms.
âŠ
âNo no no noâŠâ Dean was shaking you over and over, but you were out cold. âCome on, breathe!â
âSix minutes,â Castiel said.
âShe wonât last that long,â Sam breathed.
âIt-itâs not an exact science,â Rowena cut in. âIt mightâŠmaybe it will work a little faster.â
With nothing else to do, the four watched, barely breathing, as your body lay unnaturally still on your bed. Cas was watching his watch like a guard dog, counting the seconds until you would have brain damageâŠuntil you could dieâŠ
The great, gasping breath that escaped your lips as you sat up had all four onlookers nearly crying in relief. Sam and Dean had already been crying, but even the witch and the angel couldnât hold in their emotions anymore as you began to breathe deeply again, tears of relief streaming down your own face.
Dean held you in his arms without fear, and you clung to him without pain. Samâs arm was still around your shouldersâhe hadnât moved an inch.
âYouâre ok,â Dean breathed as you cried on his shirt, and no one was sure if he was reassuring you or himself. âYouâre ok sweetheart, Iâve got you.â
You refused to let go of your brothers, having spent two days unable to take comfort in them when you needed them most. The three of you stayed like that for so long that eventually Rowena left, but Cas stayed to watch over the Winchesters he had sworn to protectâto watch over the one heâd almost lost.
He watched silently as the three siblings fell asleepâyou first, then Sam, thenâonce he was sure that his little brother and sister were okâfinally Dean.
He watched, knowing that they had almost lost everything today.
He watched, knowing that they would only be closer because of it.
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just want you to know | bucky barnes
ă»â„ă»Â summary: bucky can't help but look at you like you're the best thing in the world ă»â„ă»word count: 793 ă»â„ă»warnings: n/a ă»â„ă»Â authors note: i haven't wrote anything bucky in about four years so this is a short one while i get used to it again! this was a request from this list. feel free to request any!Â
When Steve had left, you were the only person that Bucky had until he reconnected with Sam. Their friendship had brought Bucky out of his shell more â something you had tried to do and failed. Well, you thought youâd failed anyway but little did you know that Bucky wouldâve been lost without you after Steve had left. He wasnât good at expressing his feelings. Maybe it was because Hydra had brainwashed him and he was still constantly fighting to regain his own sense of being. The truth was that he was scared to express himself in fear of having his own thoughts and feelings taken away from him once again. Besides, you were his best friend. Bucky didnât have many friends so those he did have he wanted to keep under lock and key. So, he would always resolve to never telling you how thankful he was for you or how much he cared for you. No, heâd keep up his usual gruff, moody persona so you wouldnât suspect a thing.
Little did Bucky know you struggled with the same internal conflict.
Feelings had never been something you struggled with. It actually wasnât often you really caught feelings for someone but when you did, you usually had no qualms about telling said person. With Bucky, it was different. He had been through so much. The friendship you two had was something you cherished â you didnât want to change things between you and end up setting him back. He had made so much progress. Besides, it was just a stupid crush, right? Itâd pass eventually.
Unfortunately, it didnât. It all came to a head one night when you and Bucky were spending time with Sam and his family. They were having a celebration and, of course, Sam had invited the both of you. Usually it wouldnât be your type of scene but turning Sam down was never an option. That man would incessantly bug you until you finally caved.
As the night dwindled down, you and Bucky sat at one of the picnic tables scattered around. There had been a barbeque earlier in the day, various plates of food still scattered across the place with leftovers. You cradled your drink in your hand, soaking in the warm Louisiana air. It was a nice night â youâd even go as far to say it was a perfect night. The stars were shining in the sky, the moon paired with all the various lanterns around the place casting a soft glow. Your attention had been focused on Sam who was saying goodnight to his nephews. Your family was nowhere to be seen these days. The life you had chosen â being associated with the Avengers â wasnât something they wanted to be involved in. Steve had taken you under his wing and in turn that meant Bucky, too. The two of them came as a package. Those two and Sam were the closest thing you had to a family now. But, now, Steve was gone so all you were left with was your loud, obnoxious best friend Sam and Bucky; the best friend you were falling in love with.
As your thoughts drifted to the man of your affections, you finally tore your eyes away from Sam to see Bucky was already looking at you. There was a look in his eyes youâd never seen before. It was soft, gentle, like you were the only person in the world. Your heart rate picked up, fingers nervously peeling at the label on the bottle you had in your hand.Â
âWhy are you looking at me like that?â You asked quietly.
Bucky let the silence linger before he finally spoke. âLike, what?â
â...likeâŠ. never mind.â You shook your head, opting to take a long swig of your drink. There was no way you were voicing the thoughts inside your head. You werenât going to tell him you thought he was looking at you like you were the only person in the world that mattered. Surely you were projecting, only seeing what you wanted to see.
âLooking at you like you mean everything to me?â Bucky didnât wait for you to speak before carrying on. His tone was calm, his gaze unwavering. He didnât know how heâd found the confidence to finally voice his feelings but he couldnât take it back now. âBecause you do. I donât⊠really know how to navigate it. How to explain it but I just need you to know that.â
Your hand reached over to lay on his, squeezing it gently to let him know that you understood. You understood more than he realised because you felt the exact same way. Maybe one day youâd have the same courage Bucky did to be able to tell him.
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DATING MALE CELEBRITIES WOULD INCLUDE...
ft. tyler hoechlin, jacob elordi, tom cruise, jeremy sumpter, robert pattinson, cillian murphy, henry cavill, tom hardy, sam worthington, tom felton, rupert grint
a/n: i was focused on actors that doesn't get much attention but if you have any other celebrity in mind, please let me know in the comments! also i don't know if this is good because i included their favourite things, hobbies etc (with you ofc) just to make it more detailed and not boring... so i hope you guys like it:) if you want more detailed fic or just about one celebrity, let me know!
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‷ Tyler Hoechlin
-Tyler writes you love letters. Pretty often. When he cannot be with you or is busy with his job, he'll sit down at night when he's alone and write you a letter about how much he misses you, how he's doing and about his job.
-Tyler loves sports, mostly baseball. So he'll take you with him to play baseball; he doesn't care if you don't know how, he will be happy when you just throw a ball to him. He'll take you to hockey matching or ice skating, if you don't know how to ice skate, don't worry he'll gladly teach you.
-He can talk a bit Spanish so he'll sometimes call you by Spanish pet names like cariño, mi amor or querida. And he'll be all cheesy about it which makes you laugh but it's also really sweet when he does that.
-Tyler loves his family so he was a bit nervous when he first introduced you to them, because their opinion mattered to him but he also loved you. But his nervousness disappear right after you and his family clicked. His family loves you which makes Tyler so happy.
-He plays guitar so he often plays to you. He loves how your eyes light up when he plays, he just loves making you happy and if he's making you happy by playing on his guitar, he'll gladly play all day.
-Tyler also loves traveling so when he has a week off, he takes you somewhere to the forest camping or to the ocean to relax, depends where you wanna go.
‷ Jacob Elordi
-Jacob would post you on his instagram like ALL THE TIME. On his stories or just regular post because he loves to show you of. He will also post the most random photos of you that you didn't even know he took. But he loves every single one of them.
-Because of his role on 'the kissing booth' he learned how to drive a motorcycle so sometimes he takes you for a ride, it makes the both of you feel so free and you are with each other.
-No surprise that Jacob loves sports. His most favourite are basketball and surfing. Which means he takes you to play basketball with him or watch him how he plays with his friends, cheering for him ofc. When it comes to surfing he'll gladly teach you but again he prefers when you cheer for him or just watch him after that you two will have a playful fight in water.
-Jacob is a huge cuddle bug and he just loves when you lay on his chest so he can wrap his big arms around your tiny figure. When he cannot cuddle with you he will have one of his arms on your shoulder or around your waist.
-Jacob is actually a fan of poetry so you often find him reading it, but he will be over the moon if you read him his favourite poetries. You two will also have deep conversations about the true meanings of the poetries.
-He's a huge dog lover so it will be no surprise of you two get a dog, maybe two.
-He will get your name tattooed on his chest close to his heart. And you two will get matching tattooes.
‷ Tom Cruise
-Tom loves skydiving which makes you a bit worried all the time since it's a extreme sport but if you are also a fan of extreme sports than he'll take you with him.
-Tom likes junk food like chips, fries, coca-cola etc. so you two have almost everything that comes to your mind at home. When you two watch a movie and cuddle on the sofa, he always has some chips or popcorn.
-He loves when you read to him and he really appreciate it because he loves hearing your voice and he has dyslexia which makes it hard for him to read. He usually lays on your chest while you read to him and play with his hair.
-He's a pilot and he own several aircraft so when you need to relax and he needs to take a break from his job, you just get into one of them and fly wherever you two wants.
-Tom loves under water scenes, which makes him love water. Like I said when you two needs to take a break from work and the fame, you fly in is aircraft somewhere and the 'somewhere' it's mostly somewhere where is hot weather or beach or ocean/sea.
-Tom is famous for doing all of his stunts because he's a adrenaline junky but it makes you sometimes worried because it can be dangerous. He always make sure that after a stunt he goes to you, tells you he's okay and kiss you.
‷ Jeremy Sumpter
-Jeremy loves traveling and his favourite color is green, which leads you two take a trip to the forest, pretty often. Just walking around, listening to the singing birds, holding each others hands and having silly or deep conversation, depends on the day and mood.
-Jeremy is a dog lover. He has a dog named Bear and he takes him on the trips to the forest you two go. Bear absolutely loves you which makes Jeremy happy.
-He loves your cooking but he himself is a bad cook so he either helps you, but you have to give him detailed informations or he just hugs you from behind and watch you cook. If you make his favourite food he will be the happiest man alive, his favourite food are spaghetti.
-Jeremy also loves sport and to his favourite ones belongs baseball and soccer. He used to play them when he was a kid so his mom shows you some of his photos where he is in a dress or something. He also takes you on matches and explains you all the rules.
-He also loves water and swimming, so when you two goes on some vacation is usually somewhere to the ocean.
-Jeremy loves the movie called 'The Deer Hunter' so you two watch it like all the time while cuddling on the sofa or bed. His face in your neck, his arms around your waist and your hand playing with his blond curls.
‷ Robert Pattinson
-Robert is a music lover, he wrote few songs and he can also sing pretty well so it was no surprise when he wrote a song about you, then sing it to you while playing on the piano.
-He's fluent in French so when he's feeling extra romantic or just in a playful mood, he will talk to you in French or call you by some French pet names like Mon amour or Mon chéri, otherwise he calls you darling, my love or baby.
-Robert loves cooking and when is it with you, he's even more happy to do it. Sometimes when you are exhausted from job, he'll prepare you a nice dinner and visa verse.
-You two watch war, drama or horror movies together. For example 'The Exorcist' or 'Come and See' are the type of movies you two watch together, because he's a fan of paranormal same as you, which leads to deep conversations. Rob is hugging you from behind while still laying down on your shared bed. Him kissing the back of your head once in a while.
-Robert is a dog lover, he always helps the homeless dogs but he can never keep them. You two will soon get a dog and it will be one of the best decisions Rob could ever make (the first, best one was to start dating you).
-Rob is literature fan which means picnic dates. You two somewhere private, laying on a picnic blanket with some homemade food, reading books and then having deep conversations about them.
‷ Cillian Murphy
-Cillian also loves music so it will be no surprise if he will made a song about you and he'll gladly sing it to you. He didn't write you just a one song, you have a full album of his songs that he gave you.
-At nights were you have a trouble to fall asleep, he will read to you. He will read you another chapter of your favourite book or poems he wrote (they are often about you). After he's done reading, he'll hug you tight with your head placed on his chest, rubbing small circles on your back with kiss on your forehead.
-Cillian is also a big fan of literature and he loves when you give him recommendations. He doesn't care what genre the book is (detective, romance, horror,...) if you recommended it to him, he will read it.
-You two end up getting a dog or a cat, maybe both. Because Cillian is an animal lover, you will do most of the job around the dog/cat because Cillian is often really busy but he'll always make a time for you.. and the dog/cat.
-He's big fan of a Liverpool football club so you two will often be seen on their games with matching t-shirts and caps.
-His favourite part of the day will be night (or every day time he can spend with you) because he can read to you, have you in his arms, cuddled up to his chest while placing soft kisses on your forehead, cheek, lips, neck (any part he can reach)
‷ Henry Cavill
-Henry, to your surprise, loves playing games on his PC. When he plays he'll have you sat on his lap with his arms idly wrapped around you while still having his hands on the controller/mouse. From time to time he'll kiss any part of your skin he can reach (cheek, neck,..).
-He rides a motorcycle and he loves when you wanna ride with him. Your arms wrapped around his waist while just riding around with no care in the world.
-Henry can speak a bit of Italian, French and Spanish and if you will help him to get better in those languages, he'll be so grateful. But this 'learning dates' you two have never goes as you planned, because he is always distracted by your beauty.
-He also loves cooking so if you had a bad day, Henry is already waiting at your house with dinner and fresh flowers.And for dessert, a warm bath with soft kisses all over your face.
-Henry can ride a horse so one of his ideas for date is a picnic at beautiful meadow but getting there on horses. If you can't ride a horse that's fine, you will sat behind him, if you can ride a horse maybe you two will even race who's gonna be there first.
-He loves cuddling you, because you feel so small in his big arms. He loves having his arms wrapped around you because it makes him feel like he's protecting you but when you stroke his hair he absolutely melts into you.
‷ Tom Hardy
-Tom LOVES motorcycles. And he LOVES you, which means that you and him are often seen by paparazzi on his motorcycle either just for a simple ride or with packed things ready to sleep somewhere in the woods in tent or something similar.
-Tom loves challenges, so on these trips on his motorcycle, he makes sure there are some adrenaline, challenging stuff like jumping off of a cliff to clear cold water.
-Going into the gym together, watching him workout OR workout with him, but if you do work out with him he'll make sure to have easier workout with you because he's much stronger than you and he doesn't want you to hurt yourself.
-Tom loves reading comic books and he has one special comic book with Venom placed in the living room.
-He has a dog named Woody and when he's busy with acting, you will watch after him. Taking him out for walks, cuddling with him, playing with him and when he comes back and makes time for you and Woody, he'll make it up to the both of you.
-Tom has many tattoos all over his body so it's no surprise when one night when you two were making out you find out that he had you name tattooed on his lower belly near to his dick.
‷ Sam Worthington
-Sam loves rock climbing for two main reasons, it's a excellent way how to relieve stress (besides spending time with you) and he can show off his back muscles, because he knows you love it.
-He's a lover of extreme sports so you can often be a bit worried that something can happen to him, but he always calms you down a bit with a kiss on your forehead. If you wanna try some of extreme sports with him, he'll be so happy.
-He's also a nature lover so trips are usually somewhere quiet and in nature, forest, meadow,... he loves going on trips with you because you two can be alone in peace and he can have you all to himself.
-He's an australian so it's no surprise he loves surfing. If you never tried it he will teach you but he won't be much focused on teaching, he's focused more on you and your beauty.
-Sam loves music AND he can play on the guitar and drums. He will take the guitar on the trips you two have, playing some songs you love on the guitar to you at the campfire.
-He also draws a lot. Many of his drawings are you or for you or of your favourite things. Please don't mind him, he just loves everything about you.
‷ Tom Felton
-Everyone knows that Tom never left the Harry Potter fandom and you love Harry Potter as well, so it wasn't surprise when Tom posted you and him in a Harry Potter merch (him in Slytherin colors and you in your own house colors) on his instagram.
-He has a dog named Willow so his wallpaper is you holding Willow in your arms with Harry Potter merch on you (Willow has his Slytherin scarf and you have his Slytherin sweatsthirt)
-Again Tom as many other actors, loves music. He writes songs, sings, plays on a guitar. Many of his songs includes you and Willow, your relationship or his emotions.
-He will have your name tattooed near to his collarbone with a little heart next to it.
-Tom will show off his skills on his skateboard. He can skate pretty well and he's always so smiley and happy when you compliment him. If you ask, he'll also teach you few basic tricks but prepare for some bruises from all the falls, he'll kiss you as many times as much bruises you will have.
-Tom loves when you give him back massages, doesn't matter if you massage him with some fancy oils and with you palms stroking up and down on his back with some gentle rubbs or he can lay on your chest and you can scratch his back with you nails.
‷ Rupert Grint
-Rupert loves ice cream and at one time he bought a ice cream van and gave ice cream to all the actors from Harry Potter with you helping him. He'll often take you on a ice cream date or will cuddle you while watching movies and eating ice cream.
-One of his favourite actors is Jim Carrey, which means you two often watch movies where he played and you somehow managed to get him a autograph form Jim, which made him incredibly happy you can't even imagine.
-If you two are not watching movies with Jim Carrey then definitely MCU movies, because he's a fan of marvel.
-Rupert love Artic Monkeys so when you two bake together there is always one of their songs playing softly in the background. He will often mumble the lyrics without realizing and if you point it out, he'll blush.
-Rupert is a dog lover so you two often visit nearest shelters and play with the dogs there. Rupert and you fell in love with one of the dogs, dalmatian named Teddy, so you adopted him. After a year you bought another dog but this time not from a shelter but from a verified seller.
-He loves photographing and his favourite things to photograph is you and your dogs, no wonder that there are so many pictures of you two or the dogs around the house, but he keeps his favourite besides him on his night table.
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